#kane cooper/natsu shimada

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kane does not let himself be vulnerable with natsu at any point during the killing game there's always some level of distance maintained despite how much time they end up spending together and that is not because he Doesn't like him quite the opposite actually!!! he likes him too much!!! in fact the only time he's actually vulnerable with him is riiiight at the end in chapter 5 and then kane goes and gets himself killed so x

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forcing u guys to understand the relationship between kane and natsu through the SONGS ON THEUR PLAYLIST!!!! hehe :3 i sorted every song alphabetically & with the lyrics that fir with them the most and you will read it and you will know everything at the end of it. lalalala. here we go. a lot of these only pertain to kane because he's my favourite stupid guy but !! funeral by phoebe bridgers is there thats natsu's pov bc kane fucking dies LOL

all i think about now - pixies “i try to think about tomorrow

but i always think about the past

about the things that didn't last

if i could go to the beginning

then for sure i would be another way

make it better for today

if i could go to the beginning

i would be another way

make it better for today

remember when we were happy?

if i'm late can i thank you now?”

andromeda - weyes blood “treat me right

i'm still a good man's daughter

let me in if i break

and be quiet if i shatter

getting tired of looking

you know that i hate the game

don't wanna waste any more time

you know i didn't hold it up

love is calling

it's time to give to you

something you can hold onto

i dare you try”

back to the old house - the smiths “when you cycled by, here began all my dreams

the saddest thing i've ever seen

and you never knew

how much i really liked you

because i never even told you

oh, and i meant to

are you still there?”

bag of bones - mitski “fluorescent store lights, you shine through the night

illuminate my pores and you tear me apart

mercy on me, would you please spare me tonight?

i'm tired of this searching, would you let me let go?

i know my room is a mess, over and over again

i tell myself i'll clean tomorrow

just move the stuff up off the bed and do what you came here to do

but first open up a window for me

and let the cool air in, feel the night slip in

as it softly glides along your back

and i hope you leave right before the sun comes up

so i can watch it alone”

best person you know - lowertown “do you believe in god, or anything at all?

what morals do you stand by?

have your standards started to fall?

do you believe in god?

what makes you build yourself so high?

can't see you anymore

it's almost like the features of your face are indescribable

eat the shit that you've made

go sit in that grave, the one that you've dug for yourself

i don't care, your body isn't mine

you no longer mine”

between the bars - elliot smith “drink up baby, look at the stars

i'll kiss you again, between the bars

where i'm seeing you there with your hands in the air

waiting to finally be caught

drink up one more time, and i'll make you mine

keep you apart, deep in my heart

separate from the rest, where i like you the best

and keep the things you forgot

people you've been before

that you don't want around anymore

that push and shove and won't bend to your will

i'll keep them still”

black star - radiohead “troubled words of a troubled mind

i try to understand what is eating you

i try to stay awake, but it's 58 hours

since that i last slept with you

what are we coming to?

i just don't know anymore”

call it fate, call it karma - the strokes “can i waste all your time here on the sidewalk?

can i stand in your light, just for a while?

i've waited around to wait in a room

having a hard time watching you (watching you)

i need someone

i need someone”

call me - rainlord (feat. .keshi) “say you'll call me baby

tell me you'll be okay

if i leave you alone today

i'm better than this

you're better than this

we're better than this

oh god, we're better than this

why do it like this?

why do we do it like this?”

ceilings - lizzy mcalpine “bedsheets, no clothes

touch me like nobody else does

lovely to just lay here with you

you're kinda cute, and i would say all of this

but i don't wanna ruin the moment

lovely to sit between comfort and chaos

but it's over

then you're driving me home

and it kinda comes out

as i get up to go

you kiss me in your car

and it feels like the start of a movie i've seen before”

class of 2013 - mitski “mom, would you wash my back?

this once, and then we can forget

and i'll leave what i'm chasing

for the other girls to pursue

mom, am i still young?

can i dream for a few months more?”

the comfort of a laugh track - roar “if you could only see me now

i know i'd disappoint somehow

i'm stuck inside a fantasy

where i could be all you would need

will i live in shame of

the things in the past that i should have done for you?

and is it possible to

forgive all the ignorant ones if they're just too young?

fake love, yeah, you know you'll be truly missed

fake love must be some kind of abstinence

let's not make much more out of all of this

let's not, but we still can pretend we did”

cupid - jack stauber “how can cupid?

how could you be so cruel?

how can cupid?

how could you be so?

