#kaisoo love story

[aphrodite1288]

Have Kaiso split up?

I saw their relationship at the manager's wedding ceremony and earlier at Chen's wedding ceremony. They treat each other very coldly

I dont know they seem fine to me, I mean how long ksoo been taking jongin`s arm not letting go only to hold him even tighter like he always does when they`re out tgt walking side by side during their dates.

Also someone please tell them they`re not the ones getting married cause seriously they stole the spotlight from the Groom and bride and it's not nice.

[queenoftsage]

[inarichi]

Hi there! Long time, no see, huh? Is anyone here? It's been a while. I've missed kaisoo. I come with great news today! The lovely Alexio asked me to join her in an author session for Susceptible to You! I got to sit down with her and talk about the story and myself as a writer. There are 2 parts. The first part came out yesterday! and the 2nd part comes out tomorrow! I was really flattered and enjoyed answering her questions. Please check it out, if you have the time! ^^ Podcast Episode

[love-the-most-kaisooficrec]

So good. So gooddddd. https://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/404749/somebody-s-heartbreak

#kaisoo

[athousandbyeol]

thank you for tagging me, @forcebookish <3

1 . How did you get into writing fanfiction?

when i was 15, i had a lot of problems at school. i was in the first class (i wasn't smart, btw. i guess it was luck or misjudgement from the school management) and i received a lot of mental and emotional pressure to be like my other classmates. they were all very bright and i wasn't. so it took a toll on my mental health. i got really bad grades, especially in maths and science. and some of my teachers said very heartbreaking things to me.

i was trying to find a distraction. and that time i was still new in the k-pop fandom. but one day i discovered a kaisoo (exo) fanfic on asianfanfics and i instantly fell in love. i read a lot (A LOT) of kaisoo fanfics after studying. one day, i decided to write my own and it was so cringey ngl hahaha. but it was so fun when people started commenting on it! so i thought, hey, this is so cool. i should just continue doing this because it helped me a lot mentally. i wasn't good in english before (still am not, tbvh) because english isn't my first language. but after reading and writing fanfics, i got an A+ for my exam! and i never got a B ever since. :)

fast forward, i've been writing fanfics for 10 years. <3

2. How many fandoms have you written in?

i think i've written stories for 30+ fandoms? hehe. my most written stories belong to the bad buddy (patpran), only friends (topmew), kinnporsche (vegaspete) and a boss and a babe (guncher) fandom :)

4. Do you read or write more fanfiction?

i write more. i read sometimes. but usually during my free time, i would either write, edit or watch videos and listen to crime/horror podcasts hehe. but i want to read more, though.

5. What is one way you’ve improved as a writer?

i guess... my own voice? i noticed, when i just started writing fanfics, i tended to copy the writing style of an author i liked. but now, i think i have my own distinct writing style. maybe some readers can tell if a story was written by me hehe.

6. What’s the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

i researched about ways to clean corpses for somewhere else (topmew)...

i don't think it's weird, but i researched a lot on polyamorous relationships while writing tell me (topmew). i also did a bit of research on situationship when i wrote maybe we and not us (also topmew).

topmew really made me do a lot of reading and researching hehe.

7. What’s your favorite type of comment to receive on your work?

i personally like when readers highlight their favourite lines or parts from the story. i think it's the best type of comment. but i appreciate any kind of comment i get because they're treasures i'll cherish for a lifetime. :)

8. What’s the most fringe trope/topic you write about?

i don't know if this isn't mainstream, but i wrote about prostitution (come home/topmew). in the story, top worked as a part-time prostitute while being in a stable relationship with mew. mew knew top's working as an escort, but he was so supportive of top and loved him the same.

i was trying to show that sex workers are also human beings and they deserve to be loved. i guess i was hoping readers (and myself) could change the stereotype we have against prostitutes/sex workers because not all of them do this for pleasure. most of them do it because of survival. i watched a short documentary on sex work in the philippines and was inspired to write this story. they're so strong and admirable. :)

9. What is the hardest type of story for you to write?

smut. i can't write smut. i swear. i've been trying for years but i just can't write it well. and i don't really like writing this genre (?) in particular... i think i'm also weak at writing dialogues and dialogue tags. it's so hard :(

10. What is the easiest type?

descriptive, narrative and emotive. i'm comfortable writing in this style and i consider it as one of my strengths :)

11. Where do you do your writing? What platform? When?

i usually write in my room, on my bed or on the floor. i write all my stories on grammarly because as i mentioned, i'm not a native english speaker so grammarly helps a lot with basic grammar mistakes. there's no fixed time, honestly. usually, i'll write whenever i'm inspired. but mostly, it's at night (between 10 to 3 am) and morning (5 to 8 am). and i'll always listen to music when i'm writing. ^^

12. What is something you’ve been too nervous/intimidated to write, but would love to write one day?

i have a plan to write an original story with forcebook and jimmysea as the main cast this year. but looking at the things i have to do upcoming semester (dissertation and candidature defence), i'm afraid of the time limitation. everything is already planned out. i just have to write the story down. but time isn't on my side these days. so i'll just probably stick to writing one-shots in the meantime. but i really hope i can make this idea happen someday :(

13. What made you choose your username?

athousandbyeol is actually a play on 'a thousand stars'. i really loved p'aof's a tale of a thousand stars so my usernames (youtube, twitter, ko-fi and tumblr) are based on that :)

wordsbythesundown is my pen name ^^ i used this for my instagram and my second blog ^^ (and because i really love sunsets hehe)

i don't know who to tag so... anyone who sees this, feel free to join the fun :)

[kaisooficpodcast]

Chasing Summer Skies by and with rainepaige08

I am Alexio Sospranio and you’re listening to the kaisoo fic podcast!

For new listeners welcome, welcome to the show. The kaisoo fic podcast is a space where we discuss literature found in the kaisoo world. Where we have authors on the show to give them a platform to talk about their writings and journey as an author in the fandom. 

This episode there will be some reference to the previous episode with rainepaige08. If you have not, do check that episode out as well, but this episode can also be a stand alone episode, just that listeners who have gone through the previous episode with Raine will be able to see more or less where we are coming from. Raine is also the very first guest we had on the show, so having this episode together again is very meaningful. 

Without further ado, ladies and gays and of the like, let us give a warm welcome to Ms Raine Paige!

Welcome Raine, thank you for becoming a returning guest on the kaisoo fic podcast show. We are very pleased to have you with us this evening.

Before we begin proper, do you have any opening comments you would like to make?

Thank you for having me here again and hopefully I’m more relaxed now than last time.

Pleasure is mine, i know we are more comfortable now that we have talked a bit more both on the twitter dms and discord voice chats, so I do agree that this episode will be more enjoyable as well. 

Raine. yes? Shall we dive into the episode! We shall! We start with the fic.

Intro to Fic

Chasing Summer Skies is celebrating its 5th year anniversary since it was first posted. Congratulations on that Raine! Chasing Summer Skies is an ongoing, currently at the point of recording it has 11k words in 3 chapters on ao3. For those eager to go through the fic, it is complete as a tweetfic on Raine’s twitter account, rainepaige08.

