#just realized there are 4 sad emojis oh no

[m1ckeyb3rry]

oh yeah i was playing minecraft 24/7 during my childhood so genshin is in fact up my alley 😓 but you are righth and with a turn-based style game you definitely have to be a lot smarter about your builds and team comps 😣 unfortunately full dps would not work unless i was going against really weak enemies </3

through the thick and thin of every phase we’ve literally been tg.. no one can separate us because we’re literally like this 🤞👯‍♀️

i said it earlier but yk i just gotta put someone through the ringer and for the fic (which idk if i mentioned but i’m titling it “back to you”) megs just happens to be my victim 😣 OMG tell me why lwky for me i think the only angel bf to predate megs is my mans kyo from fruits basket… megumi our 2nd love 🙂‍↕️🤍

i haven’t planned the exact events, but for “back to you” since yuta will go back to africa, all i know is that i plan to throw megumi back in for some more angst 🧍‍♀️ he’ll be getting his time to shine again but it won’t be pretty 😭 ugh someone needs to keep these characters away from me all i do is hurt them LOL. but urrghahh do tell me what you think when you get to it 🫶 i’m curious about your thoughts so far 🤔

i went like a scarily long time playing through hsr without a healer and then i realized i should probably build one LSDKHF my 4* free natasha is carrying my team on her back ngl i would be so cooked without her (also i am on my laptop which means no emojis and it's making me feel rlly naked but oh well) however yes you do need some supports especially as you get further in the game (i think i started using a healer once i finished with the xianzhou luofu part of the story and i only added my attack-boosting support once i pulled aglaea!!)

WE ARE SO TWINNN been there since the aot days...that's a bond that can never be broken ong SDKFJ also wait that's really funny megumi being second for both of us LMAO okay listen i love torturing my favs so even if he's just the unrequited sad second lead that's like perfect for me ZERO COMPLAINTS!!

AHH I ALREADY CHATTED WITH YOU ON DISC BUT: I AM EXCITED!! i am lowkey so removed from jjk land nowadays but for you and megumi i will lock back in [time providing LMAOAO i feel like i never have the time to read fics nowadays :(]

[mokacheer]

hahaha thanks for the mass tag game @ruanbaijie this shall be fun!

aka: nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? - no idea, my theories are that i was obsessed with rosario + vampire so i took moka, and since moka is cheery/happy i just bam. i honestly don't know 💀

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. - i used to have a ton because younger me dabbled in the RP world (lets not remember those times but remember the cool people i befriended) but right now no just this blog and the other blog i help run <3 @otomokatsuhiro (if you love old anime youll immediately follow ;) )

3. how long have you been on tumblr? - since may 2012 😵 (save me)

4. do you have a queue tag? - nah

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? - an old friend of mine told me about it and actually made this blog for me. now thinking about it idk if it was her that came up with the name, if i had a different name to begin with... no clue :s

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? - its yuki!!! must i explain why?! (plus it matches my vibe here alot of mutuals say im super sweet or a ray of sunshine ((ily it makes me happy everytime i get that hehe)))

7. why did you choose your header? - it just matches the overall pink cute vibe :p

8. what’s your post with the most notes? - still to this day its a 29 frame gif of a phone ending call... here

9. how many mutuals do you have? - i counted at the beginning of the year and i believe i had 108? but now obviously its 108+ :D

10. how many followers do you have? - 17.2k+ x-x

11. how many people do you follow? - 544! i remember at one point i wanted to keep the number limited but thats so stupid!!

12. have you ever made a shitpost? - uhhhh probably when i was younger. i used to constantly post #personal text posts so idunno

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? - help me

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? - yeah a small amount of times, most would be reposters telling me "no this is my gif i made this! i wont remove this from my blog!" with my watermark clear as day in the corner lol..

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts - meh it's your blog at the end of the day, if you want to reblog something do it, if you dont dont. it's sad to see most people just like posts but they come from different platforms and fail to realize what kind of site tumblr is. hopefully eventually they will get it tho! amen

16. do you like tag games? - yes! i love that i get tagged in them but also forget alot of the time to ever get to doing them so i apologize for being late on this one hehe

17. do you like ask games? - plsssss i love seeing that notification light up in my inbox. it fills this bloggers heart with joy.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? - oh i got a few @gojosattoru (where have you been ;w; </3), @hanae-ichihara (ill always miss you <3), DEFINITELY @taohs hehehe

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? - nope, having a crush on here has never happened for me :p

20. what is the last song you listened to? - charli xcx speed drive EASYFUN remix, its sooo gud

21. what are you currently watching? - the magical girl and evil lieun. are archenemies, fairy tail 100 years quest, maybe some other misc. stuff i cant think of rn.

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? - all of the above, i love sweet + spicy

23. what is your current relationship status? - single times *salute emoji*

24. what is your current obsession? - SMILING FRIENDDDSSSS asjdiaoshjdajsid

25. what are nine albums/songs you've been listening to lately? - aprils-bloom by julie areyouhome? by juno britpop by A.G. Cook right back by Frost children i like it by Frost children spring is coming with a strawberry in the mouth by Caroline Polachek magic sword by 4s4ki tome by veltpunch 365 by charli xcx

tagging: @taohs @cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga @oneechangoddess @yuujies @scary-friend @fuwanek0 and others that wanna have fun

[tangledinink]

For the writer ask game, #4, #23, #25?

4. How many WIPs do you have right now?

Technically, just one! All the little sidefics I've started are currently wrapped up and complete (tho there's more I wanna do still) so TMWN is the only WIP!

23. How do you choose where to end a chapter (if you have multi-chapter works)?

Oh lord. Shrug emoji. IDK, just where it... feels good! Like it feels like things have been wrapped up and we're at a good settling point! I do like cliffhangers, but I usually try not to leave anything too crazy as an unknown for a week, either. Sometimes I end a chapter because I realize I've written like almost thirty pages and I should probably figure out a stopping point and split things up, lmao. Chapter Twenty and Twenty-One were originally one chapter, but then I realized it was, like... almost fifty pages... so I went back and found a good place to split it up, lmao.

25. Have you ever upset yourself with your own writing?

Oh yeah. For sure. Sometimes I'll, like... tap into something sad by accident. Like, I'll be writing something sad/emotional/upsetting, and then I'll think about it too hard and get really upset (usually it's less something I've experienced and more something that someone else has experienced. Like. There've been times I've written about Yoshi being scared about his children's safety, and then thought about my mom losing her son, and then I'll suddenly be really fucked up about it.) I also have a tendency of, like... giving the TMWN boys things I don't have? Like. A lot of their experiences, especially childhood memories and aspects of their relationships, are things that I wish I had. I am, quite frankly, not close with any of my living family members. Part of the story, for me, is giving them the stuff I want but never got and will likely never have. And then sometimes I'll get kind of sad about it? But usually, it's okay. I like giving them good things. <3

[raekensarcher]

can u do all??

hells yes (for the sake of my brain i am just putting emojis)

✨: my first fic!!!! i wish people would give it more credit. also the religious one

💘: again, like, all of them. i am my own worst critic

💫: how you interpret my work!! if you point things out that i hadn’t even thought of before!!

🌈: i did struggle the most with my newest fic. the plot and first chapter was written and rewritten a handful of times before it got to what it is now

🦋: most insecure about people not liking my interpretation of things. always worried i’m not seeing the characters how everyone else sees them and it won’t be liked.

🌻: writers block fr. my brain jus stops working. what keeps me going is that i love writing, i can just shut my brain down and type and end up with 3k words like nothing even happened. i love it.

🌿: creating makes me feel powerful idk like writing is such an escape , even when most of my writing is projection, it feels better to put it on someone else and something else. it gives me a chance to breathe and to think about things

🍉: like i said, projecting. it helps in terms of being able to sort things out, to problem solve. if i can figure it out for my characters, i can figure it out for myself. it helps

🎀: my writing has improved significantly since i was 14/15. i really love the writing style i’ve settled on.

🎈: again, big on imagery and behind the scenes things. love it.

🎉: dude?? every time i post a fic i lay down and read it and feel proud of myself. always celebrate your work!!! always!!!

💞: the most important part of the story, to me, is being able to picture it. when i write things i want to be able to see it in my head, i don’t want unanswered questions. i want to be able to feel what the characters are feeling and be there with them u know? i am a sucker for imagery and racing thoughts. i want to be in the characters head.

💝: definitely my first one. was super worried ab posting that one.

🤍: first big one/religious one. for sure.

🕯️: probably my religious one and the one i did about theo and his guilt. lots of projection, like, so much. but it wasn’t difficult to write so much as hard to realize what i was writing? and ig just recognize how much i was hurting.

💥: theo guilt fic!!! deserves more reads and credit. it’s sad but it’s probably the most honest theo i have ever written.

🍭: i started writing as a diary type of thing. it helps to smash a keyboard instead of anything else.

💎: it makes me feel better,, and if i write something that someone else connects with??? i feel wonderful.

📡: i think writing is important because it’s giving people a voice u know? like even if it’s just fandom things, people are being creative and allowing themselves to dive into a different reality to build new things. it’s fun!!

🪄: i honestly don’t have, like, a set routine or anything after i finish something? aside from going through and reading it as a ftr, i kind of just sit there and hope everyone loves it

🎙️: oh god that’s a lot of pressure shsgjdhfk i think the zoo one maybe? it’s something that’s up to interpretation for everyone and we’re never actually gonna know what happened. i would love to hear everyone else’s thoughts n opinions on it

🤲🏼: peace of mind, actually. my writing is me trying to sort out my own problems, if i’m solving the issues for my characters i’m solving the issues for myself

💋: YES!!! i don’t typically leave comments bc my brain is scrambled but when i have and it involves a question then yes absolutely i would love to hear back

☯️: i think communication in fandom is healthy and it’s so fun to make friends on tumblr/twitter/etc. i’ve made a few since joining tw tumblr and i can say it’s been a great experience so far. some of my best friends (of 4+ years) are ones i made through fandom. they’re family to me

🧿: honestly? if something isn’t getting the response i would like then i just try to forget about it hagdjfj i care too much about what people think and i’m trying to care less about that. i write for me, if someone else happens to like it then yay but if not then it isn’t the end of the world.

