#ive set that as long as they at least. play music. i wont get new ones.

[autism-corner]

guy is so so brave

[fictionfixations]

part 2 of the new book 7 update cause i have more mystium

spoilers of course part 1

part 3 the final part

the way i just got the widest smile at this

anyway i forgot to mention it last post but knowing that they were just kinda left alone while everyone went to nrc makes me really sad. like first silver and sebek without lilia and malleus (they have sebbies family tho)

and then silver left next year. sebek all alone. he has his family still but like. man. gone for a year.

and in that time he was alone he got his signature spell and worked hard on it not wanting any of them to know about it until he got better at it, but it also meant that they never knew he could do that because they werent there and im just sad :( and it sometimes makes me wish at least silver and sebek were the same age so they couldve gone the same year and sebek didnt have to be without their company for so long

fshuidf i clicked past it like a dumbass but heres anther instance of baur saying he'll swallow them whole similar to sebek's battle start line

going to cry now because what the fuck 100k hp i hate myself my strongest units are really low hp BEAT THEIR ASS GEN LILIA oh my god they do so much damage im going to cry good news is i dont think theres another battle after this so this is.. fine.

and this time i didnt head straight to it and miss all the buffs from like the camps and stuff 💀 also i actually have more built cards this time before this i only had like one other casualty, that being the dorm sebek they give you (i only managed to have him duo off of gen lilia once and then i never got the spells to line up after that and then he died). so now its my whole team + dorm sebek thanking myself for leveling the spells of the other riddles i got that i did for no reason other then cause i like riddle (no intention of actually using them considering i already have a perfectly fine dorm riddle) LMFAO also thank battlemap for letting you bring a shit ton of characters. i havent used epel in forever 😭(rook is also VERY underleveled lmfao)

also im a dumbass i kept using the healing spells first turn.. ..but it didnt even do anything because i need to take damage first so its like. why did i do that. did i think id get my health lost in a previous battle back..?????

😱

aww the sparkles bruhs accomplished his lifes dream and i am here for it 👍

NOO GUYS LISTEN TO HIMM

he gave us his cloak 🥺

know i said id set my homescreen to sebek but... this feels more fitting

i wish that you didnt have to complete a book to get the backgrounds. i want my book 7 backgrounds with the music :(((

like i want. the the the. yknow when silver is confident in lilias love for him again and in the background you hear like i think once upon a dream? or i saw a prince(?? idk the other name for it its just what ive heard) and i. i want that. it also played when we see the dawn knight in the the the area where you travel across dreams where he smiled and then faded away

i dont have lilias room so silver will have to do

i need two more mystium aghhhhh the wait is insufferable but since im almost finished im gonna wait before posting

i watched someone go through the story on jp and i just remember stressing out so bad because holy fuck what happened what do we do. like i was feeling that stress of AHH GOTTA GET EGG AWAY and worry over maleanor but now i know what happened so im a little less stressed. im still stressed in the sense of FUCK YOU FUCK YOU BATTLES but like.. im not hanging in suspense anymore

anyway i think im gonna end it after battlemap is finished and do another post for the chapters outside of battlemap. especially because i dont want to hit the image limit. i cant remember if theres another battlemap but i dont THINK there should be.

anyway questioning why im making another post when i ended first post pretty early and couldve edited it? because people whove already seen it wont see it again 💀 and i mean if they wanna see book 7 stuff when the update only happened like 3 hours ago then ok ill show you what i can and make it visible enough for you to notice in the event youve already seen the other post

anyway while im waiting for one more mystium im warning you that if you cried the last update, to prepare to cry again. book 7 is just really sad man.

okay im gonna stop it here on THIS post (i will still be playing) and keep an eye out for part 3 with the rest (assuming theres not more story then i can make images of)

[mejomonster]

Ive been playing the new Alone in the Dark game. 8n progress rn

Thoughts so far:

It's scary in that the atmosphere is on edge, the music and sound works well. It is combat and puzzle, and I's say its a bit more puzzle which i appreciate because for me too much combat in a horror results in either 1. You have to get Less scared in order to handle the constant combat calmly or 2. Youre SO scared and frequently On Edge it can get exhausting to play for too long. (At least when i play horror combat). Theres decently long stretches where you only look for clues to solve puzzles, or only run into 1 monster in 10 minutes, or where you can run into 0 monsters or 5 in 10 minutes depending on if you Sneak or run around recklessly. For me, this allows for some calm down time as a player and keeps up the background tension of fear as you arent sure When a monster will appear and it wont be for a while but it WILL happen so you have to decide when to sneak and check if youre headed towards a monster. I like that it creates this low level tension as you arent sure WHEN youll be scared so you're always a bit on edge, and so the scary bits continue to be High Level tension as they are encountered. It makes it both a lower stress horror game (compared to say The Evil Within thats more frequently scaring you with Big Things) but also still has enough scary to Be Scary (compared to say a slower buildup horror like Until Dawn where only the 2nd half is really a lot of scares). Like... it feels like Fatal Frame but easier to fight monsters when theyre encountered (because im playing on easy). It also feels a bit like Alan Wake, but Alan Wake has SO much combat that i stopped feeling scared, just annoyed when fights of many enemies was difficult. Anyway. Gameplay wise, id say the new Alone in the Dark is good if you: like feeling the tension/anticipation of playing horror games, but would also like the option to have a more calm gameplay experience. The combat has enough time for preparation that you could calmly think out a way to sneak around enemies or kill them, but also charge in for a quick paced risky fight if you want the thrill, with looming low level tension of a nice slightly scary feel in the calmer parts. If you like Tomb Raider type puzzles, it also has a decent chunk of the game dping those, which i personally find relaxing and fun. And thw game lets you avoid enough of the enemies that you really can mostly just relax and do the puzzles at your pace if like me you enjoy doing that part. I also like the difficulty modes: you can have the game give you puzzle hints or NO hints, give less or more information, make combat and enemies harder or easier.

Mixed on the story so far, but i do LIKE that: its not a middle aged married/divorced main guy looking for his wife/love. (Pet peeve of mine how Many horror stories boil down to that). I like that the house is not a typical haunted house, its kind of a mental hospital getaway, its set near New Orleans so theres a lot of sunny visuals and green visuals and location specific writing which make the game feel distinctly different from a generic haunted house story, the setting in the 1930s also makes it feel like playing a historical game (like Red Dead Redemption or Ghost of Tsushima) at times, which is really fun. It feels very fun to be exploring era specific items, historical bits, outfits, places, and the aesthetic again using sunlight and green plants and streetlights for the setting instead of only the usual At-Night Ruined Haunted House horror setting is refreshing and unique feeling. Theres a few parts where it feels like its paying homage to some 1900-1950 set stories, which are cool. The actual story itself im not done with, heard it was written by the Soma writer though and i loved Soma. For now, i can say the writing is offering Somewhat Unique and distinct. It may turn out to be a typical Enough horror plot when im done. But so far its done enough unique things that im really enjoying it. That it really is a Fresh Horror story. You know HOW many horror games are just... haunted old house (pacific northwest or atlantic northeast up north), rich main character (or tourist), lost their wife or partner, on a simple trip (or trapped now). The plot itself is fine even if used a ton, but then not all stories really make that plot uniquely memorable like... why should THIS story's haunting and history be uniquely fascinating? Why should i care about THIS protagonist? Does the setting look unique or like a million other things? (Example: Until Dawn purposely is referencing a lot of horror so its meant to look Like what it references, but it does differentiate itself enough to be memorable: i remember the prank on hannah, 2 dead twin sisters, joshua's therapy sessions, the 1 year anniversary get together, joshuas prank plan, the wendigo, these details make this story feel VASTLY different to say Alan Wake which also starts with people going to a house out in the countryside, or different from Fatal Frame where a sister goes into an old house in the woods looking for her missing brother who was investigating). My point is... setting and setup can be similar sure. But why am i going to Remember this game's story? Whats going to be the unique parts that make me want to play again? So far ive been liking Emily's story in Alone in the Dark, her real and other world levels are memorable, her premise for going there and her own backstory (and dead husband) are an interesting take on a usual premise. So far im guessing ill like it At Least as much as i liked Until Dawn.

[johnnysnostril]

Without You

ivy’s pov

i stared at the exit sign above the door. no one had come in or out for at least a few hours. i rolled my eyes at the stupid music that played through the speakers, throughout the store. the phones were quiet. almost too quiet. i get that it was winter time, but flowers were perfect for any season.

as the bells on the back door rang, i turned around at the front counter and smiled at the owner.

“good afternoon, Mr. Suh.” i smiled. my boss was so awesome. he was a laid back man. always in jeans and tennis shoes, with a smile on his face.

“my ivy.” he chuckled as he shoved his keys in his pockets. “how are things?” he said approaching the counter.

i shrugged and faked a smile.

“it’s quiet, but lots to do.”

he nodded and placed his hands on his hips before looking around the store.

“you keep this place going. thank you for all your hard work. it doesn’t go unnoticed.” he reassured me.

Mr. Suh was a rich man, even though you couldn’t tell by just looking at him. he knew the value of a dollar and was very smart with his money. although that’s all i knew about him, we were very close. he was almost like my second father.

“well, i have a tight schedule. my son is coming in town and we’re having a big family dinner tomorrow.” he said proudly.

“oh, how nice. i hope you have fun.” i said walking him to the front door.

he paused for a moment as he reached for the knob.

“listen, if you need anything-”

“thank you...” i said looking down and instantly pulling at my green apron.

Mr. Suh knew a lot about my personal life. he always cared to ask about me and my family.

he placed his palm on my shoulder and i sighed.

“we’ll have plenty of food. please, call if you need me.”

i simply nodded then watched him exit the store.

later that night

i sat on the roof of the house and clutched onto my jacket, tucking my knees into my chest. as i looked up to the stars, i hooked my teeth into my bottom lip.

i wanted more from this life. i felt like there was so much more than just this. there had to be. i wasn’t sure where god was taking me. i just wanted to know my destination already. 

i slightly jumped from the vibration on my phone. i slipped it out of my pocket and sighed as i read the name.

alonna.

my older sister. the only person who truly understood me.

for some reason, i rejected the call. i just felt like if i heard her voice, i would start crying and she would start picking my life away.

i blinked down at the screen as it vibrated again. this time she texted.

“ hey, sis. you’re probably sleeping but- just wanted to check on you. i’m flying in tomorrow morning from this stupid business trip. i wanna meet for coffee at our old spot. 8am? :) “

i shot my eyes back up to the sky. i should just be honest with alonna. it’s not like she wont understand.

i texted back.

“ of course.. i’ll be there. “

crawling back into my bedroom window, my mom was standing in the doorway. 

“why do you insist on sitting out there? it’s so dangerous, ivy.”

i shrugged and shut the window.

“i like how quiet it is, i guess. what’s up?”

“i’m going out tonight. please make dinner for the kids.” she said dryly.

this wasn’t anything new. she was always going out. she complained how we thought she went out too much. it was true. i wanted my mom to live her life, but at the same time- we needed to take care of things at home. recently, everything just seems to be getting paid by me and her stupid boyfriend wasn’t any help either.

“okay.. have fun..” i mumbled.

there were times where i just wanted to tell my mom about herself. but who was i? i’m a 25 year old woman, living in her house because i couldn’t afford to be on my own. she always told me that i could stay for however long i wanted, but in the same sentence, would tell me that i need to move out. which didn’t make any sense.

walking back over to the window, i watched her and her boyfriend drive away. i rolled my eyes and headed downstairs.

the next day

waking up was always a pain. i rolled over and slammed my alarm clock off the night stand.

“i’m up. shut up already.” i groaned as i tumbled off the mattress. dragging myself into the bathroom, i rushed to get ready for my mini meeting with alonna. 

ivy’s outfit:

looking down at my watch, i noticed that i was running late. i hated being late to anything.

as i made my way downstairs, i kissed my brother and sister on the head.

“i’ll be back guys.” i said rushing to the door.

“where are you going, iv?” my brother asked.

“to see alonna. i’m bringing her back here.” i smiled back at them. my sister waved and i chuckled as my brother slipped his headphones back onto his ears.

at the coffee cafe

walking into the shop, i smiled at the smell. the smell of coffee hits differently on a saturday morning. 

“IVY!” alonna shouted as she noticed me. 

i quickly ran over to her and embraced her tightly.

“oh my god, i missed you.” i mumbled into her shoulder. 

i almost wanted to cry. it felt so good to see her again.

“i can’t believe that we can’t even be away from each other for a few weeks without getting emotional.” she said crying.

of course, that made me cry too.

i laughed and pulled out of the hug.

“sit. tell me what i missed.” alonna wiped her tears and laughed.

“you look cute. i love this outfit.” she said wagging her finger at me. 

“trying to catch you a husband i see.” 

i rolled my eyes at her comment.

“yeah right. i can’t even get a boy to text me back.”

her eyes lit up as she had an immediate thought.

“you know what. i think i can play match maker for you. i met this tall handsome piece while i was at the airport with my manager. i think he’s perfect for you. although, i don’t know a lot about him, he seems like a sweetheart” 

alonna quickly pulled out her phone and whipped out a picture of him.

“woah. they look like tourist” i laughed. “which one is he?”

alonna zoomed into the one in the jean jacket.

“i can’t remember his name. but they asked my manager for a picture or whatever, cause they recognized him. he was really nice and spoke good english.” she laughed.

i furrowed my brows.

“why wouldn’t he?” i asked.

“i guess they’re from korea?” she shrugged. “we exchanged numbers though, cause they have good connections out there and i could defiantly use that for work. you know, get my foot in the door.”

“how are you going to set us up, if you don’t even know his name? how did you even get his number, silly?”

alonna locked her phone and set it on the table then went through her purse. 

“he wrote it on a napkin for me, somewhere in this thing.” she threw a few things around in her bag before pulling out a brown napkin.

“ah ha!” she laughed. “johnny.” alonna squinted at the paper. “his name is johnny.”

[yoon-kooks]

writing tag ✏️

tagged by @tbtssstuff thanks!!💖

this got a little long so ill put the ten questions under the keep reading!

1. What is your ideal setting for focusing on your writing?

zero distractions from my family/pets. these days either my mom or brother are always popping into my room at random times, so it’s v hard to focus without worrying about switching tabs when they enter :/ i typically write without music playing in the background, but sometimes i like to jam out while writing if it fits the mood of the fic!

2. What’s your favorite genre to write?

FLUFF. it’s def the most natural for me to write, but id love if i were better at writing angst too. in terms of AUs, i really like fwb or f2l. idk tbh ive always valued solid friendships over flaky relationships but thats just me 🤪

3. Do you prefer to write on paper or digitally?

it’s faster and more convenient to type lmfao. tho im curious to know how writers do it by hand. im the type who constantly deletes/moves things around, and thats extremely hard to do by hand...... otherwise itd be fun to handwrite it.

4. It’s in the middle of the night and you suddenly wake up with an idea. What do you do?

type it into the notes on my phone as much as possible. then go back to sleep. 

5. Who is your favorite person to write about?

does this mean like a person person, or like a kind of person? if it’s a person person, i like writing about a boy named min yoongi. if it’s a kind of person, i prefer to write about ppl with layers and secrets,,, people who need time to open up.

6. Do you like making your own characters, or do you usually write about real people?

both i guess? fanfic is a mix where you use the names of pop culture icons but make them into your own characters,,,,,, so both lol. also i just love making a strong y/n character.

7. Have you ever written a book/story with more than 15 chapters (100k words)

my old jimin fanfic, lie, was 18 short chapters but nowhere near 100k words LOL my series tend to be more on the shorter side. like signed in black was around 21k for 7 chapters. witch hazel is still ongoing with 20k and it most likely wont exceed 50k.

8. How often do you get ideas?

i when i was in high school / college, i used to get ideas all the time! these days i feel like i need to be inspired by something like a song, other media, or incidents that happen to me irl. id say recently, new ideas come to me maybe once a week or less.

9. Do you ever get an idea that you really like, but can’t seem to finish?

LMFAO story of my life. i have a very long list of story ideas stored on this comp but yall will never be able to read most of them bc i dont have time to write ALL of them :/ maybe one day ill spill some of ideas that ill never write!

10. What’s your least favorite plot?

highkey not calling out anyones fave tropes but personally i avoid certain AUs like ones involving stalkers, killers, diseases, or yandere if it’s meant to be a romance fic. i feel like there are more but you guys get the idea. i also dont like when the reader character is just ditzy or too naive or whatever (and i know im guilty of writing some fics like this in the past). it’s something thats super common in shojo manga, which i used to love reading,,,,, but now im just over it. bc imo a heroine should have her flaws but not outright tripping over her face and constantly being saved by the love interest. OH THAT TOO. i *greatly* dislike when the heroine has to be saved by the love interest. i get that a lot of ppl are suckers for that kind of stuff, but i lean more toward a heroine who can hold her own!

tagging any fellow writer who listened to my rant at the end LOL

[onepunchmiss]

OPM s2e3 Live Blog

“The Hunt Begins”

Ok I had 3 screenshots leaked to me before seeing the episode, but only one of them was spoiler-y in that I wasn’t sure if we’d get that far in the episode. And of course not only did I not leave work early, but had to stay an hour late. So without further delay, I’m hoppin to it. Reminder, I’m watching each episode as someone who is caught up with both the manga and web comic.

Alright, off the bat we’re getting the Charanko expulsion over with. I wasn’t expecting that, but it makes sense- it’s a good hook to lead with and set up the Garou issue before actually getting into Garou destroying everyone.

BTW I am Still not over the opening theme- nope it still gets me both visually and musically. (I definitely was not listening to the song on repeat at work all day. nope. what kind of nerd would do that definitely not me hahaaaaaa)

I like that Charanko doesn’t bat an eye that The Worlds Strongest Man King is there, or Blizzard of Hell, he’s just like ‘ah they’re multiplying.’ Fuckin kek. Saitama oh sweetheart, “Silver Fang” may be cool but to us you’ll always be the One Punch Man oh dear my heart

oh OH YES Guys you have no idea how excited I am for this fight?? I know Tank Top Master isn’t really popular but like I’m a gym rat so I’ve got a soft spot for him and Superalloy. Guys, in the databook his favorite things are chicken breasts and protein. Also I mean hes actually a decent guy too, but----- Anyway, wasn’t too hard finding Garou, was it Charanko?

Oh, oh right. Let me clarify I’m excited to see TTM get some screen time. Also to watch trash son (aka Garou) kick some ass. I’m, I’m not excited about him kicking Mumen’s ass specifically. This is gonna hurt.

(garou scary face)

His faces literally make me shout WOAH at my screen ok thanks scary trash son. Ah, lookit the tanktopper army!! Fukkin Tank Top Mask is there to I’m- yes, just yes.

YES. MY BRO MY MAN KICK SOME ASS. Garou’s little ‘nani??’ omfg perfect.WAIT the little ‘haha~~’ THAT was perfect. I also need to point out here that in the manga Garou has a lot of crazy faces, like his expressions are very extra, (another way he’s a foil to Saitama, hah) but seeing them actually in motion speaking is borderline uncanny valley? They’ve creeped me out twice already and he’s been on screen for like 20 seconds? I mean i guess he IS going for the scary-monster thing, so uh, good job u freeky trash man you.