I think what is really precious about moving tweetfics to ao3 is that there seems to be more flexibility and leeway for there to be commentary on the setting, premise and perspectives. Mainly because of the word limit on each tweet, you are sort of confined to the few sentences. So first question of the evening, I would like to hear from you and your choice of transferring your Chasing Summer Skies to ao3. Why did you make the decision to move?

In the past, the decision was just to transfer it word per word from the tweetfic for me to have a copy of my story since it is hard to scroll on the app. But I tried to reread it and with the improvements on my writing over the course of 5 years, I realized there are scenes I could have written better hence why new narrations are added.

Indeed it is hard to scroll on the app. Fic reading becomes more satisfying and the storyline becomes more put together in full potential on ao3 as compared to it being as tweetfics. But being on the app does have its merits as well, especially in gaining reactions and ending each update on the thread with a cliffhanger that makes readers eager to read the next update.

Our first episode together you mentioned you’ve been writing since your first year in collage back in 2011. So that brings us to you writing for a good 13 years. Have any other of your fics been rewritten with an updated plot as well? 

A Familiar Face, which is the CEO AU, was also rewritten and new narrations were added but not to this extent. Maybe I just felt this itch when I am rereading the tweetfic after 5yrs that I want the scenes to be more vivid and their feelings to be expressed more.

Ah yes, Familiar Face, of course! 

As a reader, okay ill speak for myself, this fic is hard to forget. And to me it is very heartwarming to know that you still love it enough to rewrite scenes and breathe new and more life into it.

Let’s continue by talking about the tweetfic, the plot breakdown or the events that happened in the fic.

Raine, would you like to briefly talk a bit on the fic for those who may not be familiar?

Chasing Summer Skies is a story about Jongin, an event photographer and Kyungsoo, a wedding coordinator who met during Summer and had a summer love affair. However, what they didn’t know is that Jongin's girlfriend is Kyungsoo’s sister which he would eventually help plan the wedding.

What a premise to start with… by itself, even without knowing too much of the plot, you know it is gonna be angst and heartache. The question is how deep are we getting into it. More of that in a bit. 

So in the first few scenes, what brings our two lovers together?

It starts with Kyungsoo finding out that his room was double booked and now occupied. But suddenly a stranger approached him and by weird fate; it was the person staying in his room. The man introduced himself as Jongin and offered that they share the room instead. That’s the starting point of how they spent the summer together and got to know each other, to which they would eventually fall in love during the short trip. 

Pacing and Difference between the tweetfic n ao3

Things happen in the fic quite quickly, so much so that Kyungsoo asks himself, i quote:  “Could you fall in love with someone you only met for a week?” He knows the answer but just doesn't want to admit it. With that, will the pacing change now that you're moving it to ao3? Or maybe let me rephrase - generally what is the biggest thing that readers will see differently in this 5th year anniversary of Chasing Summer Skies?

The pacing of how they fell in love would still be fast, since I wanted the readers to doubt too if it was possible to genuinely fall in love with someone in just a few weeks. I like how it begs the question if it was just a spur of the moment thing or not. What the readers will see differently in this version is how Jongin’s and Kyungsoo’s connection were built. I mentioned in one of my posts that I want to build up their happy moments before the chaos would start. So, there would be additional scenes to watch out for. 

Okay good good we as readers do want to see more happy kaisoo moments. Even in the tweetfic we have happy moments in the beginning… but then after Kyungsoo’s return from the vacation, it drastically turns to, i quote what Min says in the very end of the fic that she saw the yearning, love and sadness combined when they would look at each other. 

Inspiration

Now having brought up Min, a question Raine, when you first thought of the fic, what was the very first relationship dynamic you had in mind or a scene that popped as inspiration in your head? Was it Jongin and Min’s relationship or the summer fling or could be neither of the options.

My first thought was “i want a kaisoo but one of them is in a relationship” so like an infidelity fic since I want to challenge myself to something more…controversial? questionable?. Since I think the plot of Infidelity is something that is being frowned upon until now. 

Next that I thought of is Min being Kyungsoo’s twin but I think there are already a lot of fics with that concept so I decided for her to be his sister instead. After that, I thought of a way for them to have a connection. I don’t want the connection that Kaisoo has to be on the summer trip so that’s when I thought of a videographer and an event coordinator and Kyungsoo being Min’s brother, she would definitely ask help plan her and Jongin’s wedding

Infidelity.

Min Kyungsoo’s twin? No, too many twins written. Someone very close to Kyungsoo.

Job connection

Min connection to Jongn

Connection to not be just as a summer fling

Kyungsoo be Min’s brother who happens to be a wedding planner for Min and Jongin’s wedding so that

Kyungsoo can still be in the picture

Similar question to the one I just asked on inspiration because I do want to know a bit more on your author’s choice. When you start a story, how much is already figured out? I will break this question into two sections, one for the tweetfic and one for the ao3 version. 

Inspiration - tweetfic (breakdown while writing for plot)

In our previous episode you mentioned that you had the start and ending in mind specifically for the CEO AU and this fic. As you were writing the tweetfic, what kind of outline did you have or were you exploring their backgrounds, relationship dynamics and oncoming conflicts at the same time as you write?

It was quite different from the CEO AU since I only have the start in mind and up until Chanyeol was introduced. I also have in mind what the ending is and the character’s relationship dynamics and major conflicts. but everything after that point, I would then gauge the reader’s reaction on the twitfic. Part of it was actually if the fic would still be a kaisoo end game or would it change to chansoo since there are a handful of readers that are question the flow of the story at the middle.

What was in mind was just the beginning of the fic to the first time Chanyeol was introduced. And the ending. Possible relationship dynamics and major conflicts. 

Because it was a tweetfic and there are live reactions, it is a good gauge of their feedback. There was a point where readers started to question if the fic was going to change to chansoo end game, which got some readers fired up and questioning. 

What were those relationship dynamics or conflicts that you prioritized to push the plot?

though i did get a lot of feedbacks from people, I still decided on a kaisoo ending. Another would be the decision to push through with Min and Jongin getting married. 

In the tweetfic version of Chasing Summer Skies, were there any specific moments you wanted to see expanded on or did you see potential generally throughout the fic that you thought could be explored in more detail?

What I noticed first is how little are Jongin’s pov on the fic so I wanted to build Jongin’s character at the start since I think that’s the portion I failed to expound on the tweetfic since it is mostly Kyungsoo’s pov. Wanted to expand on Jongin’s POV because there were a lot of negative views on Jongin. Did not to justice to why Jongin did certain things to kaisoo’s relationship because it was mainly Kyungsoo’s POV so there was no insights to Jongin’s actions.

We do indeed see more of Jongin’s POV already in the first chapter where he goes out for his run and admires Kyungsoo’s sleeping face. 