💌: current wip things?? i’ve just got the one big one and i swear i’ll have a chapter update for it soon i’ve just been dealing with a lot of family issues lately. new chapter soon though!! i have plans :)

[lanawinterscigarettes]

I’ll reply to all of the responses in one ask so I don’t clog your inbox again LOL

1. Trust me I will be taking up your offer to yap about any and every tv show I’m interested in…starting now. I watched the first two episodes of the show Wilderness today - it’s so good, way better than I thought it was gonna be (and also in a different country?? I thought it was set in Australia but no apparently it’s set in New York 😭) and Liv is a bit naive in love but I was more distracted by how attractive she was than half of the actual plot LOL also she’s canon bi, and I lowkey ship her one-night-stand-wise with the girl her husband cheated on her with, like I won’t spoil too much in case you decide to watch it but literally Liv was pretty much stalking Cara then said to her best mate ‘She’s hot, no?’ like 🤨👀 and when Liv kissed her husband she was more bothered to see that Cara was watching them than her husband enjoying the kiss LOL random rant that I can’t tell anyone else about. I don’t know if you know the British show gogglebox which is where people record themselves watching TV but I basically did an amateur gogglebox and now I have a funny 1hr 30m video of my first impressions to the first two episodes LOL

2. Don’t cry! Although I do hope the stars shine for you as I am star anon - I chose star anon because I love the stars so much I have star jewellery and iPad cases of constellations and a phone case of a star and my most used emoji is the star!

3. Missy is the most charming nuwho master…although every time I see John simm I’m like OH MY GOSH ITS THE MASTER

4. Thank you for adding my little thing about the ficmas, I love the snowmen and I’m so excited to see it as with everything you write!! Plus Christmas is my favourite favourite time of year

5. About the foursome fic you’re always welcome to write Missy/River/Clara/Fem Reader stuff I will LAP THAT STUFF UP even like I love the concept of like a double date between River/Missy and Clara/Reader but it just ends up turning into one massive data where River and Missy are being bossy boots and teasing the other two at the table next to them along with riling each other up. Or like, an adventure where they’re all showing off each of their talents like Missy having to manipulate people or River shooting people with her gun thingy or Clara hacking stuff and the reader…idk, deciphering codes or something all trying to impress each other while the doctor is just stood there like 🧍‍♂️these gay idiots LOL

6. I know some people need comfort fics at Christmas but it saddens me that people are even sad at Christmas in the first place 🥺

Hope you’re doing okay Aeron - enjoy the rest of your day in the tumblrverse 🫶

- ⭐️

wilderness sounds like it's so good, plus jenna coleman stars in it so it gets even more brownie points in my opinion hehe. and I've never heard of gogglebox before but now I'm realizing I do the exact same thing when I watch tv- (of course I don't record myself but I get very opinionated on what's going on lmao)

the bit you wrote about the stars shining brightly sounding like such a beautiful piece of poetry to me and I've been known to cry over far less, but they were happy tears I promise 💘 and you seem like someone who gives off star vibes, if that makes sense. like I could imagine you being someone who enjoys stargazing or observing different constellations at night (I might have a new clara x reader fic idea now tbh)

no because why does literally every version of the master seem so goddamn charming 😭 I'm not sure how much you know about classic who but if you think the nuwho masters are charming then the classic who masters are who they got it from because WOW. I love the doctor but I think if the master invited me to travel with them I'd fold right away lmao I have no restraint

no problem!! I love christmas too, though I will have to say it's in constant competition with halloween for me (I've always been someone who loves the fall holidays a bit more than the winter ones but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy both) and you're so sweet for saying that, thank you 💞 sometimes I get worried whenever I'm writing something based on a request that it wont turn up like the person envisioned it so it means a lot to know you enjoy my writing so much and trust my artistic direction or whatever haha

stop you're going to give me too many new ideas on what to write for- (don't actually stop though I always love whatever you come up with) I'll definitely have to write some more river/missy/clara/fem reader stuff in the future, although I can't promise they'll be as long as the kinktober fic (honestly I've never ever written anything that long before idk how it happened 😭)

yeah, I get what you mean. it's just no fun being sad at christmas, but if I can hopefully cheer someone up even a little bit then I'm glad to write a holiday fic that has a bit of hurt/comfort in it ❤

the tumblrverse is such a creative and cute way little phrase omg (I spend way too much time in the tumblrverse than I should tbh-) I hope you're doing okay too star anon!! it's always nice to hear from you 🥰

[thinkingabouttimdrake]

First off, that food sounds amazing. Oh my gods. I really need to learn to cook food that isn't white asf, I love way too many foods that I don't know how to cook :(

Second off, card games are illegal?

also try out some indian food !! they are so good omg, i hope you can acquire the ingredients needed for your culinary experiments!! ( i also dunno how to make a lot of food that i like 😔 we shall power through this obstacle with sheer will!!)

card games im not so sure but card games that involve money are illegal here :D -> casinos that are opened here are foreigner entry only 😔 also like 18+ (my dad can get in but he doesnt even gamble) (me n my mum really want to see whats inside omg so curious they dont even allow cameras 😔)

also card games are banned from my school (including uno and werewolf 😔 so maybe it is(?)

[donniemines]

another day of conversation with someone by reading minecraft chat on someone else’s stream [text written out under cut]

IMAGE 1:

Foolish: I should probably mention this

Foolish: but i will be leaving Snowchester

Tubbo: oh rip okay

Foolish: It’s good to see you are in complete disarray from hearing this news

Foolish: It’s good to see you are in complete disarray from hearing this news

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: lets hope that that decision

Ranboo: isn’t foolish

[Ranboo left the game]

IMAGE 2:

[Philza joined the game]

Phil: Ranboo why

Phil: do your work

[Ranboo joined the game]

[Philza left the game]

Ranboo: because i’m awesome phil

IMAGE 3:

Ranboo: shut up

[Ranboo left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

[Philza joined the game]

Ranboo: It’s called COMEDY PHIL

Phil: pls for the love of god

Ranboo: no

Phil: pls

Ranboo: no

Ranboo: WORTH IT

[Ranboo left the game]

IMAGE 4:

Phil: it really wasn’t

[Philza left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: failing Pog U

Ranboo: POG U

Ranboo: LETS GOOO

[Ranboo left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: I don’t know how third person narration affects the story dude

Ranboo: this is awesome

[Ranboo left the game]

IMAGE 5:

[Philza joined the game]

Phil: STOP LOGGING IN

[Philza left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: NO

[Ranboo left the game]

[Philza joined the game]

Phil: OMG PLS YOU WILL FAIL

Phil: THIS IS NOT VERY POG CHAMP

[Ranboo joined the game]

[Philza left the game]

Ranboo: WORTH IT

[Ranboo left the game]

[Philza joined the game]

IMAGE 6:

Phil: I AM CRYING IN THE CLUB RN

[Philza left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: I’M NOT I’M JUST DOING MY FINALS

Ranboo: KINDA

Ranboo: NOT REALLY

Ranboo: ITS TIMED I’M JUST LOOKING AT IT

[Ranboo left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: I am so cool I’m on the Dream SMP during my finals

Ranboo: I am awesome

[Ranboo left the game]

IMAGE 7:

Ranboo: am smart

Phil: then do your finals

Ranboo: no

[Ranboo left the game]

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: YOU CAN’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO OLD MAN

[Ranboo left the game]

IMAGE 8:

[Ranboo joined the game]

Ranboo: I don’t even have anything to say this time

Phil: l.m.a.o.

Ranboo: nice weather we are having

Ranboo: why do i have an iron pickaxe

Ranboo: did i become poor and not realize it

Ranboo: get out of my inventory foul creature

Phil: Kristin was gonna drive-by deliver you snackies and you’re not even doing your work l.m.f.a.o

IMAGE 9:

Ranboo: it WAS MY PARENTS PHIL AND ALSO DURING THE TIMEFRAME it WOULDN’T HAVE WORKED OUT I’M SORRY

Phil: your loss, those snackies ruled

Ranboo: I KNOW I’M ALREADY SAD

Phil: anyway, get back to work! LOL

Ranboo: no

Ranboo: LOL

Phil: bruh

Phil: *throws milk on floor*

Ranboo: what the heck

IMAGE 10:

Ranboo: my milk

Phil: don’t make me order your parents fast food and tell the driver to tell them you’re slacking

Phil: >:) [evil smile emoji]

Ranboo: don’t you dare

Phil: the driver will be the messenger of your demise

Ranboo: Jesus phil

[idy-ll-ique]

His Lovely Girl.

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x F!Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Requested: nope

Warnings: insecurity

Summary: Sebastian spoils her all the time. What has she ever done for him? When someone leaves a rude comment under her Instagram post, she can't help but rethink her entire relationship with the handsome actor.

Author's Note: Hiya peeps! We're back to Marvel lol, enjoy!

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"I'll see you later, dove, have fun!" Y/N grinned when her boyfriend leaned over, pressing his lips to her forehead. "Bye, Seb, I'll miss you," she whispered and he looked down at her, his heart swelling in his chest, full of appreciation for her. He loved her so much. "I'll miss you too, Y/N, but I'll only be gone for around 6 hours." Y/N pouted and he couldn't help it.

He leaned over and pressed his lips to hers in a chaste kiss. "I know. Go now, I don't want to be the reason you're late." He laughed heartily when she pushed him away with a smile. "Oh, doll, everyone knows about us, they'll know anyway." With that, he waved at her and left the apartment they shared. Y/N had moved in with him 2 years into dating.

Sebastian Stan; let's just say, he was a busy man. Y/N sighed and got up from the bed, feeling hungry. They had started dating 4 years ago, and what years those were; the most blissful ones in both their lives. They loved each other to death, and they knew that. Y/N waddled into the kitchen and looked around the various cabinets, finding a box of Mac and Cheese.

It was a funny story, actually, how they met. Y/N, at the time, was working as a barista at Starbucks. One day, Sebastian had walked into the Starbucks where she worked, and she was the one who took his order. He was extremely polite, funny and a bit awkward and just like that, she fell in love with him all over again. Y/N was a Marvel geek and Sebastian had noticed.

