#just a very nice night with some really chill people 😊

[yourimagines]

Hi 👋🏻 I really love your stories, keep up the good work!

Can you write one for me please?

Reader meets Nate or Nick during a vacation trip. She’s from Europe and is younger than he is.

Thank you so much 😊

Yess I will, I’ll start with Nate, I upload later a version of Nick.

First time

* English is not my first language I apologise

* Triggers: Swearing, Fluff (bff name Y/BB/N, friends name Y/F/N)

Y/N POV

Here I was in Miami for the first time with my friends, it was me and five others. “Y/N, lets go, I want that good spot at the beach.” My best friend said. “Yeah yeah I’m coming.” I jumped out of our rented car and grabbed my bag. “I really can’t believe it.” An other friend said. “I know right?!” They where slightly freaking out as I just rolled my eyes. “Are we ready or not?” I locked the car and walked up to the beach, they quickly followed me. “Girl we are always ready.”

We where laying on these sun beds as a large group of guys walked passed us. My best friend was sneakily checking them out as she was wearing her big sunglasses. “They look fit tho.” “Oh please Y/BBF/N behave, it’s our second day here in America.” She only giggles. “I’m sorry I can’t help myself.” They guys stopped a bit further away as they all lined up for a photo. “Say cheese!” She yells as they posed. I quickly hide my face in my hands as one other friend hit her leg and the others giggles out. “God dammit Y/BBF/N.” I was embarrassed by her. I carefully looked and the guys walked back to their chilling spot, a few meter away from us. “Why did you do that?!” I whispered yelled at her. “Oh come on Y/N, it was funny.” Y/F/N shook her head. “No it was not, you don’t know these people, were in Miami not in freaking Cambridge.”

Y/BBF/N and Y/F/N went off to get us some ice cream, the three other went off for a swim, leaving me alone. I was reading a book when I heard someone walking up “Hey.” I looked up from my book and saw a good looking guy standing at my feet, blocking the sun. “Hi.” I smiled at him. “I’m sorry to bother you but your friends are with us, I thought I should tell you.” I nodded friendly at him. “Thank you for telling me.” I looked back at my book. “If you want you can join as well.” I looked back at him. “That’s very kind but I decline, thank you tho.” I looked back at my book again. “Okay, we’ll if you change your mind you’re welcome to join.” “Thank you.” I saw in the corner of my eyes he left. ‘I’m not here for the guys like the rest of our group, just let me be me, please.’

The day went fast as I was mostly alone, one friend joined me for awhile because she wanted to check on me. “You don’t have to be here, I’m fine I like this.” “I know but this is our vacation trip, we should stay together tho.” I looked at her and smiled. “It’s fine, go enjoy, we are together later today.” She nods and stands up. “But promise me one thing tho.” She nods. “Don’t go home with them, just don’t okay.” “I promise, I’m not a fool.” “I know but they other might be.” “I watch them don’t worry.” She smiles and leaves me alone.

They all came back, giggling. “Hey y/n.” “Hey guys.” They all packed their stuff. “I’m hungry.” I said while grabbing my bag. “I’m more like craving for some cocktails.” My bestie said. “No thanks I’m more into fast food.” She groans. “Come on just one night.” I sighed. “Okay I make you a deal. We’re going for some fast food and after that we hit the club for some cocktails.” She was almost begging me as she had her hands in a prayer. “Okay fine but I choose where we are going to eat then.”

I hated that I agreed with them. They where invited by that group of guys to join them for a drink. “This is y/n, she’s the oldest from our group.” My bestie said to them. I simply smiled at them. “Nice to meet you y/n, I’m Nate.” That good looking guy from earlier gave me a hand. “Hi, nice to meet you to Nate.” My bestie walked away to the others as Nate and I stayed behind at the bar.

“You’re not a big fan of this, Am I right?” “Yeah you’re right.” He nods and took a sip from his drink. “it’s okay tho, everyone has their least favourite activities.” I smiled at him. “I’m not boring if’s that what you’re thinking.” He chuckles. “I didn’t thought that but it’s good to know that you’re not boring.” I laughed and shook my head. “I��m more like a history kind of a person, I want to see things, not lay on a beach and drink my vacation away type.” He nods. “Your not from here right?” I nodded. “Well you should check out this place.” He showed me on his phone a restaurant. “The food is really good, one of my favourite placed here in Miami.” “It’s looks good.” “I know right.” He went to his instagram and I looked away, giving him some privacy. “What’s ya name.” “On instagram.” “Yeah, so I can send it to ya.” “Uh it’s Y/IG/N.” He typed away on his phone. “I send it to ya, you really should check it out.” “I will thanks.”