Another portion I wanted to expound on is chansoo’s relationship and the difference between Kyungsoo when he is with Jongin vs with Chanyeol. 

That is a lot of moments for us to discover, we are very excited for that.

Inspiration - ao3 (develop scrapped or new plot devices)

You did mention in our previous episode that you had the start and ending in mind but changed the scenes halfway and even scrapped some ideas. With you now transferring the fic on ao3, are you planning to develop all the scenes you scraped in the tweetfic or are there new points of the narrative you would like to bring to the readers? 

One scene I scraped which was added is Kyungsoo visiting Jongin’s workroom (this would be updated this week). It would give the readers a little backstory for Jongin and how he loves his work. 

Min “photography is a hobby” but as Kyungsoo visits Jongin in his workroom, readers get to see that Jongin genuinely loves his job.

When you mentioned you will be adding how readers will see Jongin loving his job and Kyungsoo witnessing it, I don't know why but a moment that comes to mind is a scene a week before the wedding. Min invites Kyungsoo to her birthday dinner where Jongin defends Kyungsoo against his homophobic father. Somehow thinking about the dinner scene, and hopefully when reading this new scene, we get to see how kaisoo are able to relate to each other on a very vulnerable level. They feel like they are both misunderstood and undervalued. Kyungsoo with his father’s disapproval and Min’s distaste towards Jongin’s work. 

Another new scene would be with chansoo since before I am scared of building up their part in the story since I know most of my readers have preference over kaisoo, but I feel like that scene would be essential to add. 

For the plot, I definitely do agree that chansoo moments are essential to add. Right now with the tweetfic it may seem like just kaisoo moments with a sprinkle of chansoo. The nature of this fic… it is heavy angst for kaisoo, it would definitely be nice to see more light hearted moments for chansoo to balance things out. Because we were hinted at the fact that chansoo do spend a lot of time together, so it is definitely important to add.

I will talk more about kaisoo vs other ships in fics on the next episode for the one year anniversary of the podcast because this is something I'm passionate about, basically championing for fic writers. But for now i would just like to say that it is sad to know that people have a strong preference for kaisoo so much so that they will not accept any other pairing… But it is for the plot… Having as you said, Raine wants to expound on the difference between Kyungsoo when he is with Jongin vs when he is with Chanyeol. Chansoo’s dynamics is dramatically significant to bring the plot forward. And it also makes kaisoo’s relationship all the more precious and important for Kyungsoo.

Impact

The things that happen between Kyungsoo’s return and Min’s passing, can be quite… distressing. Mainly because there are many times where we readers… okay for me at least, would want closure for Kyungsoo, but then a misstep happens. They fall back on each other, then they are back to square one again where Jongin is with Min and Kyungsoo is heartbroken. It is very anxiety inducing because how many times can his heart take this sting of rejection only to be met with desperation to want to love and be loved again? That is my feelings as a reader, but share with us how writing out these scenes impact you in any way? 

I can actually still recall how emotional I felt writing those scenes. and as a person who easily cries, yes I am crying while writing most of those scenes. I wanted the emotions to be felt through the words and I wanted the readers to feel the same frustration that Kyungsoo feels as his heart is being pushed and pulled and played over and over again. I want every heartache to feel raw and relatable.

You want every heartache to feel raw and relatable, Raine, what insights have you gained upon writing Chasing Summer Skies?

I learned from this fic that I love writing emotional scenes. Emotional struggle of the characters. I also started to build more complex characters like Jongin that there are reasons why people did what they did. 

I like that, the emotional struggle where there are complex human emotions. It is true to life. There are choices taken because of miscalculated steps and different priorities. 

People disagreed with what Jongin did, but I also learned to not be pressured by expectations of the readers and to stick to your end goal. 

The main struggle I had was with chansoo’s relationship. On the surface level they may seem happy, but if you dig deeper, we see that there are different types of love and you meet people at a certain part of your life to help you navigate through it. I think that is what Chanyeol is to Kyungsoo. He made Kyungsoo feel safe. He was the one who tried to push Kyungsoo forward when he was lost. 

But at the same time, you see Kyungsoo going back to Jongin over and over again and at some point Chanyeol realized that needed to be the one to put an end to their relationship. 

Chanyeol’s intention on sticking around Kyungsoo was to put a genuine smile back on Kyungsoo’s face. But I sometimes cannot believe that they almost got married, but again, as you said, different types of love. With Chanyeol it is always safe, but it was not the love that Kyungsoo wanted. Chanyeol needed to be the one to end things especially after it was confirmed through Baekhyun’s intervention that Kyungsoo does not love Chanyeol.

What scene are you most excited for readers to read? If you have, could you read to us listeners a snippet of it?

The extract i will be reading is the part of the wedding in Kyungsoo’s POV

The music played and Kyungsoo watched as Jongin walked towards where the officiant was.

Just one look. Just look at me once, Jongin, and it would be my cue to stop this. Please..

Kyungsoo told himself as the other entourage walked on the aisle. It was Min's turn and Kyungsoo fought the urge to look away as he saw Jongin smiling at his bride.

The ceremony started and the couple exchanged their vows, but Kyungsoo still waited.He still hoped for that sign. For that one glance from Jongin.

But it never came.

The ceremony was concluded and Jongin and Min are now announced as husband and wife.

But Kyungsoo still waited.

Until the reception, Kyungsoo's eyes never left Jongin. Even when Chanyeol checked if he's okay, he still stared at him. Hoping, still hoping, that Jongin would look his way. 

The reception was about to end with Min and Jongin leaving for their honeymoon.

Kyungsoo finally gave up.

He said thank you to his assistant and said sorry that he needs to leave the venue. He walked towards Chanyeol and tapped the man's shoulder. The musician looked at him and nodded as he already knew what it meant.

As Kyungsoo walked towards the hotel, he failed to see Jongin looking back at him before the man left.

One last look.

I want to repeat this line for my own sake because it is just devastating: Kyungsoo fought the urge to look away as he saw Jongin smiling at his bride.

A very definitive moment for Kyungsoo happens right before the extract you just read, where chansoo are in the hotel and Chanyeol comforts Kyungsoo by saying he does not have to be at the ceremony, but Kyungsoo persists on and says: "No. I want him to take that path while knowing I am there witnessing it. That even after knowing that it would shatter me, he would still do it."

That moment is an example of how their love is a love at the wrong time. 

Yea, and this happens after Kyungsoo’s proposal to: "Meet me at the airport at 4am tomorrow. I'll book a flight. I'll do anything. I'll find a way to escape."

Kyungsoo looked at Jongin's eyes and held his cheek as he added,

"Just say yes."

This is his final ace. The last card that Kyungsoo could gamble on.

Raine, what a line… what a moment, desperate but hopeful Kyungsoo… it is too hard to read. 

It shows that Kyungsoo did all that he can for Jongin to pick him… despite all that, Jongin still chose to be with Min. 

