#kids shouldnt hate their parents and if they do its the parents fault

[stressedjester]

thinking about my childhood and getting pissed at my dad again

[cringengl]

The foreshadowing...

[esoteric-terror]

Two sides of the same coin

idk. i think theres a Lot of room for these two to be interesting together under the cut is how i would make them interesting To Me/partial avos rewrite, assume everything i dont mention is the same

about a year and a half ago @/cheecats posted this and i like this idea! it started making its rounds in my brain again and in my brain it Shifted, just a tad, and now we are here w this! thus we begin my madman rambling

prior to avos, rowanclaw is not a frequent character, he mostly just shows up to be mean and xenophobic, im p sure he shows up in night whispers as a good parent to his kids but for the sake of this im gonna ignore it and double down on the meanness, so for the rest of this im characterizing him as selfish, stubborn, mean, and someone who doesnt like being held accountable. do those traits sound familiar? they should, because im also describing onestar

we come to rowanclaw becoming leader, i want them to be Scarily similar, i need them to clash badly and be explosive because of said clash

they definitely differ tho! its just internally instead of externally. the biggest difference is that onestar is full of shame, regret, and self hatred. he knows that he shouldnt have ever met the kittypets. he knows he shouldnt have turned down darktail and because of him several kits died because he was a coward. he HATES that tallstar just had to make him deputy because that led to mudclaws death and him inevitably cutting off firestar. and he deeply regrets how he treated his old friend but he cant do much now as firestars dead! and he knows deep in his heart hes letting tallstar down. but if he drops the tough independent guy facade now and show how scared and regretful he actually is could lead to windclan being chased off again.

rowanstar on the other hand, is just Mean because thats all hes been surrounded by, 2 evil leaders, another who had a questionable history, and no shortage of clanmates who are just complete assholes. he doesnt have to prove shit to anyone in his clan, but he has everything to prove to the other clans as a new leader. hes not gonna be soft to them, fuck that! shadowclan can stand on its own w no help they got their shit down and everyone else needs to know that.

rowanstars cowardice isnt really recognized until after the kin shows up. he claims that he let them stay because theyre clearly strong. but hed never admit part of the reason he let them stay is because after bramblestar informed him that the rogues fought off onestar and his patrol that ultimately took one of onestars lives and killed furzepelt, he got scared to tell them no in case he met a similar fate.

in this hypothetical rewrite id switch the order of onestars and rowanstars deaths, so rowanstar dies at the end of the third book and onestar dies at the end of the fifth. because of that the circumstances around rowans death is changed a bit

so in some confrontation with the rogues, with rowan, tawnypelt, and tigerheart on one side with the kin on the other, tawnypelt ends up dying protecting rowanstar, because he let her take the killing blow. this is the first time hes shown visible terror, and because he didnt want to admit, even to himself, that this fight was his fault, and that because he was a coward and couldnt say no, he lost his mate, who was nothing but loyal to him.

skip to the end of shattered sky. theres another confrontation with the rogues. in this rowanstar doesnt step down! he still cant accept and doesnt want to admit that he was a coward, so he says the reason this happened was because he was too kind to his clan and to the rogues. the he gets killed.

this throws shadowclan under full control of the kin, and naturally this news spreads to windclan. and onestar is terrified out of his mind.

after a lot of projecting onto rowanstar, onestar realizes something: if he cant admit his faults, if he cant get over his pride, he will end up shamefully dying like rowanstar. and he recognizes that while he cant change the past, he can make the future better.

and so he tells everyone that darktail is his son and he steps down as leader. and in a way its freeing, this secret thats been eating him alive for years is now out in the open. he never knew darktail became this monster, onewhisker acknowledges that if it werent for his bad decisions as a young warrior, darktail wouldve never turned out this way, and he was gonna fix everything.

and then the battle that kills both of them happens the same as it does in canon, just later in the arc

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ALL OF THIS TO SAY: rowan and one could have an interesting dynamic and it could be a cool parallel and i think if the erins tapped into that id like avos a lot more

[brattylikestoeat]

https://www.tumblr.com/brattylikestoeat/772116012606832640/thoughts-on-parents-who-do-pornfor-fun-imo-i?source=share

I feel like its unfair to blame the parents that companies have forcefully removed the spaces that kept kids and adults seperate.

Parents have always done kinky stuff in adult spaces and it shouldnt become their fault the internets changed and made it harder to be kinky in peace.

Tbh I wish my parents had put it online instead of the family ipod bc I really think I would have seen much less.

If other kids found it, well, they already hated me so why should I gaf? Assholees will weaponize anything and blaming the parents for doing a normal and fun activity that plenty of other ppl get to do, is churches work.

We’re just going to have to disagree. As an adult it’s your job to adapt to the ever changing world.

Two things can be right, it’s not fair that kids no longer have kids only spaces. I wholeheartedly agree.

But as an adult and if you’re a parent, you need to adapt. As an adult you understand the reach the internet has and should move accordingly.

A kid calling you fat vs a kid showing you your parents sex tape it two different kind of hurt.

[thecolorsfucked]

i knew confronting my sister would make her just leave w my nieces and force no contact w them but like i cant just??? let her??? hit and insult my nieces??? like idk idk what the right answer for confronting abusive parents u care about regarding how they treat their kids in a country that hates kids w few and restrictive resources for parents esp black parents w shit life syndrome but fuck ur daughter shouldnt think u hate her while shes lowkey raising her little sisters and she not even in highschool u shouldnt be able to just smack the shit out of a kid bcuz the law says well open hands are fine

U WOULDNT DO THIS SHIT TO A DOG IN AN ALLEY BRO BUT UR CHILDREN? and cuz they fed they not outside they have clothes and mostly attend school its fine???

then she had the nerve to blame her children for her being homeless she blamed abusing her kids on homelessness and the homelessness is her childrens fault so the abuse is their fault

children need rights parents need resources w more chances this doesnt need to be happening

