#ive got my beloved friends who i met online who know so much about me and so when we met in person it was super chill -

[famewolf]

practicing vulnerability around people who are not my husband is so exhausting, but it's good work (I promise to myself)

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

hehe glad i could make you laugh, oooh that sounds awesome! yeah id love to be tagged it sounds great :)

YES the differences are so fucking weird. like, they do know they're the same age right? i feel like its just an exagguration of how much the persons role in the group matters, like we see chan being held up as such a mature, old leader while jungkook who is literally the same age, is still babied etc. like enha hyung line is basically the same age (if a bit younger) as chenle and jisung but somehow the rules are different?? as you point out, still legal but still bizarre. hehe yeah, i mean where else are we going to rant? quora lol. mmm, hopefully more people can just write less smut abt people who are barely adults

ah, no prob it didnt take long. yeah i think thats right (i keep forgetting you know my url lol) mmhmm :( i think if that happened irl there would be some major trauma going on. knock wood it never happens to you or me lol (/hj)

hehe same! oooh glad Redemption For Cheese was realised! yess we cant rllycomplain that theyve written/produced too much good music lol. yeah, ive dragged him into being a stay so *dusts hands off* mission accomplished. mmm yeah, they tend to have a certain vibe but tbh it couldve worked if they were any other group but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ahh ur one step ahead of me on the stages of listening to ssick i think, still not convinced but thats okay! hehe, it had to be said. yesss the itch in the back of my brain is very satisfied by sorry i love you, felixs vocals deserve to be appreciated! (side note i feel like hes trying to sing more like his speaking voice, sorta husky, but tbh i wouldnt be mad if he sang like in glow, his sweet honey vocals made my life lol. but i think ive heard him say he doesnt like singing like that cos it makes his normal voice less husky, so what can you do)

> YES SOMEONE SAID IT. seungmin rap KING, he sped thru that rap like it was nothing, he deserves more rap lines. i do like how they gave minho some melodic rap lines this comeback, my guy deserved to show off those skills that made him not be eliminated (flashbacks to stay collectively wanting to murder jyp) and we already know changbin can sing, my man murdered masked singer. hyunjin can obviously sing as can jisung and felix, and i want to hear chan rap more! i feel like he started as part of 3racha (as a rap unit not producing) and then just became a vocalist (which im fine with, but it could be nice to hear him flex his rapping skills) and was partially replaced by hyunjin. anywayyy

back to album talk. lmaooo sad music to twerk to PERFECTLY describes silent cry. yes secret secret is and will always be, a masterpiece. hehe glad i could make you laugh :) i just felt like they have similar vibes. putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised. oh my beloved track, red lights. ahh thats okay, we can have different opinions, but by god the lyrics are *chefs kiss*. *banging on table* TWISTED AU TWISTED AU TWISTED AU. yess id love to see ur take on it! sdfghjkl it would have been glorious

no no! not stupid, just able to predict my brainwaves. ooooh thats so cool! makes me want to go there (wherever there is lol) yeah the waves are pretty good here, but none of my familys a surfer, so we dont rlly enjoy the full potential lol. YES moving on to gone away, it is indeed a heartwrenching track, but the vocals and the bloody key change? makes me want to brave being sad just to listen to it. mmm yeah, good point :( i feel like ive just gotten used to overthinking so much so that it doesnt matter what mood im in, ill do it anyway, so might as well just do what i feel like doing anyway.

yeah i think ur right! it is quite comforting knowing that all the tracks will get the love they deserve. i feel like also people assume kpop is just one genre which is utter bs. there are so many different vibes and feels and songs, i couldnt get into kpop (of which i thought only the bright cheerful present day bts stuff existed smh) until i heard gods menu so... idk where i was going with this but yeah. :)

YES FUCK YG, theyre literally on the brink of being kicked out of the big three and they are holding their salvation hostage without letting them do ANYTHING. idek what thought process goes thru their minds but arghhh its so infuriating. yess lisa's cb will be awesome but ot4 is the gold standard here.