Nate and I where talking the whole night, drinking some soft drinks together. “I never got your age, your the oldest from the group she said right?” “Yeah I’m 28 years old, the youngest in our group is 22 years old, they are all nice people tho.” He nods. “And you? What’s your age?” “38.” He said as he took a sip from his drink. “Cool, you live around here?” “Nahh I’m from California Stockton. I’m here for a event.” I nodded.

The night became to an end as the bar was getting closed up. “They are fucked.” We where walking to the parking lot. My friends were wasted, giggling around as the guys helped them to our car. “Good luck with them.” Nate pointed out as Y/BBF/N crawled into the car. “Thanks. I really need that.” I opens my side of the car. “Be careful.” “I will and be careful as well , it was nice meeting you Nate.” “We will, it was really nice meeting you y/n.” We both smiled and Y/BBF/N whined out. “Ugh Y/N hurry the fuck up.” I laughed and got in the car. “Have fun this weekend.” “Yeah you too.” I waved them goodbye and drove us back to the hotel. “Y/N, he’s cute I hope you got his socials.” “Be quiet you all.” They all giggled as I got all shy about it. ‘They are right, he is cute.’

Y/IG/N

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First week in America got us good, thanks to the handsome fella who recommended me this restaurant 👊🏻❤️

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@ BestieF/N: life’s good here

@ CrazyF/N: Good choice 👍🏻

@ natediaz209: no problem 😉

@ Y/IG/N replied: ❤️

@ BestieF/N replied: 🙊

@ Sunflower22: great time with great friends 💕

@ Y/M/N: have fun ladies, Y/N be careful please ❤️

@ Y/IG/N replied: I will mom ❤️

[filthyslashertoad]

I love your profile pic and your header 😍 💗 💕

So I saw that your headers were open so I was hoping you could to do me... I have no idea what to put but I will try 🤷🏽‍♀️

So... I'm 5 foot 7 I'm African-American female. I am nice and love affection but I will get on you if you attack me or anyone I love. I am willing to work to build trust with people no matter how long it takes. I will take care of you and your basic needs, I cook clean whatever I make sure you're okay you have no injuries to take care of you. I am very romantic and I love R&B music I don't really like the rap nowadays I like old school music. I always have my earbuds in my ears while doing chores or stuff like that but otherwise I'm free, I don't really watch a lot of TV I'm always on my phone but if you need me I'm all ears. I like trying different hairstyles with my hair. I am adventurous I like doing different things and trying new food I'm also on the contrary I like to stay in house and just cuddle with my significant other #Michael Myers. I have a couple of friends but we don't usually hang out so I'm in the house. I like to eat snacks and I like to bake my significant other and do other romantic stuff. I'm not really mean unless you provoke me my style is kind of modern but also laid back like during the day I like little dress pants a little cool shirt with some heels I love bell bottom pants with some heels some heel boots with a black p coat (black and white are my favorite colors) and stuff like that and for night time I like wearing matching tops and bottoms and then I like to match clothes with my significant other if .for Halloween I would like to dress up as my significant other and my significant other dress up as me or be in the house and chill. I think about getting married and having kids with my significant other so not really sure how that's going to go but yeah. I'm also very in tune with some of my cultures designs like the colors and stuff so i might wear little cute African outfits with my waist beads and I do different styles with my hair and stuff, also I like that to dress and impress my significant other. I would make food for them, I'll treat them, I'll spoil my significant other. I'm open to anything their open with long as it has nothing to do with murder because no. sometimes I can be really playful and I can probably bug the shit out of my significant other but other times I could just be real chill do whatever needs to be done. so yeah that's about all I have because I really don't know what I'm supposed to write here so yeah thank you and I hope you have a great day 🙃😊🥰😌😝

Me: @njcrazy19

Oki

I match you with:

Bo Sinclair

Learnt how to cook just so you can try some of the food he grew up with.

Brings you clothes and stuff for baking whenever he goes into the other town.

Teases you for some of your music taste but he ends up listening to it while he's working in the gas station.

Secretly super needy for your attention and praise.

Often gives you love and affection hoping you'll return the favor.

[osamusriceballs]

Eve bby, Osamu is busy on weekends, his restaurant is full of people because his food is so popular 😊 But you three can have fun, yeah. Akaashi and Osamu... I find it a very cute ship, actually. I think they'd work well together. I'm not sure how Osamu and Bokuto would work though but it'd be very interesting to explore their dynamics. Bokuto can always benefit from a chill guy. And that thigh combination... omg (sorry for spamming you; love you!)

