#kim yongsun ff

[4brrrr]

Insecurities

(Note: Who is who is up to your imagination :P)

"Why would you be Insecure? Sorry, I just wanted to know so we could probably talk it out??" She mumbled, lips pressed against the crown of my head as she gently stroked my hair making my body relax as she held me in her arms.

"Uhm.. it's just that a lot of people like you. More than you know. It's a good thing, really, but they're so much better than me.." I replied, nuzzling my face onto the crook of her neck.

The short conversation was followed by a moment of silence. I could tell she was contemplating on what to say, so I urged her on, looking up at her with curious eyes.

"A lot of people like you too." She said, voice a bit hesitant as she stared at the ceiling, letting out a shaky sigh.

"How do you know that?" I asked with an amused voice. I was genuinely interested.

"Well..." She stared back at me, giving me a small smile.

-

"Do you see that girl over there? You guys are close right? I see you guys together all the time."

"Ah, her? Well, I guess you could say we're really close." She chuckled. "Why do you ask?"

She watched as the guy smiled sheepishly at her, pressing his palms together into a pleading position.

"Could you, maybe, help me out with her?"

She stared at him blankly, a bit dumbfounded at the question.

"I don't think I can help you with that, I'm sorry." She gave him a polite smile, bowing as she started to make her way towards the aforementioned woman. The guy's voice, though, stopped her in her tracks.

"Why can't you?" He whined, disappointment evident in his voice.

"Well," She turned to him, her expression and stance overflowing with confidence and determination. "The girl's mine."

-

"Are you serious?" I giggled, my face suddenly heating up at the story.

"Yeah..." She shyly replied as she tightened her hold around me.

The way she responded to the situation, honestly made my heart flutter. Not to mention, the fact that I could feel her heart pounding just as much as mine right now made my smile widen even more. She was just too cute.

I shifted in her hold, crawling on top of her to give her a kiss on her forehead. "I love you. And I'm always yours."

She grinned, staring back at me with fond eyes.

"Just as I am yours."

[bullybyulyi]

Glad to read a new story from you! You write soft moonsun so well. They have been so soft lately with yong being openly caring especially with byul’s back pain but also being isanghae (been a while since I heard her say that!) Prompt: yong being back and forth with tsundere and caring gf mode that amuses byul.

Moon Byulyi is dumbfounded.

“Byul-ah, come here,come hold on to my arm.”

“Stop. Stop! This isweird. It’s just weird!”

“Are you feeling okay?Don’t let go of my hand.”

“Why would I do this withyou, it’s weird! Something about this is weird.”

She feels like she’s being stretched in two directions,between the embarrased Yongsun two years ago and the affectionate Yongsun now. Byulyi hadn’t heard herappallingly declare “it’s weird!” in months, yet for whatever reason, it’sstarted all over again.

She can only pinpoint it to a couple of weeks after she hurther back.

Of course, it was just a muscle ache, but Yongsun had sincethen treated her like she was made of glass. She had been loving, gentle,patient, all the things that made her a saint and a doting girlfriend.

Until Byulyi offered her a hand off stage one day, like she usually does. In the moment,Yongsun had taken it without a thought, but she gained her self-awareness backafter a bit, stiffened up, whipped her head around for cameras, and slipped her hand away.

Well, nothing new, but it did make Byulyi wonder what wasmaking her so wary again.

Since then it’d been a constant back and forth betweenYongsun wanting to hold on to her and Yongsun telling her she’s weird. Byulyi thoughtit was kind of amusing how fussy she was, but some days, long days, when shecould feel a pain creeping in her back, she was just tired.

“Yong…Yong,” She chants patiently, waiting for the other womanto calm down. “Don’t worry,” she gestures between them, “This isn’t weird. I’m weird. You’re weird too. I just want to layon something please.”

That flips the switch. Yongsun scampers onto the couch andholds out her arms, as if she hadn’t just been vehemently protesting to themcuddling in the waiting room. “Of course, of course, come here. Are you feelingokay? I can ask for some water for you too?” Yongsun offers, pulling Byulyi inclose, allowing the other woman to snuggle into her side and rubbing light circleson her back.

“No, this is just fine.” Byulyi relaxes, eyes closing tobreathe in the atmosphere of the other woman.

