#kibou talks way too fucking much

[sunset-bridge]

I agree completely but i iwant you to elaborate anyeaha

-chai gay sex giy(ps i haveca migraine so that is why i cant typw)

MR CHAI GAY SEX in my askbox. no fucking way.....! ai generated. also i hope your migraine clears soon friend : (

anyways AHEM.

ok well. ocd... is the obsession disorder. i think you can already percieve some of this . what with how Obsession is such a theme with goro. Obsession with the Protagonist Obsession with Revenge Obsession with Perfection.

i think he could have pure O ocd. for anyone that doesnt know, pure O ocd is when you only have the obsessions but not physical compulsions. ex: i have an obsession about my house burning down but instead of doing any physical rituals like checking the stove or jumping up and down or pacing around etc. etc . i just. do mental obsessions, like repeating a phrase, counting to a number, arguing with my brain why my house WONT burn down for 4353 hours etc.

he could very well also have classic OCD but... frankly with how little time he would have to make any compulsions due to his frantic public life, im almost certain that 99% of them are mental.

OCPD (Obsessive Compulsive PERSONALITY disorder) is also a candidate for an additional disorder. for anyone that isnt familiar, this disorder is what most people would think as being a "perfectionist" or a "control freak". but to a degree where its obsessive and damaging to your quality of life. its common for it to couple with classic OCD (haha me...) and the combo is quite... devastating.

anyways. i just think the way he doubts his own convictions after meeting the protag is very ocd like.. he tries so hard to not recognize them and to convince himself hes right. he cant be wrong. he CANT AFFORD TO BE WRONG. not about his whole self! nnot about everything he stands for! it would hurt so deeply to be told you been doing it wrong your whole life.. that your core of thinking is wrong..resonates with me.. although for him specifically it would also be real event ocd (when a thing ACTUALLY happened in the past and your obsessions are about this thing etc and any implications. repeating events in your head and analyzing them ad nauseum etc) . i also think the sunk cost thing applied at some point absolutely 100% like. you dedicated your life to this plan. and you want to stop now??? no way. you already put so much into it. got to see it through. you're right. everyone else is wrong. they have to be.everything is hinging on this. no no. its just an intrusive thought. you're right. you have to be. if not, then what the hell was everything for!!

AND ALSO. how he is so. obsessive over maintaning his public image. ofc its for his plan but the feeling still applies. he Needs to be aware of everything always Everything must go according to plan Every detail must be perfect . I need to know what you Expect so i can perform correctly. You will never catch me off guard. I will be in control I need to Be the ONE in control of my life. etc. and so forth

also just the way his life is fleeting away being obsessed with his whole revenge spiral while he kinda gets more fucked up in his brain inside his skull day by day without saying anything to anyone. none of these people know etc...

very ocd core of his part. reminds me of my lowest moments where it felt like i was gonna die in the corner of my room but everything was happening in my brain. i felt like someone was stabbing me with a knife and twisting it inside. but no one else could see (this is not me being dramatic it really just Feels like That. very frustrating. a lot of people with ocd and other anxiety disorders can agree that they cause physical symptoms..)

and yeah his catharsis moment at shidos palace ... yeah...the raw emotion and the cruelty of reality hitting you in the face... everything you lived for and all of your ideals were wrong. this is my worst nightmare. i dont think i could be as strong.

thank you for listening to me! i shall go to sleep.

EDIT ALSO. r/ocdmemes moment

case closed

[agalnamedlunasea]

If you're still doing the character ask meme thing

Ibuki and/or Nagito

Hi friend id be happy to talk more lol

Imma do both bc why not

Ibuki first ummm

Fave thing about her is I LOVE her energy. She's so happy and cheerful and honestly emotionally intelligent and confident in herself, and I love that

No least fave thing I think... I like everything about her... I don't have her album that's my least favorite thing

Favorite line

I really fucking love this line, its so great. I adore. Either this one or the one where she calls hajime a cunt lol

Brotp NAGITO IBUKI BESTIES FOREVER like actually fr. They’d be such powerful besties, I think ibuki would be a good, understanding friend to him, and kind but insistent enough to break through his walls. Also kazuichi, theyd be so powerful, she could help him de-grease his personality, he could totally roll with her music

Otp: im a BIG fan of ibuki x women lol. I don't really have any particular ships for her over any others. I like basically every ship with her and any of the other girls... I also think her and imposter is cute. If I had to pick one probably bandaid? She'd be good w mikan

Notp: I mean again, I like most of her ships, I don't really strongly dislike any ships with her... I guess her and hajime? They'd be funky friends, but I don't think I could see them romantically

Random hc: pretty basic but oh god that girl is adhd as fuck. Also I think it'd be funny if she could handle alcohol really well, like she somehow takes significantly more drinks than any of her friends to get drunk. She'd be a good drunk people babysitter I think

Unpopular opinion... I don't know actually. I feel like ibuki is a pretty well loved character, not much to disagree with

Song I associate with her... am I boring if I say I Squeezed Out the Baby Yet I Have No Idea Who the Father Is by Masuna.

Fave picture is probably the sprite above. She so silly...

