#keeping this in my blog 5ever

[bbeeohazardd]

i'm stuck in bed but i wanted to contribute still

[seokmashu]

moot appreciation & 1000th post ❤️

to celebrate the end of predebut era, zb1's debut, my lovely 5ever moots, and my 1000th post! (also bc this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a few weeks now and i figured it's time!) it's been a few months since i joined zumblr and i wanted to shout out a few people who have made this experience so fun and lively and wonderful and whose friendships i really treasure ❤️ i love all of you mwah now let's goo!!

💌 cherrie // @cherriegyu 🍒

cherrieee tietie 🫶 when i first came on tumblr you were one of the only ppl i talked to and you made me feel so welcome in the community- i loved discussing lex's hp ideas with you, our bias lists and being a zerorat (💀) imy and love you lots <3

💌 moni // @taerrrrrae 🐨

moni you're always so sincere when reading and reacting to other ppl's works, responding to asks, and letting other ppl know you're thinking of them, that i find it so inspiring~ i mean who else would compose poems for their moots?? you're such a sweet person a 7 star hallabong fr <3

💌 riri // @chxrrymxxnlight 🌛

ririii my fav riyangi fangirl!! you're so cute and i appreciate how you always keep me up to date about zb1 stuff (like within 0.1 seconds of them posting, insane) even tho we always miss each other cuz we live in opposite timezones 😭 i hope u only have happy days ahead and i'm so excited to hear more about this story you're writing and drawing!! <3

💌 tee // @haesunflower ⛳

teee! i'm so glad you sent me that message when we first became moots bc it's so much fun talking to you~ remember the gyuvin cheeto ask i sent you? 💀 and all those times you were thirsty over wrote about zb1 ahem. i love discussing fic ideas with you because you simply give the best reactions and i'm so happy you get to live out your y/n fantasy fr fr 😭 <3

💌 rose // @ohdudedhesflirting 🐝

ah yes rose one of the only other seokryus that i know on tumbles 😭 your thirsty reactions to posts are so funny and always crack me up~ i'm sooo glad you started writing more bc i love reading your fics!! still mad you didn't tag me in the first one 😤 but it's ok since it literally wrenched my heart out ;; i hope you're doing better now and that you had a wonderful bday <3

💌 lex // @bp-zb1fics 🦇

lex i know you haven't been as active lately but it doesn't feel right to not include you in this since you were literally my d-1 bestie when i first started this blog- i loved discussing fic ideas with you and joking around making silly posts and sending each other twts and telling each other about our dreams and reading all the wonderful stuff you wrote! i hope you're doing well now, i'm thinking about you <3

💌 venom // @zerobaseonefics 🕸️

you were one of the first people i talked to when i arrived at zumblr and i remember thinking wow she seems cool i wanna get to know her! little did we know that was the start of a century long feud however thankfully we can say war is over now that you've admited defeat 😇 fr tho, you're such a talented writer and i really admire how you always make time to listen to and talk to everyone~ your love for spiderman is sooo cute you act cool all the time but you're actually the cutest yk? thank you for encouraging me to post my art back then, i really don't think i would've started posting my bday series if it weren't for you and ilysm <3

💌 hazel // @hanbeanz 🔮

aka the don 😎 hazel i think you're such a talented gifmaker and the way you include your stream of consciousness always cracks me up lolol i think you're an awesome leader and it's fun discussing ideas for zb1net tg, don't feel too discouraged and i also hope you don't get too burnt out either<3 also that time you sent me an ask about your emoji tag still cracks me up hahaha <3

💌 alma // @gunwookstan 🐭

my fav fav fav mattwook fangirl almaaaaa <3 i'm so happy you messaged me bc we are literally kindred spirits when it comes to reacting to our boys LOL it was sooo funny that one time i was scrolling twt and accidentally found your account and you were like sweats uhhh that's not me ok sure 👀 talking with you always brightens my day ily sooo much mwah <3

💌 rin // @jjanguri 🐳

rininining!! my sweet, kind, open-hearted friend who can't help but cry from simply existing 🥺 from our first interaction i could tell you were gonna be lots of fun to talk to~ i love being spymasters tg, hearing ab your feud with your cubicle mate, the tattoos you plan on getting, your reactions to hao, and your love of eating bricks and concrete <3 bc of you "goobert" and "monch" are imprinted into my mind LOL and also i think it's soo impressive how you churn out 10 gifsets every day even tho you're so busy all the time~ idk what's up with the whole ss and meow agenda you've been cooking up lately but grrrr i'm keeping my eye on you 👀 thanks for being such a fun but also calming presence my lovely friend and i hope you know i'm here for you when the going gets tough <3

💌 iana // @taeraex 🦖

iana our cute adorable bb <33 it's funny that your bias is taerae bc both of you could stand still doing nothing and i would still think it's the funniest thing LOLL i love talking to you about astrological signs and your stalker behavior and being petty and your random bursting out into song and playing codenames with you (we fr are connected to the same wifi bc it's crazy how similar our instincts are) it's always such a fun time when you're around 😛 you could talk for hours and hours and i would love listening to every second of it you're just so funny and endearing and cute <3 also thank u for always supplying the cute cat pics bc there is a SEVERE drought going on 🙏 i hope u get some sleep bc i'm always worried ab you y'know <3

💌 lili // @y--eontan 🦎

o lilicat how i adore you, you're so funny and brazen and sweet and every time i see you lurking in chat i just wanna go pspspsps 😽 before we started talking i remember seeing your emoji gifset and i remember thinking this is so cool i can't wait to see the part 2!! and then you messaged me and i was like :0 your reactions to gunwookie are soo cute that i just wanna spam you with every noot noot/cheek pic i see~ it's so funny the way you complain about stuff and block people you have no patience for lmaooo i am seated for our next complaining sesh 🫡 your comments and little quips always catch me off guard bc you're so deadpan and i love your sense of humor haha also when you drew that lil orange puppy on the art i made for you? *bursts into tears* <3