oh, circumcise my love for you (wah, wah, wah, wah)

it's far too vapid and aimless (wah, wah, wah, wah)

i wanna be painless (wah, wah, wah, wah)

love soldier, i want closure (wah, wah)

and a dollar for the bus back home”

dagger - slowdive “the world is full of noise yeah

i hear it all the time

and me i am your dagger

you know i am your wound

i thought i heard you whisper

it happens all the time

i thought i heard you whisper

it happens all the time

she whispers while i'm sleeping

"i love you when you smile"

i didn't really lose you

i just lost it for a while”

deep sea - snail mail “die, my love

breathe in twos and fours

to know what's worth breathing for

some days it's easier than falling asleep

and we can be anyone

it took so long to know someone like you

and age in the dying sun

wake only to bathe in greens and blues”

duvet - boa  “and you don't seem the lying kind

a shame that i can read your mind

and all the things that i read there

candle lit smile that we both share

and you know i don't mean to hurt you

but you know that it means so much

and you don't even feel a thing

i am falling

i am fading

i am drowning

help me to breathe”

fear - current joys “it's so hard to stop the rain

it's so hard to stop

starts out gold, but never stays

the neon takes my breath away

and now i feel it in my veins

but i don't want to be afraid

i don't want to live this way

i don't want you to leave”

first love/late spring - mitski “and i was so young when i behaved 25

yet now, i find i've grown into a tall child

and i don't wanna go home

let me walk to the top of the big night sky

please, hurry, leave me, i can't breathe

please don't say you love me”

funeral - phoebe bridgers “and last night i blacked out in my car

and i woke up in my childhood bed

wishing i was someone else, feeling sorry for myself

when i remembered someone's kid is dead

jesus christ, i'm so blue all the time

and that's just how i feel

always have and i always will

i always have and always will

and it's 4 am, again

and i'm doing nothing again”

girl - salvia palth “when you're down, when you're down

yeah, you scare me, the nicest person

i will wait, i will wait

dali said that you want me also

will you say, will you say?

i thought no one would think about me

but it's not surprising that

you thought about me

i thought you'd feel like an ocean, all reactive

and lucid in emotion, why'd you think about me?”

goodbye, my danish sweetheart - mitski “there's some kind of burning inside me

it's kept me from falling apart

and i'm sure that you've seen what it's done to my heart

but it's kept me from falling apart

now here i lay as i wonder about you

would you just tell me what i'm meant to do?

'cause i've waited and watered my heart 'til it grew

you can see how it's blossomed for you

and i don't blame you

if you want to bury me in your memory

i'm not the girl i ought to be, but

maybe when you tell your friends

you can tell them what you saw in me

and not the way i am”

how to disappear completely - radiohead “in a little while

i'll be gone

the moment's already passed

yeah, it's gone

and i'm not here

this isn't happening”

hurts me too - faye webster “i hate that feeling at night

when i thought my eyes were closed

but they were open the whole time

it was just too dark to know

and what am i 'posed to do when

my dad cries in front of me?

do i just close my eyes and

pretend like i didn't see?”

i know it’s over - the smiths “i know it's over and it never really began

but in my heart it was so real

and you even spoke to me and said

"if you're so funny

then why are you on your own tonight?

and if you're so clever

then why are you on your own tonight?

if you're so very entertaining

then why are you on your own tonight?

if you're so very good looking

why do you sleep alone tonight?"”

& 

“love is natural and real

but not for you, my love

not tonight, my love

love is natural and real

but not for such as you and i

my love”

&

“oh mother, i can feel the soil falling over my head

oh mother, i can feel the soil falling over my head

oh mother, i can feel the soil falling over my head

oh mother, i can feel the soil falling over my head”

i’m yours tonight - bloodwitch “at last i see you

on high

come down upon me from the sky

show no mercy, my life

i'm yours tonight

i'm waiting, for you to show me, a higher love

don't spare me from the truth

i'm ready”

jigsaw falling into place - radiohead “before you run away from me

before you're lost between the notes

the beat goes round and round

the beat goes round and round

i never really got there

i just pretended that i had

words are blunt instruments

words are sawed off shotguns

come on and let it out”

just - radiohead “one day he'll get to you

and teach you how to be a holy cow

you do it to yourself, you do

and that's what really hurts

is that you do it to yourself, just you

you and no one else

you do it to yourself

you do it to yourself”

kimochi warui - car seat headrest “and i will not go to heaven

and i will not go to hell

i have no faith in death

to be anything at all

(i feel sick)

(i don't feel well)

(what a disgusting feeling)

(i don't like this feeling)

(how disgusting)

