#ive been working alot on paper

[cloud8doesstuff]

So uh. I spent 3 years on and off turning the cut Kunikazu Okumura will seed events found in P5Rs code into comic form.

Im always thinkin about the cut will seed content, so hopfully this comic helps that content be less forgettable.

Credits to and @regularpainties for the translation on Xwitter.

welp. i started this comic on my birthday in 2021. and i finally finished it, after about 3 years of off and on work.also cuz i like...worked on it over 3 years and i started it while i was learning clip studio, the style, lineart and font change alot. also there's def grammer and spelling mistakes.

ive got disgraphia so don't come for me lmao. so yea its noticable but im not re-writing it all from scratch lol.Kinda wild to have finally finished it. i started it to distract myself from recently separating from a prominent abuser in my life. and to disract myself from my shit home situation. glad i made it this far to see it finished. <3

finishing this and that huge paper mario print have been really validating, after having to leave artschool due to abuse,i really came close to dropping it all tougether, but really pushing myself to make shit im proud of has really helped me.

even if nobody fucking cares about 2 old dudes bitching to eachother in an office. very riviting.

Hopefully all Zero okumura fans beside me can get a SHRED of somthing from my endevor.

#TakakuraStanAccount.

[lace-coffin]

Hi im that person that asked for the stufed toy thing and oh my god i loved it so much i loved everything and onece your requests are open sorry im asking while they are shut i had this sudden idea for a request sorry😭😭 ive also kinda got 2 ideas soooo sorry😅

But like a reader that is obsessed with drawing and loved to draw cute and sweet drawings to give to asa to do with their hyper fixation or every time they are with him they start ranting to him about it or them i dont know but he would be so educated on their hyper fixation unless its bugs then he would already know everything haha

Or idea 2

The reader likes to lick things randomly for no particular reason they just like to do it or they love physical touch and cant get enough of it always cuddling with asa at night as close as they can and just imagine them cuddling and they just lick him then he just gets confused that would be so funny to imagine😭😭

Or the reader for the same type of thing as the plushie one but instead music to calm them down and they would have like a tiny crying fit for their headphones bc i have had alot of meltdowns over not having my headphones its crazy i love your writing so much hope u have a good day❤️

Asa Emory x Autistic!Gn!Reader with a new hyperfixation

Requests are open!

Hi I hope you like this! I totally crammed my last two fixations into this < 3

Call Asa old but he wasn’t exactly up to date on video games. He defiantly was now at least, not that he had much choice. You were always flipping between interests, intensely talking and interacting with one topic for weeks or months at a time and then switching to another that catches your interest. It’s been Sonic The Hedgehog for atleast 3 weeks now.

He didn’t exactly picture his desk to be filled with pictures of anthropomorphic hedgehogs but here he is, he kinda signed up for this when he stuffed you into the trunk, knowingly or not. As long as you’re happy then he’s happy, even if he thinks you’re spending a little too much time on that GameCube you begged him to bring to hotel..

A few weeks pass and it’s now the Saw franchise. Victims being “tested” in disgusting gory traps by a man that fancies himself to be god? This is more up to his speed..pun unintended.

A series of excited knocks sound from the door of your masters workroom. Stretching his taught shoulders and neck he takes inventory of his aching muscles, he supposes he can take a break to spend some time with his puppy. Slumping back in the chair and swinging it to face to door Asa calls you in. “Enter”

Keeping your eyes pinned to the floor until given further permission you enter the room, shuffling over to drop to your knees in front of your owner, waiting for the order. The currently unmasked man drinks in your appearance, oversized jumper falling to sit on your neatly pressed together thighs and the collar he places on you every morning slightly twisted, the tag not where it should be.

“Eyes up pet” he says firmly, snapping his fingers to emphasise the point. Jumping a little at the suddenness you snap your eyes up to meet a fond look on master’s face, you relax a little, letting out a sigh.

Shuffling to prop his chin up with his fist in interest, Asa continues.

“What can I do for you pet?”

Visibly perking up and practically vibrating on the wooden floor you push the paper into Asa’s face, defiantly too close, there’s no way he can actually see it like that. Realising this you settle to put it in his lap and stare back at him hopefully.

“I drew more pictures! I wanted you to see..” you reply a little shy, suddenly realising how loud and excitable you had been, insecurity creeping in. Asa recognises you shrinking in on yourself and tuts. “Can I see, cricket?” He adds softly, prompting you to show him what you’ve been working on, he never wants you to feel ashamed about you’re passions even if you’ve been taught in the past to ‘tone it down’

Asa wants all of you, he accepted that from the moment he hoisted you into the box, to the moments when he firmly settles the collar around your throat every morning.

Soft smile settling onto your face you hand over the paper, not ignoring the way your knuckles brush against your masters during the exchange.

You wait with baited breath as he looks the paper over, you know he would never say anything demeaning about your art but you can’t help feel a little anxiety when letting someone in on something special to you. Todays drawing is a rough sketch of your for a saw trap, it’s grisly and frankly disgusting, you don’t envy anyone that would end up strapped down and desperate on the other end of it. Obviously you have no need for a contraption like that, but it’s only an (admittedly) sick fantasy.