And hence Kyungsoo is persistently fighting the urge to look away from Jongin because he wants Jongin to take the path knowing that it will shatter Kyungsoo’s whole being. And Min knows that. Wait no she knew after they got married and when Kyungsoo left the country. When Jongin heard that Kyungsoo left, he broke down and told Min everything about their relationship. 

I just want to remind readers that Min understands why Kyungsoo wants to stop the wedding but she also knows that Kyungsoo will choose Min’s happiness because she is the only one that understands him in their family. 

Thank you for sharing, i think I speak for listening readers that we are very eager and excited to read that point in the narrative when it comes.

What is your favorite comment of all time, something you always think about when you're in a lull and unmotivated to write?

“It’s been quite some time since I last delved into the world of Kaisoo fanfiction, but recently, I stumbled upon this latest work of yours. As I immersed myself in your storytelling once again, I couldn’t help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. Your writing still carries the same emotional depth and authenticity that first captivated me years ago.

Your fanfictions always hit me right in the feels, and reading this fanfic (eventho it’s an angst) made me miss Kaisoo even more. I just wanted to thank you for all the amazing stories you’ve shared over the years. You’ve got serious talent!”

Before we end things, dear Raine, do you have any other comments or running thoughts we did not cover today you want to share with us listeners?

It was really nice to be able to talk about this fic after 5 yrs as I think it was one of my hidden gems among those I wrote.

A fic that i always want to go back to when i need a good cry from life. 

Wow, an angsty fic as a comfort fic. But yea i do agree we need to cathartically express our feelings in reading a good fic that knows how to make us cry. 

Thank you for providing this platform to authors and artists to discuss their craft and our love for kaisoo. 

It is my greatest pleasure to be able to celebrate your mastery in this craft you have chosen to do. We share this joy together. 

Dear listener, the link to the author’s ao3 and twitter profile will be given below in the notes section. And with that ladies and gays and of the like, we have come to the end of today’s episode. 

Do keep a lookout for next month's episode because oh my! it will be the one year anniversary of the kaisoo fic podcast show! Can you believe that listeners… One year… im so touched, happy and relieved that people tune in and enjoy the show. Next month’s episode would be like a review of the past year’s episodes. 

New episodes either every 13th of the month or 12th and 14th, special kaisoo dates, of course.

To reach me, i am kaisooficdrunk on twitter and if you want you can drop me questions on my curious cat you can do so with the same username. There will also be another link that brings you to my tumblr blog with the transcription for today's episode. There you can also find the other scripts for other episodes as well.

Thank you for listening, have a good day, dear kaisooist, and we look forward to next month’s episode. Stay tuned.

[sehodreamsthoughts]

heeseung underground fighting NOOOO he’s getting his ass beat!!!

also i wanted to be a street racer as a kid because of that one kaisoo fic i read as a tween💀💀💀 js

um .. thoughts are being thunk… need criminal!enhypen asap!! i like the jewelry theft omgg heists are my favourite thing🤭🤭🫣 and white collar crimes.. makes me think of white collar the show… art thieves!enha??? also.. burglary makes me think of that don’t breathe movie and like.. fratboys!enha or smth committing burglaries to pay off student loans and getting more than they bargained for.. stalker is it’s own thing but i’ve been thinking about kidnapping, etc lately😬😬

i’ve been thinking about horror aus again too and i wanna write or at least brainstorm like.. a slasher fic.. if u know what i mean, like not exactly this but basically like cabin in the woods au

- 🥟 anon

It's exactly because of the kaisoo fics that i can't say I dislike race aus hahaha (when I was a kid I wanted to be a mob boss lol)

I ALSO LIKED THE JEWELRY THEFT, i think there could be a great fic out of it 😭, and ART THIEVES!ENHA SOUNDS GREAT OMG I WOULD LOVE TO READ HOW THEY PLAN EVERYTHING, MAYBE JAKE WOULD BE THE NERD BOY THEY CONTACT TO GET THROUGH SECURITY AND HEESUNG WOULD BE THE FACE OF THE OPERATION AND OMG NIKI WOULD DISGUISE AS A SECURITY GUY I CAN'T STOP THINKING AHHHHHH

Don't breathe was like my obsession because the blind old man was kind of cute... (who am I kidding he was fucking hot, those arms, I don't care he's older than my dad I would let him hit it every day of the week... don't judge me please) 😭😭😭

Hahaha I love all your ideas, and oh god i love slasher fiction 😭, i tried to make one but it was so mid (yeah I'm talking about last day surprises)... I couldn't portray well the anxiety a reader should feel when she's about to die, or make a better chasing scene, but if you have any idea I'd love to read about it! HOWEVER, I have to warn you that I'm kind of weird. I'm always a hopeless romantic even in the worst cases, I don't like slasher aus in which the killer is into a bunch of victims (unless the smut and plot are still good, well no I might like them even if they aren't by other's standards because I really read everything and I always find a little something in each story). Well, the point is, If he's going to kill me, I want to be special, I want him to think only about me, to be his person, for them to be obsessed with my existence, to the point that if he's about to kill other people, it's because of me, not just the desire of taking lives, I don't want to be simply one more victim, or a victim of a man without passion and thoughts, I want him to analyse me, to see me as much as he can, to take everything I could give, so I have to be the only person in his eyes or I'll fucking grab the knife and twist it in his balls (only in fiction of course, and yeah, okay, that whole paragraph definitely sounds fucking weird but in my head it makes sense okay? 😭).

[suuho]

i’d also like to mention that the dynamics within exo seem to have changed as more members are done with service. obviously i don’t know these people & we only see what’s on camera but it seems like a lot of the ships/pairings aren’t as close as they used to be while other pairings seem to have gotten closer. like sehun even admitted in recent japan content that he doesn’t have all that much in common with junmyeon, and chanyeol saying he likes post-military junmyeon more. i don’t wanna say i think some members are growing apart per se, but with so many different personalities in one group, i think it could be just a case of them doing their own thing i.e solo stuff. sukai’s been getting a lot of love this year, though. i’ll never forget the story of junmyeon promising jongin’s parents that he would take care of him :((( and they have really good chemistry despite being polar opposites lol and i’ve always thought subaek had chemistry, too, but i’m just rambling now lol. sorry!

i love that we're seeing more of sesoo and of soochen, too! it's so lovely to see kyungsoo be so openly affectionate with his members, he would have never done that to that extent before. he is very open to receiving affection now. same goes with chansoo; they've always been close but i think it was super obvious how much they missed each other in hindsight. my heart twists inside my chest when i think about how much chanyeol and kyungsoo love and cherish each other, and how that respect seems to only have grown in the past 3 years. i feel like their bond has gotten stronger; maybe absence really makes the heart grow fonder?

sehun and junmyeon... oh, good god. the funniest thing is how they were GLUED to each other during junmyeon's enlistment, and how sehun actually moved back into the dorm last year to stay with junmyeon, lol. i love their back and forth, it seems like they are a little less codependent these days, and that also comes with maturity. i think it was probably also a conscious decision, considering sehun's enlistment. this guy has been spoiled rotten by the exos for 12 years, he needs a break.

what i love is jongin and jongdae!! it is so sad that we can't see more of them; i feel like sm pairing them together for events after jongdae's discharge was such a good choice to create a safe space, and jonginis so, so supportive of jongday and vice versa. back in the day, it was way more cbx-focused, i feel. it's cute to see jongdae with the maknaes in general, you can totally tell he is a dad.

junmyeon and baekhyun always had TONS of chemistry, they just rarely hung out, or we rarely saw them together. i actually talked about that with ana a lot. it's an average taurus/gemini relationship tho, they naturally just get along really well with each other. (also, how cute are suyeol!!!!!!!!! chanyeol respects junmyeon SO much, chanyeol in general is desperately needed in exo. not only as a mood maker but also because he is naturally affectionate.)