NAGITO TIME OH BOY

Favorite thing is honestly probably how internally consistent his ideology is and how deeply that effects him. He is incredibly straightforward and consistent actually, people just miss it bc his values and the lengths he'll go to for them are SO different from other people's. Its so heavily shaped by his unique life experience due to his luck, and it informs so much of his personality.. he's such a unique character that can really only come from danganronpa and I think thats super cool

Least fave thing... idk, he's really infuriating honestly, but in such an interesting way that I can't really hate it. Idk I guess the self-deprication gets tiring

Favorite line: I have too many favorites.. this one is funny though

Brotp: obviously ibuki, as already stated, but tbh i think in a post game/non dispair setting i think he should be friends with all the girls in his class actually. Especially ibuki, Sonia, and hiyoko, they'd all be besties w him i think

Otp y'all already know, komahina my beloved

Notp again y'all already know, anything besides komahina. Especially with women, Especially komanami... I do not enjoy

Random hc: I think post game his sleep schedule is completely out of wack. Bouncing between sleeping too much and not enough, nightmares, constantly exhausted. It takes a while to get back to a relatively healthy place with sleep... the nightmares stick around though

Unpopular opinion... um. My brain is broken, the only one I can think of rn I don't really want to share, so skip

Song: zettai kibou birthday ummm besides the obvious one probably first love/late spring by mitski... kind of a basic choice, but fitting i think

Fave picture

Really I like. Almost every picture of him... so take the first cg of him i could find in my phone

[ryouverua]

Trial 6 - Ghost in the Machine (8)

Please clap.

(LET 👏 US 👏 (NOT) 👏 VOTE)

Trial: 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7

Whoa, she’s seriously, truly not happy about this at all! This is… really, really scary? Like, I’m kinda finding her more terrifying that Junko right now…

!!! I - I didn’t even notice that? But she’s right - so that’s Tsumugi’s tell?!

Shouldn’t you be happy about that?! Isn’t that an acceptable ending? Or is it because it’ll just be a boring ‘default’ to it - so if they’d all submitted to despair it would be okay, but still not ideal -

I LOVE THAT THEY USED MAD-EYED!KOMAEDA SPRITE FOR HOPE

- quote from K1-b0, also known as ‘kibou’, self-proclaimed Ultimate Hope Robot.

“I literally just don’t give a shit anymore.”

ultimate tsun strikes again

I would have laughed if that had triggered the voting time screen??? But alas, the only student with that power other than the masterminds themselves has been Kokichi -

.... Wait, Kaito, technically.

Kaito if only you had realized you had such power in you this whole time - !

This is.... really weird music for a debate lol. But I like how they give you a ‘continue the game’ bullet! And of course, since the lying function turns it around...

I MEAN HE LITERALLY TOLD YOU THAT THEY WERE DONE -

Aaah, I see how this is going to go. Alright, I got the message loud and clear. I got your back, Sweetcheeks!

I just love how the music keeps stopping when Shuichi talks.

.... And of course, starts up again when Tsumugi responds.

And yeah, now that Maki pointed it out, she’s right??? She really is changing much less than before???

oh now you give me a normal answer for hangman’s gambit

Well since I’m chilling here anyway for the next 30 seconds.... eh, the music in this minigame isn’t bad, but it’s definitely not my favourite or particularly memorable -

FFGH the screen scared me and I thought I might have actually done something wrong?? But that’s the point, isn’t it. To make you feel like you’re making the wrong choice - !

Oh shit are we actually going to rotate through all the games?

.....

WAIT HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN ABLE TO SEE SHUICHI DOING THESE THIS WHOLE TIME?!?! WHAT?!

THIS HAS SOME REALLY WILD IMPLICATIONS -

THIS music is a jam though. Oh, they’ve definitely shortened the playtime for this! Probably good, tbh. Wasn’t the normal time limit at least 5 minutes, maybe even more?

n oooOOo I’M TRYING NOT TO GET ANY BUT I CAN’T STOP THE CAR ENTIRELY FUFUFUUUU

M... Monokuma, that’s.... literally the point....

OH MY GOD HOW DEEP DOES THIS MINIGAME RABBIT HOLE GO

YOU HAVE THIS MUCH CONTROL -d

Yo he is yelling straight past Tsumugi and Monokuma and right at the audience lmao

TSUMUGI SAVE YOUR SELF-ESTEEM AND DON’T READ THE LIVE COMMENTS

Holy crap they’re being so brutal to Shuichi et al., though? Look, I get we all have the people we wanted to survive but -

Anyway Tsumugi definitely has the face of a woman who went against all reason and logic and read the comments anyway. You are definitely a denizen of the internet! You should know better than this!

He is straight up wailing on them I am LIVING for this

Ooof those comments though, honestly - Shuichi is definitely riding high on spite, because I think he’d crumble otherwise. ... Probably being extremely sleep-deprived helps. I also get salty when I’m tired

Tsumugi they are literally going to sit here and complain if you don’t move forward, which is not very entertaining either. 8′D

Ah, but it’s great that they’re a united front. makes it easy to forget this is basically a suicide pact but, uh, let’s try to stay positive -

Oh she’s going for the softest target. But... I don’t think he can be swayed anymore. Even if he was the one fighting hardest for hope.