Yongsun may have been acting weird, but she’s been throughit before.

[fytsubaki-blog]

[ARTYKUŁ] PEŁNA OBSADA DAYTIME SHOOTING STAR!

Tydzień przed premierą pierwszego odcinka nowej dramy, wiemy już kto w niej wystąpi. Wiele gwiazd zachwyci nie tylko nasze oczy ale i uszy. Jedną z takich osób jest Kim Yongsun, znana jako Solar z Mamamoo - wcieli się ona w rolę Tsubomi oraz zaśpiewa piosenkę do OST. Mimo napiętego grafiku, w przerwach między szykowaniem solowego albumu, do studia zawitał również Kim Jiwon (Bobby z iKON). W obsadzie również znalazł się jego kolega z zespołu, Kim Jinhwan przyjął rolę najniższego w grupie - Manabu. Dodatkowo będziemy mogli nacieszyć uszy zjawiskowym wokalem Nam Junsuna, którego covery swego czasu podbiły naszą listę ‘najlepszych coverów na instagramie’. 

ZOBACZ TEŻ: [ARTYKUŁ] Znana już połowa obsady Daytime shooting star.

Wiele osób głowiło się na temat kto zdobędzie rolę drugiego, głównego amanta - Daikiego. Z najnowszych informacji wynika, że będzie to Tan Jaeho, którego poczynania kunszt aktorski zachwycił już krytyków w Broken Dreams oraz Protecting You. Zaskoczeniem z naszej strony było, gdy dowiedzieliśmy się, że rolę wujka Suzume, Yukichi, dostał Kang Maeum - rapper z ATL. Innym artystom, który pomimo napiętego grafiku spowodowanego comebackiem jest Jeon Jungkook, który wcieli się w Togyuu. Wisienką na torcie w tej dramie okazała się Hirai Momo, która wcieli się w rolę Moniki. Widać JYP nie chce pozwolić YG na bycie jedyną wytwórnią biorącą udział w tym projekcie, nie tylko odnośnie OST ale i aktorsko. Każdy dzień przybliża nas do premiery. My nie możemy się już doczekać! 

KOMENTARZE

[ +6K, -928 ] 13 cm fairy idealnie do roli~ Aigoo, Bobby pracuje tak ciężko. iKON hwaiting!

[ +4.1K, -619 ] Co jak co, ale Daiki w naszej wersji będzie przystojniejszy niż w live action Japońskim. ㅋㅋ

[ +3K, -207 ] Maeum jako Yukichi... nie ma lepszej osoby do tej roli!

[ +2.3K, -851 ]  Omo, Jungkook oppa w takim szkolnym wydaniu. To lepsze niż ff!

[ +910, -162 ] Solar i wokalnie i aktorsko... na to czekałam!

[ +839, -163 ] Junsun ma piękny głos, na pewno odwali kawał dobrej roboty w OST!

[ +685, -248 ]  Jestem ciekawa aktorstwa Momo. Twice jak zawsze dają z siebie wszystko.

[ +492, -317 ] Wiedzą jak zyskać oglądalność. Wzięli popularnych idoli i każdy będzie oglądał dla swojego. Żal patrzeć.

NOTE: THIS IS FOR ROLEPLAYING PURPOSES ONLY! Mun note below. The idea of drama was inspired by hyeitssu. 

No więc mamy całą obsadę. Jesli w tym czasie wykruszy się jakaś postać z rp, to przyjmuję po prostu, że grała randomowa osoba. Skoro wszystko jest już znane, w tym tygodniu będę biegała do osób, które biorą udział w dramie z pytaniami do wywiadów. Ponadto jeśli zreblogujecie jakąś grę o pytaniach, 120% pewności, że będzie coś o dramie! Oczywiście możecie umawiać się z innymi muns na temat ‘śmiesznych wpadek na planie’ czy coś. Dodam też, że ja nie wnikam w to jak koniec końców odebrali Waszą postać widzowie - to zależy tylko i wyłącznie od Was. Stay tuned! 

[4brrrr]

Unusual

It was one of the rarest days wherein Byulyi opted to wear a more feminine outfit in contrast to her usual baggy style. However, it seemed like the weather was not in her favor as the sudden cold breeze hits the skin of the back of her neck, making her shiver as she walked through the streets not far from their music video filming site.

