#just full on sentences and proper grammar lol

[penumbra-mayhem]

i feel joy and oh how it burns (pt. 2/2)

Tank opens up to Milo about their relationship with Sam.

part 1 // hurt/comfort // 1.1k words

(I hc Tank with a stutter, more on that here.)

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“Stop hogging the popcorn,” Milo whined, reaching blindly for the bowl with one hand while his eyes remained glued to the screen. 

“St-top t-t-taking all mmmmy kills,” Darlin’ retorted, shielding the bowl from Milo��s grasp with their body.

“Well, if you knew how to aim—”

“Fuck off!” Darlin’ cackled.

Milo beamed at the sound. As he killed two more zombies, he asked, “I’m gonna get something to drink, you want anything?”

Darlin’ shook their head. “N-No, I-I’m g—fucker, that wwwwas mmmmy kill!! ”

He paused the game with a bark of laughter. “Not anymore! Alright, I’m going. There better still be popcorn in that bowl when I get back,” he teased.

As Milo got up, Darlin’ made a playful show of stuffing a handful of popcorn in their mouth. Milo gasped and snatched the bowl from their lap, exclaiming, “Y’know what? I’m taking it with me!”

He scurried into the kitchen with a titter as Darlin’ made popcorn-muffled sounds of protest from the couch. Milo grabbed two bottles of Jarritos: guava for himself and lime for Darlin’ because he knew that if he didn’t as soon as he sat back down Darlin’ would be all puppy eyes and regret and he’d have to get up again.

When he re-entered the living room, though, he found them glued to their phone looking…concerned?

“What’s up?” Milo asked as he set the bottles on coasters and placed the popcorn bowl equally between them.

“N-Nothing,” Darlin’ muttered. They stuffed their phone under their leg, eyes glassy and unable to meet Milo’s scrutinous stare. 

“T, you look…” like you’re about to cry “…upset.”

They waved a hand. “It-It’s n-n-n-nothing, just Sam…”

“Sam?” Milo’s voice hardened, fear flashing in his eyes, “What’d he do?”

Darlin’ looked up at the sudden change in Milo’s tone. They backpedaled as they realized their mistake, “WWWait—”

“Did he hurt you?”

“N-N-N—”

“Don’t lie to me, Tank—”

“I-I’m n-n-n-n-not!” Darlin’ blurted, “N-N-No. Sam wwwwould n-n-n-never.”

Milo sat back, hackles lowering. “Then what is it?”

Darlin’s gaze lowered and they balled their hands, as if the words were inked onto their palms. They couldn’t explain. Milo wouldn’t understand. They barely even understood.

Suddenly, a piece of popcorn hit them square in the face. 

“Hey,” they retorted, glaring at a gleeful Milo. 

He threw another piece. 

“St-top,” Darlin’ whined, throwing a piece in retaliation. 

“Tell me what’s going on and I will,” Milo countered as he pelt Darlin’ with piece after piece of popcorn, “C’mon. C’mon. C’mon. C’mo—”

“Ok-kay!!” Darlin’ exclaimed, hands held up against the savory barrage. They dug their phone back out and pulled up their conversation with Sam. 

“It-It’s just the l-l-l-last mmmessage…” Darlin’ mumbled as they passed the phone to Milo. 

He took it gingerly and read Sam’s most recent text:

Thinking of you, I hope you’re having a good time at Milo’s. I thought maybe later we could get dinner at Finch & Presley’s and then get gelato at that place you like on the corner. Thoughts? No rush, take your time baby. Have fun!

Milo reread it, certain he had missed something. When his third scan still gleaned no clues, he handed their phone back and admitted, “I don’t understand. What’s the problem?”

Darlin’ shoved their phone away again. “He…he’s…so…good.”

“…go on.”

Darlin’ chewed at their inner cheek. “He mmmmakes mmme hap-p-py,” they admitted, “MMMore than I-I thought I-I c-could b-b-b-be.”

“And that’s bad?”

They nodded. 

“How come?”

Darlin’ looked away, shutting themself down again.  

Milo raised his hand slowly in response, popcorn at the ready. 

Catching the movement out of the corner of their eye, Darlin’ sighed in surrender, “WWWhat if I-I don’t mmmake him hap-p-py?”

Milo’s popcorn-loaded hand lowered in confusion. “What?”

Darlin’ shrugged; it was stupid, they were being stupid.

“Hold on,” Milo said, tossing his unthrown popcorn into his mouth before fishing his phone from his pocket. As he searched his screen, he explained sheepishly, “I uh…I like to take candids of the people in my life…and then I keep them, just for me to look at—where is, ah! here we go.”

He thrust his phone into Darlin’s hands.

They were met with a photo of them and Sam on the first night of the Solstice, laughing together in a corner. Darlin’ glanced back up at Milo.

“Go on,” he insisted, “I’ve only met him a couple of times, so I just have a few, but I think you’ll get the idea.”

Darlin’ furrowed their brow but acquiesced.

Sam and Darlin’ at the Solstice the following evening, snuggled together by a fireplace. Sam and Darlin’ on a double date with Milo and Sweetheart, discussing appetizers. Sam and Darlin’ at the most recent pack meeting, chatting with Asher.

They looked back up at Milo, their face and ears a pale pink. Milo secretly took some delight in Darlin's flustered appearance. It was a pleasant change from their usual scowl or worried frown.

“You know what all of those have in common?”

Darlin' shook their head. 

“Sam is smiling. In every single one.”

Scrolling back through, they found that Milo was right. In each photo, Sam had his eyes on Darlin’ and a smile on his face. Sometimes it was small and soft. Sometimes he was beaming, his whole face crinkled in joy. The pale pink deepened to red.

“Sam doesn’t look like that when you’re not in the room. You make him so happy,” Milo murmured, “And for what it’s worth, you make me happy, too.”

Darlin’ handed Milo back his phone and quickly rubbed at their eyes, hoping Milo wouldn’t notice. But, of course, he did. 

“Hey,” he whispered, scooching closer. 

“S-Sorry…” Darlin’ sniffled, wiping the tears from their flushed cheeks in growing frustration.

“You don’t need to apologize, T. You’re allowed to…” be weak “...show how you’re feeling.” 

Milo moved the popcorn bowl and cooed, “C’mere.”

Darlin’ lifted their head to see Milo’s arms stretched out towards them. They hesitated. Milo was sure they’d reject the offer, but then Darlin’ surprised them both as they crawled into his embrace.

Burying their face in his shirt, they whimpered, “WWWhy d-does it-it hurt?”

Milo sagged. In a sense, he’d been right. Sam was hurting them, but it was the one kind of pain Milo would allow. And the only kind he didn’t know how to ease. He tightened his hold on Darlin’, taking a moment to breathe before answering:

“Warmth can sometimes feel like burning when you’ve been cold for long enough. I think maybe it’s the same with joy. But it’ll get easier. It’ll hurt less, eventually. Just give it time.”

[cozzzynook]

I love the deaf Roddy head cannon omg

So Drift canonically knows chirolinguistics (the hand language thing) cause that’s how he bought the Lost Light

And I head cannon that Ratchet definitely knows some fundamental chiro (you know, like medic stuff. “What hurts?” “Can you understand me?” “I’m about to jab you with a needle” that kind of thing)

And I read in one fic where chirolinguistics also developed some dialects (like in Rodion and Nyon)

So I’m thinking that the chiro of the “slums” are all more single servo based unlike the official “proper” and more formal chiro signs that use both servos, there’s still some differences in dialects but Rodion chiro and Nyonian chiro would as a result be more similar to each other than the traditional chirolinguistics

Ratchet on the other hand definitely only knows the standard Iaconian chirolinguistics (which is more intergalactically recognized) but cause he’s a doctor and having one hand free while communicating with a patient is important, most his sign is also one handed (think a lot of short hand or abreviations or spelling out things instead of full sentences with proper grammar)

So I propose that when they find out Roddy is deaf, to give his audials a break from his implants, they trade chiro knowledge

Drift and Roddy bond over their home city dialects being similar and compare vocabulary and then teach Ratchet their signs while Ratchet shares his knowledge on Iaconian Standard Chirolinguistics

The end result is they’ve created their own dialect that is a mix of all three over time that only they really understand (cause the grammar is incomprehensible to outsiders lol) and a lot of hand holding ;)

Roddy would be so confused the first time Drift or Ratchet starts holding his servo and like not do anything

Like he looks at them, waiting for them to say something, but they just don’t cause they actually just wanted to hold his hand and Roddy is a lil dense

He gets it eventually

Ndkeofjeowosjcjkaoxmcnfkakdjfj AAHAHHHH I LOVE THIS!

[dani-says-stuff]

Myrtles Plantation

❥ Back to the Control Center

❥ Nate Hardy Masterlist

- note the reader is afraid of dolls in this one - also my love for Amanda spills through... a lot... but I think it adds character, spice, and humor, so I'm leaving it in

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Nate Hardy x fem!medium(?)reader

Summary: Based on this request

« could u do a nate x reader (in a relationship) at the haunted plantation?? like she sees something and amanda lets them know it was evil??? »

Thanks to this anon for reminding me this was in my drafts

Thank you for my first request anon!! so so so sorry it took so long!

I hope this is what you were looking for, I kinda went off the deep end with it lol

Word Count: 4.1k

Warnings: language, hauntings, evil spirits, creepy stuff, inconsistent capitalization, my disregard for run on sentences and “pRopEr gRammAr”, unedited ramble writings bc i just wanted to finally get it published for y’all, maybe incorrect timeline? technically? bc i can’t remember if Nate was in a video with Amanda before this one…

Dialogue Key:

Y/N

Nate

Sam

Colby

Amanda

Spirit Box

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You and Nate were currently in his car, driving to the plantation for Sam and Colby's video.

