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This newfound idea that Silco took Powder in because she reminded him of Felicia makes me wanna gouge my eyes out. I'm sorry for being harsh, I guess, but I hate that their relationship has been reduced to Silco's past friendship with Jinx's mother. It strips Silco of his complexities, of that uncomfortable, unhealthy side of his relationship with Jinx that is, in my opinion, absolutely essential to their bond because it reflects just how damaged Silco was. He took Powder in because he saw himself in her; a broken, sobbing little girl whose words perfectly paralleled his own: "She is not my sister anymore", "he is not my brother anymore". Silco fostered Jinx's violence because she needed to become what they - Piltover - feared, all the while Jinx weakened him, held his hand as she led him to his demise. Maybe I'm too picky, but I feel like Silco's and Powder's first meeting loses all of its weight if you go down the "he saw Felicia in her" route. Idk
#this could be worded way better but i hope you get what i mean#i'm really passionate abt silco and jinx's relationship and seeing how s2 dealt with that is...#like should i just fucking die. what were his last words for#silco as a whole is such an amazing character. a once in a lifetime antagonist#but season 2 did its best to disrespect him in every way it could and. it worked#a violent revolutionary turned centrist oh i'm gonna fucking die silco get behind me#silco#arcane#jinx#just my thoughts lol don't attack me
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guys please pray for me
#I don't know how to explain what's going on but I'm struggling and don't know how to get a handle on it#I think that there's two issues going on that are probably somewhat intertwined because I'm fixating on them as such#so maybe I need to separate out the one that is stupid and I shouldn't be fixating on it#and then just focus on the other thing as it is and not as a symptom of whatever else#idk but it's so weird and complicated that I just can't figure out how to explain it#and I've gone to my mom over stuff related to this enough lately so I won't again#idk I'm just. maybe I'm having a hard time because I'm so tired. I've been getting up early every day this week#and yet still can't fall asleep earlier so I'm not getting enough sleep I don't think.#I haven't had a break since friday#maybe that's part of it#bc I was fine for a while and then this week I'm fixating on what ifs and my own failures (that are somewhat out of my control#because I... don't know how to capture my thoughts while I'm literally mostly asleep? probably habit when I'm awake lol)#so i think there's a level of spiritual attack making me fixate and also just#tiredness#yeah.#anyway.#prayer request
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This is So self indulgent I almost don't want to post it (not putting this in any tags I'm embarrassed lol)
#this will be staying in my drafts for a qhile I think#👁🖤 Folly 🖤👁#GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!#the world is hitting me with random Folly attacks#I keep seeing her everywhere. I am being attacked with gay thoughts#I'm not strong enough. idk how much longer it will be until I finally decide to just add her to the list lol#I mean. I've already somewhat designed a self insert (the weird dog shark thing)#and I've been coming up with lore based on what little bit of knowledge I have of regretevator#I don't think it will be much longer before she's added to the list
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The "average" person on facebook is so scary lol.. I’ve just seen someone post a status earnestly being like “whew thank god, SO happy to see there are armed security in front of my local Target store now! finally all those nasty thieves can be dealt with! <3” with nothing but complete agreement in the comments, plus people wishing anyone who shoplifts gets shot like "hopefully they're actually allowed to use their guns LOL! ;)" and that getting positive likes and reactions... ??? The whole attitude of "Oh noooo! :( Not someone taking like $40 of stuff from target! :( This is definitely not part of a larger systemic problem and could clearly all be solved if only I were just able to watch them be violently assaulted, which I am REALLY looking forward to because I am very normal and healthy :) God I wish so desperately that I could watch a poor person get gunned down in front of me, I dream everyday about seeing other human beings maimed!! Which again, is a completely normal healthy thing to wish for! :) Thank god I'm not some immoral thieving barbarian! And thank god for Target! :) <3" and that it's normalized enough that nobody in all the hundred comments finds it bizarre at all like.. hewwo..
