#jesus christ its so fucking bleak

[tokagrem]

FUCKING infuriating how people will ""correct"" others unprompted under john egb*rt posts like "her names june actually!!" and then turn around and not acknowledge transmasc roxy at. all. im gonna fucking tear my face off LMFAO

[vilelittlecritter]

Reading dreamscape and this shit is good.

Like, too good.

Like I am enjoying this way too much kind of good.

[homophyte]

well i finished reading the de-loused story booklet

[spottedside]

laying in bed thinking

[thatneoncrisis]

oh captain my captain, do you have a favorite scene in TLT?

i like when g1deon attacks harrow in the bathroom because it sucks and no one helps her.

that sounds SO mean but its bleak in a way i really like. imagine living with god and he cant help you. she was in the BATH, harrows had this repeated motif in the books of nakedness and vulnerability but jesus christ. and the fact that g1deon still CAN'T kill her, hes just fucking tormenting her. i remember pal doing the freezing thing on gideon at the end of gtn and its like why doest everyone do that it seems super useful especially if youre tasked with killing someone whos only skill against you is panicking creatively. just get her to stop moving and you're gold right?

i dont know. i think on some level i dont believe g1deon ever wanted to hurt her. at the end he just kind of begs for her to kill herself so she doesnt succumb to the RBs. calling it a kindness feels wrong its still like. emotional terrorism. but i think he could have killed her, if he really wanted. mercy stabbed her from behind it wasnt fucking rocket science. hell pyrrha had a GUN at the end of the book, presumably g1deons, why not shoot her? i dont think being blind would have stopped him.

ooooh gideon the first the man that you are

i also really like the scene introducing harrow in gtn with every word she got younger and shorter in my mind it was really funny. like i thought she was thirty the way gideon was talking about her. i also like crown walking nona to school

[multi-muse-transect]

V in Mortal Kombat interactions.

@aggravateddurian

Duplicate

V: If you’re me from the future, please tell me I get Johnny out of my head.

V: It’s gonna come at a price.

V: So is Jackie alive in your universe?

V: Who's Jackie?

V: So where are you from? Haywood, Badlands or Charter Hill?

V: Haywood.

Raiden

V: It’s gonna take more than just fancy fighting moves to survive NC.

Raiden: Don't judge a book by its cover V.

V: Fuck, it’s so hard to fight without combat implants!

Raiden: You must get used to a life without crutches, only then can you overcome the city itself.

V: You don’t happen to know who’s the Zen Master now do you?

Raiden: Why he’s a teacher in the Wushi Academy!

V: You’re gonna love the esoterica.

Raiden: You should show me sometime.

Raiden: Such a bleak future you live in…

V: It has its perks.

Raiden: It’s horrible that people would do things to themselves to survive such an insane city.

V: The city ends up getting them regardless.

Johnny Cage

V: Told you Alex was the best.

Johnny: The best? She is leading woman material!

V: Johnny and Solomon are actors in this universe?

Johnny: You’re talking about Keanu and Idris right?

V: No, you’re not making my life into a movie.

Johnny: Maybe a video game can work?

Johnny: So you mind telling me how brain dances work?

V: You need to chrome the fuck up first.

Johnny: Adam Smasher sounds like a lame ass name.

V: Why don't you say that to his face when you see him?

Scorpion

V: You remind me of this one guy-he was a bodyguard.

Scorpion: I wish to meet him one day then.

V: Fuck me, what kind of implants cause those?

Scorpion: Technology isn't required to learn magic.

Scorpion: You're getting more and more skilled without your combat implants.

V: It took sometime but I'm getting there.

Scorpion: Arasaka's evil must be stopped!

V: They'll learn to fear the reaper when we raid it.

Sub Zero

V: I've met plenty of gonks like you in NC. All dead in a ditch

Sub Zero: Then I will be the first to survive.

V: You just sold out your clan by working for Arasaka!

Sub Zero: A small price to pay for salvation.

Sub Zero: Adam Smasher has proven himself to be a valuable ally!

V: Don't come crying to me when he bites you in the ass!

Sub Zero: With Arasaka's tech, I will create an unstoppable army of cyber-Lin Kuei!

V: Not on my watch!

Kung Lao

V: Careful, that attitude won't get anywhere in NC.

Kung: Cybernetic thugs don't scare me.

V: A hat? Seriously!?

Kung: Don't underestimate it V.

Kung: Is Panam available for today?

V: As if she'd go out with you.

