#just casually use tumblr as a diary

[i-need-help-this-is-my-obsession]

December 9th

Stuck at home with a broken ankle... might write another chapter of 'The Real Me'. I also might finally make up my mind about which zombie apocalypse X-Men AU to write. Or I might be slightly out of it from the painkillers for the next couple of days. Don't know, but I'll try and update when I decide on a course of action.

[wildestdreamsblog]

The Story of Us: Unedited

Pairing: Mahwa Character!Min Yoongi x Reader

Summary: You wake up in the body of the second female lead in a manhwa, determined to rewrite your fate. No longer willing to be trapped in unrequited love for the elusive main lead, Min Yoongi, you set out to change the ending of the story. But leaving him behind isn’t as simple as you thought. As the lines between fiction and reality blur, the narrative begins to shift in unexpected ways—Yoongi, who was once only devoted to the main female lead, starts to see you in a new light. Can you escape the cycle of heartbreak, or will you find yourself entangled in a love story you never asked for?

or in which Yoongi found out you aren't from that world and refuses to let you leave.

A/N: This is an unedited very very very raw draft! But I wanted to share this with you before I forget the ideas and before my flight today <33 let me know what you think! ALSO I WILL EDIT THIS WHEN I GET BACK NEXT WEEK AND I WILL POST IT IN TUMBLR. okay bye ily

It was your second week in Paris when curiosity finally got the better of you. Her phone—your phone now—sat untouched on the marble nightstand of your hotel suite. You’d avoided it so far, reasoning that it felt like rifling through a stranger’s diary. But tonight, as the soft glow of the Eiffel Tower illuminated the room, you gave in.

Plugging it in, the device vibrated to life, and a flood of notifications lit up the screen. Your jaw dropped slightly as you skimmed through the endless stream of missed calls and messages. Most of them were from Yoongi.

“Of course,” you muttered under your breath, scrolling through the list. There were texts, voicemails, and even some emails from him, all timestamped over the last two weeks.

His messages started casual enough, asking you where you were and if you were still avoiding him. He even stopped by the mansion only to find out that you weren’t there, let alone in the country. Not one in your mansion could tell him where you were despite his endless threats. As days passed by, however, his tone shifted to frustration.

I’m not kidding anymore. If I don’t hear from you, I’m coming to find you.

I am hiring a team to find you, princess.

His final message was dated today.

I do hope you remember that it is my birthday today. We always celebrate it together. We’re not gonna stop now just because you’re hiding from me.

You stared at the phone for a moment longer, the screen dark now but somehow still demanding your attention. Should you respond? What would you even say?

The phone vibrated in your hand, the screen lighting up with his name. Your stomach did a little flip, but you shook your head firmly. No. You weren’t going to answer. It was better this way—for him, for you, for the storyline. Yoongi belonged with the female lead, and the longer you stayed out of their orbit, the better.

Instead, you grabbed your jacket, ready to explore the city some more. Paris was too beautiful to waste time fretting over a fictional man’s messages. Let Yoongi wait.

But just as you opened your hotel room, there he was with his signature stoic face, his dark brow raised. He pointedly looked at your phone, his name on the screen. He had his phone on his ear, while you had yours in your hand. You were literally caught red-handed ignoring his calls.

He ended the call with a deliberate tap and tucked his phone into his pocket, his gaze never leaving yours.

“What are you doing here?” you asked, shocked at his sudden appearance. He was supposed to be with her. The story said that he was supposed to be with her, celebrating with her, saving her from any other accidents or situations she found herself in.

Yoongi tilted his head slightly, his gaze narrowing. “Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” His tone was calm, but the edge was unmistakable. He stepped inside as though he owned the place. He didn’t ask for permission, didn’t wait for an invitation. He was just… there, filling the room with his presence like he always did. “And Paris, of all places? You’re more predictable than you think, princess.”

“I-I mean, I didn’t think you’d notice,” you stammered, your voice barely above a whisper, already regretting how ridiculous it sounded.

“What? How could I not? You literally disappeared on the face of the earth. You think I wouldn’t notice when you disappeared? When you’re not there?”

The intensity in his gaze left you momentarily stunned, your thoughts scrambling for coherence. “Y-you’re not supposed to be here…” you muttered, more to yourself than to him. Your disbelief bled into your words, your mind struggling to reconcile his presence with what you knew—or thought you knew. “The story says you’re supposed to be with her. This isn’t—this isn’t how it goes.”

“What story?”

You blinked owlishly, realizing what you’d said. “Huh? Nothing!” you exclaimed a little too quickly, waving your hands as if to physically push the moment away. “Anyway! Happy birthday!” you added, your voice unnaturally bright, hoping to distract him.

His squint deepened, a mix of curiosity and frustration flickering in his eyes. He clearly didn’t buy your deflection, but he let it slide—for now. Without a word, he crossed the room to the small bar cart in the corner, casually pouring himself a glass of whisky.

The tension in the air was thick as he swirled the amber liquid in the glass, his movements deliberate. He raised the glass to his lips, his gaze never leaving yours. After taking a slow sip, he finally spoke, his voice low, “Glad you remember my birthday, princess.”

Okay, fine. You were at loss. How were you supposed to know what you should say? This was not in the manhwa! Yoongi was basically going off-script!

You didn’t answer. You couldn’t. Instead, you turned your gaze to the door, silently willing him to leave. But Yoongi didn’t move. If anything, he seemed more determined, his presence as unyielding as ever.

“Fine,” he said after a long moment, his voice quieter now, almost resigned. “If you won’t come back, then I’ll stay. Paris is nice this time of year, isn’t it?”