HUH -

HEY

HEY

HEY WHAT THE FUCK -

WHAT

WHAT JUST HAPPENED

WHAT DID YOU DO -

TSUMUGI WHAT DID YOU DO?!?!!!

guys

I........ I ......

..... I

I thought we were..... at the finish line

what.... this is.... this isn’t good.... wkajfsd;

i’M SCREAMING WHAT THE HELL

WHAT DID THEY DO?!?!?!

THIS IS SABOTAGE! YOU CAN’T JUST HIJACK HIM -

This is also literally K1-b0′s worst nightmare??? As a robot who wanted to be a human??? Oh there are so many layers of unfair to this -

the COMMENTS OH GOD

CTRL+ALT+KEEBO I am mad at how clever this is

dangit grandpas I cannot believe

Life ends in a flash LOL yeah the audience is completely desensitized huh

Is this really okay? .... or maybe not all of them

look at all this salt

shoot for the hope ending

Obviously, they’d be erased.

100% out of 100?

question taaaaaimu!

couldn’t read all of them but yeah

Whoa that reverberation on his voice...

AAAH THEY’RE SO WORRIED ABOUT HIM D: (Maki too, she just seems to react to this in different places for whatever reason.)

AND THEY SHORT-CIRCUITED HIM?! HARD RESET HIM OR SOMETHING?! HE’S A SURVIVOR TOO DAMN IT YOU CAN’T JUST DO THAT -

FFFFFFUFFUFFUUUUUUUUUU

They.... they bloody killed someone.... in the middle of a trial....

And hell, how could the audience have the ability to make that choice??? Who gave them that option?

That means... That definitely means there’s someone that had the ability to create that question for the audience to vote on, someone outside of her... right? Or could that be done via Monokuma? Via that staff she was talking about.... there was definitely a third party that created that option for them, right? As a way to salvage this situation for them.

Are they that depraved?! Do they really feel no attachment to the character they travelled with this whole time?! That’s.... actually really terrible?! I get that there’s a whole genre dedicated to living out your own fantasy through a character you can project yourself on, and K1-b0 served that function in a sense, but he still .... had his own.... character.......

LITERALLY DOES NOT DESERVE THIS

IF THEY TOLD YOU TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE, WOULD YOU -

Wait actually don’t answer that -

WHY

WHY DID THE VOICE SHE JUST PUT ON MAKE ME LAUGH

FHGSDLKFJ

DAMN YOU TSUMUGI SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAS HAPPENED I FEEL TERRIBLE FOR LAUGHING AT SUCH A CRITICAL JUNCTURE

And now they have their hope vote.... fffgh

AAAAH HE’S BACK HE’S FIGHTING IT

Wow you’re really going to pull the ‘good put-upon white-haired boy gets controlled against his will but struggles against the inner voice in his head in order to help his friends’ thing on me now, huh

....

well it’s working damn it i am not okay

also kokichi will you respect him now that he can theoretically be interpreted as a YGO reference or -

THEY’RE ALL SO WORRIED FOR HIM

god why did it take so long for this

why did it have to be at the very end that they finally banded together with K1-b0

it’s so far too late for that now

K1-b0..............

ME FUCKING TOO SHUICHI FJSKLDFJSDFL;ASDJK

you don’t, uh, look sad like... at all

On that note - she was so pissed at him pre-trial? I’m sure that’s contributing to her feelings right now. And I swear she barely interacted with him in the previous chapters.... in fact, didn’t she dump on him in Ch 4 or 5 about being too sensitive about robophobia? About his ‘persecution complex’? Hot and cold, man...

WE WON’T LET THIS HAVE HAPPENED IN VAIN LET’S FUCKING DO THIS SWEETCHEEKS

UNHOLY SCREECHING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I WEEP!!! I WEEP!!!!

that is also the noise I made wow I can’t believe we are in sync in this small incremental moment in time

This is the chance they worked so hard to give us!!!

I mean, there it was right there - him using that line that Kaito used to try and inspire them the entire game. He already died, but his love for Shuichi and Maki is present and here right now.

If all of them knew what was happening... I don’t think they would be upset at all. Hell, Kaede walked into that first trial knowing that it was going to be her last day, and Gonta, Kokichi and Kaito all basically used their lives as weapons to try and get the ending that they thought was the best for everyone - and that didn’t even always involve the class’s survival! We were practically primed for an ending where ‘dying is for the greater good‘ from the beginning!  So you know, he’s not... wrong. He’s just following in his classmates’ footsteps.

okay this is slightly cheesy but I’m still with you and more importantly I am always about tearing the wall down between the metaworld and the prime world via the power of love oh wait wrong series...

Would it be presumptuous to say that this is him now using Kokichi’s love for his classmates, right here? After all those things he said about the power of lies, and how lies could be kind, and that final sacrifice... is it okay to say that?

Honestly, Shuichi learned so damn much from the last trial. It’s so great to see it finally come together here.

ghgjgkhdkfh

Oh -

oh no, are we about to do what I think we’re going to do?

