#jesse t. dolly

[carruni]

they're silly

[newcountryradio]

New Country 28e jaargang  #T1262 (S821) (C61) van 6 januari 2025  (wk 01) uitzending op Smelne fm & Crossroads Country Radio

Album van de week:   Jackson Dean – On The Back Of My Dreams

Classic album: Trio (Dolly Parton, Linda Ronstadt & Emmylou Harris    

Hits of the Year : 2019

Maandfavoriet : Colby Lee Swift - John Deere Rust

Maandartiest : Trace Adkins 

The Group Atlanta - Sweet Country Music

Trace Adkins -  (This Ain't) No Thinkin' Thing

Faith Hill – Breathe    

Blake Shelton - Some Beach                       

Timothy Wayne – Louisiana Saturday Night

Brett Eldredge - Gorgeous *primeur

Ashley Mcbryde – Ain t Enough Cowboy Songs

Morgan wallen /Luke Combs – I’m Sorry

Koe Wetzel & Jessie Murph – High Road #1

Jackson Dean  - Big Blue Sky    *Album vd week  

Jackson Dean  - Heavens To Betsy    

Tim McGraw – Grown Men Don’t Cry     *Entertainer 2001

Scotty McCreery – This Is It       2019

Patty Loveless – You Don’t See To Miss Me  

Brooks & Dunn – That Ain't No Way To Go

Colby Lee Swift - John Deere Rust. favoriet 

The Red Clay Strays - On My Knees (sofi )  

Dolly Parton, Linda Ronstadt & Emmylou Harris - To Know Him Is To Love Him

Trio (Dolly Parton, Linda Ronstadt & Emmylou Harris) Wildflowers(classic album

Cody Jinks - Saginaw, Michigan

Jesse Daniel - Comin' Apart At The Seems

Rhett Akins – She Said Yes

Rhett Akins -Don’t Get Me Started.   (3 in 1) 

Rhett Akins -That Aint My Truck

Shawna Thompson ft. Jim Lauderdale - Lean On Neon

Jackson Dean -  Daddy Raised     (Cd vd week)

Flatland Cavalry -  Countryman    (volgende week)

Jamey Johnson - Saturday Night In New Orleans

Morgan Wallen - Smile     primeur

Zach Bryan -  Quittin' Time (Live From Salt Lake City).

Matt Stell - Shut the Truck Up         Truck song

Trace Adkins - You’re Gonna Miss This

Rosanne Cash - September When It Comes.  juweeltje

Zach Top – I Never Lie      

Jackson Dean  - Jane    (Album vd week) 

Willie Nelson –   Once Upon A Yesterday

Dwight Yoakam – Wide Open Heart .

Major Dundee -The Longer The Distance  .  

Ben Steneker -  Roll On Mississippi

Tulsa - All I Have To Dream Is Dream.

Blake Shelton – God’s Country       #5  2019

Luke Bryan – Knockin’ Boots     #4 2019

Matt Stell – Prayed For You     #3  

Dan + Shay – Speechless    #2 2019

Luke Combs – Beautiful Crazy #1 2019

[the-witching-ash]

WBW for Andrew Cartwright?

Disclaimer - this is Andrew Berry, just the crossover version with @randomestfandoms-ocs who gets his name changed in season two, post the Rachel Berry Trainwerck Extravaganza in Blame It On The Alcohol.

world building wednesday

send me the name of a character, and i’ll reply with:

B A S I C S

full name: Andrew Stephen Cartwright

gender: cis-male

sexuality: bisexual, also identifies as demisexual

pronouns: he/him

O T H E R S

family: Colton Cartwright (best-friend/soulmate), Quinn Fabrey (other best-friend/soulmate), Beth Cartwright-Fabrey (adoptive daughter) Brad Cartwright (Foster Father/Guardian?) , Cece Cartwright (Foster Sister?)

birthplace: Lima, Ohio

job: Waiter, various jobs in college, Broadway

Phobias: Will Schuster, Bugs, Slushies

guilty pleasures: Musical Films (but he doesn’t count them as guilty pleasures), Dolly Parton

M O R A L S

morality alignment?: neutral good

sins - lust/greed/gluttony/sloth/pride/envy/wrath

virtues - chastity/charity/diligence/humility/kindness/patience/justice

T H I S - O R - T H A T

introvert/extrovert:

organized/disorganized:

close minded/open-minded:

calm/anxious:

disagreeable/agreeable:

cautious/reckless:

patient/impatient:

outspoken/reserved:

leader/follower:

empathetic/unemphatic:

optimistic/pessimistic:

traditional/modern:

hard-working/lazy:

R E L A T I O N S H I P S

otp: (varies on the crossover, all @randomestfandoms-ocs ocs) Andrew/Colton Cartwright, Andrew/Demi July, Andrew/Savannah Evens, Andrew/Joy Schuester, Andrew/Roxie Flores, Andrew/Bobby Seurat, Andrew/Val Ramirez, Andrew/Adalia Kline, Andrew/Kirsty Gilmore

ot3: Andrew/Colton/Roxie

brotp: Andrew Cartwright & Mike Chang

notp: Andrew/Dave Karofsky, Andrew/Jesse St. James,

[playlistjunkie]

Best Get Ready Playlist by Tyler Childers

3/7/20 - WhiskeyRiff.com - by Wes Langeler

• Housefire - Tyler Childers

• Leaving Lousiana In The Broad Daylight - The Oak Ridge Boys

• Plastic Saddle - Nat Stuckey

• East Indian Princess - Laudon Wainwright III

• Country Squire - Tyler Childers

• Lets Invite Them Over - George Jones

• Don't Feed the Animals - Shooter Jennings

• Things Goin' On - Lynyrd Skynyrd

• Matthew - Tyler Childers

• Ugly Woman - Jerry Reed

• Mama Bake a Pie (Daddy Kill a Chicken) - Tom T. Hall

• Girl On the Billboard -Jim & Jesse

• What I Really Mean - Robert Earl Keen

• Peace of Mind - Tyler Childers

• One Night Stands - Hank Williams Jr.

• Lousiana Man - Buck Owens

• Awful Lot to Learn About Truck Drivin' - Red Simpson

• A Week in County Jail - Tom T. Hall

• Ever Lovin’ Hand - Tyler Childers

• Chick Inspector (That’s Where My Money Goes - Dick Curless

• County Boy - Ricky Skaggs

• All Your'n - Tyler Chillers

• Loser's Cocktail - Dick Curless

• It’s Such a Pretty World Today - Wynn Stewart

• That Just Kills Me - Wynn Stewart

• Live Fast, Love Hard, Die Young - Faron Young

• Crazy Arms - Jerry Lee Lewis

• High School Confidential - Jerry Lee Lewis

• Hillbilly Fever - Jerry Lee Lewis

• Settin' the Woods on Fire - Jerry Lee Lewis

• My Home Ain't in the Hall of Fame - J.d. Crowe

• Take Your Shoes Off Moses - Ralph Stanley

• Gemini - Tyler Childers

• Rank Stranger - Ralph Stanlay

• Over the Glory Land - Ralph Stanley

• Amazing Grace - Ralph Stanley

• I'll Answer The Call - Ralph Stanley

• Going Up Home to Live in Green Pastures - Ralph Stanley

• Boogie-John Hartford

• Holding - John Hartford

• Joseph’s Dream - John Hartford

• The Cover of "Rolling Stone" - Dr. Hook

• Welcome To Goose Creek - Goose Creek Symphony

• Whupin It - Goose Creek Symphony

• Creeker - Tyler Childers

• Chicken Train Stomp - The Ozark Mountain Daredevils

• Tarheel Boys - Town Mountain

• Lawdog - Town Mountain

• Up the Ladder - Town Mountain

• Foggy Old London - Jimmy Martin

• Bus Route-Tyler Childers

• Milwaukee Here I Come - Jimmy Martin

• One Loaf Of Bread - Dave Evans

• Harlan County - Jim Ford

• She Turns My Radio On - Jim Ford

• Long Road Ahead - Jim Ford

• Working My Way to LA - Jim Ford

• Under Construction - Jim Ford

• Pinball Blues - Moore & Napier

• Mama's Got The Know How - Doug Kershaw

• Third Rate Romance - The Amazing Rhythm Aces

• Typical American Boy - The Amazing Rhythm Aces

• Countrified - John Sanderson

• Haunted House - John Anderson

• I've Got Me a Woman - John Anderson

• Prop Me Up Beside the Jukebox (If I Die) - Joe Diffie

• Don’t Come Home a Drinkin’ - Loretta Lynn

• Gettin’ Happy - Dolly Parton

• Fancy - Bobby Gentry

• Memphis, Tennessee - Bobby Bare

• Wolverton Mountain - Southern Culture on the Skids

• Muswell Hillbilly - Southern Culture on the Skids

• Banana Puddin' - Southern Culture on the Skids

• Put Your Teeth Up on the Window Sill - Southern Culture on the Skids

• Give Me Forty Acres - Jim & Jesse

• Six Days On the Road - Jim & Jesse

• Hole in the Ground - Larry Cordle

• Death Metal in a Minivan - Dinosaur Burps

• Dungeon Map - Dinosaur Burps

• Nap in the Face of Danger - Dinosaur Burps

• Aswdwnwl - Dinosaur Burps

• Orange You Is Peachy - Dinosaur Burps

• Don’t Touch Me - Tammy Wynette

• Fuck You - CeeLo Green

• Don't Pay the Ransom - Nat Stuckey

• 4th Of July / He Stopped Loving Her Today - Shooter Jennings

• Where the Stars and Stripes and the Eagle Fly - Aaron Tippin

• Kiss This - Aaron Tippin

• Tight Fittin' Jeans - Conway Twitty

• Hello Darlin' - Conway Twitty

• Slide Off Of Your Satin Sheets - Johnny Paycheck

• Woman (You Better Love Me) - Johnny Paycheck

• Country John - Allen Toussaint

• Shoot Low, Sheriff! - John Anderson

• Steam Powered Aereo Plane - John Hartford

• O.D.’d in Denver - Hank Williams Jr.

• Fax Me a Beer - Hank Williams Jr.

• She's All I Got - Johnny Paycheck

• Stop the World (and Let Me Off) - Waylon Jennings

[tsunreleased]

Covers

DM To Submit Or Request A Song

[last updated 10/26/24]

A star* next to any song indicates that the song was recently lost when one of my drives got taken down. You can still request the song, it just might be harder to get it to you and I may have to email you the file instead of messaging a link like normal.