💌 hope // @zeroze 🕊️

my cute hopieee i'm so sorry i called u buzz lightyear when all u wanted to be was bubbles 😭 it's so much fun theorizing ab zb1 concepts with you bc we share one mind when it comes to our music tastes and thank you for always looking out for me and asking if i'm gonna watch stuff with you and making sure i go to bed at a reasonable hour 🫶 you're so sweet and kind and funny (thinking about the time you banned iana 💀) even tho you never let me have my own cute emoji reacts :'( i hope your exhibition wraps up well and you can fiiiinally have the break you deserve! and i also hope you have the best time in japan/korea (if we don't end up meeting up!!) and i SWEARRR i'll go to bed earlier (just for u 😚) <3

💌 maria // @sunghanbinie 🌺

aka jiff, lieutenant mario, and the other half of our shared braincell -- i love how we can talk about anything and everything, from when we wake up to when we go to bed, you've simply been there for everything. even though you torment me day-to-day with monkey allegations and thirsty matt gifs, you're also always there to listen to my troubles and check up on me when i'm feeling down - i appreciate you so so much from playing 49584 games together every night and spilling tea to fangirling over zb1 and giving me gif advice. you are my constant <3 i think you're so smart and funny and such a talented gifmaker and writer. i love our little jokes and making fun of each other at every opportunity, and i truly don't think being on zumblr would've been the same without you <3 i love you sooo much mwah mwah mwah <333

finally, a shoutout to moots who i haven't spoken to as much but who i want to get to know better because i just think they're so talented and cute and cool: @jinkiseason // @zb1s // @zerobaseone // @seokmatthewz // @sung-hanbin // @yunacoeur // @keiwook // @cinnajun // @juyomiao <3

this was written from the heart at like 4am and i hope you all know just how much i love and appreciate each and every one of you <3 1000 posts and 10000 more to go! can't wait to spend the next 2.5 years with y'all 😁

[yellow-computer-mouse]

I want to know a bit more about your fictokins

Just curious about them

ooh! okay! :D

🪽Snowfall!🪽

My fictionkin awakening :3 I was pretty close with Winter, and Lynx was like. My best friend 5ever! (NOT ROMANTIC!!!!!!! <- aromantic diclaimer) I don't have any recollection of Crystal, though. I was the oldest!

I quite like Opal. I wish I could talk with her again :)

❄️Winter!❄️

I normally regress when I have a Winter shift. I was a regressor (Qibli was my CG kinda???? he was a middle too so idk we were silly :3), and I had some kinda QPR going on with Moon.

very silly very goofy! also i was some kind of therian idk but i get extra kitty-esque sometimes with him/me

🍂Hollyleaf?🍂

I'm still questioning this kin. I get super strong kin feels from Warriors, but I think that might be Pillbug. (I was a kittypet and I REALLY wanted to be a warrior)

🐙Nightmare?🐙

Verrrrrry heavy questioning for this one. I do feel pretty connected to him tho. we'll see :3

🍃Aeolus!🍃

Probably my quickest to kinfirm. I heard Keep Your Friends Close and I was like. Yep! That's me! :) Just a silly goofy little guy hehee (also i was genderless. no pronouns just vibes)

If you wanna see more of my deranged alterhuman ramblings, check out my side blog, @buggy-is-a-warrior!!! no pressure tho :3

[because-i-simp]

All Right Cleared! Also a PSA--

Now to focus on my Servers!

So To those who follow me and know me in the RPC I currently run around 18 or so (I think?) RP Side blogs amongst a few others-- (a writing blog, an art blog and a meme source--))

In short--- I run a lot of blogs!

And since one of them happens to be a meme source I often get a lot of Notifications that aren't RP Thread related-- So sometimes I accidentally miss thread responses, lose them, or they sit in drafts 5ever and I lose the muse or forget the plot-- so on so on etc etc--

In short, I'm a heckin' mess. XD

It's okay. I am working on that XD

SO ANYWAY due to this--

I have decided that-- I am probably going to make a group Discord server for all my RP partners to join if they would like! Having this server will help me be able to stay organized and make sure I don't lose all my threads so easily, it will be easy to ping me here as well as for ME to ping YOU and let you know that I have responded!

Chatting, art, plotting idea bouncing, hosting events for funsies-- Things like this will be what this little social group is for--- A peaceful place to chill (As well as get my heckin' attention on threads and such!)

You do not Have to join, but you are welcome to, and anyone interested in writing with me is welcome to as well if they would like^^

The choice is yours, it is just easier for me to keep track that way-- IF you are interested in being part of it, give me a Ping! DM me or comment That way I can add you to the list of invites when the server is up and running.

Thank you so much for your time and patience!

~Akarii

[vero-niche]

10th tumblr birthday post wahoo

so i wanted to make a post for the 10th anniversary of me joining yknow... thats like a big and round number... it's still november 16th for me here so just in time haha

trivia night and thank you speeches under the cut, got a bit lenghty lmao

🎈 some fun facts i totally did not gather just now from my archive:

i didnt make an introduction post - i just got right into reblogging, i was on that Grind from day 1 babeyyyy

for anyone wondering, although it pains to admit but my first url was i-cant-without-wholock. yea

my first original post was a venting post about my friend ditching meeting me. yikies!

as of right now, i have 148,958 posts! fucking hell!!!

and 945 followers. mwah to you all

although these are no longer done, i remember the "follow forever" days, so im gonna highlight some followers/mutuals based on stats and my memory (i apologize in advance)

🎆 last month's highest note-givers:

@vestaldestroyer, datoneace (whom i can't tag lol) i see you in my notes. i am handing you a delicious cupcake 🧁

sipral, wise-emperor, please proceed to below hehe

🎇 runner-ups whom i see daily as well:

@atrevir - i'll still let you know if i ever get to ireland btw, im giving you a fortune cookie as a token of that promise 🥠