After flicking through the diagrams and reading the notes as best he can (it’s not your fault he can’t read you’re handwriting well 🙄) a strange look crosses his face..it’s almost like you can see the cogs working in his brain. this could either be fantastic or a disaster, Asa isn’t one to do things half assed, it’s always all or nothing.

“Can I use this?” The silence is suddenly broken, his sclera eyes raising to meet your own, not any less eerie than when hidden behind his mask.

A strange feeling begins to pool in your stomach, should you feel exited? Proud that he wants to use your plans? Or disgusted? Sick to your stomach that the plans you never envisioned actually coming to fruition will be used to torture some poor individual? Unsure how to feel or respond you stare back at him, lips slightly parted as if trying to muster something up.

“These are wonderful cricket, they may need a little tinkering to make them functional but regardless this design is…fascinating.” A sickly sweet smile sits on your masters lips as he hands the paper back to you, ruffling your hair and placing a chaste kiss to the crown of your head.

Stunned and with a pit in your stomach you nod dumbly, leaning into the affection and practically purring. The idea that you’ve just essentially sentenced someone to their painful and unethical demise is soul crushing…but also a little thrilling? Has your owner really rubbed off on you this much? It’s not like you don’t know what he does day in and day out but it’s never been this..personal.

Asa slaps his knees (like the old man he is) and rolls back over to the desk, pushing away his current projects and random hardware to make room for your (his) new trap.

“Can you bring me the paper please, doll?. I would like to get started as soon as possible.”

Shaking off the ever building dread you pull yourself up, a little unsteady due to the burning in your thighs from sitting in one position so long. Placing the paper on his desk you stare back at him, waiting for further instruction. you’re not sure when he ended up ingraining that response into your mind but at this point it’s not worth questioning, it’s not hard to see that the pair of you are living in your own little world outside of normal society by now.

“You’re welcome to either sit by me as I work and give input considering it’s you’re design or you may sit on your bed and wait for me to finish”

You glance over at the cushy pet bed across the room from Asa’s desk…a lay down does sound ideal right now, maybe a nap will help clear your head? Or swallow the guilt.

“I’m gonna lay down sir, maybe nap a little, promise I won’t snore and distract you” you tease, giggling and feeling a little better in yourself.

Asa huffs out a chuckle at your joke. “I’ll be sure you don’t little bug.” He says, smiling gently at you. You turn to leave before being stopped in your tracks.

“One more thing, pet”

Cool gloved hands slide around your neck making you shiver at the contact, the small misplaced silver tag is slid back into its original place, proudly stating your name and owner on the front like a brand.

“There we go, much better”

Blushing a little you thank your owner and wonder off to the dog bed, curling up and lazily watching him work from afar.

[ladysyrabellarouex]

My favorite Dracfield fanfics on AO3!

Yes i am on Ao3 alot of the time reading different fics that soooth my soul, from HP to Phantom and Azicrow. Here are some i hope many of you would like to read my some of my favorite Dracfield authors.

" Under your skin" By Kindred. Omegaverse Dracfield fanfic. Summery: Alpha Dracula is revived by the Lobos he punishes OmegaRenfield by kidnapping and making him his bride, queen and the mother to his heirs!

" In Time" by Goblintales status with this fic stopped/discontinued? ( If anybody knows who this author is please tell them to start writing again with this!) summery: It had taken years to reform. Many long years let him plan out exactly what he was going to do to his Familiar.

All of Incy little spiders Dracfield fics. thse works are beautiful and soo sexy to read all of them i just cant choose which ones are wild!

All of Sort of Ensorcelled's work its really good highly reccommend them if your looking for some spicy Dracfield fics.

Ghostboo's writes the most incredible fics ive ever seen, Dracfield is soo spicy and hot and beautiful you just have to read them to believe them!

If your looking for a brilliant fic writer who loves to write Dracfield stories and has a great passion for it meet "Draclin" brillint author of " They think a locked door prevents you" one of the most suspenseful and jawdropping fics you will ever read! summery"

It only took a few hours and one spider for Renfield to know he wasn't free. That sooner or later Dracula would return for his wayward servant. And for a familiar to survive for long away from their master... he knew what it would do to him.

He'd been through all this before...

Read this if you get the chance this is one MINDBLOWING FIC!

7. Maplebacon2023 has a wonderful writing that i just adore when it comes to Dracfield fics. This author is very talented and will ensure their work is always up to date before writing these fics. their current fic " Teaching an old dog new tricks" is a wonderful new one! Summery"

After Dracula kills Renfield’s therapy group he comes across some papers on how to train your puppy with positive reinforcement.

Dracula figures why not.

8. Stay with the thing author is a incredible if not a genius author of Dracfield fic " Not a Dog at all" this fic WILL make you think about the Dinamics of the Renfield movie after it ended! one of the best sequels i have ever read in the universe!