(this feeling sucks)

some of these things are symptoms

and some of these are being human

and now, i'm torn between (and now, i'm torn between)

trying to be a better man (trying to be a better man)

and trying to accept the man i am”

la lune - billie marten “breaking my back in the heart of this land

feet above water and softened in sand

i could have wanted any part of this

but i find that heat is too harsh on the skin

drowning in light, need the cold to sink in to my soul

my soul

ignore signs of change no more

i come back again, i am flawed”

last flowers - radiohead “'cause i can't face the evening straight

and you can’t offer me escape

houses move and houses speak

if you take me there you'll get relief, relief

relief, relief

relief, relief

it's too much

too bright, too powerful

too much

too bright, too powerful”

last words of a shooting star - mitski “i always wanted to die clean and pretty

but i'd be too busy on working days

so i am relieved that the turbulence wasn't forecasted

i couldn't have changed anyways

i am relieved that i'd left my room tidy

goodbye”

lavender blood - fox academy “lavender is always running through my blood

i've had enough, i'm cold and it is dusk

turn into dust, it's dripping from my gums

it's not enough”

love like you - rebecca sugar “i always thought i might be bad

now i'm sure that it's true

'cause i think you're so good

and i'm nothing like you

look at you go

i just adore you

i wish that i knew

what makes you think i'm so special”

no distance left to run - blur “when you see me

please, turn your back and walk away

i don't wanna see you

'cause i know the dreams that you keep

that's where we meet

when you're coming down

think of me here

i got no distance left to run”

no surprises - radiohead “this is my final fit

my final bellyache with

no alarms and no surprises

no alarms and no surprises

no alarms and no surprises, please

such a pretty house

and such a pretty garden

no alarms and no surprises

no alarms and no surprises

no alarms and no surprises, please”

numb - men i trust “hon'

please forgive me if i ever did you wrong

i'll be your candle; burn me upside down

from now on, i won't sleep on my arms

numb

is how i feel deep inside my soul

need to feel that i am on the line

i'm sorry that i dragged you down my way”

pink in the night - mitski “i glow pink in the night in my room

i've been blossoming alone over you

and i hear my heart breaking tonight

i hear my heart breaking tonight

do you hear it too?

it's like a summer shower

with every drop of rain singing

"i love you, i love you, i love you

i love you, i love you, i love you

i love you, i love you, i love you!"

race - alex g  “cause you think the brains in your head are worth

breathing this smoke and itchy throats and being happy

and i could be your man all day

and you could look inside my brain and see this one thing

but then it disappears like smoke and you're alone

i forget

how to play

the game

everyone

wants to come

along

i don't know

where you are”

real men - mitski “real men don't need other people

and real men suck it in

real men don't flinch or bleed in public

oh, i think i'm a real man

little boys cry and look around for comfort

and always get what they want

little boys see toys and say, "i can take that!"

oh, you are my little boy”

rocky horror - billy cobb “staying up late.

i should go to sleep.

it's tuesday but i can't stop thinking of your skin.

i've been known to be a hopeless no good nobody and they're right.

i know your eyes can see right through me,

but believe me, it's my pleasure.

i'm staying watching rocky horror.

you know i love that movie.

i love the way you grab my heart.

like it's a gun.

fire away.”

saint bernard - lincoln “saint bernard sits at the top of the driveway

you always said how you loved dogs

i don't know if i count

but i'm trying my best

when i'm howling and barking these songs”

september come take this heart away - carrisa’s wierd “all of these windows

bring in the cold air

i hope you have a coat

to keep you warm

warmer than those last times we spoke

warmer than the last words we said

i'm sure the wind blows gently on you now

i hope that nothing will ever remind you of me

glue that faded photo on a worn out journal page

it reads september come, please take this heart away”

show you a body - haley heynderickx “i am letting you go

i am letting you go awry

it was more than a race

more than the wind

chasing the flood

you opened the gate

and fate is a sundress

ripped at the thigh

thigh high and safety net

swarmed by the hornets' nest

to cover my eyes

it was more a mirage

in sickness and health

i showed you a body

like a cluttered garage

i am humbled by breaking down”

snow - ricky montgomery “summer's over, love had left her

screaming at the screen

oh, and it's understood that the both of us are no good

i'll always be that short little gloat

always clearing his throat like he ever had something to say

and i'll say

when i go, bury me six feet in snow

here we are wasting our chances for the last time

and when we go, i'll try not to be so slow

skeletons, skeletons, what do we have here

hiding from the mirror?