hehe, glad u could get to this point. no no! u dont sound like a cult member at all lol yeah, i loooove some of their songs but the whole 23 members thing is getting to me. thats prob a common problem with nctzens but what can i say? im a simple girl with a limit to how many korean boys i can give my money to. atm im just trying to get into ateez and finish memorising enhypen's faces. also kard is kinda sucking me into their fandom atm, as well as eric name lol. ah what can you do? ooh thats good!

hehe i love it too! its exactly like online penpals, that was rlly well put. aww ty! hmm im okay, recovering from a bad case of rsv so thats fun. im doing okay mentally, starting therapy soon (after having to convince my mother that its not just smth i can brush off). physically i wont go into, basically i should be doing stretches to help but they dont completely fix it so my lazy ass doesnt do them, plus i got told recently im going to be stuck with this condition for the rest of my life so thats fun! ah, before you type smth dw abt me ill be fine. the weather atm is cloudy but warm, its been raining on and off today which is good for the garden. uhh i just finished reading sunburnt veils and im in the middle of prom theory which is rlly good. ummm ive got a concert tonight? that i may or may not be able to sing in (bc of the whole rsv thingo) and uhhhh idk. my dog is cute? im drinking tea rn? ive got a school dance coming up?

wbu? hows ur day going, how are you? whats the weather like on ur end? done anything interesting lately? found smth that makes you rlly happy? just any random thing youve been dying to tell someone?

no no! dont apologise, i love these exchanges. i think im happy to continue them for a long time :) on the other hand, if you get tired of them, feel free to just not answer at any time. goodness gracious this was a long ask haha hope it isnt too annoying

<3 w.a. 🐺

sorry it took me a bit to reply, i was fixing my theme ;n;

yeah, i figured it was because of the roles too. my friends and i still get taken aback when 3rd gen idols are the same age as 4th gen ones. in my head it doesn't add up sometimes. PLS THE RANT AT QUORA SKJDK tbh tho it's just going to be normalized as the years pass? esp that the boys are growing older and the amount of explicit fics will just increase. i might have to start blocking tags.

i had to look up the previous ask to remember what we were talking about xd i hope the events in champagne problems never happens to anyone. realistically, it probably happens a lot. damn i really won't wish that pain on anyone. dragging your brother into being a stay i whEEZED JFKSA additional noeasy music enthusiast o.o and ALL I CAN SAY WITH YOU GUSHING ABT FELIX IS AHA WHIPPEEEED OML can't blame you tho, i also want to hear felix sing more in other shades (if that makes sense HAHA) i really hope they'll do the role exchange in the next comeback :( or like in the near future bc i know they can do it :( the day i hear seungmin rapping it i will respectfully pass away. minho was given more lines this comeback thank fUCK i could rmb my irl being vocal abt her frustration. i don't get why minho barely has center time/lines in title tracks??? like the line distribution in the past eras just made me ???? if seventeen can balance lines with 13 members why cant a group of 8 do the same? moving on. i haven't watched the stray kids show simply bc i don't want to cry HAJS but i've seen clips. imagine if skz debuted without minho and felix?!?!? i rmb another irl catching bias feels towards changbin bc of the masked singer only to find out that the man's a rapper. i love how skz's vocals were highlighted this comeback :c there were a lot of mellow tracks! i find it cute when chan sings/raps bc it gets kinda obvious that he's a foreigner? the accent (im not even sure if it's the accent) it just shows. "putting off skz stuff bc of not having time to cry IS the kpop stan life summarised." CORRECT.

abt the twisted au o.O i'll inquire my irl if she wants to write it or not. if she doesn't want to, i'll do it. i miss writing twisted aus <3___<3 and i also miss going to the beach with my friends :' ) but it's starting to get cold here and i don't think i'll be able to enjoy the beach as much as i would if i went beaching in the summer. so maybe next summer? gone away really has an sm-ballad vibe. the thing about skz being a self-producing group, their songs don't sound like typical jype songs? and i just appreciate that bc in all honesty im not a fan of jyp groups at all. PLS the overthinking. i wish i could mute overthinking.