A

Ain't Nothin' 'Bout You (Brooks & Dunn Cover) LIVE

American Girl (Tom Petty Cover) STUDIO

B

Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow (Vonda Shepard Cover) ACOUSTIC

Breathless (Better Than Ezra Cover) STUDIO

C

Can't Stop Loving You (Phil Collins Cover) LIVE

D

Drive (For Daddy Gene) (Alan Jackson Cover) LIVE

H

Here You Come Again (Dolly Parton Cover) STUDIO

Hopelessly Devoted To You (Olivia Newton-John Cover) STUDIO

I

I'm Every Woman (Whitney Houston Cover) STUDIO

L

Leavin' (Jesse McCartney Cover) LIVE

M

Missing You ft. Tyler Hilton (Tyler Hilton Cover) LIVE

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark ft. Fall Out Boy (Fall Out Boy Cover) LIVE

N

Nashville (David Mead Cover) LIVE

O

One Way Ticket (LeAnn Rimes Cover) STUDIO

Our Last Night (Better Than Ezra Cover) ACOUSTIC*

P

Pour Some Sugar On Me ft. Def Leppard (Def Leppard Cover) LIVE

R

Riptide Live from BBC Studios (Vance Joy Cover) LIVE

Run (George Strait Cover) LIVE

S

Sweet Escape (Gwen Stefani Cover) LIVE

T

There's Your Trouble (Dixie Chicks Cover) STUDIO

U

Umbrella (Rihanna Cover) LIVE

[leanstooneside]

The hardest work is to do nothing

• CHRIS CUOMO'S FIST (CONTUSION OF UNSPECIFIED THUMB WITHOUT DAMAGE TO NAIL)

• CALEB FOLLOWILL'S FIST (LEGAL INTERVENTION INVOLVING INJURY BY TEAR GAS, SUSPECT INJURED)

• ANGELINA PIVARNICK'S FIST (ANTERIOR SUBCAPSULAR POLAR INFANTILE AND JUVENILE CATARACT, UNSPECIFIED EYE)

• JASON LEE'S FIST (OSTEONECROSIS IN DISEASES CLASSIFIED ELSEWHERE, RIGHT THIGH)

• MEL GIBSON'S FIST (ADVERSE EFFECT OF ANTIFUNGAL ANTIBIOTICS, SYSTEMICALLY USED)

• ALYSON HANNIGAN'S FIST (ANTERIOR SUBLUXATION AND DISLOCATION OF PROXIMAL END OF TIBIA)

• CARSON PALMER'S FIST (CALCIFICATION AND OSSIFICATION OF MUSCLE)

• DOLLY PARTON'S FIST (ACUTE HEPATITIS A)

• EDIE FALCO'S FIST (OTHER UNILATERAL SECONDARY OSTEOARTHRITIS OF HIP)

• JAMES FRANCO'S FIST (LYMPHOCYTOSIS (SYMPTOMATIC))

• ERIN ANDREWS'S FIST (URETHRAL CARUNCLE)

• JAKE GYLLENHAAL'S FIST (MOOREN'S CORNEAL ULCER, UNSPECIFIED EYE)

• SIMON DOONAN'S FIST (TRAUMATIC AMPUTATION OF BREAST)

• KERI HILSON'S FIST (CYSTIC MENISCUS, ANTERIOR HORN OF MEDIAL MENISCUS)

• ZLATAN IBRAHIMOVIC'S FIST (MYOCARDITIS, UNSPECIFIED)

• JAMIE KENNEDY'S FIST (SPONDYLOSIS WITHOUT MYELOPATHY OR RADICULOPATHY, SITE UNSPECIFIED)

• ZAC BROWN BAND'S FIST (OTHER DISORDERS OF CONTINUITY OF BONE, UNSPECIFIED HAND)

• KATRINA BOWDEN'S FIST (CONTACT WITH TURTLES)

• JESSE TYLER FERGUSON'S FIST (TOXIC EFFECT OF VENOM OF BLACK WIDOW SPIDER)

• JENNA ELFMAN'S FIST (LEGAL INTERVENTION INVOLVING INJURY BY TEAR GAS, SUSPECT INJURED)

• GWEN STEFANI'S FIST (OTHER INJURY OF UNSPECIFIED PART OF SMALL INTESTINE)

• TOM FELTON'S FIST (STRAIN OF UNSPECIFIED MUSCLE AND TENDON AT ANKLE AND FOOT LEVEL)

• BRISTOL PALIN'S FIST (EPIDERMOLYSIS BULLOSA DYSTROPHICA)

• LANCE BASS'S FIST (NONDISPLACED FRACTURE OF NECK OF OTHER METACARPAL BONE)

• MATT DAMON'S FIST (BURN OF UNSPECIFIED DEGREE OF UPPER BACK)

• KELLY CLARKSON'S FIST (MYOCARDITIS, UNSPECIFIED)

• CURTIS STONE'S FIST (SALTER-HARRIS TYPE I PHYSEAL FRACTURE OF UPPER END OF UNSPECIFIED FEMUR)

• CARSON DALY'S FIST (SALTER-HARRIS TYPE III PHYSEAL FRACTURE OF UPPER END OF HUMERUS)

• DJ PAULY D'S FIST (UNSPECIFIED SLIPPED UPPER FEMORAL EPIPHYSIS (NONTRAUMATIC), LEFT HIP)

• AMANDA BYNES'S FIST (NONDISPLACED FRACTURE OF RIGHT TIBIAL SPINE)

• ZACH BRAFF'S FIST (MIXED PEDICULOSIS AND PHTHIRIASIS)

• BROOKE SHIELDS'S FIST (OTHER OSSIFICATION OF MUSCLE, LEFT THIGH)

• JEN SCHEFFT'S FIST (INJURY OF UNSPECIFIED NERVE AT LOWER LEG LEVEL)

• EMILIO ESTEVEZ'S FIST (PARALYTIC LAGOPHTHALMOS UNSPECIFIED EYE, UNSPECIFIED EYELID)

• BOBBY BROWN'S FIST (TOXIC EFFECT OF CONTACT WITH OTHER VENOMOUS MARINE ANIMALS, ASSAULT)

• ZAYN MALIK'S FIST (OTHER MATURE T/NK-CELL LYMPHOMAS, EXTRANODAL AND SOLID ORGAN SITES)

[surejess]

"Well, ya know, I made the mistake of trusting my creator t' give me some free will and, see, the murder I had t' commit kinda upset and traumatized my brother. Not that he's real either, but he does have someone who makes him think he is, so he's got 'feelings' the same way we do." Their parents didn't, hence why Jess oscillated between feeling remorse for them and simply feeling remorse for Kiran ( and Dolly, but she didn't know Dolly was still alive yet ! ). In any case, she did still enter phases of being a little bitter at May for that one! But, ya know... that meant May wanted her to be bitter about it, so... "Someone whose creator didn't bother t' give 'em any story beyond what we do." NPC was the word, but did Jess know that? Well, one of the creators said it in a group chat, but Jess could only know so much! "Like that guy over there," Jess said, pointing to some random man behind the two who clearly only existed for the purposes of this interaction, "who's probably gonna basically disappear by the time we're done talking." (Sure, their creators could always pull another practical joke on them, but at least Jess knew some of the people who definitely had feelings!)

be careful? that's something that ezra has heard plenty, plenty, plenty of times before... but not necessarily when it comes to god. more often, in fact, people would chastise him for being too liberal with his interpretation of scriptures! his view of the one true god, or whatever, is much different than most. no worship necessary—just a mutual understanding of the universe and what makes it tick. chaos and destruction! why else would He have brought about the end of days? most people would have trouble reconciling that, but not him—it's clear that it was done for the fun of it! "whatd'ya mean, wrong fellas?" surely there's something to be gained from every murder! maybe she had just been at the wrong place at the wrong time—captured and apprehended. that might make him feel similarly, if he thought a prison could hold him. "and, erm—define without feelings. never met someone who fit that description, i have to say. and i've met quite a lot of people."

[ear-worthy]

Black Effect Podcast Festival Held In Atlanta

On Saturday, April 22, Charlamagne Tha God and iHeartRadio celebrated the first-ever Black Effect Podcast Festival at Pullman Yards in Atlanta, GA, held to highlight, uplift and amplify Black voices in the podcast industry. 

The festival brought together thousands of podcast fans with the Black Effect Podcast Network’s top talent for a day of live podcast recordings from Black Effect’s most popular shows including “The 85 South Show,” WHOREible Decisions,” “Big Facts,” and a special joint taping with “Reasonably Shady,” and “Checking In with Michelle Williams.” 

Additionally, the event included thoughtful panel discussions aimed at aspiring and mentoring podcasters in the Black community with leading content creators and media executives. The event also featured engaging activations from event sponsors including Nissan, AT&T, State Farm and Molson Coors, as well as a career corner, pitch your podcast booth, gaming tournament with The Trap Nerds and more. 

 The Black Effect Podcast Network is a transformative network founded by cultural architect, executive producer, bestselling author, and media mogul Charlamagne Tha God. 

Podcasting has seen more Black representation and creative insight in the last few years. For example, a Black podcast network owned by Chris Colbert, DCP Entertainment, is built as a destination for the underrepresented voice. DCP shares stories about People of Color, Women and LGBTQ+ communities, as well as highlighting stories around mental health, disability and overcoming adversity.

Guest attendees at the Black Effect Podcast Festival included an array of celebrities, content creators, business leaders and students.

 Talent and Special Guests Included:

Charlamagne Tha God

Jess Hilarious

Dollie S. Bishop, President, The Black Effect Podcast Network

DJ Loui Vee

TamBam & AJ, We Talk Back

Porsha Williams

Dre, Eli, Tony, and Exavier, The Trap Nerds

Coline Witt, Eating While Broke

Chad Oubre, 85South

Alexx Media

Tezlyn Figaro, Straight Shot No Chaser

WeezyWTF and Mandii B, WHOREible Decisions

Robyn Dixon and Gizelle Bryant, Reasonably Shady

Michelle Williams, Checking In

Lanae Jackson, Head of Multicultural Marketing, Nissan

Big Bank, DJ Scream and Baby Jade, Big Facts

Ebone’ Almon, Professional Homegirl Podcast

[go-to-two]

Thank you. One more random q because I'm curious. Jesse once tweeted a bunch of words used in tv and film here https://twitter.com/jesseleesoffer/status/1381755242182758404?t=ydW3kEMaD6oS7l7MZK50rw&s=19

I know what some words mean but can you explain grip, first, second, third, apple, apple box, gate, mark, and martini?

(screenshot for context)

I have to say, I admire your curiosity since this tweet is over a year old! This is like a fun little quiz, and some of the replies and quote tweets had me laughing. Let's do this!

1. Grip: it's a department within the crew. Grips work with the lighting and camera departments to get everything secured in the right position to get the shot. This can include stands, trusses, flags, nets, etc. for lights and dollies, car rigs, cranes, etc. for cameras.

2. First, Second, Third: this is vague, Mr. Soffer! Positions? ADs? Units? Walkie channels? First and second teams? I can explain any of these if needed, but I'm not really sure what he was going for here. Or I have more learning to do.

3. Apple: this is explained well in the replies, but it refers to the second camera setup in a scene. Let's say they are filming scene 1 for the day and the first setup is a wide shot while the second is in close. When they switch from the wider to the closer shot, they move from scene 1 to scene 1A, or Apple.

4. Apple Box: literally a box! They are usually made of wood and can come in different heights. They can be placed under props to make them higher in the frame or under an actor to make them taller.

5. Gate: an old school term from when everything was shot on film. The gate was an opening in the camera that would have to be checked for any blockages or dirt that could ruin the quality of the film. Even in the digital world, the term "check the gate" has kind of stuck around as a way to say "check the camera and make sure it's capturing what it needs to".

6. Mark: a marking (usually tape in the shape of a "T") placed on the ground that lets an actor know where they need to be in a scene. Different colors of tape will be assigned to different actors. See: Marina's instagram post from September 20.

