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AHHHH wrists, being tied to his bed posts while those hands choke meeee
#💬. shai's thoughts#nanami kento x reader#nanami posting#nanami smut#nanamin#im a sucker for it#jjk smut
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sleepy suguru is the cutest! hiding his face into you, moving around to find his favourite spot on you, giving you sleepy forehead boops 🥺 he’s just an adorable, clingy little kitten 🤧
#sleepy suguru thoughts are consuming me#*cuteness aggression intensifies*#he will sleep on you and he’ll become a blanket for you until he’s ready to wake up#sae is 💬#getou#text#jjk
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i’m gonna be delusional until the chapter is released and i see the panels for myself
#gojo is just there checking in with them#they’re having a long needed catch up#it’s a tool for gojo to use to move on from those horrible events#every time i’ve seen the leaks and thought the worst it always ends up being different in the actual chapter#im gonna believe that’s the case with these leaks too#sae is 💬#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers
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i never thought geto's voice fit him in the dub and it fits him even LESS in the sub
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hiya 🙂 i love your nanamin fics and i followed you for them way back when you wrote the pregnant reader one (and I still think about it). thought id ask you cos you seem to answer questions like this pretty wisely 🥲
i started writing fics for a pretty niche character in a fandom (not jjk) a while back and a friend/moot started then too. this character doesnt have lots of readers and thats fine im just here for the writing.
but since then ive noticed my friend has stopped reblogging my fics even tho they did before and even tho they obvs read and reblog everyone elses fics for this character (there really arent many of us).
they also seem upset about notes/likes a lot of the time. but I know they read my fics because I see lots of the same word choices and styles show up in their fics the next time they post.
its upsetting me lot tbh. i still read, like/comment/rb fics i like and its starting to feel like they do it because they think i have more readers than they do and mb theyre jealous.
anyway i dunno if you think i should raise it with them or just leave it?? they dont talk to me much anymore either after I didnt rb one of their fics i didnt really love.
First of all, well done for starting to write, and writing for an 'unpopular' character too, it looks like it's hard having a niche audience in the Tumblr-sphere. I'm always really grateful when someone writes for a niche character I love, every fic is like finding a diamond!
Second of all: I'm really really sorry this is happening to you. It has happened and still happens to me, too.
Thirdly: While I'll give my thoughts on it straight after this, one truth is that the other person maybe simply doesn't like your writing, and there's nothing mean-spirited about it at all.
Saying this, in your case, there seem to be too many little factors that actually makes me think... 👇
I have Thoughts™️💬 about Toxic Tumblr Reblog Culture...
There is a little phenomenon I've noticed with a lot of fic writers, where they seem to stop reblogging the fics of others who they view as competition. Even if they often read and reblogged another writer's fics before they themselves started writing.
They seem to think that if they reblog the work of you, their "competitor", then your work will get more attention than theirs. It gets even worse the more 'popular' you get, sadly.
I understand, because it's hard to see someone reblog most other peoples' fics about a character, and then pointedly ignore yours. You're not mad for feeling targeted. It can feel this way.
Equally, there can be a cherry-picking of moots' work, and a high school clique attitude to reblogging. Do two or three people band together and constantly reblog each others' work, making a huge fuss whatever it is, but leave you out even though you've historically been part of the circle before? Again, it's not as uncommon as you think.
A real "if we become moots, that means I reblog all your stuff, and you reblog all my stuff" as an unspoken rule. While that might work nicely for some people, it can also foster an air of pressure or entitlement, or of reblogging things even if you didn't really like them, because they're your friend. While fostering growth and circulation in the art community should be celebrated, I'd hate to think someone reblogged my work out of obligation, as opposed to passion.
I've had followers who loved my stuff, always commented and reblogged etc, but when they started writing for the same characters themselves, just stopped. I've also noticed a lot of the things you mention (them using similar word choices, stylistic choices etc to mine, in their new fics).
So, you know they're there reading in the background, and it doesn't make sense that they liked your writing one day, then just stopped liking it overnight, right?
I don't often muse aloud about "controversial" subjects on Tumblr, but this one really gets me. It turns writing, an already isolating art, into an even more isolating "competition".
It's sad, really.
Saying that, I still read, comment, reblog all the work of theirs that I read and love! It feels petty and ridiculous, but try to be the person that you want to see in the community. They'd probably notice they still get just as many readers as before, and actually, will be forced to address that their writing may be less popular for another reason.
I have wonderful friends here who read and reblog any of my stuff they like, just as I do theirs. I made a post a little while back, r.e. always reblogging stuff just because you're moots, and I'm glad to say I don't have this strange entitled relationship with these friends. It's low pressure and really fun.
Reblog in the best spirit; reblog stuff you love, that you think is great, etc etc. Don't fall into bad intentions! It's meant to be fun. It's not high-stakes. What are people competing about? I feel really bad for you, OP, and I know what it feels like.
Jealousy in the Tumblr fic writer community is strong!
Hang in there baby. You're doing great.
-- Haitch xxx
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𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓻𝓸 ◝(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) ◜♡
hello! I'm your wife, audhd transmasc gay femboy, here you will find mostly o.s or headcanons of visual novel characters, yandere x reader, or just usual thoughts i have
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howdy dowdy dudez, dudettez, n dollz <3
My name is ZJ, among other names like Wild & Diz (she/they/doll)! This is my blog dedicated to LOA(SS); I reblog related content from my favourite bloggers, make some random sporadic posts on my own and pretty much I'm just here to keep the vibes in the community up. 🫶🏽
This is my main! my side blog & default is @reignybaby 💛 for queer random thoughts. My other side for positivity is @tink-thebell 🩵
I discovered LOA(SS) & shifting when I was 13. However, I never applied laws or theories the way I should've because my mentals were absolute dogshit 💀. So i'm making every single second of my day serve me, myself, & I in every aspect because why shouldn't I? 🐆🎀
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" lied to a girl who hardly knew but thought the world of you, tryna trust in something new, still waitin' on you . . . . "
[ 💭 ] INTRODUCTION ;
call me koi!
i like hq, jjk, mha, zelda, omori, genshin, etc.
i also like taylor swift, beabadoobee, mitski, clairo, laufey, and more!
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[ 🗯 ] GENERAL INFO ;
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nanami treats you like a princess in the streets and a whore in the sheets. ahh. the duality.
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The Boyfriend Experience | JJK
The Boyfriend Experience: Jungkook
The BFE: Masterlist
Pairing: Escort!Jungkook x Fem!Reader
Rating: M
Genre: Fake!dating; fluff; light angst; SFW (generally)
Warnings: Sexually suggestive conversations and tones; cussing; alcohol consumption; boyfriend-for-hire; some kissing; JK is very touchy here
Word count: 9,355 words
Summary: 💬 He’s a confident man who takes pride in his appearance, but also in how he treats other people. He loves to have a good time, but still holds strong values on being respectful and well-mannered. Chivalry is not dead!
A/N: Ackk--okay so...I didn't mean for this to be super long but it just worked out that way! I really wanted a sweet, encouraging, JJK story. I'm also projecting a bit because...I'm a little frustrated at my job. Anyway, I hope you'll like it. It's smut-free but I hope you'll still find it endearing?😬 I do love how the boys are encouraging to fans, especially on their social media posts and such so I wanted to highlight that a bit here. I still added hints of thirst...because I'm me. 🤷♀️
A/N2: Thank you to my sis @internetjunkdrawer for beta'ing and being so supportive even as I kept switching up this story for the Nth time.