@thevegetablewhichnoonedaresname - you became the 4th in the weekly notes view which is especially an achievement considering you started following me 6 days ago. mobestie, what else could i offer if not a broccoli in these trying times 🥦

@pastel-moth-boi @imsickenedbutcurious i see you i love you have some sweets please🧇🍩

🎊 people with godlike patience, or, the veteran mutuals:

@comettailwanderer - congratulations, you are the no. 1 still active blog that has been following me for the longest time (4th oldest overall)! im giving you an entire rollercoaster, which is what i imagine these 10 years must have felt like for you 🎢 💛

@wise-emperor - the title of the longest still active mutual goes to you bestie, 9 years and still going strong as hell, guess we never miss 💞🥂

@autumnbois - 6 years and the wildest fandom related life story i ever heard - i hope you are keeping safe, ilysm you are doing gods work 🌈🥧

@sipral - not 100% sure if you've only been following for 1 year, but mutuals we've been for that long - feels much longer!!! while i press a proper reply out of myself, please receive these earthly goods from me, love you 5ever 🍹🍰

i apologize if i left out anybody - the mutuals i know from irl, i didn't want to "expose" you but if for some reason you got this far, next coffee's on me ☕🍫

it is almost 11pm now so im gonna hit post now, lest i run out of the date itself 😅 thank you everyone who made tumblr worth spending a decade on 💕💖💝💘

[kuroheishi]

The moon feared the dark                      

so the sun                set himself on fire.

Independent | Semi Selective | Ask & RP Blogs for Yūichirō Hyakuya ( & Mikaela Hyakuya who is on hiatus but y'know we're one so I gotta keep @littlxlamb on my banner 5ever) from Owari no Seraph.

I have not done one of these in ages so I'm curious to see if there's still ANYONE echoes into the empty fandom who is happy to write with my Yu heh.

I'm busy with work and life but sometimes I get the urge and miss so much to write as Yu so please GIMME YOUR EVERYTHING.

Like and reblog if you'd like to send my Yu berserk! I swear we don't bite but only body slam with love thumbs up!

[clemencetaught]

get to know the author!

name : ferre

pronouns :  they/them

preference of communication : discord, but i can do tumblr ims. honestly, i’m slow on both but i’m a tad quicker to get back to ppl on discord….although again, these days i prefer to keep my discord to solely those whom i feel ooc wise comfortable around!

most active muse :  this guy ( patrick ) clawed his way into single muse blog status with the number of times he gave me brainrot on my multimuse so i’d say it’s probably patrick :’D

experience / how many years :  like about on-and-off for about 8 years? i did do a little bit back in 2013 in quizilla ims which was my introduction to rp before i started formally on tumblr in 2015….that being said i was on-and-off for about the first three years until in 2018 when i made calum- he was the first muse of mine that actually like, stuck :’D that being said, i did also take like a year hiatus in 2020 before coming back in 2021 so uh….eight years might not be the most accurate number jfksdljfkl

best experience : this attempt so far?? Has been so wonderful and i wouldn’t change any of what has happened for the world- my mutuals and writing partners are so skilled and friendly and patient and LITERALLY some of their muses have managed to elicit responses and character development from my muses that i would have NEVER imagined :’D but if we have to go specific….maybe it’s the hunger games au verse i dragged some ppl into?? the plotting and characters they have come up with is PHENOMENAL and wow, i’m gonna stuck to them all like super glue for 5ever &lt;3

rp pet peeves : so many! my biggest ones, however, are self-centered and inconsiderate partners: those who disregard my rules, those who talk only about their own muses in every thread and plotting interaction, those who only seem to take interest in my blog(s) when it involves receiving writing from me. That and blogs that follow first but never make a move/any indication of interest, not even a like on my posts….no offense, but i’m not chasing after you. Other pet peeves include facechasing, trauma dumping ( ooc and ic ), and drama. oh, and partners who just don’t?? Respond to my attempts at some kind of ooc interaction- it can even be in tags, but if you’re not saying anything then that kills my enthusiasm very quickly.

fluff, angst, or smut : see, i want character development and exploration in my threads so i don’t think it’s fair to split up threads into these categories bc if done with intention, you can learn something new about your muse and your partner’s muse in any thread ( and yes, that includes the crack threads- DON’T UNDERESTIMATE ME :D ) i will say though, smut is highly unlikely here just bc patrick is demisexual + it’s gonna take like 2839402384098 years for him and hyuk to look at and act on each other in that manner :’D

plots or memes : plotting <3 but memes are good for starting off plotted dynamics tho!! most times, however, i’m not a fan of first meetings either. I like to have some kind of dynamic/backstory to go off of and would rather not overstep any boundaries so you’re not really a plotter… we might not be a good match. 

long or short replies : see, patrick is a literature professor. for someone softspoken and reserved, he has a TON of thoughts and opinions so whenever i do try to keep things short and sweet, he bucks against it and will give me at least three paragraphs….over 1000 words too. we’re very ( not ) sorry :’D

time to write : depends on what’s happening at work and what my mood is. I do try to do my writing in the afternoon/morning though as most days i feel like i haven’t done anything productive/meaningful until i’ve written at least something.

are you like your muses : hahahaha, nah. I mean, we do have similar interests ( ie. literature and working in higher ed ), but personality-wise he’s much more stiff and erudite than me :’D i will say i think all characters we write do have pieces of ourselves in them, otherwise they’d never be able to grow, but for the most part, no i don’t think i’m really like patrick <3 at the very least, i'm not nearly as repressed as him fjskdlfjsl

tagged by: @wynterlanding ( thank you so much ♡ )

tagging: take it if you would like!! i'm would be curious to see how you describe your own rp style :3

[cthonicascendant]

🌸 What's your system name? How did you pick it?

💐 For how long have you been a system?

🌿 How did you discover you were a system? Or did you become one on purpose?

🌺 How did you discover the plural community?