anyone who assumes kpop is just one genre obv hasn't listened to a single track. if kpop was just one genre why do i like some tracks more than the others??? oh you've only recently become a kpop stan? tbh im not a fan of the bright songs of bts either. i liked their older ones *chefs kiss* really matched high school vibes. yg has good artists and they're just wasting the talent ~.~ that strategy they have will get tiring eventually. people will stop waiting on blackpink and move on to newer more active groups ://

HAHAHAH yeah the 23 members is pretty overwhelming! it was the reason i didn't bother stanning before quarantine started. i don't regret stanning tho, met my ult bias in that group <3___<3 i don't really purchase albums unless i like the tracks xd ohhh getting into ateez just in time for the comeback! let me know what you think about them! i was fond of them at some point but grew out of it. good luck with memorizing enhypen! it took me a while to distinguish to people there XD i haven't checked out kard yet but chan plays their songs during lives and they're sexc hype music me likey *u*

i had to look up rsv im sorry. i'm glad you're recovering! please rest more and don't stress yourself out. bro i wish i could go to therapy too bc i have weird issues i can't justify and i need a professional to tell me what's the reason behind it. stuck with what condition btw? what happened? i'm sorry in case i just forgot. yesterday was a bit rainy for me too :(( it's not the type of rainy that makes me anxious so B) oh concert! good luck and i hope you'll be able to sing but i also don't think it's best for you rn :c what's your dog's breed? and yes i just finished drinking tea too. AAAAA i miss school dances :(( the last one i was supposed to have was cancelled bc of covid.

i was less productive today and i'm teetering between being mentally stable and becoming a hermit again. i'm anxious with a lot of things atm so like : D not the best state. today it was a bit sunny but not hot hot which was nice. i changed my theme today bc i couldn't wait for sept. 1st. and no i haven't found anything that makes me happy HAHAHA shit like that's hard to identify. don't have anything to say too, i'm just thinking about why i'm procrastinating too much atm T_T and i'm listening to this rap song atm and one of the rappers sounded like han.

it isn't annoying! i enjoy the long exchanges but i do admit it takes me awhile to type down a reply. so if i get more busy, it'll prolly take a bit longer for me to reply.

[sioneferjane]

A Blessed 2018

Time flies so fast! Indeed, another fruitful year to welcome.

2018 has been the most amazing year for me. I had so many challenges to surpass and I blessedly conquered them. Two more sleep and here we are, about to welcome the unknown 2019. It wasn’t so long and it feels like January was just yesterday.

It was earlier of January when I started working to my current company. Who would have thought that a Human Resource’s major receives an award for being the Best Accounting Employee for Purchasing Department? The main reason why I failed being a Cumlaude, having grade below of 82, is now my everyday work. Sorry, for I can’t get over it hehe.

At first, I was really about to give up and longing for what my passion is, Recruiting, but look, I am still here and going one year. Well, I am not saying that I already give up my dream being an HR, rather, I enjoyed being with numbers and unending processing of everyday payments. It is not that bad having experience of what I hated before. Also, I got to be friends with lots of people especially Hard Block Team but due to having HR heart, who would I be more friendly with? Of course, the Human Resource and Admin Department. I am so blessed on how our Director and my Accounting Manager even loves me being in Accounting (because I already mastered some works), My HR Family was still there and waiting for me to become part of them. They even reserved one slot for me. Sadly, my Accounting Family really needs me.

February, who will forgot Valentine’s Day? The day where my hair got loose to Paranaque City all the way from Mandaluyong City. It was the time when I got a bouquet of roses, chocolates, and even Jollibee Fries-my all time favorite. Its really unexpected because my hubby and I decided not to meet that day, for that is Wednesday, and we already have plans on Saturday. But him, being so nice and sweet, sent those to my office with a note:

“Another days passes by is another day seeing you. I love you.”

