#just disappointed!!! but i dont stop liking him!!!!
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i havent actually tried writing anything for this yet, i dont normally write characters younger than how old they are in canon but i can give it a shot
"My father said we shouldn't do this anymore," says Felix, holding the door open with a foot. "Maybe some other time?"
"You're just scared," Chloe tells him, pushing him in.
"My aunt doesn't like it either," he tries. "I don't want to insult her by lying to her again."
He hopes that one works, that he hasn't misjudged the relationship between Emilie and Chloe. Chloe's hard to talk to, bossy and burning behind the eyes, but his father wants them to get along, so he can't snap, can't refuse without an excuse, can't just walk away.
Still, he can't tell her that he's not scared. That he's stuck.
"You're lying," she says. "She told me it was funny. Besides, she can always tell you and Adrikins apart."
"I can't do this. I'm sorry, Chloe."
"But you always swap! You said you would!"
Adrien takes the door from him and locks it. He grips the handle against the banging on the other side.
"I hope she's not too disappointed."
"She'll be alright," says Felix, sitting on the bed. "What about you?"
"I get it. I can't disobey my father either."
"But you lost your chance to escape the city! You could have gotten away from your work for a bit. Maybe we could have pulled it off for good this time-- you could have run away once you got to London, and gone to school. You could have been a normal kid."
Adrien kicks his clothes across the floor. "Thanks."
"You shouldn't do that," he blurts. "You'll get them dirty."
Knock some sense into your cousin, won't you? Gabriel doesn't keep a tight enough leash on him.
Adrien glares at him. Felix tries to apologise, but his mouth won't open. He chokes on the word invisibly.
"Why didn't you visit last year?" asks Adrien.
"Father said we couldn't. I wanted to come."
"I hate him."
"Don't say that." Felix's fingers twitch. "He's your uncle."
Adrien groans, and flops down beside him.
"Chloe says you're worse than me about rules."
"Our parents just have a lot of expectations," says Felix. "She has too much freedom."
"She's our friend."
"She's your friend."
"But she's right. I love my father and my mum, but I wish they let me do things."
Knock some sense into your cousin.
Felix sees blood on his hands and flinches from it.
"Please don't say that."
"You know what I mean. You wanted to help me, you said you wanted to help me."
"I have to go."
Knock some sense.
"Felix, wait, you just got here--"
He unlocks the door.
"I don't want to wait another year to see you," Adrien tells him. "I'm sorry, I-"
He pushes past Chloe, who yells at him faster than he can catch. The corridors blur as he walks. He strides out the front door and is caught by a heavy hand on his shoulder.
He stops.
"It's time to go."
He exhales. There are twenty-one windows on Chloe's hotel that he can see from here. Nobody looks through them.
"Yes, Father."
"Did you enjoy seeing your cousin?"
"Yes, Father."
He sits in the car and stares forward, hands in his lap. He doesn't blink.
i think everyone saying 'felix hasnt been himself since his father died' when we first meet him is devastating
'hasnt been himself' he finally is himself, is his own. he isnt recognisable as the felix you knew, the felix his father could control?
how many orders had he given him?
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geto suguru falling for an underclassman reader ෆ (no curse au) pt.1
it was a new year— geto was already on his 2nd year at jujutsu high with the same two friends, not that he really cared about making friends. satoru just appeared one day and called him his 'best friend' and shoko tagged along. it was actually a quite comical group he thinks; a rich kid, a chain smoker and a boy who just wanted to die. but he supposes they were also popular around the campus (though he doesnt understand why)
he was casually strolling near the pond in front of the campus during break (actually hiding from gojo bc a new episode of digimon aired and he really doesnt want to hear his rants) when he saw a trail of... chips? leading near the back of the campus
his first thought was 'this is too weird imma dip' but alas curiosity got him and he decided to follow the trail of.. chips. who knows if thats how they lure people and kidnap them nowadays? if so hes sure people like satoru would surely fall for the trap (he thinks as he himself follows the said trap)
after reaching the end of the trail, he was surprised to face a young girl instead of an old beefy hitman. this was his supposed kidnapper? she was pretty cute so he wouldnt really mind he guesses. but the girl actually looked equally surprised to see him. the two stared at each other and owlishly blinked.