Oh, Tiger and Black Hole, I only missed you a little bit.

BOMB. ITS BOMB. YES. AAAHHH. I MEAN I KNEW HE WAS GOING TO SHOW UP IN THE EPISODE BUT IM STILL? HYPED??

Man the Garou music is really intense, holy shit. If I’m not mistaken something at least similar played when he was fighting at the HQ last episode. Honestly, I hope it’s not gonna be this sounding track every time garou gets in a fight. Cause, y’know, ge gets in a lot of those. It’s only been twice now and it’s still during establishing character moments so it passes, but I really really hope they switch it up or it will lose it’s epic feel.

Oh, there he goes with his creepy faces.

FUCK Mumen You FOOL. Also, how did you take that hit so well??? Tiger and Black hole are right for once. Oh you fools. Oh you fools. Stop it’s gonna get worse. ITS GONNA GET WORSE stOP TalKInG

Wait did Garou actually fake walk away in the manga?? I don’t remember that??? Gotta double check myself there cause that threw me off like? Garou??

Garou: 50% Uncanney Faces, 50% Badass

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand back to the freeky faces. Also, TTM’s “KUSO!!”

oh.

oh god.

The sound as he repeatedly bashes Mumen’s skull into the concrete. REPEATEDLY. my stomach. This fight is a rollercoaster of hype and pain oh no

Here have this screnecap so you can suffer, too

I must say, watching Garou fight otherwise is an absolute joy. The rest of this scene was so dynamic. I loved the way just glided through everyone and bounced around so fluidly. Keeping the water stream fist throughout it was also visually really pleasing. I need more. Give me more Garou fights, this is AMAZING. And that put us about half way through the episode like I predicted, which means I have no idea at what scene the episode will end.

“He’s here” Oh that was funny. Was that filler? I dont remember that either good shit good shit

YES IT THE 

B A N A N A T I M E  

TTM: “At least say I put up a good fight!!” Oh sweetheart I love you and appreciate you you did great

OH MY FUCK OH MY GOD OH FUCK GOOD OH FUCK SHIT FUCK

Oh shit that was a cool gag, how the newspaper flew past and garou just appeared. also. The most beautiful friendship is about to start and oh my god I’m so excited. Ok really I won’t lie- I would have been SCREAMING at Tareo on the screen if the didn’t just lead with Zombieman’s face in the catalog. I live for that pout. And his eyebrow is quirked like the heck u lookin at just. F. I’ve exhausted all my energy screaming at that. I’m so sorry.

Wait wait they still showed the side of his face again guys I’ve got it so bad for that 2D man help

I’ve waited so long for this scene. OH MY FUCK the little leg bob guys someone gif it NOW.  I love both of them so much. Also, Tareo’s voice is adorable. Watching that kid go through some shit is gonna be heart wrenching. FFF Anyway, it looks like we are getting GoldenBall and Spring Mustachio this episode? I was torn either way if we’d see that much. huh.

Oohhh Shit Sea King and Melzalgald! Wassup flashbacks?? Oh my gosh Saitama looks so excited I think thats the happiest we’ve seen him in a long time? No wonder he takes an interest in martial arts! AH! The ticket! The ticket! The tournament ticket!! I know a bunch of people considered the tournament filler and found it annoying, but I’m so excited for it!! Like, it seriously gave me a whole new respect for Lightning Max and Snek, I can’t wait to see those boys get the spotlight for a second again!

OMFG What is this jiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-- wtf I am Cackling?? Oh my fuck its still going this is Peak Comedy 

AH! I missed them! And I wish the screen wasn’t so dark, but otherwise SEE WHAT I MEAN? Shit watching Garou move is fun as hell, even if he’s barely moving. Also, is that legit bullet fire sound effects? I also love that those two get drinks together regularly enough that Spring knew something was up when GB wasn’t there. So good so good.

Garou: “Ding ding ding”          Me: glorious you bastard

Question, what the fuck is that sword made of that it shoots rainbows for miles? Is it the power of gay? I mean I personally don’t ship Spring and GB buuuuuuuuuuuuuut…………………………….

OH IM SO DISAPPOINTED GAROU DIDNT JUST FLIP US ALL OFF JUST A THUMBS DOWN CMON I WAS EXCITED FOR THAT I FEEL RIPPED OFF. Also there’s that music again, but it didn’t play the whole time thank goodness.

“Here comes the fan service to your screen” amirite?

Eh at least I got the satisfaction of watching the sleezeball get decked in the face. The brunette’s face when he asked for a kiss on the cheek is SUCH  a MOOD. And oh fuck the ‘relax its for peace” Those two girls are the real stars of this episode I love them.

Obligatory “YES”ing at the screen rn hold on

OH FUCK GAROUS REACTION IS PRICELESS

Hey wait. HEY WAIT ARE THEY GONNA SHOW MY TRASH SON WAKING UP IN THE TRASH WHERE HE BELONGS??? THAT’S VERY IMPORTANT VERY

THE POST CREDIT SCENE. Genos I love you never change. Just. look at this precious boy. And the voice acting is perfect. I’m glad they ended on a humorous note this time. Gold.

IN SUMMARY: I honestly don’t feel like I have much to say or reflect on. I just really loved this episode. Favorite one yet. I mean of course I’m going to like it more as the story kicks the fuck up, but I genuinely had zero complaints, and actively enjoyed watching the animation.

Warning for next week btw, I’m going to be out of the country and also not really near civilization, so I probably won’t have wifi, so theres a good chance I wont be able to blog next week’s episode till I get back. Which I’m actually pissed about. because 

WE ARE GOING TO GET TO SEE METAL BAE KICK SOME MONSTER ASS AND IVE WAITED SO MANY YEARS TO SEE HIS STUPID DELINQUENT FACE IN ACTION FUCK MY TIMING MAN IM BOTH EXCITED AND PISSED of all the weeks I had to live in the wilderness UHG. Bet your ass I’m going to TRY MY DAMNDEST  to get internet next Tuesday.

I’ll hopefully see yall next week, thanks for reading!

[guild-guardian]

Spoiler Free review of “All or Nothing”

After a cut because long post, many words, skritt math. 

The Story (No details)

Overall it's probably one of the best executed episodes worth of story that they’ve released in the last couple of Seasons. 

The Final Battle is more akin to the kind of scale you see in the Zorah Magdaros battle in Monster Hunter World than you’d expect to find in GW2, and that was a huge improvement compared to previous Elder Dragon battles. Having an active role in the battle, along with the NPCs not just “swinging their sword Oh look they swung it again” at trash mobs, and actually being useful- firing siege weapons, fighting mobs, picking you up if you get downed

So many call backs to minor named NPCs- some personal early personal story, and others from pact/priory/vigil etc It lead to a feeling of being surrounded by familiar faces as you lead the charge.  The short piece after the battle was also a well designed experience- the lack of UI and the “damage” lines that you felt when Balthazar killed you in PoF, further push the “oh fuck we’re pretty badly wounded”, along with the forced walk/limp and fall to our knees when we try to hop down along the uneven floor. The main character’s animation here was excellent and slow pace allowed Anet to sculpt a tightly designed experience that is as shocking as it is memorable. I won’t forget that last visual.

Brandon Bales and Debi Derryberry probably did the best voice work in this episode (imo- I haven't played it through on a non-sylvari male). It was extremely immersive and I totally bought what was happening as they expressed it.  I appreciated that the Zephyrites’ song/choir got further development, and how its relevant to the story just made it a really nice touch overall. 

I did think it felt very short- only 3 instances. It may be that they pushed the pacing to emphasise the commander rushing headlong and gambling dangerously on the first ideas that come to them, and they do love a cliffhanger at the end.  It ends on a flat note though, you can’t even interact with story NPCs after you finish it- nothing in the shiverpeaks map changes, no dialogue no “I’m just checking in” updates, nothing.  Final Note: WHERE ARE KASMEER AND MARJORY 

The Map

Huge! Ruins! Subterranean structures! Exploring! Absolutely nailed the Guild Wars 1 Shiverpeak atmosphere.but uh...not much to do past that. 

The Thunderhead Keep meta is fun- I love defense events that allow us to set traps, build barricades and ballistae. The Boss is TOO BRIGHT. It is impossible to see even with effects turned down and post processing off. Anet needs to reassess their priorities with visual telegraphing because right now you can’t see a thing, never mind reacting to the thing. 

Minor Quibble. UH WHERE DID THAT CLIFF AND PIT COME FROM? I’m pretty sure that the mountains just...continued north of the keep in GW1, and a little further north you’d come to the Mursaat teleporter to Hell’s Precipice. 

The dredge meta is...hard to get people to defend the 2nd and 3rd drills- I’ve yet to be successful on this one. 

The delay between meta active times feels a bit long, and perhaps its just the layout of this one, but there isn’t much notification if North or south meta is happening/how long until X etc. 

I don’t like that Map Completion can’t be soloed- Both metas are required. Unless you find a friendly mesmer or buy the Light of Deldrimor from the TP. 

Past the Metas, I’ve seen maybe 5 or 6 events tops on this huge environment. That is pretty woeful. I get that this was probably a high budget episode with two cutscenes, unique character animations and PvE environments built to scale with the GW1 counterparts (why did dwarves build so big anyway?), but the overall quiet map is a bit of a let down- considering the variety of content available in Jahai.

I adore the skritt/priory interactions, and an above ground village of Dredge being shown in in a positive light. Even if literally every member of the survivors has had to kill their friends and family with their own hands. 

The Mastery 

Heavily Situational and will take some getting used to. It doesn’t have that immediate “Good Feel” as mounting your griffon midair or while gliding. Being “animation locked” for most of the launch prevents you from gliding or re-mounting, so you just plummet for the most part and lose out on any air you might have hoped to gain from using it. 

At least we can be thankful it wasn’t required to complete the story or meta.

The Fractal

Dreams: Crushed Hopes: Sundered Orr: Ignored.  Instead of picking an interesting pirate/corsair character that could use a bit of story development, they go with the boisterous ghost from the Lion’s Arch Jumping Puzzle. 

This fractal is short (at T1- it’ll likely have more complexity as you go up) and very sparse on story. The music is good, and the environment is good. Dessa continues to be the shining star of most fractals with her responses to the situations she gets to observe.  Probably won't be the new Challenge mode fractal that people were hoping for, but the fight mechanics are fun and different. 

I’d appreciate it if Anet could relinquish their choke grip they’ve had on talk like a pirate day 2012 that seems to permeate all of their pirate related content- it always feels kind of like even the characters themselves don’t take themselves seriously. There's just something pretty wack with them.  (and I’m not talking about all the landlocked core game pirates just living in lakes barely big enough for their bases) That’s Enough. 

The Legendary

Probably one of the nicest they’ve done in a while. Initially I was put off by it- the official preview of it in the reveal trailer didn’t really show it off very well- not the steps, aura or on-draw effect. However on this video from someone who got it before release, they point out a few things about it that really sell it for me.

I love the scorch mark on draw, with the dubstep twangs the most. A little disappointed that Range LB 5 is unaffected- it could have been very pretty (ie spirit bow active visuals).   It's a very refined weapon that will certainly suit a lot more characters than Kudzu, and I’ll probably make it after I finish Ipos. In like a year.

The Music

Knocks itself out of the park in a home run touchdown or however sports works. The choral piece for Aurene is very beautiful, and I especially appreciate the tarir motif used towards to the end of the track.  Re-used GW1 themes in the map give a very nostalgic feel, and the fractal has a unique Shanty theme, along with what was used for this year’s Festival of the Four winds. 

OVERALL SCORE 7.5/10

The story is moving and immersive, the encounters well designed and well executed, however sparse event placement on the map kinda gets :/ from me. 

Fractals continuing a trend of “we can do anything in the history of tyria- but lets focus on the boring parts” is also disappointing. 

PS. The .5 comes from the Skritt writing and voice acting.  So pure and wholesome. 

[khadij-al-kubra]

Useless

Fandom: Thomas Sanders/Sanders Sides

Pairing: Belial/Emile (can be seen as romantic or platonic) 

Characters: Belial, Emile, Virgil, Thomas.

Author’s Note: This fanfic oneshot is based off of the wonderful “Illumination AU” created by @altruistic-skittles. The story itself is my own original idea, but the concept of soulmarks, the characters, and world writhing are her territory. So kindly go read her work as well. Seriously, it’s awesome. Hope you enjoy my story and as always feel free to leave a comment in the messages or reply if you have any notes or constructive critiques. I’m always open to writing advice.

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Belial stifled a yawn as he walked over the the Heart & Soul Cafe. You’d think he’d be used to these 8am Tuesday therapy sessions by now, but it had been a late night performing his tricks and he didn’t sleep so great in general. At least the money he’d made was pretty good. He was really starting to get some popularity for his magic tricks.

No doubt Emile, his therapist and apparent soulmate (another thing he still wasn’t used to), would be chipper as ever. Sometimes he wondered if the man wasn’t actually a cartoon character come to life. Still, Belial supposed he shouldn’t complain. Dr. Emile Picani was good at his job, He could even handle a hopeless case like him. Now Belial had progressed to only sometimes lying compulsively. ‘What a real improvement’ he thought as he walked through the doors of the cafe.

“Oh great,” groaned the familiar voice of his ex from behind the coffee counter.

“Always a pleasure seeing you too Virgil,” he said, venomous sarcasm dripping from his tongue. “Are those new bags under your eyes?”

Virgil responded with a growl and a glare combo. He only eased up when Thomas placed a hand on his shoulder.

“Easy Virge, he’s not worth it,” said Thomas.

Belial smirked and headed to the corner office at the back. ‘Not worth it.’ Of course he wasn’t . Belial was never worth it to anyone. But he hated to admit how much it stung to see Virgil, someone he once loved, relying on someone other than him. Not to mention Virgil now had three soulmates . Three! Well, at least Belial could say he (by some miracle) had a soulmate of his own, platonic or otherwise. The jury was still out (not that he cared). A fact he still couldn’t wrap his head around. Emile was the complete opposite of him. Good and honest in all the ways he wasn’t. And sure, it was clear from their sessions how the doctor would be someone Belial was destined to rely on or need to some degree...on a professional level of course. Yet he couldn’t fathom how he himself would possibly be someone for Emile to lean on when times got hard. What use was he to someone so put together?

He was at the door to the office now, but to his surprise it was already ajar. No knocking needed. What was even more odd is that there was none of the usual ambient music playing. And Belial could’ve sworn he heard a muffled sob from the other side. Before he could think better of it Belial went inside. He was not prepared for the chaos he was. Couch pillows were torn and knocked to the floor, stuffing spewing from the fabric wounds. The tiny waterfall lay cracked on its side. Papers, pencils and pens were scattered everywhere, and even one of Emile’s favorite cartoon posters was torn half hanging off the pastel blue wall. Worst of all though was the sight of the normally Happy Doc (damn, Emile’s humor was rubbing off on him) sitting on the couch, bent over with a hand covering his face as silent sobs shook his shoulders. Even his hair was messy like it had been tugged at and his signature pink tie askew.

Belial’s own facial soulmark ached at the sight. He didn’t know what to do. So he just awkwardly cleared his throat. Emile jerked up, putting his glasses back on. The soulmark around his eyes glowed green, matching the therapist’s emerald eyes perfectly. But they were so sad. That sadness didn’t belong there.

“Oh, Belial. I didn’t here you come in,” he said with a smile. Belial knew a fake smile when he saw one. 

“Yeah, I’m here for my session.”

“Of course! Right...Now’s not a good uh...I’m sorry. Let me just tidy up a bit, then we can...get started.”

Emile started to pick up papers around him and set them on the table. He moved painfully slow, not even getting up from his seat. Belial signed and sat across form the therapist. He rubbed the back of his neck.

“Sooo what happened in here?” he asked.

Emile sighed. “I happened. I guess you could say i sort of went Tasmanian Devil on the place.”

Didn’t see that coming. Frankly, Belial didn’t think the man had a rage filled vein in his body. Well, he supposed even therapists were entitled to a bad day once in a while. Of course it had to be on his session day.

“You? If anything you’re usually more of a Tweety Bird.” Shit. Another one. Worst of all, his slip of the tongue reference didn’t even get a chuckle out of the cartoon enthusiast.  Not a good sign.

“Yes, well, i uh...got some bad new this morning and well,” Emile waved at the mess around him.

“Are you okay?” he asked on instinct. Hopefully Emile didn’t catch the tone of sincere concern in his voice.

“Oh i’m alright. Its...” he taked a long breath, “It was a patient of mine. She’d been coming to see me for some time now. Early this morning I got a call from her father that she...passed away a few days ago.”

Oh shit. “I’m...sorry. How...how did it happen?”

“...She happened.”

“Oh...” Really? Oh? That’s the best he could think to say in this situation? It’s not like he couldn’t sympathize. Belial remembered form his time with Virgil how hard someone could struggle with fighting mental demons like that. Hell, there had been times when he’d even entertained the idea. Those were his darker times when he’d felt the most worthless...Things got better after he could afford to move out of his mother’s house. To actually go through with it though, even with a therapist like Emile trying to help you... A hollow laugh bright Belial back from his thoughts.

“And I thought we were really making progress. I-I thought she was getting better. How did I not see? It’s my job to see! I should’ve--” He took off his glasses again as fresh tears fell from his eyes. “I could’ve done more!”

Belial would never admit how much it killed him inside to watch Emile hunch over wracked with sobs, In the past few months of therapy with him, of time spent in and out of the Heart & Soul Cafe, Belial had begun to feel more than he had in a long time. And his didn’t know what to do with it all.

What could he do now? He didn’t have Logan’s tact of Patton’s sensitivity. All he had up his sleeve was-- 

“Wanna see a trick Emile?” he asked, grabbing a blank scrap of paper and a pencil from the floor.

“I really don’t feel in the mood,” said Emile, pausing in his hiccuped cries for a few seconds.

“Trust me, it’s a good one,” he said as he drew a rough picture of a spoon on the paper.

Actually this was one of the more difficult tricks in his arsenal of illusions. He’s only been able to pull it off twice before among numerous tries. But if it worked now, it was sure to amaze Emile and maybe even cheer him up a little. It would be worth it.

“If you must blink, do it now,” The Kubo reference coax a small smile out of Emile. “Watch closely.”

He swiped a hand over the picture, holding the paper by a corner. Then he began to gradually pinch the handle of the spoon picture. Belial watched the grown man’s face change from sorrow to awe as he saw the spoon bend while the paper itself remained smooth. Seriously, he could almost glimpse what Emile looked like as a child.

“wha-what the heck-that’s so cool! How’d you do that?”

“A magician never reveals his secrets.” Yep. the thrill of amazing people with his magic never got old. “And for my grand finale...”

He crumpled the paper in his hands and then held them both up, fingers spread open to reveal that the paper had disappeared. Lastly he reached behind Emile’s ear and pulled out a soft yellow hankerchief. He felt a sense of pride at hearing Emile laugh and clap.

“Now blow,” he said, offering the hankie.”

Emile thanked him as he took the small cloth, giving it a loud elephant like blow. He wiped his eyes with the palms of his hands and put the glasses back on.