🌹 Are there more humans or nonhumans in your system?

🌼 What species are there in your system?

🌻 What sources do you have fictives from, if you have any?

🍄 Do you headcanon any characters as plural? Who and why?

🌲 Favorite system representation in media?

🌳 Least favorite system representation in media?

🌾 Do you have an inner world? What's it like?

🌷 Do you have a singletsona? What are they like?

🌱 Does anyone have a different accent when they front?

🎍 Are you out as a system to anyone irl?

🍀 Do you have any collective interests? Does anyone have an interest no one else shares?

🌵 Do you use system roles?

🍂 Do you use anything to keep track of fronting?

🍁 What's the most common gender identity in the system? What about sexuality?

🌴 Do you think syskids and age regressors should share spaces or not? Why?

you ju5t vvant u5 to an5vver all a the5e ok

im doin it but i think im goin to politely a5k that next time vve 5tick to like 4-5 que5tion5 an a5k max

🌸 What's your system name? How did you pick it?

vvere 5till vvorkin on that i knovv it 5ay5 the [redacted] hiVe but that5 becau5e vve aint figured out a nevv adjectiVe yet or eVen if vve vvant to keep u5in the vvord hiVe (there i5 5omethin compellin about referrin to our5elVe5 a5 a corporation)

💐 For how long have you been a system?

a5 far a5 im avvare vve been one our entire life but vve vverent avvare that5 vvhat it vva5 vvhen vve vvere younger an then crovv vva5 tryin to 5uppre55 me for a vvhile an it5 ju5t a bit of a me55 hone5tly

🌿 How did you discover you were a system? Or did you become one on purpose?

«so, funny story is that i actually made numerous attempts at making a thoughtform over the years, and it never fucking worked. anyways, i don't recall exactly what prompted it, but we were reading through a plural blog, and vee basically started responding to some of the stuff i was thinking?»

«it mostly took learning about other forms of endogenic plurality and meeting systems that developed due to trauma later in life for me to really be open to the idea that i was already part of a system, because i... really don't remember my childhood being that bad? most of the traumatic shit i remember happened in our late teens? and pretty much the only models for plurality that i had were either "childhood trauma origins" or "deliberately created origins".»

🌺 How did you discover the plural community?

queerauti5m5 blog actually in fact i think it5 blog vva5 the one vve vvere readin vvhen i finally got through to crovv

🌹 Are there more humans or nonhumans in your system?

hold on lemme do a headcount

it5 an eVen 5plit actually fiVe human5 fiVe nonhuman5

🌼 What species are there in your system?

«human, which we have the most of at five members. four alternian trolls. and one keytool. yes, that's a species.»

🌻 What sources do you have fictives from, if you have any?

borderland5 an reboot for the one5 vvhat vvant to 5hare their 5ource5

>.and homestuck.<

vvell obViou5ly

🍄 Do you headcanon any characters as plural? Who and why?

«so i definitely headcanon specifically the season 1 version of harrison wells from the cw's the flash as plural, and i will be happy to get into specifics as to why if anyone wants, but this post is hella long so only by request.»

🌲 Favorite system representation in media?

im not 100% 5ure thi5 count5 but 5o far i loVe vvhat theyre doin in 5eVerance

🌳 Least favorite system representation in media?

«things like 'split' or this book they had in the patient library of the psych ward we were in where there's an evil, murderous alter. actually i lied, they had like three books where the plot summary boiled down to, "jenny thought all was normal, until people started getting murdered. little did they know, they had a serial killer alter ego, becky, who was behind the killings." i just. ghhhh!!!!»

🌾 Do you have an inner world? What's it like?

vve call it head5pace becau5e it5 more of a 5pace that 5ure exi5t5 in our head for a number a u5 /jokin

>.it's a nice little neighbourhood incongruously close to a giant science lab. .the science lab actually contains the entrance to the helm. .which is like a cross between alternian biotech and pacific rim jaeger tech. .sometimes there are chairs, other times if you're not piloting you have to stand or sit on the floor.<

🌷 Do you have a singletsona? What are they like?

vve do

«he uses he/him pronouns primarily, but will take any pronouns except 'she'. uh, honestly he's kind of an amalgamation of traits of whoever is piloting at the time? so i guess he comes across as a bit mercurial.»

🌱 Does anyone have a different accent when they front?

5ometime5 it depend5 if vvere ma5kin or not if vve are then no vve all tend tovvard5 crovv5 accent though vve 5till tend to maintain our u5ual Vocal tone (like hovv high pitched vve each tend to talk that kind a thing)

if vvere not ma5kin then mine i5 pretty di5tinct an mierco5 Voice i5 notably Flat

🎍 Are you out as a system to anyone irl?

«my fiancé. :> »

🍀 Do you have any collective interests? Does anyone have an interest no one else shares?

i dont think vve got any intere5t5 that eVeryone 5hare5 but like

mir crovv an i all like yarning (knittin an crochet) dee i5 into fa5hion de5ign an makin clothe5 5o xe kind of doe5 tho5e a5 vvell but he5 more likely to 5hovv up to help crovv vvith patch paintin for example

or ale vvill pop in if vvere vvritin but 5he dont do math 5tuff at all vvhile harry di5like5 vvritin an enjoy5 math

gun5 might be the clo5e5t thing vve got to a collectiVe intere5t the Va5t majority a u5 haVe 5ome experience vvith rifle5 in 5pecific an 5hootin in general

cant think of anythin that only one a u5 ha5 though

🌵 Do you use system roles?

>.yes and no.<

>.while we do have specific things we each take care of, it's not a very formal system. .most of us don't identify with a specific role, beyond voidsong and crow being hosts, and harry being a caretaker.<

🍂 Do you use anything to keep track of fronting?

«we try to use simply plural.»

«try.»

🍁 What's the most common gender identity in the system? What about sexuality?