Full story (unedited) in KoFi

[antisocialxconstruct]

okay I've been thinking about this poll all day and. I have some thoughts lmao

Obviously we all know a tumblr poll is not exactly a reliable way to do a demographic survey and of course you're disproportionately going to get responses from active rebloggers because... the people who don't reblog aren't going to reblog your poll, are they? BUT I do think there's something to be said for the evidence that people currently active on tumblr are disproportionately people who have been on tumblr a long time, and trying to lay the issue of declining engagement at the feet of "new users" not understanding site etiquette is... well, flattening a more complex issue (gasps of shock and horror). So I've been thinking about other things that could explain the supposed issue people are identifying:

new users who don't know site etiquette: okay yes, I'll admit that it IS A Thing. I have seen the very very small sampling of people who recently joined and didn't think reblogging was "for" them for whatever reason--they think it's rude to reblog from someone you don't know, or they feel obligated to add something insightful to every reblog, or whatever else. But I also don't think people realistically operate under these misunderstandings for very long. All you have to do is use the site for a while and follow a few different people to realize no one else is abiding by those kinds of rules, and people who want to be active and engage with other blogs will start doing it pretty fast.

a lot of early users left: there have been a few waves of people leaving tumblr for various reasons, especially the porn ban and various other Bad Decisions made since then, and also some people just migrated to other social media sites that suited their needs better or aged out of their interest in fandom/blogging/etc. Some of the people who used to most actively use tumblr the way you think is "correct" may just not be around anymore.

shifting demographics: I know tumblr used to be almost exclusively associated with fandom, but you have to accept that there are a lot of people doing a lot of different things here now. Some people are treating it like a diary, or a dev log, or just a place to be really obsessed with something singular and niche. They may enjoy your work, but if it's not what their blog is for, they're not going to put it on their blog.

larger numbers don't translate 1:1 into more interaction: I can tell you this one from extensive personal experience. After a certain threshold, your follower count, the size of a fandom, the overall userbase of the site, none of it actually means a proportional number of new people engaging with your work. You will have a stable base of established fans/followers who have stuck around long enough to be invested, and an occasional new person who discovers your work and is enthusiastic, but for every one of those there will be five, ten, twenty tourists and casual enjoyers who might like to see what you make but don't resonate with it enough to directly respond to it. (Double that ratio again if you're asking for money.) Expecting all or most of them to make the switch to active fans will drive you nuts.

you're confusing interaction you want with interaction you "should" be getting: look. Nobody wants to hear this one. But is your engagement actually bad or are you just not reaching your desired audience? This could mean any number of things, if you're trying to build a presence or start a career, are you posting at peak hours? Are you posting in a way that's accessible to people? Are you using relevant tags, doing enough self promotion? It's grueling. People want to be so proud of how tumblr has no algorithm and no influencers so you have to accept that you're playing on hard mode. Alternatively, if what you want is a cozy, close-knit fan community, are you cultivating that? Are you engaging with other people's work with the energy you expect from them? Are you starting conversations and respecting boundaries? These communities don't just spring into being organically, they have to be fostered and maintained.

[asherlockstudy]

I'm a new Rhett and Link fan and saw your post about your thoughts on the 40 years friendship Ear Biscuit episode and I was wondering if you could explain Link reaching his limit with the plexi glass kiss and suddenly turning their world upside down?

I'm so fascinated by the story of their friendship but I'm still not caught up on everything that's happened over the years so when I saw you mention that I was really curious of what happened

“Reaching his limit and turning their world upside down” is of course part of my own theory and speculation.

This too however is based on actual facts.

I am referring to what happened after the notorious Newsical plexiglass kiss, around the late fall of 2013. In case you are very new and haven’t watched this episode, first of all WATCH this episode. But if you know, well to refresh your memory, they re-enact some funny newspaper article as a musical and in the end the character played by Rhett (a female) invites Link’s character to a kiss. You could absolutely tell that this was genuinely an improvisation by Rhett, perhaps he had thought it already, but he caught Link entirely off guard. They share a fake kiss through plexiglass and Link, despite it being a gimmick, is a changed man afterwards. It was so evident, so strong that ALL the comments are about it, people, even casuals, even heterobros saying Link was reevaluating his entire sexuality there.

Fast forward many years later, during Link’s spiritual deconstruction, he decided to read an entry from his diary. This particular entry was his last where he was speaking to Jesus (Link used to maintain a relationship/ communication to Jesus almost literally) and he was finalising this spiritual connection, saying he wasn’t able to do it anymore and he was about to continue his life by cutting his ties to religion and Jesus. All fine so far.

The key is that one good soul here on tumblr took note of the date of this very entry (Link disclosed it himself obviously). And… it was the day right after the one the Newsical episode was released. So Link wrote he couldn’t do it anymore and had to cut his ties to Christianity and Jesus the day after the episode where he kisses Rhett is released. Which means he probably watched it, revisited the memory and then was struck with thousands of comments saying he was rethinking his sexuality after kissing Rhett. And then he wrote that final farewell entry to Jesus.

Which might be a coincidence that these two things happened one after the other within 24 hours or so but it would be ONE HELL of a coincidence if you ask me.

Then after that slowly slowly they both start changing, they become more touchy feely and hearteyed with each other, then of course we have the Puzzle video by late 2015, almost two years later, and soon after that things start getting straight out horny.

So yeah it’s just a theory that Link had enough and really took matters into his hands and then there was a fast development of events after that, but given the context provided, is it that wild of a theory? 🤔

I am not really asking. Just… food for thought.

[maybetomorrowyoullknow]

I stopped posting on my old tumblr because it was such a public diary. A couple years ago I reconnected with my old first boyfriend I dated when I was 18-19 (I'm 28 now), and I found out he was looking at my tumblr and looking at old posts

We were hanging out with our mutual group of friends who liked to get drunk a lot, and when he would hang out with them without me, he would drunkenly tell my best friend that he looked at my tumblr. I used to be obsessed with him, and a part of me still has limerence for him. So I was posting things on tumblr that were vaguely and subtly about him, sometimes not so subtly. During this time period we were yearning for each other but both drinking a lot and I think both of us knew / know deep down that we aren't the best for each other, even though a small voice in my head still, to this day, asks, "why not?"

Anyway, I just thought it was really childish and weird that I was vague posting about a boy at the age of 26, and we weren't just TALKING to each other. it was so annoying, I feel like so many subtle things and feelings happened between me and my ex during that time, but none of it was said out loud and we pretended like it wasn't happening. And he didn't even reply to my texts sometimes

But now we're in different spots in our lives, he got a girlfriend like a year ago now and they seem like a sweet couple. I'm still very single, but I've been really rethinking my alcohol problems that made me act kinda chaotic and not communicative during that time period. I've been having a lot of flings / situationships / casual sex in the past couple years. I want to find a real boyfriend but I also want to move out of state soon and really work on my alcohol issues so I'm going on a lot less dates lately

I wanted to make a new tumblr because posting diary things like this is important and good when I'm not worried about people reading them who shouldn't be. and I just miss reblogging art and beautiful images so much, it's important for my creativity and inspiration and self expression, that sounds silly but it's true

[gatheredfates]

Oh my goodness, I can't believe we're here! This is the FIRST Compendium update for Dawntrail! ☀️ In the end I didn't need the extra weekend off; I just put this together in-between trusts (don't judge me).

