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noel listens to limp bizkit
this is not a headcanon this is fact
Ooo, Limp Bizkit used to be like, my favorite band for a whil. I should listen to him some more, it's been too long. Any songs in mind for her???
Personally I headcanon her as a huge Evanescence girlie.
For a while I've wanted to make music taste headcanons for characters based on motifs found in their themes, and I have a few notes for working on that but not enough to form a full thought y'know???
I'll also die on the hill that she loves music boxes, because of Saya's iconic one- and that she's always trying to remember a specific tune from one she can't quite place (CT game over theme)
#anonymous#noel vermillion#ps zero shade at all but the “this is not a headcanon this is a fact” meme is like a pet peeve for me#just info for handling me
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Ghost Tour and Album release timelines Infopost
I saw a lot of curiosity and also really bad takes about the upcoming album release in relation to the tour starting soon: „he’s decepting us by selling tickets and we don’t even have an album yet“, „it’s worrying that the album hasn’t even been released!“ etc, and I couldn’t take it anymore. So have a very short overview on how Ghost handled these things in the past and some speculations, brought to you by my autistic historian ass
Opus Popus as the first album doesn’t count here Update: see below, so I’ll ignore it. Just like the EPs (even Popestar, yes)
Infestissumam
Papa II was introduced by Papa I on 15.12.2012 in Linköping
there we also got the first songs (Secular Haze, Marionette cover) played live,
SH single was released a few days (20.12.2012) later on their Website
Papa II Tour start: 23.02.2012 (if you don’t count the bit in december and that P3 Guld Awards thing)
Album Release Date: 10.04.2013
time between tour and album: 1,5 months (46 days)
Meliora
Papa III premiered in Linköping on 03.06.2015 (with the wrong facemask), which also started the tour
first single (Cirice) released on 30.05.2015
Album Release Date: 21.08.2015
time between tour and album: 2,5 months (79 days)
Prequelle (my beloved)
we meet the Cardinal on 06.04.2018 in a Chapter (and some small concerts) before tour kicks off properly:
Tour start: 05.05.2018
first single (Rats) was released on 13.04.2018 (followed by Dance Macabre on 18.05.2018)
notably there's a bit of a break after the pre-release tour (ROTR), the release of the album and then the „proper“ tour (Pale Tour)
Album Release Date: 01.06.2018
time between tour and album: just under 1 month (27 days)
Impera
not counting the Ascension on 03.03.2020 and Sympathy for the Devil (my beloved) on 22.01.2021);
we get 3! singles before the album releases (Hunter’s Moon (super early bc of the movie), CMLS, Twenties)
Preimperatour started on 25.01.2022 (again with a break between the pre-release tour, release and post-release tour)
Album Release Day: 11.03.2022
time between tour and album: 1,5 months (45 days)
Conclusion:
As you see, Ghost always go on tour first and THEN release the album with about 1,5 months inbetween. Many songs are first played live and then we get to hear the studio versions.
Recently we even got dedicated „pre-tours“ (Rats on the Road, Pre-Imperatour) to hype us up. So there is no need to be worried, or even accuse him of being a scammer or whatever. It’s literally the normal modus operandi!