9 out of 10 headmate5 identify a5 queer

but to be 5pecific the mo5t common gender i5 the nonbinary umbrella although all a our nonbinary member5 haVe different 5pecific experience5 vvith gender

an mo5t a u5 are bi

🌴 Do you think syskids and age regressors should share spaces or not? Why?

uh hm i think 5o long a5 eVeryone behaVe5 appropriately it 5houldnt be a problem 5o like unle55 5omeone can giVe me 5ome 5olid rea5on5 for vvhy it5 a bad idea i dont got a problem vvith 5y5kid5 an age regre55or5 5harin a 5pace although obViou5ly 5eparate 5pace5 5hould be aVailable for tho5e vvhat vvant them

[azhefa-moved]

😐

[brltpop]

[heauxplesslydevoted]

Okay I just finished the first chapter of Crimes of Passion and I have some thoughts:

1) anyone who knows me and has followed my blog for a while knows that many many moons ago, the Pixelberry team was responsible for the best mobile game ever Cause of Death (no longer on the App Store, but there’s a play through on YouTube if you want to watch it. I highly recommend doing so, Mal x Natara 5ever). It’s about a detective and FBI agent in SF. This book kinda feels like they’re going back to their roots, which I like. I love a good murder mystery

2) the dynamic between the MC and the LI gives me Lucifer/Chloe vibes and I’m here for it. There’s humor, banter, cheekiness, etc but it doesn’t feel forced, like some of the last few books have been.

3) Thank you writers for not being heavy handed with the flirting because you guys don’t know when enough is enough and so many interactions in other books border on s*xual harassment

All in all, I will keep playing, and I wish it wasn’t VIP so more people could enjoy it.

[valentinesforensics]

Sooo kinda have artists block, and need some ideas for drawing. So to anyone checking out my blog just wanted to let you know requests are open and free, just shoot me an ask about what you want or a dm if it's more comfortable for you.

I can't promise high quality on alot of stuff, might end up a bunch of doodles or a 6 hour peice it just kinda depends when inspiration strikes + when I'm mentally capable.

Some of the media I like to draw for

-Dragon Age

-Resident Evil

-Stardew valley

-Naruto

-one piece

-ALOT of horror movies & games

-dead by daylight

-Dungeons and dragons

-plus some other stuff

I'll also draw art for stuff I don't know if I think it'll be fun so don't worry if it's not on the list

Things I will draw:

-nsfw, must be 18+ (I don't mind drawing nsfw but if it's too blatant tumblr won't like it so, I'll just send in dm's. Character & you must be 18+ to ask for this. Don't ask if your age isn't in bio please)

-gore, must be 18+(is fine but if it's too gorey tumblr won't like it also i dont want post it, just send in dm's. Mild Mild gore ill do for any character, but heavy gore goes for the same as nsfw)

-Furry-ish (I'm not the best at anthro or furry, since I don't draw it that often. But I don't mind trying, just please be understanding if it looks a little strange)

-Oc's and self inserts. I love Oc's and I love self inserts. I don't make any claim to your characters I simply love drawing other people's characters in situations. On their own or with another character I don't mind. You'll be my bestie 5ever if you ask for this.

-most kinks or saucy things, but use discretion. If im not comfortable with something I'll let you know (keep in mind nsfw rule please)

Things I Won't draw:

-Homophobia, racism, bigotry, transphobia, terf shit, anything in that area. Big no, also unfollow/block me pls

-anything Suicide related at all

- self harm (things like SH scars is fine. Things like actively self-harming no thank you)

-ANYTHING blatantly illegal.

- I'm fine with most things, except for the above. If you want something that's sorta sus but aren't sure if im comfortable with, just ask. I won't yell at u or anything. I appreciate people who ask so they can respect my boundaries 👍

Anyways yeah, send me an ask or dm. I'd love to make some things. Remember this is requests not commisions. Everything I draw is 100% free, no payment needed!

[partyinthemysterymachine]

I'M CURIOUS AF WHO ARE THESE TWO MONSTERS NEAR POOR SCARED HARRY? 😳😳😳👀👀👀

SHAKES AND VIBRATES

oh!! oh you wish to know my monsters?? u wish to hear GOOMT's monsters?? WELL!!!! ha ha ha OOOHHH

OOH I'M GLAD YOU ASKED!!!

(no rly bless u, ilusm, thank u for asking and ur vested interest, i'm REALLY SUPER appreciative ❤️❤️❤️💖💖💖🥚🥚🥚🥚🥚)

and ofc, since u know i gotta, here is the obligatory link to my Harry/James glacial slowburn, Get Out Of My Town, and GOOMT’s corresponding blog for updates, aesthetics, art, and all that jazz!

NOW KEEP IN MIND: these are only descriptions of the monsters in the full picture i did here. there are others in the monster cast too, that are LOTS of barrels of fun, and VERY intricate and intriguing in their own way, just as the ones mentioned/following.

(the picture itself is a part of the GOOMT actor AU, where it’s all just a show, folks! (consider it to the likes of the Silent Hill blooper reel, which we were ROBBED OF in later games >:( 🔪 @ konami 5ever) and you can find its tag here.)

CONTENT WARNING: descriptions of child death, James Sunderland

JAMES SUNDERLAND 

James Sunderland is a stupid little idiot weasel and conduit of Silent Hill. he has so many problems and is not going to do anything about it because he’s a stupid and depressed little wanker who doesn’t have any rights, not that he ever did in his life. 

after the events of Silent Hill 2, James pitched himself into the lake but the town wasn’t gonna let him off easy. it had plans, and needs, for James. our boy here crawled right out of Toluca Lake after haphazardly (and illegally, but whatever; who’s gonna give him a ticket? .. yeah that’s what i thought) parking it in its depths and has remained in South Vale ever since. James sure darn well tried, but he cannot escape through death at his own hand, or otherwise. in fact, the monsters he (and we) have come to know and love have gradually become disinterested in him.