Ele- pls leave me the illusion that he is free on sundays, I need that man to make me a nice breakfast after he spend a night with Bokuto and me pls ✊🏻

Just saw some Akaashi and Osamu fanart and- Yeees I can totally imagine them both ✊🏻💖 and Bokuto and Osamu- you‘re right, Bokuto would really benefit from a chilly guy, but Osamu can be quite impulsive too, so I guess it would never be boring around them 😂💖

LOVE YOU TOO, ELE!! 💖💖 pls go to bed early, one of us has to do it ✊🏻

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Heh heh. Yes, I'm doing fine. I hope you've been doing well, also. I love shipping and am always looking for new fandoms so I'll check that stuff out. 1, 3, 4, 5, 10, 11, 13, 14! If you have time. 😃

Oh yay! I’m very glad to hear it 😊😊 I have also been going well, thank you!! Thank you so much for more asks! And I hope you find some cool new fandom stuff and that you have a wonderful day! 😊

1. describe your idea of a perfect date

Just being able to spend time with the one I care about and talking to them. Though walking around a garden or a bookstore together is always nice too! ^_^ Honestly I’m just happy to chill at home with them too. As long as we are both happy and comfortable that’s all I’m really worried about.

3. do you want kids?

Nope! I’m going to be the cool lesbian aunt who has lots of cats, I definitely don’t want children of my own. Even if I do occasionally go through some moments of baby fever ahaha.

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?

I haven’t really thought about it. I know I wouldn’t want to carry a child though, and I wouldn’t want my child to have my genes. But I feel like you need to be a certain kind of person to adopt a child and I don’t think I would be able to fully give that child what they deserve, even if I tried my best. So I honestly have no idea, sorry!

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on

We went and got a drink at a cafe, then we went to the library to study together and afterwards we went walking around this beautiful garden near where we live and we called it a Studio Ghibli date. Gosh it made me so happy I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time. I felt like I had fallen into a romance novel. She also taught me some stuff about birds, which was really neat.

10. dog gay or cat gay?

Cat 100%. Dogs are cute but they are too smelly for my liking. The only dog I like is my sister’s dog, and he doesn’t act like any dog I’ve ever met before. But cats are soft and fluffy and they don’t need attention 24/7. My cat is also a big snuggle bunny at night and knows when I’m feeling sad. Cats are just the best!! I LOVE them.

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

I never really thought about it!! I mean it certainly isn’t something I need out of a partner, but if I really loved them and wanted to be with them I don’t see why them having those pets would stop me. As long as they knew how to keep everything clean and they weren’t, you know, overrunning with them I don’t think I would have an issue. Though it might take some getting used to on my part, overall I’m not much of an animal person ahaha.

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?

Hmmmm. I don’t know honestly. For a long time I didn’t even know they were thing. I didn’t know women and women and men and men could be with each other. I don’t think I had much of an opinion on gay men, it didn’t bother me either way, but I know when I was younger I thought being a lesbian was the worst possible thing that a woman could be. I thought it meant they were unhygienic and angry. I think I was just more worried that I actually was a lesbian and that people would think that about me. I’m glad I don’t feel that way now though lol. I think being a lesbian is pretty dang cool and there is so much rich history involved in being a lesbian. And I think there is something truly special about a relationship between two women that male x female couples don’t get to experience. So I’m grateful for that too ☺️

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

Oh boy. I’d probably just tell her she is going to be okay. And that I’m really proud of her. She wanted to give up so much but each time she got up and tried again. She was really brave and I’m so proud of her for that. She stayed strong so I could experience what I do now. Without her tenacity I wouldn’t have been able to experience all the good things that I have. I would also tell her she won’t feel lonely forever, because she is going to make some wonderful lesbian and gay friends who listen to her and love her. She probably wouldn’t believe me if I told her though, aha. I’d also tell her to stop deleting her writing that she thinks is terrible, it isn’t!! You actually go places with your writing, people actually like what you have to say so for the love of God stop deleting stuff because you’ll regret it. I’d also tell her she is really beautiful and should try to look after herself more, she isn’t nearly as ugly as she thinks she is. Though I wouldn’t blame her for not listening to that one, because current me doesn’t even listen nor believe that one ahaha. xD

[wanderinglotus7]

PURA VIDA

Costa Rica...checked and crossed off my travel bucket list! Visiting Costa Rica was a much needed vacation I wished we could’ve stayed longer. I’m not dreading of having to return to reality, yet it was nice just being in a different environment and experiencing a different pace from the day to day of American life. Though traveling to and from Costa Rica was a total headache, I’m blessed that me, Alex, & Daniela were able to make this journey. The road definitely wasn’t easy lol. The trip was supposed to be from Monday to Monday. However, the universe had other plans for us. None of us had that full week to really enjoy ourselves. Alex had Monday to Saturday. Daniela had Monday to Sunday. And I had Tuesday to Sunday. Bummer! I really believe someone placed a bad juju on us went it came to transportation. Delayed flights and cancellations, taxi/shuttle rides, last minute hotel reservations, and sleepovers in airports (this wasn’t what I signed up for).