[elfanonymous]

obligatory having to live under fascist orangutan with bootlicker misogynistic family rant under cut 😊

this shit fucking sucks cause not only is trump destroying the united states when its literally only been like 4 days but my literal siblings support his ass no matter what . genuinely full blown dont see a problem with trump. never mind that were already losing global climate change laws, destroying the lives of immigrants and innocent poc who are accused of being immigrants, allowing discrimination and abuse in the work place again, leaving the world health organization, and losing all protection for queer people, no impressing my dad who doesnt even support trump and looking edgy and cool in front of people who couldn’t give a fuck is more important than your literal family members who are actually affected. for some fucking reason fascism is the new fucking cool thing to do one day its cool to make misogynistic jokes then suddenly theyre saying shit about girls are so this men are so this one day its fine to make racist jokes but its not so FUCKING funny when you know they actually hate immigrants (though im not allowed to say that they hate them they only want them to go leave or die and reinforce horrible stereotypes about them and demonize them in front of our parents because they think it will impress my FUCKING dad because thats the most important thing right?) one day were “JOKING” about the gay kids in school but is it so fucking hilarious when were sterotyping or OUTING PEOPLE “no one knows hes gay but I do” with no evidence WHATD HE DO WHERE A PINK SHIRT? ALL of this is so FUCKING STRESSFUL and at least LAST TIME people in my house had some fucking sense but I cant even confide in my family members when elon musk is doing the NAZI SALUTE because my sister 110% believes that roman salute lie and will GLEEFULLY “jokingly” EMPHASIZE THE QUOTATIONS BUT SHE MEANS IT HALF SERIOUSLY just say “oh its the roman salute🥺😝” meanwhile its the most FUCKING stressful time of my entire life but it doesnt mean jack fucking SHIT TO HER because shes got daddy musks boot in her mouth all the fucking time so I have to post on my FUCKING TUMBLR ACCOUNT ABOUT IT cause if I have to hear ONE MORE “we shouldnt judeg trump supporters 🥺” or “b-b-but immigrants!” or “my stwong male friends are so crazy not like me im just a girl >_<“ IM GONNA FUCKING LOSE IT and she thinks its all fine cause as long as she supports abortion (for now . ?) and gay people and “isn’t racist” (has a singular indian friend who she referred to as black for a while to pull the diversity card ? ?) but one its a slippery fucking slope two “supports” is a strong word for someone who also supports worlds most transphobic man, runner up for worlds most transphobic man, and third place for worlds most transphobic man and also wouldnt and probably doesnt give a flying FUCK if any of her friends say the f slur . and then they all (my entire family) makes fun of ME for being “woke” cause I dont pray at the fucking ALTAR of men who want me DEAD and oh IM over exaggerating for not licking the boot of someone who disowned his transgender daughter IM CRAZY for not loving it when I see people whose misogyny I have experienced FIRST HAND make misogynistic “jokes” oh im SORRY did I not find it HILARIOUS when you guys who despise haitians (though its FINE to hate an entire race if you have one bad experience THATS FINE????????????????) made jokes about hating other races did I not find that very funny? and is it my fault for not embracing with open arms someone with “just a difference of opinion 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺” AND THE OPINION IS TO END ALL GENDER AFFIRMING CARE? “thats not what being a trump supporter is about u don’t understand its about the groceries THAT I DONT FUCKING BUY🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺” POINT. TO . THE . ACTION . THAT FUCKING ORANGATANG MADE IN HIS FIRST FOUR DAYS THAT BENEFITED A SINGLE FUCKING AMERICAN . POINT. did leaving the world health organization lower prices of groceries? did it? WAS IT FUCKING WORTH IT ? IS IT ALL FUCKING WORTH IT AS LONG AS IT DOESNT EFFECT FUCKING YOU YOU YOU????????? AS LONG AS YOUR FUCKING FRIENDS THINK YOUR COOL

I MEAN IF THEY SAY ADOLF IS COOL THEN HES COOL RIGHT? CAUSE THEY CAN NEVER BE WRONG? AND IF OUR PARENTS SAY BEING TRANS IS WRONG THEN IT MUST BE WRONG RIGHT? IT MUST BE WRONG THEN? MUST IT BE WRONG?

WHY DOESNT ANYONE AROUND ME HAVE A FUCKING BACK BONE THIS IS WHY MY MOM GOES FUCKING CRAZY

and oh is my brother hilarious or is he just making misogynistic jokes? is it really just a joke if he does it ALL THE TIME? is it really just a joke if we found a crude drawing of a nude women in our basement? WHAT THAT A FUCKING FUNNY JOKE? is it funny if whenever a girl gets mad their on their period? was it funny when he talked down to my maga fucking sister in a way he wouldnt talk down to a man? is that fucking funny? or does it get to a FUCKING POINT? DOESNT IT GET TO A FUCKING POINT??????????? DOESNT IT??? DOESNT IT GET TO A POINT WHERE ITS NOT A FUCKING JOKE ANYMORE? HEY DID ANYONE STOP TO FUCKING THINK THAT CONSTANTLY MAKING MISOGYNISTIC JOKES AND DEGRADING BECAUSE LETS CALL IT WHAT IT FUCKING IS DEGRADING MY MOM WOULD MAKE A FUCKING IMPACT ON SOMEONE IN A DEVELOPMENTAL STAGE OF LIFE? WHEN ALL OF HIS PEERS HAVE THE SAME MISOGYNISTIC RHETORIC? CAN WE STOP FUCKING TALKING ABOUT WOMEN LIKE THEIR FUCKING OBJECTS CAUSE IT GETS TO A FUCKING POINT

IF EVERY SINGLE DAY AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAING “WOMEN BELONG IN THE KITCHEN” SUDDENLY STARTS COMING OUT IN DEAD SERIOUS “YOUR JUST EMOTIONAL” OR THE FUCK WAS THAT THE OTHER DAY THE BEING CONDESCENDING LIKE OK WE GET IT WE ALLL HATE WOMEN HERE FUCK WOMEN AM I RIGHT?