say it once, say it twice, try to be nice

well, let's not lose ourselves”

some things cosmic - angel olsen  “the things that you said

i felt my soul

rise up from my body

when i look into your blue eyes

if cosmic force is real at all

it's come between you and i

i want to be naked

i don't mean my body

i don't need my body

i'm floating away”

so you wanna be a superhero - carissa’s wierd “long look in the mirror

just looks back so blankly

you were right: i can't do this

i'm going crazy, it's fine by me

now you can see

how much i've become empty

i might be leaving soon

i might be leaving soon

i might be leaving soon

my dreams are full of what's not real

i'll fly away and save the world

i'll make you proud someday

i just won't be around to see your face

my life is full of what's not here

i'll go away and save myself

i'll make you proud someday

i just won't be around to see your face”

true love waits - radiohead “i'm not living

i'm just killing time

your tiny hands

your crazy kitten smile

just don't leave

don't leave

and true love waits

in haunted attics

and true love lives

on lollipops and crisps

just don't leave

don't leave”

unlucky - lunar vacation “see you in the street

start to wonder deeply

if i changed how i was

how would everyone view me?

in my room

i remember you said

if you cross that line, you may lose more than you'd bet

so unlucky

you're in love and i'm unlucky”

vanilla baby - billie marten “today, i feel close to ill

it seems to be alright

steady hands and steady feet

i push you far behind

miles to go, i'm drifting slow

this wholesome life of mine

mother told us not to go

no fingers in the fire

alright

i am only as good as you want me to be

i don't pick up the phone if i don't want to speak

i am only as good as you want me to be

i don't know what i'm doing”

we’ll never have sex - leith ross “depollute me, pretty baby

suck the rot right out of my bloodstream

oh, dilute me, gentle angel

water down what i call being grateful

oh, you kissed me just to kiss me

not to take me home

it was simple, it was sweetness

it was good to know”

worldstar money (interlude) - joji “i looked at you and said, oh-oh-oh

don't hate me, am i crazy?

so tenderly you watch me burn, you watch me burn, oh

so tell me, am i crazy?

'cause i do, 'cause i do

'cause i do, 'cause i do

'cause i do, 'cause i do

ooh

la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la (goddamn)

ooh (oh)

and i don't wanna die

no, i don't wanna die

i don't wanna die”

your best american girl - mitski “if i could, i'd be your little spoon

and kiss your fingers forevermore

but, big spoon, you have so much to do

and i have nothing ahead of me

you're the sun, you've never seen the night

but you hear its song from the morning birds

well, i'm not the moon, i'm not even a star

but awake at night i'll be singing to the birds

don't wait for me, i can't come”

&

“you're the one

you're all i ever wanted

i think i'll regret this”

you should be hated here - carissa’s wierd “and everything that no one knows

you should be hated here by now

this was the prettiest lie that i told tonight

it's been the prettiest lie that i told all year

the unmade bed inside the room (it could be now)

where i don't feel comfortable at all (and i don't feel proud)

where the blanket stared at me for hours (i'm so sorry now)

and i stared right back so self-righteously (i'm sorry now)

and it all comes down to composure that's been lost

when it all comes down to composure that's been lost”

you weren’t meant to see that - the rare occasions “i watched the windows shatter

as if it ever mattered

and for once in my life i see things for what they are

and not through the lens of profit and achievement

it's nothing when you need it

one of those fortune cookie proclamations

that i could never swallow

you weren't meant to see that

all the shit i should hold back

'cause it's all in my head and i can see it through your swampy eyes

that i won't always be the only one for you”

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natsu doesn't make kane a good person though that's the thing . forgive me if this is like utterly incoherent and stupid i just woke up after an almost . 2 hour nap and im out of it but by the end of it all , kane is still not a good person at all!! he could be if he thought it was possible for him to change, but after junichiro's whole 'the reason you suck' speech in the chapter 4 trial, he completely spirals and is trapped in the box that he's created and junichiro's words have locked. . if that make sense LOL. he fully does not believe that he has the capacity to learn how to be a good person and his relationship with natsu SUFFERS because of it!!! I WROTE THIS A WHILE AGO !!! I think it fits with what im trying to say

"he had natsu. but that didn't count for anything. he was sure it was all a lie, something that he had made up to feel better about himself. something self-destructive, a bomb just waiting to blow up, because with kane, nothing was safe. not even himself. and it didn't matter if natsu disagreed with that, because it was true. his relationship with natsu was destined to fail from the start, and there's no way that there could be anything else to it."

natsu's probably the best person kane's ever met and kane's constantly worrying that he's going to end up corrupting that. he loves natsu. he does, and it’s the first time he's ever truly loved anything but he never says that because he thinks natsu deserves better . kinda lame of me but their relationship is sooooo love like you coded LIKE ermmm

"i always thought i might be bad now im sure that its true cause I think you're so good and im nothing like you look at you go i just adore you i just wish that i knew what makes you think im so special"

screaming and crying and wailing and foaming at the mouth. I hate them. IM.GOUNG INSANE

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anyway something something kane cooper the ultimate conman is inherently selfish & everything he's ever done in his 21 years of life has only been to pursue his own superficial goals and he's been perfectly fine rolling on his own until oh dear natsu shimada the ultimate actor shows up and even though this man goes against all of kane's 'i, me, myself' ideologies he can't help but want to share in everything he has to offer and yeah having natsu around is bound to fuck things up but he wants him like he's never wanted anything in his life before and it's TERRIFYING!!!!