These are just a few of the fics that i love about Dracfield and the authors who take their time out of their lives to bring us these works of art! please take time out of your lives to read them if you get the chance because these authors of these fics deserve respect for thir talent.

[lizaluvsthis]

WHAT IS PAL AU- HOW MANY AUS DO YOU HAVE CURRENTLY

PAL AU is a drafted universe that Ive created, I have never yet to complete the whole summary or the descriptions/infos about the stories since I'm on art doins.

PAL is a short name for the title of "Pour and Lit"

As expected there will be angst, fluff, romance, slowburn, betrayal, drama, wholesomeness, actually- lets also count fruitiness here :)

I only have three and four's design with this art I made

Basically it's a plot how Three works on with bad guys and deals with alot of stuff. Especially stealing (his role as a secret criminal highlights this)

He is a main character (tritagonist) and known as the famous Criminal around the whole state (with a mask on his face) (DO NOT. MAKE THIS A DREAM MEME DEAR GOD...)

Age: 28

He has a son named Elliot. (He'd been called with nicknames such as "egg" "chump" "eggy boi" "buddegg" "dora-pup") since three plays also the role being a good father to his son. Elliot is adopted.

(Its eggdog but in human- I get that it would be weird for you guys but I think I'm still on track matching his personality trait to the EGGDOG here.)

Elliot is about 9-10 years old in this universe, he's a soft and loving for animals and loves to hold guns. (Toy guns, SMG3 keeps him out of reach for the guns he used since he's not that prepared yet and plus he's too young)

He's pretty much interested with video games, daily activities such as playing outside, watching people use guns, wanting to be like his dad (three), dogs.

For SMG4 he plays the role as an Undercover Cop

He is a main character on a secondary pov who runs as a Protagonist

Age: 29

SMG4 is a nice and kind person once you get to know him, he does the opposite when he covers his identity as a cop. Optimism shows to his side whenever its playing a role as a civillain/single dad. Quite foolish for three from never buying the act.

Because he knows... that SMG4 is a cop behind that disguise he's giving out. SMG4 is tasked to work on daily night shifts around the place. While the place, also is where SMG3 lives is an apartment he could only afford. With SMG4 not knowing that three is actually the criminal they've been looking for.

He also plays of the role as a father to his adopted son named Bennet (who is also Beeg SMG4 who also matches with the personality of temper) he was an orphan when SMG4 met him during an investigation from the orphanage, seeing Bennet's hobbies of how SMG4 used to do back when he was the same age as Ben's made him want to give bennet a future-

Bennet is around 11-12 years old

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If you're wondering where the other side characters like Mario or Meggy or OTHERS- they'll show up sooner...

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By the way- AUs :))

Theres

"Indigo Secret" AU

Brewing Romance AU

Pour and Lit AU

The Frog Prince AU

Gone AU

Blind!SMG4 BR AU

Ehhh seems about right :))

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YA CANT BLAME ME- I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS ON MY HEAD AND I'M BURSTING IT ALL OUT ON A PIECE OF PAPER TO PUT THE WORK N ART-

[owlnsfwsstuff]

MD x fem reader bj alex smut!!

Y/n pov

"And thats the end of my stream guys  come back next time where ill rate more toys for you~" i wink and shut off my camra i was a bj  for my braudcasts i would rate sex toys ibe never really gotten naked on screen ive always warn my underwhere and bra i sigh softly checking my watch " agh its ten already" i get up getting dressed today i was going to my boyfriends house his name was kim myung-dae hes tall and hadsome i lived him we met at a bar where i watch him get slapped by a small guy with blond hair and black roots i was later told his name was chanwoo he didnt like that myung never wanted to really be seen with him i comforted him from his brake up a few months past and we went from friends to lovers i would come over to his house and chill...he never really told me what he did for a living but i assumed he just didnt wanna talk about it i was really curiouse though "hey myung" i smile as he opens the door he looked a little distraught "uh hey " i look confused and came in seeing papers and his computer he removed everything and sat with me on the couch"uh are you ok you seem stressed" i tilt my head he sighed "y/n can i ask you a favour " i smile " definatly! Sure anything babe" i smile he held my hand a bit " i need you to help me with...my job" i smile " sure no problem what do you need help with ill do anything " he softly smirked and stood up telling me to follow down the hall there was a door i never really have went inside before"is this your office?" He smirked "you could say that...open the door~" i looked at him he stood back i turn the knob my eyes widen it was a...sex room!? With monoters,camras,a bed and sex toys coverd the walls  i blush deeply he closed the door " uh...t this...this is" i was so red and shocked alot made sence now

*Flashback*

"Good girl~"

"Can you sit at me feet...i want to pat your head~"