Nate was nervous. That much was obvious from the tight, white-knuckled grip he had on the steering wheel. You could practically see the the tense emotions rolling off his skin in waves. You however, were practically buzzing in excitement.

You opened up the camera app on your phone to record a little clip. One you would either post to your instagram story soon, or you'd send it to Colby to put before the video... you hadn't really decided what you were going to say yet.

First, you brought the camera really close to your face, barely anything other than your forehead, eyebrows, and eyes in frame, "Ok so- I don't really know where this clip is going to be shared yet... or if it'll be out at all... but Nate is being boring and having a panic attack and I'm super excited and want to talk to someone about it."

You extended your arm, full face now in view as you smiled widely at the front facing camera, "Guess what!" you yelled, "We're filming with the boys again!" you spoke, flashing the camera to show Nate as he drove, "and that's not even the best part... drumroll please... the love of my freaking life is coming with us!" you squealed.

Nate's eyebrows furrowed, barely sparing a glance in your direction, instead keeping his eyes on the road, "Babe, you already showed me?"

"Oh not you." you scoffed, rolling your eyes, "You're just my boyfriend."

"Mhm..." he hummed, blinking a few times trying to figure what exactly it was he was failing to understand, "Yeah no. I don't get it N/N... pretty sure 'love of my life' and 'boyfriend' are the same thing." 

You tilted your head pondering the thought for a moment, ultimately shaking your head innocently, "Nah, it can't be. There are two very different people that take up those positions." 

"Oh really?"

"Oh yeah." you turned your gaze, meeting the side of his face,"You may be my boyfriend, and I love you so, so, so, very much..."

"But?"

"But.." you grinned turning to face the camera, "The love of my life is the wonderful and beautiful Amanda~" you sang, moving your phone forward once more blowing kisses at the screen.

"Oh my gosh! I'm so excited!" you yelled, shaking the screen for emphasis.

The brown haired male next to you laughed at your actions, "Babe, be careful, you're going to make 'em all dizzy." 

"True" you shrugged, focusing your phone once more, "anyways, you've probably guessed it by now, but we're doing another investigation tonight!"

You flipped the camera, showing nothing but trees surrounding the vehicle, "We're currently in the middle of nowhere- but that's because this location is a little different than usual."

"Yeah, instead of like a house with like- other neighbors around it and stuff" Nate spoke up, "were going to a plantation, in the middle of just like- trees" he shivered awkwardly, hissing in discomfort, "so if we get in trouble or something there's nothing for miles."

You scoffed, pulling the view back on yourself, "Yeah I guess, but that's fine because nothing is going to go wrong!" you exclaimed happily 

"Mhm, and how do you know that?"

You winked at the camera, patting the area over your chest, "I have a good feeling about it."

"Yeah ok then- remind me how you feel when we actually get there."

You laughed loudly at you boyfriend, finally getting a small crack of a smile across his lips. "Anyway, that's all for right now. See-you-all-when-we-get-there-bye-bye" you rushed, quickly ending the video.

As soon as he could tell you stopped recording, Nate spoke up, "now what was that for?" 

"Updating the public" you shrugged, starting a quick conversation with Colby over text.

Hey~ might've just filmed a little intro clip for you

You're welcome of course

And you better use it

I put a lot of effort into it

Oh really?

Obviously

Send it over

I'll check it out

About 2 minutes later after your mini vlog went through, he responded 

Oh yeah, thats going in

You're good if I do a little editing over it?

Ofc

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Later, when viewers clicked on the video, they would be greeted to a huge tone shift between the first 2-3 minutes of the video, versus the of it.

First, your little intro, which basically became a fan cam for Amanda. Bright hearts and anime blush- the whole nine yards.

Broken, of course, every once in a while with a freeze framing on your real partner. The video going gray scale, with rain and violin music playing in the background.

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Soon, the group of five were all stood before Myrtles plantation, waiting for the tour to begin.

Sam turned to Nate, camera pointed to him, "Are you excited?" 

"Dude- I- just-" your boyfriend sighed dramatically, bringing his hands up to rub at his eyes. You, however, could be seen lurching forward in laughter at his reaction, "It just like everytime you bring me on one of these."

You walked up, placing a hand on his shoulder, trying to calm your breaths, "Yeah, so thats a no." you looked up at him, pouting when he met your gaze, "He's very nervous"

"You look terrified." 

"I can tell by your- genuine face of excitement right now"

Nate forced a sarcastic smile on his face that turned out more of a grimace, "Oh yeah? This face? Right here?"

You struggled to hold back your laughter, "All excitement from him on the way up here"

He turned his head, looking down at you as you were still holding onto his shoulder, "You know, usually you're a bit more cautious about these things."

You shrugged, "But we have Amanda here this time," you gestured to her, "There's finally someone else to help me keep you guys from doing something stupid."

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The five of you entered the house, deciding to take a quick look around before the tour guide arrived.

Almost immediately upon entering the door, something caught your attention- and no it wasn't the smell the boys were busy commenting on.

Hung on the wall of the foyer, there was a mirror. You couldn't quite put a finger on it, but you could tell there was something strange about it.

For now, you just assumed it was how dated the mirror looked. Nothing from today looked like that. 

Soon, the boys called you over to the steps, wanting to take a peek upstairs. Sam and Colby had already made their way up with Nate following behind them, leaving you and Amanda  still on the first floor. 

"Hey" you tapped the blondes shoulder, "Just to- uh, to make sure... you feel that too, right?" you asked, looking up the stairwell. 

She hummed, "Yeah, thats probably because of what happened on the 17th step." 

You simply nodded enthusiastically despite having not clue what the significance of that specific step was, "Oh yeah of course. Just making sure I wasn't the only one feeling that sense of impending doom" you joked

Amanda laughed breathily at your phrasing, "Yeah, after events like that, they tend to leave a heavier, darker feel behind." 

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You didn't find out till later that night, it wasn't just a slip down the stairs, but a death on the 17th step.

Thanks a lot for leaving that out Sam. 

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By the time you made it up the flight of stairs, the group had entered one of the bedrooms. Everyone was inside except for your boyfriend, who stood before the doorframe waiting for you. 

"Hey babe..." he spoke scratching the back of his neck awkwardly, grabbing your hand with the other, "so, just like a heads up, there's like... a shit ton of creepy ass dolls in there." 

Your eyes widened looking up at him, "What?"

"Yeah, like the entire mantle?" he gestured with his hands, "Just- completely covered." 

"I don't wanna go in there" you shook your head quickly, eyes still wide as saucers gripping his hand tighter. 

"Just- just don't look to your right when we walk in?"

You squinted you eyes at him, "...why?"

Nate shrugged, "Oh you know, there might be one that is kinda-sorta positioned to look at you when enter." he spoke nonchalantly as he dragged you through the door. 

You glared up at the brunette, "what?"

"By the way, we have to sleep here tonight-" the both of you heard from further in the room, "So someone is getting the room with the creepy doll staring at you."

You knew your friends- so without even thinking you threw your pointer finger up, touching your nose. 

"Woah, woah, woah" you rushed when the other three looked in your direction with shit eating grins, "No I did it- it was Col-"

"Nope, I'm safe" the black haired man cut you off.

You looked up slowly, glare pointed directly at your shocked boyfriend, who hadn't done it in time. "I'm going to kill you."

You looked over his shoulder, seeing the dolls for the first time. You quickly dropped his hand running over past Amanda and out to the next room, "Nope! I just wont be sleeping with you."

Nate quickly followed, arms extended "Wait babe! No please! Don't leave me alone!" Leaving a laughing Sam and Colby behind, filming the entire thing. 

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"Sam" you spoke up once the tour was over, "next time we do one of these things you've got to tell me more than just 'oh were going to a haunted mansion'" you mocked 

"What's up?" he laughed, "What do you mean?"

"Oh you know" you gestured around, speaking with your arms, "yellow fever death child, owner of the house killed on the steps, poison murders, voodoo queen death, ghost mirrors-" you listed propping your hands on your hips, "I could go on and on." 

"It's haunted Y/N, what did you expect?"

"Not this!" you shrieked.

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Soon, the five of you began the investigation in Chloe's room, each wearing a set of clip on earrings. Thanks to your wonderful, amazing boyfriend, you and Amanda were wearing the hoops. 

In addition to the earrings, Amanda came with some gifts with the four of you. she gave Colby a crystal to help amplify his empathic skills, and evil eye bracelets for both Nate and Sam. 

"These are just because I felt bad getting something for Colby and not you two." she spoke handing over the bracelets.

The raven haired man gasped, bringing his hands up to his chest, "She has a favorite!"

Nate placed his hands up on his waist, popping out his hip, "Well that's ok." he shot back sassily, dangly earrings swishing by his neck.

The blonde girl however, hummed in agreeance with Colby reaching back into her bag, "Yep, but it's not you." setting off scandalized gasps from the two men and hysteric laughter from sam. Amanda approached you with a small bag usually used for jewelry.

You took it smugly, leaning forward to kiss her on the cheek, "Thank you m'love"

"of course darling" she played along, "I heard you also have some abilities, so I picked out three things to help" she spoke as you opened the bag, pouring the items in your hand, "Ok, so this one is Labradorite" she pointed to the darker, slightly iridescent one, "It is one of the best crystals for enhancing abilities, it extends your awareness, helps you connect with the spiritual world and can be very grounding and helpful for mediums." she moved to the brighter crystal, "This one is Angelite, the same as Colby's-" 

"oh." the mentioned male scoffed playfully, crossing his arms, "I see how it is... I feel very special now." 