genuinely tired of it im so fucking tired of it its just NOT A JOKE ANYMORE

its real it was always real because you cant spend EVERY WAKING FUCKING HOUR saying that shit thinking it wont affect how you view the world and treat those around you BECAUSE LETS BE HONEST IM GETTING TREATED LIKE DOG SHIT BECAUSE MY FAMILY OF FUCKING “politics doesnt matter lets just ignore its existence” LITERALLY WONT EVER SHUT UP ABOUT POLITICAL SHIT AND HARASSING FUCKING ME CAUSE HOW DARE I BE GAY? HOW DARE I? HOW DARE I CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE? HOW DARE I CARE ABOUT OUR COUNTRY THAT THEY CLAIM TO LOVE? HOW DARE I WANT PEOPLE IN POVERTY TO SURVIVE WHEN THEM, SELF PROCLAIMED “CATHOLICS” WANT THEM TO BUILD THEMSELVES UP THEMSELVES ON THE MINIMUM WAGE THEY DONT WANT TO RAISE WITH THE HEALTHCARE THEY THINK THEY DONT DESERVE WITH THE COLLEGE TUITIONS THEY WOULD BE OUTRAGED IF THE GOVERNMENT PAYED FOR

FUCKKKKKKK EVERYTHING ESPECIALLY MY FUCK ASS BOOT LICKING WOMEN HATING NAZI SUPPORTING ONE ELON MUSK SPEECH AWAY FROM HOMOPHOBIC COULDNT POINT TO THE CAPITOL ON A MAP “CENTRIST” REPUBLICAN

AND FUCK HALF OF THEM FOR THINKING NOTHING IN POLITICS APPLIES TO REAL LIFE FOR THINKING THEY LISTENED TO “BOTH SIDES🥺” AFTER LISTENING TO A 6 HOUR RIGHT WING PODCAST AND GLANCING AT ONE LEFTIST TUMBLR POST

GET ME OUT OF HERREEE

[eddie-rifff]

ive pretty much had all of my wildest dreams come true as an autistic music fan and im still miserable. how ungrateful and stupid can one person be. (very)

really really feeling like im just never gonna be happy for more than a few months at a time. my brain fucking hates me. my parents should have never ever had kids with the history of mental illness on both sides and yet they had four, 3 of which suffer pretty significantly with mental illness. severe ocd in one, moderate ocd in the other two, crippling anxiety in all three, mild in the one that somehow made it out ok.

im not suicidal, im just very upset that this is how it is. i want things to be better. i want things to be different. but im afraid they just never will be.

and i want chris squire back. he was so endlessly kind to me. he made me feel like i was appreciated in the way i felt mattered, as a fan. i loved him so deeply and i still do and he saw that and basically said "i see you, thank you" in every interaction we had. the hugs. the kisses on the cheek and the back of the hand. looking out for me and making sure i was safe when he thought i was by myself. he was the only person that really, truly, mattered to me when all was said and done (he still is) and i couldnt have had a better relationship with him (when i say relationship i want to make it clear that i mean it in the way you have a relationship with every single person you meet, not that we were like. best buddies.)

and yet, somehow, i am still unhappy. its kind of impressive.

ive met rick wakeman, jon anderson, tony kaye, alan white, steve howe, bill bruford. i get into yes concerts for free. ive met carl palmer and steve hackett. i saw UK, twice, with john wetton, eddie jobson, and terry bozzio. i know what chris squire's beard feels like against my cheek. i have been so unbelievably blessed as a fan, again, the thing i feel most passionate about in my life, my Thing. what more could i possibly want? if none of that makes me happy, then what possibly will?

ok, take all that away. even without ANY of that, i have enough that would make 90% of other people happy as clams. my family loves me (i think). i live in a great house rent free. i have no bills. i have the most patient, gracious best friend in the world.

i oscillate between it being my fault for not being happy (ungrateful dumbass) and the fault of my genetics, and neither of those things are good enough excuses for me. and, most importantly, neither of those things will ever change. i mean, maybe i can learn to be less of an ungrateful dumbass, but i dont see how thats possible when, like ive said, i already have everything i want, and im still this way.

this feeling of hopelessness is soul crushing. i feel like whatever spirit i had has been stamped out, and every single time it lights up again it gets snuffed again and again and again and again and it will until i die. ill never be free. ill never be happy with what i have. i feel like i was just a mistake, i should have never happened. someone with this kind of brain chemistry, contributing this little, with this few redeeming qualities just shouldnt have happened.

but i am here. and i guess im going to feel endlessly sorry for myself because i dont know how to feel any other way.

i just wish it wasnt this way.

[yourlocalcannibalist]

Markiplier egos and who you kin says about you(its also to the people who like/favouritises these egos in specific)part 1

(I apologize if I get some of these wrong)

-If you kin dark well you want justice.Somebody whos tired of always being treated horribly.Turning cold after some point of being tired bc of others behaviours.Not giving others second chances like you used to bc of the consequences you faced later on in life.Dark kinnies I just wanna tell you that im sorry for what happened to you I trully am…Also you arent a horrible person even if you put this persuade of a person whos cold etc..You only put that persuade just bc of your past. Also hows the daddy issues going on? Also I bet you miss damien and want to see more of him like dark.

-If you kin wilford then are you ok? What happened to you? Like legit—anyways on another note youre somebody who’s probably very bubbly and fun! Youre probably the fun friend.You are honestly somebody who doesnt let others affect them much even if it can hurt at times.Also you may seem obnoxious and annoying to others even if to me you arent remember that!You are also somebody who maybe suffers through intrusive thoughts which im sorry about and feel bad for.Also people made fun of you for liking pink or considered you weird just bc of you being you which sucks ass.Well just so you know you arent weird! Youre being you and thats important!

-If you kin illinois then youre somebody whos a sucker for romance.Youre also somebody whos flirtatious with friends as a joke even if you mean every word.At some point you liked Indiana jones or called him a rip off of him.You also want somebody a partner most likely bc sure you have that flirty personality but deep inside you just want love ,somebody to care for you etc.. Which I can understand but the time will come ik it!!Be patient alright?Oh also forgot youre barely scared of anything and are laid back.You like going on adventures or just seeing it .

-If you kin eric then im sorry for how people treat you.Especially your dad as you dont deserve this at all.Youre probably suffer from anxiety and get shitted on for it by your parents .Also hows the relationship with your dad going? Not well ? Well aint surprised also I wanna tell you that being sensitive is ok! Its ok to cry when you need to… You shouldnt feel ashamed to feel that way at all .Also things arent your fault sure you blame yourself but it isnt! Your also a huge over thinker which makes things difficult for you along with anxiety.Also if you need help its ok to ask ! I know it can be hard and difficult but I know you can do it!One last thing I wanna say is that you my friend have people pleasing habits which im sorry to hear of but hope you can overcome that one day!