*Flashback over*

"A sex room y/n...is it to much" he said softly "uh n no!?" I said quickly he raised an eyebrow smirking "so...you like this sort of thing kitten~♡" he shut the door behind us moving falward " u uh....w w whatta you need my h help with i thaught i was helping with your work m myung" i blush dodging the question he smirked " you are helpingwith my work...im an MD i need..." he walked falward lifting my chin wispering " a sub~" i was 50 shades of red (lol or gray) h he wanted me to be h his sub i mean ...we havent had sex yet i said i wanted to know him more before i committed to it " u uh b but" he smiles softly " my job is broadcasting i do a live BDSM show where i play with subs the viewer's send in a point system calld chestnuts that converts into money that gets sent to me they can also request things ...dont worrie your face will be masked as will mine i wont say your name or who you are...so what do you say i know its a bit much you dont have t-" i cut him off " y yes" he looked suprised " yes?" I blush nodding  he smirked " wow that quick such a naughty girl~ i didnt know you where so eager you should have told me you liked this " he took me to the bed " i i thaught youd think im wired...also i know how the bj system works...i im one to i mean ive never been naked on c camera but i review...t toys" i blush he was more shocked " you share my beautiful  property with others thats rude~♡" i blush being calld his we discussed our safe words and how things would work as usual his safe word was 'macaroon' i choose 'strawberry' he told me to strip and get on the bed i obey he did his intro i where a red eye mask and he wore a black one "hello everyone MD is back ive been away for a while since i needed to find a new play toy~ but now i have found a beautiful one im sure youll like them as much as i do and to spice it up its a lovely woman since i havent had any woman on for a while~" the chat room flooded with commenters and chestnuts he stood up coming over showing me off " look how gorgeous this baby girl is~ such a cute kitten and that will be your name is that understood kitten~" he asked i blush nodding then he grabbed my chin " use your words~" i shake softly " y yes u understood.....master~♡" i purr out softly he was delighted as the show went on he had me binded up in red rope, nipple clamps on my now hardend buds and a vibrater deep inside i shake moaning as he walked over to a box "hmm what should i use dear viewers on this naughty kitten a riding crop....orrrr a paddle~♡?" He viewd the comments to see and smirk " riding crop it is~♡" he walked back over and moved my tied legs apart " oh look your dripping everywhere ...such a mess~..bad kitten" he strikes my thigh i shudder and moan out drooling " a a ah a a ah m mggs  s sorry" i wimper,smirking he struck my thigh over and over soon i was so pent up i squirt all over the toy the bed and the crop " oh my already~ well ill have to teach you a lesson next time then wont i because i didnt hear me say you could cum~" i whine as he went over to the camerai lay panting tired as i hear him say his outro ...that was a new ecxpiriance that i wanted more of...i loved that man our love was binding

"MD...out~♡"

Sorry for poor spelling and punctuation 😅

[elephant-in-the-pride-parade]

Fic Author Questions

@curator-on-ao3 thank you for tagging me in this new set of fic author questions! I had a lot of fun answering. ❤️

1. Why do you write fanfic?

I guess I stuck with it and stayed inspired largely because ive found really wonderful communities in fanfiction, whether its coming together to share in one beautiful AU story or different iterations of canon or just experiencing the joy of writing together. and having those communities has sustained me through some very isolated years and have been overall a positive experience in my life. ive made really wonderful friends through fanfic.

But I can't deny that I got into fanfic because my brain just fixated on one story and i had the overwhelming urge to put it on paper and so a smaller motivation is that there continue to be stories like that that motivate me to keep writing fic.

2. Which of your posted stories do you think about the most, even though the story is “finished”?

I guess just by virtue of planning the sequel at the moment, I think about and reread Unbroken alot

I have also had the Universe to Mend in my mind since last year and keep coming back to the two versions of Janeway i explored in that and where I left the two of them. and thinking about the other characters too: Mortal Q and Captain Chakotay and Stadi/Tuvok and where they might wind up next.  I have a few ideas for what might come next so I suspect there's at least one sequel on the horizon somewhere.

3. If you could give yourself fic advice from when you first started writing fic, what would that advice be?

Deadlines help you set goals and motivate yourself, but you don't owe them to your readers.

4. What’s your relationship to fic stats?

So, and this has been a very good thing for my self esteem and general mental health, working with data all day has made me really ambivalent about my story stats. They're interesting and useful when I have a specific question I want to answer with them but the rest of the time I no longer pay much attention to them.

The stats that I do focus on are all things I measure - timeframe to chapter/story completion, average words per chapter, total word count. Those help me set realistic expectations for myself and help me work on my goals of having healthy writing habits and writing more concise stories.

5. Is there a pairing or scenario or friendship you miss writing? If so, why? If not, why not?

I miss writing Threshold AU!!!!

I want to again and will again, but having had like... negative amounts of writing time this summer and being fixated on a new long story, lots of others have taken a backseat. i really miss the cameraderie of writing threshold au stories and the freedom and joy I get from working with that really original fresh premise - it frees me to experiment and be a bit more imaginative. im sad i havent had time for it in a while.

6. What motivates you to write?

A story takes up residence in my head and its beautiful and tempting and I cannot rest until I have delved in and explored it. Thoroughly.

