#kazutora hanemiya angst

[skelliko]

kazutora hanemiya |°- is it platonic or romantic?

|°- Baji and chifuyu tried to convince kazu that he's actually in love (good timeline)

normally kazutora wouldn't be the one to get so confused over his feelings about another, normally he'd be seeking the opportunity to be able to feel 'love' and the comfort that's supposed to come with it. but right now this feeling that he's getting is the most prominent and confusing feeling he's ever gotten.

this feeling has grown to be more than uncomfortable, it's tightening around his throat so much that he needs to wrap his hand around the base of his neck, feeling his pulse thumping through the thin layer of skin that's in-between the gap of his collar bones. his stomach feels like an empty cave that holds a singular spider making pointless webs that won't be able to catch anything, and his chest seems to always feel some sort of anguishing heat that could also be mistaken for coldness.

he's not in love. is he? if this is the feeling that people get when they start to like someone then he wishes to erase every form of a sappy, love bullshit. this doesn't feel romantic at all, its agonising.

your perfume fills his nostrils but you're no where near by, it's just him alone almost unable to sit through this aching tightness. it's gotten so bad that he feels like he needs to throw up in order to banish this painful feeling. but he's not going to purge, that'd be an obscure decision to make for himself. but him sitting up on his bed with trembling hands makes it seem that maybe its not a bad attempt.

you're his friend, nothing more. sure he feels like he can listen to you forever while finding your rambling cute. and sure he always feels the need to playfully hold your hand which then causes some laughter about the odd movements you both do. and when you both take unexpected pictures here and there of each other; hes always looking back at the photos he's taken of you longer than a minute whilst smiling at them, seeing your captured smile makes him smile. but there's nothing wrong with thinking or feeling that way about a friend, right? yeah, there's nothing wrong with that.

but the thought of you being with someone else puts his stomach through a repetitive feeling of falling, it's as if kazutora is in a constant state of being pushed off a high ledge. you being with someone else spikes his anxiety high and the need of being with you is always there to distract you from any other potential takers that could snatch you up, take, and keep you away from kazu.

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it wasn't until after a week of this bullshitting that kazutora ended up talking about this odd feeling about you to Baji and chifuyu. chifuyu certainly had the most fun with this little discussion out of the three of them whereas Baji took it a tad bit more seriously knowing that kazutora's feelings shouldn't be taken as a joke.

kazu yapping his heart out about you, mentioning how he feels this and that with you, how it pains him when you're pained and he'd do anything to keep you safe and secure. but also how he feels empty on the inside when thinking about you, how he wishes that time could just stop when your both having a wholesome, heart melting moment because he's afraid that someone will rip kazutora's hand away from your grasp and replace him making neither of your eyes to ever meet again.

"seems like you love her" chifuyu spoke up, he held a little smile and rested his jaw on his palm almost as if he was fascinated when listening to kazu talk about his 'best friend'

"I don't though! I'm just attached to her- or something like that" immediately protesting against the comment whilst waving his hand around at 'whatevet' but opened his mouth again after a second "I think..."

"you think?" chifuyu pestered in hopes of getting kazutora to think more clearly. it's clear that he's yet to understand what he feels right now.

even though Baji became lost in the middle of kazutora's rant cause he kept on going back and forth from feeling happy about you to then feeling almost anguished; the question that was asked next certainly hit kazutora where it pained him the most.

"oi, if you can't tell if it's platonic or more, picture her at her wedding that isn't yours. are you happy for her or do you wish to be the one marrying her?" (idea isnt mine, i got this from a video)

chifuyu looked over at Baji but then immediately moved his eyes over at kazutora to see his reaction "ohhh good one!"

"that's stupid. marriage is a big thing y'know" kazu rolled his eyes over to the side but deep down he was thinking

you at a wedding? he couldn't help but grow angry at the thought of you being off the market for romance. he grew nauseous and sick at just the thought of you being latched onto another person that's not him but he wasn't gonna show that. he doesn't want you to be with someone else but that doesn't mean he wants to date you either, he just wants you all to himself... which thinking back at that now makes it sound really selfish of him. is he even actually capable of romance?

he began to fiddle with the folds of his trousers by his knee whilst sat down on the carpet floor in Baji's room. taking hold of a fold with his pointer finger and thumb and rubbing the fabric together creating some very subtle vibrations against his finger tips as it forcebly brushes against itself. kazutora stayed silent.

"soooo you gonna answer?" - chifuyu

kazu didn't even look up at him, he didn't look up at all since his eyes were just down at this fingers fiddling with his trousers. on the outside he may seem distracted but on the inside he was very much deep in thought, he kept going back and forth on how to verbalise this feeling to then wanting to just shut down, leave and not talk about you or to anyone at all.

but what if the time that he's here, you've already found someone new to talk to, you'll cast Kazutora away and hell never see you again... once that thought popped up he stopped fiddling and it was only then that he made a decision.

"i want her forever. i could love her if it'll mean she stays with me" though as he said this it didn't seem like he was all too happy about it, but he also didn't seem upset by it either. it was as if kazutora found a solution but that said solution seemed to be the only way even tho he hoped there to be more.

"you don't seem too happy about that" baji raising a singular brow

"cause I want to love her but I feel like I'll be unable to"- kazu

"but you just said that you'd love her..." chifuyu mentioned, then silence filled the room for a breif moment, kazutora opened his mouth to speak but before he could make a sound something clicked in Chifuyu's brain "wait don't tell me you're emotionally unavailable! that'd make so much sense but also make things more harder to understand"

"hah?" beyond confused as to what chifuyu is talking about here

"no ignore him tora" Chifuyu looked over at Baji a little offended at the disagreement "you just need a big push, it's clear you want her but i think your not allowing yourself to. your in denial"

"I'm not in 'denial' I know what I feel" kazu protesting even though that's far from the truth,

"and that is?" -baji

silence filled the room again. neither of them have any actual experience with the feeling of love in terms of romance but yet they managed to put kazutora in a corner. because although he's the one who's the closest in getting with or has talked to a girl that makes him flutter; he's the only one who can't understand the feeling of 'love'. it's as if his feelings are behind a blurred window whereas for everyone else it's clear, no matter how hard he squints his eyes to try and see what's behind the window, theres always a possibility that he may think wrongly about the feelings and mix this current feeling for something else. hence why he can't tell if this 'love' is platonic or romantic.

chifuyu broke the silence with a question "would you date her?" to which kazutora responded with a pained and stressed "I don't know" any more of this and he might just get agitated from the amount of strain he has with his emotions

"okay wait let's start off simple" chifuyu waving his hands in front of him to switch up the question. Baji looked over at him a little confused on what he's gonna do or ask but after a few questions in, he understood clearly what game chifuyu is playing.

asking him some basic questions such as, "would you hold her hand?" to which kazu said how you both already do. "would you kiss her?" and with almost no hesitation kazu replied with a yes. "would you text her every day and night?" maybe? it depends "would you tell her that you love her? lets start with platonicly" yes. "would you do something sexual with her" if she's comfortable.

before either chifuyu or Baji could ask another question in hopes of kazu being able to open his mind more, kazutora spoke up and cut their next question off.

these questions went back and forth and over time kazutora knew what Chifuyu was doing, and although some questions seemed to be a little hard to answer at first, he felt almost relieved to answer them because over time he managed to link everything up and be able to unblur the window from before. he finally understood... kinda.

"I'd date her..." but even with saying this out loud it still made his stomach turn, something still wasn't right which made him feel as if something was wrong with what he just claimed, or maybe theres something wrong with him. but he didn't verbalise this feeling.

both Baji and chifuyu smiled at kauz's little statement about wanting to date you, they even exclaimed a few words here and there as if they were proud of him for being able to realise that he generally wants you.

"but I think I'll wait for her to do the first move" kazutora's smile died down a little from before and after stating this their 'little' celebration also died down

"oh c'mon! you went through all this just to not come forward to her?" - chifuyu

"that makes sense" Baji nodding his head but then froze for a second when a thought came up "but what if she never does?" this definitely didn't cause kazu to become relieved, it caused the opposite.

'shit' he thought. there's always that being a possibility. if you never end up making a move on taking the friendship further into it being romantic then he'll never be able to express himself the way he wishes to, he won't be able to cuddle you close to the point where it seems as if your soles would conjoin, he won't be able to feel his face being plastered with your sweet kisses, and he certainly won't be able to call you his.

why is 'love' so frustrating?

"I think you should make your move" Baji suggested making chifuyu to nod his head in agreement. but it only caused kazu to let out a sigh, tired? frustrated? feeling nauseous again? it's all three at the same time.

he knows he can't keep up with this any longer, if for one day he feels fine with you but then the next he feels like he needs to be put in a mental asylum; it'll eventually cause him to break completely, and that's far from what he wants for himself. and then again, what if you love him but only platonicly? even if kazutora secretly is still unsure what he feels, he knows that if you were to make the first move hell agree to whatever words you spew out if it means that you both will get together and be able to do all those comforting, romantic activities.

he buried his face in his hands and mumbled a few curse words to himself which caused Chifuyu and Baji to share an almost apologetic look. "hey, don't beat yourself up! were thinking of the worst case here but what if she's feeling the same way as you" chifuyu spoke up trying to ease some sort of pain, Baji pitched in too "I reckon shes feeling the same way you are"

"forget it, I'll get over her at some point" kazu lifting his head up from his hands and repositioning himself comfortably on the floor. it's like his whole demeanor changed from being all beat up to just brushing it off with a 'whatever' but we all know this is just a facade and he'll eventually break again, hes not that strong in terms of being able to contain his emotions.

 ♡---

as of currently, he's given up on the topic and there's nothing that could make him re-continue the subject. but one day, he'll get his senses knocked back on alert and his eyes will glisten with hearts because his mind had decided that he's sick and tired of this longing feeling which will lead to him confess about his emotions and feelings towards you. it could be months, weeks, days, or of the strain that he has is too much right now it could even be a few hours, but who knows.

if there's one thing that's for sure though, it's that kazutora truly does love her but he's just unfamiliar with the feeling and due to that it's making him freak out. it's like putting a rain forest lizard in a desert and expecting it to immediately adapt, the sudden change in temperature and environment will cause the lizard to be put under too much stress and soon enough it'll flake away into the oblivion. maybe not the best example to use in terms of the end but the beginning is definitely on point.

