#juniorstudy

[study4engineering]

30.01.21 |

It's Saturday evening and I watch a lecture about energy from biomass while eating clementines. My desk is dusty and messy but I have zero energy to clean 🙃

[nocturnerd]

[ 02.01.17 ] it’s 2017 and I am going to make this my year regardless of what’s going on anyways happy new year loves i hope y'all have a great 2017 ft my bed bc my desk has atrocious lighting right now

[cortexstudy]

Casually changed my URL again because I realized I seemed like a hipster blog instead of a studyblr

[kimtivate]

you are actually the worlds cutest human oh my god I get so excited whenever I see posts from you like I actually don't know how someone can hold so much genuine kindness and excitement I love it so much

sTOP IT I’M BLUSHING SO HARD GOLLY GOSH YOU’RE TOO GOOD TO ME I LOVE U

[hayleywillians]

I have voted and would please like a whole reading of the bee movie from you by christmas thank you

im actually gonna fuckin do this

does it have to be all me or can there be friends

vote for my new url for a br, selfie reblog, etc!

[cortexstudy]

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[cortexstudy]

2015

This has been a big year. 

To begin, I’ve obviously changed my URL, icon, theme, header, all of that stuff. 

Juniorstudy was symbolic of the aspiration to better myself when I was a baby high school junior, but that time is long gone. I’ve always wondered why seniors stood higher above the other classes, but I now see why. The past year has been a huge growing experience, with every month holding a new experience that’s shaping me, and morphing me into something different. 

My head is staying in the summer. In two weeks I fell in love with an absentee, gone from every experience that my life holds. 4600 miles is, apparently, too big a distance to share brains, and nothing breaks my heart more. My icon explains all the resonance of the summer, I drew it a week previous to school beginning. It was partially just an empty artistic endeavor, but in retrospect, my scribbles actually are meaningful. It’s the absence of articulation, and the emptiness and bleakness of the words I say. It’s the longing of heart break of words said then soon forgotten, of goals not being won, and aspirations not being set.

I thought I would be great this school year, I always hold myself to expectations that are a peg too high, or more like three pegs too high. For the first quarter I was able to maintain my grades and my motivation, then fall break happened and I crumbled. I haven’t been particularly open with the personal pieces of my life, but I realized I should be when people contacted me about the single post I made about mental illness and struggling through school. If a single person can find solace in my situation, then there’s no negatives into sharing a piece of myself. In short; I’ve been majorly suffering with various mental illness (of which I will not name, you can message me if you want to talk about it) which have prohibited me in school massively. It happens every year, I begin with aspiration, then the moment any kind of stressor is put on me, I totally fall apart. Which brings me back to this year, I was doing to well until I experienced a bad phase. Right away my GPA dropped (from a 4.2 to a 3.1) and I didn’t do any homework for weeks. The only reason I passed any of my classes is because of the studyblr community, and the amazing dedication that it holds. I am inspired every day to overcome everything I’m faced with daily, and create goals for myself. 

This leads to my final point on finally choosing a major for myself, hence the URL. I’m choosing neuroscience, which is of course subject to change with due time possibly, but currently, I found something I’m finally impassioned by, something I had been lacking for a long time. 

So tl;dr, thank you every single person in the studyblr community for constantly having the drive and inspiration to succeed, and the passion to drive other’s towards the same. 

Heres to a fantastic 2016. 

ps. sorry this is essentially an essay, thumbs up if you read through it all 

[cortexstudy]

You should all totally tag me in posts!!! I would very much love seeing them!

[hayleywillians]

juniorstudy ilysm sieanna ur gr8