Kung: I heard about the story of David Martinez. I've had the same experience like that...

V: You should take it to heart.

Sindel

V: This isn't my first time meeting a ruler.

Sindel: Oh? Do tell...

V: Jesus Christ, what kind of chrome makes you do THAT?

Sindel: Please, I don't need machines in my body.

Sindel: Do you do this often? Asking rulers out for dinner?

V: I learned it from a gig in Dogtown.

Sindel: Our magic will help cure your condition.

V: Let's hope it doesn't turn the other guy into pixie dust first.

Shang Tsung

V: Tell me where So Mi is or you end up eating lead.

Shang: You still care about her despite everything?

V: I've known many backstabbing assholes in NC. You're not special.

Shang: But I am built different compared to them.

Shang: I assure you, my magic will make sure that Silverhand will be gone.

V: I'm not selling my principals out to a wizard!

Shang: I wonder if I will have Silverhand's soul when I take it from your body.

V: One-try it asshole and two-I don't think that's how it works.

Shao Kahn

V: I almost mistook you for an Animals member.

Shao: Do you mock me mercenary!?

V: Not my first I've fight someone big with a hammer.

Shao: Then they must've died in the most humiliating way possible!

Shao: I am not afraid of a dying mercenary!

V: You will be.

Shao: All legends fade.

V: Not mine, it will never fade away!

Reiko

V: You're seriously coming at me with a spear and shurikens?

Reiko: Unlike you-I don't need machines under my skin.

V: Many gonks like you die because of loyalty.

Reiko: Then they have died honorably!

Reiko: You aren't afraid of death. Good!

V: I pass by it all the time.

Reiko: You spared Khameleon. So weak and disgusting! Mercy is disgusting!

V: Your devotion to the roided maniac is way more disgusting.

Tanya

V (if female V): You know anything I can get for Judy?

Tanya: I recommend the flowers of the royal garden.

V: My world can use more people like you.

Tanya: Maybe there is. Perhaps you weren't looking enough.

Tanya: I don't trust Reed.

V: Good, don't!

Tanya: Takemura is so blinded by loyalty.

V: That's Goro for you.

Kitana

V: You sound...familiar.

Kitana: I don't even know who you are.

V: Fuck me, I need one of those!

Kitana: First you must learn to train with them.

Kitana: I can't believe the Mox's care about money instead of caring for others.

V: Tell me about it.

Kitana: Thank you for telling me about Hansen.

V: You're welcome princess.

Li Mei

V: I think I know a detective who would love to have you as a partner.

Li Mei: Do tell Earthrealmer...

V: If the cops acted like you then NC would have zero crime.

Li Mei: Perhaps I should teach them.

Li Mei: So much corruption in your city, I'm surprise it's still standing.

V: You can thank the mega-corps that semi-run it.

Li Mei: 6th Street are nothing but barbarians parading as protectors.

V: Lofty patriotic bullshit is all they spew out of their mouths.

Kenshi

V: Fought a guy just like you. Hunted Tigers.

Kenshi: Was he just as skilled as me?

V: You're gonna love Jotaro Shobo since you kill yakuza a lot.

Kenshi: Really? Tell me where he is...

Kenshi: Your blades are advanced but not advanced as sento.

V: No shit. None of them can summon a ghost!

Kenshi: I would love to duel Oda one day.

V: I don't think that's a smart idea...

Ashrah

V: No one is good or bad where I come from...except for Maelstrom.

Ashrah: They are beyond redemption.

V: I know a guy who needs someone like you, he's FIA.

Ashrah: I know he has a good heart but is clouded by devotion.

Ashrah: So Mi is safe with me.

V: Tell her I said hi.

Ashrah: Regina Jones heart is so pure yet full of darkness.

V: Really? She doesn't seem to have a bad bone in her.

Smoke

V: What the hell kinda name is Smoke?

Smoke: One that you will respect.

V: Thanks for taking care of 6th Street for me.

Smoke: They're nothing but savages.

Smoke: The Aldecaldos have such a beautiful culture.

V: Wanna join them one day?

Smoke: Wakako looks like she's taken a liking to me.

V: Odd, she doesn't like anyone.

Geras

V: So..how does my story end?

Geras: Your future is very...hard to tell.

V: You're a Samurai fan?

Geras: I was watching their concerts very recently.

Geras: I suggest you should side with So Mi.

V: Why is that?

Geras: I have met another who travels to other timelines.