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I DO HAVE A ROYAL AU FOR MY FANCLASS AHSGDJJDJGH its not developed at all but its so silly i did it just for fun LOLLL wait . heres what i got for it so far teehee

ami takahashi - literally the princess of the kingdom as she should be >_< !! kinda rapunzel coded tbh. masako is like mother gothel except its her actual mom and she's just generally evil and insane

tatsuya fujiwara - HER GUARD!!! her little main guard its so silly. he's like a guard and a maid and a bestie friend forever all in one. she drives him crazy but its ok he loves her

kane cooper: one half of kane and kozue's kriminal krew (he did not agree to that name.) they're just silly silly pirates that get into trouble all the time but they're not that much of a threat they're just Insanely Annoying

kozue kaneko: THE OTHER HALF!!! she picked the name. kane said no. she said pleeeease pretty pleeeeease. and he sighed and gave in. she's just a girl!

chiyo inoue: COURT JESTER!!!! what else could she be :3 !! one of ami's closest friends (she only has chiyo and tatsuya but whateva). kozue breaks into the castle one time and bumps into chiyo and immediately falls head over heels for her Much to kane's exasperation

junichiro okumura: he's the main sort of,... i don't wanna say police???? but its basically like that he deals with all of the crime and is generally just the main authority of the kingdom... has to deal with kane a lot and isn't pleased about it at all! kane shows up in handcuffs at his doorstep or whatever like Heyyyy guess who's back! and it's EXHAUSTING.

natsu shimada: THE LEADER OF AN ACTING TROUPE YEAAAH!!!! like what shakespeare had basically :3 he goes all around putting on little plays and shows and everyone LOVES IT >_< masako doesn't like him and doesn't want ami watching his shows but she either sneaks Out or sneaks him In (which freaks the fuck out of tatsuya). on the same day that kozue bumped into chiyo while infiltrating the palace, kane bumped into NATSU and the same thing happened between them x

thats all i got so far i think...?? i'll have to expand on it hehe :3

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I DO HAVE VOICECLAIMS FOR MY FANCLASS HEHE obviously they're not 100% accurate like how they are in my head but they r close enough .... all the english versions obviously lalalala... i still need some for chiyo and kozue and that's it! here they are.... i haven't even played or seen where some of these characters come from but whateva

junichiro okumura - kamisato ayato, genshin impact

kaori izumi - abigail jones, great pretender

tatsuya fujiwara - lu guang, link click

minori kamiya - akechi goro, persona 5

quinn levine - anne boonchuy, amphibia

hideyo hidaka - ryunosuke akutagawa, bungo stray dogs

kane cooper - ryuji sakamoto, persona 5

hana nishikawa - shikabane, aggretsuko

mihoko uehara - hanya, honkai stair rail

ami takahashi - asta, honkai star rail

akihiro kanda - shoya ishida, a silent voice

natsu shimada - lyney, genshin impact

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i have ship playlists for two of the canon ships in my fanclass and god its so fucking funny because the vibes are soooo different. one of them is tragic and doomed and gutwrenching and devastating and the other is also that but like covered in glitter and little roses and hearts so you can't really tell!!! ill link them :3

this one is kane cooper/natsu shimada (my literal antagonist and the only person that likes him)

and this one is tatsuya fujiwara/ami takahashi (SCREAMING ANF XRYING AJF SIBBIFHNRNGNUJ)

anyway oooo you should totes check it out hehehe also im insane and i have one google document for each playlist that takes the lyrics from Every Song on there that pertains the most to their relationship UM

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yap session 2 : chiyo inoue the ultimate circus ringmaster