-If you kin head engineer then…youre somebody who cant see things or understand them well .Not until somebody points it out .Its the same thing when ever youve done something wrong.Youre also somebody who likes space alot and you thank mark for that .Along with the fact you have a big heart for others and you care about them. Head engineer kinnies I just wanna tell you that you dont have to put them or others first …take care of yourself. Speaking of which you have a favourite person .I bet at some point you cried at the part in iswm part 2 when head engineer was in it.Youre also somebody who barelly cares if they head in straight into something it only gives u adrenaline bc the mystery etc..Along with being nervous also.

-If you kin actor mark then..youre probably a theatre kid or something.Youre also somebody who hates when people prove you wrong.Sure even if you are wrong youre still a bit stubborn and wanna prove your point.You probably like other villains and understand there point of you tbh.Your childhood was probably rough along with the relationship you had before. You also enjoy company yet get jealous easily when ever you dont get your friends attention.

-If you kin the host/author well I wanna tell you that youre somebody who likes books along with creepy stuff.Youre somebody whos probably interested in the paranormal stuff like ghosts etc… You also have a weird fascination with history at some point.You are somebody whos wise ,looking at situations before acting on them.You are also very creative and honestly can write alot if you put your mind to it.At some point ,you wanted to be an author or a book writer and decided to make fanficts or something.Just to you know try it out.Youre somebody that just hates change ,you often enjoy when things stay the same and like it that way.Youre also somebody who barely reveals things or is quite mysterious or quite the opposite.

-If you kin bim then im worried about you in honesty as your somebody whos very interested in autonomy .How the human body works etc… Youre also somebody whos interested in murder ,killing and all that jazz.Youre somebody who people often worry about but you barelly care which good on you I guess.Youre also somebody who barelly gets scared of blood or when a gory scene happens or completely the opposite.You probably are somebody who wanted to taste weird things or bite them in general. But on the non concerning side your somebody who holds your close ones very close and would do anything for them.You probably have like one best friend who you share everything to even the concerning parts and they tolerate it lel .Youre somebody who rarely gets scared or the opposite.Youve probably tasted your own blood before just bc you wondered how it tasted.

-If you kin yancy then… you have familly issues and barelly get along with your parents.Youre often seen as the disappointment by your parents just bc of your actions.You probably act on instinct when ever something happens.Barelly caring if something ends up in a fight if it meant you where doing something good in the end.At some point you wanted to be dressed as a prisoner for halloween just bc it reminded you of yancy.You also have the habit of saying “youse” or speak how he speaks accent wise.Speaking of the parents topic you see mark as a dad figure (dont wee all tho?) or u see older figures as parent figures.You also suffer for parent issues (as in mom and dad issues. Anyways you also at some point wanna get the same tattoo as yancy or cosplay as him bc hes that cool to you.You also like the color black and white thats it .Youre also somebody who quite caring even if people dont see you that way often,seeing you as somebody who only causes trouble.Which to your point of you do it just bc you had reasons and all that jazz.You also adore when fight scene happen in movies often ,looking at the scenes very carefully even if theres to much stuff happening all at once etc… Youre also somebody who listened to “I dont wanna be free” hundreds of times just bc its that good (which I dont blame you it is a good song)

[listen-as-i-scream-into-the-void]

long, unorganized vent

i hate how my parents made me a pushover

i cant even fight back

my sister has tried to suffocate me, in the ground, infront of a camera

but nobody believes me because my parents refuse to check the cameras

its already been a year since then

but i still dont trust her

i never did

it takes awhile to gain my trust, especially to get it back

in fact, i dont even trust my friends irl

i feel like they all talk shit behind my back

i feel like every friendship ive had is fake

i feel disconnected from the world

i feel like im not supposed to exist

i dont like that

i just want to feel normal

i just want to feel happy

i dont remember the last time i was happy

im uncomfortable around my family

im touch starved, but i have to act like i hate touch around them

because its disgusting that theyre suddenly trying to be actual parents now

i was in 1st grade when i learned i had to do things on my own

i couldnt have a nightmare, which for me as a kid, was horrible when i did

because everytime i did, and i went to tell my parents

all i got was

"go back to bed", or "i dont care"

i hate it

yet i feel like im supposed to make them happy

and proud

i dont remember the last time they said they were proud of me

am i overreacting?

overthinking?

i dont know

i dont know anymore

i feel like a disappointment

i feel like i have to lie

i feel like i have to keep secrets

or else they wont be happy

id do anything just for them to be proud of me

i just want a shoulder to cry on

but ive somehow become immune to it

i want to cry

i really do

i dont understand life

im scared

but my body is stopping me from crying

i feel like if i do

then ill be yelled at

they will start asking me questions

questions that make me feel like i did nothing about it

am i useless?

is it my fault?

i dont know

what do i know?

im not even 13 yet, and i already want to die

i dont like living

i dont like it here

its scary

but i have nobody to lean to

i have nobodys shoulder to cry into

im losing emotional bonds

and i cant create emotional bonds

im laughing at stuff i shouldnt be laughing at

like death and pain

im just a kid

im not even in high school yet

and im already fucked up

i dont want to be

i want to be a normal functioning person

except i have all these insecurities

like how fat and ugly i am

how even if i did have a shoulder to cry on

my trust issues would scare them away

and id lose them

i dont want to be this way

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

FUCK MAN im just so fucking angry like oh my god i am just a fucking kid i shouldnt be this fucking angry all the TIME but ive just constantly been so fucking pissed off since i was so little AND EVERYONES ALWAYS FUCKING BLAMING ME LIKE IM A FUCKING KID LEAVE ME ALONE IM ANGRY AT LIFE BECAUSE IT FUCKING HATES ME JUST GIVE ME SOME FUCKING TIME IVE BEEN TOLD FOR SO MANY YEARS OF MY LIFE THAT I SHOULD SHUT UP AND I WANT TO KILL MY FUCKING DAD BECAUSE HE ALWAYS TELL ME TO SHUT UP AND I WANT TO BEAT HIM TO DEATH SO BADLY I HATE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH OH MY GOD. AND THEN ITS MY FAULT THAT I HATE HIM APPARENTLY !!!!!!!!! BC IM A DUMB KID !!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR I WANT TO PROTECT EVERY FUCKING KID TO EVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH DUMB AS FUCK PARENTS BC THEY DONT FUCKING DESERVE THIS SHIT AND NEITHER DO I . GOD FUCKING DAMMIT.

