#jehans adventures in art school season 8

[jsalim-art]

Don't mind me ranting about art school shit

I just went through my first week of my final semester and already I'm drowning. If I were a pokemon that knew self destruct I might as well have done that right there and then after hearing of all the projects I gotta do(no im not implying what you think it is but its more like i wanna disappear briefly). For example today I think almost fainted after hearing about a trip to Rhode Island which is a 9 hours drice for a conference from my print and publishing class in first week of april. I am not mentally prepared to travel out of Canada yet. But I was quickly relieved that yes while this trip is a very big opportunity it is optional despite it being greatly reccommended for us art school students this does not align with the commitments I have for my other courses. Mentally I have space for my thesis grad show and apparently another art exhibition I may be a part of (also my actual graduation provided all my credits are accepted in by May).

So yes I have mixed feelings for this Rhode Island graphic association conference thing but I am relieved this is basically optional I have to sadly yet relieved to turn down this opportunity for the sake of my sanity. Now it's a matter of drafting an email to let my prof know that while I can take part in the preparations for this trip that because of this situation of mentally drowning in work already (well I won't say that exactly but along those lines) I can't actually go due to things being in conflict anyways. My plate is full as it is. I didn't talk to the prof that time during class or break because my anxiety is through the roof and I didn't want to feel embarrassed about my stance on not going in front of my peers.

In another universe where this trip doesn't conflict with my other courses I would obviously gone along with it but I know myself I have busted my ass for the last almost 4 years 2 of those durin the pandemic in art school and I have dealt with harder workloads but at this moment I am at my limit

[jsalim-art]

Don't mind me venting about my anxiety about art school and grades

I'm sitting here at 1:45 am in a daze because I am internally panicking because my prof for my thesis class (part 1 that is) has not gave the final grade yet and my last semester will begin January 4 and I sent him an email inquiring about it. It's probably on me that I should have sent him earlier but I assumed that by now he would give the grade. Cause kinda crucial to be in thesis class part 2. And I am very sure since I clearly remember i showed the work to him physically AND posted them in canvas. So there's nothing like having mini anxiety seeing my grade being counted as an "F' even if the assignment is not graded yet. So clearly it's not a fail of the work is not graded yet but goddam seeing the grade as "F" is bothering me. I submitted the work back in November 30 and i know there are many thesis students(well i heard the number is whittling down gradually) to be graded but come on were near the new year and the winter semester starts very soon. I mean I did what I can by finally sending that email but should I worry? I'm no perfectionist (I get mostly Bs) when it comes to grades but I get very antsy when profs take their goddam time to grade but to be fair right now the prof is probably having a good break and if anything I hope he eventually sees my emails about my worries considering he is going to be my prof for thesis part 2.

But yeah question should i worry or it's gonna be fine? Cause my mind won't fully relax until I get that answer and I am assured.