"um.. what are you doing.. here? if i may ask." geto broke the silence
"oh uh i am waiting?" she spoke softly and didnt elaborate further
'maybe for a friend?' geto thought and didnt ask for more details. though the reason he was even here— "do you know who placed these chips in the grou–"
before he could even finish his sentence, the girl pulled him and hid behind the concrete plankets. okay, this girl was nuts
"i was the one who placed the chips," she whisper-answered. "for him" she gestured to their front. geto followed her gaze and saw a.. puppy? he raised his brows at that, if she wanted to feed the puppy why not just give it that directly instead of doing whatever the hell that was.
she probably understood what he was thinking and finally told him, "that little guy was actually trapped in one of the slabs. i tried helping him but he was probably afraid so i decided to lure him with these chips and into safety."
oh, he thinks. that makes sense. they both then sat in silence watching the puppy eat the chips. it was a comfortable silence though. this is not a bad day, he muses. the nice weather, watching an adorable puppy eating chips with a cute girl sitting beside him.
after some time, the puppy left and he realized they were still holding hands from earlier when she pulled him. she let go of his hand after realizing herself and blushed lightly (he was a little disappointed).
"what you did was kind." he smiled at her.
"oh its nothing. i felt bad for him and i dont even like chips that much."
geto laughed at her reasoning. he was getting enamored by her weird charm and awkward mannerisms. they were starting to walk back inside their campus. "well.. whats your name?"
"i am (name)," she bowed her head lightly "please take care of me."
"of course, nice to meet you. i am geto." he smiled. "are you a 1st year?"
"yes i am. are you one as well?"
"no," he shaked his head. "i am a 2nd year."
"oh!" she suddenly stopped. "youre a senpai!"
he laughed at her matter of fact tone and nodded his head. this girl was actually weird but in a.. cute way.
before he could ask more about her, his white haired friend appeared and he just sighed heavily
"suguru??? what are you doing?" he looked at (name) and gasped "do you have a secret girlfriend? oh my god! shoko!"
"lord help me," he sighed again. he looked at the girl with him and saw her blushing and looking bewildered. as much as he found her blushing face adorable he decided to help her
"this is not my girlfriend you doofus," he slapped gojos back of head. "shes an underclassman, be nice to her."
"ohhhh?? shes a kouhai?" he gasped once again. "i always wanted one!"
geto deadpanned at that. look at this weirdo talking about the girl like shes some shiny rock. he was starting too feel weirdly possessive over her. after all he was the one who found her first so she should be his kouhai only, it's only natural.
with gojo blabbering about himself to her and her politely nodding at his words, they made their way to their classes. geto wanted to ask her about herself but found himself being cut off by gojo everytime. he was starting to get pissed but then saw (name) smiling reassuringly at her which made him calm down a little (he was almost pouting). then she had to leave for her class and waved at them bye. 'oh well,' he thought while waving back. he could try to meet her after school maybe? but this time without that blue eyed freak he huffed.
#geto x reader#geto x you#geto x y/n#geto suguru#geto fluff#jjk fluff#jjk x reader#geto suguru x reader#geto suguru x you#geto suguru x y/n
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Like... okay I KNEW Guy had brain damage. Like I've read (some) JLI I've seen him hit his head so hard his personality totally changes (twice, although apparently this has happened WAY more than twice) but somehow (SOMEHOW) it's worse than I expected??????? He's just constantly getting hit on the head???? Like twice per issue???? And with his backstory too it's literally a thing like has this man gone any significant stretch of time in his life without constant head trauma????? No????????
#oh my god#i knew it was like this but i didnt know it was LIKE THIS LIKE THIS#like just wow#im a guy fan btw like i think hes neat and fun to read#at times completely hilarious#but also like sometimes im just so confused like im having a great time but also cannot figure out why i like this guy#like sometimes im just like wohooo you go worstie!!!! you should totally start wwiii!!!! or beat the crap out of your friends or whatever#other dickish thing youre doing#like idk he is THE lovable asshole character to me#and yet half the time its totally unexplainable why i like him#like hell do something or say smth genuinely kind of awful and im just like guy.......... no.......#just disappointed!!! but i dont stop liking him!!!!#it is totally unexplainable to me#dc really created one of the characters of all time here tbh#blah#guy gardner#swishy liveblogs
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If max’s social media team posting a goodbye to his teammate somehow says more to you than him publicly standing by daniel through singapore, being one of the only people to privately reach out and support him after japan, and seeing each other after daniel was off the grid then like … idk, i think you might want to examine your own relationship to social media. this overreaction and the outpouring of hatred toward max for refusing to kick checo while he was down with hateful words in the media and letting his team post a goodbye on instagram to a teammate he got along fine with is … odd. i think some of you never liked max very much in the first place because you somehow are still insistent on making daniel’s exit max’s fault and crafting long narratives of how max hurt him, all because you cannot conceptualize that friendships can exist in private off social media, especially between two guys who don’t value it for shit lmao.
