#ive had a very long day now im busy remembering something i read literally 15 years ago
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cosmicrhetoric · 3 months ago
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i know its my year of shounen (💀) but i need a saccharine shoujo in my life i cant stop thinking about the kitchen princess peach pie
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thatjwguy · 6 years ago
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Does Satan Exist - Lets Get The Facts
WARNING: Heavy talk about the supernatural and other things occult related will be here so if you are frightened with these subjects i would suggest not reading any further, although it might help you to decern between reality and fiction. Much love, always. 
2 Corinthians 4:4
among whom the god of this system of things has blinded the minds of the unbelievers, so that the illumination of the glorious good news about the Christ, who is the image of God, might not shine through.
So let's review what we do know, if you are a biblical person and have discernment of any kind then you should at least have some sense of who Satan is and just how deceptive he can be, i will go on record and say iv been deceived many times by the devil. It's a constant struggle every day to keep your head above water. Quite literally feels at times like you are being pulled under by some force you cannot explain. You have probably heard the expression, battling one's inner demons. Well what if that term could be used literally, one might have his or her own personal real-life demonic presence of some kind. If you have ever dove into the waters of spirituality at all you know that a higher power does exist, correct? Well if the metaphysical realm really does exist, what makes you so certain bad entities do not exist? Especially when it has be proven time and time again by not only “Christians” but by the New Age, Wicca, Hinduism etc etc.  Something more is out there that people are actively tapping into, clearing their minds and letting themselves be guided by the spirit. Some may view this as a universal energy, everyone can tap into it at any point if they want. Yes, but have you not noticed that it always seems to point you in a direction the leads you away from Gods teachings. I’m referring to 1st century Christianity before paganism was introduced and then defiled Jehovah’s original teachings. 
AWAKE! August 8, 2002
The crusaders of about a thousand years ago missed the point that living “according to Christ” means much more than simply professing allegiance to Jesus Christ. (Matthew 7:21-23) It means living in complete harmony with the teachings of Jesus as found in God’s inspired Word, the Bible. (Matthew 7:15-20; John 17:17) “If you remain in my word,” said Jesus Christ, “you are really my disciples.” (John 8:31) “All will know that you are my disciples,” he said, “if you have love among yourselves.”​—John 13:35. In truth, those crusaders had fallen prey to “empty deception according to the tradition of men.” And it is little wonder that ordinary people were deceived, when their religious leaders, their very bishops, “became renowned  as military men.” A “warlike spirit became so common among the clergy,” says the Cyclopedia of Biblical, Theological, and Ecclesiastical Literature, by McClintock and Strong, “that whenever anything was to be gained [by it], they were ever ready for war.” 
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More can be found on the internet, i choose to look at the JW.org website, they keep it clean and very simple in order to make it easy to learn about the bible and its teachings. This is almost a one-stop shop for everything bible related, but enough about that, let's get back to business. So this energy the people tap into is all around us and just at our disposal, as long as we follow the guidelines right? Well, that's funny i thought the point of true freedom was you get to do whatever you want whenever you want? Still seems like you need to follow some sort of pattern or governance of some kind in order to play ball. Laws obviously exist to keep us from going completely insane and causing chaos out there in the world. So with these New Age type practices, you still need them to keep yourself safe to some degree. 
Its funny though, cause with all of these teachings or at least the ones iv looked at. They seem to know of a dark energy as well. Something else is there, something you cannot mess with. Almost like the dark side in star wars or something, you can tap into it but you shouldn't. Okay, so they do believe in a dark energy as well... soo at least there's that. What if i told you though, that these energies could have the power to deceive you as well. Mimic anything you could ever want, sound like whoever they want, even look like whoever they want in order to fake you out. Just like the movie business, man they can really make people look like a totally different person. So what makes you think this cant happen in a spirit? 
Revelation 12:9
9So down the great dragon was hurled, the original serpent,the one called Devil and Satan,who is misleading the entire inhabited earth;he was hurled down to the earth,and his angels were hurled down with him.
Believe me i don't like this either, i once thought i even had powers i couldn't explain and all that business. Its harder for others im sure because much of what they have been taught throughout the years is founded in these ideologues. They don't want this to be fake, because that means undoing whatever held beliefs they have had. This could range from being reincarnated, afterlife, a heavenly hope of some sort. Its hard to do but not impossible, it just means making some adjustments that's all, not just completely uprooting yourself from everything you are doing. Take a break for a while and find yourself again, perhaps more is needed to be learned. Your journey is only over when you take your last breath, remember that. 
This might be the point where cognitive dist sets in for most people, when you have two contradicting beliefs in your head and you either shut the one out, or just simply change it to fit your narrative. I might link the video where that is talked about, people having two opposing thoughts and trying to ignore one or change one to fit what you want. Seems to be the way people tend to think, unless they just completely ignore anything that goes opposed to what they think just to keep their illusion going, cause god forbid they actually think critically right? Sorry perhaps im taking this a bit too far, could you sense the passive-aggressive nature of that?
Link to video on cognitive dissance 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Y17YaZRRvY
The point of this post is to challenge your beliefs, cause i know you might be an individual who is unbelieving or just skeptical of the spiritual side of things. So from this point on i will just give you links to articles or videos that might further your understanding of all these things. If you are truly questioning this then you would do the research, insted of running away, you would do what is necessary  in order to gain more insight on the topic. Then again, i may just be wasting my time with this post anyway. Though i see it as a postive, iv at least caught your attention long enough to read this entire thing. The seed might have already been planted and now you might be questioning your reality. I wish you all well on your endeavors fellow bloggers and internet people. 
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https://www.jw.org/en/publications/books/bible-study/angels-in-the-bible/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2TB9PaZBdGY&index=33&list=PLzcSerCuk3W70XCYLA0PQs4NGtBA7OdVZ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyaHgawWgNM
http://dismythed.blogspot.com/search?q=demons https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyYStHGxjFk
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saintkimora · 8 years ago
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ok, here is a full account of what happened yesterday and the new events from today. caleb if you are seeing this please respect my privacy and stop reading now 
ok so it started the other day. caleb texted me at night saying he wanted to talk to me about something serious the next day. i asked what it was about and he said he just wanted to be friends but i didnt read too much into it bc he is impulsive so i figured he would come to his senses the next day
so then yesterday happened. i had just gotten out of sociology at like 10:40am and i saw that he had texted me all these things about breaking up. then when i got to my car he called me on the phone. he then proceeded to break up with me over the phone. his reasoning was that since hes prob moving in a few weeks, he wanted to stop being boyfriends now that way when he does leave itll hurt less than it would, so like easing himself out of the relationship basically. i think its a stupid idea 
so these are the issues i had. the first was that he broke up with me over the phone, not even in person. and like i was crying over the phone and his tone was just like very cold and detached and business like and that really hurt me bc he obv knew i was crying but i didnt feel any sympathy from him whatsoever. like if he was crying i would obv be comforting him and trying to make him feel better not talking like a robot. another thing that hurt was that he gave up on the long distance relationship before we could even try it. it made me feel like i was so worthless and unimportant that he didnt even feel like putting forth the effort to make our relationship work. and the fact that he did this all over a 10 minute phone call on his way to the gym. and then like 20 min after he had the NERVE to post a video on his snap story of him at the gym saying “feeling so good *blushing smile emoji*” like that really hurt my feelings and when i told him that later he was like “oh stop making everything about you it was just how i was feeling after working out” but like? i know he obv wasnt saying that he felt so good about breaking up. but what bothered me was that like after he broke up w me, i was a mess i was literally crying all day and i couldnt do anything but cry i was so upset. and then here he is just going on with his day like its another normal tuesday. like the fact that he was capable of being so happy not even a few hours after breaking my heart made me feel like i was nothing, like it was just an errand like “oh im gonna break up with perry then go to the gym lol” and the fact that he did it over the phone just made me feel so insignificant like i was nothing to him and that really hurt. and like ive tried to be the best boyfriend i can be for him and i try to do everything he asks of me so for him to just break up with me in such a dismissive way makes it feel like he doesnt even care
so i was crying in my car, like really bad like i was BAWLING. so i went to the student counseling center and asked for a crisis meeting and i got set up w this counselor named josh. he was nice and tried to help me calm down and focus on orgo. it was nice to have someone to talk to i guess
so then i went home. he called me again to like try to explain himself but only made me feel worse. he was like “you know when i move im not gonna be able to see you everyday and cuddle with you and fall asleep on your chest anymore” and that just made me sadder and i was crying again on the phone. then later we were texting and he was like denying breaking up with me. like, you said you wanted to just be friends and you explicitly said that you didnt want to be boyfriends anymore so how is that not breaking up??? and he said “i was trying to have a conversation with you but all you did was cry.” with the period to show how serious he was. and it really hurt me when he said that bc it felt like he was mad at me and using me crying against me, like i somehow did something wrong by crying. again if he was the one crying i would not be holding it against him like that so i really wish he didnt say that bc it made me feel bad for being emotional which should not be something to feel bad about. and at the end of the call he didnt say i love you like he always does so that hurt my feelings as well
and like i took away the hearts from his contact name and changed my phone backgrounds since they were pictures of him and that just made me really sad
i skipped psych and anatomy lecture but i couldnt skip my anatomy practical. i cried when i was backing up my car to leave bc i saw the “hi <3″ that he wrote in the dirt on my back windshield a while ago and it just set me off. so i got to school and i was planning on having this be the dropped grade so i wasnt like worried but i got a 90 anyways so that was nice. the prof was like “perry whats wrong you look depressed” and i was like im just a little sad today and he was like why and i was like “bc my significant other broke up w me” (i used s/o bc idk how my prof is about those things so i didnt wanna say bf). he told me this story about how in his senior year of college he had such bad mono it was misdiagnosed as hodgkins disease so he was given 18 months to live and his gf of 4 years left him after finding out. so he told me “perry, girls are like a bus. if you miss one, another one will come along in 15 minutes. if i had daughters i would tell them the same thing about guys” so that was nice that he tried to cheer me up. then when i was leaving from the other room (bc we leave our stuff in the other room during the practical) the TA came to me from the main room and wished me luck on my finals so that was nice of him 
so then i went home. then at 10pm i met w caleb in person in his car. we talked and at first he would not let me get a word in and he just kept defending himself and what also upset me was that he thought the reason i was so upset was that he was moving and he was so defensive like “i wish i could stay here but i have no choice i cant afford to live here its too expensive” and like that is not what upset me!!! i already knew he was moving ive had time to accept it what upset me was how he broke up w me for no reason w almost no warning and did it in such a cold way. and like the way i see it is since hes leaving instead of easing ourselves out of the relationship to stop us from getting hurt when he actually leaves (which wont happen bc itll hurt regardless), i figured we should make the most of our time together and enjoy each other as much as possible since we’ll have plenty of time to get over each other AFTER he moves. so when i told him my point of view he was like “i wish i thought of it like that, im really bad at this” so that was how i resolved the issue. he was hesitant about keeping the bf label but i told im i really wanted to and i didnt see a point in taking away the label now anyways. i also told him i at least wanted to try long distance instead of giving up before it even happens. i dont remember what he said to it though lol i was too emotional. but yeah the beginning of the convo just felt like he was berating me and i started to cry again bc i dont like it when hes rude to me like that
then he told me that im so sensitive i could see a squirrel in the road and cry and i had to explain to him that i am not a sensitive and emotional person! im normally v reserved w my emotions like ive only cried maybe 3 times the past 8 years and that im just emotional when it comes to him bc i care about him so much
another thing that bothered me was that he said every relationship teaches a lesson, and from ours he learned not to rush into things. i dont get that bc yes we did rush but that wasnt really a bad thing? like he wouldve moved regardless so taking things slow wouldnt have changed that. and like since we rushed into things it will hurt more when he leaves since we are closer than we would be if we took it slow but also like, if we didnt rush we wouldnt have gotten so close and had so much fun together in the first place. so imo the benefits of getting so close so fast vastly outweighed the pain of him leaving
so everything would be great except for this next part. he told me the easing out of the relationship thing was bc he got the advice to do that from his mom and leeann. so when i got home i made a post calling leeann toxic and his mom stupid for interfering in our relationship. and like yall can tell that obv i was kidding and just exaggerating for humorous effect like i dont really think his mom is stupid or that leeann was toxic, just that their advice in the situation was bad. but caleb texted me this morning being so rude calling me disgustingly disrespectful for saying that and he said that “next time you think about doing this remember how it felt when i dumped you (so he admitted that he did dump me) - and get those tissues ready” (since ive been using a lot of tissues since i was crying so much). that really really hurt my feelings bc 1. he is once again using me crying against me and 2. it shows a total lack of sympathy for me crying, like it felt like hell yesterday i was so upset and he knows that so for him to threaten to put me through that again just shows he doesnt really care about me or my feelings. 