"-and the last one," Amanda pointed to a pitch black stone that was attached to a corded necklace, "is Black Tourmaline, which is really good at protecting and shielding you from bad energy. It can basically cleanse you from any unwanted energy that comes your way." 

"Ok!" sam exclaimed, "Now that we've handed out the gifts and the pity gifts" he raised his wrist up to the camera, making the rest of you laugh, Lets get on to the investigation!"

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The group decided to move on to the seance room after very little seemed to be happening within Chole's room. 

"I hated this room earlier" Nate shivered next to you, "It just... I don't know, it's just weird."

You nodded as you followed him in, "Yeah? Now imagine feeling heavy when you walk in" 

"Really?" he looked down at you, "What do you mean?"

"It's just like what Amanda said earlier," you shrugged softly, "it's just very heavy in here, it feels tight." 

You let go of Nate's hand, leaving him as he went to look at a painting in the corner, approaching Amanda instead. You stood next to the blonde as she looked up at the mirror that faces the one in the other parlor. 

You shifted you gaze between her and the mirror quickly, "So... whatcha lookin at?"

She gestured you to stand next to her facing the mirror, never once moving her own gaze from the glass, "so look up there," she pointed at a specific area, "and unfocus you eyes- almost like youre trying to look through the mirror" she explained. 

Within a few seconds she could feel you tense beside her, causing the blonde to grin, "you see it?" 

"yeah" you breathed, nodding slowly, "yeah I see it" 

"Yo wait" Nate whipped around, "see what? exactly?" he moved up behind you, placing his head over your shoulder, squinting his eyes to find whatever the two of you seemed to see, "I dont see it"

"I keep seeing things move behind me" Amanda spoke

"I cant see anything specific" you added, "but I can see shapes moving" you explained gesturing up to point in the direction of the areas you spoke of, "like I saw something move like this" you dragged you hand, "and something over there" 

Amanda hummed in affirmation, "yep, where you just pointed, between this wall in the candles, there's someone" she moved her other hand, "and over here, where you saw something move, there was some kids." 

"thats crazy"

"are you feeling anything right now?" Nate questioned, as Colby moved to flip off the lights.

The both of you answered simultaneously, gaving very opposite answers,

"No."

"Yes." 

and for the first time in what felt like hours, you and Amanda broke your gazes from the mirror turning to each other instead.

"You really dont feel that?"

she shook her head, "no, I'm seeing them. I feel that someone is here, like I have full goosebumps"

"N/N" Nate placed a hand on your shoulder, "what are you feeling?"

You looked back to the mirror, looking for anymore blurs, only to see nothing, "It felt like- happy? I guess? Like you know that feeling of when you'd go to the park when you were younger and you were just like- excited? it felt like that."

Amanda nodded slowly in thought, "well, that could be the kids I saw, they did look pretty happy."

"but now" you spoke up once more, causing the boy's eyebrows to furrow, "now it just feels crowded. I cant pull one emotion from another. Its so weird." 

"the energy in here is insane" Amanda agreed, "I feel like if we did a seance at the seance table- we could get some pretty gnarly stuff"

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So, that what the group did. you broke out the spirit box, and immediately you were greeted with several hellos. 

"Is there any sign you could give us of who were talking to?" Sam spoke up, "a name, an occupation?"

Kate

Colby looked up with squinted brows, confused at the sound "what did that say"

"it said Kate" you responded from next to Nate, hand on his arm, "im pretty sure it said Kate"

"yeah" Amanda added, "I wrote Kate right before it said that"

"is it true that this room is a portal?"

you stepped back at the question, making Nate look to you in concern "guys I just got really nautious-" 

Evil

"oh no-no-no- I don't like that" you rush out, placing yourself on the other side of the doorframe, "i'm definitely not a fan of that"

Sam, Colby, Nate and Amanda continued to speak to the spirit box within the room while you stayed in the hallway. Nate moved from the group and closer to you to make sure you were ok.

"Can you tell us how many spirits are in here with us right now?"

three 

from the doorway, you couldve sworn you saw a flash of green reflect in one of the glass window panes. Green, like the head wrap Chloe was said to wear. 

"do you think.." you trailed off moving closer to your boyfriend, "could Chloe be one of them?" you whispered. 

he stepped out of the room upon seeing your expression. You seemed paler than usually and he could almost see you shaking with wide glassy eyes staring back at him. He wrapped his arms around you, rubbing your back to give you some semblance of comfort. 

Nate, his chin resting in your head, repeated your words louder to for the group still inside the room to hear, "Was that Chloe?"

Me

Look 

you whimpered, pressing your face into his chest, "nope. tell Amanda to look at the window-"

"-that candle just got so bright at the far end-"

"-yeah that one." you mumbled, "the window by the candles. I saw something green over there."

the brown hared man nodded, raising his voice to cut off the trio 's conversation on the candle's, "Amanda? N/N said to check around that window. She said she saw something green flash overthere earlier." 

"Yo! What?" sam exclaimed excitedly, moving to you both with the camera while Amanda looked by the window pane, "What happened? what did you-"

 he was cut off by Nate shaking his head quickly above you, "not right now" he whispered to the blonde, "later." 

Sam nodded understandly, moving to film Amanda by the window, "You see anything?"

"no, not anymore." she stated, "its all clear, whatever it was must've moved by now."

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A few rooms and a short reenactment later, it was time for solo investigations. Well, at least it was solo for Sam and Colby, you, Nate, and Amanda were able to go out on the porch together.

The three of you were given the spot where Chloe's picture was taken, and had decided to take turns doing the Estes Method. Amanda was first up in the rocking chair. 

"I've got some information"

"woah" Nate turned to the camera to you, who was laughing softly from shock.

"We didnt even ask anything yet," you looked into the camera lens, "and were already getting answers? this is crazy"  

Nate hummed, "Yeah this is insane- what type of information do you have?"

"lets go"

"Go where?" you questioned, "where do you want to go?"

after a few minutes you received no response. you shrugged, looking over to Nate, "I don't know, you ask a question" you laughed, "it doesn't like me I guess"

He shrugged at your statement, readying his next question "Chloe, did you put yourself at risk to get the information?"

"ready"

you squinted at one another, "are you ready to put yourself at risk?"

"for the information?" Nate added on. 

"yes" 

you shook your head with a smile, " I guess she's ready ti talk"

"yes"

"Chloe was it you that they photographed in this alleyway?"

"Accident"

"You didnt intend to be in the photo?" 

You turned around, looking off the balcony as Amanda shivered, brushing her arms, "something just touched me" 

Nate turned his head, looking your direction as you gazed out onto the dark field, "Babe?" he whispered, "You alright?" 

"yeah" you muttered, scanning the yard, "yeah, I just got that feeling that something was watching me." you shook your head and rolled your shoulders, "it was probably nothing."

Nate nodded slowly, continuing his questioning of Amanda rather than you, glancing at your from the corner of his eye to make sure you were alright. "Chloe, does guilt keep you here?"

"I knew it was wrong"

You and Nate brought Amanda out of the trance to add a trigger object, things for more intense from there. The answers seemed more and more on the nose, and the small inkling you had of being watched quickly increased tenfold.

You soon felt like you spent less time engaged in the investigation, and more time peering over your shoulder.

"it was the family name"

"Woodruff? Did you hear Woodruff?" Nate rushed, "are you trying to tell us about the Woodruff family?"

"It went silent" Amanda exclaimed, "like full complete silence for a full 'Mississippi' and then it started again"

"it was in the house"

"Are you tired" 

"I hope you don't mind" Nate mentioned, gesturing too the plant, "We have oleander in Amanda's hand-"

"I know"

"-was the death an accident or was it an act of revenge?"

"Nate" you whisper, looking out into the yard, "I...I don't think this is a good idea anymore."

his eyebrows furrowed, peering at you while keeping the camera on Amanda, "Why? What's up"

 you sighed, "I just- I think we should stop. something doesn't feel right." you tore your gaze from the dark, looking up to him, "something's wrong-"

"its time to wrap up-"

The blonde spoke removing the blindfold and headphones, "I swear, it said, 'its time to wrap up'"

"See!" you gasped hitting the man's arm, "told you!"

Amanda looked between the two of you, both of your eyes were wide and your posture screamed that you were both worried, "what's going on?" 

Nate set the camera down on the bannister, still filming, as he went to get all the equipment together, "N/N was just talking about how something feels wrong and we should quit." he looked up at the blonde, "she's been feeling weird this whole time"

The two continue talking while you walk further up the porch. The feeling of being watched became stronger and stronger as you surveyed the yard, eventually catching a glimpse of something off to the side. You leaned over the wood and squinted, trying your best to get a better look. 

Soon, you saw it. 

"Guys" you muttered, trying again louder when they didn't respond "Guys!" 

Nate looked up seeing how far down the porch you'd wandered, "N/N? what's going on?" 

you looked at them eyes wide, "There's someone out here." you panicked, "please, please tell me you're almost done because there's someone in the yard and they're getting closer."

Nate straighted his back, looking into the grass too. he didnt see anything at the moment, but you were so far down and it was dar enough that it could simply be that he was too far. He waved his arm gesturing you over to them, "N/N I need you to come down here right now" 

For all he knew, that was some psyco trying to add a new spirit to the home. That spirit, would not be you if he had anything to say about it. 

"oh my god" you yelled, running up beside the two, "its getting closer."

The brown haired man moved to shield the two of you, shoving the equipment you three brought out to you an Amanda, only keeping a flashlight, "Go inside."

"but-"

"Y/N go inside."