7. Martini: last shot of the day!

[postapocalyptic-cryptic]

OC Personality Game!

Rules: Copy and paste these questions and make your own post, please do not add onto this one, it’ll get too long too fast. Mahalo. Then tag some of your friends to let them know you’d like to hear more about their ocs! (via @/queen-breha-organa)

Thanks @gaeasun I’m always ready to ramble about ocs

Name: Holly

Pronouns: he/him

Nicknames: Hollyollyolly, Holl’ika, Hemlock Part Two Electric Boogaloo, Hemlock’s Shadow, Holl, Holls, Holly Dolly, Dolly

One word to sum them up: Sweet

Noun to describe them: Baby

Temperament: Easygoing but easily excitable. Kindhearted and eager to please. A romantic.

MBTI Type: ENFP-T (the Campaigner)

Enneagram Type: n/a

Others’ first impression of them: Very excitable, maybe a little scatterbrained. Is he really up to the job? (yes he is) He’s nice and he goes out of his way to make others feel welcome, so people want to spend time with him. He’s the emotional compass of the group

General Likes: neon and pastel colors, hanging out with friends, soft hoodies, stupid hats, the morning shift

General Dislikes: Being alone, doing paperwork, when Hemlock’s upset or disappointed with him, the color blue, most bugs, the dark

Romantic Interests: None as of yet

Love Interests: None as of yet

Good Friends: Hemlock, Twitch (@gaeasun’s oc medic), Cryo (my oc CC), Jesse, uhh basically everyone but he’s not super close with a ton of people

Enemies: Skeevy Sheevy

Hobbies: Painting with Hemlock, watching Thorn crochet, pestering Hemlock pestering Fox, pestering Thorn, pestering Stone, pestering Thire, reading, watching movies, playing board games

Songs they relate to: Wait a Minute! by WILLOW, Zero by Imagine Dragons, No Time For Toxic People by Imagine Dragons

Fictional characters similar to their personality: Penelope Garcia (Criminal Minds), Miles Morales (Into the Spiderverse)

Fun Fact: He named himself to match Hemlock! He didn’t have a name before coming to the Guard.

Free Space/Ramble: Nothing to ramble about yet! Holly’s not super fleshed out, but he’s baby and I love him.

Not tagging anyone this time bc I already did, but you can say I tagged you, I won’t tell

[surejess]

Jess had. Her ‘acceptance’ was nothing more than resignation that the only good insisting Dolly was alive was doing was getting her… sent away. And if Dolly could just understand that, could just understand that it was doing nothing but exacerbating everyone’s grief — nothing but distancing Jess from their parents, nothing but making their parents think Jess was off her rockers (at best, and trying to exacerbate theirs and Kiran’s grief at worst) — but she could not. Hell, the last time she’d seen everyone all together (unless someone was lying!) was when they were all still kids, constantly relying on and trusting their parents. A lot could happen in over two decades. “Everyone grieved, Dolly.” Did she think they could do anything else? “And I did and I told ‘em. I told ‘em a lot.” Way too many times, really — clearly just a precursor to things to come! “But…” Did Dolly think anyone would believe her? Even as children, Jess had a penchant for saying silly things — Dolly had seen that up close! Growing up? Entering adolescence? That was when saying silly things was no longer very silly, no matter how true. (And it was true. She could feel their heartbeats in unison, she could feel an ever-lingering love, she could feel every time Dolly stepped on a lego…) You killed them because you thought they didn’t have feelings? — Jess could not count how many times she had heard that (or some very close version, at least). The officers, court appointed lawyer, doctor, guards, inmates… It would be easy enough to come up with a better story, but she didn’t quite feel like lying about the motive, even if it made her sound absolutely insane! She had to share her truth — so empowering! But, despite how numb she’d grown to reactions such as that… it wasn’t quite the same coming from Dolly. There wasn’t much she could say about it (‘I didn’t know where you were’ would have troubling connotations and really only make things worse), it had been thirteen years. “I — well, yeah. That’s why it’s been so long. Thirteen years and counting.” Three years isolation, ten years imprisoned… Did Dolly know that this wasn't just some footnote in Jess's life? That it wasn't something she had just walked away from? But — whoa, it was hard to shock Jess, but Dolly physically glueing and sewing their parents back together definitely came from out of left field! Did that shock show on her face? She wasn’t used to having to control those muscles! But… whoa, alright… whoa… okay, this wasn’t about… that. Still a bit too stunned to really return to the sorrowful state she had been in, it took a brief second for Dolly’s question to process… and even longer for Jess to make up her mind. It wasn’t because she didn’t regret killing them — they hadn’t deserved that! The strain on their relationship that wound up snapping it wasn’t strained enough to warrant their murder! But… Dolly mentioning that she had put them back together? Even though there was no offer, it stood to ask whether Jess ever would have wanted to see them again. And, for as morbidly curious as she was, she didn’t think she would. (Kiran, she would never be able to speak for.) …Okay, okay, that was not an offer and this was still not about that! (Not that she would say it, but for what it was worth, they were hardly a family anymore — Dolly wasn’t missing out on much.) “I am. I am sorry, and I’d bring ‘em back so fast if I could - “ - but just for Dolly - “ - but it’s… it’s done and there’s no way to.” And, considering she wouldn’t think it was fun, there was no hope in her even trying to do something about it now that Dolly had put them back together! (Put Gene Kelly back together and they’d talk!) “And, ya know, I am sorry — t’ you and t’ Kiran — and I don’t expect forgiveness.” That was not something she deserved. Kiran hadn't given it to her, she hadn't really given it to herself -- she didn't expect Dolly to do anything different. “There’s just — there’s nothin’ else to do.”

This is the first time Dolly has heard about anyone trying to look for her. She'd gone through a majority of her life believing that her parents didn't care, and neither did her siblings. It's a bittersweet feeling, knowing that they tried their hardest but didn't succeed. She doubts that the people sent to look for her even tried. At first, she'd hidden behind buildings, in alleyways, inside abondoned houses. Dolly had been all alone, scared and anxious, until Ken and Cyn found her. She owes them her life, and it feels traitorous to be upset by the news that her real parents had searched for her and had always wanted her back. Her heart feels heavy, and she feels like the worst daughter to ever exist to all four of her parents.

"Did mom and dad mourn me? Did you mourn me? You must've known I was alive, Jess. I knew you were. I could feel it, I felt things you've been through." The twin thing is real, and not some myth made up by people who think their twins are a little bit freaky. Dolly could feel whenever Jess was in trouble, which was a lot of the time, to be honest. It got to the point where she stopped caring, though. If her sister didn't come looking for her, then she wasn't going to let herself be upset by the possible things Jess was going through.

Dolly can't make any sense of Jess' answer to her question. She's still living in a fantasy world, like when they were kids. "You killed them because you thought they didn't have feelings? If that's the reason, then you should've come and killed me! I'm the 'fake' one. I'm a living doll! Mom and dad didn't deserve what you did. Nobody does. You massacred them, Jess! I saw the damage." When her father presented her with the boxes of her parents remains, Dolly had been sick for months after. She couldn't get rid of the gruesome image burned into her retinas. "I put them back together again."

She wasn't going to show her sister, or tell her where she kept the dolls of their parents. They were hidden inside a trunk Dolly had brought with her, locked away safely, unable to be hurt by anyone ever again. "It took me a lot of time, a lot of effort, a lot of stitches and glue. I did it, though. I made our parents whole again." Dolly wonders if Jess even regrets what she did. Is she even capable of remorse? "Your reason is pitiful, and I'll never forgive you. We could've been a family again one day, but you took that away from me. You took our parents away from me. Are you even sorry? Did you get your free-will?" Dolly is visibly upset, and she reaches up to wipe away the tears on her cheeks.

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Chapter 12 - The Development, Pt. I

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Pairing: Joel Miller x Female!Reader/OC

Warnings: TW for homophobia, homophobic guy gets kicked in the balls. mostly angst: tense situations, back story reveal (hints to disturbing cult activities/religious trauma??). smut: vulnerable/desperate sex, reader and joel being in love and soft w each other.

Summary: The reader and Joel unintentionally get more tangled up with Kiki and Ward –going on patrols, doing town duties with them etc.– which leaves the reader frustrated.

Word Count: 7.060

Author's Note: I feel like I proofread this 500 times but my apologies if it still sucks 😭

Enjoy!

"I think we earned a small break, don't you think so, Captain?" Kurt extended a beer bottle to you.

"I guess so, colonel," You offered a vague smile and reluctantly took the bottle from him.

"Oh, c'mon, cheer up (Y/N)!" Kurt put an arm around you and chuckled ironically. "It's the 4th of July..."

"Sure," You patted his back but appreciated his enthusiasm nevertheless. "It just doesn't sit right with me that all these other people in the QZ don't have the- the luxury we have."

"Oh, I know," Kurt let his arm go and nodded bitterly. "It ain't just, but there's not much we can do."

You nodded as well: "Well, be back in 5, gotta go piss."

Kurt laughed heartily and waved his hand at you as you walked away from the open area to wash your face, hoping to wash away the guilt as well. It was your first time in a different QZ– Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania to be more specific and you weren't exactly having a good time. A big part of your company was wiped out, which had ultimately triggered your survivor's guilt. The situation was out of your control when hunters, bandits and a surprise horde of infected got involved; everyone acknowledged how there wasn't anything you could do, except for yourself. It had been 5 years into this apocalyptic mess, yet you still had trouble adjusting to it... but then again, no one ever really did.

When you reached the shared toilet areas, there were only three cabins. One was occupied, one was completely empty without the toilet itself and the other was simply too dirty.

You heard heavy breathing from the occupied cabin, and instinctively decided to knock on the door to make sure the person inside was alright: "Hey, is everything..."

The moment you knocked the second time on the door, it opened just a smidge to reveal two men kissing, which made you gasp loudly and step back while alerting them.

"Oh god! I'm so sorry–"

"Oh shit–!"

You went to close the door, but immediately decided to turn around in panic, thinking: Fuck, fuck, fuck!

"I'm really sorry! I just wanted to use the toilet since the others are, well– Uh–"

"Fuck, what are we going to–" You heard one of them speak, panicked.

"Relax, it'll be fine," The other one reassured.

"Look, it's uh–" You tried again, slowly turning to walk out of there. "I wasn't here, we never saw each other, okay?"

"No, wait!" You felt a ghostly hand on your arm, but he didn't grab it, just tapped once to get your attention. "Please, you can't tell anyone!"

You raised your hands up mid air to do a stop gesture, trying to get him and his partner to calm down: "No, of course I won't!"

"Wait," The other man with blue eyes stepped out of the cabin. "You won't? You don't mind... us?"

"Mind you? It's none of my business to begin with," You assured both of them. "What happened here stays between us– hell, I wasn't even here as we speak."

"Thank you," He smiled and saw the way he clung onto his partner's –whom you noticed had hazel fleeing to green eyes– hand with his fingers. "Most people around here don't... appreciate us."

You nodded bitterly, a small, sad smile on your face: "I'm so sorry, I wish I could do something for the both of you–"

"What's going on here then?" A deep voice called from behind you, when you noticed a little too late how the man with green eyes' expression shifted to one of fear.