he also said i need to stop using him and leeann and his mom as “characters in your online stories” like...these arent online stories? this blog is where i vent and talk about my feelings since i dont have anyone to do that with irl and i need to get them out somewhere im not writing these posts to be mean it just feels good to put my thoughts into words instead of bottling them up and even my therapist thinks its a good thing for me to do  
so he said that but i was NOT having it. i typed up a long text in response and even i admit it was kinda mean. like in his he said “dont even talk to me for the rest of the day” so at the end of my text i said “dont talk to me ever i am perfectly fine w never talking to you again the rest of my life so bye have fun in new hampshire or whatever” and he was like “perry stop you dont mean that last part” and then he called me and once again got defensive he said he was just trying to have a convo w me and i was being aggressive for no reason. like, no??? a convo would have been texting me like “perry i know its your personal blog where you post your feelings but this post upset me and this is why” not coming at me with 4 super rude texts out of nowhere. so he was trying to play the victim and paint me as irrational and that im overreacting just like he did yesterday and i didnt like it! he was just dismissing my feelings again. so i went OFF in this phone call like wow i really snapped and it felt good tbh
like i think he was just expecting me to sit there and take it and apologize like i usually do when he gets like this but i am done doing that! so i think he was caught off guard that i stood up for myself. i was like caleb i really dont care i have the most important orgo test of the semester today you already took yesterday from me but today i am not entertaining it if you have an issue call me after my test” and i ended the convo and hung up and then he texted me “good luck on your test” like ok hi king of passive aggressiveness 
so thats it. i felt good at first but later on i felt bad so i texted him apologizing for snapping at him but i said i wont discuss the tumblr issue until we are in person. i asked if he was free tonight and he said no he wants a day or two to be separate and normally i would understand but like...hes moving in a few weeks i really dont want to waste time fighting and being in this weird place
not to be out of order but another thing that got on my nerves was when we made up last night. he said “once i move youll have more free time for things like school, work, maybe going to the gym” like once again here he is commenting on my appearance! like yes i know im scrawny and i wish i wasnt but im sick of him taking jabs at my looks like my body, acne, and eyebrows when i literally have NOTHING but nice things to say about how he looks. it makes me feel bad when he points out my flaws like that and a good boyfriend is not supposed to make me feel like that
now for the most recent development. leeann sent me this LONG fb message bc caleb told her what i posted about her. like why does he have to expose me like that! i didnt read the message i was like “yeah im not reading this but just so you know i was kidding i wasnt serious i was exaggerating lol” and she was like ok lol 
i just dont know why she thinks i care about her input on MY relationship? like youre calebs friend not mine to be frank i dont give a fuck what you think about whats best for my relationship like you dont know me so mind your business
and thats another thing. in the past caleb has gotten pissed at me for sharing our business too much (by telling my friends (who he will literally never meet since they all went away for school) and by posting on here) yet here he goes telling leeann everything! seems hypocritical to me
and heres a second thing. i have always told caleb that my blog is my personal space where i can safely vent and talk about my feelings and that he should respect my privacy by not reading my personal posts. and ive told him that if he does wanna read them then hes doing so at his own risk bc im not going to filter myself bc this is MY space not his so if he really wants to overstep his boundaries and look at my posts then he cant get mad at me for them bc HE is the one choosing to read them even after my warning! so i dont think he should be getting mad at me especially when i was in such an extreme state of mind yesterday since he put me through the worst day of my life for no reason which literally couldve been 100% avoided if he had just waited to talk to me in person instead of breaking up w me over the phone. and like now i feel like this isnt even a space place for me to express myself anymore since theres a chance of him seeing. and i tried blocking him before but he made a new blog and wont tell me the url so i cant block him smh
so yeah thats everything that happened. im kinda stressed rn w this whole leeann drama even though he shouldnt have been reading my posts in the first place. like its just so much drama and i dont like how it feels and idk why this relationship turned sour so fast and i wish he would just be nice and sweet to me again. so hopefully things get better 
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mochimim · 8 years ago
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Dead Leaves - Chapter 4
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Genre: Fluff/Angst
Word count: 3.8k
Pairing: Seokjin x Reader
Warnings: nah not yet
Summary: Don’t fall in love. Promise me.“ She said, gripping onto my arm.
“I promise.”
A/N: LAUREN IT’S BEEN A WHOLE MONTH WYD ??????? IM ACTUALLY SO SORRY GUYS IVE BEEN BUSY (my most used excuse) but this chapter is extra long so dont blame me ;)) so this chapter was a riDE and it has a change of perspective, but I specified it before i changed!! i hope you enjoy this chapter and go onto my ao3 for my ramblings and leave kudos and comments kays ;) thanks guys!!
WINTER
Y/N’s Perspective
Two weeks.Two days.Two hours.
Two hours until Prom, and I was far from ready.
Jimin was going to pick me up in 15 minutes, and I was still in my pajamas watching Stranger Things. It wasn’t until I glanced at the clock to check how long my popcorn had been in the microwave ,that I realised that I was already late. I jumped off the couch and sprinted to my bedroom. Making my already messy apartment even messier, I tore the house down looking for the expensive dress Jimin had given me. In the end, I found it on a hanger, shoved behind a big pile of my month-old laundry.
I slipped into the dress, and proceeded to find my makeup bag. I hadn’t worn makeup for years, and so I hoped that luck would be on my side and I could find it somehow.
It took ten minutes, but I finally found the rotting makeup bag in one of the mouldy corners of my worn-down closet. I pried the bag open and almost puked at the stench of the old makeup. I gagged and threw everything into the bin, accompanied by a grossed-out “eugh!”
I pouted at myself in the mirror. What makeup was I going to wear? I had nothing to work with, not even eyeliner or foundation. My face was usually bare, and I honestly didn’t care about my appearance. But this was Prom, something that I would remember after taking the cure, after being stripped of everything I loved.
I dug my phone out of my purse, and dialled Jimin’s number. I was pacing around the small living room, hoping and praying that he hadn’t left his house.
“Hello Noona!” A cheerful voice answered the call.
“Jimin! I need your help immediately. Have you left the house yet?” I asked, desperate.
“Uh, yes. I have.” He hesitated. I could literally see him blushing on the other end of the line.
“I know you’re still at home.” I shook my head as he awkwardly coughed down the line.
“Anyway, I need your help. Your eomma has makeup, right? I need you to bring all her makeup to my house as soon as possible.” I probably sounded demented, but he was my only hope at the moment.
“Why do you need my eomma’s makeup? Don’t you have your own?” He asked, probably very confused.
“Just help me okay? I really need your help right now.” I sighed down the line. I didn’t have time for his never-ending questions. He must have sensed my urgency, so without anymore questions, he just agreed and hung up on me.
Sitting on the couch with my dress on, nervously tapping my toes, I stared out the tiny window in my living room. All I could see was a spindly spider, and a thin tree branch that liked to sway in the afternoon air. Come on, Jimin. I thought to myself, as my tapping got faster and faster.
Ten minutes later, Jimin showed up with three bags full of cosmetics. I snatched them away from him and ran for the bathroom. Sorting through all the makeup, I picked a few that didn’t seem so “old lady” to me. Regular foundation, liquid eyeliner and lipstick the shade of thick blood. I guess I was going as a vampire, and Jimin a demon. I shoved the stuff back into the bags and threw them into Jimin’s hands.
“Let’s go.” I announced, picking my purse up and looking myself in the mirror to do a last minute check.
I looked so different. I felt so different. Normally, I would go out in sweatpants and a loose shirt. But, wearing this dress made me feel like royalty.
When I turned around, I was greeted by Jimin’s tall and muscular frame. My eyes drifted up and I noticed a huge difference that I hadn’t before.
“Ya! Park Jimin! Your hair!” I gasped in surprise, pointing to the newly-dyed silver hair on his head. He sheepishly smiled and ran his fingers through it.
“Yeah, I dyed it last night. Pretty cool, huh?” I nodded in agreement, going on tiptoes to further inspect the beautiful colour. I must have taken a while, admiring the freshly-dyed hair, so he awkwardly coughed to snap me out of my “trance”.
“Let’s go, noona. Don’t wanna be late, do we?” Jimin smiled at me, already knowing the answer that was going to fall out of my mouth. Holding out his arm for me to hold, I gladly took it.
“Yes, of course. Let’s not be late.” I rolled my eyes, voice dripping with sarcasm. He laughed at my silly antics, and called for an uber. I took one more glance at our glamorous figures in the mirror, and we left.
As we entered the gymnasium they cleverly used as a dance floor, I couldn’t help but notice the lack of people. Prom was a compulsory thing, but I assumed that most people were out openly egging the principal’s car again. The lack of people was obvious, but it was crowded enough to lose Jimin in the crowd while they were blasting some “music”. The dj playing the horrible noises was one of my friends, Kim Sung Yeong, who liked to skip classes and hang out with coffee addicts.
When I had lost Jimin for the third time while trying to get a drink, I naturally made my way up to the stage to greet my friend.
“Annyeong, Sung Yeong!” I greeted happily, and she gave me a big grin in return.
“Annyeong, y/n! How are you?” She had to shout over the noise. I nodded in reply, not really sure of what she had said, hoping that it was a yes or no question.
“Why are you here?” I could barely hear what she said. “I thought you weren’t planning on coming to Prom?”
“Why not? It’s not like we have any other night where we can make out with strangers and throw rocks at an innocent person’s car.” I deadpanned, and she giggled. My eye suddenly caught Jimin’s, who was waving frantically at me, desperate for my attention. I turned back to Sung Yeong.
“I’ll come back later. Park Jimin is calling for me, I think he needs some attention.” She chuckled at my words, and began to hype the crowd up.
I managed to swiftly dodge all the sweaty teenagers, and reached Jimin with minimal drink spillage. As he took the drink from me, his worried eyes kept looking at a random direction, and then diverting back to mine. As a person who couldn’t read his thoughts, I was very confused as to what he was doing. I followed his gaze and almost dropped my drink.
Seokjin and Hye Gi were kissing.
I suddenly felt light-headed. I needed to sit down.
Using Jimin’s arm as a support, I wobbled my way to a table and sat myself down.
This is all a dream, I thought to myself.
This isn’t real. Wake up! Wake up! I clawed my neatly manicured nails on the exposed part of my thigh. The heartache numbed my physical pain, and I didn’t notice that I was hurt until Jimin pulled my hands away from my skin. I looked down and was greeted with three huge, bleeding scratches.
I wanted to cry.
Don’t cry, you’ll ruin the makeup. My eyes welled up with unshed tears as I used every ounce of my self control not to let them fall.
“Noona, it’s going to be alright. They obviously don’t know what they’re losing when they did that. Please, it’s not your fault.” Jimin reassured, sounding almost desperate to believe him, as he held my hands in his.
Not my fault. Not my fault.
I kept repeating his words over and over in my head like a mantra. It seemed like I was comforting myself, but I felt like I needed those words to come true. And the more I said it, the higher the chance of it being real.
I was just staring at them from across the gymnasium, entranced in their intimate behaviour. They had stopped kissing, but their fingers were interlaced. And, probably because I had received so much pain from the both of them, I thought that their hands didn’t seem to fit each other. His hands were too big for her tiny ones. It didn’t seem right. Nothing about them did. But me and Jin? Everything was right with us.
Jin and I used to hold hands when we were bored. “Just for hand holding practice,” he had stated nonchalantly the first time he grabbed my hand. We held hands ever since.
“Platonically, of course,” he used to reassure me when I was worried that people might misunderstand. But he still introduced me as his girlfriend to everyone. This was when I didn’t realise that I had caught feelings for him, so I either played along or punched him lightly on the chest.
“This is my girlfriend!” He one day declared out of the blue to anyone who was listening. I leapt  out of my seat and covered his mouth with my hand as he struggled to pry it off.
“Ya! He’s not my boyfriend!” I shook my head in horror in case anyone had taken him seriously. When I finally loosened my hand, he just pouted at me in mock sadness.
“What’s wrong with me?” He had asked. I rolled my eyes in annoyance.
“There’s nothing wrong with you, Jinnie. It’s just that if I date you, it shows that my standards have dropped tremendously.” I smiled at him, seemingly innocent.
After I realised that I had feelings for him, I decided that I still wanted to keep the hand holding “tradition”, so I took his hand and interlaced them with mine on some random day in August. He didn’t react, probably because he had done it to me many times before, but I still felt a little hurt. I initiated most of the hand holding from then on, and he gradually began to stop. It reminded me that he didn’t feel the same way that I did, and so I just told myself to suck it up and pretend that nothing was wrong.
I jumped onto my feet, and feeling a little dizzy, wobbled my way to the stage to talk to Sung Yeong. Jimin, worried about my “drunked” behaviour, stood up and tried to guide me, but I reassured him that I was okay. He gave me a skeptical look, though, but he let me off by myself in the end.
“I feel horrible.” I slurred, putting one hand on Sung Yeong’s shoulder for support. She continued playing the music, but pulled out a tab of pills from her pocket and handed them to me without a word. I was about to take the pills from her, when she retracted her hand, making me almost fall from the lack of balance.
“You can’t dry swallow the medicine. Come, I’ll bring you to go and get a drink. I’m tired of being the dj anyway.” She shrugged and tugged on my hand as she sauntered down the stage. The music came to a halt as she unplugged the stereo, but people didn’t seem to mind. They were all either talking to each other or leaving to do something illegal. She guided me to the drink table, which was outside in the freezing winter air. I rubbed my hands up and down my cold arms, trying to hold on to as much warmth as I could. I sat down on the cold, hard concrete floor and heaved a huge sigh. Sung Yeong gave me a cup of some sort of weird green liquid with one hand, and lay down next to me. I gulped the liquid and the pill down, and I felt even worse.
