#just say you understand ramifications to actions or w/e he'll ease off

[pavlovianpanic]

i don't want to have this conversation. ( fun bonus : @theytry to sean! )

the silt verses (pt. 1) • accepting • @theytry ( @caulfect )

❝ well, i do. you've been screaming my name in public enough. time is running out, nathan. we've had this discussion before. ❞

sean is growing agitated. the hand that feeds nathan feels the bite hardest.

❝ are you taking your medicine? properly? you're acting out of control. [ ... ] i ask so little of you, nathan. and what do i ask of you? what do i demand that you find so fucking impossible? i gave you blackwell, i keep the police away for your little parties, and i fucking raised you, boy, so have some respect. my father only had to tell me something once, and if that wasn't enough? i spent all fucking night figuring it out. you lack discipline, which is my own fault. i allowed you too much time with your mother. you know, i never told you this, but i find that this might be the time: when you were born, i held you and thought ... this is the happiest moment of my life. there was no greater joy than watching you come into the world. BUT YOU CAME IN SCREAMING IMMEDIATELY. i didn't know what to do with you then / i don't know what to do with you now. you're a man today, nathan. you beg me to treat you like an adult, so tell me: what do i need to do? what do you want, son? because i have given you everything and more. everything i do, i do for you. you want me to be proud? make me proud. you want me to love you? earn my respect first. ❞