“Look, said Belial, “I get why you took the news so hard. I’m sure you did as much as you could for her, but it’s not your fault that she...ran out of strength to keep fighting. You can’t save everyone, and it’s not your responsibility to.”

Emile looked into his eyes with those emerald ones. “Then what use am I?”

Hearing that broken tone in his voice, that kind of question, coming from such a kind, patient, and selfless person like Emile felt like a punch in Belial’s heart. (Well, if he had a heart) He understood better than anyone what it felt like to be worthless...useless.

He was, but Emile definitely was not!

“I could easily lie and say that you’re the best therapist in the world and can save someone the next time. But I wont, because I don’t know that for sure.” He took off his hat and ran his fingers through his hair. “But you are the best I know, and from what Ive seen a lot of others think the same. I mean come on, if you haven’t given up on a broken mess like me yet-don’t talk, just listen-then you probably won’t give up on anyone else either. You put your all into what you do and actually give a damn about people. Make them feel like they’re worth something. That gives them a reason to...hope...and that can mean more than anything. So you Emile Picani are not useless.”

Phew that was a lot! Maya wasn’t nearly this much work. He tried to be as honest as possible (not an easy feat).  Was that the right thing to say? No clue. Could he have phrased it all better? Probably. Emile half shrugged in response for crying out loud. .At the very least he wasn’t calling himself useless anymore, but he was still clearly upset.What else could he do? He thought back to how he’d try to comfort Virgil during anxiety attacks. Belial took a deep breath and placed a hand on Emile’s shoulder, giving it a gently squeeze.

Belial did not expect the man to lean forward. He didn’t expect him to bury his teary face into his shoulder. And he definitely didn't expect his chest to skip a beat the way it did. He caught the glow of his own yellow soulmakr reflected in the doctor’s glasses. Belial was terrified of making a wrong move, but he let instinct take over and hesitantly wrapped his arms over Emile’s back. He made soothing stroked as his soulmate got out the last of his silent sobs.

After who knows how many minutes, Emile Stopped shaking and with a shuddered breath he finally sat back up. Belial was sorry or the loss of contact.

“Thanks Belial.” The smile on his face was finally devoid of melancholy.

“Don’t mention it. I’m so glad to have used up my therapy session time this way,” he said. Emile just laughed.

“I am sorry about that. I’ll be sure to make up for the missed time next session.” Emile looked around at the state of his office with a sigh. Seriously. It was a mess. “I really should clean up in here before my next appointment. It’s not till noon, but still. Elliot is rather punctual.”

Typical Emile. Thinking of others even after having an emotional meltdown. It was far too pitiful for Belial to allow.

“Better Idea: You leave the cleaning for later and I take you to get some ice cream now,” he said.

“You really don’t have to,” said Emile.

“Of course I do. Didn’t you know? Ice cream is the cornerstone of any healthy breakfast.” He was unable to hide the smirk that ghosted his face at hearing Emile’s full laughter for the first time all day.

“I’d like that,” Emile said, holding open the door for both of them.

“But it’s only fair that you buy, given that I lost therapy time.”

“Nice try Mr. Banks. I’m the one who needs chim-chim-chima-cheering up. We can go halvsies.”

“Oh fine.” Belial put his hat back on and followed him out.

As they exited the cafe and walked down the block, he caught the low hum of a Disney song (Mary Poppins maybe?) coming from the therapist. Well what do you know? He’d actually been able to be there for his soulmate in some small way. This time, Belial allowed himself to indulge in a genuine smile.

Maybe neither of them was useless after all.

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Pearl Jam - Pearl Jam - Album Review

Pearl Jam is the Seattle alternative rock band’s eighth studio album released in 2006 and the first and last with Sony owned J Records. The band came into the studio with no pre written songs, but rather just ideas that were hashed out into songs once the band jammed in the studio together, similar to Vitalogy, completing ten songs in just one week. Something the band hadnt attempted or accomplished since Vs. or even Ten. The record was described by the band as very Democratic with its collaborative contribution and its fair communication with all members of the band contributing lyrics and music, the way the band has been since Yield. The record contains a formula similar to the bands older material, some may consider it a return to form and is the reason the band went with the self titled rout and while a lot of the songs have an angsty, up tempo, hard rock energy, I feel the bands sound is more inspired by classic rock influences especially looking to The Who, Thin Lizzy, Buzzcocks, Ramones, Tom Petty, AC/DC, Heart and Led Zeppelin as major influences on the record. The aggressive drive and themes were inspired by the frustration with President George W Bush and his second term in office, the current state of America, as well as The War on Terror, the mourning of friend and punk rock guitarist Johnny Ramone’s passing also served an influence on the darker songs. It sounds to me as though the band was consciously writing classic rock sounding record or it was at least the sonic direction. The longest break between releases came between the bands last record Riot Act and their self titled record here. This was attributed to singer Eddie Vedder getting married and having his first child while the band also supported the Vote for a Change tour during that break. Avocado is the closest the band has ever been to producing a conceptual record giving the listener a glimpse into the life of a working class American with financial struggles, despite having hope and faith. The mainstream medias sugar coating of pharmaceutical drugs as a solution to your problems or alcohol which is marketed as an answer to a fun time, with both of these ending in addiction. That American who cant find a job to pay the bills and provide for their family they turn to dealing. The grief stricken family of a fallen soldier, or that Army reservist manipulated and taken for granted by the government, and is stationed far from his loved ones. The record has themes dealing with feelings of political anger, addiction, religious resentment, poverty, death, anxiety, escape but ends with renewal and personal growth. You can almost see a drama unfolding throughout the album.

Alvocado was produced by Adam Kasper, producer on the bands last record Riot Act. Unlike Riot Act though instead of focusing on love as an answer the band vents all its frustrations here. Musically the record is much less of the recent experimental and calming Pearl Jam we have come to know, but much more straight forward musically and lyrically, a hard hitting formula seen on their debut and sophomore records. Singer Eddie Vedder said this about the records musical energy “It’s easily the best stuff we’ve done but also some of the hardest stuff. It’s very aggressive, because again, it’s kind of a product of what it’s like to be an American these days. It’s pretty aggressive, especially when you turn it loud.” The first half of the record contains all up tempo tunes, 5 hard rocking songs back to back, the most high energy songs in a row than any other Pearl Jam record before it, while the second half offers ballads and more mid tempo tracks. Producer Adam Kasper was able to bring the same live raw sound that was present on Riot Act again on this record here, but fills in the gaps a bit more than before. A couple of those raw, hard rocking, muscular tracks are “Life Wasted” which features an Angus Young guitar riff that bares the same energy heard on AC/DC tracks like “If You Want Blood”, “T.N.T.” and “Walk All Over You” with its off the cuff guitar solos and improvised jamming at the end. The song is played a half-step down and uses a capo on the 3rd fret (first 5 strings only, with the 6th open.) This oddly written song structure has become more frequently seen among the bands back catalog especially since Yield and really reminds me of song writing seen in bands like Led Zeppelin. Then theres the anthemic, politically ranting “World Wide Suicide” which opens with Eddie Vedder grinding an ebow into the strings and pickups on his guitar, a technique I dont think ive seen or heard before with an ebow and has a riff similar to Buzzcocks’ “No Reply”. The track has an older grungy Pearl Jam sound similar to “Satan’s Bed” while a bit of “Spin the Black Circle”, another song from the bands third record, Vitalogy, is heard on the punk rock influenced “Comatose”. The song kicks in heavy like AC/DC’s “Hell Aint A Bad Place To Be” while the hard rock energy of “Severed Hand” reminds me a bit of the beginning of The Who’s “Wont Get Fooled Again” with its guitar part at the beginning mimicking a synth, while the main riff is very similar to The Who’s “Go To The Mirror” just sped up and “Matt Cameron’s Kieth Moon sounding, chaotic drum rolls. “Marker In The Sand” the last of the first 5 up tempo songs and reminds me of “American Woman” by The Guess Who. It experiments with tempo a bit shifting time signature going into the chorus, claiming the best melody on the entire record and might be my favorite track.

The record doesnt take a breath ‘till the simple love song “Parachutes”, an acoustic, psychedelic ballad that reminds me of The Beatles “Hey Jude” with the cadence of the guitar being played like a piano, but the break doesnt last long as things pick right back up again with “Unemployable” a song that reminds me of The Who’s “Another Tricky Day” and “Big Wave” the only care free track on the record reminds me of Soundgarden’s “Never Named”. The album periodically breaks the high energy again with “Gone”, slowing down at the end starting with “Come Back”, a charming, soulful ballad that leans heavy on organ, bass, hi-hat, snare and kick drum. The song musically and conceptually follows “Last Kiss” harkens back to Motown 50s era ballads paying homage to Otis Redding’s “Come To Me” and Eric Clapton’s “Bell Bottom Blues”. Some of the songs like the album closer “Inside Job”, a slowly building, climactic track that starts off like The Who’s “The Song Is Over” meets R.E.M.’s “Boy In The Well”, but builds into a progression and a lead guitar part similar to Tom Petty’s Organ soaked “The Waiting”. Songs like this one explore more varied tempos and have an artistic and darker cathartic rock sound to them. The song features Mike McCready on a double neck SG guitar, playing the electrical 12 string in the beginning. Eddie Vedder said this about the up tempo music and how it relates to the darker lyrical themes, “the hope was going to be in the guitar solos. It was the guitars and drums going at it that was going to lift you out of the dark abyss that I had painted.” Needless to say guitarists Mike McCready and Stone Gossard channel guitarists Angus Young, Jimmy Page, Dan Thunder Bolton, Eric Clapton, Johnny Ramone, Kieth Richards, Scott Gorham, Peter Frampton,  Mike Campbell, Steve Diggle and Billy Zoom and Eddie Vedder seems to be channeling Pete Shelley, Michael Stipe, Bob Dylan, Phil Ochs, Tom Petty, Bruce Springsteen, and Pete Townshend on the record. The drums, guitar leads and vocals really shimmer and take a lot of the spotlight on this record and Matt Cameron puts in a lot of vocal work as a back up singer as well, while organist Boom Gasper takes lead spotlight on “Wasted Reprise,” a sort of intermission that brings back the chorus heard in “Life Wasted” and leads nicely into the next track “Army Reserve”.

In the song writing department, the band took their time in a process that was very tedious with the songs having many different sets of lyrics. Eddie Vedder described it as a process that demands “the patience of like a National Geographic photographer sitting underneath the bush in a tent”, adding that he would at times “figure out after eight, nine or eleven drafts that the first one was actually the one”. Where Riot Act was Pearl Jam’s most politically driven record this record takes that to the next level in a more upfront way and is the bands most socio-political to this day and takes the approach of writing from the perspective of someone else something present on Pearl Jam’s earlier records. The songs “World Wide Suicide”, and “Army Reserve” a mid-tempo rocker co-written by Damien Echols (one of the West Memphis Three), are about the Iraq War and express opposition against the war and president Bush’s agenda in Iraq, questioning his motives. It also provides a bit of hard truth behind war from the perspective of the family of a fallen soldier as well as the average American who reads the news paper, making the song relatable to many. “It’s understandable why someone would like their entertainment to provide an escape from modern day worries and the reality of war. We feel this record creates a healthy opportunity to process some of these emotions rather than deny them. It’s like we took our aggression’s and shaped something positive from them in a very direct manner” Vedder also stated the record “deals with real content and the moral issues of our time”. Other politically driven songs like “Marker In The Sand” deal with the hypocrisy behind religion and how it seems to be at the center of Bush’s agenda and how its always at the center of every war, while “Unemployable” a Springsteen type song that reflects on issues of poverty during the economic decline of the Great Recession and “Comatose” points out the threat on civil liberties backed by religion specifically in regards to same sex marriage. Guitarist McCready said, “We all feel that we’re living in tumultuous, frightening times, and that ranges from the Iraq war to Hurricane Katrina to wiretapping to anything that smacks of totalitarianism. And just bad political decisions being made. We feel that as Americans, and we’re frustrated. So a lot of those feelings have come out in these songs.”

The song “Come Back“ is easily the most heart wrenching ballad the band has produced since “Black” and has similar themes of heart break after someone you loved has past away or moved on, much like “Last Kiss”. The track has been said to have been inspired by the death of famed punk rock guitarist and Vedders close friend Johnny Ramone. Another song like “Severed Hand” is about dealing, addiction and substance abuse with “Life Wasted” being viewed as having been on the verge of overdosing or witnessing a friend overdose or just a simple brush with death. Eddie Vedder has stated the song was written after attending Johnny Ramones funeral and reflecting on mortality and the outcome of substance abuse. Eddie stated, “When you leave that funeral, that drive is as important as any single stretch of road you’ll travel on. You’ve got a renewed appreciation for life. And I think that feeling can last through the day, through the week, but then things start getting back to normal and you start taking this living and breathing and eating thing for granted. I think that song is there to remind you, ‘This is that feeling’.” The existential track “Big Wave” is a fun song of oceanic celebration, where Vedder expresses being of crustacean origin, evolving and adapting into a human but still having connections with his aquatic roots through his love for surfing, constantly seeking that next big wave. Songs of self reflection, soul searching and renewal are expressed on songs like “Inside Job” a song written entirely by Mike McCready, his lyrical debut about recovery, sobriety and loving yourself so you can share that love with others. Vedder said one way to deal with negative energy and frustration is “to kind of look within. If nothing else, effect some change in yourself. If you’re in a position of feeling pretty together at that point, then you feel like you can make a contribution to society, as opposed to being a fucking wreck and just adding to the pile of destructive forces you can find yourself surrounded by. And that’s exactly, verbatim, what’s in the song, really. Like ‘shining a human light.” and the song “Gone” is a song of liberaion that goes back to the idea expressed on the bands song “Rearviewmirror” where the character in the song is getting in a vehicle and heading out of town, leaving his/her anxiety and materials behind in search of peace, autonomy and freedom. Vedder has said “Gone” is about someone “needing to find a new life without his past, without his possessions, and not really looking for more possessions.” Early shades of what was to come on Eddie Vedders “Into The Wild” record. The line “nothing is everything” was taken from the song “Let’s See Action” from the 1972 Pete Townshend solo album, Who Came First. Vedder thanks Townshend in the liner notes for the album.

The cover art of the record depicts an avocado cut in half with the seed still in place. McCready said, “That symbolizes just kind of … Ed’s at the end of the process and said, for all I care right now, we’ve done such a good job on this record, and we’re kind of tired from it. Let’s throw an avocado on the cover. I think that’s what happened, and our art director goes, hey, that’s not a bad idea.” Because the album is self-titled, many fans refer to it as “Avocado” or “The Avocado Album.” I feel the record’s minimalistic cover art is an artistic symbol and straightforward display of this unique fruit that is organic and natural, which is exactly what the music on the record and what the band has always been, so the records self title and artwork makes sense and is fitting. Vedder explained, “In the end, we thought there was enough there with the title of the songs, so to put another title on the album would have seemed pretentious. So, really, it’s actually Nothing by Pearl Jam.” The liner notes contain artistic images of wax sculptures, in an almost “Body Worlds” style recreation of each band member with their flesh either decaying or lit on fire and other times have insects crawling out of them. The art was brought to video in the music video for “Life Wasted”, the band’s firorst conceptual video since 1998′s “Do The Evolution”. The music video represents the fragility of life, a theme that is expressed in the song as well. 

Pearl Jam’s self titled record is a great record, its my first record purchased through the Ten Club as an official member, this was the record I was listening to in high school while everyone was listening to modern emo and pop punk music. No one understood it or heard of it and thats what I liked most about it cause I never understood the appeal or the popularity behind the shallow music at the time, but I dont think it met the production or passionate song writing that was offered on Riot Act or even Binaural and I think it is the first record that showed the bands age a bit especially with Eddies vocals sounding a bit strained now going into a higher register on the fast songs but I think It gets credit for being as hard hitting, aggressive, scientific, and objective as their earlier records and most politically driven and socially critic to this day, making it arguably the most important and meaningful record in the bands discography. It has been been stated that atleast 12 songs were left off of the record. Not much is known of the songs. This would also make Avocado the most fruitful songwriting from the band since Ten! Some of the known songs are “The Forest” a song released on Jeff Ament’s solo record “Tone”, “10 Billion Years” was a song that ended up on Stone Gossard’s second LP and the track “Of The Earth“ is speculated to be B-side from their self titled record and has made some rare live appearances in 2010. The beautiful “Man Of The Hour”, one of my favorite songs was one that was recorded for the film Big Fish but wasnt included on the self titled record here. The song seems to conceptually connect with “Come Back” from the record, paying tribute to an idle or father figure after they have passed with them giving their final bow but stating that its only goodbye for now. The band had also recorded covers of “Someday at Christmas”, “Love Reign Oer Me” and “Daytime Dilemma” around this time. My favorite tracks are “Life Wasted”, “Word Wide Suicide”, “Marker In The Sand”, “Come Back”, “Army Reserve” and “Inside Job” If you like Burden Brothers, X, Foo Fighters, Wellwater Conspiracy, The Rockfords, Mother Love Bone, Skin Yard, AC/DC, Ben Harper, Temple of the Dog, R.E.M., Peter Frampton, Soundgarden, Bob Dylan, U2, Led Zeppelin, Hater, Tom Petty, Eric Clapton, The Beatles, Green River, Brad, Pete Yorn, Mad Season, Neil Young, Supersuckers, Heart, Three Fish, Steve Turner, The Verve Pipe, Ramones, Buzzcocks, The Rolling Stones, Bruce Springsteen, Sonic Youth or The Who you will love this record.