So not to ruin the day, we ended up seeing each other and he even fetch me after work.

March, here comes the Matcha Month! I honestly don’t like matcha before- not until James introduce this to me. We are just experimenting toppings for our McDo Sundae and I usually take Chocolate Syrup and Crunched Oreo with me, but to try something new, I let him chose the toppings for me. Viola! That’s when I started to love matcha. Since that day, I became addicted to matcha and here’s James spoiling me more. He even dated me in a matcha cafe and ate layers of matcha cake.

April, our first anniversary. The day we met each other in online game. We promised that we will be having “stay-cation” every April of the year and its our first one. Nothing special. Honestly, being with him makes it special. We just bought groceries in the market, cooked liempo, watched television and swam in pool, (not to mention but I brought my youngest sister with me). It sounds boring, yeah, but there’s something about it that makes it memorable.

May, the celebration of his 23rd Birthday! We celebrated his birthday at Star City. He once told me that he wants to have a date in Amusement Park. So on his birthday, I surprised him to an unlimited rides. He’s still kid when he first went to Star City so I am lucky enough that he will feel it as if it was his first time. You know what’s the best part? He’s really bad at rides. Really, super bad.

June, days passed by and I celebrated my birthday. 21 years of being annoying… but caring. No phone, so no selfies. I celebrated it at work and I am truly amazed how they prepared those food for my birthday. That was fun! My hubby treated me in Mang Inasal for I have so much love for unlimited rice. I even satisfied my cravings for Crema de Leche and sang ourselves to hoarseness in Karaoke Hub.

July, the much awaiting part of the year. The Toyota Free Music Festival at Filinvest City! We got to see December Avenue (not me because I’m still falling in line), Ransom Collective, Ben & Ben, IV of Spades, Cueshe, River Maya, Silent Sanctuary, Callalily, 6 Cyclemind, Ebe Dancel, Hale, Spongecola, my forever love Parokya ni Edgar and Ely Buendia!! It was truly fun and exciting! We even soaked in rain. Wet clothes, wet hair, sweat, muddy shoes, but it’s absolutely fantastic. I am so happy that I got the chance to spent it with my hubby. It’s not our first time watching bands live but it is one of the bomb!

August, the roller coaster month! It feels kinda scary, happy, thrilling but fulfilling! I got to visit his home in Pasig City and even met his parents and siblings. They were really fun to be with. It was my first time but it really went out well. We just watched movies, basketball games, volleyball and ate foods we brought after watching A Day After Valentine’s (our first movie together because I kept on rejecting his movie dates offer). His mom surprisingly gave me perfume (which is his sister’s business) that really makes me fluttered. They call it “Be Delicious”. I teasingly told my hubby that from now on, I will only use that perfume for the rest of my life so whenever he smells it, he will think of me even if his at home.

November, this is a very special month. My grandparents, on my mother side, go to city to spent Christmas and New Year with us! Seeing them really makes my heart overwhelmed. Also, I got to see Lolo Bear, my hubby’s beloved grandfather, as well as his closed Auntie and his cousins, when we visited Lola Bear in cemetery. I was also invited to spent Christmas with my hubby’s family. He’s invited with us, as well, if you are asking. We also won the Scariest Theme for Halloween! Congratulations, Accounting Department! We are totally jjang!

December, hits end of the month party! We ended the year with a big Christmas Party with a Chinese theme. My hubby helps me decide what to wear and I ended up wearing simple yet elegant black dress. Due to circumstances, I didn’t have the chance to spent Christmas with him- and not to feel the guilt, I let someone deliver the cakes and wine for them at his grandfather’s house, where they are celebrating. Luckily, the delivery is not too late. Though travelling from South to North makes the cakes’ cute design ruined, it still didn’t stop him from smiling big time. Also, we celebrated the Sabigan’s Christmas Tradition, not complete again, but its still totally wonderful!

2018 gave me so much blessings and overflowing love. I am looking forward to the new chapter of my life.

This is Sionefer, your lovable friend, cheering for 2019 with full of love!