Oh no -

isn’t him being chained up a little on the noSE OH GOD OKAY HERE WE GO -

also does that mean this is the one minigame Tsumugi et al have no control over or -

THESE COMMENTS ARE INSANE

AND THE WAY HE’S STRAINING AT THE CHAINS AAAAAH -

oh god he’s screaming they’re all screaming I-I know she said he’s been erased but this isn’t his fault it’s not fair to him -

THIS IS SCARING THE SHIT OUT OF ME G O D

slkdfj the whole globe is blocking me I cannot believe

They’re calling it preachy, they’re talking about it being too meta, they don’t like these twists, hope, despair, hope, despair, give me the happy ending I want, kiibou-da, zetsubou-da, kiibou-da, zetsubou-da, they want closure, it’s all just about entertainment but -

IT’S HAPPENING -

That’s.... it........... -

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE CATCH K1-B0 OH MY GOD HE’S FALLING SO FAR -

I choose to believe that Shuichi spent the last five or so minutes screaming at K1-b0 zooming around the ceiling while the others watched

.... and Tsumugi just let him do that

I JUST SAID SHUICHI SPENT THE LAST FIVE MINUTES SCREAMING AT K1-B0 WHO WAS JUST FLYING AROUND THE CEILING BLASTING INTERNET COMMENTS FROM THE LOUD SPEAKERS MIU INSTALLED ALL OVER HIS BODY -

Logically, I know this must have gone through to them. There’s no way this hasn’t. My heart hasn’t caught up quiet yet, though - I am... cautiously optimistic, but also with that edge of nervous and tentativeness. We’ve gotten through... we most certainly have gotten through...

Why.... Why are you monologuing. You must realize. You’re setting yourself up. You’re setting yourself up, you’re supposed to be the genre-aware one -

Shuichi knows. Shuichi.... knows.

Doesn’t that??? Sound terrible??? And so contrived??? Monokuma, this is why it’s getting stale! It’s the same thing, every time! Honestly Shuichi is doing you a damn favour -

Famous last words, my girl. Famous last words.

It’s been a long time coming, but... we’re finally bringing it home, Kaede.

But, y’know - it just didn’t seem appropriate to end it all looking at her. So, Sweetcheeks? To the end?

.... We did our best. You did good, kid.

Yes!!! You were so strong throughout this whole thing, Himiko! This couldn’t have been an easy decision for you, after pushing yourself so hard to live for Tenko and Angie!

I think... we’re safe on that front at least.

‘And you totally screwed yourself over Imeanwhat-’

I have to wonder then what she would have done if the ending really was looking like it was going to be despair. Would she have allowed that to happen?

y-you can’t say that and ‘puhuhu’ in the same sentence -

You just said kiibou was the winner no need to be redundant okay that was bad I’m sorry

What a terrible ending. Hope at any cost... And here I thought Komaeda was the natural extreme/twisted version of ‘anything for hope’. One game later and we have a mastermind whose end goal was hope winning???

With a new personality, a new script.... and no memories of anything that happened here. Of the people he met, and lost, along the way. That’s so sad.

Wow I don’t know why but I really like that it’s Maki coming to K1-b0′s defense right now???

Her idea of fiction is actually pretty screwed up??? I mean, so much of fiction and writing prides itself on flowing smoothly, and people talking about things ‘being forced’ in a story is generally a bad thing???

Then again, she was perfectly happy to LITERALLY let K1-b0′s 'characterization’ be destroyed in order to brute-force the happy ending she/they wanted...

…. Just like Junko. But…

dude I know it’s a bit very super super super late to ask this but uh, do you need... to talk to someone? Maybe a therapist? I... I don’t think this excessive attachment is healthy....

No dude that’s cheesy af. What - what do those words even mean together? Grasp true hope - like, what?

NO IT’S SO AWFUL AND VAGUE THE ONLY THING INTERESTING ABOUT IT IS K1-B0 BEING THE LONE SURVIVOR AND THEN WHAT? AND THEN WHAT? YOU’VE GOT NO HOOK YOU’VE GOT NOTHING -

maki you sound like me tf

That smile - oh, he knows. Shuichi knows.

TSUMUGI I AM TELLING YOU, YOU ARE FALLING VICTIM TO ALL OF THE CLASSIC VILLAIN TROPES AND ‘DEFEAT DEATH FLAGS’ -

Here we go.....................................

!!

[writer-and-artist27]

Not the Last

Note: This was written as a “What-If” story, in response to the whole KeiKashi wedding prompt Lang ( @langwrites ) did a little while back. I never thought I would write this, but since the idea was lurking in my head for a long time, I felt like I needed to.

I’m guessing you’re asking, “because why? Why did you feel like this to the point of writing?”

Well. For those of you following me, you might’ve heard how Tomoko in S&S originally was, at one point, in consideration for death at Orochimaru’s hands. The whole KeiKashi wedding thing would be a catalyst, unfortunately enough, and well, I needed to write this to prove to myself that’s not going to happen with me as the writer ever and I needed to get this last bit off my chest as a way of moving on. The whole “Tomoko-death-at-Orochimaru” was a result of my innermost insecurities about my and Lang’s initial friendship in the early S&S days, and my social anxiety in general, so writing how it won’t happen is a way of nailing that idea in its coffin for good.