“What is this?” I stuck my tongue out, feeling even more sick than before. She peered at the drink dispenser.
“Uh, apparently, it’s guava juice with kale.”  She squinted at the label. She snatched the drink from my grip and sniffed the foul smelling liquid.
“Maybe with a dash of tequila.” Her eyes widened in shock.
“SUNG YEONG! YOU CAN’T MIX ALCOHOL WITH MEDICINE!” I shrieked in fear, making the snogging students around me stare in shock.
“Well, um,” she scratched the back of her neck in embarrassment. “What happens if you mix alcohol with pills?” I massaged my temples, feeling frustrated and dizzy.
“I don’t know, death?” I assumed, trying to recall what I had learnt in Chemistry. “Whatever, it’s over. Anyway, if this shit kills me, I don’t have to watch Hye Gi and Seokjin holding hands and kissing anymore.”
Suddenly, she shot up from her position and looked at me, bright-eyed and interested. “You mean Lee Hye Gi and Kim Seokjin? They’re together?” She asked in total disbelief. I nodded faintly.
“Don’t you like Seokjin, though? I heard some gossip about you and him from some people.” She asked, being vague on purpose, probably trying to keep the “secret” identity of her skipping-classes-and-drinking-coffee-while-still-getting-straight-As club leader, Seo Min Woo. He was known as the “Head of Gossip” in school, and legend says that he knows every single chain of gossip even before it starts to spread.
“I...I don’t like...like him. Nope, nope, nope.” I felt even dizzier and sick than before. Everything was spinning, and I felt like I was going to hurl.
“Aha! I didn’t insinuate that I heard that you liked him. All I said was that I heard some rumors about the both of you.” She had a glint of mischief in her eyes, from what I could see. It was either that, or tears that were forming due to the biting winter air. I couldn’t tell, I was focusing too much on trying to keep my balance.
“Nope, nope, nope. No crush, nope.” I kept repeating my own words, dragging out the last syllable.
“Oooohhh~ you do like him. It’s so obvious! So tell me the juicy gossip.” She gushed, tugging on my arm. “Tell me~ please?” Sung Yeong was getting annoying. I wanted to hold her face for support, and then slapping her smug expression off it. I waved her away.
“I don’t-” I tried to start, but she cut me off almost immediately.
“Just tell me!” She yelled impatiently.
“Fine! You want to know? I like Kim Seokjin, alright? I...I’ve tried to hide this crush since last month, but since you’re so curious, let me just..just tell you now. I like him. I like the way he smiles, I like the way he talks, I like the way he treats everyone like royalty. But, you know what I hate? I hate that he is with Hye Gi. I hate that he chose...chose her over me. I hate that Hye Gi just dropped me like a bad habit to be with him. And...and, I hate that they’re together. Now you know, Sung...Sung Yeong. I don’t just like him. I’m in lo...love.” I mustered enough willpower not to just drop dead on the ground and stutter too much. I couldn’t be bothered anymore, I was slightly drunk and very very sick.
Sung Yeong’s mouth hung open, making her look like she was trying to catch flies. But, she wasn’t staring at me, she was staring at something behind me. I whipped my head around and say Hye Gi staring at me with tears streaming down her smooth face.
That was when I blacked out.
Hye Gi’s perspective
The transition from having fun to wanting to cry is a very fast process, at least in my case.
One moment, i’m having a great time with Jin, the next moment i’m sobbing my eyes out because my best friend said that she loved the man that I liked. And then suddenly, she was out like a light, collapsing onto the cold hard ground. Sung Yeong and I had to try and wake her up. Sung Yeong, being Sung Yeong, panicked and thought about the worst possible situation. Being the more practical and level-minded person, I just recalled what I learnt during my emergency situation training: lift the person’s legs.
Tears were running down my cheeks, but were ignored as I looked at the stirring y/n. Sung Yeong was calling an ambulance, desperately barking orders at the poor person on the other line. Staring at my half-conscious best friend, I couldn’t help but feel very hurt. Sure, she had the right and reasons to like him, but she could have told me first.
The ambulance came and took her away. I swore I saw her mouth something to me, but I couldn’t decipher what she was saying. Jin came out of the gym as the ambulance rolled away, it’s blaring alarm gave me a headache and I closed my eyes. He put his arm around my shoulder and pet my neat hair. He obviously didn’t know what had just happened, otherwise he would be freaking out.
I looked to my left and caught his soft gaze. He smiled softly at me, and I tried to muster a smile back. I hoped that my eyes weren’t puffy and my cheeks weren’t wet. Those eyes, that pair of eyes, they reminded me of someone. Someone special…
When I was younger, six-year-old me decided to start liking Kim Seokjin. Foolish, of course, but could I actually choose what emotions I feel? It’s not like I have an on and off button to switch on and switch off what i’m feeling. I liked the fact that he spoke so well, the fact that he treated everyone with such kindness and compassion. But, most of all, I liked the fact that he reminded me of my own older brother.
My brother was taken away from me when I was fourteen. I don’t remember much about him, only that he was the kindest, most gentle man in the entire world. My mother told me that he whispered lullabies to me just before I went to sleep every night, held my tiny fingers as I took my first steps, and was there with me as I said my first word. He was in the minority, the small group of people who didn’t take the cure. I don’t know how he escaped the punishment, but he did. He acted like a robot in front of everyone else, but with me, he was completely normal.
To be honest with you, I never actually liked Kim Seokjin for who he was. Only for who he had reminded me of.
Those emotions I had with my father, I felt a tinge of them with Jin because of their similarity. I tried to force myself to stop, using various methods that could probably end in death if I didn’t do them well, but the sense of comfort never left. So, I never did.
Jin gave me a false sense of security and comfort, one only my brother could give to me. He was just someone that I put all my pain and love for my father into. And I realised that if I continued “using” Kim Seokjin, I would find it very hard to let go.
So, I decided to let go.
Y/N’s Perspective
2 weeks after the Prom, after I got discharged from the hospital, I found myself in the Art Room with Hye Gi. Alone.
Awkward tension filled the room, the silence deafening. I shifted uncomfortably and refused to meet her piercing gaze. Maybe she had forgotten. Maybe this entire “I need to talk to you in the Art Room” was just to talk, return to our best friend status without the anger between us. Maybe it was just…
“Y/n. We need to talk about Jin.” She stated, making me jump at her sharp and short words. I swallowed thickly and nodded my head. Every time I talked about Jin, I was in the Art Room. Coincidence.
“I heard what you said,” my face turned red at her words. “About Jin and I”
“Um, yeah, sorry.”
“You know what I felt?” She asked me, sounding hurt. I stared at the ground in shame.
“I felt really hurt, you know? I thought that we were best friends. Even though we had a falling out, I’m still here for you no matter what.” She leaned forward in her chair. I looked up at her. Tears were glistening, ready to spill any moment, showing her true emotions, the ones she hid behind a seemingly happy exterior. “So, talk to me.”
“Uh, I don’t know. I’m sorry, I guess?” I didn’t know how to respond. “ I just like him. That’s it.”
“Tell me why.” Hye Gi closed her eyes.
One tear.
Two tears.
“I like the way he talks, the way he treats everyone, the way he takes care of everyone. The care and love inside of him. His beauty, both inside and out. The positivity he exuberates, the happiness he spreads.” I rambled, going on and on as I unknowingly broke her bit by bit.
“But, why him? Why Kim Seokjin? Your friend Jimin seems like the same type of person. Why not him? Age is no matter. Why Jin instead of Jimin?” Questions came flying at me. I looked down yet again in guilt.
“He...he reminds me of my sister.” I saw her shift at the corner of my eye. “His genuine care and concern, his love. He reminds me of my sister.” She knew about my sister. She was with me when my sister got the cure. Not just for moral support, but as a family member as well.
Her brother was my sister’s first love.
They ran away together and got caught because they slept in an open field. They were supposed to be executed, but somehow were excused, but were forced to take the cure.
“Y/n,” I lifted my gaze. “Jin reminds me of my older brother. I know how you feel. I feel what you feel. That’s why I like Jin too. He makes me feel like I’m hanging out with my brother again. Now, he’s just emotionless and boring.” She tried to lift the mood up. I smiled, understanding what she was feeling.
“Actually, I’ve never had actual feelings for Jin. It’s just the memory of my brother that fuels my crush.” She licked her dry lips. I had to disagree with her on that one.
“But, do you really love him?” She let another tear escape again.
“Yeah. I think so.” I gave her a half smile, not sure of what was appropriate. “I understand. The longer I hold onto this, the harder it is to let go. I should just let go of Jin now, right? It’s not like he can turn into my brother, can he?”
“Um, I guess so.” I awkwardly coughed. She just nodded at me and rose from her seat. Looking at me with glossy eyes, she turned to walk out of the room.
“Then, go. Go get him, tiger.” She smiled warmly, then disappeared into the crowd of confused students who were rushing to their next class.
And I exhaled.
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i was tagged by an anon so like here u go
LAST:
1. drink: water
2. phone call: ummmmmmmmm who uses phones anymore?
3. text message: a human
4. song listened to: Death of a Bachelor by Panic! At The Disco
5. time i cried: the question is: when am i not crying?
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated somebody twice: nope
7. been cheated on: nah
8. kissed someone and regretted it: no
9. lost someone special: mmhm this weekend actually
10. been depressed: constantly
11. gotten drunk and puked: im a minor so...yes
THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. ugh black isnt a colour...ummmm...very very very dark blue
13. GAY COLOURS LITERALLY ANYTHING GAY
14. very very very dark grey
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. made new friends: shoutout to my tumblr fam! oml did i just say fam. fml
16. fallen out of love: i guess so :)
17. laughed until you cried: yeah cause inside jokes ahhhhhhhh
18. found out someone was gossiping about you: ALL👏 THE👏FUCKING���TIME LIKE SERIOUSLY GET A LIFE
19. met somebody who changed you: yup :) a couple people actually
20. find out who your true friends are: i think so? but i mean...bpd so...i guess we will never know
21. kissed somebody on your facebook list: facebook is for old people
HOW MANY/MUCH:
22. facebook friends do you have in real life: get over it facebook is so 2007
23. pets: ive had 7 fish...ive given up all hope
24. want to change name: idk maybe on my dysphoric days but not constantly
WHAT:
25. did i get for my last birthday: a phone + data and a trip to Toronto for dance as far as i know
26. time i woke up: ummmmmmm ever heard of insomnia?
27. doing at midnight: probably on tumblr while watching netflix sometimes talking to friends
28. something you cannot wait for: death
29. last time i saw my mom: 45 mins ago
30. something you wish you could change about your life: being alive
31. listening to right now: grey’s anatomy cause OML THAT SHOW IS BOMB, jesus did i just say bomb...kill me
32. something that gets on your nerves: homophobes
33. talked to a person named Tom: idfk probably ive met a lot of people through acting im almost positive that i had a producer named tom when i was like 6
34. most visited website: TUMBLR. but netflix and youtube comes a close second...not really but like i use them a lot
35. elementary school: i went to 2 and was homeschooled for some reasons but like only briefly
36. high school: im in high school? only been to 1 but homeschooling might happen probs not but maybe
37. college: probably will be dead by then...BUT...if i am unfortunately alive, ill be in LA idk what ill be doing but ill be in LA or NYC but probs LA
38. hair color: dark brown looks black in the light kinda red and brown and black UGH WORDS u need to see it to understand what im saying
39. long or short hair: TOO LONG. TOO FUCKING LONG
40. crush: a cool human
41. do you like about yourself: i am filled with self hatred. there is no room for ‘liking myself’ what are u talking about
42. piercings: nope no nah nuh uh not happening not today boo boo not today FEMALE DYSPHORIA IM SORRY
43. blood type: you would think i knew cause ive done too many blood tests to count but nope still clueless as fuck cause IM A MINOR FUCK YOU MOM
44. nickname: M, some people call me Mandy but if u call me Mandy ur dead to me
45. relationship status: taken? wow thats weird to say
46. zodiac: Pisces
47. pronouns: she/her? he/him? they/them? EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN? depends on the day i guess...or whatever im feeling? still kinda confused LEAVE ME ALONE OKAY
48. favorite show: grey’s anatomy currently but pretty little liars comes really close
49. tattoos: WANT WANT WANT WANT WANT
50. right or left handed: ambidextrous get on my level
FIRST:
51. surgery: there has been too many i cant even remember my first
52. piercing: ugh refer to 42 ^^^
53. best friend: a couple of them? no names mentioned u know who u fucking are
54. sport: dance, ugh dance, love dance but like love hate, ummmm im really fucking athletic so like everything?
55. vacation: THAILAND U TAKE ME TO THAILAND U ARE OFFICALLY MY BEST FRIEND ALSO LA TAKE ME TO LA PLEASE I LOVE U FOREVER
56. pair of shoes: adidas cause i get them for freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
RIGHT NOW:
57. eating: newsflash im anorexic
58. drinking: nothing? water i guess?