I hope everyone is having a fantastic time with the new expansion. I am especially excited to see how this document expands as I find new things in its advent, so please let me know if you make/find anything interesting!

While I don't think the Compendium will have anything pertaining to spoilers, I will try to note where resources/communities contain them going forward. Resources may update without me knowing, however; please do your best to engage with content keeping the possibility of spoilers in mind. Thanks!

With that said, however, as of today (07/06), the following resources have been added to Sea's Community Compendium for XIV Creatives.

LARGE SCALE

XIV Modding — In the online game known as FINAL FANTASY XIV, modifications usually fall under the “tools”, “mods” and “plugins” categories. The purpose of this wiki is to provide a semi-comprehensive breakdown of the existing tools & ways to mod the game cosmetically, ie visuals, audio & other on-screen assets.

*Please note: Modding is a direct violation of the games ToS and discussion of it in game will earn you a ban. Its inclusion in the Compendium is for collection purposes; I am not responsible for what you do with the tools should you download them.

FRIEND / CASUAL SERVER

A Walk Across Etheirys — We are a group of friends, and story-lovers, who have chosen to make the slow journey through every zone of FFXIV we can! We take these walks by expansion, remembering them for what they were and what they meant to us, and aim to add new ones as they arise.

LORE

A Comprehensive List of Halonic Swears — For your Ishgardian fanfiction and lore reference. Created by @rosestarart.

SEAFLOOR

We're a Tumblr Community now! For people unfamiliar with the concept of Communities, I encourage you to check out the tumblr post by staff made about them here. However, copy/pasting what I have written in the Compendium, the Community functions as so:

SEAFLOOR (A FFXIV Community) is a Tumblr community whose duel-purpose focuses on my projects — the Compendium, question drives and screenshot events — whilst also reblogging member created works, resources (including events, commissions and looking for content/roleplay/free company posts), affirmations and other xiv-related content. If you are interested in supporting my projects without the social aspect of a Discord, I highly encourage you to join the Community. Everything hosted on the Discord will be cross-posted there; you will not miss out on anything. As Communities are still in beta, members need to be manually invited. If you would like to join, please like the tumblr post here. Once Communities are out of beta, I will remove this section to better reflect its true public status.

I'm hoping the Community will function as a member-curated dash, resource hub and visual diary for my projects and member created works. There are no hard feelings if you want to leave the Discord and only join the Community. Please do what makes you comfortable!

Want to submit? You can either fill out the google form here or send me an ask with the relevant information!

Is my space suitable for the Compendium? Most of the time, yes! Below the read more is some more information/stipulations. Again, all the below information is accessible on the document! 🌻

Below are the following things I do not accept on the Compendium:

Personal/Single-Character LFC ads.

Content intended for or can be used for bullying, harassment and OOC gossip. E.g. ‘Secrets’ blogs, receipts, callout posts, etc. This does not include in-character tabloid blogs used to generate RP.

Communities that do not have an RP/writing element (large-scale exempt).

Anything I find personally distasteful or goes against the spirit of this project.

Common-sense rule applies.

FAQ.

I want to put my community on the compendium but we have an application process. Is this okay?

Yes! Just note somewhere in your application that's a requirement. The only thing that is mandatory for the Compendium is that you must be open to new members or have a public-facing/accessible facet. There's no point advertising a community if no one can join it in some way!

I want to put my community on the compendium but I only have x number of members —

Also totally okay! People don't start with large communities. Activity is a must but, whether your server has two or two thousand members, if you're looking for new people to join, I'd love to help you find people.

I want to put my community on the compendium but I worry its too niche?

Okay, and? If your Eorzean Fishing Alliance has four members but you roleplay every second weekend, I still want to know about it.

What resources/communities can I add if I'm not the owner of them?

Mutual consent is extremely important to me, so anything that isn't a large-scale community OR a publicly accessible resource must be endorsed by the owner/admin/moderators in order to be added to the compendium. I operate under the assumption that a resource posted to a public space (tumblr, googledocs, youtube, etc) is open to all. A large-scale community is one with a significant member count or openly advertises itself as being accessible to everyone for whatever purpose it serves. If in doubt, please get in touch with me. I'm happy to contact your community owners for you!

How active does a community need to be?

If you find a community has not been active in about two/three months, send me a message and I'll take a look at it. Communities have ebbs and flows, especially event spaces that may take hiatuses depending on member interest/life events. I'm not strict in my implementation provided a space isn't dead. If a link or anything is broken, absolutely contact me about that.

I have [insert a question not stated here]?

No drama! Send me an ask or use the #Compendium channel in my Discord!

[cat-eclipse-m]

intro/masterpost

BIO>>>

NAMEZ?: michael/mike/mikey, karim stone (not my real name lols), myekari, gweb (nickname only the specials can call me >:3)

NATIONALITY+RACE?: british, eurasian (europian+asian)

SEXUALITY/GENDER?: ace+demi, transmasc/demiboy

PRONOUNZ?: meow/star/xe/it or they/he/she (for simplicity's sake, star/they)

LIKEZ?: the arts, generally (includes music, drama, art, etc), soft plushies, fidget items, baggy clothing

AESTHETIC?: my fav aesthetic gotta b scene/grunge with a mix of neon but i normally wear casual/streetwear

STAR SIGN?: pisces... yeah man im vry sensitive

TUMBLR @???: cat-eclipse-m, previously gweb-is-dead. i wanted my new handle to be a play on words, and i chose "cataclysm", so... cat... eclipse... m!!!! also cz i like kitties and the moon (nighttime is the BEST time)

PET PEEVEZ?: when ppl talk over you/interupt u in the MIDDLE of a convo, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE HYPERFIXATING!!! LIKE BRO??