the spinny wheel of fate said it's chiyo's turn now!! hehehe im so happy i love her anyway let's GO yay chiyo!! first things first let's get up her official description... well. she doesnt have a proper official one just yet but this tells a bit about her character! "Chiyo's the newly appointed leader of the Inoue Travelling Circus (aka, the hottest tourist attraction in Japan, if she does say so herself!), and rightly deserves her title of Ultimate due to her unrelenting passion for the job and everything that comes along with it. Chiyo takes her duties extremely seriously, and always wants to provide an exceptional experience for both the audience watching her shows and the people she works with. As a result, she's developed high levels of emotional intelligence, compassion, and the ability to raise spirits and energy both inside and out of the circus tent. It's easy for her to make friends - she's got this aura that just pulls people in! She's nothing but a total sweetheart, always willing to be there for everybody and wants to make sure that, no matter what, energy is high and happiness is through the roof! You'd be a fool to mistake her kind nature for weakness and naivety, though - when she wants to be, she has the capability to be extremely firm, and if it were to ever come to it, she would never back down from a decision." yayayyyy my silly girl 4eva hehe <3 unlike a lot of my fanclass sillies she does not have TERRIBLE lore. she was brought up in a loving family consisting of her mother and father, and from a young age, she's always known that her passion lay with the family business. since she was little, she'd sit in that circus tent, eyes wide with total awe at all the feats that were on display, from the tightrope walkers to the rings of fire to the magicians... it was like being thrown into a fairytale, a fantasy plucked from her wildest imagination right in the palm of her hand; all due to the hard work from her parents. they're her biggest inspirations! after one show, she ran to them, tugging on her mother's skirt and pulling her father's hand and babbling almost incoherently about how mommy! daddy! i want to be just like you! i wanna run the circus pleasepleaseplease can you let me run the circus? of course, she was way too little then... but years later, and her dream finally came true!! the inoue travelling circus is chiyo's lifeblood, literally. she'd give anything to make sure it prospers, to keep the legacy her parents had created alive and burning. it's their greatest achievement, and it's chiyo's, too!! if it were to ever fail... she doesn't know what she'd do with herself. so really, being thrown into a killing game and forced away from her family and her livelihood isn't all that great! who would've thought? still, chiyo maintains her cheerfulness, trying not to let all of the fears, anxieties and uncertainty plague her mind - she's smiling, and that's enough. that's all she can do! smile, and push through it with conviction. it's gotten her through 20 years of life already, hasn't it? but... smiling alone is alright, sure, but it's much better when you're doing it with others, too!! chiyo quickly realises that making friends is what will keep her strength going, even when faced with everything that might be thrown at them. her positivity and easygoing demeanour means that most people are at least warmed up to her, but it's not too long before she especially draws the attention of two people in particular - natsu shimada and kozue kaneko! all three of them are quite similar. natsu's charismatic, with a magnetic personality and not a single mean bone in his body, and kozue's got enough energy to power an entire city. birds of a feather flock together, as the saying goes, and the three of them become pretty stuck-at-the-hip pretty quickly. much to chiyo and kozue's surprise, they even start to become friendly with kane. kane cooper. that's mainly due to natsu just dragging him along, but... he seems to be warming up to them. friendship blooms in even the harshest conditions, huh?

if only it were just friendship, though! chiyo's not exactly sure when it started, but she starts to find that she's not looking at natsu and kozue the same way anymore. she looks at natsu, and all she sees is a great guy that she's happy to be friends with! she looks at kozue... and it's much more than that. she finds herself utterly drawn to the other girl like a moth to a flame, endeared to her every quirk, no matter how obnoxious it may seem to the others. there's a fire in kozue's eyes that keeps the fire in chiyo's burning, a warmth that she can't help but indulge in, and god, those hands would feel so nice in hers, wouldn't they...? she's had silly crushes before, but somehow it feels different. somehow, kozue feels like a light shining through the suffocating darkness of the killing game, and chiyo finds herself wanting this so much more than anything else.

and lucky her! kozue wants it pretty badly, too. that's one hell of a meet-cute! they're not exactly together, per se... it's pretty hard to confirm your relationship status while in the midst of a killing game, but nonetheless, they're together. they have each other, and that's all they need.

even though they've faced death so many times that they think it won't sicken them anymore, only for the acid to burn their throats every single time without fail. even though neither of them can be sure whether they'll make it to the next morning... they'll lie together at night, their fingers intertwined and their breathing synced and they'll deal with tomorrow when it comes. it doesn't even have to be called love. it's just chiyo and kozue. those names side by side is love in itself. kozue and chiyo. chiyo and kozue. that's all they need. everything changes after quinn's trial and the execution of hideyo, though. god, it's like nothing they've ever seen before - kaori's death was an utter tragedy, and yeah, minori was a killer, but it's hard to not feel some sympathy for them... but quinn had to deal with the most gruesome of fates and hideyo was nothing but a monster. a vile, deplorable monster, and that's not something the ultimates can just shake off. the atmosphere has completely shifted... there's no sense of hope anymore. it's like they're all just waiting with bated breaths for another killing to happen, resigning themselves to utter despair. smile. smile, chiyo, and everything will be okay! that's what your parents told you. mommy and daddy weren't wrong, that's how they lived and it worked and you want to be just like them so smile and make everyone happy and everything will be okay and you can do this it's okay it's okay but no it's not because she isn't. kozue isn't. kozue's not okay, chiyo can see it in her jumpiness, the way she's constantly averting her eyes, the shakiness of her breaths and how she only ever seems to observe now. watching the other ultimates like some nervous young bird of prey. kozue's not been that great at hiding her emotions anyway, and chiyo's always been good at reading them, so she knows what this means. kozue's planning a kill. not out of malicious intent, no, she's not that kind of girl, but... pure, unadulterated, desperation. she's probably not even thinking clearly, her brain too clouded and her body too sick, and chiyo loves kozue to bits but she knows she's going to end up doing something stupid, so she'll have to intervene, for the good of everybody. she gets kozue alone one night and cuts right to the chase! she tells her that she knows she's planning to kill someone, and that she's not angry or upset, but she needs to know that she's making a bad decision! kozue, you could die! you will die. trust me. kane and junichiro are so smart, so, so smart, and you know they'll figure you out. just like minori and hideyo... and i can't do that. i can't watch you die, kozue. i can't. please.