(i don't care about chanbaek whatsover lmao and neither do i care about kaisoo... i feel like people got too crazy and keep interpreting things that are definitely NON-EXISTENT in these relationships. it's like with the popular svt ships, lol. makes me think of verkwan.)

and, boy, don't get me STARTED on kyungmyeon... we used to live off CRUMBS.

[inhalcyonity]

Roleplay Ad!

Hello everyone!

Here I am, looking for some EXO roleplay! As tagged, I am looking for a Chanbaek/Baekyeol roleplay. It does not mean I’m not opened to other couples as well, but my main focus is finding someone to RP this beautiful pair that is Chanyeol and Baekhyun.

Now, I do tend to roleplay Chanyeol a lot more than I do Baekhyun, but if you would like to take on this giant, go ahead, I do not mind at all. Here is a short laundry list before you keep reading:

It is very important to me that you are legal [18+]. I will not be roleplaying mature content with people below the age of 20. I am a little older myself and it tends to make me uncomfortable.

I have been writing for years. If it is a one-liner roleplay you are looking for, I do not believe we will be a good match. I am looking for someone who is semi-lit at the very least!

I am generally a very active person, but I do have a full time job and full time obligations as well. If this rings a bell, welcome to the adult world ahah. A reply a day (and more) does go a long way!

I am back to GMT-5. Not that it really matters but it’s always good to be aware of this! I usually RP on Discord.

If you think you qualify, I’m certain we can be great friends :) Now, on to the very serious talk: what is it I’m really looking for?

A Chanbaek roleplay. Very simply. I WILL consider other couples as well, but I am a bit .. picky: Kaisoo, Hunhan and Suchen are a welcomed addition to the Chanbaek party!

I love to explore different genres from contemporary to fantasy - to my beloved MAMA AUs, I literally roleplay anything. My preference is yours, literally.

I love to plot. Obviously, I’m not seeking every precocious details but I like to have an idea of the overall story and scenes. It does not have to be extensive, but a little hint will give us both something to look forward to. :)

[20+] I am definitely opened to smut but I rarely, if ever, rp pwp. I am certain we can find a way to add it to a more polished storyline.

If in the end, something tickles yours fancy and you decide to send me a message, I will gladly reply! Come and say hello, I don’t bite, I promise ahah. For the people who are a little more shy or want to role play Chanbaek, but have no idea where to start, I have a few plots in mind.

A MAMA AU akin to Avatar: TLAB (I’m looking at you all Zodiac readers of the past). I’m not seeking something that’s exactly the same but the abilities; the grand adventure; the literal gay fellowship all sound really good in my head. [Epic/Fantasy]

A dystopian AU in which abilities are present, but outlawed by society. Opposites-ish attract. [YA/Fight for the greater good]

A bridesmaid AU in which A meets B (a groomsman) during their sister’s wedding. [Romance]

A college AU in which A and B are part of rival acapella groups. Road to fame was never easy but it is even less so when you fall for the singer you’re supposed to hate. [Ennemies to Lover]

These are just examples of ideas that live in my head. Obviously, you can come and discuss a completely different concept. I’m opened to anything!

If you made it to the end, thank you and congrats!! I don’t have cookies, but I do offer loads of Chanbaek. It’s waiting for you, just a like or a message away~

[zkdlinnie]

Me : Blocked everyone that mentioned jxk or kxk even them are my bestfrinds !

#literally i blocked my bff because of that

[aphrodite1288]

Ksoo pulling all the Gay in Men since 1993, even older ones,

No one can blame Ji for staring into Ksoo's soul.

I was told that Ji told someone before that Ksoo loves to be praised which is why he always praises him 🤗 to see him giggle and blush.

[queenoftsage]

When the story played out the other way...

JongSoo was quietly reading a book, when suddenly someone rang the doorbell. 'I'll get it!' The tiny boy piped cheerily, as he quickly got up to see who was there.

Outside their door stood a very nervous JongIn. Would KyungSoo remember him? Would he need to explain why he had disappeared? Would KyungSoo still recognize him, or even accept him? These thoughts disappeared immediately when he heard noise behind the door.

It[the door] opened slowly... Oh who was this? JongIn's eyes widened when he realized something right on the spot.

The little child looked up with curiosity, and before JongIn could ask him for KyungSoo, said man could be heard behind the door speaking to the child, "JongSoo, let your father in."

The little child's ears perked up at this and he looked even more amused at the man in front of him, "Appa?" He asked quietly.

JongIn was stunned.

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[Notes: The story's always been JongSoo[The KaiSoo Lovechild] has always been with JongIn and is always having conversations with his father about the person that will come into their lives. He talks about the dreams he has of this person and how they will be manifesting in their lives. The person, of course being KyungSoo.

Switched up, KyungSoo is always taking care of JongSoo and has been doing so since the child was born. The fun part is that JongIn didn't even know he was a father.

P.S. These thoughts were always scattered Fanfic material, until I turned it into a video. Don't know if I'll ever re-do or re-upload that video on my FailTube ever, but that was the gist of it. KaiSoo are parents in a very crazy chaotic super powered world where anything and everything is possible. Actually there is a re-upload, but given that I didn't explain anything about the video to outsiders looking in it might just look like a random fanvid with strangely related images.

The video I'm talking about actually had a narrative and I was telling a story. I'm not sure if I will re-upload that ever again. That's what I meant. Maybe if I can think of a full story from start to finish.... Maybe we can do a re-upload. Other than that... I was just thinking of this and also wanted to use the gifs again.]

[aphrodite1288]

Jongin to Kyungsoo every 2 minutes.

[kaisooficpodcast]

Pride by and with yeolimerent

I am Alexio Sospranio and you’re listening to the kaisoo fic podcast!

For new listeners, the kaisoo fic podcast is a space where we discuss literature found in the kaisoosphere. Where we have authors on the show to give them a platform to talk about their writings and journey as an author in the fandom. 

This month we are looking at one fic for two episodes. First part was on the 12th, and today the second episode for the same fic is on the 14th. Special kaisoo dates!

If you, dear listener, have been up to date with the podcast episodes, you will find that there will be similar questions to other author’s sessions. Each author brings in their own different perspectives and experiences. By asking similar questions, we get to see how diverse yet united kaisoo fic writers are.