My guess for this Album/Tour (this might age terribly with the most recent website update): I’d assume we get a single later this month/ in march at the latest, and, if I had to guess, the album comes out after the Euro leg of the Redacted tour in late May (1 month passed plus theres a break again, like there was for ROTR/Pale Tour and Pre-/Imperatour)
Update
Since it's been pointed out that not including Opus isn't fair, I shall add that era. I didn't include it, because first albums always have a bit of their own rules and there's a whole lot of issues coming with releasing your first baby - plus I was trying to make a point based on recency (4 of the last 5 albums) etc. plus the lack of money & recognition didn't allow for a real Tour for quite a while. ANYWAY, here's it:
Opus Eponymous:
12.03.2010 they uploaded the Demo tape to MySpace and got a LOT of attention immediately (because it's a frickin' banger)
the album itself was released on 18.10.2010 officially
they played their first gig at Hammer of Doom in Würzburg of all places on 23.10.2010 - yes, after the album release
it wasn't really a tour in that sense; they went on to play some gigs wherever they could, then supported other bands (Paradise Lost in early 2011), the first thing you could call a real tour was Defenders of the Faith III with Trivium, In Flames (my beloveds, check out In Flames if you haven't!) and Rise to Remain in late 2011 - not a real Headliner Solo tour, though, either
Sources: Setlist.fm, wikipedia, my memory, really
#the band ghost#ghost#a friend asked me to write it down properly so here ya go#infestissumam#meliora#prequelle#impera#papa v#redacted tour#i just really cant handle people accusing him of being a deceiver when they really only need to wikipedia the album release and tour dates#info
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How do you sleep at night? No one to hide behind Betrayed every alibi you had You had every chance to make amends instead you got drunk on bitterness And you still claim that you're innocent, it's sad
#daniel ricciardo#dr3#christian horner#for the blacklists#I recognize that christian horner in a gifset is NOT the kind of content people in ricnation are looking for rn#debated posting this but fuck it#me 🤝🏼 daniel: two bitches that love a depressing song lyric#it's about breaking free from a toxic relationship and the importance of prioritizing one's own needs#and that it can take a long time to recognize the dynamics at play in those relationships#and removing yourself from that situation can be just as hard and that just kind of epitomizes daniel with christian for me#in the return to rbr I think daniel trusted that CH would at the very least be straight forward and upfront with him#even if the end result wasn't what daniel wanted or hoped for#daniel could handle not getting the rbr seat#but something he couldn't handle was the truth that the one person he believed he could trust was gaslighting him and using him#and daniel had a light bulb moment - the point where you realize that sometimes the best thing you can do for yourself is to walk away#and so he got out#also this is obviously my interpretation of a relationship that I have zero insider info on and maybe they are chill now#as always…thinking too deeply about people I don’t know in the tags#also i recognize that this song is actually about a tiktok hype house but whatever rbr are that immature so it fits#this is my first go with this type of editing in PS so if you have any tips on style and execution i'm all ears#Apparently i also owe CH an apology bc i was so sure he didn't shake daniel's hand pre-race in singapore but he actually did and i missed i#during the breakdown i was having anyway fuck him still
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DATV is overly reliant on Supplemental Media - especially if you are a returning player
TL;DR: Supplemental material should not be required reading in order to understand what's going on in the main game -> it's additional material that enhances what we were given. If what we were given is lacking and unable to coherently tell us a story, then the writers and those in charge did not prioritize what was important.
Not a take that's unique to Dragon Age, but one that is very relevant when talking about DATV. I've made a few posts about plot/story points that either make no sense or have been dropped entirely in the lead up from DAI to DATV. Every now and then I get a few comments or messages about how certain points I made were addressed in supplemental material released in the lead up to this games release.
This isn't a call out post, by the way! But it's frustrating, to me, that this games writing is so lacking that my understanding is being inhibited because I can't remember details from a book I read two years ago - not to mention various podcasts, comics, and short stories. My understanding of a video game in a video game series should not be reliant on additional/optional content.
DATV is a weird game in that it is absolutely a 'soft/scorched earth' reboot while also marketing itself as a continuation to what was set up in Inquisition and Trespasser. Personally, I think that if you are up to number 4 in a game series, one with a continuous story-line, it should be expected that new players won't be able to catch up to everything -> it's the game developers job to make the world and story intriguing enough that the new players will go back to previous games in the series and fill in the blanks themselves.
Veilguard, as a sequel, is overly reliant on content that comes from outside the games themselves (including DLC's) if you want to make sense of the world and story. Trespasser left us with an epilogue that set up some plot points for the next game: Solas & the Veil, the Elven Rebellion, and War with the Qun - plot points that have been built up since the time of Origins. But when we get into DATV two of these points have been dropped and resolved, off-screen.
There are more questions, but these are the ones that bothered me the most while playing the game:
What happened to the Agents of Fen'harel/ Elven Rebellion? -> answered in a cursed reddit AMA.
What happened to the Qunari following Trespasser -> addressed in Tevinter Nights, and a codex entry you can pick up (optional).
Why is Skyhold infested with demons? -> mentioned in Tevinter Nights.
How did the Dalish go from worshiping their own pantheon to knowing they are false gods? (specifically those we meet in the Veil Jumpers) -> mentioned in the Missing comic series.
What's up with Nevarra's Royals? -> Tevinter Nights addresses that there is a power struggle in the Pentaghast family and the role of the Mortalitasi in making it worse - though it does not address the whole 'mage puppeting a corpse' issue and all the implications it has.
