#kinda a vent?

[roseblog-rog]

i really need a wheelchair. fuck denial, im in agony.

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

i need to vent about a difficult adult decision i have to make.

im about to move a lot of shit from my childhood home. aside from books, its just a lot of quantity. it takes up space, and if i go through it to sort out everything, it will all have sentimental value (i have some pretty severe memory issues so i tie memories to objects, and every time i try to sort through stuff i end up keeping everything). some of the things are craft supplies, and therefore valuable, but ultimately replaceable.

i'm really tempted to just take the books and maybe 4 actually monetarily valuable things, leaving everything else to be given away.

neither of these are really good options (keeping everything or getting rid of almost everything) and its really frustrating me that i have to make this decision at all. if some rich person paid me 500$ right now to offset the cost of throwing away a bunch of stuff i'd literally give it all away right now, but unfortunately thats not an option. it just kinda sucks.

[thecoolest69]

I feel selfish I have a awesome partner a couple great friends and still why do I feel like shit

they deserve better they don't deserve to deal with me cause I'm so fucking selfish

I deserve everything that's happen to me cause I am so selfish every single thing that has ever happened I deserve and people shouldn't have to deal with me

like why do they care or do they care?

They say they care but what if they are lying fo they care...

[leafwateraddict]

Why does talking about your feelings suck

[giminal]

i mjss 2022 really bad so i drew my fursona comforting me. done mostly in ms paint and partially in firealpaca

[mel-loly]

-Hello everyone, hry'all?

Just stopping by to apologize for not posting normally anymore, for not having any Christmas art yet and for not "interacting" much... I'm kinda quite tired, without much time to do the arts because of several commitments(now actually I don't have that much anymore, but before I really had a lot), and I'm even a little discouraged because I don't have more engagement on this blog, which makes me even more committed to not remembering this and... Anyway- I apologize profusely for all of this! I really don't know yet if I'm going to take a break or remain at least a little active here, but I'll try my best to post or idk but do something related to Christmas soon.

Thank you very much to those who have read this far and I hope you guys can understand me! A big hug for y'all and hope you are having a wonderful day/night <3

[theetherealvulture]

Y'all, I'm so actually tired of being a cynical little shit.

I'ma do a re-write and retcon my character to be happy, full of whimsy, and nice to everything

[skymaiden32]

Welp… This sucks… ;0;

[evb0]

whoops my theatre is shutting down

[ant1quarian]

"Your Happiness will always be worth more than my Sad."

Pretty sure a lot of people live by this rule.

I know I do.

I don't like to call myself a people pleaser- because in all actuality, I'm not.

I'm not until you're close to me and someone I cherish.

(Just a lil' rant :] )

The few people that I would break my spine to please I hold closely to my heart, as foolish as I've realised that can be within my life.

These few people are quite simple:

My Spouse

My Sister

My Close Friends

Unusual, isn't it? That I would go so far for few people, even to the point where it begins to affect me.

I'm loyal. Really loyal. Too loyal at times.

Definitely not trusting. Not naive. But loyal nonetheless.

And it's weird. I'm naturally a very laid-back, chill person that doesn't like to do a lot, but when I think of my friends, my sister, and my Spouse...

I would do a lot of things for them. I would- and do- actively shove away my emotions so that I don't have to bring down other's moods.

I'm open with my emotions and communicate my feelings up until the point where it's jealousy or sadness over seemingly insignificant things.

Most of the time it's because I don't want to tell someone I'm feeling jealous of a thing they're doing with other people (aka. feeling left out- something I don't believe anyone should have to experience, 'cause it fuckin sucks) because it's simply just a ME problem that they don't need to dragged into. I don't want them feeling guilty of a thing I'm feeling, y'know? 'Specially when they didn't go out of their way to cause it.

I'm not a burden. I know I'm not.

Just sometimes... I think I hold other people's happiness in higher esteem than my own struggles and emotions.

And so, I created a little rule I go by (that I shouldn't be) called:

"Your Happiness will always be worth more than my Sad."

[kpopwerewolf]

Am I the only one who's annoyed by the thing when you go to a blog, rather than show it the way Tumblr shows things, it takes you to what is basically a whole other site?

Like, not only is the layout really wonky compared to what you're expecting, but any tags you filter are no longer filtered on the other site thing (which means that if you filter for stuff like flashing or gore, those things are not filtered)

[f4y3w00d5]

Jesus christ that fucking sucked. I was like early for half of it- And off tune at the end... Listening to it and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST IM SUCH A SHITTY FUCKING SINGER I SOUND LIKE A TWO YEAR OLD I LISTENED TO MY FAV PART AND I WAS EARLY AND UGHHHH 😭😭😭😭

anyways thats the one im uploading i will be obsessing over this for hours, and i gotta get ready for halloween soon Also pleaseeeee dont call me cringe, one of my friends said my singing was cringe, and its horrible.

[thecoolest69]

I wish I was someone's favorite... I'm always gonna be second best no matter what

[chandajaan]

I've been so overwhelemwd recently and a lot of stuff has been going on on my life and im slightly miserable but also really happy? I think most because I have someone who I completely trust and I actually feel supported, it's a weird feeling, knowing you can endure stuff

[oakthefrog]

weird thing abt going to events that are targeted at people like you is that you dont feel so alone there

i met queer people, neurodivergent people, trans people, all like me, last week.

it’s made me realise that im not alone, and feeling like you’re not alone is amazing!

but then when you realise the sting of loneliness, it makes it harder to go to a place (cough cough SCHOOL cough cough) that is just people being relentlessly rude and mean for the sake of being rude and mean so much harder

same thing with having friends that get you outside of school.

i spent hours with a friend on Saturday and i’ve never rlly had someone get all the random jokes i make before, it was PEAK!

and then im expected to go back to the place where i get harassed for being “weird”? questioned for being trans and queer? ignored for being autistic and anxious?

TLDR: I’ve learnt I’m not alone and I do indeed have people that understand me, making it seem unfair I have to go to school, where it’s just ignorant people making me suffer for 6-7 hrs a day

[sittinginthecorneralone]

Spend all this damn time thinking about my mother n feeling bad for her n not thinking the worst of her n NOT hating her and somewhat caring about her only for her to not give a damn about how I feel or what I want