Her hair was pulled up into a messy bun, a gold necklace belonging to a set of two hanging loosely around her neck. She was clad in an oversized white button-up polo shirt, the first button undone and the collar pulled down her shoulders, showing a bit of her collarbones. The hem of the shirt was tucked inside a tightly fitted black pencil skirt that emphasizes the curve of her waist. To top it off, she completed the outfit with a pair of white rubber shoes and a small simple yet fancy hand purse.

It was unusual for Byulyi to be wearing such an outfit offstage but Yongsun was not complaining. It was a new fresh look and the younger definitely looked stunning. The moment she walked into the filming set, the entire team, including Wheein and Hyejin, were in shambles, however, the younger's conscious gaze as they walked through the area did not go unnoticed.

Yongsun was having an internal turmoil, torn between her protectiveness triggered by the vulnerability visible on the woman's face and not knowing how to act on her worries. She bit her lip, staring down her now slightly shorter bandmate all thanks to the heels she was currently wearing.

The moment Byulyi hid herself behind the leader, she dropped all her hesitation, finally removing the blazer she wore above her silk cream one-piece outfit and stopping on her tracks to turn and drape the garment around Byulyi's shoulders. The younger, in turn, stared at her in shock, currently in a flustered state at the sudden action.

A mischievous glint flashed through Byulyi's eyes, smirking at the older who looked away from the gaze, cheeks flushed with red. "Unnie, that made my heart skip a beat" she teased, much to Yongsun's misery, poking the older's nose with her index finger.

Following right after the younger who continued walking to the convenience store, she groaned.

"Shut up, Byul-ah."

Bonus:

Byulyi clutched onto the blazer, her lips stretched into a wide grin as she walked pass a dumbfounded Yongsun. Her cheeks were tinted red, her heartbeat was racing and she couldn't help but let out a small squeal. When she said her heart skipped a beat, she wasn't lying.

[4brrrr]

Winter Woods

Byulyi shivered as the cold breeze hits her skin. She walked through the street, staring at the pile of snow that seemed to crunch beneath her feet as she hummed to the song softly playing on her headset. The streets were lighted by the yellow gleam of the post lights as bits of snow fell from the night sky. It was perfect. Her lips formed a small smile, comforted at the thought of finally coming back home after having spent long hours at work. It had been a very exhausting day for Byulyi, jumping from schedule to schedule for both solo and group projects.

When she has finally arrived in front of their humble home, she removed her head set, reaching for the doorbell. In no time, the door creaked open, revealing a soft-looking woman.

Her smile widens when she saw the woman behind the door, welcoming her with a warm hug. She buried her nose against the elder’s neck, making the said older woman flinch at the sudden cold touch. Byulyi tightened her hold on her girlfriend’s waist, inhaling her sweet calming scent as the she wraps her right arm around her shoulder firmly, her free hand gently combing through her hair.

“Welcome home, Byulyi.” Yongsun softly whispered, knowing about the girl’s sensitive state.

“I’m home.” Byulyi mumbled against the woman’s neck, exhaustion evident in her voice.

Yongsun’s presence had always been very soothing for her. It was something she had always looked for when she feels uneasy, usually hiding behind the protective figure.

She was snapped out of her daze when Yongsun tapped her shoulder, realizing they were both still at the doorstep.

Not long after, she found herself in the shower, staring blankly at the wall as she feels the warm water slide through her skin. She basked into the relaxing feeling, closing her eyes as she allows the water tend to her stiff muscles. Unconsciously, she let out a small whine, purring.

She was too immersed that she failed to notice Yongsun opening the door to the bathroom, only doing so when she felt someone’s gaze piercing through her skin. Her eyes shot wide open in slight panic only to meet Yongsun’s. The latter looked at her with same wide eyes, jaw dropped and seemingly stunned.

It had always been normal for the both of them to casually go into the bathroom to do their own things simultaneously. It was more convenient after all, one could shower while the other can do their night routine. It was normal.

Not until Yongsun saw a pair of pointed ears of some kind of animal on Byulyi’s head and a furry tail wagging, attached to her lower back. She was stunned.

“Oh, its just you.” Byulyi said, relieved and oblivious to what Yongsun was seeing.