A/N3: If you want to read about JK and all of his sexy glory, there's always Coquet 😘
A/N4: LMK if you catch a couple of easter eggs here!
‼️IMPORTANT: Although the narration will include Jungkook's name, OC/Reader will not address him as so because she booked him under an assumed alias. Weird, I know but--let's just go with it 😉
You were proud to be a self-made woman. You had a steady corporate job, an actual retirement fund, and a decent apartment with a bedroom and a kitchen. You didn’t have any responsibilities other than your bills and yourself.
Things could always be worse, you thought. On the other hand, things could be better.
You valued your independence. You wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world. But you couldn’t deny that you had some days when you would feel pressure to lock things down with a partner or significant other.
The company you worked at was not only headed by predominantly male staff but the two women who were in upper management positions were married and had children.
Although you had a great track record, you’ve been stuck in the highest mid-level position for a few years. Recently, you’ve helped bring in new contracts, additional revenue; not to mention that all of those clients raved about you.
You’ve worked very hard and were fully expecting a promotion before the end of the year. You knew it had to be in the bag!
Today, you had a scheduled lunch date with your former coworker, Miri Jang, whom you haven’t seen since she left the company. You talked about coming so close to making it to senior account manager in the last couple years but for some reason, kept falling short.
“I think it’s my time, Miri. It should be,” you remarked.
“Not to burst your bubble, YN but don’t hold your breath,” Miri responded cynically.
You laughed. “Are you kidding me? I had the best performance this last quarter and the one before that! I could totally represent the company in front of big-name clients!”
She gave you a deadpan look. “To be the face of the company, you have to be relatable.”
Your eyebrows creased in confusion. “What the fuck does that mean?”
Miri inhaled sharply. “I was told once, ‘We need to foster a warm, welcoming environment to attract more lucrative clients to partner with’.”
“My clients like me just fine,” you retorted. “I haven’t heard otherwise!”
“Riiight…But at the end of the day, it’s a…” she gestured air-quotations with her hands, “‘Family-run company’, YN. They think that single employees are more likely to switch jobs more frequently because they see them as people who don’t believe in long-term commitments. But if you had a family? There’s a bit more incentive there,” she explains.
Much to your own family’s chagrin, you were unapologetically single. They think that if you aren't well on your way to being a wife or a mother by a specific age, there must be something wrong with you. And if you aren't looking for a partner, your parents would take matters into their own hands and arrange one for you.
You’re beautiful, smart, and have a great personality so…why aren’t you married or in a committed relationship?
Your biological clock is ticking!
It all gets very old and stale after some time.
You give her a quizzical look then shake your head in denial. “That doesn’t seem to add up.” You were unconvinced that your singlehood was an obstacle. If anything, you have more leeway to put in time and effort since you don’t have any other commitments other than your job!
“So you’re telling me that I need to be married or have children to secure this promotion?” You were incredulous.
Your former colleague threw her head back in laughter. “Of course not! At least, they can’t legally ask you to do that. They’re simply saying that being in a committed relationship or having a family helps with relatability,” she leered.
Come to think of it, most people from your cohort who were recently promoted were married and/or had children. Still–that can’t be legal, could it?
“If you ever want to take your talents elsewhere, my company has openings. We can definitely use someone like you on our team. Child-bearing hips not required,” she smiled and winked at you.
You went back to your office after that lunch date with your ego slightly deflated.
So you needed somebody in your life…to show that you were committed to your job? It sounded like bullshit and a small part of you wanted to prove Miri wrong.
The company’s year-end celebration was coming up. You initially planned on going alone, per usual. But with your recent discovery, you now needed a contingency plan. This event not only invited existing clients but it was also a huge networking opportunity.
It wasn’t like you didn’t try to bring a date to any of these company events. It’s just that there weren’t any good candidates for you. You weren’t dating anyone seriously–at least, not serious enough to bring them to company or family functions.
The only friends that you have were either unavailable or uninterested in accompanying you to the year-end party.
Until…you had a stroke of genius: hire someone to pose as your significant other for the evening.
Sure, you could have gone on dating apps or picked someone up at a bar–but those options might prove to be too complicated. If you were going to take a risk, you’d rather it be a calculated one.
******
“Do we have to have sex?” You ask Jungkook point-blank. He is an escort…and while that was usually on the table, it wasn’t what you were hiring him for.
“No.” He says simply. “This is why we have conversations like this. We need to come to an agreement about what you need or what you want.” He paused to regard you intently. He narrowed his eyes slightly, zeroing in on you. With one look, he escalated the temperature from warm to white-hot…just like that.
Geez, YN. Control yourself. Focus!
Downloading the app and creating your profile was easy. But getting your foot in the door–that was a whole other story. You had to sign an NDA before you could even gain access to this backroom speakeasy.
It was an exclusive club. One where you needed to be referred to by a current member. You got the idea from one of your high-value clients–with lots of disposable income and a frequent patron.
But even with the referral, not everyone is accepted that easily. You’d have to pass a background check and a health check, for your safety and the escorts’.
And my god! Once you were in, it was like being in a candy store. You could browse the app and explore escort profiles–which are recommended by compatibility based on your preliminary intake. Each profile had a photo and contained brief bios, personal interests, and ‘specialties’. It made you slightly uneasy, but this was better than getting a friend to do this for you. At least these guys were professionals.
On the app, you can schedule a ‘mini-date’ with an escort of your choosing. You would meet them at the secret club room–which was housed in the back of a high-end restaurant. Very unassuming, you thought, but it was an ingenious cover story.
This backroom had mood lighting illuminating the space. It was darker, quieter, more intimate. Each escort was on a mini-date, which was mostly one-on-one. You spotted a woman talking to two males. Either she was being greedy or she was having trouble deciding.
One of them looked sweet–he was touchy but not in a creepy way. He had a cute crinkle in his eye whenever he smiled. The other was soft-spoken but had a look so intense that you could swear it made any woman’s panties drop upon eye contact.
You could see her dilemma—they both looked very desirable. But poly-dates were not allowed in this club. To get the most out of your experience, you can only book one. That was a shame.
But it didn’t really matter since you were completely happy with your choice.
His photo and profile intrigued you. Of course, that wasn’t his real name. None of them used their real names–which was fine. Unfortunately, you had to use your real name since you’d have to take him out in public.
Unlike those dating apps you’ve perused a while back, the photos on this app were as close as you could get to the real thing. They were meant to whet your appetite–which was a great marketing tool because you certainly bought it. And now here he was…in the flesh. He seriously looked Photoshopped. How was that possible?
And he smelled like heaven. No, not one of those annoying woodsy-floral notes that seems to be popular amongst the smarmy senior account managers at your office. His scent was warm and spicy with subtle hints of citrus. It was more intoxicating than the glass of prosecco that you had in front of you.
You rubbed your already-crimson earlobe then cleared your throat to compose yourself again.
“Uhm, so, I guess you’ve read my profile on the app and my comments about what I need out of this experience?”
He hummed in agreement. “Yes, I read your notes.”
