#just my rambles bc i'm finally thriving

[jomadis]

Definitely not the theme of this blog but lowkey I want to share the steps of my bug collecting/pinning project . . .

[noxtivagus]

I LOVE LITERATURE SO MUCH. MY FAV COURSE FR

[puckpocketed]

as promised here is my follow up ask on PLD and the caps!! (this time...as a doctor 😎)

first of all thank you so much for the detailed response you gave my first ask. it confirmed a lot of suspicions i had about his supposed character issues and his usage in LA. obviously he's not a perfect player (few are) (except nicklas backstrom, my beloved), but seems like there's a disconnect between the way the media/fan narrative paints him and what's actually happening on the ice and in the locker room.

second of all!! just some kinda ramble-y thoughts based on some of the things you said in the first ask. this is not organized well and i'm sorry (but hopefully it's helpful info to you as you come over to caps land for a bit this season)

(1) Takings Shifts Off. totally agree with you that pld is and always will be viewed through the lens of The Shift. there are definitely players that regularly take shifts off and don't get dogpiled for it, esp. during the regular season (...see Ovechkin, Alex...especially in his old man era! gotta conserve energy). i am very curious to see if pld is like ovi in that he takes shifts off sometimes during the regular season but never the playoffs. from the little we've seen of pld in the playoffs my impression (esp when he played for CBJ) is that he elevates his game. i'm curious to see if he's really got that second gear...but caps gotta make the playoffs first.

(2) A Driver of One's Own. very interesting that in the answer to the last ask you said pld is not exactly the kind of player who drives his own line. this caught my eye bc it's a bit part of the problem w/ finding a center for ovi with backy gone...nowadays, O can't fully drive his own line anymore. he's just not fast enough, regularly (though he can turn it on in key moments). the legs just aren't there as much anymore, he can't really carry the puck in the way he used to, etc. BUT!!! he still has the best shot in the game (sorry auston), so absolutely ELITE triggerman. i'm wondering if pld could like...meet him halfway, i guess. like if TOGETHER they could drive the line. Hmmmm...

(3) Power Play!! everything you said about pld on the PP is promising. if he thrives most net front, then i genuinely think that position is there for the taking. i'm sure they'll try him in the old backstrom/kuznetsov QB spot on the right halfwall but there is a 0% chance our coach doesn't try a few things with the PP, including putting pld in different spots. i wouldn't be surprised if we started off having a weak PP that found its groove as the season went on.

(4) HCSC. our head coach is going to do literally everything in his power to make pld succeed. very communicative coach. last season he started out with an up-tempo system, and then switched to slower defense-first once he realized his personnel was just too slow/old to really pull all that off. with 1/3 of our roster now turned over and filled with players in their 20s, we're gonna see a VERY different capitals team from last year. i'm sure there will be growing pains but...they mystery is exciting, instead of terrifying, for once!!!

third of all!! just wanted to say thanks again for the detailed response to the third ask, and welcome to caps-land. it's a fun time over here. hope you're really looking forward to seeing what the hell our chaotic gremlins are going to do (as long as it makes penguins fans rage and cry, i am happy!!)!!! :)

okay this reply is getting crowded so ill just stick it all under the cut. here is a fun preview:

the media+fan narrative disconnect is SO real!!! i knowww with the amount of players the league has to cover, the sheer length of a regular season and all that happens during, plus the whole....society-wide erosion of journalism as a field... it can be hard for media to keep up, but it's been pretty startling to see their fallibility so... plainly? don't think i have the One Final Truth about Dubois but i think we're likely closer to it than anything the mainstream narratives are saying. i do get that their profits and clicks per/ are greatly increased via if they have a bent toward sensationalism... podcasters, youtube creators, people tweeting... they kinda have to operate like this because thats what the (gags) market and algorithm and audiences crave. does NOT mean i like it. ugh.

bleak reflections on journalism aside, im sitting here and gorging myself on this ask ouhhh thank uuu (for those playing along at home here are manifesto 1 and manifesto 2) and nodding along SO vigorously to all of these... we're having GALAXY brained discussions on here the likes of which spittin chiclets could never even dream of....................