#not even snooping on a conservative page. it's just like.. seemingly a bunch of average suburban ''normies'' or something#and then people being like 'there's always armed security inside when I'M shopping if you know what i mean'#like awesome.. cool.. love that there's trigger happy freaks running around eager to be the World Police ready to attack other#people for the horrible crime of a billion dollar corporation losing like $50 of merchandise. this is fine and good and cool and safe#It's just insane how so many people are so fervent about ''justice'' but the justice they talk so much about is not even#any form of real or reasonable justice that actually makes longterm systemic change to improve the conditons of the world in a way that#matters. their ideas of ''justice'' begin and end at like.. beating the shit out of homeless people and having folks with guns outside#of the walmart and talking about how protesters should get hit by cars. hmmmmm... i wonder why? so strange#that it's always punching down instead of punching up. I wonder who benefits from those being popular notions..?#which obv SOME rules r good. ppl shouldnt act wild in stores & harass workers &etc. but also like... ppl do NOT deserve get shot over bread#my first thought was 'oh no.. that would be horrifying' because I hate being around people with guns lol#I don't care if they're a ''good guy'' or just there to protect me or whatyever#i literally do not trust anyone. it could be my best friend of 65 years or my parent who raised me from birth#or something and i would NEVER want them around me with a gun. no matter what#it's just way too overpowered. all it takes is one 10 second lapse in judgment or something and they could kill me instantly#'but they have no reason to!' I KNOW! but people do stuff they have no reason to do all the time. who knows. i cant predict whats going on#in everyone's head all the time. all you can do is make assumptions. but those are never 100%. hence why I could never ever truly fully#trust another person in any capacity lol. so I definitely don't want anyone around me to just openly have the Instant Killing Device#I think it's kind of like nuclear weapons. people only really need to have gund because other people have guns so it's like mutually assur#ed destruction. so I can see the practical reasoning for them given that they already exist (like leftists being armed so they can defend#properly against alt right intimidation armed counter protests and etc. etc. ) BUT - I still think it would be vastly better if they had#just never been invented at all. ANYWAY. it's just weird to me how easily people will accept increasingly violent modes of being all for#the sake of 'protection against the evil criminals!' when in reality MOST of the stuff going on doesnt pose a threat directly to them#and that misses the point anyway. poeple supporting increased surveillance and weapons presence and etc. like it's just totally fine and#good and could NEVER be used against THEM one day bc OBVIOUSLY they're the Good Ones#further endangering yourself in a quest for Easy Solutions. simpler to just put men with guns all over the elementary school than deal with#the deeper culture that breeds mass shooters and pass better gun control. better to have men with guns at the target than adress economic#inequality in a meaningful way. it'll be fine. it's FINE. we're the Good ones. it'll never come back to bite us in the ass. i prommy#gun violence tw#death mention
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just got kissed for the first time in over a decade 😵💫
#no thoughts just 😵💫😵💫😵💫#it was good i think? different than expected#i was expecting like a sweet chaste little peck but he WENT for it lmaoo#the kiss itself idk about bc i've never really been wowed by any kiss bc its always a bit awkward#this was too but probably less than any other kiss ever for me#and i did enjoy it bc of who it was if not for the kiss itself#probably would have enjoyed it more if i wasn't on the verge of a panic attack about it 🤣#but i am an overthinker lol#it was nice though i think#bc i really wanted him to kiss me to i think any kiss would have been nice#anyway going insaneeee#also before we kissed i told him i havent been kissed since i was 15 and he looked like his head was gonna explode which was flattering 😂#and i was worried i wouldn't be any good at it but he was very complimentary 🤣#and followed me out of the car for another one lollll#anyway gonna lose my mind fr#like not to get my hopes up and get all excited super early in a relationship but idk...#it's cornyyy but i've never felt like this tbh#been worried for years that im not capable of love but i dont worry abt that now 🥺#every relationship has been so painfully awkward and empty before now and now im just like oh. this is how it's supposed to feel#ALSO he has been asking me out nearly every time i've seen him for TWO YEARS an it just went over my head 🤡#anyway love makes u stupid that's all i have to say goodnight <3#personal#don't reblog#this has been a shitpost#in the moment it didn't seem like a great kiss but now i cant stop thinking abt it and really want to do it again so it must have been 🤣
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I wish my family could just accept that there are some things I'm too anxious and mentally ill to accomplish in life. No matter how hard I try I can't just "get over it" and "stop being so anxious". I've had doctors treat me like a lost cause and even though it's "sad" isn't it far worse to just push myself to the point of having a mental breakdown?