"I really like your hoodie, doll, where'd you get it?" he had asked her after telling her his order. And she had looked down, seeing the custom-made hoodie she wore. It was black in colour, but one of the sleeves was silver and had a red star on the bicep, just like his arm from the movie Captain America: Winter Soldier.

Bucky's trigger words were printed on the front of the hoodie. She had blushed furiously, simultaneously cursing and thanking her fate and coincidence. "I had it custom made," she had told him at the time and he had grinned so wide he thought his mouth would tear open. That was the moment where he, too, realized that he was getting a crush on the pretty barista.

And he hadn't hesitated to ask her for her number. He had taken a tissue paper, scribbled his number down and had written what's yours? ;) underneath. When he went to pay for his coffee, he purposely made sure that he wasn't giving her any change. With his notes, he slid her the tissue and she took it, giving him a confused look.

When she read it, her breath hitched. While pulling out his change, she had discreetly written her number down on the tissue, saved his on her phone and had given the tissue back to him with the coins. Both of them had grinned widely at each other when he left. While walking home, he had taken out the tissue and had seen her number written neatly under his. And his heart raced, Y/N is worth it.

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*@yn_yln posted a photo*

4,583 likes

yn_yln Mac and Cheese, anyone? :D

Y/N smiled and logged out of her Instagram account after posting the photo. She just couldn't resist; she looked good that day, one of those days where she felt confident enough to post a picture. She kept her phone away and sauntered into the sitting room to watch something on the television. An hour passed before she yawned, feeling tired.

2:05 pm, her watch displayed. Well, there's no harm in an afternoon nap, am I right? Sebastian wasn't home anyway, and it's not like she had anything to do. Grabbing her phone off the dining table, she walked into hers and Sebastian's shared bedroom, plopping down on the bed. She decided to check her Instagram before falling asleep and opened the said app.

She went through the page that displayed all the likes and comments, pausing at one comment. Her heart dropped as she clicked on the comment, her entire being filling with an uneasy feeling. You're only dating him for the money, admit it. Until then, she had never even thought… about that. Throwing her phone to the side she sat up, breathing heavily.

Y/N was currently jobless. After they started going out, she continued working at Starbucks until last year; Sebastian had suggested that she leave the job and work somewhere better, earn a higher salary. Y/N had discarded the idea at first, since the job paid enough for her to go about her daily things and where would she even find another job?

Starbucks was okay. But Sebastian wouldn't hear it. So she left the job, now jobless. She had applied to a few places but hadn't received any news as of yet. They're right. I'm living off of him. I don't even have a job. What does it look like? A broke woman dating a rich, handsome guy? Oh my God, am I leeching off his hard work? All those thoughts rushed through her head in a span of a few seconds.

The more she thought about it, the more she teared up. Blinking the tears away, she lay back down and curled up under the comfortable blankets. His blankets. She closed her eyes, trying her hardest to fall asleep but the tears were proving it to be difficult. Fortunately, she drifted off into an uneasy slumber 15 minutes later.

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"Baby, I'm home!"

Silence. Sebastian frowned, carefully walking into the house. "Y/N?" he called out but there was no answer. Keeping the bag he was holding away, he walked further into the apartment, stopping at the doorway of their bedroom. "Aw," he whispered under his breath, smiling, stepping into the bedroom. He gently sat next to his sleeping girlfriend.

His knuckles traced her cheeks but he froze. Why is she so cold? His soft touch was enough to wake her up, because she stirred and blinked up at him. "Seb, hi, welcome back." Her voice was hoarse. "Y/N? Did you fall sick?" he asked worriedly as she sat up, distancing herself from him. "I'm not sick," she muttered but Sebastian wouldn't buy it.

He reached out to cup her cheek, feeling like he had been stabbed multiple times when she leaned away from his touch. "Y/N?" She shook her head and looked out of the window, bringing her knees to her chest. "Just wanna be alone right now." She didn't want to send him away. She wanted to sit in his lap, listen to him rambling about his day…

But she also didn't want to be near him. Do I even deserve him? "What happened?" he insisted, his eyes going wide when she glared at him. "Go. Away." He scrambled off the bed without another word, softly closing the door behind him as he walked into the sitting room, running a hand through his hair. He sat down on the couch and looked around.

What happened in those 6 hours that he was away? Sebastian knew she wasn't on her cycle, it still had another week to come. So it wasn't mood swings. His eyes landed on the empty bowl of Mac and Cheese sitting on the dining table but they skimmed right past it, not knowing that that bowl was the reason for Y/N's sadness. Then he stared at the designer handbag on the opposite couch.

Picking up the bag, he strode back to their room, knocking on the door. Maybe seeing a pretty purse would lighten her mood? "What?" Y/N called out from inside and he opened the door, holding the purse up. "I brought you a gift." Y/N's heart started thudding in her chest and tears glistened in her eyes anew as she stared at the bag with utmost resentment.

"I don't want it."

Sebastian went rigid. She never rejects my gifts. "Y/N—" She started shaking her head. "No. Return it. I'm not taking it. I don't want it," she repeated, her glare now directed at him. "But doll…" he tried, freezing when her jaw clenched. "Get out." Disheartened, he walked out once more, more confused than anything. Now I have to know what happened.

Inside the room, Y/N sobbed silently. The bag was so pretty, her favorite color, the sleek design… she wanted to keep it so bad, but she knew she wasn't worthy of it. Sebastian brought her gifts all the time. Most of them expensive as shit; he had the money to blow off. What had she done for him? Nothing, really. He spoiled her heartily, never once allowing her to do the same.

"You're mine, baby girl, mine to love, mine to cherish, mine to spoil."

She was definitely leeching off him. Outside the room, Sebastian took out his phone and texted Y/F/N, who was Y/N's closest friend. They rarely spoke, but Y/N told Y/F/N everything and he knew she'd have answers.

hey, do you know what's up with y/n

why what happened

she's in a really bad mood

she's angry at me and I brought her a gift but she won't take it

she usually loves them but today…

OH WAIT

I know what happened

she texted me in the afternoon

something about a comment on Instagram or something

ig that's why she's in a bad mood

oh

thanks

I'll check it out

He ended the conversation and opened Instagram, seeing a new post from his dear girlfriend. Sebastian couldn't help but smile as he liked the photo, commenting a heart emoji. There were only around 22 comments on the post, so he decided to go through them. Which comment had triggered her? He found it instantly and his nostrils flared.

Replying to the fairly rude comment, he typed, how about you fuck off and mind your own damn business? If you don't like her, unfollow and leave. There's literally nothing else you need to do. After hitting send, he kept his phone away and, determination shining in his eyes, ran back to the bedroom.

He threw open the door and a sob escaped the lips of the startled woman. He started taking off the annoying clothes he was wearing until he was just in his boxers, sliding into the bed next to her. She attempted to push him away but the strong man didn't budge, holding her on his lap as she thrashed. Soon, she gave up the fight and melted against him, crying her eyes out.

"I'm sorry," she apologized again and again, her breath hitching. "Hush, baby, it's okay, I'm not mad," he whispered, rubbing her back, helping her calm down. She rested her head on his shoulder, her arms tight around him. "Tell me the truth. What happened?" he asked even though he knew the answer. Tiredly, Y/N narrated everything; from the comment to all her insecurities.

Sebastian gently cupped her cheeks, wiping her tears off. "Y/N, you're mine. I love taking care of you, I love spoiling you, and I don't do it because I expect something in return, I do it because I love you. Don't listen to strangers on the internet, what better work do they have? Nothing but lowlifes. You don't have to do anything for me. I don't want you to do anything for me."

"But Seb…"

"No. No, you're my girlfriend and only the best for my girl. I love all the gifts you get me. I cherish them wholeheartedly. Just you being my girl is a gift better than anything else in the world, to be honest. But I'm going to continue looking after you whether you like it or not. You don't even have to go to work, I'm here for you. I love you." Y/N teared up again.

They were happy tears.

"I love you so much," she cried weakly and Sebastian pulled her to him, cradling her head, breathing her in. "I love you too, doll. Now will you take my gift, please?" She nodded against him and he gently lowered her on the bed, going outside to get the bag. Once back in their room he handed the bag to her, smiling at the way her eager hands reached up to accept the gift.

As he watched her admiring the bag, he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her, till death do them part.

His girl, his lovely girl.

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A/N: Leave a like if you enjoyed, thanks for reading!

[kbetacygni]

Lawrusso 👏🏻 fic 👏🏻 recs 👏🏻 please 👏🏻

LETS GO KNOCK ON THE DOORS OF A COUPLE OF MY MUTUALS here we go trick or treat!!!!

(funny how this rec list made me realize i tend to enjoy kk-era lawrusso possibly more than ck-era lawrusso. idk the boys are just good kids)

what kind of man doesn't by menocchio

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absolute ultimate lawrusso fic. so much so good beautiful writing beautiful mastery of chapter structure and order. if you haven't read it then here's the plot (but also what rock have you been living under): johnny and daniel's accidental road trip where johnny develops a profound understanding of His Own Identity and the boys are so good and perfect together. writing so good that you feel like you're there in the motel room with daniel and johnny-with-a-concussion

Ma Nishtana by mimsywerethe

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such a tender sweet thing. its like i said about that sterek fic but it’s like a single moment folded in on itself and then expanded to the size of the universe. fills your mouth with sweetness and warm companionship. daniel and johnny on the beach, before, after, and during. 

a sharp kiss to the throat by honeyvenom

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is this lawrusso with silverusso or silverusso with lawrusso? anyways i hope johnny k-words terry silver. unsettlingly erotic-thriller-mystery, deep heart-felt love but also johnny’s like “hey man im not gay but i want to protect larusso from terry silver and also kiss larusso on the mouth” and bobby’s like [pensive face emoji] 

RIP to Orpheus but Johnny Lawrence is Different by the_sound_of_inevitability

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crying I JUST REALIZED THAT’S YOU anyways thanks for this fic. 

one of the themes that hits me like a foot to the face: someone one begging you to keep going even though they’re being hurt kjhgkdghkfhgkdgkdjfg anyways. thanks. thank you. thanks. [loud sob] 

little extra fighter's chance by indigostohelit

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oh phewww letter writing. amazing handle on the characters. funny sad tender sweet. the strikethrough bits are the best. johnny and daniel form a friendship following the 1984 all valley when daniel starts writing johnny letters (okay, daniel writes like the first 4 before johnny even responds because lawrusso is Like That). the characterizations are done so well. 