(1) agreed agreed. he MUST be horse-bonded to his team i truly believe this with my whole heart (as in, he's gotta know his role + be comfy). otherwise, no other comment. I DID make that meme though because i was having a laff about Ovechkin conserving energy lkajsdkljajkl

(2) SUPER inchresting that you mention Ovi's lack of footspeed... i know a failhorse who can provide this 👀 we may be cooking something here... more than the sum of their parts kind of vibe?? Dubois has the youth and speed and muscle... he's just been hamstrung by quality of wingers.... and if as you say Ovi needs a hand carrying the puck; well.... 👀👀👀 don't want to put all my eggs in that basket though, I think it would be unfair of us to demand that of him... BUT if it works... oughhhhh i AM hopeful. SO hopeful.

(3) obsessed with this faith in your power play coaches (<- voice of a guy who watched ducks hockey) and their willingness to change things up is soooo nice to hear. NOT a fan of teams bashing their heads against a wall when their special teams clearly aren't working.

(4) and finally, I'm loving everything I hear about Spencer Carbery. i think Dubois has the allure of an wounded animal in the wild (a horse, even) or perhaps a moody teen girl with a hidden darkness in her heart <3 what im saying is, if he doesn't work it out now he's probably always gonna be one of those players every coach looks at and thinks "I could fix him". Carbs on record saying he could tame this wild creature??

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hooting, hollering, etc.

Thank you for such a wonderful, warm welcome!! Everyone in caps land has been so lovely... the vibes.. the VIBES!!! peace and love for pens followers but i did in fact choose a side in your Foreverwar ... (my hockey girlbestie actually likes both teams which i find SO fun. the pens are my babygirl-in-laws!) anyway my heart does not divide.... it only swells.... much like the beaugtiful and noble salary of any 30 y/o RHD going into free agency <3 i have enjoyed chatting to caps fans like yourself immensely, and i look forward to hitting the trenches with everyone during regular season !!!

[thegreatmelodrama]

Hii!!! I have a fun question.. What's your favorite episode from each season of Nancy Drew and why?

Ooh this came at the perfect time since I’m doing a rewatch.

Season 1: a tie between The Haunting of Nancy Drew and … the emotional scenes coupled with the acting just make it such a superb watch that just has a staying power on me. There are honestly too many to choose from though. Like I could argue that so many episodes are my favourite. Honorable mention to Nick’s episode early on in season 3 with finding the bonds that Tiffany left and the entirety of the reenactment of the night of Tiffany’s murder and also the hidden staircase plot with Simon. And now I'm rambling.

Season 2: Honestly, it may be the finale. Again something about those emotional scenes especially concerning Nancy and her own development always appeals to meespecially bc it's Nancy confronting this fear of finding out who she is and who she has become. I love this season so much bc it explores and counters the notion that people are inherently bad or evil.

Season 3: This is also a hard one. I will say that the demon of piper beach was a fun watch, especially Bess driving that bus in people’s dream states will never not make me laugh. I also just liked the break from the Temperance plot for a small second. However, again the finale of this season was so amazing and the performances were so incredibly strong. Maybe I just thrive on angst.

Season 4: a twist of events, but the Jumanji-esque episode might take the cake for me. It’s fun and camp and reminds me a lot of that season 1 light heartedness within a season that has a lot of heartbreak (literally). I also just enjoyed seeing Tunji and Nick get a moment to shine an extra amount.