You turned around to meet a face you weren't familiar with: "Why do you wish to know?"

"Why do I wish t–" The guy gave you an incredulous look, interrupted himself and asked. "Identify yourselves."

"Corporal Robin Lazewski," Said the man with the blue eyes.

"Sergeant Cole Doxon." Green eyes followed.

"And you, missy?" The man stood before you at arms length with a sneer.

"Captain," You corrected him. "(Y/N) (L/N). Who might you be?"

The man's sneer disappeared when he realised your ranks were the same, but he still looked displeased: "Captain Phillip Moore. Now, I'll ask you again. What are you doing here?"

The question was more directed at Robin and Cole rather than you, and you knew why, so you stepped in: "Nothing that should worry you, Captain."

"Oh, but I know what's been going on. Had my eye on you two for awhile now enough to know exactly what type of people you are."

"These men are from my company, Captain," You intervened again, lying through your teeth without thinking about the consequences. "If you have a complaint, we can gladly take this up to Colonel Kurt Greenwood, as he is our superior."

The name made Phillip take a step back, clearly making him nervous: "Tsk, no thanks. Don't need to get more involved with your kind."

"If you wanna say something, mister, go right ahead," You growled and took a step forward, risking the possibility of a few days of detention without hesitation. The tension thickened, and thickened, and thickened then finally...

————

"Woah, wait, you just lied out of your ass to him?" Ellie suddenly interrupted you.

"Yeah," You sighed. "If he knew that they were actually from Pittsburgh I would've been... fucked."

"Shit," Ellie sighed. "Guy didn't even know his own soldiers... and then?"

"He said a few unkind words about them, and, well, I kicked him in the balls."

"Are you serious?" Ellie's eyes grew wider, beginnings of a laugh bubbling up in her chest.

"Hell yeah," You offered her your first smile the whole time you'd been lying in your bed together. She came to visit you for the evening, which was no doubt Joel's idea but it was nice of him of course, and ultimately decided to stay the night like you both did from time to time. Your husband, on the other hand, went to stay over at Tommy's to give you both some space.

"Dolly, you were both awesome and out of your mind! What if he caught you? Did they find out?" She asked, squirming where she laid.

"I got away with kicking him at that moment, got the boys out of there and went straight to Kurt." You put an arm under your pillow: "Told him we had to make a transfer, explained the reason. He got mad at me, sure, but he had some connections in the QZ. Later on the guy made a complaint about all of us, but all Kurt said was: Maybe you should worry more about the people suffering in the QZ rather than two people kissing. Maybe then, you can control these uprisings."

"Man," She giggled. "I wish I met Kurt– all of your team. You all were so fucking cool."

You gave her a crooked smile, the pains of your old wounds hurting as if they were new: "He was right, too." She gave you a curious look. "There are more important things people should worry themselves with rather than town gossip, like survival and keeping Jackson running."

Ellie averted her eyes at your words: "Yeah..."

"Look, I may not have the same fierceness I did when I was 25, but that's never going to stop me from kicking someone's balls if they disrespect you." She huffed a brief laugh at your words: "Jokes aside... You know, you can tell Joel, right?"

"Ugh, I don't wanna think about it," She groaned and turned to the right, face directed at the ceiling.

"Take your time. I'm not saying you should tell him, just letting you know that you can, if you want to."

"Sure, thanks..." She stared at the wall for awhile, the moonlight shining directly onto her beautiful features. After a while, she said: "I don't feel like he's being too honest with me, actually."

Your heart skipped a beat at her words: "How do you mean?"

She took her time with her reply: "He ever talked to you about what happened? Before we got here?"

"Not much."

"What about my... immunity?" Her eyes shifted to yours.

You felt like a piece of shit lying to her, making the burden on your shoulder get heavier. The bed felt like it could swallow you when you spoke nonchalantly: "Again, not much. Told me there were a dozen or so more immune people, that they ran some tests and–"

"Yeah, he took me out of there. Unconscious." She sighed and you felt like your uneasiness was showing, but actually you kept your composure. "Do you really believe that?"

This time you took a bit long to answer, walking over the minefield with careful steps: "I'm... I don't know, I'm not really buying it." She gave you a worried look: "But it isn't my business to interfere, either. I really don't know what to tell you."

Ellie just nodded and continued staring at the ceiling afterwards: "I just wish..."

"Yeah?"

"Nevermind."

You nodded, glad the conversation didn't go where you thought it would, relaxing into the mattress: "I heard Tommy brought you one of the comics you were dying to read."

"Yeah," She quietly took a deep breath.

"And? D'you like it?"

"I did actually," She seemed more enthusiastic than a moment ago, which made you relax even more. "But there was another cliffhanger! It wasn't the final volume!"

The next morning Joel stopped by briefly to get his stuff for patrol, kissed you goodbye while you were having breakfast with Ellie, then left. That's when she spoke up: "So? What are we doing today?"

"We?" You raised a brow.

"I got a day off, and you look miserable," She commented. "Not about to let that go to waste, so..."

"I was just planning on lying down for a bit."

"You've been lying down for ever, it's time you did something else!"

"Ellie I really don't have the energy for– for anything, right now." You sighed and helped her with the dishes.

"So... you also don't have the energy for the new game Jesse brought?" She side eyed you, offering a mischievous smile.

You hated feeling like this, not being able to do things with people you cared about because you simply couldn't. Everyone was understanding, of course, but you hated how this feeling had become a part of you overtime; way before you had reached Jackson, and before the death of your family. You even found comfort in it to a certain level, but if you could, you'd gladly get rid of it with a single snap of your fingers.

"I'd like nothing more honestly," You wiped your hands on a small towel on the counter and looked at her: "But we'll see, you know how I get."

If there was someone who helped you get back on your feet as quickly as Ellie and Joel, it was Maria – and Tommy.

But sometimes you really doubted if Maria truly was a maker of right decisions.

It was your first patrol with Ellie where you two went outside, very much like the patrols you took on, but it was still a bit new for her. She wanted to get involved with the patrols sooner than Joel liked: She's too young, it's too early for her, he'd say, but even though it's no age for her to be even seeing the stuff she saw, going through everything she went through, you were on Ellie's side on the matter. She was capable of handling patrols with you, or Joel and others; she was also more skilled than all the kids her age, but a part of you also wanted to keep her safe behind the walls of Jackson.

After a lot of reasoning with Joel, you had managed to convince him and were on your way to start the ski lodge route with Ellie. Maria had told you you'd be meeting with a couple of other people to do a sweep afterwards, but she was hesitant to tell you who. You knew something was afoot, for Maria never was a person to mince her words; it initially gave you an idea about who might be waiting for you, but at least you had Ellie to help calm your nerves. You hitched your horses at the entrance, then walked through the doors. Your jaw clenched and your posture visibly tensed when your theories were proven right and you saw who was inside.

Kiki and Ward.

You internally cringed when you made eye contact with Ward, who was... talking with Joel?

What the fuck is going on?

"'bout time!" Tommy appeared out of nowhere, startling you. "You're half an hour late, we were startin' to get worried."

"What's going on?" Ellie spoke instead of you.

"Well, we'll be heading back," He patted Ellie on the shoulder. "While the others'll do a sweep."

"But we just got here?" Ellie protested. "I thought Dolly and I–"

"Yeah, Tommy, what the fuck?" You whispered and stepped closer to him.

He huffed, it was his signature I'm just gonna put it out here so listen carefully stance: "Maria asked that you solve the issue between you and Ward."

"She didn't ask me shit, Tommy, just told me to get my ass over here. Without a heads up." You sighed and he gave you an apologetic shrug: "She's right, but is patrol really the right time for this?"

"Just shake hands and try to get along, you're partnered up with him."

Your eyes widened: "Tommy–"

"It'll be fine, (Y/N), don't worry." He said reassuringly. "Walt and Bruce went over to the back, you can fetch them and start. C'mon Ellie."

She squeezed your hand in an encouraging manner and followed Tommy out. You rubbed your face and ran a hand through your hair, then finally turned and walked over to the three: "Alright, I'll go get Walt and Bruce, then we can go."

"Sure," Joel offered a small smile and got up from where he was sitting with Kiki, but Ward remained seated with his arms crossed. You took it as an indication to wait for the others to leave so you two could finally talk.

"Well..." You said awkwardly.

"I'm sorry for punching you," He said, straight out, without dwelling on anything. "I get ahead of myself sometimes. I can't really control it when I get angry, I– I never knew how to. It was my only way to survive... and protect Kiki."

You blinked several times at how genuine he was, even his hard expression was softened to some point: "It's, uh– it's okay. Thank you, and sorry, for your nose I mean. It was a reflex."

"Yeah, I know what you mean," He nodded and got up, towering over you, then extended a hand over to you. "We're good?"

"Sure, 'course," You nodded and shook his hand. He pursed his lips and walked out, leaving you a little stunned. You immediately sighed in relief and made your way to the back room, where your memories of fucking with Joel resurfaced and made you smile a little.

"Alright, c'mon you guys, let's go–" You walked into the room and right then, you heard panicked shuffling with a gasp. When you understood what was going on, you immediately stepped back outside: "Oh, woah–."

Were they making out?

If you were honest, you saw it coming, but it still came as a shock. You debated on whether you should leave or stay, but when you heard the panicked voices from inside, you stood there, waiting to apologise as soon as they walked out. It was Walt who opened the door first.

"Dolly– Listen," He was calmer than he sounded back inside. "You... I mean..."

"Look, let me just say this: It's none of my business, and I won't tell anyone, so... It's okay. We can pretend this never happened."

He blinked, a bit dumbfounded: "You don't mind?"

"Walt, of course not. As I said, it's none of my business."

It was then, when Bruce walked out shyly: "You seriously won't go tell anyone?"

At that, you chuckled and looked away, your eyes watering at the memory of Robin and Cole you had told Ellie: "You guys are safe with me– in Jackson. I know some people aren't very open minded here, but just know that you have my support."

Walt suddenly hugged you tightly. You took a second, but immediately returned it with a gentler one: "It's okay."

"Thank you (Y/N)," Bruce smiled sincerely.

"It's the least anyone can do – show basic human decency," You said and smiled back after Walt pulled back. "Come on now, we're already late."

The three of you acted as if nothing happened, but the couple couldn't help the smiles spread on their faces.

"Alright, Doll," Joel began explaining once you stepped to his side to get on your horse. Tommy and Ellie were long gone: "Maria asked us to show 'em how we do our patrols..."

"But?" You already didn't like how Maria picked you two for them, so you scrunched your face up lightly.

"You'll be going with Ward, I'll be going with–"

"Kiki." The name left your mouth with clear discomfort. Joel huffed at your worrisome expression and rubbed your arm soothingly.

"I rightly don't know why we're even assigned with them," Joel kissed your temple gently. "But it'll be fine, sweetheart. C'mon, we have places to cover."

You gave his hand a light squeeze and tried not to look as troubled as you felt inside when you both rode up to the couples, then went separate ways. You were quite surprised Ward actually let Kiki go with someone else– with Joel, but you kept it to yourself.

"So, I presume Tommy or Maria, or someone must've filled you in on how patrol works?" You began once your horses had slowed down the long path.

