#jcuzen

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Cassiopeia, daughter of the great Devil. Eight stars by eight is 88 constellations. 58 5 by 8 pointed stars. The rosary. The 5 star constellation to name Cassiopeia. The celestial mother of wayfair travellers. And the five reindeer stags. Whip and chariot. The forbidden purple enclosure of the north star. The throne. Santa clause is coming to town. Well that was fun.

5 + 17 is 22. Not my experience of it. Less god more perverts.

5+7 = 12. Hanged man.

Unifying number is 2. Inside the church. The hanged man is given to 10. The wheel.

Anyway.

Letter A. Is a feather. I fallen white feather. Though others have placed a black one. Aside the feather. It’s a kite. Learning to fly a kite. Trying to easenit with the wind. Letter A is all things aerial.

Where’d his heart go? I don’t know. He’s dead inside.

Though, be the first time ive seen a manifestation of a card that doesn’t yet exist. I can correct the moon card. Ive seen. And the sun card is identical to the marseille card. Except that it lacks the superficial barrier separating the two children. As they play “ball”. In my case, badminton. That wall in the background should be placed in the middle ground. A short wall, easily passed over.

Hidden soviet-tarot- symbols hidden in plain sight.

18+31=49. ≠13 ≠4

R, Temperance/moon + 10 wheel. M/Q Death. D, Emperor/empress.

18 Р 31 Я. У 13. Г 4.

Mixes tarot with the qwerty. And leaves aside the yet undefined jcuzen.

For letters RЯ. Completes a mussing piece and spells out the dangers of the moon, and the death function of all material attachments.

For example on the possibility of card letter Аа. Not much mention of the magician here save that paired with the fallowing Башня card of the tower. On this count it works simultaneously to both qwerty and jcuzen type sets.

On the horror scene of lightning and the kite. And the creation of life. Frankenstein. To Benjamin franklin catching lightning with a kite. To the missing key of the image.

Electricity is bonded to the life force. Through the use of defibrillators. And serves as a protection charm. Here also not too. Far away is the theft of fire. And a fib isn’t just a lie. But a fabrication of story. Inconsequential to or of little importance. As one passes over truth, and may yet still continue on being in the palm of my hand here.

And welcome to 9-11. The beginning of a script

The picture of the hermit holding his smart phone paired next to justice. Or “strength” watching the mother feminine wrestling away his pride. His voice and his will of command.

Justices will is lunar by nature and thus reactive in its acts to sever the life force.

By jcuzen, 9 and 11 have been given to something else. З and Й. Letter Зз the fertile grounds of the mind. Imagination building. As letter 3 brings it back to letter Вв. To letter C. And one of the letters ties it to the high priestess. Aka temple of solomon. In a cut out stand alone story of the book of god inside a golden throne or sacred resting place where all evil is left outside the gate. Here plays in the magician card. But B also means something else. Not saying. Iduhno.

If Й is given to judgement. Then it plays true all the way through all connections made here today. Though judgement. Given to the perverse. The majority of the world. Is anything but sacred.

And what is seen at this step past letter Б, as for in the present tower. What lays outside of that crumbled state. The story begins and is held all the way through.

Should invest in some scotch. And suck on that for while.

But im not living this perverted twisted framed life they’ve given me. My suicide plan is still alive and well. Fear i may never finish this card game.

They cheated, god. I can’t function anymore. And im never going to learn how to live.

Yeah, still my favourite movie. Baahubali. Images that are completely missing from americano bs. Which does everything in its power to degenerate masculinity with pompous bs mixed with villainy.

I prime example. Even has the ametica in it. American gods. Starts off, like most do. Inmocentky enough. Then it loops over everything with perversion. Poor clark kent. With his secret rainbow identity and when he steps out of thr closet… the entire smalltown claps and cheers him on. Yay! Oh well. What to expect from a canadian show overlayering the southern states. And their conservatis laws of illegality.

Fuck the entire northern american continent.

Wonder ifvthe bible will olay out true and whch teo countries are sodom and gamorah. Since i was born to be owned and dominated by twisted perdonalities. Which is obvious to me now. Is never going to end because it always was. Elation brings me to thoughts of the end of this world.

Portents though that fallow the rabbit. Are some of my least favourite. Busy rodents. The gofer doesn’t seem to offer much in the way of symbolism. Not to my count. But the rabbit, there being no Hares. Ties back to lost and found. Depending on which card precedes it. Not the most pleasant of happenings. So i said fuck it. My new state to lack of care. I left to go get mine. Concession, and pleasant interaction.

All of those years to bring me to this point. All those years of framing me up to states of being. All those years of the same preceding all that. It’s always been the company paired to. All the violence. All dispositions of being a centre of gravity: to everything thats wrong. Bringing out my worst. It’s all its ever been others meddling with my affairs. From birth to 40 years on. Constant. Iv’e never done that not once. Addiction. And all that’s entropic. Ive been swallowed by a state of darkness. Over 25 years ago. Any attempt at anything is nothing. I just wait. And that waiting is getting nearer to its absence. And my act will close all light. Whichnisn’t much of a loss cause there’s nothing good in it. Never has been never will be. Im done.

Portents still speaking strong. A rabbit, a crow in sheeps clothing and a dove. The second two repeat twice. Sabotage mixed with good will. And the fucken rabbit of loss, found is only attained through effort.

Wish there were other animals, but no, not really.

There were also blue jays further ahead. And bluejays are all about cooperation. But are found in between the two sets of two.

As it’s set. Alot more to do.

Poor john wick. Everyone keeps calling you a woman after then killed you dog and stole you car. No Womder your mad.

Here’s never learning how to socially assert myself. And to the unsatisfying sex all never have. And to never being wble to do anything witg myself. Tried learning how. Never allowed. Ill just stay in the same state i have for the last 40 years. Being subject to others tyranixal rule.

Its the endweek end again. So its just me. With nothign to do. No orders to fallow. No one to see or talk to. No wonderni still smoke. 25 straight years of that. I dont want to be alive anymor e

“You got any olans this weekend?! Hope you have a great weekend” donyou have a wife? Any children? How about your family?” Fuck you. Yeahs everything is great! I dont even know what havign a fucken friend is like. So fuck you and die.

Doritos, marijuaana ans vedio games. I wont be too conscious for most of this weekend. Ill wake up on monday and go backnto work.

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I don’t take care of mysekf anymore. I stoped. Back to veingbuncertain if i survive the 40th tear of veing fuckedcaround. Soend all day being fucke with by these asshole s nothing new been theough 39 of them already.

For my entire life purpose for being born is to have an entire fucken comunity of cunttards fucken with my existance. 39 years and counting and they only grow and multiply. Like rucken cockroaches.

There is ni reason why. Ist always been that way. Theres nothign to learn from it. Nothign to take abeay from it. Just to survive in a hostile worl of mind and sex raping funkinc twats.

Im fucken dome beeing supportive and helpful. It doesnt matter. My response to everyone noe is fuck off. All they domis talk about prejudice bs. Stabbing pleopl in the neck. Throwing shit at people. Sayign nothign hut derogatory bs. Joke about suicide. Bash blackpeople. Criminal empire bs. Sexual derogitories. Bashing stupid people. Riding in being assholes. Drug dealers. Queers.lowlife cocksuvkery. Every fuckeing day.

And every kindness has an ulterior motive. The day i meet a fag or another persom that doesnt fuck with me or whom isn’t a hedonist. That be the day. Im just waiting in the grand fucken finaly again. Maybe it’ll kill

This time. I expect the crows will let me know just before it happens. They always do. It’s never a full impact it gets cushioned alitle.

Time to go “hang” out woth degenerate motivationlists. Raised by them fucked by them. Thats life. Thats all ive ever known. Look at the outcome. They jsut breed and multiply. Go russia.

Biden gives the ok to hit russia with us missiles. Ou my god. Im excited. Is theres a war coming? No, limit tarde with china. China creating stringers ties eith russia. Qomde rif any of thisnis true.

Like how my name means friend in russian with an added KG. And incan pronounce properly with a ruasian accent. Isnt stead

Of a past tense verb of an indefinite article.

… uhm. Well thats what happens. Rewarded today with good things. Must be saying something right.

Some changes need to be made, to the qwerty tarot deck. Namely. Switching in Waite’s strength as harmony card in position to the lovers card. nd in its place i was thinking my Гv card. I doubt i am capable of recreating an entirely new tarot based of the jcuzen type. But things are coming to mind. And having two system aids greatly. My comparison and feed back looping. Why oh why have Waite’s strenght as harmony card on letter N. N is for negation. It would work though if the moon card, as it is, was brought into the picture. Because nobody likes the moon card. And one of the things that came to mind were letters Ч, Ш & Щ. In relation to the star, the moon and, the sun. Doesn’t that flow nicely together? Ch, Sh, and Shsh.

If princess yokaterina comes in from the petulant fool carrying a crown to the hierophant and it leads to strength as harmony. That well thats fantastic. The negative feminine gets killed and she embraces the king. Victory for

The chariot. Though i also found it curios how her family seal has a black horse on one side and a white horse on the other. In between is the classical medieval shield emblem. Victory.

Wonder if thats true. For it obviously resembles the russian emblem as if, it were derived from it. The two little dots ontop of the E. Being a crown. And one gets a sense of the motivations. Add the fleur de lys at its center. Save that if it’s not been meticulously fabricated. Though with the russian emblem by comparison and saint George well then it speaks of a highly depicted respectful view of the feminine and support for them. Compared to the western bs of feminist activists proves that point valid even if its only conjectural. Save that the colour of the horses aren’t the same in every coat of arms. Where both are white.