She shrieked making Byulyi jump in place as the ears twitch in alarm, her tail stopped moving and instead turned stiff, physically demonstrating Byulyi’s surprise.

“What’s wrong with you?” Byulyi asked her, her pitch rising as she looked at the woman with wary eyes.

When yongsun shakily pointed towards her ears, her eyes widened in sudden realization, hands instinctively shooting up to hide them.

Crap.

-

Back in their bedroom, Byulyi was seated at the edge of their queen sized bed, fiddling with the hem of her oversized shirt as she watches Yongsun pacing back and forth. She bit her lower lip, seemingly even more nervous of what was to come when Yongsun’s hand suddenly shoots up to massage her temple.

Suddenly, Yongsun stopped in her tracks, staring at Byulyi’s figure as she watched her fluffy ears perk up in surprise.

She groans in frustration. Eerything here is too unbelievable--too impossible. But Byulyi, sitting in front of her, looking anywhere but her and looking like a kicked puppy, is the proof that this, indeed, is  reality.

It took her a few seconds to finally take everything in. She sighed, making Byulyi flinch for the nth time of the day.

Catiously, Yongsun made her way to Byulyi, taking the space left beside her. The girl visibly stiffened at the sudden contact of the bare skin of their thighs. Yongsun, deep in thoughts, absentmindedly eyes the furry unmoving tail rested on the sheets.

“Eek!???”

Byulyi squeaked in surprise when Yongsun grabbed her tail, staring at her with wide eyes as she moves her tail away from the older woman’s hold.

Yongsun blinks once, twice, thrice, before finally taking in what just happened. Her eyes widened the way Byulyi’s did, staring at her in apology.

“I’m sorry” She smiled sheepishly, finally, a laughter escaping her lips as the tension seemed to finally escape through the room’s opened windows, joining the cold wind as they travelled from place to place under the night sky.

The sound of her contagious laughter left Byulyi momentarily shocked, eventually leading her to join her in a laughing fit.

It was overwhelming--suffocating even. Not once in the entirety of their 8 years of friendship slash relationship have they ever had that much tension between them other than their previous childish arguments that always end up with spontaneous movie nights topped with cuddles and take out food. The exit of the awkwardness relieved not only Byulyi but also Yongsun.

When their giggles have finally come to a stop, Yongsun pulled Byulyi into a tight hug, kissing her forehead as if to tell her that it’s alright and nothing will change between them which made Byulyi heave a sigh of relief and relax fully into her arms.

There was a moment of comfortable silence before Yongsun finally spoke.

"Do you go in heat?"

“Yah!” Byulyi broke the hug, punching Yongsun’s shoulder who was clutching her stomach as she let out a loud snort which lead to another, according to Byulyi, excessive fit of laughter.

“Calm down! I was just kidding!”

"Can i touch them?" Yongsun asked, eyeing her fluffy ears. She nodded, giving her the permission to touch her ears but the moment her hands made contact with her ears, Byulyi backed away, her ears twitching in response to her touch.

“What? Why?” Yongsun pouted, confused at the sudden action.

Byulyi looked away, cheeks crimson red. “Uh, just because. It’s ticklish.”

"Then…” Yongsun brought her finger to her lips, enthustiastically thinking about what to make Byulyi do next.  “Can you turn fully into a werewolf?"

Byulyi replied with an affirmative nod, eyeing her anxiously when Yongsun jumped in excitement, obviously waiting for Byulyi to turn into her natural form.

"Uh.. The thing is-"

That was when she found herself in the woods near their backyard, fully turned into a large yet adorable werewolf as yongsun caresses her bowed down head. She cooed at her whines of pleasure, giggling as she continued rubbing the werewolf  half as tall as her.

Yongsun stopped her ministrations which earned her a growl of protest. "How are you so full of aegyo?” She asked in amusement, still, standing up from her positon and dusting off the dirt on her knees.

"Enlighten me.” Yongsun challenged. “What makes a werewolf so unique? What can you do as a werewolf that you can’t when you’re a human?"

Byulyi looked at her straight in the eyes, looking like she’s getting ready to dash out. Yongsun could almost imagine her having a smug smile as if she was a human.

Suddenly, she ran through the forest, sending a strong wind towards Yongsuns form. Within 10 seconds, she was back in place, standing in front of yongsun with her snout stretched into a wide grin.