"Sort of, yeah. Joel and Tommy explained how logbooks work."

"Well, I'll start of with three things you must stick to, then– always. One: Stealth is key to everything. Keep quiet and don't draw any attention to yourself. Two: Your partner is technically your life support. You don't leave them behind, but back them up when they get into trouble and plan routes or approach tactics together. Three: If you come across anything you can't handle– anything at all, you bring your ass back to town."

"Yes ma'am," It was the first time you saw him offer the smallest smile, which softened his hardened features.

For awhile, you rode quietly, until he asked: "Say... Where you from?"

You raised a brow at his question: "Well, would you believe me if I said I don't remember?"

"How is that possible?" He tsked.

"I– I don't know," You chuckled with a hint of bitterness. "I only remember moving to San Francisco with my parents when I was... Around two?"

"Oh so you're a Californian..."

"Well, I suppose. What–" You saw the weird expression on his face: "Where are you from?"

"Idaho."

"Oh, and you're a potato farmer!"

You both shared a chuckle when he continued: "I wish that was the case. Would've traded everything to have been a potato farmer my whole life than..."

"Than what?"

"The shit I went through ever since the world fell apart."

You shrugged: "Don't we all?"

"I don't know about you, but none of those people in there –except for Kiki– would've preferred living as farmers..."

"What are you talking about?"

He took a deep breath to calm his nerves, broke eye contact and his whole stance changed. It took him a few silent moments, but he spoke eventually: "When the infection took over, a small church in our town offered food and protection to everyone there. They barricaded the whole town in a short time, a lot of people died in the process, but we actually made a safe environment– not as strong and well protected like here, though. The infected weren't occupying that part of the city too much, either, so we just made decent living... But in time, the priest of the church started controlling the community. In months everyone was on their knees praying– beggin' for forgiveness for their sins so that they survive this shit..."

"Oh..." You flinched, feeling sorry for him, your heartbeat picking up in worry. You were also unintentionally expecting him to get this story somewhere, pull out a gun and shoot you, or stab you with his knife– you were expecting an Axel case. They might have come all this way just to avenge a loved one who you might have killed, and even though your mind screamed that the scenario had no way of making sense, you still kept your hand on your pistol which was strapped to the side of your thigh that he couldn't see.

"It was fucked up, and I was young, I had no choice but to follow my parents... They died years later and that was when I met Kiki. She was so pretty, and– and kind to me. I really liked her, we were around... 18 and 20 at the time, I think. She helped me mourn my parents, we made really good company. Soon I realised I was falling in love with her."

Hearing these words from him freaked you out a little, if you were honest, because they didn't look very in love; but you were also curious about what the hell had happened to them.

"A year or so later we, uh– Understand this, we had to keep it a secret. If the priest didn't see a couple fit, they'd get punished, but if he did, he'd force them to... Have children, to– y'know."

You couldn't hide the disgust on your face, but he was too focused on somewhere else to notice it, the sorrow and trauma on his face making you feel bad for him.

"We didn't know if we were more scared of the punishment, or Kiki getting pregnant– neither of us wanted a child, we were so young..."

For a moment he looked guilty for saying that, but when you reassured him that you understood, he still looked guilty and regretful: "Naturally."

"Not too long later people started picking up on what type of relationship we had. One time one of the priest's..." A suden wave of rage washed over him– He spat out the next word: "Whores, caught us hugging each other, then we were brought before the priest. He didn't see us fit because we didn't take anyone's permission to get together."

Your brows also drew closer in anger as you listened: "I'm really sorry you two had to go through that."

"It doesn't matter, it was long ago; we escaped, and now we're here," Ward suddenly fixed his posture, looking thoughtful and upset at the same time. The conversation had come to an end.

"Listen, if you ever wanna talk to someone," You spoke hesitantly. "Our head doc Katherine holds weekly, uh, conversations," You couldn't bring yourself to say therapy, even though he'd find out sooner or later.

"I don't– I don't wanna talk about it," He huffed angrily and side eyed you where he sat.

"You seem like you need to, is all I'm saying," You ran a hand through your hair, wiping some sweat off your forehead in the meanwhile. "It's okay to do that, y'know."

"I don't need it!" He growled and turned his head towards you in a harsh motion. "I don't need your– stupid conversations–"

"Hey," You pulled on the reins in your hand, hard, and came to a stop. He mirrored your movements when you growled back: "Those stupid conversations actually help people. They saved god knows how many townsfolk, and participating in them doesn't make you less of a man."

"That's not what this is about."

Sure you wanted to counter, the look of offense in his face telling you everything you had to know, but kept your tongue: "I just suggested you could go, nobody's forcing you to! Keep it in the corner of your mind if you want, I don't care what you do."

With that you started riding again, missing the look of regret and worry on his face. When he reached your side a few moments later, he spoke quietly, softer: "You're right, I'm sorry."

You nodded: "Try not to take things personally, we're not your enemies. We're just trying to help."

The rest of the ride was quiet, but the good outcome of both you and Joel's pairing with the couple unfortunately had a bad outcome for you. Maria asked you and Joel to be patient and stick to them for a month or so– at least until they start to really fit in. You had to accept, thinking of how when you first came here Walt had switched his partner's because he was the first person one to get along with you.

The problem was, you weren't exactly getting along with them, or Kiki more precisely.

You didn't know if it was because of your pride or your reluctance to make a scene about it, but you kept quiet about your suspicions about how Kiki undeniably took a liking to Joel. When you subtly asked a question about how Kiki behaved on patrol, he nonchalantly explained how she picked up pretty quickly and appeared to be a much more normal person; but you left out the bit that whenever you or her husband appeared, she'd hiss like a cat.

Maybe you were simply jealous that a pretty woman like Kiki was hitting on Joel, even though you never doubted his intentions for a second. He seemed very oblivious to her and your hints at what you wanted to say, and that was pretty much your only way of finding comfort.

Ward, on the other hand, always looked at the brink of a breakdown when it got too quiet between you two. Joel also asked about how he was whenever you discussed the pair, and when you mentioned their background and how troubled he looked ever since, he raised a brow. He also mentioned how Kiki started wearing t-shirts throughout the week –sleeveless clothing– and he thought it had to do with some sort of survival condition related trauma, while you had other theories.

Theories that you, once more, kept to yourself.

Because there were always two ends on situations like this: Your theories were correct – she was right all along! or, you thought too much of it – you're so dramatic!

It was a little frustrating, not being able to tell these to any memebers of your family, except for Ellie, who came to understand– probably better than Joel or the others would.

"Yikes, I'm sorry, Dolly," She looked troubled at your worrisome expression when you finally broke and told her about your suspicions.

"Morton's fucking fork," You sighed and ran a hand through your hair nervously. "I honestly don't know what to do, it's too early to say anything but at the same time I feel like it'll be too late if I keep it to myself."

"Well, no matter what happens," She rubbed your shoulder reassuringly. "I'll be by your side. Always."

The words caught you off guard, the frustration of bottled up feelings and the subconscious weight of keeping the truth about what happened with the Fireflies from Ellie finally shattering and setting a few drops of tears free.

"Thank you– Oh, Ellie," She hugged you where she stood while you remained seated on your chair in the kitchen. "What would I do without you?"

"I know, I'm the light of your life," She joked, which made you chuckle briefly.

"Look, I also want you to know that–" You pulled back and took her hands in yours, then looked her straight in the eyes: "That I'd do anything for you. Whatever happens, I'll be on your side too, even if I can't intervene."

An emotional scene between a girl who found her mother figure, and a broken soldier longing for a deeper sense of tranquility eventually finding it in a girl– something she thought she'd never find.

"Christ, Joel," You immediately got up from where you were sitting in the living room and ran up to your husband as soon as you saw his dirty, tired state. It was god knows what in the morning but you couldn't sleep, thoughts of Kiki and Joel keeping you up for the second time ever since your mutual patrols started three and a half weeks ago.

"What're you still doin' up?" You carefully looked him up and down with worried eyes and ignored his exhausted sigh. You quickly but carefully hugged him, burying your face into the crook of his neck.

"Are you hurt?" You asked quietly after he immediately put his arm around your waist.

"Nope, just sore," He closed his eyes. "And a little dirty. Why aren't you asleep?"

You pulled back slowly and looked into his eyes, shrugging: "Couldn't sleep. And good thing I didn't."

"Dolly..."

"C'mon, let's get you cleaned up." You tugged on his large hand and led him up to your bathroom. After you arranged the tub to fill, you helped undress him, his pale face and tired eyes made you put extra effort to be as delicate as possible.

"You wanna talk about it?" You said after dropping his t-shirt into the laundry basket, while he took off his pants beside the door.

"There ain't much to talk about. We just..." You could feel your heart beat in your ears as you took his pants from him and repeated your motion, but froze in your place when he spoke again: "She saved me."

Your brows shot up quickly and the ache of keeping them crossed in a worried expression for so long immediately made its presence known: "My flashlight gave out, was tryin' to shake it back to life when a stalker grabbed me."

Joel scratched the back of his neck and lowered his head while you just stared and moved towards him slowly, his voice quiet: "I felt its– Its teeth on my neck right before Kiki jumped on it."

"Joel..." You sighed the moment you stopped walking, whispered, gulped and realised how bad your throat ached. He raised his head and gave you an utterly wrecking look, which immediately triggered you to walk over to him and hug him. His arms quickly shot up and wrapped themselves around your back. He buried his face into your neck this time and your hands ran through his hair, caressing the back of his neck soothingly. The way his arms embraced you was tight, but not enough to crush you– just enough to remind you where you belonged.

Home. That's what you felt like.

For the first time in many, many years, you finally found home again.

That exact feeling that made your eyes blurry with tears had struck first after fifteen years into the apocalypse, and it was the night after a particularly tough mission to handle some hunters around the area. The team had almost lost Kurt and Robin, the fear had been very overwhelming. The intensity of it all was nerve-wracking for everyone, so when Robin was back with Cole, they broke down crying in each other's arms. You couldn't bare to see them like that, so you joined with quiet whimpers and hugged them where they sat on the ground. Slowly, the rest of the group had joined, and when finally Kurt put his arms around you and them, everyone calmed down. That was home.

Family.

You inhaled his scent with tears in your eyes and a barbed wire around your throat, then hugged him tighter; the realisation of what might have happened had Kiki not been there washing over you like a tidal wave. All these months of doubting her– maybe you misunderstood her? Were you too cruel to Kiki in your mind? You sure as hell owed her now, you were more than grateful for what she did.

A sharp intake of breath from Joel and the warm wetness you felt on your neck confirmed that he was crying, so you turned your head a little to kiss his neck softly. It was rare that Joel cried, let alone open up like this, so you let him cry on your shoulder for as log as he needed. He didn't make a sound other than his occasional sniffs and sighs.

"I need you (Y/N)," He murmured after calming down a few minutes later, slowly shifting his arms downwards and kissing you deeply, pulling you flush against him. You kissed back, sighing into his mouth and slithering your hands down his back to the waistband of his underwear. You devoured each other at the doorway while the tub was still filling, the chilly yet still warm July night creating a thin layer of sweat between your bodies. He softly pushed you up against the doorframe, and his movements became more rushed the more your tongues danced against each other.