[rumi-buni]

𝒯𝒽𝑒 𝒲𝑒𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝐹𝒾𝓇𝓈𝓉 𝒦𝒾𝓈𝓈𝑒𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐿𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒢𝑜𝑜𝒹𝒷𝓎𝑒𝓈

Baji (Platonic) x Reader x Kazutora

Word count: 4,203

Synopsis: Despite everything, you're still at his side.

You met Baji Keisuke in the rain. You were 10 years old, dressed in a bright yellow raincoat. Your figure stark against the gloom brought by the summer rain. your matching rain boots covered in mud with a fat frog squirming in your hands. He wore his own raincoat, a shiny firetruck red. His eyes went wide at the sight of the slimy thing in your hands. Before you knew it he was right in front of you, asking to hold the frog. His eagerness startled you causing you to drop the poor creature. The frog was quick to hop away, but you and Baji were quick to run after it. You and Baji spent the rest of the afternoon in the rain, catching frogs and splashing through puddles. The two of you would end up sick the following day, but this was one of your fondest memories of the boy you would come to think of as your brother.

You were 11 when Baji introduced you to his friend. He’d asked you to meet him at a cafe, told you there was someone he wanted you to meet. When you arrived you didn’t expect the nervous-looking boy that was standing in front of you. His appearance didn’t match his demeanor, his permed hair and neck tattoo suggested that he was a delinquent. But the way he couldn’t meet your eyes and fiddled with his fingers made you think otherwise.

“Y/N, this is Kazutora.”

Those 4 words changed the trajectory of your life. Baji was your brother, but Kazutora would become your best friend. The friendship was slow to form in the beginning, for all the shy you were Kazutora seemed to be twice that. This would result in quiet afternoons spent in Baji’s living room, both of you too shy to start a conversation with the other. Instead, the two of you would play a game, stealing glances at each other and trying to look away before you could be caught. It wasn’t until one night where you were sprawled out on the floor of Baji’s bedroom did things change. The three of you had been sharing a bowl of yakisoba in between reading mangas. It was the last bowl in the house. Baji had gotten to the end of the bowl, only one mouthful left. He passed the bowl to Kazutora.

“You can finish it, I don’t want to take the last bite.” Baji said, pressing the bowl into Kazutora’s hands.

Kazutora stared at the bowl for a minute before looking to where you sat, nose buried in a manga.

“Y/N? Do you want the last bite?”

At the sound of your name, you snapped to attention humming in acknowledgment. “Are you sure?”

Kazutora nodded, “I don’t think I can eat anymore, I’m full.” He held the bowl out to you.

You watch him for a minute, giving him a minute to change his mind. But he doesn’t, and for once his amber glass eyes hold your gaze. Your little game forgotten for the moment. You set aside your manga on the floor before taking the bowl from him, slurping up the last of the noodles. When you finish you take the bowl and chopsticks to the kitchen to wash them. Kazutora nearly gave you a heart attack when you turned away from the sink and found him standing behind you.

“Did I scare you?” Kazutora tilts his head curiously, his amber eyes wide. Something you couldn’t put your finger on shifting beneath the surface.

If he hadn’t scared you so bad you might think he was cute looking at you the way he was, like a mischievous cat. “Yeah, you just snuck up on me.”

“Sorry.” Kazutora rubs the back of his neck, his eyes flitting away from yours. “I asked Baji for your number, but he said to ask you myself.”

Kazutora fished around in his pocket for a second before pulling out his phone. A shiny silver flip phone, he holds it out to you. You took the phone and began typing in your number. When you were done you saved it and handed it back to him. Kazutora looked over the number for a moment, as if he was trying to commit those 10 numbers to memory before flipping his phone closed and pocketing it. Baji walked you up to your apartment that night after you said your goodbyes to Kazutora.

“Thank you.” Baji said

You turned away from your front door, abandoning your keys in the lock. “Thank you for what?”

“I don’t know all of the details, but Kazutora doesn’t have a good home life. And he could really use some good friends, so thank you for being so nice to him.”

“You don’t need to say thank you. I’m nice to him because I want to be, and because you’re his friend. I’ll always trust your judgment Keisuke.” You smile at Baji, he returns it with a smirk of his own.

The air was warm in your bedroom. The spring air brought a bit of heat with it, but the breeze from your window was nice. Every one of your hairs was standing on end. Kazutora sits cross-legged on the end of your bed, leaning into you. Your lips less than a hair’s breadth from each other. If you spoke and broke the delicate silence in your room, your lips would touch. You think you wanted them to. It would only be a gentle brush, but still. You’d never been this close to a boy. Breathing each other’s air, barely a centimeter apart. You let your eyes close before leaning in, swallowing up the centimeter separating you. He let out a sound of shock when your lips connected, a squeak. The two of you stayed like that for a moment. Lips pressed together, eyes closed.

Kazutora Hanemiya had been your first kiss, and you had been his. Things changed after that. Toman was formed 2 months later, and Baji and Kazutora started spending less time with you and more time with the gang. So you spent your time at the ice rink, or with Emma.

It was one of those days, the boys were out racing through the streets on their motorbikes. You were at the Sano’s house, hanging out with Emma. The two of you sat on her bedroom floor, fashion magazines and nail polish bottles strewn about the floor.

“Any luck with Draken yet?” You ask.

Emma huffs, frowning at the baby pink polish on her toes. “No, it’s like he doesn’t even know I exist.”

You shake your head, “He’d have to be blind not to notice you.”

“Well maybe he is.” Emma pouts

You giggle at Emma’s antics.

“What about Kazutora?” Emma asks

“What about him?” Your brows knit in confusion

“Do you like him?” Emma tilts her head

You laugh, “Of course I like him, he’s my best friend.”

Emma shakes her head, “No like, do you like him?” She puts extra emphasis on the word ‘like’

You shift to sit cross-legged, “I don’t know. I mean we kissed once, but-”

“You what!” Emma shrieks, Your face flushes hot at her reaction. It was just a kiss.

“We kissed once, it wasn’t a big deal. And it hasn’t happened again.” You speak quickly, looking everywhere but Emma’s face.

“This is crazy! I never thought you would have your first kiss before me.” Emma says.

Later that night Baji drove you home. The city lights flash in your peripheral, and the cool night air wrapping around you. You held onto him tightly as he wove through traffic on his bike. You couldn’t help but think about your conversation with Emma. Did you have feelings for Kazutora? Did the kiss mean anything? Thinking about it made your head hurt, you missed the way things were a few hours ago. Before Emma started asking complicated questions about your uncomplicated relationship with Kazutora. You barely noticed when Baji pulled to a stop in front of your apartment complex. You carefully unwind yourself from Baji’s back and step off the bike.

“Y/N? your acting weird.” Baji narrows his gaze, studying you.

“I’m not, I’m just a little tired.” You undo your helmet, before sitting it on the back of Baji’s bike.

“You really think I’m gonna believe that? You’re my little sister, I know you.” Baji says.

You chew your bottom lip, contemplating whether or not to tell Baji what’s on your mind.

“Y/N.” Baji says impatiently. Your eyes snap up to his.

“Do you think Kazutora likes me?”

The question hangs in the air between the two of you. Baji looks at you in disbelief.

“That’s what you’ve been thinking about?” You nod, looking at the ground.

Baji lets out a huff, looking away from you. “Yeah. He likes you.” Baji says quietly.

Your eyes go wide at this. “Don’t tell him I told you though.” Baji says seriously, “I wasn’t supposed to say anything.”

A warm feeling settles in your chest. It follows you the rest of the night, all the way till you drift off to sleep. You got shy around Kazutora again, now that you knew he liked you things felt different.

It was a rare day, you had Kazutora all to yourself. He’d let you pick where the two of you would spend the day, and you ended up in your family’s apartment—sprawled across your bedroom floor sharing manga like old times. The two of you sat shoulder to shoulder, reading a manga you'd borrowed from Baji and hadn't returned yet. Baji's words still bounced around in your head. Kazutora likes you. Like actually likes you. You steal a glance at him. He’s pretty. you think to yourself. Wide amber eyes, framed by long lashes. A soft pouty mouth, and cheeks still round with baby fat. Kazutora must have felt your eyes on him because now those amber eyes meet yours.

“What is it?” Kazutora cocks his head

You chew your lip, thinking over what you’re about to say. “I like you Kazutora, as more than a friend.”

He’s quiet for a moment, and you can see the gears turning in his head. Then without saying a word, he stands up and leaves. You can hear the front door closing from your bedroom. You texted Kazutora later that night, apologizing for making things weird. He never responds. A week later, you find out what happened, after not hearing from Baji or Emma either. It turns out Kazutora had been sent to a detention center after accidentally murdering Emma’s older brother. You aren’t sure of all the details, but you know that Baji was there when it happened. You missed Shichiro’s funeral.

You’ve been writing and rewriting the same letter for a week now. Baji told you at the beginning of the week that he was going to visit Kazutora this weekend, he asked if there was anything you wanted him to give Kazutora. Now you find yourself in front of a toy shop, a stuffed tiger staring back at you from the window. Maybe this stuffed tiger could tell Kazutora what you couldn’t. You walked back home with the little tiger tucked under your arm. Baji met you outside of the apartment complex.

“Is that for him?” Baji asks motioning to the tiger tucked under your arm, you hum in response handing over the tiger plushy. Baji holds the toy, turning it over in his hands.

“I’ll tell him you said ‘hi’.” Baji says, looking down at the tiger in his hands

“Thanks,” You say softly, you turn and head towards your building before Baji can respond.

You weren’t expecting anyone. You were finishing your homework when you heard the knocking, you glanced at the clock on your desk 11:34 PM. It was probably Baji, needing help with his homework. The banging echoed through your apartment as you made your way to the front door. You yank the door open, halting the incessant banging. You were shocked to be met with Kazutora’s amber glass eyes. It had been 2 years since you’d seen him, but you never thought about how much he would change in those 2 years. He’s grown he’s a whole head taller than you now, and his hair has grown out. The black locks streaked with yellow.

“Kazutora?”

You’d barely uttered his name before his arms were wrapped around you. You stumbled a step back into the genkan. Kazutora squeezed you, burying his face in your hair.

“What are you doing here?” Your voice is muffled against his chest.

“I wanted to see you.” Kazutora lets go of you, taking a step back to look at you. You let Kazutora in, and lead him into the living room. You can’t help but wonder if he’s noticing the things that changed in your home since he’s been gone. Kazutora settles into the corner of your couch, it’s the same spot he used to sit in before he left. You settle opposite him, bringing your legs up to sit cross-legged. You look at Kazutora, and suddenly you’re 11 again and you’re too nervous to make eye contact with him. It was quiet for a while, neither of you saying anything. Kazutora was the first to break the silence.

