#jillian is just confused af

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random cowboy hat situation in ocs family because it’s accurate

(let me know if we want some serious art with jillian in cowboy hat………)

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jt (finally) watches warrior nun - s1 e2

Another interesting episode - today, I have thoughts on:

Ava and Mary's parallels

Duretti, and some filming irks

More Beatrice thoughts lol

Okay, about Ava and Mary: such an interesting choice, to have these two particular storylines run parallel to each other. Both are diving deeper into things they don't understand, trying to find some sort of closure/answers; both quite unstable and at times, desperate. Idk I feel like that bit where Mary's torturing that dude and Ava leaves JC to find Michael (who was creepy af ngl) was an interesting parallel at what they're both capable of: Mary leaving behind her humanity, Ava leaving behind what's been her first semblance of comfort and safety.

Also, again, have to give props to both Alba Baptista and Toya Turner because their scenes could have fallen flat, but their acting choices were brilliant. Also, a nod to JC's character too - I think if he wasn't written so sympathetically (and if Emilio Sakraya didn't play him with such kindness and sincerity), it wouldn't bring out Ava's different moods (and Alba's reactions).

Let's talk a bit about Duretti - fascinating how they portray him in both cinematography and dialogue as the quintessential baddie - and also how that characterization immediately makes us want to be sympathetic to Vincent (again, setting up for his betrayal later). My only beef so far are the scenes between Duretti and Kristian, and then Duretti and Jillian, mostly for the trite "religion vs science" dialogue and the uninspired cinematography.

I say the latter only because we've seen really beautiful cinematography for Ava, so I'm assuming it was a conscious choice, but still I'm not sure what it brought, just having close face shots the whole time. It would have been really nice if they used the setting a bit more - for example, if they had the lighting play a role, maybe during that standoff between Duretti and Jillian, have the camera a bit wide at times and have the light swing back and forth between the two, maybe even time it to light a character when they have the upper hand in the argument.

In that standoff between Duretti and Kristian, I think the writing could have been improved by being more aware of the audience they have. To have to be indirect about things not only would have added some tension to the exchange but also force the audience to think a bit more. For example, that scene where Ava gets all excited about the wheelchairs and she says "I always wanted one of these!" - the others are a bit confused about it but we the audience can make the connection that oh, right, because of when she was paralyzed. Again, this might have been a choice, maybe to not force the audience to think so much? idk

Okay now my favorite thing, analyzing Beatrice lol. Three things stuck out to me (outside of the fact that for a "seemingly" minor character, she's present quite a bit) - first, how she does the research on the tarasks herself. So, in the military and larger organizations in general that have a similar hierarchy and specialist teams, leaders would typically assign other people to do that kind of research. Which makes me wonder: Did Bea just want to do it herself? Does the OCS not have folks who specialize in research? I feel like the latter wouldn't be true (though we don't really have any evidence otherwise) and more that it's the former: I'm willing to bet that Beatrice doesn't see herself as much of a leader though she carries herself as one (see my notes on the first episode here). Though now I've just had a thought: I wonder if this is her also trying to keep info close to only the core group? Mm that doesn't quite work because Camila's there, and it would've been easy to assign her as the junior person to research things. Anyway, I just see this as an interesting choice of Beatrice doing the work herself.

Second thing is the tranquilizer gun. Note how this was hidden beneath her robes - she has to put away the weapon she was holding to then reach for it:

This makes me think two things: 1) she figured there'd be a lull and she would have the time to get to it, showing again her incredible foresight and strategic thinking, and 2) she was hiding it from the others. That latter is really interesting to me. I don't think she was hiding it because she felt ashamed of it, but rather it being an extension of the first point above: Beatrice does the work herself. Additionally, this is her working off of her own conclusions from the conversation with Vincent - she didn't receive a direct order from Vincent, they just talked about Vincent wanting to "give her [Ava] a choice" and she went with that. So this is her acting on her own but because she was convinced by/agreed with Vincent. (Side note: This makes me wonder what action Beatrice would have taken if she hadn't had that conversation with Vincent - again, fascinating to think about what Beatrice is capable of).

Third and last, there's that flippant comment "I had a feeling she'd be a handful." Two things here again: 1) this kind of ability to make light of a shitty situation (in contrast to Lilith's exasperation) reminds me again of the military, where dark humor is really one of the only and best ways you can cope sometimes, and 2) it's also Bea kinda making light of her own abilities - her ability to foresee and plan (and follow, in a way). Again, this is Bea not seeing herself as a leader or extraordinary.

Alright, well I've got some travel planned this weekend but hopefully I'll get to episode 3 before that, but no promises.