"Joel, baby wait," You pulled back and he stopped immediately. "The bath..."

You kissed a tear that was hanging on the edge of his cheek and reluctantly slipped away from his hold to turn the faucet off, and before you could turn back around, you felt his hands slowly sneak their way under your shirt and smiled softly at the feel. You turned completely, while he carefully walked you over to the counter and pushed you against the edge between the two sinks. He started peppering urgent kisses on your neck, making you sigh a quiet moan as your eyes closed, his hands roaming your body and eventually taking off the sleeveless undershirt off of you.

"What about the– the bath?" You barely managed to ask when he softly bit and kissed on the skin of your breasts, then moved down to tug your shorts down your legs.

"Later," He groaned when he saw the sight before him and immediately went to suck a few marks around your breasts, gently biting your nipples the way you liked it. You moaned and wrapped a leg around his waist so you could have his erection pressing directly against your pussy.

He lifted you up slightly and sat you on the cold counter, making you sigh as he settled between your legs, pulling his underwear off only for his erection to spring against your inner thigh. He was getting harder by the second, but before he lined himself up, he made sure you were taken care of to begin with. While massaging your inner thighs, he carefully bit and sucked on your neck, rubbing the tip of his cock between your slick folds in the meantime. You moaned quietly at his ministrations, his hands feeling wonderful around your legs.

After a while, you reached for his length and lined him up, allowing him to push in. You let out a soft moan by his ear and he did the same when he dived into your depths, then wrapped your arms around his shoulders and legs around his waist. He growled, grabbed at your hips and thighs and started off with a slow but somehow rushed pace.

What you liked about a slower pace, first and foremost, was how you could feel everything Joel had to offer and how much more relaxed and focused he was. You liked it when he took his time, making sure you felt every inch and vein of his length– You also liked the tension building up more this way. With the patrols and chores taking up most of your constantly changing schedules, sex had started to become a bit of luxury again, too.

Your eyes opened slowly when he called your name desperately– moaned it. You slowly pulled back from your hug and looked him in the eyes, then kissed him deeply, his rhythm stable but the snap of his hips started to become harsher. His grip on your hips were equally desperate and bruising, but you liked it; it was also your own way of assuring yourself that Joel was still here, with you.

His pace picked up the more your tongues swayed together, then his hand went to the hair on your scalp and massaged the skin there, making you throw your head back and clench down on him with a mewl. Groaning, he kissed and bit all over your neck again, the skin slapping against skin making both of you near the edge.

He suddenly pulled out and away, gently helped you off the counter and turned you around. In one motion, he buried himself deep inside you again and moaned. You arched your back and he pulled your hair into a ponytail, then placed solid, sloppy kisses on your shoulders as he fucked you from behind.

"Shit– Joel," You gasped when he grabbed at your breasts, arms crossed and slammed into you particularly hard. He was getting closer with each passing minute.

"(Y/N)..." He groaned and pressed you down against the counter, trapping you between the cold surface and his hairy, broad chest while sneaking a hand down to your clit. He slammed into you three more times, which made you moan brief but loud ahs and ohs each time; your hands clawing against his hips and arms, leaving your own marks, throwing him over the edge when he thought about the pleasure he felt when your nails digged into his skin.

You both came with loud moans and held onto each other tightly, Joel pulling out the last second even though he really, really wanted to come inside you at that moment: He would never do it without your permission and talking about it first, but the topic was never brought up by either of you.

Panting while coming down your high, you were as disappointed as Joel was when he didn't fill you up with his thick cock– you were also as cautious as your husband about this, and maybe it was finally time to discuss it.

After recollecting yourselves, you both moved into the lukewarm water in comfortable silence, Joel laying against you between your legs and holding onto your hands which you had wrapped around his chest in a hug, resting his head against your own.

Some time later, when you felt yourself dozing off, Joel hummed quietly: "If you're gonna sleep let's move to bed."

"How did you..."

"Your heartbeat got real slow, figured you were dozin' off," He slowly got up with a phantom smile on his lips and looked into your sleepy eyes. This small gesture made you smile back, and after he took your hand in his and placed a loving kiss on your knuckles, you got cleaned and out of the bath. There was much to be said, but sleep overcame you both as soon as you laid on the soft, inviting mattress.

The next morning, Joel had some business in town with Tommy while it was your day off, so you both had the opportunity to talk during breakfast. After some discussion and honesty about how you felt towards Kiki, Joel figured there'd be nothing a good dinner wouldn't fix. You had to agree because of your self-doubt, maybe this dinner would help you understand Kiki's intentions better, and it would also be your way of thanking her for saving Joel.

"I have to tell you somethin', but promise me–" Joel chewed on his scrambled eggs after your reluctant agreement to the dinner. "–You won't get mad?"

You rolled your eyes and offered a small smirk after finishing your bite: "When do I ever get mad at you?"

"Oh?" He raised a brow. "Well, I was startin' to think you were jealous of Kiki, is all."

Your mouth fell open in a silent gasp: "I am no such thing! Joel Miller–"

"Oh boy," He took a sip off his coffee, having made his point.

You took a deep breath, rolled your eyes while they were closed and grabbed your own cup: "Look, I'm not jealous, I just..."

"Just what?"

You chewed on your lower lip while staring two holes into the cup in your hands, took your time to think: "I'm just worried."

"What's got you worried, sweetpea?" His expression immediately softened as he leaned forward, the pet name easing the tension in your heart a little.

"They're– really odd, okay?" You spoke quietly, occasionally meeting his eyes. "Doesn't it bother you just how different they act when they're not around each other?"

"Where're you gettin' with this?"

"I just don't want another Axel case." The room fell to a deafening silence when you said his name, but you continued when he didn't say anything: "Look, I simply can't help but think they're trying to get close to us on purpose."

"Oh darlin'," His eyes widened slightly as he got off his chair and stood beside you in a quick motion, putting his warm hands on your bare shoulders. "I understand what's got you all worried, but I'm sure this is all because of Maria puttin' us together for patrol. Don't worry your pretty little head with all o' that." He pressed you against his body in a hug, gently massaging your shoulders as he did: "Now, I gotta get goin', but when I come back I'll do somethin' to ease all that stress built up in these strong muscles of yours, huh?" He softly digged his fingers into your shoulder blades, making you sigh as you realised they were indeed very stiff. He offered a soft smile: "Agreed?"

"Agreed." You forced a smile in return, trying not to worry like he said. It was Joel, after all; if he said you had nothing to worry about, then you probably didn't...

... But that didn't mean you were going to shut out your gut feelings altogether. It was your instincts that always saved your ass when you were unsure about situations like this, or when you got in trouble with people in general. You could always beat yourself up for overthinking too much and being so doubtful of them, but for now, you were going to keep your guard up at all times and keep them at arm's length.

————

tags: @spideysimpossiblegirl @joelsgeetar @sherry-212 @peachymelon69

[cardest]

Tennessee playlist

I’m going to Memphis! This is the mighty Tennessee - Memphis & Nashville playlist. You can’t tell the story of rock n roll without mentioning Memphis. Mississippi and Nashville, such a great history of music in this region. Chuck D hits things off with the ultimate introduction. Hit play here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC1_X9nesbW37-9FNLiJWOQ1f

This playlist has it all. Soul, blues and rock n roll. We take a journey back to the beginning of country as well, with Nashville and finish up at Dollywood. Hope you dig it.

