#kihyunxreader

[jyunshiim]

𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬; 𝙨𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 *✬★*’☽* ✬ ⤷𝘒𝘪𝘩𝘺𝘶𝘯 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘶 | 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑

Genre → romance | angst | friends to acquaintances | friends to lovers | college!au |

Contains → fluff | angst 

Listen to →  Compass

Word count → 4975

TW → drinking & alcohol, implied assault (not explicit but implied)

Chapters → Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4

The airport was bustling with people from all over the world. People with hoods up, a neck pillows around their neck, sweatshirts on and power banks at hand. Your arms wrap around you, tightening around you as you walk alongside Changkyun and Kihyun. Changkyun rolls his suitcases along side him, his hood looming over his head and his airpods in his ears ready for his departure. The atmosphere was tense but you knew what you heart was feeling. Kihyun tried to initiate conversation and Changkyun tried to keep his composure too since his mind was hectic enough after what happened a month or so ago. He stood still and turned around ready to say goodbye to his two best friends. You coudnt be mad at him, he was following his dream, something you encouraged so you took a deep breath and gave him once last hug. Who knew when he’d come back, today was the last day. “Hey, I’ll message you and talk to you and we can still play you know?” his hand rests at the back of your head and you felt serenity when he did so. You nod your head, feeling your eyes pool with tears already; “I value our friendship and trust me, it will never change!” he forces a smile knowing how much it pained him to formulate what came out of his mouth. Kihyun gently patted your back as you stepped away from Changkyun, your cheeks wet from your tears. “Your hoodies wet, sorry.” You sniffle as Changkyun just smiles at you reassuringly. “It’s okay, don’t worry about it.” He looks down in despair. Changkyun hugs Kihyun however this time it felt apologetic and empathetic; “I’m sorry if I caused you any pain Kihyun, take care of her well, I’ll see you again sometime soon,” His lips stretch into a smile before he grabs his suitcase to make his journey to the States. Who knew when the trio would meet again.

“Hey, are you okay?” Kihyun asks you. He could tell from the empty stare that you were hurt but you turn to him smiling as you’d always do, “yeah, I’m okay just… wouldn’t have expected him to leave you know?” you shrug before linking your arm with Kihyun’s. Changkyun pondered in the aircraft, his head leaning against the interior of the plane, staring to the nothingness outside. He was off to the states with his parents to start a new life, to experience new things. You and Kihyun took the bus home but instead Kihyun stopped off at the mall. “why did you stop here?” you ask looking at yourself in your compact mirror. “Maybe get you something to eat since you didn’t eat anything?” He grabs your hand and looks back up at your again and stops for a moment. Maybe that wasn’t a good idea? He gently takes his hand away from yours and waits for you to get off before he followed. Kihyun tried his best on this occasion to make you happy, paying for food and also buying some ice cream. The sky was progressively getting darker as you both walked home together the sweetness of the ice cream setting on your tastebuds. “are you feeling slightly better now?” he asks you as he holds the empty ice cream cup in his left hand leaving his right hand unoccupied. “a little bit, I guess I just have to accept it right?” you smile at him, “besides I’m moving onto campus in a couple days so it’s just the matter of getting on with it.” You clear you throat before a downpour spewed from the darkened sky. Instinctively, you latch onto Kihyun’s arm but that was when he’d have an umbrella on him. “it didn’t say it’d rain today?” Kihyun looks over at you shivering from the rain. He takes his long bomber jacket off from his body and drapes it over your shoulders to keep you as warm as possible. “What are you doing Kihyun?” the exclamation in your voice startling him. “You’re cold and I gave you my jacket,” Kihyun’s head tilts, stating what he was doing. “I mean, thank you I do appreciate it,” you smile, “if you had other ideas in your head, don’t..” Kihyun panicked. You smiled at his light-hearted teasing but Kihyun looked ahead whilst walking. You approached your house first and gave Kihyun a hug; “thank you for walking me home and comforting me this evening,” You say as your head was leaning into his shoulder, his arms were around your waist respectively. “I’ll be here for you and Changkyun will be there for you to regardless of time zones,” he speaks softly as you part from the embrace, “I know, I hope we can still keep in touch when we move to university.” You say as you make eye contact with Kihyun’s . You remove the jacket from the shoulders and hand it to Kihyun; “please get home safely, message me when you’re home,” You smile at Kihyun. It was like old times, where you used to prove you cared for me…“I will, I promise,” Kihyun puts his hand on your shoulder before he turns around and leaves through the gates and disappears around the corner. My heart never skipped beats like this before, get a hold of yourself. He puts his jacket back on and makes the rest of the journey home with the bus.

“Are you home yet?” you type in then delete the message. Your phone rests in your hand and you think what to write. You didn’t want to sound obsessive or too protective but you wanted to sound protective enough. “hey, are you home safe and sound?”

Kihyun looks down at his phone, taking it out of his pocket as he takes his shoes off and hangs his wet jacket to dry. “Yeah, just walked in,” Kihyun types, it felt weird how you’d message him only when you didn’t have Changkyun’s attention but he shook his head to forget the absurd thoughts since his mind was making things up to mess with him. “you okay?” he messages back.

“Yeah especially after this evening, thank you so much Kihyun,” you reply to him as you sit at your dining table with your family for dinner; “do you wanna maybe help out with me moving out?” you type then delete it again because he must be doing the same. “when will you be moving to your uni campus?” You ask him since you didn’t know where he was going but assumed it wasn’t to yours. “I’m packing on Thursday for Saturday.” Kihyun replies,

The blinking line in the text box blinks to the rhythm of your heart. You felt stupid for asking but you were curious. Your evening was spent with your family, enjoying and celebrating your acceptance to Seoul University; you wondered how these wondrous dorms looked like and if you were going to have a room mate, you thought about making new friends and going to university events and having unlimited access to the library that was radiating knowledge. It was all so new and it was exciting to you. You messaged Changkyun just so he knew you were thinking about him and you waited for his response although you knew he wouldn’t reply until tomorrow. You had to begin packing so you went to scavenge for some boxes which were in the attic. Your father helped bring the ladder down and you both went up to grab some boxes and to your surprise you found a few things that your forgot about. There were some photo albums and multiple boxes of trinkets and items which you went through. They were photos of you and Kihyun from your preschool days, some toys and presents that were made by Kihyun and a his glove that he left at your house when he was 6 years old. It brought a smile to you face. “hey, are these all you need?” your father asks holding up some flat boxes; “huh? Oh, yeah those are it!” you leave the stuff in the box and put it back into its place and going back down to pack your items. During the process, it felt nauseating to leave your family and voyage on this journey alone. How would you cope without your mother and father there to help you when you needed them, your mothers cooking, your puppy? It should be fine right? Your desk was almost all cleared away and you grabbed the final two things; the photo of you Changkyun and Kihyun and the stuffed bunny. You couldn’t leave them behind you had to take them with you.

Moving out day arrived shortly and you sat in the car with your father going to your campus to move in. “did you check your accommodation?” your father asks. “I did and it looked good!” you smile confidently. Little did you know photos and real life are two different things. You arrived to your accommodation; it was a tall building looming over on the street that had other accommodation complexes; the prices were astronomical and almost unaffordable so you stayed safe with the cheaper option. You fiddle with the keycard between your sweaty palms, why were you so nervous? You got to your dorm and you swiped the card to let you in although, despite the technology, the interior was cold and almost damp. “oh god, why is it like this in here?” your father asks as he takes a look around. The gas pipes trailed along the skirting of the walls, the paint was chipped and had minor stains on them which you didn’t want to question, not to mention the tattered curtains and dark carpets. “these carpets were supposed to be a light brown,” your father gulped “I have a carpet cleaner at home, we can clean this place up a bit before you settle?” he suggests and you just nod to him, not feeling very satisfied with what you have witnessed. You check the bathroom; the tiles were a rusty brown and there was limescale covering the shower head, taps and sink. God… you thought to yourself, you had a lot of cleaning to do. You didn’t have a private kitchen so the communal kitchen was something you had to get used to as well as sharing a fridge and cupboards. From this day on, you began to get your dorm into shape, cleaning and restoring the dorm as much as you could and investing in some slippers just to be extra clean! You set up your computer at your desk and brought in your items to move in peacefully. The windows were large and opened wide enough to let out the aroma of bleach and chemicals waft out as you spray some air freshener so you could respirate in your own living space. After your father left, you tried to get used to your dorm before there was a knock just as you sat down. You didn’t know if you should open the door so you just yelled: “ I didn’t order anything, I just moved in!”

“We’re not here for delivery!” one of the voices called out. It was a cheerful, higher pitched voice. She sounded cute and friendly so you stood up and took the risk to open the door. The girl had a blue hair that was looking seafoam green in the hallway lighting. He eyes were rounder and her dark almost like a puppy. “Hello floor mate, I’m Gowon!” she is the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life – you thought to yourself. “ I moved in a couple weeks ago and I thought we could get to know each other!” She smiles, her pink tinted lips turn into a wholesome smile. You nervously chuckle, “ahah yeah! That’d be nice. I’m trying to get used to me dorm right now,” your hand rests on the back of your neck. “ you’ll get used to it in no time!” she smiles at you, “what are you going to major in?” she asks. God, I’m a Business and Management major, does that make me boring? “Business and Management..” your tone lowers, embarrassed at what you were saying. “Oh my god really! My friend does that, I’m super interested in fashion so fashion designing was quite interesting!” who was her friend? “do you have anyone from your school here?” Gowon asks and you shake your head. “what can you do,” you let your lips curl into a smile, “ one of my friends moved to the states because he wanted to go to university there and my other friend is staying here but I don’t know where he’s going, he hasn’t told me and I don’t wanna ask him because what if he did tell me and I wasn’t listening, I’d feel bad.” Your thoughts where going hectic. Gowon puts her hand on your shoulder, “hey! It’s okay if you keep in contact that’s all that matters and besides you can meet new people here!”

Gowon was so sweet and you could see yourself become really close friends with her. You text Kihyun; “hey! I moved in.” you type and add a smile emoticon to make it seem less dry than looked. You notice the bubble with the three dots appear – he was typing- and you sat on your bed waiting for his reply. “that’s cool! How is it?” he replied. He wanted to know what conditions you were living in hoping it was too bad. “it’s okay, there were a few problems but it’s okay, it’s all sorted out… kinda.”

You spoke to Kihyun for a few minutes before he had to go offline since he was busy. You first university day starts in a couple weeks so you had time to get used to your environment and make some friends while you were at it but it wasn’t easy since everyone was in their rooms most the time. Only Gowon was out on walks or getting some coffee or going for a small food shop. You thought it’d be a good opportunity to hang out with her for a while to get comfortable and become closer friends.

[a couple weeks later]

Your alarm buzzed at 6am. You haven’t heard that for a while and it was infuriating to hear the annoying sound at your ears when it was still dark outside. You grab your phone and sit up in your bed, tossing aside your phone which decided it would like it better on the floor. You groaned tiredly and slip on you slippers and grab a hoodie to make your way to the bathroom to freshen up. You look around for the toothbrush and toothpaste wondering where they were. Of course, you didn’t turn the light on, so your pushed the light switch to find them on your sink. Your tiredness was getting the best of you. You got dressed and decided today wasn’t the day for breakfast, grabbed your bad, phone, purse and key card to make your way to campus. It was cold but it was refreshing to walk in. Usually you’d walk with Kihyun but of course, he wasn’t here to walk with you every morning.

Gowon runs up behind you; “bOO!” she yells which startles you. “oh my-” you raise your voice only to realise it was Gowon. “did I scare you?” he nudged. Your connection to her felt familiar, like you knew her for a long time and it was comforting. You see behind her there was another person; His hair was blond and wavey, stopping just under is brows, lips tinted a light pink and his smooth, glass like skin illuminated by the winter sun. “This is Minhyuk, he helped me out when we both moved on the same day!” Gowon introduces and Minhyuk waves at you, smiling at you charmingly. You raise your hand and introduce yourself before you all go to campus. Who knew how easy it was to make new friends? Two already? 

You think how Kihyun was doing but to your little knowledge, he was already in his first class getting to know everyone. He looked at his phone, swiping up to unlock it then pressing the green speech bubble to message you. “Hey, you in uni yet?” he asks you. “hey Kihyun, I am. Why are you messaging me?” you sounded a little passive aggressive you you send the ‘x’ kiss. “you do know I got to the same university as you but someonewas too excited to even ask me :/” you gasped and held the screen closer to your face. “have you seen a ghost?” Gowon asks “or did someone send you an early morning naughty photo” Minhyuk snickers behind her looking over her should just to see a series of texts. “boyfriend?” he asks. You shake your head; “no no, it’s just my best friend apparently he goes here too but-” you were interrupted by Gowon’s gas, “you didn’t ask him! Girl, were you dating someone and forgot about him?” you stood there silently biting your lip. “I take that as a yes, tell us about him, what does he do, where does he go, introduce us to him plea-” Gowon paused after seeing how dismal it made you feel talking about him. “he left to the states and I guess I have to move on,” you force a smile, “lets go shall we?”

Why did Kihyun make it hard for you. Now they think you’re in a love triangle, you hope they didn’t at least. Your introductory day went well and you met a lot of people who are doing the same degree as you. “Hey,” Kihyun waves with a smile whislt walking over to you. “Wow how have you not fallen for him?” Gowon asks you and you don’t respond. “what’s up man, your bestie here has said a lot about you!” Lies. Absolute lies. I don’t hate him but you don’t want people to get the wrong idea. “oh really? I must be the centre of your conversations then.” He looks down at you and ruffles your hair and you smile back. “well me and Kihyun have know each other since we were born pretty much,” you giggle before someone interrupted yet again, “hey, you four coming to the freshers party?” he asks. You all look at each other. “oh um, sure why not!” Minhyuk smiles from ear to ear. Freshers parties are for the new students to interact and get to know each other often organised by the senior students. “when is it?” Kihyun and Gowon ask simultaneously. “it’s actually going to be next month since the uni team are free then, it’ll be at a share house just a few minutes away from the campus, but I hope you guys can come!” the guy smiles and waves. “OI wait, what time?” Minhyuk hollers. “Probably 7pm and you can leave by the early hours of the morning, see ya!”

“damn so much freedom and responsibility, how does it feel to be so free?” Gowon asks. “My parents allowed me to do things reasonably, but this is a lot of responsibility,” you twiddled your thumbs, “she never got drunk, a good little bunny she is.” Kihyun smiles and chuckles teasing you. “you guys seem like a couple” Gowon giggles, “what a shame girly, I quite liked the look of your best friend Kihyun.” Gowon pouted. You felt a bit sick; “ew, this guy? Did you know he-” Kihyun’s hand covers your mouth, “now now, I am a man of many mysteries,” he raises a brow. You scoff.

Later that evening you hung out with the three friends you have, and you were invited to Minhyuk’s dorm. “Damn you have everything sorted here, your lights are cool!” Kihyun points out, “and a games console, alright turn it on let’s play!”

You and Gowon sit on Minhyuk’s bed and talk to each other. You glance at the boys and your heart does flips. No stop it don’t do that. You tell yourself, Gowon’s voice muffling until you were shaken out of it – quite literally. You try to divert the attention and soon after you decide to go back to your dorm. The trio seemed disheartened that you had to leave first but you just had to go.

You lay in your bed staring at the leak stain on your ceiling before turning away to the side, watching the screen of your phone glow blue. You gasped; “Hey, how are you?” it was Changkyun and he finally messaged you since he left. “I’m okay-” you think to type ‘I miss you’ but you didn’t want to sound .. well you know. “I’m okay, I made a couple friends!”

You and Changkyun spoke for a little bit until he stopped replying. It seems like he fell asleep; you knew he was enjoying his time there, Changkyun never turns down a party. You sigh loudly in your room before the heating stops and your room temperature drops rapidly. “no no no-“ you go to your heating dial trying to fix it. There was no hope; why is it your dorm room with all these problems? You let it be and tried to go to sleep with layers of blankets to keep you warm.

