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8/7/21
Hi boyfriend~
Just took a weed gummie in honor of Bonnieās birthday weekend. My present for my friend is that Iāll suck it up and be an active participant in their life for a change. Iāll be game for a whole weekend. I got up early today and tagged along to volunteer at a charity 5k. We grabbed some coffee and wandered to the halfway point of the course (thus walking an entire 5k in the process! Not too shabby ;D), and then camped out a water station that Iād say should be very grateful I actually showed up to work its sorry ass. Bonnie didnāt have to do any managing/delegating, they just got to post up and chatter at the runners-by. Iām pretty sure if I didnāt go, and I promise I am not tooting my own horn, that water stand would not have been the fun water stand that it was. They would have had 2 dunces making it go worse, and only 3 people managing 4 tables of water cups. Volunteers man, what are you gonna do? Iām sure thatās why they were looking for 8 people per water stand, just to statistically ensure that SOMEONE with half a brain would be around to help out.
Great morning though. JUST a little too hot, but thatās how you know you were doing solid work out there. The proof is in the pits, baby!
Ok, 40 minute bathroom break is over. Man, nothing like starting the blog to make me SO productive in the mornings! Itās such a cheat code. I did laundry, dishes, pooped; my whole day is bright and available now! But now Iām tired and I donāt want to write anymore. I had about a 6 minute where I wanted to do this today and I actually hit it for a second before I had to stop and do ANYTHING ELSE I guess. So, fuck. What do we write now?
I had to get up suuuuper early for this 5k thing, and I only got like 4 hours of sleep because I did not factor in the early wake up until like 6pm yesterday, and I had already slept like 14 hours that day :I Thatās right, I woke up, immediately crushed the blog, went back to laying down, played League, and watched tv and shit until I felt tired enough to sleep and get ready for the 5k, which was 2am. So now I have a weed gummie digesting in me and I have a nap climbing up my priority list and this is why I donāt like weed. I feel like I have to plan my fucking shit around it, and Iām not good at that. Part of me thinks I can crash right now and wake up before the drugs make me sleep for 2 hours longer than I want, and give me weird, unpleasant dreams. I canāt possibly pull that off, Iām not sleepy, Iām just like sluggish. So basically what I have to do now is power through into theĀ ātripā (maybe Iāll luck out and miss it and I can just pretend Iām high, which I wonāt do, but hey weāre brainstorming here), and let that smoothly transition me into a nap. And THAT would mean that I have to entertain myself for the time being to get me into a good place to start being high...? And then I can like power up my activities WHILE high, and that would be fun. Playing video games, great. Playing video game high? Thatās the whole point of it. I mean like, thatās the whole point of life, right? And then I can be like NAPTIME BITCH, and that would be fun also, in theory. And then I can go put a podcast on and go to the movies? Ugh, I donāt want to go the movies anymore. Iām to tired :( This sucks.
Iām trying to go see Green Knight. Iām sure that sentence wonāt matter at all in even like 4 months from now, but I think it should be a fun time. So much more productive than anything I can do from the desk. And itās not summertime like this forever. You gotta get that shit in so you donāt think you miss it when the weather turns. You want to be sitting inside on a cold autumn day thinkingĀ āgood riddance, being outside is entirely overrated.ā And Iām not there yet. Man I donāt know. Well how bout this? Letās do a little more brainstorming while Iām trapped here writing to your dumb ass. If you ever read these again this part will be like a little prank on you lol. Ok: 1: Stay here, no movie. Letās lock that in. that should make having to navigate being high so much easier. Letās let the pipe dream of doing everyoneās favorite thing of being at a theater high wait just a little longer. Today can be a trial run. Weāll walk around today and think about what it would be like if I had biked 20 minutes to a movie theater and watched a 2 hour movie and biked home. And when we suss out that it would have been unenjoyable, weāll feel like geniuses for making this call. So thatās out of the way. LOCK IT IN
2. I donāt know yet. Letās just start simple. Food. Whatās up? We have almost no groceries. We have no bread for a tuna salad sandwich, but letās put that in the to-do list. We need more english muffins too. That was an A+ 10/10 move last month. Just muffins w/ strawberry jam, and egg McMuffins whenever the fuck I wanted, which was always. Frozen Veggies like Corn or Beans would be good. Bag Chop Salad kits. They werenāt on sale last week, and itās goddamn highway robbery when theyāre at full price. So this week would be the perfect time to check in onĀ āem. And Iāll commit more to an equivalent substitute this time if I canāt find a good deal. Letās see, what else? Oof my wpm and accuracy is starting to take a hit. The first and only symptom! Nice! Miku. Meat. Spaghetti and meat sauce? Gotta check out what ragu shit you have in the house before you do that. Consider this your reminder! I know youāve never successfully pulled that off, but I have full confidence in you. Oh fuck, now Iām starting to worry a little bit the coherent quality of this is about to start dropping. Well, another fun little prank for ya bitch! Fruit leathers? I just have no fucking idea. Ok, so shopping can 100% wait for another day. This isnāt anywhere close to a cohesive trip. So we can eat out somewhere! Great, lock it bitch. Iām starting to swear more; itās because I canāt find the right words anymore. Oh boy, the weed smelling burps are happening. This really is so gross and difficult. Beer is just a more bitter version of soda. Itās actively refreshing. Damn, if only Iād been a little more exposed to peer pressure at an earlier age. Iād have been past this awkward uncomfortable phase of weed, like how I (and basically everyone) was with alcohol. You slam Natty Lites with your nose closed until you start to realize life is little more pleasurable than the absolute Kelvin zero you had come to be familiar with. Uh, ok, Iām starting to let my mind wander. Heās daydreaming, chief! I suppose I could just transcribe the dialogue of the daydreams, but I canāt keep up. This is just break oāclock.