[goldenkiva]

unfiltered rambling (this is a (long) vent post; cw for some irl death mentions, sui and self harm mention (nothing in reality), bad mental health time, all that jazz

well it’s 7:30 am and ive been awake since 4 am. which is an improvement really. i slept at 12:30am ish, in contrast to constantly sleeping at 8 am or later the past month or so. and it’s been taking a very bad toll on me lately mentally. everything has been building up and probably toyin’s death (yes the one who was found dead, we were classmates in middle/high school...) was my breaking point as i had a very bad panic attack a few days after. that lasted a good 22 hours before i fully calmed down. it always takes me 5-9 hours to calm down from anxiety or trauma related bad times as i have no real coping mechanisms and i will just literally do nothing but stay huddled up in bed until the unbearable feeling goes away. but that one. was just really bad. i think i also accidentally upset one of my best friends before that which also attributed to it (we’re fine now.) it’s been a bit since i had that panic attack but i still feel so bad all the time. sometimes i joke about wataru giving me chest pain bc i love him so much but i feel like i havent experienced physical emotion in so long i just want to feel it even if it’s painful. i dont self harm so dw about that btw. but i rarely shed even a single tear anymore when ive always been a total cry baby. i only cry full on tears and sobs now when im being over stimulated during a conversation. i just genuinely want to feel physically excited or happy or sad or whatever. i want to feel physical emotion again and not just numbness with an occasional laff or on the verge of getting watery eyes but not even real crying or whatever. 

i also had to get a new phone bc my dumb clumsy self dropped my phone flat on the screen a second time and it was unrepairable which makes me sad bc i only had this phone for two years and it still ran perfectly well. i wanted to keep it for 3-4 years at least...i got a new one ordered yesterday and im splitting price with my dad n i just feel bad i had to get a new one at all bc because of covid and shit my parents are only getting half the usual business and we already dont make a ton. thankfully my parents and sister are the type to not spend recklessly in general (i am prob the biggest spender...) but that wont stop my dumb of ass generalized anxiety disorder from making me worry about bankruptcy or poverty or some other extreme. i hate it bc i cant do anything about these thoughts except just what feels like sitting in mud and i slowly sink in. i wish i was an artist with more clout because i desperately want to be have consistent (or any) income. even before covid i always feel bad about not having a job. ik it’s hard to balance school and work anyway so it’s fine if im not working but it sucks. american college is a scam. at least i didnt go to an art school. (well. i am in art program in college. but not going to an arts dedicated school like ringling. which is significantly more expensive. if i went to art school id be significantly more likely to end up in very heavy debt) but i hate having gad. i hate not having any real coping mechanisms. i feel frustrated and a little annoyed when i asked about coping mechanisms for my anxiety with my therapist she just told me breathing exercises. which ig can be valuable but ik in my heart this wont help me at all. perhaps it’s un-dx’d adhd with rsd making me feel that way that makes me refuse to even want to do them. all my medical and health issues are also a contribution to my gad and financial terrors. sometimes it makes me wanna die but i wont do that. bc my friends and family would genuinely be very heartbroken if i were to suddenly be gone especially if by my own hand. i wouldnt want anyone to blame themselves either...

the only things genuinely making me feel anything lately is wataru and buck tick. it almost makes me a little upset how little amount of things make me happy or even feel anything rn. im reading a tragedy visual novel rn (which is very good and well written and i generally like tragedies and i find them indulgent) that i am enjoying very much yet i feel barley anything while reading it. i immensely miss the buck tick concert streams so bad. watching them over the month and half they streamed every saturday morning really put how much they love making music and performing in a brand new light to me, and watching that last concert bestias locus solus was just. so amazing. i dont know how to talk about it other than i was genuinely touched. they went all out playing at that concert stage bc it was their first time performing there (at the time in their 31 year career, 33 this year) and the unplugged performances and sakura especially got me so hard. im not good with words so im not doing a good job at all expressing how much that concert (along with the day in question 2017) made me feel. i miss it. i want to buy the dvds so bad but theyre so expensive and now is not a time for reckless spending. but one day i will attain them and experience the happiness they bring me again. im sad my friends arent rly into them the same degree i am but ig it really is such a personalized feeling. i was already in a state of dread and depression when i got into the band. but im still glad my other friends enjoy them and tell me they enjoy their music. their stuff slaps. theyre just an amazing band. a band not restricted by genre. a band who makes music because they love it and love performing and love their fans and dont get warped in the ideas of fame or fortune, and are fully okay with being normal people...a band with the same line up since their pro debut in 1989 because the members all love and care about each other so much. theyre still going strong in their mid to late 50s as they were in their late teens. they make me so happy...

well it’s 8 am now and if youve read this whole thing, thanks i guess? that sounds rude, but im just kinda sittin in the mud. im still in the midst of cleaning my room. i am not someone to recklessly hurt myself or anything like that so dont worry about that. i’ll be fine. probably. if you wanna listen to buck tick heres their spotify :) i recommend their albums atom miraiha no. 09, no.0 (especially the live performance version), kuratta taiyo, darker than darkness style 1993, aku no hana, and their kemonotachi no yoru/rondo double single. they slap so good. also spotify is missing literally like 15 years worth of their music from the 00s-10s. you can find downloads online though. theyre also releasing a new single in august im very excited for it. also, the singer of the band (atsushi sakurai) did a collab with sheena ringo where he sung the bg vocals of her song elopers, which was also made in sakurai’s image and she got it really dead set on tbqh. sheena ringo loves bt so yall should too :)

[sakuurae]

any writing tips u can share?? i adore your work so much, just the way everythings described flows so nicely~

Mmmm, im not the best with this, but ill try ^~^ thank you by the way! Ehehe, it means a lot.This advice will go on like stepping stones, haha.

1. This is probably the most broad thing i can say, but just keep on writing. When i used to tutor creative writing (or english as a whole, lol) i met a lot of students who were so focused on sculpting their writing to perfection, and the purpose of it was lost along the way. This happens a lot, from what ive seen, in creative writing. I feel as if when writers are more focused on creation their pieces to perfection in hopes of it being acknowledged and seen, theyre not writing for themselves anymore; thus, this leads into the second piece of advice. Practice makes perfect. Everything that you will write you are improving in every single piece—even if you dont realize it. The things ive written two weeks ago make me cringe, but thats a sign of improvement.

Work with your strengths, and improve your weaknesses.

Go back and read your old work so you can see what you like and dont like—what you should improve on or keep doing.

2. Write for yourself. The value of your work is so much more when you write for yourself because it makes you happy.

Moving onto the composition work…

1. Vocabulary bank. It takes a while to build up a wide vocabulary bank, but its worth it. In my opinion, its more engrossing to read a piece with a lot of high vocabulary over the simple words. It bumps up everything, and if theres a good sentence flow then its a plus.

I studied word lists everyday, and i always do every other day because i want to keep on building up my vocab. They are always out there, and its a total helper!!

For me, id rather read an entire piece that was written like an SRI test over pieces that dont have that much high lexicon.

This also becomes the case for the word said. There are many words out there to use aside said, like drones, equivocates, gasps, jeers, etc.

Ex: “He wanted to tell her the truth.” ➝ “He had an urge to apprise her of the concerning verities.”

2. Sentence structure. Some sentences are far too shot, and some are really extensive (and do not have commas, semi-colons—oh my goodness). Now, sentences dont always have to be extremely long; there should be a variety. Itll make the paragraph flow more, and you can get the emphasis where you want on certain places.

Ex: “His eyes shined under the darkness of the night. The smile that graced his face warmed you from the heart. And it was not an everyday occurrence for that to take place.” ➝ “The smile that graced his face made his eyes crinkle into crescent moons, the glint evident in his two orbs. It warmed you from the inside—his beaming grin—and it was not often you felt this from another individual.”

Speaking on this, try to not use the same prominent word twice in one sentence.

Ex: “He turned the paper face down, turning his head to face his friend.” ➝ “He turned the paper over, tilting his head to address his friend.”

3. Being metaphorical. Im not really sure how to elaborate on this; i guess it provides more depth/character to the paragraph?? Aah, heres an example instead.

Ex: “The sky was a calming blue, the cluster of brilliant stars surreal to your eyes.” ➝ “The curtain of aegean draped over the muted sky, golden pins splaying upon the surface.”

4. Adjectives. It bumps up your sentences—trust me. With more details, it becomes easier to picture in your mind. Have you read a smut without adjectives, and another smut with? The difference is quite prominent because with one you can imagine the scene with more detail, and the other not as well.

Ex: “His member was twitching, the pleasure of being inside you unbearable.” ➝ “His stiff member was twitching uncontrollably, the overwhelming pleasure of being inside you borderline unbearable.”

or

“Sweat dripped from his forehead.” ➝ “Beads of sweat slowly dripped from his forehead.”

But try to not be heavy on the adjectives… i still struggle with this, haha, but i think many readers can tell if you have a thesaurus in hand or not.

5. Paragraph breaks. This might not seem like a biggie, and it is completely up to you when you decide to break paragraphs, but there are times that one must paragraph break… like with dialogues or setting changes, or when a new character is introduced. Please… avoid the block… oh my goodness…

6. This might be a me thing… but go into detail with the actions. To say this under a brighter light, imagine this: actions during a kiss scene. When you kiss someone, you and the other’s mouths arent the only thing that are moving, and the touch of the lips arent the only thing youre feeling. 

Ex: “He pressed his lips against yours, his mouth prancing to the melody of your heartbeat.” (and thats it) ➝ “He pressed his lips against your own, his mouth prancing to the melody of your heartbeat as his hands trace the outline of your body. You palm snakes up his back, only to place it on the nape of his neck to tug him closer. At such a closed proximity, you noticed something else: his scent. There was a swirl of cinnamon and vanilla that intoxicated your senses… etc.”

What im trying to say is that going into some detail, brief or not, about actions will add more sparkle into the paragraph—especially dialogue.

Ex: “’You’re kidding me,’ he groaned, flailing his arms in the air animatedly. He was in a disbelief at the sudden news, lodged at a crossroads on how to respond. ‘You’re fucking kidding me!’

You took a step back, placing a fist over your heart cautiously. ‘I-I’m sorry,’ you uttered weakly, tears pooling at your eyes. ‘I didn’t mean to.’”

Obviously the apostrophes wont be there in the final product, lol, it would perturb me if i didnt write that grammatically correct, ahaha.

Think of these composition levels as a pyramid. From letters, to words, to sentences, to paragraphs, the purpose of the piece, etc. The letters would be the bottom. So if you mess up at the bottom of the pyramid, the rest is disrupted. I read over a paper before where the first and second base were horrendous, and i was correcting it so much. The student came up to me and asked me what i thought about the message of the piece, but i actually paused and thought. I was so focused on correcting the mistakes—paying attention to the mistakes—to the point i missed the entire purpose of the piece. So, honestly, proofreading will be your best friend here.

All of this falls under the tab of your style. Remember, dont try to force out word after word to sculpt your piece into perfection. Work with your strengths, find your weaknesses and improve.

On the finding inspiration and keeping motivation side…

1. Work at your own pace. Do what makes you feel like your best work will be exhibited, and dont let other deadlines push you at your limit. Personal deadlines would most likely take the fun out of your writing process, and you might miss some particulars youd wish to convey—so dont rush! Trust me on this, lol. I made this mistake again when writing overrated, and im so hesitant to even hit that upload button because of how much i rushed it to meet my personal deadline. I keep re-reading and editing it, but i know that if i spent my time on it and pushed aside the personal deadline then it would be better.

2. Inspiration comes at the most random of times. I got ideas from waiting in the line in the bathroom and in the middle of my english class; they come when you least expect them too. If you force it out then it wont be that good (for me, that is). Of course, you can go out and find inspiration by walking outside or listening to music, but dont try to force out ideas—let them come to you.

You can write about real life occurrences that have taken place, or base stories off those. ‘Two Cups of Sugar’ is based off my friends experience of trying to get a guys number at an ice cream bar, but always failing so she went back around seven times—and only got his name in the end.

An upcoming fic i have is based off my boyfriend and i, and how we came to be. To be honest, all my fics are based off some real life experiences i had, or some outrageous stories my friends have told me. ‘Study Sessions’ was some real events, and a few scenes in ‘After Hours.’ What im trying to say is that those simple stories can take you a long way. The scene that started ‘After Hours’ was my friend talking about a bar. It was supposed to be a 4k bar scene, but after thinking about her experience and incorporating it into my own piece, it built its own way to 21k, and an ongoing series.

3. Keeping up motivation. Depending on what youre writing, you should focus on those elements. For example, im writing two fics—one of them being a basketball au and the other a soccer au. My motivation for that has seriously been dying, so ive been watching basketball videos and soccer games to keep my motivation running. Also, it helps when writing out action scenes, ahaha. I also talk to my friends that play those sports and ask them about how they feel about it and the rules of the game. Just kindle your flame with more information.

I know im not the best at giving advice… and there is way more in this whole writing sphere that im not addressing, but i hope this helps!! This is just what i think, what i go through, and my opinion—i really hope this helps you out. I wasnt sure what department you wanted concrete information on, whether it be the writing process or inspiration side or etc, so i briefly did all three :)

I know its a lot, so thank you for spending the time to read all of this ^~^

[richard-of-windoor]

naknaknakadile

Tell me about your ocs!!!!!!!

imagine. i launched myself through your window rn 

ive been having a lot of oc feelings lately but i also have a sort of writers block and i  w anna cry. im gonna do a read more tho bc im scared itll get really long. also i want my series to eventually be a video game s o some elements may sound very game like for that reason

okay!!! s o the setting is high fantasy so expect magic and fantasy races. i also rework a lot of things out of the blue but this is what theyre like right now

*last name subject to change one day maybe

Davorin Mors - vampire and necromancer. i still cant decide if i want vampires to have lived hundreds of years or regular human years s o his age rn is either 16 or 1698 (every hundred years equal one year for vamps). The Mors family is related to Agatha the goddess of death and ruler of the underworld which is how Dav got his powers bc vampires sometimes dont have magic. Davorin’s older brother Vladimir is very upset Dav got powers instead of him which causes a lot of tension between them. 

Davorin is quiet and observant but can also end up being very reckless. he was forced into being a sort of servant to Agatha bc she feels he owes her for giving him powers that he didnt even ask for. so he is very very jumpy around her bc shes a god so. very powerful. Davorin still doesnt have great control over his powers bc necromancy is the darkest magic and even with being a vampire one wrong spell could kill him so he has to hold back  a lot (which is also sort of an excuse for him not to be too overpowered in the series). as a vampire he used to be okay with sucking blood from people bc it was what all vamps did, but he feels disgusted with his past self and refuses to drink blood from unwilling people now. he almost always wears an enchanted coat (it grows with him so it always fits) into battle that his uncle gave him before he was killed. he uses a scythe mainly but likes to use knives/daggers. i love him dearly. 

Vince Solastice* - vampire and bard. comes from a long long line of bards so music is literally in his veins. 15. he loves being center of attention and loves the stage. hes sort of the yin to davorin’s yang while Dav is very quiet, Vince is very loud. he was born with albinism so he grew up bullied for it in school. he ended up dying his hair and wearing colored contacts for a long time. he puts on a very confidant, tough act but hes actually kinda insecure. hes very good at hiding it tho bc not even Davorin has picked up on it yet. he picks a lot of fights in school bc people accuse him of stealing their boyfriends a lot. hes very flirty and loves making others flustered. he loves teasing others esp nate bc nate gets super riled up. hes flamboyant and pretty open about his sexuality (which flusters Nate a lot who Vince calls a prude).

he sometimes works with Dav to do stuff for Agatha but she really hates him. shes snapped his wrist before but he’ll do anything to help Dav. he wants to get Dav away from her but doesnt know how. 

he was born and raised in France, but then moved to Romania and then to California. the Solastice and Mors family are good friends which is how Dav and Vince met. ive been playing around with the idea of giving him older sisters but as of now hes an only child.

Nate Ryder - human and wizard (dont have a term for his magic yet). 14. a young boy who grew up in a village that was filled with ancient magic and culture. but then the Serpents attacked them. 

the Serpent King is an evil king basically. i need to work on him more.

anyways the Serpents took Blake and Nate and pillaged and destroyed the village. Blake and Nate were made to become servants to the Serpent king. Nate is more heavily focused on magic and uses a staff. his magic and combat was taught by other Serpents so its going to be better than others. the Serpent castle also had a huge library of (stolen) books so Nate knows a lot about history and cultures. since he was very young when he was taken he doesnt remember much of his own, he cant even recall his parents faces. eventually Blake and Nate escaped (they realized just how cruel it is and what they were doing) the Serpent castle and run as far away as they can. after that they dedicated their lives to helping others. they know they cant fix what theyve done but they can at least work towards redemption. the big problem is that they were both branded when they were brought to the castle. so they have a big white serpent going along their arm (left for nate, right for blake) and people easily recognize it so they dont get treated that greatly.

Nate is very stubborn and aims towards perfection. hes a believer of “if you want something right do it yourself”. due to the way he was raised he was forced to grow up fairly quickly so hes mature for his age so to speak. but he does have moments of childlike behavior which pleases blake a lot. Nate is also very tactical and wants to always have control of a battle (which is why he clashes with Dav’s reckless behavior). hes esp protective of Blake in battle since hes the only family he has left. hes willing to lose a battle for Blake’s sake. he has a lot of issues with trusting others and looks down on friendship. i always wanted to have Nate be THE character who changes the most overtime. while i want everyone to have development i want nate to grow the most for some reason

Blake Ryder - human, half dragon, and fighter. 18. Nate’s older brother. same backstory as above but instead of focusing on magic when he was younger Blake focused more on combat. a master with the swords. a slightly different aspect of his backstory was that the Serpents experimented on him when he was younger. (tell me if this sounds dumb btw) they put dragon DNA into him which caused him to become half dragon. he still has no idea how to control it or what he can even do, but he does know he has to keep it a secret (except from Nate). he appears fully human s o nothing does ticks anyone off. he does have a bad habit of smoking bc he says he needs to feel some sort of fire in his lungs to feel right (Nate refuses to believe him and hates the habit). he does eventually learn how to use his powers but theyre obv much less powerful than a real dragons (which have been extinct for a long ass time. also another way to not make him op).

he doesnt talk much. Nate does the talking for the both of them. when he does talk though, hes very calm and patient. unless its concerning Nate. since they dont have parents his become Nate’s in a way. reprimanding him when he gets to hot headed, making sure hes taken care of himself, etc. he also didnt get to have much of a childhood but he just wishes Nate could have one. like Nate he also has a very tactful mind and aims for the best solution to victory so the two work extremely well together. 

Kristen Masuda* - human, fighter. an upbeat, energetic transgirl. 16. wants the best for everyone and wants everyone to get along!!! loves her friends and would do anything for them!! fun fact: was the second oc i ever made!!!

growing up her mom taught her that teamwork is the recipe for success so tries her ultimate best to work well with others. can be naive and easily  trusting which puts the team at risk from time to time. she gets very upset after these times and feels she isnt a good leader at all for her team and shes just going to lead her friends into danger. 

shes been trained in close combat so mainly uses swords. she can use magic but i havent decided what her magic should mainly be. i think what ill have her do is enchant her sword.

she gets upsets during friend fights and tries to patch them up. she gets told that she should let them patch things up but she just cant stand seeing her friends fight and be mad at each other.

Valerie Perxina* - fairy, fighter, and magic user. 16. loves fashion and always looks her best. she thinks of every day as a new fashion show. she fights with Nate and Vince mostly for that reason as shes self titled herself the prettiest of the group

she grew up in the forest with other fairies as is the usual. but she hated them all and was considered weird for wanting to explore the outside world. she eventually got fed up and left in the night. she hasnt gone back since. shes extremely edgy around other fairies for that reason and doesnt like them. she met Kristen one day while looking for a place to settle and the two became quick friends

she knows what she wants and prefers it when things go her way. she questions anyone since Kristen is so easily trusting with people. Valerie’s sharp tongue can get the group in a lot of trouble. also wont tolerate anyone who sees her as just a pretty face. 

she uses a cutlass for close combat and magic for distance. i havent been able to think of a lot of fairy magic so as of right now its not much.