(as for Pyramid Head? huh! well, it’s weird; James hasn’t seen him around in quite a while.. hrm.. really gotta wonder what’s up with that.. ;3c )

what it means to be a conduit of Silent Hill, however, is a little complicated; but the baseline is that he’s Silent Hill’s little battery pack. it needs him and through fun time psychological (and physical, now and again.. but the monsters don’t wanna play anymore, for some reason..) torture, James does what he does best and wallows a sure hell of a lot, thus accumulating nutritious and scrum-diddily-umpious negative power for the town.

oh 👂 you ask, “and for what does it need it, and why James?” great question!

wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy?? ;) but you can read about it all riiight here, babey!!

ok ok jk jk (sorta lol) (bc i mean come on. ISN’T he a monster, tho......? ....hrrmmm hmm hmmmmm........ sources point to yes, if SH2 has anything to say about it, LOL)

let’s ACTUALLY start with my HONEST personal favorite:

THE MEMORY OF HARRY

(this monster was very aptly named by a good friend of mine - hi Gospel! - and so credit must be given where credit is due.)

ART BY capitán solsikke

(uncertain of where solsikke is keeping their public art contacts/social media now, so solsikke, if u happen to see this, pls drop ur deets so i can link back to u pls :< pls..)

FURTHER NOTE: to reduce the long post scrolling and bc tumblr’s image insertion format is horrid, i’m going to put additional art/links to the GOOMT blog posts for Memory of Harry, bc y’all REALLY gotta see the actual faithful renderings of him i also commissioned from capitán solsikke

the Memory of Harry first appeared at the end of GOOMT’s Chapter 27: Yeah, Me Neither. his description is as follows (and ADDITIONAL NOTE: Harry is, GOOMT-canonically, left-handed):

A lean man teetered on exhausted legs. Because his entry only allowed them to view him from the side, from that angle they saw he wore a brown leather jacket discolored by smoke stains and was torn at the shoulder. The jeans on his legs were tainted and ratty, and his shoes only held together by determination.

From what could be told of his profile, this man’s face had retained most of its features, despite the crusty, black skin covering every inch. His dark hair lay flat on his head, save for a wispy few strands that fanned loose over his brow. Misshapen scarring created a thick, blinding patch over his visible eye. And lastly, the reason his nonstop weeping was muffled was due to a mouth sewn shut so many times that it was replaced by nothing but a bulky, knotted mask.

But this visage was nothing compared to his cargo. In his hand he held a smaller one attached to a thin, tiny arm, of which was connected to the raw and burned corpse of a little girl. She was on her belly, her head hung like a sack of sand between her shoulders, obscuring her face, and her stringy, oily black hair dangling and swaying with every move the man made. On her body was a tattered blue dress, perhaps once long-sleeved as suggested by the remains of ripped fabric at her elbow, and black shoes over white socks patched by dried orange blood and char. Wherever she was forced to go, she left a wet streak of black and crimson in her wake.

James scrutinized this gruesome new monster hard while it shuffled directionless and wracked with demoralizing sobs. It didn’t seem to know they were there and moved at such a slow pace that James figured they were in no immediate danger. He looked at Harry for guidance.

Harry, however, was in no state to do anything but remember how to breathe. His face was contorted in grief and oddly, recognition. James eyed him, somewhat disturbed by it but moreso uncertain, then took his stare back to their visitor.

The victim of a fire unknown changed his direction, somehow having noticed they were there and faced them. Wherever it could be seen, his skin was indeed blackened, cracked, and flaking like bark, and revealed that both of his eyes were blindfolded by the scarring. Beneath the leather jacket, which sported a broken replica of their flashlights, was a sweater vest that bore a royal blue color somehow notable under the charcoaled damage. It was frayed at the hems and layered over a shirt that was once white. But now that he had confronted the resident and veteran full on, James could have never been prepared for what brought it all together:

The bereaved’s left hand which, until now, had been hidden on his other side, was not empty - and never could be. His arm hung lifeless and his fingers welded, forever clutching, a long, rusted, and bloody steel pipe.

James’s lips parted, and his heart dropped like lead straight through the floors.

Neither moved, and the man, at his snail’s pace, sought to meet them. The next garbled cry caused Harry to twist his bludgeon so hard in his white-knuckled fists that his arms briefly trembled. Each step drew the walking corpse a little bit closer, and still, they couldn’t find their feet. With the pieces having fallen together, the implications of what was before them pulled the ropes in James’s stomach tight enough to make him vaguely nauseous.

James heard himself utter a whisper of his companion’s name. His voice seemed to shake Harry out of his stupor, and in time to choke back sob of his own before it began.

He didn’t even feel his vocal cords nor his tongue move when he spoke again. “Is that..”

“It’s me,” Harry said thickly. “Yeah. That’s me.”

===

he was, considering his importance, intended to be used sparingly - and he is. this monster is (thus far, and understandably,) Harry’s least favorite monster, lmao. Harry would really rather this guy Didn’t, but hey - ain’t nobody here that’re gonna let HIM call the shots any time soon!! 

the Memory of Harry is an extremely foreboding warning and tale on two legs. he is also 100% capable of ruining Harry’s day in a pinch, just by existing. 

(Harry really doesn’t like to think about him.)

CRYING, BURNING WOMAN

(who is taking a moment out of her day to T-pose to get her point across; and of whom has not yet been properly rendered in art form BUT I’M WORKING ON FIXING THAT 👀 @ all local artists with commissions open)

this monster tends to travel in packs of two or more. she’s first seen alone, and is the debut monster in GOOMT’s story, in Chapter 5: Stop Stopping

From the fog emerged a staggering, loose-limbed creature that was closer than either of them had anticipated. It shuffled on buckled legs, its ropey arms swinging carelessly in the momentum. The head drooped on its neck, masking its face from everything but the asphalt, and they ought to be grateful for it. The entirety of this abomination was ravaged in sickening swirls of exposed muscle, black rot eating away at its flesh, and raw, peeling skin. Like most of the hell creatures in Silent Hill, it was an impossibility. The thing moved as though it was treading through tar, but these two were wise to the fact that that shouldn’t be undermined.