“I kept it. The tiger toy.” Kazutora meets your eyes, his gaze is unsteady. The amber glass of his eyes seems cloudy tonight. “It reminded me of you while I was gone.”

“I’m glad you liked it. I was going to write you a letter but I couldn't find the right words.” You say shrugging

Kazutora nods quietly, in what you assume to be understanding but his gaze is distant. He's staring past you. Then his phone rings, its bubbly chime bringing him back to the present. Kazutora fumbles around for his phone for a moment before pulling it from his pocket. He doesn't even look at the caller ID before answering it.

“Hello? Yeah. Oh ok, I'll be there soon.” You listen curiously to Kazutora's side of the phone call before he snaps his phone shut and stands up from the couch.

“I have to go.” Kazutora says rubbing the back of his neck.

“It's ok, it's getting late anyway.” You fish your own phone out of your pocket. The time on the display reads 12:38 pm.

You walk Kazutora to the door. Leaning against the wall with your arms wrapped around yourself, you watch while he puts his shoes back on. Tugging on a clean pair of white sneakers.

“It was good seeing you Kazutora.” You say as he finishes tying his laces.

“You too,” Kazutora stands up straight, brushing his hair out of his eyes “I promise I'll text you soon.” Kazutora doesn't look back when he leaves your apartment. Part of you wishes he did.

It had been a week since Kazutora showed up at your front door, and you hadn’t heard from him since. You almost think you imagined him. You sit on the floor in Baji’s living room now, watching Kayo Suspense Gekijyo. Ryoko was in the kitchen washing the dishes from dinner, and shouting about Baji starting the episode without her. Baji was sitting cross-legged, as close to the television as humanly possible. He and Chifuyu were completely absorbed in the show, but you haven’t been able to figure out what’s going on since the episode started. The sound of your text tone startles all of you, Chifuyu visibly jumps.

“I thought I said no phones.” Baji grumbles, shooting you a dirty look over his shoulder.

“Sorry,” You say sheepishly, you stand and head into Baji’s room to check your phone.

You flip your phone open to a message from Kazutora. He still has the same number.

‘R U bzy 2nite?’

‘Yes @ baji’s’ You reply. Your phone pings again with another message

‘ Ride wit me?’

Before you could respond, the door opens. Baji stands in the doorway, frowning at you.

“Who are you texting?” Baji asks, he steps into the room closing the door behind him. You look back down at your phone. You and Baji haven’t talked about Kazutora in over a year.

“Did you know Kazutora was back?” You ask looking up at him.

“Yeah.” Baji sighs, “I saw him the day he got out.”

You frown, “Why didn’t you say anything? You know how close we were.”

“Because he isn’t the same Y/N. Shinichiro’s death changed him, and his time in prison didn’t help.” Baji says. The air in the room feels tense.

“I know he’s changed. We all have, we’re older now.” You try to reason.

“Kazutora is unstable Y/N. I don’t know what he’s capable of anymore.” Baji raises his voice at you. You flinch away at the volume “I don’t want you getting caught up in something you shouldn’t be in the middle of.”

You look away from Baji, you feel like you’ve been sucker punched. “So what? You want me to stop talking to him?”

Baji sighs, raking a hand through his hair “I’m sorry Y/N but it’s for the best.”

Baji leaves the room, closing the door behind him. You look down at your phone screen, reading over Kazutora’s message again.

‘Take a ride with me?’

Not tonight Kazutora. You flip your phone closed.

It’s been two weeks since you’d talked to Kazutora. It’s been 3 days since you’d heard from Baji. The last time you saw Baji he told you that he would be busy for a little while. You didn’t think that meant he wouldn’t respond to any of your texts. You were grateful for Chifuyu, who’d begun texting you daily to check on you. Talking to Chifuyu made you feel a little less alone.

When you did see Baji again it was a shock. You were on your way to the nearby convenience store to buy some snacks when you and Baji ran into each other in the apartment breezeway. He was no longer wearing his Toman uniform. Instead, he wore a white bomber jacket, a headless angel embroidered on the front of it.

“It’s been a while.” You say awkwardly

Baji looks away, “What happened to your Toman uniform?” You ask

Baji frowns, “I left.”

“What? Why? You love Toman,” You hope Baji is joking, but the way he looks at you tells you he isn’t

“Look Y/N it’s better if you just mind your own business alright.” Baji pushes past you, up to stairs to his apartment.

It didn’t make any sense. Why would Baji leave Toman and join another gang when he literally helped create Toman? You wracked your brain for the answer to this question the rest of the night. The next morning wasn’t much better. Instead of your usual ‘good morning’ text from Chifuyu, you had a message from him asking if you had any first aid ointment. Half an hour later, you find out why. Chifuyu had been beaten nearly beyond recognition. Cuts and bruises littered his skin, and the skin around his left eye was bruised purple. He winced every time you dabbed the ointment on a cut.

“Who did this to you?” You ask frowning, clutching the tube of ointment in one hand and a cotton swab in the other.

Chifuyu is quiet when he responds, “Baji.”

Your brows knit together in confusion. Why would Baji beat his close friend and second-in-command to a bloody pulp? Nothing is making sense right now.

“Chifuyu what the hell is going on?” Your words come out as a growl, Chifuyu’s eyes snap to yours and he flinches under the intensity of your glare.

“It’s gang stuff, and I can’t really talk about it.” Chifuyu tries to explain. Your glare doesn’t let up. “All I can say is there’s going to be a fight. A big one.”

A stone dropped in your stomach at Chifuyu’s words. This wouldn’t be the first time Baji or Chifuyu would be involved in a gang fight, but something about this time felt different.

“When?” you can’t meet Chifuyu’s eyes when you ask

“Halloween.” Chifuyu says softly

You’re quiet as you finish patching Chifuyu up.

47, You’ve sent Baji Keisuke 47 messages since he beat Chifuyu bloody. And he hasn’t responded to a single one of them. You’ve even resorted to stopping by his house, hoping you could talk some sense into him. Somehow he’s never home when you stop by. You’ve asked his mom to have him call you, but he never does. A stone of anxiety seems to have made a permanent home in your stomach. It wore you down so much that you called Kazutora. You reached his voice mail, the automated system.

‘Hi Kazutora, I'm sorry I didn't text you back.’ You took a deep breath ‘I'm really worried about everyone right now. Baji said you weren't yourself, and I haven't heard from him in weeks now.’ Tears welled up in your eyes, the stress of the last few weeks getting to you ‘I don't know what's going on. I-I just want everyone to be ok. Please call me when you hear this.’ You take a shaky breath, using the back of your hand to scrub away the tears tracking their way down your cheeks.

On Halloween morning you woke up to a text message.

From Baji Keisuke: ‘I’m sorry. I’ll make it up to you soon.’

You frowned at the message. You hadn’t seen or heard from him in weeks, and this is all he says to you. Nothing was making sense anymore.

‘You can make it up to me with yakisoba and manga.’ You reply. You don’t hear from anyone the rest of the day.

Later that evening you were walking home from the convenience store, two bags weighing down your arms. Ahead of you, you noticed a familiar head of blond hair.

“Chifuyu?” You call out.

He turns at the sound of your voice. You drop the bags you were holding at the sight of him. The front of his Toman uniform was stained with blood, his eyes were swollen and red too. You met him where he stood, your bags forgotten on the sidewalk.

“What happened? Are you hurt?” You speak quickly, scanning Chifuyu for the source of the blood. Chifuyu puts his hands on your shoulders, his grip firm.

“I’m so sorry Y/N,” Chifuyu’s voice cracks as fresh tears well in his eyes.

Your brows knit in confusion, “Chifuyu, what happened?” Panic creeps into your voice

Chifuyu bites his bottom lip holding back a sob, “Baji.” He chokes out.

In an instant, all of the air leaves your lungs. You see Chifuyu’s mouth moving, tears streaming down his face but you can’t make out anything he’s saying. Your ears are ringing, and your chest hurts. This isn’t real.

You wake choking, a sob caught in your throat. You heave a gasp, struggling for breath as a sob wracks your body. Sitting up in bed, you claw at your throat, as if you could pull the sob choking you from your airway. You feel the bed shift beneath you, and arms come to wrap around your waist.

“It was just a dream.” he mumbles, shifting to sit up “I’m here, you’re ok.” He strokes his thumb over your waist, a comforting motion.

“Was it Baji?” Kazutora’s amber eyes find yours in the darkness of your shared room, a look of guilt weighing down his features.

You frown, taking a deep breath before shaking your head. “No, the movie we watched earlier scared me.”

Kazutora searches your face for a moment, before nodding and holding you tighter “No more horror movies before bed.” He whispers. Kazutora rolls over, pulling the covers back around himself.

When Kazutora came home 2 years ago he’d changed. He had started a therapy program and began taking medication to manage his mental state. He was trying to be a better person, to live a better life despite the mistakes he made. So when he apologized, sat on the floor of Chifuyu’s living room long after midnight, you forgave him. And a year later, when he asked you out you said yes for that little girl who gave him her first kiss one spring afternoon so many years ago. You said yes. And yet sometimes you still find yourself wondering how different things could have been. If Baji had stayed with Toman, if Kazutora had been different, if Mikey had been a better leader. You forgave Kazutora for the choices he made in his childhood, but as much as you wanted to you couldn’t forgive him for taking your brother from you. But on nights like this, when the memories bang against the walls of your mind demanding attention, and the nightmares leave you struggling for breath. You can’t bring yourself to tell him that he’s the cause.

You take a deep breath, wiping the stray tears from your cheeks. You shift down in bed, pulling the covers to your chest. You look over to Kazutora, his dark figure mere inches away. His breathing deep and steady. Despite all of the pain he’s caused you, you could never bring yourself to leave. He’s all you have left.

[arlerts-angel]

REMEMBERING SUNDAY — k. hanemiya

determined to show kazutora what love really is, the two of you become surprisingly close... but one day, kazutora disappears without a word.