Yongsun looked at her in shock but eventually smirked when she saw her expression. A huge "compliment me" in bold was written across her furry face. Byulyi’s  tongue was stuck out from her mouth, panting heavily. Byulyi, tilted her head expectantly making Yongsun break into giggles.

"Good job, baby" she mused, petting Byulyi’s head affectionately who was purring at the soothing touch. Suddenly, Byulyi rolled onto her back, letting Yongsun rub her belly which made her growl in approval when she did.

Yongsun laughed. "Are you really Byulyi?" she asked, jokingly, to which the wolf replied to with a howl. She can’t help it. It was funny she looked more like a large dog than an actual werewolf.

"You must be tired, you should turn back."

Suddenly, the werewolf stood on its four feet, seemingly wary and disturbed with her ears perked up in alertness.

"Why, why?" Yongsun asked, confused. Suddenly, byulyi nuzzled into her neck, shaking her head as she whimpers.

"Why? Aren't you tired?" Byulyi didnt reply but when yongsun rubbed her back, she let out A what seemed like a sigh. Yongsun felt her shrink back into human size in her hands, shivering as the cold air touched her... Bare skin? Wait, she's naked?

Her ears suddenly turning bright red, she immediately pulled down the zipper of her own jacket, wrapping its flaps around Byulyi and effectively trapping them both inside, her gaze all the while remaining on the dark woods careful as to not to look at Byulyi’s naked figure. She pulled Byulyi inside their home in hurry, quickly rummaging through their closet for some change of clothes.

She covered her eyes with her palm, looking through the gaps to see only byulyi's face who now had a blanket wrapped around her as she bit her lower lip.

Yongsun immediately passed the large shirt similar to what she was previously on, which, in turn, she wore in hurry.

"You didn't tell me." Yongsun said in an accusing tone, claiming her innocence regarding the matter.

“Tell you what?”

“That.” Yongsun pointed out, gesturing to her body, her hands flailing around like a madwoman.

Byulyi blushes. "You didnt let me!” She screeched, the sound of her voice echoing throughout the woods.

[4brrrr]

Moonsun+ fluffy+ first date 😌 please and thank you

It had been Byulyi who asked Yongsun out.

So why am I suddenly the one planning for everything?

It was a saturday evening. Yongsun, as usual, was filming her youtube video(something along the expose your gallery challenge lines) when Byulyi suddenly called her. She swiped the green button to answer the call, definitely not expecting a blunt "Wanna go on a date somewhere?" from her girlfriend.

It hadn't been so long since the two of them started dating and knowing that they will finally be going on their very first date as lovers, it excited her.

And almost immediately, Yongsun answered "Sure."

What she didn't expect, though, was the question that follows. The line was silent for a moment, until she heard a tiny voice, hesitantly muttering "Where?"

Flustered is an understatement. Yongsun's mind was on a state of panic.

Both women were celebrities, moreso, they belong in a single group so going outdoors is a no-no. Dinner date at a fancy restaurant seems too generic as well.

So where?

-

They ended up staying at home, cuddled up on a fluffy blanket with Byulyi's head placed on Yongsun's tummy. The latter's back was pressed against her bed's headboard as she looked down, adoring her girlfriend's soft and raw features. No makeup. Just her. Byulyi, on the other hand, stared back up, playing with Yongsun's bleached (yet unexpectedly soft) strands.

The scenario seemed too natural for the both of them but in fact, it was the first time the two actually took their time to admire each other openly.

The audio of a movie they were watching was blurred out in the background, and the chips they initially planned on eating was left untouched.

Right now, it was just the both of them. Kim Yongsun and Moon Byulyi.

Bonus:

"What were you doing when I called you?" Byulyi asked, voice laced with both curiosity and amusement. "You answered so quickly."

"Uh, filming." Yongsun replied, a soft smile forming on her lips at the memory. "Youtube stuff."

Yes, she caught all that on camera. The way she brightened up almost immediately when she saw the caller's name on the camera's screen and heard the ringtone set specially for her girlfriend echoing through the walls of her room, her cheeks heating up as she giggled through the phone when Byulyi dropped the question, and, lastly, the best part with her eyes widening and jaw dropping, dumbfounded at the word "where".