Now comes a correction of the petulant E card coming from the empress. Again waite’s fool card is traveling in the wrong direction. Moving west instead of east. In this regard his fool should be the petulant one. Walking off the edge of existence. The one commonly adopted by women. I get the pun. But it just evokes that sly cockskrs crooked smile of superiority over others. Not very enlightening. Considering theres a sun there that he’s staring at. Like fallowing the sun is a bad thing. While giving N to justice. And having the dog being interpreted as his little helper. And not trying to stop him. 🙄 that deserves the emoticon. But having a petulant fool walkign away from the empress just shows incompetent womanhood at raising their child to be man handled by the emperor. Get rid of the cliff and flip the fool to the other direction and interpreted the dog as a helper. And there you go. The proper fool. As he’s supposed to be depicted.

How else does the lover(s) card make any sense in its position. Marriage happens by the hand of the church. Both oath and loyalty. Why is there nothing in between of the empress and the emperor? 5 would be a suitable place for the lovers card too. But here is found the petulant fool. Being number as the start of the emperor. While the princess card being numbered at the start of the hierophant. It gets all muddled and confusing here. And numbers fuck everything up.

Perhaps the E fool should be the only numbered card here while Ë remains unnumbered. But symbolized by letters instead. It flows nicely with the high-priestess holding the law of the alphabets. And promotes, subconsciously or by will for the feminine to use her wits to reach the high rulership of the hierophant. Just to muse and the issues of the deck.

For if she were to be numbered she would be walking west and E would be walking east. She’s a dishelved mess he’s a dishelved mess they meet and the summof the numbers equals the tower. Being on opposite sides of the same card gives choice to the querent. This way they are both found in between the empress and the emperor. Amd on the far side theres the “magician” and the lovers. This way it works using linearly and … crap… Centripetally.

In the 1984 film gremlins starts of the protagonist scene of a “boy” running past a movie theater with a dog fallowing closely behind him. Heading “west”. On the sign of the movie theatre, theres a large red letter E. In the words “A boys life Watch thE skies.

This gives another argument worth typing about. And when on his journey it opens the scene of the coming protagonist lady. In which case is introduced a antagonist head of bank. A miserable wretched woman walking up with a head with burger king written behind her.

But on current script theme of film. Was I.S.S. Being fallowed by civil war. Which means im tight on script too. Fun fun.

A fun channel. https://youtu.be/RAbVqKSRNSM?si=A5WCFuEGzwJ4V9Sd

😂🫰🏼

But, im just here born for no other purpose than being fucked. With this as my mentality. True disposition as it always, and always tried to be. Manipulated and beaten into a delinquent wreck for purposes of “teaching” me a lesson or, the fuck if i know. Did i already say that i didnt want to be alive anymore.?

And look this film was completely absent in any dissemination to me. Went into production at the same time i started casually looking at the cards in 2022 and only reached me now. https://youtu.be/bvDArsKoTOE?si=tOuvaRuOIWzrFpOY

The horrorscope. Don’t want to watch. Dont like horror movies. But, yup. Its great living in perfect conjunction to media. If you didnt pick up the sarcasm. Atleast it doesnt have my adress and innitials in it though like other films.

Use my cards instead. They’re better. Maybe they’ll become the script to neo mainstream bs. Im already popular. And always had a vague big dream of immortality. Porbably brainwashed dream. But such is life as ita always been. Everything revolves around me. Becaus ethis isnt reality its a torture chamber for sadists. Too old for a family now anyway. Ill be retiring and still have some little assholes running around fucken my peace. Not that inknow what peace and secirity are in the pressence of other people. Wonder what thats like. Nwver experiences it before. Always gotten punished way over the top from what i actually deserved.

Well that re-watch in the background of gremlins is over. Queer 80’s bs. Take the moon card and put gizmo and mohack in it. With the little drop of water falling from the moon. The gremlins remind sme of most of the people i grew up around. Hedonists, drunks, druggies, crossdressers, pinks and mischievous freaks. All wispering bs in my ear. And all written from the tarot script. In conjunction to neptune on christmass sextĩling pluto. Because sextiling isnt a verb word, have to make up a punctuation mark. And now it can be pronounced properly.

So as it is the 6 and 7th letters of the russian alphabet. The E and Ë together. Becomes. 13. The death card by tarot. Or the Wheel card by english. The crap about. Though it had it all backyards. As w stands for the moon. And m stands for thee wheel. The wheel being a solar thing. And the moon being a moon thing. Asides the fact that W starts the woman and M starts the man. Theres a reversal that plays it bs. Tarots sucks. the english E is number 5 and the russian E ia number 6 add them together. And we have the justice card. Or the lovers card. Number 11. Or imaginary card EE. Being combined with the infinity symbol of intertwining. The russian E is on the emperor and the Ë is on the hierophant which ranks above the emperor. Though by comparison the russian letter Л (L) for love as written as Lyubo(v’f’) is the 13th letter of that cyrilic alphabet. Curious no? As sex is also called the petit-mort in french french. But not so much in degerenate french of local Quebecers which seems to be a hall mark of the english speaking world.

Though for russian looking at english. Its different. Letter Ë isn’t a diaeresis. It’s a separate letter not to be mistaken, they wouldn’t pronounce the diphthong, prolonged E. Or E\E. Though the homoglyphic nature of it’s form. Shows a strong similarity between two objects. While still showing obvious separation. The same applies for man and woman. To “wo” or the russian yo. Shows that gender clash isn’t as relevant to the everyday after this letter was formally instituted in the alphabet. Considering it’s take extra steps thus becoming a hassle to type this letter shows that with the ease function, it is learned that its importance is not too significant. And life can be understood without capitalizing the differentiation.

That said. There are still strong gramatical gender differention throughout the rest of the language. Where the sex is signified. Just not in the single lettered alphabet type set.

Of course most peoples opinions aren’t even their own. But socially engineered for political goals and civiland national ambitions.

For example for the tarot alphabet system which isn’t taught. At least not to me. Is the letters NHИ. Where the negation of letter N. is placed over the H of the lovers card and the propaganda that Russians are villains, aggressive and spies. Isn’t very well questioned. As they have always been depicted in media. And taken at face value to those whom have no association to them. There are steps taken to limits these associations at moment in the face of this so called foreign war. Which is none of our proper business and doesn’t affect the state to any staggering degree. That people are just people. And one individual isn’t to be blamed for the actions of another. Yet at the same time glorifies single individuals out. As a scapegoat. Hitler, bin laden, trump, &. That fact remains its still a collective effort. And a time posted stamp of a historical prelude.

The same applies to jesus. The minor differentiation between jesus being god and jesus being the son of god makes for a big deference. As people need some thing more tangible and recognizable to give “personal”’significance to. Which is why jesus is a person. And not an unfathomable….. thing? This is a teaching from the hindu gurus. And i will not pray to a personable jesus. As a middle man to god. Nor blame a single person for the actions of a nation.

It would be best to recreate an entirely new tarot based of the old system to an entirely new alphabet. And the russian system devoid of any pictograms is more accurate than english.

Considering i grew out of an prejudiced, sexist, racist psychotic family structure and have to pay as their scapegoat. On the larger picture of things. Is my motivation. I suppose. Though with a learning disability form 30 uears of pot smoking only to quit and have it legalized two-years later. Doesnt sit well for me. The degeneration of mankind is only growing stronger and things need to change. Ans so far russia is the only one making a name for themselves on this regard.

Ive met trudo’s wife. Shook her i hand, i think. Nice lady at dame value.

The problematical flip side of all positive attempts of growth being sabotaged.

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Letter Бб….. don’t know what to do with it. Cause even though it’s the same as english Bb, in the same position. The fallowing letter is Вв, pronounced as V. And the english position is Cc. Though speaking the Бб may seem better as the marseille’s peddler and the Вв as V may seem better suited to waite’s magician. As the V attests to a decent of power.

If i were to borrow from Margaret Magnus idea of phonemics. Though not without reserve for it’s a rather tricky busyness to read esoterica of a female author. It was difficult enough reading her section on the meaning of letter S. not do different from reading Rachel pollock’s 78 degrees of eros. But, to fallow her idea of letter B meaning Bang. The big bang of existence. As letter B is pronounced. Save that P is pronounced in the same manner. Big, bang, blam. Boom. Beat. Blame. Buster. Bolster, boss. Bane. Beam. Bank. But, buck, bull, bill. the argument seems to fall apart. Blister, boil, bet. Bleat. Bin. Blue. Bastard. Brick. Break. Be. Biome. Biology. Build. It seems to represent violence, structure, and masculinity. The self and preservation against its own nature.

To have the « magician » as letter B, with the quote of as above so below. Is rather troubling. As within as without, as national as personal. As russian vs. Ukraine and community agaisnt self. Oops.

But, to say that the opposites of definition found in B, like Build vs. Break. Is represented in it’s double feature, doesn’t hold validity as all words no matter the letter share this same nature. Pick vs. place. Though this argument may work as B being the first letter of this form after the blindness and apprehension of letter A is a lesson. Of the ups and downs, in and outs, good and evils of experiences. As opposites are seen and the individual A meets the relationship. Life vs death. Masculine vs feminine. Black vs white.