So, this. 

It’s also why the DR thing is kinda on a indefinite hiatus, because the angst that was in there was too big of a wallop to the point of Lang getting worried about my mental health.

Songs referenced in this whole “What-If” thing include marasy’s piano cover of Madoka Magica’s Connect and Mermaid Melody’s Kibou no Kaneoto, in that order.

The theme for this specific thing though? Madoka’s And I’m Home. The original and/or Akio Scenro’s piano version work just fine.

Trigger Warnings are in order for implied anxiety, suicide ideation, death, and depression.

And please, for anyone who feels suicidal, please contact a help hotline or a loved one as soon as you can. You deserve to be here. Just as much as anyone else does.

I wrote this to give that original bad ending of S&S some closure and that sad part of Tomoko a happy ending. You all deserve a happy ending too.

“Do you, Hatake Kakashi, take this woman as your bride?”

Isobu, conducting the ceremony like the proud Tailed Beast he was.

“I do.”

These two had definitely changed for the better from the ninja who glared at each other in my living room so long ago.

“And do you, Gekkō Keisuke, take this man as your husband?”

“I do.”

We were all grown up, huh. I never would have thought two decades ago that Kei would ever say such a thing. But here we were.

Isobu’s large arms, covered in sand and seawater, landed on each side of the soon-to-be married couple with gentle grace, a low rumble sounding in his throat. The eight ninken lined up near the platform were all wagging their tails, and I didn’t miss how Isobu’s large eye met my stare for a moment as he lowered himself to eye level with the rest of the audience. “Then you may kiss. And anyone who would dare voice any objections will not do so, or I will eat them.”

I made sure to smile as brightly as I could back at the Tailed Beast while holding back the urge to cry.

Rin nudged me softly while wiping a happy tear from her eye. “Beautiful. Don’t you think so, Tomo-chan?”

“Yeah,” I said softly. My heart beat against my chest. “It is. I’m glad I got to see this.”

My mind already knew that it might be the last.

No one minded my song choices for Kei and Kakashi’s wedding. A full piano rendition of Connect, because of course I had to honor my roots, and then singing Kibou no Kaneoto.

“Sing this last song…”

The Sound of the Bells of Hope. Love Goes On, was the subtitle.

I wished for so many years that my friends could be happy. And here they were.

Obito and Rin, smiling at one another while dancing on the dance floor.

Gai, crying tears of joy when Genma caught the bouquet in front of Raido.

And my best friends. Kei and Kakashi. They were married, they were smiling, and they were laughing.

They all were happy.

It was why I decided this would be my last concert. My last performance as the Civilian Pianist.

They didn’t need me anymore. It was obvious they all were focused on each other.

So, my job was done, wasn’t it?

My stomach shook from butterflies, but by the time I sang the last verse and stepped off the stage past all the loud applause, clutching my Wayfinder necklace all the while, Isobu was turning an eye at me again. Did he notice?

“Tomoko,” he rumbled, almost too quiet from the sound to be his normal conversational tone. “Where are you going?”

He did notice. Of course.

I never thought in my entire life that I would have the honor of being called by name by Isobu himself. Or the fact that he would want to talk with me without wanting to stomp on me like the insect I was compared to him. Still, I put on a smile and nodded in his direction as a sign of acknowledgement. I heard him. “For a walk, Isobu-san. All the performing and party antics can get to someone, see.”

“Hm,” he said softly, and I could’ve sworn I heard a huff of irritation. Or was it another one of my hopeless delusions? “By yourself?”

I nodded again. “I…I just need to be alone for a while in the fresh air, Isobu-san. I’ll be okay.”

Yet again, my stomach churned as a dark part of my mind said, No, you’re not. You’ll never be okay.

Why now?

That large red-yellow-ringed eye continued to stare at me, almost disbelievingly.

He wasn’t supposed to be looking at me like that. Not at me.

I held back the urge to reach out towards him, instead smiling. “Really, Isobu-san. If Kei asks, I just went out for a walk. I’ll be alright.”

You liar.

Isobu stared at me for a few more moments before he took a step towards me, and I wasn’t expecting the almost gentle nudge against my head, rustling my long hair. “Alright. But if anything happens—”

“I’ll call you or Kei or the other ninja,” I said, feeling a truer smile start to form on my lips. “I know. Thank you, Isobu-san.”

The Three-Tails pulled back to stare at me again, and I could’ve sworn I saw understanding in the red-yellow rings. “Do not stray far.”

I finally decided to put a hand on one of his many horns, still smiling. “I won’t.”

My stomach churned as my chakra curled up in on itself, hiding. You goddamn liar, Tomoko. You goddamn liar.  

Yet again, I wished I could hear Hisako’s voice.

Yet again, I wished someone could save me.

The walk to the top of Hokage Mountain wasn’t as difficult as I thought it would be. Despite my wearing heels. Sure, my heels were short ones, actually hitting a bare inch of height, but a part of me expected that I would be suffering from cramps or foot blisters by the time I could see the entirety of Konohagakure.

The moon was already high in the horizon, shining down on the rocks beneath, and I could already see how there was no railing at the cliff.