59. im about to: UMMMMMMMMMMMMM
60. listening to: LA Devotee by Panic! at the Disco
61. waiting for: death? thats not original...ummmmmmm summer i guess? no summer = stress ummmmmm fuck it death im waiting for fucking death. refer to my blog to understand WHY IM SUICIDAL
62. want to see: my hw finished on my table
63. want to get married: idk i guess so? probs will be dead :)
64. career: acting i think but dance is an option i mean im already in the business and working actively so why not continue? idk if i actually wanna pursue it tho
WHICH IS BETTER:
65. hugs/kisses: depends on the person ;)
66. lips/eyes: ^^^ but usually eyes cause eyes are pretty
67. shorter/taller: people are cute no matter what
68. younger/older: does it matter? “age is just a number”
69. romantic/spontaneous: romantic but i wouldnt know im making an educated guess
70. nice arms/nice stomach: nice humans
71. sensitive/loud: sensitive
72. hook up/relationship: relationship
73. troublemaker/hesitant: hesitant i think?
HAVE YOU EVER:
74. kissed a stranger: nope
75. drank hard liquor: fuck yes gets u drunk fast
76. lost glasses/contact lenses: dont wear them...yet....we’ll see (see what i did there) (and there again) I AM AN AWFUL PERSON
77. turned someone down: yes quite often actually idk why it just happens?
78. canoodling on first date: first of all, ive never been on a date. second, im a virgin. third, WHY CANT U JUST SAY SEX? LIKE ITS NOT A BAD THING TO SAY WE ARE ON TUMBLR WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT...okay im done now sorry
79. broken someones heart: oops
80. had your own heart broken: mmhm all the fucking time idk why it just happens, i just realized how many times ive said that
81: been arrested: nah
82: cried when someone died: MMHM ALL FUCKING WEEKEND
83: fallen for a friend: who hasn’t like lesbihonest (sorry im just really gay)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. yourself: of course not who do u think ur talking to
85. miracles: i hope so?
86. love at first sight: ummmmm i think so? i really hope so but idk
87. Santa Clause: no but ummm idk but like no but like maybe but like no
88. kiss on first date: yeah
89. angels: i want to believe that i believe in angels but after everything that has happened to me idfk
OTHER:
90. current best friends name: fucking classified bitch leave me alone
91. eye color: hazel
92. favorite movie: anything disney cause im a disney freak ummmm The Imitation Game cause gay ummm OMG PRIDE GREAT MOVIE also love Tomboy cause it made me cry uggggh coming out ahhhhhhh tears ahhhhh
i tag everyone that reads this cause im too lazy
U BETTER DO THIS TAG ITS ACTUALLY A GOOD TAG SO LIKE
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I provide training workshops for colleges and the school I am currently doing work for asked me to send them a certificate of insurance. They said, they need this in order to process a purchase order. What kind of insurance do I need? I've never had to do this before? Is it general liability insurance? And generally, how much does it cost?""
What is the best health insurance plan for INternational students who are IN USA?
Hello there ,what is the best health insurance plan for International students who are in USA. If it helps I am currently IN MAryland. Please let me know , would be great if you could provide websites and links as well. Thnaks so much for your assisatnce!""
Best insurance for Japanese imported car?
I am thinking to buy Mazda Eunos 1992 Japanese import. As i am new driver I find it hard to find decent insurance which will cost me under 2000. Any suggestions? Maybe you know any good company in mind?
Where can I find cheap dental insurance for braces?
I'm 20 years old and I work at Wal-Mart...I'm not sure if I'm considered to be full or part-time.....some weeks I work 40 hours and some weeks I work 32 hours....I REALLY need braces and I have no insurance and I'm clueless to all of this....if I can't get insurance through Wal-Mart...where else could I get it? Help!
What is the average cost of individual health insurance?
i have to get my own plan b/c i will not be eligible to be covered by my parents any more. im just looking to see what companies are good and how much health insurance will cost me. i will probably need some good coverage as i am a hardcore mountain biker (crashes are inevitable)
Car insurance!!!!?
i need to know what the average car insurance for an 18 year old girl working in a hospital's peugeot 106 1.1 litre would be.
""Response Insurance, Need Customer Reviews?
http://www.response.com I recently checked the following for my auto insurance & they have good rates available but I have never heard of them. Is there any place I can get the customer review for this company? Or if you have dealt with this company please let me know your experience?
18 years old purchasing car and insurance?
I am an 18 year old female and im looking to purchase a car - preferably a new car but we'll see how far that goes... I would like opinions on which car insurance is the best for new drivers. I did a couple of quotes and Geico seems to be good, any other suggestions?""
To restart car insurance they want money down?
I was paying $140 a month for 6 months of car insurance. Around the 6 month mark or a little before i said i want to cancel and they said if i cancel today i wouldnt owe anything and my policy be good until 6-22-2011 (i called in may). I tried to restart the policy today and they want $290.04 down,which includes $143.68 for any previous balance and/or any state-mandated fees or charges* If there was a previous balance why did i not owe anything???""
""1st Quote = worst insurance company ever, please see below...?""
I'm trying to change the car on my insurance, they haven't picked up the phone for the last 3 days, the website keeps crashing, they don't have an e-mail address, so i've cancelled the direct debit with my bank for them. As there regulated by the FSA should i get in contact with them and complain, as I'm unable to insure my car presently and I don't think thats fair, Are they able to still take the money? and will I inccur extra charges by cutting them off through the bank?""
How much would motorcycle insurance cost for a 17 year old with a 01 Suzuki Katana 600 in Texas?
I am looking into getting one and want to know how much the insurance would cost.
Question where to get affordable dentures without insurance.?
Hello,I live in Renton,Washington and need new dentures.I have no dental insurance.I will be able to put down 300 dollars and make payments,only working PT.Any suggestions if its cheaper to go to a Denture Clinic,Dental Lab or regular dentist? Thank you...""
Looking for a insurance rider policy?
I am looking for some info on insurance rider policy, also want to get a good one.""
How much would car insurance on a nissan GT R cost?
How much would car insurance on a nissan GT R cost?
Can insurance rates go up if...?
If you have a provisional license issued and you get a citation for carrying passengers in your car before your 5 months is up, can your insurance rates go up? If so, how much?""
Miguel's insurance company repair costs 80% of value. Sustained $8000 worth of damage what was value of car.?
Miguel's insurance company repair costs 80% of value. Sustained $8000 worth of damage what was value of car.?
Student auto insurance?
I'm currently a college student and would like to purchase my own auto insurance in Ohio (and no longer be included on my parents insurance). Does anyone have any tips on how/where to get good, affordable auto insurance? Are there any companies that you would recommend? Or ones that offer student/good student discounts? Thanks!""
Help looking for health insurance for college student in California?
I'm a 20 year old living in California and I'm trying to get health insurance. My previous one in PCIP is dissolved and I'm trying to get enrolled into Covered California, but I got locked out and can't reach anyone there due to high call volumes. I'm looking for an alternative but I have no idea where else to search. I'm looking into Kaiser, Blue Cross etc. but I'm not sure what to do.. Can someone please help me?""
Insurance rates for 2003 F150?
Ok, so I'll start off by saying I'm 15, and when I do turn 16, I want to get an F150. My question is, what can I expect to be the insurance rates on a car like that? I've read from multiple websites that despite being a truck, it has decent rates because it's extremely safe and is reliable. Can anyone give some information or direct me to a website that would help me out?
NC Divers License and insurance?
My boyfriend is looking to get his license for the first time and we have a question about insurance. As far as I know, in the state of NC you cannot get your license w/o having car insurance. How can you get your license w/o having a car to issue insurance on? In other words, if he doesn't have a vehicle, why do they require you to have insurance before obtaining your license?""
Where's the cheapest car insurance for a 17 year old?
Hi, Recently I bought myself a Vauxhall Corsa SXI 2003, and have been looking around for car insurance. It seems that everyone thinks that car insurance costs around 3000 for a new young male driver, however the cheapest quote I seem to get is about 5000-8000. I've tried every insurance comparison site under the sun, and looked at so many companies direct. The cheaper quote is just over 4000, but that involves the little black box to be installed. I'm not complaining about this as I would drive sensibly and have nothing to hide, but it is still so steep. I can't afford these prices for a 1500 car. Anyone have any ideas? It feels so unfair that I haven't even been given the chance to show that I won't abuse driving... *I've tried putting my parents as second drivers, no luck. Also, the model of my car doesn't affect it as I get the same quotes for a 1997 Ford Fiesta...*""
Does auto insurance.... ?
if lets say i hit a car with my car and the other guy claims the accident does the my auto insurance investigate the accident at all or do they just fix the car without asking questions??? im comfused
Why does my car insurance provider ask for other people in household?
Does it matter who I live with if they aren't going to be driving my car? How will it affect my rates? When I first got my insurance I lived with roommates - they had good driving records but still they never drove my car (they had their own!), now I live with my fiance who has a DUI - will my rates go up because of it? He has his own truck and SUV so we rarely ride my car and when we do I ALWAYS drive... so why do I need to tell my insurance company (Mercury) who else resides in my home?!""
I am 19 years old whats the cheapest car insurance for a old ford ranger wit a lot of miles on it ?
I am 19 years old whats the cheapest car insurance for a old ford ranger wit a lot of miles on it ?
Renters insurance for apartments?
When renting an apartment at a complex or apartment building, is renters insurance always mandatory?""
How do people driver around without car insurance and get away with it?
I watch court shows on tv and many people are taking someone to court because of an accident and the other party does not have car insurance
Do you need medical on your auto insurance?
Yesterday I purchased a new auto insurance policy. I was convinced by the rep that I needed an optional medical provision for $5,000 dollars worth of coverage in case of an accident. She said that if I didn't get the medical coverage, I would have to inform my health insurance provider that they held the primary responsibility in case of an accident and that many health insurance plans will not accept this. My family has really good health insurance--do we really need medical coverage on our auto insurance, too?""
Help with car insurance quote please?
If I have my own insurance it's 2,400, But if I put my girlfriend on it, it comes down to 600 but she's only got a provisional and I have a full uk licence were both 17 Just wanted to know how it comes down so much if she can't legally drive a car...without someone with experence? Or should I stop complaing?""
Are Companies Required to Offer Health Insurance?
Are companies with a certain number of employees required to offer health insurance?
Motorcycle insurance???
I just got a 07 kawasaki ninja zx6r i got a nice deal on but trying to find insurance on it is hard. Why do they want like an average of 500 dollars a month and thats like 4x what i pay for my car insurance.
What is the cheapest van to insure for a young female driver with 2 yrs ncb?
What is the cheapest van to insure for a young female driver with 2 yrs ncb?
If i take an online drivers ed what will it do to the price of my car insurance?
The insurance companys told me that my insurance would be cheaper if i take the actual driving class. but will it still be as cheap if i do the class online?
What's the cheapest auto insurance for 20 year old male?
Which company
Scooter insurance - where can i get cheap scooter insurance for my 16 year old son ?
My 16 yr old son is being quoted stupid prices - he has a 49cc and has past his cbt. can anyone suggest a company who specialise in young riders ?
Car insurance policy - car purchase date?
So I am currently trying to buy car insurance for myself, I am trying to get the insurance in my name so I can get no claims. The car is my mums however, and it is in her name, but the insurance can let me choose an otpion that says someone else owns the car. It asks when the car was purchased; now when my mum bought the car it didn't have a logbook, and we didn't get one for a year while it was sat at the back of our house. The date on the V5 is 2012 but technically we bought the car in 2011. Should I list the date we bought it or the date listed as registered on the V5? It makes a 250 different in the insurance quote for some reason o.O""
""First ticket, no points, insurance increase?""
I just got my first ticket, clocked at 60 mph in a 45 mph zone. I'm 17 years old, driving my dad's car. The officer didn't give me any points for it and the fine was drastically lowered, considering the fact that I only went 60 for a little and breaked right after. Do you think my insurance will raise? I live in Pennsylvania and have Allstate. If it raises, how much extra per month will I be looking at?""
""What, if anything, is in the ObamaCare bill that will keep insurance premiums at an affordable level?""
We are going to be FORCED to pay for this thing, but what if we can't afford it - I can't afford insurance now.""
About car insurance companies (& their rates)........?
Hi, I've got a general question about car insurance companies. Do companies really charge more to insure a 2 door car versus a 4 door car? I understand the whole 2 door=sports car theory, but not every two door is sporty. Does it really make that much difference? For instance, there's a 2001 Chevy Cavalier 2 door in my local newspaper for $2500. Would my parents pay more for insurance coverage on it than if it was a 4 door Cavalier? As far as I know, this one isn't a Z-24--it's just a run-of-the-mill Cavy. Thanks in advance!!! :)""
What happens if you don't pay your car insurance?
how important is it every month to pay your car insurance? what could happen if you don't
How much will the insurance company offer for my car?
a couple questions and description..... my car was involved in an accident and deemed a total loss. I was curious on how much the insurance company may offer? the accident was not my fault. i would like to buy it back though and fix it. how much do they usually offer a totaled car back for? its a 1994 honda accord lx with 128500 on her. shes in good condition with a small 1/4 size spot of rust on the left rear fender. everything else is in working condition. its a dark blue/green color. A/C, cruise, good tires, new cd player/ am/ fm, new speakers, new timing belt, distributor and ignition switch. it has a 2.2 4cylinder, automatic. any help is appreciated. interior is very clean, and paint was good condition. thank you!""