This is a video game series -> the bulk of the information required for me to understand the story and its relation to previous entries needs to be included in the final game version. I am playing a video game and not attending a uni class - I should not need to have a required reading list in order to understand what the fuck is going on. I should definitely not need to go onto a reddit AMA to understand what happened in-game, either.
What makes this stand out the most is that DAI was very successful in tying in previous games, DLC's, movies, and books! Inquisition did a great job in getting you up to speed on the events of the previous games early on, providing personalization if you played those games, and giving the player the opportunity to inquire into these events.
Hiding away the answers in additional material or a codex entry that may be missed is not good game design or good writing. DAI didn't assume that you had bought and played the Legacy DLC -> it made certain you experienced the conversation with Varric and Hawke if you wanted to proceed in the game. It didn't hide away imperative information in codex entries - it had characters talk about it in scripted scenes and encourage the player to ask more. You would actively need to avoid interacting with characters for you to not experience this information in DAI.
Leliana talks about her role during the Blight, her calling by the Maker, and her relationship with Dorothea/Justinia -> DAO and Leliana's Song DLC.
Cullen talks about his time as a templar at Kinloch & Kirkwall -> DAO and DA2.
Cassandra speaks about her history, investigation into Hawke, and the Seekers -> Dawn of the Seeker movie, DA2, & Asunder novel.
Varric talks about Hawke, Kirkwall, and Corypheous -> DA2 and Legacy DLC.
Cole talks about how he discovered he was a 'demon' - it leads to further conversations about Rhys, Evangeline, and Lord-Seeker Lambert -> Asunder novel.
Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts -> the game literally continues what the Masked Empire novel sets up, the Orlesian Civil War. The game does a decent job of telling us about the players (Celene, Gaspard, Briala etc...) and the reasoning behind the conflict through dialogue, the ability to explore the battlefields, quests, ambient dialogue, etc... The book is not required reading - though it greatly adds to the complexity of the characters, motivations, and political intrigue!
I never once, playing DA2 or DAI, felt penalized or like my experience was lacking because I had not engaged with supplemental material or DLC's. I got into Dragon Age when I was in high school, it wasn't until I graduated and began working after that I had the disposable income available for experiencing the extra material. I cannot say that for DATV - If you have played Inquisition and go into DATV straight from that you will, absolutely, be confused about how we got from A to B.
Which is especially strange to me!? Why is it that new players will be less confused than those that are returning players? It's like the game is actively punishing you for playing and caring about previous games in the series.
Supplemental media is bought because the main product has earned your investment, love, or interest. Not everyone has the income available to buy it with their own money - especially if you live outside the US and have to pay additional shipping costs. Not everyone has the ability to buy or 'obtain' the digital versions either. My understanding of the main story of a video game in a video game series should not require additional monetary investment into other mediums.
The game itself should be enough and DATV is not enough.
#Inquisition didn't get it perfect but its miles apart from how DATV handled it imo#'in tevinter nights-' 'in the missing-' 'in this short story/podcast etc-'#this should be explained in-game!#especially since it was set up in the last game! don't have an epilogue setting up things if you're not going to go through with it!#or at the very least EXPLAIN what happened?!#veilguard was marketed and sold to us as a SEQUEL - it needs to answer what was set up in the one DLC that apparently mattered!#The Masked Empire really improves the entire Wicked Eyes/Hearts questline - highly recommend reading btw#to clarify - adding this stuff in won't save the awful writing and weak story. it just makes it extra frustrating lmao#the EA anti-consumer mindset has bled into BioWare imo#maybe not intentionally but its giving the same vibes as ea breaking apart sims dlcs and selling each for $10 a pop#put some info in a comic / in the game / in a book -> my experience should not lack because i only got the game in your VIDEO GAME SERIES#dragon age joplin save me :(#why does the concept art for joplin address this shit better? lmao#datv critical#datv spoilers#bioware critical#veilguard critical
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HEY
Do you happen to be in a circumstance where you could maybe have a casual vacation in small cozy suburbs of Helsinki for a month or two...? and you don't mind having a nerd like me as company...?
WELL LOOK NO MORE!!
I am renting a room for 375,5€ a month! A room with a BED and a TABLE no less so it's perfect for a temporary stay! That's like cheaper than a whole weekend in käärijä airbnb, could you imagine!? And in case you're going to see the UMK show in february, it's fairly easy to get to Tampere in a couple of hours by train.