Tennessee - Mississippi - Arkansas

001 Henry Rollins & Chuck D - Rise Above 002 Clutch -  Devil & Me 003 Paul Simon - Graceland 004 Isaac Hayes - Memphis Trax 005 Scott Walker - Thats How I Got to Memphis 006 AC/DC - let there be rock 007 Johnny Cash -  Country Boy 008 Chuck Berry -  Back To Memphis 009 Jay Reatard - Gree, Money, Useless Children 010 Lukah - Black Dragon 011 King Curtis - Memphis Soul Stew 012 Rosetta Howard & the Harlem Hamfats - Delta Bound 013 Nots - In Glass 014 Pere Ubu - Memphis 015 Loretta Lynn - The Pill 016 Howlin Wolf - Smokestack Lightnin 017 Rory Gallagher - The Mississippi Sheiks 018 Crime and the City Solution - Streets Of West Memphis 019 River City Tanlines - Met You Before 020 Johnny Cash - Going To Memphis 021 Al Green - Get Back Baby 022 Kim Salmon & The Surrealists - The Zipper 023 Booker T & the MG - Melting Pot 024 Pussycat - Mississippi 025 Boswell Sisters - Roll On, Mississippi, Roll On 026 Aretha Franklin   - Muddy Water 027 The Cramps - Garbageman 028 HASH REDACTOR - Good Sense 029 Optic Sink - Personified 030 Angry Angles - Blockhead 031 Big Star - Thirteen 032 Memphis Jug Band -  Going Back to Memphis 033 North Mississippi AllStars - K.C. Jones (On The Road Again) 034 Bass Drum Of Death -  Bad Reputation 035 Today Is the Day -  The Devil's Blood 036 Walk the Line Soundtrack- Get Rhythm 037 Jack White -  Temporary Ground 038 Jerry Lee Lewis - A Damn Good Country Song 039 The Homemade Jamz Blues Band - Rumors 040 Saving Abel - Pine Mountain (The Dance of the Poor Proud Man) 041 The Oxford Circle - Foolish Woman 042 Bobbie Gentry - Greyhound Goin' Somewhere 043 Reigning Sound - A Little More Time 044 NINA SIMONE - MISSISSIPPI GODDAM! 045 Laurie Anderson - Hiawatha 046 Glen Campbell - Burning Bridges 047 Dolly Parton - Hillbilly Willy 048 Elvis Presley - Guitar Man 049 Blue Oyster Cult - Divine Wind 050 Sammy Hagar - Halfway To Memphis 051 Izzy Stradlin   - Memphis                       052 Johnny Cash -  Run Softly, Blue River 053 Iron Horse - Unchained 054 The Cramps - Human Fly 055 Faces - Memphis 056 Jack Oblivian - Rat City 057 The Cooters - Bustin' Loose 058 Mott the Hoople - All The Way From Memphis 059 Dusty Springfield -  Breakfast in Bed 060 Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Tupelo 061 Chicago - Blues In The Night             062 Crossin Dixon - Guitar Slinger 063 Strummin' With The Devil - And the Cradle Will Rock 064 Stray Cats -  Can't Go Back to Memphis 065 Elvis Presley - Suspicious Minds 066 Suzi Quatro - Can't Trust Love 067 Lost Sounds - There's Nothing   068 Ike & Tina Turner ~ River Deep, Mountain High 069 Neil Diamond - Memphis Flyer 070 Julien Baker - hardline 071 The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion - Memphis Soul Typecast 072 Isaac Hayes  - Groove-A-Thon 073 Otis Clay - Trying To Live My Life Without You 074 Tim McGraw - Don't Mention Memphis 075 Eric Burdon & War - Blues For Memphis Slim 076 Homemade Jamz Blues Band - Blues Train 077 Sweet Knives - I DON'T WANNA DIE 078 Cream - Four Until Late 079 Grateful Dead - Golden Road 080 Huey Lewis and the  NEWS - Function At The Junction 081 The Cramps - I Was A Teenage Werewolf 082 Jesse Winchester_ The Brand New Tennessee Waltz 083 Dorsey Burnette - Tall Oak Tree 084 Field Music - Time In Joy 085 Jay Reatard -  Blood Visions 086 The Rolling Stones - Honky Tonk Women 087 Quintron & Miss Pussycat  - Block the comet 088 Al Green - Let's Stay Together 089 The Mountain Goats - Getting Into Knives 090 Johnny Cash -  Tennessee Flat Top Box 091 Robert Pete Williams & Robert “Guitar" J. Welch - Mississippi Heavy Water Blues 092 MARY JAMES - MAKE THE DEVIL LEAVE ME ALONE 093 Ministry - Mississippi Queen 094 U.S. Bombs - Rocks in Memphis 095 Nazareth - Jet Lag 096 The Bar-Kays - Holy Ghost 097 Ty Segall - Despoiler Of Cadaver 098 His Hero Is Gone - Like Weeds 099 Jerry Lee Lewis - Memphis Beat 100 Generation X =  King Rocker 101 The Doobie Brothers - Wild Ride 102 Bad Company - Whiskey Bottle 103 Black Stone Cherry - When The Weight Comes Down 104 Buddy Miles - Memphis Train 105 Memphis Slim - Rockin' The House (Beer Drinkin' Woman) 106 David Clayton Thomas  - Wish The World Would Come to Memphis 107 Lost Sounds - Better Than Somethings 108 Alice Cooper - Ubangi Stomp 109 Tom Waits -  Don't Go Into The Barn 110 Hank Snow - Music Makin' Mama From Memphis 111 Phil Ochs - Heres to the State of Misssippi 112 Reigning Sound  - Your Love Is A Fine Thing 113 Pixies -  Letter to Memphis 114 Bob Dylan - Stuck Inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again 115 The Colorblind James Experience - Considering A Move To Memphis 116 B.B.King - Rock Me Baby 117 Carla Thomas - B-A-B-Y 118 Aquarian Blood - A Love That Leads To War 119 Nights Like These - Scavenger's Daughter 120 Rufus Thomas - Walking the Dog 121 Clutch -  The House That Peterbilt 122 Lyal Strickland - O Arkansas 123 Don Bryant - How Do I Get There 124 The Sensational Barnes Brothers - Trying To Go Home 125 Squirrel Nut Zippers - Memphis Exorcism 126 Faster Pussycat - Tattoo 127 The Rolling Stones - Memphis Tennessee 128 Alcatrazz -  Sons And Lovers 129 Evil Army - Violence And War 130 Deep Purple - Somebody Stole My Guitar (Purpendicular 11) 131 Dwight Yoakam - Guitars, Cadillacs 132 UFO - Natural Thing 133 Thunderbridge Bluegrass Boys - Tennessee 134 Confederate Railroad - Queen of Memphis 135 The Box Tops - The Letter 136 Jerry Lee Lewis - Night Train To Memphis 137 Reverend John Wilkins - Trouble 138 Phil Lynott - Kings Call (feat. Mark Knopfler) 139 Old Crow Medicine Show - Motel in Memphis 140 Candy Lee- Here in Arkansas 141 Pharoah Sanders - You've Got To Have Freedom 142 Molly Hatchet - Mississippi Moon Dog 143 Rwake - Crooked Rivers 144 CARL PERKINS & PAUL SIMON - A Mile Out Of Memphis 145 Eddie Floyd - Knock On Wood 146 Al Green - Talk to me 147 Mush - Eat the Etiquette 148 PJ Harvey - Memphis 149 EX-CULT  - Clinical Study 150 Isaac Hayes  - Mans Temptation 151 Lil’ Jon & Eastside Boyz - Rep Yo City 152 Rufus Wainwright - Memphis Skyline 153 Stray Cats - 18 Miles to Memphis 154 Amasa Hines - Earth and Sky 155 Joe Henderson -  Back Road 156 Bastard Sons of Johnny Cash - Memphis Woman 157 Norma Jean - Memphis Will Be Laid To Waste 158 Fess Parker - Ballad of Davy Crockett 159 Assjack -  Redneck Ride 160 Brother Andy & His Big Damn Mouth - Social Lube 161 The Replacements - Alex Chilton 162 Ann Peebles - The handwriting is on the wall 163 The Highwaymen -  Big River 164 The Cult - Memphis Hip Shake 165 STEVE EARLE -  Hillbilly Highway 166 The BO-KEYS featuring OTIS CLAY -Got To Get Back 167 Rush - Tom Sawyer 168 Class Of '55: Memphis Rock & Roll Homecoming - Birth Of Rock And Roll 169 Hank Williams Jr - Memphis Belle 170 Sam Moore & Dave Prater - Soul Man 171 Orchestral Manoeuvres In The Dark - Bloc Bloc Bloc 172 Kenny Rogers & The First Edition  - Just Dropped In 173 Linda Heck - pictures of dead people 174 Carla Thomas - Sugar 175 Three Mafia 6 - Mystic Stylez 176 Osborne Brothers- Rocky Top 177 The Beverly Hillbillies Theme Song 178 Wilson Pickett - Barefootin' 179 Dolly Parton - Jolene 180 Charlie Daniels - long haired country boy 181 The Civil Wars - From This Valley 182 Jill Jack - Gettin' On In Memphis (The Elvis Song) 183 Huckleberry Finn and His Friends - Opening title 184 Dead Cross -  Skin of a Redneck 185 Johnny Cash - I Never Picked Cotton 186 Old Crow Medicine Show -  Wagon Wheel 187 Isaac Hayes  - That love feeling 188 Aretha Franklin - I say a little prayer 189 Little Milton - What Do You Do When You Love Somebody 190 Howlin' Wolf - Spoonful 191 Weird Al" Yankovic - Money For Nothing / Beverly Hillbillies 192 The Oblivians - I'll Be Gone 193 OT Sykes - Stone crush on you 194 The Mad Lads  - Come closer to me 195 The Box Tops - Choo Choo train 196 Bobby Blue Bland - dreamer 197 Wanda Jackson - Rip It Up 198 Junior Parker - Love Ain't Nothin' but a Business Goin' On 199 The Nightingales ft. Tommy Tate - Just a Little Overcome 200  The Louvin Brothers - Satan is real 201 Overture "Big River" - (1985 Original Broadway Cast) 202 Ike & Tina Turner - Shake 203 Playa Fly - fly shit 204 Adia Victoria - Different Kind Of Love 205 Grateful Dead - Tennessee Jed 206 Red Hot Chili Peppers - Backwoods 207 Otis Redding - Tennessee Waltz 208 Nashville Pussy - The Late Great USA 209 The Paperhead - The true poet 210 Tomahawk - South Paw 211 Night Beats - Her Cold Cold Heart 212 Forest of Tygers - human monster 213 LOSS - All Grows on Tears 214 Charlie McCoy - Wayfaring Stranger 215 Dick Stusso - Modern Music 216 Eddie Noack - Aint the Reaping Ever Done 217 Jason & the Scorchers - Greetings From Nashville   218 Jasmin Kaset and Quichenight - A Single Right Word 219  Gospel Keynotes - Give Me My Flowers 220   WEEN - Scrape the Mucus off My Brain 221 Shannon Shaw - Broke My Own 222 The Jesus Lizard - Blue Shot 223 Eddy Arnold    - Tennessee Stud 224 Clutch - Pure Rock Fury 225 Today Is The Day -  Who Is The Black Angel? 226 Hank Williams Jnr - Tennessee River 227 The Dead Weather -  Bone House 228  Every Mother's Nightmare - Long Haired Country Boy 229 Motley Crue - She goes down 230 Waylon Jennings - Tennessee 231 Dolly Parton - Down On Music Row 232 Jello Biafra & Mojo Nixon - Lets Go Burn Ole Nashville Down 233 The Byrds - Nashville West 234 Sharon Van Etten - Every Time the Sun Comes Up 235 Bill Anderson ~ More Than A Bedroom Thing 236 Dottie West - Route 65 To Nashville 237 Intruder - The Martyr 238 Johnny Cash - Smiling Bill McCall 239 Lynard Skynyrd - Workin For MCA 240 The Everly Brothers  - Nashville Blues 241 Nancy Sinatra & Lee Hazlewood - Elusive Dreams 242 Nashville Bluegrass Band - Im Gonna Love You 243 Ringo Starr - No-No Song 244 Hank Williams - Hey, Good Lookin' 245 The Lovin Spoonful - Nashville Cats 246 They Might Be Giants - James K. Polk 247 Commander Cody  -  Back To Tennessee 248 Wanda Jackson - Shakin' All Over 249 Nitty Gritty Dirt Band - Grand Ole Opry Song 250 Tomahawk - Flashback 251 Megadeth -  Dystopia 252 Dolly Parton -  Train, Train 253 The Clovers - One Mint Julep 254 Trampled By Turtles - Whiskey 255 Tom T. Hall - Nashville is a Groovy Little Town 256 Muddy Waters - I am the blues 257 Foo Fighters - Congregation 258 Pavement - Strings Of Nashville 259 Joe Ely - Tennessees Not The State Im In 260 Waylon Jennings - Nashville Bum 261 The Charmels - As Long As I Got You 262 Eve Maret - Do my thing 263 SABATON - 82nd All the Way 264 Halfway To Hazard - Welcome To Nashville 265 Nashville Pussy - Go Motherfucker Go 266 Indigo Girls - Nashville 267 Snarls - Walk In The Woods 268 Steeler - Cold Day in Hell 269 Strummin' With The Devil  - Jamies Cryin' 270 spazz gummo love theme 271 The Cramps - Cornfed Dames 272 Saxon -  Solid Ball Of Rock 273 Al Green - Tired of Being Alone 274 Soul Friction - It's Out Of My Hands 275 Today Is the Day - Wheelin' 276 Jackie Lynn - Odessa 277 The Jesus Lizard - Nub 278 Bully - Where To Start 279 Sonny Boy Williamson II - Lonesome Cabin 280 Tomahawk - God hates a coward 281 The Louvin Brothers - Knoxville Girl 282 Tom Waits - Jitterbug Boys 283 The Evil Dead Soundtrack  - Bridge Out 284 Wanda Jackson - Thunder On The Mountain 285 Elvis Presley - Where Do I Go From Here 286 Booker T & the MGs - Back Home 287 Ezra Furman & the Harpoons - American Highway 288 Joe Ely - dream camera 289 Assjack - Tennessee Driver 290 Nashville Pussy  - We Want A War 291 Dwight Yoakam - A Thousand Miles From Nowhere 292 Hank Williams, Jr. - Knoxville Courthouse Blues 293 ZZ Top - My Head's in Mississippi 294 Nitty Gritty Dirt Band -  Honky Tonkin' 295 Dead Weather - Die by the Drop 296 The Black Belles - What can I do 297 Dolly Parton  - Cowgirl And The Dandy 298 The Secret Sisters  - I've Got a Feeling 299 Justin Townes Earle - Aint Got No Money 300 Tomahawk - M.E.A.T 301 Jex Thoth - The Places You Walk 302 Bill Carter - Road To Nowhere 303 Bill Dees (Roy Orbison back vocals) - Tennesse Owns My Soul 304 Karen Elson  - The Ghost Who Walks 305 The Who - Whiskey Man 306 Hank Williams III - Crazed Country Rebel 307 The Lost Sounds - I Get Nervous 308 Big Star - September Gurls 309 ZZ Top - Whiskey n Mama 310 Johnny Cash - God's Gonna Cut You Down 666 Isaac Hayes - Hyperbolicsyllablecsesquedalymistic

Hit play: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-iHPcxymC1_X9nesbW37-9FNLiJWOQ1f

[wormstacheangel]

Song Tag Game

Rules: For every letter of your URL, put the name of a song you like that starts with that letter

I was tagged by @galaxycastiel ! Thanks Esha! I love all these music ones and looking at what everyone shares :) Though, really hating that my url is real long haha! Also I’m gonna add Spanish music this time around.