""How can forcing us to buy health insurance, be the same as mandatory car insurance?""
I don't own a car, so I don't pay car insurance. Nobody is forcing me to buy it. But under the Obama individual mandate, we will all have to buy insurance or get fined. This is based on the assumption that you will get sick and not be able to afford your own care, and so will choose to be a burden. Those are a lot of assumptions. Can we force somebody to buy something that they don't want, based on assumptions that may or may not be true??""
Where can I find affordable health insurance?
I live in Texas and I've searched high and low for good private health insurance. I would have loved to go with the insurance my job offers, but, unfortunately, they only gave me the run around and cold stares. Im broke, so I can only afford something that costs $20-$80. Thank for the help! ^_^""
""I got rear-ended and my car insurance was cancelled a month ago, what's going to happen?""
I live in Oregon. I've been faithful with car insurance for about 4 years now, full comp and coverage. My auto-magic payment did not go through one month and my insurance was cancelled. An insured driver hit me, police cited him at fault. What is going to happen to me, my license and vehicle. The police didn't take my car or cite me for no insurance after knowing mine was cancelled. What will the DMV say and what should I do to save my butt?""
How do I know which insurance is primary?
I'm a full time student and I'm nineteen. I have insurance through my mother, empire blue cross blue shield. But I also work part-time at a hospital and receive local 1199 health insurance from them. Which one is primary?""
Insurance rates for 2003 F150?
Ok, so I'll start off by saying I'm 15, and when I do turn 16, I want to get an F150. My question is, what can I expect to be the insurance rates on a car like that? I've read from multiple websites that despite being a truck, it has decent rates because it's extremely safe and is reliable. Can anyone give some information or direct me to a website that would help me out?
Supplemental health insurance provider?
Does anybody have supplemental health insurance? Do you know of a good provider? I have never heard of it, my Mom was telling me about it. I looked and I found some places that said quotes for supplemental health insurance. but when I filled out the info it seemed like it gave me a quote for regular health insurance plan not supplemental health insurance. My health insurance I have through work has a high deductible so i am always paying out of pocket for I have not met my deductible.""
""We're going to vegas and will be renting a car, should we get the insurance?""
I've heard that getting insurance when you rent a car is pointless because your regular auto insurance will cover you, because insurance covers the driver and not the car. If we were to get the car insurance for the rental car, it would add an extra $250. Obviously our regular insurance has to cover us, or else the car rental place wouldn't make this insurance optional. Am i right? Should we consider getting the insurance?""
Car insurance for 17 year old guy?
i just got my license and im thinkin buyin 2010 Mustang. How much would insurance cost and what insuranse company is cheapest?
Should I pay my employer to get my insurance license in FL?
Should I pay my employer to get my insurance license in FL? I was recently hired at trajan insurance as a financial professional. They want me to pay $580 to get my insurance license before I even start. The company sells insurance and other financial options to consumers. They werent clear on my pay scale either. The office is located in Tampa, Fl.. Does anyone know anything about this? Please help in anyway you can. thank you""
What if auto insurance does not fully cover property damages?
If an insurance company is asking for extra money for the driver at fault because the property damages did not cover all fees and the at fault driver does not have a job or any income what will the consequences be? (If you are bothered by this question or do not agree, please do not answer and move on thank you!)""
Good maternity insurance in Michigan?
We are looking for good affordable maternity insurance here in Michigan. Everything that I've found has a huge waiting period, and they still expect me to pay through the entire time. Any help?""
Insurance problems?
hi were looking at buying a new car we have full comp insurance on our car and are covered to drive any car the car were looking at has mot and tax vut no insurance as we checked with the mib web site, can we still drive it using our own car insurance for the car we have now or do we need to insure it on it's own we haven't got a new car yet but still looking wanted advice before we got a new car many thanks for any advice and best wishes diane xx""
State Farm Insurance Rates From Fellow Users?
I will be added onto my parents policy. I got a 3.0GPA 16 Year old male, still in high school I will probably get a late 90's compact or 1/2 ton pickup. Any ideas, I herd that it will be around $300 a month. I also have taken driving classes if that helps.""
Whats the cheapest car insurance company for young/newly qualified drivers in the UK?
I have just passed my test and have a car, but the insurance is ridiculously high, around 3,300. There has got to be cheaper quotes out there. Please help, thanks!""
Can u get insurance on a different address to your licence?
Say i live in leeds but my friend lives in bradford and my insurance works out cheaper on their address. Can i ge insurance to her address even though i do not live there?
How much does full time RV insurance cost per year?
I know it's different for everyone but how much does it cost for you? And what size / class RV do you have? I'm just trying to get a rough estimate. Thanks
Health insurance in USA?
hello, i have few questions regarding health insurance for americans. 1- What is the average annual cost of health insurance for adults? 2- do children get free healthcare or should they be covered by the insurance? 3- who can benefit from free healthcare in america? 4- if americans pay tax how come theyre not entitled to free healthcare?""
How can I start an auto insurance business in California?
How can I start an auto insurance business in California?
How to get a hold of the drunk drivers insurance?
my car and 2 other cars were damaged by a drunk driver. his car flipped and crashed on the ground. they ran away as soon as they got helped out. the police came and all we got was a police report number. my question is my car is scratched and has broken windows/mirror. i am not going to pay for it to get it fix , why should i it wasn't my fault. how can i get a hold off the drunk drivers insurance and policy information. will the police contact me after they get all the information or do i have to contact them? sorry i have never had to deal with the insurance company or the police for any of this so i have no idea. if this matter i live in san diego california""
UK car insurance question?
Cheapest car insurance for 17 year old boy, 3rd party F&T. 1. Provisional licence holder 2. Full licence holder Thank you""
Where can I find information about female car insurance? Is it really cheaper than for men?
Where can I find information about female car insurance? Is it really cheaper than for men?
Do you have to declare performance parts on to your auto insurance?
Like a new exhaust system, or an aftermarket turbo?""
Which is the cheapest and best ( best value) auto insurance in the US?
GEICO sux
""How much do you think will be the house insurance with 11,000 sqf land and 1,700 sq ft 3 bed 2b in California?
I need answer with resource. Thanks
Who here doesn't have health insurance and doesn't want it?
Everyone, which of the following do you fit it: (1) I have health insurance and want to keep it. (2) I have health insurance, but plan to get rid of it. (3) I don't have health insurance, but wish I had it. (4) I don't have health insurance and don't want it. I think that covers all possibilities.""
What does your credit paying history got to do with paying higher/lower car insurance rates?
What does your credit paying history got to do with paying higher/lower car insurance rates?
Does any1 know were i cud get cheap car insurance?
i live in northern ireland and am 18 years old thanks
Can I write off the montly payment for health insurance I pay for my family?
Going to opt out of my employer paid insurance program, and buy private insurance for my family, can I write the entire payment off on my personal taxes?""
Car insurance for teenagers?
Im 18 and I own a used car. Never a trouble maker. I have a part time job. I want to know what insurance I can get for my car that is affordable.
Cant afford my car and insurance?
I am 19 years old and I financed a 2005 jetta and paid close to 12,500 for my car. Yes I got ripped off.. I pay $333.65 a month for the car and $165.00 for insurance. I am completely out and cant afford this car anymore. What do I do? If i stop paying for it will they take it imminently? I need help. If the bank takes it back they sell it they will come after me for the difference. But i dont have anything they could take. what do i do.. I have made 2 payments of $333.65. Im in california, so will they garnish my wages?""
Insurance rates for 2003 F150?
Ok, so I'll start off by saying I'm 15, and when I do turn 16, I want to get an F150. My question is, what can I expect to be the insurance rates on a car like that? I've read from multiple websites that despite being a truck, it has decent rates because it's extremely safe and is reliable. Can anyone give some information or direct me to a website that would help me out?
https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/insurance-quotes-nz-compare-jacob-foster/"
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glendashley · 7 years ago
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28 June 2017 (259pm)
It’s 28 june, officially about 2 weeks till I leave for Vancity on 15 July. 
I’m currently in Grassroots pantry and totally over ordered on popcorn chicken and gyoza... Honestly, I didn’t even eat that much but I don't even know why Im so full. Ive been sick lately, down with the flu and sore throat after my 2 week trip to Japan.  I was really scared to come back to Hong Kong and have to deal with my own thoughts and now I’ve been alone for about 5 days and it’s not as bad as I thought it would be. Actually, I really realised that a lot of things are really in our minds.  No one knows of this blog here and I just feel so safe writing everything out and just pouring out here. 
Lately, I’ve been worrying about my future and what I really want to do but I still haven’t have it ALL figured out and I’m still pretty confused but I realised that actually I’m not the only one and I kinda feel better about this. These days alone, I’ve been reading A LOT! Like not only books but also how people have gone through the same things as me. Yesterday I was watching a Ted-Talk video and this indian guy was talking about how pain and sorrow has created one of the most magnificent masterpieces. I realised that with this pain, this confusion, this anger, this sorrow, I can create my incredible masterpiece! He said we could let this tear us down and pull us down BUT we can also choose to allow this to help us grow, motivate us to create something amazing and wonderful. I am going through a very dark phase and I do not want to pitch a tent and stay here and wallow and feel sorry for myself anymore. I want to move on gloriously and be able to look back at this darkness and remember that even through my darkest days, I made progress. If I can go through this, I will be able to go through ANYTHING that life will throw at me. 
Through these days, I’ve felt more than I’ve ever felt in a long long time, I feel like I’ve grown so much and am able to connect with myself so much more. I know exactly what I am feeling and how I am. I think I’ve never felt so connected to myself before. Some days, I really feel like death, like death has loomed over me and sitting right on me and waiting for me to just give up. BUT, I won’t let this tear me down or drag me into a hell hole. 
Last night, I was just thinking about the first 3 weeks of the break up and how I felt. I still remember it so, SO CLEARLY that I would wake up suddenly after like less than 3 hours of sleep and jerk up like I was possessed by something and I would start shaking uncontrollably. I told my friends that the feelings I felt then, I would never want to curse onto anyone, NOT even my worse enemies because wow, that feeling...that feeling REALLY REALLY REALLY felt like I was damned to the deepest cores of hell. I couldn’t breathe and my heart could NOT stop beating like crazy.. It was totally uncontrollable. I remembered SO CLEARLY I would wake up and sit up in Hannah’s bed and stare out at the window on my left and just felt like that there was NOTHING in the world to live for anymore and I would never ever be happy ever again and all I wanted to do was just die and not think about it. But not only did I have all these thoughts the scary feeling of not being able to love anyone again and especially not being able to love myself and live for myself was so real. I felt like I would never be able to live a normal life and I was searching myself every moment to find some sort of hope but I just couldn’t find it. I called him so much I just couldn’t control myself. At that moment it didn't even hit me that he could so easily make me feel this way while he was fine and totally unscathed and there I was suffering like as if I had no more meaning in life anymore. It was sooooo scary. Honestly, scary is just an understatement. I remember I couldn’t even hold my body up, I couldn't go to class, I couldn’t concentrate, I couldn’t sleep or eat or talk or anything! I couldn’t do ANYTHING. I did NOTHING for that 3 weeks, nothing but cried and had ALL SORTS of panic and anxiety attacks! Nothing I did nor thought could help me from feeling this way and I honestly, honestly, wanted to die sooooo badly.  There was a night I remember it so clearly that I was lying there and I really hoped so hard in my heart that I could just close my eyes sleep and never ever ever wake up and that was when I felt like I really wanted to die, just die so this pain would stop. I think I was so desperate to just make this pain STOP, because no matter what I did, no matter who I was talking to, no matter what I was eating or doing, I could not stop the pain that was tearing me apart from the inside. And the worst thing was that I had to pretend I was okay when I saw people, I had to go to class and try to listen and I had to make sure I was doing my projects so I didn’t fail the semester and I had to keep it all together while the pain and sorrow was just TEARING me apart on the inside and it was just the worse thing I’ve ever experienced. I tried to remember the first time I got my heart broken but since I didn’t really write down how i felt and it was 3 years ago, I kinda forgot how I felt. All I know is that, all the feelings I felt, I would never ever forget, not even on my death bed I would tell myself it was okay to feel that way. No one, not even murderers or even Hitler deserves to feel that way, that pain should never ever be felt by ANYONE but ironically, it was felt by me and thinking back, I can’t even believe I survived that. It really is by God’s grace and God’s love and faith that I had left in my heart that pulled me through! I cannot find any other reason in myself that allowed me to survive that. I now see how far I’ve come. Even though now, I can’t say I am 100% healed but looking back at the first 3 weeks, I truly see the progress I have made and I know I should be very proud of myself. I literally walked through hell and came back to the surface! 
It’s been 3 months since it happened and till last week I still slipped up and texted him and guess what he said when I said that I really love him. His reply lo and behold “Nope. Sorry I don’t love you.” Honestly, after seeing something like this, it really puts things in perspective. The truth is, he is not doing this to me, only I am doing it to myself. Only I can save myself and pull myself out, no one can do it for me. Amazing people can give me all the best and clever advices but only ME, MYSELF & I can pull myself out of it. 