[possum-tooth]

good evening im a little :/

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Poorly Explains Loveater/Heart Hunter & Miracle Queen (The Battle of the Miraculous)

(This one is gonna be a Doozie)

So for the sake of length

Marinette: Heartfelt Narration about Loss that will make more sense at the end

Marinette: Well now that the angst is out of the way. I gotta deliver Macarons. Oh no if only a competing love interest would show up to give me a ride

Luka: (Panting) Sorry I am late I was 5 miles away when you said that. BTW I wrote you a song.

Marinette: Daww arent you such a deep character. But first let me ride you

Luka: What?

Marinette: To the mayor's hotel. I gotta get these macarons to my Parents

Luka: OOOOH. For a second I thought the age rating went up.

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Gabriel: A get-along shirt but its high fashion

Audrey and Andre: We hate it

Gabriel: Good

Adrien: Hey Marinette want to have a threesome with me and Kagami

Marinette: What?!

Adrien: Yea, we are gonna sneak out to have an adventure, but since you are here our twosome can now be a three way adventure.

Marinette: OOOH. For a second I thought the age rating went up

(and so they sneak away)

Marinette: Wow Kagami and Adrien have such Chemistry. Maybe I should just let them be happy together. Oops I dropped my hair ties.

(Adrien.exe and Kagami.exe have stopped functioning)

Chloé: And my Parents are akumatized. YES! Now I can be a hero again. TO THE BEE SIGNAL!

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Andre: Sorry kids Polygami is a sin.

Kagami: BULLS***!

Marinette: Its fine. You two have the ice cream while I make an excuse so you two can be together.

Adrien: Doesnt get it so he asks if they can help

Marinette: STOP BEING SO SWEET I AM TRYING TO LET YOU BE HAPPY.

(runs off)

Marinette: Oh s*** an akuma. Better go get help

Mayura: The bee signal is destroyed. Phase two complete.

Hawkmoth: Excellent.

Chloé: MY BEE SIGNAL! THAT COST 500 BUCKS ON EBAY YOU MONSTERS. LADYBUG! YOU BETTER PICK ME OR I WILL TURN EVIL!

Ladybug: No one is following me now so I should go directly to FU.

Fu: What are you doing here ladybug? (Translation: YOU TRYING TO OUT MY OPERATION?)

Ladybug: NO TIME! GIVE ME THE DRAGON MIRACULOUS.

Fu: This is gonna go poorly

(and Ladybug c-blocked Kagami)

Ladybug: Okay Ryuuko... want to talk about boys.

Kagami: I want to date a boy but I feel like I shouldnt cause of Marinette.

Ladybug: So you dont want to hurt the girl's feelings

Kagami: (Hiding her BI) Yea... thats why.

Adrien: Time to be a cat.

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Hawkmoth: Hello Guardian

Fu: Welp, time to Turtle

Mayura: Mind if we make this a threeway.

Fu: Curse my age.

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Chloé: I cant believe they dont want me to be a hero just because my identity is public (there are more reasons)

Hawkmoth: Hey kid want to be a Bee

Chloé: Hell yea.

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Chat noir: Hi Ryuuko.

Ryuuko: Hi Chat noir

Ladybug: (Offended) The f***ing slut (and thats how chat noir got his slut status)

(And the akuma solved itself)

Ladybug: Weird but okay.

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Miracle Queen: Im totally going evil now.

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Marinette: Well I am heartbroken and just to make things worse, Fu has been kidnapped because of me (this really isnt her fault, hawkmoth was following ladybug and if she de-transformed Hawkmoth would have found out who she is but the episode wants us to think this is her fault)

Luka: Did someone call for a shoulder to cry on?

Marinette: That was me. (breaks down)

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(Now for Miracle Queen)

Miracle Queen: Time for WASP ARMY!

Luka: Dont worry Marinette I am here for you... except now cause wasps!

Marinette: Luka no! (Flees to be ladybug)

Kagami: So we gonna make out.

Adrien: I still am working out some stuff

Kagami: You disappoint me... But that is unrelated to this.

Adrien: Kagami no! (Flees to be cat)

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Aquabug: Everything is going to s*** and its my fault!

Aquachat: No it isnt. We will save the day.

(cue emotional hug

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Miracle Queen: *Roasts the entire temporary hero squad*

Shadowmoth: Now they are your army

Miracle queen: Cool

Shadowmoth: Hey Mayura how is popping the bubble

Mayura: The bubble isnt popping.

Jade Turtle: F*** off.

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Ladybug UNIFIES with the dragon miraculous.

Dragonbug: Now to show off more unification. (Punches Viperion) Now you can too Kitty

Snakenoir: Ballin. Now watch as I am MVP in this fight to make up for Desperada.

(epic fight ensues)

Miracle Queen: F***! (Gets de-akumatized)

Ladybug: Give up we won

Queen bee: Ah but now I got all the OTHER MIRACULOUS

The Kwamis: B**** we dont even know you

Queen Bee: Damn it

Fu: It would be a real d*** move for me to lose my memories and put all of the pressure on a 14 year old girl. Good thing the order of guardians are some how so much worse than me.

(and thus hawkmoth's plans failed?)

Hawkmoth: Wait why are we fleeing, we are winning.

Mayura: (Fainting noises)

Hawkmoth: Damn. Next time Ladybug

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Chloé: I am full evil now and everything about my. character that suggested otherwise is gone.

Ladybug: Well you are canceled. I will tell the show writers I need a new bee.

Chloé: F***!

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Fu: Who are you people?

Ladybug: The f*** happened.

Wayzz: Deus ex machina. But you the guardian now.

Ladybug: Oh... well this sucks.

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Ladybug finds fu's letter.

Fu: Life sucks sometimes. You the boss now. Good luck. Kisses, Fu

Ladybug: Guess that means I gotta give up on Adrien.

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Luka: Hey Marinette, want to start dating me now?

