#kins finished ryuki

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Today, October 18th, I'm saying happy birthday to my favorite Psyncer, Kuruto Ryuki!

The incredible @vividcitrus illustrated my transmasc Ryuki headcanon comfortably showing top surgery scars on the beach!

More on my story below the cut :)

Ryuki is absolutely the Psyncer I see myself in the most. I love all the Psyncers and really tons of the characters in AI: THE SOMNIUM FILES and nirvanA Initiative dearly, but Ryuki is the closest one I have to a kin.

When I first met him upon starting the game, I resonated immediately; he plays the somewhat asexual-coded straight-man to Tama's sexy routine which immediately endeared me, and his fluctuations between needing to prove himself and be the one to solve the case to being severely depressed at not being good enough... Yeah! No, hello, that's me lol.

I wasn't really a part of his little fanclub before release, but oh boy did I fall hard and fast for the scuffly little cutie, and that love only grew stronger as the game went on- seeing Ryuki getting so absorbed in his job he forgets himself, seeing him so focused on one way to solve things that he has to make impossible choices, seeing him get paralyzed by choice when it matters most... Yeah! I mean yeah that's all me yeah. Not to his extreme levels of course but oh yeah no every scene with him only made me love him more.

He's just adorable... Ahhh I want to put my hands through his hair... Ahem, anyways, as soon as I finished the game I was like damn... I might have a kinnie... And I don't think I'm exactly a Ryuki Kin per-se, but I do very much see myself when I look at him.

I am also transmasc! Specifically, agender, but who knows where my journey will take me. I have a hard time struggling to think of what I want to look like; I don't have a real sense of identity much at all, let alone visual identity. Most of my self-image is a big ole void.

But I know there are certain parts of me I'd love removed LOL to I reached out to m, the artist, and we chatted- I've always had a soft spot for transmasc Ryuki and been kinda hoping someone would draw him someday, so fuck it, I decided I make it happen myself. In the process of this commission, I forced myself to really think about how I'd want to look, how my scars would look, if I wanted nipple grafts, etc., and m was super happy to work with me on all of that!

The final version, with the more understated scars following the natural curve of the pecs that go from below the armpit to mid chest and no nipple grafts, makes me actually feel good... Like, hey, maybe someday I too could be topless on a beach, smiling and confident... It's a far-off dream that I have to save a lot for, but hey... That murky swirling void in my head has cleared up just a little bit, enough for me to be able to see a happier future for myself, and that's everything really.

I know I'll never look like Ryuki exactly, there are a lot of obstacles to this, but at the very least, when I find money and a surgeon, I can say "that. That's how I want to look, and that's how I'd feel looking like that." Which is more than I've ever been able to do! Dysphoria is my constant companion, but euphoria tends to elude me... @vividcitrus turned the tables on that!

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🍋🍋🍋 !

first would be kuruto ryuki from ai the somnium files: nirvana initiative. alas. he has remained in the “do I have a crush on you or do I kin you” camp ever since I beat it.

second would be wolf/ōkami from sekiro. he is cool, big fan of his design. but just. meh. once I finished the game I completely stopped crushing. I already have a ninja shdkfk

third is kuras from touchstarved! only reason he is not on the f/o list is because only the demo is out and I need to learn more about him to be sure one way or the other but.

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these attorney billboards are getting out of control

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back of this bag had a 2 for one deal

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oh shiro kanzaki...

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i was scrubbing through an episode to find a clip and i paused on the most I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE Tezuka i've ever seen---

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shinji kido is the kind of guy who will just believe anything about song lyrics. he's that guy at karaoke singing 200 DEGREES THATS WHY THEY CALL ME MR. FAMILY GUY but like with his whole shinji heart.

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Putting an evil shinji clone in every ryuki alternate timeline is stupid

The only person who should be cloned is Sano and he should be exactly the same and there should be 10 of him. They're all trying to get each other into different pyramid schemes. Who needs a rider war atp

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Fellas,

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Shinji: guys. we HAVE to stop the Rider War :(. please... it's not worth all the fighting and killing. Guys I'm serious! please :(

Shinji's Shirt:

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tony found the Chad filter that stupid fuckin lord of the rings video used and now we can't stop applying it to Kitaoka

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id in alt text.

Him, basically.

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brings u this

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i'm doing blueguy science

version 2.0 to come with Even More Blue Secondaries