But then if one decided to go with this notion of opposite perspectives, is waite’s magician card really the best bet? Because the russian version of B as V fits waite’s description better than english. Considering is called the english tarot. Created by an Englishman. And then what is there to say about russian letter Бб. The more thought given to tarot and the alphabets, and one has a hard time not recognizing the significance of the Cyrillic.

On another note the russian empire was built and maintain orthodox Christianity. Which is pretty much the same as western christianity. Except that jesus christ is god and not equal to god and beliefs differ on purgatory. Though i am not theologically inclined. And was raised, early on before it was given up being identified as a protestant, not a catholic. Who further divided the western churchs beleifs. The orthodox eastern christianity as kept a much more pure original doctrine whime the western church changed and edited the bible add infinitum. While the Ukrainians are approximately 70% orthodox christians it attests to them denying the call of the pope’s pleads of peace. For the orthodox christians don’t recognize the pope’s rule. While also pleading for western people’s unorthodox aid. Though to say that today’s western generation are theologically minded is a gaff. Gaff as in the french term, being a fuck up or a joke. Though my spelling is probably wrong…. Gaffe with an E. And the various part of the bible that were taken out. That the orthodox have kept.

Back to the script at hand. The russian Cyrillic Б seems better placed as the action forward fallowed by the english/russian Bv. Russlish.

The N card as the marseilles strength card. No, Non, Nein, He(n’ye).

Though fallowing this string doesnt bode well later on down the alphabet when the are no more english letters to keep up with the Cyrillic. Though if one adds in the missing consonant sounds. It may equal out to the same. Ch, Sh and plus. But not up tomit to night. До завтра.

For those moments after pronouncing russian and feeling like a more complete person.

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B F O….. 2 6 15

Б Ф О…. 2 22 16

B Ф О….. 2/3 22 15/16

V Ф О….. 22, 22, 15/16

The B is divided and split. The Ф is divided but isn’t split. The O/О is unchanged but, shows motion either forward or backward depending on the position of the selected alphabets.

Though this sequence of interrelated forms is only unanimous with the russian alphabet. As В(v), Ф(f), O. The power of the star decends upon the “magician”, resulting in united two fronts. The emperor of card F. Is holding the rod and the staff represented in letter Ф. ~Without the cloak of invisibility.~ the О leaves by combining both the devil card and the tower card completing the trinity amd bringing it back to B.

Or some such bs.

The sequence of symbols then become. 22\22, O/O.

The 22nd card of the tarot has also been argued to be number O.

To say that the tarot doesnt have any basis of russian while casting out all russian influence to the backnof the mind for it being an insult and evil and counter to cultural values. Is to be siding with only half the story. While it continues to play.

What a monster!

Thought sthoughts relates to the numerology of tarot. And the deffinition of number 5 being related to chaos. Because 4 means structure or some crap. As the 5 minor arcana are unanimously negative. And the number 5 being given along with its pentagram to the devil card. Even though the devil card is also connected to the lovers card. Be chained depressively together. Save that numbers don’t mean anything by themselves and any meaning can be given to them. The same does not apply to the symbolic meanings of images. Though, to fit the petulant fool to number 5. Separating the hierophant or pope and the “pentagon” from number 5. Is more fitting. I would believe is it not? The same logic applies to number 13 being evil and bad luck considering its drawn as the death card collecting its taxes. Can’t have a 13th floor when it comes to big business. Bury it. Though the number 5 also applies to the human form. And was etched onto a probe to drift the cosmos indefinitely until it drifts into a sun or burns up crashing down onto a planet and disapears into some nebula.

At least symbolically speaking of letters and words. The russian word for moon and man don’t start with the same letter. Луиа(luna)(ru), lune(fr), moon(en) though in french man is homme. But it’s often said with the grammatical prefix’d apos’trophe as l’homme. Though the french keeps it tight to the H card. If it represents romance, it being a “romance” language. Though it is fitting to have the moon card as a negative image considering the lunar dependency of large fractions of lunar people react in vulgar ways even if the excuses are rather minor. Do to it being lunar reactions bases much of that information at the mercy of subconscious conditioning. With weak meager defenses keeping it at bay. This is of course encouraged. Though the same applies to everyone put under enough duress. If this is consistent it grows strong pathways-pathologies- which aren’t, necceseraly, of the individuals true nature.

Hell putin’s probably just as gay as hitler was a jew. Do you feel better now? Since its easier to hate a single person and put all the blame on them. Its a more effective channel for motivation. And makes it harder for indivisuals to stand up for themselves if they have any divergence from the norm. Card number 0-1, letter A. The blind fool. Literally speaking, a blind fool is the best option to use. For one doesnt know what they are getting into with something new. They don’t know anybetter. Its not after to learn a few things. Even before jumping in. Thoigh but since the alphabetical system really diesnt play to sequences. Its not a total loss for the cards themselves not to fallow stream. But to play around and jump around various connections and associations. Then just some boring ass non-sensical numerical system.

People dont count their footsteps. Only place to place. And while on their travels of chossen destinations, rather than desire based needs, do they encounter other cards on the road. It isn’t a 1 2 3. It’s a one to C. If 2 is B then 2 isnt a lunar number. As to and too are destinations in the process of moving forward. Transits and additions. As the second card is 1-2 just as the first card is 0-1. The third card is more fitting of a lunar card and this nations aggrandizement of the lunar function with it’s association to three being connected to Jupiter. If one were to mix “esoteric disciplines”. The bearer of knowledge being Sagittarius teacher to student. Third day of the week is mercury day. No one likes monday. Let it be someone else.

Or some bs like that. Because rhe weekend is reserved for the lunar function on a day called sunday. When monday comes around its actually the “dawn” of a new week. The sun is rising. Fuck the sun. I want icecream. For the smokers. They suck on their titties every pause they have from working the solar function. Usualy at a place they hate to reflect the arrangement. Generations of this passing down from son to daughter, daughter to sun. Building and supporting the foundation.

Though the 2 B connection here. As a connection to the forward motion of light, and speaking of celestial bodies. May be argued in another way as all knowledge of this type can be contextual and conjectural. And open to interpretation. One may argue that the moon emits light too, and that light is just as valid to the notion of motion and sunlight. But that light is meek. And when clouded over weaker still. It comes and goes as does all desires. Though it also being a secondary light. It still shines infront of all the others that surround it. Moonlight only brings joy to itself. From an outside source, in this sense. It does not nourish others. It is not given. And when its light and full. It’s still hard to see what in front of you.

To say that the moon is feminine and female, is an insult to women. And the argument if celestial bodies to gender association only fits, like most other things, weekly. Meekly. And insecurely.

Its better to say women are a flower. And the lesbians can go suck a dick.

The anti-humanitarian lunar reaction results in violence. It has nothing to do with solar power. And by that, not able see the distinction of name. To accept the assinuation of personal disposition while everything already said gets thrown out the door. The new reich.

Uh, speaking of celestial bodies and astrology and tarot. Letter 2B would be that of mars in taurus. To be separate from the “Arian” race bs of abusive actions by others. The highorietess card of law to language being 3 fits the gemini card much better doesn’t it? Ugh, sometimes i do believe that im the center that all reality is based around. But it comes around that all the fire signs on first pass are vowel letters. Letters which are vocalized without hindrance or blockage. A-aries. E-leo, i-sagitarius. Even though the i may easily be mistaken as a minor, lower arcana L being the hermit card.

And that is interresting. Because by astro-sign/tarot overlay, the hermit card falls onto Capricorn. The old man on top of a mountain. And the minor arcana l is next to identical to the major arcana I. If the sagitarian is connected to the giver of law, knowledge and information it is only so after it’s been matured enough to have gained that knowledge in the first place in which case they are known as the teacher. And to the student they are old or older by association.

I certainly admire the intelligence behind the creators of the tarot. Far excelling most. Save for all the distraction the generations of today have of not using their brains and just going with the flow not questioning their existence. But loathe those who withold their knowledge from others. Which are everyone I’m surrounded by. And everyday i practice Stockholm syndrome. Which plays havoc on mental stability. Which has been everyday feo the last eight years from the comunity and most of my life preceding that from my family. It’s literally impossible for me to connect to anyone now. Or to truly be myself. To play nice, helpful and supportive to the very people manipulating your life while you watch there smiles and fake stances towards you. At least i do t get beaten on physically anymore. Just sexually and psychologically now. Born in hell. It went from negligence to, being beaten on for trying to ask questions. Or speaking. So i really dont care about what o say. Cause it doesnt matter. Peiple will always put themselves over me with sadism or whatever else. Which is also why i keep to myself and never say anything i person. Beyond what is neccesary. Everyday just with my mother it was the same as me trying to get an appointment to see a doctor and get my issue across. What? What? What? I’m dead in my rught ear what? What did you just say beneath your voice around the corner?! What? You can hear me now? Thought you were deaf. Great, i just tries asking you a question and now im being smackes across the face. Now i got to go see the slychotic olser brother i share a room with somhe can punch me in the balls jump on my face and call em a pussy. And then i got to go be estranged in french school cause im english durring a civil political war. Now im away fromt he family still being bombarded with bs. And getting raped by the community instead. Fighting off the neo nazi’s гомосексуал (gomoseksual) agenda regime.

Think im goind to go get legally high today instead of reading princess yekaterina’s diary. That or between gaming the recent release of Suanu’s sacrifice 2. Which falls in coincidentally at the same time i discovered it. Maybe get high and draw card Ё.