7. Why do you write for the fandom(s) that you write for?

communities and friendships do a lot to help keep me inspired, both while continuing old longstanding stories and developing new ideas. and ive found this with Sailor Moon and Star Trek. I doubt i would be as prolific in either fandom without those communities.

8. If you’re stuck writing a WIP, what do you do?

I shove it in the back somewhere and work on other things until ive figured out what I dont like about it thats got me stuck. sometimes it works out that I just need a better idea of where the story is going. and then the story gets finished. and sometimes i find myself realizing the premise is a good one but the execution isnt.  and then if ive already started posting it, i put it in my "Under Review" collection (an unrevealed AO3 collection only I can see) and figure out if i can rework the story from the ground up or if it isnt going to get finished. I've got 3 in there right now.

9. What do you wish people knew about comments?

That it is actually a huge boost in inspiration to get a nice one. and that it's okay to leave short ones.

10. Maybe there’s a question you wish had been on here. What’s that question (and answer)?

My write in question: Do you create or want to try other types of fanworks?

Just for me i make playlists for characters to help inspire me for fics. sometimes i dabble in fanart. drawing is always really relaxing.

im also facinated by bookbinding. it looks like a really fun physical craft to build even if it looks complicated. i'd love to learn more about how it works.

A lot of my people i usually tag are tagged already so If you want to respond with your own please do!

[moongurl95]

Writer Interview Game

Thank you for the tag @theladyofshalott1989! 💕 Yours was such an interesting read (can agree with your only child syndrome - im one as well ✌️) and it's something to think about since it's my first time receiving a tag game this long 😅

When did you start writing?

I remember making a lil homemade "Book of Jokes" (simply made out of elementary paper and just binding them with glue), my mom still has it somewhere she said she keeps as a memento.

But ive found i had a way to express myself in essay writing and with the other blogs i had before (blogspot days), before i really practiced creative writing back in 2019 by joining some writing groups online. They gave prompts and we spin a short story for it, which i greatly enjoyed doing. Joined Nanorimo in 2020 and even self published a couple of ebooks from that (not really confident to market it tho...)

But Fanfiction writing? ive honestly joined many a fandom but only Hogwarts Legacy was the one who called out to me to write something about my MC!

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

I curiously read smut cuz for the life of me i cannot write a sexy, intimate scene in detail - my brain just blanks when i want to write it, so always back to the drawing writing board for me 🫣

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

No one in particular really, tho i transitioned from reading the kids' books (Magic Treehouse, Geronimo Stilton and Bailey School Kids) to straight up P.C. Cast and her Goddess Summoning series. The only good 'ol YAs that touched my soul were Maggie Stiefvater's Shiver Trilogy, Emma Raveling's Ondine Quartet, Courtney Alameda's Shutter, Jess Rothenberg's The Catastrophic History of You and Me, and last but not the least (which also shaped my love for morally grey characters, Julian goddammit i cried teenage tears for him 😢) L.J. Smith's The Forbidden Game and these are most of the writers i remember growing up reading (i never even read the HP books... whoops!)

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

i don't really have a fixed one, i used to go to those co-working spaces when i started with fanfiction writing but i can type out a quick short story in notepad on any pc as long as the mood strikes. i've also adapted to typing on my cp too (OneDrive is my friend in syncing it on both my mobile and laptop) 😁

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

Peace and quiet. i usually have the best ideas late into the night when everyone is asleep, and im up like a gremlin, awake and typing away on my pc (those subliminal writer sounds work on me too) and there comes a time that i just need to write the words out when they've been brewing in my head for a fortnight too long...

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

3 love interests and the 1 mc who does not have the leisure for romance (i did it once, i unwittingly just realized im doing it now with my fanfic... oh well.)

What is your reason for writing?

Granted i haven't written any original works since starting my fanfiction (all my brain juice goes into that WIP, i guess), it does give me a sense of purpose and a nice lil side hobby project i still quite enjoy coming back to every now and then ✍️🤓

Is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

i don't get alot so i love all of them! The ones that comment on how sweet the interactions were between the characters keeps me motivated tho, it's challenging enough for me to be naturally affectionate irl so i really think my dialogue over before capturing it in words.

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

i guess just somehow who'll not leave them hanging on an unfinished work 😅 at this point in time i still love adding chapters to it, but it does take time for me (between working and adjusting in a new country). i greatly thank them for their patience and support of my work! 💌

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

Slow-burns. 'Cuz maybe it takes me awhile to really understand a certain level of affection that's why im more interested in seeing how it develops. Also i do get comments on how i really visually describe a scene real well, so i hope that's true and im not really dragging it out? 🤔

How do you feel about your own writing?

i personally feel like i lack a back and forth dialogue in how i write, as i tend to be introspective, though overall i love the art of writing itself! There are days i read a random work of mine just to get motivated, read the comments on that and get encouraged more. 🥰

Hope these lovelies dont mind me tagging them 💌 @glutengoblin @animasola86 @evaslytherpuff @little-emerald-snake

[crowned--corvid]

HEY HEY HI Ive been entranced with your animation of the death row animation meme!! how did you do that kind of animation in blender? is there a tutorial you found or something like that? I havent been able 2 find anything yet...