Maybe she'd give Byulyi the pleasure of making fun of her later on.

[4brrrr]

Trigger

TW // Major Character Death, Blood

Posted this way back in aff :P

-

A sudden sharp pain pierced through her chest, followed by a loud scream of her own name. Everything was suddenly blurry. The room was spinning...No, me? I don't know, I don't care.

She felt the impact of her own body falling to the ground with a loud thud. Ironically though, she couldn't care less. All she badly wanted to do was sleep. She wanted to give in to her own exhaustion, to let it consume her and finally fall into a deep comfortable slumber.

Moon Byulyi and Kim Yongsun were out on a dangerous mission entrusted to them by their higher-ups. They knew it was a life-threatening mission wherein one mistake, it could lead to death. Despite this fact, they were confident enough with their own skills. They have always been partners-in-crime, after all, invincible within their field. There were no other partners as compatible as them who were always in sync with their movements, covering up each other's blind spots, therefore, receiving such tasks is not a new occasion.

So why? How did this happen? Where did we go wrong?

It was so sudden. All sorts of questions raced in Yongsun's head as she saw her partner's figure fall to the ground. She pulled the trigger, shooting the man who was responsible for the situation.

Yongsun held her breath, trying to control her tears as she rushed to her partner's side. She could feel her heart pounding against her chest, her hands were uncontrollably trembling as she dropped onto her knees, hurriedly reaching to the woman.

"Byul-ah." She muttered, feeling lightheaded as she desperately searched for the source of the flowing blood before frantically removing her own vest to serve as a makeshift bandage.

Byulyi stared at her with half-lidded eyes, watching Yongsun's panicked expression turn to fear when she saw the blood rapidly pooling around her figure.

"I'm sorry." For messing up. For getting you worried like this. For leaving so suddenly.

"No, stop that, you little shit. You're gonna be fine. You're-You're gonna be fine." Yongsun yelled at her. No, she's not letting her go like this. There must be something she can do. Ambulance? Yes, there must be a hospital just a few blocks from there, she saw it on the way. "Hang in there, Byul-ah. You have to."

Ignoring the silent call of her name, she reach down to her pocket, attempting to pull out her phone to dial an emergency number when she heard the younger let out groan followed by a coughing fit.

Tears streamed down her cheeks as she let her own hands fall limp on her side, a loud sob she's been holding in helplessly escaping her lips as she watched the life slowly slip away from her partner's eyes. Her sobs echoed through the walls of the room, her own tears blurring her vision, as she felt a cold hand brush away her tears before it landed once again on the concrete floor.

"Yongsun-ah, don't cry." She muttered, a tear dropping from her eyes, before finally falling into a deep eternal slumber.

They were successful on their mission but why is their victory not as fulfilling?

[4brrrr]

Requests (CURRENTLY CLOSED)

I am not entirely sure if someone has already sent in a request or something but i would like to say that im still accepting requests :D I havent been writing much lately because of an insane writer's block but im willing to accept any requests from you guys HAHAHA ive been more focused on improving my art lately (if you follow me on twitter, youll know) but yes!! if you guys want me to write something, i'll do it and check in here from time to time HAHAHAHA

Here is the template for requesting:

(ship) + (fluff/angst)+ (prompt)

e.g. moonsun + fluff + lazy sunday afternoon at yongsun's home where they.....

You can send me requests through private messages or asks 😁

Also, I hope you guys are doing well!! Stay strong 💓

[4brrrr]

Real

They were trainees then, young but not naive. They were well-aware of the challenges life would constantly throw at them once they cross the wide one-way bridge that connects the life of a normal adult to the life of an entertainer. There's no turning back, they knew. Even so, they were determined to take the risk and stepped forward.

 The bridge shook. It was not an easy journey for the both of them.

 Byulyi was asked to choose between losing weight or giving up on her dreams. Yongsun, on the other hand had to audition for multiple companies.

 Eventually, as they continued to cross the unstable path to their desired goal, they met each other. They walked, hand-in-hand, as their other hands gripped on the railings on their opposite sides, making their journey a bit more stable now that they have each other.

 -

 They debuted, surprisingly, in the same group along with a cute dimpled girl and a fierce-looking baby.

 Mamamoo–that's what they're called.