-

“Hey, are you excited for the party?” Gowon asks. “so excited,” you smile and look at Minhyuk and Kihyun talking about something, “how about you guys?” You ask. “awh yeah, I think it’d be so cool!” Minhyuk smiled; his soft puppy like features not matching up with his ‘rebellious bad boy’ vibes was something that entranced you, just how? “Yeah, It’s a new experience so that’s cool,” Kihyun added.

Throughout the day you and Gowon and Minhyuk became closer as did Kihyun. “yo, so where does your girlfriend go?” Minhyuk asks assuming Kihyun had one. Kihyub smiles and sighs, “I never dated anyone..” Gowon gasped at his remark. “I mean I tried to set him up with my friend Irene but he just refused,” you shrug “what a shame, she was a nice girl.” You say as you stand beside him. “she actually refused me, did she tell you otherwise?” he asks you, his voice low. What’s gotten in to him? “I mean, no I just assumed that-“ you were interrupted by him, “heres a life lesson, assuming things isn’t very safe it can lead to many problems,” He patted your head and smiled “she refused me politely so now you know.”

Gowon stared at him in disbelief. “have you ever had feeling for anyone?” she was interested to know. He shook his head; it was a blatant lie. “Woow…” she looked away in disbelief. Kihyun laughed already predicting their reactions but he brushed it off it was no big deal, sometimes it was best to move on, right? [later that evening] The room was cramped with students new and old dancing and drinking with their friends in the kitchen, standing in the hallways and sitting on stairs. The music was blaring out so loud that you could barely even hear your thoughts which was a good thing. You approached a small group of people who seemed to be a year older; “hey! You’re a new student here right, first year?” one of the guys spoke out to you from the other end of the room and he seemed to be approaching you at a quick pace with a drink in his hand. “want some help getting to know some people?” he seemed super friendly and draped an arm around you and escorted you around the place. You already lost the others, usually Kihyun would be beside you regardless but he left with Minhyuk somewhere. You took a sip of the liquid which gave your tongue a burning sensation; “new to drinking I see, you’ll get used to it,” he smiles at you his arm tightening around your shoulder. “so out here are all the kids who were a part of some drama and they’re quite daring too, I must say I am a part of that group,” he chuckles “no worries though because in the kitchen are the 2nd year business and management lot.. they’re a bit boring but there’s that,” he tuts and passes them as your heart sank since you saw Minhyuk and Kihyun together with Gowon and someone else they befriended whilst you were being taken around by some random student. You felt a little dizzy as he was showing you around until you asked to sit down to which you were sat down on a couch with that guy. Voices began to muffle slowly, your world a haze; what was that drink? Or what was IN that drink?

You open your eyes, gasping for air finding yourself still on the couch although your head was in someone’s lap. You look up to see it was Kihyun and you gulped, nervous to even ask what happened. He looked rather angry and out of character, Minhyuk sitting with his hands in his hands and Gowon sitting on the arm of the seat. “she’s up guys there really was no reason to act up like that was it?” She looked at the boys. What even happened?

–      Minhyuk and Kihyun both saw you passed out on the couch with the older boys surrounding you with cameras out facing the ‘nice guy’ trying to do something that wasn’t right. They were both furious but they were confused as to why each other reacted the way they did. Charging in absolute anger, Minhyuk threw the guy off you and Kihyun lifted your head up to check up on you. “Leave her alone!” Minhyuk grunted as the guy held him by the collar throwing a punch and leaving him on the floor. Kihyun checked if you were hurt and luckily you weren’t but he thought why Minhyuk go so angry so quick. It reminded him of how protective Changkyun was of you and it made his stomach churn. –

“let’s take you home..” Kihyun sighs “ I don’t think right now is the best time to come to parties..” he knew something would happen if he left you alone. “taking advantage of people is so shit,” Minhyuk scoffs as Gowon pats his back. “Let’s all just go and make sure she’s okay,” Gowon picks up your stuff. Only 3 hours in and this is what happens, what a vibe killer.

Your dorm has a leaking ceiling so when you opened your door your bed was wet. “you must be joking..” you whisper. “are you okay?” Kihyun asks. “yeah I’m fine thanks, you can go now, sorry for the trouble,” you look down in disappointment. “no problem, I’m here for you whenever you need me okay, my apartment is a few minutes away from your dorm,” he writes down his address on a text message and sends it to you. You nod and thank him before shutting the door and looking at the leak and open your door heading out again. “oh hey, you alright?” Minhyuk comes back with a plastic bag of things he bought from the convenience store; “why are you outside?” he asks “leak in my ceiling again…” you respond. “ahh, wanna hang at mine before you decide what to do?” you think for a moment. Maybe going to Kihyun’s was a good idea. “I think I might visit Kihyun now,” you nod.

You felt awful. You created such a scene yet Kihyun was still there for you. You get to his apartment and knock at the door and he opens knowing it was you. “welcome, good thing I’m making food” he smiles grabbing your hand to pull your inside “come here it’s cold out there”

“I’m sorry for what I did today,” you gulp and avoid eye contact. “sorry for what? Being an idiot and taking a drink from someone else? Yeah don’t worry you didn’t know but next time don’t get lost you have a phone for a reason,” he says laying a bowl of ramen in front of you, “anyway eat up,” he says going for it as soon as he sat down. “why are you here?” he asks. You stare at him, there was genuine concern in his eyes. “I have a leak in my dorm and my bed is wet,” Kihyun laughs, “what a lame excuse to hang out with me AND stay with me,” he jokes “I’m joking of course.” He hands you one of his hoodies since you seemed cold. “well you can stay here until someone fixes that leak in your dorm,” he smiles softly. I want to tell her right here right now… he opens his mouth then stops. “what were you going to say?”

“it doesn’t matter don’t worry…” he held back, no matter how hard it was. He tucked a bit of hair that dangled down the side of your face back. “don’t eat your hair too?” he jokes and laughs. “since when were you so cocky Kihyun?” you asked him since you noticed a shift in behaviour. I have no competition… “Oh I guess new school new me?” he shrugs. “right,” you nod.

You and Kihyun sit on his bed watching something on youtube, laughing at a show you both like until he drifted off leaning back on his headboard. You thought it was an uncomfortable position, so you moved his head to your shoulder and threw a blanket over him. This felt like the good old days. Your eyes also began to get heavy, so you thought to close your eyes for only a few seconds. Although, seconds turned to minutes and minutes to hours, by the time you knew it you were both asleep. Fast asleep.

- Chapter 4

[chaoticbunwon]

Not Friends Anymore

Part 3

Pairing: KihyunXReader

Sunrays hitting your face made you jolt up from your bed. You wondered how come you ended up there though. As you were getting to leave your bed sudden pain striked your head, HANGOVER! You sat back holding your head in your hands "You shouldnt do that again you know you cant handle it" a familiar voice echoed in your room. You looked up as your heart raced and there he was standing in your bedroom's doorway arms crossed on his chest and a serious expression on his face still looking ethereal. "what are you doing here Kihyun? and where is Naeyon?" you asked glaing at him. "She said she has some work to do she'll be back in the evening, now freshen up your breakfast is ready" he turned around in order to leave your room. "wait, why are you here? why are you being nice? why are you acting as if nothing happened?" you looked at him with confusion to which he just smiled and said "can we talk about it later? please get up now" he pleaded. You listened to him and when you were done you went back to the kitchen to meet him. "here! sit down" he passed you your favourite waffles with maple syrup on it. "I bet you are very hungry just finish it up and then we'll talk" he said. you finished eating hurriedly just to talk with him. he watched you carefully while eating and was constantly smiling at you. "Now" you said "care to explain?" Kihyun blinked his eyes several times "Listen Y/N, I know that I've been avoiding you for few days" he said hesitantly "few days?" you back fired "its been months you arent talking with me properly you suddenly stopped meeting me and yesterday I saw you in the club-" you were holding back your tears "I know Y/N. I.. I am sorry. I shouldnt have treated you like that and about yesterday it was all a misunderstanding" "A misunderstanding?" "yeah. well the girl you saw with me was my distant cousin, you dont know her. she's here for her vacations and wanted to visit places, I wasnt even interested but she insisted. I had to listen to her" he sighed "well though I should have rejected it" "cousin? she was your cousin? but that doesnt explain why you were avoiding me before?" you asked "yeah about that it was a... I mean... How should I put it?" Kihyun said, fiddling with the hem of his shirt, obvious nervousness on his face. "What is it Ki?" you touched his hand reassuring him to say whatever was in his mind. Listening to his pet name from you reassured him "I know what I'm going to say is stupid but, I was afraid-"

"afraid of what?" you asked

"afraid of loosing you. Well I heard you talking with him and I thought you liked him and he liked you and I thought maybe it wouldnt be a good idea to stay, be friends with you-" "Kihyun what are you talking about?" you asked him with confusion

Flashback

It was your movie night ritual with your best buddies. As Naeyon was on her night shift she just cancelled the plan so it was just you and Kihyun today. "can we just watch beauty and the beast?" you pouted "But we've already watched it for like thousandth times?" he said mockingly "I hate horror movies" you muttered under your breathe "I can hear you" he laughed "you are a dumbass" you teased him "yah! how can you?" Your phone started ringing suddenly "Ki can you pass me my phone?" "yeah sure" he glanced at your mobile's screen it was Jaehyun's call. "I'll be back in a minute." you excused yourself and went inside your bedroom.

Kihyun's POV

'Why is she taking so much time? Should I check? no no that's not a good idea' he fighted with his own thoughts. After waiting for several minutes he decided to look for you. He headed towards your bedroom, was about to knock on your door when "Oppa~ you are asking me out for a date?" stopping in his tracks he listened to your voice confessing to Jaehyun "ofcourse I'd love too" you said. He felt wrong for eavesdropping but couldnt help he wanted to know what you were talking. Kihyun could imagine your smiling face while talking to Jaehyun, your voice said it all "yaa yaa I love you too baby~" the words which he didnt ever expected from you for someone else stabbed his heart like a knife and tears started welling up in his eyes "see you on our date night then" you hanged up the call, thats when Kihyun ran back to the living room and sat on the sofa as if nothing happened though all he wanted to do was cry out loud. The mere thought of the girl he loved, had a crush on for all these years has fallen for someone else broken him into pieces.

[kpop-ruined-my-social-life]

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Studio time (Jihoon/woozi)

Dance for me (Soonyoung/Hoshi)

Please (Jeonghan)

Vacation (Jooheon)

Bath time (Mark)

Coffee (Jungkook)

Dream (Taehyung)

Midnight (Taeyong)

Blindfolds (Taemin)

Best friend (Jackson)

Only A Dream (Jungkook)

Wet (Ten)

8:00 PM | Golden Daze 

1:40 PM | Princess

Media!au:

If Ateez had their own IG

If Stray Kids had their own IG

If SF9 had their own IG

Jealous texts from Stray Kids 

1/3

2/3

3/3

Ateez Snaps

Seonghwa

Hongjoong

Yunho

San

Wooyoung

Mingi

Yeosang

Jongho

Media Series:

Enchant (HwangHyunjinXReader)

Prologue

Meet the girls 

Part 1

Mini-series:

Sweat (YugyeomXReaderXJungkook)

Preview to Pt. 1, Friends With Benefits (YugyeomXReader)

Preview to Pt. 2, Practice (JungkookXReader)

Preview to Pt. 3, Sweat (YugyeomXReaderXJungkook)

Friends with Benefits

Practice

Sweat

Boss (Mafia!NCTXReader)

Preview

Full Fics:

Master (CEO!JiminXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

White Satin Sheets (Spoiled rich play boy!JaebumXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Crown (Crown Prince!KihyunXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Lockscreans:

Simply BTS Lockscreans

Simply Kai Lockscreens

[k-fiction-therapy]

Masterlist

FANFICTION: 

B.A.P:

Naked Brunch [Daehyun/Jongup/Female Reader] (19+)

BIGBANG:

Modern Art [GDTOP] (PG-13)

BTS:

You Wanna Try Me? [TaeKook] (18+)

You Should Be Nicer To Yourself [YoonSeok] (PG)

Just Another Face In The Crowd [Jungkook/Female Reader] (PG-13)

Clandestine In The Moonlight [Taehyung] (19+)

EXO:

Cure For Lethargy [SeSoo] (PG-13)

Laundry Day [Mini] [Minseok/Sehun/Baekhyun] (PG)

GOT7:

Take Me, The Both Of You [Youngjae/Jackson/Female Reader] (18+)

I Miss You Too [Youngjae (& Jaebum [Mentioned])] (18+)

Truth or Dare [Jackson/Male Reader] (18+)

You’re Mine [Jaebum/Female Reader] (18+)

After The Fansign [MarkSon] (18+)

You’re Too Nice [Jackson/Reader] (18+)

MONSTA X:

In The Storage Closet [Kiho] (18+)

You Are My Sun [WonHyuk] (PG-13)

“Hey Honey, You Got Something For Me?” [JooKyun] (19+)

Time To Hit The Showers [Shownu/Female Reader] (18+)

The Skype Call [HyungWonho] (18+)

Shower Time~ [Shownu/Reader] (18+)

Yes, Senpai [Kihyun/Female Reader] (19+)

I’m Not Usually Like This [Minhyuk/Reader] (18+)

I Think I Can Take You [Shownu/Reader] (19+)

Here Kitty, Kitty, Kitty~ [JooKyun] (19+)

Shy Taste~ [Shownu/Female Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 1 - Shownu) [Shownu/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 2 - Wonho) [Wonho/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 3 - Minhyuk) [Minhyuk/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 4 - Kihyun) [Kihyun/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 5 - Hyungwon) [Hyungwon/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 6 - Jooheon) [Jooheon/Reader] (18+)

Into The Night (Version 7 - Changkyun) [Changkyun/Reader] (18+)

NCT:

At Least Hold My Hand [Lucas/Ten] (19+)

The Ritual (19+)

Neon City (Part I) [JaeYong]

SEVENTEEN:

Studio Session [SoonHoon] (19+)

I Love You, Noona [DK/Female Reader] (18+)

Good Samaritan, Voyeur [SoonHoon] (18+)

All You Had To Do Was Ask [DK/Reader] (18+)

SHINee:

Dizzying Attraction, MOVE [Taemin/Reader] (18+)

Bound [Taemin/Male Reader] (19+)

Leader’s Girl [Onew/Female Reader] (PG-13)

There’s Something About Your Body, Body, Body [Taemin/Female Reader] (18+)

After Practice [Taemin/Reader] (18+)

VIXX:

Beautiful Liar [WonTaek, LR] (18+)

Let Me Hear Your Voice [Leo/Reader] (PG-13)

Mixed:

Press It, Say Hello [TaeKai] (19+)

I Knew The Moment I Met You [TaeKai] (19+)

Soloists:

Welcome Home [₩uNo/Reader] (18+)

Actors/Actresses:

Distant Boy [Lee Jongsuk/Reader] (NC-17)

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FLASH FICTION:

A.C.E:

DongJun Ship Mini Plot

ASTRO:

MoonbinXWOC Reader Mini Plot

ATEEZ:

Song Mingi & Reader Greek Mythology AU Mini Plot

HongjoongXJongho Mini-Fic Plot

B.A.P: 

YonggukXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

HimchanXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

DaehyunXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

YoungjaeXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

JongupXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

ZeloXMale!Reader Mini: Awkward Boner

Meanwhile Backstage [DaeUp]

BTS:

Sauce~ [NamJin] 

Compassion~ [Jimin]

Back In The Hotel Room [Jimin]

Handsome~ [JiKook]

Delicious~ [Taehyung/Female Reader]

TaeKook Mini Plot

NamjoonXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

SeokjinXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

YoongiXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

HoseokXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

JiminXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

TaehyungXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

JungkookXReader Mini: Thigh Riding

Morning Rhythm [Jimin] 

JiminX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

JungkookX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

JinX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

TaehyungX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

RMX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

J-HopeX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

SugaX[Older]Female!Reader Mini: Noona Kink

DAY6:

SungjinXReader Mini: Tied Up & Waiting

JaeXReader Mini: Tied Up & Waiting

YoungKXReader Mini: Tied Up & Waiting

WonpilXReader Mini: Tied Up & Waiting

DowoonXReader Mini: Tied Up & Waiting

GOT7:

Being Tall Suits You- [YugBam]

JaebumXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

JinyoungXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

MarkXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

JacksonXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

YoungjaeXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

BambamXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

YugyeomXReader Mini: Cumming Inside

MONSTA X:

WonhoXReader Mini Plot

Good Morning, Hyunwoo [ShowKi]

Pretty Boys Shouldn’t Cry [HyungWonho]

Over The Edge [Shownu/Reader]

You’re My Ideal Type [Wonho/Female Reader]

ShownuXReader Mini: Grinding

KihyunXReader Mini: Grinding

MinhyukXReader Mini: Grinding

HyungwonXReader Mini: Grinding

WonhoXReader Mini: Grinding

JooheonXReader Mini: Grinding

ChangkyunXReader Mini: Grinding

ShownuXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

KihyunXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

MinhyukXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

HyungwonXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

WonhoXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

JooheonXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

ChangkyunXReader Mini: Finger Sucking

ShownuXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

KihyunXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

MinhyukXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

HyungwonXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

WonhoXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

JooheonXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

ChangkyunXReader Mini: Loud In Bed

NCT:

YuWin Ship Mini Plot

LucasXTaeil HighSchool!AU Mini Plot

JaehyunXDoyoung Greek Mythology AU Full Plot

JohnnyXJaehyun Mini Plot

~Oral Fixation~ [Jungwoo/Johnny/Jaehyun]

JaehyunXTaeyong Plot

SHINee:

Enjoyable [OnTae]

What A Beautiful View [OnHo]

TaeKey Omegaverse AU Plot

OnewXReader Mini: Being Unable To Walk After Sex

KibumXReader Mini: Being Unable To Walk After Sex

MinhoXReader Mini: Being Unable To Walk After Sex

TaeminXReader Mini: Being Unable To Walk After Sex

Stray Kids:

Changlix Fantasy AU Plot

VIXX:

LR Fantasy AU Rough Plot

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ASK GAMES:

1 Idol/1 object/1 word:

Jungwoo/Bath Robe/“Firey”

Kihyun/Phone/“Naughty”

Sehyoon/Pillow/“Femdom”

Namjoon/Collar/“Beg”

BamBam/Crown/“Bratty”

Ziu/Bathing Suit/“Sparkle”

Hakyeon/Scepter/“Master”

Changkyun/Vibrator/“Risky”

Jooheon/Blindfold/“Pegging”

Taekwoon/Belt/“Daddy”

TOP/Leather Gloves/“Listen”

Mingi/Sushi/“Friendship”

YoungK/Leash/“Pet”

Rainy day:

Wonho [Monsta X]

Daehyun [B.A.P] 

Youngjae [B.A.P]

I.M [Monsta X]

Kihyun [Monsta X]

Donghan [JBJ]

Jinho [Pentagon]

A-Z Smut Alphabet:

Wonho [Monsta X]

Jungkook [BTS]

Namjoon [BTS]

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MOODBOARDS:

ATEEZ:

Mingi hands free masturbating Moodboard

B.A.P:

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Jongup

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Himchan

Skydive, Freefall - DaeUp Moodboard

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Daehyun

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Zelo

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Youngjae

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Yongguk

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Reader

Skydive, Freefall Character Moodboard: Hakyeon

Daehyun - Gangster/Daddy

BIGBANG:

GDTOP - Our Love Is Art

BTS:

Jimin -��“Morning Rhythm”

DAY6:

Dowoon - Sub/Kisses

YoungK - Sub/Fox

JBJ:

Kenta - “So Pretty In Pink”

MONSTA X:

Wonho - “Rope Bunny”

Changkyun - Neko~

Changkyun - Subby

Jooheon - Daddy

NCT:

Doyoung as Asclepius Moodboard

Jaehyun as Caduceus Moodboard

Jaehyun - “Rich Boy”

Taeyong - “Soft Pride”

Yuta - “Senpai”

Johnny - “Long Distance”

Jungwoo - “Shark”

Yuta - “90′s Heartthrob”

Yuta - Kyoto

Yuta - Samurai

SHINee:

Taemin - “Purple Neon”

Taemin - “Bondage”

Taemin - Blue Night 

Taemin - Blood Orange 

Taemin - Purple

WINNER:

Mino - “Red Neon”

VIXX:

Water Nymph Leo Moodboard

Centaur Ravi Moodboard

Soloists:

Zion.T - 70′s

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VIDEOS:

Let Me Hear Your Voice [Vampire!Leo/Reader]

Skydive, Freefall Fanfiction Trailer

Skydive, Freefall DaeUp Teaser 

The Devil On Two Sticks Teaser [Pseudo Prequel to “The Ritual”]

[itslilliansnow]

“If what you just said is true”

Hello lovely! Thank for your request and feel free to ask again! English is not my first language, I’m still learning and this helps a lot. Sorry for any mistakes! Love. ♥

Pairing: KihyunxReader Genre: Fluff Requested: By anon

Waiting hours to receive an answer from your best friend was normal, being an idol had its perks but also negative sides that those who didn't live in that world could scarcely understand. 

Yet you had hoped that at least that day he would remember to be more present, but once again you couldn't expect the moon.

"He's surely busy" you hummed, the phone near to you on the desk without a sign of life, "we'll celebrate my birthday another day."

"How can you celebrate a birthday a different day? Besides, you, the most amazing person in the world, deserves to be celebrated. "

His voice was unmistakable and turning, being careful not to fall from the chair, you found him on the threshold of your room, perfect as always and with a paper hat well fixed on the head.

A huge smile stretched out on your lips, screaming happily you jumped down from the chair and in less than a few seconds, you already had your arms and legs tied around his body. His scent, a mixture of soap and deodorant, stroked your nostrils while his arms clasped gently around your waist.

"Aw, you're so cute," he whispered in your ear, obviously referring to your reaction and maybe to the fact that you were wearing Sailor moon's pajamas. What could you do if you were no longer a child but still loved cartoons?

"Don't Tease Me, dwarf."

"Because you're taller, aren't you?"

Grinning you sticked your tongue out and gently loosened the grip of your arms, though it didn't seem he was inclined to let you go. "I'm heavy, put me down."

The "Tzc" arrived shortly after, hiked between his teeth and stained by a nuisance that now you knew how to grasp immediately, while his gaze became more serious than ever. " You're not heavy and if I want to keep you in my arms, I'll keep you in my arms, okay? "

"I thought you were busy," you said changing the topic while with a few steps he sat on the bed, always keeping you firmly against his body. "I should understand it, do you know it?"

"You shouldn't always understand, Y/N. Bear so much and..." His voice faded and in his eyes, to you always so transparent and easy to read, there was an emotion unknown to you. "I am tired of you enduring my absences and never being able to be here with and for you"

"You are an Idol Kiki, you know I understand it and you're still doing your best," raising your hand you stroked his cheek, outlining the marked traits of the jaw and the cheekbone, "to me it's not a prob-"

"It is.. for me it's a big problem." He interrupted you and turning his face he grazed with his plumpy lips, your fingertips, provoking a shocking thrill all along your back. "You make me so happy and I know I'm not able to do the same. Perhaps because I would like to make you happy in a different way from that of a simple best friend."

His words brought down the total silence between the walls of your room and your breath stuck in your throat, your eyes widened and you knew that silence would allow him to feel the accelerated heartbeat of your heart. Never in six years "together" and two of hidden feelings  - because it was impossible not to fall for him - you never would have thought that that moment would come.

Instead, it seemed to be there, in front of you and just waiting for you to grab it with both hands.

"Who says you can't do the same?" You whispered, tilting the face slowly towards his to the point that now the tips of your noses were barely touching.

Kihyun swallowed and a powerful shiver shook him from the inside, his head almost overloaded with too many thoughts, your breath to tickle his lips.

"Sensations."

"If what you just said is true, you just made me the happiest girl in the world, Kihyun."

"I'll correct you. If what you just said is true you mean you're my girlfriend and I'll make you the happiest in the world."

[sjjms]

family | final

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 856 words genre: fluff summary: family

other parts

My tired eyes widened hearing the baby monitor go off for the sixth time tonight, shh, I thought… I just wanted to go back to sleep. Nothing mattered more than falling back to sleep at this moment. I moved my arm to rest it on the back of my forehead, I let out a loud sigh knowing the other one was going to wake up. As the wailing continued, I stretched my arm out across the empty bed. My hand caught on the loose bed sheet reminding me of the conversation we had a few days ago. I told him to go… I was the one to tell him I would be okay be myself with both kids. I still missed him... he would be back in 2 more days and those two days couldn't go any quicker. My mind was pulled back to him crying, I didn't want to get out of bed because I knew the heating in the apartment wouldn't be on for another half an hour but he was more important.

I was going to wait one more minute before getting up, I knew it was 5 AM without having to glimpse at the clock because I hadn’t managed to get back to sleep from the last disruption. I started to pull the covers off my body when I heard the muffled sounds on the baby monitor, I glanced to the side and reached out to pick it up. My arm being revealed to the cold, I instantly pulled it back in when I heard his voice. “Why are you crying? It is because you missed me?” Kihyun.

He was home…

A sleepy smile fell over my face after hearing his voice again, I had missed it. “Did you just want to be cuddled?” I wanted to hug him too… he had finally stopped crying as I knew Kihyun could be rocking him back to sleep it meant I could safely close my again and try to fall asleep before he came in. A few minutes maybe even hours must've gone by as when I next opened my eyes Kihyun was walking towards me.

“Why did you come back early? Did you miss us?” I whisper, Kihyun leaned over me to kiss me on the lips. I had missed this type of intimacy, I would have pulled him into bed with me then and there but I would have had to slide across to the cold side of the bed.

“Of course. The conference concluded earlier than planned but it meant I could catch an earlier flight home to you.” Kihyun smiles, I reached up to pull on his tie slightly pulling him in till our lips touched again. “I can see you missed me for other reasons.” Kihyun chuckles pulling away from me, he wasn’t lying by saying that but I generally missed him.

“I heard you on the baby monitor.”

“I missed him and Sumi but not as much as you.” I knew. Kihyun would always put me first, it didn’t matter if I didn’t like it or not because he was always going to be the one at the end of the day. He eventually made his way under the covers pulling me into his warm body, as we both leaned back against the pillows I could just rest my head against his chest. I felt his lips press against my head, it was finally peaceful… although the city itself was just starting to wake up, for me and Kihyun it was coming to a stop for maybe an hour, two if we were lucky. "How were they?"

"Sumi was her usual self as so was the baby, he was eating, sleeping and needing a diaper change all day. Hyungwon came over almost every night, it wasn't as bad as you're probably imagining it to be." I felt Kihyun chuckle as I smiled to myself, he was insistent on getting some help when we already had it with Hyungwon and Hoseok. We managed to prove him wrong, I thought to myself remembering Hyungwon washing the dishes while Hoseok played with Sumi and I dealt with a grumpy baby.

It was silent for a few more moments when Kihyun finally spoke again. “I have something I want to ask you.”

He had said those words so many times to me that I could freely let my mind wander and not pay too much attention to him knowing it would either be about work or the kids. I let out a small acknowledgement waiting for the question, “Shall we get married?” I smiled to myself as he had finally asked the question after I had been wondering when he would ask. I wondered what had suddenly made up his mind or whether it was just the right time.

“...It’s been a long time coming.” I mutter, Kihyun let out a chuckle as I moved my head up to kiss him before I fell back down onto his chest.

"Everything is finally right." Kihyun whispers. It was true, we were finally a complete family and I couldn't be happier in this moment.

A/N: You probably thought this should have been longer but to me, it felt right to end it like this. I will hopefully go ahead with the spin-off stories involving Minhyuk and Hoseok so you’ll see past/future Kihyun. I hope you can forgive me for how long it took to update each chapter but at the same time you enjoyed reading them when I did finally post. Life gets in the way as well as writer’s block and a little bit of procrastination but apart from everything else thank you so much for reading family and I will start working on those spin-offs.

[nashucks]

i can’t imagine you with someone else

Yoo Kihyun (KihyunXReader) | FLUFF, a bit of swearing, he JELLY | because,,, of the song,, jealousy? (STREAM JEALOUSY!) | WC: 4.4k words

Summary: Kihyun absolutely hates the guy you were crushing on, because he thinks he has all the same things the other guy does, so why are you looking at someone else?

a/n: wanted to write a jealousy oneshot and since i’m writing fluff for all of the boys, i guess kihyun fit the image i had in my mind perfectly, so ENJOY! also, sorry i had to make wonho kinda weird in this BUT THIS IS ALL FICTION SO BYE 

“Oh, come on now, Y/N, you can’t be fucking serious,” Kihyun bumps his shoulders with you at the counter of the bar, sighing audibly. He taps his fingers anxiously on the glass of his beer bottle.

You look at him, laughing, “I am serious!” You scan across the table, to a tall, dark and handsome figure talking casually to Minhyuk, “He’s hot, Kihyun!”

The boy next to you hung his head down, his own dark hair hanging over him. The guy you were ogling over was no one special, to Kihyun that is. He lets out another heavy sigh.

“And I can’t believe you have Minhyuk talking to him for you.”

Changkyun laughed by Kihyun’s side, massaging his shoulders. “He’s not that bad looking, hyung.” 

But for Y/N? Kihyun thought to himself, being shaken by his younger friend’s hands. Not good enough for Y/N, he thought.

Okay, maybe he was a little over protective of you. And maybe a tad jealous.

Just a little bit, he thinks.

He peeked at you from the corner of his eyes and you were literally resting your head on your hands, sighing in admiration over the other guy. Kihyun made a face at you, and you laugh.

“See? Even Kyun agrees,” you tease Kihyun, poking his arm. You let your hand rest on his stiff forearm. Kihyun could feel the heat of your skin through his clothes.

“What’s so great about him?” he asks, his voice dripping in sarcasm as he takes a swig from his drink, a tad curious.

You turn away from the man, leaning with your back on the counter, facing the two male friends of yours. You peek back at him over your shoulder coyly, and start to list.

“Well, I think even if his hair isn’t natural, I love how it looks on him.”

Kihyun unconsciously runs his hands through his hair, ruffling up his naturally brown hair.

“And he has these intense, warm brown eyes…”

Kihyun exchanged a glance with Changkyun, opening his eyes wider. His dongsaeng nods, amused.

I have that, Kihyun thought to himself.

“Oh, and look at those arms though. Like he’s buff, but not too bulky. Ah!”

The boy looked down at himself, thinking he has what it takes. He flexed his arms, coolly, clenching his hands into fists, as he crossed his arms over his chest.

Kihyun exchanged glances with Changkyun again, waving his eyebrows. Changkyun smirks, whispering, “Can you not be that obvious, hyung?”

You put your hands over your chest, clasped together dreamily.

“And he’s soooo tall,” you pretend to swoon, spinning once in your spot.

And then, Changkyun bursts out laughing, slapping Kihyun on the back. Kihyun clenched his jaw, scoffing in defeat.

He couldn’t help it that all his friends were giants, he was still tall too. Taller than you, and from your perspective, that would be all that matters right?

Kihyun rolled his eyes, as you fantasized about the other man, incomparable to him. He had all the traits you described, and much, much more to offer to you.

And, of course, he only wanted what was best for you, even though he felt like he had the potential to be a whole lot better than the other dude.

Suddenly, Minhyuk is motioning for you to come over and talk with them. You look nervously at the two boys beside you, smoothing down your hair, and fidgeting with the hem of your skirt.

“Go on then, to the man of your dreams,” Changkyun cheered, hanging an arm around Kihyun’s shoulder lazily.

Kihyun was visibly annoyed, his jaw clenched but he waved his hand, motioning for you to go greet them.

You walked over to them, Kihyun’s eyes trailing after your giddy steps. He watched as you tucked your hair behind your ear, and laugh at whatever stupid thing that guy was saying as you introduced yourselves.

“Ugh,” Kihyun grew pale, turning away from the scene, drinking his beer, dropping it back on the counter, empty with a loud clatter.

Changkyun looked at him amusedly. He smiled at his hyung knowingly, not speaking. He dared Kihyun to talk about it first, he knew the brown haired boy would break soon.

Kihyun had his own little fixation on you, Changkyun knew that. Kihyun would talk about the small things you did that day, or ask about you when he was away, or all those times where Changkyun has peaked a look at Kihyun’s screen and he was scrolling through your Instagram.