MELTZ ME: things that make me go gooey inside include things like when ppl tell me they got something for me and its something they KNOW i'd like when i've never told them. reading the lil signs makes me so happy :3

~ i use :3 XD X3 XP :P etc a lot and unironically heeheef // helpful when using tonetags like /j /srs /sarc so yk thx ^3^

~ i have adhd (mixed) and i used to be medicated (not anymore!!! i've escaped the shackles >:3)

WOAOAHIA - me when my friends/mutuals reblog my posts;

~ personas importantés ~ (MOOTz)>>>

~ @number0mostevilgirlever

~ @moku-and-his-madness

~ @radioactive-mammothade

~ @buffporcupine

~ @howlctts

~ @just-type-it

~ @555cat

~ @tinybitofhope

~ @agentldiddy

~ @fartcowboy

~ @aspenii

are my posts viewer friendly? well... they can include;

~ suicide/suicidal ideation

~ self-harm/scars/bruises/cuts/physical trauma

~ gore/blood/gutz

~ murder/violence/weaponry

~ harsh language/profanity

~ suggestive??? <(by this i mean i culd post abt shirtless gay men wait wh-)(i nver post straight up NSFW/nudity btw,)

OBSESSIONS; (COLOURCODE: WEBTOONS // VIDEO FORM MEDIA // HOBBIES)

kill the dragon (ktd), one coin clear (occ), my s class hunters (msch), school bus graveyard (sbg), clinic of horrors (coh), hand jumper (hj), interpretation of the shadows (iots), bugtopia/monsters n girls (idolomantises), not so slient (nss), jackson's diary (j'sd/jd), batman: wayne family adventures (b:wfa), nerd and jock (with olga + tiger) (naj+ot), marionetta, potion witch (pw), silent screams (ss), winter before spring (wbs), between the branches (btb)

helluva boss/hazbin hotel (hellaverse), arcane

drawing, listening 2/creating/writing music (lyrics), making comics (sometimes), animating every so often

MASTERPOSTS BELOW!!!;

SONGSCRIPTS MASTERPOST

RANDOMS/SONA STUFF

MY OWN WIP WEBTOON

FANDOMS MASTERPOST

HOLIDAEZ XD

DIVIDER CREDITS (IN ORDER):

@rusababy

@inklore

@strangergraphics

@enchanthings

thkxs guys, love you <3

[traumatizedjaguar]

how do you tell if someone you love is a narcissist and what to do?

First I’m confused on why you’re asking this question and exactly what you are looking for? Some people have asked me bc they tell me they’re living with an abuser so that’s how I’m going to take your question…

If that’s the case and you have an abuser you’re living with and you can’t get away yet I don’t exactly have any good advice other than the usual we survivors always tell each other:

leave when it’s safest

keep everything low key and secret from your abusers such as passwords, accounts and users, jobs you’re working, etc.

Don’t leave papers with your passwords and usernames written down laying around your bedroom if you’re living with an abuser

!!! Lemme add: I used to write down on paper fake usernames and fake passwords and I’d leave it on my desk or in a drawer easy to find so my abusers wouldn’t know my actual accounts and passwords !!!

grey rock technique is always useful

And you can’t control how people perceive you when you’re being smear campaigned, so it’s best not to care about it and do your best with your life for yourself

Look for local DV shelters

Also do t leave journals or diaries laying around, I keep an online diary password locked

I’m posting a master-post soon about how to do your best living with abusers still in your life based on techniques and other things I’ve used to help myself deal with abusers. I’m almost done with it. It’s kind of based off one persons experience I.e. my own lol and everyone’s experience with abusers is unique. So some of what I say might not work for you, some will.

I can’t use words like narcissism on tumblr when talking about abusers, although about 6 of my abusers actually had NPD, ASPD, other stuff and Conduct Disorder (some were flying monkeys who abused me) and these disorders certainly impacted how they behaved with me (using fire to harm people, abusing animals, bullying, physical cruelty, sexually abusive both coercively and violently, excessive lying issues and manipulation, deceitfulness, justifying harming others, vandalism of property, conning, severe possessiveness and jealousy issues, lacking in remorse and care).

It’s common for psychological abusers to have “gangs” of others just like them/same personality and behaviors. Which is why you often see them together in numbers behind the scenes.

It’s best to use the word abuser or psychological abuser instead at least that’s what I do on my tumblr account as not to cause uproar. But you can still be honest about how their symptoms impacted you, as I still talk about it too.^

Idk if this person you’re referring to is someone abusive, someone you wish to keep in your life, or someone you’re just trying to help?

You can’t help abusers nor should you try, I’ve been there with all of my abusers and it’s a bad cycle to stay in. Don’t try to get them help if they’re abusive, just leave when you can. Grey Rock everyday. Please never try to stay and help an abuser.

——————————————

If they’re a loved one who isn’t an abuser (rarely have people asked me it this way ahhh):

Then it’s best to just bring up the disorder casually instead of accusatory.

Like say you’re interested in psychology and want to share what you’ve learned and you can go over the symptoms like, “such an interesting disorder I have been learning about!” And then go over the symptoms more so in depth with examples of how the symptoms can manifest and see if they start thinking about it as “huh I do that?” That way you don’t make it sound accusatory, but instead you are just casually talking about a subject!

That’s all I can come up with unless you have specific questions or specific needs? I’m not the best with advice but we’ll see hah

[oleander-foxglove]

An Introduction

After using tumblr for Gods know how many years, it seems appropriate to finally include an introduction for anyone curious.

Name: Taylor (or Olly/Lee in certain circles)

Location: England, UK

Age: 26

Pronouns: He/They/It

Favourite Colours: Prussian Blue, jewel tones, gold/brass.

Favourite Songs: Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls, First Love by The Macabees (specifically a paper animated interation on YouTube), and Escape by Rupert Holmes

Favourite Books: The Poison Diaries by Maryrose Wood, Fractal Noise by Christopher Paolini

Pansexual, Polyamorous, Enby/Trans masc

My body feels masculine enough that I have no desire to physically transition. I feel comfortable in the body i have as is in terms of gender, how it is percieved is a different issue. Generally speaking this is a NSFT/NSFW blog. I don't feel a need to separate my horny side from the rest of me- it's a big enough component of my general personality that i'm willing to keep it all together. Minors DNI, this blog is entirely 18+. I am an owned service sub. I don't like being called by dominant titles at all- it feels disrespectful to my Master to put us as the same status, and just... doesn't suit me in the slightest. He considers me His: His puppy; His cow; His doll; His drone; His acolyte; His property. I don't mind others using submissive titles casually (e.g. pup, puppy), but there should be no expectation of reciprocation behind it. I'm an open book, provided people turn to the right page. I.e. I'll happily discuss a lot of things about myself, but need prompting first.

Please assume anything not listed as a limit is something I am actively or passively interested in, or simply am unaware of.