[wifeylouis]

Louis Tomlinson writes queer love songs about the queer experience.

Louis is a prolific songwriter who has penned most of the iconic One Direction songs and has written on every single one of the songs from his debut album Walls. LGBT+ fans have always resonanted with Louis’ song writing and most of us have picked up on the very obvious queer coding. Many people seem to dismiss Louis’ outcries about his sexuality through his songs and I’m here to bring back the attention to all the gay anthems Louis has given us! 

Before someone brings up the fact that Liam Payne has written on these songs too, in his own words, he focused more on melodies and Louis on the actual lyrics!

In One Direction:

1. Strong

I'm sorry if I say, "I need you" But I don't care, I'm not scared of love 'Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong That you make me strong?

Here Louis talks about not being scared of loving his partner and asks them if it's so wrong for them to be in love and to need each other. A very common thing gay people are told is that it’s wrong for us to love our significant other. Louis is trying to make his lover realise that it’s okay for them to do so, and that there's nothing to be afraid of.

Think of how much Love that's been wasted

People always Trying to escape it Move on to stop their heart breaking But there's nothing I'm running from You make me strong

Many older gay people have remained in the closet all their lives and have tried to “escape” from their truths and from who they really are, because they have been (and still are) afraid of rejection or the heartbreak they might face if they were out. 

Specially back when things were even worse for the community, gay people would remain in straight marriages and even have children - take the example of Philip Schofield, the british presenter who only came out as gay this year after 27 years of marriage. 

Louis, on the other hand, says that he isn’t ashamed of who he is and he isn’t running away from his true self. He knows who he loves and is proud of himself. 

2. Alive

My mother told me I should go and get some therapy I asked the doctor, "can you find out what is wrong with me?

Here louis refers to how families and society often tell us that being gay is something that needs to be fixed. The “doctor” could be a reference to conversion therapy that many gay people in homophobic religious families are forced to go through. If you grow up around that mindset, you might really wonder if something is wrong with you. 

She said, "hey, it's alright Does it make you feel alive? Don't look back Live your life Even if it's only for tonight" She said, "hey, it's alright If it makes you feel alive"

So the doctor tells him that it’s okay to be himself and to live his truth, love who he loves, because all that matters is doing what truly makes him “feel alive” which is being himself. 

I whispered something in her ear that I just can't repeat She said, "okay" but she was worried what her friends will think She's going crazy Can't contain it She asked me, "what should I do, oh?"

Those of us who have been in a closet have at some point worried about our friends finding out, I know that I have been careful of being with another girl if there was a chance my friends would find out about it. We all know the theory that if you replace the girl in Alive with a man, the song changes its  meaning. It clearly becomes a song about a guy hooking up with another man at the same party, and him worrying about what his friends would think about him being with another guy. Louis is telling him what the doctor told him: that it’ll be alright, and that he needs to do what makes him feel alive! To be who he is and to live his truth freely. I love this theory for the song because it makes so much sense!

3. Through the dark 

You tell me that you're sad and lost your way You tell me that your tears are here to stay But I know you're only hiding And I just wanna see you

Here he's probably referring to a lover or a friend who was maybe afraid to accept themselves. This song reminds of Taylor Swift’s "Seven" where she sings about a friend who will no longer have to be in the closet if they leave their homophobic home and come live with her. Louis is telling a friend, who has lost their way trying to find themselves, that their true self is still there, hiding under that blanket of shame and self hatred. 

You tell me that you're hurt and you're in pain And I can see your head is held in shame, But I just wanna see you smile again See you smile again

The theme of “hiding” and “shame” are obvious references to internalised homophobia and Louis is telling his friend or lover that he wants to see them happy, wants them to accept who they are. Throughout the song he reminds them that he will always be there for them and that he will support them and love them regardless of what society might say. He just wants them to be happy and to be themselves. 

4. Ready to run

There's a moment when you finally realize There's no way you can change the rolling tide

All of us have had that moment when we realised we were queer, for some of us it happened at a young age and for some of us later on in life. But that moment of realisation and coming to terms with our sexuality is a shared experience for the entire community. Louis talks about that moment, about realising who he is and not wanting to change it because the truth is there and he’s accepted it. 

There will always be the kind that criticize But I know, yes I know we'll be alright

As LGBT+, we face a lot of criticism from society and Louis talks about how he doesn't care about who stands against him and his lover, he knows they’ll be alright because he believes in their love. 

 5. End of the day

All I know at the end of the day is you want what you want and you say what you say And you'll follow your heart even though it'll break Sometimes All I know at the end of the day is love who you love There ain't no other way If there's something I've learnt from a million mistakes You're the one that I want at the end of the day

A wlw anthem! Louis really does love his sapphics and this song was easily claimed by his wlw fans. He again talks about staying true to himself and living his truth even if he might face rejection and heartbreak, he can’t change who he is. A common phrase associated with the LGBT+ community is “Love is Love”. Louis speaks on the same theme and says that nothing can change him because he knows who he loves and there’s nothing wrong with who he loves and wants. He talks about how he's not afraid of being in love with this person and he's ready to say what he wants about his lover, because he's not ashamed of his feelings in any way or form. And he’ll follow his heart even though he might be rejected. 

The priest thinks it's the devil My mum thinks it's the flu But girl it's only you

He refers to the “priest” and “mom” like he did with the “doctor” and “mother” in Alive. Religion tells us that being gay is something wrong and evil, our family tells us that it’s just a phase that we will get over, and Louis talks about these elements in many of his songs. But he knows that there’s nothing wrong with his feelings, it isn’t a phase or a trend for him, he loves who he loves and there’s no other way. 

7. Home

Make a little conversation So long I've been waiting So let go of myself and feel alive

Here Louis refers to the feeling of being “alive” once again. Being who he really is makes him feel like he’s truly living. He’s finally “letting go” of himself, as in coming to terms with who he is. 

So many nights I thought it over Told myself I kind of liked her But there was something missing in her eyes

Louis leaked Home even though it wasn’t a single and even tweeted a little Home emoji for it! This song was quickly claimed by LGBT+ fans as exclusively for us and we even started Project Home for it. Here he talks about how he tried to make himself believe he liked this girl, but at the end of the day he knew it wasn't right and there was something missing. Most of us have tried to make ourselves believe that maybe we’re just confused, and many of us have suffered through comp-het, or giving heterosexuality one last chance before realising that something’s wrong and this isn’t for us. 

I was stumbling, looking in the dark  With an empty heart But you say you feel the same Could we ever be enough? Baby we could be enough

There was a point in time where he was confused, figuring out where he fell on the spectrum, he was “stumbling” through this journey of self acceptance and he found his lover along the way. Someone who told him that they felt the same way he did. This is again a common shared experience in the LGBT+ community, finding comfort in realising that there’s other members of the community around us who are like us, we are not alone in this struggle. Finding that person who felt the same way he did, was enough for him.

I see the smile as it starts to creep in It was there, I saw it in your eyes

Referencing the missing something in the girl’s eyes from before, Louis says that he’s found it in his lover’s eyes. They’re happy, they know who they are, they’ve accepted themselves. I also made a connection here with a lyric from Louis’ song Walls where he sings “Looked you in the eyes, saw that I was lost” perhaps implying he could no longer find that “something” in his lover’s eyes, he no longer feels the same way. Louis’ songs have many easter eggs and little references to eachother, it’s amazing how he’s writing a story through his songs and no matter which album or era you pick a song from, they all link with eachother and can be written down like a cohesive story. He’s a really brilliant, smart songwriter. 

In his debut album Walls:

Something to note here, Louis hasn’t used a single pronoun in the entirety of Walls. Unlike the unnecessary “girl” in awkward places that were forced into One Direction songs, Louis’ debut album is a beauty, gender neutral piece that is relatable to everyone, regardless of who are partner is. 

7. Too Young

Oh, I can't believe I gave in to the pressure When they said a love like this would never last

Being LGBT+ as a regular person is hard enough, but being a gay man in the homophobic music industry is near to impossible. Louis talks about the pressure and hardships he and his lover may have faced under their label and management, considering how restrictive, abusive and controlling Sony Music is, it isn’t far-fetched to think that Louis is referring to the pressure his relationship may be under because of contracts and agreements. The industry is homophobic, the artist is a product and the listeners are the consumers, and gay men in pop music aren’t exactly seen as marketable by the executives. A “love like this” is obviously referring to queer love, and being told that it’s phase that will pass, or that it won’t last because they won’t let it last.

8. Habit

I took some time 'cause I've ran out of energy Of playing someone I heard I'm supposed to be But honestly, I don't have to choose anymore

Louis talks about being tired of playing a character, hiding his true self and being someone he isn’t because thats what hes told to do. Again, this could be a reference to that “pressure” he felt in Too Young, and also an obvious reference to a closet. All of us who have been closeted before or are in the closet right now, know that our day to day public lives feel like playing a character, acting like the person society expects us to be. Straight men don’t experience this, they don’t have to play someone else because they are exactly what society expects of them already. Louis is tired of that, and doesn’t want to choose between that pressure of the hiding and being his true self. 

 9. Only the brave

It's a church of burnt romances And I'm too far gone to pray

Only the Brave is the last song on Louis’ debut album, and was quickly claimed by his LGBT+ fans as a second sister to home, another gay anthem. In the track by track, he says “Love is only for the brave”. Bravery and pride are two words commonly associated with the LGBT+ community, pride is an integral part of us and we are extremely brave for being ourselves and loving who we love in a society that tells us that we are wrong for doing so. Here, Louis again brings up religion and his relationship with it. This is a recurring theme in his songs. The “burnt romances” are obviously queer romances that the “church” or all religion has killed, by telling us we are wrong or evil for being who we are. Alot of gay people have a bad relationship with religion, mostly because we are so demonised by it. “Too far gone to pray” definitely refers to how gay people are told that if they pray or if they hadn’t strayed from religion they might be able to “cure” themselves. In this case he says that he can't do that anymore, because he KNOWS who he is and doesn't need religion to tell him. He’s too far gone to turn around and try to “fix” himself, instead he doesn't need that fixing at all. 