The sequence in which we will be having this episode is as such:

Firstly we have yeolimerent introducing the fic of the day, followed by some plot based questions, next some questions on their journey as a writer. Then we end with the 3is: lesson learnt; source of inspiration and impact to the kaisoo fic community.

I also got about four questions from an anon on curious cat, so I will be weaving the questions into the appropriate segments of the episode.  

Cover Art

Now, prior to me giving the author of the day these questions, I asked yeolimerent what is their favorite scene from Pride. And when they responded, luckily Lyn was still doing commissions… so i asked her. One more, just one more!

Thank you Lyn for opening up commissions and being accommodating to my requests!

In the podcast cover art… we have kaisoo on a beach. This scene is not a reimagined scene, it is from one of the last few moments of Pride where kaisoo reconcile.

Context from the fic for this particular position kaisoo is in takes almost directly from the fic itself.

Intro to author 

With permission of the author, I have reader Jie with me today, who will be taking the persona of yeolimerent. 

Introducing a bit on yeolimerent:

yeolimerent has been in this fandom since (2013), that’s about (11 years). The pull factor that got her into this fandom was always Chanyeol and EXO showtime in general, when she was in high school and everyone was getting into EXO. Journey with kaisoo started ever since she could remember and had always been inspired by their chemistry. yeolimerent is currently focused on EXO right now. She’s also into a lot of queer artists and media. 

Welcome, yeolimerent, thank you for your time in answering the questions for today’s session. 

Thanks for having me!

Yeolimeret. yes? Shall we dive into the episode! We shall! We start with the fic.

Pride

Pride by yeolimerent has 33 chapters with about 300 thousand words. Set in a universe where Kyungsoo is a chaebol and gets entangled with his driver. Lust, bitterness and heartache develops over the course of several chapters. Content warnings include smut (bottomsoo), I think one scene of dubious consent, and minor character deaths. 

Now, yeolimerent, would you maybe like to start us off for those who are not familiar, what is Pride about?

The initial plan was always to make a Seven Deadly Sins series starring major EXO ships and KaiSoo would be Pride. I just had this big interest in rich-poor au when it came to kaisoo and this felt like the perfect opportunity to do it. Another factor was the idea of a younger Jongin falling for an older Kyungsoo and looking up to him in a way. 

Pride is heavily Kyungsoo’s side of the story and how his world turned upside down in a span of a decade— from being one of the richest people in the country to owing millions of debts and then his poor first love who broke his heart turning into one of the most powerful men in the country who now has the upper hand on him. Here, we see him build and ruin relationships with other people in his life. We see how drastically things can change in a span of eight years, and how a lot of them also stay the same.

It’s basically his very complex journey of self-discovery and well… pride. 

Pride literally starts with a bang. And I love it. The first chapter titled Prologue, readers are met with a very high tension chapter where Kyungsoo is angry and Jongin exudes danger. It is a very gripping scene. I am curious as to why you began the fic with a scene from the climax of the plot? 

To be honest, this was the very FIRST scene that i came up with for Pride. It was my starting point. So what happened here would be the basis for the majority of what I wrote so it was very vital to the story. I guess I wanted the readers to read it first and think “Oh, what could’ve happened between them?” and “where do we go from here?” so it is the perfect prologue for the story.

The prologue scene is indeed very… you can get overwhelmed. And you did warn the readers to say that this is an intense and complicated fic, but I am super thankful that I continued to read and that i​​ stuck through the whole thing. 

Walk us through the chronology of you piecing up the plot. How did the pieces come to play after setting the prologue? Was it a bit overarching idea first or specific scenes coming in slowly piecing it all up?

For the chapter, I wasn’t much of a planner when I was writing Pride compared to how I am now as a writer. So every chapter came to me randomly, no outline and all. I just had this vague idea of what I would want to happen in that chapter and how I wanted to wrap it up, and then things just unfold from there depending on my inspiration. That’s probably a factor why the fic was so long because I couldn’t control it haha!

Wow, chapter coming up randomly with no outline… 

Wait, what about that tiny detail in the chapters before the 8 years apart happened, before the presentation? The tiniest bit of information, the carelessness of Kyungsoo leaving his blueprint in the room without much thought… was that also not fully planned? Because only at almost the very end was it revealed that his carelessness plus Soojung’s sly personality cost him a lot of things. That tiny detail became one of the most important points of the story that pushed Kyungsoo to be off the grid. 

As a reader, we also did not give it much thought because that moment was also brief. I guess my question now becomes… how intentional was your choice to have Kyungsoo not give too much thought to his work?

Yes. I wanted to convey that everyone had some sort of fault for what happened. Kyungsoo as a kid was meant to be careless and impulsive, and thats what got him in trouble. I intentionally made him spoiled and imposing to raise a bit of intrigue because he was, after all, still a chaebol kid. I wanted people to see how he treated people like Soojung unprovoked and think “did he deserve it?”

A question from my curious cat reads: if Jongin and Kyungsoo had met on Kyungsoo birthday in the bar, what would have happened? I was like omg Jongin turn and face Kyungsoo!!! Jongin turn around damn itttt :(

Ohh. I dont think that would be that productive as well because Kyungsoo would do what he did best, which was of course— to run. LMAO.

Surprising moments

Previous episode I asked the readers about the element in the plot that surprised them.

There were generally two main points on how Pride really grabs the reader’s attention. First shocking point for Pride was how readers were shocked at your choice yeolimerent, the writer’s choice. Of having Seonho be Kyungsoo’s buddy as they travel to New York and become the best of friends.

One of my most favorite things about Pride was Kyungsoo and Seonho’s very unconventional relationship. It was always the part that caught people off guard hahaha. I like the fact that when you read the first few chapters, Seonho would be the last person in the universe you’d expect to be Kyungsoo’s rock during the hardest days of his life but it happened anyway. It was also vital to his relationship with Jongin because a lot of jealousy stemmed from his past relationship with Seonho and it was very fun to watch unfold because Jongin was busting a vein while everything between them was platonic.

Seonho and Kyungsoo’s relationship is definitely unconventional. Related is another question from my curious cat for your fic. The question is: did Seonho really get his closure with Kyungsoo? Even though they both moved on with their lives, whenever I read Seonho and Kyungsoo’s part in New York I always had this weird anxiety about what if they cross the line of friendship. But they never did. They kept it cute, I loved it and Seonho’s character development was crazy! I wish I had a Seonho in my life too… So again the question is, did Seonho really get his closure with Kyungsoo?

I didnt really want to be so explicit about it. To me, they didnt have to sit down and have a lengthy talk about their relationship before running away together. I think that scene in the bar where their simple conversation about running away from their families became their closure in some sort because it was definite that no romance was left. Simple a trauma bond and the desperation to live their similarly miserable lives at home.

It also put emphasis on the concept of forgiveness because while Kyungsoo hated Seonho’s guts during college, it showed that he was SOOO heartbroken from Jongin to find solace on his ex and their shared trauma with their dads. It was enough to rebuild their relationship into a different, but stronger one.

