#just living the patd life like it's 2005

[loonyloopylupin96]

AU Regulus and Evan

[princewardo]

Are you into Panic! At The Disco’s music?

is this a fucking trick lmao. 🤷🏻‍♂️ welp i don't care too much, so here's my ~history of patd~

like every other emo in 2005 i liked a fever you can't sweat out.... i was not a fan back then - i was more interested in taking back sunday and the used and mcr (aw and simple plan hahahaha)! i didn't really consider panic to be "my kind of" emo. they were scene, which was a different subgenre back then. people don't differentiate the two nowadays. i didn't see them when they were touring for any of these early albums. i was young, poor and not interested lol.

i wasn't a big fan of many of their subsequent albums (too scene for me. but there were a COUPLE of bangers i guess?). i controversially think pretty. odd is utter trash lol.

post-break up i thought the banger singles from Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die! were pretty fucking good, especially Miss Jackson. IMO the Death of a Bachelor album is a fucking masterpiece, and i stand by that. i saw them during this era (let's be real - it was just bslur) live and i was even seated in VIP (mostly bc i'm old lmao. i gave all the merch to a colleague). it was a great show.

i saw him again a year (??) later just as Pray for the Wicked was releasing and it was another great live show imo.

i don't think i could do another show featuring the garbage he wants to put out now. ya man would have to have to swear on his life that won't sing any viva bullshit looooool. ya man really pushed it way too far and went off the rails. 👋🏻

[theway-i-see-it]

#1 - A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out - Panic! At The Disco

I tried to start this blog weeks ago but then I was trying to listen to this album and take notes while also playing a video game and it didn’t work out so well. And then I just got distracted and unmotivated as the days passed so I’m finally back to start again! Hopefully I’ll start doing these once a week on Saturday or Sunday and I can do them before everyone in my house wakes up because that’s usually how I waste time - planning to do all this stuff and then ending up on the couch talking to my roommates and watching dumb shit on YouTube. Anyways, here are some thoughts about PATD’s first album and the first album I ever willingly bought myself (with my parents’ money because I was in like 5th grade and did not have a job).

Wow what an album. This came out in 2005 and I think it still holds up fairly well. Even though it was a super weird album when it came out. I remember hearing The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage on Alt Nation (Channel 21 on Sirius radio) and then afterward the DJ said something about how Pete Wentz discovered them. I was OBSESSED with Fall Out Boy at the time so I immediately was like I have to hear more from this band. I remember being at the mall one day with my family and we were in Best Buy buying an Xbox 360 I believe. My twin sister and I went to look at the CD section and we found this and From Under The Cork Tree. We shared CDs because why would our parents buy us two of the same thing if we were together all the time? Fall Out Boy was my favorite band and I wanted their album so badly, but I knew my sister wouldn’t want to “own��� the PATD album so we compromised and I bought Fever and she bought FUCT. So at least we had both on our roster. 

I don’t remember what was going through my brain when I first heard these songs, but I know I had this album on repeat for months. I remember hanging out at a friend’s house, but I wasn’t playing, I was listening to this on my walkman. It was the smartest thing I’d ever heard (because I was like 11?). All of the lyrics and sounds are so sharp and sassy and quick. Some of the words Brendan was singing I had never heard before (surreptitious comes to mind) and I just felt cool to be listening to something so ~sophisticated~. I also thought the Introduction and Intermission songs were so genius. I had never heard anything like this before. It was so fun and performative and different. Everything is so Vaudevillian/Cabaret/Circus-like and they did it so well for being 18 year olds. The band had just graduated high school when they recorded this and they were babies with no knowledge of the world. It’s funny because I was looking up to them but they had no idea what they were doing. I still have never seen PATD live and one of my biggest regrets was not going to see them during this album cycle. 

Later I found out Ryan Ross had included a ton of references to Chuck Palahniuk (author of Fight Club) books in his lyris, so I decided I wanted to read some of his stuff. I told my mom I wanted to get the book Invisible Monsters from the library, but she had my grandma read it first to make sure it was appropriate for a 12 year old to be reading. It wasn’t and I still haven’t read it. Somehow I did manage to read Haunted, which scarred me for life because I actually almost fainted reading that book (and upon a quick google search, there have been 73 cases of people fainting during live readings of this book so I’m glad I’m not alone). Now I wonder how fucked up Ryan Ross must’ve been to be reading that kind of stuff. It made for a good album but like why was he reading that?

Another thing I remember from this album is reading liner notes for the first time (it’s not as important for something like Hilary Duff or whatever I was listening to before). These liner notes were set up like little poems instead of strictly lyrics. I found hidden words and phrases that were not actually in the songs. That was super cool to me. And reading through you really get more of a feel for what’s going on conceptually, which is a lot about fame and attention and spotlight. It’s funny because they had barely experienced any of that when they were writing this, but it was definitely foreshadowing. 

Anyways, I love this album and always will. There are a lot of weird things about it that I pick up on now at 23, but it will always be special to me. It’s just so different from a lot of music out there. 

Favorite Song: This is kind of hard. Time To Dance has always been my favorite song on this album, but I think it might be a tie between that and But It’s Better If You Do. I get major Moulin Rouge vibes, which is one of my favorite movies as an adult so I guess it’s fitting.

A fun memory: The first concert I went to willingly was the Honda Civic Tour with Fall Out Boy, +44, The Academy Is..., Cobra Starship, and Paul Wall. In between sets I Write Sins Not Tragedies came on and everyone yelled “whore” as loud as they could when it came time. I don’t know why, but 12 year old me felt a sense of belonging then and I always remember that moment as what made me fall in love with concerts.