And they'll say, "I told you so Come on, when you know, you know"

Something most of us have heard when we come out of the closet, is people saying “they knew all along” and this is a reference to that. It can also be interpreted as knowing who we are when the time comes. Most of us have had our gay awakening at some point in life, when that moment comes, we realise who we were all along. Louis himself has been outed multiple times in his career, once even by The Wanted, he might be referring to how people will say that they had known all along when they find out the truth about him. 

Additional: 

10. Just Like You 

“Twenty-five and it's all planned”

Louis announced Just Like You as a song for the fans against his label’s wishes on 11th October 2017, also known as National Coming Out Day. His LGBT+ fans knew it was another outcry from him about his sexuality, reaching out to his community through his music. Here he talks about how his entire career has been planned, perhaps referring to Too Young and Habit, playing this character because he’s been forced into it, because that’s what's written down for him by the management and labels. His fans have always picked up on certain mannerisms and things he does and says that look forced, and are probably a result of controlled media training of his body language and words. 

Yeah, I feel the same as you would do Same stress, same shit to go through I'm just like you If you only knew

The “you” here is the LGBT+ community. Time and time again Louis has been alienated from his own people, and through his music he reaches out to us and tells us that he’s the same, he goes through the same troubles and hardships and faces the same societal pressure that we face when it comes to being who we are and loving who we love. 

I wanna lay where she lays

This is the one of the only pronouns Louis has ever used in his solo music but his fans quickly picked up on the real meaning behind it. “She” lays next to a man, and Louis might be referring to how gay men are told that men should not lie with men, and he says that if he had it his way, he could be lying where “she” is, as in next to the man, his lover. 

Louis also released a beautiful lyric video for Just Like You where he added newspaper articles about various topics ranging from Black Lives Matter, racial inequality, police brutality, feminism, sexual assault and the LGBT+. There are many easter eggs and hints to pick up on in the video including a clipping of a crossed out “What is your sex” column and using a separate clipping of the letter “S” over the word “He” to form “She”, a reference to gender neutral pronouns or the “He” that he wants to lay next to. 

 There are many themes that are recurring in Louis’ music, specifically religion, societal pressure, having to hide and be someone society expects him to be, being told that there’s something wrong that needs to be “cured”. All of these are a common part of the queer experience, something all of us have been through and shared with eachother. That’s why Louis’ music resonantes with gay fans, because the words he writes and sings tell a story that all of us have lived, and a straight man could’nt do that. LGBT+ artists queer code through many ways, clothing, mannerisms, art, Louis does it through songwriting. He may be in a tightly controlled, restrictive situation but he has a positive outlook on life, he is proud of who he is, he constantly reaches out to fans and his community through the only way he can, his songwriting. He’s given us many gay anthems  and has helped many fans, myself included, come to terms with our sexuality and accept ourselves because his music told us that it’s okay to do so. I’m grateful to Louis for giving me that acceptance and love that all of us seek through his beautiful songs. It’s time we stop invalidating Louis’ struggles and the amount of times he has reached out to his community and tried to show us his true self. 

Can’t wait for our next big gay anthem in LT2!

[braveryhslthome]

Louis Tomlinson escribe canciones de amor Queer sobre experiencias Queer ( P.1 en 1D):

Louis es un compositor prolífico que ha escrito la mayoría de las canciones icónicas de One Direction y ha escrito cada una de las canciones de su álbum debut Walls. La mayoría de nosotros hemos captado la codificación queer muy obvia, pero muchas personas parecen rechazar las protestas de Louis sobre su sexualidad a través de sus canciones y estoy aquí para mostrar todos los himnos gay que Louis nos ha dado en One Direction, luego haré la segunda parte con las canciones de “Walls”.

Antes de que alguien mencione el hecho de que Liam Payne también ha participado en la escritura de estas canciones, con sus propias palabras, ¡se centró más en las melodías y Louis en las letras reales!

1) Strong: 

I’m sorry if I say, “I need you” But I don’t care, I’m not scared of love ‘Cause when I’m not with you I’m weaker Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong That you make me strong?

Aquí Louis habla de no tener miedo de amar a su pareja y les pregunta si está tan mal que estén enamorados y se necesiten el uno al otro. Una cosa muy común que se les dice a los homosexuales es que está mal que amemos a nuestra pareja. Louis está tratando de hacer que su amante se dé cuenta de que está bien que lo hagan y que no hay nada que temer.

Think of how much Love that’s been wasted

People always Trying to escape it Move on to stop their heart breaking But there’s nothing I’m running from You make me strong

Muchos homosexuales mayores han permanecido en el armario toda su vida y han tratado de "escapar" de sus verdades y de quienes realmente son, porque han tenido (y todavía tienen) miedo al rechazo o la angustia que podrían enfrentar si fueran afuera. Especialmente cuando las cosas eran aún peores para la comunidad, los homosexuales permanecían en matrimonios heterosexuales e incluso tenían hijos.

Louis, por otro lado, dice que no se avergüenza de quién es y que no está huyendo de su verdadero yo. Sabe a quién ama y está orgulloso de sí mismo.

2) Alive: 

My mother told me I should go and get some therapy I asked the doctor, “can you find out what is wrong with me?

Aquí Louis se refiere a cómo las familias y la sociedad a menudo nos dicen que ser gay es algo que debe arreglarse. El "médico" podría ser una referencia a la terapia de conversión por la que se ven obligados a pasar muchas personas homosexuales de familias homofóbicas. Si creces con esa mentalidad, es posible que te preguntes si algo anda mal contigo.

She said, "hey, it’s alright Does it make you feel alive? Don’t look back Live your life Even if it’s only for tonight” She said, “hey, it’s alright If it makes you feel alive”

Entonces ella le dice que está bien ser él mismo y vivir su verdad, amar a quien ama, porque lo único que importa es hacer lo que realmente lo hace “sentir vivo”, que es ser él mismo.

I whispered something in her ear that I just can’t repeat She said, “okay” but she was worried what her friends will think She’s going crazy Can’t contain it She asked me, “what should I do, oh?”

Aquellos de nosotros que hemos estado en un armario nos hemos preocupado en algún momento de que nuestros amigos se enteren. Todos conocemos la teoría de que si reemplazas a “girl” de Alive con “men”, la canción cambia de significado. Claramente se convierte en una canción sobre un chico que se relaciona con otro hombre en la misma fiesta, y él se preocupa por lo que pensarían sus amigos de que esté con otro chico.

Louis le está diciendo lo que le dijo el médico: que todo estará bien y que debe hacer lo que lo haga sentir vivo. Ser quien es y vivir su verdad libremente. ¡Me encanta esta teoría de la canción porque tiene mucho sentido!

3) Through the dark:

You tell me that you’re sad and lost your way You tell me that your tears are here to stay But I know you’re only hiding And I just wanna see you

Aquí probablemente se esté refiriendo a un amante o un amigo que tal vez temía aceptarse a sí mismo. Louis le está diciendo, que ha perdido el rumbo tratando de encontrarse a sí mismo, que su verdadero yo todavía está allí, escondido bajo ese manto de vergüenza y odio a sí mismo.

You tell me that you’re hurt and you’re in pain And I can see your head is held in shame, But I just wanna see you smile again See you smile again

El tema de "esconderse" y "vergüenza" son referencias obvias a la homofobia internalizada y Louis le está diciendo a su amigo o amante que quiere verlo feliz, quiere que acepte quién es. A lo largo de la canción les recuerda que siempre estará ahí para ellos y que los apoyará y amará sin importar lo que la sociedad diga. Solo quiere que sean felices y ellos mismos.

4) Ready to run:

There’s a moment when you finally realize There’s no way you can change the rolling tide

Todos hemos tenido ese momento en el que nos dimos cuenta de que éramos queer, para algunos de nosotros sucedió a una edad temprana y para otros de nosotros más tarde en la vida. Pero ese momento de realización y reconciliación con nuestra sexualidad es una experiencia compartida por toda la comunidad. Louis habla de ese momento, de darse cuenta de quién es y no querer cambiarlo porque la verdad está ahí y él la acepta.

There will always be the kind that criticize But I know, yes I know we’ll be alright

Como LGBT+, enfrentamos muchas críticas de la sociedad y Louis habla de cómo no le importa quién se opone a él y a su amante, sabe que estarán bien porque cree en su amor.

5) End of the day:

All I know at the end of the day is you want what you want and you say what you say And you’ll follow your heart even though it’ll break Sometimes All I know at the end of the day is love who you love There ain’t no other way If there’s something I’ve learnt from a million mistakes You’re the one that I want at the end of the day

Vuelve a hablar sobre mantenerse fiel a sí mismo y vivir su verdad, incluso si pudiera enfrentar el rechazo y la angustia, no puede cambiar quién es. Una frase común asociada con la comunidad LGBT+ es "Love is Love". Louis habla sobre el mismo tema y dice que nada puede cambiarlo porque sabe a quién ama y no hay nada de malo en a quién ama y quiere. Habla de cómo no tiene miedo de estar enamorado de esta persona y está listo para decir lo que quiera de su amante, porque no se avergüenza de sus sentimientos de ninguna manera o forma. Y seguirá su corazón aunque pueda ser rechazado.

The priest thinks it’s the devil My mum thinks it’s the flu But girl it’s only you

Se refiere al "sacerdote" y la "mamá" como lo hizo con el "médico" y la "madre" en Alive. Las diferentes religiones nos dicen que ser gay es algo erróneo o  malo, nuestra familia nos dice que es solo una fase que superaremos, y Louis habla de estos elementos en muchas de sus canciones. Pero sabe que sus sentimientos no tienen nada de malo, no es una fase ni una tendencia para él, ama a quien ama y no hay otra manera

6) Home: 

Louis filtró Home a pesar de que no era un single e incluso tuiteó un pequeño emoji de una casa para ello. Los fans rápidamente reclamaron esta canción como exclusiva para nosotros e incluso comenzamos el “Project Home”.