#the narrative went from ‘max definitely knew and didnt tell daniel bc hes EVIL AND TERRIBLE’#‘and now daniel feels BETRAYED AND WONT SPEAK TO HIM’#to them hanging out and everyone averted their eyes and were like ope! guess i was wrong!#and then it was ‘max is evil for not being callous toward checo and defending his teammate and posting a goodbye’#like idk just leave max alone if you dont like him#stop pretending to be his fan#and this isn’t to say you can’t be disappointed he never made a goodbye post for daniel#this is for people actually hating max now bc of it
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i genuinely dont get how so many people are uncritically excited for The Movie and have no issue with anything going on here i feel like im losing my mind a little bit . the trailers did not look good to me at all is everyone excited about it posting from an alternate dimension or something what are people seeing in this movie that im not .
#and i say this as someone whos standards are usually not that high and can have fun with most sonic media and liked the first 2 movies......#all i can feel is disappointment at how bad a job theyre doing at adapting sa2 and the disservice to certain characters/concepts#(obviously thats just based on the trailers i havent seen the movie and refuse to spend money on it so i cant give afull judgement#but the trailers certainly dont give a very good impression of the movie to me)#and before anyone says that its not an sa2 movie.theyre taking a lot of plot points and characters from sa2#and taking a lot of stuff from sa2 and using it in the marketing and such#they cant do all that and then go ''um actually its not an sa2 movie youre crazy for expecting an sa2 movie LOL''#i also wasnt expecting an exact recreation of sa2 either i would have bene fine with changes#but stuff like having gerald be alive and take rouge's spot in the dark story trio and making him a more comedic character#is ridiculous and feels inherently disrespectful to the source material#and thats not even getting into how it feels like im always hearing about some new awful thing#that paramount or one of the actors did which just makes me not wanna give them my money or time even more#sighhh i honestly just want this all to be over alerady and for the hype to die down so ican stop hearing about the movie#but i know its going to make one billion dollars and theyre just going to make more movies after this. hell on earth .
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hey psst c'mere... no a little closer... a little closer- there we go
Loop lips are part of a racist caricature of Black people. Stop drawing Black characters with loop lips. I don't care how they look in canon, it's racist.
okay that's all you can go
#one piece#usopp#goes for other black characters too but this is the one that comes to mind rn.#not gonna get into other shit like 'lightening their skin to make them look prettier teehee'#or 'but they look better with wavy/straight hair!¡!!' or any of the number of other stuff ive seen#bc like. im not even sure folks can handle this one simple thing lmao#many people are great about this but theres still quite a few who are ass#'um! well the creator did it this way and i like him! and he did it on his white characters too!' dont give a shit.#stop drawing racist caricatures. i like op too but im not riding that guy's dick and twisting myaelf in knots trying to justify all his BS#we can agree he's bad at drawing women and he fumbles how he handles queer characters (sometimes. this is mostly referring to momoiro)#but you can't listen to folks who are constantly saying 'hey this is a racist depiction of black people. please dont draw like that'#like???#im gonna keep it 100 with you guys. i love one piece. its got me through some dark times. ive loved it for a long long time#i dont expect the creator to ever give me the time of day#but english fandom? english fandom i can change. and english fandom i can hold to a BARE MINIMUM standard of 'dont be racist'#and yet i still get disappointed. far more often than i should.#ignorance is one thing but the people who DOUBLE DOWN are the worst#thanks for telling me you prioritize your comfort over not being wildly offensive to me and people like me#idfk where i was going with this im just so goddamn tired#if u wanna know more about what im talking about in the post just look up the wiki for minstrel shows & jim crow
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#unimportant thoughts#my Dad bluntly asked if I was gaining weight in an accusing tone tonight#and even though my stomach hurts with hunger and theres a box of my favorite seasonal doughnuts in the house#i csnt look at them without my stomach turning over with disgust and revulsion at myself and my body#I wish he’d stop fucking monitoring his kids bodies like that#he does it to my sisters too#but he’s done it to me ever since I stopped competing and training#and i feel keenly his disappoint that his ‘athlete’ ‘fit’ son he was so proud of is just another average guy with a little belly now#and i struggle with that enough myself without him constantly on my ass#anyways#im fine#im sure ill feel better in the morning#but tonight just kinda sucks#ed tw#food mention#starving tw#I don’t know the fucking tags dude#ana tw#tw ana#i dont have an ed but i dont wanna trigger anyone who does