“Okay, great! In so many words, I need you to pretend to be my boyfriend for a work function,” you stated.
“Sounds simple enough–”
“I’m not done,” you respond curtly, making his eyebrows lift in surprise.
You softened the edge in your voice. “I apologize. I’m just a little tense, that’s all. I just…really need my plan to work and–”
“Hey, that’s what I’m here for.” Something about the look in his eyes offered assurance and it placated you.“I’m here to help you. And I apologize for interrupting you as well. Please, continue,” he urges.
“I’m trying to get in good with the senior partners at my firm. I’m done waiting for this promotion that should have already happened last year. Which is why…I’m taking matters into my own hands.” You couldn’t hide the bitterness in your tone.
“All of my bosses and some well-known associates will be at this party, along with their significant others. If I have to play their game, I’m going to need some backup.”
“Who are we trying to impress here, exactly?” He sounds genuinely curious. “I need to know who’s going to be in the room; how old they would be or gender ratio…”
“It’s…primarily men. The goal is to land a huge account that evening. If I can do that, it should show them that I deserve to be within their ranks. Our CEO will be there too, so if I can impress him–even better!”
Both his eyebrows flick up. “Okay. So, how do you see my role in this?”
You exhaled sharply. “I need to prove to my bosses that I am capable of commitment whether it’s with my job…or my personal life.”
If being single is seen as flaky or untrustworthy in your company, you want to prove them wrong. You could show them that you can be in a committed relationship. At least, until you’ve secured this promotion.
He stared at you for a few seconds to make sure that you were done talking before he responded. “Alright.”
Your face twitches slightly. “‘Alright?’ Simple as that?” You’re not sure why you were led to believe that this was going to be a more complex process given the vetting process you had to through just to secure this membership.
He lifted a shoulder. “Yeah. Just tell me when, where, and what talking points I need to look into so that I can do some research, if I need to.“
Talking points? Research?
He sounded thorough and really wanted to make a good impression to sell this story.
You give him a rundown of some interests that your senior staff had. Your CEO had a penchant for wine and recently invested in a small vineyard in Napa Valley. It was all he could talk about in the last few months. About midway through, Jungkook asks one of the servers for a pen and paper, continuing to take notes about the ‘job.’
You appreciated that attention to detail. You started to think that you may be getting your money’s worth.
You went on to describe a couple other people whom you wanted to impress at the party, most especially your managing director, who had a say in your promotion.
When you finished, it was his turn to talk through other necessary details about your arrangement.
“What’s our cover story? How did we meet, how long have we been together…in case anybody asks. Oh, and you’ll have to tell me how intimate I can be with you.”
“Intimate?” You croaked out. You thought that ‘intimacy’ was optional–which was why it was the first thing that you asked him during this mini-date. You internally panic and reach up to your earlobe to press on it gently.
“I mean, can I hold your hand? Are you okay with me touching you anywhere else? Can I kiss you?”
“Oh…uhm...s-sure.” Your eyes immediately flick down to his mouth briefly. It was very distracting.
“So…where?
Your breath hitched, snapping you out of your daze. “I beg your pardon?”
“Where can I touch or kiss you?”
You paused for a few seconds to consider this before you answered him. “Cheek, lips…” you say as casually as possible before quickly adding, “Not open-mouthed, though.”
He chuckles and nods along. “No problem.”
“And you can hold my hand, waist, or shoulders...” You rub your earlobe again as you try your best not to visibly sweat while you discuss parts of your body that this very unreasonably attractive and sexy-smelling man can put his hands on.
He cocked his head to the side, eyeing you carefully. “Is that a nervous tick?”
You stilled. “What is?”
“That,” he gestures at your hand fidgeting with your ears.
“Oh…uhm…coping mechanism,” you say nonchalantly. “It calms me down,” you reasoned.
He pursed his lips and nodded. “I see.” He subtly makes note of it.
You exhaled deeply. Focus, YN. You tell him where the event would be at and approximately how long you’d be there before he told you how much he would charge. You’d need him for about 3-4 hours. Once you agreed on his rate, you moved on to discuss the dress code.
“Do you have a tux or do you need me to rent you one?”
He chuckled again. “I have a couple, but I appreciate the offer.”
After hearing what his hourly rate was, you had no doubt he had a couple of tuxes…nice, bespoke ones, you presumed.
“What are you wearing?”
His question catches you off-guard. If you didn’t know better, you’d say it was a come-on. “Does that matter? We don’t need to coordinate or anything. This isn’t prom,” you joked.
He laughed. “I know that but I want to complement your outfit. Aesthetics draw people’s attention. I think it would help.”
You purse your lips, turning pensive for a bit but eventually acquiesced. He notes that you were wearing a jewel-toned dress.
“Okay, so I’ll need you to meet me at–”
“Wouldn’t it be more believable if we arrived in the same car together?”
You hadn’t thought about that. You were slightly apprehensive about driving around with a stranger, much less a boyfriend-for-hire. Then again, this wasn’t just any run-of-the-mill escort service. Everything about this place screamed high-class. The app also assures background checks and necessary clearances for all of their employees.
“If it makes you feel more comfortable, we can meet at a neutral place, then we can take my car to the venue.”
“Sounds practical,” you uttered then proceeded to set a meeting place and time so you could drive together. “Okay so, we’re all set? Do I give you the money now or…after?”
“You can give it to me when we meet–either before or at the end of the night, once you’re satisfied with the service,” he finished with a smile.
You cleared your throat. You were really doing this…
“So, I know our time’s almost up but did you have any more questions for me?”
“No.” You felt confident that your plan would work. “What about you? Do you have any questions for me?”
“If you don’t mind me asking, why are you single or…not in a committed relationship?”
You squinted at him suspiciously. “And how is that relevant to our agreement?”
“Knowing helps me form a bond with my clients. It also enhances the experience or customizes it, if you will.” He smiled faintly.
And then there it was again–that stare. Something about that look made you feel safe and encouraged you to open up.
You paused before you answered. You’d already worked this out in your head and justified it over and over…“I just haven’t found anybody who respects my independence. I know that seems counterintuitive especially if you’re trying to find a partner but–I want to be with somebody who is comfortable with the thought of me not needing them all the time.”
“That’s an interesting take.”
You sighed wistfully. “To me, the concept of ‘needing someone’ is because you’re expecting some sort of benefit from them…as if they’re necessary for you to function properly. That’s where dependency lies and I do not want to be dependent on anybody. I do, however, want somebody to love…or care about. Wanting something or someone involves desire, passion…comfort.”
His eyebrows lifted at that. “Wow,” he blew out. “That’s deep.”
You rolled your eyes and laughed, taking a sip of your drink. “I’ve just been in one too many relationships where my partners have always complained about me not making them feel needed. And the truth is, I don’t need them,” you said simply before turning serious again, “I want them in my life, but they just didn’t understand so I focused my energy elsewhere.”
He nodded in earnest. “I hope that I can fulfill some of your wants.”
“You already are,” you smiled.
The next morning, you called the assistant about changing your RSVP to include a plus one. Luckily, another guest backed out, and they were able to make room at your table for your date.