Dynamics I'm Interested In:

Priest/acolyte

Master/slave or doll

Captor/captive

Predator/prey

Hive or Hive-Royal/drone

Hard Limits:

Scat

Vomit

Ageplay/ DDlg

Rejection and being deliberately ignored

Bimboification (specifically in relation to age play)

Forced feminisation (to such a degree it triggers dysphoria) and/or detransition stuff (Specifically as it pertains to kink)

Soft Limits:

Piss (No distinct interest, but also doesn't bother me)

Piercings (I'm fussy with being pierced and would prefer a professional doing it, but the concept is hot)

Savoury food play (awkward and uncomfortable experiences in the past, and also don't touch my food)

I'm not often someone who posts my own thoughts- though i'd like that to change. Any sub-coded posts by me will be colour coded into the main headspaces I tend towards: puppy, cow, doll, drone, and acolyte. All posts will be tagged under #OllyFoxPosts. Thank you for reading so far- it's appreciated. I'm always open to asks or DMs from anyone. ~Mr. R approved~

[celaenaeiln]

Ok this is random, and all but I have made it my sworn duty to submit at least 3 questions a week, and it's like a minute before the end of this week. Have you ever been in a harry Potter phase, because I saw you use it as a reference for one post about happy robin, and also because I'm stumped on what to ask you and I DO NOT want to break my record

I HAD A HUGE HARRY POTTER PHASE!!

Harry Potter was my first book series ever actually and I just completely fell in love with it. Batfam came much later but the longest ongoing fandom I've ever been in is the Harry Potter now. I haven't been in it for about a year now but wow it was my first fandom ever. I used to read dramione fics on wattpad lol my first fanfiction introduction.

I was a massive hermione stan so I read a bunch of fics about her. My favorite pairing used to dramione but as I grew older I started falling into tomione (^◇^；) but really I was casual hermione x everyone shipper.

I even did the pottermore thing too online where you can quiz yourself to see what house, wand, and patronus you get and I got slytherin which didn't come as a surprise at all. At the time I thought it was so cool to be part of the evil house lol. I was such an embarrassing kid looking back.

Actually I originally created my tumblr account to see dramione stuff lol before I started getting into other fandoms and it became my fall back fandom when I was bored with the other ones or did want to engage with them.

I didn't really have a second favorite character after Hermione, I don't think Dumbledore deserves to be hated for being manipulative, and wtf is going on with the cursed child.

Writing this is giving me so many flashbacks it makes me want to start reading the fics again! It's also 1 of only 6 fandoms I've ever created a separate list of fics for because I really loved the source thing.

My favorite class was Charms because I thought it would be the most useful too. Don't want to make your bed? Magic! Don't want to clean the kitchen? Magic! Want to redecorate? Magic!!! Charms is so versatile that you can use it for anything. If voldemort was smarter he would've magicked his face to look normal using Charms, approached harry, and killed him. Voila! Problem solved! But I guess he lost his brains along with his beauty sadly but not unfortunately.

I heard there's a new Marauders movie coming out?? I wasn't going to watch it but then I saw people shipping James Potter and Regulus Black together because of it and now I want to see it only out of sheer bewilderment of what could've possibly led to that. Or so I tell myself.

The Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them!! I LOVED the movie series!!! The first two were really good and third was okay but all that doesn't matter because the graphics. Unpopular opinion but I really loved the original Percy Jackson movies even though they were nothing like the books because the graphics were so cool. Action movies are my favorite so seeing columns of water rise up and seeing how real it looked, it was like a fantasy turned reality! The Harry Potter and Fantastic Beasts movie series, I fell in love watching them because of the magic.

Which is hilarious now because I used to be scared of watching the Harry Potter movies! When my parents watched the first movie and I was really little I would hide because I was really scared of Voldemort and felt really sad about Harry losing his parents and the thought of it made me cry 😅🙈

But yeah Harry Potter is like number 2 biggest fandom for me right after the Batfam although it used to be number one. I have a fleeting interest span. So if I'm addicted to a show but I don't watch it for a few days, I lose all interest in it completely and forever (sorry Vampire Diaries) or a game (goodbye sky: children of the light) but these two fandoms, I can not be in them for several months or even years but I never lose interest. Just my love for them ig!

[vglygrrl]

hello Tumblr

I come to this blog like a pen to paper, like a diary.

I’m not built to withstand our current internet culture of influencers and branding and marketing. I can never decide where to start.

As someone who’s largely grown up in this culture it’s something I’ve grown used to, or aspire to even, I’ve had probably a dozen instagram accounts in my time — dedicated to fandoms; justin bieber, twenty one pilots, dedicated to my art, or reading, or the business I someday plan to open. Even past Tumblr accounts, casual posts and reblogs and the same art sharing. Some of these accounts have sat unused on my phone for years, taunting me, and others have long since been deleted.

I used to make friends on the internet, truthfully, I fostered a lot of inappropriate relationships and saw a lot of things I had no business seeing at 12 or 14, before the great nipple ban. But I made a lot of great friends too, fandom friends who I could talk to every day, some people I check in on to this day, some I don't remember. I had more online long distance boyfriends than I can count. I did it all at a young age, and learned my lesson at a young age. At 18 I had "outgrown" those things, the memories, bad overshadowing the good, haunted me. So many parts of the internet became graveyards to me. My "grief", too large to overcome I shut it out, and stayed away.

I did the same thing in real life, I lost people, and parts of myself I never thought I would. I've become something new altogether, frankensteins monster of experiences and the lack thereof.

I missed my opportunity in the easy days of youtube fame, early tiktok stardom, tumblr aestheticism. I’ve been here for all of it, watching silently from the shadows.��It's easy to fall into the habit of comparing, something I'm not immune to, I take par asocial relationships and delusion to a whole new level. Have you ever been so occupied thinking of something, a show, movie, book, a band or celebrity you love, that you're transported there? Whatever name it's given, maladaptive daydreaming, imagination. When I love something, I really love it, it consumes me, my imagination is so bountiful that I can make believe my entire reality. Sure I'm scraping by now but if I just put myself out there I'd make friends, people would interact with my posts, like my art, the more time I dedicate to it the more I'll get out of it, I'll buy a house, travel, move, grow up, someday when I'm old I'll take younger creatives under my wing to guide them through all of these things I thrust myself at blindly. And somehow the high I was riding from the rom/com I watched late last night paints rose colored glasses over not only my relationship but of my idea of myself and what I'm capable of.

When I snap out of it, my life isn't as great as the influencers, I work a regular day job, I live in a small old apartment with no particular curated aesthetic, I don't read or write or exercise or really do anything daily. I have no friends and barely leave my apartment.

I’m afraid of vulnerability, I'm afraid of being misunderstood or embarrassed or even worse, ignored completely. I'm afraid of not being good enough.