My heart beat again.

They’re…they’re going to be okay, right? Right?

Silence greeted my mind yet again.

I walked over to the cliff. Looking down, I could see almost everything. The Hokage Tower, the Academy, the shopping district, and the many stone faces of the past four Hokage, Minato-san included.

This was my home. This is my home.

I’ve done enough, haven’t I?

I raised a foot past the cliff’s edge for a moment before immediately drawing back in a cold sweat.

The air felt cold. Chilly and desolate.

What the—what the fuck am I thinking?! I can’t die… I can’t. Everyone would—

Team Minato’s faces flashed through my mind. They looked happy. They were happy.

…Weren’t they?  

The hem of my blue dress fluttered in the wind as it blew against my back.

But…I did everything I could…didn’t I? Should I go now?

You should, that dark part of me whispered.

But not like this. I just thought of leaving the village…like a vagabond, so I could help others…not…not…

You need to die now, though. It’s all over. They don’t need you.

No, no, nononono, I—

My thoughts were already remembering pools of red.

I don’t want to go like this!

“TOMO!”    

It was as if the darkness had stopped. As if all time had stopped. The stars were shining in the sky again, and the moon seemed almost brighter.

My heart leapt in my chest as the first tear started budding in my eye. I couldn’t even get the chance to whip my head around before a hand firmly grabbed my forearm, and I was getting pulled back. I didn’t even realize we had crashed onto the gravel of the mountain until I was staring at the inside of a suit jacket, and someone was huffing above my head.

“Thank god,” they went harshly before another hand landed on the back of my hair and pulled me closer into the hug.

I knew this presence. I knew this voice. They were supposed to be at the wedding. They weren’t supposed to be here.

“K-Kei?” My voice came out hoarse, raw.

My reincarnation buddy didn’t respond, only gripping my arm tighter as the hand on my head went down to the small of my back, winding around my waist to pull me upright, squeezing. Her breath came out short and almost ragged above my hair, and my heart was still beating hard.

“Kei…” My left, ungrabbed hand, hesitantly reached up to tug at the hem of her jacket. She wasn’t supposed to be here. She was supposed to be with Kakashi and the others, celebrating her own goddamn wedding. She wasn’t supposed to be here… “Kei, why…”

“Isobu told me you went out, and I got a bad feeling,” was the short and terse reply, and she pulled back to stare at me with hard, almost shocked eyes. What? “Tomo, why were you at the fucking cliff? If you walked any further—” she bit her lip as she slowly let go of my right forearm, hand going to cover her face. “Tomoko, you could’ve died.”

It was as if hot coals were shoved down my throat.

I didn’t want to die. I didn’t want to go, but…

When my friends finally found love, where would I be?

“I…” Tears were already starting to bubble up in my eyes as my voice cracked. I tried to smile, but seeing the bride — my reincarnation buddy — like this… She was supposed to be happy. “I just thought…I just thought that my job was done. That I could go, a-and leave you all be so you could be okay without me. I-I wasn’t meaning to jump, if that’s what you were thinking.”

“Tomoko,” Kei’s voice turned hard again, this time with disbelief as she lowered her hand from her face to stare at me. “I saw you lift that foot of yours over the rock. That’s suicide, or suicide ideation if you ask me.”

This time, what felt like cold water splashed over me. “I-I didn’t…I…”

When did my thoughts start leading me to nearly dying like Vy, without even saying goodbye?

I wasn’t expecting Kei’s stare to turn soft in my direction. “Tomoko, what’s wrong? Where’d I screw up? Where’d we go wrong?”

What?

The last straw was everyone else starting to run into the area too, sandals almost beating into the gravel as they approached.

“Tomoko?” Kakashi’s voice. He was here.

“Tomo-chan!” Ricchan, no, Rin — she was here too.

“Kei, did you find her?!” Obi… of course…

“Hime!”

Papa…

Tears were already blurring my vision as a shaky smile came over my face. “I-I…I…”

A calloused hand reached over to touch my cheek, just as the first tear started trickling down. “What is it, Tomo?”

Kei, you absolute dork. It had to be you. You always saved me, didn’t you…

Even now…

The words came out in-between the start of gross-sounding sobs as I covered my face with my hands. My hair was sticking to my face, my heart wasn’t letting up in its marathon, and I just didn’t know whether this was a dream or reality anymore. But they were here, and my friends needed answers. I wanted out of this darkness now. “Kei, I-I think I’m lonely and, and kinda anxious a-and maybe suicidal, from the looks of it, a-and I need help. I don’t know anymore.”

The only response I got was another tight hug as my loved ones started crowding around me. “We can do that, Tomoko.” A hand started going through my hair as people started joining into the group hug. “We can do that. You’re never going to be alone.”

That did it.

For the first time in a long time, I started bawling like a baby.

Even with her wedding suit getting soaked, Kei never let go.

No one else did either.

I clung to them, and they let me.

This was real.

And every time I wailed, the tight, combined grip on me reminded me of that.