Luke (no last name yet :( ) - element (ice), magic user. 15. a happy boy who loves cracking jokes and making the mood lift!!! 

quick explanation of the (probably dumb) element thing: basically a person who is made of a certain element. in Luke’s case his body is made of ice and he has ice powers. so his body is always freezing and he loves the cold more than anything. 

anyways!! Luke grew up in a village in the snowy mountains with other ice elements but he never found himself becoming long term friends with anyone. so he left to go on his own. he later found Max and the two found Valerie and Kristen and the four became fast friends. Luke is the youngest of the group so hes the most immature and doesnt like it super serious long meetings. he does know of course when to act serious but he just likes making people happy esp Nate who he feels is always serious and unhappy. 

he can use ice powers and walk on water by turning it to ice. he can also breath underwater (due to the fact that hes sort of made of water) so underwater quests are up to him. his preferred weapon is an ice sword he creates.

his original concept had him and max growing up in britain so they have english accents and you can pry that concept from my cold dead hands. their accents are strong

Max Ignis****** (I know dumb last name so its def getting changed) - element (fire), magic user. 18. laid back and just wants to play guitar. if only he would stop burning his strings :(

grew up near a volcano with little population. so he mostly grew up alone. he met Luke (who was wandering aimlessly around the world) and decided to join him. he likes relaxing and when things are calm but his temper can fire up sometimes. he doesnt like fighting and will try to keep things peaceful if able. but hes ready to protect someone when needed

his favorite thing to do is smoke with blake (and davorin at times) since max is literal fire. he enjoys smoking and filling himself with smoke. he also likes playing guitar with vince, but he feels like vince is too strict about music sometimes.

his uses his fists when fighting and launches fire balls.  sometimes hes able to melt a weapon but he has to get close and ahold of it to do it

Cameron Green - human, magic user, probably crying as we speak. 16. didnt want to be the chosen one and doesnt know whats going on.  FIRST OC EVER CREATED BTW

Cameron and Andrew are the big plot people. theyre the reason the plot happens and arguably the most important two. but i still want everyone to have an equal spotlight. 

Cameron is a space wizard. which means he can do things such as star bombs which causes a blinding flash, change the gravity for a small area, and have meteors fly down. the space wizard hasnt been heard of for a long time and is considered an ancient magic. the only problem is Cameron is wielding it.

Cameron is clumsy, cautious, and terrified. hes terrified of what he can do and what could happen if he messes up (will he hurt his friends, will he fail the world, will he disappoint everyone). he was unknown to the magic world growing up due to not knowing his real parents. he and his brother were dropped off at a orphanage one night after it was deemed too dangerous from an attack for their parents to keep them. he grew up being considered an outsider and a loner in a small town in Nebraska. he loves creating art and drawing and painting is his speciality. while Andrew may be the opposite of Cameron, he still loves him and protects him the best he can. Cameron can be mouthy but quickly shuts up if someone stronger than him shows up (which is. most people). Next to Nate I want Cameron to have a lot of growth as well. him growing used to his powers and being able to wield them and him growing confidant in himself. 

i love Cameron dearly since he is the first oc ever made by me. i bought platform boots bc of him and im pretty sure he helped me realize i was always goth bc hes always had those big platform boots for some reason. 

Cameron likes to uses a staff summoned from the galaxy to fight with. it sounds very extra but its just a staff that has the sun on one end and the moon on the other. very sick.

(this pic is tiny but u can see the platform boots a bit)

Andrew Green - human and magic user. 15. wants to protect the earth more than himself. this kid will slap you if you dont recycle. 

Andrew is an earth wizard which is very generic in fantasy but i plan on having it as rare as the space wizard in my world. i wanted something to connect them as brothers so i decided to do the earth and space thing. basically an earth wizard is always accompanied by a space wizard and vice versa. the two are always blood related also. 

Andrew’s powers are kinda generic in fantasy bc earth is always used. he can make vines appear, shake the earth, form rocks, etc. his sword is summoned from the ground and has a very earthy appearance. 

Andrew is seen as the perfect boy. popular, outgoing, friendly. people refused to believe he was related to Cameron. When Andrew found out about magic it was estatic , he was a huge fantasy fan and was more than ready to take whatever it threw at him. which ended up being a lot. Andrew tries his best to keep up with whatever is happening but sometimes. life just gets too much and he loses it. when stressed he tends to go to places with lots of nature and trees. 

When Cameron cant stay motivated Andrew tries his best to keep him up. 

beep beep this ended up being way longer but!!!!!!!!!! this helped me get lots of shit straight so thank u for asking!!!!!

[peep911]

Emily Is Away Too

This game was fucking great. Beat it in a day, listened to a bunch of old music I liked, and got one of the endings I wanted.

Going to put all my screenshots, chat logs, opened tabs, and so on below.

WARNING SPOILERS! DO NOT KEEP READING UNLESS YOU HAVE ALREADY PLAYED THE GAME! THIS INCLUDES MY ENTIRE PLAY EXPERIENCE FROM THIS GAME! I RECOMMEND YOU DO NOT KEEP READING THIS IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED THIS GAME EITHER!

Either way if you have watched or played this game before you may be seeing a different ending, but you read ahead if you want. :P

Chat log #1: Emily

IM History with emerz35 Thursday, August 3, 2006 emerz35has signed in emerz35:hey tyler! Peep911:hey emily! emerz35:what's up? Peep911:just talking to people, you? emerz35:talking to people tooo. emerz35:so did you do anything fun today? Peep911:just played video games like all dayy emerz35:cool beans! i played games like all this morning too =p Peep911:that's cool! what'd you play? emerz35:haha honestly, the sims 2 just like your buddy icon! Peep911:damnn, pretty solid choice lol emerz35:really i'm just a sucker for any rpg-ish game. emerz35:what games are your favorite? Peep911:i'd have to say rpgs too! emerz35:reaally? no wonder we're such good friends =p emerz35:we should hang out and play gamess sometime. Peep911:as long as ii get to be player one =p emerz35:haha, you wishh. emerz35:so that was my morning, then i just hung out at jeff's house. Peep911:oh that's cool emerz35:it actually got super boring so i left haha. Peep911:that sucks, why was it boring? emerz35:he was just doing his own thing the whole time. emerz35:whaatever. emerz35:i'd rather be home talking to people anyways. Peep911:yay internet! emerz35:i was thinking the other day. emerz35:it's pretty crazy how our group of friends has stayed together like all of high school. Peep911:i know, it's pretty cool emerz35:i wonder if senior year is going to change that? Peep911:i don't think it will, but i guess we'll see emerz35:yeah i don't know, people have already started to act differently. emerz35:let's just stay friends okay? Peep911:sure, we'll stay friends emerz35:good! it would suck to lose you. emerz35:hey, do you know the band snow patrol? Peep911:no, i don't think so emerz35:listen to this song, it's my favorite. emerz35:youtoob.com/watch?v=fk1Q9y6VVy0Y Peep911:oh, i like this song a lot! emerz35:isn't it grand! emerz35:the music videos really cool too Peep911:where was it shot? emerz35:paris i think! it's so gorgeous. emerz35:i want to see them live so bad. but like, no bands ever play around here. Peep911:i don't know about that, what about warped tour? emerz35:oh yeah, that's the like, punk music festival right? emerz35:do you know anyone who goes to those? Peep911:yeah, some of my friends are going emerz35:oh yeah? i don't think i know anyone that's going. emerz35:what's your favorite kind of music? Peep911:definitely alternative emerz35:omg me too! you're seriously the best! Peep911:lol thanks emerz35:hey! you finally set up your buddy info! emerz35:arctic monkeys lyrics! they're in my info too! Peep911:they're really good! emerz35:so you're like my favorite person now =p Peep911:awe thanks emily emerz35:quick! i need your help coming up with a good excuse. Peep911:your dog ate it! that shit aalways works emerz35:haha, i don't know about thaat. emerz35:jeff wants us to hang out with his friends this weekend, but i reaaally don't want to. Peep911:why don't you want to hang out? emerz35:hanging out with his friends just means sitting around getting drunk. emerz35:and i don't really drink. so i don't know. Peep911:well that sucks, i'm sorry emerz35:haha, it's okay. do you drink tyler? Peep911:no, i never drink emerz35:cool beans, we're in the same boat! emerz35:why don't you drink? Peep911:it's just so unhealthy, you know? emerz35:it really is! i feel the samee. emerz35:haha, so i just panicked and i said i already had plans. Peep911:that's good! what are your plans? emerz35:i don't have anyy haha, i need to find some plans for tomorrow.. Peep911:you could hang out with me! we could play some games together? emerz35:hmm maybe! should we invite other people? Peep911:i don't really care either way emerz35:nahh, screw other people! and we both like the same games. emerz35:thanks for being my coverr! Peep911:absolutely noo problem! emerz35:i'm excited for tomorrow noww! Peep911:yeah, i'm sure it won't be tooo bad emerz35:oh wow it's getting kinda late, huh. Peep911:what! no it's nott emerz35:it is for me! i won't last much longerr =p Peep911:psshh you loserr! emerz35:at least i'll be a comfy loser in bed! Peep911:deuces! emerz35:deuces! emerz35is away emerz35and a magic trick, makes the world disappear. bbl. Chat log #1 Evelyn IM History with punk4eva Thursday, August 3, 2006 punk4eva:yoooo tyler! Peep911:hey evelyn! punk4eva:what is uppp? Peep911:eh nm, how about you? punk4eva:just chillinn, about to paint my nails punk4eva:i cant decidee what color thoughh Peep911:cyan all the wayy punk4eva:thats honestly what i was thinking, great ideaa punk4eva:speaking of colors, i like your new scheme! Peep911:lol hey, thankss punk4eva:so hows your summer goingg? Peep911:honestly, it's been kinda boring punk4eva:aww im sorry, what have you been up to? Peep911:a whole lot of video games! punk4eva:awesomesauce! punk4eva:i cant believe we go back to school in a month D: Peep911:highschool's okay sometimes punk4eva:yeah it can be, like our history class last year Peep911:that class was so great punk4eva:i know! funny how we never really talked before that punk4eva:you still have to hang out with me and my friends some time Peep911:yeah for sure, some day punk4eva:got any big plans for the rest of the summer? Peep911:i don't know, nothing reallyy, how about you? punk4eva:me and my friends are driving up to warped tour on saturday! Peep911:are you going to mosh? punk4eva:hell yes! i lovee punk rock showss punk4eva:whats your favorite kind of music? Peep911:alternative i guess? punk4eva:but punk rocks so good thoo Peep911:my favorites always change, maybe it'll be punk rock next week! punk4eva:yeah! thatd be sickk punk4eva:i cant wait to see senses fail, do you know them? Peep911:nope, i don't think so punk4eva:here, listen to this punk4eva:youtoob.com/watch?v=QUmj3y_263Y Peep911:its alright i guess punk4eva:i bet itll grow on you punk4eva:its my favorite song by them, ive got the lyrics in my buddy info punk4eva:speaking of infos, i dont think ive looked at yours Peep911:i just updated it! punk4eva:arctic monkeys? theyre okayy punk4eva:man idk where my friends are, they were supposed to pick me up like half an hour ago Peep911:you know, they're probably dead punk4eva:lol youre probably right, were supposed to go to my friends house and partyy Peep911:oh, are their parents not around? punk4eva:nahh they are! theyre just like, super chill :p punk4eva:i should probably start getting some stuff togetherr Peep911:oh okay, do you want to sign off? punk4eva:we can keep talking! i just need some stuff in case i stay over jackies punk4eva:ohh i should bring a movie, wanna help me pickk? Peep911:lol, suree, what are the options? punk4eva:final destination 3 or the descent? Peep911:obviously final destination! that movie is pure gold punk4eva:i know right! its so bad its good! Peep911:yeah it's like not even scary punk4eva:it still is kinda! some of the scenes are pretty brutal punk4eva:what movies are your favorite? Peep911:i think i'd have to say comedy punk4eva:oh yeah? i guess horror is definitely mine Peep911:i can't really handle most horror movies =p punk4eva:hey, just got a text punk4eva:theyll be here soon! Peep911:yay! they're not dead! punk4eva:sorry, just texting them back punk4eva:yeah, theyre not dead! xD punk4eva:theyre late because steve had to get the alcohol Peep911:do i know steve? punk4eva:maybe? steve myers, he graduated last year punk4eva:he's only 20 but he's got a fake id :p Peep911:oh wow, how did he get it? punk4eva:hes got a connect if you want one! ill give him your screenname punk4eva:wow, they ended up with alot. i see some drunk texts in my future :p Peep911:lol, that's reaally hilarious punk4eva:lol, you can probably expect somee punk4eva:this weekend should be fun, but my friends are ditching me next weekendd :( Peep911:boo your friends! screww them! punk4eva:theyre going on a roadtrip and my mom wont let me go, i need plans! Peep911:we could do something? maybe go see a movie? punk4eva:yeah maybe, hang out like just us? Peep911:whatever you want punk4eva:idk! were not really into the same movies, right? punk4eva:but we could get a group together and do something else maybe? Peep911:alright, that sounds good punk4eva:just finished packing! im gonna head out punk4eva:inebriated texts incomingg Peep911:deuces! punk4eva:lol wtf punk4evais away punk4evawarped tour this weekend! rise against, against me! & senses fail <3

Chat log #2 Emily IM History with emerz35 Friday, October 13, 2006 Peep911:hey! emerz35:hey tyler! what's up? Peep911:listening to music! you? emerz35:not too much, got home from kelly's a little while ago. Peep911:oh that's cool, what'd you two do? emerz35:shit, my moms calling me for dinner. but i'll be on later, talk to you then? Peep911:maaybe if i'm still on too emerz35:fingers crossed! emerz35is away emerz35shut your eyes, i'll spin the big chair. bbl. emerz35has signed in emerz35:hey sooorry about that. Peep911:lol, it's okay, you gotta eat =p emerz35:haha, so what were we talking about? emerz35:oh kelly's! yeah she showed me this site the facenook, do you know it? Peep911:oh yeah i do! i have a profile emerz35:oh cool! i'm setting mine up now. emerz35:there's just so many questions! Peep911:don't worry, they don't matter too much =p emerz35:haha i know, okay i'm on the last part, i have to write a status? emerz35:what should i write? Peep911:emily is talking to tyler, the coolest kid on eol emerz35:haha okay, i can work with that. emerz35:there, it's finally done! Peep911:cool! can i see it? emerz35:don't make fun of it! emerz35:facenook.com/emerz35 Peep911:ohh, im gonna read your note thing! emerz35:haha oh godd, kelly made me do that =p emerz35:you should send me a friend request when you get the chance! Peep911:sure thing! so what are you up to tonight? emerz35:just going to stay in, probably stay up late. emerz35is away emerz35if seeing is believing, then believe that we have lost our eyes. emerz35:don't worry! i'm still here =] Peep911:wait, why are you away? emerz35:i just don't want to talk to some people =p Peep911:why don't you want to talk to them? emerz35:jeff's just kinda being an ass. Peep911:well, what happened? emerz35:just some bullshit, i don't know. emerz35:maybe i'm being bitchy tonight or something? Peep911:i mean, you seem fine, what'd he say? emerz35:i can send you the chat log. emerz35:just don't show anyone okay? Peep911:why would i show anyone? emerz35:did you get it? Peep911:wait where is it? emerz35:it should be on your desktop, like the thing behind this application? Peep911:i found it! like my desktopdesktop emerz35:i don't know, do you think i was out of line? Peep911:definitely not! you should be able to do whatever you want! emerz35:yeah, i just don't want to go over tonight. emerz35:sometimes it's just hard being there. Peep911:why is it hard? emerz35:i just feel like i'm expected to act a certain way when i'm there, and i hate that? emerz35:the problems solved though because i can just fake being away and talk to you! Peep911:wootwoot! away messages, the mvp of 2006 =p emerz35:i know right! emerz35:hey! randoom question, do you remember my favorite games? Peep911:oh yeah, role playing games right? emerz35:woah, you remembered! emerz35:i'm impressed =p Peep911:i mean it's preetty obvious, do you remember mine? emerz35:it's rpgs too! of course i remember. Peep911:waait, that's not it though? emerz35:uh, that's bullshit! emerz35:hey! lets listen to some sigur ros togetherr. Peep911:i don't think i know them? emerz35:they're icelandic! i really love this album. emerz35:youtoob.com/watch?v=ojLgN7wqc5A Peep911:its pretty good emerz35:yay! let's listen to the album together! emerz35:i have no idea what the lyrics mean, but their music always me feel so happy =] Peep911:yeah, it's really beautiful emerz35:isn't it! this song hoppipola is my favorite. emerz35:hey, cool beans! you put snow patrol lyrics in your info! Peep911:thanks for showing me them! emerz35:hey no problem! i'm glad you like them. emerz35:you have some pretty good taste in music =] Peep911:i just like good music lol emerz35:so have you started applying to colleges? Peep911:oh yeah, definitely! i started applying this summer emerz35:oh wow! you're on the ball haha, i haven't really started yet. emerz35:where were you looking to go ideally? Peep911:close by i think, how about you? emerz35:i don't know, i'd really love to go to school in the city. emerz35:and i've always thought it would be really cool to live in new york. Peep911:oh jeez, i bet that'll be expensive emerz35:depends on where you live! emerz35:i think i really just want to get out of here and go some place totally new you know? Peep911:i feel the same! do you want to stay in new york after college? emerz35:yeah, i think that could be really grand? emerz35:but idk, planning that far out can be a little silly. Peep911:sometimes it's good to have a plan though emerz35:yeah, but so much is unknown, you know? emerz35:and i really don't see myself settling down anytime soon. emerz35:like right now i honestly don't even see myself having kids haha. Peep911:why do you say that? emerz35:i just don't see myself wanting a family. emerz35:i just want to be able to take life as it comes, i think. Peep911:you just want to be wild and free? emerz35:haha, something like that. emerz35:how about you after college, do you want to settle down like right after? Peep911:i do think i want to settle down actually emerz35:oh cool beans, yeah i guess i might just be weird. emerz35:whenever i talk about new york with jeff he always gets so upset. Peep911:what, he wants to settle down or something? emerz35:yeah, i guess so. he doesn't want me to go far away. emerz35:but i think he knows i'd go without him. Peep911:you think you'd go without him? emerz35:yeah i guess. he's going through a really tough time. emerz35:he just wants to be a more serious couple. Peep911:more serious, like how? emerz35:this is pretty personal, so you can't tell anyone okay? Peep911:of course not! i won't tell anyone emerz35:me and jeff haven't had sex. emerz35:i think he wanted to try tonight or something, his parents aren't home. Peep911:well, do you want to? emerz35:no, i think i'm just not ready for that with him. emerz35:but it's okay, it's not like he's ever tried anything. emerz35:it's just kind of annoying to keep turning him down. Peep911:just wait until you're ready, it's okay to not want to emerz35:yeah but sometimes i feel weird, like i should have done it by now? Peep911:hey you're definitely not weird! it's your life emerz35:thanks tyler =] emerz35:if you don't mind me asking, have you had sex? Peep911:no, i haven't emerz35:oh cool! then we're in the same boat haha. emerz35:that makes me feel a lot better =] emerz35:thanks so much for talking with me about it. Peep911:you're lucky i don't charge by the minute =p emerz35:seriously! well i guess i owe you haha emerz35:i'm sorry i stole so much of your night just talking about random stuff. Peep911:lol i really don't mind! emerz35:i guess i just really like talking to you about stuff haha. emerz35:i feel like we're different now, but in a good way =] Peep911:i feel like we're just really close friends now lol emerz35:i feel like we are too! Peep911:are we like, closer than you and kelly? emerz35:i mean we both want different things after college. emerz35:but alternative music is your favorite. emerz35:and we both haven't had a serious relationship yet. emerz35:so yeah, i'd call you my best friend =] Peep911:awe lol, i feel so honored =p emerz35:hey i know! let's give each other nicknames! emerz35:what should mine be? Peep911:how about milly? emerz35:milly? i like it! emerz35:do you want me to call you something besides tyler? Peep911:yeah i guess emerz35:what'll it be! Peep911:Ty emerz35:Ty? it suits you, i like it! emerz35:awe man, i think i need to get off the computer now. Peep911:is it bed time? emerz35:nahh, my mom needs to look at emails or something Peep911:you need your own computer! emerz35:haha, i knoow i do. emerz35:thanks again for everything tonight. Peep911:lol, it was nothing emerz35:i'll talk to you again soon okay? Peep911:see ya! emerz35has signed out