V: Ciri? Yeah, she does that.

Liu Kang

V: I can tell you didn't create my timeline.

Liu Kang: I would never create such depravity.

V: Shit, I'm sure Viktor would love you on the boxing club.

Liu Kang: I’ll visit one day.

Liu Kang: In one timeline, you and So Mi are together.

V: That...that's kinda beautiful.

Liu Kang: I have something that will help your ailment.

V: Really? It won't fry my nerves right?

[yellowocaballero]

Iirc, in the movie it’s implied that after the Tim incident Bruce and Tim did not talk to each other again for over 50 years until the end of the movie. Like Jesus Christ I know Jason and Bruce’s relationship is super strained but that’s a whole other level of bleak. I will admit though I love it because for that exact reason, I was so caught off guard by it because you think a kid’s show wouldn’t go that route.

BTAS could get fucking dark sometimes. I still remember Perchance to Dream very well. Anybody else remember that episode? It was seriously really fucking dark. Where Batman - wait, I referenced it.

Very creepy when I was 13.

I did love BTAS for its bleakness - for how it was genuinely pretty noir, for how it said very little but could hit on some pretty profound notes. It was light on plot and dialogue, and each episode was very straightforward and very light on character or emotional work. It's very much a 90s cartoon, which were extremely high on action and very low on everything else. But it's such an exercise in atmosphere and tone, and watching BTAS you always got so sucked up into its world. I used to get up early at 4 in the morning to curl up in blankets and watch it, because I always felt like the show needed absolute darkness and solitude, and you could just lose yourself in it. It didn't need more than what it had. It's what makes the show still the best Batman thing ever: it was just pure noir mystery action vibes. With some silliness, colorful characters, humor, and life - but it was Gotham, and for 20 minutes you were within Gotham. Sometimes a cartoon is just vibes. They really don't make 'em like they used to.

Which is why I guess I disliked the ROTJ stuff. Character drama with always very minimalistic characters, shocking stuff like what happened to Tim, dramatic comic book plotlines - none of that felt native to BTAS. It took me out of the world. But yes, it's very tonally consistent with BTAS, isn't it!!!!!!! Isn't it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[stackslip]

god i am sooo confused by nayuta's looks too. if she is indeed aging quick that paints such a geim picture of makima too. like, imagine if makima was in fact really young. it would make a lot of sense in the most devastating way possible

oh FUCK. i mean before all this i did already assume she aged weirdly (since nayuta was born already a child), but i also thought that she'd stopped ageing when she looked about 25 and was in fact older than she looked, and her being denied any kind of childhood and connection to other people was part of why she was so emotionally immature and acted like a toddler when backed into a corner. but with what that youre saying, im imagining her only being born like five to ten years prior to the events of part 1 and it makes me want to claw at my face. its so much worse. but it fits! the bureau has no qualms recruiting very young people like denji, and to them makima was just a tool anyway and as a devil they considered that she wasnt in need of a childhood at all. it would also fit her having fought pochita 5-6 years ago! jesus christ thats so fucking bleak.

[butchviking]

You know what yeah maybe I should kill myself. And given I have decided the world is worse than death to be compassionate but respectful of autonomy we SHOULD advocate for everyone killing themselves. If autonomy weren’t an issue we should kill others to help them. Theoretically we should kill anyone we think has sufficiently reduced autonomy. Like they can’t comprehend the choice but it is the right one, it’s good medicine. Why should we hold back good medicine. Top 10 methods?

are u a canadian legislator. wtf. girl listen we're all suicidal the world is dark and bleak but its bright too and there's joy and u gotta take the rough w the smooth and dont fucking kill yourself. what the entire fuck. dont fucking kill yourself can you go listen to im a mess frank iero or remember the laughter (album) ray toro or something and reach out to a friend or a coworker or a family member or a professional or a stranger on the street or i guess me, a random fucking tumblr user saying do NOT kys. the tone of this is so baffling to me i feel like im being accused of being pro-suicide or something. my darling i am just a mentally ill mfer on the internet and i dont think people should fucking kill themselves jesus christ the human experience is worth something even in all its misery its worth something do u understand. this is what it is to be human. to b alive. i dont understand whats going on here at all. i have to take this in the best faith bc of course i do but. what is going on. are u alright.