Pura Vida means Pure Life which is the country’s main motto. To me this means taking life day by day. Or in other words, worry less smile more. Bob Marley: don’t worry about a thing because every little thing is gonna be alright. I held that peace within the entire time I was there. Waking up in the mornings with a hot cup of tea listening to the natural noises was so soothing. It pauses you and makes you appreciate the goodness of life. Not having the urge to needing to be somewhere like work or running errands was refreshing. I could breath easily and take my time like a 🦥 lol.

The beaches in the area are beautiful! Beautiful black & white sand, clear blue water, and cooling breeze whipping through the air. The water wasn’t that cold or that difficult to get used to. At some points, the Sun did show its colors, but the rays weren’t (heat) wasn’t too bad. The bugs weren’t too much of a problem either. The locals were friendly and chill. Everybody was doing their own thing. You could really feel the Caribbean vibes.

In the time that we had the group went ziplining, surfing, kayaking, and enjoyed a chocolate tour. Costa Rican chocolate is not as sweet as American chocolate, but still taste good. Ziplining and surfing is harder than I expected to be and left me feeling sore for a few days. I saw many wildlife without having to pay to see them. One thing for sure, we ate good lol! You definitely get your money’s worth. Whether sitting on the beach or at a bar, people watching will always be my thing. The nightlife in Puerto Viejo is okay I guess. Maybe we picked the wrong night to go out and about for party time. It is what it is. I’m not gonna complain because I still had fun and had the opportunity to dress cute.

There wasn’t any serious drama that happened. Nothing bad happened to any one of us. For planning my first trip, I didn’t do a bad job. Our Airbnb host was excellent and very helpful. The actual property was cute and comfy though there was some construction work happening next door. However, the extra noise wasn’t disturbing. Again, I feel at peace. I always feel refreshed after a trip whether it be a trip to Gloucester or a trip like this one. It’s a nice feeling having your soul be renewed especially having to experience some unexpected and hectic things occur in my personal life. I thought 2022 was for prosperity and growth. This trip taught me that this year is a season of letting go. Letting go of people and/or things that aren’t meant for me guides me towards prosperity & growth which results in peace and happiness. I recommend Costa Rica for anyone😊

[kinkandkreep]

So I went to A-Kon this weekend

And aside from the positively shitty cell reception and the initial problems with the scheduling/navigation, it was so fun, truly a worthwhile experience.

The fact that I was going by myself, on top of the fact that this was my very first con had me wary that I wouldn't get to enjoy the experience as much as say, if I had one of my homegirls that also was fond of anime and whatnot wit me.

But, it ended up being a fairly good thing going alone, since I didn't have to coordinate my schedule around anyone else's. I'm more of a loner too anyway so the freedom was nice. I would say having a friend could be very beneficial though, when it comes to waiting lines and things like that.

But even the time I just sat in line for, I kid you not, AN HOUR AND A HALF just to get into a panel or other event wasn't bad at all. I just sat on my phone and watched the people in their cosplays come and go. It was like sitting outside of Walmart during the late night to early morning hours. 😂😂

I went to some cool panels, got some autographs, didn't make many friends per say but the people were willing to help. (I also didn't get to attend a few of the panels I'd have liked to because so many of the things I wanted to join happened concurrently, but that's not so much the fault of the con or anything like that, and I do know it was possible to hit multiple spots back to back, I was just hesitant to move too much since, again, I was new and alone.)

A really big shout out to the people with Vocal Booth to Go and the Tonari Animation reps. They were super chill and accommodating and helpful, and overall seemed very organized.

The guys with Voices Carey did an amazing panel full of genuinely helpful information, and I even got to do a little voice work with them and receive pointers, which was so much fun.

It was also really nice to see the voice actors/actresses there be comfortable enough with the environment to just casually walk around and enjoy the event without the need for 4 armed guards surrounding them at all times. 🙃 I was so glad they could just chill and talk amongst themselves and with others without being bombarded by fans.