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google how do i tell my dad that the reason i keep bringing up elon musk's transphobia isn't that i've got gen z political tunnel vision that makes me blind to his "innovation" in electric cars but because i am desperately crying out for you as the father of a trans child to feel just as outraged and angry as i am that that man has so much power
#edit: warning the tags get pretty personal whoops. however tumblr is like a diary to me so. but if discussions of father issues arent for u#it's not anything he's directly said but like. when we talk about it i can tell he's clinging to this like#image of musk as this inventor working for the good of humanity#because he's admired him for a long time and like i get it it's hard to let go of your heroes when it turns out they're trash#but. he's always been trash. is the thing. and i've been saying this.#and it would be nice to feel some solidarity! or support! or empathy idk!#and not like. lectures why tesla is actually progressive or why spacex is the best thing to happen to science since fucking penicillin#and sometimes ppl who push the world towards progress rub people the wrong way#god like. we were in the car the other day talking about it and i mentioned tesla moving to texas bc of the law protecting trans kids#and he mumbled something like well sure yeah he said that but Really... really it's about the taxes......#okay!! who give a shit! that's not the point! the point is that he's got fucking legions of alt right fanboys who hang off his every word#so when he says something that is good for trans people is actually dangerous and bad and hurts kids#and when he openly publicly deadnames and misgenders and LIES about his TRANS DAUGHTER. it's fucking dangerous! and it makes trans people#(IE ME. YOUR CHILD.)#feel unsafe!#it should get you angry! it should make you rethink how you saw him previously! it should make you want to stop supporting him!#idk. i mean my dad has never been like. against me being trans. and he's worked really hard on the pronouns and not deadnaming me#but it's stuff like this where it feels like he doesn't grasp how he's de-prioritizing my perspective as a trans person and.#his Child.#and how his first reaction to me starting t was 'no.. why would you do that :('#it just feels bad. i love him so much but it's shit like this that makes me feel like i don't matter to him or like i'm disappointing him#and then he gets confused when i tell him that i feel that way#wow! sorry for this. i should get serious about finding a therapist i dont think i knew i felt all this until i typed it out#im gonna add a tag at the beginning of this. as a warning. lolololol. lol. anyway#got 2 pick up my t tomorrow and also email my dr for more wellbutrin haha slay! hit the slay button. dispenses ssris.#god i'm so tired sorry i'm delirious actually. also i saw my brother this weekend which was so nice and he's such a weirdo which also#makes me weirder by proxy
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like no other to you, what you've done you cannot undo
#rahhhghfj#got this idea in my mind about like#hrmm#ban hammer risks everything for medkit#they cant be together and both know that#scy/the would not stand for it bro/ker would not stand for it win/dfo/rce would not stand for it#medkit would be risking evrything for him too#but after that after medkit is long gone ban hammer is left in the ruins of his decision his indulgence in regular mortal pleasures like#romance#i'd imagine he starts to lose himself a bit#he let himself become weak and he stopped doing his job properly just for medkit#probably disappointed the hell out of his momma!!#idk. some kind of image of him being completely alone and almost reverting to a feral state#clinging on to the remains of who he threw everything away for#lazing in what banland has become and turning into more of a myth to society#im articulating this way better than i did on twitter because i dont have the stupid character limit#i love them. i love my doomed forbidden enemies to lovers yuri where nothing goes well and theyre happy to have each other but the tragedy#is still inevitable#phighting#character death#tf i tag that with#major character death#medkit#medkit phighting#ban hammer#banhammer#roblox#ban hammer phighting#banhammer phighting#medhammer
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Every single time I defend someone shitty who has done nothing but be a cunt to me because they did 1 (ONE ) decent thing THEY ALWAYS TURN AROUND AND DO SOMETHING SO MUCH WORSE TO ME