Extra Chat Log #1 Emily’s Arguement

IM History with buddy jradio49 Friday, October 13, 2006 emerz35 (7:18:02 PM)signed in jradio49 (7:19:10 PM):hey emily! emerz35 (7:19:30 PM):hey, what's up? jradio49 (7:19:39 PM):nm u? emerz35 (7:19:58 PM):nothing much. jradio49 (7:20:12 PM):so when are u coming over? emerz35 (7:21:04 PM):i don't know if i can tonight. emerz35 (7:21:13 PM):i have a lot of homework to do. jradio49 (7:21:25 PM):u can just do it here! emerz35 (7:21:48 PM):it's like project kind of stuff. emerz35 (7:21:57 PM):i really don't think i can come. jradio49 (7:22:08 PM):oh come on emily, weve had this plan all week emerz35 (7:22:27 PM):i know, i'm sorry. jradio49 (7:22:33 PM):are u rly not going to come over? jradio49 (7:22:39 PM):i had a whooole night planned for us emerz35 (7:22:56 PM):i don't think i can. jradio49 (7:23:12 PM):HOLY SHIT, are u serious? jradio49 (7:23:16 PM):wtf emily emerz35 (7:23:31 PM):look, i'm sorry okay. emerz35 (7:23:38 PM):i told you that it might not work out. jradio49 (7:23:49 PM):i didnt think u were fucking serious emerz35 (7:24:01 PM):well, i was. jradio49 (7:24:06 PM):i really can't believe u emerz35 (7:24:31 PM):i think i'm going to go. jradio49 (7:24:37 PM):sure, whatever emerz35 (7:24:52 PM)is away emerz35 (7:24:52 PM):if seeing is believing, then believe that we have lost our eyes. Chat log #2 Evelyn IM History with punk4eva Friday, October 13, 2006 punk4eva:tyler, how is youu? Peep911:pretty tiredd, how are you? punk4eva:ughh same, hey do you know what today is? Peep911:oh shit, is it leif erikson day? punk4eva:noo, its friday the 13th ;) Peep911:hey, that's not a holiday! punk4eva:i never said it was! punk4eva:what are you going to do to celebrate? Peep911:definitely some black magic, you? punk4eva:yo saame! punk4eva:im so happy its fall, its like my favorite season Peep911:yeah, it's alright punk4eva:are you gonna dress up for halloween? Peep911:i hadn't thought about it, are you? punk4eva:yeah i am! jackies having a big halloween party punk4eva:im looking at costumes noww, what do you think i should go as? Peep911:how about a witch? punk4eva:thats super generic though :p punk4eva:i was actually trying to decide between alice in wonderland and sally from nightmare before christmas punk4eva:images.google.com/search?q=alice punk4eva:images.google.com/search?q=sally punk4eva:which do you think is better? Peep911:i think i like the alice costume the most punk4eva:thats what i was thinking! ill go pick it up tomorrow punk4eva:jackies parties are always crazy, you can probably expect more drunk texts :p Peep911:lol you're a mess, just try to spell better this time punk4eva:i think i still have some of those locked on my phone from this summer lol punk4eva:idk how you understood aany of them Peep911:honestly i didn't, i was faking it the whoole time =p punk4eva:lol, like this one punk4eva:"omg we thinks jackies roof thigh now and starts nerver flooded so butiful" Peep911:you think jackies high now? punk4eva:thats not what i said, but it was certainly possible! punk4eva:hey, maybe you could just come to the party, do you drink? Peep911:nah i don't like drinking punk4eva:oh coolcool, thats probably smart punk4eva:do you like, care if people around you are drinking? Peep911:of course not! people can do whatever punk4eva:you should totally come out and party then! Peep911:uh sure, that sounds like fun punk4eva:the only rule is you haave to dress up punk4eva:what would you go as? Peep911:maybe i'll go as the mad hatter or something punk4eva:thatd be awesomesauce! well take some pictures togetherrr punk4eva:ill add you to the event page punk4eva:oh wait, are we friends on facenook? Peep911:i don't think so punk4eva:then friend me when you get a chance yo! punk4eva:facenook.com/punk4eva Peep911:i just read your survey note thing! punk4eva:oh no! now you know my darkest secrets! punk4eva:so what are you up to? Peep911:i told you, black magic! punk4eva:oh shit thats right! what sort of black magic? Peep911:just catching up with the devil, what are you up to? punk4eva:just listening to music punk4eva:senses fail just came out with a new album! Peep911:oh cool! you must be excited! punk4eva:its been on repeat all day :p punk4eva:youtoob.com/watch?v=vi_VCnuY2AU punk4eva:this song and the next one are my favorite Peep911:this is really good! punk4eva:im so glad you like the same music as me :p punk4eva:seriously youre pretty swell Peep911:lol thanks evelyn punk4eva:i really like talking to you Peep911:yeah it's okay, i guess =p punk4eva:im really glad we sat next to each other in history last year lol punk4eva:although i feel like theres alot about you i still dont know Peep911:stuff like what? punk4eva:just random stuff, hey lets play a game!! punk4eva:i get to ask a question about whatever, then you get to ask a question Peep911:alright, ask awaay punk4eva:and just ask what comes to mind first! punk4eva:if you take too long, itll just be my turn again :p punk4eva:are you ready? Peep911:yeah absolutely! punk4eva:ill start with an easy one, do you remember my favorite kind of movie? Peep911:it was horror, right? punk4eva:yupyupp! i knew youd remember :) punk4eva:now its your turn, quick! ask me anythingg Peep911:hmm, what's your favorite dessert? punk4eva:brownies and ice cream! omg now im hungryy punk4eva:lets seee, have you ever snuck out of your house? Peep911:yeah, a few times, to go hang out with friends and stuff punk4eva:oh shit you bad ass! punk4eva:your turn agaain Peep911:how about the same question back at you punk4eva:snuck out? oh yeah! i just did this past weekend :p punk4eva:alright, lets get serious, do you have a crush on anyone? Peep911:not really i don't think punk4eva:oooh really? punk4eva:im not sure if i should belieeve that :p Peep911:do you have feelings for anyone? and if yes, who? punk4eva:unfaair, thats like two questions in one! Peep911:you can only answer the first one if you want? punk4eva:youre a cheaater but ill answer both :p punk4eva:feelings? i dont know maybe? its kind of complicated Peep911:how is it complicated? punk4eva:i dont know, me and this person have history together Peep911:what kind of history? punk4eva:idk, a messy one punk4eva:steve myers, you know him right? Peep911:is that the fake id guy? punk4eva:yeah, me and him dated for alot of my sophomore and junior year punk4eva:it got pretty serious and i definitely think i loved him punk4eva:then he was going off to college so he broke up with me last winter Peep911:yeah, that does sound complicated punk4eva:yeah, complicated and confusing punk4eva:like, im getting over him, its just weird lol Peep911:are you like off and on? punk4eva:nah definitely not punk4eva:its just that the feelings still hang around punk4eva:when it worked, we were a really good couple Peep911:was he your first boyfriend? punk4eva:i mean yeah, my first real boyfriend punk4eva:like he was the first person i ever had sex with Peep911:have you had any relationships since him? punk4eva:i mean, i had like a fling this past summer punk4eva:but nothing as serious as steve obviously Peep911:what kind of fling? punk4eva:idk, not even like a relationship punk4eva:we fooled around, but like, it was fun not serious, you know? punk4eva:tyler, if you dont mind me asking, have you ever had sex? Peep911:no, i haven't punk4eva:oh okay, well can you still understand what i mean? Peep911:yeah, i understand punk4eva:not alot of people know, but me and steve had these plans for our future punk4eva:so being together felt like a big deal Peep911:what kind of plans? punk4eva:its gonna sound really stupid, dont judge me okay? Peep911:of course i'm not going to judge you punk4eva:so, i thought wed go to the same college together punk4eva:and then maybe idk, get married, start a family, whatever Peep911:that sounds normal, it's not wrong to want something punk4eva:it just feels silly now, thinking about it punk4eva:but i think thats why its been hard to get over the breakup Peep911:yeah, i can definitely understand that punk4eva:i think i still want that future, even without steve punk4eva:but maybe thats silly Peep911:you have so much time, that future is still definitely in reach! punk4eva:i just think people think its stupid when i talk about it Peep911:it's your life, you can do whatever you want punk4eva:thanks tyler, youve really made me feel alot better :) punk4eva:what are your plans after college, do you want a family? Peep911:sure, i think so. settling down sounds pretty great punk4eva:right! im so glad you dont think its weird punk4eva:i feel like i sound silly when i talk about it Peep911:it's not weird at all punk4eva:thanks so much for letting me rant about this punk4eva:hey! i just remembered, its still my turn to ask you a question! Peep911:what! we're still playing? punk4eva:oh, heres a good one! punk4eva:would you ever date someone like me? Peep911:lol i don't know, i uh maybe? punk4eva:lol, alright :p punk4eva:your turn, last question, dont fuck it up! Peep911:uh, are you getting tired? punk4eva:yooo, what were you gonna say, i saw you delete some shit Peep911:i was asking the same question as you punk4eva:we have the same life plan punk4eva:but we have different tastes in music and stuff punk4eva:and you havent been in a serious relationship yet punk4eva:so idk, maybe? punk4eva:youre a really good friend, and i dont want to lose that Peep911:hey thanks =p punk4eva:oh wow, its getting late huh punk4eva:and i still want to shoower before bed Peep911:seriously, time flies! punk4eva:ik, seriously! punk4eva:im gonna goo, but tonight was really fun Peep911:it was aaight punk4eva:goodnight tyler! Peep911:g'night evelyn punk4evais away punk4evai know who i was, when i got up this morning, but i think i must have been changed, several times since then alice Chat Log #3 Emily IM History with emerz35Saturday, January 20, 2007 emerz35:ty! heyy Peep911:helloo emerz35:how areyou! Peep911:same old same old, you? emerz35:im gradn! heyy,you shoud listenn to som musicc with mee! Peep911:haha okay, suree thing emerz35:youtoob.com/watch?v=AS5-lXv_xUc emerz35:its manchester ochestra!! Peep911:yeah, i know them! emerz35:arent theygreat! emerz35:woah its snooowing outt! do yuu like snow? Peep911:i guess i do, haven't thought about it much emerz35:i havee haha, i love skeddung emerz35:hahah, sledding, my badd Peep911:oh no worries emerz35:im sorryy for all my spelling mistakes Peep911:hey no offense, but are you drunk? emerz35:haha oh nooo, is it that obvious? iam a littel Peep911:haha nice =p, i thought you said you didn't drink? emerz35:thingss change i guess! emerz35:because im drinking tonught xD Peep911:just pace yourself, have you ever been drunk before? emerz35:a fewtimes, but never this drunk befre emerz35:i wonder if ill get a hnagoverr tomorrow Peep911:just make sure to drink a lot of water! emerz35:thanks fo the tiopp! Peep911:so, why did you start drinking? emerz35:celebrating something i guess! Peep911:you didn't invite me! what are you celebrating? emerz35:uhhh, just how shit everything is lol. Peep911:milly, what do you mean? emerz35:do you actuallly wnt to talkk about it? Peep911:sure thing! what's bothering you? emerz35:im feeling alittle stuck Peep911:stuck? how do you mean? emerz35:just like nothing ido matters, you know? Peep911:i know that feeling emerz35:i just dont know what to do to fix it Peep911:have you tried changing things up? emerz35:ive tried, but everything kindof stays the samee emerz35:itsjust really frustrating Peep911:is it jeff that's bothering you? emerz35:yeah, i thinkhes like the roott of it Peep911:the root of it? how so? emerz35:were just so static emerz35:i want us to change, i just don't know what to do Peep911:you could take a break? emerz35:yeah, i think thats the answer Peep911:did something happen? emerz35:i mean, nothing in particular, ive felt this way for a while Peep911:just tell him how you feel! emerz35:i try to, like i even brought it up last night Peep911:what happened last night? emerz35:i'll tell you, but this stuff needs to stay secret okay? Peep911:of course, just promise me you'll stop drinking milly emerz35:okay, but believe me, i have good reason to be drinking. Peep911:i'm sure you do, it's just dangerous is all emerz35:so truth is, i've wanted to break up with jeff for a while. emerz35:i tried to last night, but he just refused. Peep911:wait he refused? what? emerz35:i'll start from the begining. emerz35:i think i realized we weren't working in like november. Peep911:did something specific happen? emerz35:not really, it was more of a bunch of little things. Peep911:why did you wait so long? emerz35:i don't know, it's going to sound stupid. emerz35:but there was just never a good time. emerz35:what the fuck? are you even there? Peep911:fuck, i'm sorry emerz35:why weren't you responding? Peep911:i'm talking to someone else that needs me too emerz35:who? why do they need you? Peep911:i can't say, it's their secret emerz35:well it's clear where i stand in your mind. emerz35:you know, i guess i was wrong about us, and about you. Peep911:you weren't wrong about us emerz35has signed out Bullshit Timer Crap That Literally Slowed Down My Typing ON A TIMER (#3 in a nutshell) Chat Log #3 Evelyn

IM History with punk4eva Saturday, January 20, 2007 punk4eva:hey Peep911:greetings evelyn! punk4eva:what are you up to? Peep911:just hanging out, you? punk4eva:just listening to some music Peep911:what band are you listening to? punk4eva:youtoob.com/watch?v=jRehmX3zlwE punk4eva:just a warning, its a pretty emo song Peep911:but it's still good! why are you listenining to it? punk4eva:i just am feeling really down Peep911:is everything like, okay? punk4eva:everythings whatever, today just really sucked punk4eva:youre the first person im talking to all day Peep911:what have you been up to today? punk4eva:i was trying to get better, but i can tell im not fun to talk to right now Peep911:oh come on, i don't care about that punk4eva:but i do, and right now im just like stupidly emotional Peep911:emotions aren't stupid, don't feel the need to repress them punk4eva:thanks tyler, im just feeling so sad and worthless Peep911:it'll be okay evelyn, i'm sure the feelings will pass punk4eva:lets hope, im just ready for today to endd Peep911:well its already night! punk4eva:my brain just wont stop, id really appreciate it if it would fuck off Peep911:you could take a hot shower? punk4eva:yeah, that could help, at least talking to you is making me feel better Peep911:keep talking, is something going on? punk4eva:yeah, it's still a mess in my head punk4eva:i might just need to vent about it Peep911:yeah, maybe that could help punk4eva:are you sure tyler? its just a whole bunch of shit Peep911:well did something happen? punk4eva:its just been a shit day, im all alone Peep911:you're not alone though! punk4eva:thanks tyler, im sorry im such a mess Peep911:it's really okay, i don't mind punk4eva:its just embaressing, i dont want to be like this punk4eva:like fuck, now im starting to cry like an idiot Peep911:talk to me, what's going on? punk4eva:i dont know, i thought this bullshit was over but i guess not Peep911:is this about steve? punk4eva:of course you could tell, yeah it is Peep911:does he still come back on weekends? punk4eva:yeah he does, i see him around all the time Peep911:what does he say to you? punk4eva:we dont really talk, i dont care though lol punk4eva:im very much over him Peep911:great to hear! you deserve way better punk4eva:thanks, hes even more of an asshole now Peep911:i didn't even think that could be possible punk4eva:i know right, fuuuuck him punk4eva:yo? you even around? Peep911:sorry, i just had to do a thing punk4eva:are you busy with something? maybe i should just go Peep911:i don't want you to go! tell me what's going on punk4eva:okay, you just have to promise to not tell anyone Peep911:i promise, my lips are sealed punk4eva:well, something really stupid happened last night punk4eva:and surprise, steves part of it Peep911:stupid? what happened? punk4eva:jackie was throwing a party, so i was there hanging out punk4eva:and of course he showed up too, because hes back like every weekend Peep911:what did he do? punk4eva:idk, he was being different, it was weird punk4eva:like usually we see each other but dont really talk punk4eva:last night he came right over to me the second he got there Peep911:what'd he say? punk4eva:not much at first, just like small talk stuff punk4eva:he told me about college, how its going, how hes got a new girlfriend Peep911:hows college going? punk4eva:yeah, he told me all about classes and his new friends punk4eva:but like, he started talking about our break up, it was this month last year Peep911:what about your break up? punk4eva:just that it was a mistake how he handled it punk4eva:basically a whole bunch of bullshit Peep911:you don't think he meant it? punk4eva:idk, it was hard to tell punk4eva:like, ive gotten over steve punk4eva:but it was nice to talk about everything Peep911:did you get some closure? punk4eva:kind of, people kept like interupting us though punk4eva:we ended up ditching and going outside to be alone Peep911:why did you ditch the party? punk4eva:just to be somewhere we could talk? punk4eva:it was just really nice to like, close that chapter of my life Peep911:yeah, closure can be great punk4eva:but then the dude tried to kiss me! Peep911:wait whaat the fuck steve? punk4eva:i know, what the fuck is right! punk4eva:i pushed him back, but he grabbed me and leaned in again Peep911:holy shit, what happened then? punk4eva:i was so mad, i punched him and just started yelling at him Peep911:good, what an idiot! punk4eva:he started shouting back, saying that i was toying with him punk4eva:then he fucked off back to the party with everyone Peep911:ugh, he has a girlfriend too punk4eva:i know! so i ended up just walking home punk4eva:but thats not even the worst part Peep911:oh no, what happened? punk4eva:so i wake up this morning to jackie asking me what happened last night punk4eva:apparently steve went back to the party and told everyone about us punk4eva:and he said that I TRIED TO KISS HIM Peep911:what a fucking dickhead! punk4eva:i know right! jackie said everyone felt bad for him punk4eva:people were even consoling him about it because he was worried about his girlfriend Peep911:what does jackie think? punk4eva:she didnt know what was going on, i never responded to her punk4eva:but now all my friends are mad at me Peep911:some at least have to see it's bullshit punk4eva:i just feel like such an idiot, i should have seen it coming Peep911:oh stop, you're not an idiot punk4eva:im just really worried i lost my friends Peep911:don't worry, i'm sure it'll be okay punk4eva:im sorry for being so weak and pathetic in front of you Peep911:shit happens! everyone has these kind of days punk4eva:thanks alot for letting me vent punk4eva:what do you think about the whole situation? Peep911:steve's an asshole, plain and simple punk4eva:thanks, im glad you think so too punk4eva:what should i do about him? Peep911:you should call him out on the shit he pulled punk4eva:call him out about it? like how? Peep911:the more public the better, people should see how pissed you are punk4eva:okay, ill call him out punk4eva:and what should i do about my friends? Peep911:tell them the truth about what happened punk4eva:do you think theyll believe me? Peep911:that's on them, giving them the choice is the important thing punk4eva:okay, ill tell them the truth too punk4eva:thanks for helping me with all this tyler Peep911:of course evelyn, i'm always here for you punk4eva:im really glad i was able to talk to you about it all punk4eva:you give pretty good advice =p Peep911:im not liable for that advice by the wayy =p punk4eva:well it helped me figure things out! punk4eva:i was an emotional wreck lol Peep911:oh come on, you were finee punk4eva:seriously tho, tonight was really nice of you Peep911:hey, don't mention it punk4eva:just dont like, go anywhere okay? Peep911:lol where would i go! punk4eva:youre such a genuine person punk4eva:its not often you find someone like that, you know? Peep911:stoopp lol, youre awesome too punk4eva:i guess its no secret that you mean alot to me punk4eva:like i dont really know what to call us Peep911:yeah, i don't really know either punk4eva:do you think were like, more than just friends? Peep911:i feel like we're just really close punk4eva:yeah, at this point i think im closer to you than like, anyone else Peep911:closer than even jackie? punk4eva:yeah, i think so punk4eva:guess that makes you my beeest friend lol Peep911:hey i guess so! punk4eva:we just needd one of those matching heart necklaces now! Peep911:no wayy! are you serious? punk4eva::p, hey! maybe we could hang out tomorrow? punk4eva:itd be so niice to not think about this drama Peep911:suure thing, what do you wanna do? punk4eva:idk, maybe hang out and just watch a movie or something? punk4eva:you could bring your favorite comedy movies over Peep911:but i thought you didn't like those? punk4eva:maybe i just need to watch some good ones! punk4eva:oh man, are you tiredd? Peep911:yeah a littlee, are you? punk4eva:oh yeah! i think i might call it a night punk4eva:but ill see you tomorrow, right! Peep911:most definitely! punk4eva:g'night tyler! Peep911:g'night evelyn! punk4evais away punk4evasail with me into the setting sun the battle has been won, but war has just begun

Btw I didn’t want to be stuck with the best friends thing, I wanted normal friends, but no fuck you user EITHER BEST FRIENDS/LOVERS OR LONER TOWN! Besides the lack of diversity in choices in some sections and that timer slow down crap... the game was pretty damn good.