Kihyun had a crush on you.

A genuine, red-faced, stuttering and clumsy thing for you.

A check your social media thrice daily, and send a text a few minutes late just to be nonchalant, thing for you.

Changkyun sipped his drink, watching you flutter around Hoseok, or whatever the hell his name was. He couldn’t deny that he would rather you be fawning over his Kihyun instead.

You rest a hand on Hoseok’s arm, engaging with him in conversation.  You give him your full attention, your eyes twinkling with delight over him.

The tall man flicked your hair over your shoulder, surprising you with his boldness.

Kihyun’s hand clenched around the bottle, his knuckles turning white.

Too close.

Minhyuk is walking back over to you guys, glancing back at the pair of you chatting at the corner of the bar. He’s raising her brows, and making a wide-eyed face. When he’s within earshot of the other men, he finally speaks.

“Sooo, what do you think?” He was just happy at the prospect of putting yourself out there, since he wanted you to start dating, “They look pretty good!”

“Great!”

“God awful.”

Changkyun and Kihyun chime in at the same time, followed by a deadpanned Kihyun, looking on with half lidded eyes, trying to look anywhere else. It was difficult, especially when you’re the brightest soul in the room.

“Terrible choice, Min, I mean, come on,” Kihyun gestures over towards you and the other guy. “He’s wearing white jeans, with holes!” He was trying to hold onto anything as an insult towards this guy, standing in his tall glory, “Pretentious, isn’t it?”

Kihyun huffed, leaning back on the counter, ruffling his hair in annoyance.

Minhyuk laughed, shaking his head, nearly wagging a finger at Kihyun, “Honey, but doesn’t he look good?”

Changkyun nodded in agreement between the two of them, shrugging.

“Hey, looks aren’t everything,” Kihyun contradicted himself, just making fun of his clothes seconds earlier, “Bet he sounds like a total ass hat.” He ordered a new can of beer, he needed a drink to keep his mind off you.

He squinted his eyes at the sight of Hoseok motioning at something with his hands, and you giggling at it, placing a hand on his chest.

Kihyun’s blood was boiling.

“Come on, Kihyun, she looks happy,” Minhyuk spoke, tracing a circle with his fingers on the wooden counter. If you were happy, he was too.

I mean, they all wanted that.

Kihyun rolled his neck in a small circle, annoyed, but he wasn’t going to do anything about it. What could he do about it? You were smiling brightly.

They spent the next hour chatting amongst themselves, sipping drinks and trying to be wingmen for you. You could feel their eyes looking over you through the night.

Kihyun had his back turned to you, trying desperately not to look. He didn’t really want to see that smile aimed at anyone else. He slouched against the counter of the bar, laughing and talking loudly so that maybe you would grow curious and come back.

He wanted you by his side. He would so rather have you giggling and cracking jokes and dancing beside him than some random guy you just met. Besides, Kihyun had all those qualities you so readily swooned over. Except the tall part though, and the blonde hair.

But whatever.

Changkyun and Minhyuk kept an eye on you while talking with Kihyun; checking over his shoulder to see you cozying up with Hoseok. They missed your presence too, at least wishing you would bring the guy over towards the group.

The night rolled on, long and dim.

Hoseok was talking to you about his job, and about some supposedly cool thing at the office. You weren’t too interested, but smiling pretty and nodding along with his story.

You were both leaning against the wall, enjoying the company. It was a little awkward, but meeting someone new was always a little like that, so you weren’t too worried.

He was drinking a whole lot though.

You ran your finger over the lip of your glass, drawing a small circle while you listened. You were growing fidgety just standing in one spot while he spoke. You shifted the weight on your legs, your feet silently killing you.

You glanced over to your group of friends, Changkyun telling a wild story while motioning with his arms. Minhyuk was laughing hard, throwing his head back. And you were sure that Kihyun was laughing too, his form was shaking, but you could only see his back.

He wasn’t facing you.

You could only see his brown hair bouncing, and hear his laugh faintly from the corner of the bar. You felt a little pang of loneliness; you wish you could at least see his face.

You turned back to Hoseok, who was still rambling away, bragging about himself again, and his hand touched your exposed arm, grazing you gently. The scent of alcohol was strong on his breath, and you were starting to wonder how much he had to drink.

He smiled at you, leaning in closer,

“Want to go somewhere cozier?”

You jumped a little, goosebumps forming and a chill running down your spine. You were a little cold and shocked at his touch with your passing thoughts

You stammer a little, caught off guard, “Uhm, no I’m still here with my friends but, “You were pulling out your phone, readying yourself to at least exchange numbers.

Hoseok shook his head, smiling sneakily, “Come on, let’s go out somewhere. I’m sure they wouldn’t mind.” His hand was fully holding your arm now, rubbing up and down slowly.

You bit your lip, a little nervous at his forwardness. You shook your head back at him.

“N-no thanks, I’m fine.”

He was generally a nice guy, and you were content with just talking. His physical advances made you uncomfortable and the way he was leaning over you so suddenly scared you.

Hoseok stepped closer to you, invading your personal space, and touched your chin. His eyes were dark; you couldn’t read them.

You did not like this.

Kihyun was still facing away from you, softly humming to the music by himself. He was oblivious to the situation brewing behind him until Minhyuk shook his arm, worry written across his face.

He watched as Changkyun frowned, setting his drink down already walking over to you.

Kihyun raised a brow, “Wait, what’s going on–?”

He turned to see Hoseok holding your arm, and the back of your neck. He pulled you into an unwanted kiss, you were squirming underneath him and trying your best to push at his chest to break away from him.

You were gasping for air when Hoseok broke apart from you, and he was smiling lazily. He was obviously drunk and nearly falling over onto you. You stumble backwards, holding up his sloppy form.

He raised his head to speak, swaggering and pressing his full weight on you, but a familiar voice cut him off.

“What the fuck!”

You whipped your head around, pushing the drunk man off of you. Hoseok stumbled, leaning himself up against the wall, bumping into a nearby table.

It was Kihyun, walking angry towards you. Changkyun was following in suit, his eyes narrowed.

Kihyun stepped in closer to you, pulling you behind him to put himself between you and Hoseok. His back faced you still, you couldn’t see his face, but could imagine it based off his squared up posture.

“Kihyun!”

His hand was outstretched, signaling for you to stay behind him. You felt a small wave of relief fall over you, feeling protected but guilty. You wipe your lips with the back of your hand unconsciously as Changkyun stands next to you, backing up Kihyun. His arms were crossed tightly in front of him.

“What the fuck, man!” Kihyun growls, angled towards the drunk man.

Hoseok waved his hands, his light hair falling in front of his eyes, “What? She was into me!”

Changkyun stepped in front of you then, blocking most of you with his shoulder and retorted, “Well that’s not an excuse to forcefully kiss her, you fucking prick.” His voice sounded calm and level, but you knew better. His voice was only that level when he was angry.

“Well, she talked to me all night,” Hoseok spat, standing up tall, “She owes me that much.”

“You fucker,” You saw Kihyun’s fist shaking, his whole body vibrating in anger. His jaw was clenched tight, and he was giving the most murderous stare to the man before him. He was more than ready to beat this idiot down.

Minhyuk walked up behind you, clutching your shoulders and smoothing down your hair, asking if you were alright.

You nodded, “I’m just a little shaken… I’m fine though.”

Hoseok overheard that, jeering, “See? It’s fine, she liked it!” He motioned with his arms, “Just a little rougher than she’s used to, right boys?”

You watched Changkyun close his eyes and shake his head, silent in disbelief.

“What the fuck is wrong with you, you fucker?” Kihyun erupted, walking to the guy with heavy footsteps. He was ready to murder this man. He stood in front of him, coming up to Hoseok’s nose.

Hoseok looked at him apathetically, still speaking,

“What? I’m speaking the truth.”

Kihyun grabbed his collar, shaking him with a surprising strength, readying to deck him in his pretty face. His face was scrunched in rage as Hoseok cowered slightly.

“Stop!” you call, jogging up to them, you pushed past Changkyun.

Kihyun froze, but didn’t release him.

Hoseok looked at you, stupidly asking, “Coming back for more?” He was standing arrogantly, his weight on one leg.

“Fuck you.”

You scrunched your face and threw your red drink over him, spilling over his face, clothes, and white pants as Kihyun loosened his grip.

You pushed him hard with both hands, and he staggered backwards, bumping against the wall and then falling to the floor, making a large commotion.

Hoseok looked up at you, red liquid dripping down his face, and spat, “What the fuck!” He wiped his face on his arm roughly.

“Hey!” some employees called, coming closer to your group, the entire bar had their eyes on you. You heard a hush whisper fall over the crowd, cameras snapping all around.

Before you could respond, someone was holding your arm back, pulling you away. As you were taken away, you kicked his boot hard, while he was still struggling to get up off the floor.

The strong arm guided you out of the bar, and as you continued to look back you saw Minhyuk pour another drink over his head while shouting some profanities.

You cracked a small smile, finally looking forward to see who was pulling out of the bar into the cool air. You see Changkyun walking alongside you, his hand pressed hard on your back.

And then there was Kihyun.

He was pulling your arm, walking in front of you at a quick, and angry pace. His back was still turned to you, and you still couldn’t see what expression he held.

“You guys go ahead, I’ll wait for Minhyuk.” Changkyun said to you, dropping his hand and waiting at the corner. You nodded.

The both of you walk in silence, Kihyun with a strong grip on you. You could hear him huffing angrily, and you looked down at your feet, a little embarrassed, and a little ashamed.

The quiet air between you was unbearable.

“Kihyun?” you say, pulling yourself back to a halt. You needed to see his face.

He stops in front of you, dropping your arm, and crossing his. His shoulders looked so wide, and you saw the rise and drop of them as he sighed angrily.

“What were you thinking?” he scolds, his voice was low and sharp, cutting through the night’s cool breeze.

You turn to the side, ashamed, and rub the spot where he held you,

“I-I don’t know, he just forced himself on me… I wasn’t trying to…“ Tears welled up in your eyes, as you bit your lip to stop them from falling. The last thing you wanted was to cry while you were being scolded by a friend. You were more hurt that you made Kihyun and the others mad and worried, than the fact that you were kissed by some bar creep.

“I didn’t want to kiss him…”

Kihyun dropped his arms, his fists shaking a bit. He sighed again, trying to regain his composure.

From behind you saw him run his fingers through his ruffled hair, and then take off his jacket. He finally turned to face you.

Kihyun’s face was upturned a bit, his jaw sharp as he gritted his teeth. His eyebrows were knitted together tight, lines pressed hard in between him. You could see in his eyes that he was still furious.

You cowered away a little, not able to look him in the eye. You hung your head down, shutting your eyes.

Kihyun let out a small breath, trying to calm himself as he saw your glassy eyes. He dropped his arm roughly, slapping the sides of his legs with a resounding smack. He looked at your shivering form, and slid his jacket off.

“Sorry, Y/N.”

Kihyun threw his jacket over you, rubbing your shoulders softly. He smoothed down your hair, his touch was so gentle and kind now. You leaned into his hand, and he rubbed your head gingerly.

“I’m sorry, it wasn’t your fault at all, I just—I just lost my cool.”

You peek up at him, his brown eyes were softer as he wiped a stray tear off your cheek with his thumb. He blinked slowly, inhaling deeply to try to regain some composure,

“But I should have just fucking punched that guy.”

You hold his jacket close over your shoulders, thankful for the warmth, and smile a little. Kihyun cared about you so much.

“I should have punched him,” you argued, snuggling into his coat, warmed by his body. You begin to start walking, one of your hands holding his jacket closed over you.

Kihyun matched your pace, shaking his head at your fearlessness, “Are you alright though?”

You bit your lip, remembering the unsavory taste of an unwanted kiss. You blinked hard and shook the thoughts away, “Yeah, I’m fine.”

A warm hand grabbed your own then, surprising you. You looked down at them, and followed up the arm, landing on Kihyun.

He wasn’t looking at you, only facing forwards, but his ears were starting to glow red. You turn away, blushing yourself at the sudden contact. Your fingers easily intertwine with his.

It was comfortable.

“God, Y/N, please don’t scare us like that again,” he said breathily. He peeked over at you, his lips almost forming a smile as he tried to lighten the mood, “Would have had a better time if you stayed with us.”

You blushed and defended, “Hey! I didn’t know he was going to be an asshole!” You pretended to pull your hand back, tugging your arm up.

Kihyun held it back down, gripping it tighter, “Y/N, the white pants? At a bar? He’s definitely an asshole, babe.” He had an exasperated smirk spread on his face. He was still feeling the end tail of anger in his veins, but he wanted you to be smiling and light hearted. He didn’t want any tears from you tonight.

“Well, his white pants are ruined now, and he can’t prey on anyone else tonight,” you offer, a little proud of your counter attack, “Everyone saw too!” You huff defiantly.

Kihyun raised his brows at that, swaying his head at you, before looking forward. His tone turned serious again, less scolding, but more firm,

“Stay with me next time.” His brown eyes peered into yours, demanding your compliance.

“You?” you send him a small smile, your stomach doing a small flip at the insinuation. He’s never really inserted himself like that before.

“Us, I said ‘us’ right?” Kihyun bit his tongue at the little slip as he tried to recover.

God, your crush is showing, he thought to himself, throwing his head back a little.

You smiled at him, his cheeks were growing pink. You bumped his shoulder with yours as you walked, expecting him to give. But instead you bounced off of his firm frame, forcing you to stumble to the side a bit.

Kihyun looked at you, chuckling quietly at your antics, and swung your hand in his lightly in response. You giggle, understanding his sentiment but fidgeting at the implication.

He walks you back to your apartment, walking together in content chatter. He holds your hand the whole way, something uncommon but not unwelcomed. It made your heart race thinking about it, so you focused on the small conversation you made with him, admiring his facial expression as he spoke, and watching him smooth down his hair.

He walks you into your building and all the way to your door.

You separate hands then, needing to rummage through your purse to fetch your keys.

Kihyun looks down at his own, already missing your touch, and shoves his hands into his pockets.

You open the door, stepping in, expecting him to follow.

“Wanna come in for a bit?” you ask, turning to him as you slip your heels off. You voice was a little high from the excitement.

“Ahhh, no, I’m just going to head back to the dorm,” He tilted his head, leaning his body to the side, he wanted to run. His mind was flipping through what it meant when you hold hands with a friend, who you like more than a friend.

Fuck.

You pout your lips a little, disappointed, but nod. He was already turning on his heel to leave, when you call out to him, remembering you had his coat.

“Wait! Kihyun!”

Kihyun turns back, an eyebrow raised, jogging back to you.

“Your coat!” you say, as you looked down to slip it off your shoulders.

His hands shot forward, holding yours onto the jacket, pulling it back up. His voice was low and close to you as he spoke,

“Keep it for tonight.” He wanted to leave a piece of himself with you tonight, as if it could watch over you as a protective charm.

You laugh at little, looking up at him, “But you need it, you’re walking back, Kihyun! And it’s getting chilly—“

His large hands massaged the sides of your arms, and he smiled with his eyes crinkling,

“Keep it.”

Kihyun’s face was soft, his brown eyes reflected your confused form in front of him. He squeezed your shoulders softly, stepping closer to you, he couldn’t hold it in any longer.

“Y/N.”

“What?” you ask softly, taken by his sudden proximity. It felt warm, and intoxicating almost. He smelled nice, and you could count the freckles on his face as he drew in. Your eyes were bouncing all over his face, trying to read his expression.

His eyes looked like he was asking something of you.

You craned your neck up, tilting your head inquisitively, wondering what it would mean if you leaned in closer.

You watched Kihyun’s lips part open.

Yes.

Kihyun closed his eyes, closing the gap between you.

You were met with a tender kiss, his lips softly pressed against yours. You closed your eyes as the kiss deepened, your hands held gingerly against his chest, feeling his heart thump wildly.

The kiss lasted only moments, but a wave of passion washed over you. You felt weightless in his embrace, not wanting it to end.

Kihyun pulled away, pleased with his effort, as he saw you dazed and speechless.