 They were a group destined to lead the younger generations to a more open space. They were a group that screamed for equality, inspiring people from different age groups.

 Byulyi and Yongsun, they were closer than ever. They grew to be the support of one another. They silently vowed to protect or at least be there for the other as much as they could, knowing that things are going to be a bit harder than before.

 -

 It all started from the warm gazes the two unconciously send to each other. It was noticeable to anyone around them making it a normal occurrence that someone asks them if they were dating, which, of course, they answered no.

 They weren't. They were best friends.

(Yongsun watched in adoration as the younger girl twirled around the practice room, playfully dancing along with the maknaes. Her hair flowed at every movement of her body as she moved along the beat, making up the silliest dances but, somehow, still managing to look as graceful as ever.

 Her gaze fell on her smile, travelling to her cheek dimples. She admired how her nose scrunches when she laughed too much. She had been there when she cried about it, engulfing her in a warm embrace as the younger's sobs were muffled on her shoulder. She didn't understand how someone would even have the heart to tell her not to smile too much because "it looked ugly". No, it was adorable.

 Her thoughts were rudely interrupted when Byulyi called for her.

 "Yeba, stop standing in a corner and get your ass over here!"

 She feigned a scoff, bringing her hand to her face to hide her reddened cheeks as she made her way towards the group.)

 Apart from the weird feelings that seemed to grow as they spent more time in the presence of one another, they knew they were nothing but close friends.

 -

 Years later, they've become a bit more aware of their feelings, noticing the smallest things the other is able to make them feel. Byulyi noticed the way her heart seemed to skip a beat whenever her hand brushes with Yongsun's as they walk through the street leading to their company building. Yongsun noticed the way every weird quirks of the younger girl seemed to make her smile.

 They noticed the way they longed for each other's presence more than they should whenever they had to spend the day apart.

 With their years of friendship, they were comfortable enough to not bother covering up what they felt for each other, fully knowing that their feelings were reciprocated. Byulyi openly showed Yongsun affection, which the older didn't mind. They would also come over to each other's house (which, at the end of the day, always end up with one of them sleeping over) off-days.

 It's one of those days wherein the rapper decided to come over to Yongsun's apartment telling the older she was bored as an excuse for her want to, once again, admire her in her casual home attire. It felt a bit more natural… and domestic, she thought.

 Funny, though, how Yongsun was the one captivated by the younger girl's seemingly perfect features.

 (They were sitting across each other, Byulyi's eyes on the kimchi fried rice Yongsun has made for her just earlier on as she ranted about random stuff the older was barely even paying attention to. She was too distracted by the way the younger's brows seemed to furrow as she talked about her worries about her pet corgi getting a little bit fatter.

 "It's unhealthy." She heard her grumble, a small pout beginning to form on her lips.

 The more she stared the more she wanted to blurt out the words she's been meaning to say all these time. And she did.

 "Let's date."

 "Daeba-Huh?"

 "You and me. Let's date.")

 -

 Byulyi remembered secluding herself from her family and friends, locking herself up in her room for weeks. She never went out unless she needed to restock her cup noodles and beer she had been living off to since the day after her nasty break up.

 It was until her youngest sister, then 5 years old, grabbed her hand when she was about to enter the dimmed space, pulling her into a tight hug and burying her face into Byulyi's stomach. She sobbed, croaking out the words "Unnie, I miss you. Do you hate me? Why won't you play with me anymore?"

 She realized, she needed to pull herself together. She needed to move on.

 So when those two words left Yongsun's mouth, she didn't know what to do. She was elated, yet hesitant. In the end, she decided, maybe taking a risk for the second time isn't that bad.

 -

 Byulyi and Yongsun have been dating for a year now and the younger woman was more than happy. She never once regretted the decision she had made.

 (They were currently sitting on a nearby bench, taking a short break from their so-called "friendly" date as they ate their ice cream in comfortable silence.

 Byulyi's fingers gently slipped through Yongsun's, giving her hand a light squeeze as if to say "I love you" which the older responded to by rubbing circles at the back of her palm. Byulyi stared at their joined hands, smiling contently as she went back to eating her ice cream.)

 Friends. It was what they have agreed on dubbing themselves in order to avoid the unwanted attention of the public. It was going well until now.