Make a little conversation So long I’ve been waiting So let go of myself and feel alive

Aquí Louis se refiere a la sensación de estar "vivo" una vez más. Ser quien realmente es lo hace sentir como si realmente estuviera viviendo. Finalmente se está “soltándose”, como para aceptar quién es.

So many nights I thought it over Told myself I kind of liked her But there was something missing in her eyes 

Aquí habla de cómo trató de hacerse creer que le gustaba esta chica, pero al final del día sabía que no estaba bien y que faltaba algo. La mayoría de nosotros hemos tratado de hacernos creer que tal vez solo estamos confundidos, y muchos de nosotros hemos sufrido por comp-het ("heterosexualidad obligatoria"), o le hemos dado a la heterosexualidad una última oportunidad antes de darnos cuenta de que algo anda mal y esto no es para nosotros.

I was stumbling, looking in the dark With an empty heart But you say you feel the same Could we ever be enough? Baby we could be enough

Hubo un momento en el que estaba confundido, averiguando dónde se encontraba en el espectro, estaba "tropezando" en este viaje de auto-aceptación y encontró a su amante en el camino. Alguien que le dijo que se sentían de la misma manera que él. Esta es nuevamente una experiencia común compartida en la comunidad, encontrar consuelo al darse cuenta de que hay otras personas a nuestro alrededor que son como nosotros, no estamos solos en esto. Encontrar a esa persona que se sentía igual, fue suficiente para él.

I see the smile as it starts to creep in It was there, I saw it in your eyes

Al hacer referencia al algo que faltaba en los ojos de la chica de antes, Louis dice que lo encontró en los ojos de su amante. Son felices, saben quiénes son, se han aceptado a sí mismos.

Las canciones de Louis tienen demasiados easter eggs y pequeñas referencias entre sí, es increíble cómo está escribiendo una historia a través de sus canciones y no importa de qué álbum o época elijas una canción, todas se vinculan entre sí y se pueden escribir como una historia cohesiva... Es un compositor inteligente y brillante.

(segunda parte aquí)

Fuentes: @wifeylouis

[organic-guacamole]

episode 210 here we go

awww seb doing the intro

congratulations to milky white and her baby chocolate milk😌

seb is so funny

but seriously, clean up that milk fast or else it will smell so bad in there....

was that Lauryn just randomly doing cartwheels? idk any theatre kids irl but that seems like it's a common thing...

is it just me or has ms Jenn been getting more harsh to Ricky and Seb mainly-

like what did they do to her

no because I actually snorted with laughter at the "you came back" WHAT IS THAT VOICE-

AND THE MASK OMG

yeah so my throat hurts now

I'm dying over here

KOURTNEY'S FACE

SAME GIRL SAME

Ricky's fake death got the whole place in tears /s

he looks like an asthmatic walrus

Seb's on piano, I love

we all know if he was the beast we'd all actually be crying✋

ok but I listen to Julia's version of home on Spotify when I want to cry-

right so gimme a second

is Ricky scratching his face.....while he's dying?

"belle i-" *flop*

round of applause to Ashlyn for trying to make Ricky's earthworm seizure look less.... yknow

Kourtney's just dying there

WAIT IS THAT NATALIE

did she really just disappear for 9 episodes just to come back and stare dramatically into the camera

WAIT SCRATCH THAT SHES HERE TO MURDER ASHLYN AND RICKY

oh so Ricky's wearing a gay shirt now too

so that's the real reason why Rini broke up, see y'all next season when Gini and caswen become canon /j

wait that was a long intro scene-

what was that look Carlos-

TALK TO MY BOY OR ELSE

carlos' run is so funny to me

therapist Ashlyn to the rescue

"that is...super" son you good?

ms Jenn call Benjamin, he would willingly put his loved ones on a rocket and blast them into Venus for you....

maybe

"I don't want you kids to be disappointed" girl you do realise you're the one that's most invested in this?

"a smooth opening night" wasn't there just 1 show though-

like their opening night was closing night too

"I think I was Troy at one point" PLEASE THATS THE MOST ACCURATE DESCRIPTION OF THE SEASON 1 FINALE

me Jenn looks like a serial killer during that clap and I'm lowkey scared for zacky

"I have notes"

oo if you're taking suggestions, lemme get my list

"mother is freaking out" uhhhhhh

right....'mother"

"is everyone sitting down?"

*looks around awkwardly*

*big red slowly sits*

"no..."

please seb was the only one sitting-

does that mean Carlos looked at Seb as soon as he walked in and assumed that everyone else was sitting too or am I a seblos clown🤡

"is this about the transformation"

WOW MAYBE OT IS RICKY

WOW HES A DETECTIVE FOR FIGURING THAT OUT SO QUICK🤩

YO WHY IS NATALIE HERE-

she just shows up when it's convenient? is she gonna be at the sleepover too?

Seb's heavy swallow after Carlos shouts at him makes me so sad

"I never learned how to lie but I figure if I keep my mouth closed, I can't tell the truth" *nods and smiles at Nini when she asks*

why are they casually standing up all over the pizza shop, just sit at a big table and talk instead of blocking passageways and blocking off at least 6 tables-

"how about I invite myself" WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS FEEL THE NEED TO INVITE THEMSELVES TO ASHLYN'S HOUSE-

YOU CAN ASK BUT JUST FORCE YOUR WAY IN?

so Cash Caswell has a bigger house than... Dennis Caswell.... who would've thought

ah yes there's the good old EJ 1.0

Nini: "boys vs girls"

Gina: *looks devastated and glances longingly at EJ*

way to be inconspicuous

"but north high should be" *cracks her knuckles in the most uncomfortable way*

good for Ashlyn for getting more confident though

oo bossy big red

"i get bossy around the power tools"

is that why Ashlyn was holding up the drill in episode 8 orrrr 🤠

oh

Lily, leave him alone please

she's literally not blinking, is that what makes her creepy?

the diss at big red and his face afterwards is priceless

isn't that similar to what Gina's mom said to her in season 1? hmmmm

but seriously please don't try to redeem lily, let us have a character to hate, or to love because they're evil.

not everyone's a good guy.

"im not liked here and I don't know what to do"

let antoine finish his salad and it'll fix everything

"hug emoji" *gags*

y'all realize Lily's literally 14?

why is she calling a 16/17 year old from another school for personal advice-

"he gets weird around tools"

I shouldn't be laughing so hard

"deja vu maybe?" awkward silence

I'm dying here I love EJ so so so so much

"where's seb"

*cuts to seb being held hostage hoping that they'd notice he's missing and go look for him*

"don't ask"

"oh ok"

"100% real faux fur" as you should queen

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Kourtney is singlehandedly saving the entire show.

Seb making finger guns make me happier than it should

why is this kinda making me want to have a co-ed sleepover with my non-existent theatre friends

YES YOU DO NEED TO TALK/SING TO SEB CARLOS THANK YOU FOR KNOWING THAT

wait what-

you haven't talked to him all WEEK-

Carlos are you stupid /hj

Benjamin is so adorable I can't

he turned around to come back for her instead of going home. you're "what do you want Jenn🙄X act isn't fooling anyone Benjamin 🙃

10101

1+4+16= 21st?

they placed 21st?

or do I just not remember how to convert to base ten

GIRL DON'T BE RUDE TO HIM, HE'S GONNA SAVE YALL

no ms Jenn, the kids are not eccentric 35 year olds.

aww sebby

is he thinking that Carlos is only with him cuz he's the only other openly gay guy at school-

son you are a perfect little bean don't put yourself down

yes they all ship portwell as they should.

they'll be throwing risotto at the wedding.

not the chocolates. stop there are no chocolates. please stop I'm dying.

Gina you don't have to explain yourself to her

it was a misunderstanding and it's in the past

why is Ashlyn still laughing-

exactly it wasn't a big deal please just move on Nini

Kourtney really be out here saving everything

WHY IS ASHLYN STILL LAUGHING

why do I feel like when Gina finally told Ash about it, she didn't think it was that funny but wanted to feel included in the inside joke so now she brings it up randomly to show that she's in on it....I totally don't do that...

"idk, the farmer type" oh son...

Ashlyn and big red are just spilling the secrets back and forth huh?

OOO EJ AND GINA SITTING IN A TREE K-I-S-S-I-

cmon guys don't look at me like that-

"she is the best" and "we're buddies" don't sound right together

"pretty boy" "sweet boy" best ways to describe EJ

I love him.

and aw he's scared of rejection so he'll hold back just to keep her happy and not awkward how sweet

is Ricky wondering if letting her go(literally his song from last episode) was the best thing he did for Nini because he doesn't feel like it now? hmmm this is getting good

why is everyone so invested in Kourtney and Howie's relationship

PACK UP THE LAZY RICKY THING

oh yes Benji, that's exactly what she's doing

she couldn't follow her dream or whatever so now she's using the kids to gain some of the success she craves. why else would she have that massive hsm poster with her name on it in huge letters in her office.

just casually grab his hand with both your hands and stare at him creepily 🥰

ship jennzzara y'all

the first bump was a missed opportunity to do the baymax "falalala" as a reference to the fact that they watched big hero six while committing arson✋

wait so big red and EJ just left Ricky in the basement and now Ricky invited Carlos when they're supposed to be at the stage?

help no Ricky looks like he's about to tell Carlos he likes him (I know it's about writing the song for seb but still, look at his body language and tell me it doesn't look like that)

Ricky is so mature about this, he really just wants Nini to be happy even though he's hurting-

baby you deserve love, maybe Nini isn't the one for you but don't say you don't deserve it

why does he keep adding bro to the end like he doesn't know how to address Carlos

PLEASE CARLOS HAVING TO ADDRESS THE BRO THING

"let's write a song when we have like 45 minutes to get to the place and help our friends possibly win $50000 at the show in 2 weeks"

"can you hit a high C?"

"that's like the bottom of my range"

why am I laughing

this is so cool to see friendship interactions that we don't normally get to see

Nini why are you being like this-

Gina did nothing wrong??

