#jake and Tara

[sturniolowhore]

Flowers

Pairing: soft!Carrington x fem!reader

Summary: Carrington surprises you with flowers randomly.

Warnings: none!

a/n: Divider by @issysh3ll. I don’t want anyone to copy my work or use it as “inspiration”.

Carrington had been gone for a while, and you were starting to get worried. He went to go film a Target video with your roommates, Jake and Johnnie. You were sitting on the couch, scrolling mindlessly on your phone. You were about to text him, when you heard the front door open.

"Hey baby." He says, walking inside, his hands behind his back.

"Hey. I was starting to get worried. Are you guys done filming?"

"Yeah, i got something for you though." He says, bringing a bouquet of flowers in front of him.

"Aww thats so sweet thank you so much!" You say, getting up and giving him a hug.

"Your welcome baby. It wasn't a big deal."

"Um yes it was. We had to stop every 20 minutes just for him to find a good flower shop." Johnnie remarks, bringing bags inside.

"Uh yeah but you would do the same for Grace." Carrington says, turning his head to look at him.

"Yeah, I probably would."

"It's okay, your so sweet." You say taking the flowers from him. You smell them and close your eyes.

"Thank you." You open your eyes to see him smiling. You stare into his bright blue eyes, and you get lost in them. He then places is lips on yours, savoring the taste of you.

🏷️: @brookheartsmatt

Jasmine 🤍

[megameatymatt]

Step By Step - Matt Sturniolo

summary: Matt finds out about y/n's ED relapse

WARNINGS: e@t!ng d!sorder, swearing, throwing up, gagging, crying, self-hatred/insecure, feelings of hopelessness, overthinking

If you or anyone you know is dealing with an ED or substance abuse, call or text:  1-800-662-4357.

word count: 766

requested?: nope

A/N: I was feeling sad so all of you must suffer with me. Feedback, interaction, and requests are appreciated! ok bye

Pink: Y/n

Blue: Matt

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Matt knows you've dealt with an eating disorder in the past. He wasn't there during it, but you've talked to him about it and answered some of his questions. It didn't make you any less perfect in his eyes. To him, all that mattered was you being okay. But you weren't.

Four years later, you feel like you're falling back into it all over again—all the progress you've made, discarded within just a couple weeks.

You stare at yourself in the mirror and wish someone different stared back at you. You pinch at the skin on your thighs, stomach, and arms and wish the fat would disappear.

You sob silently. How can someone hate themselves so much, How couldn't you hate yourself so much, Y/n? Look at you, just look at you! You're lucky matt even stays. Thoughts circle around your head like a halo. Leaving you in nothing but shatters.

You walk to the toilet, shove a finger down your throat, and gag

The cycle begins.

Two weeks later, you walk into your kitchen to find Matt standing there. "Good morning, angel, I'm making pancakes. How many do you want." The thought of putting food in your mouth makes you sick. "Um, Matt, I'm not hungry." Matt frowns. "You love my pancakes, baby, what's the matter?" you shuffle through your brain, thinking of an excuse. "I'm full from last night, Y'know, the pizza." You, Matt, nick, and Chris had had a movie night. The boys ordered pizza and snuggled up on the couch as you all giggled.

"I watched you the whole night, Y/n, I didn't see you take a single slice," he says, flipping a pancake. "In fact i haven't seen you eat much at all lately, You alright?" Eat? How can he suggest such a thing? doesn't he want me to be pretty? i wanna be good enough to wear a bikini. I wanna be good enough to wear skin tight dresses, i wanna be good enough for him.

You shake away these thoughts trying your best to keep your composure. "I'm good, just give me one okay?" you say letting out a sigh. He smiles "Comin' right up princess" He hands you a plate with a pancake, syrup, whipped cream and some strawberries. Matt has already started digging into his own plate.

just a few bites Y/n, just let Matt think you're okay

You pick up your fork and knife with shaky hands, cut yourself a piece and quickly shove it it your mouth. Your body wants to immediately reject it, but you take a few more bites.

As soon as you swallow your first bite, it flies back up your throat. You get up and run to the bathroom. Matt follows you with concern. "Are my pancakes that bad?" he says, running after you. But as he walks into the bathroom. He notices how frail you've become. Tears are running down your eyes, and he finally realizes. You finish puking and flush the toilet and lean against the wall, almost lifelessly.

A few tears escape Matt's eyes. How could he be so stupid? how didn't he put it together? It was so obvious. He could've helped you. Why would you do this?