Also, it can take about 20 mins to Vantaa, Tikkurila and about 30 mins to Helsinki center with public transport!
Please DM me if you're interested! Or if you know someone else who might be interested, spreading the word around would help me immensely 🙏

#this might be a long shot but#käärijä#forgive me for tagging for visibility 🙏#the price is exactly half of the rent I'm currently paying and it's just too much for one student to handle#also for context#my previous housemate moved back to their homecountry due to expired work contract#that's why there's still furniture#Idk if I should've put more info on this post aaaa but I'll happily answer to questions in dms
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I keep thinking about how Ashton’s been acting lately and I coming back to them saying that they’ve earned “a minor sense of superiority” for all they’ve been through in their life and then how through a lot of what they said after that demonstrates that that sense of superiority goes far beyond being minor. Especially the way they laughed and said “who else?” when the Hells asked themselves if they should really be the ones deciding if the balance of the world should be upended and remade. It carried a lot less of a “well who else is going to do it?” energy that I think it might’ve once carried, the sort of thing the Nein might say, and instead felt more like a “you really want anyone else but us choosing that?��, which aligns with the wildly out-of-hand way they were behaving in the council meeting. They really seem to be placing themself above everyone that was in that council room, especially with how they repeatedly said that all of those delegates are stupid and blind and so on, particularly those who answer to divine powers (I cannot remember if Ashton directly said that last night, but I feel like it would align with what they did say even if they didn’t put it that clearly).
What makes that very interesting to me is that Ashton is also a vessel for a higher power now, a power that—from the way they seem to be looking at things—is grander and older and more powerful than the gods themselves; a titan. They may not answer to Rau’shan, but they channel her power just as surely as any cleric or paladin might channel their deity’s powers. Which is a little hypocritical, but that’s not my point.
I keep wondering that if maybe, probably on a subconscious level, that connection to an older power than the gods is fueling Ashton’s sense of superiority over the gods and those who follow them.
#I don’t have a clean conclusion to this I just ended up rambling againnnnnn#but yeah I’m like. if the gods were gone and Exandria somehow survived#and divine magic was wiped from the world#ashton would still have their powers#because they’re a vessel for two beings actually that are older than the gods#rau’shan and the Luxon#but I only mentioned the Titan stuff in the post bc they don’t know shit abt the Luxon right now beyond what Essek and Leylas have said#whereas they have a lot more info about the Titans to fuel this infuriating superiority complex#don’t get me wrong I’ve loved Ashton from the moment they were introduced#but I am so frustrated with how they’ve been behaving#the shouting during the council meeting was… painful#bestie you’ve got a charisma score of 6 pls let the charisma casters handle this#and also Orym. let the talkers and the level headed one handle it#you can argue with them later while you make out#critical role#cr spoilers#ashton greymoore#Quinn metas#cr meta
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#I have gotten absolutely awful heartbreaking news at work#I’m not fired but I may have to leave my time and do a part of the job I really don’t like instead#the worst part is this means that a longtime mentor of mine who has always had a high opinion of me and my work things I should leave#that team too#I just don’t know how to handle this#and they’re leaving the decision up to me but like if I don’t leave then I have no info about what will happen#maybe I’ll be fired if I don’t figure out a way to get better at coming up with story ideas#I just have no idea what to do and this is so painful#please pray
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Gotta love when folks write Superman incredibly anti-clone even though he had good reason in the beginning to Not Like Superboy (HES A WINDOW INTO WHAT CLARK WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHOUT THE KENTS) and decide that forever on he’ll be spiteful towards clones even though he literally Does Not Care if you’re a clone unless you’re Superboy.