Thanks for the question @flythesail :)

[namtanlovesfilm]

oohhh you're working on a p'jojo video? then this is the right time to finally ask you. What do you feel about Never Let Me Go and the fact that p’jojo was involved in this? idk how or what to ask exactly, but for me i didn't have the sense, the feel, that it was 'a p'jojo show'. I mean great scenery imagerie and sound and stuff but... it severely lacked something for me. for me it's the least best work from him. Maybe it's because he was just the director and not also a scriptwriter on the series, and maybe because it wasn't an ensemble cast, which I think is where he thrives the most. To be honest I think a lot of it comes from the "bound" (hm chemistry I think it's called?) between the 2 actors also, well 4 then, if we count the chemistry between the cousin and the friend who I think for this couple didn't have any. None of them sold me tbh. So maybe idk... I guess it's the entirety of nlmg that didn't work for me. Bc I see the picture, what's it trying to do but then again maybe I don't. Anyway sorry for the ramble and I'm patiently waiting for your input on this, as my opinion is an unpopular one i think.

okay, so first of all I need to say that I liked never let me go, though not as much as I antipicipated. I think it's a solid show even though it felt highly predictable bc of its similarities to another p'jojo show, 3 will be free. now though, I completely agree that apart from these similarities, never let me go lacks the p'jojo touch compared to his other ones, and from the beginning I've always chalked it up to him not being a writer for this show, which makes all the difference. in my opinion my issues with nlmg is not with the acting or chemistry, in fact I think they did a good job, or even the cinematography or the execution, but it's just that there's not much that stands out with this show. even though the plot sounds kinda crazy on paper, I never held my breath watching it or was shocked by the plot twists or anything. it was a nice show that I enjoyed watching, but tbh I've forgotten most of it already. even compared to the eclipse which I've given the same rating (8/10), I love the eclipse more & wanna rewatch it even though imo it's a more flawed show, whereas it's not the case for never let me go. as p'jojo's first bl show, I think it can feel a little lackluster. I hope we can get a bl show from him where he's both the screenwriter & director bc I believe it would be way more memorable!

xxx

[hourcat]

Bestie I'm going to bite. Tell me about Daniel Jones? People on my twitter TL started talking about him and he seems incredibly Shaped.

AAUHDJDFKKSBDKDNDKD oh my god cerona this message has made my MORNING. he!!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰 dj is my babygirlest babygirl ever. you are the first person to ever ask me about him so forgive me but im abt to RAMBLE<3

but like. in all seriousness. he's the quarterback for the giants! he was drafted really high (#6 overall, out of 32 picks in the first round and 200+ picks in the whole nfl draft) in 2019 to transition the giants' former qb (eli manning, two time super bowl champ, famous new york sports figure) out of the role. the pick got clowned on at first bc he looks like eli and the owner/general manager seemed like they just wanted someone who looked like eli, not a player who'd actually been a star in college, but he went along with it anyway despite the noise. and it kind of worked at first! DJ came in when eli was benched/kept out of the game because he wasn't playing well, and he looked really flashy and exciting the whole rest of the year! even when they lost, daniel was playing his ass off and giving spark to a team that had been wallowing in mediocrity for like, two and a half years.

but then the head coach got fired at the end of the year because the team was so bad, and the man they replaced him with (joe judge) inherited him but hired the wroooong guy to actually build a good offense around him, so he floundered and looked hot-and-cold and generally was kind of a joke in the league. he tripped over his own two feet running almost the entire length of the football field during a game on Prime Time™ (aka monday night football, one of the most watched games every weekend) and got memed on hard. he's gotten hurt enough to miss significant time over the last two years, so people think he's unreliable. he turned the ball over a lot early on in his giants career (dropped it, fumbled it, threw interceptions & gave the other team possession of the ball) and people got really mad about it and haven't let it go still. mind you, the rest of the offense was not pretty either!! but DJ was the QB, hence the focus of the blame, and has been under fire by the media and everyone for the past three years. he always takes it quietly and never lashes out or says ANYTHING to make a headline or anything. he's a lil stupid. but he just ignores the hate and the criticism and goes on.

