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Episode 20: Spiral (Continuation). Back to square one. The sea of despair. Where all of my hopes and dreams are forced to rest. Consumed by self-hatred I lash out when people least expect it. To prevent that I autopilot through the day without paying any attention to anyone else. I'll disappear for days at a time. It's not healthy. Working on snapping out of it faster, then I'll work on never letting it happen again. #Depression #BegoneMonsters #MrOPOIsOkay #IWillBeOkay #NoLongerHiding #Artwork #Comic #ArtistsOfInstagram #OriginalArtwork #OriginalSeries #IWontGiveUpOnMe #ImBetterThanThis #WeAllHaveBadDays #ImStillNotOkay #ThisWillPass #StopShuttingPeopleOut #IDontWantPeopleToSeeHowMuchIHurt (at Toronto, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-PoIgXHmDE/?igshid=qcdv4i67y2x2

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I appreciate the people that have been they with me on my journey. Being an entrepreneur can be rough at times, but this lady and her husband have always supported my wife and me as we continue to grow. Thank you for being a F.R.I.E.N.D. . . . #Poet #angel #FRIEND #supportlocalbusiness #veteranssupportingveterans #thankyou #theraputicrelease #VOLUME1 📖 #bookclub #amazondeals #amazonfinds #inspireme #breakthecycle #NoMore #enddomesticviolence❤️🙏🏽 #prayingforchange🙏🙏 #protectourblackmen #protectyourpeace #protectourchildern #iwontgiveuponme #imatter #mentalhealthawareness #instapoetry #lovepoetry❤️💛💚💙💜❣💕💞💓💟💝💘💖💗💔 #poetryislife🔥📓✒️ #poetryofinstagram #streetpoetry #spokenwordpoetry #slampoetry (at Earth Angels Holistic Health L.L.C.) https://www.instagram.com/p/CPfxWojhsRl/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Edit: Why is this so hard, you guys? I don't want to be a whiner, I know everyone is going through the same struggles. I just want to stop self sabotaging. I always do really well for a stint, and then start moving backwards. How can I make this stop? My mom is a weight watcher too. Sometimes I think she is way too strict on her self and goes too far the other direction when it comes to her weight loss. She has been at goal for 6 years or so. But she never allows herself to splurge. She doesn't eat bread. She tells me that things that I'm eating have way too many points in them and she would never eat them. But up until yesterday, I have been staying within my daily points and consistently losing weight. I feel like she expects perfection from me and wants me to be as strict with my plan as she is with hers. But I'm not her and I don't want to deprive myself of foods I love. I know she means well and I love her so much, but still feel like I'm not good enough or perfect enough. How is it that I'm 50 years old and still feel like I have to please my mother??? I'm an only child born on my mom's 21st birthday with a slight case of cerebral palsy. We have always been super close, and I know we would both do anything for each other. But I need to break free from this feeling that I'm not good enough for her. Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on. Time for some good sleep. Night all!! I knew this was coming. I feel myself losing control and I'm afraid of what will happen. I've been in this place many times before. In the past, I would severely punish myself by mentally beating myself into a corner, making myself feel totally worthless. I don't think I realized it until now, but I believe I suffered from depression. I have come so far I the past 2 1/2 months. I do not want to be perfect. I want to be my healthiest self. I don't want to forever deny myself the pleasure that eating delicious ooey-gooey desserts brings. I want to be able to just eat a small amount of these foods and be able to walk away. Not lose control and gorge myself. I believe I can get there. I don't want to undo the 16 pound loss that I've worked so hard for over these past ten weeks. I know that I can do this. I will come out on the other side stronger and wiser than before. I always do. But, this time, I'm not going to belittle myself, or make myself feel worthless. I am a strong woman and I deserve to succeed. I would appreciate your prayers, well-wishes, good ju-ju or whatever good vibes and advice you care to send my way. I know I am not alone in this fight. It just feels that way sometimes. But I have all of you. And I know I can do this with your support. #continueon #prayersneeded #prayers #staystrong #keepgoing #bettertogether #iwontquit #iwontgiveup #iwontgiveuponme #iwontgiveuponmyself #icandothis #icanandiwill #icanandiwilldothis #pleasehelp #pleasetellmeimnotalone

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I'm sorry MY shitty day is hurting you...again. Please know this is always true. #imsorry #iloveyou #always #ijustwantthingsback #backtothewaytheywere #beforeeverythingchanged #dontgiveuponme #iwontgiveuponme

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