I saw that, EJ and Gina being the only ones going in the same direction👀

right so obviously Kourtney's waiting until after the menkies to get back with Howie just in case he really is just using her as a way in to east high... obviously... right?

CARLOS

OK ITS COMING GET READY YALL

Why is portwell so awkward all of a sudden

OMG EJ

OMG GINA SAY YES or not, do what you want.

the way she doubts that EJ would genuinely ask so she has to make sure it's not Ashlyn behind it

OH

THE "NOT THAT I KNOW OF"

LIKE WHAT GINA SAID TO JACK ABOUT EJ BEING HER BOYFRIEND

GUYS THEY'RE SOULMATES

I want risotto now please

THEY'RE SO SWEET AND ADORABLY AWKWARD ITS LIKEEK LITTLE KIDS

OOOOOOO what is this place that seblos is in, looks fancy....and secluded

oh wait no Ricky's just standing there

wait is it the bomb shelter

it looks so good what

HSKAGSJAGAJAGWISGSKAUASBWKSVAIWBAISBQKSHIQBWOABWOABDOQBZIQBAIAQBSIWBQISVQKSIANSGOQBSAISBKASBKWBAIABQOSBBSJAHAJAVAJSBAJHSKAHSJAHAJAJAAJAHHHHHHHH

@youranxiousnerd ARE YOU OK?

CUZ IM NOT OK

LOOK AT SEBBY'S FACE

LOOK AT HOW ADORABLE IT IS

THE LYRICS ARE KILLING ME

SEBLOS IS KILLING ME

I AM DEAD

PLEASE SEND HELP

I like to imagine that Frankie and Joe practiced this in their apartment and just had a blast with it.

or maybe that Frankie practiced in secret like what Joe did for the climb

OH THE SUITS

THATS WHERE THAT CLIP IN THE PROMO WAS FROM

AWWW SEBBY'S SO CUTE

HE'S A LITTLE MARSHMALLOW

they're still so awkward with the dance I cant

let's appreciate Frankie's voice though

this episode really was made just for the seblos and portwell stans and you gotta love it

BIG RED GET OUT

WHY DOES HE ALWAYS DO THIS

Seb's little "yeah" IS ADORABLE

you can't tell me that wouldn't have been the best time for them to say I love you....IF FREAKIN BIG RED WASN'T THERE

ok but wait Ricky needs more hugs like that, look at his face

the boy needs love

"bro" please don't let Ricky and Carlos go back to not talking because their friendship is amazing

EJ laughing at Ricky sounding like a cat coughing up a furball is so funny to me

RICKY'S FLOP GETS ME EVERYTIME

I knew it was too good to be true

ok so Ricky's dead, next in line please

this episode was so short but I love it so much. this is what I signed up for for season 2✋

[gyujeongfmd]

aesthetic, headcanon & playlist — a gyujeong character study

summary — a general layout for the “vibe” that gyujeong has in his little mannerisms. they’re like little crumbs you can see his personality in through each picture, the good the bad the ugly. not necessarily shown towards other, it’s the small little “quirks” (i hate this word) that makes gyu, gyu. playlist summary — most times people want to refer to gyujeong as grumpy. however, in most of his interactions, he’s rarely ever blatantly harmful to the other person. instead, most times there’s an underlying softness? if you can call it that, where he basically tucks his tail away and says something kind-ish that gets swept under the rug of superficial conversations. as a result, most times people would relate his essence to a travis scott / asap rocky vibe, but in reality — he’s more of a drake rapper where there’s a tinge more of sentimentality with what he carries. these aren’t the songs that best describe him, per se, but more so the songs that “feel” most like him. if you take a listen, there’s bits of gyu to all the songs. wc — 418

1. 박소은 — 일기 / park soeun — diary 2. keshi — 2 soon 3. loote — tomorrow tonight 4. anne-marie — to be young (ft. doja cat) 5. 박재범 — 가나다라 ft. 아이유 / jay park — GANADARA ft. iu 6. 비투비 — 그리워하다 / BTOB — missing you 7. 레드벨벳 — 퀸덤 / red velvet — queendom  8. 오마이걸 — 살짝 설렜어 / oh my girl — nonstop 9. drake — come thru (nothing was the same) 10. mac miller — love lost

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these things aren’t necessarily things that require an explanation, just the general gist / feel for what “aesthetic” gyujeong is. it’s meant to read it, and then have an understanding of “ah ha that is gyu” type of vibe

scraping off the burnt part of toast to salvage eating it

lopsided cuts off the crust leftovers from pizza

sweet potato pizza with corn 

a full ass pizza with one leaf of spinach

a dirty mop with a chanel logo pasted on it, causing the price to hike up to 3k for a used mop

grape juice poised as wine on a set of a tv show

north dakota / south dakota being considered one state

ignoring chungcheong-do as a province

jeju-do during jangma season

double stamps on your passport visas to make a 3D effect

puffy stickers

wearing a brown bag over your face, only to realize it starts a new trend

the unused 1kg weights at the gym

taking april fools jokes seriously

cry-laughing at “is ur refrigerator running? better go catch it” joke

background noise of my 600 lbs life on background

trot music at an old hof

fingers touching the first snowflakes of winter

sniffling during sad movies and calling it “allergies”

otter memes

stepping into a confessional to have conversations

ignoring international fans

underdressing for winter 

christmas lights in may

the singe of apple cider vinegar’s smell

😹🤙👍🌹

🌝 this emoji used non-ironically

~_~ 

half-dried out roses

drinking half the drink with one gulp of a straw and calling it a “sip”

throwing away clothes after seeing some insta influencer wearing it

getting idioms wrong by 1 word

building an interior on the sims before putting it in real life

“pummeled by cupid” moodlet

scooping out all the cookie dough in the chocolate chip cookie ice cream pint

forgetting to eat

bob pancakes on the sims

that melody that plays before your subway comes thru

the maze that is jongno / myeongdong underground pathway

pretending to be on the phone in front of people only for your phone to ring

baby lotion

the speedwalking event in the olympics

wearing hokas for fashion

tik tok trends that already passed 4 months ago

bottles of expensive wine as decor

soft yellows

silk sheets (for health benefits not aesthetic)

specialized soaps / array of laundry accessories

bb cream guised as sunscreen

death note

kyo soma’s duality

the baby chickens you’d get from school 

faking a “headache” during gym class

crong from pororo

reusable tumblers

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#5

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#4

Heya guys

to the folks that

do follow me and like ddlc (and music) I made an au and a blog for that au

there’s nothing on there at the time of writing but here: @the-literature-club

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#3

FIRST IMAGE IS POINT A, OR (26, 26) WE REFLECT OVER THE Y AXIS TO GET THE SECOND IMAGE WITH POINT A’ (-26, 26)

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#2

for a while I was kinda into that reality shifting stuff, ngl

but then I kinda drifted from it

and I learned about astral projection for one thing

and today I saw a post that made me kinda like realize that oh hey,, reality shifting is basically daydreaming

the whole thing does feel kinda off in a way but idk man, I’m just a random person on the internet

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My #1 post of 2022

Helpful Keyboard Shortcuts for Microsoft Edge

(not sure if they would work for other programs)

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[cadaceus]

EXU 03: “A Glorious Return”

Okay, so hello everyone! Possibly an unexpected post for you all to see today, but I finally watched Episode 3 of Exandria Unlimited: “A Glorious Return!” Although I had seen Episodes 1, 2, 4, and 5, I had skipped over Episode 3 and boy am I glad that I went back to it. There were so many funny moments, and it was so great to meet Gilmore for the very first time!! Full liveblogs down below!

- It feels so strange to me now that Fy’ra Rai isn’t there! Like something is missing from this fabulous group

- Dariax’s Tharla Starr distraction is so good dfghjkl I love that for him

- Fearne rolling a 5 on her Stealth check and being caught in everyone’s gaze reminds me of when I was people watching the other day and the person I was looking at made direct eye contact with me, embarrassing 😔

- “EXCUSE ME, THIS WOMAN IS LOOKING FOR HER CHILD NANCY” FINALLY THE INFAMOUS NANCY MOMENT DFGHDJKL

- All of Ashley’s characters love music so much :(( I’m manifesting her playing a bard for Campaign 3!

- Orym saying “Mother!” in his grown man voice SOMEBODY HELP THEM ALL

- A ZERO AND A NATURAL 1 FOR PERCEPTION CHECKS... “I hope an 11 saves this scenario”

- I’ve never met Gilmore before but I’ve heard so much about him, I’m excited to meet him!!

- THERE HE IS HELLO MR GILMORE SIR

- “Flattery will get you literally everywhere, thank you” I love him already LMAO

- “I’m, uh, Br--Dorian!” HELLO WHAT???? HAS DORIAN BEEN USING A FALSE NAME THIS WHOLE TIME???

- Oh, just realized how painful that is going to be for Dariax “I hate liars” Zaveon oh no the angst potential is through the roof

- Dariax [to Dorian]: “If you want to keep it, I want to keep it” PLEASE he’s so willing to go along with whatever his friends want, somebody keep him safe pls

- HELP DORIAN JUST BEING OBLIVIOUS TO GILMORE’S FLIRTING DFGDJKF IT’S OKAY BABY

- “So the box only goes one way... it does not go both ways?” I love Opal so much asdfkl

- I love how Fearne is 112 and yet she truly does know her exact age, compared to Essek being the living embodiment of the shrug emoji when asked for a number

- Liams little “ 😊 “ expression when Gilmore says “I could never resist a pretty face” is making me both soft and emo despite not yet having watching Campaign 1

- I wonder what sentimental value Orym’s shield has for him, I’m actually so curious about his backstory as well although I’m worried it will be sad because of that Liam tweet :((

- I don’t know what Liam said to Matt at 2:28:28 but the little looks they exchanged were cute so I’m timestamping it

- STONKY’S RING??? I don’t know what that is but it sounds hilarious PLEASE buy it, Fearne

- Awwww, Inanna has a crush on Dariax, doesn’t she?? That’s literally so adorable omg 🥰

- Liam saying “Ja, amber is good” in Caleb’s voice at 2:49:10, do you want me to cry today sir :((

- Ooooh, Poska is the one driving the cart now!