kozue looks up at chiyo, her eyes puffy and her cheeks red, choking the words out of her throat: i need to.

just three little words, but chiyo knows immediately that kozue's never been so serious about anything before. it's such a far cry from how she had been just a couple days earlier, but even when faced with this kozue, the one that’s so utterly broken and scared and desperate, she can still see her soul shining through, glistening in her eyes as the tears that pool there. so she draws in a shaky breath and takes kozue's hand, no hesitation in the next words she speaks.

okay. kill me, then.

before kozue can protest, she tightens her grip on her hands, leaning forward and looking into her eyes with such conviction, despite the hammering of her own heart and the breathiness of her words that speak to her fears.

kozue, please. kill me. it'll be okay, yeah? we'll see each other soon, won't we? kill me, a-and...and in the trial, let them figure everything out. kill me, then we'll both be out of here. and we'll be together! forever, kozue, don't you want that? please don't cry. please... d-dont cry... you're okay. i'm okay, look, i'm smiling! you have the prettiest smile i've ever seen, kozue. you're so pretty. smile for me. it'll be okay. please. you'll do this, won't you? kozue... it's alright.

what happens after that is a blur.

chiyo and kozue. kozue and chiyo...

together, that's all they need! chiyo and kozue.

kozue and chiyo.

kozue and... chiyo's body. still smiling. that's all she could do, smile. it got her through 20 years of life... so how fitting is it that she died with a smile on her face, too?

a smile on her face and the thought in her mind that she had everything she ever wanted right here. she couldn't think of a better way to die, at the hands of the girl she loved so dearly.

soon they'd be able to meet.

chiyo and kozue, together.

that's all they need.

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FANCLASS OUTLINR!!! just so the timeline makes sense

# CHAPTER 1 !? victim: kaori izumi, ult. motivational speaker blackened: kaori izumi, ult. motivational speaker

# CHAPTER 2 !? victim: tatsuya fujiwara, ult. fashion designer blackened: minori kamiya, ult. poet

# CHAPTER 3 !? victim: quinn levine, ult. clarinetist blackened: hideyo hidaka, ult. scientist accomplice: akihiro kanda, ult. priest

# CHAPTER 4 !? victim: chiyo inoue, ult. ringmaster blackened: kozue kaneko, ult. pirate

# CHAPTER 5 !? victim: kane cooper, ult. conman blackened: hana nishikawa, ult. demonologist accomplice: mihoko uehara, ult. puppeteer

# CHAPTER 6 !? mastermind: mihoko uehara, ult puppeteer

survivors: junichiro okumura, ult. criminologist akihiro kanda, ult. priest ami takahashi, ult. model natsu shimada, ult. stage actor

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how i think a fandom would mischaracterise all my sillies <3

junichiro okumura: mean yaoi man. he's quite cold and also does not mince his words so they'd definitely turn him into some like. idk mafia boss. mafia yaoi boss

kaori izumi: they'd either make her into the worst person that ever lived because of her personality or a sad sensitive pathetic person who 'needs to be protected' because of how she died

tatsuya fujiwara: they'd turn him into a baby oh my god. my guy is quite reserved and closed off emotionally and Quite Anxious All the Time and they'd uwufy him ..fuck. or turn him into a tsundere or something. ami its not like i like you >_<

minori kamiya: i fear the uwufication of minori kamiya would be inevitable . that or you'd have the two extremes of "MINORI DID NOTHING WRONG!! they're so innocent and soft and cute!!!" despite the fact that they killed a man or "MINORI'S A HORRIBLE REPHRENSIBLE MONSTER WHO DESERVES THE WORST" despite literally everything else about them

quinn levine: she's black so racist weirdos will be racist weirdos. her entire personality would also be watered down to just Being There to Help Literally Every Other Character without having a personality for herself!!!