******
On the day of your company’s party, you pulled into the parking structure a few blocks away from the venue, where you and Jungkook agreed to meet. When you reach the third level, you spot him standing next to a sleek, black, two-door Mercedes C-class Coupe. You pull your own white, Mercedes E-class next to his and parked.
“Nice ride,” He remarked at your car as you stepped out.
“Thanks,” you responded, then gestured at his car. “Clearly…great minds think alike!”
“I wish! It’s a company car,” he clarifies. Your eyebrows flick up and wonder how many ‘companies’ like his had $50,000 cars on-hand for ‘business purposes.’
He gives you a once-over and compliments you. “You look beautiful, Miss YLN.”
“You’re not so bad yourself,” you compliment him back. He was dressed in a matte, all-black tuxedo with silk lapels and a black bowtie. The only hint of color on his outfit was a pocket square matching your dress’ hue, which you noted appreciatively.
And you thought he couldn’t get any sexier. You internally fanned yourself.
“First things first!” You opened your clutch and took out an envelope that took up most of the space in it and handed it to him.
He glanced down at it before accepting it. “Are you sure you don’t want to wait until the end of the night to see how it goes first?”
Still holding your hand out, you cocked an eyebrow at him. “Are you saying that I should have second thoughts about this?” You countered.
He smiled confidently before quietly taking the envelope from you, tucking it in his jacket’s inside pocket and smoothing the front once more.
“Ready for showtime?” He asks.
“As I’ll ever be,” you respond before he opens the passenger door for you to slide into.
******
Your company went all out—valet parking, red carpet rollout to welcome all guests.
Jungkook hands the attendant his keys and you both walk up to the entrance, hand-in-hand.
The event was held at a fine arts museum whose structure was originally modeled after a French-style pavilion. It was located on the other side of the city, over a hill with sweeping views of the Pacific ocean.
The venue had a large atrium in which guests would be drinking and dining. It was surrounded by large, concrete columns that covered the whole perimeter and at the center of it all was an illuminated glass pyramid—which was where a small stage was set up.
Since the museum housed many classic, invaluable collections, museum staff imposed restrictions on guests milling around with beverages or appetizers next to the art.
You scanned the room and spotted a few of your coworkers, already in deep conversation with a few of their current clients.
“Who are we going for first?” He asks.
You crane your neck in search of your managing director. You locate him having a conversation with your CEO. Two birds with one stone, you guided Jungkook in their direction.
“Sunbaenim,” you bowed, greeting both of them.
“YN-ssi!” They bowed back, acknowledging you.
You introduce Jungkook to them, using his assumed name, and they exchange handshakes and pleasantries.
“Are you in finance, too?” Your CEO asks him after some small talk about the weather and the party.
“No. I’m in the hospitality business, actually. Client services, specifically,” Jungkook replied. You couldn’t help but shoot him a sideways look.
“Ah, I see. And how is business?”
“Very lucrative, actually,” Jungkook smirked and side-eyed you back, making you clear your throat sheepishly.
“Really?” He asked dubiously. “How so?”
“Well, I work for a private company that caters to a very specific yet virtually untapped market. Our clients pay top dollar to acquire our services and we’ve been very successful at it in the last few years.”
“Huh. That’s interesting. Which company is this again?”
“Le Groupe De L’Atelier,” he answered smoothly. “Have you heard of it?”
Your scalp prickles while you shift uncomfortably. Jungkook sounded as if he was winging this whole part of the conversation. You wanted to jump in but your director interrupted.
“Oh wow–” he breathed out, sounding impressed. “Your restaurant is very popular. I’ve uh–been wanting to get in touch with your CEO for a while. Any way you can put in a good word for me?” Your director asks opportunistically.
You grimaced. “Oh, director-nim–he’s not here to work,” you interject nervously while squeezing Jungkook’s arm.
“That’s okay, jagi,” Jungkook says sweetly. “Hyung gets a lot of partnership offers but he prefers to keep the corporation closed and limits contractors.”
Your director frowns. “Oh…surely he needs a good financial manager–”
“I believe he already has one,” Jungkook counters with a smile. “And he’s had a great working relationship with her over the years so, I think that’s taken care of.” That effectively ended that topic.
“Anyway,” Jungkook piped up, “Hyung has been looking into partnering with a local vineyard to expand our wine offerings. Do you have any suggestions?”
Your CEO’s eyes brighten and he begins to wax poetic about his newly purchased vineyard.
Jungkook glances at you and gives you a small wink, which makes you visibly relax.
******
Next, you approached a group of other analysts from your team.
You went down the line and introduced your boyfriend. They shook his hand in awe and approval.
“See that guy over there?” You whispered to him, pointing towards your office rival on the other side of the room. He bent down, leaning his ear closer to you. “That’s Wonwoo. We’ve been gunning for the same promotion all year.”
Wonwoo was not as motivated or competitive as you were. He was technically a non-factor but you noticed that your boss had been meeting with him often to share some ‘tricks of the trade.’ You tried to think nothing of it but suddenly recalled your conversation with Miri not so long ago.
Wonwoo was married and he and his wife had a baby on the way. Picture-perfect family. 100% committed.
You took a gulp of your drink. All you need is just one huge, notable account–and that promotion should be yours.
“He looks pretty unremarkable to me,” he mumbled back before one of your colleagues brought up a new topic of conversation. Every now and then, with your consent, he would massage your neck or put his hand around your waist protectively. He also continued to call you ‘jagiya,’ but not in an obnoxious way. His actions made you giggle–which shocked you more than it did your colleagues. His touches felt like you were trapped in a heatwave…one that made you desperate for a cold shower.
At dinner, a steady stream of alcohol flowed along with the conversation. You scanned the table in search of clues to find out if anybody was onto you–perhaps a weird stare or some whispering. You didn’t see any of that. You and Jungkook seemed to be a very believable couple!
It also helped that he was incredibly charming and humble at the same time. He talked about his hobbies and varied interests which didn’t seem all that extraordinary to you but the entire table was enthralled by him.
For a moment, it felt like you were the envy of everyone not just at the table but the whole room. Jungkook was the date the women at your table wanted to be with. Every party guest and colleague you encountered wanted to be his friend.
He was certainly a gentleman in every sense of the word. Earlier this evening, he opened doors for you, helped you with your coat, pulled your chair out, and with your consent, placed his hand on your leg or caressed your bare arm every so often.
You’d never know if he was a genuine guy or just a great actor. Still, it felt nice to be treated well and showered with affection.
******
After place settings were cleared out, everyone continued to mill around the party.
“I think things are going well, don’t you?” You asked Jungkook absently while you scanned the room for your next target.
“I don’t see why they wouldn’t be,” he replies smoothly.
You turned your head to regard him. “You know, you’re really good at this,” you complimented him. He kept up with conversations, even laughing politely at your coworkers’ bland jokes. He chimed in topics that seemed way out of left-field but he was always prepared with a quip or two.
“Me?” He points to himself incredulously. “Honestly, I feel like I haven’t done much except hang back and watch you. I just crack a couple jokes and talk about random stuff. You, on the other hand, are amazing at what you do. I’m starting to forget what you needed me for,” he joked.
“You have the charm factor! And…suddenly, I seem much more interesting to my coworkers now that I’m out in public with a date,” you remark with slight bitterness.
“You’re doing just fine, YN,” he says in consolation.