The internet is a void you shout into. 

I am isolated.

[eldritchsurveys]

1273.

Would you ever visit a nude beach? >> Absolutely. Being able to be casually nude around other casually nude people without it being A Big Fucking Deal is something I regard as a personal necessity but there are like... zero spaces for that in this society. Something about only seeing nude bodies in media where they're heavily doctored to fit a Certain Standard is insidious to me. Makes it difficult not to have really warped perceptions about what a body is supposed to look like. (It's also why I appreciate regular non-influencer people on socmed posting nudes of themselves.)

Do you take any prescription meds? >> I take birth control.

Who was the last person you dreamt about? .

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? >> The Internet. I forget the website.

Where was the last place you spent more than $50? >> I, personally, haven't spent more than $50 in a while because I haven't had that much money in a while. But on the Frankenmuth trip we spent more than $50 at Bronner's Christmas Wonderland.

Are there any buttons on the clothes you’re wearing? >> There are not.

How about zippers? >> There are not.

Have you had any fruit today? >> I haven't had anything yet. It's very early in the morning.

Are your fingernails painted? >> They are, for once! Sparrow's mother booked us manicures at the spa across the street from the hotel in Frankenmuth and it's still holding up a week later. The colour is a gorgeous deep wine-red sort of colour with shimmer and I'm obsessed with it, I need to go to an Ulta or something and find a bottle for myself.

Do you keep a diary/journal? >> I do, in my main Obsidian vault.

In how many years will you be thirty? >> In -7 years.

Why do you like the person you like? . Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? >> Sparrow.

Who’s the last person that came up behind you and covered your eyes? .

Think about the last compliment you received, what was it on? .

What are you dressing up as for Halloween? .

And you’re male, right? >> I am not anything of the sort, although there are many incarnations where I am perceived as such. Not this one, although for a short period of time the body was perceived as such because we were on HRT.

Is there anything you should be doing right now? >> There is not. How many courses are you in at school? .

Is your best friend a slut? .

Is smoking pot a turn off? >> Of course not.

Are you texting the last male you cuddled with? . Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months? >> This question is so ubiquitous on surveys (the time frame sometimes varies, but 3 months does seem to be the average) and I don't understand why. What does this even mean? Is being in a romantic relationship for 3 months somehow a big challenge for people to the point where this question seems worth asking? I'm so confused, someone please explain. What were you doing at nine last night? >> I was on... tumblr? I was on my laptop, regardless.

Is it easy to make you cry? >> I don't know how to answer this... like, I cry easily when I feel like crying, but that's not to say that many things make me cry. Also, I don't always cry because of something. Crying is a stress release mechanism, too. Sometimes I just have a lot going on in my body and it needs to get out. But that doesn't necessarily mean something specific triggered the response.

Do you have any dishes in your room? >> Clean ones, yeah -- all my mugs and my cereal bowl are in my room because there's not enough cabinet space in the kitchen for them. Which annoys the fuck out of me. What color are your eyes? >> Dark brown.

Do you know who you’ll even kiss next? .

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do? >> Probably.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it? >> I don't know. I'm not sure many people have made promises to me at all.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? >> I don't "sleep in" or "not sleep in", I just sleep.

Are you planning on going to college? >> LMAO never.

[leoolol2]

29/09/2024

I wasn't expecting something this big, but here is my second day of writing.

anotação pro meu psicólogo: o senhor pode me fazer um relatório pra eu ir pro psicólogo da minha mãe, por favor? ela queria que eu fosse porque eu realmente tô com dificuldade de estudar mesmo estudando fora do meu quarto, e ela achava que o meu quarto era o problema. :) obrigado.

Well, I can't sleep. Like, at all. So here I am, already writing this in 2:30 AM! I probably will have an all-nighter and wtv, I should be productive tonight.

I was a bit productive, doing some of my math homework and watching some mvs from my fav bands until 4 am and then just passing out. I then woke up at 9, and my mom wrote some of my fav bands on my nails! i forgot to mention yesterday that i painted my own nails at night. (mcr and p!atd). i also took a bath in the morning and washed my hair; something i think i havent done for about 1 or 2 weeks? i think im getting worse, mental health wise, but i dont know. i'll update this once the afternoon ends. I also ranted a bunch about mcr and fob to my mom, and she complained about linkin park to me. i love my mom and having similar interests with her! My brother came to visit us today! :)

I ate some actual meal today: broccoli, rice, just a bit grinded meat, sweet potato, and normal potato. The broccoli tasted like shit. I also drank peach tea. After lunch, we went back home and got my Nina the Killer cosplay jacket to a dressmaker so that she could put a zipper on it. We then went to get some icecream at McDonald's! I ranted a bunch about MCR again but this time to my brother. :)

After that we went back home and my family decided to put up the shelf I had on my floor for the longest time. It's a bit crooked, but I don't mind, honestly. I now have a bunch of shit I need to put up on the shelf once more, though. It's all on my bed, making me barely able to sit here and write this on my PC. Well, I should put up my stuff on my "new" shelf.

after scrolling through tumblr a bunch my mom did my nails for me. it was fun. i only got a top coat added because my black nail polish is on the verge of dying but its fine! i'll buy some later. my nails are not shiny, though.

i did some of my hw, and also got my piano out of under my bed! my friend also got me in contact w this russian boy, i think hes cute. hes in brazil too, so i rly hope he replies to my dm on insta.

im so so soo sleepy, so im gonna go sleep after i finish at least this teacher's hw. its 21:47, for the record. i didn't stay up that late today. still, im gonna post this. i hope whoever reads this has a good day!

꒰꒰・┄┄┄┄・rants section・┄┄┄┄・꒱꒱

this is a section i made up to see if any time i have any rants, i come here!

so it will be more in depth than the actual casual diary. (i also will mention when exactly i wrote it!)

12:52. thinking about how my therapist tells me to act as my own best friend. i dont know how, genuinely. i cannot. maybe i can suck my own dick sometimes and tell myself im so hot and the best person in the world, but thats obviously not true. its not like i feel like that all the time, either. from a day to another i suddenly feel like the worst person alive. its not as if someone tells me that i am, or something triggers me. i just feel that out of no where. but whatever.