Speaking of the voice talent that was there (who have been tagged below), the ones I did get a chance to speak too were such genuine, kind, chill people, it was seriously one of the best experiences of my life, and not just because they're well-known. Everyone was so genuinely appreciative of the support they were shown and it really seemed that they cared for you as a person, not just as a fan or a customer. 😊

Also, I got to sit and eat and chat with KHOI DAO!??!??#?@?# Quite literally one of the BEST experiences of my life, not even joking.

He...was the epitome of cool and friendly and chill and funny and genuine, I honestly felt like he was my friend by the time our interactions were over.

It was so easy to talk to him and even though I was super anxious and a lil' self-conscious, it was easy to feel comfortable around him, like I could relax and be myself, and that I didn't have to be...ion no, some sort of perfect being to even be in his presence.

The Charity Banquet with the Stars event was a really nice touch, and on top of it being a great opportunity to mingle with some of your favs in a very atmospheric, causal setting, the money also went to a good cause, I believe this year it was the Scottish Rite Children's Hopsital.

The venue for the event overall, the Irving Convention Center at Los Colinas and that whole little area was pretty nice, since nothing was particularly far away from anything else, so the walking was fairly minimal, at least outside.

All in all, a 10/10 experience, would highly recommend to anyone who's contemplating going next year. 😁

[miheartsays]