You inwardly groan. “Thanks,” you say sardonically. “Now I just need to find a big fish to reel in to look even more appealing. Once I do that, it should definitely give me a boost.”
You took a sip of your drink while you tensely scan the room again for other potential clients. Suddenly, you feel a warmth curl around your bare shoulders.
“Relax,” he crooned softly. He reached up slightly, stroking your earlobe and applied the faintest pressure with his thumb. “You’re too wound up,” he purred.
You peered up at him, his eyes boring into you, making your breath hitch and your mouth dry. When you pulled on your earlobes, it was a coping mechanism that helped center you; whereas he managed to turn it into foreplay.
“Feel better?”
Quite the opposite.
“Uhm,” you stammered hoarsely. “Sure…t-thanks.” You take a huge gulp of your drink to distract yourself again until you recognize someone familiar in the crowd.
“Oh! That’s Jessica Nam! Wow, she actually came,” you gasped in disbelief and turned to Jungkook.
The name didn’t ring a bell for him so he continued to stare blankly at you.
“S-sorry.” You apologized for expecting him to know a potential client. “Her e-commerce company’s valuation just hit a billion dollars,” you explained. “She just announced an expansion.”
He eyed her for a second, noticing that she was sitting at her table alone, not counting the two other guests who didn’t seem to notice her. She was sipping on her drink quietly, and texted on her phone, looking bored. If this woman was so rich, why wasn’t anybody crowding her, he wondered.
“Okay,” he takes your word for it. “But how come nobody’s trying to fleece her?”
You sighed softly. “Her company sells lingerie–via subscription.”
“Oh…and…that’s…a turnoff?” He asks slowly.
You clicked your teeth. “No. But she’s what my boss calls ‘new money.’ She started off as a social media personality who then capitalized on her base when she launched her business. And it worked to her advantage! I think she’s impressive.”
“And she doesn’t count as a potential big fish to reel in?”
“I feel that she is! It’s my boss who thinks she’s too new to the scene. Word on the street is that she’s shopping for a reputable wealth management firm. Our company invited her in an effort to reach out but…I don’t think my boss wants to put much effort in it. He’s doing the bare minimum.”
“Well, what do you want to do about it?” Jungkook turned to you.
“I’ve been wanting to schedule a meeting with her but I can never get through. She’s a busy woman.”
“What’s stopping you now? She’s right there! It’s not like she’s got armed guards or whatever.”
You sighed. “I technically need to have my boss present before going for a big account like that.”
Jungkook looked at you incredulously. “It’s a party! You’re just trying to make conversation! This might be the ace you need for your hand.”
“Hmm…” You hesitated. You knew the protocol. Your boss allowed you to speak to potential clients but usually under his direct orders. He always had to make the final, formal pitch and afterwards, sign the client with the company. You didn’t want to steal his thunder. Otherwise, it would compromise all of the schmoozing progress you’ve made this evening.
“Aish, screw your boss! You clearly respect this woman’s hustle–use that to your advantage! What’s the worst that could happen?”
You know what? Fuck it!
“You’re right,” you say, fully fired up by Jungkook. “I’m gonna go reel me a big fish!”
Together, you approached Ms. Nam, introducing yourself and your ‘boyfriend’. When it was his turn to shake her hand, he made eye contact with her and you could have sworn that she got a bit of whiplash.
Despite that, he kept himself calm and collected and was his usual gentlemanly self. While you made smalltalk with her, his eyes wandered towards the one side of the atrium–where he found your director eyeing your movements.
******
As you chat up your potential client about what your company can do for her, Jungkook excused himself to get you another drink. Your conversation was sounding a bit technical and he didn’t want to cramp your style.
On his way there, he passes your managing director, who was now joined by your company’s CEO, looking like they were having a casual conversation. He was fully intent on ignoring it but his ears perk up when he hears your name. He walked back slightly and hid behind one of the columns to listen in.
“Do you see YN making her move with the mail-order panty lady,” your director quipped, making the CEO chuckle.
“Well, her profits have been trending upward showing no signs of stopping,” your CEO remarked. “It would be great if we can sign her exclusively to manage her finances.”
“I trust YN to get the sales-talk going. Luckily, since she’s only a junior analyst. She has to defer to me to sign clients,” your director points out.
“You know, if she books this meeting, it will really raise our profile,” your CEO adds.
“I know–which is why, I’m thinking about bringing Wonwoo to the formal pitch. He can seal the deal on this. I’ve been mentoring him in the last couple months.”
“He’s planning on buying a house up north, right?” your CEO wondered out loud.
“He is,” your director confirms. “He and his wife are expecting their first kid–would be nice to get a nice commission to cover some of that downpayment, huh?”
“Yes, I think that’s a great idea,” your CEO bemused. “Keep me posted on that progress, huh?”
“I will, sunbaenim.”
Jungkook, forgetting about his bladder, decided to double-back to where you sat. This was something that he needed to let you know right away.
******
“I love your spunk, YN!” Jessica Nam laughs.
You were making great strides in your conversation with Miss Nam. If it were up to you, you’d draw up a contract on a cocktail napkin right this second to seal the deal.
“Seriously, though–that business expansion that you’re planning? I think it’s genius and it’s the next logical step!”
“It is, isn’t it?” She remarked. “And please, call me Jessi. ‘Miss Nam’ makes me feel way older than I need to be. Well–” she suddenly switched tact, “It does come in handy every now and then…especially during business meetings with male financial advisors,” she smiled ruefully. “It’s probably the only way I can garner respect.”
You sighed regretfully. “I’m sorry to hear that, Jessi.” She was young and became financially successful unconventionally. Unfortunately, some people only saw her as a bag of money.
“One of your staff has been relentless with my assistant. He’s leaving messages at my office, asking for a meeting. He said ‘hi’ earlier, made some boring smalltalk…” she craned her neck to look around before spotting him in one corner by the columns. “That guy!” She gestured at your boss.
“Oh,” you say, slightly embarrassed. “Yeah, he’s my managing director,” you replied carefully.
Feeling slightly suspicious, she cocked an eyebrow. “That’s…interesting,” she drawled.
However, you quickly added, “We don’t share the same principles, though, Jessi. I guarantee you that,” you assured her. “And if you give me an opportunity, I can give you a more formal presentation on what I think would be the best approach for your company. Much like your business, I don’t believe in a one-size-fits-all plan. I think that there should be something for everyone–something that fits you perfectly and makes you look and feel good.”
Her face visibly relaxed. “Hm…tell me more,” she uttered, her interest piqued.
******
Jungkook returns to your table as you chat away. He quietly presents you with a drink and hands a glass of wine to Jessica.
After you mouthed your thanks, you feel his hand squeeze your shoulder. You turned your head and he smiled warmly at you. You had to admit, it was endearing.
Jessica smiled at the silent exchange. “You two look so cute together,” she mused.
“Oh, don’t mind me. I’m just the trophy boyfriend,” Jungkook jested. “It’s YN here who's the real diamond.” His thumb and forefinger grazed your earring, and moved to your earlobe.
Normally, you’d cringe at that but he was on a hot streak tonight. You had to admit, the compliment warmed your cheeks…among other things.
Jessica sipped on her drink, then sighed. “You’ve given me a lot of things to consider, YN.”