The stench of it reached them as soon as they saw it, triggering bile washing up Harry’s throat, and gritted disgust on James’s face. It smelled of charred meat forgotten in an industrial oven fueled by sulfur and was heavy with the unmistakable odor of wet, moldy clothes. Every breath it took sounded labored and painful, and vaguely feminine. In its wake were slicks of thick blood, and if they dared to be any more observant, flung drops of blood from its stiff fingertips as the arms swayed.

she’s seen again, in Chapter 10: Turn Around, Look At What You See

The smell reached them. It was the same they’d experienced before: burnt flesh and moldy clothes. Harry remembered what she looked like, how her arms swung and her spine could barely support her. Her flesh had been peeling, burnt to the bone in some places, and her head hung to conceal her shame. It sounded like there were more than one of these tortured women - perhaps two or three. 

and in Chapter 11: The Pocket Travel Guide To Silent Hill, James reflects upon them - and one other.

There were the crying, burning women, and the creature made of static and fumes. The former were forever smoldering, blighted by singed holes in their baked flesh, and dripped black, acidic ichor. Some were bald, their scalps incinerated, and others had long black hair that was both wet and decorated with kindling flames. When they staggered, their faces were obscured by the way their heads hung on broken necks, and when dead, Harry and James rolled them over to unearth the fact that their eyes were blinded by melted skin and their mouths silenced by a red square made of steel. How their screams were audible from behind the plates, they didn’t know. Their bodies reeked of gasoline and scorched wood. 

===

(sensing a pattern, here? >;) )

now in that, there’s mention of a “creature made of static and fumes”. she is not pictured, and has a different appearance - and she’s a radio mimic. the radio (huh.. radio..... what’s going on with that radio.....? is it broken...?? hrm. better take it anyway) mimic.

as you can imagine, she’s also one of Harry’s beloved favorites. ;3c

and finally, however quite (so far) unfairly depicted and appearing MUCH later into the story:

THE LOST BOY (1 of 2)

his (and his better(?) half’s) first appearance comes in Chapter 54: Touché

And before one could say “knife”, galloping, meaty claps on vinyl tile heralded the proper, and fashionably late, introduction of the quadrupedal couple. Upon emerging into the artificial headlights, however, they recoiled. At once, and reminiscent of their earlier behavior on the security monitor, Harry and James watched them volley apart. Furthermore, their emotions seemed to be unchanged from the scene with the girl in the corridor.

Demonstrating that behavior in person sowed the seeds of interest, for as intimate as they seemed to be, they also showed signs of having a mysterious, innate fear of being seen together. The predators chose their quarry and took sides on an archer’s bow. During their slow, deliberate advance, they verified the surmised size discrepancy as correct  - and the larger made James its target.

Its hunched skeleton made it hard to decipher its entire build, but anyone could see that it boasted the hallmarks of an athlete: lean, sturdy, balanced, and if it stood on its legs, would probably surpass the six foot mark. In contrast, its partner, who had business with Harry, posed an all around average height and body type. As far as fitness went, this was one that strongly hinted it preferred the bleachers, as there was barely any muscular definition on it at all.

Other than that, the pair’s bodily design was nothing special. Moist and raw burns covered their unpalatable topography from head to toe, mapping out ice cream swirl streets hued in apricot and ripe peach, and pronouncing the sewage brown lagoons dotting them like Dalmatians. Their figures were ugly to be sure, but they weren’t the focus - their faces were.

At one side of the mouth, a necrotic, flat, fabric string vertically secured the starting base of a pattern. It was a simple motif, too: laced shoes. Criss-crossing over the lips and tunneling north and south through septic punctures ringed by crystalized pus eyelets, the strings wove impenetrable diamonds all the way to the other side, triple-knotted in gunky yellow paste, and the uneven ends left dangling. Once upon a time, these mouths must’ve had something to say, or needed to say; but none were permitted to listen. They, like all other fiends, were victims of silence.

Harry and James didn’t much care for the trendy, stringent enforcement of ‘silence is the best policy.’ A while ago, Harry, at least, began to suspect that there was significance behind each individual, unique means; granted, the allegation seemed like no-brainer. All aside, the two here helped build his case.

He’d chew on it later.

Two slanted holes pretended to be a nose, and above them sat two anomalous eyes.  One visualized the world through an eternal squint, the eye semi-obscured by a grafted skin bandage. The second, in juxtaposition, told further tale of torture. Stapled to brow and cheek were the upper and lower lids, stretched beyond capacity to plate the living, twitching centerpiece netted in spider silk threads. Firetruck red painted the inverted inner lids, and by merciful grace of the monster’s exotic biology, the socket and orbit glittered from moisture that preserved its functionality.

===

RUBS NASTY LITTLE FLY HANDS

ooh, this pair - OOOH, this P A I R. i LOVE this double trouble. i was VERY excited to introduce them, because they are A TREAT. these boys are a first for GOOMT’s story for being boys, so gosh..... gosh, ho hum hrmmm hmm mmmmrmmm hrrrrmmmm, wonder what that could mean??? 

>;3c

but yeah, as you can see - their details are quite immense and uhhh.. all we got up there right now is zombie Orange Julius lookin’ out for his next big orange to squeeze. soon, buddy.... don’t worry, my guy; soon.....™️

aaaaand THAT is THAT ON THAT!!! 