Marinette: Yea, and I know it will be a long relationship that will help us both grow as individuals and not be over in the span of an episode in the next season.

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Gabriel: Now that I fixed the peacock. Now I can totally up my villany for next time.

[insecxreasalwqys]

people like to tell you what your gonna be, its not my problem if you dont see what i see.

All credits go to my lovely friend @thee-yunatic-pixie , she gave me this idea! (Go check her out, shes amazing :) also, if you see italics (they look like this) for a phrase, then its usually in chishiya’s pov, unless it is just one word italicized (which means emphasis), or is said to be otherwise.  tw! Blood 

There, he found himself at his desk, again. The clock next to him said it was 2:49 A.M. Yet, chishiya never cared. He was studying to give his hands a break. It was quiet, his parents were in their individual rooms, doing whatever. Chishiya didnt care. He looked at one of his pages full of what looked to be scribbles, and for a second, though it may sound silly, that was all Chishiya saw. He could read it, yeah, but, he felt as if he was just reading scribbles. Reading nothing. Sometimes, he wondered if he should even continue on. His parents didnt pay for his school, so he would be in a bunch of debt. He had a job, too. Somehow. He always overworked himself. He did all of this. He hated himself for it. He got up, and left the room. As he walked past the hallway, his fathers door was open. He saw his father typing on his screen. He walked past, but not without feeling slightly sad.  He looked beyond the balcony. There were buildings, high, and low. It was 3 in the morning at this time, so no one was driving. Or, barely anyone was. He lit a cigarette, and stared at the sky. He wondered, that, if he continued medical school, if his parents would ever care. He quickly discarded that idea, though, as, it was too late now. He was already in 100k+ dollars of debt. Chishiya put his hands on the balcony’s fence. He took a deep breath, and cursed himself mentally. He still, though, wondered if his parents cared at all. Did they care that their own son worked so hard for a millimeter of their attention? Did they care that he did things that couldve killed him if he continued to do so, for his parents? Did they care that what they did was cruel? Did they care that he exceeded in academics? He guessed not. He would always see kids having fun with their parents. He wondered if maybe, he was at fault. That he was the problem.  He woke up the next day, and checked the time. It was 5:24. He smiled, as he realized that was the most time he had slept in months. As the time changed from 24, to 25, he realized he should go inside. He had fallen asleep outside last night. Or 2 hours ago.  He brushed his teeth, washed his face, changed, and packed everything he needed for school. As he was about to leave the house, he almost shouted ‘bye mom! Bye dad!’ Before quickly realizing he barely had a father and a mother. If you could even call them that. Too much of a good mood today.  He was listening to a lecture and jotting down words. He swore he almost fell asleep. It was something about a disease he couldnt remember. His professor went on, and on, for what seemed to be forever. Chishiya didnt recall a single time he stopped writing. His hand cramped up, sure, but this was just per usual. He dealt with it fine.  He had an exam coming up next period, and he was really stressed about it for some reason. Perhaps he didnt study enough for it. Somehow. He figured he shouldnt have spent his time outside on that balcony.  After the exam, that was almost all he could think about. He doubted he spelt his name correctly.  When he got back home, he took off his shoes, washed his hands, and rushed upstairs. He sat quickly in his seat, and studied.  Few hours later, chishiya started to get really hungry. He hadnt eaten anything since Monday. Today was Wednesday. He thought to himself what he could make. Katsudon? No, that took too long for him. Ramen? That didnt take too long. Maybe. He walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Ramen it is. He opened the cabinets and found a pack of ramen he bought the other day. Not the healthiest, but, it was something. He poured water in the pot, and waited in the kitchen. He went through his phone to check if he had had any emails from professors. When the water was boiling, he put the ramen in, and went through his phone again. Finally when it was done, he put it on his plate, and brought it up to his room. It wasnt as if he had time to eat it at the dinner table. Which, mind you, had two seats anyways. (Im rereading and i realize it sounds like i made low quality crappy instructions) 