"Wait" Amanda spoke up, peeking around the man's shoulder, "to the left?"

you were shaking at this point, "yeah, It followed me down from that side"

The blonde moved forward, pulling the flashlight from Nate's grip, illuminating the patch to see nothing there, "There?" 

you tilted your head in confusion, "well... yeah? it was-"

Amanda turned off the flashlight and the both of you were greeted with the dark figure once more, this time it was only about 10 feet from the railing. 

"oh my god" you breathed, heart hammering in your chest.

The urgency in your boyfriend began to dissipate, believing that while a spirit following his girlfriend wasnt the best- it was better than her being followed by an actual crazy person.

However the seriousness of the blonde nearly doubled once she caught sight of the glowing red eyes. "You are not allowed to be here." she spoke stern, making you stiffen even further, "you do not have permission to follow us or come any closer."

"Amanda, what is happening?" you spoke, eyes trained on the humanoid figure before you. 

"move back to the door" the blonde spoke softly to you and nate, before strengthening her voice once more, "You do not have the right to follow us into the home, you must stay out here." 

Once the door closed, the blonde watched the figure through the window until it dissolved into the air. 

"you see that stuff all the time?" you stuttered, clinging to Nates arms that wrapped around your waist, "like thats what a ghost is? I've never actually seen something like that before" 

"no." the blonde spoke turning to face you, "that... Y/N, that wasnt a spirit. that was a demon."

[whytheylosttheirminds]

the hardest part for me is definitely just figuring out the plot and how to start it

Soooo relatable!

A few things I would say that might help:

- you definitely don’t have to start at the beginning. I honestly don’t know the last time I started a chapter or blurb with the first paragraph. I would start with the actual moment of the prompt since that seems to be what you can picture more clearly, and try to just build a paragraph around that. Don’t worry how they got where they are, you’ll figure it out later! Tbh in fanfiction, I think the beginning part of the fic is honestly the least important (maybe I’m the only one who feels this way but 🤷‍♀️). I think the individual moments are more important, so maybe try to write a handful of moments, it can honestly be a sentence or paragraph or even just a phrase, and really spend time working on those until you like them.

- once you have a solid collection of moments you can start to think about how to string them together, and then ask “okay, how did we get here?” although depending on what type of fic you’re writing, you may not even need a whole exposition sequence. Some of the best fics I’ve ever read, we’re already in the action in the first sentence.

- don’t be afraid of a shitty first draft! Sometimes it’s just about putting words on the paper, even if you don’t like them, just to get them out of the way and you can change them later!

- lastly, I’d make outlining your friend. Outlines are how I solve basically all of my plot problems. If I just start writing in full sentences, the plot will get away from me so fast! I usually outline in bullet points but you can do it however works for you. It’s essentially me talking to future me, telling her how things should go in as few words as possible.

Here’s a snippet of my outline from my last blurb:

• at some point he’ll set the coffee down but not leave

• you say something cheeky (“you can leave the coffee over there” or “Have a nice day, baby” ?)

• he says something like “you like messing with me, huh?” (Not this, will figure out later)

• phone call or text? cancels meetings and tells you while kissing your shoulder

• you pout that it’s still not enough time, he scolds you (lovingly “don’t be greedy” but it’s sweet)

^ this is not good writing lol, but it helped me figure out what I want them to do and write lines I knew I wasn’t going to use but would just be place holders until I found a better one. I always feel ten times better once I get the outline out of the way, it’s basically writing the plot without any pressure that the writing is good, I don’t even use proper grammar lol!

Anyway I’m rambling but I hope this helps some? Lmk if there’s more I can talk about to help you!

What’s most important is that you’re trying something new outside your comfort zone and I’m proud of you!!!

[littlespoonevan]

15, 17, 18 (for the fic writer asks)

thank you, friend!!!!

15. favorite weather for writing

oooh this is interesting! idk if i've ever thought about it before but i suppose when it's overcast/raining??? bc then i feel like i can write to my heart's content without feeling like i have to leave the house lol

16. talk about your writing and editing process

okay so usually i tend to edit in 5k stints (unless it's a short fic, in which case i'll just write the whole thing first) so every 5k or so i'll stop and reread/edit what i have so far. i pretty much always reread 3 times: once to see the general vibe of what i have/catch obvious mistakes, once to make proper changes, and then once to double check spelling/grammar errors etc after making said changes. and then i'll reread the whole thing in full once (but maybe twice) before posting.

i also always write in chronological order but i don't like making outlines/plans so i'm very much a 'follow the vibe' writer in that sense askdjfh

17. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

okay so i don't think i actually have any deleted scenes from a published fic??? it's rare i'd change/remove a scene entirely so i don't tend to keep them but i did start writing a fic after 7x01 that basically immediately became irrelevant with the bi buck arc and i apparently still have that on my laptop, so here have that instead lmao:

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Breaking up with Natalia feels…anticlimactic.

When he’d wanted to break up with Taylor he’d drawn it out for weeks. Months, if he’s being honest. Because he was afraid to be alone. Because a silent, selfish part of him was hoping she’d do the hard part for him. Because she was supposed to be it.

Even though it was glaringly obvious that she wasn’t.

When they ended he told himself he wasn’t going to rush again. He didn’t want to make the same mistakes. Didn’t want to pick the wrong couch again.

But then Natalia had looked at him with so much fascination. She took on all his shit, all his trauma, and she didn’t flinch. If anything, it seemed to make her like him more.

The problem is that it seemed to be the only thing she liked.

And it’s probably not a fair assessment of her because she really is nice and beautiful and smart but the more time they spend together, the more he feels like she doesn’t really like him. She likes the version of him she’s put together in her head. The version he’d let her create in all those early conversations.

I feel like she sees me.

He told Eddie that after his first date with her.

It’s embarrassing to think about that now, with the slightly awkward but still civil breakup conversation replaying in his head.

He thinks it’s that, that might be throwing him for a loop so much – that she hadn’t seemed to mind when he explained he didn’t think things were working out. She was a little disappointed but she didn’t try to fight him on it; he supposes she’s used to dealing with endings in her line of work.

And now he’s wondering how he could’ve let himself get sucked in again, how he could’ve convinced himself all over again that he’d found the one by falling too hard, too fast.

Eddie says, “What’s the point in dating if you don’t think that you might end up together in the long run?” when Buck brings it up over dinner at his place after the Chris dating intervention.

Buck throws his balled up napkin at him and says, “Sorry, I forgot I was asking the nester.”

Eddie rolls his eyes but doesn’t bite back, reaching for another slice of pizza. “I’m just saying. Isn’t the whole idea that you date someone in the hopes that they’ll be the person you spend the rest of your life with?”

“Is that what you think about Marisol?”

Eddie immediately makes a face and Buck feels privately vindicated.

He shouldn’t; it’s not fair. Marisol is nice and Buck has no reason to dislike her but the ghost of Ana Flores still lingers in the back of his mind.

“It’s a little early for me to know that,” Eddie says.

Buck scoffs. “But you just said-“

“I’m not saying I don’t see a future with her,” Eddie cuts in. “Just that I don’t know what that future is yet.”

The words make something sour twist in Buck’s chest and he takes a swig of his beer to dispel it. He’s happy for Eddie, happy that he’s putting himself back out there because he deserves to fall in love again. There’s just…a part of him that doesn’t like it when Eddie’s in a relationship.

Which is incredibly fucking stupid and possessive and something Buck would go to his grave with before he’d ever admit it out loud.

He just feels like they drift apart when they’re not single – not even because they don’t see each other all the time. It’s more like they don’t know how to interact with each other. He doesn’t know why or, well, it’s not exactly a thread he likes to pull on all that often.

It hasn’t happened much yet with Marisol but she and Eddie seem to be taking things slow.

Buck counts it as a small miracle and redirects the conversation to the point he’d first been trying to make.

“I just don’t know how I got it so wrong again,” he says. “With Natalia, I mean.”

Eddie’s expression immediately softens and he leans forward, propping his forearm on the dining table and pulling himself closer to Buck.

“You didn’t do anything wrong,” Eddie tells him, as gentle as every other reprieve he’s ever offered Buck.

Yeah, I know you did.

I knew you wouldn’t.

You’re the guy who likes to fix things.

You don’t have to be anything for anybody.

You didn’t end up like you.

“You thought she saw a side to you no one else did,” he says now. “And you wanted to believe in that.”

Buck groans, burying his face in his hands. “Don’t remind me,” he mutters. Dropping his hands, he slumps back in his chair. “I don’t know why I thought her being excited by my near death experience meant something different. Of course it was interesting to her; she wasn’t there when it happened.”

She wasn’t the one sitting vigil at his hospital bedside. She wasn’t the one begging for him to wake up.

He thinks at the time it felt good because she was the only one not treating him with kid gloves. He can recognise now his family probably had a pretty good reason for treating him that way.

Eddie doesn’t respond right away but Buck can tell he’s thinking of an answer, choosing his words carefully

[ang4lclips]

Looking for Stray Kids rp!!

Before we get started, please take note of these things;

skzxskz only. No ocxoc or skzxoc

he/him. I am 17, 18 in September. Therefore, I am only looking for those who are 17 themselves or slightly older if comfortable with that.

I type in paragraphs! Usually around 3 and around 5-6 sentences a paragraph. Sometimes I do 4-5 paragraphs if I really lock in.

I have no triggers or anything, I’m okay with nsfw. Js note Im a sub

Not having proper grammar is a huge ick of mine. Messing up here or there is fine, I do it myself, but if it is a constant problem I wont rp💔

i only roleplay on discord bc it’s the easiest to do so on. i also rp as felix! if that wasn’t obvious by my layout. please send a friend request if you are interested! @/m.egaverse. If you have any plots pls lmk! i would love to hear them

plot 1: college au! bsfs!