#topic of graduate school came up again after I'd finally given up hope on it... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#I don't think I can do it and it's okay#but my mom is like#'you're not a kid anymore and you need to get over letting things stress you out so much'#'everything gives you a panic attack'#'just stop it'#????????????????#like... do you really think I'm like this for fun lol#if I could 'just stop' I would#I'm not really enthusiastic about anything and there's no real opportunities in my city#school used to make me panic so much I just don't think I can do it again#and I know people talk about all grad students abusing substances and being mentally ill and suicidal#and I've jokingly thought to myself 'oh so I wouldn't be the most messed up person there after all'#but deep down I know that's kind of a harmful mindset to have#like... I can't get better but I don't want to get worse either y'know?#God I don't even know anymore
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I'm gonna post this hopefully quickly and then go make bracelets to distract myself bc I wanna get it out but not have to come back to it later . And I will be whining about this on main a lot so I might as well give yall some context first
#i got soft fired.#they said it was bc summertime is slow and they dont have the hours for me#but they also said smth about my 3 month evaluation ? which i was not involved in but i felt like it implied something about my performance#but they didn't say it was about my performance not being good enough#and they also didn't say its just bc of the hours but you're a good employee so don't worry about that#they said they still might call me at some point if they have hours for me again#the words fired and let you go were not used#but. i stg they just hired a new froster. idk for sure but i thought they did#and one of the cashiers (the girl i know actually 😐) said she might get trained in frosting this summer#even tho by company policy youre not supposed to work in the kitchen if youre under 18. shes 16#but there was no warning or critiques or anything#there was when i first started#but not for a long time now#the manager gave me one note like 2 or 3 weeks ago and not since and that was the first time in a while#i had a panic attack when i got home#idk what im gonna do and idk what to think or feel about it rn#i just . yea#thats whats going on in my life lol anyway
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Those asks about opinions were from me honestly. But I do feel sorry and bad after the asks. I just felt it also felt patronizing / policing as fandom tended to paint those who like certain characters as predators themselves like Gamma. But thank you for your response and I really did mean in good faith
I appreciate you being forthcoming about those asks being from you. But know that I wasn't being patronizing or policing anyone, these were perspectives I gave after being asked and even in that ask I told that anon that it was my interpretations.
Since it's in good faith then I hope you take the time to reflect on your behaviour. Like, from my perspective on this, it did feel like you were using me as an outlet for the anger you felt at fandom. I don't do what you accused me of and I don't believe in pushing my opinions on characters onto others.
Also, I definitely don't think that liking a predatory character or an otherwise problematic character reflects onto the person? I love many problematic characters! I'm just of the mind that there isn't a reason to sanitize a character's behaviour, which is what I was saying about Gamma. It also just to happens I can't stand him.
I won't repeat myself since I did already suggest just blocking or restructuring your words [or even making a post to vent, if you want] for the next time you feel upset.
#anony#nimo's fantastical replies#practicing mindfulness would be a good thing in this case I think#pausing to really think and consider why you felt so angry that you'd accuse someone of doing something they aren't#and in turn doing what you don't like others doing [policing] would be a good idea#like even if I did believe those things [I don't] I don't understand going into my inbox to shout at me about it?#if we are free to have opinions then live and let live#it's why I think blocking liberally is great! I do it whenever I don't like someone's take or vibe with it lol#but yeah again I think not looking at others in bad faith is a good skill to hone. The internet has become the wild west again#because people are quick to assume bad faith and attack when taking a moment to process your thoughts and feelings or even just blocking#would be better for you. Like I really don't like being upset at people [shocking take!] so in that sense I appreciate you coming here but#yeah food for thought!!
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I see it's thinking about suguru's trauma time!
He thinks of his inner circle at the cult as his family - hangs out with them and takes care of them and tries to keep them safe, and they clearly love him in return.
Do we think he tries so hard to protect them because he couldn't save the family he had at 16? Because he misses the family he had before everything went so horribly wrong? Haibara, Riko; all of them, really - all of them too young to look so beaten down
i saw this when i got home from work last night and CRIED so i had to wait until this morning to answer it AHAHA
i think you're exactly right. he spends the last ten years of his life trying to make up for his failures, perceived or otherwise, when he was still just a child. because that's what he was, really, even if he was treated like a resource and expected to take it like an adult.
he watched a girl he was tasked to protect die before his eyes, he knew her caretaker had been killed, too, and he believed that his best friend had been murdered, without him there to keep him safe. and even though satoru didn't actually die, suguru didn't know that at first. he thought he'd lost nearly everything he had in jujutsu society in just a few minutes. how was he ever supposed to handle that, much less recover from it?