#every single time i praise aomeone for turning a new leaf they fuck me over#my life is continuing getting worse and worse and worse and worse and i really don't know how much longer i want to deal with this shit#if things do not change soon I'm quitting I'll run away and i will never come back#i praise y sister for growing up she steals and then lies about it and i print with out a shadow of a doubt she did it wont admit it#coworker who bums job off onto me dose. one piece of work then fucked off and dowe nothing else all day then spreads rumors i lied about my#moms cancer#like i can pull up her obituary bitch#dad dose 1 nice thing then like let's me go to bed instead of doing all the dishes that accumulate while i was at work#then need day turns me back into a slave#is goin to marry his yandere bitch gf my mother has not been dead a year yet good for him#I'm done#i hate being alive i can't daydream about anything anymore except death#i used to be able to daydream ocs n stories that stopped years ago then it was day dreaming about a better life with my wife#that's hard to believe it'll ever happen in just trapped and my dad constantly discourages me getting independent or doin anything for mysel#no don't get a full time job don't move out you cam never do it no don't try to learn sewing again doing try dnd again doing make new friend#don't do anything to make like nice#I'm allowed Wednesday nights after the kids go to church and that's it and if it clashes with family aucks to be me#and i don't get to make. it up the next day like dad#i cant stand my life i hate it so much#i hate my family minus my four youngest siblings#i hate my job i hate waking up i hate feeling exhausted all the time#being alive is disappointment and work I'm tired of it#I'm tired#i dont want to do this anymore#i need something to change but I'm trapped nothing will change unless i do it#and i hate that I'll probably have to leave ao much behind
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#here's some of the classics on that list i have beef with btw:#i have tried to read A Confederacy of Dunces several times and it's funny but it's also so cringe and Ignatius is so obnoxious#that i find it too difficult to finish like i just feel depressed and bad for everybody around him too much#i tried reading Infinite Jest like a decade ago and i got like 200 pages in and i remember thinking it felt like#such a slog the entire time because he's just so gd wordy and also i stopped liking DFW after i heard the abuse allegations against him#frankenstein i didnt read that long ago but i just remember finding it so boring for some reason?? i feel i might need to read it again#dracula ngl i feel like im cheating a bit saying ive completely read it because i loved the beginning and then HATED so much of the rest#the characters were just so boring and melodramatic hahaha i just liked the part where jonathan was doing a travel diary#and trapped in the castle tbh and after that i skimmed quite a bit#i almost flipped my shit when i saw ender's game on there because I ALWAYS mix it up with ready player one by ernest cline#which i bought the audiobook of a while back and hated every minute of it i dont think its good at all#but it wasnt that so phew my faith in this list is somewhat restored#i read most of the first game of thrones book and was disappointed tbh maybe because id seen the show already#so i was like 'this feels almost exactly the same except worse?' because i'd been expecting it to give me more depth and insight#into the characters but instead it felt exactly the same and i still didnt love any of the characters enough to feel attached to them#also i am fully aware me not personally liking or vibing with a book doesnt mean it doesnt deserve to be considered great btw#but i think if youre gonna be like me and force yourself to go through a bunch of lists like this very seriously then you also need to just#let yourself be like 'yeah not for me' without feeling too bad about it sometimes too#often times i dont particularly love the classics or 'important books' but at the same time#i still feel like im getting more out of reading them than just grabbing the newest hyped up books that also dont do anything for me#maybe not in a 'wow i loved reading this' way but in like a#'i now have first-hand knowledge of this thing that is so influential / so frequently referenced'#or 'this challenged me and i feel like i did a mental/emotional workout or gave me some new food for thought'#or 'made me more aware of what gaps in my knowledge and reading skills and what my tastes are too'#sort of way...#it really just depends on what you're reading for and why and what you're hoping to get out of it a lot of the time maybe#it's like the homework i give myself to go through these lists that i also intersperse with the stuff i read more just for fun#p
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underappreciated thing from the stuffpack reveal: they only said they were incorporating "nordic" design. they didnt say scandinavian 💖