He smiled coolly, and in a low voice spoke,

“Sorry, Y/N.”

Your mouth was hanging open as you stared back at him, blinking wildly.

“I couldn’t leave you with a bad taste in your mouth tonight.”

Kihyun dropped his arms after pinching your cheek playfully and scratching the back of his head. He chuckled, pursing his lips, but turning his eyes away from you,

“Well, I don’t want any drinks spilled over me tonight, so I’ll be taking my leave.”

Your hand went up to touch your lips, sanitized by your cheeky brown haired friend. A fiery red kissed your cheeks where his hand touched you.

Kihyun took your prolonged silence as his cue to leave, so he peeked one last glance at your blushing face, unsure of what it meant. He didn’t want to face this right now, so he turned to leave again, ready to scream profanities into the open street.

“Good night, Y/N.”

He walked away briskly, scrunching his face, wondering if he made the right choice. He was going to bring a hand up to wipe his face.

A small hand stopped him.

Upon seeing his form leave, and seeing his back face you again, you snapped back into reality. You were stricken, and anxious to see his face, and you wanted to ask him why he did that, and ask him how he felt, and what this all means…

You run into the hallway, chasing him down and grab his hand from behind. You were in such a rush you left your apartment door wide open, and ran out with bare feet, huffing.

Kihyun turned back to you, doing that thing where he quietly licks his lips. A victorious and relieved smile curled on his lips.

You look at him, eyes innocent and hopeful, and you quietly whisper.

“Stay.”

[chaoticbunwon]

Not Friends Anymore

Part 1

Pairing : kihyunXReader

You missed him. you missed your bestfriend alot. His jokes, teasing, healthy flirting, his constant support everything was gone. To forget this sadness you started looking for distractions, making yourself busy in work, hanging out with your best girl friend Naeyon almost every night. you hated clubs but you needed distractions.

you've been friends with him for 7 years now. A strong bond filled with lots of happy moments, laughter and pure joy. Kihyun was the best friend you could ever ask for. Everything was going fine until one day everything changed. He started acting weird, you thought. Meeting everyday turned into meeting few days then after few months, calls and texts almost seemed to have stopped. He started giving you excuses of being busy with work. huh never in his life before he was too busy for you but you had to give him his space.

One night you had too much drinks and couldn't compose yourself

"yah! Y/N you shouldn't be drinking this much, you can't handle it" naeyon said "I'm fine Naeyon. Its just I'm missing him alot today" she scoffed "as if he cared, why do you even mi-" she stopped talking abruptly looking at me with wide eyes until I noticed she wasn't looking at me but behind my back. I turned around to see kihyun with a girl with him dancing together and enjoying the party. 'so this is where he was busy all these days' you thought to yourself.

[chaoticbunwon]

Not Friends Anymore

Part 2

Pairing : KihyunXReader

Whether it was your anger or the alcohol in your system that kicked in, you stood up from your place and without thinking started heading towards him. Before Naeyon could stop you, there you were reaching for Kihyun's collar and abruptly turning him around towards you with force enough to make him stumble a little bit. His eyes widened at the stranger that pulled him suddenly. "what the-" you cut short his words with a slap that reddened his cheeks immediately. "who the hell are you?" the long forgotten girl scolded you with an angry expression. "who the hell am I? who the heck are you?" you retorted. The patreons ignored your little scene maybe due to their drunken state or the loud music. "woah there. we gotta stop this argument right here, Lets go Y/N" Nayeon pulled you away. Kihyun was so shocked to even talk about what have just happened. "Stop" he muttered, which made you turn and look at him "I want to talk with you " which made him earn a scoff from Naeyon "lets not make a scene bummer, you've hurted my friend alot already. There's nothing to talk about". She took you by hand and you both exited the club without sparing a glance towards the duo.

"what was that oppa?" Irene asked "nothing you should worry about" Kihyun snapped at her.

"Oh my gawwd Y/N. I've never seen you getting that much violent" Naeyon laughed. "I dont want to talk about it, can we just go home Nae Nae" you told her disheartenedly. She shook her head and rest of the ride home was silent, finally you reached your destination. Nayeon parked her car and you two went into your apartment, after freshening up you decided to watch a movie instead of reminiscing the incident that have happened today. But soon you both fell asleep on the sofa.

Kihyun's POV

why did she slapped me out of nowhere. was she drunk? he thought to himself. "what happened oppa?" Irene asked. Snapping out of his thoughts he looked at her while his hand still on steering "It's nothing. can we just drop the topic about what happened back then? I knew this wasnt a good idea" he tsked.

Irene was Kihyun's distant cousin who came here for vacations and she understood how much sad Kihyun was being these days, to distract him she forced him to take her to a club, unbeknownst to her that the little plan of making her cousin happy was going to fail.

to be continued.....

[kpop-ruined-my-social-life]

! UPDATED ! Master List/To Do List

Being ___ would include ___:

Being Seventeen’s best friend

Being Joshua’s girlfriend

Being Vernon’s girlfriend

MTL:

Dominant in Seventeen

Daddy kink in Block B

Fluff:

Get better soon (Minghao/The8)

Lazy day (Youngjae)

The first of many (Hwasa)

Carnival (Myungjun/MJ)

Happy Birthday (Seungcheol/S.Coups)

Stormy Nights (Wonho)

Late Nights (Soonyoung)

Scarves (Irene)

Cutie Pie (Solji)

Smut:

Turning pages (Jimin)

Maybe next time (Jikook threesome)

Relax with me (Wonho)

Stressed out (Jinyoung/Junior)

Bend over (Im Jaebum/JB)

Kiss me (Shownu)

Happy Birthday (Seungcheol/S.Coups)

Studio time (Jihoon/woozi)

Dance for me (Soonyoung/Hoshi)

Please (Jeonghan)

Vacation (Jooheon)

Bath time (Mark)

Coffee (Jungkook)

Dream (Taehyung)

Midnight (Taeyong)

Blindfolds (Taemin)

Best friend (Jackson)

Mini-series:

Sweat (YugyeomXReaderXJungkook)

Preview to Pt. 1, Friends With Benefits (YugyeomXReader)

Preview to Pt. 2, Practice (JungkookXReader)

Preview to Pt. 3, Sweat (YugyeomXReaderXJungkook)

Friends with Benefits

Practice

Sweat

Full Fics:

Master (CEO!JiminXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

White Satin Sheets (Spoiled rich play boy!JaebumXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

Crown (Crown Prince!KihyunXReader)

Preview

Chapter 1

To Do List (Under the cut)

(In no particular order, some of them may not have titles but if I have two or more for one person I will add the number next to their name)

* - In the drafts/started

{R} - Requested

Fluff:

Day Care - Hyungwon [Monsta X] {R}*

Smut:

Degrading - Shownu/Wonho threesome [Monsta X]

Showtime - JBXReaderXShownu [Got7/Monsta X]

Team - HoshiXReaderXJun [SVT]

First time - Eunwoo [Astro] {R}

Unexpected - Yoongi [BTS]

Work Frustration - Hwiyoung [SF9] {R}*

Wet - Ten [NCT] {R}*

Art - Shownu [Monsta X] {R}*

Notice - Jungkook [BTS] {R}*

Mini-Series:

Keep Quiet - ?XReader

Fics:

Crown Ch. 2 - KihyunXReader {R}*

White Satin Sheets Ch.2 - JaebumXReader {R}*

Master Ch. 2 - JiminXReader [BTS] {R}*

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family | part six

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 2.2k words  genre: fluff summary: Kihyun’s first day alone with his daughter comments: kind of a boring chapter, but they have to occur for the good ones to take place. 

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Kihyun

The first rule of playgroup don’t reveal too much about yourself otherwise you won’t hear the last of it. Just remember you’re there for Sumi and if anyone asks you’re married. Kihyun replayed the words in his head, the ones you had told him last night before going to sleep. He could make it through being alone with his daughter for an hour, it’s exactly what he wanted, bonding time with her. “Where should we sit?” Kihyun asks being dragged slightly by his daughter, all the mothers had at least sneaked a glance at him more than once.

“Here.” Sumi sits herself down in between two boys, Kihyun turned his head to the side slightly a little jealous by her actions.

“You must be Sumi’s father, Y/N told me you were coming.” Kihyun quickly turned around to greet the teacher, he hadn’t even realised she was there.

“Ah yes. I’m her husband, Kihyun.” He smiles at the teacher. He was already in the role of playing your husband and you weren’t even here to watch it take place.

“Yes. Your wife doesn’t speak much about you, she usually is focused on helping Sumi learn. Today we’re making music, last week we did sensory skills.” Kihyun nodded his head, it was certainly going to be noisy for the next hour but he didn’t mind. Although things like this usually would, he was doing this to spend time with his daughter.

“We like to keep our lives private.” Otherwise in the years to come if someone knew your personality, they could use it to ruin your whole career.

“That’s fine, we’re about to get started.” The teacher left as Kihyun turned the ring on his finger slightly. The one he had put on just to make this marriage all the more convincing. He had also forced you to do the same, besides it gave him coverage for when he got offered marriage proposals from other companies now. Just mentioning that he had a daughter would make people leave him alone.

Kihyun sat behind Sumi kissing her on the head, she turned around to smile at him brightly. “Your daughter looks like you.” Kihyun looked to his right, smiling at the mother who had given him the compliment. “Y/N never talks about you. Now I know why… she must have wanted to keep her handsome husband hidden away.”

“Ah, thank you.” He smiled warmly at the woman. “What’s your son’s name?” He asks curiously of the boy that Sumi was friends with. It wasn’t like Kihyun could do anything about it.

“Minjoon. Sumi and Minjoon get along well, they usually sit next to each other in playgroup.” Did they now… His daughter couldn’t possibly leave him already for another boy. Jealously was flaring up in Kihyun after years of it not appearing.

“Everyone. Shall we get started? Today we are going to make some music, who would like to choose an instrument first?” The teacher started the lesson and Kihyun’s attention turned to Sumi.  

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“Mr Yoo. You have Y/N waiting on line 2 for you.” Kihyun put his finger to his lips as he carried Sumi in his arms asleep. His secretary quietened down straight away, she quickly moved around her desk to open the door to his office for Kihyun.

“Could you bring in some blankets. It was colder than usual outside.” He didn’t want Sumi to catch a cold on his watch otherwise you would think he was incapable of looking after his daughter. This was a test, Kihyun was sure of it. Whether the client was set up or not.

He carefully placed Sumi down on the sofa and took off his jacket to place over her, Kihyun smiled since Sumi took up only a small part of his jacket. Afterward, he made his way over to the phone to pick up your call. “We’re safely at the company.”

“Thank you.” He heard you sigh on the other end of the line, did you really not put that much faith in him? He was slightly offended then again Kihyun wasn’t sure how he managed the last few hours by himself. “Could you look after her until you finish work. I have a lot of work to do if we’re going to go to Shanghai. I’m also catching up from when she was sick as well.”

“It’s not a problem, what can I do to distract her when she wakes up?” He wasn’t exactly sure how to entertain a 2-year-old or any child for that matter.

“Toys. Books. Only use cartoons as a last resort though. What did you give her for lunch?” Any specific type of toy or book? Or should Kihyun just buy the whole toy store?

“She had pasta, strawberries and blueberries. Does she have a snack usually?” He should really be writing all of this down, but he would remember once he got into the habit of this. Maybe having a newborn baby would be easier, that way he could start from the beginning and raise the baby.

“She likes to drink water, you can give it to her through a straw. Just make sure you’re the one holding the bottle otherwise you’ll have a spillage. For her snack give it to her from mid to late afternoon, it can be fruit or a rice cake or jelly but only give her a few…” You had started to talk too much, which made Kihyun smile silently on the other end. This is what he had missed.

“I got it. We’ll see you later.” Kihyun hangs up and places the phone on his desk. He pressed the button on his phone linking to his secretary’s. “I have a task for the interns. Bring them in here in the next five minutes.” How many interns did the company have? Was it 4? After the presentations had been done? Since the applications were circulating at the moment. “Sumi, sorry. It may get a little noisy in here for a few minutes.” Should he admit to his employee’s that he had a daughter? Or to keep it a secret for now?

“Where have you been?” Hoseok strides into the room a little louder than Kihyun would have liked. He immediately shushed Hoseok as Kihyun pointed to Sumi on the sofa. Kihyun didn’t want Hoseok to meet her but some things you were never able to prevent. “Is this her?” His eyes softened looking down at the toddler.

Kihyun nodded as he sat down behind his desk, “Did you need me for something?” Kihyun asks logging into his computer. His eyes glancing from his screen to Hoseok and Sumi.

“Not particularly. I just didn’t like the idea of sitting alone in my office.” Kihyun nodded as he looked at his emails, narrowing his eyes at a couple of them. He never liked the contents of some of the emails he received, some of them were just spam, other times people had found out his email and were sending complaints or hate. “Who does she look like more?”

“Both of us equally,” Kihyun mutters, he had only thought of that in certain moments. He thought Sumi sometimes looked like him and other times she looked like you. His mind hadn’t completely been made up yet.

A knock on the window made Kihyun lift his head, his eyes immediately setting a glare on to the interns. He stood up from the chair, adjusting his jacket and moved to lean on the front of his desk. Hoseok looked strangely over to him, Kihyun would never talk to the interns unless he was forced to. “I need the four of you to find toys to entertain a 2-year-old. If you do well, it will impact your evaluation in a good way. You each have the limit of spending 500 on the company card. You have 2 hours. You can go now.”

“I’m impressed, you never talk to the interns like that.” Hoseok mutters, he wondered whether Kihyun had changed or he was forced to do that. Kihyun walked back around to his desk, settling down to do some work before Sumi woke up. He knew that you should never stop looking at a child because if you did, they would end up doing something bad.

“Did you bring any work with you? Or have you finished it? Maybe Minhyuk is available to be more company than I am.” Kihyun smiles a little, there was always a hint of Kihyun’s smile being fake. The only times Kihyun had a genuine smile was when he was with you. Now he had Sumi to add to that list.

“I’ll just look at your daughter since this is the only time you’ll probably let me see her.” Kihyun didn’t reply, what he said was true. Hoseok, although he wanted a family, he still acted immaturely in some situations. Kihyun would also like to avoid bringing his daughter to work, she may one day get in the way and annoy him. He hoped he would never get angry to point he could injure Sumi, if that day ever came, he would risk losing you and Sumi. As he looked back on the past, he never wanted to you to leave him again.

A few hours later

“Time to go.” Kihyun picks up Sumi taking her away from Hoseok, she had become attached to him in a matter of two hours. It baffled him really, so he was glad to go home to see you. “Shall we go see eomma? She’ll be waiting for us.”

“Eomma.” Sumi mutters in Kihyun arms, she stares into space holding tightly to a stuffed animal. With a small nudge from Kihyun, Sumi waved goodbye to Hoseok as he left the office. Hoseok smiled and almost looked slightly sad to be leaving her as he got onto the elevator.

“The car is waiting downstairs. The car will also pick you up at 8 in the morning to go to the airport, I will meet you at the airport. Would you like me to go over the schedule for tomorrow?” The secretary holds up her book, with a detailed schedule of the events taking place tomorrow. Kihyun was impressed with her skills, it was everything he wanted out of an assistant. She was well organised, tidy and knew not to disturb him.

“It’s okay, we can go over it on the flight. You’ve worked hard today, we’ll see you tomorrow.” Kihyun smiles at her, Sumi waved a little before she put her focus on Kihyun’s face. “Why are you looking at my face? Is there something wrong?” Sumi moved her fingers to touch Kihyun’s cheek, making him chuckle as the elevator opened up for them.

“Eomma.” Sumi repeated in the next few moments to herself quietly, it looked like she had missed you a lot Kihyun thought to himself. She must have had fun today, right? He didn’t want all of this to be for nothing. Kihyun wanted a permanent role in his daughter’s life even if you started dating someone else. However, there was some part of him hoping you would come back to him.

The elevator opened revealing you waiting there with a smile on your face, Kihyun’s face lightened up, “Sumi, look.” He pointed to you as brought the two of them together. Sumi’s smile came back as soon as she saw you, you took her out of Kihyun’s arms and into yours. It was a relief that couldn’t be explained when you could finally rest peacefully for the rest of the day. For an introvert, it can be explained in terms of when you arrive home after a long day. Or taking a bath to relieve stress.