But, speaking of the hidden tarot rules. After every nine numbers is a repeat sequence. And yet after every 12 images is another repeat sequence. They begin to overlap and over layer. For an example taken above about Sagittarius and the hermit. Between i and L. The ninth card is i but the ninth tarot card is the hermit. But add in the three missing vowel cards- if one is to fallow the old language txt of 21 letters. And there being no vowels.- and one has number 12. The hermit card. And 12-9 equals its addition of 3 the highpriestess card. Holding the tome.

Designation 9-10 and 12 if speaking for the zodiac. 19+12= 31. 31-21= 10. 10 os a curious number has it falls onto letter J the chariot and card the wheel. Both of these cards share something in commen, easily missed if one uses the Waite deck. And that is the wheel. The 31st letter of the russian alphabet is what? Я. Being a one letter word means. i as in self. The russian letter equates it to number 13. The death card. While the 32rd letter is the unspoken temperance card 14, (Soft) and the unspoken hard sign is number 33, to tarot number 15 the devil card. Russian letter 21 is the letter У. As in, in the immediate proximity of the subject do they have or are they with. The russian war machine placed letter Z as the symbol of their main ground troops. Which spreads a message by itself as world war is here. Ir as war is our world.

The self of letter Я also speaks the message of being in the present moment collecting what is due. Or if on the reversed flipped side. Being the subject owing due.

Thoigh this can be carried further. If one equates the final letters of each alphabet. The world card Z and the devil card ъ.

The war on ukriane is actually supported by the majority of the world. Everyone pitching in resources. To further this arguement is the pope stepping in and saying pls stop fighting. As it is synonymous with the petulant fool pope devil crossover of the new world. Being number 5. Chaos over stability.

Learning more russian. And the letter A. Which is identical to english. And card letter A. Which starts the alphabets. On both languages. Makes this card identical. Though A is a single letter word also in russian which means a contrasted And. It is also a feminine addition for subject gendered grammar. On a side note, car in russian is also a feminine object and ends with an A. But, this is a weak argument. As does man in russian. But, when its coming from a female speaker they add the pronounciation of onto their grammar. And the same seems to apply for familia names. Where their last name is pronounced differently depending on the gender of the person. With the female having an extra letter A on the end. Contrasted And and End. Is an amusing notion to consider when thinking about A. This leads me to suggest gender changing the A-fool. Blind fool to a female character. But seeing it as a fool. Also adds validity to keeping it as it is. But the notion of gender on letter A is also coherent with the start of something new and being receptive to new experiences which is a feminine disposition.

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To find meaning in letters to attach an image.

Letter 21. To tarot, the world card. Letter У(oo) To english and latin. To be mistaken for judgement of the letter Y.

English letter 21, U. Obvious meaning of the one letter word, you.

Curious. Is it not?

One syllable russian words starting with letter У.

To tarot in the absence of vowels is letter Z. The two letters placed together are UZ. The russian word Уз(ооz) is;

Agree? So far, so good. But wait.

Before we go further. Lets see what google says. Tsh tsh.

Section 32. By cyclic repetition is letter H the lover(s). Or soft sign letter ь. Ep 16. The tower. Section 28, letter B(v). Or russian letter Ы. Section 21. The world. Da fuk? No, theres no BS here.

Pst. I am threatening your system? What about the film I.S.S.? Where has my “environemtal safety been these last 39 years?disnt america drop a bomb on an entire city of civilians who are still producing mutant children? But never mind all that its not important.

To continue. Maybe later. Ill list all the words they gave me on wiki. And we’ll peace them all together. But we’ll waste another pic slot for this. Look at this. Its insane tonight.

I dont have the power to distinguish or pronounce the letter ь from no letter ь. And конь is a male horse but, Лошадь means a horse of any gender. Their dictionary must be HUGE. Sorry its an eephus pitch. Though its not a word in this dictionary.

Though the suggestion is that the lover card is a man. Fallowed by the chariot card being a woman. Or driven by a woman. But whatever. In that case the lover card should be changed to appraisal. But since i dont drive. A woman driver seems ok to me. Chauff me wench! Onwards! And so far thats how it seems to be. For letter Ж comes in conjunction to the cahriot card. And that works too for cars are usually gendered as female. Even though english doesnt have a gender grammar system. So men step up inside the womanamd shes the force moving him forward. The problem there is that he’s controlling the woman’s body. While he’s thinking of all the buttons he gets to push with relish. And doesnt care about the deeper implications of being that vessel on the road. Which is a reason why men are more attuned to deeper sounding engines. Gender classing objects is a dubious endeavour. It all cones back to the it/they dilemma of personifying inanimate objects.

To further this sidetracking from google. And bringing it back to UZ. Is Utility. Use. Up. And automobiles in russia have always been lacking that desirable sexual hype.

The propositional accusative case of letter У suggests the same though with the added distinction of being with. У as a single letter word. The most powerful of all is, satisfactorily defined as being in, or With, the immediate proximity by being or having the subject or object of the question in the process of being answered. У меня. У тебя. I have. You have. I am with what i have. I do not necessarily own it. I have a car. I am not with my car. У меня есть машина. This keeps the person in question separate from the subject.

So is there a choice here. Or is it being premeditated by outside influences?

Words included one-syllable words starting with У are; limb, bond,ties , (horse)briddle, urn, ballot box, litter bin, wiskers, antennae, to float, to swim, Morning, dawn, to shoe. Though most of these aren’t standard but forms of grammar variations. While to some of the other nations using these same words based of the same proto-form-language mean variations negative things, like devils and death and so on. And word Уз, to My mistake isnt actually russian. It’s Serbia-Croatian. The mistake was corrected further down with the single letter word У. Which is the same thing. Word for word.

Not sure if i hit that slow ball or not. But all these words put together ontop of the world card Z. And you. Paints a picture of control and the extension of the body.

On a separate thought in conjunction to the russian cease fire on ukraine and my mis-information post. Which ended rather badly.

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The russian dative case of me or i. Is an M added to No.

This is a little confusing. And rather a tad anti-semitic. Where receiving is discouraged. And giving is encouraged. As compared to the phonemic comprehension i word letter Я, (ya) which suggests the encouragement of the individuality not being conditioned but outside influences. Considering russian and a more complex language than english and also where it doesn beat around the bush with added definite article words like The and A’s.

Where american media went from its original Batman, for example to the modern “The batman”.

Instead of i am eating the bread. Russian will say. I eat bread. Or like i am “having” sex with you. Its i fuck you. Seems pretty definite to me.

И(i, ee) and. A contrast and. Но(no)- but. Ha(na)-on, at B(v) in, at. или(illi)-or. Из(is,iz) from. Что(chto)-what. Кто-who. Где(gd’ye)-where.

Though i have in russian is У меня есть which still has a strong phonemic connection the the letter Н(n) and the word no. And so having and receiving or owning, is connected to discouragement. Coming from a long standing communism. Where everything is produced for the whole and individual desires are pput on the side. Even though the russian language is a complex of multiple languages and ethnicities. With string correlations to french and french grammar and english sentence structure. Along eith many borrowed and incorporates words which makes phonemic meanings insignificant.

… the English article of Ho. As in you a Ho. Or as in Ho Ho, santa. Here Ho, has a contrast within English itself. Yes to the Ho or no to the Ho. When it comes to sex. Is to plow. By russian association. It adds an interference article of denial. Also attached to the holly- prefix or not- of jolly. This playing by the rules of phonemic association. Being purely conjecture. Like everything else i write. Because nothing is definite. Beyond the word. Hear say is fact. And punishable by BS.

That same rule of association is attached to из(is) being from. The state of being of is. Gets attached to geographical location. Making the individual number 1, one, individual, is attached to location and notion. I am the state i come from. Me and it are the same. I act in conjunction to the state. State in english carries this further. As it means both a location. National/geographical state and the state of being. Though this play of words many only reach so far. If the letter S pluralizes an individual state of being. Outside the definite article. This being singular but these being plural. It is similar im russian too when it comes to the letter word И. Being, and, and the plural.

It’s hard not to trip. When speaking of articles.

This brings an But, into play in regards to the H(n) card of the lover(s). It being loverS attaches this card to the S card of the devil. Not by any other means than by association outside of any symbolic article. Even if it can be attributed to by number or image. ´It is given a rather let down depressinilism. The image of carnal beings chain together beneath a monster. No joy is seem here. Even if it did represent two parents and a child. Or the combined influence or either gender into one grotesque image. Which is why i laugh at those authors that add queer into the name of their tarot. Added to the depressing image of adam and eve. For an image that starts the script of the old testament. Is anything other than desirable.

For this reason and for a clear flow of the script leading up to this moment. Agrees that the lover(s) should be depluralized and removed from sex. The lover. And if the strength card N should be returned to the old depiction of the woman wrestling the lions voice. Or as in the magneta tarochi deck…pricy… of a woman in lion’s skin (wolf and sheep) breaking the pillar of foundation. But since this is the modern day. Not being 600 years ago. It already being manifested. The strenght card is better left to the man, still on the defensive side, with the weight of the world on his shoulders. When i came across that deck. It was a must have attainment.

The lover is poetic. As romance is poetic for it functions on the same level. Just as flowers are allegorical of the vagina and beauty and sent. Receptive to the elements for growth. For the open up and group to the sun. A woman whom doesn’t appreciate or like flowers is closer to the magneta wolf im sheeps clothing, deceptive and unresponsive save for their own advance. The love is poetic. If the E- fool here. Is coming from the hierophant. If it is not being identified as the pillar of foundation. The strenght card here plays in with the meaning behind letter Ё. While having N attached to the strength card, the russian И would need to be an images reflecting this. And having the strength card as a man holding up civilization or the ideal state of it. The russian И card being what was chosen for it. Reflects a man killing the demon. It being tied to E fool petulance. And the feminine body ravaging the masculine foundation. Shows a clash and a war. Whether it means sex or a foreign body causing harm.