💛 note: heed the warnings. it is not my intention to romanticize dv in any way, shape, or form. if this is triggering for you - skip this one and i'll see you next time <3 this fic is my first contribution to the fics for gaza initiative! thank you @reiners-milkbiddies for the donation and i hope you love it. 🫶 @ficsforgaza

⚠️ warnings: dark content. allusions to dv (kazutora's dad) | brief mention of murder x2 | hurt no comfort | canon-adjacent | gender neutral + physically ambiguous reader

if you asked kazutora what love was a couple of years ago, his answer would've been his fist in your face.

that's what he learned from his father.

you were determined to show his broken soul what real, true love was.

every day.

you pissed him off every day in the first year. so much so, that you learned how to take a punch.

slowly, but surely, kazutora started feeling remorse for his actions. he realized he didn't like hurting you when all you did was show him compassion.

it was a hard realization for him; that you were a lot like his mother, who only ever loved him, and his father, even when it hurt her.

you quickly became his solace. kazutora would start using different coping mechanisms until he learned not to be violent in the name of love.

some days were harder for kazutora, and he'd need some time alone. "healing isn't linear," you told him, "i'm here when you're ready."

he started going to your house instead of his every day - it became his home away from hell.

he'd tell you all about this new gang he founded with a few of his buddies. he knew you didn't like it, but always assured you that it was good, and it was good for him.

a couple years passed and the two of you grew together, as did your feelings. you never addressed it. the way your relationship was, there was no need to. you were happy. he was happy. "if it's not broke, don't fix it" type of thing.

he held your hand every day to and from school. he'd walk you home even if he had a meeting with the gang.

he'd go over to your house and stay as long as he could on sunday's until your parents said it was time for him to go home. he'd kiss your forehead in secret and say "i'll see you in the morning".

but one monday morning, kazutora didn't show up to your house.

he didn't walk you to school and he didn't walk you home.

you heard through the grapevine all day that he went to juvie for third degree murder.

your parents explained to you what they saw on the news. kazutora had, in fact, been sent to juvenile detention for killing his friend's brother.

kazutora...? no... not my 'tora.

the only people allowed to call or visit were his immediate family.

you didn't see him for two years.

you didn't hear from him for two years.

two agonizing years.

at your locker, you heard a jingle. soft, yet loud enough to grab your attention. it came from someone's earring. he had a thousand-yard stare, as if he'd been through the trenches. his face seemed familiar.

kazutora?

he looked at you only for a second, and in that second you swore the life returned to his eyes.

maybe he didn't forget...

he blinked, and his eyes were lifeless again. he muttered to himself and carried on - he never looked back.

kazutora wanted nothing more than to hold you and cry. it pained him to walk away from you, deep down.

i don't have time... must kill mikey...

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[haihaihaitani]

Habit of Breaking My Heart ~ *Kazutora Hanemiya*

Summary: He's alway breaking your heart, even though you still love him. You decide you can't take it anymore, which just breaks your heart even more...

Pairing: Kazutora Hanemiya X G/N!Reader

Genre: Angstyish Oneshot

Word Count: 1216

Warning: crying, potential break up, hurt to comfort

Masterlist

Taglist: @soulangel​

Kazutora had this horrible habit of breaking your heart. 

Every time you would go over to see him, he would ignore you and tell you to leave almost immediately. He wouldn’t even look you in the eye anymore. And as much as it hurt, you couldn’t bring yourself to leave him. He was too important to you, even if he couldn’t see it for himself.

“You’re back.” Chifuyu said, surprised to see you back at the apartment he shared with Kazutora and Keisuke.

You nodded. “I am. But I can’t stay for long.”

“Kazutora’s not here.” Keisuke added as he saw you, earning an elbow in the ribs from Chifuyu.

Your breath hitched, but you acted like it didn’t as you nodded again. “That’s fine. Can I still talk to the two of you?”

Chifuyu nodded and led you to the couch. “That's fine. You look like you have something you want to talk about anyways.”

As Keisuke and Chifuyu sat, you continued to stand, shifting your weight from foot to foot. You really didn't want to have this conversation with your friends. But it needed to be done.

Keisuke gave you an encouraging smile. “So what brings you back here, huh? Here to plead for Toma to return your love?”

"Kei, I swear." Chifuyu snapped through gritted teeth. "If the next words out of your mouth aren't an apology, I will kick you out of here so fast. Don't think I'm bluffing."

"Sorry, Y/n."

You gave him a sad smile. You'd normally punch him in the shoulder for saying something so nasty, but you were already depressed from the message you were about to give them. His teasing couldn’t hurt you anymore than you were already hurting.

“I’m moving away. You will never see me again.”

Keisuke's small pout from being berated by Chifuyu was replaced with shock. “Really? Why? Where are you going? Why can't we see you anymore?”

"Y/n, please, tell us this isn't true!" Chifuyu added.

You shook your head, avoiding eye contact. “It's true. I wouldn't lie about something like this. Besides, I can’t stay here anymore. Where my place in the world is, I don’t know. But I’ll find it, I’m sure.”

"Please don't go!" Keisuke begged, dropping to his knees in front of you and shaking his clasped hands in front of you. "I thought we were your friends!"

"You are my friends!" You assured him. "It's just, I really can't stay here. There's no place for me here anymore. I need to forge a new path on my own."

"This doesn't have anything to do with the other roommate, does it?" Chifuyu asked carefully.

Your breath hitched again and tears pricked your eyes. But you wouldn't cry. You refused to cry over him again.

"It's better this way." You tried to explain. "I need to start over, on my own. I need to be away from any reminder of my past. I'm truly sorry."

“YOU’RE MOVING?!”

The shout coming from the bedrooms in the back of the apartment made you gasp. You then whirled around to Keisuke. "You said Kazutora wasn’t here!”

He bit his lip and looked away. “I lied. Besides, it’s not like he wanted to see you anyways.”

Chifuyu pursed his lips before saying, “You both have a lot to talk about. We’ll leave you alone. Come on, Keisuke.”

“But but but!” He whined.

“Now!”

“Fine. Don’t break anything.”

As they left, Kazutora grabbed you by the shoulders tightly. You swallowed your cry and kept your gaze anywhere but his face. “Why are you moving? Why are you leaving everything from your past behind? Why are you leaving ME behind?”

“I can’t stay where I’m not wanted.” You tried to explain, but he wasn’t listening.

“You’re so selfish! You’re turning your back on your family and your friends! You’re the worst kind of person I’ve ever met!” He spat with such venom, the tears began to roll down your cheeks.

“I’m selfish?” You shot back, as the tears finally started to fall. Though you wanted to stop, reign your emotions back in, you knew you couldn't. He finally needed to hear everything you've been bottling in ever since he decided to abandon you. “Kazutora, you are the one who can’t even look me in the eye because I remind you of your past! I know you’ll never admit it, but you believe I’m one of the reasons for all of the troubles in your past with Mikey and that gang. You blame everyone for what happened back then, not realizing you're pushing people away in the process. You’re destroying yourself over something no one could control. I hate watching you do this to yourself. So I’m leaving, because I can’t do this anymore.”

There was a long pause and Kazutora’s harsh, bruising grip on your shoulders loosened. However he didn’t let you go. You understood why. Deep down, you always knew that he felt the same way you did and that if he let you go, you would slip away from him forever. So you didn’t move. You couldn’t, because you didn’t want to slip away either.

“I-” His voice was strangled, as if he was trying not to cry. “I don’t know what to say.”

You nodded, your heart heavy in your chest. “I understand. I’ll go now.”

“No.”

The sureness in his voice made you freeze. You finally looked at Kazutora to see him looking at the ground. Angry tears were flowing down his cheeks and dripping onto the floor, but he looked so determined and focused. When he looked at you, he sniffed before continuing.

“I can’t let you leave. Please, don’t leave me.” His voice shook but he pressed on. “I have been the worst person to you because I couldn’t accept how things ended back then with the gang. I still can’t, but I know now that it is not your fault. I cannot promise to be perfect, but I can say that I will strive to do better, for you. You’re the most important thing in my life right now and I can’t lose you too. So please, I beg of you, don’t leave me.”

Now it was your turn not to know what to say. Everything you’ve wanted to hear from him just tumbled out of his mouth. And despite his words, you did have a choice. You could go and leave him behind, keeping the two of you broken for the rest of your lives. Or you could stay and try to repair the broken bond between you.

The choice was clear.

With tears in your eyes, you held him close and pressed your face into the crook of his neck. “I can’t leave you. I didn’t want to in the first place. I just couldn’t live with seeing you so broken. I can’t break you anymore than you are. My heart won’t let me.”

He held you equally as tight and you could feel his tears. “I promise not to hurt you anymore than I already have. I promise to try and do better. We’ll get through this together, somehow. I know now you’re what I need to get through this. I need no one else but you.”

“I love you Kazutora.”

“I love you, too.”

[dzvelinaskebiyars]

Emma died thinking Draken didn't love her back.

Izana wanted to shape Mikey into Shinichiro but he ended up shaping Mikey into himself.

Kakucho lost his beloved people twice-his parents and Izana-and both times, he was the only one who survived.

Izana doesn't have a grave because he has no family and relatives. Kakucho probably doesn't know where Izana REALLY is buried.

Mikey and Kazutora end up destroying something they loved the most.

Ryusei had to watch Kojiro getting physically and domestically abused and unable to do anything.

Baji stabbed himself because he didn't want Kazutora to blame himself and Mikey to kill Kazutora but forgive him.

In the manga, Izana's last words were "I'm beyond saving, huh?" but in the anime his last word was "Emma.."

Money in Japan is "Okane" but is heard as "Akane". Hence, everytime Koko mentions money, it feels like he's mentioning Akane. "I've always lived for MONEY" he said. But it sounded as "I've always lived for Akane."

Kazutora was having breakdowns in the juvie. He would be screaming, sweating and trembling while completely zoning out and disconnected from reality.

Even if Kazutora shifted blame to Mikey, he was still feeling horrible guilt.

Draken told Kazutora that he was one of his, still part of his crew, but then we see Draken saying that he wanted to kill Kazutora.

Kazutora's hair went white because of the stress and trauma in juvie, that's why he dyed his hair blonde.

[sh1nch1r0]

𝖐_𝖊𝖎𝖘𝖚𝖐𝖊 𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖉 𝖋𝖔𝖑𝖑𝖔𝖜𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖚

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Baji x Reader

U have a crush on Baji and u find his insta stuff like that…

(ur best friend and u have matching insta names u are called Geto and ur Besties is Gojo)

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„Do you think thats really him?“ u questione ur Best Friend.

„OMG just request himmm“she says annoyed and tries to take the perfect picture of her parfait.

„U can request him first then i do it“u plead.

„No,thats against the girls girl code“she says and smiles at you.

„Fine…but if anything goes wrong i blame u“u add.

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U make ur way home from ur meet up.

Ur headphones were on and u were listening to ur Favorite Playlist as u heard a notification trough ur ear buds.

•K_eisuke accepted ur request

U clicked at the Banner and his instagram Account pops up.