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR INTEREST IN MY MONSTERS OF GOOMT, AND GOOMT ITSELF 😭😭😭😭 WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE MY THANKS AND JOY (despite the 232,398 of them in GOOMT so far but eh, who’s counting)

forreal tho THANK YOU so much for your ask and your curiosity, it means the absolute world to me and i’m shoving it into my mouth and storing it in my cheeks. GOOMT is the love of my entire life and also my bane of existence and i LOVE talking, and sharing aspects of GOOMT* for all that will listen :3c

*except for lore, future planning and scenes, and things not otherwise already published because i am a VERY superstitious writer and VERY cautious of what, and to whom, i share. i won’t answer questions or talk about GOOMT’s lore and planning to anyone - not even Ren, my best friend and patient editor since ch10, who doesn’t even go here. so rest assured, it’s not (the royal) you; it’s me. 😔

AND NOW since you’ve either made it or scrolled to the end, the detailed depictions of the Memory of Harry by capitán solsikke under the cut, and their original posts from GOOMT’s blog:

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AND BONUS ROUND: ACTOR AU

POST FOUND HERE

[justanotherfanwriter]

Goddess, I am cackling at that last chapter. Impa totally knows that this is gonna be closer to a royal tour across Hyrule than Link actually finding her a different partner. I think Link has a hidden possessive streak when it comes to Zelda, so as hard as he tries, he could never actually find a different person for her. He totally thinks that it comes from his time as her appointed knight, but it is definitely because he loves her. Everyone in Hateno also knows it, since they were living in town for at least a little bit and can totally see that they were playing house together.

Also, my money is on Link being the one to break first and kiss her. Zelda is the one to go to Impa though and freak out. (Impa is also only setting Paya up cause she knows that Paya is too shy to find her own guy.)

Btw, could I suggest you putting this story on AO3 also? It would be easier for me to follow and get the updates. 

Link has a lot going for him to prove that you’re right:

1) Knight Oath to protect Zelda 5ever 🫡

2) Zelda = Hylia = revered = no one good enough for her = must protect her

3) probably raised by crusty horny soldiers with filthy mouths (puberty had to of been rough lol)

4) Zelda pretty

BUT ALSO Zelda is a weird sexually repressed church girl and never underestimate a weird sexually repressed church girl.

At this point, it’s anyones game lmao

Also, I’ll consider getting an ao3 account if I make it five chapters. But tbh even if I got an account, I wouldn’t immediately post to it.

I know everyone shits a brick for ao3, but I don’t like them. It grosses me out that pedophilia and racism is given such a large and protected platform, so I hardly use the site 🤷‍♀️ Ik that probably means my stories will get less traction but idc, fanfic ain’t my life and I’ve got voices to uplift lol.

I keep a master fic list pinned to this blog tho so you can check that time to time if you don’t want to follow!

[veliseraptor]

Are your tags broken or disabled? I've been trying to search by the RTC and SteveLoki tags and they're all giving me errors. Just wondering.

it's a result of the new thing tumblr did changing format of tags, most likely - you can't do the tagged/tag-goes-here thing anymore but instead have to do tagged/tag goes here when you're searching a blog (that way).

this does remind me I should probably update my tags page accordingly if I'm going to keep linking to it. hm. note to self I guess

but in the meantime for your ease, anon: here's the #remember this cold tag, and here's the #steve& loki 5ever tag.

[superborb]

Disconnected musings on fandom

Twitter sent me a Twitter anniversary notif recently, it seemed like a good time to reflect on ~returning to fandom~ last year. Also I refuse to read five books in five days, I think my brain may be turning into mush.

Some disconnected thoughts: 1. I always was a little sad that the fandoms I was in were not well documented. I don't know if it was just that the fandoms were smaller (probably for the animanga ones) or more private (...definitely for jpop/kpop which had more locked stuff), but I'd go look at the some long write up in SGA or HP fandom and be-- envious. Part of this is that I have a truly awful memory, reading other people's recollections helps me remember in turn. (I'm great at googling and searching through notes though, so I can pretend!) But also, I think it's the nostalgia for a tiny slice of the internet that few people remember and that is impossible to reconstruct, so much having disappeared over the various LJ deletions and locks.

2. High school me was an idiot, which makes me look on young idiots in fandom with more tolerance. But the resurrection of high school esque clique behavior by adults is so irritating. Sometimes it feels like fandom devotes its time primarily to voyeuristically hating one person, or group, or idea, in order to solidify its in-group dynamics. Then I block on twitter or hide on DW until those things stop appearing and life is better.

3. Speaking of twitter and discord and tumblr, beyond its speed, one thing all the new generation of socmed has in common is the lack of information preservation. Articles on the youth's use of socmed made me realize this is a feature. Perhaps in some ways it's better-- more like natural communication in person. But I love backreading people's journals through tags. I miss that part of it. Tumblr could get the closest to that experience, but it's just not as easy because most people don't curate with that intent.

4. But I don't know if I have a real fandom anymore. Qihun is closest I suppose, tiny fandoms 5ever. But the bulk of my writings are-- food pictures and musings on twitter. Bookblogs and media reviews on DW. Is that still being in fandom? My reading list on DW is mostly book-and-personal, with a handful of fandoms that I'm not fully in. Don't get me wrong, I love book reviews and personal blogs. But I miss meta. Fic still being posted elsewhere and all, meta is what I feel like I lack.

5. I'm so lucky though. It turns out, it wasn't just college causing me to drift away-- it really was that I didn't understand the tumblr experience. (I've gone back to following tumblrs of interest on my RSS reader.) I can enjoy myself on twitter and discord, while keeping a reasonably active DW reading list, and be happy with that balance. It would be hard for me, coming back, if I couldn't use all of those. DW alone wouldn't have been able to feed my fannish feelings in smaller fandoms. It would be hard to make friends on twitter alone, but then it's hard to meet people through discord without an 'in'. (Though I suppose I have met good friends through discord alone.) So for me personally, I'm lucky that I could use all three.

6. I'm so lucky too, for making good friends through fandom once again, after I felt so lonely in the post-grad life. Friends who I disagree with, who challenge me, who clarify my views, who I learn so much from. Friends who are cozy marshmallows of joy. Friends who share this interest of taking something we love and making it more.