The flower, being attributed to the female genitive organs and its receptivity to the sun. Not the moon. This is contrary to the reality of night time the timing of the sexual function by majority vote. For the moon here functions as releasing the warmth or happenings of the sun from within. The flower becoming receptive from within to the without. If the lover he is connected to the poetical of love. Then by contrast and sync. He’s night self of action is severely weakened and divided since the genome has its say also. And after so many moon cycles the sun light itself becomes more like the other.

It is said that the only time the letter Ё is essential, to the written form, is to distinguish все (v’sye) from всё (v’syo) meaning everyone from everything, respectfully.

To the tarot overlay with qwerty and jcuzen, the deffintion on V tied the B, is the magician or earlier peddler or handler or Craftsman. To the reclamation and balance of the star being connected itself to the more receptive state of night compared to the active state of day. Peace, calm, comfort, the self inclined and the lack of stress. B(v)C(s)E(y-e). To tarot, magical translation to the star. The holder of language and intelligence to the devil, and judgement passed down to the fool. Or person. Of by english Me is the wheel to the fool. The chariot. But by russian is the state to the individual.

The chosen И card here as the horseman centralized on the russian emblem, moves from the chariot backtracked to the fool. The elimination of evil and/or the confidant state of being towards action. Whether the demon represents either the queer looking lesser animal or the queer looking personage. Since both are white. And should be, again complicates Waite’s Sun card designation, the fool card riding and utilizing he’s higher conscience, if it is not killing the foe at his heels. Achilles heels (for reference). Or the plagues of bodily needs and desire basis of sins. Complicates or frustrates of Waite’s sun card being designated as letter U. Symbolic language complex arises.

Though i suspect Waite got his sun card idea from the viking runes english equilavents. Being M, E and, D. As the sun card originally holds the place of letter X. The meanins of these runes are a Man, a horse and the sun at dawn. Tied to benefice.

Considering since the norsemen and the englishment became interrelated by interbreeding and common theological beliefs about the afterlife and the apocalypse. And by itself shows an internal conflict since the norsemen were pillagers by right of god(s) while the christians were the complete opposite unless it was military accupatiom spreading the “good” word, towards unifying as many people as were possible in the aim of global peace. The bikings by contrast. Didn’t believe in peace.

The problem here is attributing U to Waite’s sun card while also having the russian И card being depicted as it is. Which may play out as co-dependance on an outside factor to kill the demon plaguing humanity or the individual in question. I believe it would need to be futher defined by association with other cards. Especially if the horseman gets identified as the queer looking animal. And not the fool itself. Or by contrast if the english letter N is also shown to be as in the marseille french version of the tarot. The woman here becomes the “masculine” outgoing figure. Which is shown as a softer version as in beauty and the beast. Or “i am dragon” a russian film playing to the tarot script.

Which is true for many foreign films being released and viewed by the american continent. Canadians im afraid are sub-pare and humbled and disowned by name. Its not the Canadian continent it belongs to the Americans. Canadians sit the side line. On this fact. Northern Americans aren’t as soft and liberal as Canadians, and not as soft as southern Americans. Even though the Southern Americans are sidelined by the northern American continent. Canadians being more apprehensive and receptive by cultural norm. Don’t upset the bear. Seems to play out in the canadian national passtime of hockey. Where full out fist fighting is or was encouraged. For were else to place the masculine energy of mounting the opposite sex? ‘so to say.

Before reaching card letter Ж, one must need working card letter H. Bound to N, И, J, E, K, moving in to conjunct Ж. Perhaps some association to letters Ш and/or Щ. On this count Waites switching of cards N and K fails for both are found being related to letter Ж anyway.

What doesnt work is letter Ё, Princess Yekaterina. And the feminine “pope” card Empress Catherine the great. For the lovers card tarot number 6 is letter J the eight letter. So number 7 Ё-fool, bound to the chariot, is found to be centralized within the hierophant. Which fallows to the tarot justice card. Or waites strength as harmony card. (For honour) of not being de-throwned by the feminine principle philosophy. Especially if it is the french version strength card. Which is where the justice cards leads with the latin-english overlay. And not where the strength as harmony leads by overlay to justice.

Bit the adam and even card to the devil card is a mind fuck on this count. It speaks more of a disfunctional family set leading to single parent family structures. Which is exactly what happened a generation after his deck was released.

Though the feminine body enshrined within the hierophant card does show true to christianity. Teaching to become more caring and compassionate and receptive. As is jesus to response over reaction. But is hypocritical if this was a usurped by force. And results a negative backwash of lunar entropic vulgarity towards the feminine body. This enshrining shows true of my account of the high priestess card which is supposedly the shrine of the church. If it isn’t viewed as the wise grandmother amd the increasing desire for peace of the aging man, the grandfather. For attainment and security should have already been made and the strenght leaves him perceptible to those who are younger and reading to take his place. As it works in the animal kingdom. The servival of the strongest and all that. And the saying strenght is found in wisdom and knowing when it is time. The young don’t give a shit. And without it they are what?

This is is a sequence that works in beautifully with the parenting system as it has been cultured and condition to be by association and inline with the tarot. Theres this yin yang association. And a choice in gender selection for whom ever is looking at the cards. And it begins on number 5. Which paints or flavours the emperor with the lover card. This is the Е and the Ё fool cards, either or, occupying the centre point. This is the child. The emperor is the man, the empress is the woman- the subject reading the cards-. And the hierophant is the father. And the high priestess is the mother. The husband consults the wife on matters of patenting. And while the relationship is active. The husband as a father adopts the wisdom of the mother. And the wife as a mother addopts the wisdom of the father. But by sequences outside of this by movement through the script and consequetial numbering forward. Is something else. Flowing with the stream and being written from without.

But based upon the historical significance of letter Ё. One may imagine the feminine as a serpent stealing the crown. As is shown in the “constelated” images of the stars at night. It may be better left without the BS and depicted identically as the E fool. Both being ignorant and stupid. But which ever perspective it is being looked at. I originally imagine just that the petulant fool as he is and a regal noblewoman carrying a crown on a pillow. With the crocodiles or other various beasts behind her. Sure it would play true to history. But it doesn’t promote much to equality. As the petulant E fool would similarly be holding a crown rushing towards calamity.

On this account I’ve never seem a petulant female fool card either. Of all the decks that where brought to me to see. The only fool card being “trans-gendered” was Waite’s fool card. Curios seeing how the vast majority of women. All high on their divine bs. Have failed to produce the marseille version of the fool. Equality? Collective egocentric superiority over the masculine unwilling of depicting themselves as the “villain”. Awhs poor marseille fool your all alone. With your dick in your hand.

Of course this is a collective phenomenon and not an individual one. As is the clash between negative sense communism and positive sense individualism. Which may just as be the reversed order of what it is.

Ugh, morning. To plus 26 today. Still May. Let’s go be surrounded by all the types of people i hate. Which is liek 90 percent of all men. Yesterday was good. But back to wanting to die again. Another year. And the crows greet me this morning. And when i stop shitting mucous that be great.

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Still being fucked with. Born serrounded by enemies. Forced to be raised by enemies. Not allowed not being around enemies. Such is life. Anyway. On to another post while i continued to be spychologically and socially abused.

Nice, i just discovered a new card. That works. Its the letter Ё. The hidden variant Е. Of course i may as well give up trying to keep the cards strictly russian culture based. It will take years to be fluent.

And though margaret magnus has helped open a door, formerly cracking dawn. I can not fully addopt her use of words in trying to create an english alphabet oracle. The thought has crossed my mind. I dont see it possible to make it unbiased based on personal cross reference word associations based solely on phonemes. Though she is close. I can sense. In her logic of poetic connections. Best to keep to what’s already in circulation and build from there. Though it won’t go unrecognized now and may infact work itself in.

My premise, already stated, is what is already there. The use of existence prior to existence latter. As astrologically, prison bound, reside in the place between the present. I am grateful this boom was sent my way. Its fun.

A. Be. To. Three.

My dearest petulant fool. My vision of you. Will manifest.

Close but as further reading leads.

Letter Ё

Princess Yekaterina Romanovna Dashkova[a] (born Countess Vorontsova; Russian: Екатери́на Рома́новна Воронцо́ва;[1] 28 March 1743 – 15 January 1810)[note 1][3] was an influential noblewoman, a major figure of the Russian Enlightenment and a close friend of Empress Catherine the Great. She was part of the coup d'état that placed Catherine on the throne, the first woman in the world to head a national academy of sciences, the first woman in Europe to hold a government office[4] and the president of the Russian Academy, which she helped found. She also published prolifically, with original and translated works on many subjects,[5] and was invited by Benjamin Franklin to become the first female member of the American Philosophical Society.

This, is supported by the letter Ё position in the type set. Being absent. It requires holding down the key E and switching to its accentuated form. Though it also seems by word to eye, that many native russian speakers do not use the new form accentuated letter Е. Due to, not to sub-pare, ignorance and ease, being fluent and knowing how the word is supposed to be pronounced, except in cases where it is necessary not to “confuse” it pronunciation. This in-fact does fallow some form of logic as russian doesn’t have a phonemic alphabetic language, as letter traditionally vary in the pronunciation depending.