He has a couple of pictures of cats and his friends in his feed and two story highlights.U look at the highlights they were nothing special either cats or some pictures of his friends with bikes.

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„Did u follow her back???“ Chifuyu asks.

„NO.“ Baji says and looks at the Blonde.

„Whyyyy…..u i tought u like her“he says confused amd Baji gives him a annoyed look.

„Fuyu,shut it…..shes ugly and not my type“the black haired says and looks away.

„HUH do u listen to urself man?“his friend questions him.

„At first u cant stop speaking about her and now u call her ugly…Baji….are u sick?“ this earns him a gentle punch from Baji and so he shuts up.

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It was 00:56 and u were scrooling trough instagram,as u refresh the site u see Baji posted a story.

•K_eisuke mentioned draken_,the.realmikey,and fuyu.matsuno in his story

u click the like button and u see another notification pop onto ur screen.Ur friend mentioned u in her story twice.

•g0joo. has mentioned you in her Story

•Caption:@Get_0 always asleep🫡😀

•U reposted this Story

•U added the Caption 🫥🥱🖕🏻

U swipe to the Second story of her and u see a picture of urself.

•g0joo. has mentioned u in her story

•Caption @Get_0 „DELETE IT I LOOK UGLYYYY“

•U reposted the Story

•Caption DELETE THAT 👽🥹😀

And with that u turn or phone off,u plug in the charger and u get out of bed to do ur skincare,as u return u see a new notification on ur screen.

•K_eisuke has requested to follow you

•U accepted his follow request

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„Watcha Lookin at“Baji screams at Chifuyu as they wait for the Traffic light to turn green.

„Just looking at her Insatgram Account“Chifuyu says louder so Baji could hear him over the roaring of the Engined.

„Lemme see“he says and tries to catch a glimpse.

„Follow her yourself u prick“Chifuyu answeres.

Baji just rolls his eyes takes out his phone and clicks on the follow back button on your profile.As he puts his phone back into his pocket the traffic light turns green.

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The Night Air was cold and u couldn’t sleep so u stalk his instagram posts and the newest one catches ur eye.

•K_eisuke has mentioned fuyu.matsuno

•Caption 🐈‍⬛Pussy

•fuyu.matsuno has commented When will u get Real Pussy?!

•U liked fuyu.matunos comment

The picture of him was hot,Baji was quiet popular amongst girls but u heard that only a few ladies were accepted in his Instagram Account.

And u are one of them.👹

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•Get_0 posted and mentioned g0joo.

•Caption My Personal Sleep Paralysis Demon🥹😬

•g0joo commented 😀do i need to save u

•fuyu matsuno liked this post

•k_eisuke liked this post

•k_eisuke commented Did u try giving him ur soul?🐈‍⬛

„See u have a crush on her“Fuyu says beside him

„I do…fuck.“he says quietly.

„Talk to her or text her“the dumb blonde suggests.

„Type Hey or…no type Did u get rid of ur Sleep paralysis demon?…text that“ Baji hates when his Friend tries to set him up but this time he follows his idea.

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•One unread message for get_0

K_eisuke: Did u get rid of ur Sleep paralysis demon?

get_0:Sadly yes he jumped of my bed and left😔

K_eisuke:Thats Bad i am on my way to ur house to save u,is the Demon still in ur house?

get_0:Yes hes making noise in the Hallway

K_eisuke:Will save u:)

get_0:🥹💕

K_eisuke:🩷

2 Minutes pass

K_eisuke:I am outside.Wheres the Demon?

K_eisuke:I expect a Kiss in return for saving u💕😑

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[paroslineage]

THINGS I THINK THE :

MAFIA!TOKYO REVENGERS BOYS WILL DO FOR YOU.

TW : Gore, Description of Torture, Killing, and Reader death, female reader, Mafia themes, gun violence, shooting, blood.

All boys are aged up don't come at me.

All characters except reader belong to Ken Wakui i do not own them.

Don't steal my idea or I'll hunt you down :D.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Context:

Y/N L/N the wife of the most dangerous Mafioso in the of Tokyo having an undettering face of cold ruthlessness and having a uninterested facade is only sweet for his lovely darling YOU.

But...

What happens if the mafia organizations having grudge on your husband go after the unsuspecting sweet little bunny of the dangerous mob boss.

YOU.

Scenario:

"My sweet darling! I'm home and I brought your favorite choco chip pastry from the bakery!"

"Why is it dark honey?" He chuckles

He turns on the light and what he sees makes his blood run horribly cold.

The entire mansion was ransacked.

The table broken, cabinets upturned and His darling's favourite flower vase shattered.

He drops the box and runs frantically up the stairs pulling out his gun for the the holster to the both of your shared grand bedroom.

He breaks down the door and what he sees makes him turn unhinged.

His darling... Laying on the center of the bed fully bled out.

Five holes on the chest, three in the temple and four in the stomach and two in your abdomen.

But your eyes were stuck open, the life in them drained a long time ago.

He walks over to you, eerily silent kneels on the bed his eyes trembling and hands fiercely cradling you to his chest and he buried your cold little face into the crook of his neck.

"I'm so sorry for being late my dove, forgive this asshole."

"I'll take revenge for you my dove just you see."

"I'll murder those son of bitches and feed their bones to the wolves I swear on your life darling."

He kisses your forehead looking into the empty void of your eyes and closes them by his hand his tears running down his anguished face.

His eyes frantically and disturbingly wide not even once blinking looking into your dead ones...

As he caressed your hair on tenderly kissing you on the forehead right where the bullet mark was present...

God did his heart hurt.

His lips trembled as he spoke but not the words..

They were spoken loudly and fully finalized...

TOKYO REVENGERS BOYS WHO :

♡ Would be the one to hunt down your murderer

And brutally and ferally slaughter that bastard

That includes.

Gouging their eyeballs, Their brains from their noses, waterboarding them till their last seconds of consciousness, Skinning them alive, flaying them, dipping them in acid.

And lastly shooting them exactly the number of times and the precise location that monster shot you.

Which totals to 14 times.

And then fed them to the wolves of and burning the bones.

"Revenge taken my little dove... Just as I promised."

He whispered quietly to no one as he smoked a cigarette and looked up at the night sky full of stars shining brightly than usual.

With tears dripping endlessly down his emotionless visage.

"I see you looking after and smiling at me darling keep doing that."

He exhaled his smoke through his nose smiling painfully.

"Because soon I'll be joining you up there my love..."

Characters : HANMA , KISAKI , Izana, Kakucho, Ran, KAZUTORA, Rindou, Mikey, Draken, Baji, Mitsuya, SANZU SANZU SANZU.

[starkura]

late at night | kazutora hanemiya

gn reader

“kazu- tora?” you call out. it seemed like kazutora just returned home. it was the middle of the night, why was he home so late? in the dark there was light beaming through the window, you could see kazutora trying to climb into your shared bed. you sit up and rub your eyes. “why are you still up? it’s like- the middle of the night.” you asked. kazutora breathes out and sighed quietly. “i just got back home, it’s nothing. don’t worry about it.” he said shortly. in the light coming from the moon, you noticed bandaids that covered his face. it looked like he got into a bad fight. “did something happen tora?” you tried to pry. you move over to him take a closer look at his face. you touch over the bandaids that covered his face. you look at kazutora very concerningly. “did you get into a fight?” you asked. kazutora sighed. “i just- got into a fight with a friend. ‘m fine.” kazutora told you. “i already patched myself up so, don’t bother.” he added. your hands cupped his face in worry. kazutora seemed very avoidant in telling you what really happened in detail. you rather not pry no more. he seemed to gone through enough for tonight. you lay back down and motioned him to lay next to you. you both are on sides facing each other. you wrap your arms around him and soothe him. “it’s alright, you don’t have to tell me. i’m just- worried about you, tora.” you tell him. “sometimes, i worry that you won’t come home. i know that you are strong and capable of yourself. but, you know, it scares me.” you added. kazutora breathes out, closing his eyes then opening them once more. “i’m sorry. i don’t mean to make you worry. i’ll try my best to come home early to not worry you, okay?” he says. “okay, thank you. i love you tora, goodnight.” you say. “love you too. goodnight.” kazutora said.

[usagikookiejams]

AFTERMATH OF THE BREAKUP

Haitani Ran, Ryuguji Ken (Draken), Hanemiya Kazutora, Haruchiyo Sanzu

Warning: angst no comfort, cheating, NOT PROOFREAD, cursing, mentioned about abusive relationship, drug usage, harsh words

Haitani Ran

It has been 3 months since your relationship with Ran ended in a bad term. Deciding to move from Roppongi to Okinawa to avoid meeting up with him again.

Unbeknownst to you, a guy was following behind while you're doing grocery shopping. After failed attempts to reach the product in the higher rack, suddenly a guy was helping you out.

"Thank you so much-," you were left silent after seeing that the guy was actually your ex; Ran. He looks handsome as always. But, you could see the obvious eyebag.

"How you doing?," he smiled, trying to start a conversation with you but, you just ignored him and pushed your cart forward.

He didn't stop pestering you, until you has had enough and slapped his face. "Don't you feel ashamed? Showing your face after you cheated on me with that 'work-wife' of yours?!," you glared at him.

He explained that he was drunk at that time. However, he paused his words after seeing the disgusted look in your face.

"I couldn't bear looking at you. It reminds me how stupid I am to trust you. Hah, my friends were right about you; you indeed couldn't keep your dick in your pants," you smirked and walked away.

Ran felt like his world started to collapse. Witnessing your hostile behaviour towards him has proven how you don't wanna get back with him no matter what.

Ryuguji Ken (Draken)

You and Draken started dating after 3 years of Emma's death. Motivating him daily has led to him starting to open his heart to you.

But things weren't always nice and easy. It indeed was very hard for someone to move on from his past lover.

That's why, after only about 2 years of dating, you decided to broke things off with Draken after you has had enough of him comparing you with Emma.

Emma this, Emma that; you were tired of hearing his complaints.

Though he looked like he didn't care back then, but why is he always reaching out to you now?

He looks so desperate trying to win you back. Showing his effort by buying you flowers every week, which ended up disposed in the dustbin at your office.

Today remains the same routine of his. But you decided to give him your piece of mind once you saw him walking towards the receptionist counter.

You dragged him outside the building where your co-workers couldn't see you. "Can you stop all this nonsense?," you sighed.

"But baby-," he couldn't finish his words when you suddenly took the flowers and placed it on his motorbike.

"I am not your baby, and I don't need your flowers. Why not giving them to Emma, considering she may need them more to decorate her grave?," you couldn't help but saying deep and harsh words.