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warrior nun ep 8 live blog

long weekend, have an even longer week, but need a brain break before I get back to work 💀🥲 (again, would just like Money not work :((() ANYways let's goooo

Bea should make a podcast it's soothing (Podcaster!Bea au where)

alskslkslsks Mary be trying to fight Bea and Bea just pulls baby eyes like "that's hardly fair"

okay but what if Bea remembered ava getting stuck in the walls bc 1) she cares for ava's safety and 2) it was funny af

LMFAOOOO THE SECURITY GUARD "OH GOD YOU'RE BACK" CRYING SOBBING HEAVING THAT LADY ISN'T GETTING PAID ENOUGH!!!! (she is my Jess the Secretary now fr)

liLITH HUHUHUHU

"do you have like a giant brick guy?" NO CAUSE I'D BE SO FUCKING CONFUSED AND CURIOUS TOO!!! ava's commentary is me without impulse control confirmed 💕

"you know I crushed it" AND THEN BEA SMILES AND NODS ALSKALSKLS Bea, internally: you did not crush it a single bit but your smile is cute so 🤷‍♀️

EVERY time they choose to fucking zoom into father Vincent's face from a low angle my fucking Villain Vibe-o-meter fucks OFF (you do not ecu a mfer from that angle unless you're trying to make a POINT)

oooohhhhhh what the FUCK Lilith what the fuck what the fuck

worried nun family is 💕

I do not trust Jillian one bit aha

MARY'S FACE AFTER "FOLLOW MY LEAD" 💀💀😂😂

naahhh that's p fucking gay u two "can u hear me?" "yeah" "I'm right next to you" WHAT QUEER FUCKERY WAS THAT??? the LOOK??? THE "JUST FOR THAT I'M GONNA ACE THIS"??? THEY'RE FLIRTING YOUR HONOR!!!!!

oh they are having a MOMENT "thank you" she says as her face looks more like "you brought me back, you pushed me forward, you didn't give up on me" LIKE???

GAYYYY

OOOHHHH FUCCCKKKKKK

vincent has the bro SHAKING alskslsks

[duckball]

Live Eviction Night w/ Kat #bb19

Okay people, are we ready for whatever the heck is going to happen because you know what I just don’t know anymore.

Here I was last night bored over Dominique’s talk show (Girl Julie Chen is not offering you a seat at the table), that I went to watch a Hallmark Channel show, when I come back Cody has stoked the fires of the paranoia train and it left the station. Who knows what will happen after the eviction tonight.

Julie starts us off getting sassy about Paul being tempted by revenge, and we slip into the recap.

Julie finally tells us about next weeks Battle Back, you know that thing we totally haven’t suspected was coming, is totally coming.

We drop back into the moments post veto ceremony (they can call it a meeting but damn it, it’ll always be a ceremony to me!), Josh going off on Cody and Jess. This poor kid has been holding it in for a while. Oh and here is Jess’ winning attitude.

Cody has like no DR presence, whatsoever does he?

Christmas returns from wherever it is they like to take her, and reveals that she is picking to stay in the game knowing things won’t be altered for her. Cody’s attitude shows as he’s like the first one to leave the meeting where she makes the announcement.

Jessica/Christmas conversation, and I’m confused what the point of this even is. Then again Jessica thought she was signing up for a relaxing summer.

Julie announces that Christmas had a successful surgery, but she hasn’t been cleared to leave the hospital room yet, so we get live via satellite from the hospital Christmas later.

Oh hey Raven gets to talk in the DR, this is amazing…and we see that Cody doesn’t know how to hop. This is all during a segment for Dom’s birthday, and all we see are sad Jessica and Cody overshadowing this all.

Cody comes to Christmas with his fake hopping, I hope Julie calls him out on that. This is the start of his plan to keep Jess in the game, where he stirs the paranoia to make it look Mark and Dom knew he was putting up Paul. DAMN YOU CODY! WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO SINK MY ADORABLE TEDDY BEAR/PUPPY DOG MARK? YOU SUCK FUTURE SERIAL KILLER!

That talkshow was painful, and now Mark is screwed thanks to Cody and Dominique, but of course Dominque won’t understand that. Now Paul won’t trust Mark *sigh*.

Eviction time! Julie let’s them know Christmas will be casting her vote from the hospital since she hasn’t been cleared to leave yet.

Alex goes first and talks so fast I don’t know what she said except don’t evict me. Ramses is second and please don’t evict me when I put myself up on the block, Cody is up and addresses Jessica deciding not to stir the pot more than he has—he doesn’t have to.