[dr-owo]

Sick ain't gonna stop you from accusing, but also, Thanos | Chapter 2 | Raven | Trial | RE: Daishin, Ren, Keiko, Phoenix, ATTN: Bunji

As Daishin and Ren told him to rest up a bit, Raven actually took them up on that offer and kept quiet. It was hard to constantly focus on the trial anyway, so he might as well let the others do some talking. Although he heard his name being mentioned by Abe, the debate went way too fast for him to properly address it.

However, he would eventually get to it, because he didn’t share his alibi first. Granted, probably no one - or at least, most of them - wouldn’t think that a sick man like him was able to commit murder, but hey, it’s always good to confirm whether someone was being truthful about their alibi or not. 

While Raven waited for the right moment to intervene, he simply rested - before he suddenly felt something wet slam into his face. Startled, he almost fell to his side, but was able to keep his balance. The street magician took the strange thing off his face, only to realize that it was a wipe - and a second later, he suddenly had a bottle of water in his hands. He blinked owlishly, not sure how he got either of them, before a voice was directed at him. Looking up, he stared at a certain dark-haired woman with a bemused expression, but then he chuckled lightly, his eyes still dazed.

“H-Heh... You... g-got me there, but... you’re not in a.. m-much better condition, eh...? You... should rest as well...”

Raven placed the wipe on his forehead, feeling relieved to feel something cold there instead of the heat that seemed to be burning away at his body.

“T... Thanks... A-Aya-nee...”

(Who?)

He opened the bottle of water and took a sip - oh man, who invented water? It was one of the most awesome things ever.

While the discussions went on, Raven was able to pick up some details (something about ghosts and also that they only could vote for one culprit? well fuck), but only after Phoenix’ intervention, did he finally take the chance to speak up again. Not like he should, given his state, but when was he ever sensible?

... If anything, he started to drag himself upward, so he could... lean-stand against the podium. Kind of. Heavy breathing aside, Raven concluded that his legs should support him for a minute or two, before they would throw the towel and let him crash back to the ground. Then again, it’s a conclusion from an incredibly feverish guy, so, uh... Yeah. He’s an idiot.

“G-Guess... we really oughta find out who... who killed Kibou, ‘cause... she’s the last one to die and... w-well, given all the... evidence and... info we got, Phoenix is... r-right to be suspicious of you, Okamura. If... anything, I couldn’t... help but notice t-that you... just happened to be in... a-all relevant locations for... for this case. The... grocery store, w-where the pills were taken... t... the fluffy thing that... made me immediately think o-of... your coat... n-not to mention the kitchen, w-where... a knife was missing... And... and now Phoenix’ account on... y-you leaving makes... you suspicious.”

He supressed the cough that came afterwards as best as he could, but he didn’t seem to stop now.

“And... g-given... Sorakuma’s irritation, I... think whoever i-is the... culprit we gotta vote on... is... n-not gonna get punished, ‘cause... they got the right person... I-- hngh-- really wouldn’t be sur... surprised if... you’ve got prospognosia, Okamura. So--”

Raven stopped again, his knees becoming incredibly wobbly.

“Ohhh, I... d-don’t feel so good, Mr. Stark...”

And with that, he half-crashed down to the ground, letting out a groan before he was caught up in another coughing fit.

Yup, this guy’s gonna disintegrate like a certain superhero that has something to do with spiders.

[midorimochi]

Kaito and Hajime in 1) for the meme, because I know you want to talk about the boys ~

Wait, no, for 2 :p 

Ahah, okay~

MY BOYS!! 💗

Kaito

How I feel about this character: Not only he’s the Luminary of the Stars, he’s also the Luminary of my Heart ;u;

All the people I ship romantically with this character: He’s honestly so shippable… but I guess my main preference goes for Shuuichi, Maki, Kaede, Kokichi, and Miu :3

My non-romantic OTP for this character: You know, if there was the chance, I’d have liked to see some bonding moments with Rantaro. As soon as Rantaro would have felt like sharing his story with him I could totally see Kaito grabbing him by his arm and SPRINTING “I, Momota Kaito, The Luminary of The Stars, WILL find your sisters and you’ll be my sidekick! No questions asked!”. Imagine how Rantaro could feel seeing such dedication for his cause, with all the encouragements included ;u; “If even after all of these years you still have the same goal, you’re an amazing big bro, I tell you! Never dare to give up on your dream to reunite your family, you got it??”. I mean… 

My unpopular opinion about this character: Well, I know that people in here are very keen on debating over his traditionalist views but at times I feel some of the accusations people make against him are... exaggerated…

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon: I’d have liked to see him bonding with more people, I think it would have added more layers to his character. 

My OTP: *inhales* SAIMOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

My crossover ship: Mmm… I’d make crossovers with the other installment of the franchise lol so… for DR… I can see him and Aoi bonding over sports and stuff! For SDR2 I think he and Hajime would be so good for each other omg

A headcanon fact: His goatee is fake lol It stems from the fact that I saw an official pic where he missed it, so… 👀

Hajime

How I feel about this character: HE… He’s my sun, my love, my everything, I love him too much, words cannot express it ;-; 

All the people I ship romantically with this character: He’s the SHSL Harem Master AHAH but I really loved his relationship with Natsumi in DR3. I already appreciated how the TSMC was the main reason that pushed him to undergo the Kamukura Project enough, but the way they interacted was amazing. They knew each other very briefly but they had a lot in common and their mutual understanding was crucial for the way they could relate to each other. Imagining an Non- Despair AU where he has to gain Fuyuhiko’s approval to date her is priceless x) I also liked a lot his chemistry with Mahiru in her FTEs, I like him with Sonia, Ibuki and a couple of fics made me like him with Souda too, but I still prefer them as a BROTP. And… I’m mostly neutral in the Koma//Hina VS Hina//Nami ship wars but I do appreciate Koma//Hina stuff too at times… Yeah, I admit I had a Koma//Hina phase, okay, there I said it.