There, Draken was left heartbroken. He realized how all of his action of comparing you and Emma has led to you hating both of them.

Oh lord, how he wish you would care for him one more time.

Hanemiya Kazutora

Being in a relationship with Kazutora was challenging, he always scold you for things that are even miniscule; blaming you for it. Thus, you decided it was best to separate with him, as he tend to get physical with you.

Visiting the hospital for how many times now, that you don't even remember; getting psychology treatment to treat your mental health from past abusive relationship.

You were busy listening to music that you didn't notice that you has bumped into someone. The person sighed in annoyance, that is, when you heard your name being called in shocked tone, "Y/N?."

You frozed in place, looking up at the person. Oh, it's Kazutora. You got up and said sorry as quickly as possible before getting away.

You felt your hand being pulled, and you couldn't help but flinch. "Hey, hey sweetheart, it's okay. I won't hurt you." You still your position, didn't dare to look at the man who had inflicted pain upon you before.

Kazutora felt a pang of hurt in his heart, looking at how you're terrified of him. He felt tears running down his cheeks, profusely saying sorry while saying he missed you so much and how his mental health is declining.

You looked at him dead in the eyes. Though feeling scared but you tried to stood your ground. "Yeah? And what about me? What about all the things that you said, and pain that you inflicted on me before huh? Answer me Hanemiya," you said in heavy tone.

Kazutora didn't like how you're saying his first name. It was always Kazu or baby; anything but Hanemiya. Nevertheless, he tried to reason with you how he never intended to do those things, saying that he wasn't in the right state of mind.

You scoffed and warned him how if he still loves you, he should just leave you alone. Kazutora was about to say something but you dismissed him, and just walk forward leaving your past behind.

After that encounter, Kazutora still trying to reach out to you by visiting you at home or workplace. That is until one day, he was forced to stop his action once knowing that you has moved to another country with no one knowing your whereabouts.

Haruchiyo Sanzu

Dating Sanzu was never a boring experience. He's wild and loves to party, which at last causing you to not being able to keep up with his behavior.

Lucky for you, the break up was easy as Sanzu too thinks that you're too boring, and always acting like a 'nagging bitch'. Thus, deciding to also let you go.

Despite the break up only took place less than a month ago, you're suprisingly doing great as you are now start to prioritize yourself. Spending time to learn new hobby; that is photography.

Currently you're in the park, capturing panoramas and birds that flew over the horizon. Click! You went to check the picture but noticed a familiar pink hair in the photo.

The pink-haired-person looked over his shoulder as he heard the clicking sound. He couldn't believe his eyes when seeing you, thus started to run towards you, "Y/N!."

"Oh shoot..," you whispered to yourself and started walking faster. Albeit he was fast enough to grab your shoulder. "Baby, how you been? I wasn't able to contact you for a month. Did you change your contact number?," the person said.

"So what if I did, Sanzu?," you put on confident look. "It's not like we're going to contact each other anymore, is it?," you continued.

"But-," Sanzu was about to speak but you just shook your head. "I wish to never meet you again. Now that I look back, I realized how dumb I am to love some maniac like you. You didn't even consider my feelings, always gaslighting me and even calling me names. So don't be suprised when I decided to move on from you," you scoffed and walked away without looking back.

At that moment, Sanzu knew he fucked up real bad by messing up the relationship you guys had before.

Later on, he started to indulge himself in more drugs, as it's the only way he could be free from the hurting feelings.

[butim4you]

This is only my second time writing. English is not my first language, so there might be some wrongs here and there. It is not proff read :,) There might stand my real name instead of Y/n sometimes, sorry!

(My requests are open, please feel free to ask:) <3)

Kazutora x reader but also Baji x reader. (Angst)

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As you take your first steps out of the airport you hear people calling your name.

You had been living with your mother and just got back to japan.

a short male with long blonde hair leads the group off boys you known since you were a kid your way.

You smile when you see them….its been so long since you saw them…your friends.

The small blonde greets you with a smile he had ran before the others when his eyes had landed on you.

“Hi, Mikey..”

Your smile grows, your finally back..

The other males of the group approach and You look at them one after another.

A tall blonde with both sides of his head shaved and a dragon tattoo on his temple.

His hair is tied back into a braid, last time you saw him it was a tiny ponytail.

Hes draken.

The man beside him has long black silky hair, That cant be the same black short hair he had once could it?

His iconic smirk is on display and his fangs are showing.

He leans against the wall that we are standing by and he stares at you with his beautiful eyes.

He has lots of necklaces and even one you gave him back in the day.

His shirt is from a band you two used to love together, you even went to one of their concerts when they came to tokyo.

It's baji.

Then a male that is on drakens other side has lilac hair and eyes.

His hair is very short and almost a tiny bit buzzed.

The sun shines on his erring that he only has on one ear.

The guy who helped you when you accidentally fuck up your clothes, he fixes them for you.

Poor mitsuya, He spent so much time on those clothes.

Then of course your close friends, The hairballs Nahoya and souya.

But..?

Who's this guy with yellow flabby hair?

She raises her glasses to set them on top of her head.

The guy looks nervous and Confused.

beside him is another short dude who also has dirty blonde hair but with a darker color under his hair.

Baji takes her glasses, putting them on himself, surprising her in the process.

“Why are you only greeting Mikey, Eh? How rude of you.”

She chuckles and puts her hand on her waist.

“I'm not going to greet you when you steal my glasses, dude.”

Draken sighs at how they are behaving.

"Ah, come on Y/N/N. We all know you have three pairs more in your bag.”

The way Mikey says it makes it sound like he knows everything about you.

Mitsuya laughs a little with a kind smile.

Baji Snickers at that and Puts his arm around your shoulder to steady himself on you.

The guy with yellow hair accidentally speaks

“Y/N/N…?”

Everyone looks at him.

She Smiles as he panics because everyone is looking at him.

"That's just a stupid nickname Mikey gave me, My name is Y/N. Who are you?”

“Ah! That's takemitchy! My new friend!”

The Takemitchy or whatever his name was smiles nervously.

She Leans back a little into the arm that baji still has around her neck.

Looking over at the other guy beside ´Takemitchy´ Who looks unbothered.

“You must be Chifuyu, am I right? Baji sent a picture of you when we were discussing friends.”

Chifuyu Gets a little surprised and holds back a smile to look cool.

He gave a quick nod and crossed his arms.

“Well, I'm exhausted. You guys came here on your bikes or did you walk?”

Baji pushes off her shoulder to stand straight.

He grabs one of her bags and carries it behind his back over his shoulder.

he grabs another, throwing it over to Draken who catches it.

“Hey careful there's important stu-”

“We came on the bikes stupid, so we gotta split your bags.”

He walks over to the bikes.

“Smiley, take the bag I'm carrying. She's riding with me.”

Y/N throws her hands up.

“Hell yeah!”

The boy called takemitchy turns to chifuyu with a confused face

Chifuyu runs up to baji by the bikes.

“But, Then who am I riding with? I dont have one yet and I came here with you?”

Baji looks at him and shrugs then hands Nahoya the bag he's carrying.

He doesn't really look like he cares like he usually looks like.

In the end he ended up on the back of souyas bike with an annoyed face.

Takemitchi is very confused by this situation.

Naoto said nothing about a girl named Y/N.

This Woman was a mystery…

He didn't want to be weird and ask questions though…

He was even more confused when he noticed that they were at Mikey's house..?

“Uhm…Mikey? Why are we at your house?”

Takemitchi said with a confused stare.

He looks over at baji who's helping Y/N off his bike.

“Oh, well Y/N is gonna stay at my house until Her dad gets back from work.”

Mikey smiles as he parks his bike.

The twins wave their goodbyes and leave, leaving The seven alone.

The place Y/N’s things inside mikey's room and then Takemichi makes up the courage to finally ask.

“who uhm..? Who are you now again?”

Y/N looks over at him with her small smile.

“Y/N”

She gives a simple answer and he feels embarrassed for making the question seem like that amd when he hears Mitsuyas and bajis small laughs.

Mitsuya pats Takemichis shoulder and sits down beside him.

“Y/N is an old friend, she moved to Another country with her mom some years ago. That's why we met her at the airport.”

Takemichi nods slowly, finally understanding the situation.

That explains why Mikey got so happy when they met her earlier.

Though..? if it was years ago they met her, why did they act so chill like that?

Well Mikey did act chill the first time they met too so maybe it's not that weird.

Baji grabs his phone and scrolls through his camera roll.

He grins and shows Takemichi and Chifuyu an old picture of Y/N.

“That's Y/N the last time we saw her.”

He chuckles with his classic grin.

She had A very ruined and messy braid instead of let out hair.

She had red scars and Looked beat up, But still made a funny face for the picture.

Baji scrolls again and shows a video of her dancing in what Takemichi and chifuyu guesses is her room.

Its a very Fast song and it sounds like Rock.

Baji was the one filming but then Mitsuya goes over with a soda and baji gives him the camera and joins her.

Their headbanging and laughing lots.

“Don't show that! It's embarrassing!”

Y/N Says and tries to grab bajis phone but he laughs and holds it out of her reach.

His other hand holds on her shoulder to hold her off.

“No way! its hilarious!”

He laughs.

Draken shakes his head in disappointment and chifuyu gets ahold of his phone.

“But wait? that looks nothing like her though..? and why is she so beat up in the first picture?”

Y/N who is still tackling with baji looks up.

“I mean how would you know that you picked up the right girl?”

Chifuyu continuous but Y/N Cuts him off as she sits up straight.

“Which girl would willingly go with some random guy who looks like they're in a gang?”

Now Chifuyu got embarrassed slightly.

“but..? What about the scars on your face?”

Baji whos now laying on the ground, leaning his face against his hand and his elbow on the ground speaks up.

“Shes one of tomans founders with us. Actually The reason Draken hates Fighting with women is cause He accidently pushed Y/N too hard once and She fell over onto the road in tokyo. I was there too.”

Chifuyu and Takemichi were surprised at that.

“Wait? i thought that it was because he respect them a lot and cause he promised emm-”

“Promised what?”

Emma cuts him off as she walks into Mikey's room with tea.

“Oh! I thought I heard your voice Y/N. I missed you!”

She puts down the tea drag Y/N with her to the real house.

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Mitsuya Holds his tea and looks at baji.

“Baji, you seemed to act like you see her every day when you met her earlier? What's it been? 3 years? Do you still-”

Baji cuts him off and his grin falls.

“No. No i don't."