He runs out of the bathroom to get a glass of cold water, then quickly comes back to hold you. The only thing that could escape from his mouth was "Why"? "Just look at me, Matt, I hate it, I hate my body so fucking much, Matt, you don't even understand," you say, trying your best to yell, tears running down your face.

Matt is completely taken aback "But you're so beautiful, baby, You're hurting yourself. You were doing so good." You sob in Matt's arms, barely able to speak. "I-I'm sorry, Matt. I just wanted to be pretty." Your words felt like a knife in Matt's stomach.

''I tried so hard to fight it, Matt, I didn't want to go down this path again. I promised you I wouldn't. The words spill out like vomit, "But I did it anyway, Matty." You whine, "And it's worse than before. I'm so ashamed Matt. I'm sorry i'm putting you through this" Tears rush you your face, and you're shaking uncontrollably. The knife in Matts stomach only gets pushed deeper and deeper. "I'm sorry i never noticed Y/n, i'm so fucking stupid. The signs were so clear, i could've helped you." He wipes the tears off your cheeks. "But i'm gonna help you now baby." "I can't Matt" "we're gonna do it together okay? Step by step, Y/n. We'll be just fine"

Taglist: @sturnobsessedwh0re

[bianca131207]

hating on Jake Webber for not fitting into the mold you think he should be in is JOBLESS BEHAVIOR

[bradywtf]

he’s so majestic

[tastesousweet]

ooooo big day for annoying ppl!!!!

[chocotacoshawtybae]

‼️NOT MY EDIT‼️

and suddenly i’m his teacher😻😻😻😻

edit of the day 😼😼

[wtpdhoe]

still not used to this

the fuck

[ikyoudreamofme]

You’re back?

Your boyfriend Johnnie had gone on tour three weeks ago and had another three weeks left until he was back. And least to say it you were going insane. You were so bored. You usually always hang out with him and you haven't for nearly a month and you missed him.

He messaged you whenever he could and always before and after a show. The only person you've seen is Tara your best friend. She keeps trying to get you to go the club with her just like tonight.

Tara🩷

Hey Y/N you're coming to the club with me tonight!

Jakes coming aswell.

Y/N💝

Do I have to Tara?

Tara🩷

Yes you have no choice I'm picking you up at 8 be ready or I'm taking you in your PJs!

Y/N💝

Fine I'll see you at 8. Love u

Now you had plans maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing ever. It was 6:30 so you had about an hour and a half to get ready you looked for an outfit and placed it on your bed before getting in the shower. For 30 minutes.

You walked into your room to plugging in your hair dryer and getting ready. Your hair and makeup turned out perfect. You got up slipping the dress on and some shoes with a bag.

Tara🩷

I'm here open the door!

                                                               Y/N💝

                               Okay give me a moment!

You run downstairs and grab your keys leaving the house locking the door behind you running towards Jake's car opening the door. Tara's at the front so you sit in the back. "Hey Tara,Jake" you smile plugging your seatbelt in. "Hey Y/n we thought you might have needed a night out just to forget that johnnies not back for a while yet." Jake's says looking in the rear view mirror driving off. "It's alright." You say blankly.

All three of you arrive at the club and Tara comes up to you hugging you dragging you inside. You laugh slightly loosing your balance. Jake goes off getting you three drinks. "So y/n how have you been? We've barely spoke" Tara ask while we walk around. "I've been alright I mean I miss him but I still talk to him every day I just want to see him you know." You reply fiddling with my hands.

She nods dragging you onto the dance floor to dance. Jake comes up behind Tara making her jump handing us our drinks. "I'm going outside for a fag!" Jake shouts over the music. We both nod at him and he walks off.

After a bit more messing around you and Tara go look for Jake outside. You're walking beside Tara as she's trying to call him.

"Jake where are you we can't find you!" She shouts into her phone. She nods and hangs up walking in front of you as you trail behind her. You walk out the door and the cold wind hits you Tara takes hold of your wrist dragging you towards Jake.

"Jake how many cigarettes are you smoking you've been outside for ages" you shout as the music is still loud from outside. "Sorry I saw someone I knew I was talking to him." He replies looking at Tara with a small smile. "Oh where's he gone then." You say confused.

"Behind you Y/N." Jake says calmly

You turn around and you see the person you were not expecting to see tonight. Your mouth opens slightly looking at the boy in-front of you smiling slightly. You don't think and walk up to him hugging him deeply.