August 15, 2019

Day 1: In a cabin with this really miskeen girl. I wish my partner was more lively and we could have some good chills but alas this is what I get. Hopefully everything sorts itself out because I would really like to leave camp with some lifelong friends Day 2: Definitely feeling better/in a better position than I was last year and I wouldn’t say that I don’t belong but I feel left out and like a lone wolf and im trying really hard to believe that it isn’t because of who I am personally but because this is how things are. Positive outlook. Hopefully someone moves in that brings a spark into my life but if that doesn’t end up happening, I believe in God and if this wasn’t meant for me than there is nothing I can do. Day 4: forgot to write something for day 3 but yesterday was pretty good. I shared a life story that has made me into who I am today. I went into town and we sang songs on the school bus and I felt like I belonged. I then went to a campfire with everyone and it was so nice and warm. And then finally I slept in my friends cabin because my roommate wasn’t here. Overall pretty great day and today the rest of the staff come too And I’m excited to see everyone else and hopefully this is the start of something wonderful 😊 Day 6: days keep going by and I’m forgetting to update this. Today I was able to open up more about my own mental health struggles in a safe space and I’m just really glad camp has given me the opportunity to share my past experiences. Mental health is still health and I’m glad the conversation and the desire to end the stigma associated with it has grown substantially. “If you never get it off your chest, you will never be able to breathe”. I don’t want sympathy. For a long time I think that’s what I wanted but I don’t. I just want people to know that there mental health matters. That someone as “Normal” as me could possibly feel the things that I’ve felt. That there life is valued and matters. Speaking up and going to counselling was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself and I hope it is for other people too. Also I just want to remind myself that although sometimes it feels like I’m not the prettiest person in the room or It feels like I’m very “different” I am beautiful on the inside and out and that’s all that matters. Day 7: went out last night to town night and i didn’t drink but I had a Shirley temple and it was so much fun!!!! Day 8: T-minus one hour before the campers arrive. Going to be a crazy summer but I’m feeling confident everything will be okay. I’m going to fail and I’m going to make mistakes what matters is that I’m not hard on myself because of it Day 8 later: was so busy that I didn’t even have time to pray. I’m more mentally done than anything but alhamdulilah I laughed a little and that’s all that matters. Day 10: I don’t know if I’m mixing up the days but today overall was good. I got to take a nap. I became v anxious and felt Uber sick but it got better. We got a plan set up and a semi-groove of how things will be. Only up from here. Also thanks to my lord Day 11: I was told that I have one of the most beautiful smiles in the world today and that I literally glow when I smile and I’m just so :’) Day 12: FaceTimed my old camp friend and it was so wholesome and my heart is full aw :’). Also went to a staff campfire and it was really nice and cozy and I feel like I’ve finally found my place Day 12 night: Despite how much this place feels like my second home, there have been times in the past where the loneliness would become so great that it’d feel like it was swallowing me whole. This was one of the reasons I dreaded coming back. But Lately, I’ve been feeling the most at peace with myself, the things I’ve experienced in the past, my current present, my crippling future and all the shitty bits in between and I am the utmost grateful for everything that had to happen in order for me to get to the place i now am in 🌩⛈🌧🌦☁️🌥⛅️🌤☀️ day 14?: I got a new cabin mate who is super cute and sweet. I’m on my day off tonight and went out to wabora and had really nice ice cream. Finally I think I have a new crush Day 15: today was such a great day off I feel so refreshed and a great day in general. I wore this black slip dress and some makeup and I felt so cute and I got a lot of compliments and I felt really beautiful. I watched the new Spider-Man and it was so good and wholesome and I had really great chats and I came back to a talent show and my health centre crew planning to wear super hero shirts to honour our friend who’s staying in the health centre and I’m just really happy and grateful and full of love and life and I just want to thank God for this blessing that is my life Ps: I think I have my first serious crush in five years Day 15 extra thoughts: the guy I like 150% doesn’t and would never like somebody like me back but that’s okay because I am beautiful and kind and such a catch that anybody would be lucky to have me Day 16: been feeling so anxious today and I want to throw up and I! Don’t! Know! Why! It’s definitely not about the boy bc he doesn’t give me butterflies and it’s not bc of work bc I feel v comfortable but here we are. Day 18: been getting a few vomiting episodes lately and in all honesty im not that nervous bc if I could get through last year..I can basically do anything Also it mcw lmao Day21??: losing track of the days but it’s been absolutely nuts. Two of my favourite ppl at camp left back to their home today and I spent a bit of time with them before wishing them farewell and it was just so sad. I didn’t cry which was nuts but I think I’m just so emotionally clogged up that I couldn’t express how I actually felt. I’m sad because they were the sunshine of my life here at camp and I’m going to miss seeing them here all the time. There’s t-minus 5 days before the Mexican campers leave which is sad bc I really like them and I’m going to miss them so much and it just feels like camp is flying by. I also found out that the guy I liked has a girlfriend which is just fucking great lmao. I don’t know what to expect in the next couple of days/week/or month but I hope something spectacular happens God willingly ✨ Day 22: took me a summer and a half to finally get comfortable in my role as health care provider Day 22 later: I followed my crush on Instagram today like THE crush and holy FUCK HE FOLLOWED ME BACK RIGHT AWAY 😭😭😭😭 if this is the spectacular thing that was supposed to happen I am ALL for it!!! Day 24: days are going by faster and summer is coming to an end sooner than I had anticipated. The two guys I like 99% don’t like me back. That is all Day 25: currently about to fall asleep in a cottage full of drunk and high ppl. Such a fun night regardless. Posted an instastory for the sole purpose of thirst trapping that guy. I was able to have a nice sit down conversation with my camp bae while all dolled up so I’m happy about that. Overall a great day and I can only thank God for it. Ps if I wake up to a dm from my mcm I might die. Ok night Day 27: had been experiencing random bouts of anxiety lately. 