“I hope so, Jessi. And–” you paused to reach into your clutch for a business card then handed it to her. “I’d love for us to talk more. I’m available for questions, any day.”
She accepts your card and smiles. “You’ll hear from me soon, YN.”
Her tone sounded really promising. You think you’ve left a good impression. On that note, you excused yourself, not wanting to hover too much and just hoped for the best.
Resting his hand on the small of your back, you and Jungkook walk away. When you were out of earshot, he immediately said, “Listen, I need to tell you something important.”
******
You were absolutely livid after Jungkook told you about what he overheard your bosses saying about you. To avoid making a scene, he walks you out into the courtyard, to blow off some steam–away from the party.
“That is so fucked up!” You fumed.
“Wonwoo?!” You spat out. “Him?” You were incredulous. You were in the same cohort but he never operated on the same level as you did.
“I’ve been working my ass off for five years and how am I still nowhere near making senior analyst? It’s…” You shook your head, unclench your fists and let out a growl of frustration. “I have way more billable hours than Wonwoo! I work late all the fucking time; I am the first to volunteer for all of the firm’s charity shit…I should be the shoo-in here! Yet they’re picking him?” You raged.
“YN…”
You paced around and took several deep breaths to calm yourself. You still had a chance to salvage this. “You know what? I have to seal the deal with Jessica Nam and just do what I need to do…then it should be fine. It should be fine,” you repeated.
“You know, you say that word a lot.”
“What?” You say hastily.
“‘Should.’”
“Huh?” You were confused.
“Seems like you work your way through your career around the word ‘should.’ Do you ever notice that?”
“N-no. I don’t think…”
“The first time we met, you said, ‘This promotion should have happened last year;’ or if you pull this off, ‘it should show them’ that you deserve this. Then tonight, you said, you need to ‘do what you need to do then it should be fine’.”
That didn’t seem right. You couldn’t have been using the word that much.
“Do you always have an idea as to how things should go for you?”
“Well, I do have goals,” you reasoned. “And I believe that if you continue to push hard, make the right connections, you shou–” You stopped yourself and pursed your lips immediately while he grinned, proving his point.
“Fine!” You relented. “So I’m a little more determined than most people and I like to manifest things. It keeps me focused.” You then looked down at your palms. “Because if I don’t, I’ll just keep wandering around aimlessly. I’m not a fan of winging it!”
He gave you a sympathetic smile. “I get it. Some people like to believe that if they push hard enough, they can change things as opposed to accepting them as they are.”
You shifted your stance while you considered his comment.
“Have you ever wondered about what you would do if your ‘shoulds’ don’t work out? Would you be open to going about things differently?”
You opened your mouth tentatively to speak but truthfully, you didn’t know the answer to his question. You weren’t sure if you had an answer for it.
“Please don’t take this the wrong way, but coming from an outsider’s perspective? I don’t get why you’re trying so hard to get a seat at this table. A table that nobody seems to want to make room for you.”
You sighed in irritation. “It’s not supposed to be easy. It’s…it’s just the way things are,” you justified. “That’s how you filter the unworthy ones.”
He scoffed. “Just because they make it so, doesn’t mean that’s how it should be.”
You paused and stared at him as if he’d grown two extra heads.
“Why don’t you look for another table where they make you feel welcome? Or better yet, here’s a crazy idea–build your own table!”
The thought of you leaving and starting all over again–it was daunting. You had worked so hard, invested so much of your time and effort, making many sacrifices along the way.
“This is supposed to be the top company to work for! I’ve...given so much just to get to where I’m at…” You groan in frustration. “And I’m just supposed to walk away from all that?”
He nods, trying to understand your justification of the situation. “Okay, I got that part. Suppose this all works out and you manage to force your way into this promotion. What now? Do you think they’ll make things easier for you then?”
You didn’t know that for sure. You were already jumping through hoops at this point! Meanwhile, all Wonwoo had to do was be married, knock up his wife, and continue to half-ass his client calls.
“I understand that some people need some form of validation–that’s an inherent human desire. But…you shouldn’t have to beg for it. If you think you’ve been doing great things this whole time– yet you still haven’t received that recognition that you know you rightfully deserve? Maybe it’s time to move onto some place where they appreciate you for who you are and what you do, instead of forcing you to conform to their righteous criteria.”
Somehow, in the back of your mind, you already knew this but you’ve been in denial. You didn’t need to prove your commitment to the company–that should have already been evident from the moment you broke the single-day contract signing record.
But those shoulds didn’t come through for you then. What difference would they make now?
“I know we haven’t known each other long but–I think you’re a badass! You’re a badass dwarfed by a bunch of dicks.”
That made you laugh.
“I’m serious! I’m not pulling your leg here. I think you can stand toe-to-toe with any one of those guys. It’s just that–this system has you set up for failure. They don’t think you could be great. And based on what I heard back there, they didn’t even think much about you at all!”
You got a sinking feeling–especially after your former colleague, Miri, left nearly two years ago. She didn’t seem like she held a grudge against the company but you suspected that she’d been shanked.
“I mean, obviously, you have final say on whatever you want to do. I’m fully aware of my place in this.”
“No, don’t say that.” you interjected softly.
He regarded you curiously.
“If there’s anything I learned from you tonight, it’s to not minimize myself. You should practice what you preach.“
He grinned at you. “There you go!”
You let out a long sigh. “You’ve given me a lot to think about.”
Jungkook nodded gently. “Do you still want to head back inside?” He asked softly.
“Yes, but only to say goodbye to a few people. After that, I think we should call it a night, if that’s okay with you?”
His eyes softened before bobbing his head for a nod. “I’m good with whatever you decide, YN.”
“Thank you.”
“After you,” he utters, stretching his hand out towards the pathway leading back into the atrium.
After saying goodbye to a few clients in attendance, you excused yourself, telling Jungkook that you needed to make one last stop in the ladies’ room before heading back to the parking lot to retrieve your car.
******
“You know, if I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were stalking me,” a female voice said.
You look up at the mirror in front of you to find Jessica Nam’s reflection as she washed her hands over the sink next to you.
“Jessi…hi!”
“Fancy seeing you here,” she joked. “Are you staying for the dancing?”
You laughed softly. “Oh, no…I’m actually going to call it a night.”
“That’s a shame. I really enjoyed our conversation this evening. Most exciting one I’ve had in a while. Now I have to deal with all of these stiffs for the rest of the night. Your boss was not-so-subtly hovering and making inappropriate jokes,” she jested. “Maybe I should take that as a sign to take my leave, too.”
“I’m…sorry to hear that.”
“Don’t worry, YN. You don’t need to apologize for anything.” she smiled. “Well, anyway,” she sighed while she wiped her hands with paper towels. “I’ve been thinking about what you said earlier and I’ve decided that–I would love to sit down and talk more–say…at my office?”
Your jaw nearly drops to the floor in shock. “Uhm–uh…wow. Yes…yes! Thank you!” Your mind started to race. This was a huge opportunity for you.
“You can reach me here.” She hands you her business card. “I’m usually in the office during the week but if I’m not, my assistant will set up a schedule for us to meet. I’ll give her your name so she knows to pencil you in right away.”
You nearly squeal in excitement as you accepted her card.
“On one condition though,” she cautioned.
“Name it,” you replied instantly.
