#joeliana my beloved

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Me: I will never create a Tumblr account in my life!

Also me when I got obsessed with High Castle and realized the real fandom was on Tumblr: Well, hold my beer bitches!

Me: Why would I ever read fanficition?

Also me when GoT ended on that dumpster fire: Braime ao3 tag, here I fucking come! *proceeds to read it for years, that and nothing else.

Me: I will never write fanficition in my life, I swear on everything holy.

Also me when 1899 came and fucked me so hard in the arse that I will never recover: mauraeyk my beloved!!! ao3 here I come with six unfinished fics!

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I'm staring at The Man in the High Castle on my screen with a painful urge to start re-watching the first two seasons and an even bigger urge to cry, scream, and throw up.

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I used to be a huge The Man in the High Castle fan. I mean it’s obvious from my url. That show is actually the reason I created this account back in the day. I was obsessed, utterly and completely obsessed. And then I was emotionally damaged because of it. The first time I ever cried for anything fictional.

Now, as much as it pains me to say it, it also makes me so happy that 1899 managed to become in one season what High Castle never got to be because of stupid, dumbass fucks it had for writers.

So, after 4 years I though I was slowly getting over the biggest ship I ever shipped, and then Maura/Eyk happened and I knew there was no cure for me because their story reminds me so much of my most beloved ship ever, Joeliana. Two people who meet and fall in love in every reality they are in, alternate universe after alternate universe, they keep finding, saving and destroying each other. And the chemistry, oh god, the chemistry. I never had a chance really. I just hope, for the sake of my own sanity, that they won’t sink so fucking hard like Joeliana did, because I’m still on the bottom of the ocean with them.