10/10 do not recommend. The guy I semi-liked told me he has a girlfriend and all the girls at camp who want to get with him. I think that’s when I realized I’m more friends with him than anything else which I’m glad of because we really are good friends and I do enjoy talking to him than actually thinking about him in that way. We’re gonna try and take a day off together which hopefully will be a lot of fun :). Nonetheless today has been as great of a day as it gets here at camp and I’m really grateful that God has chosen me to experience this. We’re almost close to the end which I’m really sad about but we stay grateful. I’m going to wash my hair tonight so hopefully all goes well but until next time, we blessed . Day 28 morning: thank you God for everything. For blessing me with this life. With this experience. With these friendships. With everything. Day 28 1116am: in a low mood. Don’t know if it’s because I’m tired or what but we move Day 28 1130: in need of a cuddle, love and a nice a big hug. I wouldn’t say I’m feeling lonely but today I’m feeling bleh Day 29: just wanted to say that it got better. I got a smoothie from McDonald’s from one of my nurses and it made my day. Plus today I didn’t talk to any parents and all I did was watch bend it like Beckham and chill and I’m just so :..) right now Day 29 night: had such a fun night tonight doing scottish dancing. Didn’t even care that you know who was dancing with some other chick. To be honest I know deep deep deep deep down that a tiny part of me likes him in that way but the bigger part of me doesn’t. I can’t put the finger on the nail but there’s just something about him that doesn’t clock. I don’t know if it’s the fact that he’s so full of himself or if it’s because everyone is lusting after him but I’m over that boy. The ship has sailed and we move on to more important things like enjoying the rest of my time here at camp making friendships that will last me forever and memories that I’ll never forget. Day 30: I am a beautiful person both inside and out and I hope I never feel anything less. Day 31: Feels like things are too good to be true if that makes sense. It feels like every single bad thing I’ve experienced has set me up for the current great summer I now have and I’m just internally grateful for God and everything he has blessed me with. I owe everything to him and I love him not only because of it but because of everything and more and I’m just so thankful that I am alive to witness this. Day 31night: found out that the guy I semi-liked has slept around with a girl which sucks but it’s whatever and I’m not bothered by it. Day 32: I’m really trying not to be upset/semi sad about the whole guy thing but I can’t help but keep thinking about it. I think the fact that she got what she wanted makes the entire thing that much worse. I’m trying hard to not take it personally but I’m getting flashbacks to middle school when the guy I liked so much ended up dancing with some other girl and the pit feeling I had then. I don’t know if it’s because I told my roomie and then now I’m embarrassed that it didn’t end up working out or if it’s because I’m genuinely upset that they got together but it’s beyond me regardless and if it wasn’t meant for me it was never going to be mine in the first place. Period. Day 33?: I’m in such a mood this morning. I don’t want it to get to me but I’m just so annoyed. Im trying not to let it affect the way I treat the ppl around me but I’m just so over it. I know it wasn’t meant to be but the fact that it feels like a loss sucks. I’m not tired but I feel tired and i shouldn’t be because it’s not like I gave him a reason to think I like him but the fact that it was with her specifically is making me so cudbwhwbwh. Anyone other than her I would have been fine with but the fact that it was with one of ~those~ girls is making me so 😡. I’m really trying not to let it get to me but I have feelings too and I’m human and sometimes we can’t help but feel the way that we do.. Day 33: I have come to the conclusion that I don’t like him. Khalas. I guess i was more into the idea than the actually thing. I’m glad :) Day 33: i really love camp and this place and having a crush on this guy has tainted my experience a lil bit bc the past few weeks I’ve been so focused on him when in reality I don’t actually like him all that much and now I’m trying to get back to my roots and focus on important things like friendships and making memories that involve friends and that’s it! Platonic love is underrated and I want to replenish in a lot of it. Romantic love despite it feeling like it’s never going to happen to me will eventually and I have to be patient because I know when it happens it’s not going to be crazy like fireworks but it’s going to be soft and gentle and kind and sweet and funny and witty and lovely and I’m just so excited to know that I get to experience that one day. I need to focus more about living in the moment and less time on my insecurities and things that are so incredibly insignificant. Camp is where I am the happiest and I need to stop taking that for granted. This summer has been everything I hoped it would be and yet I still find things to complain about which is nuts but I’m glad I’m able to be self aware and acknowledge my own flaws. Forget about boys kissing other girls or feeling like I’m not part of the “in” crowd. There is more to life and camp than that and I need to start delving into it and appreciate it more. Tomorrow a lot of people I love and care about are leaving and with that comes the memories I shared with them and I’m sad but glad that our lives were able to cross and we were able to experience the crazy wild unprecedented things that we did. Until next time. Day 34: Found out my roomie got a teaching job she had interviewed for while we were here and it lightened my whole mood. I’m still feeling like a 5/10 but calling my cousin and knowing that she knows it’s not always rainbows and butterflies here really helps. The guy I like definitely thinks I’m stalking him and I really am! Not! But it’s such a coincidence that I’m always seeing/running into him. I’m happy he’s leaving bc at least that way My life won’t be consumed by his presence and I will stop overthinking everything. There are days where it feels like everything is okay and that I have my shit together but then there are days like Today where the whole world feels like it’s falling down. Day 35: my fave campers have left, my friends have left and the guy has left and now I feel like I can finally breathe. No more jealousy. No more feeling less than. No more feeling like I’m not enough. Now it’s time to enjoy and make the most out of what is to remain. Day 35: I refuse to be molded into somebody I’m not. I am kind, generous, caring and empathetic and I refuse to be anything less. I have to be strong in my values and beliefs and to not let