T : Te Amo(Para Siempre) - Intocable

H : Heartbreak Anniversary - Giveon

E : Es Mejor Decir Adio - Intocable

A : A Soulmate Who Wasn’t Meant to Be - Jess Benko

N : Ni Una Sola Palabra - Paulina Rubio

G : Girls Like Girls - Hayley Kiyoko

E: Eso y Mas - Joan Sebastian

L : Love of My Life - Queen

W : Whole Lotta Love - Led Zeppelin

I : i love you - Billie Eilish

T : The Place Where Lost Things Go - Emily Blunt

H : Honeybee - The Head and the Heart

T : The Rain Song - Led Zeppelin

H : Home - Catie Turner

E : everything i wanted - Billie Eilish

W : Would You Be So Kind - dodie

O : Oye Mi Amor - Mana

R : Rainbowland - Miley Cyrus and Dolly Parton

M : Make Me Feel - Janelle Monae

S : Suelta Mi Mano - Sin Bandera

T : This is America - Childish Gambino

A : American Idiot - Green Day

C : Changing My Majors - Emily Skeggs (Fun Home)

H : Heartbreaker - Zapp

E : Eres Para Mi - Julieta Venegas

I just scrolled down my liked songs playlist. But this was fun! If you are seeing this then please take this as a tag for you to do it :D Tag me so I can see your song list :)

[ulkaralakbarova]

A thief makes a disturbing discovery in the house where he breaks in. Later, when he returns to the same house with his partner in crime, things are no longer how he expected. Credits: TheMovieDb. Film Cast: Cale Erendreich: David Tennant Sean Falco: Robert Sheehan Katie: Kerry Condon Derek Sandoval: Carlito Olivero Riley Seabrook: Jacqueline Byers FBI Agent Olivia Fuller: Tracey Heggins Don Falco: Rob Nagle Patti Falco: Lorraine Bahr Rowan Falco: Jacob Resnikoff Nino: David Meyers Detective Wayne Banyon: Tony Doupe Helen Leyton: Lisa Brenner Jocelyn: Sofia Hasmik Officer Aguilar: Delpaneaux Wills Sabine: Hannah Barefoot Mitchell: Danny Bruno Young Cale: Austin Leo FBI Agent: Jared Q. Miller FBI Agent Driver: Lydia Reim FBI Supervisor: Brandon Boyce Female Cop: Dana Millican Girlfriend #1: Emily Kimball Horse Trainer: Sam Bangs Newscaster: Brenda Braxton Uniform Cop: David S. Hogan Valet: Alex Donnolo FBI Agent: Tim Bennett Umbrella Ped: Chris Ihlenfeldt Film Crew: Producer: Dean Devlin Original Music Composer: Joseph LoDuca Sound Re-Recording Mixer: Greg P. Russell Second Unit Director: Carsten H.W. Lorenz Property Master: John Pearson-Denning Makeup Artist: Eva Lohse Director of Photography: David Connell Art Direction: Michelle Jones Screenplay: Brandon Boyce Editor: Brian Gonosey Production Design: Nate Jones Extras Casting: Susan Funk Producer: Marc Roskin Costume Design: Critter Pierce Gaffer: Neil Holcomb Steadicam Operator: Gary L. Camp Extras Casting: Bill Marinella Second Unit Director of Photography: Matthew Moriarty Foley Artist: Jörg Klinkenberg Makeup Department Head: Christina Kortum Stunt Double: Tim Bennett Construction Coordinator: Dean G. Roberts Scenic Artist: Ellen Lepinski First Assistant Director: Gregory J. Pawlik Jr. Sound Editor: James Gallivan Dialect Coach: Mary McDonald-Lewis Script Supervisor: Andy Spletzer Co-Producer: Mark Franco Special Effects Coordinator: William Boggs Assistant Editor: Lana Wolverton Focus Puller: Bob Webeck Stunt Double: Daniel Locicero Stunt Double: Kym Stys Still Photographer: James N. Clark Key Grip: Art Bartels Assistant Production Coordinator: Naomi Yospe Casting Associate: Marin Hope Makeup Artist: Stephanie June Johnson Unit Production Manager: Brandon Lambdin First Assistant “C” Camera: Ronnie Dennis Assistant Property Master: Sean Fong Producer: Rachel Olschan Set Decoration: Benjamin Hayden Stunt Coordinator: Kent W. Luttrell Assistant Editor: Rick Chapman Sound Designer: Mark Hailstone Dolly Grip: Todd England Nicodemus Location Manager: Robert Warberg Boom Operator: Heidi DuBose Stunt Driver: Michelle Damis Utility Stunts: Lex Damis First Assistant “A” Camera: Kyril Cvetkov Hair Department Head: Autumn Sanders Production Accountant: Colleen Emry Hairstylist: Dusti Leon Stunt Driver: Ken Clark Second Assistant Director: Devan Linforth Script Coordinator: Kerry Glover Stunt Double: Anthony Oh Makeup Artist: Tammy Brant Second Second Assistant Director: Jesse Bellis Second Second Assistant Director: James McCoy Leadman: Jason Beveridge Construction Foreman: Jarred Decker Greensman: Rick Lepinski Set Designer: Jason Raines Foley Mixer: Jean-Marie Gilles Stunt Driver: Tommy Goodwin Stunt Double: James A. Smith Second Assistant Camera: Michael Crockett Second Assistant Camera: Madison Rowley Best Boy Grip: Brian Shotzbarger Best Boy Electrician: Jeremiah Skender Costume Supervisor: Alison Carlos Set Medic: Michael Fine Set Medic: Taylor Saxon Producer: Tony Malzone Movie Reviews: offscreenbabble: I did not enjoy the movie. The trailer looked really interesting and I really like David Tennant.The movie had some strange editing choices. It’s unintentionally funny but not a movie thats so bad its fun. To give you a quick spoiler free review it’s about a valet who tries to rob David Tennant’s place. When he is about to leave he sees a woman tied up. The rest of the movie is him trying to notify the police but it becomes a “Cat and Mouse” game between the valet and David Tennant. But increasingly gets silly and overall the stuff that is s...

[incorrect-victorious]

Are there any songs that you associate with characters/ships? I know there was some discussion about this topic somewhere earlier, but I always find it interesting because I feel like songs have a huge influence on some of my headcanons/writing.

cori songs: 

i got you babe (sonny & cher) // anon

i want to hold your hand (T.V. carpio) // incorrect-victorious

the way i am (ingrid michaelson) // incorrect-victorious

adore you (harry styles) // incorrect-victorious 

soldier, poet, king (the oh hellos) // incorrect-victorious

she (dodie) // incorrect-victorious

think about me (fleetwood mac) // anon

good day sunshine (the beatles) // anon 

edge of dawn (fire emblem 3 houses) // anon

make me feel (janelle monae) // anon 

monday (ashe & filous) // anon 

blondes (peach) // incorrect-victorious

turn to you (taylor iman jones & bonnie milligan) // incorrect-victorious

don’t go breaking my heart (elton john) // incorrect-victorious

mad about you (belinda carlisle) // incorrect-victorious

randre songs:

hey there delilah (plain white t’s) // incorrect-victorious

make you mine (public) // incorrect-victorious

blinding lights (the weeknd) // incorrect-victorious

loser (julian moon) // anon

i do adore (mindy gledhill) // anon

i don’t mind (the who) // anon

i don’t have a name for it (steam powered giraffe) // incorrect-victorious

trillow songs: 

ophelia (the lumineers) // incorrect-victorious

ready now (dodie) // incorrect-victorious

i choose you (sara bareilles) // incorrect-victorious

brown eyed girl (van morrison) // anon

turn to you (the go go’s) // incorrect-victorious (yes there’s a difference between this one and the cori one even though it’s the same song,,, you’ll get it if you listened to it)

cabbie songs: 

strawberry blonde (mitski) // incorrect-victorious

here comes my baby (cat stevens) // anon

tandre songs: 

paper rings (taylor swift) // incorrect-victorious 

my best friend (jefferson airplane) // anon

black magic (little mix) // incorrect-victorious

bade songs:

any paramore song (especially rose-colored boy & still into you) // incorrect-victorious

you don’t know me (elizabeth gillies) // incorrect-victorious

raining in london (anthony de la torre) // incorrect-victorious

you could be happy (wyldest) // incorrect-victorious

scotty doesn’t know (lustra) // anon “jade is the singer, beck is fiona, the group is scotty”

separate (PVRIS) // anon

hello, nice to meet you (crazy ex-girlfriend) // anon

if i could turn back time (cher) // anon

everywhere (fleetwood mac) // anon

die young (kesha) // anon

feels (calvin harris) // anon

there’s nothing holding me back (shawn mendes) // anon

i found someone (cher) // anon

just like jesse james (cher) // anon

photograph (ed sheeran) // forevertired96

olivia (one direction) // anon

only you (the pretty reckless) // anon

mardy bum (arctic monkeys) // anon

afterglow (taylor swift) // anon

the story of us (taylor swift) // anon

no sleep tonight (the faders) // anon

you don’t have to cry (crosby, stills, and nash) // anon

simply irresistable (robert palmer) // incorrect-victorious

drew barrymore (sza) // anon

you & i (picture this) // forevertired96

wildest dreams (taylor swift) // anon

two is better than one (boys like girls ft. taylor swift) // anon

i won’t say i’m in love (hercules) // anon

on purpose (sabrina carpenter) // anon

jori songs: 

black sheep (metric) // incorrect-victorious

take a hint (victoria justice & elizabeth gillies) // incorrect-victorious (duh)

why (sabrina carpenter) // amandadawnblock

no sleep tonight (the faders) // weused2befriends

jolene (dolly parton)  // weused2befriends

picture this (big time rush) // weused2befriends

co-pilot (letters to cleo) // weused2befriends

sisotowbell lane (joni mitchell) // anon

god shattering star (fire emblem 3 houses) // anon

candre songs: 

julia (colony house) // incorrect-victorious

dedicated to the one i love (the mamas and the papas) // anon

brina songs:

the tide is high (blondie) // weused2befriends

catch the wind (donovan) // anon

catorade songs:

triad (the byrds) // anon

cade songs:

a thousand years (christina perri) // fortuna-flying

cat valentine songs:

seventeen (marina and the diamonds) // incorrect-victorious

someone new (hozier) // incorrect-victorious

jade west songs:

hard times (paramore) // incorrect-victorious

brick by boring brick (paramore) // incorrect-victorious