[yapzone]

why i am such a hater on millennials (as a gen z girlie)

(jk ily (i do not))

1. my brother in christ you let the brony fandom happen. i'd forgive you but looking mlp up on youtube when i was 6 was my 9/11

2. give your kids normal names. like harper is cute but dont name your kid like moses or matthaison (this is not a joke i know a fifth grader named that)

3. also color will not kill your children. neither will pbs kids, going outside, or being bored for a little bit

4. stop with the family vlogs before your kids end up with child actor syndrome

5. oh my god shut up we get it you like the 90s we know you like teen titans and we know you like pokemon red and green

6. on that note can you stop being like "oOoOh the old pokemon games are harder" like you werent 10 playing it??? like it doesnt take a rocket scientist to realize swords dance is a good move

7. jesus fucking christ STOP DRAWING PORN OF KIDS CONTENT you are NOT entitled to your own place in a childrens space!!! its like going to a playground and insisting that all kids stay away from the swingsets so you can say bad words, or putting a seperate section for hardcore drugs in a candy store. you're kind of a total creep. this extends to adult characters in kids shows btw, watch what you say on the internet ffs

8. hey shouldnt you guys still be in animation school?

9. look its not your fault but you made a generation of middle schoolers terrified of growing up because the world is apparently a bleak and horrible place and they wont teach you taxes or smth

10. guys. we're not gen alpha. we know what ds's and nyan cat are

11. dude you're gonna fry your kids brains. taking away the ipad wont kill them. also i feel like you're sheltering your kids way too much and i need you to stop

12. anyways you guys arent entitled or bratty for wanting better living conditions or whatever boomers think abt you BUT you're kinda weird

[skarifikator]

i have been very on edge lately. understimulated and overwhelmed at the same time. very lonely but i also fucking struggle to keep up with a conversation or initiate any kind of contact, i feel so dumb. and fearful. i dont even know how to talk about it but my life is so empty and i find it difficult to confide in people in a cohesive way. i feel so unrelatable? i am struggling with some internal stuff that i just. feel like such a loser over. and have for such a long time and its real fucking cliché but knowing that doesn't help. i feel really gross about it. like i wish i was comfortable talking about it in serious but idk if i ever will be at this rate and that scares me a lot?

my future is so bleak too. my current life is bleak but with the change in my living situation on the horizon i am just. struggling to have the energy to even exist tbh. my relationship with my father is going to suffer and my anxiety will only get worse and my social ties will only deteriorate. even my online friendships i feel like are slipping and it's not like i had /that/ many in the first place.

jesus christ. i think i cope as well as i can considering but god i fucking hate this. i hate my existence. i hate how i am i hate how i act. i dont hate myself but i hate what i've let happen to me i hate how complacent i am i hate how i have no legs to stand on and no support system beyond the home left.

i wish i was loved genuinely and not just because of what i am to the people in my life.

[homophyte]

just watching some youtube n someone was talking about a negative experience w laughing gas during medical/surgical procedure which of course reminded me of my own negative experiences w it so i did a random google if its common for people to freak out on it and finding absolutely tons of accounts of people talking about extreme paranoia and anxiety and even accounts that appear to be dangerously high doses (people unable to breathe etc) but all the sources from a medical perspective were either about the dangers of whippets or cost-benefit of laughing gas over other drugs. ill admit this was a very cursory curiosity google and im sure someone has looked into it but Jesus Christ the medical field is so fucking bleak actually

[holodeckprotocols]

animorphs 52 (the sacrifice) #thoughts

under the cut!

ax book!!! :')

i like James. I was wary about new recruits but he's got good energy.

i'm still struggling to get used to the fact that the yeerks can morph. but I really appreciate how bad at it they are. not so easy is it hmm???

this dark, dirty slaughter in the tunnel is so bleak :(

aw, ax liking a raccoon morph for its nimble little hands!! so cute!! 

oh god, ax has been communicating with the andalites this whole time? and they're just as useless and cold as ever? fucking GREAT

Jesus Rachel and Cassie have really stopped getting along, haven't they :(

this is an absolutely brutal conversation between ax and Cassie.

wow. is morphing technology the answer? can it be?

"We were children no longer. And we never would be again." AUGHHHHH"

Ax, for the last time... Don't call me prince." CRYYYYYYY

my god this is grisly

ahhh fuck, the controllers helping them ;_; the tide is turning!!

Jesus CHRIST that is a fuckton of damage. my god.

holy shit this one was intense. so glad that Rachel & her mom shared that moment and the team is back together for now ;_;

HWAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mizkit]

new blog post: art vs industry

new blog post on https://mizkit.com/art-vs-industry/

art vs industry

Elsewhere a friend posted an image of all the upcoming/in development Marvel projects, of which there were…many…like, over 20…and made a comment about whether it was art or industry.

