#ive only learned this year to stave off my brain from going off the rails into paranoia and delusion | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

shararan · 1 year ago

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How to comment "your writing encapsulates the deeply soul damaging horror of psychosis that permanently alters you as a person, as well as the horrifying intricacies brought by both memory loss, gaps and even not forming memories in the first place, the way the passage of time fucks you up even further, and reading this made me feel like like my chest got cut open by your hands and made me watch my blood get transformed into something beautiful" bur without like, sounding fucking weird about it

#im kinda shaking ive never read something thats resonated in this way #much less about the years of life i lost to psychosis #9 years. almost 9 years #ive only learned this year to stave off my brain from going off the rails into paranoia and delusion #only a couple days ago did i realuze how far ive come #when i noticed it happening and managed to stop it and then MOVING ON #its such a sore subject for me i didnt expect this fic to make me feel so good #so raw in how it depicted the things tjat terrified me in myself #but with a deeper sense of compassion and understanding of the damage #im not coherenr im sorry #and im being TMI too sorry #im inspired though to incorporate that trauma into my writing though #just... some sort of outlet #man i never realized how lonely this made me feel until thus fic made me feel seen #im all over the place im so sorry that was a ride #another reminder of why luo binghe resonates though with me #sharan talks

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