and then hairbara, his underclassman who was endlessly enthusiastic, eager to help people and to make the world a better, safer place, gets brutally killed by a curse he was unequipped to handle, and suguru has no one to turn to to process it. shoko doesn't work in the field; he can't burden nanami with his grief and rage, not while nanami is going through enough having lost his only classmate; and satoru has seemingly left him behind, doesn't need him anymore, has seemingly grown into his title as the strongest living sorcerer. suguru feels helpless and useless, and he's scrambling for something, anything, that will pull him out of the hole he's falling into. so when yuki, intentionally or not, plants the seed in his mind that maybe, just maybe, no non-sorcerers means no more curses, his mind latches onto it. and as a deeply traumatized teenager, seeing two little girls kept in a cage and abused for something outside of their control - sorcerers in a world that doesn't understand them - he sees himself in them, and it's his final straw.
he may not have been able to protect riko and haibara - the first two younger people who really needed him - but he can keep these girls safe. and if he can keep any other sorcerers safe until he achieves his goal of purging the world of what threatens them most, he's going to do it or die trying.
#that's just my thoughts anyways lol#nobody come for me ok i am just Thinking Thoughts!!!#asks answered#fallon's friends#radical roxy#geto#jjk#i'm not tagging it beyond that lmao i don't wanna be attacked by randos who don't agree
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my dad just tried to explain sexism to me and then got mad when i told him not to lol
#boink#i was telling a story abt these guys at work getting on my nerves a bit#we were like washing a bunch of big stuff and anyway im only part time and theyre more in charge#so i figured like they had a plan lol#they did not#which was chill but also a bit frustrating bc i was trying to sort out like a system and a plan#anyway so i ended up trying to like talk through the process and stuff#after which i was worried i was being rude bc you know social anxiety and i was kind of eh overthinking it#not the end of the story i was telling or even the interesting part just like auxiliary info lol#and my dad interrupts and he's like Oh#well that's not rude that's just AAssertive and they could you rude you know i could see them calling you rude you know people say that whe#when youre a woman but not if youre a man but thats just Sexism#and i was like haha ok you dont really have to explain misogyny to me tho#and he straight up /got mad at me/#like That Was Not What I Was Doing You Don't Have To Be All Like That#like my dad has this /face/ he gets when he sort of thinks he's being attacked#it's all chin clenched and eyes narrowed lip curled in disgust etc#anyways i just thought that was funny lol#frustrating to me bc that generally means that unfun interactions will follow#but you know#situationally#pretty funny lol
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ooo yea. ooohhhh yrass. ohhgh hhh yepps. oh yeah
#just me hi#there is nothing going on lol#i'm speedrunning these artf1ght attacks rn though i've made two so far hfhvsaj#/and also i NEED a mctea right Now#did you know that the Big Cup of mcdonalds sweet tea has 100 mg of caffeine in it ?? because i didn't. and i get the jitters from bottled#dr. pepper (66 mg btw)#found out while in a wb with flame and they thought i was going to explode or something fhsfhshdj#but it's been a week since i've had one and reaaally want the Fast Tea#i want to have what it must feel like to be an ant transported from one side of a street to another in my Veins#give me. the caffeine#/how much caffeine's in coffee...#i've been drinking one fourth of 32 fl oz of black coffee 👍#so it's the same amount of liquid but i won't die from ca-#i could die via caffeine if i had 5 mcteas. mmkay#unfortunately i am horribly curious. morbidly‚ even#the only thing stopping me from the worst experiment in my life is the fact my mom will Not buy me 5 mcteas#sigh. you live for today [<- to myself]#oh and also that's a lotta liquid#only two things stopping me! 1) i don't have a mode of transport (i have muney tho) 2) bladder has a cap (pathetic tbh)#oh and maybe my liver#/why am i even plotting this rn fhvshhd#'i want tea [7 min. later] i want to see if i can die by tea' fantastic work me 👍#top ten reasons i don't have a driver's license yet:
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Insecurity is a hell of a drug
#i am just being self conscious about my writing don't mind me lmao#i thought this passed but oh well#i knew this would come up at some point running this blog but it's very not fun#would not recommend#also i am so much better at not taking stuff personally but my god sometimes i am not#and it is one of those times i guess#i think that's lowkey why i haven't touched my wips in days#this has been eating away at my brain#i know this is a hobby and not that serious but ego connected to what i create go brr#i just need to let these feelings pass#i think just touching my wips would help that and there are ways I've thought about improving my writing so let's see how that goes lol#or maybe how i approach my writing would be a better way to put it#i also need to realise that everything isn't going to be for everyone which includes what i put out there and critiques of certain things in#fic are not personal attacks against me specifically lol#it's the leo moon and virgo mars /lh#anyways enough spiralling#rj talks