“Did you miss me?” You ask kissing her on the forehead. Kihyun smiled at the two of you, your eyes move sideways to meet Kihyun’s gaze. “How was playgroup?” The foreboding question that you were reluctant to ask in case it had gone wrong.

“It was fine, everyone believes we’re married. We played with some musical instruments. There should be no rumours going around except for why you’ve kept me hidden for so long.” He smiles a little at his statement but when he looked at you, your eyes were wary of him. It was as if you didn’t want to trust him. He saw it now. Your reluctance towards him. You were stopping yourself from developing feelings again.

“That’s a relief.” You let out a small smile. Not allowing your emotions to fully take over you. “Shall we go home?” Kihyun watches you closely as you whispered those words to Sumi, you kissed her on the forehead and turned around to walk out of the building.

“You don’t look close at all,” Hoseok mutters beside Kihyun, almost jumping a mile, he shuddered.

“What are you doing?! I thought you left.”  

“I was leaving until I saw a beautiful woman waiting in the lobby. But now I know who she is…” Hoseok was saddened by finding out your true identity then again he would have just used you for a night or two. “You don’t look close at all.” He says again this time hoping for a response.

“Things are going to change. I know she is still in love with me.” You couldn’t hide your feelings for Kihyun forever.

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family | part four

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 2.2k words genre: fluff and slight angst summary: “Not ready for Sumi to have a father? Or not ready to fall in love with him again?”

other parts

Kihyun.

“I have a daughter!” Kihyun yells entering his office after the long strenuous meeting he sat through, Hoseok and Minhyuk sat on the sofa’s waiting for his entrance.

“Wait, what? Someone catch me up, no wonder it’s been so quiet on the group chat recently.” Minhyuk says a little surprised, how on earth did Kihyun have a daughter? When did he have time to make a baby with someone? After seeing him in the office literally for 24 hours a day.

“Basically, Kihyun bumped into his daughter and woman in a convenience store. Since they looked similar he went looking for the woman to seek the truth, his daughter got hospitalized for something a few days ago. Then Kihyun visited them yesterday and she told him the truth? Did I get all of it?” Hoseok asks watching Kihyun fall down into his chair, he nodded his head unbuttoning his jacket.

“When did all of this happen? I’ve never seen you date someone?”

“Around 2-3 years ago, I never told you because it’s my business who I see,” Kihyun mutters, a little disappointed that Minhyuk didn’t remember you. He had seen you at least once maybe twice, he probably just didn’t put it together.

“What’s her name? When can we meet her?” Hoseok asks.

“Her name is Sumi and you will never get to meet her.” Kihyun glares across to Hoseok, he never wanted to merge his work and personal life into one. Also, it was too soon for you to introduce your daughter to his friends, Kihyun had to maintain a relationship with his daughter first of all. Then you.

“Okay, but will we get to meet the mother? I mean you were in love with her after all, you may have a future with her.” Kihyun turns his glare to Minhyuk, he needed to rebuild his relationship with you if he wanted a chance of a future with you. There was still something you were keeping from him, he knew that it was directed to your relationship. He would have to work on finding that piece of information out, then fix whatever he did to even think about dating again.

“Did you ask about the China trip yet?”

“No, I’m still considering it.” Kihyun would get to spend some time with you as well as his daughter in a private area, it wasn’t a bad idea presented by Hoseok. He would probably need to find some things to do in the city with Sumi being an active toddler. Picking up the phone that was connected through to his secretary, “I need you to book two more seats for first class on the plane and tell the hotel that I require another room.”

“You’re taking both of them to Shanghai? After she’s just been sick…” Minhyuk was a little concerned about this trip, but he didn’t know the finer details so it may have been okay to take them both.

“She’s being discharged today, I’m not going for another few days. They could say no to my offer.” Although if he asked you while Hyungwon was around, he might have a chance of bringing the two of you. That was just a guess though, he couldn’t read your brother’s thoughts either.

“You should at least show us a picture of her!” Hoseok complained still wanting to be on the subject of meeting Kihyun’s daughter. Kihyun ignored him and glanced to the doorway with his secretary standing there.

“Mr. Choi has arrived.” Kihyun nodded his head and stood up, time to finalize the details of his step into China. He straightened out his tie and tugged on his blazer a little before he took the documents out of his locked drawer.

“I suggest the two of you go to work because I don’t want you to be here when I come back.” He actually wanted to get some work done today before he went to your apartment tonight and possibly stayed the night. Kihyun would have to start planning on what he was going to do now, whether he would continue to visit your apartment or have you move to his.

X

“Are you happy to be home now?” I ask Sumi placing her onto the ground, as Hyungwon followed me in behind carrying the bags. Sumi looked up to me beaming with a smile, still holding the giraffe from Kihyun in her hand.

“Yes! I want watermelon.” She smiles pottering over to the kitchen, I followed behind her as she opened up the bottom part of the fridge which was the freezer. She looked inside hoping to find some watermelon, if I had Kihyun’s number I would ask him to pick one up on the way. The watermelon wasn’t even kept in the freezer but it was the only place she was able to reach.

I pulled her away from the freezer and closed the door before she started to shiver. I didn’t want to spend another night in the hospital, I had grown to hate them after giving birth to Sumi as she had to stay in one for her first two months of life. “Maybe Kihyun can pick some up on the way, but for now. It's time to have a bath.” I picked Sumi up before she even had a chance to run away. She cried out a little, looking at Hyungwon with her pleading eyes to get out of it.

“I’m sorry, baby. You need a bath.” Sometimes she was able to attack Hyungwon enough with her face to get out of it, which were days when I couldn’t be around due to work.

“Appa will be here soon, don't you want to look your best for him?” Her eyes filled with joy, a smile falling across her lips, she nodded her head agreeing to the bath. Walking through the apartment towards the bathroom, I placed her down on the floor and started to run the water. “Will you be a good girl for appa?”

“Yes.” She giggles as I pull her clothes off her body carefully, throwing them into the basket for dirty clothes.

“What are you going to say to him?” Even I couldn’t predict what Sumi was going to say to him, I wasn’t able to control everything she did. She could say something random or something serious, it depended on if she understood the situation. For the minute, I think she’s just happy that she has someone to call her father.

“I love you.” I look strangely at her, something that was both serious and random coming from her lips.

“Why?”

“I miss him.” She looked down a little, her face beginning to frown as she thought about it. I pulled her into my arms, kissing her head.

“I’m sorry baby.” I won’t lie to you next time, I thought to myself. Picking her up, I placed her into the running water then stopped it. “Is it cold?” I ask, quickly feeling the water before turning on the hot tap.

“Kihyun’s here.” Both Kihyun and Hyungwon stood in the doorway, they must have heard some of that. At least it wouldn’t need to be repeated. I smile at them both, welcoming Kihyun into the bathroom. “Hyungwon can you get Sumi’s pajamas ready?” I didn’t want to leave Kihyun here alone by himself, turning off the hot water. Sumi sat down in the bathtub, already distracted by her bath toys.

"Sumi, Appa is here,” I tell her gently, waving for Kihyun to come in he knelt down on the floor next to you. Sumi looked cautiously to him, even moving a little bit closer to me. Kihyun chuckled at her, he then pulled something out of his bag. “You don’t need to give her something every time you visit. I don’t want her to be spoiled.” I mutter.

“This is last thing, I promise. Until Christmas. Sumi, do you remember me? I held you in my arms as you slept.”

“Yes.” She looks up with a new face this time to smile at him. “Ducks.” She pointed to the book in Kihyun’s hands, he smiles looking down at it as well.

“I bought it to read to you before bed.” Kihyun turns the book toward me allowing me to see the front cover of the book. I hadn’t seen that book before, maybe it was a new release. I did like to read a lot of books to Sumi whenever I had a chance.

“I’ll make her a bottle. You’ll be okay watching her? Me and Hyungwon are in the next room.” Kihyun smiles nodding his head, I pulled myself up from the ground and walked out of the bathroom to the kitchen. “Hyungwon, what’s the date?” I ask sighing a little seeing as the wooden blocks hadn’t been changed since Sumi was hospitalized.

“It’s the 22nd. Sumi’s pajamas are on the bed.” I nodded my head moving the blocks around to the correct dates, 22nd November. Why did the date ring a bell? It seemed familiar, maybe it was a friend’s birthday or national pizza day. Putting that aside, I started to make up Sumi’s milk.

“Is Kihyun staying the night?”

“Ask him. I don’t know what he is thinking.” Which annoyed me slightly, I wanted to know what he was thinking so I was able to plan ahead. If he wanted to continue visiting after finishing work and sleep here, or did he want us to visit him.  

The microwave beeped letting me know the milk was ready, sprinkling a little bit of the milk onto the back of my wrist. It would be cool enough to drink by the time it took to get Sumi dressed, walking through to my room I placed it on the bedside table.

Sumi giggled as I came back into the bathroom, her face was covered in soap foam. Kihyun had rolled up the sleeves of his shirt to his elbows, I smile a little amused by the scene. Quickly pulling out my phone from my pocket, I took a picture of Sumi’s face with Kihyun’s back towards me. “Eomma!” She splashed her hand into the water creating puddles on the floor.

“Time to get out, your milk is ready.” Handing the towel over to Kihyun, he wrapped it around her and picked her up. “Follow me.” Walking through to the bedroom, Kihyun awkwardly carried Sumi out in front of him. It was funny to watch but he could also drop her easily that way. “I’ll teach you properly how to hold her. But a newborn is a whole other ball game.” Glancing over to Kihyun as I said that, he let out a loud sigh but smiled afterward.

I reached for the bottle of lotion and started to rub it into her skin as Kihyun sat beside Sumi on the bed stroking her hair. “Do you think her hair will become curly?”

“Maybe. She takes after you more though.” I muttered, putting the diaper on Sumi she continued to kick her legs at me as if I had done something wrong to her. Would she have preferred if Kihyun did it? I wasn’t even sure if Kihyun could change a diaper and it was a tedious thing to teach. “Arms.” I pulled Sumi up into a standing position on the bed to put the nightdress over her. Why did Hyungwon pick this? He had no common sense sometimes.

“Kiss.” Sumi giggles looking up at Kihyun, he bent down to kiss her on the lips making the two of them smile. It made me smile slightly as well, warming up the feelings inside of me. I looked over to Kihyun watching his facial expression every time he looked at her made me realize it was his birthday.

“Kihyun’s going to read you a bedtime story, I have to go do some work.” Handing over the bottle of milk to her, I watched the two of them get comfortable before I left the room to go to my office down the hallway.

“Are you really going to do work now?” Hyungwon asks as I sat down at my desk.

“I haven’t done any work in almost a week, I have a lot to catch up on.” I’ll only be an hour here probably before going to bed. Hyungwon didn’t say a word and left, he liked to do that a lot. As I waited for the computer to load up, my mind drifted into a whirlpool of questions. Didn’t Kihyun celebrate his birthday anymore? And why not? Why did he keep it from us? Was he just expecting us to remember? I guess being introduced to his daughter would be enough, that’s what he would say.

The hours seemed to pass by quicker when I started to just type and type until I was satisfied. It was now past midnight and I hadn’t seen any sign of Kihyun leaving. Was he with Hyungwon or Sumi? Closing the lid to my computer, I walked quietly back into my room to see Kihyun asleep with Sumi in his arms. Just like the hospital scene.

I tried to tiptoe to the other side of the bed when I heard his voice, “What time is it?”

“It’s past midnight, don’t worry you can stay the night,” I whisper gently getting into bed without disturbing Sumi. I held my breath as she moved about a little and eventually ended up lying in the middle stretched out. It went quiet again for a few moments until I heard the click of a light switch, I blinked and the room was black. “Kihyun.”

“Yeah?”

“Happy birthday.” Even if it was past midnight.

[sjjms]

family | part five

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 2.5k words genre: slight fluff and angst   summary: “Not ready for Sumi to have a father? Or not ready to fall in love with him again?”

other parts

“I’m going to work!” Hyungwon’s yells woke me up, “Sumi’s had breakfast and she’s watching cartoons.” Sitting up I ran my fingers through my hair. Usually, my alarm goes off a lot earlier than this, as I saw the time was 7:45. Wandering into the main part of the apartment, I saw Sumi immersed in the tv screen.

“Why didn’t you wake me up sooner?” I ask, bending down to kiss Sumi on the head. “Five more minutes and then we need wash up.”

“Kihyun turned your alarm off.” Did he? Why? I was perfectly fine with getting up my usual time. I walked over to the kitchen pulling out two slices of bread to put in the toaster. “He also left this.” Hyungwon handed me the white envelope, taking out the contents I scattered it across the counter. “I’m going, Sumi be good for Mama.” She didn’t even look up from the tv as he said that, he left a little disappointed which made me smile as I picked up Kihyun’s note. He left his phone number, the company phone number and even told the two of us to come for lunch.

I sigh a little picking up the two plane tickets, where to? Shanghai. First class as well. Departure a few days from now. We were not going to be doing that, I slammed the tickets onto the counter as the toaster popped. “What did you have for breakfast?” Hyungwon must have given her fruits to eat, as I pulled the butter out of the fridge. The box containing fruit had been emptied. She didn’t answer me again, typical...

Quickly eating the two slices of toast, I cleaned up the kitchen a little before going over to Sumi. “Your five minutes are up.” Turning off the tv, I picked her up and carried her over to the bathroom. She started to cry as I put her in front of the sink. “No. You need to wash up, I gave you five minutes.” It was painful to be mean to her but she needed to learn. “We have playgroup to go to.” I covered her face with water giving it a good wash, then dried it with a towel. I rubbed her face with lotion before she was allowed to get down.

I dress and wash quickly while Sumi played with her toys in her room, I wasn’t even going to bother with makeup. Kihyun and the other mothers had seen me without makeup before, it wouldn’t be the talk of the week. The gossip of the week was one of the mother’s having an affair, I didn’t take particular interest in these rumors. I just wanted to keep my secret private, who knows what would happen if they find out. “Do you know what you want to wear?”

Sumi nodded her head, having already pulled out a dress from the bottom drawer. I took out a diaper and some tights for her to wear, “We have to be out of the house in the next 10 minutes, can we do it?” I ask sitting down crossed legged on the floor, I pulled her down in front of me to change her diaper. She was being good today surprisingly after what had happened in the bathroom. “Are you excited for the playgroup?” She nodded her as I finished up with her diaper and pulled up the tights.

“What’s wrong? We’re going to see daddy today. Don’t you want to see him?” Her face brightens up a little, did what I say earlier really upset her that much? Standing her up I took off her nightdress and switched it to the dress she picked out. “Eomma is sorry, okay?” I started to tickle her to make her giggle. She was in a slightly happier mood but it was all apart of growing up.

X

Kihyun

His eyes would glance over to the clock on his computer screen, wondering if you were going to show up and when you would. He had a meeting at 3 so if you hadn’t come by 2 he was going to go for lunch, you did still have two hours to show up. “Minhyuk is on line 2.” Kihyun looked up to his secretary, his hand already reaching for his phone.

“What?” Kihyun mutters.

“Is this really how you treat me? Anyway, want to have lunch together? My wife would like you to join.” The ping of the elevator alarmed Kihyun, his eyes spying through his blinds to figure out who was on the other side.

“Daddy.” His lips curled into a smile when he heard the child’s voice.

“Where? It will have to be child-friendly.” His guests had arrived. He was glad you had decided to come. Minhyuk gasped on the other end of the line and started to whisper to his wife, Kihyun wasn’t oblivious to what he was doing.

“I’ll text you the address,” He placed the phone down as Sumi walked into his office, he quickly walked around his desk to pick her up before you came into the room.

“I like your dress, did Mama pick it out for you?” Kihyun also wanted to ask, did you miss me? But he didn’t want to bombard his daughter with questions. He could ask her later on if he remembered.

“Me.” Did she?