Felix and Muse B have been friends since about their sophomore year of high school. (or while Felix was a sophomore, depending on who you rp as) They had a large friend group but tended to stick by each other the most and will occasionally get teased for spending so much time together. The two has gotten a bit touchy the last couple years, side hugs turned into full on hugs, to cuddling on the couch if they were watching something, to gentle kisses on the face, head, or just the corner of their lips if they got bold enough. But that rarely happened. As the years passed and their friendship developed, so did Felix’s feelings. He was unsure of how the other felt and he was too afraid to confess his feelings, so he kept his mouth shut.

Muse B always had a fluttery feeling around Felix but he couldn't make out what it was. But as the years went on, he realized he liked his best friend. The thought of Felix possibly not feeling the same and their friendship ruined because he had to be that person to gain a crush on their best friend, kept him from ever saying anything. Both boys went to their best friends for advice on what to do with their ever growing feelings and they’re both told the same. “just tell him how you feel.” but the churning fear in their stomachs keep them from doing so. Will the two continue to tiptoe on eggshells around each other or finally confess their feelings? ⚠︎: mostly fluff. includes smoking and drinking which can easily be taken out

Plot 2: highschool au! homophobe-not-really x quiet gay kid

Felix was a quiet kid inside of Suwon’s very own Christian highschool. He never once spoke back to a teacher, never tried to stick his neck out from the crowd, always kept a bubble around him and never let anyone poke it. He didn't have any friends in school, and the only two he trusted with his life lived hours away from him. He got straight A’s in every class and that's all he wanted in life; be a straight-A student and graduate this hell called school without any kind of trouble. Unfortunately, despite his wishes, life tended to always have plans of the exact opposite.

Now, on the other hand, Muse B did almost everything BUT school. Smoking, partying, drinking, certain illegal substances that could have him locked away for years if he were to ever be caught with them, sneaking off between and during class periods. The fact that he hasn't been expelled yet is somewhat of a miracle and his parents couldn't care less about what he does, or what happens to him. Besides his friends, probably one other person is glad he hasn't been expelled. Lee Felix is absolutely infatuated with him. Only problem? Muse B was extremely popular and homophobic like everyone in this school(or was he?). Felix wasn't. Felix was far from it. ⚠︎: angst angst angst! bullying!!! drugs! underage smoking, drinking. maybe some fluff

I do wish to have a plot as trans felix, only problem is I'm not sure if anyone would be comfortable with that. roleplaying someone as trans would just heal the trans guy in me lol

I also have fantasy plots (abo, hybrids, fairies, shit like that) collecting dust in my notes in case anyone is interested

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[nogoodanswers]

piggybacking off of what i wrote yesterday about how i tend to write "two people talking" scenes

i've found that how i actually write outlines can vary

as in, sometimes i write an outline

sometimes i write "outlines" aka lots of dialogue

and sometimes i just write a first draft bit by bit without having an outline to follow first lol

for my actual outlines, it's usually a lot of sentences describing things i want to happen in the scene/chapter

basically a checklist, though i rarely actually use it as a proper checklist lol

but far more often, i write "outlines" (which im going to call dialogue outlines for clarity bc that's definitely going to help)

usually starting with some short lines describing like the general what's going on at this point in time before the conversation starts

and then i just start spewing out dialogue like there's no tomorrow

often i'll have a bunch of sentences of dialogue split up into multiple lines to help me figure out how best to pace the dialogue

and i often make mental notes about what the the space in between each bit of dialogue will likely turn into, typically some sort of description of what the character's doing as they're talking or a bit of internal monologue

sometimes i do just write out those in between the dialogue, but not all the time

for an example i'll pull up my dialogue outline for the dream section of chapter 1:

“Mom?”

“Yes, dear?"

“What am I?”

“You’re my daughter, silly”

“My precious little Ruby”

“And one day, when you’re older, you’re going to be a huntress, protecting remnant from all the nasty grimm that are out there”

“...but what if I'm not?”

“What do you mean?”

“How are you so sure that I'm your daughter, that I'm even a person?”

“What if deep down, I’m just a grimm?”

“...”

“Well”

“I’m a mother, but I’m also a huntress”

“And you know what huntresses do to grimm”

the first thing i want to mention is actually the use of bullet points, which i use bc otherwise it's too hard for me to tell at a glance when something is a new line or a continuation

second, if you compare the dialogue here to chapter 1, it's actually pretty similar, with only a few changes total

that's not nearly that common tbh, and i suspect that it's more similar in this case bc it's such a short scene (at least in comparison to other scenes i've written)

third thing is that basically every gap between dialogue in the dialogue outline ends up having at least a sentence of non-dialogue in the actual chapter

and there are even instances where i split up a line of dialogue even more to add more detail

when i'm writing the dialogue outline, i usually have some semblance (ha) of an idea as to how characters will deliver certain lines, and how they might look or act as they do so

but actually writing those descriptions is effort

and i can (for the most part) tell what i was going for with a line, so when i reread the dialogue outline i don't have to question what my intentions were, since i wrote it such that simply by rereading it i'll be able to tell without thinking too hard

that being said, now that i have the actual chapter to compare with the dialogue outline, i'm not as sure about what my original intentions may have been, since if it was different then that means i changed it while writing to something i like more

and if it was the same, then, well, it's the same

it might be more accurate to call this way of outlining a first draft, but when i have actual first drafts, there's usually more detail, and like, proper grammar and punctuation and sentences

my dialogue outlines don't care about any of that lol (though sometimes I might use full sentences, but that's usually in order to create a particular kind of emphasis)

so for me at least, there is something of a meaningful distinction between the two

anyways, none of this has touched upon the dreaded second+ drafts that sometimes occur when i only have a vague idea of how the chapter/scene should go

When that happens, i usually pull up the first draft on one side of my screen and my doc on the other and just retype it until i reach points where im like "okay no this bit sucks im gonna rewrite it instead of copying it"

and typically that leads to the conversation shifting away enough from the previous draft that having it up isn't useful anymore, and i close it to focus on the new thing i have

doing this more than once for a chapter is a pain and a half bc of all the retyping that I can't mindlessly do, but if it gets me there, then it gets me there

Okay that was a lot of words, and I'm sure I do things while writing that aren't 1:1 accurate to this, but that's sort of an overview of some common things I do while writing

[redgearsmovin]

the curiosity is eating me so instead of going the rational way of potentially asking native/fluent speakers i'm finding this out myself haha

if you're reading this full disclaimer I don't know Hawaiian I'm just referencing dictionaries, wiki and websites I could find that teach about it. They're mostly basic stuff so I don't know the grammar / sentence structures etc., I'm just finding the words that could match the lyrics and putting them on translator to see if it could make a coherent line (unreliable, but I'm working with what I have haha)

The lyrics are kinda unhelpful lol, the words don't seem (?) like Hawaiian words. Upon a search, Hawaiian language (ʻŌlelo Hawaiʻi) has consonants H, K, L, M, N, P, W plus ʻokina ( ʻ ), so some words already don't fit. I don't know if those are official lyrics or not but that's just my observation.

The 1st line I could make of is "E kuʻu home". E is used like to emphasize something, like how "O" is used in English. so it translates to "O my home".

2nd line i can't make much but I thought the last word is "moana" meaning ocean. idk vocabulary so I can't really tell if there's an ʻokina or kahakō (the line on vowels), but i hear it as "I ka moana" = "At the ocean / sea"

3rd line, "Ke mele o Hawaiʻi" = "The song of Hawaiʻi". Just based on what I hear and can make of.

4th line, I'm not sure? I hear as "I hea mai iaʻu ne", which I'm not sure is a proper sentence, but on dictionary "hea" is "to call" and "mai iaʻu" seems to be indicating the speaker. I don't understand the grammar but it maybe conveys the same meaning as the "calling out to me" part ?

Based on that, I guess it's almost similar as the english part. Likely inaccurate but it at least satisfies some of my curiosity haha, I just felt compelled to explain my thought process. Still very much appreciate if anyone who speaks Hawaiian can correct me on this!

Anyway here's the lyrics for comparison:

I'm on my way home To the middle of the sea There's an island lullaby That is calling out to me - E kuʻu home I ka moana Ke mele o Hawaiʻi I hea mai iaʻu ne

EDIT: So I found there are lyrics printed with the CD thanks to this one youtube comment from 13 years ago lol idk why i decided to go thru all that instead.

anyway ignore my yapping i'm saving this for me lol

the lyrics on spotify (and a lot of places) got it so wrong it's mildly frustrating me haha, because other than the hawaiian being wrong there's little details like 'noni trees' (i know the fruit as 'nona') that is just neat to know. I thought it said "lonely trees" before that lmao ?

hmmm does anyone know the translation to the Hawaiian part Nina sings in the song "On My Way Home"? I was just wondering while listening to it, and got nothing when I searched for the lyrics and tried using a translator.