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hiiii i don't think i've seen you on my dash in a long time but wanted to say i hope you're doing well
hiiiiii ty this is so sweet 💓 i've been doing pretty well, just focusing on getting my new cat acclimated to our house and the dog (queen has conjunctivitis though 💔). for some reason i stopped scrolling tumblr around the time i was having panic attacks that felt like heart attacks and didn't even start again once i was put on propranolol. ptsd brain has been bad recently too but we push through 💪
i haven't been online though and i want to be included and say. you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum(s) where they raised me
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#new cat is hard for the trauma in my brain because in my head everything is going to go badly all the time#everything will end in disaster etc etc#idk i've been thinking a lot abt trauma recently bc i have to and i feel like i'm unlocking shit abt myself#and my 2022 brain#bc i did get a new one that year#now i'm like oh well death is after me and everyone i know and love is going to drop dead#for some reason i've also only recently realized that i'm so paranoid abt my dog getting out every single day#bc the day before my dad texted and told us to come see my mom on sept 16th my dog got out#bc someone opened a gate#like. it's trauma babes#but! i think i'm coping fairly well 💗#it's late i'm thinking about a lot lol#tmi and graphic words incoming 🚨🚨🚨 but this all only started after i thought abt someone telling me once#that my trauma wasn't that bad and thinking that i could've just asked them if they've ever seen their mom's internal organs LOL#but then i thought too much abt it and it messed me up. but i can still watch squeex and distract myself so Who Care 💖#did actually have a panic attack in cheesecake factory on my birthday and watching squeex in the car fixed me lol#that clarion is gone now and has been for a while but i think they should blow it up#also i don't drink caffeine anymore it's been like a month
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i'll be here when you're back | 이희승
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pairing. lee heeseung x gf!reader
ever since his room was revealed to the world on mbc world, heeseung has not known peace—whether it be from engenes or his very own girlfriend
genre. fluff (they're making out? it's cute)
a/n. it's been months but heeseung's room still gives me the giggles. the title doesn't have anything to do with the fic except that it's the song i was listening to while writing it lol it fits the vibes? (don't ask me what the lyrics are) enjoy x
"what's so funny?" you look up to heeseung turning in his gaming chair, glancing over his shoulder at you with a curious smile, his headphones resting around his neck.
you wave him off, still giggling. "you wouldn't like it."
he cocks his head, standing up. "what do you mean? i always find the stuff you show me funny. we share the same brain cell."
"this is different," you say, scooching over so heeseung can join you on the floor with his back against his bedframe. "no, wait—"
heeseung has your phone in his hands before you can stop him. he swiftly leans back, holding out his arm to keep you away while typing in your password. the phone unlocks to a paused tiktok video of what he immediately recognises as his room.
"why are you watching this?" he glances at you with a sideways grin as you make to grab for your phone again only for him to lean back more and hold his phone above his head. "babe, you're in my room, you don't need to—wait, were you reading the comments again?"
"don't close the app," you plead at his narrowed eyes, practically lying on top of him now that he's fully horizontal. "i don't want to lose my spot in the comments."
heeseung scoffs and shuts off your phone. "it's not that funny, you know."
"oh, but it is."
he lets out a mock gasp. "people making fun of your boyfriend's interior design choices is funny to you? wow, my girlfriend hates me. i knew it."
you snort in his face. "hee, what choices? i saw the video. that singular shoe is not an artistic choice. we both know you've been looking for the other one since march."
he looks to his left, staring at the shoe that's still very much sitting on top of the box it came with. "i wonder if it's having fun and eating well wherever it is in the world," he mumbles wistfully.
you poke his cheek. "can i have my phone back?"
"so you can laugh at me with people on the internet? absolutely not. i'd rather you just make fun of me the old fashioned way—throw tomatoes in my face, pin a note on my back, shove me into a corner and point a finger at me. at least that'll make me feel like i have some dignity left."
you break into laughter. "i would love to, honestly, but the only thing you guys have in the kitchen is ramen. i don't want to break your pretty face with hard noodles, plus it'll probably echo so loud in here, the neighbours will think there's a shooting."