My non-romantic OTP for this character: He and Hiyoko! I loved how he became a surrogate big bro for her in her FTEs, especially after Chapter 2. When he promised he’d have protected her I was so touched… I mean, I know he made similar promises to other characters as well but the sibling-like relationship they shared made it special to me :3

My unpopular opinion about this character: I think that for him and the SDR2 cast at least, Kibou-Hen did a good job. Not the best but not the worst either. I’d have liked more enclosure on his character all in all but knowing that despite everything he’s still there and he probably has a lot of time in his hands - to psychologically metabolize everything that happened to him and that he has done - makes me feel relieved ;u;

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon: I’d have liked to see him meeting Junko’s bf, tbh. I think it could have been an interesting relationship. I’d also have liked to see Hinata meeting Junko too, somehow. Since she was the SHSL Neurologist’s gf and patient maybe she could have had access to his lab before enrolling to HPA. If not as Junko as Ryoko, the parallel was so strong. Jin having a word with him before the experiment took place could have made him look better in my eyes, as well. You know there’s a young teenager who’s not fully aware of what he’s doing, who’s going to become a lab’s rat and you don’t give a fuck?

My OTP: Hajime/Happiness c:

My crossover ship: If I can make crossover ships with other installments I think he and Kyoko would work pretty well! I also love the idea of he and Egg in a romantic relationship :3

A headcanon fact: His old shoes (those from SDR2) didn’t fit them anymore when he woke up from NWP, because while he was Kamu he still grew up so he had to change them, hence why those white bland shoes in Kibou-Hen lol

Come to think of it, both of their names are related to the sky!! Hinata is related to the sun as “a sunny place” while Kaito hints at Costellations, but since you see starts at night, and instead of seeing the sun at night you see the moon…

Hajime is the sun, Kaito is the moon…

I’M CRYING

Thanks a bunch for the ask!! 💞

[tanoraqui]

So do you still like the Vorkosigan books? I read them after seeing your posts (I finished all of them in like a week and a half) and I absolutely fell in love! Thank you for getting me my new favorite series I'm inflicting on my family! PS: Am I a heartless bitch for not crying at the end of Cryoburn? My sister cried like a baby but I didn't.

I’m impressed with your stoicness because I cried for like 20 minutes the first time I read it. And I knew it was coming because, like an idiot, I glanced - only glanced, but that was enough - at the last page before I was anywhere near it in the book. I haven’t cried each time I’ve reread it - which has been at least twice - but it sure makes me wibbly. Just, the way it’s done, never said aloud, just, “Count Vorkosigan, sir?” With perfect mirroring, of course, to Miles learning of Piotr’s death at the start of Warrior’s Apprentice. “Lord Vorkosigan, sir?” That’s good writing, that is. And the way Aral’s age is hanging like a specter over the entire book, Mark and Miles both bouncing around it while looking at Kibou-Dani’s technology, or talking about hte Durona Group’s latest breakthrough. The perfect dramatic irony of the final scene. “Count Vorkosigan, sir?” Gregor carrying the bier. Fuck.

I’m so glad I got you into the series! Yeah, they’re pretty much my favorites, too. Very high up there, at least.

[sunset-bridge]

about ur ake shoo takes like i agree a lot with the fact the fandom tends to focus on the extremes rather than the complexities. either making goro a total innocent baby or an irredeemable evil monster, and making ake shoo either pleasant and romantic or just that they hate each other a lot and thats it. when its really much deeper, and that annoys me about a lot of it. (also them misinterpreting.... so much of canon due to bias)

YEAH YEAH ANON !!!! RRRRAAA Mfw the world is cute shades of gray and not black or white hellooooo isnt that kinda cool guys wouldnt it be cool if a game talked about this a bit a cute bit yeah (not directed at u btw just . Yelling at the void)

Like honestly both extreme takes are soo bad so fucking stupid like helloo did we play the same game. Like ofc woobyfing goro and honestly thinking hes an angel or did nothing wrong is bad but also making him seem heartless and completely evil too like helloooo hi hi . Mr. i want to be needed and wanted and loved helloooo hi

Gonna sound delulu again but yes ur so right its like deeper than that hellooo like goro feels so much shit about joker he feels jealous he feels admiration he feels hate he feels respect he wants joker to need him he wants wants his efforts to go noticed but joker threatens his entire core of being with his mere existence how the hell is someone supposed to be normal about this . I couldnt be normal about it personally

Anyways yeah thats it thats what annoys me a lot too about a loooot of ake shooers shu akeers

Anyways cough thank you