"Your back?" You say softly your head resting in his neck.

"yeah I am tour finished early" he replies.

You pull back from the hug looking back at Jake and Tara both smiling widely. "You guys knew?"

"Of course we knew!" Tara shouts. You smiling hugging Tara whispering a thank you to her. You're still smiling; you're so happy you stand next to Johnnie leaning on him as he puts his arm around your shoulder and you hug his waist. "I'm so happy you're back. I missed you J."

"I know Jake told me. I missed you too." Johnnie says walking back into the club Jake and Tara following.

[emotionalvenom]

Jake & Tara 🖤

[samncolbyjj]

𝙁𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙗𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙛𝙞𝙩𝙨

Johnnie Guilbert

Warnings: -smut (not actual smut cuz i can't write that, but a make out and a skip smut)

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|Y/n's Pov|

i was friends with Tara and Jake for years. i have seen everything from that relationship, the ups and downs and i really hope they get together again because if there's a #1 fan of that relationship its me.

A month ago they asked me to meet someone. they said would definitely loose my streak of years being single and that would also help the guy. they said he was my type and i was his type, I don't really think this is gonna work but im tired of being alone so i will give it a try.

•

Today i was with Johnnie, the guy they asked me to meet, Jake and Tara in Tara's house. Tara's going to have a party tomorrow and today we would have a party only to ourselves. just so we can get drunk and do funny stuff together without interruptions.

"so where's the alcohol?" Jake asked and Johnnie grabbed a bottle of alcohol and put it on the tiny table in the living room. We are sitting in the couch facing the TV.

"So now what are we supposed to do?" I asked trying to get someone to have a ideia for something to do with the alcohol. "Q & a? If you don't answer you drink?" Johnnie said and i nodded approving the idea. Jake and Tara also agreed and we made a on social media asking for questions.

We put the camera facing us and grabbed shot glasses (i hope this is what it's called) and started recording. "Hello bitches!!" I said and Jake followed explaining what we were gonna do today. "So today we're here to do a Q & a, we made some posts in different social media to get more attention asking for questions and now were gonna read them"

"And if we don't answer we drink!!!" Tara said excitingly. "Okay let's start!" Johnnie grabbed his phone and started reading. "okay first one, Jake and Tara, you guys know Y/n for years, why didn't you introduce her to Johnnie sooner?"

"For them to not plan a suicide together." Jake said joking and Tara bursts laughing. Me and Johnnie just looked at them with a "are you serious?" Face. "Okay, now seriously, ot just never seemed to be the perfect time for them to meet, but then me and Tara gave up on finding the perfect time and just called Y/n over to meet him."

*Your turn to read Y/n" i grabbed my phone and started reading. "For Jake, do you have a crush on Johnnie? Okay wait what the fuck?" I said confused and tried not to laugh. "I do, he's the most hot emo in the world." Me and Tara start laughing like hell. "Of course i am." Johnnie said. "Jake you're gonna end up killing us from laughing so hard, just answer and stop being gay" Tara said still kinda laughing. "Im not gay." Jake said and grabbed the phone.

"This one is for Y/n, do you bring make up with you and every time a bathroom is available you go there and fix it?" Jake asked and Tara started to get annoyed. " You guys aren't picking Risky questions cmon, in my turn imma pick a very risky one"

I giggled at Tara's words. "I do, I can't be seen without make up, not even in the beach or pool, that's why my make up is waterproof" Tara quickly grabbed the phone and started looking for a good question, after some time she found one.

"Okay this one is for Johnnie, did you ever have a dream where you made out or fucked one of us here?" Johnnie looked down in defeat and started to move his hand towards the bottle and the glass. "Im just gonna drink this thing here." We all started to tease him and Jake started saying it was me, Tara agreeing.

•

After some questions we were all very drunk, and decided to end the video. "Im going outside for a smoke" i said leaving for the backyard of the house and grabbed a cigarette lighting it up, after some minutes i see Johnnie opening the door to the backyard and coming at my direction.

"Hey" he said kinda drunk, not much though he answered almost everything, i in the other hand am very drunk, i seriously don't know how am i standing rn. "Hi Johnnie, need something?"

"Not really, i just wanted to tell you that it was cool to be having you around, i liked meeting you" i smiled and finished my cigarette (she put the cigarette in those thingy to put it idk the name)

"It is nice to have you around too, thank you." I looked at him and he looked and me, i started to feel butterflies on my stomach, i was confused to why but didn't dare to look away. After some seconds just looking at eachother noticed him getting closer to me and his hand grabbed my chin pulling me closer.