#IF YOU LIKE THIS CHARACTERIZATION IGNORE ME BUT I GOTTA VENT#bones speaks#bones writes in the tags#sometimes I wanna bash my head into a wall. SUPERMAN IS INHERENTLY A GOOD PERSON IN EVERY WAY KON EL IS JUST A TERRIFYING REALIZATION-#OF WHAT HE’D BE WITHOUT A LOVING CARING AND NURTURING FAMILY! HE DIDNT LIKE KON BECAUSE HE WAS SCARED)#RAGGGGHHHHH#for the love of god I know it’s an easy way for Danny to hate Superman (SUPERMAN ISNT THE BAD GUY YALL PLEASE) but there can be so much more#have him awkwardly go up to Danny and ask him how he handled having a clone and try to use that info to get along with Kon!#he works with countless clones in the Justice League and I don’t see y’all writing him hating them. make it make sense#just- please. you don’t have to read a comic to know that Superman is meant to be The Best Of Humanity. just write with that baseline#I’m just sad folks are being so gosh darn mean to Supes. he’s a delightful character to read and my favorite big superhero#and a lot of folks in dpxdc do the anti clone stuff and that’s Clark’s entire personality for the comic.#you don’t think he’d be sympathetic because Danny was given immense duty and power and is only a few of his kind? or having an evil self in#another dimension that showed him the destruction he could bring?#Clark is a smartass. he is a seeker of the truth. he is a reporter (and a damn good one too). he is a loving husband. he is an alien.#he is a hero. he is a god. he is a caring friend. he is a genuinely kind and good being.#I recommend reading All Star Superman. Under The Yellow Sun by Clark Kent. and Superman:Grounded
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See the problem is I can acknowledge that Ezio is probably a better written character than Altair and his interactions with other characters like Leonardo and Rosa are all handled fairly well but also there’s just something about Altair being such a fucking idiot that he basically has to run around the Holy Lands sulking while Malik calls him a little bitch that I don’t think any other ac protagonist has ever matched
#it’s very very funny to me#also tbh on a slightly more serious note#I think I liked how ac1 handled their Templars a lot better#especially with the confessionals#the confessionals in ac2 are kinda mid tbh like they almost feel talked on#while in ac1 it really felt like Altair was giving them a chance to get their last words out#their final testament#in ac2 theyMre kinda just rambling before they die#idk I guess I really like how ac1 handled it’s narrative it wasn’t perfect at all#but it was pretty fun#anyways that way too much info#assassin’s creed#altair#ezio auditore#ac2#ac1
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If it wasn't for the TMAGP ARG snippets I probably wouldn't be as obsessed about Sam but oh my goddd with what tiny we know about him I'm not over it. He's got a canon birthday (!!! He's 33 at the start of the show! It's p cool to know that tbh!) so we know when the Institute burned down, he was 9 year old. So at nine, maximum, he went through the Institute's child experiment. That's age he went through potentially a version of the Milgrim experiment! Mr. Spider whom, this child might have actively tortured someone because he was told to?? And that's probably the terrible event that was brought up in the interview but maybe it wasn't! Maybe it's something worse!! Oh no!!!
The guy scored the highest in empathy in the entire test group at 98% and now his job is experiencing other people's horrors like of course he can't help but look into them, of course he can't help but internalize them when Alice has warned him of what can happen, I'm so worried about this man!!!
#samama khalid#tmagp spoilers#tmagp arg#tbh i dont know how to handle the info we got from the ARG bc i still see them as spoilers for the podcast to those just listening?#so i just tag spoilers#also dont think im forgetting connor dyer but theres still a non zero chance that isnt Alice's dead bame#and i just cannot get a read on her yet weather her not knowing abt the institute is real#or just another way to protect herself#but yeah sam... almost know doubts he's marked already if that still happens in this universe#and for what end... another archavist...? or something new..... oh no.......#also he's just nice and needs to get back on his feet; what happened recently to make him so desperate for a job? :(#i could care less about potentially gay computers give me more of these new guys pls
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okay so the Big Kae News is that we officially adopted a dog yesterday! amidst all the current insanity…it’s A Choice, that’s for sure LOL. i’m exhausted (she has a lot of energy), but she’s a darling <3
#i’ll share more info and pics eventually. just trying to get to know her right now :’-) don’t even ask me how i’m going to handle work#with her bc i have no fucking clue LOL#was gonna bring her into the office with me but i don’t think it’s a good idea. she wants to play play play play play play play#anyway this has been in the works for months but it finally happened and we’re a bit overwhelmed
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Drops my self insert
Health: 150 , Hunger: 100 , "Stress": 200
-Animal person -doesn't like being alone (stress is always increasing if no other people in world) -Starvation doesn't hurt right away -mental health is different (stress/anxiety). -hates touching gross/slimey things
"Favorite" food: fruit medley
Info below: (it may be lengthy, oops)
Feels better around animals. Their stress lowers when near them. Tames beefalo a bit faster. Can tame tallbirds that they raise. Animals that usually run away from the survivors don't run away from them unless they hit them. Critters in their inventory lower their stress. Because they are an animal person, killing animals increases their stress (regardless who kills them.) They just don't like seeing animals die even if it's necessary.