It turned out I had some feelings on that. :)

I think Marvel walks an interesting line between art and industry. A lot of it’s industry, which is fine because it IS an industry. And since I find, IDK, probably 80% of that industry’s product to be entertaining, I’m pretty happy with that. My problems with the industry aspect of it lie in where they are overworking and underpaying the people, especially the VXF artists, who are carrying so very much of the weight of these films, and in where they’re rushing things that could be good and fail to be because of the headlong pursuit of the Almighty Dollar. So yeah, on that front, I find the industry side problematic.

On the other hand, it’s an artistic industry by its nature, in which they occasionally they strive for and achieve Art, and I think those moments, those films, are sublime, and they actively bring me joy: Winter Solider is as good a spy film as there is, and Black Panther is a stunning achievement on basically every level.

But I also get to-my-toes-thrills out of many of the rank commercialism moments: Bucky flipping that motorcycle makes me go whuff every time, I was in the theatre shrieking my head off when Cap finally said “Avengers, assemble!”, and I burst into tears (I am in fact tearing up now remembering it) when they brought all the Marvel women together for that one big shot. That’s what I wanted. Was it art? Hell if I know, but it made me happy, which is what really matters to me.

I think I’m really not very precious about ‘art’, though, honestly. I’m a working artist. I make my own living mostly through industry: I write paranormal romance because it sells and I need to pay the rent and the bills and for my kid’s clothes. Out of the 50+ books I’ve published, I think probably three of them are what I’d consider art, and that, IDK, 60% of the others have moments of the sublime/active artistic beauty and merit. I think the other 40% are fun, and that’s their job. They’re meant to be escapist. Maybe there are some life lessons or really important moments in them for other people. I’d like to think so, but mostly I want to make readers happy for a little while, and I’m told it works.

And that’s what most Marvel movies & tv do for me. If I want Art with a Capital A, I’ll watch something else. I’ll watch, IDK, August: Osage County, which is the last film I went to on purpose that I thought would make me cry (the last one i went to that i DIDN’T think would make me cry which i FRICKIN’ SOBBED THROUGH was IF, holy god, I was not prepared, Jesus H Christ). I’ll watch Portrait of a Lady on Fire, or…IDK, man. There’s plenty of it available if that’s what I’m after. But the truth is, I’m usually not looking for Art. I’m already emotionally ground down and worn out and I rarely want to watch movies that are going to depress me or making me cry or even, honestly, expect me to think all that much, most of the time. Too much of what we sell as Art is bleak instead of uplifting, and man, there’s enough bleak to deal with already.

I suppose the point is mostly that I don’t think art and industry are separate beasts. I think the idea that artists shouldn’t make any money to keep their art pure is fucking nonsense. I think the Marvel films employ tens of thousands of people in artistic endeavors ranging from headline actors to costumers to lighting designers to construction workers and on and on. From that perspective, arguably there’s very little as artistic as a Marvel production in the modern world.

I don’t think that most of the time they’re…they’re not Loving Vincent kinds of Art, where a film about Vincent Van Gogh was turned into a living painting in an act of single-minded dedication and passion, but it’s difficult to argue, in my opinion, that the Marvel films don’t have something to say about the human condition. We love the visual theatrics of the superhero powers, but it was Vision’s line, “What is grief, if not love persevering?” that actually brought us to our knees. Tony’s and Cap’s ability to almost connect and then the frustration of their failing to is what twists our heart. If Rocket’s excavated rage in Guardians 3, and the entirety of Wakanda Forever, offering catharsis to hundreds of millions of people who had suffered a shocking loss together, isn’t art, then I don’t know what the hell is.

So, yeah. I guess I think it’s a false dichotomy, and I get why people are frustrated with the commercialization of the art, but, like. That’s how it works! Comics have always been commercial! Pantheons have always been there to sell you something! Movies are a commercial product! Do I think it’s arguably problematic that it seems like the only movies/tv people are watching (or at least, going to the theatre for) seem to be the big smash-em-up escapism thing?