I think about 2 nights ago, it finally hit me that while I am feeling sorry for myself wallowing in my own sorrows and pain, missing him, begging for him, loving him, wondering what he’s doing and who he’s seeing and what he’s thinking, HE on the other hand is on coffee and bagel meeting new people, clubbing, going out having the BEST TIME EVER, playing around, going travelling, planning new things for him and most importantly, MOVED ON. So... does it make ANY sense at all ANY SENSE that I get left behind and continue to want him back and continue to feel pain and feel sorry for myself like as I am worth nothing when clearly, I HAVE SO MUCH IN STORED FOR ME! When clearly, I am young, I look good, I have an amazing supportive family, I have wonderful caring friends who wants the best for me and have been listening to my sob stories for way longer than anyone should be subjected to. SO! Why am i continuing to love and miss and beg for someone who doesn't give ANY FUCKS about me and for someone who has already moved on to mars and BEYOND. And ONLY ME, ONLY ME who is crying and begging for him and trying to force myself onto him when he clearly, clearly so clearly wants NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. 
I will never ever, let him have this power over me anymore. I am more than ready to MOVE ON and let him join my PAST. I will never ever ever let him have the chance to ever come into my life ever again. I will always remember the pain that I was subjected to, the humiliation and the “Sorry I do not love you, my feelings changed. I can’t help it.” To EVER EVER EVER have anything to do with me ever again. I may be able to forgive but I will never ever forget. EVER! So one day, if you still think HMMMMM maybe I can try again. NOPE! NO! NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!! NOOOOOO! DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT! He left you once and HE WILL LEAVE AGAIN! He will, it’s not even maybe he won’t. HE WILL because he couldn't take the most innocent you, how can he EVER have a family with you or go through life with you. He showed me how loyal he is the moment he left me and put me through the most painful thing I have ever felt in this 23 years of living. So NO! DO NOT EVER THINK YOU CAN EVER GO BACK TO HIM AND IT WILL BE OKAY BECAUSE YOU WILL NEVER EVER BE ABLE TO FORGET THE PAIN HE SUBJECTED YOU TO WHILE HE WAS OUT HAVING THE BEST TIME OF HIS LIFE AND LIVING IT UPPPPPP! Remember how he told you, “oh don’t use uber so much” and THEN, after the break up, go on to take the most expensive uber around town like he was a baller and that he was the coolest and when you called him, he said he was sooooo busy and that he was at dinner and that I SHOULD MOVE THE FUCK ON! And I should stop disturbing his life and that I SHOULD STOP LOVING HIM COS HE DOESN’T WANT IT AND HOW ANNOYING I WAS. Period! There is nothing left to say because I have begged and told him that I wanted him back but he still treated me like TRASH and NOTHING and told me I was WORTHLESS to him. So NOPEEEEE NOPEEEEE NOPEEEEEE, I will never ever allow this man to hurt me the second time because I AM NOT STUPID! He has hurt you more than anyone in your life has hurt you and the most painful thing is how he was so convincing as to how he would NEVER EVER hurt me BUT, hurt me more than I could EVER imagine. If ever, you think twice of wanting to call him or give it another shot or find him or beg, THINK BACK AT THE PAIN HE HAS CAUSED YOU! Someone who loves you, respects you and wants you will never ever ever subject you to these kinda pain and sorrow. SO BE DONE WITH HIM! BE SO DONE THAT HE CAN NO LONGER HAVE THE POWER OR CHANCE EVER TO HURT YOU LIKE THAT AGAIN! 
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samanthasroberts · 7 years ago
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Southern Charm Recap: Flamingo-ing Crazy
Evening, party people. Smiling faces, beautiful places, welcome back to another week of . Lets see what bat shit craziness this week has in store.
Cameran solidifies her role as the unofficial protagonist of the show, narrating the opening sequence (and even saying the word bitch. Well, I do declare!) My familys about to make fun of me for debasing myself by watching this show for yet another week. Suck it, dad, this shits entertaining and makes me feel like a very accomplished adult in comparison to these 35-year-old train wrecks. On a side note, Im kind of getting into this theme song. As an extra side note, my TV is broken and everything is green tinted, which is fitting, I feel.
We open with Thomas on the phone with JD, the former bitching about Kathryn (what else is new?). He rolls up to JDs house and cant even say yes to a cup of coffee without breaking out the French. Ugh, I thought that was a one-episode thing. Thomas apparently told Kathryn he wasnt cosigning her lease (after the whole polo fiasco, if you’ll recall) and she went so nuts that she ended up IN THE HOSPITAL AND MAY HAVE GONE INTO LABOR PREMATURELY. Jesus fucking Christ. So now, what does Thomas do? He agrees to cosign.
JD is like, wait, so you call Kathryn and tell her youre not cosigning, she gets upset, and now youre cosigning anyway because you feel bad for her
JD: I upset my wife plenty of times when she was pregnant but she didnt end up in the hospital over it.
Thomas is like, Wow, everybody was righthomegirl really does know how to manipulate.
Apparently Jennifer is the ultimate shadester, she used to date Thomas and screenshotted everything and sent it to Kathryn just to stir shit up. Taking it a bit far, don’t you think?
Thomas: If I can handle prison for six months, I can handle this bullshit for two more months.
Hold up, like actual prison or just being with Kathryn? Maybe that random Facebook commenter was right and I do need to go back and watch the show from season 1.
Cameran is one of those white people who answers the phone with, Yello! and we promptly learn she was up all night with diarrhea. Gross. Shep goes to watch Craig turn in his application for the bar exam because hes so full of shit that nobody believes him unless they see it with their own eyes. Thats gotta hurt, Craig.
Shep rolls up to good ol Gentry HQ and asks Craig how business is doing. Craig starts talking about some BS I zoned out pretty quick listening to, something about a bourbon side and a hotel side of something.Damn, and youre not gonna let Landon get in on this bourbon business? Thats cold, Craig.
Craig has one more step to nail before he can take the bar, and if he doesnt complete it in time he wont be able to take the test. I feel a setup coming on
These guys are literally arguing over which type of adhesive Craig should use to affix his passport photos to his application.
Cameran meets up with Danni, the roast thief from the earlier episode, and another friend for lunch. One of their friends orders a sweet tea instead of wine and they all jump on her immediately to ask if shes pregnant. Like…a girl can’t order a damn sweet tea in the middle of the day without everyone assuming she’s got a bun in the oven? Cameron is SO OBVIOUSLY not ready to be a mother and these bitches wont leave her the fuck alone about it. Newsflash: This is 2016! Women can aspire to more nowadays than just being a mother. Leave Cameran alone!
Cameran has anxiety too, she reveals, and this show is becoming one giant therapy advertisement. Just goes to show you, money cant solve all your problems. Spinoff idea: What if they all go to the same therapist? Also, Cam’s friend is like, because thats totally a cure for a legitimate mental illness. WTF is wrong with you. What decade do these people live in.
Only 15 minutes in and my fingers are already tired from all this ranting. Gonna be a long episode. Also, wtf happened to Whitney? Is he still alive?
Its finally (almost) time for the flamingo party. Yay! Patricia will be photographing this party for her entertainment book whcih, Im sorry, Im definitely buying. They’re going to have a ros tower and idk what that is, but I know I want one. Patricia is explaining those champagne tower things where you pour the champagne in the top of the pyramid and it spills into all the ones at the bottom and is like, No its not. Its basically 3D beer pong without the balls. Just chill.
Wait ok the Gentry is a hotel?? I feel like an idiot but if they wouldve just explained this shit at the beginning we wouldnt be here. Anyway, Landon and Craig are prepping for the party and going to a spa.
Landon: Part of being a Southern belle is being well-kept, which makes you a good person.
Yeah, maybe on the outside. Im not convinced any of you except Cameran are good people on the inside. And maybeee Craig. He seems pretty earnest.
Craig is aiming for Gatsby-ish pink in terms of outfit color and Landon is like, Im sorry, bitch what? Don’t be over there acting like your Southern asses did not fucking invent salmon pink shorts as a menswear item. Yeah, you THOUGHT you could insult us Yankees.
Jennifer called Craig to let him know Kathryn literally made herself sick and is in the hospital, and he of course feels super bad for her. Meanwhile, Landon does not give one shit!
Landon: Ugh here we go with the drama. People go to the hospital every day. Calm the fuck down.
Okay, people also die everyday, does that make dying any less shitty?
Landon: Did she really almost die? Doubt it. TTYL, DGAF, going to the spa.
Jennifer tells Craig that Thomas didn’t visit Kathryn in the hospital. This detail is important later, so keep it in mind.
Landon: Im tired of Kathryn controlling and manipulating everyone with this child, Im not gonna be manipulated by this psychopath.
Landon literally thinks Kathryn got a slight headache and rushed to the ER. Not sure if this is warranted or not but I’m semi impressed by the fact that she can’t even pretend to be mildly concerned.
We see Kathryn and she explains she basically gave herself such high blood pressure that it affected the baby. IDK how you can personally know what your own blood pressure feels like unless youre constantly taking it, but ok.
Kathryn: All this baby and I need is a stable place to live in a not-stressful environment and if Thomas wont help me get a huge-ass house he doesnt deserve to be in my babys life as far as Im concerned.
Bonus round: Kathryn manipulates Thomas into helping her move, too.
Kathryn: Cosigning on this house is the least he could do for me at this point. YOU MEAN ASIDE FROM THE LIKE $2500 YOU GET A MONTH? YEAH, I REMEMBER THAT FROM LAST EPISODE, IM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT.
Back at Patricias house where shes still setting up for the flamingo party. God damn, they are milking it.
Patricia: I grew up in the 50s. Mothers wore dresses and high heels and had their hair and makeup done. Ive always maintained you have to put on the dog and try to ge as glamorous as you can.
IDK what putting on the dog means but thats gonna be my next getting ready Instagram caption.
Sligthly disappointed there are no real flamingos at this flamingo party. I was definitely holding out for some exotic birds to be present.
Thomas saying yeah, pop that is the most uncomfortable Ive been all evening, even if they are referring to a bottle of wine.
Thomas is setting Landon up with some dude with a ponytail who I feel like is probably her kryptonite since he seem like the type of dude whod call himself an artist, too. Landon also greets everyone with bonsoir. Can we fucking stop pretending we’re European?
Patricia has a fortune teller at her party. What a rager. I am very sad I did not get an invite. Patricia, if youre reading this, I can clean up really well and I wont get belligerent drunk, which is more than I can say of at least half your guests. Hook a girl up.
This is the first/most weve seen of Whitney in like, two weeks. Some girl said hi to Shep and called him babe and I can see the smoke coming out of Landons ears. OMG JUST HIT ON HIM ALREADY, THIS IS SO PATHETIC TO WATCH.
Craig got Patricia this gaudy flamingo-decorated martini glass and Patricia just HAS to drop that she has 18th-century porcelain. Calm down, Patricia, nobody doubts that you have class. You don’t need to be so ostentatious.
Whitney: Trying to watch Thomas flirt with girls is like trying to watch your horny drunk uncle.
YES. SPOT ON. Somebody give Whitney more screen time!
Cameran shows up poss wasted and with a huge flamingo hat. Cameran is me in college, committing to the theme so hard she doesn’t care if she looks ridiculous.
Five seconds into the party, and Shep is already naked and in the pool. Don’t you know this is a classy affair??
Craig confronts Thomas about Kathryns hospital visit and asks if he saw her. Thomas is likeand Craig is like *sips wine*
Shit-starting Jen may or may not be lying about Thomas not going to visit Kathryn. It’s about to get real.
Craig: One of the reasons Thomas hates Jen so much is because she was supposed to be the fun mistress and wasnt supposed to stick around and meddle in his affairs.
THE PLOT THICKENS. Who can we trust? Nobody, really. Everybodys conniving af. Except Cameran. Im really liking her. Can you tell?
Some girl Bailey asked Landon if she and Shep have ever fucked, or even kissed.
Landon: I’m not gonna lie, theres sometimes I wonder if Shep and I could be in a relationship but I dont wanna risk getting hurt.
Landon. OMG. You are more transparent than every Kardashian PR stunt ever. You clearly wonder ALL THE TIME if you and Shep could be in a relationship, why youre not, when hes going to wake up and realize youre the one for him
Shep gets his fortune told and the fortune teller is like and Sheps like and everyones like Shep is just making a bunch of thats what she said jokes like the mature gentleman he is. Landon, you picked a real winner.
The gay dude who visited Kathryn earlier in the first episode (idk his name, go cross-reference my other recap if you really care that much) pulls Patricia aside to be like
Patricia: I think its very unattractive that hes friends with Kathryn Dennis. Its very low-rent to me. (Yes, she actually used the words “low-rent.”)
Dude whose name I 100% forgot: Its very clear what Patricia sees in Kathryn that she doesnt like: she sees herself.
Patricia calls this dude a knockoff Truman Capote. I gotta say, the South has got their shit-talking on point.
Jen shows up and we already know its going to be good. Thomas is not pleased and calls her a piece of trash. HERE WE GO.
Thomas: Tell this chick Im going to throw her in the pool. JD: You dont need another assault charge, homie.
One things for sure: some type of confrontation is about to go down.
JD is talking about doing another polo match. Jen is likeaka,
Thomas is watching Jen talk to Elizabeth and JD and hes just seething over there. FWIW, Elizabeth seems like a very nice woman. Jen does not, really. Thomas pulls Jen aside.