"oh, so you're a comedian now," heeseung says in a mockingly sweet tone before his hands attack your sides without warning. you're squirming as uncontrollable giggles take over, leaving you gasping helplessly while begging for him to stop.
finally, he pulls back when you manage to grab his wrists, holding them in place as you catch your breath. his grin softens. "truce?" he asks, voice low and teasing.
you nod, deflating on his chest while he tightens his arm around your waist to keep you close. "you're the worst," you say into the fabric of his sweater.
heeseung chuckles. "says the one giggling for ten minutes straight over comments teasing her boyfriend."
"i wasn't laughing that hard."
"right," he says with a drawling lilt in his voice. "when i heard you through my headphones, i thought, 'which dude is making you laugh like that under my roof?' only to find out it's engenes. it's an even crueler fate, if you ask me."
you shrug one shoulder, looking away nonchalantly when his gaze drops to your lips. "you'd agree if you read them. someone said, 'this gotta be solitary confinement.' you have to admit, that's funny! i have the right to laugh at their brilliance."
he stares at you blankly. "how is this solitary confinement when you're on top of me?"
"i'm not always here," you reply, raising an eyebrow. "someone else said you're evacuation ready. all you have to do is pick up those keyboards over there and walk out."
the slightest twitch in the corner of his lips spurs you on to keep going. "there was another comment saying you put the room in bedroom."
"okay, get off," heeseung says flatly while making no move to push you off. "that one's not even funny."
"maybe not." you glance at all the free space next to you. "but you could get a rug, babe."
he groans, tipping his head back and exposing the smooth stretch of his throat to you. of course, you lean up and press a brief kiss on his adam's apple. he looks down at you, smiling almost shyly before he shakes his head. "you're cute. but we're not having that conversation again."
pouting, you gesture around you. "you always say you don't spend enough time in your room to bother putting anything in it, but admit it—you were happy when we got that bin from daiso."
heeseung snorts and bobs your nose. "yes, i'm the happiest man alive. every day i wake up and i thank god that i have a girlfriend and a rubbish bin."
"see!" you ignore the amused look on his face and lay your head on his chest. the tension in your shoulders melts the moment you hear the familiar beat of his heart against your ear. "think about how much happier you would be when your room no longer looks like belift uses it for enhypen's dance practices."
he chuckles softly while running his fingers through your hair. "i've seen that one. someone commented that my room could fit the backup dancers, too."
you laugh. "it could."
comfortable silence wraps around you like a warm blanket, neither feeling the need to speak. you eventually lift your head to glance at him, lips curving into a smile when you see that his eyes are closed. you lean down and place a delicate kiss on his lips, light and fleeting, but enough to leave him grinning.
you repeat your action, your lips brushing his in the faintest touch only to feel him kiss you back, so gently it seems like a secret. you pull back when you heeseung's tongue traces your lower lip. his eyes flutter open, a silent question mark reflected in his dark eyes when you don't kiss him again. you tilt your head, mischief glinting in your gaze.
"hee?" you say quietly and he blinks up at you with large, doe-like eyes.
"hm?" he looks ridiculously soft and vulnerable lying underneath you like that. it almost has you changing your mind, but you love a good set-up.
"did you know engenes call you bitchless?"
you let out a surprised laugh when he flips you over. in the blink of an eye, he has you pinned beneath him and his lips are on you, peppering your face with tiny pecks, leaving behind a trail of laughter from you.
you try to push him away by the chest, but heeseung is relentless, placing kiss after kiss on your cheeks, the corner of your lips, your forehead, your jaw. you can feel him smile against your skin and you can't help but giggle deliriously. "what are you doing?"
"proving them wrong," he says while nibbling on the sensitive spot behind your ear, working his way down to the curve where your neck and collarbone meet. "obviously."
"obviously," you mumble back, selfishly enjoying the feeling of his lips on you. heeseung slowly lifts you up, somehow moving you onto the bed and laying your head on his pillow. his warm hand slips under your shirt, happy to roam your skin aimlessly while he kisses you dumb. there's nothing but heeseung on your mind, just him and the muffled groans leaving his lips when you pull on his hair while his knee rests between your legs.
then, the door falls open with a bang and you nearly push him off the bed.