Простите Amelia Earhart.

Thoughts, not to train into the controversial, knowing me, is to make a special double sided card for letter ЕЁ. The only one of that kind to be in the deck. Has it will also show to breathe historical significance. While also being true to how it is used.

But to tred on the “contraversal” not “reversal.” Hint hint. Is the time-line this letter became a mandatory. 1942. And the nazi movement of Ww2 conjunction to the “coup-état” for the crown by the feminine body. One may fallow their own train of thought, considering the huge influx of “European” philosophical, psychological influences that fallowed the same course into what is now the modern northern american state.

Examples abide, Freud’s drug use and harmless release from nazi Germany native tongue was German and Carl Jung whos native tongue is also german.

Politically speaking, of the russian/ukrainian war is the peace summit talks being or have been active in switzerland, a native German speaking country, amung o few other languages is a further insult to russia and with the added, “ your not invited” “ i dont want to be invited” relationship. Considering russian lost more than any other nation in both Ww by the germain “facist” government with aims to usurp large sections of russian land. Infact most of the russian losses of Ww2 were innocent civilians. On this facts alone its not hard to surmise the reluctance of freely using letter Ё. It being a latin base letter.

As for the hierophant to tarot symbolizes belief, l knowledge, education and communism ideology- not necessarily a tyrannical dictatorship. As religion is communal, as is the schoolyard education, traffic rules and “common curtesy” all fall into the generalization.- though i still do not have an image for card letter Ё it does, as in will, carry the two numbers, which is debatable, 5 and 7. Or 6 and 7. Which falls within, and translate through card letter G. The hierophant. The only sit of power that surpasses that of the emperor. Or king. Depending on which side of the nationality one stands. The chosen image would be that of a female version of the petulant fool card letter E.

Though, if one were to keep the exact same letter as that of the hierophant would be a tad redundant. As the petulant E card falls within the boundaries of the emperor, moving in to its conjunction but not on it since the cards show a state of movement and do not occupy the static. Based on this deduction. Using numbers 6-7 translates well from one image into the next. 6+7 equals 13. The death card by tarot. Shown by the reaper harvesting either gold and resources- as a scorpio figure- or the decapitation of state, mind and the ability of utilization by the removal and manipulation of the hands. The pope card on its own equals. Card letter P. That of the hangman.

Card letter M comes into play as card number 13. Which again fallows the script. Being the wheel card. Which means among other things correction of the bodily vessel. More specifically the corrections in the error of time calculation. Also goes by a change in fate, a new chapter, “not being on the same page” &….

This all seems to fallow the feminist explosion of past decades being founded and symbolized by “touching ground” aka the moon. And works well with my creation of card letter Г which flows effortlessly with card letter R (r) as temperance. Which heads the previous post. The fool walking away from it. Or walking away from its reversed meaning would certainly play well as a fool being ripped and torn. This also shows well as the “ego”-ist viewing itself as being right. Not seeing its own fault. Which is a naivety affliction or/and a biological function of survival. Though without on the opposing party can and may view the petulant E fool as a threat of incompetence to peace. Or a view of will of disdain for the homeless incapable or unwilling of getting with the picture, or program. Or simply envy and bias of position. Beside the excuse, it is prejudice that fools the picture. And the view of superiority over the lesser. Here the great dragon serpent becomes a queer looking little lesser being snipping and tearing at the fool. Thoigh this is so if it is not experienced as the higher conscience nagging away at the current actions of an individual whom shouldn’t be doing what they are currently doing. Some may view as an aspect of god’s speech. If god isnt experienced as inhabiting an outter form. Not necessarily of an actual body but of somethign more etherial. Which i can vouch for.

Unfortunately, this is where it begins to get complicated. For the next card, number 8, for latin english is H. The next card for Cyrillic russian is Ж. Number 8. To tarot it is number 6. J is the 6th card for the tarot. Card the lover(s). And the 6th card for russian Cyrillic is Е. The latin english letter N is phonemically the same as russian Cyrillic H. And the russian Cyrillic Ж is the phonemic equivalent of latin english J. Ж is the letter which starts the words of woman and wife, which is so far the only clue as to its pictorial definition. Just as W, drawn as the moon is the letter which starts woman and wife. Here one begins to see the correlations of letters, numbers and images.

Latin english letter E and Cyrillic russian letter E had to be shared on the same card, for there simply cannot be two letter E’s in the same deck. The only thing separating them is by number. Number 5 for english and number 6 for russian. Gone is the original designated number 0. Fortunately english doesn’t share the letter Ж with russian. And is open to an original creation which is on pare with the tarot moon and strength primarily. And secondly to the tarot letter J, the chariot and tarot letter H the lovers. And so it is safe to assume it will again be another female card. The E fool card gets bound to the chariot card. Not yet mentioned the controversial, that tarot number 8 is originally the justice card and modernly by popular opinion the strength as harmony card.

Though perhaps ive gotten ahead of myself for the russian letter В(v) occupies the same place as english letter C(c) number 3. Though letter Г shows a relationship to the empress. A positive relationship to nature and intent….. letter D. …uhm… i dont know. Another time.

For it is almost time to go back a be physically serrounded by all these passive abusive fucken cocksucker s. Im been friend with gay people whom are even half aa much of a cocksucker as they are. Opps prejudiced, egotistical immoral assholes stuck in time as a bunch of fucken stupid teenager s, does it mayter im going to get hit anyway. Doung them a favour about feeling justified about it. Cause they dumb. But after all these years of being manipulated and raped and abused for the gays. They can all be a bunch of fucken cocksuckers with the rest of these assholes. No more respect. Never didnfeel comfortable in that perversed mindset. But you know. Its the new world. Dont give a fuck anymore.

Whynis it patriots day? Ismt that more like an american holiday. Canada isnt very patriotic to begin with.its morenof a french quebecsr thing no. They are way more communists then the rest of canada is. In the negative sense. Well at leats america is taken steps away from communist dependency. By trying to reduce chinese imports. Because of russia. Increasing its remarions with them….. or some crap. I dint beleive anything i read or hear. Tey to buy something that isnt made in china. While being dumpedmon about anti communism. And tyranical dictatorship while

Being passivly abused by these fucks. Im so confused. Well im going to go fit the description by foing something selfishly selfless. In the moral priactive sense and not the conditioned sexual sense. Im not a sheep. Bah!! Im an Ovis Aries! Domestic the arien race!! What its been like 8 straight years ive been being fucked by the community. Who pucked up after the 20 from from family? This is all life has ever been. Considering the first 14 some odd years of them not trying. Jus tbeing nayural and rhat my first two memories are falling down a a full set of staircase.

But, what confounds me about the political side of state. Is the reform being pressed upon russian into closing a comunist state yet serround them and not included them. And pressure them from the side lines. Which is judt going to reenforces the comunist side of its history. By secluding theme. Into its only allies being communist states. They will eventually just drop the cross over american/french flag they addopted infert pressure. And if america drops the aluminum and metal dependency it has with china then their trade is gping to increase with russia. When one studies or looks into the history of tarot like many other things russia is abesnt. But when one specifically looks for connections of hostory of taort with russia the history is identical. Though its a rare find to see tarot cards printed in russian. French, english, spanish, german are the princiole languages printed on tarot cards unless ine deliberally loom for russian таро cards. Even the byzantine, tsar decks arwnt orinted in russian. And unfortunatly they are mostly identical to that if the waite’s version of tarot anyway. So theres no finding the missing cards that fir into the latin cyrilic overlay.

[solardick]

Здравствуйте versus привет.

Hello versus hi.

Formal versus informal.

Subject’s birth point on “classical/modern” Waite’s version of the high priestess versus my own variant. The bearer of language and structure.

“Formal” english is a meek point. It barely exists anymore. The more formal an english speaker is the queerer they sound.

May I? Versus. Can I? Proves the degeneration of language. Which isn’t a far off shoot considering the vast amount of imaginative corrections needed to be made between spelling and pronunciation, it comes built it. And predisposes the mass to live an untrue nature. If i worded all that the way i intented. A Bow’s bow. Cant tell the difference between what word means what the contextual fails to the bias.

Yeah. It must be Santa clause. Definitely.

Truth is here. One may easily change the devil card for satan. Uh, i mean santa.

Clause

The russian’s dont technically have a Santa. Its soemthing else. Which serves as a near point.

Its makes the man’s job alot easier considering he doesnt have to fly over and deliver presents to the largest country in the world.

But on track. The high priestess of waites variety, makes a luke warm connection to the biblical holy church of king David or who ever. Part of the old testement. Ehich is primarily the school of gard knocks. Without saying the BJ on the pillars are suppose to represent boaz and joaz or whatever. Like anyone cares. But, those familiar witb the tarot cards would agree. That thise pillars stand for the magician and the chariot. Too bad though that BJ stands for something completely different on the perverted side of society. No one is going to make a connection to the church based on a BJ.

Its the tora or rota. Or whatever BS. The circle of “life” go around and come around the BJ. Getting sick of it yet. Well too bad.

Curiosity abound. What is the difference between C, see and sea? How to spell the letter C? Speaking of meekness. I beleive this is here.

Wholy mother of mary. Damned girl. Dont stop now.