When their hunger runs out, there's a small amount of time before it starts to drain their health. It takes about 15 seconds.
When it comes to "stress."(I know what sanity is in dst, I just wanted something different for them.) They take damage if it's too high. Their stomach is also "full" when it's high. World looks more like scribbles when it's high too. When stress is high, they are not good at attacking or working. They are able to attack and work regularly as long as it doesn't get "high enough." They also won't eat if stress is high.
They get very stressed out when picking up gross/slimey things. Includes manure, any form of rot, slurtle slime, honey(it's sticky,) etc.
They don't mind being wet, so they don't get stressed from wetness. They do hate having to deal with their glasses getting messed up from being wet, so they are completely neutral to wetness.
It takes a while for heat to affect them. They hate the cold, and freeze easily. Low temperature that can seem managable to the others is cold for them. They prefer sitting by the fire pit during the winter. They like to stay put, and refuse to move away from the warmth. Unlessitstheholidaysthentheyllmakeanexception
Voice: Clarinet (Using the high notes. sometimes goes loud to soft because they struggle with their voice volume sometimes.)
A few extra things:
They don't like eggs and will not eat them. Includes eggs, tallbird eggs, tall scotch eggs, bacon and eggs, plain omelette, breakfast skillet, barnacle nigiri. Other than that, they'll eat anything.
They have apiphobia. They are terrified of bees. Being near one(or their hives) always increases stress. (Even the sound of their buzzing stresses them out.)
They do know how to swim and can do so if needed. They don't really want to though, and prefer to do it only when they have to.
They leave their big bag of belongings in their tent. They tend to instead use a backpack since they don't want something happening to their things. The backpack they use is the rabbit rucksack!
They love soft things! It helps with stress. Soft textures are their favorite! So are smooth textures.
They start off very shy and cautious at first, but slowly warm up to the other survivors. Going from feeling really bummed, low, and reserved to... being in a better mood. They smile a lot more, speak their mind more and are less hard on themself.
They picked up on the fact that everyone's names start with w. They decided to go by "Weardrop." It was just for shits and giggles, but then they ended up actually liking it and it just stuck.
They're from our modern times. They got pulled into the Constant three days ago. They were gifted their grandparents' antique radio when their grandparents moved away. They take advantage that they're from the modern times by confusing the survivors with our modern slang.
#dst#Dst oc#Dst self insert#self insert#Holy mother of info dump i got a bit carried away with talking about them#Whoops#This was me holding BACK 😭#Anyway I finally have them up#I would have put their backstory down too but I feel like this is too long lol#I'll have to handle that another time#I had.... ideas#And most of them flew out the windows#I need to remember to take NOTES so I don't forget#Also I may have given them a lot#But I was really trying to lean into their stress and animal person mechanics#Lore reason why they have “stress” instead of sanity?#Their anxiety was too powerful it manifested and took over the sanity slot#Also I'm somewhat iffy on saying “mental health is different”#I dunno i feel like i could have worded it better?#Even if it is what's happening to them#I just... have no idea how else to word it...#I'm open to hearing suggestions#Anyway I'll stop yapping in the tags lol#Istillhaveyettogivethemapropertitleoops#My oc#dst weardrop
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#can I just. scream for a second#so as is news to no one#we need to start over the entire us medical system from scratch#also I would like to be flayed alive and start over from scratch in the skin department as well#anyway for context: I've had some kind of rash/acne/infection/irritation all over my legs for over a year now#have tried various products and changed habits and products to try and get rid of it to no avail#everyone said you should really just go to a dermatologist#(I was not that inclined to do so bc the previous and only time I'd seen a dermatologist it was not a good experience. very condescending#also I don't like making appointments and stuff. girl I don't have time)#but I decided to be an adult and go (my insurance info seemed to imply I could go with zero copay even)#spoilers: that was not the case#anyway so I show up and surprise surprise: it sucked#she was dismissive and condescending imo. was literally like 'well it could be A B or C but I can't tell'#'all of those are basically impossible to get rid of anyway but the things to try are X Y or Z'#I asked to try Z since X and Y are things that I already tried and did nothing (which I had told her!!!)#but she just kept being like 'you just need to stop picking at it. that's the real problem and that's what's exacerbating your scarring'#(wow thanks never thought of that!) (she also insinuated that my scarring was ugly)#girl I'm not 5 years old I understand.