“I want you to be my point of contact,” she stated firmly.
Some analysts, like yourself, were experienced enough to talk to clients directly, answering their questions and handling minor issues so the managing directors would be free to work on bringing in more business. You did the grunt work while your bosses took all the glory. Still…protocol was protocol.
“Jessi–” you faltered, “My boss usually handles all of the client negotiations and I’m not sure if I have the authority to–”
Her expression unyielding, she waved her hand in mid-air to swat your excuses. “Then get the authority! Your boss is condescending and a complete asshole. You’re smart, ambitious, and unafraid to take risks. It’s either you or I walk away.” She shrugged.
Your cheeks warmed at her compliments. It was great to watch another woman beat the odds and succeed in the most unconventional way.
“Okay, I’ll be your point of contact,” you answered. It was too good a deal to pass up. You’d handle the consequences later.
“Good,” she grinned triumphantly.
“I’m really looking forward to our partnership, Jessi. You won’t regret it,” you said, holding your hand out. She took it and squeezed firmly.
“I don’t think I will,” she replied.
When you both exited from the ladies’ room, you found Jungkook scrolling through his phone. He spots you out of the corner of his eye and looks up to see an awestruck look on your face while you watch Jessica Nam walk out of the venue and into her waiting car at the front.
“Hey–everything okay in there?”
“Y-yeah. Uhm…I think that I just landed a deal with Jessica Nam,” you choked out in disbelief.
“That’s awesome!” He exclaimed. “Congratulations!”
“No, no–don’t congratulate me yet. Not until we’ve drawn up contracts and everything.”
“Yeah but isn’t that all just a formality?”
“I mean…I guess? Holy shit!” You breathed out, laughing.
“Nice, YN. You should savor it!” He was right. You should savor it!
******
Once you were back at the parking lot, he got out of the car and made his way around to open the passenger side. He offered his hand, which you held onto for support as you stepped out.
You unlocked your car, put your coat in the backseat and retrieved a pair of flats to switch out your stilettos.
When you were done, you leaned against the side of your car, and found that he had also shed his jacket and was now loosening his bowtie so he could undo the top button of his shirt.
Then he pulled his cufflinks off, pocketing them before he shut the passenger door. He was rolling up his sleeves when he turned to face you, mirroring your posture against his car.
He looked much more relaxed after all that while you, on the other hand, became unreasonably all wound up.
Crossing his arms over his chest, he asks, “Are you good?”
That zapped you back into reality. You nodded absently. “Yeah, I’m good,” you sighed.
“Sorry if things didn’t work out as you had planned,” he expressed regretfully.
“On the contrary–I think they worked out for the better,” you quipped.
He smiled broadly. “Where do you go from here?”
You lifted a shoulder. It was going to be difficult starting over again but–the great thing about it was that you had options.
“I’m taking my talents someplace else,” you say simply, alluding to Mira’s offer.
“Not that my opinion matters but I think that’ll be good for you.”
You mouthed your thanks. “So…where are you headed after this?” You ask him.
“Probably home. I was going to take another date but since we weren’t quite done, I turned it down.”
You gasped, realizing that you had gone way past your original time limit. “Oh gosh–I’m sor–”
He waved his hand, not making a big deal out of it. “It’s alright. So we went over an hour,” he shrugged noncommittally.
Mortified, you tried to rectify your oversight. “No, no, I’d feel bad. I can add more–”
He shook his head. “That really won’t be necessary, YN. As long as you got what you needed?”
You nodded earnestly. “I did! And I can’t help thinking that I owe you in some way…not just for the extra hour but in general.”
“Nah,” he chuckled softly. “I didn’t do anything. I just stood there and watched you work. It was all you.”
“Yes, but without your prompting, I never would have realized some things. You know, since I was always focused on the ‘shoulds’ instead of the ‘coulds’,” you say, thinking back to your initial conversation. “So…thank you,” you say graciously, since you couldn’t think of any other way to express your gratitude.
“You’re welcome.” He pushed off his car, straightened out, took a step closer and stretched his hand out towards you. “I hope that you were satisfied with your experience?”
You smiled, clasping your hands with his. “I was.”
Then he turned wistful. “Does this mean that this is the last time I’m ever going to see you?”
You gave him a rueful smile. “I think so.”
He hummed, releasing you from his hold to slide his hands in his pocket and rocked back on his heels. “That’s a shame. I really liked spending time with you.”
You raised a quizzical eyebrow at him. “Do you say that to all of your clients?”
“Yes,” he replies candidly, with a little chuckle.
You laughed. “Thanks for not lying on my account.”
“That aside, I will say that you’re going to be one of my more memorable clients. And uh…If you ever want to talk or hang out and grab a drink somewhere–as friends,” he emphasized, “Just let me know.”
“I might take you up on that,” you answered in all sincerity.
You’d never met anybody like him. His lack of complication was fascinating to you. It was refreshing.
This evening, your chemistry felt so natural that you had moments where you forgot that you hired him to pretend to be in love with you. You didn’t know for certain if it was the alcohol, the boost of confidence that he gave you, or the fact that he was this unattainable fantasy–but you found yourself to be in love, too…just for tonight.
Nevertheless, beneath those big, round eyes of his was a dose of reality. It didn’t make you feel bitter thinking that you would never find someone exactly like him in the real world. He made you realize that even though you should not settle for anything less, you could still consider a compromise–one that would make you and your potential partner happy.
“I’m not forcing you to, though. The choice is always yours, as it should be,” he grinned.
You stare at him silently for a few seconds–and he stares back. As safe and assuring this look made you feel before, the longer he did it, the more intense that look got. Before you knew it, it felt as if he was undressing you on the spot.
After some hesitation, you wondered, “Can I try something?”
“Sure,” he replies.
You straightened out and moved closer to him, making his eyebrow quirk in anticipation of what you would do next. The last thing you see is him closing his eyes as you tilted your chin up to press your lips to his.
Although tentative at first, you opened your mouth slightly. Instinctively, his lips moved in perfect synchronicity with yours. You felt a tingle in the pit of your stomach when you felt his hand cup your jaw while your lips continued to explore each other’s mouths.
You finally found the strength to pull away from him, which left you breathless and slightly off-balance.
“Huh,” you say with your eyebrows raised and forehead creased.
His face falters a little at your seemingly unimpressed reaction. “Was that not good for you?” He asks slowly.
“Oh–it was good. Really good.” Your mind is buzzing, heat pooling between your legs.
You watched his tongue graze his lower lip before his right pointer finger slowly reached over to push some errant strands of hair away from your forehead. “I can show you exactly how good it could be.”
For a second, you actually considered it. He was great company and you had fun tonight…not to mention that he was also really hot.
“I can get a room for us at the hotel a couple blocks away from here.” Then, he leaned in and lowered his voice to your ear. “Off the clock.”
You had to admit, it was extremely tempting. It was all part of the service: the companionship, the fantasy, and mind-blowing sex designed to specifically please you…with no strings attached!
And why were you second-guessing this again?
But something within you thought that if you took him up on his offer, you wouldn’t be able to forgive yourself. A fantasy— no matter how enticing— was still a fantasy.
“You know what?” You stepped back slightly, clearing your throat nervously, “It’s just not what I need right now. I had a really great time with you and…I think we should leave at that,” you say as respectfully as possible.
