#kallas is and will always be best dad

[rayar32]

OC lore time (in comic form this time!)

they still go fishing together btw it's like their father-daughter thing™

[heavenbat-gw2]

Shared Hurt

By all means, it should have been an ordinary day in the Krewe’s lab. Key word: should. True, it had started off ordinary enough (at least by Misfit Krewe standards) …. But then Khallalh’s parents had contacted them, saying that they were in the area and asking to come visit.

And so, a few hours later, they'd showed up at the door. They were currently gathered in a small group in the commons area, chatting it up and having a great time.

Not for the first time, Jozzik felt a pang run through his heart at the sight. Seeing Khallalh with his family always made him miss his own father even more. Keeping well out of the line of sight, he skirted around the room. At least, until something caught his eye.

Vex was perched on the stairs, half hidden behind a plant and watching the gathering with an expression that was unusually subdued for the warrior. It wasn't hard to figure out why; Vex’s parents had been neglectful at best, abusive at worst. At least Jozzik could say his dad had loved him. Vex didn't even have that. Changing his trajectory, Jozzik wandered up to him and waited for Vex to acknowledge his existence.

When he finally did (by half-turning to look at him) Jozzik asked, “Do you mind if I sit?”

After a pause, Vex grunted “Whatever.” But, again, it lacked his usual fire.

Jozzik turned and sat, smoothing out his overcoat. For a few moments, he sat in silence with Vex, the two of them watching as Khallalh smiled (a rare sight) and tickled Kalla’s tummy. An illusory butterfly appeared out of thin air, fluttering between the two as Jozzik collected his thoughts.

“Sometimes I get jealous too,” Jozzik finally said, breaking the silence.

Vex gave him an ‘I-don’t-want-to-talk-about-this’ look and curling in on himself ever so slightly; drawing his knees closer, hunching further.

Jozzik waved a hand. “Don't worry, you don't have to say anything unless you want to.” He took a breath in through his nose and continued, “I mean, it's for a different reason, obviously, but…. Sometimes it just hurts so much, seeing other people with families that aren't broken, that are whole and happy. It makes me want to scream and cry and grab them by the shoulders and shake them until they realize how lucky they are, and it's not fair, and sometimes I wonder what I did wrong to deserve this--” his voice cracked, emotions threatening to spill over. By now there was a handful of shimmering magenta butterflies, their flight erratic and agitated.

Another deep breath, a moment to adjust his clothes and his tiara, pointedly not looking directly at Vex even though out of the corner of his eye, he could see the warrior staring at him. He fixed his gaze on a butterfly.

“But when the jealousy gets too bad, I just look at what I do have. You guys…. You're family. Nothing will change that. Sometimes we lose our blood family and sometimes our blood family is a steaming pile of Dolyak droppings, but the family we find, the family we make is a family you know you can count on no matter what. They won't make it stop hurting, but they'll make it bearable, at least.”

Silence fell over the two once more. Jozzik continued to focus on the same butterfly from before; beside him, he heard Vex sniffle slightly.

Then, finally, “I’m not mad, I’m… it’s just… more sad? And, and they already treat me like family,” he waved a hand towards Khallalh’s family, “but it… I just…”

Vex made a strangled noise, the one he always made when words didn’t cooperate with him.

Jozzik chuckled, making the butterfly float over to land on Vex’s knee. “But it still hurts sometimes, right?” When Vex nodded, he continued, “Because even though they’re treating you like family, there’s still that knowledge in the back of your mind that they’re not your blood family, and you can’t help but think of what it could’ve been like if you’d had what he has.”

“.... Yeah,” Vex answered, once again withdrawing slightly.

Jozzik let the silence return for a stretch. The two of them sat together in their shared pain, listening to the voices of Khallalh’s family.

Eventually, though, Jozzik stood; that was enough wallowing for today. He turned to Vex (whose face was partially obscured by the dreadlocks cascading around his face. Jozzik reached a hand out to him.

“Hey. I heard there’s a new dessert shop set up in Rata Sum, you want to go grab something from there?”

Vex sniffled again, reaching a hand up to wipe at his face before looking at Jozzik’s hand.

“Yeah,” he said. He clasped Jozzik’s hand in his, using it as leverage to stand up (and nearly pulling Jozzik over in the process; Jozzik somehow always forgot how bulky Vex was). “And… thanks.”

“They don’t call me great for nothing, darling~” Jozzik hummed with a grin. And before Vex could respond, he teleported them both away in a cloud of butterflies.

[bloggerdeepu]

Happy birthday!