HIIII HIIII!!! MAN that's an oldie but goodie, I still dig it after 1.5 years

Here's the video for those who haven't seen it

stuff abt how I do it is under the read more :3

SO, the animation is done as a combination of both shapekeys and rigging! I won't go in depth with shortcut keys n shit as it would make this post ALOT longer so bare with me as I try not to sound like I lost my mind.

Much like how one would do a tween animation, I make each part of the character. Earlier work of this tech like death row, I spread it around on one file, but you can save each part separately.

The next part is that I cut out the peice from the empty space with the knife tool. While it may be easier to just save the limb as it is, I usually work with a 1920x1080 canvas for composition planning AND helps me make good topology for the limb if I need to bend it a certain way.

Here's a diagram of what I mean. Each face/polygon has 4 points so I work it out by making a tube first before adding additional cuts.

From there I'll use the sub devision modifier and Amp it up to like 2-3 depending on how much you want it to bend/deform. YOU MAY NEED TO ADD MORE LOOP CUTS as the modifier WILL deform the textures. You can adjust to whatever till the textures aren't deformed and it's dense enough to your desires :]

FROM THERE I have two shapekeys, one where it deform her enough to look to the left and one where she's looking up. I just used the sculpt tools to get the desired effect-- that's why it looks like it's done in 3d but isn't! I also have a bone that rigs part of the mesh to give her an additional bounce. From there you can aniamte the value of the shapekeys as well as the bones itself!

From there you just need to layer them as if they're paper and rig em up! You can learn rigging on your own as I am SHIT at explaining that process- but know you don't need alot of bones! The spaces i have between the layers are REAAAALLY close. Not close that its ALL flat but enough so that it doesn't distort the sizing on camera (though you can change the mode to not show perspective lol)

While I don't have a demonstration of the keys, I do have the BTS look of the animation to prove its all layers

You could easily do this shit with Adobe after effects but that shit is HEAVYY and if you have QuickTime, its easy to render out transparent videos with blender :3

I do wanna make a video abt this if I ever make another animation with these methods-- hope this helps!

[youngster-monster]

I KNOW THAT THE DISCORD WIPS ARE A TRAVESTY BUT PRIOR TO THAT THE LAST TIME I OPENED A GOOGLE DOC WAS IN LIKE 2018 TO MAKE AN OC SHEET THAT AMOUNTED TO 100 WORDS AT THE VERY MOST!!!! I DID NOT REALIZE GOOGLE DOCS WAS EVEN AN OPTION I JUST USED IT FOR MY BAD CHARACTER SHEETS

also i cant in good conscience act like the discord wips were ancient history... it is with Shame that i kneel before your askbox and admit that it was in 2020 until like late 2021... after that i realized i could use google docs and now i swear on my life that my fics are organized i SWEAR

ive been hibernating since february (last fic completed let alone worked on Properly) so i am more skeletal than rotted at this point but surely . surely it will come back to me and i will go crazy again

LITERALLY IT IS SO DIFFICULT INTRODUCING CHARACTERS i tried to write oc content recently and it went so bad that i couldnt even stomach the idea of it anymore it is so DIFFICULT but fanfic? fanfic is so much Simpler in my brain. in terms of work i mean because at the point that im writing fanfic about something ive already gone so deep into the lore that i could name 8 niche quest npcs and their full backstory + all of my headcanons in the form of 300 very lengthy discord messages

oh my god. sorry but midway through this ask i just remembered that i still have something of a discord wip channel in use right now, but its not for full works and it IS for snippets. sometimes i have these little ideas in my head but theyre not good enough for a full fic so i just jot em down in a discord channel for (hopefully) later use.... the discord wips will never die

real talk? what you said about any finished work being an accomplishment makes me feel alot better about how irregular my fics are because i end up feeling guilty about how by the time my writers block is over, the fandoms are completely different .. and to be honest when you stop thinking about it it IS kind of funny because theres a. wow fanfiction and b. anime fanfiction. i wonder sometimes if people go to my page and have an aneurysm looking at the fandom list

WII RP???????? WII RP???????????? i wasnt allowed to do really anything with our wii because i was really REALLY young so perhaps this is only insane to me because i never did anything except use the wii to watch pucca in 240p but ON THE WII??????????????????

im going to be wojack pointing at the m3:r wip until the end of time and you can count on that, these two dead elves (and particularly how you write them!!!) have carved themselves into my brain and they refuse to pay rent

2021..... damn bitch you live like this!!

7 months of hibernation... you're getting preserved in a bog it's Fine. I spent a whole year writing Nothing, just rotting mostly, and now look at me ( < not normal) (writing though!)