16:22. My dad doesn't understand that yelling at my dog doesn't do anything. It just makes her madder and more pissed off at the world and makes me actually feel sick and about to cry. I want to protect her from everything. I don't want to be here, I want to go away with her and fuck everything else. I won't be missed probably anyway. The only people that would miss me is my online friends, who doesn't really know me in real life. Well, I guess some that have this blog can now know more about me. :)

16:26. Thinking about the ripped up letter. I wasted 2 hours of my night writing that for a girl who didn't even want me romantically. She just wanted to have fun, someone to kiss with no feelings truly attached. I guess that would be fun if my feelings didn't feel so extreme. Someone I love can become someone I despise just because of a small mistake they didn't really mean to do. Well, I try not to be too mad at them for that, but this isn't the case of that anyway. I wanted her to be my girlfriend but she didn't want to have anything romantic. She practically cut ties and said that she had shit for yesterday when she used to be so excited to see me some time ago. Maybe it was an excuse that she made. Either way, we're not talking. I don't really care about her. I care about the time and words of mine that she wasted.

17:46. i was listening to music and back to the old house reminds me of them so much. fuck. i miss frank.

17:59. i feel too feminine, doing my nails and liking girly things. my face is too feminine, my voice is too feminine. everything about me, the way i walk, talk, read out loud, interact with my friends. absolutely everything. i want to cry thinking about it because i dont want to. maybe this is an internalized issue of some sort. i really need to address this in therapy, probably.

18:17. I just noticed im going back to my "scenecore"/crunkcore phase. fuck. one of my worst, honestly.

18:30. just wanna mention how amazing i feel rn:3 feeling on top of the world is so good !!

18:58. winderson is making me rage. makes me want to punch him or throw it somewhere. but he's my baby, i cant do that.

[avithenaftali]

I’m going to reblog this to add a bit of niche gay Tumblr history, which I tend to bring up in conversations whenever this subject comes up with friends, but I don’t know that I’ve ever seen it written down before. There used to be a pretty active subculture of essentially gay male ‘mentors’ on Tumblr, and the porn ban wiped that out completely.

What do I mean by gay mentors? Well, it worked like this. There were a lot of gay dudes on Tumblr with blogs sharing porn and GIF sets and so on. You know, the usual. Some of the blogs were pure porn, but a lot mixed it up with whatever they found interesting. Photographs, jokes, movie recommendations. Et cetera. It would give you a sense of the personality behind the blog, too. And some of these bloggers, they’d even share tidbits from their life. Casual humorous diary entries. Photos of meals they’d cooked with their partners. Endearing stuff.

And if one of these blogs got popular enough, if the personality behind the blog was warm and endearing enough, they’d start getting asks. 

A lot of anonymous asks. Mostly the asks were other gay dudes asking for advice. Advice on sex, advice on coming out, advice on dealing with depression or with abusive relationships or on getting over crushes on a straight dude or or or...

It was stuff where these dudes in the asks didn’t know anyone else they could ask. They asked the only other gay person they knew in their life who seemed so accessible, reachable — aka, the friendly dude sharing photos of his home-cooked meals, who was also running a porn blog. 

A lot of times, the asks were coming from gay guys in high school or college, who were closeted, or in a community or family that would turn aggressively on them if they were outed. And they’d send their questions to this stranger on Tumblr because... who else? There was no one else. 

And, look. Some of the gay bloggers who would get asks like this? Obviously many of these blogs weren’t run by people qualified to answer these questions. So yeah, some of them would ignore the asks, or reply to them in a kinda dismissive sarcastic way, and so people would just... stop sending them asks, for the most part.

But then there were guys who turned out to be really, really good at giving advice.

A subset of the most popular gay porn blogs, before the porn purge, had evolved into these online “safe” spaces where a gay teen or young adult could ask questions from another gay guy in his twenties or thirties — someone who was friendly, and kind, and very thoughtful in his answers. Someone who could crowdsource answers, too, if they didn’t know themselves. “Hey followers, does anyone have any good tips on this?” Generous, friendly vibes.

And people found that they could ask open honest questions which they couldn’t easily ask anyone else in their life. What to do about an STI scare. How to communicate with their boyfriend that they weren’t ready for sex. How to escape a homophobic family situation to safety. How to find gay friends in a new town where they didn’t know anyone. Just... any question.

Sometimes it was really just questions about, like... What is your life like, what with being gay and alive and (sometimes) being in a long-term relationship and having hobbies and interests, and not being closeted or ashamed or dead? How is that possible? How do you exist? 

Some of the asks were just from people who’d been told their whole life that gay men either died from AIDS or lived sinful hedonistic lives full of drugs and misery, and there was nothing else to gay life, no other options. Being gay meant one or the other. The idea of being able to talk to these other gay men who clearly were living their own lives, to ask for advice on life, on how to grapple with gayness and family and on how to date, or what a healthy relationship should look like, or how to deal with body shame, or probe at self-internalized homophobia, or or or...

I’m not saying there’s no other space on the internet that could provide this possible rapport. 

What I am saying is that it did develop entirely organically, entirely accidentally, and was omnipresent among a lot of gay porn blogs, on Tumblr, before the porn ban.

You’d come looking for porn and you’d find glimmers of community. It was impossible to escape it.

I remember when Trump was elected, and... this was stuff where people were freaking out and really scared, and sometimes not able to even express it publicly in their own lives due to being closeted or living in a really homophobic space. And they were able to talk about it and take comfort in conversations happening all over gay porn blogs on Tumblr. I remember when gay marriage was legalized and there were people in the asks, on gay porn blogs, talking to these unofficial gay ‘mentors’ about how much they wanted to celebrate but they couldn’t, because it wasn’t safe to be out. But at least they were able to be ecstatic and celebratory with these other gay men on these blogs, these men who had been in their shoes and gone through similar experiences when younger and who knew what they were going through now, these gay men whose sheer existence felt like being told over and over “you’re not alone,” these gay men who were sharing photos of themselves celebrating with their loved ones because they knew that it felt radical to share that, it still felt radical to share evidence of being gay while existing and thriving, it still felt necessary. Some of these gay porn bloggers had been inadvertently thrust into the role of advice column and mentor, and they responded by giving care and kindness to the people popping up in their anonymous asks in between GIFs of sucking and fucking, they tended to the nervous and the scared in between videos of sloppy blowjobs and improvised threesomes, because how could they not give care and kindness to these other gay men who were too scared and nervous to ask for it sometimes, who visibly needed it the most? How could they not?

“It’s just pornography.” The community was inextricable from the porn. This is an oral history based on an inexact memory because there’s no real record of it left. None of the community spaces exist anymore. They’re all gone. Erased from the history of the internet, for the most part. 