Thank you for touching on the point of forgiveness. We see a lot of that here in the many relationships we explore in the fic. I think almost every pair baeksoo, chanbaek, kaibaek, has an element of forgiveness because of how much the characters have each hurt each other. 

A pairing brought up in the previous episode was Baekhyun and Kyungsoo. Right before Kyungsoo leaves, you can tell that Baekhyun felt a void in his heart after their conversation. Then a while after Kyungsoo goes back to Korea, we witness that scene where Kyungsoo talks to Baekhyun and when, i quote: his words tugged in his most fragile spot, chapter 26 titled Make It Up To You, is a sincere Kyungsoo who wants to help Baekhyun. This scene was a nice change of pacing and it feels very honest as well. 

Yes. I think one of the lines I liked there was “we could stop being friends and I’d still know you more than anyone.” because that’s the gist of their relationship. Baekhyun, when he was unapologetically weird and had no other friends in college, was still the realest version of himself and only Kyungsoo really accepted that before Chanyeol came.

Another point of surprise made was how intense Jongin’s love was for Kyungsoo. Seeing as we are reading the fic in Kyungsoo’s POV, it was quite an eye opener to have read Jongin’s. As readers we do get a hint of Jongin having feelings for Kyungsoo. And upon the Jongin’s POV chapters, our impressions are validated, but to such a shocking extent. The previous episode as mentioned by one of the readers was that: they were convinced that Jongin had feelings for Kyungsoo the first time they met, but felt skeptical with their hunch since it always seemed like Jongin was siding with Soojung and setting Kyungsoo aside. But as the Jongin’s POV chapters were revealed, I think collectively, for readers, it becomes very clear that it is without a doubt Jongin loves Kyungsoo. 

You do a wonderful job and I really appreciate you giving us Jongin’s POV. Reading the fic again from Jongin’s POV, it becomes very thought provoking because there is a wider perspective which makes the story more complex. 

The part of the plot that changes to Jongin’s POV is after Kyungsoo is honest to Seonho that he loves Jongin. And with that, i pause for a question to yeolimerent: at what point of writing from Kyungsoo’s POV did you feel like you needed to share Jongin’s?

The part where he stopped tugging the other side of the rope and felt this intense fear of losing Kyungsoo completely when he saw him with Seonho at the parking lot. At present time, of course readers could tell Jongin wanted Kyungsoo back but him as a person didnt really know that or knew where to start. That scene with Seonho was some sort of his wake up call and from then on, he stopped letting his fears hold him back and was definite about winning the love of his life back so it was the perfect opportunity to reveal his side.

Writers Journey

The next segment is on the writer’s journey, your journey of writing Pride amongst other things.

The nature of Pride is that it is very long and dramatic and with that it has a very high intense emotional plot. As a reader, it feels overwhelming at times and i think a point that was brought up in the previous episode was how even upon rereading it the second time, the emotional rollercoaster was as intense as the first reading. And for some, already knowing the twist and surprising parts of the fic, it allows us to analyze every interaction they have before leading to that point. So that is us as readers. But how did you keep your emotions in check while writing?

It is crazy because a lot of people had complained about it being heavy throughout the years and I totally get it, but writing it was so therapeutic to me. I guess projecting a lot on Kyungsoo’s character played a lot of factor in that. He did a lot of stupid things in that fic but a lot of them were something I’d do or a choice I’d make so it felt nice to let it out.

Oh, wow. I see, so what kind of work is Pride to you?

Therapy! That was the time of my life where I had a lot going on and was in the middle of my med school applications so writing was a solace to me.

I did not know what to expect of your answer to my question, but I am definitely quite in awe. 

It sounds like the whole process was very cathartic especially when you say you project on Kyungsoo and it feels nice to let it out. I am in awe mainly because I see it is something to channel your creative energy and in turn, because it is something so unique, very yeolimerent style, readers can really immerse themselves in your words and see the plot developing through your eyes.

With that i am curious, how long have you been writing? Is the reference on ao3 correct to say that you have been writing since 2019 or did you start way earlier on another site?

I have been writing the first Deadly Sins fics in wattpad since 2017 and only moved to AO3 in 2018 for my first BAE fic. I wrote Pride in AO3 but it was also posted in both wattpad and AFF. I’ve also been writing creatively since high school, which was over 10 years ago.

How seasoned a writer were you in writing when you came up with this? What point of your writer’s journey was Pride published?

I definitely had a much better experience writing it compared to the first two because I got better at expressing the character’s emotions. I would say I still got a bit better in fics I wrote after Pride but that was one of my works where I was able to express the characters’ emotions the way I wanted to deliver them.

Somehow that is comforting to know. This really long work has not only had therapeutic aspects for you, but you were able to articulate yourself. And it’s a win for everyone. We get a wonderful story filled with deep human flaws, heartache of first loves, redemption arc and a hope for love to persist. And hopefully you also get to benefit from it by navigating through life with more grit and faith with whatever life hits you with.

Lesson Learnt

Lesson learnt. The points we made the previous episode was that this fic teaches us so many things - importance of honest communication to resolve issues and insecurities. Teaching us about how moving on and forgiveness is important. 

There is so much to unpack, so if there was one or more points you would like readers to take away from this story, what would it be?

Like you said, definitely communication and how important it is in a relationship. A lot of the problems in Pride came from their lack of talking which could be solved if the two of them were locked in a room together. Yes, the long tension was sexy but a lot of time could have been saved if they were well-functioning adults lol. I think forgiveness was also a big concept in this fic, not for the sake of those who wronged you but more on your peace of mind.

So now knowing the lessons you want readers to takeaway and us understanding the kind of work Pride was to you, what was the most challenging part of writing this particular au? 

I did say it was therapeutic but writing it also had me confronting a lot of emotions buried deep when I was writing it. So many aspects in Kyungsoo’s character’s life were heavily based on mine so it definitely was difficult to acknowledge it. I was also in a phase where I aimed to please people so I was rarely satisfied with the chapters I wrote no matter how good the feedback I’d receive.

I see. I suppose it is natural for when things are therapeutic, it forces you to be honest. As a reader, we can see your sincerity. Thank you for writing. 

Examples 

Of course we cannot talk about hardship and forget about good things. So yeolimerent, what is your favorite scene? A scene that so beautifully captures the essence of the fic, a scene that you think about when you think back into this fic? 

The ending on a beach was very heavy, both in good and bad ways. Years of unsaid words had to come out and it was messy, so I definitely remember it first. The scene where they were both sitting on the sand, both tired and hopeless, reimagining what could have been if things were different and accepting there was no way of changing things, so they either leave for good or move forward together. 

Probably just me, but I also love the double chapter with Jongin’s POV on everything because it sheds light on a lot of questions.

I recently reread the scene again and it is easy to feel emotional at that moment. 