“Woah, it’s pretty.” He smiled even more at the two of you. He hated that you never tried with dressing up whenever you were around him and you were still effortlessly beautiful to him. “About Shanghai…You don’t have to come if you don’t want to. I was just hoping you would so we could all spend time away together.” Who knows when you would give Kihyun a chance to see Sumi next. The only idea he had come up with letting the two of you move into his apartment since it would be more convenient for him, but Kihyun had no idea what you did now and he didn’t want to disrupt the work you were at.

“I originally decided against the idea but I think it would be good for us all, but I need you to do something for me.” Kihyun looked up to you wondering what it could be but at this point, he would have done anything for you. “Could you take Sumi to playgroup on Friday? I have to meet up with a client. We can stay over at your apartment the night before and I can get her all ready for you before I leave.”

“Sure, you might as well stay at my apartment that Friday night as well since we’ll be going on Saturday.” Kihyun watched as you nodded your head quietly, he was counting on you saying something back but you didn’t. “We’re meeting a friend of mine and his wife for lunch, is that okay?”

“Do they have kids?”

“They’re currently expecting their first child. Shall we go?” Kihyun nudged Sumi a little in his arms, as she had gotten distracted by his tie. She smiled immediately and nodded her head deciding to point to the doorway.

OC

My eyes narrowed entering the restaurant not recognizing the faces even if it was a couple of diners and staff. Kihyun guided us over to the table in the corner, a couple was waiting for the three of us; smiles welcoming us both. I bowed politely to both of them holding Sumi in my arms, the man looked straight to Sumi, his facial expressions already changing.

“I thought you weren’t going to introduce us to her.” The man mutters throwing a glare over to Kihyun, a staff member kindly brought over a wooden highchair for Sumi to sit in. Then I split up a bread roll for her to chew while we waited, only then I was able to sit down next to Kihyun.

“You two are much better than Hoseok. Besides the two of you are having a baby, you have a mother at the table if you want to ask any questions.” Kihyun smiles at them both. I laughed a little feeling pressure now come onto my shoulders if they did have questions for me.

“How old is she?” The man asks, I still didn’t know their names. Would I go through this entire meal not knowing who was sitting opposite me?  

“She’s 2, I’m Y/N and you are?” Smooth way to put that in.

“Minhyuk and this is my wife, Eun.” Finally, faces I could put names to. “We’re currently expecting our first child together as you can probably tell.” Her bump was certainly visible from this side of the table, for some reason, Eun looked terrified of becoming a mother or she was just unhappy being pregnant.

“If you need help, I’ll be available through Kihyun.” I smile at them both, it would be slightly strange to give out your information to Minhyuk and Eun before even giving anything to Kihyun. Well, he had your information at one point but he probably deleted it.

I did.

“I’m sure we’ll contact you.” Eun perked up a little hearing it come from my own mouth, maybe it would be a good idea to speak to her privately.

After eating, Sumi was starting to get tired, her eyes becoming droopier as she tried to stay awake. She liked to fight sleep sometimes, I moved my hand over to the back of her head making sure it didn’t fall face forward. “I have one last question, was the labor painful?” My eyes looked up to Eun’s, if I told her what happened to me she would be terrified to give birth but I could already see she was scared. I didn’t want to tell the world I went into labor early, it was a terrifying experience and I just hope all my future children will come at the right time. However, Sumi had other ideas and decided to come early.

“I’d rather not answer that question if that’s okay. Maybe next time we see each other.” I smile at the pair of them starting to move out of my seat, which hopefully signaled Kihyun to come with me. He was the one driving after all.

“Ah, okay. She must be ready for her nap.” It was going to be unconventional for her to sleep in her car seat, I was hoping she wouldn’t wake up grumpy.

“I’m sorry, see you next time.” Carefully picking up Sumi, I gently let her head fall onto my shoulder. “Could you carry the bag?” I bowed politely wrapping Sumi’s hands around my neck one by one. Walking out of the restaurant I felt Kihyun’s stare on me, was he annoyed that I didn’t tell them something? I had my own right to privacy, he should know that. He should know a lot of things about me, people do change after 2 years but it shouldn’t be hard to catch on to these changes.

“Does she usually fall asleep around this time?”

“We have lunch around 12 then she falls asleep around 1. She did well by staying awake until 2.” I mutter as the elevator opened up, it was an odd feeling to step into one and let it carry my weight and Sumi’s until we had arrived on the right floor.

Kihyun’s footsteps were much louder compared to mine, he wore dress shoes which matched his suit. He looked good in that damn suit. I almost hated him for it. He opened up the back door of his car, allowing me to carefully transfer Sumi into her seat. “She looks like you when she sleeps.” Kihyun whispers, I could feel the warmth in his voice, he was envious that I had this relationship with her. He wanted that too. What did I need to do to make him feel like he had enough? That he felt like he was Sumi’s father? Did he need my love too?

“Eun looks like she isn’t prepared for motherhood.” No one really is when they’re a mother for the first time if I have another chance to have another child, I hope to use my knowledge with Sumi. Whether I had another child with Kihyun or a different man.

“In a sense, I’m not prepared for fatherhood.” Kihyun climbs into the driver’s seat closing the door quietly after him. Hyungwon’s words struck through my mind that he had been in a car accident before, it made me wonder what caused it. Drunk driving? However, the whole father thing was sprung on him. One day he was living as a successful CEO, the next a father.

“You’ll get used to it. We should sort out an arrangement after returning from China. Whether it’s you sleeping over at our apartment or us moving into yours, but let me make one thing clear. I will not leave my daughter’s side. I don’t want to battle over custody for her, I don’t want to be one of those parents who fight over who gets Christmas or Birthdays. I want us to raise her together, either platonically or romantically.” Platonically or romantically, why did I say those words? I wasn’t looking for a relationship, we had already tried once but it didn’t work. I could see now Kihyun was trying his hardest to involve himself with me and Sumi, so he was working on the issues from the relationship. He just didn’t realize that yet. I guess spending two years apart really did do something to him.

“It might be an idea if you move into mine, I have plenty of room. You’ve already stayed there plenty of times before. It’s probably where we conceived Sumi.” Still the same apartment then. When he first bought the apartment it looked like his company was still going through tough times as it had just started and he would never be able to pay off the loan from the bank. But it seemed to pay off then, he must be content living there. The location was good too.

“It’s something to think about. Thank you as well for finding her a car seat that fits.” That was another thing Kihyun had given her something without expecting anything back, which made me feel like he needed something back. Like another baby or something. One that he could raise from the start. “I didn’t expect you to do that.”

“Your welcome. I’ll pick you up tomorrow after I finish work.” I nodded staring out of the window, it was starting to rain. My favorite time of day, I would be able to sit at my desk and listen to the rain. This made my day a lot better than it had been originally. “Why didn’t you want to tell Eun about your labor? Is there something I need to know about?”

“It’s not something you should learn about while driving, I’ll tell you tomorrow,” I mutter recognizing the buildings that came into view for my apartment. My eyes glanced over to Kihyun, he wasn’t happy being told that. “Not everything can be yours all at once, Kihyun. I thought you knew that.” After all, he did have to put up a fight to win you over.

[sjjms]

family | part three

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 2.6k words genre: slight angst and fluff summary:  “Not ready for Sumi to have a father? Or not ready to fall in love with him again?”

other parts

OC

“She’ll need to stay in the hospital for a couple of days, at least until her lungs clear and we can see improvements in her charts. The antibiotics should start taking effect soon.” I nodded taking note of what the doctor said, was it bad to say I was slightly expecting this? But since she was in the hospital, she would be receiving all of the care she needed.

“Thank you.” I smile at the doctor, my eyes followed him to door until I was alone with Sumi.

I took her hand in mine bending down to kiss it, then her forehead. “You’ll be okay soon baby, I promise,” I whisper, it pained me so much to see her like this. No mother wanted to see her child like this. Hyungwon enters the room, holding two cups of coffee in his hands. He smiles a little before sitting down beside me and handing over the coffee.  

“Will she really be okay?” Asking him for reassurance, I needed it.

“It’s a bacterial infection, so it’s treatable with antibiotics. Where did Kihyun go?” I was surprised he even noticed Kihyun, with how quickly he moved earlier. I watched Hyungwon read Sumi charts carefully, nodded his head at what had been written. I wasn’t even going to glance over his shoulder, I didn’t want to know if it was really bad or not. I had the reassurance of Kihyun and my brother, which was all I needed.

“He went back to his company, I’m surprised he stayed so long,”  I mutter, confusing Hyungwon.

“Why? Did you tell him?”  I shook my head sinking back into the chair, sleeping on this for the next few days was going to be uncomfortable. “What I should say is… are you tempted to tell him now that she’s sick?” My head rose at his voice, I was slightly tempted to tell him out of the blue, just as he left the room to go back to his company. I would have to tell him at some point.

“I don’t want to ruin his reputation after he’s worked so hard for it, you saw him all those years ago dedicated to getting his company off the ground. I’m not ready to tell him yet, or even trust him yet.” I whisper.

“She’s already starting to ask about her father.” I knew that. I was lucky enough that she was still young enough to believe that he just isn’t around and she was satisfied by that answer.

“I’ll tell him… soon.” My attention fell back to Sumi wondering how she could be sleeping when she’s slept for most of the day already. Being sick must have tired her out. Moving my hand up to her forehead, I gently brushed my hand moving it through her hair.

“Make sure that you’re one to tell him.” What was that supposed to mean? Would he tell him? He wouldn’t. I suppose he would find a small way to tell him indirectly if I didn’t. Maybe if Kihyun came by the hospital again that would be the time I tell him. It did make me sad to see them apart, it would be nice to see them interacting with each other. Telling Kihyun didn’t mean you would have to get back together, it just meant he could choose whether he wanted to see his daughter or not.

“If he stops by again, I’ll tell him.”

“Is that a final decision?” Hyungwon asks. I smile at him nodding my head, it was final in my head. It just depended on Kihyun showing up.

Kihyun

“Did something happen for you to be here right now?” Kihyun sighs throwing his jacket across the sofa, he fell back into his desk chair. Hoseok must have read through the documents that had been placed on his desk while he was out. Why would Hoseok even stay around his office? There really wasn’t much to do around here unless he was an employee.

“Did you find out if you have a daughter?”

“I didn’t think it was the right time to ask considering she’s now in the hospital,” Kihyun mutters, reading the documents in front of him for the meeting that was scheduled for tomorrow. His company was making a move forward into countries other than Korea, if he could seal the deal with China it could open him up to more opportunities.

“What will you do now then?”

“I have to go to China in 2 weeks, I need to focus on that more than whether or not I have a daughter.” Although his thoughts would preoccupy him more than anything now he knew Sumi was in the hospital. His mind was also telling him to believe in the story that you had told him.

“You should have a DNA test done. But how long are you staying in China?” A DNA test? It sounded tempting if Kihyun’s mind got to the point he needed physical evidence.

“I’ll consider it, I’ll be in China for a couple of days to finalize the deal.” When he returned to Korea it would be a new month, he’d probably miss the snow falling about 10 times. Then again he could always see it in China.

“You should take them with you.” Had Hoseok been drinking? The only place Kihyun kept alcohol was in his safe which no one knew the code to. Then again there was a bar down the street, which Kihyun had become a regular customer too since it was quiet and private.

“Why would I do that? I’ve seen her twice and now you want me to invite her on a business trip. Besides I have no idea how long her daughter will be in the hospital.” Maybe Kihyun would be paying them a visit in the hospital after all if Hoseok proved his idea was good enough.

“If you really believe that she is your daughter, taking them on a trip and you interacting with her might get the mother to talk.” He’d consider it. But what bothered Kihyun the most was, why. Why did you choose to keep this secret? Why did you not tell him?

“I have a lot of things to think about, so I’ll see you tomorrow,” Kihyun announces his abrupt plan to retire home was no surprise to Hoseok. Of course, he needed time to think.

“Are you sure you’re not going to break anything?” Hoseok wasn’t even sure why he was asking, it would be in his own apartment, not the company. Hoseok was trying to think back to last time he went to Kihyun’s apartment to see if anything was valuable, which he would regret breaking.

“I’m not angry, Hoseok. I just want to drink at home, alone.” He mutters turning off his computer screen and putting the documents into a locked drawer before he stood up. “It’s been a long day.” Picking up his jacket and pulling over his shoulders. “Is the driver waiting out front?” He asks his secretary, he didn’t feel like driving himself home today. Another perk of being rich and having a company was having a driver.

“Yes. Good work today.”

The elevator was ridden in silence, the two men had already talked enough today to establish that the conversation wasn’t going to go any further. Kihyun no longer wanted to think about the girl in the hospital let alone whether she was his daughter. It didn’t help that Hoseok kept pressing him for details.

“I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Come into work sober tomorrow,” Hoseok yelled out to him as Kihyun got into the back of the car. Kihyun wasn’t stupid enough to do that, he had to catch up on the work he missed today. He had double the workload.

X

Kihyun stared at the liquid in the tumbler, his hand moved the glass gently to swirl the liquor. He sat down comfortably in the black leather chair facing the windows. His eyes now drifting to the rain pattering against the glass, you liked the rain. It was your favorite thing to do here, sit in the same chair Kihyun was in and just watch.

Kihyun watched you curiously from the doorway of his bedroom, seeing you sit with your knees pulled into your chest. You watched the rain carefully as if you were waiting for your long lost lover to finally appear after being separated for decades. He knew you would get lost looking into the rain all day if you could. “You’re watching the rain again.” He smiled walking towards you, he pulled you out of the chair so you could now sit in his lap. Kihyun nuzzled his face into your neck, making you smile but you kept your eyes on the rain.

“I like the rain, it has a calming effect.” Just hearing the rain made your whole body smile in peace. If you were ever anxious about something you knew you could count on the rain, the rain was like your best friend. Always being there for you when you needed it.

“Does it? If you like the rain, I’ll fall in love with it too.” Kihyun mutters, his head resting on your shoulder to look out the same window you had been.

“I like the idea of that too.”

“She was right, it is calming.” Kihyun poured the liquor down his throat, sighing to himself. One of the habits he had acquired after the break up was having a new found love for rain. Half the time he didn’t mind having the habit but today it was annoying. The time he didn’t want to think about you, you were on his mind.

“Was it the truth or a lie, I wonder.” You never had once lied to him, but that was the part of your story that bothered him the most. In some cases, it was believable for the father to die in a car accident. Kihyun didn’t keep track of your relationships after you broke up. It was likely to get pregnant after the two of you broke up with someone else.

“Should I visit them? Should I take them a gift?” Kihyun was worried for the girl, after all, she did have to be hospitalized. Seeing how pale her face had gotten over the space of half an hour after throwing up and then looking at you. To see how anxious you were for your daughter, your face was just as pale as your daughter’s by the time Sumi had come back from receiving all of her tests.

“I should visit them.” Kihyun firmly decided to focus his mind back on the rain.

A few days later.

OC

“Are you okay? Are you in pain?” I question seeing her now awake, recently she had been feeling a lot better because of the antibiotics working. Picking herself up, she wobbled over to the edge of the bed. I picked her up and pulled her into my arms. “Are you hungry?”

“Milk.”

“Hyungwon is just warming up the milk,” He would be here in a few minutes, I smile looking down at her to see she was feeling better. I let my hand run through her hair gently, “What should we eat for breakfast tomorrow?”

“Milk,”

“Milk? You drink that silly.” Sumi giggled, which led her to start coughing. Your eyes widened grabbing the bowl from the side and placing it under her mouth. “It’s okay.” Her coughing eased up and nothing came from her mouth, at least she hadn’t thrown up since last night.

“Here’s the milk, also I found him outside.” I look up as I placed the bowl on the table. Kihyun took small steps towards the both of us, carrying a bag in his fingers. “Did she throw up?”

“No, she was just coughing.” Hyungwon nodded his head handing the bottle over to me.

“I have to get back, my shift is nearly over so I’ll be by soon. But if her charts continue to stay like this, she’ll be able to get discharged tomorrow. ”

“You can sit down, it’s not contagious.” I smile slightly, he placed the bag onto the hospital tray for her bed. “You didn’t need to get her anything,” I mutter as he pulled out a plastic bottle and filled up the vase by Sumi’s bed before taking out a lavender bouquet to fill the vase.