others dictate my decisions. We are a team and teams don’t have dictators. We lead together and if they’re not okay with that then by all means, fuck right off. Day 36: camp reallllllllly tests my patience every time Day 36: not trying to feel stagnant but I feel stagnant. Some of my favourite ppl and ppl I used to look forward to seeing have left and now I’m just so blagh. I’m not sad I’m just missing ppl I love both the friends I’ve made here and my friends and family back home. I think what I need is to spend less time on my phone and more time doing things I enjoy like reading Day 36 night: I’m so grateful that healthwise camp has been amazing. Although always tired, I am confident in my skills and knowledge base and was able to learn a lot this summer. I have grown tremendously as per the doctor who offered me a job and I’m v grateful for this opportunity. In every job and every place you go, there will be times where it’s not raining unicorns and cats and dogs. There will be times where it’s hard and it’s sad and you question if this was all that you expected it to be. Camp is my love and gives me happiness but it’s okay to acknowledge that I’m not happy every day all the time. But that doesn’t mean I’m not grateful. There is no where else I’d rather be other than camp and for that I say alhamdulilah. Alhamdulilah for the happy times, the sad times, the times of anxiety or dread and the times where I really miss home. Camp is as much of a roller coaster as it was last yr despite it being two completely different summers but we stay grateful regardless. Day 37: I really miss my friends and ppl that I love. Wish I went home for a day but I wasn’t v smart. Day 37: I hate to admit it but I really miss him. But I also miss my other friends like Wall E and spana and Alberto and the kids. :( Day 37 night: the days are going by and although I miss home, I don’t want it to end. I look forward to camp and now that I’m here I’m trying to savour as much of it. No matter what ends up happening, I am grateful and that’s all that matters. Day 38: I have an ear infection, potentially a urinary tract infection and I’m on antibiotics :) Day 39: literally slept the entire day. Feels great Day 39: My body becomes a raft and there’s this part of me that wants just literally to go with the flow. To close my eyes and let it take me. But I know sooner or later I will have to get out, that I need to feel the earth beneath my feet, between my toes—the splinters, the bindi-eyes, the burning sensation of hot dirt, the sting of cuts, the twigs, the bites, the heat, the discomfort, the everything. I need deeper to feel it all, so when something wonderful happens, the contrast will be so massive that I will bottle the impact and keep it for the rest of my life. Day 41: August 1st today which means it’s my birthday month!!! But seriously I just wanted to say how very thankful I am for camp. There are days where I feel so alone. There are days where I wish I had that one person to go to just because. There are days where I miss home so much that I cry. There are days where I question everything or overthink myself or even let myself down. There are days where my heart breaks and I’m tired of it all. There are good days and there are bad days and then there are days that are in between but despite it all, I am grateful always. Camp is hard while also being easy and I can’t imagine myself being anywhere else. I am so comfortable with who I am, with my role, with my faith and everything else that matters here and I am grateful. A year ago me would be yearning for the comfort of being part of the “in” crowd and the fun bits of it all. Today I am okay with where I am at, the place I am at and the position that I am at and I am grateful. God is great. Honestly. Truly. Without him my life would be nothing (both metaphorically and literally) and I am just so grateful that i get to believe in him and to reap the rewards of his blessing. To God we belong and to God we shall return. Alhamdulilah. Day 43: Tminus 12 days before I leave camp and I’m bummed out about it. I want sunshine and warm lake water all year round. Day 44: another set of kids leave camp this afternoon and I’m actually really sad. The connections you make at camp with these kids don’t happen overnight. It happens slowly and overtime and now that it’s been one month and 9 days, my heart hurts to see them leave. The memories I’ve made with them, the growth I’ve seen in them will always hold a special place in my heart and I hope to never forget that. Until next time..if there is even a next time. Day 44: feeling anxious as hell. I don’t know if it’s bc the two nurses left for the afternoon and I’m in charge, if it’s bc I have to wash my hair tonight and I have yet to do any activities or if it’s for an entirely different reason. Going to make myself a French vanilla and see how the rest of the afternoon goes. Maybe I’m just tired. Who friggin knows. Day 46: yesterday I went skiing and it was so much fun!!! I used the rope but fell so many times. Regardless the worst thing that could have happened was that I fell and I’m still okay. I played staff soccer today for the first time this summer and played soccer for the first time in yeaaaars and I totally forgot how much I miss playing sports. My plan is to get back into playing once I go back to the city. Get more involved. Stay more active etc. There’s less than 10 days before I leave camp and I am shooketh by how fast time has gone. Trying to make the most out of these next couple of days. I’m really going to miss this place once I leave but I am so thankful for everything I am the woman of your dreams 💫 Day 47: super random first thing in the morning thought but I’m marrying that guy. I can just feel it. But I don’t want it unless it’s the best thing for me in this life and the life to come. Point blank period. Day 49?: I am losing track of the days and have become too lazy to write. Today’s the second month all day and considering how crazy the first one was in addition to it also being rainy/thundestorming, I’m expecting a messsssss. It’s currently t-minus one week until I’m home and I’m trying to savour as much of these last few days as possible. Even though I’m tired all the time and have random spouts of loneliness, I am happy for it all. Day 49 night: you can’t always have the dream house but you can get close Day 51: 5 more days until I’m at home with my family and I wish summer could last just a little bit longer. The next couple of days are going to be nuts and I have yet to do a lot of things I said I was going to do. Will see where the next couple of days go but best believe I’m going to make the most out of it. Day 52: I wish insecurities didn’t exist. Day 53: this place has my heart and the kids and friends I’ve made here have my soul and I’m just so grateful that my life was able to go from rock bottom to this ❤️ Night 55: last Night before I go home. Feels unreal. Last day: thank you god for everything.