[yan-nyanyan]

Genshin boys: stupid texting habits

starring: diluc, kazuha, scaramouche, venti, childe, zhongli, xiao, chongyun, itto, kaeya

~~~

diluc

okay but like, we already know. proper punctuation, perfect spelling, absolutely no errors and literally puts paragraphs in his texts if sending a particularly long message.

writes his messages like it’s a fucking letter;

“Dear <name>,”

LITERALLY ANNOYING BC HE FIXES YOUR SPELLING AND GRAMMAR TOO.

you’ll send a message n he’ll be like “**you’re** not your.”

USES GIFS LMAOOOOoooo

kazuha

100% incoherent typer

what i mean by this is, he’ll probably type random shit and even auto correct cant fix it so it just looks like a random jumble of letters

… he expects you to understand what he wrote

he also probably sexts a lot if you’re dating but like, in a really cheesy way that just doesn’t make anything wet

…. probably RP writes **snuggles into you**

scaramouche

constantly sends old, irrelevant memes.

…gets upset if you call him out on it

expects your messages to be somewhat grammar coherent and you can’t use lingo or acronyms bc man literally has no idea what any of that means

if you’re on discord, he won’t edit his text if he spells something wrong or wants to clarify something

(adding on).. instead he’ll just continuously write under it with asterisks to either spell the word correctly or reword what he wanted to say 😒

venti

not really “stupid” but he NEVER uses emojis.

uses “:D” or “>:(“ or the japanese keyboard emotes and it gets SO frustrating sometimes bc he uses it TOO much.

the only emoji he uses is “🥺”

unironically uses uwu and owo

literally spams “!!!!” like he’ll die if he doesn’t use an exclamation mark every other word

never uses full stops and uses “,,,,” instead of starting a new sentence

childe

unironically uses “🥺” and “🙊” “🙈” “😼” (+ other cat emoji face) bc he thinks they make him look cute

spams you with memes that you regretfully laugh at

(If on discord) LITERALLY DOESNR GIVE A SHIT AND PINGS YOU WHENEVER HE WANTS

(+ bonus!) he’s actually fun to talk to sometimes tho bc he’s always on top of the current lingo and memes (🎳), also always knows how to keep a text convo going so ur never in the awkward silent texting position

zhongli

nah so like.. this man DOESNT text.

why?? bc he found out about the voice message feature 🙃

literally sends you rows of voice messages at max time instead of texting u and it gets so annoying

sends the most cringiest old man gifs as a reaction reply to your messages. whether it’s a kitten being cute, a clip of a talk show host nodding or whatever, it’s literally so off putting and it always makes u put ur phone down and think about life.

xiao

dry. texter

says “lol” as a reply and expects you to somehow continue the conversation after rhat

don’t be upset!! our boy literally just doesn’t know how to communicate

UNIRONICALLY USES “K.”

the only emoji he uses is the thumbs up emoji and it’s just his first response to any text message

chongyun

he is a “love hearter.”

what i mean by that, is that 90% of the time he’s going to end the convo abruptly by hearting a message of yours and moving on

is kind of bad at texting.. like it’s always kind of awkward

… adding onto that, he’s like too sweet, if that makes sense. like, you can never have proper funny messages bc the vibes are not it and u feel like u gotta be more proper and nice.

itto

types in all caps too much.

it’s fun at first but it licherally gets to a point where it hurts your eyes

cant keep on one topic and keeps messaging about randomly related things which gets SO annoying, esp if you’re venting or he is.

“NAHH NO WAY SHE DID THAT.”

“WAIT SHES THE ONE WHO FELL DOWN RHAT ONE TIME YE??”

“OH WHAT ABOUT HER FRIEND WHO (xyz…)”

“YE HER FRIEND IS THE ONE WHO’S FRIEND HAS A CHOCLAHE LABROADOOR”

kaeya

out of all the boys, he’s the most fun to talk to

uses memes sparingly and emojis

the only fault of his when messaging is he’s wildly inappropriate at the exact incorrect time

also somehow finds the weirdest non-human porn gifs 🎳

AND CHEESY ASF

mans has no idea how to reply to a vent sesh over text,,, you’ll be pouring your life out when u finally feel vulnerable n he’ll just be like

“cool it 😏”

[babygirl-k28]

Looking for new Larry Stylison Roleplays on Telegram!! 💗

Hello! I have a lot of spare time, and I have been really wanting to write more lately. So I would love to have some new Roleplays! Omegle is dry af, so I thought I'd try here. Lol.

A little about me ~

• I live in Colorado so I'm in Mountain Time Zone, and I'm mostly active from like 11am and then (usually) most of the day through around 1 am. So I'm definitely very active, and I'll let you know if I'm going to be busy.

• I'm 23!

•I almost strictly roleplay on my laptop, so I reply pretty fast!

• I have been roleplaying since 2011, so I have over 130 prompts! Which means I have a huge list and lots of options, so there's a good chance I have a prompt you would love!

"Requirements" ~

• Please be able to write in third person, I've tried first before and I just don't like it.

• Be able to write quite long, detailed replies. If every reply is under 5 sentences, I'm going to get bored pretty easily. I like to write really long replies, at least a full paragraph.

• Please be able to at least try to use proper grammar most of the time.

• I'd prefer if you're pretty active, but I do understand people get busy. I'd just prefer not to be left on read for days on end.

• Please don't ghost me. It makes me sad :(

Likes and Dislikes ~

• I LOVE Mpreg and Genderswap roleplays. I think they're really cute and fun.

• I love plots to do with mental health

• I love AUs!

• I'm honestly really open to almost all kinds of prompts.. there is little I won't do.

• As far as kinks and fetishes go, I'm down for anything except diaper play tbh.

• I prefer to play the submissive/bottom/female!. I'll do mxm, gxg, or bxg. I've been REALLY into girl!Louis lately.

Please feel free to message me if interested!

Telegram - Twoboysonelove

I can't wait to hear from you! x

[sholangagaga]

How would your AU glamrocks react to their original selves or their animatronic selves? Also if they had phones what would their texting styles be like? I think one of them would constantly be on caps-lock

Oooh, an interesting ask! Great idea anon!

Everything will be under the cut!

Freddy

Reaction to Past self (in AU): He thinks of the older Fredbear/Freddy Fazbear as sort of a father/grandfather model? He respects them for the groundwork they laid out!

Reaction to Animatronic: He'd be amazed at how technologically advanced they are! "How in the world do they fit so much in these strange creatures??" "A built in lighter! A safety hazard, but interesting!!"

Texting style: all caps, misuses emojis and texting acronyms

"GREGORY, IT APPEARS THAT MONTY HAS BROKEN HIS LEGS. LOL"

Bonnie

-He's sort of indifferent to them. Like a child who has long since left the nest and doesn't talk to their parents anymore

-He would be OFFENDED at how ugly most of them are. The Toy Bonnie is on thin ice

- Texts in full sentences, proper grammar and spelling. Rarely uses emojis but will throw in a lol or an lmao every so often

Chica

-She loves them a lot! Chica is probably the only one who feels close to her past selves because she's the one who probably changed the LEAST over the years.

-She thinks they're all super cute!!

-Total teenage girl, types in LEET and so much text speech that sometimes its indecipherable. probably says LOL and TTYL in real life

Foxy

-He's indifferent to them, like Bonnie is

-"What the actual fuck yall put these with kids??" type beat

-Types like a person from the UK, says colour and favourite and ends every text with x no matter who he's texting

Roxanne

-Technically Foxy is her past self, and shes got a love/hate relationship with him

-She'd be in love, her narcissism would pop off

-Same as Chica, just a bit easier to understand

Monty

-N/A since he doesnt have a past self

-"Oh, okay, so I see why the kids would be scared. That's fair"

-He types very minimalistic, less than 6 words a text and no grammar or punctuation. lots of surfer slang, oddly enough

Sundrop/Moondrop

-N/A

-Sun would think they're neat! But would be horrified that they're the same person. Moon would like that because "at least this one gets a break from you"

-Sun types normally, but uses ALOT of emojis and exclamation marks. Moon also types normally, but in all lower case and lots of ellipses

DJ Music Man

-I guess you could say the Music Men from before are his past selves? He doesn't know of them at all, but likes to joke about them being called "Mr." because they're his Father

-"Rock ON funky bro, holy shit!"

-Types like Monty, but with more rocker slang

[rudnitskaia]

Uwu, @shortformdrip-blog, thanks for tagging me! and having such faith in me lol xD I watched Murder Drones, yes. :3

In literature the most common approach is to provide the original speech and give the translation in the footnote. But since we're talking about fanfiction purposes, where footnotes are not commonly used, I guess you can simply write in English and accentuate that Doll (or any other fictional character) speaks in Russian with "she/he/they said in Russian". Like:

"We did it..." Doll muttered under her breath in Russian.

The minuses of this approach: you must repeat that the character speaks in the different language, which can be annoying for the reader, and it's hard to insert a single foreign word into the character's speech. For example, you can't do smth like this: "You can make us блинчики [Russian: pancakes] for breakfast."

If we speak about single words insertions, I recommend to use the approach similar to the one I shown in the example above. For full sentences, I find the approach @shortformdrip-blog suggested quite elegant for fanfiction: use square brackets or any other marks, combined with italics. Simple to understand.

The other one I can suggest is to write a phrase/sentence in the speaker's native language and then give the translation to the reader's language in italics right after the quotation marks. For example:

"У нас получилось..." We did it... Doll muttered under her breath.

Or in square brackets right in the sentence. For example:

"У нас получилось... [We did it...]" Doll muttered under her breath.

If you want to provide a word/phrase/sentence in Russian, Yandex Translate is really a much more useful instrument than Google Translate when it comes to translating things from almost any language into Russian. So mostly it's enough just to write the text in English, put it into this online-translator and it will give you a proper translation into Russian. Ofc, it won't be flawless; it's not a literary translation, but it is quite accurate if we speak about meanings and grammatical aspects. If you don't know how Russian grammar works at all, just take it and in 95% of cases it will be totally fine.

A tip though: avoid abbreviations and slang. You can add it back into your translated-into-English version of the sentence, but when you put a sentence in English to translate it into Russian, write as literary as you can. It will understand common things like "smth" and "lol" probably, but I don't know ANY online-translator that will properly translate "afair" for example. So just avoid it for your own sake, or the result will be unpredictable. xD

If you have at least a brief understanding of how Russian grammar works, Yandex Translate has a cool base of translations' examples from various media (books, movies etc.), so if you need a specific term/phrase, you can see how it was already translated by professionals. It's VERY useful. Yandex Translate maybe not the best translator, but this base is the most vast and correct I've seen and is simply priceless.