He ended up falling asleep at his desk, at 4 in the morning. It was Christmas. Hooray? I guess? He didnt really care, though. He got today off, which was good enough for him. He got ready for the day, and went outside for a walk. It wasnt snowing, at all, so he decided he could be slightly productive. He saw kids walking by with their parents, because there was a festival nearby. When he saw the kids, his slight motivation to do anything went away.  He went back home, and sat on the couch. He let out a sigh, and buried his hands in his face. He went up to his room, opened his book, scolded himself in his head, before studying.  After a few hours, it was 11. He had went over almost all of the study material given by some generous teachers, and stuff he had written. He had to go over a few more pages. And so, he rested his head on one hand, changed the slide, and read. Yet, for some reason, he found himself reading the same exact sentence, over, and over again.  When he finally finished everything he could, his essays, reviewing slides, flash cards, and homework, he felt himself drifting away. He felt slightly dizzy. His head hurt, and the world was some what whizzing by. He figured that he had just been stressed, so, after a little bit of thinking, he went to sleep.  He woke up, but realized it had only been an hour. Probably because of his crappy sleep schedule. He was slightly less dizzy. He buried his face in his pillows, and after a few minutes, moved his hands where his eyes were on the pillow. And when he did? He felt something wet, and his vision got blurry.  It was a new day. He got up from his bed, and went to the bathroom. As he was washing his hands, he saw himself in the mirror. F.ck you. He thought when he saw himself. He hated himself. There wasn’t necessarily anything he liked about himself. His parents definitely helped with that. If their goal was to make him feel like a worthless f.ck, then they surely succeeded.  It was 4:57, and he had another exam today. He changed into new clothes, and he left the house. The school took about 1 hour and 40 minutes to walk to? 1 hour if he ran real fast.  When he got inside it was 6:40. He liked to get there early and so did many other people. If you got there earlier, you could spend your time in the library before school started. For him, school started at 7. He didnt get too much time today, but still, better then nothing.  He heard the fancy little school bell ring, and everyone in the library got up, and left. Chishiya followed, and thought to himself Here we go again.  He went to his locker, and took a notebook, his computer, and textbook. A N A T O M Y the book read. One of his favorite classes. Mostly because this was the easiest to him, and the teacher was very merciful with study material. Just then, he felt dizzy again. Just a bit, but it was definitely there. After his class, he went straight to the next class he had. It was his test in this class today. He rested his head against the wall, until he remembered he could come in if he was ready.  He wrote his name, and went through the questions. A, c, d, b, c, c, b, a, he heard the sound of his pencil against the piece of paper. Explain what to do in a situ- he read, but then, saw a drop of something red on a letter, then, came another. Seriously? Thats the third time this month. Couldnt have been timed better, too. He thought. He held his nose, and when he looked at his hands, there it was. His hands were covered in blood, and chishiya raised his hand. “Hmm?” She said, before looking at his hand. Her eyes widened for a split second, but then said “Yeah, you can go to the bathroom.”. Chishiya thanked her and rushed to the bathroom.  As chishiya was looking down, and replacing tissues, he felt dizzy. Again. But this time, it was 10x worse then it was at home. As the dizziness got worse, so did his vision. His eyelids closed gradually, before they were completely shut.  Well, he’s been gone for a while now. His teacher thought. “Hey, Kai,” She started. The boy looked up from his paper and raised an eyebrow. “Can you check up on Shuntaro for me?” She asked. “Yeah, sure.” He said, walking out of the room.  “Hey, chishiya?” Kai asked, walking in the bathroom. But, what he saw, wasnt what he expected. There, was chishiya, on the ground. There was blood running down out of his nose. Kai’s eyes widened, before checking to make sure he was breathing, and for a pulse. Kai felt a wave of relief when chishiya was fine. Kai didnt have a phone on him, as they werent allowed, so he ran back to the room.  “Is he fine-?” She started, but kai yelled out that chishiya was unconscious. Their teacher went to follow kai, and she told the others stay while she was gone. She ordered a girl by the name akira to grab her (the teacher’s) phone and follow them.  “110, whats your emergency?” The dispatcher asked. “I need an ambulance!” She yelled, followed by telling them the location. “What happened?” The voice asked. “A boy in my class passed out and his nose is bleeding a little still.” She said. “Whats your name?” The dispatcher asked. “Akira Kimura” She said. They kept asking, and akira kept answering.  When he woke up, he felt very stiff. He tried moving, but really couldnt. The doctor greeted Chishiya, and walked outside. What the f.ck happened again? Oh yeah, i passed out. He reminded himself. He sat there, and stared at the ceiling, trying to count the dots.  238, 239, 240- He was at, until he heard the door open. “Your okay!” His teacher said. Akira and kai walked in aswell. Chishiya gave a forced smile, and sat back. “How long has it been?” Chishiya asked. “A few hours.” The doctor said. “Im glad your fine.” He added. Chishiya looked down, and relaxed his eyes for a second, before looking back up at the doctor. “By any chance, were my parents here when i was unconscious?” He asked, with regret right after the words came out of his mouth. The doctor looked down as well, and looked back at chishiya. “Im afraid not.” He said. Chishiya nodded, and looked around the room. Then, he realized it looked alot like his parents hospital. Infact, it was their hospital. His parents decided they couldnt walk for a minute to see their son. Chishiya laid down, and sighed. When he woke up, honestly, he felt almost happy. He thought his parents would be there. Sure, people could call him crazy for that being the only thing he thought about, but they didn’t understand. They didn’t understand he couldve been with his parents right now who acted like he didnt exist for his whole life. Yet, when he heard the news they werent there, he wasnt too surprised.

As expected.

I cried a bit while writing this. Once again, all credits to @thee-yunatic- pixie bc she gave me this amazing idea. Have a good one, fellas. 

                -insecure

[sanchoyo]

danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)

-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.

-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.

-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??

-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)

-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.

-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.

-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)

-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(

-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.

-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)

-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...

-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know

-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.

-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)

-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.

-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights

-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.

-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu

-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.

-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.

-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...

-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.

-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??

-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???

-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.

-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3

-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!

-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(

-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!

-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? 🤔 ... 🏳‍🌈 I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.

-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...

[holdinghandswithastatue]

my thoughts on the lorien legacies reborn series [spoilers]

i think it sucked

sorry

i loved most of the characters to bits and they all deserved better (in terms of characterisation, plot)

nigel. oh my god nigel i love him so much

ran takeda deserved SO MUCH BETTER im still mad

the way they hinted at a whole bunch of romances but only made the one i dont give a shit about canon

i really really hate white girl taylor cook

yes, having a white american girl as the main character IS diversity :))))))

isabela is cool as shit and i wish i was her

i love their fleshed out backstories but i wish i couldve heard more

THERE WAS LITERALLY NO DEVELOPMENT IN MOST OF THEM (personally i think the series was cut short bc they all had so much more room to grow)

(it gave off percy jackson movies energy)

it hurts me how the writing hinted that nigel would get his heroic moment but he literally never did 

and then nigel was left with what? his only best friend dead, his parents corrupt assholes and him still not having healed from his trauma- still the underdog

ALSO: NIGEL WAS THE ONLY CANONICALLY GAY CHARACTER (except for maybe daunphen but still that doesnt really count bc its only implied) but they just like. didnt give him a love interest. 

nic was literally right there- that homoerotic moment really hit me and i just read it over and over

ran’s death was really well done but also COMPLETELY PREVENTABLE

if isabela had just told einar to stfu and shoot lucas it wouldve all been over and ran and five would still be alive 

speaking of which, ran and five were a super cute couple/friendship i cant tell but i like their dynamic a lot

five saying that he “actually likes” ran is essentially a confession of love in his terms

caleb. i liked him. but he was so boring and straight. i think his development wouldve been great if they just DID SOMETHING WITH HIM

also idk whether to ship isabela with caleb or daunphen but personally i like to think of daunphen as trixic which is unrelated

caleb literally. had potential. troubled home life. not as bad as the others but he never really stopped being an uptight little bitch

if he had, i think he wouldve been great

I LOVED EINAR’S GROUP’S DYNAMIC

do they have a name? i feel like they do but i cant remember

like... what a mix of characters, i love how they work together

personally i think theyre just the gay friend group

on the topic of einar,

i KNOW i shouldnt love him the way i do but if you didnt want me to love him you SHOULDNT HAVE GIVEN HIM REDEEMING QUALITIES

