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orcelito · 3 months ago

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Ykno for it being my dead dad's birthday and also a day I had to go without food or water for 8 hours it's not been too bad of a day. Got me real grateful once I could eat and drink stuff. And it still did kinda mess my head up for the rest of the day to go without water like that (I get headaches really easily, especially for dehydration, which is why I'm normally very active in constantly hydrating)

But like. Idk, things could be worse.

#speculation nation #ive just beeeeeeeen avoiding the emotions i think.#i got texts from more than one person about the day. i need to reply at some point.#but i dont really fancy having any major emotional responses right now. so im just not gonna.#im over here floating on my cloud yknow? and the emotions are over There. away from me.#no need to vent if i am just. existing.#it sucks. it does suck. makes me wish he was still here.#but he's just as gone today as he was yesterday. and the day before and the day before and the day before #etc etc etc etc.#if anything im a little grateful i had my scan today. gave me something more immediate to worry over and complain about.#today's my dad's birthday and he's just as dead today as he was yesterday and as he will be forevermore.#wahooooo #negative/#sure yea

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