Thomas: Craig told me you told him I didn’t see Kathryn in the hospital Jen: I meant you didnt stay overnight
Cut to: Jen definitely in plain English saying that Thomas wasnt there at all.
Then Jen criticizes Thomas for only being there for two hours. Like, splitting hairs much? Youre just looking for a reason to shit on him.
Jen: If Thomas is criticizing me for putting Kathryns health at risk, he needs to take a long hard look in the mirror and then go play in traffic.
Thomas: A blind person could see through these lies.
They have a lie vs. misunderstanding argument for like 30 seconds before Thomas tells Jennifer to fuck off.
Jennifer: Im the only friend Kathryn trusts. It would be nice if the father of her kids was the other one.
Thomas thinks its Jens mission in life to wreck his life and make him out to be the enemy.
Jen: Im torn between completely cussing him out and telling him how I really feel, or just feeling sorry for him because hes truly delusional.
AKA how I feel watching this show.
Jens like, and Thomas is like And I’m like:
Patricia is not going to like this argument. Very not luxe.
Just when you think punches are about to fly, they both walk away from the argument. Phew, dodged a bullet. Or like, an assault charge.
JD: Thomas and Kathryn have enough problems, Jennifer doesnt need to add to them. This dams gonna break.
Exciting news tidbit: Thomas pronounces water like wooder.
Whats the first thing Jennifer does after being accused of starting drama? She fucking calls Kathryn from the porch of Patricias house! Whitney is like because his mom has to fight his battles. Everybodys gathered to watch while acting like theyre too classy to watch. Jennifer leaves on her own accord, fuck this show for being anticlimactic AF. I wanted an eviction!
Jennifer: I know what Kathryns going through because now I’m the one nobody likes.
Thomas: I can take a lot. Imprisonment, false political allegations, but do not mess with my family. It’s only okay when I treat Kathryn like shit.
Jennifer leaves yelling and once again this show is so fucking anticlimactic! You built up this party for three fucking episodes and what did we get? A heated argument from which both adults walk away on their own accord, and not even one person gets thrown out? Give me some damn drama, give me a fucking cliffhanger! Come on, Bravo! Do better.
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adambstingus · 7 years ago
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Southern Charm Recap: Flamingo-ing Crazy
Evening, party people. Smiling faces, beautiful places, welcome back to another week of . Lets see what bat shit craziness this week has in store.
Cameran solidifies her role as the unofficial protagonist of the show, narrating the opening sequence (and even saying the word bitch. Well, I do declare!) My familys about to make fun of me for debasing myself by watching this show for yet another week. Suck it, dad, this shits entertaining and makes me feel like a very accomplished adult in comparison to these 35-year-old train wrecks. On a side note, Im kind of getting into this theme song. As an extra side note, my TV is broken and everything is green tinted, which is fitting, I feel.
We open with Thomas on the phone with JD, the former bitching about Kathryn (what else is new?). He rolls up to JDs house and cant even say yes to a cup of coffee without breaking out the French. Ugh, I thought that was a one-episode thing. Thomas apparently told Kathryn he wasnt cosigning her lease (after the whole polo fiasco, if you’ll recall) and she went so nuts that she ended up IN THE HOSPITAL AND MAY HAVE GONE INTO LABOR PREMATURELY. Jesus fucking Christ. So now, what does Thomas do? He agrees to cosign.
JD is like, wait, so you call Kathryn and tell her youre not cosigning, she gets upset, and now youre cosigning anyway because you feel bad for her
JD: I upset my wife plenty of times when she was pregnant but she didnt end up in the hospital over it.
Thomas is like, Wow, everybody was righthomegirl really does know how to manipulate.
Apparently Jennifer is the ultimate shadester, she used to date Thomas and screenshotted everything and sent it to Kathryn just to stir shit up. Taking it a bit far, don’t you think?
Thomas: If I can handle prison for six months, I can handle this bullshit for two more months.
Hold up, like actual prison or just being with Kathryn? Maybe that random Facebook commenter was right and I do need to go back and watch the show from season 1.
Cameran is one of those white people who answers the phone with, Yello! and we promptly learn she was up all night with diarrhea. Gross. Shep goes to watch Craig turn in his application for the bar exam because hes so full of shit that nobody believes him unless they see it with their own eyes. Thats gotta hurt, Craig.
Shep rolls up to good ol Gentry HQ and asks Craig how business is doing. Craig starts talking about some BS I zoned out pretty quick listening to, something about a bourbon side and a hotel side of something.Damn, and youre not gonna let Landon get in on this bourbon business? Thats cold, Craig.
Craig has one more step to nail before he can take the bar, and if he doesnt complete it in time he wont be able to take the test. I feel a setup coming on
These guys are literally arguing over which type of adhesive Craig should use to affix his passport photos to his application.
Cameran meets up with Danni, the roast thief from the earlier episode, and another friend for lunch. One of their friends orders a sweet tea instead of wine and they all jump on her immediately to ask if shes pregnant. Like…a girl can’t order a damn sweet tea in the middle of the day without everyone assuming she’s got a bun in the oven? Cameron is SO OBVIOUSLY not ready to be a mother and these bitches wont leave her the fuck alone about it. Newsflash: This is 2016! Women can aspire to more nowadays than just being a mother. Leave Cameran alone!
Cameran has anxiety too, she reveals, and this show is becoming one giant therapy advertisement. Just goes to show you, money cant solve all your problems. Spinoff idea: What if they all go to the same therapist? Also, Cam’s friend is like, because thats totally a cure for a legitimate mental illness. WTF is wrong with you. What decade do these people live in.
Only 15 minutes in and my fingers are already tired from all this ranting. Gonna be a long episode. Also, wtf happened to Whitney? Is he still alive?
Its finally (almost) time for the flamingo party. Yay! Patricia will be photographing this party for her entertainment book whcih, Im sorry, Im definitely buying. They’re going to have a ros tower and idk what that is, but I know I want one. Patricia is explaining those champagne tower things where you pour the champagne in the top of the pyramid and it spills into all the ones at the bottom and is like, No its not. Its basically 3D beer pong without the balls. Just chill.
Wait ok the Gentry is a hotel?? I feel like an idiot but if they wouldve just explained this shit at the beginning we wouldnt be here. Anyway, Landon and Craig are prepping for the party and going to a spa.
Landon: Part of being a Southern belle is being well-kept, which makes you a good person.
Yeah, maybe on the outside. Im not convinced any of you except Cameran are good people on the inside. And maybeee Craig. He seems pretty earnest.
Craig is aiming for Gatsby-ish pink in terms of outfit color and Landon is like, Im sorry, bitch what? Don’t be over there acting like your Southern asses did not fucking invent salmon pink shorts as a menswear item. Yeah, you THOUGHT you could insult us Yankees.
Jennifer called Craig to let him know Kathryn literally made herself sick and is in the hospital, and he of course feels super bad for her. Meanwhile, Landon does not give one shit!
Landon: Ugh here we go with the drama. People go to the hospital every day. Calm the fuck down.
Okay, people also die everyday, does that make dying any less shitty?
Landon: Did she really almost die? Doubt it. TTYL, DGAF, going to the spa.
Jennifer tells Craig that Thomas didn’t visit Kathryn in the hospital. This detail is important later, so keep it in mind.
Landon: Im tired of Kathryn controlling and manipulating everyone with this child, Im not gonna be manipulated by this psychopath.
Landon literally thinks Kathryn got a slight headache and rushed to the ER. Not sure if this is warranted or not but I’m semi impressed by the fact that she can’t even pretend to be mildly concerned.
We see Kathryn and she explains she basically gave herself such high blood pressure that it affected the baby. IDK how you can personally know what your own blood pressure feels like unless youre constantly taking it, but ok.
Kathryn: All this baby and I need is a stable place to live in a not-stressful environment and if Thomas wont help me get a huge-ass house he doesnt deserve to be in my babys life as far as Im concerned.
Bonus round: Kathryn manipulates Thomas into helping her move, too.
Kathryn: Cosigning on this house is the least he could do for me at this point. YOU MEAN ASIDE FROM THE LIKE $2500 YOU GET A MONTH? YEAH, I REMEMBER THAT FROM LAST EPISODE, IM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT.
Back at Patricias house where shes still setting up for the flamingo party. God damn, they are milking it.
Patricia: I grew up in the 50s. Mothers wore dresses and high heels and had their hair and makeup done. Ive always maintained you have to put on the dog and try to ge as glamorous as you can.
IDK what putting on the dog means but thats gonna be my next getting ready Instagram caption.
Sligthly disappointed there are no real flamingos at this flamingo party. I was definitely holding out for some exotic birds to be present.
Thomas saying yeah, pop that is the most uncomfortable Ive been all evening, even if they are referring to a bottle of wine.
Thomas is setting Landon up with some dude with a ponytail who I feel like is probably her kryptonite since he seem like the type of dude whod call himself an artist, too. Landon also greets everyone with bonsoir. Can we fucking stop pretending we’re European?
Patricia has a fortune teller at her party. What a rager. I am very sad I did not get an invite. Patricia, if youre reading this, I can clean up really well and I wont get belligerent drunk, which is more than I can say of at least half your guests. Hook a girl up.
This is the first/most weve seen of Whitney in like, two weeks. Some girl said hi to Shep and called him babe and I can see the smoke coming out of Landons ears. OMG JUST HIT ON HIM ALREADY, THIS IS SO PATHETIC TO WATCH.
Craig got Patricia this gaudy flamingo-decorated martini glass and Patricia just HAS to drop that she has 18th-century porcelain. Calm down, Patricia, nobody doubts that you have class. You don’t need to be so ostentatious.
Whitney: Trying to watch Thomas flirt with girls is like trying to watch your horny drunk uncle.
YES. SPOT ON. Somebody give Whitney more screen time!
Cameran shows up poss wasted and with a huge flamingo hat. Cameran is me in college, committing to the theme so hard she doesn’t care if she looks ridiculous.
Five seconds into the party, and Shep is already naked and in the pool. Don’t you know this is a classy affair??
Craig confronts Thomas about Kathryns hospital visit and asks if he saw her. Thomas is likeand Craig is like *sips wine*
Shit-starting Jen may or may not be lying about Thomas not going to visit Kathryn. It’s about to get real.
Craig: One of the reasons Thomas hates Jen so much is because she was supposed to be the fun mistress and wasnt supposed to stick around and meddle in his affairs.
THE PLOT THICKENS. Who can we trust? Nobody, really. Everybodys conniving af. Except Cameran. Im really liking her. Can you tell?
Some girl Bailey asked Landon if she and Shep have ever fucked, or even kissed.
Landon: I’m not gonna lie, theres sometimes I wonder if Shep and I could be in a relationship but I dont wanna risk getting hurt.
Landon. OMG. You are more transparent than every Kardashian PR stunt ever. You clearly wonder ALL THE TIME if you and Shep could be in a relationship, why youre not, when hes going to wake up and realize youre the one for him
Shep gets his fortune told and the fortune teller is like and Sheps like and everyones like Shep is just making a bunch of thats what she said jokes like the mature gentleman he is. Landon, you picked a real winner.
The gay dude who visited Kathryn earlier in the first episode (idk his name, go cross-reference my other recap if you really care that much) pulls Patricia aside to be like
Patricia: I think its very unattractive that hes friends with Kathryn Dennis. Its very low-rent to me. (Yes, she actually used the words “low-rent.”)
Dude whose name I 100% forgot: Its very clear what Patricia sees in Kathryn that she doesnt like: she sees herself.
Patricia calls this dude a knockoff Truman Capote. I gotta say, the South has got their shit-talking on point.
Jen shows up and we already know its going to be good. Thomas is not pleased and calls her a piece of trash. HERE WE GO.
Thomas: Tell this chick Im going to throw her in the pool. JD: You dont need another assault charge, homie.
One things for sure: some type of confrontation is about to go down.
JD is talking about doing another polo match. Jen is likeaka,
Thomas is watching Jen talk to Elizabeth and JD and hes just seething over there. FWIW, Elizabeth seems like a very nice woman. Jen does not, really. Thomas pulls Jen aside.
Thomas: Craig told me you told him I didn’t see Kathryn in the hospital Jen: I meant you didnt stay overnight
Cut to: Jen definitely in plain English saying that Thomas wasnt there at all.
Then Jen criticizes Thomas for only being there for two hours. Like, splitting hairs much? Youre just looking for a reason to shit on him.
Jen: If Thomas is criticizing me for putting Kathryns health at risk, he needs to take a long hard look in the mirror and then go play in traffic.
Thomas: A blind person could see through these lies.
They have a lie vs. misunderstanding argument for like 30 seconds before Thomas tells Jennifer to fuck off.
Jennifer: Im the only friend Kathryn trusts. It would be nice if the father of her kids was the other one.
Thomas thinks its Jens mission in life to wreck his life and make him out to be the enemy.
Jen: Im torn between completely cussing him out and telling him how I really feel, or just feeling sorry for him because hes truly delusional.
AKA how I feel watching this show.
Jens like, and Thomas is like And I’m like:
Patricia is not going to like this argument. Very not luxe.