3. What do I fucking eat!? I had to make a whole nother numbered point, and I still donāt have the plan. Jesus H,. Ok hereās what AROUND. Chex Mix, unopened. 1 Grape Soda. Cookie Dough Ice Cream (w choc sauce). Raisins, PB, Ramen, meh. Reese Cups! I just looked behind and was like,Ā āoh yeah! Niceā. If thatās not everything, thatās REALLY close. So whatās calling my name? Pizza? Chinese? Damn, I might just have to play this by ear. Nothing at all sounds interesting, and Iām not the slightest bit hungry (we got free Dim Sum after the 5k. It was called the Dim Sum and Then Some 5k). Ok, so other options to keep on the back burner for later would be: Kebab, Chicken Sandwich, go get Pizza Rolls and Chippies at the store. Ok thatās enough options, that fuckin really took it outta me, I canāt believe it. My hands are kinda feeling heavier now too. I better think of a #4 thing to write about quick or I may lose all my inertia.
4. UMmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Movie time? I watch arrival and turn off all the lights and pop popcorn and have my soda? Where sunglasses and pretend theyāre 3-D glasses? Maybe. Ugh, I can tell right now my eyes are gonna get bloodshot, or dry out or whatever. They already kinda hurt :(. Itās fine. I feel more good than not. Like Iām wrapped up in a blanket, even though Iām not. Maybe OH- Maybe I lay out on the beach chair and read in the sun with an ice coffee? Oh fuck that might actually be perfect. Then I can go no shirt and just feel nature, and maybe bugs are less troublesome when youāre high. And then I can pop Doughboys on and shower! Shower high, seems like a guaranteed home-run. Ok, I like it a lot. I have to do SOMETHING away from Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum or Iāll go crazy this weekend, especially if I have to tag in on occasion andĀ āparticipateā for Bonnieās Birthday. Which, letās be clear, is the least I can do. Itās a gimme. I owe Bonnie AT LEAST this much, even just as like backpay for holidays or yore. Like if I have the zhuzh to punch in for birthday shtuff, I better do it, right? I just looked it up, it might officially be zhoosh, not zhuzh, but zhuzh appears to me to be the best way to do it. And thereās like 5 accepted spellings of it. Stupid, not helpful. Just because it employs a sound that has no [conformed] applications in the english language? Poor excuse! Oh man, itās so early I canāt believe it! That 5k feels like a day ago, wild. Well, hey! Point 4 is finished. Moving on!
5. What to do tonight? Who gives a fuck. Figure that part out when you get there, it does not matter at all. There, numbered list over.
Ok so, letās just wrap this up I guess. Iām cracking an hour here, thatās plenty. Maybe tonight you do a little PRE-WRITING before bed, so this isnāt soĀ āchore-yā. Letās just remember you seriously considered letting yourself down completely and bailing on the blog earlier this morning. So we need to keep our expectations at appropriate levels still. Itās this NEXT week that should be very interesting. Just in terms of output. A little more practice, and little more muscle-memory. A little less crap to distract me (I have been burning through non-stop crap youtube/tv this last week since coming home, itās fantastic. I was gonna say it was sucky, or disgusting or something, but thatās a lie I tell to myself to pretend Iām more diligent than I actually am. ACCEPT who you are and love yourself for it)
I accept you and love you Max. Ok, I have to go, I feel like Iām gonna puke... awesomeĀ
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