They say a brother is a friend given by nature. Yes, he is my first friend and my second father. I absolutely enjoy being his little sister.. We do share our childhood memories.. playing cricket with him was something I always enjoyed and looked forward during my school days. He literally treats me like his younger brother. Sometimes, we don't necessarily say something to each other..we can sit in a room together and just be comfortable in silence & sometimes too much kalla even our mom & dad can't handle. He is my first "bother" indeed 😛 yet first someone to lean on, someone to count on… someone to tell on!Just so you know, he is 5 years older than me...as I grew up with an elder brother, I can get pretty rowdy most of the times, just like him 😝 He has tought me countless things, being independent is one of them which I value a lot. His love and passion towards his work is inexpressible.

His cooking skills will amaze you 😂 & don't get me started with his singing skills guys. He is the only legend after Kishore Kumar 🙉

I hate his bike (I have my own reasons) but I love him. I hate how much intelligent & talented he is but that's what motivates me everyday. I still remember his lecture on career options to my whole class when I was in 12th. My classmates couldn't believe that he is my brother. (Yeah, I was outstanding in mathematics 😂)

He is my best critic. Whatever I am improving everyday, his contribution to that can't be neglected.

You have always pushed me to do something outside the comfort zone, please keep doing it. Most of the times you denied to help me because you wanted me to do things on my own. I remember how much care you took when I was admitted in the hospital. You couldn't see my face with that pain. I still can't forget your face.. looking at me that day with so much concern and love. Thank you for bearing with me and understanding my anger, frustrations, depression, my mood swings and appreciating the food prepared by me 😬😬 I am trying to improve on that front 😭

Well, why I am writing all this... Yes! it's his special day.. but I wish he won't age any farther. I wish time stands still and we stay together more 😭

Bro..you are the world's best brother. You are an awesome friend, guide and teacher in my life. Thanks for being a absolutely wonderful brother. On this special day, I wish you a very happy birthday and may God bless you. Enjoy your day and year ahead.

Never ever be quiet.. keep bugging me, annoying and irritating me...I love you a lot ❤️❤️ Now give me that million dollar smile ☺️😂😍🤗😘😇

P.s Dada mala ek vahini aan.

[fafa-sama]

Fafa’s 2016 Happiness & Goal Achieved!

(got inspired by @mutimutimut post HERE)

So, what did I do last year?

A.R.I.G.A.T.O.U.2.0.1.6.

JANUARY 2016

Meet up with KONSAATO (currently KONSERKU) Startup and plan to bring d-iZe to Indonesia together 

FEBRUARY 2016

MARCH 2016

APRIL 2016

Joshitabi to Japan with Muti! Finally, dreams come true. My savings! Well, at least during my first job, I got the money to travel to Japan! An achievement. It made me understand the concept of saving and a planned finance. 

Met Jusuf Kalla at Shinjuku Gyouen! #sorandom 

d-iZe’s live in Jakarta happened! I was assigned as his interpreter during his press conference. That moment of surprised when I met him for the first time. Someone that I always saw on my computer screen was right in front of me. (And he remembered me when we met again in Yokohama, lol)

Umrah For Beginners book release! My illustration got published!

MAY 2016

Watched MISAENG, and it was really impactful for my life to understand workplace better.

Be an interpreter at Ennichisai 2016, guided Japanese Jazz Pianist and his manager (and we are a neighbor in Japan! So, surprising!)

JUNE 2016

@famufamuid 1st Anniversary! It was a silly and random project with Muti. But we are going to make it into a serious business in the future. Pray! 

JULY 2016

Resigned from my job after 1 year worked there. Working in a startup gave you a nice idea of how the way you should think about money, management, and strategy in real life.

Get LPDP’s Scholarship (after failed at the first attempt)

AUGUST 2016

PK-73 LPDP Family! I never thought I can fell in love with all the people in just a month. Especially for the BEST OPENING OF ALL PKS! Yay for 3 hours speed video mapping making! 

SEPTEMBER 2016

Moved to Japan (accompanied with my Dad) and start my daily master student life in Japan.

OCTOBER 2016

Watch Saito’s Johnny Solo Live and got noticed by him. 

Officially a fan of Katahira Rina.

Got my first credit card, and what a wonderful life did I miss? I can jump even further! 

NOVEMBER 2016

Takezawa Migiwa’s graduation project worldwide. Gave it directly to her. Realized how stupid Kudo was, and how wonderful Wasshuu’s voice is. 

My first autumn! How yellow Keio Hiyoshi’s campus <3 

Participate in KMDForum be as a documentary team and heard a lot of inspiring topic regarding of Tokyo Olympic 2020.

DECEMBER 2016

Produce another work, and sell it at Comiket 91!