“I heard lavender has good health benefits, so I thought it could help. I brought her some jelly to eat when she feels better and a stuffed toy… It looked cute.” He smiles to himself as he handed the stuffed giraffe over to Sumi.

“Thank you, we appreciate it.” As I say that, Sumi started to squirm in my arms, wanting to be held by Kihyun instead of me. “She wants you to hold her, is that okay? All you need to do is watch the bottle and make sure she drinks most of it.” Kihyun chuckles a little as I gave him probably too many instructions or just my overall motherly attitude to tell him everything. “Sit on the bed, so we don’t have to switch poles.”

He moved to sit down on the bed, directly opposite to me. I took the bottle away from Sumi’s hand and moved her over to him, then the bottle. “Relax your arms, it’s okay. You won’t drop her.” His arms were tensed up as with one arm he held her up in a sitting position. I picked Sumi up and placed her in the correct position in his arms. “There. She’ll fall asleep soon.” I mutter watching Kihyun look down at her.

“It must be a relief that she’ll be discharged tomorrow. The last few days must have been hard… without her father being around to help .” I don’t let my eyes fall when his look up to mine. I wasn’t sure how to reply to that, her father. Was right here. Alive.

“I have Hyungwon… I have something to tell you… but I can’t decide whether I should or not. Whether you’ll stay or leave is what worries me.” My heart began to beat so much faster, I was really doing this. Telling him.

“There’s only one way to find out what my reaction will be.” I watch Sumi for a little longer, her eyes becoming droopy until she had finally fallen asleep with the bottle still in her mouth. I smile taking the bottle carefully away from her mouth and place it gently down on the table.

“The other day, I lied. About the father… he isn’t dead. It was stupid of me to not tell you the truth. He’s actually right here… in front of me. Holding our daughter…” His eyes fell back to Sumi, his eyes becoming softer and warmer.

“She’s mine?” He gulped a little, he didn’t expect the truth so soon. He probably expected it to be months before he finally got fed up and decided to do a paternity test, like how they do it in the dramas. But instead of getting the test done they just drag it out until the last episode, I thought to myself momentarily. “Why did you keep it from me?”

“Because… I’m a fool. I don’t want to be involved in the spotlight, you know I hate it. Besides, you liked to focus on your career, to burden you with a baby was a bit much.” Kihyun nodded his head to my words, it was a relief. There was more but that was more directed to the relationship, I would tell him when I was ready if he wanted to know.

“There’s more.” He muttered, his eyes lingering with yours.

“Please be patient with me, I’ll tell you that part when I’m ready. But for now, focus on your daughter instead of me.” I tell him straightforwardly, it was the only way to do it. After all, Kihyun might only want involvement in Sumi’s life, not the both of us. I had to remember that.

“Thank you.”

[sjjms]

Family | part one

pairing: kihyunxreader length: 3k words genre: slight angst and fluff summary:  “Not ready for Sumi to have a father? Or not ready to fall in love with him again?” comments: To make everything a little easier, I have already named the daughter

other parts

Kihyun

Kihyun grunted a little as the presentation continued to drone on, beginning to tap his pen against his leg out of impatience. He questioned why he had to sit in on all of the intern’s final presentations. Most of them he wouldn’t even see again due to only hiring only four out of the mass’ of interns they had each year. Each face he saw of the interns was just a blur to him. Hoseok had been the one to force him to sit in on them, saying it would boost the confidence in some. Kihyun watching from the hallway would be enough to intimidate the interns. After every minute or so Kihyun would throw a glare across to Hoseok. At times Hoseok would read Kihyun’s mind with the usual thoughts of Shin Hoseok! I’m planning on killing you. It amused Hoseok all the more.

After the presentations had finally come to an end, it was Kihyun’s one shot at escaping. He stood up quickly to button up his suit jacket, “Mr Yoo, as the CEO, please say something to the interns who have worked hard on their final presentations.” Glancing over to Hoseok, who had a recognisable smirk curling at his lips, Kihyun could only sigh. He wouldn’t be out of this room by sunset by the way things were going.

“You’ve all worked hard on your presentations and for your effort, all of you will be rewarded. Keep up the good work.” Kihyun put it into simple words, with a fake smile shining at all of them brightly. It reassured all of the timid workers who were either standing or sitting in front of him, a sigh of relief pass through most of them. Kihyun nodded his head before walking out of the room, making his way back to the comforts of his own office.

Kihyun was known as the youngest most successful CEO in Korea, he had made his way from rock bottom to the highest he could go, in only a few years. People could say he was living the dream, in his world he was comfortable like this above the rest; but his next aim was to be recognised by other countries than Korea. He knew he would lose impact after a while, but it would all the more encourage him to climb back and go further. To his disapproval mostly, with being a prosperous CEO, he had very powerful men meeting with him in hopes he would marry into the family; to at least have a connection with his company. Kihyun liked the fact he was single with the freedom of choices he had.

Arriving at his office Kihyun could finally sit at his desk comfortably without terrified interns standing in front of him. The glass plated desk was centred towards the windows, with the skyline of Seoul as his background. The top floor office had been upgraded into a modern and sleek office, with the colour scheme to only have remained with few colours. Black, white and grey, to fit against his background.

“You hate me don’t you?” Hoseok asks. Striding into Kihyun’s office and sat down on one of the cool black sofas, faced to the left of Kihyun’s desk, slinging his arm around the back of the sofa. Kihyun scowled at Hoseok sometimes wishing, he didn’t progress the relationship from acquaintances to friends to then best friends.

“Yes. Why do you insist I attend those years after years? None of them, ever prove that they deserve a place working at the company.” Kihyun sighs, unbuttoning his suit jacket. He always purposely chose not to wear a tie on these days because he always ended up in the same mood.

“Where’s Minhyuk? I’m surprised he didn’t show his face today.”

“He’s with his wife, finding out the gender of their baby.” Kihyun didn’t look up from his computer as Hoseok replied to him. Minhyuk was the first out of the three to settle down with a wife, none of them really questioned them both because they looked happy with each other.

“I didn’t even know they were having a baby,” Kihyun mutters, he knew. He didn’t want to accept that he would be losing a best friend to a baby.

“Liar. You’ll still see him after the baby is born. Kihyun, you’ll see us all when we all settle down, we can all meet up with our kids.” A smile formed on Hoseok’s lips just thinking about kids, as Kihyun looked at him with a weird look. Kihyun loved kids. He did. He was just focusing on his career before finding someone to date and maybe even consider kids with.

“I don’t plan on having kids anytime soon.” Hoseok scoffs a little if he met the right girl he would give in and accidentally get her pregnant or something. Hoseok even wondered if Kihyun had dated anyone before since it was a subject Kihyun never talked about.  

“You never know, you may already have one.” Hoseok jokes standing up, he needed to go before Kihyun decided to throw something at him as there was already an evil glare. Kihyun knew that wasn't likely, which he then decided to disregard Hoseok’s comment. “I’ll talk to you later,” Hoseok walked out of the room, with Kihyun’s glare staying with him for a few seconds more before returning to his work.

OC

“Oh! We’re out of diapers.” I say smiling down at my daughter, her legs kicking into me as she decided she didn’t want to stay still as I pulled up the last diaper. She started trying to roll over to try and remove herself from my grasp, so she was able to run around the apartment in just her top. "No, you can't free yourself from my grasp." Deciding to play along with her was always fun to do because I always ended up laughing with her.

“All gone!” She giggled cutely as I finished pulling her bottoms up her legs before she was finally allowed to stand up again. She started to pat down my hair as if she wanted to get into trouble, I carefully move my fingers quick enough to catch her off guard and tickle her. Falling down into my lap she smiled brightly looking up to me.

“Shall we go to the store and buy some more?” I would have gone anyway or asked Hyungwon to pick some up while he was on his way home, but since we had been inside all day; it was time to go outside and get some fresh air before it started to snow again.

“I want Jelly!” She squealed with excitement as soon as I had said the word store, she loved to eat jelly luckily she hadn’t found a taste for chocolate just yet. However, I was good at managing how much sugar she had a week.

“Okay but you're only allowed one packet and then we can’t buy any more until next week.” Sumi pouted a little as I told her. “Kiss.” I bent down to kiss her on the lips which made her smile but only a little. “Do you want to wear your purple or green coat.” She would also have to wear a scarf as I checked the weather app on my phone seeing as it was only 4 degrees. December would be even colder, I wasn’t sure how I could get Sumi outside if it was in the negatives. I would have to do some research for some activities to do with her.

“Purple!” Going into her closet, I pulled her purple coat off of the hanger and bent down to get the matching scarf from her drawers before I went back out into her bedroom. She took the coat for herself pulling her arm into the first sleeve, she always managed to do one arm only which then her other arm couldn’t reach the second armhole. “Mama, I'm stuck.”

“Do you need help?” I ask smiling, kneeling down beside her I pulled her around to face me. Picking up the rest of her coat, I helped pull her other arm through before wrapping the scarf around her neck. “I’ll get my coat.” Sumi took my hand like always and started to pull me towards the front door, sometimes I thought she would leave the house without her shoes on. “Sumi, shoes.” Reminding her gently.

Taking the first coat from the closet that wasn’t Hyungwon’s, I pulled it around my shoulders and buttoned it up quickly before Sumi needed my help with her shoes. She could easily do the straps but couldn’t pull the shoe around the back of her heel. “Hyungwon.” Sumi smiled as she spotted his slippers on the shoe rack.

“Uncle Hyungwon is at work, he’ll be back soon.” Hyungwon was my brother, who had played a major role in raising Sumi with me. It helped that he was a doctor as well, I didn’t need to go to the doctor to diagnose Sumi if she was sick. Hyungwon was able to check her and recommend whether I should take her to the hospital. “Are you ready to go.” Zipping up her coat, I lifted Sumi up into my arms.

“Let’s go.” She giggled.

“Hello, Sumi!” The store owner greeted Sumi cheerfully, everyone who knew Sumi had fallen in love with her charms since she would always act cute around them. I also say hello to the owner before Sumi wants to me to place her on the ground so she was able to walk around. “What are you here for today?”

“Diapers,” The owner nodded understanding the hardship of a baby, Sumi wasn’t even a baby she was a toddler. 3 years old in Korean and 2 years old internationally, she was technically a toddler. I knew I would have to transition her into going to the toilet a few months from now, but for now, I was still having to buy diapers.

“Jelly!” Sumi squealed again running in the direction of the jelly in the sweets aisle, I immediately followed her to make sure she only picked up one packet. The owner then said hello to the next customer that came through the door.

“Sumi has to hold it, okay?” She nodded her head then started to run making me think she looked so cute doing it. It wasn’t exactly running but a sort of walk as well jog type thing, I had just decided to call it a run because of the way she did it, she managed to do it at a quick speed. “Sumi, wait for me,” I say quickly walking after her when I heard a sudden burst of cry. I moved a little quicker to find Sumi sitting on the floor with a well-dressed man overshadowing her.

Without any thought, I picked her up pulling her into my arms checking that she was alright. “Are you hurt?” I ask, wiping away the tears from her eyes.

“It’s my fault, I accidentally knocked into her on my way past.” That voice. His voice, it was familiar and was a somewhat a comfort to hear after going years without hearing it. Looking across to the man, I was still a little hesitant at his actions. Pulling Sumi closer to me, I knew who he was. It took me a few seconds to process, it feels as if it had been a decade since I had last seen him but he always managed to astonish me.

“It’s okay, it was an accident. Kihyun.” His eyes locked with mine handing the jelly Sumi had dropped to her, “Did he apologize?” bringing back my wavering attention to my daughter, Sumi nodded her head and it was a relief that this wouldn’t create a bigger issue.

“Your daughter..?” Kihyun was hesitant at asking the question, I could see it in his eyes, he was in awe due to Sumi’s looks. Her brown hair and brown eyes, she also had his lips; whenever she smiled she would look like him. It made you warier that Sumi looks more like her father, it also made you miss him more than you already did.

“Yes, we should be on our way. It’s good to know you’re doing well, shall we go?” I smile briefly at Kihyun nudging Sumi in my arms as she was trying to open the jelly. “Sumi, say bye Kihyun.” Sumi turned around to smile at Kihyun and waved goodbye to him.

I let out a sigh of relief picking up the diapers off the shelf in which we came for, I could see Kihyun in the corner of my eyes looking at the drinks as I paid for our things, “Bye-bye.” Sumi giggles as we made our way out of the store.

“Where's daddy?” Sumi asks as we started to walk back to the apartment, looking at her hopeful eyes seeing them light up like that just crushed my heart. Of course, I wanted to tell her Kihyun was her father, I wanted her to be raised by him, I wanted to be a happy family with him. Things just never worked out that way and I ended up raising Sumi with the help of Hyungwon.

“Daddy is somewhere far away, I'm sorry baby,” Kissing the top of her forehead gently as we steadily walked up the street, a single tear falling from your eyes as I said that.

Arriving in the parking spaces for the apartments, I spotted Hyungwon’s car already there; always on time. I would be able to put it to the clock and he would be walking through the door to the exact time every day. “Look who’s home.” Pointing to the car that Sumi would recognize easily, she started smiling as we entered the elevator.

“Hyungwon.”

“Sumi! What did mama buy you this time?” Hyungwon was waiting by the door for the two of us, Sumi was practically taken out of my arms by him into his as soon as I had opened the door.  

“Jelly! Can you open it please?” Giggling with excitement in her voice, every time she had jelly with her she would do that. I was slightly baffled that it was the same reaction and she had remembered to do it.

“You can have jelly after you have dinner, okay?” She listened to Hyungwon well, he was an interesting person to Sumi after she saw him doing his job in front of her eyes. Maybe she would also become a doctor like her uncle. I could finally breathe with Sumi with Hyungwon, I could just hang my coat back up in the closet and count to ten.

“Let’s go wash our hands for dinner.”

X

Sitting alone on the sofa, glancing over to my room as Hyungwon made his way out to sit down next to you. “Do you think my reason for not telling Kihyun was a bad decision?” I ask I had been contemplating it ever since I saw him in the store earlier. Was I a bad mother? Everyone would have their reasons for not telling their ex-boyfriend.

“No. Although he did have a right to know, even if you had been broken up for a couple of months. Then again you could have had an abortion or given her up for adoption, but you kept her.” Hyungwon replies.

“You know it’s illegal to have an abortion and I didn’t fit into the categories to have one. If I put her into the adoption system, I would have never forgiven myself. But she turned our lives around for the better though.” I mutter, pulling one of my legs up and placed it under the other.

“For being born prematurely at 30 weeks, she's flourished into a two-year-old; these two years have gone by so quickly. Did I tell you… Kihyun was also in the hospital the same time you went into labour, he even held her.” My eyes widened hearing news of this, he held her? When Sumi was kept in the NICU for a month, then in the hospital for another month. “He had gotten into a car accident when you went into labour, breaking his leg and a couple of ribs. He was paying me a visit after he had his cast taken off, it was also the time I was with Sumi when she wasn’t in the NICU. I told him Sumi was one of my friends baby, I got called out to go attend to a patient briefly and left him alone in the room with her. It was only for around 5 minutes, they looked like they bonded well.”

“He got into a car accident the same time I went into labour… coincidence or not?” I mutter, I obviously had no idea Kihyun was involved in an accident as it would be breaking patient confidentiality if he told me then. Then again it sort of was now, there could have been articles online about it. “I wonder what he does now?”

“He’s a major funder to our hospital for starters, he’s well respected in the business industry. I heard he was named the most successful CEO this year.” Hyungwon had been keeping up with Kihyun more than I had been, then again I guess he was in the loop. The nurses would probably gossip about a handsome CEO, that was a major funder to the hospital. It would be the talk of the hospital.

“He did well for himself…”

“What’s brought all of this on anyway?”

“When we went to the store today, Sumi bumped into him. He was standing there in front of me and my heart was breaking, if I hadn’t had Sumi with me it might have been different but on the way back she said to me where's daddy? I feel like a bad mother for keeping Sumi and Kihyun away from each other. I know now that Kihyun has seen her, he’s going to start questioning things and I’m not ready.” This is where the tears should have started pouring out of my eyes but they didn’t. Instead, I just felt helpless inside.

“Not ready for Sumi to have a father? Or not ready to fall in love with him again?”