#kitten (cdd)

[catnap-design-drafts]

So, as I said, I have reference sheets done for some of the Mini-Naps, but there's still a lot left to do

[acorpsecalledcorva]

Can we please not demonise systems that don't view their parts/alters/headmates as multiple individual separate people and instead as, well, parts of themselves? It can be a very important part of the recovery process to accept and take ownership of parts, that they are me and I am them and together we make up a bigger whole. To shame systems that do this can reinforce avoidant behaviours, strengthen Dissociative barriers, and lead to more instability and worsening of symptoms.

If you view your parts as parts you're not ableist, you're not a bigot, you're not a sysmed, you're not dehumanising or hurting them or viewing them as lesser than you. You're doing what works for you on your path to your personal goals and that's blessed and holy and all things right in the world like a basket of kittens that crawl all over you and nuzzle into your neck all fluffy and warm.

I can also personally say how alienating it feels to see this as the dominant narrative when neither I, as a part, or any of the rest of us feel like a whole person. To grow up always feeling less than one, to feel that huge chunks of yourself are missing, to feel a void where me should be, to not experience a split as the gain of someone new but as the loss of a part of myself. To view my parts as individual people is to completely give up on those losses of myself, to put their needs above my own, which as SAS shared recently is a common trauma response in people with CDDs. To ignore my feelings of grief over the loss of myself and put on a brave face so everyone else can have what they want.

And if that makes me sound like a whiney spoilt brat, then that's ignoring the reality of what viewing and experiencing us as parts of a whole entails. Which is that now we share ourselves amongst ourselves. Or at least work towards that. Our over all goal in therapy is to remove the barriers between us so all that we are is available to all of us at all times. That we all belong to each other, are free to live our life together as a cohesive team. To know that all of the amazing things that my parts can do are things that we can do, not things that they can do but I can't. It's not being host centric it's being system centric, to hold us all up at the same time.

Of course, if this isn't how you view or experience your system, if doing so is harmful to your system then that's good to! Do whatever works best for you. Just please for the love of the holy trinity stop judging and shaming those who do things differently from you.

(and to be a little less vague, no, being multiple people is not the "literal definition" of DID, that's why we stopped calling it Multiple Personality Disorder, because the disorder is much more often about the avoidance of self, not the gaining of multiple selves. That's the media misrepresentations of DID talking)

[loredanad]

Juju ce soleil ☀️, aime se prélasser avec sa moman .... et comme je suis en repos ... Il est tout le temps à côté de moi .. Je suis si bien entourée 😍💓😍🌸☀️ mon soleil ☀️ adoré..... #monsoleil #monbebe #kitty #kitten #kittycat #juju #moodoftheday https://www.instagram.com/p/CDD-6o5Dfxf/?igshid=xnwkon0tbyly

[catnap-design-drafts]

The very first drafts for Kitten and Nyap. I was more focused on a variety of patterns and features than poses for these 2. But I promise they aren't all going to look like this. Kitten is the one that will likely show up the most.

[catnap-design-drafts]

Howdy and welcome to the blog!

I'm mostly going to be posting small doodles and drawings of a variety of CatNap designs. I like to imagine the in-universe explanation for these guys would be that their designs came from the old concept art of CatNap, and someone made some DIY dolls of them. Or maybe it the dolls were made before CatNaps final (in-game/cartoon) design was chosen. So, eventually, they used the old dolls for the factory's experiments.

I would like to say that all the critters I make are not bigger bodies. All of em are smol. Plus, since these are early designs, they don't necessarily have to be male either, so you'll find most are referred to with They/Them instead of He/Him.

ALSO, I don't put much thought into most of these lil guys, so if anyone has name suggestions for them, please let me know! I tried asking some discord friends, but that list consisted of things like NapCat, Nya-p Cat, and CatNip. Yeah, everyone was sharing the braincell, I guess.

There's only 1 Critter I do expect to show up more often, and I've just been calling them Kitten (cause their just a lil guy ya know) (yes I know that's also very uncreative shhhhhh)

You can refer to me personally as Star (They/Them)

If you really fall in love with one of the designs I throw out, then by all means, run wild with it. I'm likely never going to expand upon them, so if someone else does, then it's a bonus.

[catnap-design-drafts]

I haven't had a single thought in my head for the last few days. Just the wii song on repeat and a rubber duck spinning like it's in a microwave. Plus, it's been warm recently, and I feel like a plant desperately pressing a single leaf to a sun lamp. But I will be trying to get back into the critter shaped mindset

Edit: just realized I messed up Kittens ears and now I'm screaming, head in hands