He pressed his lips on mine and grabbed me by the waist. I put my arms around him and suddenly, this simple kiss turned into a make out. He grabbed me and pulled me up to carry me to his bedroom. I put my legs around his waist, still making out and taking breaks to breath.

As we went inside Tara and Jake were sleeping in the couch. We didn't care much about it and went to his room. He opened the door with one hand And put me in the bed. He walked off me and went in the doors direction to lock it.

He then walked back to me and went on top of me. Slowly trailing kissed down my neck. "Are you sure about this? We met a month ago." He said looking up trying to find permission to keep going.

"I am, please Johnnie keep going..." I said pleading for his touch. He moved down to my neck again and started making hickey's and kissing it....

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A/n: i had this idea in the middle of the nothing, i hope you liked and please if you did vote! Imma do a part.2 later! Love you guys!!

Questions: -how was your day? Id love to hear about it! -what is you dream trip? -whats yout favourite hit me hard and soft song?

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[sturniolowhore]

Party help

Pairing: bf!jake x artist!reader

Summary: Jake and his roommates were throwing a Halloween party, and he needs your help going his makeup for his party.

Warnings: none!

a/n: Dividers by @issysh3ll. I don’t want anyone to copy my work or use it as “inspiration.”

Jake was in his bathroom getting ready to do his makeup for his party he was throwing.

“Okay guys so I fucking hate doing my makeup for Halloween I feel like I’m going to mess it up.” He says talking to the camera. “I’ve also always wanted to do a get ready with me so I guess this is my Halloween get ready with me.” He says smiling.

“Jake! Have you seen my—“ your sentence gets cut off when you walk into his bathroom and see him recording. “Oh hey guys! You greet the camera and smile. “I didn’t know you were recording.”

“Um yeah I am. Can you help me do my makeup please baby?” He says. His fans knew he had a girlfriend and most of them liked you, but there were still some fans that didn’t like you, no matter what you did. Jake tried to hide you from most of the world, he didn't want fans to hate on you for no reason. He loved you, and would do anything to protect you.

"Yeah, I can help." You say. You were an artist, so of course you could do Jake's makeup. You grab some of the white paint and water it down, making sure not to make him too white.

You let that dry while you fixed your own costume, and then did the red swirls. You were concentrated, as you took the brush off his cheek to go to the next one. You did the red swirl on the next one, and lifted the brush of his skin.

"There, done." You say, putting the paint away and washing the brush.

"Thanks, your the best baby." He says, watching you. You turn around and Jake captures you lips in a kiss. You were taken aback, but still enjoyed it, soon melting into the kiss. You suddenly pull away, remembering that he was still recording.

"What happened?" He asks.

"Jake, your still recording." You say, pointing to the camera.

"I'll cut it out when I edit it." He says, gripping your waist. "I love you baby, and honestly everyone knows that we are dating, and when you date someone, your expected to kiss."

"Yeah, your right." You say, and put your lips on his.

🏷️: @brookheartsmatt @strnilolover @slutf4rmatt @charlottee3

[megameatymatt]

Cookies and Cuts - Jake Webber

summary: Jake find's out about Y/N sh

WARNINGS: swearing, SH (self h@rm), Mentions of blood, Mentions of blades, crying, Mentions of su!c!de, angst, panic attack, overthinking??, mention of death, fem!reader.

requested: yup! right here

word count: 1,029

A/N: Feedback, interaction, and requests are appreciated! stay slutty ok bye💋

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pink: y/n

red: Jake webber

9:45pm

"Did you buy the chocolate chips?" You say walking into Jake's kitchen. "How could I forget the chocolate chips?" he says taking a bowl out of the cabinet.

Jake had invited you to his place to make cookies while Johnnie and Carrington were out doing whatever the fuck they were doing. You and Jake have been dating for the past 4 and a half months now.

But no matter how many times he's said he loves you, you're always too scared to get close to him. scared that he might find out about the cuts on your arms, thighs, and anywhere else. You've never brought it up to anyone. Not Jake, not Carrington, nobody.

You hated your scars, they made you feel ugly. but you couldn't stop. cutting became somewhat of an addiction, Your only way to cope. It started with just a way to deal with stress, but now, even a minor inconvenience could send you back to the blades, the blood, and the bandages.

Sometimes, you would look at other girls and wish you could swap bodies. You'd take their clean arms and thighs, and you could give them yours. At least they'd have enough confidence to show their scars and not hide under hoodies and long pants.