#unfortunately for me that is a compulsion so strong it would probably take years of directed therapy to get me to stop doing that#what I'm here to see you about is to figure out what the problem is and how to stop it from happening in the first place#and STOP TRYING TO MAKE IT A COSMETIC ISSUE#it's causing me pain and discomfort that's the main problem! I would like that to stop!! and me not touching it would not solve that proble#also I wanted to ask her about something else but they were too quick about it. felt very Handled if you know what I mean#but anyway#she gave me a prescription for topical antibiotic which was the thing I had not tried#apparently my insurance doesn't cover it and it's also made of gold and plutonium or something#so she gave me a coupon for it#but get this#when I went to pick it up at the pharmacy they didn't take the coupon#the guy said. 'um this only works for the generic brand. and we don't have the generic brand'
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every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-
#its not even bad rn it's been nice#there's just so much horrible stuff underneath it all though and i think i just can't handle it#i think im just grieving my entire life every time I come here#and I've been just having these thoughts i guess intrusive thoughts about everyone dying tragically for the laste few days and it's#NOT FUCKING HELPING#idk it's nice we're all nice and both is happening but there's always some new info dropped on me that they just.#expect me to process by myself and i just end up crying at night all the time cause like what am i supposed to do#yeah sorry for venting again i was getting a bit better at not doing tht but i neeed it rn ToT#k i think i just need to go to sleep and maybe ill forget everything tomorrow or something idk#vent#vent post
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Torch. My pal. My friend. How would you feel about a pili x flicker drawing
see now this is a very interesting question. short answer is: its Complicated. they could be cute together but flickers currently in a sort of limbo atm,, i had new plans for them but those have not Happened yet & might not Ever happen so <//3
the LONG answer is: ive grown distant from flicker bc i lost interest in tadc due to Negative Associations, so i wanted to repurpose them & detach them from the tadc origin entirely, but flickers existing design has a lot of positive memories attached too (thanks to you!). the concept i had in mind isnt unique to flicker or anything, i just didnt want their entire character to go to waste so i figured itd be better to redesign them & maintain some key elements like the jester theme & springs while giving them new life
i never actually went thru with said repurposing tho, & im still fond of them for what they are/were. feels like id still be losing a lot but also im not sure what to do with them as they are,, flicker was originally a self-insert but now theres. nothing to insert them into. Hence the limbo. i Could implement the new concept without changing too much of the design?? maybe??? i dont knooowowww
all this to Say ultimately i dont mind, i just feel so bad when i change a character too much & then all their art immediately becomes outdated. flicker meant a lot to me, i dont wanna scrap them but idk if im ready for them to be smth entirely new yet. i can only hope i figure out a nice mid-point
#i mean in conclusion: i will not stop you i just dunno what to do with flicker in the long term 😔#i wanna do Smth with the concept i came up with tho. desktop assistant that got shut down for security risks but a lone copy remains#it doesnt have to be flicker but its gotta be Somebody. they werent even malicious the devs just sucked at handling stored info#i made a poast abt the idea a while ago i just reread it. Might change stuff abt that too who KNOWS not ME!!!!!!!#ask :)#the gift menace 🎨#oc stuff
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thinking once again about a dream awhile back in which i lived at some sort of... magical compound?? idk it was like some sort of government task force thing but for things specifically of the mythical creature variety. and i was the resident dragon... like most dragons in that world were pretty dangerous/hostile but i was more tame and just kinda hung out there (they had a private wharf type area so i could swim) so that the people there could learn more about dragon behaviors via observing me. and i had one specific human "handler" i remember who was one of the higher-ups at the compound. that was an awesome dream...
#i will NOT develop another fantasy storyworld based on this idea i WILL NOT (<- affirmations)#i like remember a lot of details about the structure of the place and how i was treated vs other magical creatures it dealt with#but also i have no idea how the place worked because like. i wasnt privy to that info. cause i was mostly a “pet” in a way#very “man i just work here” energy LOL#there was even some sort of crisis going on where like. some sort of magic/supernatural catastrophe was causing extinct creatures#to come back in droves and wreck the environment and stuff. like jurassic world but with magic too...#but idk how or why or how it was actually affecting ppl or how the compound was handling it#i was just happy that therewere new fish for me to hunt.#yummy Dinichthys....#fish.txt
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