#you KNOW its only bc there are finnish ppl in the team lmaoooooo#i dont trust americans NOR swedes and norwegians to not use nordic and scandinavian interchangably#hjffjdjdjf trying everything to ignore how sad it makes me that im not looking forward to todays gi livestream or the next version#like do you know how soul crushing it is to not be excited abt the game you love the most and dedicate everything into lol#also if one more person tries to put colorblind wrio on my screen i will throw my phone down the stairwell LMAO#you are literally just as annoying as the fans who say blind ppl cant look in the direction of a person sitting next to them 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#at least the ppl who dont see him as blind (which like congrats canon is with you) dont make weird mental gymnastics hcs#bc they dont want to ignore the teaser weirdness but also dont want it to be too inconvenient for their yaois#.................... ANYWAY that got out of hand bye now#actually kidding people also need to fucking stop calling arle a mama(bear) like why are yall so weird#we know she uses masculine titles like father and king#rlly disappointed to see this behavior even from a great youtuber with smart videos#and the quotation marks are literally just for us the audience for our clarity (even tho i think its dumb)#for example the term king is not in quotations bc we already have the clarifying quotations for father#the characters dont say it any differently or bend the sentences in stupid ways#so you should stop being weird too :)
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stop I'm literally so nervous for this presentation im literally practicing so hard but im still like :((((
#oops im rambling#schoolposting#like im so scared of this prof :(#like i think he wants me to be like. a top ra#since most are graduating#but I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING#i feel like hes disappointed.....#idk hes nice to me but its not like hes gonna say anything bad#but i guess if he had a real problem he would say something#i have a normal and healthy relationship with authority figures#clearly#NO BUT IM SO VALID THO BC GRAD STUDENTS ARE ALSO SCARED OF HIM#AND UPPERCLASSMEN#NO IM SOOOOOOO VALID ACTUALLY#but guys why did he stop signing emails w his first name#and start signing with his title & lastname?#i literally will not survive in the real world im so scared#literally i hate professionalism so much it gives me so much anxiety#like just be casual so i know we are chill😭 I CANT DO THIS
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adding these tags from @duohensheng <3
i love how it's not just binghe too, but all the people around him, and how we as the readers slowly learn that everything shen yuan does as shen qingqiu is actually not the norm, but very much out of place in the world of PIDW.
we see everything from shen yuan's eyes, and to him, his kind actions make sense, so we think they make sense too, but they don't. liu qingge was stunned at being saved by shen qingqiu, not just because he thought shen qingqiu hated him, but because it was an entirely selfless thing to do and SQQ wanted nothing in return but a chance at friendship. liu qingge returns that tenfold later with undying loyalty because an action like that is one of a kind
the same goes for zhuzhi-lang, who was, thus far, abhorred by everyone who saw him; SQQ stopped gongyi xiao from killing him simply because he saw a creature defending its habitat, not harming anyone, and even said they were the ones at fault for disturbing and agitating it, while also (tho unawarely) helping zhuzhi-lang get the sun-moon dew mushroom he wanted.
you see it with ning yingying and the other disciples; shen qingqiu notes that when he returns to qing jing peak after traveling, ning yingying seems to have missed him more than she did luo binghe, that she wasn't a grieving wreck, but stronger than ever and delighted to see him. ming fang was the one to step forward when SQQ "died" to tell luo binghe that SQQ always believed in him and was heart broken for years; ming fang was even willing to die to avenge SQQ's death, only stopping when ning yingying told him that shizun would never want that for them, which, again, is very uncommon for a world that puts so much honor on "dying for the cause".
and with luo binghe specifically it's important to remember that binghe doesn't fall in love with his shizun the moment he's nice(r) to him, he's actually confused, acknowledging that he thought his teacher didn't care about him at all until shen qingqiu said he believed binghe would win the match (which, in binghe's limited pov, was an huge risk that put SQQ's and the sect's honor on the line) and then got poisoned to protect him. like, shen qingqiu threw himself in front of his disciple and got injected with an incurable poison that causes a slow, painful death, to protect binghe.
if it was just about kindness then binghe would have fallen in love with ning yingying, but he didn't, it's about how much shen qingqiu was willing to risk for him to protect him, how much shen qingqiu believed in him even if binghe didn't believe in himself (as it says in book 1: "no one had ever believed in him like this"). the other peak masters wouldn't have done that, they wouldn't have been cruel, but they wouldn't have let binghe sleep in their house either, or protect him so fiercely, or spoil him so much.
in short, SQQ inspires others to give back the kindness he gives them; "a drop of kindness must be repaid by a flood" as zhuzhi-lang puts it.