But, oh well, my ass is going to keep me up all night again. I don’t want to be alive anymore. Right in the “erogenous” zone. Never goes away. Always gassy. Always sensitive. Always swollen.i dotn think im going to work again inwamt a fucken ciggarette. Diet doens tfuxken matter. Just life fucken with me since my first memeory.nothing to learn except being raped by existance. Doems tmatter if im an asshole or a savoir. Its always the same. Welcome to life man. Here a staircase. Push. Been that way ever since. For experience. Im hoing start smoking again pop a couple pills maybe ill sleep. And no one to talk to excspt degenerates criminals, foreigners that dont speak english and fags. The only thing i did different today was buy a couple snokes off some fucken cocksucker asshole that talks crap all the time. Like most of them. Probaly drugging me again as usual. Been beeing drugged since forever. Its apart of their warcraft. Been super nice to me today too. Even offered coffee. But fuck you. Last time its fucked me up. Side wffect aof the pills the guesswork doctors gave me. Are. No operating machinery and Psychosis.

Suicide is the only sin god doesnt forgive. No fuck cause you fucken dead. Wait another half hour see if the pills work and if not. Save the rest for when i get wasted and hang myself. Being muscle relaxants or some shit. The fuck if i know. Back to

Tv.

Pills worked. Mostly. Just felt warm. And now my vission is a little blurry. Doubled the dose he gave me. So 20ml is just a little too little. Last time i took a dose he gave me. It didnt do anything. I dont want ot go to work anymore. I want ot go bsck to being wnemployed and and suicidal. Less stress that way.

Oh well guess ill never know what it feels like not being abused.

Oh gid sent me a rabbit. Still dont knwo what thise mean. A croh flew past earlier.

Want people to quit smoking? How about you make them illegal and stop fucken manufacturing thr fucken things. Maybe we do need a fucken dictatorship. Anout the jobs the jobs. Fuck the job hiw many fucken immagrant do y’all invite over here and they go straight to welfare. Fuck your bs.

I fucken hate this continent. I can eat an wntire large bag of doritos and have no symtoms. Had chicken and homey yestweday. No symptoms. Had so again the next day. Was up all night. . If its at the end of the GI track. Then it can take up to 36 hours to reach that point. But apparently it can take on 15 mins to 4 hours. At leat i grt my proteins worth with a litter of yogurt everyday.

So i checked my hororscope for my birthday next year. Spyche return. And eros. Pluto sqaure pluto. Neptune sayrts in aries. Mean. Wonder if its a comming out celebration. Oh, there goes a croh. Ita ganna be a shitty day

Anyway. Excuse the insanity and despair. So for the rabbit portent. Or omen. It’s attached to lost and found. Easter bunny. This coupled to the crohs. Lost ans found something negative. But also dor the positive. For the rabbit. Seems to be. A neutral character. But, this is going off a single happening. And will need to be looked into to see if it’s a constant. Like that of the croh.

…uh. He told me his name was BJ.

I cant do it man. I cant look at an image of a woman with nig bold letters saying B J and keep a straight face.

Though inget it. It was definatally a magician chariot converstion. Empowering and all. Can’t say that it didn’t wake me a bit. Even though ive heard it all before. My own priestess. Has innocense written all over her. With a power of a logos looking over her. The magician to the empress or the emperor. As number 4. Nature and rule. Its akin to my gamma card being connected to the star. But i dont like callingnit the star. Its misleading. As there is no wish. Its retirbution. Because the falling star as it is sometimes depicted as. Is a moment to wish. A moment in the future to come. But asnit plays out. It is that moment of the future being breed from temperance. The eight pointed star is the connecting clue to the justice card. And is the calm and quiet of the night from upheaval and unease. It being a woman. Suits it perfectly.

As temperanve is a balancing of Accounts of something that shouldnt be. Waite’s version shits all over these connections. Replaces the eight pointed star connection to strength instead. Mother nature wrestling a lion roar to caressing it. Not my experience.

… ghost busters: frozen empire?

Is this to say that the summer is going to be mild and cool. As aquaman: the lost kingdom, was to the unnaturally warm winter? So, jo “intense heat this summer? The preview looked like some horrible acting. But ant-man. Isnt a greta actor anyway. Funny but. Not very good. I dont know if i should order books. I never read them. They just sit there. But i like having a library. University edition of english grammar. And the evolution of the russian language. Which is pricy. But, tarot books are inadequate and unreliable.

And what happened to my symptoms? Severe again last night. Popped a couple pills fell asleep. Instead of binging anime. Woke up the next morning and all but gone except for the very mild by comparison. Didn’t do anything different even ate a large bag of Doritos. The Polypropylene and thermoplastic resins are delicious.

Whichc must be why when people have a hard time saying something, or looking for the roght word. Most people will comenin a correct them or say “ja, i get ehat you mean.” But, i havent even pooped yet.

Erin on attack on titan finally found the ocean. The ocean and the perils within and withon. Not so different from the perils on the night. Which works as a star card. And the letter V the russian war machine placed upon their naval fleets.

Wow, women are particularly pretty today. Told you V stands for vagina.

What? They’re objects. Blame the english language.

But its monday now. Pains back. And why move away. Looks like the condition is permanent. And if i do. Ill just be forced out of where ever i land ahyway. Its a life theme. Been that way since my first memory. Seems to dissapear mostly on saterdays. I get born, tied to a higjlt toxic relationship to some plutonic fucken cocksycker that treats me like shit. Enjoying the feeling of superiority over me. Litterally. And i get tossed around from place to place for ither peoples convinience. 39 years and counting nothings changed and it has nothing to do with me. . The entire fucken plabet may burn. And i font give a fuck.

[solardick]

I see. Card letter Rr temperance would fallow card letter Xx-rus. Except that in this case card Cc claims captivating.

Take card Xx-rus. The cherub and the toil. Trees are bare. Whats left on the top is out of reach. Everythign else is dead or picked clean. The peaks speak of christmas. And a place of warmth. The cherub. Gardian of the gate to the gardennof eden. In this case. The tops. To be reserved. For cheer and holi. Prob’em issue is here with the person toiling, encumbered. There’s no reservation. All consumption. In this case, as a c’ash, speaks for the cherub to say. “Uh, no.”

But i foond somethign fun too.

Card letter Фф, for at the moment,- ehich originally gave letter F to the emperor. And yes that works.- but here in this case card letter Bb, is being used for the jcuzen set. As images a man behind a table. Card letter Cc as the virgin priestess. With the old letters BcD on it. And card letter Ww the moon card, to all be tied up with card letter Дд, russian Dd.

A curios for the symbols Фф compared the Bb. Purely symbolically speaking of the form.

Im pulling the moon card out completly. Fuck that card. The only thing boiling up to the surface for me is my pecker.

But, guess this feeling is here to stay to remind me hiw they wasted over 25 years of my life. Neglected my childhood to shit and then raped me. Somy entire existance from birth on is nothing but bs by ither people fucken around with my existance. I dont want to be alive anymor w

Sorry i selflessly helped out a member of the opposite sex yesterday. I deserve to feel like i just got fucked up the ass all night.

Im juts going to

Start trashing awomen and fagskets from now on. Like it matters on my karma.

Ive been being treated as trash simce i was born. 40 years later nothings changed. Well it dorsnt seem to have anything yo do with ciggareetes. Might ascwell keep smoking. Ive barely snoked at all in four days. And its wirse now than it has for the last couple weeks. Oh its a mars venus aspects again. Lets give him another dose of dick in ass desease. Instant suicidal idealization. Motovation to boot.

Y’all traininf me like a fuxken dog.

Yay. Another biolent putburst. Rape me sone mote. Its bever been that intense in the morning.

Honna lise my shit one day and go on a killing spree.

I got a few neighbours that need to go. My ebyire family needs to go. The history tracher from highachool neesa to go. And along with have the people ive ever met withholding personall information about me from me with sly cicksuckers smiles. They all need to die too.

Its ok myqyeer side doesnt have any moral barriors. Thats whyni killed it when i was 14. That blond from the billards…. List fgoes on.

But i want to take my sweet time with my father and two ilder brothers. My mother can watch and lise ger sanity. And then ill tell how much i love her.

Hurry up nato get russia to throw a preliminary warning missile to the states. It’ll get shot down but the message would have been made.

Im sick of being alive anyway. All there is in the world is fucken harm to my person. Everywhere ive ever beensince my first memeory. The only

Consistency ive evwr had.

Well, nit so much, they’re doing a miraculous job at ruining my entire existence, my will’s been broken for over 25 years. And all they do is make such it never mends.

This dick and ass desease theyve given me. Is just going to keep me in a self-destructive spiral away from nirvana. Which is just a infantile glowing golden light.

And there s nothing i can do about it. Just dwell on 40 years of sick memories. And people

Laughing at me.

Look at this crap.

The only way this chart makes any sense is the natural system. Or (whole -1=aries) what a load of crap. I dont want this. Send it back.

Keep the fire burning for a long lost hope.

No family, no fun, no growth. Juno and vesta. Before ine walks into pluto. And saturn cutting the bud of any solar acheivement. Wanting peace, calm and goid things. Held back into the shadows of scorpio and orhers peoples bs. Mars goes to the moon for somwthing substantial yet, destructive and intoxicating. Pluto pluing into neptune as the midheaven. Creating his reputation for him.

Jupiter is a sham and doesnt makevany sense other than a large group of people making the decisions. In opposition to nessus. And the poison seeping in from his desperation and misery and reactions from all the chaos and harm to his person. From all the stress.