It was just porn.

“Bottom line: There are no shortage of sites on the internet that feature adult content.”

This? In particular? Pisses me off. I hate it.

I hate the implication that all porn is interchangeable and devoid of cultural value, so it’s no big deal when a decade’s worth of creative endeavor produced by a vibrant subculture is destroyed, because, whatever, it’s just dirty pictures.

I hate the disingenuous inability to see a distinction between a website that is about porn only, and a website that allows people to blog about all of their interests and aspects of their lives including sex and porn because those are normal parts of the human experience.

It’s the most tone-deaf bullshit.

[sunseteternal]

About Me

You can call me K because I'm not about putting too much of my personal information out on the internet (there's a lot of creeps out there, peeps)

22 | '02 | She/Her | Straight | American | White

Some of my hobbies include Reading, Writing, Listening to Music, Going on Walks, and Playing Mobile Puzzle Games.

You can also find me on AO3 and Wattpad

AO3: Ks_World

Wattpad: Casuallypretty

*Note: Out of all 3 platforms, I am most active on Wattpad, only because I am still learning how to operate Tumblr and AO3 as a Writer. I am on Tumblr and AO3, but I have mostly been reading fics. Recently, I have been wanting to try out writing on both platforms, but I still need to figure out how to properly use them. So, until then, you can find me more on Wattpad. I am currently in the process of releasing fics, but I thought I would try to spread my name out there more as a Writer by using more than one platform. I have over 100 drafts on Wattpad that I am in the process of writing and have two published stories, but they are currently on a hiatus until I find inspiration for them again. As of Tumblr and AO3, I have nothing in the works yet, but I hope to be releasing content soon as I am trying to get back into writing again. So, please look forward to future works from me! 🧡

Stan List

I'm a K-Pop Multistan of multiple groups and a few soloists. I'm always getting in to more artists so my stan list is subject to change quite a bit.

*Key: Bias/ Bias Wrecker(s)

Ult Bias ~ K (&TEAM)

Groups:

BTS - Jimin & Jungkook/ J-Hope & Suga SEVENTEEN - Vernon/ Dino TXT - Taehyun & Beomgyu/ Yeonjun ENHYPEN - Heeseung/ OT6 &TEAM - K/ OT8 BND (BOYNEXTDOOR) - Riwoo & Jaehyun/ Taesan & Leehan Le Sserafim - Yunjin/ Chaewon KATSEYE - OT6

EXO - Baekhyun/ Chanyeol SuperM - Taeyong/ Baekhyun NCT 127 - Yuta/ Taeyong & Jaehyun & Jungwoo & Haechan NCT Dream - Jaemin/ Renjun & Jeno & Chenle WayV - Yangyang/ OT5 NCT Wish - Sion/ Jaehee RIIZE - Anton/ Shotaro & Sungchan & Wonbin Red Velvet - Seulgi/ Irene

GOT7 - Jackson/ Bambam & Mark Stray Kids - Hyunjin/ Felix Twice - Jihyo/ Tzuyu

BLACKPINK - Rosé/ Lisa & Jennie

The Boyz - Eric/ Kevin & Jacob

Ateez - Wooyoung/ Hongjoong

ZEROBASEONE - Hanbin & Zhanghao/ Ricky & Gyuvin

KARD - BM & Jiwoo/ J.Seph & Somin (I DO NOT SHIP! This is just my bias of the guys and the girls)

*Note: I only write fanfics for Boy Groups. Though you may still see some of the Girl Group members from any of the groups I stan show up in my writings as the Female OC's friends.

Other Groups I have listened to (some of them only a song or two), but don't stan (YET):

Boy Groups IKON Pentagon MONSTA X TREASURE VIXX Winner Super Junior Shinee BTOB

Girl Groups Mamamoo Aespa Everglow Itzy Illit New Jeans IVE NMIXX Kiss Of Life Babymonster G-I-DLE

Soloists:

*The following are solo artists that I have casually listened to, but I don’t stan them as hard as the groups.

Jackson Wang

Bambam

Lay Zhang

Taeyang

Kang Daniel

Zico

Junny

Jeon Somi

Taeyeon

Non-Kpop Artists:

Ariana Grande

Justin Bieber

The Weeknd

Camila Cabello

Ava Max

Melanie Martinez

Kehlani

Chase Atlantic

Jonas Brothers

Charlie Puth

Jason Derulo

Halsey

Usher

Chris Brown

Nicki Minaj

Doja Cat

Tate McRae

5 Seconds of Summer

Sabrina Carpenter

Kesha

Maroon 5

Lady Gaga

Sza

Summer Walker

Rihanna

Shawn Mendes

Ed Sheeran

Khalid

The Chainsmokers

Harry Styles

ZAYN

Bruno Mars

Cardi B

Megan Thee Stallion

Bea Miller

Madison Beer

MKTO

Dua Lipa

Troye Sivan

Alessia Cara

Selena Gomez

Lauv

Normani

Zara Larsson

Demi Lovato

Ellie Goulding

and Many More ...

Other Non-Kpop Fandoms:

*Movies/ TV Shows

Maze Runner

Harry Potter

The Hobbit/ LOTR

Star Wars

Twilight

Marvel (Avengers, X-Men)

DC

OUAT (Once Upon A Time)

13 Reasons Why

TVD (The Vampire Diaries)

Shameless (US)

Transformers

Umbrella Academy

AHS (American Horror Story)

The Hunger Games

The Outsiders

*Anime's

Inuyasha

Fruits Basket

Seven Deadly Sins

Fairytail

SAO (Sword Art Online)

My Neighbor Totoro

Ponyo

Princess Mononoke

Ariety

Spirited Away

Howl's Moving Castle

Belle

Demon Slayer

So I'm A Spider, So What?

and More ...

[fearthedietcoke]

Ope! Look, I’m using tumblr as a personal diary again, don’t mind me.

I wasn’t made for casual dating,

I was made for soul crushing devotion and love,

All I want is to find someone who will allow me to grow and help them grow, too.

Instead, I get strung along for two months, finally go on a date, and then ghosted after she told me she would love to see me again.

It’s kinda embarrassing at this point how long I’ve been trying to date someone and just haven’t found anyone. Makes me feel like I’m the issue, that there’s something wrong with me, and that’s why I can’t find a partner.

Logically I know it’s probably just the fact that I live in the south and there isn’t a large amount of queer people to talk to, but fuck it feels defeating and draining.