Hope it will be useful. ✨💖✨

one of the things about the murder drones fandom is that there is just no consensus on how to write cyn. bold text? code tags? Capitalizing Every Letter? does the narration spell out her every emotion? every sentence, or once per dialogue block? is it wrapped in asterisks like a chat roleplay, or colons like a markdown emoji?

you can just open cyn's dialogue and put whatever your heart desires, no one can stop you

[lonewolfel]

Thoughts on the latest episode.

It was interesting. I ultimately didn't have too many thoughts about it cause I'm not a big shipper so I don't have a lot of thoughts on the lumity stuff, but here.

My Stars Hunter on the internet. I thought that he would be closer to me texting (I write in full sentences and proper grammar most of the time). Apparently not, but I guess that makes sense since this is his first time using technology. Also Hunter is a fan of Ruler's Reach like...what? Does he know King wrote it? When did he read it? I mean I'm not surprise that he likes the book, but wow. His profile pic...need I say more. Also cute Flapjack pic and I need to know who he was trying to send it to. I have a mental image that everyone in the Emerald Entrails group chat has to send one pic of their palisman a day.

Also, Willow why? Why did you give Luz his account. Also spam texter Luz is the most true thing.

I actually related a lot with Amity and Alador's relationship (my parents never treated me the way Amity's does, but the dynamic). Like my dad is always working and we don't have a close relationship this is mostly cause we are two different people and he is Catholic. It's more tragic in Amity's case cause they are so similar. I'm glad that Alador seems to be attempting steps to fix their relationship. Though Amity is defiantly justified in her dismissal of Alador's hug and saying that it's a start. I hope the relationship can be repaired, but it's understandable if Amity doesn't want that.

Also, Luz's dad is dead. I mean I guessed since he is never mentioned before, but I didn't expect how they did it. I love how Luz kind of jumps around and tries to distract herself from the day. I never lost anyone I was close to, but it was so obvious once she said her dad is dead that she wasn't as over it as she thought she was.

Edric, man, I will admit I wasn't that big of a fan of the twins as other people. Like they were good character they just never caught my interest the way other characters have. This was the first time I've related to him. His insecurity and his need for approval. Also I love the fact that the twins wore gems to conceal "their flaws". It is so telling that Emira just hands over her gem willing where Edric struggles. Also Eda handing him a tee-shirt. How many kids does she have now...5? Emira at the end wanting a tee shirt lol.

Also, Eda "drugging" her ex to get info on her other ex is just amazing. Harpy Eda for the win every time.

Also, bringing the isles closer to the Titan. What does that mean. I already knew it was going to be bad for all types of magic, but I didn't expect Belos's underlings to acknowledge it. I am both scared and so fascinated. What is going to happen?

Wow I had more thoughts on it than I thought. Thanks for reading my rant.

[mercurytrinemoon]

Me debunking astrology generalizations and misconceptions or smth idk...

Squares and oppositions aren't pure evil. 

I can't believe I have to say this because I thought ya'll have learnt the characteristics of every aspect but here we are. Nothing in astrology is black and white. And I saw some ridiculous statements (not necessary here on tumblr) that said things like "if your Venus squares someone's ascendant then you don't find that person attractive AT ALL". Or "Mars square Mercury people can't speak politely and have an annoying voice". Like????? First of all, that's ridiculous. Second of all, square in not "everything bad" just like trine is not "everything amazing". Squares bring tension, which leads to motivation, they’re stimulating; sometimes excitement or charisma; sometimes they can make you overdo things. I'm not saying they're oh-so-marvelous because the challenges are still there, but they're not as bad as people paint them to be. Squares happen between two signs that are in the same modality so they have a bunch of things in common. Besides, some of them (Sagi-Pisces and Gemini-Virgo) are ruled by the same planet so there's a special type of chemistry between those (especially when applied to synastry). Oppositions work in two ways, planets either meet in the middle - opposite signs usually complete each other and fuel each other up. And worse case scenario? Natally this means being pulled in two different directions; synastry-wise, you can completely miss each other like two passing cars - so there may be some misunderstandings but I don't think that's the end of the world... And, as per usual, may be mitigated by other positive aspects.

This is me debunking other people's attempts at debunking Sun sign compatibility. 

Sun IS very important but when people ask about compatibility and go with Suns... and then someone tries to be a smartass and debunk the "compatible-incompatible" and does the same thing without even realizing it. Like, "oh I actually see a lot of Aries and Pisces having amazing relationships because *insert someting that is a total stretch and refers to their Sun sign traits*"... But you seem to forget that they're neighbouring signs... which means they probably have personal planets in those neighbouring signs... which means they're compatible not because of some made-up stuff that you're trying to come up with but because their other planets are compatible with each other. But you're still feeding into the Sun sign compatibility talk. (So like, what I'm trying to also say, yes, the entire synastry chart comes into play; Also, side note, everyone can get along on some level if they’re mature enough).

Planet in a sign is NOT the same as planet in the house. 

There may be some overlaps in some of the sign-houses associations (like in the overall energy; like for example, it sort of makes sense that 3rd, 7th and 11th are referred to as “air houses” because they’re the most social) but in NO WAY there are similarities between planet house position and the "ruling" sign. That association started a few decades ago and some would say that NOT linking houses with signs is a purely traditional approach. But there’s plenty of professional modern astrologers with 20/30/40-year experience who still differentiate between sign/house position... because they know (and have learnt along the way) that there’s a huge difference.

I'll give you 3 quick examples: Gemini planets and 3rd house planets both may put emphasis on communication, mental stimulation and gathering data. But Geminis are often scattered in their approach, they may be easily distracted, may be indecisive, may be jack of all trades and talkative jokesters. They actually hate routines and dullness. "Spice it up" is probably a Gemini's philosophy. Now 3rd house planets may indicate you actually LIKE doing things on the regular - like running errands every other day in the mornings or going to that one specific coffee shop to pick up a snack. You may actually work in logistics or as a postman (especially if your chart ruler or MC ruler is in the 3rd). Planets in the 3rd talk about your siblings, neighbours or school experiences - like having Venus in the 3rd may point to positive experiences within those areas - something Gemini Venus has nothing in common.

Venus in the 9th can study at an art/beauty or fashion school (or even teach there if the MC is involved); can be very attached to spiritual and religious matters; can also find love in a foreign land. But imagine it being in Taurus - rather shy, needing those stable values to feel secure, being an exceptionally great student at that art school thanks to its domicile. Venus in Sagittarius on the other hand, likes adventure, things being shaken up from time to time, lightheartedness and exploration. But what if we flip the scenario and that Sag Venus is in the 2nd house. This can denote earing money through travelling and looking for ways to expand but in a financial matters.

Continuing with the Venus examples, having Venus in Aries is completely different than Venus in the 1st. What do people usually say about Venus in the 1st? That it makes the native charming, lovely, well-put together, with great manners, maybe beautiful, graceful, maybe a bit shallow. When in Aries? None of these characteristics fit, on top of that, it's in its detriment. Our poor gal Venus is uncomfortable and confused in Aries. She's like, "conquer? Swords? Selfishness? Obnoxiousness? Sparring? You're telling me to fight people? What am I doing here???" 

And I'll leave you here with that cause those examples weren’t that quick lol and in fact, I could give you a 100 of those. Besides, this actually inspired a 3-page rant that I've already posted not so long ago that you can read HERE.

There's no such thing as "more accurate" astrology. 

Both western and vedic are valid. Both can show you the same things. JUST KEEP THEM SEPARATE AND DON'T MIX THEM WITH EACH OTHER. And don't say things like "sidereal shows your soul" - omg I saw this statement soooo many times, who the hell even came up with this?! Actually, if anything, it's the modern western approach that "psychologized" (yea I just made up a word, you mad?) astrology while Jyotish still sticks to the very real "here and now", sometimes fatalistic predictions of how exactly your life is going to roll out... But hey, reach for hellenistic methods and they can tell you the same things, just with different tools. So no, they do not show different things, it's just their language is different.

If you say you don't identify with your chart then you're just reading it wrong.

This partially connects to the last one in some ways... Switching to a different astrology or different charts is not a solution. Learn how to read your natal. If you say it doesn’t describe you, I can guarantee you that you haven’t studied it properly. (Now this hasn't turned into a rant yet but I may actually do a whole-ass post on this because if I start elaborating on it now I'll end up with another 3-page essay).

Learn how and when to generalize. Also learn how to take generalizations. 

I understand that you have to pick up on every single thing separately in order to put everything together. It's like learning a new language: first you need to learn individual words and then you need to know the proper grammar to create a full sentence. This is 100% understandable and necessary, but it's important to take the entire thing into consideration. And this goes for all branches of astrology, but I guess it's especially annoying with synastry. This, again, comes down to the very black and white approach. You know, like when you see those long paragraphs where people elaborate on all the intricacies of Venus-Pluto aspects or whatever as if that one thing was determining the entire relationship between two people. (Side note, no shade but some of ya'll should start writing fiction or poetry cause the amount of fluffy speech and waffle that I see floating around here on tumblr is insane sometimes). Why are you wording everything as a make it or break it type of situation? And on the receiving end - learn how to take *properly phrased* generalizations constructively. Example: it IS a rule that Aries is a competitive one, maybe you're not one of them (for many reasons) but don't make a fuss about someone saying this. It IS a basic rule that energies of the same sign in two people are going to get along (well that depends on the planets involved but I digress), if that, for some other reasons, doesn't apply to you, don't go yelling that it's bullcrap because you hate people of the same sign. You know? Like, learn the difference.