Chat Log #4 Evelyn

IM History with punk4eva Sunday, April 22, 2007 punk4eva:hey best frann! Peep911:hii evelyn! punk4eva:i know we already chilled today, but i miss yaa! Peep911:lol, you dorkk! punk4eva:psshh, if anyones the dork its you! :p punk4eva:so what are youu up to? Peep911:absolutely nothingg, you? punk4eva:well, i shouldd work on this writing project due tomorrow Peep911:lol, its due tomorrow!? punk4eva:aahhh i know! im the worstt, we have to write a poem Peep911:is there like a prompt for it? punk4eva:yeah but its superr vague, what should i write about? Peep911:i dunno, some deep shitt or something punk4eva:lol okay, i think i can do thatt, i really like this class Peep911:hopefully an easy a too :p, anyone i would know in it? punk4eva:i dont think so? i didnt know anyone punk4eva:but some of the people in it are pretty cool Peep911:sounds like a good last semester class :p punk4eva:oh yo! guess what? Peep911:chicken butt! punk4eva:lolol :p punk4eva:ive been trying to get into alternative because its your favorite punk4eva:and i found a song thats like halfway there! Peep911:what do you mean halfway? punk4eva:check it out! punk4eva:youtoob.com/watch?v=iJ62E8yv-Tc Peep911:lol well, at least you tried your best :p punk4eva:lol, hey thanks! :p punk4eva:oh mann, jackies blowing up my phone right now Peep911:uh ohh, whats it about? punk4eva:oh nothing crazy, shes trying to plan a big party Peep911:what kind of party? punk4eva:an antiprom party, shes going all out Peep911:oh cool, there going to be lots of drinking? punk4eva:im sure lol, i dont know if i want to go tho Peep911:because your old friends will be there? punk4eva:nahh, its just the same night as prom punk4eva:what would you want to do? Peep911:lets skip that prom shitt togetherr punk4eva:lol, sounds good to me :p punk4eva:im jazzedd for our antiprom escapade! Peep911:you dorkk :p punk4eva:what should we do instead do you think? Peep911:lets go the movies! punk4eva:yeah! lets do it! punk4eva:what do you want to see? Peep911:how about a horror movie, theyre your favorite right? punk4eva:yes they are, that sounds swell! punk4eva:should we try and convince other people to come with us? Peep911:yeah! anyone can come, the more the merrierr punk4eva:okay cool! maybe itll be a pre jackies party thing Peep911:yeah, ill invite some friends too! punk4eva:were gonna have a huge group, this will be great :p punk4eva:hey, do you mind if i bring up something semi-serious? Peep911:hey, im always being serious! punk4eva:i just really wanted to thank you for helping me with steve drama this winter punk4eva:i really needed you, and you were there for me Peep911:dont thank me, it was really nothing! punk4eva:it was definitely something! come on punk4eva:your advice to call steve out and tell my friends the truth was incredible Peep911:did your friends believe you when you told them the truth? punk4eva:yeah they did, i mean steve was a predictable asshole punk4eva:he kind of broke away from our group after that punk4eva:but enough about that, i just wanted to say it meant alot to me Peep911:it was really no problem! punk4eva:its just so nice knowing youre real punk4eva:that youre still around, even though you know the real me punk4eva:and i know the real you Peep911:of course im around! punk4eva:you know its stupid, i used to think we were incompatible punk4eva:for reasons like, you were a virgin and i wasnt punk4eva:but its really actions that matter, not stupid stuff like that Peep911:yeah, people can get hung up on opinions too much punk4eva:and i was one of those people until i came to! punk4eva:im just really happy to call you my best friend Peep911:oh shush youu :p punk4eva:finee :) punk4eva:hey, check it out! i finished my writing project! punk4eva:is this 'deep' enough for you? Peep911:it is really deep, im trying to figure it all out punk4eva:dont try too hard lol, i kinda just made it up as i went punk4eva:that was my last bit of homework! noww i can go to bedd Peep911:are you reaally tired? punk4eva:oh yeah, suuper tired punk4eva:i just cant wait to get super comfy and warm under some coverss :) Peep911:oh yeah, that does sound nicee punk4eva:riight! my beds calling for me Peep911:you uhhh, should get that looked at punk4eva:what? you cant hear inanimate objects? punk4eva:you uhhh, should get that looked at~ punk4eva:okay, i think im going to turn inn now Peep911:sleep tight! punk4eva:goodnight tyler! Peep911:g'night evelyn! punk4evais away punk4evaill face myself, erase myself, and let go of what ive done

Extra Chat Log #2 Evelyn’s Poem

the sun it envelops me whole while surrounding my soul and i cant wade out

the moon it shines through the blinds reminds me of times but i cant see out

the stars stuck in the sky telling a lie that i cant figure

Chat Log #4 Emily IM History with emerz35 Sunday, April 22, 2007 emerz35has signed in emerz35:hi. Peep911:hey emerz35:i know we haven't talked like, in a while. Peep911:i know but no worries emerz35:could we like, talk for a little bit? Peep911:of course! emerz35:thanks. emerz35:i just want to say some stuff about january. Peep911:okay, im listening emerz35:i'm really soory for getting mad at you. Peep911:its okay, in the past now emerz35:i know you didn't like owe me anything. emerz35:i just thought you'd be there for me. i don't know. Peep911:i just couldnt be there right then emerz35:i understand. emerz35:were you like, really busy talking to someone else? Peep911:yeah, i was talking to someone else that needed me emerz35:okay, i was just worried you like, didn't want to deal with me or something. Peep911:it really wasnt something like that emerz35:i was just feeling really lost and you were there. emerz35:and i guess maybe i unloaded too much baggage like all at once. Peep911:you were drinking, thats what drunk people do, its okay emerz35:oh god i know. i just feel so embarresed for it. emerz35:like whenever we talked, you were always so composed. emerz35:and here i was just being a complete mess. Peep911:hey i can be shit too, everyone can be emily emerz35:thank you so much for talking to me tyler. Peep911:hey, dont mention it emerz35:so i guess we're officially talking again? Peep911:lol, it would seem soo emerz35:i'm glad, it's been a while. Peep911:so what have you been up to? emerz35:a lot kinda! emerz35:me and jeff finally broke up like a month ago. emerz35:and yeah, it's been really nice being single. Peep911:he didnt refuse again? emerz35:oh no, he did, but this time i was ready! emerz35:and now college is coming up soonn! Peep911:so youre basically wiping the slate clean? emerz35:that's the plan! i have met some new friends though. emerz35:one of them i think you know pretty well? Peep911:oh really? who? emerz35:haha, just your best friend evelyn. emerz35:she's really grand! Peep911:you two are friends now? how? emerz35:she's in my writing class this semester, she just sat next to me one day. emerz35:jeff's in that class too, so it was really nice of her. Peep911:lol, that was really nice of her emerz35:it was! emerz35:she seems like such a good person. Peep911:hey, youre a good person too! emerz35:haha =p emerz35:well i'm glad you're doing well! emerz35:and i'm really glad we're messaging again. Peep911:yeah, its been way too long! emerz35:it really has! emerz35:sorry if this is getting sappy haha. Peep911:lol it really is ya loserr emerz35:you're the loserr! emerz35:honestly, i really missed talking to you. Peep911:not talking was pretty weirdd emerz35:i think what i missed most was just talking about nothing, if that makes sense? Peep911:you know, you do like to ramble :p emerz35:hey! i take offense to that! Peep911:i take offense to you taking offensee emerz35:hahah emerz35:yeah this, i've missed this =p Peep911:well this aint going nowhere milly emerz35:uh, sorry, do you think you could just call me emily? Peep911:oh, i guess so emily emerz35:thank you. emerz35:well, i dont wan't to steal your whole night, so i think i'm going to go. Peep911:oh okay, suree thing emerz35:thanks for talking to me though, it means a lot. Peep911:dont mention it! emerz35:dueces. Peep911:peace emerz35is away emerz35d is for.. delightful. Chat Log #5 Emily

IM History with emerz35Monday, June 25, 2007 emerz35:hey tyler Peep911:heyy emily! emerz35:what are you up to? Peep911:just downloading new musicc, how about you? emerz35:i'm getting some stuff ready for college actually. emerz35:summer's flying by haha. have you started getting ready yet? Peep911:yeah some stuff, but not a lot really emerz35:haha no worries, you have time. i'm getting really excited for it. Peep911:excited because youre moving out? emerz35:yeah, that's definitely part of it. emerz35:mostly i think i'm excited for a fresh start you know? emerz35:i can't wait to leave highschool behind =p Peep911:you dont think youll miss it at all? emerz35:honestly, i don't think i'll miss any of it. emerz35:are you excited for college? Peep911:kind of? it should be fun but ill miss things emerz35:yeah, but i'm sure close friends like you and evelyn can get through it. Peep911:i didnt say anything about evelyn? emerz35:come on, we've been friends for how long? i know you're thinking about her. emerz35:how is she by the way? Peep911:same old same old, were both happy its finally summer emerz35:oh! and here she is now. emerz35:i'll let you go so you can talk to her. Peep911:okay see ya emerz35:goodbye. emerz35is away

Chat Log #5 Evelyn

IM History with punk4eva Monday, June 25, 2007 punk4evahas signed in punk4eva:yoo! punk4eva:i was hoping you were online :) Peep911:yo, wish granted! punk4eva:lol, how are you? Peep911:im alrightt, how are you? punk4eva:im pretty alright tooo, just chillin punk4eva:what are you up to? Peep911:just on the computer, about to put on some musicc punk4eva:coool, what kind of music? Peep911:punk rockk obviously! punk4eva:awesomesaucee! send me a link so i can listen tooo Peep911:youtoob.com/watch?v=SBjQ9tuuTJQ punk4eva:new foo fighters? i havent heard this yet! punk4eva:oh man, i really like this song! Peep911:lol, theyre seriously the best punk4eva:they really are! punk4eva:aww man, i cant wait to hang out tomorroww Peep911:oh, were hanging out tomorrow? i forgott :p punk4eva:lol shut upp, thank god its finally summerr Peep911:i knooww, so happy schools outt punk4eva:that reminds me! youll never guess who i talked to earlier today Peep911:well given enought tries i probably could :p punk4eva:lol, okay suree you could punk4eva:but really, i talked to emily, from my writing class last semester? Peep911:oh yeah, i remember that punk4eva:apparently you two used to be really close? Peep911:yeah we used to be, a long time ago punk4eva:thats too bad, sounded like you were really good friends punk4eva:she had alot of really nice things to say about you :) Peep911:shes just really nice :p punk4eva:i dont think she was just being nice though punk4eva:i will admit, at first i was kind of worried Peep911:you were worried? punk4eva:i dont know, i guess im just used to people trying to manipulate me punk4eva:like how steve used to be with me Peep911:what a fucking jerk punk4eva:seriouslyy, its just nice to know youre real punk4eva:you didnt fabricate a persona just to get close to me or something Peep911:of course not, thatd be stupid punk4eva:i know, i think sometimes people obsess over details like that punk4eva:as if good friends need to have the same opinion about everything punk4eva:but honesty is the most important thing, i think Peep911:yeah, i agree, dont want a friendship built on lies punk4eva:yeah, exactly punk4eva:sorry, i didnt mean to derail the conversation lol Peep911:lol, you didnt! punk4eva:im just really lucky to call you my best friend Peep911:oh, shut upp lol, youre too nice punk4eva:you know what i was thinking about earlier today? punk4eva:our antiprom shenanigans :p Peep911:we always have the best shenanigans! punk4eva:we do! skipping prom was swell punk4eva:going to the movies instead was awesomesaucee Peep911:i do love those motion picture shows! punk4eva:im really glad we were able to spend so much time together :) punk4eva:that was honestly one of the best nights of my life Peep911:i think it was one of the best nights of mine too punk4eva:senior year turned out pretty great, huh? Peep911:id certainly say so :) punk4eva:i wish we were headed to the same college :\ Peep911:im sure everything will be fine punk4eva:are you nervous about it at all? Peep911:yeah, of course i am punk4eva:whats making you nervous? Peep911:im nervous about like, meeting people and finding new friends punk4eva:whaat? take it from me, youre really good at making new friends punk4eva:i think im most worried about losing touch with close friends from high school Peep911:yeah, i feel like everyones worried about that punk4eva:well stay in touch right? Peep911:im going to try my best, thats for sure! punk4eva:at least we can IM or text like, whenever Peep911:hopefully thatll include your famous drunk texts! punk4eva:its just going to be weird not seeing you everyday, you know? punk4eva:i just dont want to lose you Peep911:ill always be here if you need me punk4eva:you just really understand me, better than anyone ive ever known punk4eva:lol, even people ive been in a relationship with Peep911:were just really great friends, you get me and i get you punk4eva:i guess so, you just make for a great best friend Peep911:lol thanks, i do try :p punk4eva:im so glad i met you tyler :) Peep911:aww thanks evelyn punk4eva:like really, youve helped me so much this past year punk4eva:and youve just been so kind and honest with me punk4eva:youre the greatest person ive ever met Peep911:lol, aww thanks :) youre too nice punk4eva::), okay im gonna turn in for the night punk4eva:ill text you first thing tomorrow though, okay? Peep911:okay, talk to you tomorrow! punk4evais away punk4evaits out there are you coming?

This is where the credits roll and the game is over! :D

Next will be links that were posted in the chat /w additional stuff I found.

.http://emilyisaway.com/facenook/emerz353/ http://emilyisaway.com/facenook/emerz35/note/

http://emilyisaway.com/facenook/punk4eva http://emilyisaway.com/facenook/punk4eva/note/

http://emilyisaway.com/google/alice/ http://emilyisaway.com/google/sally/

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdXJ0cQuO8Lt04hSdhf25a10Awl9YHTmaODk4Cu5Takwj_ZBQ/viewform http://emilyisaway.com/badassbuddy/page1/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/0fwLvHR7Rgw/ http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/KmtzQCSh6xk/ http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/D2kJZOfq7zk/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/fk1Q9y6VVy0Y/ http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/3MxcbB0SFao/ http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/y7tBuRRqoJQ/ http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/NDHY1D0tKRA/ Really liked this one. http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/9zdNdjF-htY/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/vi_VCnuY2AU/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/ojLgN7wqc5A/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/AS5-lXv_xUc/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/jRehmX3zlwE/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/SBjQ9tuuTJQ/ Blast from the past this one is lol. I prefer Infected Mushrooms cover, but still love this song. http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/iJ62E8yv-Tc/

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/kfVsfOSbJY0/ I got fucking meme’d.

http://emilyisaway.com/youtoob/FlogJqMFaYA/ The music they send you for the credits scene.

Now for screenshots!

I know someone by this same username... wat da faaaaaaaaaaaq

Haaaa

Best DUck http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938290389

"I then proceeded to shout in my head "DORK" after saying I am always serious. This was followed by uncontrollable laughter."  http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938291900

"Wait is there something wrong with me? AM I THE WRONG ONE!? IS INANIMATE HALLUCINATIONS A NORMAL THING! I DIDN'T HAVE TO HIDE IT ALL ALONG?!" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938293597

"I got that reference!" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938291016

"EN GARDE!" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938293896

"I didn't even look at the other options. fuck that guy." http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938294291

"chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiled" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938294998

"CHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILED" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938294735

"fucking Matatat1 got me god damn it." http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938295364

"I KEPT MY NEUTRALITY! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~!" http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938295990

Credits Roll. http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=938296340

I’d give this game a solid 7/10. Actually grade wise, not bs grade were 7 is meh. 5 = meh, 7 = great. Great game, few strong flaws, but still good.

