#je t'aemin

[jjongslight]

Taemin and Bataille (a match made in eroticism).

Quotes from Bataille's work :

Pleasure only starts once the worm has got into the fruit; to become delightful, happiness must be tainted with poison.

If I want to realize totality in my consciousness, I have to relate myself to an immense, ludicrous, and painful convulsion of all of humanity.

I don't want your love unless you know i am repulsive,and love me even as you know it.

In what will survive me I am in harmony with my annihilation.

The need to go astray, to be destroyed, is an extremely private, distant, passionate, turbulent truth.

I enjoyed the innocence of unhappiness and of helplessness; could I blame myself for a sin which attracted me, which flooded me with pleasure precisely to the extent it brought me to despair?

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@gwiyonew​​ I am suing you 

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I thought I wasn't going to enjoy the mini, but those last three tracks are golden wow.

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I know we are happy we survived the Tae drought, but I think we should mostly be celebrating the fact that he survived through this despite the shock it gave to his system. It's so admirable and I hope he eventually is proud of himself for getting through it.

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In regards to Taemin's Guilty concept, I think there is a wider lens to consider when looking at it.

Yes, it is about personal pain and reclaiming dark and ugly parts of himself, but it's also how these parts represent a revolution, his way of revolution. The parallels between Bataille's work and his message are plenty. He knows his eroticism is a source of horror and discomfort to others and maybe to himself, but that's why it's so pleasurable to dive into it. It's the way to shatter the norms of the outside world, but also his inner world.

Eroticism is his look into the dark, into the abyss in a way that permits the reflection of everything underneath the surface and helps bring back to the surface the consciousness of what can usually stay subconscious.

Eroticism is his way of fighting back against everything he believes in while simultaneously embodying everything he (and we) despises. It is a revolution on pain, love and everything in between.

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Mr. SEXis in the air.

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If Taem can go Georges Bataille on us, he can collab with Sufjan. As Suf commented on self-reflexively, they can be poster children of sadness and solitude together.

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I hope the clown shoes are the most comfortable thing he's ever worn. If they are I'll forgive it.

I would forgive it if he kept them hidden.

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Watched the fanmeeting live while buzzed and tipsy, then had to recover the next day. All this to say, I am still convinced Taemin isn't real.

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I hated every thing about those two days of concert. I hate Taemin. The oddacity.

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I am so happy he did The Rizzness on stage because it permitted him to show off his dance roots with all the popping and isolation moves. It feels satisfying.

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I laughed at how much Taemin enjoyed seeing this message. https://www.tumblr.com/taemmin/726727764300939264

Ofc he loved it! He is not joking when he says he is possessive over his fans and wants them to love him more than anything else 🙄

That person though is guilty of stroking Tae's ego like that as if we need him to be even more COCKee ugh.

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Everyone knew Taemin couldn't be in the military. Like it was the most violent act then to make him enlist.

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I'm VERY high & in my shinee feels so. Do you also think that onew & taem debuting & going through what they have has left them both highly insecure & in need of external validation? I'm a DCM shawol so maybe I'm projecting personal stuff on low knowledge but watching tae's solo vlives feels a lot like a very lonely soul seeking validation. I'm hoping military will help heal his "must always be present or performing" mentality. Meanwhile jinks feels like he's very brave & powering on through anxiety but also used to making himself small, even when he's feeling well. Like branching outside his comfort zone is threatening in a way. He's been challenging himself these last few months but methinks he's gone through lots of untreated trauma as a young leader & overly-soft heart. Again I'm pretty new & definitely not sober rn so i could be projecting real hard but you seem like a really chill & thoughtful person so i feel safe asking for your opinion

asjahdhshadhsdah I really love that you came into my ask box in your elevated state XD

I had made a few months ago an extensive post about my views on Taemin and his issues so check that out too if you want (only my observations and opinions again, I don't know him!!!).

I don't think it's only debuting that left them insecure or in need of validation. I think the more fragile parts of anyone will only be heightened in such a context and that debuting so young did put a magnifying glass on things they might've already been prone to struggle with. But again, they debuted so young, that they basically were building their identity and self in the spotlight, so it's probably a mix of both.

I think when we formulate such opinions we are always projecting to some degree because we only see what's made public and so we are missing parts of the story. So whatever I say as well is partly or mostly projection.

I do feel like the need for validation is especially true for Tae. I think with Jinki it's more of an internal thing (like he struggles to be at peace with himself more than anything). Tae clearly values himself a lot by what he does and so taking a break from that must've been really hard. I also hopes he learns that not producing anything for external eyes still makes him worthy of everything good in this world.

Jinki is definitely more of an enigma to me. I kind of don't get why he chose to be in the spotlight. Like for everyone else, I can understand it, but with him... I still feel like his life could've gone many ways. I don't think he ever full sat in or embraced the idol life. I know he looooves singing and you can especially feel it when it's not so much of a performance, but him singing something he wants/chose to sing. I think he goes through phases of actively taking part in the industry and then retracting himself from it and maybe that's a balance he found works for him.

I have a tendency to especially project on these two because they are the closest to my character, so I too, feel like there was always this darkness to those two, that always present melancholy and existential angst that comes from being very sensitive, but I can't affirm what is or is not at the root of that or if it's even there. I do think they've all had their share of burdens and probably trauma (talking even before 2017), but yeah, that's just something we can speculate about.

Btw, I love that you're a DCM shawol, welcooooome!!!!! *hugs*

I'm always happy to know I give people good vibes (I'm a good actress XD). Always down to share opinions about SHINee ^^

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Omfg. My mom said - why does it seem like Taemin's military service is neverending??? -

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Happy birthday to my cancer bro, the one I share an almost identical birth chart with, the one I almost shared the same exact birthday with, my cosmic twin, the one I feel an unexplainable connection with and finally, the one I hate and l*ve the most in this world.

I hope you are healthy. I hope you know how much love there is in the world for you. I hope you know how special and worthy you are. I hope you know you are everything.

I hope you know.