"oh my god, sorry!"
heeseung flails, comically wide-eyed, and whips around to yell at whoever's at the door. you look past him to see riki standing with his back to the room, spewing incoherent apologies while his neck flushes bright red.
you pat your boyfriend's shoulder to catch his attention, silently shooting him a look when he frowns at you, lips pulled in a pout. smiling, you peck them one last time before pushing him aside to lie beside you. "riki, you can turn around."
the younger boy does, looking incredibly sheepish. "sorry for barging in. i didn't know y/n was here."
"it's fine," you say reassuringly. "don't worry about it."
"knock next time," heeseung grumbles before he pulls you up to sit beside him with a sigh. "what's up?"
riki rubs the back of his neck. "i'm going to the department store to get some stuff for my room, just wanted to see if you wanted to come along." in a quieter tone he adds, "the others are busy."
"so was i," heeseung mumbles and you smack him upside the head. gently, of course.
"he's going," you say to riki. "can i come with?"
"yeah, of course!" his face brightens up instantly. "i'll order the taxi, meet me downstairs in five!"
"wait, ni-ki—" heeseung hastily jumps up, but the boy has already left and closed the door behind him, leaving him to stare at it like he's just been bereft of every shred of joy and peace he's ever known. he turns to you with an exasperated look on his face. "seriously? to get things for his room? you planned this."
you shake your head, rising to your knees to be more at his eye level while doing a horrible job at suppressing your giggles. "i wish i did, but the joke wrote itself. now go put on some pants. he said downstairs in five."
#lee heeseung x reader#heeseung x reader#lee heeseung x you#lee heeseung x y/n#lee heeseung#lee heeseung fluff#lee heeseung fic#heeseung x you#heeseung x yn#enhypen#enha#enhypen fic#enhypen fanfiction#enhypen fluff
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screaming crying throwing up the girl im datings girlfriend is kind of a transmed thing came up and i feel like maybe she's upset with me which is also true bc i asked her if she was upset with me and she said "only a little" and im. idk. not sure if it's bc she's upset i didn't talk to her about it from the beginning or bc i kind of said her girlfriend had said shitty things. idk it's fine lol she implied i can't consent again and i was upset abt that maybe we're even (not how that works i am kind of panicking)
#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#i called her girlfriend a terf i should not have done that i meant transmed#related but very different#and it took me way too long to realize i wasn't saying what i actually thought / meant#i don't know#freaking out a little lol im pretty sure her actual girlfriend comes over me#esp since she said we're “not there yet” when i said i would want her to be my girlfriend#idk#i feel like i should have just stopped talking#this is why i didn't want to bring this up lol i don't think girl im dating is a transmed and i don't have to fucking like her girlfriend#like we have nothing to do with each other we live in different countries#anyways#ill go have my panic attack in my head instead of in the tags lol#also transmed is a Serious Thing for me like that's one of the things that's an Absolutely Not bc i am very nonbinary#and very exactly what kalvin garrah would call a transtrender#and that man really fucked me up
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This is supposed to be the outfit that "protects" Link from acquiring frostbite pfffttt
Between this top and the mandatory acrylics that come with the new arm, gotta say I'm loving how much Nintendo keeps leaning into GNC Link XD
MINI UPDATE: (Guys, I've already updated this post with the correct info. The "protects" part was supposed to be a joke about how skimpy the outfit was. I didn't realize the outfit gave an attack bonus at first, either. That was it. That was the post. You don't need to keep sending me messages trying to inform me about the frost attack. I know, I promise).
Update I: Just realized they gave him a set of blue acrylics for his left hand
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Link really do be out here serving cunt 💅💅✨✨
Update II: Many thanks to the people who pointed out that this outfit gives you a special frost attack when in cold temperature areas, it doesn't actually protect you from the elements. I'll be honest, I am purposely avoiding any guides or walkthroughs for my TotK playthrough (since I'm trying to replicate my BotW experience). When I found the Frostbite Shirt, I was just happy that I finally had a piece of clothing that I thought could protect me from dying of hypothermia (was chugging spicy elixirs like you wouldn't believe) so I didn't notice the attack bonus until a bunch of you pointed it out lol
#radio plays#totk#totk spoilers#tears of the kingdom#totk link#nintendo out here#trying to make us go feral#over more gnc link content#they saw us lose our minds#over vai outfit link#lol and I'm not complaining#idk why the updates i added to the post#aren't showing up for some people#but lol yeah this doesn't protect you from cold temps#just gives you an attack bonus#idk link still looking cunty af to me regardless lol
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