Mitsuya nods and Draken stands up.

“Im going to go check on those two, ill be back.”

He then walks out of the garage that is called mikey's room towards the main building.

Mikey then says.

“Y/N doesn't know about kazutora right? Should we tell her? I Mean since Y’know..?”

Mitsuya Sighs a bit, A takes a deep breath and smiles.

“Let's let her be happy for a little while longer, yeah?”

Takemichi leans forward, steadying his elbows on his knees. Who's kazutora now again?

“Kazutora is coming out soon anyways.”

Baji announced still not smiling.

“Still, Y/Ns gonna freak out if she knows hes been locked in without her knowing.”

Mitsuya nods slowly and sips the tea. Mikey did have a point.

"I still suggest we let her be happy. Atleast for a small bit. And if Kazutora is comming out soon then its all Okay right? Plus If she asks why we never told her we could just say she never asked."

Takemitchi tilts his head, and chifuyu copies his movements. Chifuyu had heard from baji about Kazutora before but both males wondered what Y/N had to do with him?

"Who is Kazutora and what does Y/N have to do with him?"

Takemitchi finally asked as his chin rested in his hands. He was so confused about this situation.

"Kazutora is an old founder of toman and a dear friend of ours. Y/N and him was a couple before she moved and they never broke up. Kazutora did something horrible after she left though..and now he's in juvie. He gets out this year though.."

Mitsuya explains setting the tea down softly. Takemichi looks at Mitsuya as he talks and nods.

"What did Kazutora do?"

Mitusya looks at Mikey as if asking if he can tell or not...Mikey looks up at Takemichi.

"He killed someone. Someone very dear to me."

Takemichi's eyes widen and so does Chifuyus. Did Y/N know about this? Probably not..?

"Of course he was very affected by Marias move and really missed her. What he did cannot be blamed on sadness but I believe it was a part of it."

Mitsuya smiles a little as he talks to make the tension lift. Takemichi nods again. Y/N used to be a member off Toman...Tomans only girl too. If Y/N now is back that means she will be a part again right?

"Hey..? Now that Y/N is back does that mean she will join toman again..?"

They all look at him. Baji nods and Mikey shrugs.

"It's her choice, of course."

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Y/N's Dad got off work pretty quickly And Baji Drove her over. Miley and takemichi followed along for fun and Takemichi's jaw almost dropped.

Y/N had a mansion..!? Her house was huge...Was she rich? Damn.

"Thanks for dropping me off guys, I'll see you tommorow?"

Baji grins and Mikey nods.

"Yeah! Baji can pick you up tommorow and we can Hang out."

She smiles brightly at that.

"Okay! It's been a while since I saw the shrine too."

Baji ruffles her hair and chuckles.

"You can come along to the next toman meeting if you Want."

She looks at him surprised But really happy.

"Really!?"

Baji nods and She squeals and jumps a little.

"Thanks! Gotta go now, I'll see you guys tommorow yeah?"

The three guys nodded and waves her goodbye. Takemichi then taps Mikeys shoulder.

"Is she like...Rich?"

Mikey laughs and baji snickers. Mikey looks back at him from his shoulder.

"Yeah? She is, so?"

Takemitchi quickly became defensive.

"N-nothing! I was just surprised.."

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Kazutoras pov:

I got realized a week ago. I've set my plan to end mikey into game. I'm now a part of valhalla...

I'm walking down the alley to see Draken in the big tunnel. What could he possible need to tell me? Probably not to go against Mikey. But that's to late.

"Draken."

I say and my earring jingles with my every step. Draken looks at me with the same face as always.

"Kazutora."

Draken takes a breath before continuing.

"Kazutora, If your planing to go against Mikey then-"

I cut him off with a slight chuckles and I smile.

"Im not planing anything. I'm doing it."

Drakens game darkens and he looks to the side. His braid sways with the wind.

"Y/N is back."

That's all he said, and my smile drops as I hear those words. Is she back? Y/N... He must be lying. I dont believe him and now my mood is ruined. Draken then continues.

"Would you really try to kill him when the woman you love is in town..? How would she see you?"

I bit the inside of my cheek and I feel my anger boiling.

"Shut up..."

A turn to leave and draken calls after me.

"Mikey would give you another chance if you would take it."

I ignore him and continue walking. Was Y/N actually back? No way. Don't fall for his tricks Kazutora. I say to myself.

"Goddammit.."

I walk back to the place I hang out, I dont really own the place. It's abandoned enough for me to stay in.

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Back to normal:

You had been hanging out with The guys for about a week now.

You knew Kazutora was missing, but you didn't ask...You didn't want to pry or anything.

Then baji started distancing himself from mikey and the others.

He still hung out with you but not the others..?

You were hanging out with baji in your room, simply listening to music and just vibing.

Talking about everything and anything.

"Hey baji?"

You say and look at him, he's sitting on the end of your bed with a soft smile. You smile back and bajis heart flutters.

"Mhm yeah?"

He answers and pets your dog who's also laying on your bed.

"Whats happening between you and the guys?"

You tits your head and he looks down at the dog.

"Its complicated. I'm switching gang to valhalla. But its all good. Kazutora is on that side so why can't I?"

Your eyes widen slightly and Your head is straight again. Did he just say Kazutora? Finally someone talks about him...but wait what? Hes in another gang..? Since when?

"Wait kazu is in another gang..? Since when?"

Baji sighs, he doesnt want to be the one who tell you all this. You can feel your heart beating faster.

What had happend to Kazutora..? Sure he never tried to contact you like the others but you didnt think anything had happend.

Baji started to explain everything for you, Word after word gave you another shock. Kazutora had been in juvie? No matter how much you asked baji didnt tell you why. Your heart pounded so loud...This was a really big shock...

"He just got our and now he's in a gang called valhalla."

Baji said calmly as he pets your dog, not meeting your gaze, it was desperate...Of course you still love Kazutora...Why wouldnt you be? Its not like You ever lost those feelings.

"Wait so...Your leaving toman to be in a gang with Kazutora cause he did something and just got out of juvie? Why cant he just join toman again?"

You were confused. This made no sense.

"Thats somewhat on the right track. Kazutora chose not to join toman again...Some stuff happend, alright? Stop asking so much. The less you know the better it is."

You feel the bed shift as Baji gets of the bed. He didnt want to tell you too much, he didn't want this to affect you in anyway possible...He looks back at you.

"Im going, see you."

You scramble to get off the bed too. Your dog reacting with a jolt and looks around confused since it was so cuddled up.

"What? Why?"

Grabs his bag and carrying it over his shoulder.

"Gotta get home, before my mom gets mad. You know ill never hear the end of it otherwise."

You nod slowly and understand his point. Then you remember something and hurries over to your desk. You open a drawer and dig around in it. You got what you searched for and held it up.

"Whats that?"

Baji says, He didnt mean for it to come out like he was annoyed. He was never annoyed with you.

"A necklace, duh."

You walk up to him and hands it to him. He feels the cold metal of the necklace against his warm palm.

"Give this to kazu will you?"

He frowns but nods, how annoying. It's a necklace with a symbol on it for good luck... He puts it in his pocket and gives you a small wave then leaves.

You really hope Kazutora gets your gift...Does he even know your back? Probably not.

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Baji,s pov:

I held the necklace in my hand as I sit on my bed in my room.

Im annoyed. Im irritated. Why does she still love him...And not me..? Of course im happy for their love but im not.. I wanna burn the necklace...what if I just...dont give it to him?

He probably wont believe that its from her. Goddammit...Why is it so complicated to give him something from her?

I let out a long sigh and close my hand around the necklace. I lay down and and stare up at my ceiling.

What's wrong with me?

The next day I meet up with Kazutora again. I have to do this...Kazutora smiles as he sees me.

"Bajii"

I grin to hide my emotions and A small nod as a 'wassup'

"Yo, Kazutora."

Kazutora chuckles and we lean on the railing. Then I remember the necklace....Shit..I take a breath and reach down in my pocket. I hold it out and push it against his chest.

"Here."

Kazutora's eyes widen and he tilts his head.

"You got me a necklace?"

He asks confused, He didnt look very fond of it.

"What? No, Its from Y/n. Not me."

I freeze when I see Kazutora Grabs it and throws it as far as he can. The necklace is gone..just like that? I'm shocked as fuck but I hide it behind a bored face.

"Hm, guess you didn't like it."

I try to act calm and like I dont care when I actually do. Kazutora turns his head to me and I can see in his eyes that he's annoyed.

"Y/n isn't back. Stop trying to make it seem that way. It's annoying."

Now it's my turn to tilts my head and raise my eyebrow.

"What?"

Kazutora looks in the direction he threw the Necklace. How he wanted to believe that you were back, he truly did. But not once in three years did he receive a letter or anything. She just moved...and that was betrayal to him.

"She's not here. she's not coming back either."

I have to hold back a laugh at that. What is this nonsense he's talking about.

"Whatever you say, man."

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Your pov again:

Your walking down the street when you see the two boys you seen with your friends when they picked you up from the airport.

You walk over to them, The boy you remember as chifuyu has bruises and lots of bandages. The other guy who you remember as 'takemitchy' looked shaken up and he has bruised knuckles.

Well by this you got the wrong idea...

"Hey! Takemitchy was it? The hell did you do to him?"

Takemitchy turns to see you with An umbrella, it's raining a bit. He got Confused and looks around.

"Y/n?"

Chifuyu asks also confused.

"Why do you both look confused? Did you hit chifuyu Eh?"

Now your getting irritated, who beats up their own friends? Chifuyu then understands and starts laughing.

"You thought Takemitchy beat me up?"

Takemitchys eyes widen and he starts to understand.

"Nah this guy can't beat up anyone, well except this tire that's supposed to be a swing not a punching bag."

Chifuyu clears, He leans back a bit and Takemitchy looks offended then embarrassed.

"Wait so...? Who beat you up?"

Chifuyu looks off to the side, Clearly unsure about telling you.

"Baji-kun did."

Takemitchy says with ease. Chifuyu refuses to look at them. You don't really believe that. From your view they seemed kinda close.

"No way. I thought baji and you were close..? Why would he-"

Chifuyu cut you off, He looks at you and smiles.

"Dont worry, baji San only did it cause he needed to get in to Valhalla. He didnt mean it, plus I believe he has a plan."

You tilt your head to the side, What the actual fuck are they talking about? Baji had a plan? Plan for what? What's going on?

"A plan for what? What plan? Did I miss something?"

This was all so confusing. What was chifuyu talking about? And why did baji even go into the rival gang? Its not like him...