but! the reason you prob saw him on your timeline was because HE IS KILLING IT THIS YEAR. a new coaching staff was brought in to replace joe judge's, along with new members of the team responsible for contracts and player management and general financial decisionmaking, and daniel is thriving under them. they like him so much. they're building an offense full of plays and stuff that HE likes, not just stuff the coach thinks will work. he's got help now (he doesn't get hit immediately after he gets the ball, thanks to the offensive line that's protecting him) and he's got one of the best weapons in the league (saquon barkley!) with him, back and healthy, and he's putting the team on his back and just. making plays. scoring. winning. the giants are 4-1 for the first time since 2009. and daniel is such a big part of that!!

he's also SO shaped. you're so right. he has the face of a baby and the body of A Man™. he's quiet and has a little bit of a southern accent and is so polite--there is nothing flashy about him the way most athletes, nfl and non-nfl, seem to have these days. he's just a boy!!!!! he is just MY BABY. he goes to work and focuses and doesn't let the media (full of new york assholes who just want to talk shit) impact him. he's a great teammate and a good friend and he's awkward and a lil goofy seeming but he is just. he has gotten so much shit from EVERYONE for so long, right from the moment he came to new york, but he persevered! he kept doing the work even in spite of the noise! and people are finally beginning to see that he might be the real thing (something ive known for years 😌) instead of just a meme or a bad football player. and he deserves it so so soooo much ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

ok deej spam

this is my blorboest blorbo. above everyone else. i love charles n i looove pierre but neither of them have reached my Daniel Jones Woobification level yet

[ratscabies]

just me rambling about school and a future in academia bc I just gotta get this off my chest

I already know my therapist is not gonna be too happy with me changing my trajectory from the nice "real world" career of audiologist to the life of an academic in linguistics because it's going to require a LOT more schooling out of me, and she thinks I'm hiding behind school because it's an area where I feel comfortable and that I use school as a way to not deal with the real world

and maybe that's true

but when I was writing the draft of my admissions essay for audiology programs, I just... couldn't think of what to write. I would get to the part where I'm supposed to describe why I want to pursue audiology and what future goals I have for myself, and I just couldn't think of anything to say

so I started thinking, and I thought about how much I have always loved linguistics and how I felt so whole while studying linguistics for my first bachelor's degree

so I started writing a draft of an admissions essay for a linguistics program, and the words just flowed out of me. I knew exactly what to say. I knew exactly what I was doing here and where I wanted to go from here. and it just cemented for me that I was meant to be studying linguistics

but the only issue I have is that I want a PhD in linguistics and to have a career in research and/or as a professor, but I'm afraid I'm a weak applicant for PhD programs in my current state because I don't have much of a background in research, so my solution is to apply for a master's degree in linguistics first, doing that for a year or two or however long it takes me to complete the program, THEN applying to PhD programs in linguistics once I have a master's thesis to show for myself

and I finally feel so sure of myself, but I know my therapist is going to raise her eyebrow and frown and tell me I'm just doing it because I'm "hiding" from the real world with academia because that's what she always tells me

but... I like academia. I'm good at academia. I'm comfortable with academia. I thrive in academia. why wouldn't I pursue a life in academia? why must I get a "real world" job? I don't feel like I'm hiding, I feel like I'm being the truest version of myself right now. thinking about a future in linguistics makes me feel more alive than I've felt in a long time. I know this is the path for me, my therapist be damned

ok sorry for rambling thank u for reading mwah mwah

[gra-sonas]

Hi! Can I just say that the thing I'm most thankful for today is you and your blog. It's literally the onlu tumblr I check every single day without fail & especially in times of turmoil your positivity just brings this peace. I'll be the 1st to admit that I'm not a fan of CAM, to say that I've disliked her since TVD is putting it mildly, but I just came from another blog and saw all these posts listing her faults. I know she's not perfect and I don't even like her but those posts weighed me down

2 so I just went back to your blog to reread all your positive response and I just wanted to say thank you. I didn't even expect to feel bad bec of criticism of CAM bec they were very valid points. But hammering it out after all these time is just heavy om the heart. I feel like what we need to do now is to move forward and heal and put her behind us. So I'm looking forward to any positive feeling or thoughts you'll be willing to share with us. You are a force of good and I'm sending you love

Goodness, I’ve received so much love yesterday, I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed that this continues. 😳Your message made me smile tho, and I thank you for your kind words, nonnie! It makes me happy to know that my blog brings you some comfort. ❤️❤️❤️

Ngl, we’ve had a bit of a rough year. First the S1 finale debacle, then a very long hiatus that left the fandom fractured, followed by a rather underwhelming season 2 - it’s no surprise that there’s currently a lot of bitterness being voiced, especially since CAM contributed in different, and sometimes quite significant ways to what’s upset people. Believe me, I too am still bitter about quite a few things.