I have another question from my curious cat that reads: In the FAQ, you mentioned the emotional scene but I wanna know what was your favorite scene like you read the scene and went “ damn girl you kinda ate”. Would it be the same beach scene or do you have another in mind?

Jongin’s POV was definitely one of my favorite because I had to navigate a completely different character and speak from his view. I also liked the scenes where Kyungsoo was trying to find himself in New Zealand because the parallelisms with his life and something as simple as volcanos was appealing to me.

Yeolimernet, listeners would be so honored to have you read an extract from the scene in the beautiful New Zealand beach, your favorite scene.

The designer looks at the distance where the sun has slowly risen. He bites his lip hard to prevent both a smile and his sobs.

“How could you confess and build all our dreams… in a car, parked on the side of the street?” his laugh mixes perfectly with a hiccup. Soo lets his head fall on his chest when Jongin reaches for his nape.

Inspiration

Thank you for reading your favorite scene. Having you read an extract aloud like this, it just makes me wonder, what inspired you to have this au? 

When I started writing it, I just wanted to see where it would take me. The moment their conflict started as college students, I found myself, even as the writer, asking for more too. I just always had this thrill in me whenever I got to start a new chapter or publish them. I looked forward to seeing what people thought. I guess that was my biggest drive to go on. EXO as a group was also very active when I was writing this story so there were still a lot of ship crumbs that helped me.

I find your trust in the process very fascinating. It becomes a journey of self discovery both for Kyungsoo and yourself.  

And from this inspiration of yours, was this the original idea you had in mind when you first drafted the fic? How much has the story grown or changed while writing?

Nothing particularly different from the final product. It definitely was supposed to be shorter than 300k like the 2 sinners trilogy before it, but I really had fun writing it and felt like the scenes I came up with, no matter how tedious and uneventful they seemed, were vital for the story and the characters’ arcs.

It certainly seems that way, very purposeful and intentional scenes. 

Impact

We are nearing the end of the episode, this next and last segment is on the author’s impact on the kaisoo fic community.

But before that, the last question from my CC reads: my pride yaps are never ending pls don’t mind me but anyway thank you so much for writing the fic really..even though its angst its one of my go to comfort fics. I need to get this off my chest, I felt like Wrath and Pride happened simultaneously in two parallel worlds..there is a thin line as there were lots of similarities but two fics were completely different. The emotions you conveyed, idk how to put it hope you get what I am trynna say..so how did you do srsly?

Ohh yes, they were completely different worlds. Thanks for being kind! I think my sinners trilogy are similar in a way because the sins are somehow still intertwined in other stories. You can still apply wrath on Pride, and you can very much see pride on Wrath’s characters. Idk if that makes sense but i think that’s what made them feel similar. 

I hope that answers your question, anon!

Yeolimerent, what kind of writer do you consider yourself as? For example, what is the one thing you hold dear to when writing? Or what is something you would never write?

Hmm I definitely am the type to write details as vivid and palpable as possible. I’m very visual as a person so I like writing the scene where I can be as clear as I possibly can for the imagery. I also try to write realistic lines or something I wouldn’t cringe at if I hear real Kaisoo say it in real life (key word: try hahaha). I like writing characters that are deeply flawed, and then I like having them reflect on said flaws.

In terms of tropes, I’m very welcoming to a lot of them as a reader. But as a writer, being realistic like I said, I’m not particularly into farfetched or over the top tropes like Mpreg or A/B/O. But depending on the world-building, I have fun reading them and am not closing any doors about writing them in the future.

And upon identifying the things you would like to continue to do, and the things you will never do as a writer, what’s the biggest thing you learnt while writing fics? Anything surprising or impactful or moving? Be it about the storytelling, the language used or the life lessons?

Heck, number 1: it is a thousand times harder to write fics when English is not your first language! TT I’ve had a lot of writing experience outside of the ficdom but it is still a struggle to express certain thoughts in another language. 

Plot-wise, I realized I also like it when my characters admit that they did certain things because they just fucked up and not everything has to have deep reasons. It’s a trend I’ve seen in my recent works and it’s always refreshing to write about people who screw up once in a while.

Thank you for writing despite it being difficult.

With all the things you have learnt yeolimerent, and with your experience, all 7 years of it, what do you think makes a great story?

Write what you want to read! I’ve scrapped a lot of stories because I found that I tried writing them to please a certain crowd but it didn’t really feel right on my part. Writing what you would like to read gives you more ideas and creative juices you didn’t know were there. Allow your characters to have flaws and give them space to grow too. I have a huge preference for slowburn stories, both as a reader and writer, because seeing the characters go through a satisfying arc is what makes a great story for me. 

Ending Ment

Before we end things, dear yeolimerent, do you have any other comments you want to share with us listeners? Any teasers for ongoing AUs or a hint of upcoming AUs you have in your work in progress stage? 

Nothing in progress for me sadly as I am busy with hospital work :( I might have some things in the drafts but I don’t know if they’d ever see the light of day lol. I am definitely reading comments and messages once in a while though, whether I reply or not, and it really gives me strength. I would definitely like to write more kaisoo fics in the future especially once they start interacting again, canon!

I’m happy to have the opportunity to talk about Pride like this after so many years so thank you for doing this and for appreciating the fic! I’m very grateful.

Thank you yeolimerent for taking time out of your busy schedule to be with us in spirit of the episode and my dear Jie voicing over as yeolimerent, thank you for doing this with me on a weekday.

Dear listener, the link to the author’s ao3 and twitter profile will be given below in the notes section. And with that we have come to the end of today’s episode. 

Do keep a lookout for next month’s episode because we will be going through Chasing Summer Skies by rainepaige08. 

New episodes either every 13th of the month or 12th and 14th, special kaisoo dates, of course.

To reach me, i am kaisooficdrunk on twitter and if you want you can drop me questions on my curious cat you can do so with the same username. There will also be another link that brings you to my tumblr blog with the transcription for today’s episode. There you can also find the other scripts for other episodes as well.

Thank you for listening, have a good day, dear kaisooist, and we look forward to next month’s episode. Stay tuned.

[zkdlinnie]

Jongin gave us crumb !!!!!

[aphrodite1288]

Jongin's eyes never lie 🩷

Is there anyone who was so sick and tired, could look at his partner so lovingly like this for the entire interview? Seriously I'm concerned for his neck! Like Suho is right next to him, but he didn't even glance once at him, we all know Ji always gives all his attention and turns all his body to Ksoo wether he's talking or not.

Like always Jongin speaks with his eyes. Omg his eyes are so flirty! Ksoo is so used to it, if it was anyone else they would melt and we saw Baekhyun and SuperM members getting flustered when Ji states at them for like 5sec. Ksoo grew immune to it through the years .

And how come after 14 years since they met in 2010, Jongin still looks at him like this????? How didn't he grow bored of his face? Instead only grew fonder and fonder of him?

I loved how flirty and Hazy Ji's eyes were looking at Ksoo but the moment Ksoo turns to him, his eyes immediately move down to Ksoo's lips!

Video not mine. Cr to owner.