(same with five)

literally einar’s final monologue hurt me so much even though he nearly did drown nigel in gen 1 but still

“will you- will you finally listen?” yea kill me now 

i really hated how they brought the villain in in the final book. the fuck. who even gives a shit about lucas. no one remembers him

also it feels slightly political to make the main villain a radical christian who wants to convert the earth garde by killing them

listen i could talk about einar all day

i think he and isabela were a great friendship... of sorts

i mean did einar ever really let anyone close enough to him to make friends

but hes just so... S O F T

no hes not 

but he is to me 

ew

kopano really deserved a better gf than taylor

god 

also i wanted to see more of miki

again i will reiterate i think nic and nigel wouldve made a great couple

i keep forgetting theyre all just teenagers and thats kinda painful

einar was just a kid bro 

SO MUCH NUANCE TO HIS CHARACTER THAT WAS NOT EXPLORED

so much potential

hmm am i forgetting anyone?

lets talk about john smith

that man has a hero complex and its really annoying and part of me is really glad he wasnt the one to save the day this time but also i didnt want ran to die so

i think it wouldve been fitting if einar just ended it all since he kinda started the whole fiasco

fuck bea barnaby and her homophobic (and also mass-murdering) ass

the john and marina thing shouldve been forgotten completely no one ships them pls 

they had their one true loves just let them be without an s/o thanks

ella deserved to have more screen (? its a book) time bc she was my favourite character in the original series

OH MY GOD I HAVENT TALKED ABOUT NINE YET

hes the loml

also the part where lucas (in the body of john) rips off his cybernetic arm really hurt me

i kinda wish taylor died instead of ran

kill off the heroic white girl instead: the fifth wave style

john is such a stupid selfish bastard honestly but having a hero complex a valid flaw but still. i cannot deal with his bullshit all the time

writing one line on john and nine reuniting was cruel when you know most of the fandom ships them

also i like einar’s softening up near the end, and treating the group like they were his actual friends 

i wish we couldve seen more of them

i love myself a found family ragtag group situation

even though 2 of them died 

and the other has an inhibitor in his head, gets shocked every 3 minutes and took the fall for everyone

AS HE SHOULD THOUGH, MOST OF IT IS HIS FAULT

but hes just a kid

my thoughts are so scattered

omg stop i think i relate to einar... no..... not the literal mass murderer “terrorist” psychopath

he’s uptight and always needing to be in control

but he feels the pressure of having to be perfect to everyone else, and thus falls apart on the inside

gosh i wish i didnt love einar the way i do

final thoughts (but i’ll probably add even more): ran :’( nigel :( taylor >:( caleb :| einar :’( isabela >:) daunphen :D john :|

i hope no one reads this

[ohmotherwhatsthat]

The Book Thief

Markus Zusak

🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎🤎 (10/10) 

(I really love this book ok you can pry it out of my cold dead hands)

PG/13+ but i mean like... cautiously? Could be argued as a M/15+ because like... themes? Its World War Two, Nazi Germany, and its narrated by Death. Expect what you will. 

*Also can I just say this is potentially my favourite version of the cover, because it depicts one of my favourite things about the book. The scene with Rudy and his siblings playing dominoes while his parents have a meeting about him in the next room, and the concept of all the places throughout the story that could have changed something. I just love it ok.* 

Look, I know its a book that some people just don’t like. I feel like you either love it or you hate it. That’s just how it is. And i love it. Dearly. 

Does it also make me cry so much that the last few chapters of my copy have permanent wrinkled tear marks.......... maybe?

But it also gets special points for being one of the few books to ever make me do more than tear up a little. 

Every time, The Book Thief breaks my heart. And every time i say ‘thank you’, and want to read it all over again. 

Suffice to say, this is your warning that it will probably make you cry. And for reference - I didnt cry in A Fault in Our Stars. So you may use this as a comparison. 

Ok - book. Actual point of this. 

So its set during the Second World War, in Germany, from the perspective of Liesel Meminger, child, mostly unable to read to avid reader, stealer of books, best friend of actual Disaster And Chaos Embodied In A Hungry Boy Rudy Steiner. With the help of Death, the narrator. As previously mentioned. 

Honestly Death as the narrator is my absolute favourite concept? And as a result all the metaphors all feel slightly ... off from a normal metaphor. You read them, and you understand them, but theres always this slight feeling of... ‘thats not the normal metaphor for this situation’, which only helps i think. 

Also Death does not care about spoilers. Which... i feel like i should hate? But i actually love, because - to some extent - it actually means that whether you’re reading it for the first time, or for the 50th time, you’re (mostly) on the same page. You’re forewarned pages in advance. Sometimes at the most infuriating moments because you just wanted them to be happy come on dude this was a nice moment here. 

Also it is absolutely, in my opinion, the kind of book where the more you read it, the more you cry. Which... sounds odd. Like, usually something makes me cry a little, and then i reread it and its less sad? Because half of it is just the shock factor. No. Not The Book Thief. Instead, The Book Thief sets you off crying earlier and earlier each time with all the foreshadowing, thinly veiled references to events, and general parallels. I’m not sure i forgive Markus Zusak for the one time i started crying in like... the first chapter. 

Favourite Character: 

I mean I love them all dearly - but also... Rudy Steiner, hands down.  

He’s such a good friend ok. And just... Markus Zusak does accurately writing kids so well. “As close to love as two eleven year olds can get”. “Better at leaving things behind than stealing”, wants to be Jesse Owens and doesnt understand why he shouldnt cover himself in charcoal and run imaginary Olympic races in the dark, constantly trying to keep Liesel out of trouble while causing infinitely more on his own, took a teddy bear when he wanted to run away, ridiculously in love with playing street soccer. Just... Rudy guys. 

Favourite Quote:

(All of them)

I feel like some of my favourites aren’t so good without the context.

But, having gone on about Rudy enough, I am partial to this exchange:

“Every night, I wait in the dark and the Fuhrer comes down these steps. He walks down and he and I, we fight for hours.”

Liesel was standing now. “Who wins?”

At first, he was going to answer that no-one did, but then he noticed the paint tins, the drop sheets and the growing pile of newspapers in the periphery of his vision. He watched the words, the long cloud and the figures on the wall.

“I do,” he said.