But I don’t want to let that bitterness consume me, I don’t want to dwell on it, especially now, when there’s a clean cut and a somewhat promising future on the horizon. 

For my own peace of mind, I want to focus on positivity, the possibilities, and all the things I LOVE about the show and its characters. Because there’s still so much I love about RNM (the reason why I’m still here, even tho I didn’t watch S2). S3 won’t be on our screens for another year, and I’d rather try and enjoy the time as much as I can (I don’t want another hellatus...).

I got a lot of asks the night when news broke that she’d leave the show (more than 50 👀), and quite a few of them pointed out negative things about her, listed rumors about her behavior (some dating back to times prior to RNM), mentioned rude comments she’s made, stuff like that. And I’m okay with people sending me these kinds of asks (I get it, sometimes it just feels good to blow off steam). 

I didn’t publish them tho, bc like you, the negativity tends to weigh me down, and I don’t want to amplify it.

Tbh, I’m just really tired of being weighed down by negativity. The show did that to me for the longest time (especially the last couple of months), and CAM definitely did play her part in that. But she’s gone now, and I’m more than ready to move on. 

There’s nothing we can change about the past 2 seasons, none of the mistakes or writing choices that were made can be undone. Canon is what it is (minus that scene, I refuse to acknowledge its existence), and I more than understand that not everyone’s ready to move on yet, that some of that bitterness has to get out first, be discussed and maybe rehashed a couple more times - all in order to eventually let it go. 

I want to focus on the good things from now on tho. I want to fangirl, read fic,  write fic (haha, as if my muse would let me 😒DEAR MUSE, I HAVE A BIG BANG TO WRITE, PLS DON’T MAKE IT SO HARD FOR ME), make gifs, perhaps rewatch some S1 scenes. I want to swoon over Tyler, laugh at Vlamis, slowly get excited about S3 around the time they return to Santa Fe - just nurture the little seed of hope that things will be better next season.

I really do feel a lot more hopeful now. I’m not as anxious anymore, I don’t dread thinking about the future of the show like I used to. I’m well aware that even with a new show runner things can go sideways. Chris Hollier isn’t some savior who’s gonna magically fix all past mistakes and will never make any of his own.

He just seems a little less unpredictable, a little less “vindictive”, and a lot less thriving on misery, all things I appreciate. He’s also not constantly on social media to either “spy” on what fans are talking about, or barging in to “correct” us when we supposedly focus on the “wrong” things.

We may have lost the hot wire connection to the show runner, but imo that can be an advantage. I’m sure regardless of him not monitoring fan activity on Twitter and Tumblr 24/7, Chris is well aware of how important Malex are to fans, and he knows how important they are to Tyler and Vlamis. I believe he also knows about all the grievances fans have regarding making PoC the villains, mistreating Maria, sidelining characters, and so on.

He doesn’t have to be on social media to be aware of these things (many of the RNM writers are on social media, it would be a miracle if they didn’t talk about stuff like that in the writers room), and I hope he’s gonna fix some of the more glaring issues, and hopefully he’ll refrain from fucking up Malex (I believe they are in good hands with him tho).

Anyway, this got long and super rambly. Sorry, must’ve been something in the water this morning xD 

Here’s to a mostly enjoyable hiatus, what I can do to make it a little more silly and fun, I’ll do. ✨💚👽

[noxtivagus]

i've been listening to more of arknights' ost n i love it so much