Takemitchi looks just as awkward and confused as you. He didnt really know what Chifuyu was talking about but he knew mikey said he would kill him if he didnt get baji back (He obviously wouldnt)

"Well..."

Chifuyu and takemitchi shared a stare. If Chifuyu was gonna explain this he would have to explain it in a way that didnt give Takemitchi off as a timeleeper.

What if he just said that kisaki gave him bad vibes? Would that pass? This was giving him a headache, and not only from getting beat up earlier.

"I think baji did it to go against kisaki. Kisaki is giving off a bad vibe and-"

He tried to make it sound like a good enough reason while still not giving away to much info. You werent supposed to be in this mess. Now that the two think about it, they shouldnt have told you at all. But you cut off their train of thoughts.

"Are you sure? Because baji told me it was cause Kazutora was back in town. Baji and kazu were very close back then. So its not a surprise."

You shrug, not finding the situation that bad. Sure, it's a little weird, but not that bad. Baji was acting protective of the information about why and other things. But he had the right to have his secrets. Chifuyu nods, feeling confident.

"Im sure! Me and takemitchi can talk to him before the war"

He didn't even think that he just gave you free info. The war between valhalla and toman...? Why would he change teams just a while before the war?

"War...?"

Part two???

[skelliko]

|°- kazutora's the last piece

a/n: just something random with minor angst I had thought of

kazutora is starting to feel like the last piece of cake in the relationship that he's in. or maybe it's just his mind spinning and turning buttons in his brain to make him over think.

a cake is laid out on a table, it's shared but everyone cuts their own slice, meaning it's not equal enough. slice by slice the cake is cut, someone has more slices than the other and someone has a bigger piece than the one next to them, it's on going until there's one slice left. all the uneven and wonky slicing in wanting the best part of the cake left a broken down slice to last. a slice that is knocked over on its side from how thin it got, the frosting is no longer sturdy and if you were to pick it up, the frosting would stick to the current plate instead.

the only person that would want the last slice is someone that didn't get enough or someone that feels bad about wasting food, or maybe both.

hence why kazutora feels like the last slice of cake and you're the one that had picked him up. not because you wanted to, but because you had to.

does he think he's worthy of your love? no. but will he stop crumbling and put his mistakes that he couldn't control on top of yours? also no.

not to mention that the last piece of cake also doesn't taste as good as the other slices. a lot of the time you'd think that the last bite would be the best but instead it's actually not. are you starting to feel that way towards him? take a singular bite out of the last slice and put it back down upon realising why it's the last? or will you endure it until there's no more left and then sigh out a relief once it's finally over?

he didn't have a good upbringing, neither did that specific part of the cake that made it to be the last bit since by the time the icing went around the top it had started to run out, the baking process made that particular area go wonky too and get neglected. that slice was destined to be neglected the same way kazutora was.

would you do that to him? despite him being fully mature at 27 there's still a heart with the mentality of a child inside of him begging to gain a weight of security that he rarely got at a young age, mentally he's scared like a little kid that's afraid to get lost and you're the one that hes afraid to lose.

the seeds of the fruit from the cake will stick to your teeth the same way kazutora is starting to become more clingy towards you. wondering what's changed with him and why is he acting so different compared to the past. he's grown sweet but it's starting to become sickening from the amount, all you can do about that is to stop it but how could you when it's still so tempting?

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[aritsukemo]

Insecurity | Kazutora H.

Character: Kazutora Hanemiya

A/N: Baby needs a hug and I'm willing to give him one.

The moon shone brightly. It's luminescent rays shining down on the earth and slipping through the crack of the black curtains, creating a singular light that illuminates the bed in a similar fashion. Aside from this, the room is mostly shrouded in darkness, hiding the lush furniture in its shadows. Among this dimness, a phone shines brightly, it's reflection burning it's shape into sandy-colored eyes as a callous fingertip swipes endlessly at the screen..

"( Stage Name )'s outfit looked amazing tonight! 😍"

"Who's the dude with them?"

↳ "I think it's their partner."

"No wonder they've kept their love life a secret for so long. If my man looked like that, I would've too."

"He looks like something out of a horror movie fr fr."

"I'm sorry but I can't imagine her dating someone who looks like that. I really hope they aren't together. ( Stage Name ) deserves so much better. 😭"

Comment after comment flies past as they're read swiftly. Although a lot of tweets and comments focused on you and the outfit that you wore to the movie premiere the night prior, most were about the man that walked hand-in-hand beside you, nervously smiling at the abundance of cameras that were in his face that night—almost all comments made being negative.

"He looks like a drug dealer."

"Whoever made his outfit should be fired on the spot."

"Why did they let him outta the house lookin' like that? Did this to themselves tbh."

"He looks like he'd be the type to beat his wife every night when he comes home from work. Lowkey worried."

Despite this, he couldn't stop scrolling. Maybe it was the hope that he'd find a tweet that defended him or tweet that didn't comment on his tired eyes or vibrant hair or the fact that there was a faint stain on the corner of his shirt that was likely from the food that he hurriedly ate with you in the car that night just before you arrived.

"What's with the long face, 'tora?" He jumps. He hadn't even noticed you enter the room but as he peeled his eyes away from his phone screen, he wish he did sooner. There you stood before him, no makeup, hair wet and sticking to the corners of your face, an oversized shirt—his shirt specifically—clinging to your dampen skin and just barely highlighting your curves, and your legs bare for all to see. It was an intoxicating sight.

One that makes a part of him feel tremendous guilt and embarrassment the more he stares at you.

"It's nothing.." He mumbles out hastily after a while and to his dismay, you frown disapprovingly at him.

"You're lying. What's wrong?" You slide onto the bed and turn, his shirt riding up your thigh and revealing the shorts that hide beneath it as you scoot closer to him and attempt to peer at his screen. Kazutora notices just a tad too late and ends up shutting off his phone entirely. Unfortunately, you had already managed to catch a glimpse at a comment or two before the screen went black and it causes you to sigh.

"Pay them no mind. Everything they say is bullshit."

"Is that really true though?" This time, he's the one to sigh, "One comment--"

"They aren't true." And the tone of your voice alone manages to silence him immediately. The assertive, matter-of-fact tone left no room for talk back or any kind of verbal refutation and although he couldn't say it, his face spoke volumes of how much he disagreed with your statement.

"They hate me." He says after a while.

"Twitter hates everyone," You reply, "People on there would literally shit on the sky being blue if people'll listen."

'Yeah, but what they're saying about me isn't exactly wrong.." He stares down at his phone, almost cringing at the sight of his own reflection staring back at him, "I managed to embarrass you without even saying anything.."

"I don't think you embarrassed me." You retort immediately, "You looked great yesterday and said nothing that upset me."

"They think otherwise.." He mumbles dejectedly. He turns his phone back on but only has the chance to briefly read part of another tweet talking about his tattoo before you take his phone away from him.

"Who cares what they think?" You lightly toss his phone aside, "No matter what they say, it'll only be a shallow opinion at the end of the day. They know nothing about you, Kazutora, but I do. So please.."

Cupping his face, your eyes manage to find each other and lock despite the darkness that clouds your vision. You gaze at him. Hoping that the love you feel for him—and have felt for him for years now—would somehow make itself clear to him if you continued to stare. Alas, all you ended up doing was stare at him with scrunched brows for a little longer than necessary..

"..Believe me when I say this, 'Tora. You're beautiful both inside and out and I'm so incredibly happy that I can show you off to everyone and will continue to do so if you let me. I'm not ashamed at all about dating you and never will be. And do you know why? Because I'm hopelessly in love with you."

No more then a few moments pass before a tear finally slips and a small hiccup escapes him. Like a dam ready to burst, his body trembles and as you finally pull him up and your arms envelop him, he breaks down completely in your loving embrace. And you let him, smiling sadly as the love of your life crumbles before you.

Dividers were made by me, pictures used are from Pinterest, post formatting is inspired by @xxsabitoxx

[gratuiciel]

bad toman timeline + text posts

[dzvelinaskebiyars]

There's no way a fanart can ruin your day-

Oh.

[sh1nch1r0]

𝕱𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖘

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Chifuyu x Reader

U could not longer hide the feelings u had for him and he needs to know that,otherwise u will break under the whole stress

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The parking lot was dimly lit,the only real light source were the lights of the many Bikes of the Tokyo Manji Gangs members.

The Parking lot and the Park were connected by two paths both leading into it.

U knew Chifuyu and the Gang were always here on Fridays holding meetings or just chilling and like every Friday he was there,standing in between his friends talking and laughing u watched him from afar.

The feelings that u had from him were keeping u up at night ur body could not rest and so did ur mind too every cell in ur body was tense cause telling him how u felt was long overdue.

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U walked down the path leading onto the parking,as u came closer u caught the attention of some guys that eyed u up and down,but the first person to notice u was Fuyu.

„HEY….what are u doing here at this time u should be in bed by now“he days and approaches u.

„Chifuyu…we need to talk“u say in a serious tone and u take his hand to pull him with u.

„Did…did i do something wrong…i…“he stutters as u pull him away from the prying eyes of his Gamg members.

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U stop after the Men were out of ur sight and u let of his hand.

„Tell me what do you…..“He starts but u cut him off.

„We can’t be friends anymore“u blurt out,u see Chifuyus face drop.

„I-What did i do wrong i…am so sorry i“his voice breaks and he stops speaking.

„Because i wanna be more than just friends“ his eyes meet urs quickly after u said that.

Was this real do you feel like him…was this a bad dream or is this real life Chifuyus thoughts were racing.

“Chifuyu please say something” ur voice rips him out of his overthinking and he quickly takes ur hand into his.

“I-i feel the same way-“and these were the only words u needed to hear from him.

Ur lips crash into his lips it was all of a sudden but it feels so right,cause u waited so long for this for his confession for him.

His Hands pull u closer into the kiss and ur Arms find their way into his neck.

The kiss was not only out of love but also out of the Lust that was buried deep inside of both of us.

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U break of the kiss and look into his eyes.

“U don’t know how much i needed this”Chifuyu whispers and he lays his forehead against urs.

“I love u so much”u whisper and he smiles a bit.

But ur moment was disturbed by the voices calling for ur lover.

“I need to go back hmm”he hums and lets go of u.

“We have a fight to attend,but i will come to u after that,yes?” he says and looks at you.

U just nod and give him a Goodbye kiss onto his lip.

“Stay save” were the last words u say as he walks away with a blush on his face.

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[eeeulb]

hold on to my hands

i feel i’m sinking

sinking without you