#kay★rants

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-❄️ character(s): cloud

-❄️ type of reader: m!reader

-❄️ category: sfw & a/b/o

-❄️ warning(s): intentional lower case

-❄️ edited: ❌

“help.” you whispered to cloud who looked at you confused as you held your baby in your arms.

“what’s up?” he asked. “she won’t let go no matter how much i try to put her down.” you told him making him raise a brow.

“i’ll just show you.” you would sigh out before trying to pry her off you only for some demonic squeal to leave her making cloud spit out his coffee and choke.

you did it again and the same thing happened making you sigh.

“see? she won’t let go.” “aww she likes her papa!” cloud said with a smirk in a joking manner but the look you gave him made him quickly look away and continue sipping his coffee.

“maybe use one of her favorite toys to distract her? feed her maybe?” cloud suggested making you give him a look. “i’ve tried everything to get her off me but she just clings like a koala for dear life.” you sighed and gently patted your baby's back while rocking her.

“her clinging onto you shows she loves her papa very much.” cloud said with a soft smile making you roll your eyes.

“i know she loves me but, making some demonic sounds when i try to pry her off when she’s only a year old is concerning.” you mumbled and looked down at your baby who looked back at you and giggled before gently tapping your face. a little love tap some may call it. “awww.” cloud cooed as he took a quick picture.

“keepin that for memories if she ever becomes rebellious like her papa in his teen years!” cloud laughed making you nearly kick him in the side.

-❄️ tags: @reallyromealone @secretivemessenger @lostsomewhereinthegarden @jkloserdazai

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@jkloserdazai I found a new brush I absolutely LOVE

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✰𝓞. 𝓓𝓪𝔃𝓪𝓲✰

you always go to the parties—★

to pluck the feathers of all the birds

★—on your knees

i would not beg you please -beach house

𝓣𝓦: angst, just pure angst, modern au, spelling errors/grammar mistakes, intentional lowercase

✰ DAZAI who was a well known playboy amongst mainly women, yet someway somehow had gotten you, a man, to fall for him. it was surprising yes, but you didn’t bother telling him due to your fear of rejection so you continued to act friendly towards him as usual. but of course seeing him flirt with other women just made your blood boil. but you couldn’t do anything due to him only liking women so in your eyes you didn’t have a chance. but of course your feelings began to bubble up to the surface making it unbearable so you decided to tell him after encouraging yourself for a bit. “you like me?” dazai asked with a raised brow as he looked at your flushed face as you nodded your head. for just a second you had caught a glimpse of disgust written on his face, but it had to be your imagination…right? “well, i like you too (name). you’re a sweet guy.” he said as he took your hand in his, a smile gracing his lips causing s small hiccup to leave your mouth. “you..do?” you asked him, your words a little breathless due to you being so surprised, you thought he would’ve just rejected you instantly. “of course i do, you make my days better. you even shine as bright as a thousand stars, darling.” he said, his voice soft and alluring as he cupped your cheek making you lean into his touch. oh how happy you were to have the one you loved most accept your feelings. but such happiness has to go one way or another, let it be in the future or present.

✰ DAZAI who started off as overly loving to you began to grow more distant as your relationship progressed. you’d catch him glancing at any women that would walk past, but that’s normal, it’s dazai after all. when you first told him how you didn’t like how he was looking at other people he would just scoff and tell you not to worry about anything and how you were being insecure about yourself. and so from that day on you’ve kept all that sadness and angry bottled up since being with him was a one time opportunity, you didn’t want to fuck it up. you loved him too much to be the cause of the break up. all that came crashing down once he took you to some random party he had gotten invited to. once the two of you were there it was like he vanished but you didn’t bother going to look for him so he stood by yourself to the side with a drink in hand looking around. that was until you caught a glimpse of dazai talking to some random women. then he kissed her. a deep passionate kiss. by now you didn’t know how to feel your mind was racing and you felt like you were going to cry as you watched him take her upstairs.

✰ DAZAI who didn’t know np how much he fucked up entirely. by now you were just sitting in a corner, mind blank and numb till he came back with a smile. “there you are, i was looking everywhere for you!” he said with his signature smirk, you felt like you were going to throw up. as he reached to touch you, you slapped his hand away almost instantly catching him by surprise. “what wrong love?” he asked with a nervous laugh as you stood up. not even a second passed when you slapped him and that’s when everything went quiet. the music stopped, the loud talking turned into small whispers and gasps, there were even phone cameras on recording the whole thing. but you didn’t care in the slightest. by now, tears had already flowed down your cheeks like a never ending waterfall as some hiccups left your mouth. “i’ve been nothing but loyal to you, i treated you like you were something of value to me, i made sure i put you first over everyone i knew and this is how you repay me?! cheating on me with some god damn home wrecker?!” you yelled at him as you continued slapping him, letting out all of your frustration, anger, and sadness onto the one you thought loved you back. “i bet you didn’t even love me to begin with!” you said before landing one last hard slap onto his face leaving a red hand print. dazai hadn’t done anything and allowed you to slap him and yell at him, he knew he was in the wrong too. “no..i didn’t truly love you (name)…but please listen to me—” “you keep that mouth of yours shut before i sew it shut!” you shouted at him as you wiped away your tears. “we’re over, i don’t want you texting me, calling me, asking my friends to leave messages for me, none of that shit you understand?! do you fucking understand dazai?!” you screamed at him making him quickly go quiet before he nodded his head. “i understand…” he said, his voice cracking a little as he watched you leave. the others there all looked at dazai as they began to whisper and eventually the music continued and everyone continued talking to one another, but the atmosphere was suffocating.

✰—tags: @jkloserdazai @reallyromealone @lostsomewhereinthegarden

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so, i’m no longer going to write on here anymore, i’ve made my decision after being away for a few days now.

i’ll of course interact with others here and there on here cause i still have friends on this app, but i won’t post anything and i’ll be removing my master list.

since i’ve been offline for a bit, i’ve grown happier and have been getting better mentally and physically wise thanks to new people i’ve met who make me feel loved and treat me with so much care. i even got a boyfriend that makes me feel like the relationship isn’t one sided for once and loves me unconditionally and treats me like a prince, i of course, plan to marry him one day.

i’ll probably make a new account in the near future, but won’t tell anyone about it besides my closest friends and hopefully they don’t tell others my account without permission.

so until than, i hope you all have a great new years and live your lives to the fullest. i love you all very much <3.

edit: i’m engaged now and getting married in a few years.

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behold my cute and adorable dog, toffee

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yeah i’m most likely just gonna stop writing here

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is this white or pink yall? 🧍🏾 @jkloserdazai keep sayin the words are pink 😭

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my dog sleeps so damn weird-

lil man got a whole lil pillow in his cage but he decides to sleep against the wall of the cage

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happy new year

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my bf called me beautiful 🤭

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when you get new friends after you stop interacting with that one old friend>>>>

not you @reallyromealone you too nice and cool for me to drop 😌

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why is it so hard to make new friends when the ones you had barely talk to you anymore? 🥲

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these braces make me wanna cry and then kms it hurts so bad and i can’t even eat what i wanna eat i feel so miserable atp

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i just realized me and my bf started dating in october just like that one song called we fell in love in october by girl in red

you don’t know how happy i just got

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i find it funny how i look depressing asf then im just listening to this

and my wallpaper is the brightest shit i’ve had yet 😭

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down bad @jkloserdazai