Fanfics are so easy... and you get other people to bounce stuff off of too like if I crave content I can go yell to my friends about it. For OCs you need Context.... Lore..... who has the time!!! I mean I do I am a known oc enjoyer but still. What work

I do also have the snippet channel. And the snippet notes app. And the snippet google docs. And the snippet paper scraps. And– yeah okay I've escaped the indignity of discord wips but not that of Disorganized WIPs

I'm glad it helped! There's no such thing as 'moving on' for a fandom!!! I know anime fandoms tend to be fast moving but if you let your wip age some more you too can become 'the only person still writing this ship', and profit 😈

Listen. My parents could ground me from using my PC. They could take my DS. But by god they couldn't take away ALL the screens and if I had to point and click my way through writing a post about my sparklewolf daughter of hades then I WOULD. And did!! My wrist will never forgive me

[stellawolfearts]

I have a question, what do you do when you get stuck with a chapter? I mean you already know what the chapter will be about but you don't know how to express the idea?

(I love your work! Keep up the good work)

Thank you, im so glad you like my stuff!! :DDDDDD

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maaaaaan

see this is a BIG problem for me.

hell im stuck rn. for multiple reasons and with multiple fics lol. i just havent been able to write in a while for a buttload of reasons i wont get into.

but because this is a big problem for me ive got some advice for u buddy. there are a few things you can do, some is general advice and others is methods i use. note that everyone is different and some methods work well for some and wont work for others.

REST

thats my first piece of advice. dont stress about it. dont beat yourself up bc ur not writing. sometimes inspiration will come and sudddenly your hands will end up moving on thier own. but sometimes you just need the rest. its okay if you spend a day not writing. hell its okay if you spend a WEEK not writing. if your writing something something for you your supposed to enjoy it. this brings me to my next point.

WRITE IT FOR YOU

write it for yourself, especially if its a published work on ao3/wattpad/whatever...

i know it happened to me and tends to happen quite a bit even with my other content. you get too wrapped up in "comments, views, kudos, likes whatever..." your best work comes when you are enjoying what you're making and sometimes when you get too into that mindset suddenly its not fun anymore.

make it for you.

DISCIPLINE

sometimes you rest for too long, sometimes inspiration doesnt come. sometimes youve gotta sit your butt down and make yourself write. do you think its bad? doesnt matter.

whatever you end up writing down on that paper is progress. its a first draft and you can always come back to it later and make it even better then it was.

i know its hard and i really need to expercise this more.

i havent updated on ao3 in a while bc i keep going back to my drafts and think "man.....this is shit" or theres just this feeling like im hitting my head against a wall of bricks expecting it to crumblr for me but nothings happening.

so you really just gotta force youself to write sometimes. and there are some methods i use to help me.

REWRITE THE CHAPTER

yeah. its rough. but sometimes you gotta. what you have isnt working. so you just need to redo everything to get back into the groove. the flow.

i gotta do this with a new chapter im trying to write for longing for more. i already wrote like three thousand words but its not right at all so im redoing the whole thing when i have time.

SKIP THAT BIT

this has actually helped me ALOT.

so bassically if your stuck on a specific part of a chapter.....skip it. just skip it.

when i was writing longing for more the chapter where Mk talks to the lady bone demon in the dining room is one that i usedthis method for.

i wrote the first two paragraphs and then did a little "(they talk blah blah add something about this and then that and dont forget the thing)

and then i wrote the scene where mk escapes and the chase. i wrote that whole scene before i wrote the conversation they have because i had NO idea what to add in that scene. i was stuck. so i just skipped it and when i wrote something i had alot of ideas for i could come back and write that scene later.

and it worked. im really proud of how that scene turned out.

so if you need to just skip it and replace it with a little note (in these things i always forget what they're called) to remind yourself what goes there

MUSIC

Music is my greatest tool to help me write. idk how to explain it cause sometimes what im listening to while writing a scene doesnt make sense.

i think it wasssssss.

i dont remember which scene it was but i remember writing something REALLY sad to "vending machine of love". like gut wrenching sad.

funny stuff.

but yeah, music helps me get in the mood and visualize whats going on.

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the most important thing here though is enjoy what your doing. dont pressure yourself or just be too hard on yourself in general. cause then its no fun anymore and makes EVERYTHING so much harder.

so have fun, dont worry about other people, dont be hard on yourself. enjoy it.

[b0mblover]

It’ll be Okay in the End

By: J

cw; selfharm, generally negative thoughts, blood (etc everything that comes with sh)

lopt essentially has a silent breakdown and mason comforts him or smth idk im not good at summeries,

[Note; this was wrote out of my own desperation for comfort, not romanizing sh, i do not encourage or believe anyone should do this to themselves, seek help.]

i uh, actually had a easier time writing this than most things, probably because ive been essentially replaying this whole scene in my head for literal years! i for once wasnt upset when i wrote this, i was very tired tho! uh i have alot more to say but hawaii part ii lopt is taking over my brain again, so im gonna go do that! have fun with my depressed 100% projected loptson ig!