Any harm done by him. Is emmidiatly fallowed by care and concern. Which is mostly fue to other peoples interference. Even if its disrupting their peace. “ i didn’t want to intrude…” i dont mean to offend” or. I wasn’t aware. Because its slways hardship. They can play nice. But they just quip in that saturn at the end.

Pholus opposition vesta. Hahah. They’ll make you lose the flame everytime. And then things get dark. Anddsly smiles come out from perversion grooves of mildread.

It says. There is no help.

And yet at the end of any connection. A flame is lit. A good deed is made. Before being forced in by external forces by obsessive personalities. It’s the same light he tries to share withanother. Holding their hand watching them die. And moving on. But it is not his power. And the forced changes are never pleasant and nothing good comes out from them. He can still look back at that one “last” lit flame and know that he is still himself.

If thats the power of the hermit. I know him better than anybody.

Seeing how his family is leo/cancer dominant. They run the monopoly as being the source of toxicity. The nessis chariclo whathave you. Stelium on 14 leo. Conjuncts the pluto of his pstents. The mother is uranus in sag. She being a sag. Always home. Always absent beyond her erratic tendencies of violent outbursts. Off away in another faraway land inside her head. Yet gifting him an appreciation for beautiful things. Father is cancer and leo. Alwaysl absent. Never present. Erratic and violent himself. As he was never home. Always off in some far land somewhere fucken his hookers. So they’re both uranus.

Both distant relatives that you dont know very well but, you do know they exist.

….. juno, the asteroid of anothe rof jupiter consorts, signifier of marriage, commitment and pregnancy, conjunct the descendent. Point of paterneships and marriages. In the personal experimece in which it is found to history as his father holding the torch of marriage to a dead relationship. Seeing to his life’s work goes to the support of his memory. Though shat over every other part of it. Same one i carry seems to be. But to personal experience. Theres not much to trust. Cant count on the line up of women set and pressed to dis-stress any positive attachment to. But they all seem to be women in the whole spectrum of age fertility. In the last few years. A woman, with a child, a baby, or a soon to be. The older ones are better. Carry the torch through the rough. See to the necessities.

But, needs or way over there, compassion, temperance as she really is. The virgin priestess. As all new mothers are. All the choas and roughhousing the spyche lead to needs of peace and calm and absence of family and harm not harmony. It was all scorpio shit. The sex becomes flaccid theres too much negative energy being stung out of there that there can be no loving attendance.

They can gift wrap it in rainbows and corrupt the core by letting the victim invite dracula in his home. Kind of hard to be one with nature.

Y is counted as a consonant but plays its part as a vowel. In -ony, as in one, ona, oni, onu, ono, its really only one, with an e, thats starts with a w-y sound. As one may get from Yne. Pronounce Y with ne. If you get when. Then. Thats acceptable too. May call the final judgement card harm and harmony. Man and woman. The eerie part of it is. It has a time. Resolute, it intimidates.

But, all torches aside. Im not going to survive.

And that is him. All bundled together in aries. Everything else outthere. Isnt him.

He’s not going to be alive no more, he’s gonna be dead

Sing with me. Bring some holi into this bs. 🎶he’s not going to be alive no mo-re. He is going to be dead. 🎶

Hurry up ww3 so people can leave me the fuck alone.

🎶dick in ass desease. He‘s gonna be dead.🎶

He‘s not gonna be alive no more. He’s gonna be dead. He’s not gonna be alive anymore. He’s gonna be dead. 🎶 why is he at work? He has nothing to fo but walk around and sing.

All he wants to donis sooth his ass. But its a futile endeavor because its chronic. And he’ll end up doing nothing else but fiddling with his ass every day. Multiple times a day. Not a life worth living

Just a while longer. Ans he can be dead. He’s not surviving this life. He was never foing to. It was alreasy before he was born. He’s a dead man.

All he can do is game. And even that is hoghly conditionign and manipilative of the psyche but its the only thing he can do to forget about suicide.

[solardick]

In the qwerty system of tarot. Letter P equals out to the condensation of the hanged man with the tower.

Cyrillic jcuzen set. Gives letter Рр to the confusion of letter R to temperance and the moon. By the qwerty overlay. All these cards together speaks a message. As they all beling to the same set. As its being perceived from a single side. But, my attempt is to change that by given Рр to something a less depressing and oppressive as tarot.

Deja view.

And a dove, interactions are positivedevelopment. Given to venus to simplify it.

These moments are rare power by positive expression. It’s out there. Don’t gender a planet.

The power of Раз. Time, once, day. In the early degrees, its an image of an old radio, on a old wooden boarded table, Parted to me by Metro. The radio is lit. There’s a hammer, a candle and a few gold coins.

Though the radio is found before hand, in the description of work and functionality. What is Competence. And it is brought back to the throne and the body’s habitual, because natural, proficiencies. A material place of home or memories and skills depending where one is coming from. A set structure, four walls a couch, a recliner, a throne, a toilet bowl. Pick them.

A throne on a throne. Also suggest that in this place. Where it has physically dwelt. There still another body above that. The thrones the throne even at home. Where one rules one’s own. In another side one is ruling with one’s tasks. A matter of mastery. There’s still someone above that. The employer, the “emperor” or the government. And tho them. Ideally the ideal state of serving a higher power, not to sin in a position of power or the payment falls upon others.

Here memory ties in to time. Experience.

Раз is a big word. As it stands by itself as it does, becoming the host of many others. And represent a definite point in time, as in once a day and once again. It has a continuity to it that streams out into a distance. As well as circling around a spiral. Where each point connects back to everyother point on that same line but with the difference of distance keeping them isolated islands, which eventually merge together from that distance to the conscious sight of time. Where the functional habituals keep it occupied on the foreground.

Sloppy. So? Want to fight about it?

The virtue Prudence. Speaks well here. And belongs in the position of the wheel. For tarot. The missing virtue is found there.

Though, here she may also be surmised for the tower card also. Depending on which virtue is found here, all speak something different. Prudence in russian is a бла word. Compared to башня for tower. She has the added designations with Л. Prominent in like/love, and people. The nature is airy. As it is with letter A. An argument that can’t sustain through counter logic. But still fits well in forming the relevant associations for this specific case in point. While, actually standing beside the whole argument. Пожалуйста.

In tarot prudence is no where near the tower. It gives prudence to the wind, so to say. While temperance stands between devil and death. Two big Ds. Removed from qwerty. Is the emperor card. Added to qwerty is the empress card. Two big Es. But to play with both. Number 13 to stand in with letter M brings in a prudence by overlaying death and wheel, so that point is already reached before meeting the devil. As the figure of death, in most cases automatically evokes a sense of prudence, even though that card is missing. While the tower gets the action point. And temperance plays in as limiting the reaction. While not given it to a state of calculation and control. Or something. The argument may expand here in dichotomous ways.

But if one looks to the jcuzen set first. Then prudence may be seen as in the overlay of the tower Башня and the high priestess card standing in for the temple.

The russians and their iconography lasted for centuries.

Letter Рr, to distinguish it from latin P. Is a roll of the tongue. The canadians played it in for Timmy’s. With Roll up the Rim to win. Though its a common learning to roll the Rs, though it not being part of the phonemics in common speech. Pr, is the Cyrillic R, having a that functional “part”.

It means work. Simply put. Work which then evolves a degree to, well being and happiness. The rainbow belongs here as that ray of sunshine in an other wise static state of subservience. To the repetitions. More positively it speaks contentment with what one does with habitual motion.

As with the radio, it is detached from the source.

Раз and IF.

And so much for a liberal democrazy for encouraging diversity and individualism. While all the american presidents aim for something some else has issue with, they get assasinated or attempted. I call bs on the governmental leniencies. For the freedom of speech. Even more russian then the russians get accused of.

Wonder when my functional self care motivation is coming back. I have enough fruit flies bow i could make a protein bar.

I havent spoken to another person in months.

It’s been awhile since ive had a fly. They are some of the most useful portents when it comes to pointing attention in what needs it. It just stand there. Watching me. As i moved to the sidenit moved to the side to keep straight with me. I brought my finger up close and inch or two away. And i noticed it had a power. It then came by to show me simething and flew off.

Hope the wife is world savi. Cause im nazi cocksukr savi and thats pretty much it.

She was sexy. Nice big smile for me. By the time she said hello. I didn’t register it in time. Kept walking. Likenif i ignored her. Coming in from the distance. Attentionnon het that whole stretch. So come on girls. Whos going break my shell. And have the parience through my social retardation?

Now i need to go get high and conquer Caldaria. I executed the king to dey Meric, or soemthing like that. I fucken hate that culture. His son inherented but his jus tas kuchnof an asshole as his father was. Maybe i should just execute the ehole blood line. Those dress wearing freaks.

These last 8 sime odd years of manipulation have brought from me from being indifferent to outright dicgist and hatred. I ofmt give a fuck how nice you are.

…. Guess that means the wife’s promiscuous as all hell bade her for. Meh, i chose celibacy.

But, then again. She’s also french. Ugh. Ok. You may come back to me girl. I liked your smile. Ill say hello this time and smile back. And we can just stare at each other.

Eh, guess the homo sexchems wore off. There goes four months stolen. Now im home. Instant depression. What’s there to do? Motivation says socialize. But. Thants not possible. Lots of social at work today. Not lots. But. More than I’ve seen in a long time. I hate life. Be a game night with the family. Or a social night with the wife. But, thise aint possible either. That’s what it would be. Whats its supposed to be. How do i know? I just do.

Or maybe not. No, still being dosed.