#just... miss having people who actually understand me and are good gifters whoch sounds shit lol

[katyobsesses]

Just wanna say I saw your posts and I’m sorry family is tough. They always are but… it’s never easy. So much love to you

Thank you 🫶 I really do love my family but also have always been the odd one out since my dad left (much more like him than my mum) and like, I LOVE my sister she's my best friend but... It's still hard to see her and my mum bond as mother and daughter now that she's come out when I've never been able to and my mum has always tried to force that sort of connection, ya know?

And then there's the whole... Not having anyone besides the two of them right now (damn depression and friends moving and friend groups splintering and not feeling very understood/perceived the way I wanna be) and it's a mess of just... Disappointment and, like, grief almost, for what I have had, could have had, and will never have.

But I have hope for next year and writing those posts helped put those thoughts out into the void so I'm better than I woulda been if I'd just... Let it stew (my therapist would be proud lol). And have had an alright day, if fucking exhausting omg peopling is tiring even with only two others