 -

 Byulyi was back in her dimmed bedroom, heart pounding hard against her ribcage as she scrolled through all the negative comments aimed at her and her lover.

 "Disgusting lesbians! Get the fuck out of our country."

 "Bet you a thousand they're doing this for attention."

 "This is why I never stanned Mamamoo ughhh ew"

 "LMAOOOOO another problematic shit done by the so-called 'queens'"

 It was a huge slip-up on her side.

 (There is nothing more relaxing for Byulyi than being at her favorite place with her favorite person. Byulyi watched Yongsun's lashes flutter close as the latter took a deep breath, inhaling the fresh scent of nature. It was evening. Yongsun was standing by the railings of the bridge overlooking the Han River, with bright colored lights contributing to the romantic atmosphere. It was picture perfect.

 Yongsun opened her eyes, a wide smile painted on her lips as she stared at the beautiful view before her. It made her happy, knowing that she could spend this time with Byulyi between their hectic schedules.

 Seeing Yongsun's eyes twinkle in excitement, cheeks flushed red making them look more like a mochi, Byulyi couldn't stop herself. She gently took Yongsun's head into her hand, softly carressing her cheeks and eventually leaning in for a kiss.)

 Tears slid down her cheek at the memory. Who would've known a beautiful moment would be the cause of the downfall of both their relationship and career?

 She had always wished for their relationship to last longer. She was contented being with her, and was willing to stay through sadness and joy even though not being able to proudly show off their relationship to the public pains her. It could not be helped, being a public figure in a conservative country such as South Korea. Even so, she was willing to hide if it means being able to be together with Yongsun. Though, life does not always play by our rules. That's the reality.

 Just as the thought came across her mind, she heard a familiar ding, signaling a new message from her other half. Her hand shook as she attempted to reach for her phone. She pressed the power button, expecting for the worst case scenario. She was right.

 "Let's break up."

 Yeah. It was for the best.

Also posted on twt and aff -> @teddehber

[4brrrr]

"You guys are so cheesy its disgusting" Wheein yelled from across the table, face scrunched up in pure displeasure.

"Why, thank you!" Yongsun giggled, letting her lips form into a mischevious grin as she carressed Byulyi's face, pulling her in and pressing a hard kiss on her cheek, all the while staring at Wheein straight in the eyes.

From Byulyi's perspective, she could see Wheein visibly flinch, groaning at the woman's sudden display of affection and although she, herself, was surprised, she couldn't help but let out a loud snort, finding the situation very amusing.

#58 from this post

[4brrrr]

IM SORRY I JUST HAD TO HAHSHDHDG (crossposted on twt as well)

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[bullybyulyi]

#13 - leaves

Byulyi picks up a leaf off the ground.

She doesn’t know what compelled her to do so, but her stress had reached its peak all too suddenly and she just had to stop.

Breath.

And it was the first thing she saw when she opened her eyes. A perfect golden gingko leaf. She could pinch its stem between her thumb and finger and it stood proud and small. She looks back at the ground and there are hundreds of them, paving the sidewalk all yellow and warm. She takes a step and they’re underfoot and she wonders how long she’s been walking on a golden path.

For the first time in a long time, Byulyi looks at her surroundings. The wind blows and it shakes the clusters of leaves on trees that are ready to retire. Some fall away like red and gold butterflies. There are so many colors, all she had to do was look up.

Someone enters her line of sight. It’s the girl from the class she just ditched. The insanely beautiful girl that Byulyi somehow always caught glancing her way.

“Hey, um, I saw you run out. Are you alright?” She sounds genuinely concerned, but there’s also a pretty blush on her cheeks. She raises her arm and hesitates a bit before gently placing her hand on Byulyi’s back. It’s small, but warm. It makes Byulyi blush too. She lets out a sigh that shudders like it’s trying to shake something off, like the trees shaking off their leaves.

“I’m fine now.” She feels the girls hand move up and down in comfort. “Better.”

The hand leaves her back and Byulyi feels a chill where it used to be. It’s held in front of her now. She looks up into the girl’s eyes and they’re so warm it chases the cold away.

“Moon Byulyi right? I’m Kim Yongsun.”

Byulyi looks at Yongsun and she looks at the kaleidoscope of leaves all around her and despite the fact that it’s fall, Byulyi feels herself bloom.