DON'T SCARE PEOPLE WITH ASTROLOGY.

I had a mini-rant on this one a while ago, but I think this deserves a constant reminder (and refers to the last point), I don't want to see any more posts that would say things like "xxx house placements will bring you suffering" or "stay away from people with planets in your xxx house" or, even worse, making a (completely untrue btw) prediction based on one single thing like "someone with so-and-so aspect is going to harm you". And you're so casual about it??? You know there are sensitive people in the world. Learn some ethics. Learn some counseling skills. Don't be ignorant. Don't throw these random stuff at people just like that. And learn some actual astrology cause most of these aren't even closely describing that particual aspect. LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.

Ok now I'm pissed again.

Studying astrology and believing in free will doesn’t go well together.

It's not just psychological and spiritual. It's useful to know that western astrology made it like that because there were still people threatening astrologers for using it as a divination tool. So they moved away from the predictive/deterministic aspect of it. Now, I'm not here to change anyone's beliefs cause that's a very personal thing that everyone should develop on their own. But once you start diving deeper into astrology you'd notice that there's a heavy emphasis on fatedness and things being predetermined. That includes both the good and the bad stuff and you should learn to accept that. And with the bad things specifically, let's not excuse it with some "oh that was an opportunity for growth". Like yea, maybe, occasionally??? But just acknowledge that sometimes things happen not because there was a deeper meaning in them... but because you have a Pluto-Mars conjunction in the 6th that makes an applying square to your chart ruler and you were going through a profection year where Mars was your time lord and it transited that chart ruler while making a conjunction with Neptune so you were attacked by a baby crocodile while swimming and it bit off your toe and you got a nasty infection and that’s it (I just made that up btw, I don't actually know anyone who was attacted by a crocodile). So like, sometimes shit just happens and there's nothing psychological about it. Also, I bet your free will didn't want to be attacked by that croc.

[rigelmejo]

Audio Immersion Loop

I’ve read this suggestion by Nukemarine before, and I think its quite a good idea - especially for improving listening skills and reinforcing what you know into a more immediate-understanding. https://www.reddit.com/r/LearnJapanese/comments/886lfg/does_your_japanese_listening_ability_lag_behind/

The core idea is: a mix of ‘audio seeds’ (audio you’ve studied before and therefore understood before) and ‘other’ audio (ideally things you’ve watch/heard with english subs or directly in your target language before - so your mind ‘likes’ the material). He suggests 30% audio seeds and 70% other, though any combo may be useful and he’s not sure if another % split would be more effective.

The idea is your mind understood the ‘audio seeds’ before in study, so as you listen to it regularly without pause your mind practices understanding it quicker and without concentrating as much, then over time you hear words/phrases/sentences similar in the ‘other’ audio material and your brain latches on and starts trying to comprehend them too and practices. 

I’ve very roughly followed this article’s advice before, and it started helping. So I’d like to make a proper list of what I could use for a full on Audio Immersion Loop that meets all these needs:

Japanese:

Audio Seeds: - Core 2k Pimsleur (audio directly from Nukemarine’s LLJ decks and because of that it should be mostly things I’ve studied before, or you could study using the Nukemarine LLJ Memrise Courses): https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/0B8cWM0WNU3s4eFdSMzk5Vm9HR1E?resourcekey=0-KVCnBQh3SJxhn2oCUC-SiA - JapaneseAudiolessons.com (not ‘pure’ audio seeds idea since this includes english, but would count as comprehensible audio). Link for meL https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1qoJ7B002ZEgyDvCnGyFXUS1u8S_qgoG2 , General link for you: https://www.japaneseaudiolessons.com/ - Clozemaster Radio Mode for Japanese - Well suited for this, since you can have it play audio of sentences you already studied!

Other Audio: - Lets plays of any game you have familiarity with/like - for me that’d be Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy X, Ratchet and Clank, etc. Also any ‘video game movie’ since it goes directly through parts you know. - Condensed audio of FFX (perfectly suited for this): https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1M5jdUQCM7O12r1X8np5y4ofkzBKMSdJo - Condensed audio of Death Note: https://www.paliss.com/episode/death-note-1615919536511x465432008057248060 - anything from this site if you’ve seen the anime: https://www.paliss.com/ - general condensed audio files: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1EMBr5yskSiBTZ-LUQtMY-r4AihRIJczJ

What I’d do: listen to Clozemaster Radio Mode Japanese, and FFX condensed audio.

Chinese:

Audio Seeds: - Chinese Spoonfed Audio (not ‘pure’ audio seeds because there’s english, but when I played this in even just the background regularly I saw listening skill improvements): https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1MCKgOxzW9cd1u9cWjzGwWrpxnL5pDz0w - Clozemaster Radio Mode for Chinese - again, well suited for this, as you have the option to play only sentence audio you have already studied. 

Other Audio: - Guardian audiobook! by Avenuex: https://music.163.com/#/djradio?id=791802378&order=2&_hash=programlist&limit=100&offset=0 - Sherlock audiobook: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLVyDH2ns1F757P-m8MHckuIFqWapl6y-1 - Guardian audiobook by wheat (I really like their voice): https://music.163.com/#/djradio?id=794964371 - Silent Reading audiobook (note this is the same version as ximayala so if you have that then just search ximalaya this version has some sentences/paragraphs skipped): http://www.6ting.cn/books/59641.html - Silent Reading audiobook unabridged (UPDATE I am listening through this one while following the webnovel and YES this version actually matches the text): part 1 - https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1b5411N7aa?share_source=copy_web part 2 - https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1SX4y1G7z7?share_source=copy_web part 3 - https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1tU4y1p74y part 4 - https://www.bilibili.com/video/BV1cy4y1t7cC?share_source=copy_web - Silent reading (on music.123 by 景喵- , I tend to prefer this site because you can still listen to it in a mobile web browser with it minimized)  https://music.163.com/#/djradio?id=349361634&order=1&_hash=programlist&limit=100&offset=100  - Silent reading (on music.123 by  栗煜子)  https://music.163.com/#/djradio?id=792725710&order=1&_hash=programlist&limit=100&offset=100 - Guardian condensed audio (my link, will not work for others, u can ask for a copy if you’d like I just basically ran the episodes and subs through subsrs, mainly to make condensed audio): https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/11J2qADG9rHSK_45rKpvVIpzXn8YYWhA_ - Silent Reading audio drama: https://youtu.be/DsdmeQBMD_M - Word of Honor audio drama: https://m.missevan.com/sound/2853120 - LiuLi audiobook: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLH_aGSaKXFeHSofRd4LF1Hl8fpCSREVBW - HP audiobooks: https://music.163.com/#/djradio?id=526222636&order=2&_hash=programlist - general condensed audio link for chinese if anyone would like (it has The Untamed): https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1LtZEKe9ItVg-H5q-G01YITLyfrWpOZR-

What I’d do: listen to Chinese Spoonfed Audio or Clozemaster Radio mode Chinese (whatever I could get myself to), then other percentage split between any audiobooks I’d want to listen to Guardian/Silent Reading/Sherlock.

French:

Audio Seeds: - Francais Par Le Methode Nature (literally made to be comprehensible, even if its brand new then Still just like chinese spoonfed audio files, it should be fine to just play repeatedly until you pick stuff up): https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLf8XN5kNFkhdIS7NMcdUdxibD1UyzNFTP - Gigafrench audio files (specifically if you have studied the related lessons already): http://gigafrench.com/construction/ - Clozemaster Radio Mode for French (however I’m not a big fan of my phone’s french voice)

Other Audio: - Dracula in french: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l0hdBpzGpYY - Frankenstein in french: https://youtu.be/8AP02iALr5A - Carmilla in french: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLpOWTYUar6NK8Qn7niKNw7Vp0z5YE5t7Z - Buffy francias: https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x42mdjh - Merlin francais: https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2crj9t

What I’d do: listen to Francais Par Le Methode Nature on repeat, spend other portion of time going through Dracula audiobook tbh (unless anyone knows an audiobook I’d enjoy more that’s easy to find). 

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As for me specifically, realistically what I plan to do for a while:

Listen to Clozemaster radio mode Japanese and Chinese more often in down time (make the most out of the fact I have the radio mode option lol)

Listen to more chinese audiobooks, in the background, any time there’s nothing playing otherwise. (Since I really could LISTEN more often, its super easy to do during work I just don’t do it).

Actual other materials in japanese and french I probably won’t get to for a while. But if and when I do, above is a good plan for ways to include more listening practice.

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Overall, my main July (to maybe mid-August) study plan right now:

Listening to chinese audiobooks (so more listening in general)

Listening-Reading Method Guardian or Silent Reading (or honestly anything), just doing it when I feel like it or can. (so more listening and reading in general, along with getting through more of Guardian). This activity eats up the most study time.

Reading more chinese chapters (so more reading in general, I want to up the amount I’ve read)

Trying to use Clozemaster (Listening Mode and/or Radio mode) for Japanese more. (and chinese optionally, if I want) So more basic vocab/grammar for japanese. *italic is lower priority

Lower priority, but I’m also doing these:

Reading through japanese grammar guides (specifically finishing reading Sabuki https://sakubi.neocities.org/, and my Japanese in 30 Hours book). So enough of a grammar base to read more. This should take like 4 hours max to finish if I just sit down and do it. 

Small amounts of japanese immersion (mainly reading) - right now its been playing KH2 in japanese, and reading Guardian’s japanese translation.

Translating Guardian print novel into english (so mainly reading skills, translation practice). This is much slower going than reading, so I probably won’t have much time for this project until I’m finished reading it regularly.