Just when you think punches are about to fly, they both walk away from the argument. Phew, dodged a bullet. Or like, an assault charge.
JD: Thomas and Kathryn have enough problems, Jennifer doesnt need to add to them. This dams gonna break.
Exciting news tidbit: Thomas pronounces water like wooder.
Whats the first thing Jennifer does after being accused of starting drama? She fucking calls Kathryn from the porch of Patricias house! Whitney is like because his mom has to fight his battles. Everybodys gathered to watch while acting like theyre too classy to watch. Jennifer leaves on her own accord, fuck this show for being anticlimactic AF. I wanted an eviction!
Jennifer: I know what Kathryns going through because now I’m the one nobody likes.
Thomas: I can take a lot. Imprisonment, false political allegations, but do not mess with my family. It’s only okay when I treat Kathryn like shit.
Jennifer leaves yelling and once again this show is so fucking anticlimactic! You built up this party for three fucking episodes and what did we get? A heated argument from which both adults walk away on their own accord, and not even one person gets thrown out? Give me some damn drama, give me a fucking cliffhanger! Come on, Bravo! Do better.
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Southern Charm Recap: Flamingo-ing Crazy
Evening, party people. Smiling faces, beautiful places, welcome back to another week of . Lets see what bat shit craziness this week has in store.
Cameran solidifies her role as the unofficial protagonist of the show, narrating the opening sequence (and even saying the word bitch. Well, I do declare!) My familys about to make fun of me for debasing myself by watching this show for yet another week. Suck it, dad, this shits entertaining and makes me feel like a very accomplished adult in comparison to these 35-year-old train wrecks. On a side note, Im kind of getting into this theme song. As an extra side note, my TV is broken and everything is green tinted, which is fitting, I feel.
We open with Thomas on the phone with JD, the former bitching about Kathryn (what else is new?). He rolls up to JDs house and cant even say yes to a cup of coffee without breaking out the French. Ugh, I thought that was a one-episode thing. Thomas apparently told Kathryn he wasnt cosigning her lease (after the whole polo fiasco, if you’ll recall) and she went so nuts that she ended up IN THE HOSPITAL AND MAY HAVE GONE INTO LABOR PREMATURELY. Jesus fucking Christ. So now, what does Thomas do? He agrees to cosign.
JD is like, wait, so you call Kathryn and tell her youre not cosigning, she gets upset, and now youre cosigning anyway because you feel bad for her
JD: I upset my wife plenty of times when she was pregnant but she didnt end up in the hospital over it.
Thomas is like, Wow, everybody was righthomegirl really does know how to manipulate.
Apparently Jennifer is the ultimate shadester, she used to date Thomas and screenshotted everything and sent it to Kathryn just to stir shit up. Taking it a bit far, don’t you think?
Thomas: If I can handle prison for six months, I can handle this bullshit for two more months.
Hold up, like actual prison or just being with Kathryn? Maybe that random Facebook commenter was right and I do need to go back and watch the show from season 1.
Cameran is one of those white people who answers the phone with, Yello! and we promptly learn she was up all night with diarrhea. Gross. Shep goes to watch Craig turn in his application for the bar exam because hes so full of shit that nobody believes him unless they see it with their own eyes. Thats gotta hurt, Craig.
Shep rolls up to good ol Gentry HQ and asks Craig how business is doing. Craig starts talking about some BS I zoned out pretty quick listening to, something about a bourbon side and a hotel side of something.Damn, and youre not gonna let Landon get in on this bourbon business? Thats cold, Craig.
Craig has one more step to nail before he can take the bar, and if he doesnt complete it in time he wont be able to take the test. I feel a setup coming on
These guys are literally arguing over which type of adhesive Craig should use to affix his passport photos to his application.
Cameran meets up with Danni, the roast thief from the earlier episode, and another friend for lunch. One of their friends orders a sweet tea instead of wine and they all jump on her immediately to ask if shes pregnant. Like…a girl can’t order a damn sweet tea in the middle of the day without everyone assuming she’s got a bun in the oven? Cameron is SO OBVIOUSLY not ready to be a mother and these bitches wont leave her the fuck alone about it. Newsflash: This is 2016! Women can aspire to more nowadays than just being a mother. Leave Cameran alone!
Cameran has anxiety too, she reveals, and this show is becoming one giant therapy advertisement. Just goes to show you, money cant solve all your problems. Spinoff idea: What if they all go to the same therapist? Also, Cam’s friend is like, because thats totally a cure for a legitimate mental illness. WTF is wrong with you. What decade do these people live in.
Only 15 minutes in and my fingers are already tired from all this ranting. Gonna be a long episode. Also, wtf happened to Whitney? Is he still alive?
Its finally (almost) time for the flamingo party. Yay! Patricia will be photographing this party for her entertainment book whcih, Im sorry, Im definitely buying. They’re going to have a ros tower and idk what that is, but I know I want one. Patricia is explaining those champagne tower things where you pour the champagne in the top of the pyramid and it spills into all the ones at the bottom and is like, No its not. Its basically 3D beer pong without the balls. Just chill.
Wait ok the Gentry is a hotel?? I feel like an idiot but if they wouldve just explained this shit at the beginning we wouldnt be here. Anyway, Landon and Craig are prepping for the party and going to a spa.
Landon: Part of being a Southern belle is being well-kept, which makes you a good person.
Yeah, maybe on the outside. Im not convinced any of you except Cameran are good people on the inside. And maybeee Craig. He seems pretty earnest.
Craig is aiming for Gatsby-ish pink in terms of outfit color and Landon is like, Im sorry, bitch what? Don’t be over there acting like your Southern asses did not fucking invent salmon pink shorts as a menswear item. Yeah, you THOUGHT you could insult us Yankees.
Jennifer called Craig to let him know Kathryn literally made herself sick and is in the hospital, and he of course feels super bad for her. Meanwhile, Landon does not give one shit!
Landon: Ugh here we go with the drama. People go to the hospital every day. Calm the fuck down.
Okay, people also die everyday, does that make dying any less shitty?
Landon: Did she really almost die? Doubt it. TTYL, DGAF, going to the spa.
Jennifer tells Craig that Thomas didn’t visit Kathryn in the hospital. This detail is important later, so keep it in mind.
Landon: Im tired of Kathryn controlling and manipulating everyone with this child, Im not gonna be manipulated by this psychopath.
Landon literally thinks Kathryn got a slight headache and rushed to the ER. Not sure if this is warranted or not but I’m semi impressed by the fact that she can’t even pretend to be mildly concerned.
We see Kathryn and she explains she basically gave herself such high blood pressure that it affected the baby. IDK how you can personally know what your own blood pressure feels like unless youre constantly taking it, but ok.
Kathryn: All this baby and I need is a stable place to live in a not-stressful environment and if Thomas wont help me get a huge-ass house he doesnt deserve to be in my babys life as far as Im concerned.
Bonus round: Kathryn manipulates Thomas into helping her move, too.
Kathryn: Cosigning on this house is the least he could do for me at this point. YOU MEAN ASIDE FROM THE LIKE $2500 YOU GET A MONTH? YEAH, I REMEMBER THAT FROM LAST EPISODE, IM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT.
Back at Patricias house where shes still setting up for the flamingo party. God damn, they are milking it.
Patricia: I grew up in the 50s. Mothers wore dresses and high heels and had their hair and makeup done. Ive always maintained you have to put on the dog and try to ge as glamorous as you can.
IDK what putting on the dog means but thats gonna be my next getting ready Instagram caption.
Sligthly disappointed there are no real flamingos at this flamingo party. I was definitely holding out for some exotic birds to be present.
Thomas saying yeah, pop that is the most uncomfortable Ive been all evening, even if they are referring to a bottle of wine.
Thomas is setting Landon up with some dude with a ponytail who I feel like is probably her kryptonite since he seem like the type of dude whod call himself an artist, too. Landon also greets everyone with bonsoir. Can we fucking stop pretending we’re European?
Patricia has a fortune teller at her party. What a rager. I am very sad I did not get an invite. Patricia, if youre reading this, I can clean up really well and I wont get belligerent drunk, which is more than I can say of at least half your guests. Hook a girl up.
This is the first/most weve seen of Whitney in like, two weeks. Some girl said hi to Shep and called him babe and I can see the smoke coming out of Landons ears. OMG JUST HIT ON HIM ALREADY, THIS IS SO PATHETIC TO WATCH.
Craig got Patricia this gaudy flamingo-decorated martini glass and Patricia just HAS to drop that she has 18th-century porcelain. Calm down, Patricia, nobody doubts that you have class. You don’t need to be so ostentatious.
Whitney: Trying to watch Thomas flirt with girls is like trying to watch your horny drunk uncle.
YES. SPOT ON. Somebody give Whitney more screen time!
Cameran shows up poss wasted and with a huge flamingo hat. Cameran is me in college, committing to the theme so hard she doesn’t care if she looks ridiculous.
Five seconds into the party, and Shep is already naked and in the pool. Don’t you know this is a classy affair??
Craig confronts Thomas about Kathryns hospital visit and asks if he saw her. Thomas is likeand Craig is like *sips wine*
Shit-starting Jen may or may not be lying about Thomas not going to visit Kathryn. It’s about to get real.
Craig: One of the reasons Thomas hates Jen so much is because she was supposed to be the fun mistress and wasnt supposed to stick around and meddle in his affairs.
THE PLOT THICKENS. Who can we trust? Nobody, really. Everybodys conniving af. Except Cameran. Im really liking her. Can you tell?
Some girl Bailey asked Landon if she and Shep have ever fucked, or even kissed.
Landon: I’m not gonna lie, theres sometimes I wonder if Shep and I could be in a relationship but I dont wanna risk getting hurt.
Landon. OMG. You are more transparent than every Kardashian PR stunt ever. You clearly wonder ALL THE TIME if you and Shep could be in a relationship, why youre not, when hes going to wake up and realize youre the one for him
Shep gets his fortune told and the fortune teller is like and Sheps like and everyones like Shep is just making a bunch of thats what she said jokes like the mature gentleman he is. Landon, you picked a real winner.
The gay dude who visited Kathryn earlier in the first episode (idk his name, go cross-reference my other recap if you really care that much) pulls Patricia aside to be like
Patricia: I think its very unattractive that hes friends with Kathryn Dennis. Its very low-rent to me. (Yes, she actually used the words “low-rent.”)
Dude whose name I 100% forgot: Its very clear what Patricia sees in Kathryn that she doesnt like: she sees herself.
Patricia calls this dude a knockoff Truman Capote. I gotta say, the South has got their shit-talking on point.
Jen shows up and we already know its going to be good. Thomas is not pleased and calls her a piece of trash. HERE WE GO.
Thomas: Tell this chick Im going to throw her in the pool. JD: You dont need another assault charge, homie.
One things for sure: some type of confrontation is about to go down.
JD is talking about doing another polo match. Jen is likeaka,
Thomas is watching Jen talk to Elizabeth and JD and hes just seething over there. FWIW, Elizabeth seems like a very nice woman. Jen does not, really. Thomas pulls Jen aside.
Thomas: Craig told me you told him I didn’t see Kathryn in the hospital Jen: I meant you didnt stay overnight
Cut to: Jen definitely in plain English saying that Thomas wasnt there at all.
Then Jen criticizes Thomas for only being there for two hours. Like, splitting hairs much? Youre just looking for a reason to shit on him.
Jen: If Thomas is criticizing me for putting Kathryns health at risk, he needs to take a long hard look in the mirror and then go play in traffic.
Thomas: A blind person could see through these lies.
They have a lie vs. misunderstanding argument for like 30 seconds before Thomas tells Jennifer to fuck off.
Jennifer: Im the only friend Kathryn trusts. It would be nice if the father of her kids was the other one.
Thomas thinks its Jens mission in life to wreck his life and make him out to be the enemy.
Jen: Im torn between completely cussing him out and telling him how I really feel, or just feeling sorry for him because hes truly delusional.
AKA how I feel watching this show.
Jens like, and Thomas is like And I’m like:
Patricia is not going to like this argument. Very not luxe.
Just when you think punches are about to fly, they both walk away from the argument. Phew, dodged a bullet. Or like, an assault charge.
JD: Thomas and Kathryn have enough problems, Jennifer doesnt need to add to them. This dams gonna break.
Exciting news tidbit: Thomas pronounces water like wooder.
Whats the first thing Jennifer does after being accused of starting drama? She fucking calls Kathryn from the porch of Patricias house! Whitney is like because his mom has to fight his battles. Everybodys gathered to watch while acting like theyre too classy to watch. Jennifer leaves on her own accord, fuck this show for being anticlimactic AF. I wanted an eviction!
Jennifer: I know what Kathryns going through because now I’m the one nobody likes.
Thomas: I can take a lot. Imprisonment, false political allegations, but do not mess with my family. It’s only okay when I treat Kathryn like shit.
Jennifer leaves yelling and once again this show is so fucking anticlimactic! You built up this party for three fucking episodes and what did we get? A heated argument from which both adults walk away on their own accord, and not even one person gets thrown out? Give me some damn drama, give me a fucking cliffhanger! Come on, Bravo! Do better.
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from All Of Beer http://allofbeer.com/2017/05/27/southern-charm-recap-flamingo-ing-crazy/
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