hideyo hidaka: i shudder to think. he's already completely morally reprehensible but i fear he would be made even WORSE. or people would completely ignore how much of a terrible person he is and all of his malicious inclinations because "he's hot and he did nothing wrong!!!"

kozue kaneko: her entire personality would be watered down to Dumb and Loud . think like how some of the dgr fandom perceives akane owari. like THAT

chiyo inoue: if kozue gets the akane treatment, chiyo's getting the ibuki mioda treatment. aka they'd completely ignore her emotional intelligence and just make her seem like there's nothing in her head but ribbon and sparkles !!!!!

kane cooper: they'd TWINKIFY HIM they'd YAOIFY him he's already blonde and gay and also the antagonist I FEAR THEYD GIVE HIM THE KOKICHI TREATMENT????? FUCK

hana nishikawa: her connection to mihoko will draw in some weirdos that's for sure. they'd take 'mindlessly devoted puppet' and turn it into something freaky. i shudder to think

mihoko uehara: she's a woman and the mastermind so people would either hate her even though her antagonism would be totally lauded if she was a guy OR they'd be absolute freaks with it! i SHUDDER to think

ami takahashi: she'd be totally reduced to some ditzy bimbo pre-chapter 2 and post- chapter 2 she'd just be absolutely hated. she'd get the 'bitch' 'thot' treatment you know... my poor girl . also her character progression is just her Getting Worse and people won't like that!!!!!

akihiro kanda: UGHHHH HE'D BE THE NUMBER ONE VICTIM OF THE UWUFICATION GET HIM OUT GET HIM OUT OH MY GOD

natsu shimada: they'd make his relationship with kane his ENTIRE personality . reduce him to being nothing but a love interest! the twinkifcation would hit him bad ....

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I FOUNDTHE THINGGG I FOUND IT hehe. I started explaining why bag of bones is literally the kane/natsu song teehee ITS NKT FINISHED BUT

"i'm all used up, pretty boy, over and over again my nail colours are wearing off. see my hands pretty boy, what do they tell you? cause ive looked down at them not knowing why"

kane's spiralling. after the whole situation in the chapter four trial, after junichirou's whole 'the reason you suck' speech, he just completely spirals. the fact that he isn't the most .... moral person in the world is something that he's fully aware of, but it didn't occur to him just how far he'd fallen, how utterly heartless and cruel he had become, and being faced with that fact, having it thrown in his face by not just junichirou, not just the other ultimates, but by natsu as well, it makes him completely shut down. after the trial, he shuts himself away. mostly he just stays in his room. if he does come out, he doesn't talk to the other ultimates, always going off by himself and ignoring any attempt to reach out. he decides its for the best. and he's so tired. he's so tired of it all. at this point, the only thing he can think of doing is... dying. whether that be by someone else's hand, or his own, he's so sure it's not just the only way out, but the best outcome for everybody: they wouldn't have to deal with him anymore. and he'd be gone, away from it all.

obviously, natsu's nothing but insistent on reaching out. i think the beginning of this song perfectly lines up with natsu and kane's final conversation in chapter 5! kane tries to push him away, but eventually realises there's nothing he can do, so he lets him in. they don't talk at first. for a long time, it's completely silent - natsu's the 'pretty boy' here, and kane just can't bring himself to speak to him, but its perfectly clear what he's feeling. at least, to natsu, it is. natsu's never seen kane in such a state before - so closed off, yet so, so open, it's a real state of vulnerability, and fear, almost. and they both don't know how to approach it.

"fluorescent store lights, you shine through the night. illuminate my pores and you tear me apart."

if kane cooper had to describe natsu shimada in one word, it would be... bright. as cheesy as it sounds, it's truly the most fitting descriptor that he can think of; everything about natsu is positively radiant, from the way he carries himself to the way he interacts with others, his sense of humour, that stupid fucking smile of his that, no matter how much kane tries to ignore, always seems to be permanently etched into his mind. there's no denying the light that natsu carries with him, no denying its warmth.

if kane cooper had to describe himself in one word, well... he wouldn't be able to. he's not sure where he stands, who he is; its as if he were looking into a broken mirror, fragmented and distorted and he doesn't know which one is real, or if there really is a 'real' him at all. he does, however, know one thing - he is not natsu shimada. he could never even dream of being like him.

you think of 'fluorescent store lights', and you think of something that's... headache-inducing and artificial, the only source of light being one that flickers and buzzes, its glow not being one of warmth and homeliness but something you'd much rather get away from as soon as possible.

no matter how hard a buzzing yellow fake store light glows, could it truly ever match up to the glee that comes with warming yourself on an open fire?