- Fearne casting Charm Person on Poska is so freaking clutch oh my goodness

- ORYM BEING THE ONE TO SHOVE A LETTER TO GILMORE INTO THE ONE USE BOX IS SO GOOD

[tomodachimeter]

Answering old asks

m(__)m

That is all.

Emojis aside, I really am so very sorry it’s taken me so long to get around to responding to messages since the manga ended, I’ve been extremely busy in my personal life so it was kind of all I could do to cope with the manga ending during that time too, haha. As of now even the last volume and fanbook are already out, but I’ll leave a few comments on the messages I’ve been sent as they were. I’m also grouping together messages that are more of readers’ own comments rather than questions for me and responding all at once, so please forgive me if I couldn’t get around to responding individually!

“My heart pains to seeing the end ahahhhhh ashiya and abeno parted waysI really really really hope for something to come next. it kinda feels sad for meabt this ending”

“Honestly I like the ending but I didn’t like how the author left out information about abeno’s background. For instance, what happen to his parents?, where did he come from?, how did he come meeting Ao?,etc. I really wanted to see all of that, including how ashiya told his mom and sister about sakaes death. Other then that, I REALLY LOVE THE PROPOSAL!!! What is with shouen manga/anime with these different type of propsals like, “I’ll skate infinity with you”, “ I will die so you won’t be alone”,etc. Like COME ON!!! I also want to see a adult ashiya and abeno 🙏.”

I feel the same, I love the ending in its own way but I also expected so much more and I wanted to see more of their adventures. So I respect sensei’s decision but that just means it’s a free-for-all in terms of headcanons after!!

“Now that the manga has ended, I really wish the anime hadn't screwed up with the season 2 ending, so we could have gotten a continuation... I really miss animated Fuzzy running around, Ashiya's screaming and Abeno's "Hah?" (´꒳`)♡”

I wonder what they’d do for a season 3 if it ever came to pass. There are a few ways they could go about it like kind of just continuing down the manga, or they could ignore what they animated at the end of s2 and then keep going (Ao no Exorcist style), or I don’t even know, honestly. No matter how dissatisfied I am with how they do anime, I’d still watch it though. :U

“Wow I can't believe it took me so long to realize this! Recently, I noticed that the dynamic between Hanae-Sakae-Aoi-Abeno and the plot revolving around them is very similar to what happens in the manga Switch (Kai-his dad-Hal's dad-Hal). The relationship between Kai and Hal is similar to Hanae and Abeno's. Kai's dad died and this is related to Hal's dad, who has survived thanks to the death of his friend (Kai's dad). Plus Kai manifests what seems to be his dad's personality when he's in danger.”

“So much tears! I really don't want this to end, but I knew it was too good to be true. Though, the way the way the manga ended felt like a new beginning. Hanae made a promise/vow to Itsuki that he will return, no matter how long it takes, so he hopes Itsuki will wait for him. Also, that picture of Sakae and Aoi on the counter makes me hope that Hanae and his family (plus Sakae in heaven) has peace now. I felt like crying more. Thank you for everything and I hope to see you again!”

“ok rip Abeno's past... rip yellow eyes... rip this cliffhanger ending...“

“Suddenly I see that anon ask about OPs and EDs and partings & separations in a new light... darn. (╯°Д °)╯╧╧”

Fittingly enough, Sensei mentioned in the fanbook that Mononokean has always been a story about meetings and partings too, but still...! More...!!!

“I think this ending is very fitting. Ashiya was never truly part of the youkai world, he was always taking one step in only to step out soon after, and going back and forth between loving youkai and being afraid of them. Ashiya's state of employment has always had a "temporary" feeling to it, including, for example, the fact that he never changed his clothes, and his Mononokean-crest clothes were "borrowed". UItimately, Ashiya didn't seem like he could dedicate his life to youkai, unlike Abeno. (continuing from my previous ask about "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world") It wasn't only Ashiya's feelings on the matter that kept him away from the world of youkai. Abeno contributed greatly to this, as he constantly tried to keep Ashiya away from the Underworld, from danger, from knowing too much, and from youkai themselves, even though Ashiya was technically his employee. If Abeno had tried, even a little, to pull Ashiya into his world, Ashiya would have responded to him, I'm sure. (another "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world" ask) The fact Abeno actively blocked Ashiya from his world was the greatest reason why Ashiya didn't feel like he belonged there. But he still felt connected to Abeno, at least. Rather than dedicate his life to youkai, Ashiya seemed like he might dedicate it to Abeno. Yet this feeling was also met with a wall. By the time Abeno realized how precious it was, having someone who saw the same things as him by his side, it was already too late. (last ask in the series "Ashiya not being part of the youkai world") Ironically, the Mononokean and most other youkai were more open and willing to welcome Ashiya into their world. Still, if and when Ashiya can see youkai again, I hope Abeno will have realized the opportunity he'd wasted. When these two reunite, I hope Abeno won't push Ashiya away again. That's all. I wanted to share these thoughts with you. Please let me know your opinion on the matter. Thank you for reading! :)”

I think you’re right on point with the themes you’ve pointed out and I believe that’s what Sensei was going for too, but it doesn’t change the fact that it’s terribly lonely for them to be separated from each other. ___(:3 At least we’re left with a (high) possibility of them getting back together (heh) and even moreso with the fanbook extra content too, so here’s to their continued adventures.

“I am not sure if you are familiar with this anime/manga/light novel series “No. 6” because the end of the Mononokean manga series appears similar to the end of the former in terms of the bond between the two male leads if you get what I mean.”

I know of it and it’s something I’ve always meant to get around to watching, but I have not seen it yet!

“Nooo, I can't believe it's over! 😭 But you know, ever since FNM's ending was announced, I've been looking for something to fill the void this precious story would inevitably leave in my heart, and then someone said "Watch Natsume Yuujinchou, the themes are similar and it's heartwarming". So I started it and, oh boy, I've been screaming at every episode because I'm not used to people openly showing their affection! 😂 So much hugging, hand-holding, head-patting... I'm melting!! (send help pls)”

“Hello Spring! We've reached the end of this wonderful journey, it seems. It's time for a new start. Thank you so much for everything you've done for this fandom, it wouldn't have been the same without you! Seriously, thank you, from the bottom of my heart! 😌 (PS: I forgot to mention, I opened this blog on my old old laptop, with its 1280x720 resolution, and the "ON YOUR OWN, BUT NOT ALONE" strip was right there covering Ashiya's and Abeno's faces, I had such a good laugh! I'm sorry I laughed!!)”

“This ending was really beautiful and yet sad. The promise made me hope but.. it's still so angst that maybe it will take years to hanae be able to see yokais again. I wonder if wazawa-sensei is okay, like, usually when a manga is ending they advertise previously, but the news was so suddenly that made me worry about sensei's health status. I also don't think that the publisher canceled the manga. So, I still don't know if this sudden ending was planned or not.”

Haha when I first made that tumblr theme, I kind of liked the effect that the strip had in covering Ashiya and Abeno’s faces somehow, but it always moves around depending on resolution lol.

In the afterword of the last volume and the fanbook, Sensei touched lightly on their various reasons for ending the manga (which I plan to cover eventually... when I have time...) and while I don’t think we’ll ever know fully, I got the impression that sensei personally seems in good health and even expressed that they would like to make another manga in the future, so as readers and fans we don’t need to worry too much.

“The manga ended well but we are left with unanswered questions : What is Abeno's past ? / Are golden eyes and hair special ? / What about Aoi's face ? / What really happened the day Aoi came back injured ? At this time she wasn't infected but Sakae died trying to save her (something is wrong with the plot) ?! / What about Fuzzy gender and his "human form" ?”

I will just say we got answers to some of those questions in the fanbook, and some we did not. :Y Please hold on for fanbook info!

Hey there. I’ve just read through the last chapter of the Mononokean. What a story. There are still a few questions that left me wondering: (1) What is the origin of the Mononokean itself?, (2) What is the origin of the Influence that flows within specific characters of the story?, (3) If Aoi was able to provide young Ashiya with a part of Sakae’s “Influence,” could it be done again?, & (4) If Ashiya could still see Fuzzy, what do you think this means for his potential abilities?

1. We were told in the first fanbook that the Mononokean was originally a well-loved tea ceremony room, and as we know in the Mononokean universe (also generally a concept in Japanese culture/religion, you can looked up the term “tsukumogami”), things that are used/loved sometimes end up gaining a sentience of their own, and if I remember right that’s how the Mononokean came to be too. (it’s been a while since I’ve reread the first fanbook so if I’m wrong please do correct me). As for any other specifics, we only know that Aoi and Abeno have been the first and second masters respectively, I’m pretty sure.

2. This was answered in the fanbook, which I’d like to summarize eventually! But Influence seems to be a natural power that develops in babies who have been in close contact with yokai before they were born, and golden hair and eyes are also a sign of that.

3. The partial Sakae Influence (lol wording) that Aoi gave to Ashiya as a baby was what Ashiya returned to Aoi to save them. I suppose since they’ve already done it before it’s technically possible, but that’d defeat the whole purpose of what they tried to do already haha.

4. I think it’s as Abeno theorizes, that Ashiya always did have a bit of ability to sense yokai on his own as well!

“I was looking for more FnM content and found out about your fanfictions on Ao3, so I read them all and oh my Lord! They were *so* good!! And I was very surprised and very glad to find out you ship Ashiya x Abeno, I'm especially happy because you ship them in that order, since I was so sure everybody would be shipping them in reverse order! Thank you so much for sharing your works!! (≧▽≦) ♡”

Thank you for your kind comments, I’m always so happy to hear someone loves my fic! I do love writing them even though I haven’t done it for a while and I have so many ideas and WIPs that I’ve still never gotten around to completely, but I swear I will do them someday... While I do think the reverse order is more popular in general, there’s a decent AshiItsu (the Japanese term for the ship haha) fandom thriving on Twitter!

Again thank you so much everyone! Look forward to fanbook info I’d like to get around to posting about soon!