He smiled, unperturbed. “I thought it was worth a shot,” he shrugged. “You never know!”
You groaned inwardly. “Trust me…it was not an easy decision.” You clutched your keys tighter while that ache between your thighs turned excruciating. You had to be logical about this.
“Can we at least hug it out?”
You laughed softly. “Of course!” You stepped into his waiting arms and he gave you a gentle squeeze. You had a fantastic time with him and he fulfilled the task that you had hired him for. In turn, he opened your eyes to what you’ve been missing this whole time–your worth.
“Don’t be a stranger, hm?” He mumbles into your ear.
You unlocked your car and opened the door. Before sliding in, you turn to him one last time. “Thank you for…everything, really.”
“You’re welcome. And don’t forget that you’re pretty awesome, too. You just have to believe in it more.”
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“Oh and don’t forget, you have lunch with Jessi Nam in an hour.”
You look up and acknowledge your assistant, who sat across from your new desk in your new office, at Miri Jang’s firm. After the party, you put in your two weeks and gathered your things, taking with you a couple of notable clients–one of them, Jessica Nam.
“Thanks, Kai. I can’t miss that!”
He smiled. “And Cristina in Legal just sent over the final draft of the Nam contract. It’s all worked out and ready for her signature when you bring it to the meeting.”
“Perfect!” you remarked. “That’ll be all, Kai. Thanks again.”
When he steps out, you lean back against your seat and stare out your window.
It’s been over two weeks since you last saw Jungkook. Every now and then, you’d miss him…but it was more the idea of your date. The constant physical contact, being extra-attentive, complimenting you without sounding patronizing. And even the little things like, calling you ‘jagi’ or simply leaning in closer to listen to what you have to say.
Was it nice having the perfect boyfriend for a night? Of course!
Would you ever do it again? Highly unlikely.
Then again, it’s not like you canceled your membership so…never say 'never'.
You’ve reached the end! Thank you so much for reading!
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#bts fan fiction#jungkook#jeongguk#jungkook x reader#jeon jungkook#jungkook fluff#bangtanbathhouse#btswritingcafe#btshoneyhive#btscarnivalnet#bts jungkook#bts jeon jungkook#TheBFE x jjk
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Brand New Intro, Who Woulda Thought ‼️☄️🚀
Remember that random head’s up I mentioned before ? It wasn’t a bluff after all !!
Hi !! Nice to meet you (again) !!
I’m Niko(lai) / Ceptr, and I’m the host of The Space Colony ARK System (and leader of the Starline Stans - IYKYK) (deadass, I went absolutely insane being the SS leader - check out the Starline Stan Chronicles tag to check out my insane ramblings lmao), a system of some kind (presumably?? We’ve never received a real diagnosis, and I’ve never switched with anyone in the system out of paranoia ☠️) system of 40+ !!
Besides the whole unknown-type-system thing, we also have Autism, ADHD, (the former 2 have been diagnosed by a therapist we went to a year or so ago), and maybe OCD (??? I get intrusive thoughts that seem to fall under H-OCD, but it always could be something else)!
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Getting a bit more personal and going into a bit of detail on me specifically :
I’m a demi/auti-aroace genderfluid lesbian !
I use He / They / It pronouns !
I’m also a multifictive - I mainly talk about system stuff over here -> https://www.tumblr.com/thespacecolonyarksystem, so head over there if you wanna ask me about that !
I’m into a handful of fandoms, and I draw for some of them from time to time (art Tumblr here -> https://www.tumblr.com/d0t3xe) !
Said fandoms include: Sonic The Hedgehog, Spiderverse, Murder Drones (PLEASE tune in today, 3/29/24, at 6 PM EST for Episode 7 !!), JJK (Do NOT ask me to explain JJK lore cuz I do NOT know what’s happening 😹🙏), and more (feel free to ask!!)
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DNI List Here !
Basic DNI Criteria, proshippers, endo systems of any kind + supporters, terfs, xenogender + neopronoun haters, ableist, anti-fictionkin or system, bi lesbians + turigirls + lesboys + etc and their supporters !
FYI !
I use emojis/exclamation marks at the end of almost every sentence because I don’t wanna seem awkward, and I use tone tags when first meeting people out of concern somebody may take something I said too literally 💬
That’s about everything! Feel free to drop by with a message/question/etc sometime!
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#intro post !!#reblogs galore !!#the Chad Tumblr post !!#spread the word !!#The Starline Stan Chronicles !!
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𝘛𝘈𝘎 𝘋𝘐𝘙𝘌𝘊𝘛𝘖𝘙𝘠
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[ hcs ] — my headcanons (sfw & nsfw)
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Thinking about going out with your sweet and nerdy friends, Satoru and Suguru, for a night out and having a few drinks together.
They're your cute and flirty guy friends who you spend a lot of time with, so you know each other really well and you're so comfortable with them. You hug them and touch them so casually, just like your girlfriends.
But when they walk you home and drop you off at your door they don't seem so dorky anymore and they suddenly look at you like you're their prey.
And you suddenly realise...
You can't treat them like your girlfriends :/
You need to be careful because they are actually big scary men who might take advantage of a sweet little lamb like you :(
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#satosugu#stsg#stsg x reader#satoru gojo#satoru gojo imagine#suguru geto#geto suguru imagine#stsg drabble#stsg imagine#thats it i guess#imagine the rest#lol#jjk imagine#jjk thoughts 💬
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how they say ✨ good girl ✨ JJK
Satoru
Like he's talking to a puppy xxx
Kento
Low, deep, lusty, heavy, turns you on evvvery time
Toji
Like he's talking to his daughter...
Suguru
He sounds like sex.
Megumi
Like he genuinely believes you are such a good girl
Yuji
Sweetly, shyly, as if he's a bit embarrassed to say it
Choso
He says it once, prefers when you call him good boy
#like#their levels of patronising varies#from 10000% with satoru#to 0% with megumi#bc he's so fucking SINCERE#and serious#all the ffing time#ugh#now im just gonna daydream bout this for a minute#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jjk thoughts 💬#jjk imagine
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doctor nanami, however, is your suave and sophisticated dentist that your cousin recommended to you because he's so handsome. the first time you stepped into his private clinic your heart nearly stopped, then proceeded to beat out of your chest when he called you from the waiting room. with his velvety voice and those immaculate suits he wears under his white coat, you can tell he's an experienced man, in more than just dentistry. he makes you feel so safe and you're no longer nervous about visiting the dentist. you look forward to it- to seeing him approach you on the medical chair, slipping on rubber gloves that barely fit over his hands, with his glasses poised at the end of his nose while he looks down at you and tells you to open wide.
#yes sir#kento nanami#i trust u#with my whole being#my body#my soul#my teeth#dentist kento#jjk thoughts 💬
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is it just me or does jjk's anime monologues make even less sense then anime monologues usually do. like even on my third rewatch episodes 4 and 5 are still just so baffling. what is going on.
#like im still not sure of yuuji's or megumi's thought process through any of that despite how much they talk abt it#also the whole sequence just feels totally undeserved. there was like no build up to any of that. cmon they barely know each other?#idk i love jjk but gosh if some writing choices are just bizarre#jjk#💀💬
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