One thing i feel like people misunderstand in Luo Binghe's character is the belief that he would have fallen for any other peak lord that became his Shizun and was not absolutely horrible to him like Og!Shen Qingqiu was when that's just not likely. The reason why Luo Binghe fell for post-transmitgation Shen Qingqiu is not because he suddenly became a teacher who didn't abuse him and treated him like any other discipline, it's because Shen Qingqiu consistently went out of his way to be kind to Luo Binghe in a way no one else in the world would have, like, what Shen Yuan did may seem basic to some people, but in the PIDW world? Bro was being the epitome of unrealistic kidness and he did ALL that only for Binghe because remember, that's his little sheep. Luo Binghe wouldn't have fallen for any other peak lord who became his Shizun because they wouldn't have treated him with the same amount of kindness (and preferential treatment) Shen Qingqiu gave him because that genuinely did not exist in the PIDW world until Shen Yuan transmitgated
#i think the thoughts n feelings got unleashed in me again#I JUST LOVE HIM SO MUCH#and OP you are so right. ppl dont acknowledge enough how unique shen yuans kindness is in the pidw world#its pretty much unheard of#i also love how sqq never brings up liu qingges qi deviation like it doesnt even occur to him that this is a life debt#he only secretly hopes liu qingge might help him or protect him in the future#but he isnt even mad or disappointed when he cant!!! when liu qingge couldnt stop binghe or get sqqs body back#sqq didnt even blame him or anything!! he was surprised that people would even put in that much effort for him!!#he never blamed binghe either#didnt even occur to him#he knew binghe had the protagonists invulnerability and still jumped in front of him and he would do it again#when binghe showed up at his bedside kneeling and crying all shen yuan could think about was how cruel binghe had been treated before#and how binghe shouldnt be grateful for all the horrors he went through#he doesnt even realize how life changing this is to binghe#''all that past mistreatment and abuse completely forgotten because hed saved luo binghe once?'' YES SHEN YUAN. YES#because it wasnt just that!!! it wasnt just saving his life it was BELIEVING in him!!#ahem. anyway#svsss#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#svsss meta
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its [redacted] today but now i'm feeling sad because the latter half of the day went so weird and now theyre watching tv again (the roommates) so i can't record my thing (tradition!!!) and i need to be in bed early and aaaaaaaaaaa
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#i dont knowwwwww i dont know.#mounting levels of stress as we approach consult maybe. still a halfway disappointment#almost nothing today went as planned....#it wasnt BAD so like i'm not really complaining about all of it but . augh. the tv.#he's going to make such a big deal of it if I ask him to stop and i dont wanna make him feel bad either :/ theres no good answer#it's just. all doors to my room are closed. i can still discern SPEECH from THE TV#It Does Not Need To Be That Loud#i want to record still...........
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My parents discussing how they arent comfortable with my brothers girlfriend hiding their relationship with him from her parents because she's not allowed to date until she's sixteen and not allowed to "go steady" til she's an adult: "I dont really care what happens as long as people are honest. I know that it sucks that her parents are like that but honesty is the best policy."
Me who's actively in a relationship they don't know about because it's gay and I don't wanna deal with the fallout:
#hggggggghhhh#maybe i should tell my mommmmmm#hhhhhhhhgggggggg#i dont want to deal with the fallout eughhhhhhh#she doesnt like my gf cause shes trans and also cause we've had friendship issues in the past before we dated that i vented to her abt#and then i might have to dump like. the WHOLE backstory of our stupid back and forth and god what a nightmare#idk if shed be mad at me or dissapointed that i didnt tell her or what#IDKKKKKKK#plus im split about my relationship. like i love my gf but idk if we can do long distance for 2 years#whats the point of telling ppl if im not sure#and what if she tells my dad. like fuck. hes funding my college what if she tells my dad and he decides to stop paying for my shit#then what#im just fucked thats what#like my mom will be disappointed and/or mad i didnt tell her + dissaproving of gay#but she wont get pissed like my dad will.#i mean she hasnt told him im bi yet. so. yknow could work out.#feralscreaming
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