Jessica votes to evict Ramses. *note this week Julie called it a Showmance instead of a relationship*

Kevin votes to evict Ramses.

Christmas votes to evict Ramses.

Who else is sitting here confused AF about what is happening?

Raven votes to evict Cody.

Dominique votes to evict Cody.

Mark votes to evict Cody.

Jason votes to evict Cody.

Josh votes to evict Cody.

Elena votes to evict Cody.

Matt votes to evict Cody.

I legit am floored right now. This is not how I expected the votes to go.

With Zero votes to evict Alex you are safe.

By a vote 7 to 3, Cody you have been evicted.

He removed his toad head and starts taking off the costume. Listen jackhole, if Kail had to go out as a bunny, Casey a banana, and others in wacky ass costumes, you can to you dirtbag!

Oh now Cody wants to be in a relationship with Jess, didn’t he tell her that this was just for the show not for the real world?

All I’m hearing from Cody are Victim Noises.

Julie lets him know that Cameron, Jillian, him, and whoever is evicted next get the chance to battle back into the game.’

Wall comp, “Space Cadets”, last HG standing will win HOH (guys it’s supposed to play out on the feeds so get them now!).

I could keep you up with whatever nonsense Julie just told us, but we’ll hear it about a million times it feels like between now and next week.

So hop on the feeds, and check out this comp as it plays out LIVE.

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warrior nun ep 3 live blog

LET'S GO!!!!! I AM HOPPED UP ON M&M'S AND THE NEED TO SEE ALL Y'ALLS FAVE COUPLE LIKE I WANNA KNOW WTF IS UP!!

she floating like in those horror films I don't watch lmaooooo

Bea saying "you need to calm down" while she herself is very clearly confused af is hilarious actually

ooohhhh warrior lady!! i wonder if the areala actress auditioned on horseback like did she just ride in like "I would like the part"

OH THIS ADRIEL BITCH Y'ALL TALKING ABOUT IS AN ANGEL HUH

love how all the other crusaders just standing around when an angel arrives like I'm p sure the Bible made angels seem more winged and eyed up and blinding I think

why is the ocs named so long is it bc os is a computer term

ava's face!!!!!

DRAMATIC DOOR OPENING!!!

can the girls closing the gate even hear the father or was it just time to close the gate u CANNOT tell me that wasn't practiced

ava sees bitches fighting and smiles. she just like me for real

the merc's accent is so funny to me lmao SHOOT HIM MARY

YES BITCH!!! love u Mary

kristian and Jillian watching the tapes like "these bitches NOT subtle" lmaooo

did ava just- SMELL the baton??

ooohhhh THIS is mother superion

i love mother superion's vibes

ava is a giggly stressed baby and I love that for her

CAMILA BEFRIEND AVA!!!!

OH NO WAIT BEA IS SEATED NEXT TO HER!! GO GAYS GO!!

the way ava just slides closer alskslsklsks

the slow way Bea smiles as she starts talking about shannon 🥺😭

the way Bea is looking at ava like she understands!! this bitch patient af!!

"these are my girls" ookkkaayyy mother superion

"bit wordy isn't it" AVA BABE U GET ME!!!

"maybe she wanted to die on the battlefield that day. maybe she thought she earned it." OKAY I HAVE!!! THOUGHTS!!! but later

HOW IS FATHER VINCENT EVEN THE LEAST BIT FAMILIAR WITH AVA!! WHAT IS HIS INVOLVEMENT WITH THE ORPHANAGE!!!!

CAMILA ALKSLSKSLS WORST STALKER BUT I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL!!

oh it's the con kids again. OH IT'S JILLIAN

ALSKSLSKLSKSLS CHANEL 💀

oooooooohhhhhhhhhhh

NO AVA DON'T GO TO LILITH ALONE!! I AM SO SCARED FOR U!!!!!

AVA ALSLKJLSJSK PICK THE SWORD UP!!! NOT THE FOOT STICKING!!

idk like it doesn't seem fair to put all this responsibility on a child who was dead, was a former quadriplegic who JUST got control of her limbs again after more than a decade, who NEVER signed up or was even so much as TAUGHT any of the shit they're going thru, and then expecting TRUST when u all haven't even told her shit!!! ure preaching trust without giving her faith!!! tf!!!!!

OOOHHHHH SO SHE WAS KILLED!!!

also that is the WORST question to ask a depressed kid ma'am some us HAVE wanted to die actually!!!! and the fact that she can finally live and isn't hating herself as she does is magic in itself actually!!! WOW I AM HATING SO MANY OF THESE OCS SCENES ALSKSLSKSL (it'd only ep 3 tho I'll fight thru)