…no. No, actually, I really, really don’t. I think the problem is that the world is exhausting and movies are very, very expensive, and if you’re going to choose A Thing to spend your probably-very-limited entertainment budget on, it’s completely reasonable to choose The Thing that everybody else is going to see! The water cooler movies! We all went to Barbenheimer! We all went to Deadpool & Wolverine! We’re all gonna go to…I don’t actually know what the next actual must-see movie is gonna be, let’s call it Minecraft bc that seems sure to make pundits mad that people are going to it instead of, IDK, The Bikeriders!

We’re not doing that because we Hate Art, we’re doing it because there’s still a pandemic on and we can only afford a theatrical release film once a quarter if we’re lucky and if we’re gonna go to one at all we want it to be the one we can talk about with everybody else! The rest of it can wait 3 months (or less!!!) until our family of 4 can watch it for the cost of the streaming service that we’re paying for anyway, with homemade popcorn and a pause button for when we’ve drunk our body weight in Pepsi but don’t want to miss any of the movie!

Did I get off track? Yes! Do I feel strongly about this? Also yes! Did it turn out that further discussion with my friend determined we meant different things by ‘art’ and ‘industry’ and am I going to yhave to write an entirely different post in response to that? Also-also yes! Am I going to stop writing now because I can’t think of a good wrap-up paragraph? Also-also-also yes! :)

[illogicalghost]

big long political rant incoming

anyone else just feel no hope for this country. not to be a doomer but how the fuck does half of population support trump, easily the biggest not only dumbass to ever be president, but also known and convicted con artist and liar and all around scum bag. hell, how are half the people republicans? the party of being scared of your own shadow and constantly wanting to drag the country back to the dark fucking ages and basically make america a christian dictatorship? how do 100s of millions of people just... not care about other human beings? its absolutely mind fucking insane to me and the more i think about the more depressed i get. how the fuck are decent people supposed to make any progress in this stupid country if half of it just stomps their feet and screams and whines whenever they don't get what they want? i just watched a short interview with trump supporters, and they said "he seems like an honest guy who keeps his promises" HOW??? WHERE??? how in the FUCK can you believe that?? do they just plug their ears anytime anyone points out the thousands of terrible things he did to this country? do they just truly not give a single shit about people other than themselves?? on what fucking planet are these people living on? have they looked around at all, or are their heads just so far up their own asses that they'll never see it? and don't even get me started on fucking "undecided" voters. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU UNDECIDED ON? "hmmm one party seems to be taking away the rights of everyone who isnt a rich cishet christian male and the other party isn't. i wonder which party i should vote for?" as if the very lives of minorities aren't under fucking threat every second those ghouls are in charge of everything? and im not here to suck the fucking democratic party's dick because i hate them too, but at least they're not the fucking republicans, jesus christ is it really that hard of a decision? the only way we're ever going to see any semblance of real change around here is if we DON'T have the "let's actively make everything worse" party in charge, and yet somehow people are still like hmmm i don't knowwww 🤔 what the fuck is their problem? what the fuck is 50% of this stupid country's problem?? it's hard to be hopeful for tomorrow when everyday you wake up and some asshole governor has banned trans people again or whatever, or knowing the supreme court of soulless villains could just up and take away another human right at the drop of a hat, and no one's doing anything meaningful about climate change, and like 10 people have 80% of the world's money while thousands of people die out on the streets everyday because they can't bear the thought of giving out even a single cent of their precious capital, and and and and. it fucking sucks out there!! is it the major depressive disorder, or is the state of the shit world we have to live in?? i can't tell! how are we supposed to make the world a better place when it seems like half the people in it don't even care. shit is bleak, man.

[laskardoodles]

fuck man like i gotta rant for a bit. im trying to remain hopeful but the future for us "casual" artists seems so bleak rn. ai is stealing fucking everything and i dont know what incentive there is from like people with actual power to stop them. i heard they can generate speedpaints now?? jesus fucking christ. its just. from the beginning of my art ""career"" (literally when i was like 6yrs old) i was always pressured into finding a way to make this kind of thing profitable. abd it always killed my creative drive. now that im like a lil older i do kinda wanna start selling some of this; in my own way. and i've found a way to do that! - art comms!! but just as i finally find the will to do this kind of thing, ai comes in and now im back to being nervous abt posting my art again. idk man it just sucks... like even on here which is basically the only platform i feel comfortable posting in, i'm not 100% protected from all that bullshit. in fact tumblr is literally like partnering wtih some ai shit now. and its just. im so tired. i just want to be able to post my art and share the things i make like ive always wanted to but was too nervous about like counts and shit like that to actually do it. i dunno. im tired!!!