[allinsgaywitchaesthetic-moved]

literally no one asked for this and i was bored so heres monsta x as a jazz combo under the cut

shownu

sax player, brass/winds leader

plays every single saxophone known to man + clarinet, flute, and p much every other wind instrument ?? like how?????

hes amazing thats how

so so so dedicated but like

where kihyun is like …. aggressively dedicated shownu is more relaxed abt it

like kihyun plays more but shownu listens more and analyzes more sort of??

thats why hes the leader

has a very good understanding of different styles and how to break them down

just perceptive musically

also really good at imitating specific styles

always has extra valve oil and grease and strings and sticks in his bag it’s ridiculous the thing probably weighs like 30 pounds

he doesn’t really have a specific music taste?? like hes just not picky

also too compliant for his own good …

minhyuk showed up at rehearsal once like “shownu, lets play death metal!!”  and shownu was just like “ok sounds good”

also doesn’t really like to be super assertive so he’ll usually suggest articulations and phrasings rather than saying “tongue this note and slur that”

everyone listens to him anyways tho because he’s right

not really tonally or rhythmically inclined tbh hes just good all around

hes really flexible stylistically and likes to play in lots of different styles

loves bob florence, john coltrane, ellington, but will listen to everything

likes to challenge himself w rhythms bc hes pretty good at them!!

he gets really anxious before performances tho and it definitely reflects in his playing :(

kihyun

trumpet!!! lead trumpet!!!!

his sound is really sharp (like cutting? almost) and strong and honestly??? the most beautiful thing uve ever heard

probably a prodigy tbh

he isnt leader tho like just bc he plays the ~visually most important~ instrument doesn’t mean hes in charge lol

always attentive, has like 3 pencils on him at all times, records rehearsals, Model Musician tbh

tonally inclined

eats, drinks, and breathes long tones

can’t sleep?? long tones

hungry?? long tones

bored?? long tones

i.m: hey kihyun whats the answer for question 11?

kihyun: long tones, changkyun. the answer is always long tones

i.m, in the background: im a guitarist????

his range is ridiculous bc of this

loves ballads!!! especially basie ballads like little darling bc he can just … drag out his beautiful sound like theres no tomorrow

probably doesn’t like a lot of contemporary jazz but plays it to challenge himself

also loves thad jones, miles davis, jalc (modern groups playing old jazz make him happy!!) and jazz vocalists - frank sinatra, cecile mclorin savant, etc.

biggest weakness is probably the fact that he doesn’t listen as much as he should so he doesn’t always grasp style well :(

shownu: kihyun listen to this recording!

kihyun: i can’t ,, im playing rn .. ., gotta go fast

minhyuk

hes a trombone player and no one can tell me other wise

this is bc trombones are the worst and so is minhyuk

shownu: alright everyone lets start at measure 39

minhyuk: *slides around on the trombone* how about i solo for 30 measures instead

never fuckingf listens

but hes not a bad player!! hes just .. an unstoppable force of nature .. .,

his sound is really warm and broad but occasionally sounds a little muffled

esp when hes lazy or doesn’t like the piece theyre working on

tbh don’t even expect him to try if he doesnt like the music ur playing

tonally inclined

hates long tones, has never done them in his life probably??

bc of that his range isn’t super big but his sound is really strong and powerful

kihyun works w him on long tones bc ‘minhyuk!!! ur range is holding us back,, please!!’

prefers up tempo funk or latin tunes but doesn’t like super complicated rhythms

loves gordon goodwin and the brecker brothers to bits …

will blast them while showering :)

really impatient as a musician

like he cant focus for super long periods of time and he cant sit through all of those long rehearsals so his playing suffers bc of that

he practices better in small groups than alone bc the other members help him focus better so he gets more done~

i.m

guitarist

hes the only guitarist u will ever meet who shows up on time to rehearsal… amazing

its rlly relaxing to watch him play hes just really confident n comfortable w his style of playing bc hes p flexible and he loves jazz a lot bc its so different and complicated as a genre!!!

has read every single jazz autobiography and watched every single jazz movie known to man

rhythmically inclined

he, hyungwon, and jooheon just .. have rhythm clapping competitions where they see who can clap the most complicated rhythms for the longest amount of time …. theyre a trip

plays clappingmusic on his phone when hes bored and has converted the entire band to it

fuckin loves free jazz and fusion!!!!  and contemporary jazz

he, hyungwon, and jooheon just hang out listening to ornette coleman, charles mingus, chick corea - its a great time

(hyungwon hates ornette coleman but he wont tell changkyun bc he doesn’t want to break his heart :( )

hes a sucker for like .. old romantic sounding jazz

he plays through his real book every couple of days- he really loves the classics too

loves wes montgomery

hes the bands treasure; you make fun of a lick he played?? u wont see the light of day . …

his biggest weakness is he has troubles communicating with the other group members like w eye contact and tempo changes and stuff

also gets lost in the middle of pieces sometimes bc hes a little spacey n he worries :(

wonho

pianist, rhythm section leader

naturally bouncy style, very swingy - he’s a natural, also possibly a prodigy?

won a bunch of classical music competitions when he was a kid but then he realized he liked jazz more so he switched over

the biggest jazz history nerd!! just knows a lot of random facts about all the composers

favorite facts include: billy strayhorn was gay and mingus punched his lead bone player in the mouth (hyungwons response ‘youre next minhyuk’ always makes him laugh)

buys food for everyone before rehearsal

always trying to help everyone become more confident and happy with their own musical abilities

helps everyone rehearse by doing 1-on-1 stuff if they need it

probably plays in elderly homes and in orphanages to help the kids

also not really rhythmically/tonally inclined hes just good

rlly likes jazz-inspired classical music and like … jazz movie soundtracks

watches jazz movies with changkyun

also likes ragtime, second line, dixieland … all those old exciting jazz movements bc theyre so fun to play!!!

he isn’t very confident in his playing like he knows hes good but he doubts himself a lot so he lets other people’s preferences control him??

like if someone doesn’t like something abt a solo of his he’ll change to appease them, even if he likes it a lot :(

hyungwon

bassist

plays both upright and electric

really smooth long sound on both instruments - his entire style feels very relaxed

honestly was dragged into this by minhyuk without knowing what jazz really was but he really grew to like it!!

loves his role as a bassist bc hes important but like … behind the scenes important >:)

most people don’t think abt the bassist at all in the band but hyungwon Knows that hes important so hes ok w that

definitely doesn’t know how to work his own equipment like

quarter inches?? amp head??? what r those he just doesn’t know

he and jooheon always argue about the best way to do a fill and tempo and anything else under the sun bc theyre both stubborn and think theyre right

wonho is the only one that can make it stop

hyungwon probably shows up late to rehearsal w like … cup ramen and a book someone help him

the book is a jazz autobiography and he discusses it w changkyun after rehearsal over coffee

hes rhythmically inclined and loves to challenge himself w odd meters and weird fingerings

he doesn’t necessarily like that kind of music though?? like hell play it to challenge himself but he won’t always like it and won’t really listen to it

loves every single bassist known to man

esp victor wooten, mingus, esperanza spalding, ron carter

he hates jaco tho bc jaco is an asshole

minhyuk: but mingus was also an asshole??

hyungwon: shhhhhhh mingus was a special kind of asshole so its ok

will honestly just listen to entire bass concerts

loves cool jazz and bebop

hes really … absorbed in his own playing because he throws himself into it and wants his walking to be good and he wants to be in time and all these other things so when hes playing he sometimes ignores the rest of the group bc hes trying so hard to sound good

hes a lil bit of a worrier internally and its gets in the way of the confidence of his playing

also procrastinates on his deadlines like theres no tomorrow lol

jooheon

drummer!!!!

carries at least 3 pairs of sticks, brushes, and a practice pad with him at all times

he??? drums in the bath room sometimes????? you’ll just walk by and hear vague slapping noises like ‘oh thats just jooheon! hes working on his rudiments’ :)

one of those 3 pairs of drumsticks is broken and taped together so that it doesn’t fall apart tbh

wants to bring back jazz rap

also rlly likes electroswing and jazz trap

just give him jazz thats influenced by new technologies in music !! he loves it

rhythmically inclined - especially likes playing in odd meters

his fills and hits are always so in-time it’s ridiculous

loves don ellis and buddy rich

his jazz playlist is 50% all of the standard jazz he needs and the other 50% is like thess tracks from single composers that have been dead 20 years w no meter or are in like 17/8 or something

jokes abt having 'perfect click’ all the time like

jooheon: you know perfect pitch??? ive got perfect tempo ;)))

hyungwon: jooheon shut up, you rush all of your fills

sets up pranks w minhyuk before rehearsal starts so that its 'more fun’ because jazz is 'all about rebellion against the status quo’ like ok

he worries a lot bc he feels like he needs to carry the entire band on his shoulders bc he’s a drummer and therefore The Most Important

but then everyone always says “but we’re all drummers!” and he feels a little better abt it

probably cries after every performance

[daddyd0nt]

Suicidal Rantings Trigger Warning

I cant keep living like this.  I dont like anything.  I dont enjoy anything sober.  Music sounds like shit, movies are boring, art is frustrating and my head is constantly screaming.  The only reason i havn’t tried to kill myself is that im afraid to fuck it up and wind up busted or retarded but its to the point I hardly care anymore.  Weed is the only thing I enjoy and even that isnt fun like it used to be, it just makes things im supposed to enjoy tolerable.  I dont want to go back to the hospital and do coloring pages and shit behind a curtain. It does nothing in the long run.  Nothing has.  Even Elma is frustrated with me because im stuck and ive been stuck for years going in loops because it is the world that is stuck, not me, and im not stupid enough into being tricked into thinking otherwise.  Because thats what it all is, its a trap to trick you into being okay when things are NOT okay and accepting shit thats unacceptable and if the world didn’t play out like I wanted it to then Im not going to be part of it.  I dont want to be here and I don’t want to do this.  Im miserable because im not working and once i start working ill be miserable that I am, and it makes me want to kill kill kill kill because capitalism is making me feel this way and setting a standard i dont measure up to and if I cant be one of the people that wins then I don’t want to exist.  I failed DBT and im not even mad because DBT is fucking stupid and i dont want to learn how to eat shit with a smile.  I want to get hooked on heroin or something so I can at least feel good for a few months before it kills me and then I didnt kill myself and its no my fault and ill get to be part of the big scary opiate epidemic and people will use me as the face of some poor retarded girl with a big heart who got pulled into it or some other sympathetic martyr figure.  I want to kill people im so mad all the time but who could I kill that would make it worth the consequences?  Maybe I wont kill myself just so I can make sure i kill somebody else who deserves it first.  My brain feels like it is burning.  Nothing got better or is ever getting better.  We have less money than ever, not more like we are supposed to over time.  We are never going to have real grown-up lives because our entire generation is lost and lied to and fucked over.  We are just as broke as my friends who didnt work for degrees.  Weve been cheated every step of my existence and im done being cheated im done being exploited and even more important im done seeing the people I love cheated and exploited.  30 years ago we would have had a house and I could stay at home with 2.5 children and a white fence.  We put the work in for no return.  Every win comes with a miserable setback.  I contribute nothing and consume everything and as long as im alive ill just be this hole that I try to throw things down to fill it but it never gets filled.  Im a bratty selfish cunt and I don’t want to live because I can’t afford to smoke what i want.  Ive been cheating all this time.  I take it from my dad during the week or smoke dry resin.  The last day I tried to get through sober was the monday I went to the hospital.  If I had my own money id take up drinking and maybe just die from that but im watching dad do it and it takes too long.  Im not even really sure I get high anymore but I guess I do because I cant like anything without it.  But I hate everything, and capitalism is putting up a paywall between me and happiness again.  I dont want to cut back for my health, i have to cut back because we cant afford it, so theres another thing capitalism stole from me.

I don’t want to go back to the hospital.  I get the afterglow of being praised for doing simple shit like putting my tray away or coloring my page quietly or reading and then as soon as im back in the real world im reminded of what a failure I am.  Im thinking of taking all my pills but Im afraid that they will just take them away if I fuck it up.  I want to hang myself maybe but I dont want brain damage if i survive.  I looked up all the ways to kill yourself and none of them are sure and most of them hurt and they all suck if you live.  But Im going to soon, I have to because if I keep getting older it won’t be tragic it will just be pathetic.  Dead grown-ups don’t make the news or get candle light vigils or become cult martyrs.

I see madi and she is my age and in a year or two shell be older than me but its not true and ill never be 16 again.  Im not 16 anymore, and ive overshot it so far that im rotting.  Im like Chester Benningfield, I overshot my own life and now all I am is washed-up and nothing I do will be impressive or meaningful again until Im dead.

I didn’t make it.  The life I was supposed to have didn’t happen.  I can’t let myself live until April or Ill be older than the whole 27 club who had their whole lives and all the success in the world while they were still young and good-looking and got to be celebrities and its worth nothing its worth less than nothing to outlive them if they lived a whole life of success and carer by my age.  All the celebrities coming up are younger than me.  There are people my age who have published books.  Im not young anymore and ill never be young and famous ill never get to be a prodigy ill never get to be a hip young celebrity and anything I might ever accomplish gets less and less impressive with every passing day.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  My life is already over.  All that will happen is I will get older and uglier and more and more pathetic and even if I accomplish something it will be worthless.  The lady who wrote “twilight” didnt get the same press as the kid who wrote the script for “KIDS” because she was old even though she sold mor copies, she didnt go on talk shows and get told she was cute and charming and special and had accomplished something revolutionary or even unique.  I failed as an actor and I failed as a singer and I failed as a student and now im failing as a writer.  I feel like im just procrastinating death and the longer I put it off, the less it will mean when I die.  Im so old that if I killed myself today, my death wouldnt even make News 12 like it would have if I were a teenager.  Even if I make it as a writer, Ill just be some fat retard who is good at a job because that will be the minimum expected of me by then and I bet I wont even get that far.

People had whole lives and careers over at my age and will be remembered forever as hot and young and some bright star that burned out too soon and Im LESS successful that I even was at 16.  All ive been my whole life is cheated and lied to and ive tried to play the game and Im not winning so I dont want to play anymore and have to watch other people win.  Im not going to kill myself right now because my parents are home so I couldnt even try but I think I might kill myself soon.  This world isnt fair and im not having a good time and I don’t want to keep doing this.  Everything i say feels manipulative.  I just wish i never existed in the first place so i wont have to die.

[omgdicks1]

Shitty samus returns review

i feel obligated to talk about how there hasnt been a new metroid game in 6 years, partly because its sad and i wanted more metroid, but mostly because every review ive seen started like this. 6 years is like 4 zeldas, 6 marios, 2 pokemons and 2 failed attempts at college. Yes technically metroid prime : chibi space marines + soccer came out in that time but if you couldnt tell by the (totally accurate title) that shit doesnt count. the world needed samus genociding aliens and promising strip teases if you do it fast enough. why not just do that by remaking the second worst metroid game(return of samus) with all the fixins of super, fusion, and zero mission. so yeah they did that something something transition story After defeating space pirates, destroying mother brain and the metroids in the first game, samus is on the galactic federations speed dial for anytime they fuck something up. This time, they find the metroid homeworld of SR388 and decide to go there without samus. 5 minutes later everyone is dead and they want samus to kill everything left on the planet. yay genocide. the story is basicly a setup to show off and kill a bunch of new metroid evolutions. its a pretty straightfoward story for a pretty straightfoward metroid game. they even got some beautiful artwork to show off these plot points as well as some chozo backstory. its some good shit. gameplay samus returns has built apon the tried and true formula of runing around, shooting aliens, and collecting shit that makes it easier to run around and shoot aliens. expect lots of caverns, hidden power ups bombable walls etc. if youve played a 2d metriod game super or after you have a pretty good idea what youre getting into. that being said there is enough new stuff here too to keep shit interesting. you have all the standard beams, missiles and bombs as well as the screw attack, morphball, spiderball, and grapple beam. the only thing missing is the shinespark, the lack of which makes back tracking a bit more tedious. most of the weapons function exactly the same althought the ice beam doesnt stack on the other beams which is kind of annoying / the grapple beam and powerbombs can pull off some new tricks. tbh im a spoiled brat and i wont be happy with the grapple beam until it has the same versatility as smash bros. as for new shit, you got a melee counter to deflect rush down enemies and set up for a quick kill or just push away critters that get to close. you have the 360 aim which makes it way easier to shoot down enemies at the cost of being locked into a standstill or jumping in place. and you got the aeion abilities that all deplete from a meter you can increase buy collecting upgrades. these abilities let you slow down time, shoot rapid fire, have a lightning armor that negates damage as well as increase the range of your mellee counter, and the scan pulse which can fill out chunks of your map and help find secrets. These new abilities are all really well implemented into the game, especially the 360 aim and the counter, i found myself using those very consistantly. they arent withought faults, the button used for the 360 takes up any space that could be used for a free running diagonal aim, something that is incredibly usefull but still doable by holding diagonal on the controll stick. the melee counter doesnt do any damage by itself which is kind of dissapointing to my fantasy of samus punching her foes to death. regardless the mechanic is still really fun even if i wish it was more damaging and could be used while running. the aeion abilities are great even if i only really used the rapid fire and slowmo when i was required. im too paranoid about running out of meter to ever use them outside of necesity or experimenting on how to kill a boss the fastest way possible. youll have plenty of time to experiment because you fight each form of metroid anywhere between 1 and 12 times. the metroids are fun, the melee counter quick time events and fighting the them in different arenas help keep shit interesting but at the end of the day youre still fighting some of these guys 10+ times. the 3 non metroid bosses are fun too, except maybe diggernaught, beating him was a little too criptic/trial and error -y. id say the bosses in this game are overall significantly harder than most of the other 2d games and im split on how to feel about it. on the one hand i like a challenge but on the other im an unstopable intergalctic genociding bounty hunter so i dont want to die 3 times on a digger robot FUCK YOU DIGGERNAUGHT. but yeah anyway i think the map is a little 2 linear for my taste. its set up in isolated levels with very little intersecting paths and almost no backtracking. for me it makes it feel less like a complete world and more like a series of stages seperated by elevators. it's a left over design from the original game that isnt exactly my cup of tea but also doesnt ruin the experience by any means. at least there are teleporters to make end game collecting easier. presentation i dont like the graphics in this game. all the edges are blocky but not really in a stylized way and the screan always seems blurry like there is to much light coming from the environment for the camera to get a crisp view. even the artwork has this overly lense flare thing going on. to be clear, the graphics in no way inhibit the gameplay. i think they get in way of the atmosphere of the game. for me id say about 50 percent of the metroid experience comes from the imursion and atmosphere that the games have. shit like big ass slugs, krysal caverns, waterfall and statues in the background go a long way to help in this department for SR but it feels like for every area there is with a great background or soundtrack there is another area with little to no soundtrack and the only background is blue or brown rocks. thats not to say this hasnt been the case in other metroid games but many of those had you spend more time running through each respective area. for me this familiarity with each area made each game feel like its own world. i remember traveling through talon IV swampy service because it was interesting, i did it a lot, and the music was great. i remember pendara drifts and norfair and kraid for all the same reasons, the seamed like part of a world. samus returns is a big circle of sometimes pretty caves and ruins connected by elevators . combine that with the less than stellar graphics (id take sprites any day) and you have a rather underwelming planet, at least on the whole. it probably doesnt help that i spent most of my time looking at the touch screen map instead of the actual game. i guess i could always just pause the game and and plan out my route on the map like i used to but meh. something i will praise about the presentation are the added cutscenes and semi quick time events. if you counter a certain bosses youll get a cutscene where you mash the missile button and beat the shit out of the bosses in spectacular ways. you fling some around by their tails, ride using there horns and all sorts of other crazy shit. these all give make samus seem as baddass as ever and really show off how strong she is. it might just be my favorite new feature in the game. i only recall 2 new/ remixed songs from metroid 2, the rest are recycled from other famous metroid games. whats there is great but id always love more. conclusion gameplay wise this might be the most refined and excessable entry in the series, at least in terms of being user friendly. controls are tight, responsive, customizable and the touch screen makes flippin through shit a breaze. the touch screen map combine with the aeion map pulse make exploring easier than ever(i haved mixed feeling but i also dont have to use it so whatever). the bosses are challenging and rarely unfair. the overall presentation is passable but not stellar. the map is pretty linear which could turn off some but does streamline the experience. overall i really enjoyed this game for what it was, as much as i harped on about things that i think have been done better in other entries in the series. i guess for a rating uh, i think i like it better than fusion but not as much as zero mission or super. lemme know if you guys want more ramblings in the future