"Brown sugar?" you say scrolling on your phone as you read through the recipe. "Yup, up here". He walks over and swings the cabinet door open. As you raise your hand up to reach for the sugar, your sleeve rolls up a bit.

You quickly grab the sugar and put your arm back down. But it was too late, Jake had already seen the red cuts that drew across your wrist. You weren't completely sure if he saw it or not, but you avoided his gaze, hoping he wouldn't say anything.

And he didn't. He watches you grab milk from the fridge. As you finally set everything up on the table you gain the courage to finally face Jake. He's still by the cabinet, frozen. "Jake? Are you okay?" You already know what he saw, but you're still trying to play it off.

"Uhm, yeah. I'm fine, just zoned out" He's lying through his teeth. You're not mad he tried to brush it off, you're just scared he won't love you anymore. "Great, let's make cookies!" you say forcing your face into a smile. He smiles back, but his mind is elsewhere, you take a deep breath and start prepping the ingredients.

11:27pm

"I still can't believe you burnt a whole tray of cookies, what a waste!" You say climbing into Jake's bed. "I was a bit distracted okay?" he says pulling the sheets over the two of you. "Yeah, whatever." You say, rolling your eyes.

You've been trying to ignore the situation, but it's been hard. He just went silent, he wasn't cracking jokes or being stupid, he was too scared to even get close to you. You wanted to curl up in a ball and die. You couldn't take it anymore

You pull out your phone and scroll through Instagram. "Hey Y/N?" You turn to face him, His head down fidgeting with his fingers. Then he looks up. "A-, are you okay?" He says staring into your eyes. Your heart drops into your stomach. "Yeah, Yeah i-im good" "You sure?" "Yeah, why are you asking?" He reaches for your arm and rolls your sleeve up to your elbow. His eyes grow wide when he sees your scars, Old and new scattered across your forearm. You quickly snatch your arm away from him and your gaze falls into your lap. Tears threaten to roll down your cheeks and your hands start shaking.

I Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. He hates me. What am i doing here? He can't love a girl like me. Why am I like this?

You drown in your thoughts for what feels like forever, then you hear his voice. "Why?" He sounds like he's holding back tears, his voice cracking. But you can't look at him, you don't want to see what you've done, how you've hurt him. You quickly shake your head, tears streaming down your cheeks. You don't know what to say, where you should start, or if you should even speak at all. Your breathing starts getting faster and he quickly shuffles beside you and holds you. "It's okay, you're fine, just breathe Y/N. In and out, you'll be fine, you'll be just fine"

12:35pm

You've been calm for a while now, but you still haven't said a word. Neither has Jake, he just sat there, pressing your back against his chest. "Why'd you do it? Cause of me? How can I help you get better?" You only knew the answer to one of those questions "No, never because of you. I love you" You choke out. "So what, why'd you do it." He keeps asking you "why", but not even you know the answer to that question. "I don- I don't know, Jake."

You want to cry again, but you hold back. "I-I guess it was a-a way of coping? With l-like stress, and my thoughts." Jake's crying again but you can't bring yourself to look at him. "What are your 'thoughts'?" he says wiping tears off his cheeks. What aren't your thoughts? You shrug your shoulders and Jake asks another question.

"Why'd you never tell me? Have you ever tried to, um, attempt?" Jake struggled and hesitated to get his question out. You knew you didn't have to answer it if you didn't want to. But you did answer it. Talking about it out loud to someone was starting to help you piece your thoughts together. "Scared" you reply bluntly.

"Scared to die? or scared to tell me?" You choke up, failing to hold back your tears. "B-both". He slowly nods to himself trying to understand.

"Do you still wanna talk about this?" He asks worried he might be making you uncomfortable. "Do you wanna know anything else?" you say. "Will you quit?" The question immediately brings you to tears. "It's ok baby, I'm here for you. You're not alone. I wanna help you, i still love you."

tags: @zumarockkkkkkkkk @loveyouuuuuuuuuuuu1 @sturnobsessedwh0re

[tofusoon]

guys i just realized we should draw our fav characters or ocs like this…

[bradywtf]

johnnie and sugar

sugar and his uncle

[enha-stan]

NOW JAKE AND TARA BROKE UP TOO , LIKE WHATT 😭😭😭 MAN I DID NOT EXPECT THAT

[chocotacoshawtybae]

‼️NOT MY EDIT‼️

i love her😻😻🎀🎀