•

lopt was in ‘his’ so called room, scribbling away at some paper,

mason was rather concerned, hearing frustrated noises constantly, what sounded like pencils breaking,

they had been “partners” officially for 3 months now, mason had always cared about lopt to an extent, partner or not, but this was… odd.

sure lopt had his own life, hobbies, but he didnt care to keep /that/ much from mason, especially whenever he asked,

but, this was different.

lopt had came home from wherever the fuck he was- hell if mason knew details- annoyed, he stormed off to some room, when mason tried to ask what was wrong he only blew him off saying that “its none of your fucking business, you wouldnt get it anyways”

•

lopt was scribbling away in his notepad, despite being a god and literally being immortal, he still couldnt force creativity to come to him,

it was his fifth time trying,

most drawings resulted in poorly scribbled out lines,

he had went out to try and get inspiration for “some project” though he didnt really /have/ anything to work on, starting a new drawing always seemed to be a block for him,

he sat down his broken (6b) pencil, (rather violently but he didnt want to acknowledge that) and got up, he knew somewhere in him, that he needed a break, he walked out of his room to get water, but his mind wouldnt leave him alone,

constant thoughts about how awful his art was spewed around

“youre not “talented”, youre worthless”

“itd be better to quit now”

“just rip up the damn papers, theyre ugly anyways”

“imagine- you could just go and alleviate all this pain, just with that knife-“

he tried to push down his thoughts,

grabbing a cup from the cabinet and filling it with water,

the knives in the butcher block seemed so… tempting,

most of him /knew/ that he shouldnt- that it was wrong, that mason would be disappointed- disgusted, if he found out about his thoughts,

but, he couldnt help it,

all memories of the nights he got up from their bed to take part in something that would disgust his partner made him sick.

questions runned through his head as he sipped on his water, leaning onto the counter

“would he be sad?”

“would he care?”

“would he call me names?”

“tell me how pathetic i am?”

“leave me?”

“would he hate me?”

“tell me how ugly my body is”

“tell me how he hates the scars”

“tell me just how much he despises me”

the voices grew louder wither every question,

saying that he wanted mason to hate him,

that he did hate him,

in the very back of lopts mind, in the tiniest corner, he knew it all wasnt true, that he was being dramatic over nothing,

but even then, the memories of all the times he loved someone- all the times he didnt question if they hated him, what they all said to him,

he felt like doubting himself was the only way to have them not leave,

to not abandon him,

he took a deep breath before sighing, realizing his cup was empty, he decided that he had enough of a “break” and that he needed to start “working” again,

•

mason was sitting on the couch, some random tv show playing for background noise, when lopt wasnt “there” it was almost too quiet, in a way, mason had grown to love how loud and chaotic the house was with lopt- even if thery were the only two people in it.

he seen lopt walk into the kitchen for around 8~ minutes before he trudged his way into his room once more,

he didnt know excatly as to what lopt was doing,

granted whatever it was had to have been important, he didnt usually spend 3+ hours in a room alone silently, it started to make him worry, was lopt sick? just why did he seem so upset when he came home? is he okay? did he hurt himself?

•

lopt sat down at his desk once more, staring at the scribbled page, a sphere, he couldnt figure out how to shade it properly on the background,

he sighed turning his attention to the top left drawer,

he stood up walking over to his dresser, pulling out another drawer, he took out a roll of bandages, and some tissues, 

he knew that he shouldnt, that it was essentially pointless, that hed feel better soon enough,

but that fear crept back up,

“what about last time you didnt? remember? it got only worse because you didnt”

he rubbed the sides of his nose bridge, the voices were annoying, they knew that he was gonna, even without the encouragement.

he sat back down at his desk, sitting the tissues to his right and the badages to his left before pulling out the left hand drawer,

he rummaged through it, various miscellaneous items, before coming across a box,

a red box, seemingly quiet old, with yellow letters reading “do it” on the front,

he took one out, ‘unwrapping’ the razor blade,

straight edge,

he stared at it, contemplating just what hes doing with his life,

“i cant draw, i cant write, i cant make people happy, i cant make music, i can only recite the tales others have told, im worthless, im doless, i will never amount to anything or anyone in my life, god or not, human or not, this is deserved, if i cannot create, then i at lease deserve to bleed”

a mantra he told himself, attempting to poorly justify his actions,

•

mason listened at the door, hearing nothing, no pencil, no walking, almost no breathing, he didnt know everything about lopt, sure, but he knew that he didnt look well off, and what boyfriend would he be to his partner if he wasnt concerned?

they had an unspoken rule to always at least knock before walking into the others space, granted they had seen every part of each other, it was just a courtesy they had, 

though, something felt off,

mason felt as if he shouldnt knock, that lopt was hiding something,

all those sleepless nights where lopt comforted him abundantly, he had felt him get up, a few times he had caught lopt in the basement, he didnt know just what he was doing, he always hid something,

he didnt want to break any boundaries sure, thatd be rude and disrespectful, but, he had a weird feeling in his gut that it was for lopts own saftey,

“please forgive me for this” he muttered to himself,

sharply inhaling before opening the door,

simply greeted by lopts back.

•

lopt heard the door open, he had three lines going diagonally down his right arm, bleeding, he fumbled the razor, dropping it onto the floor, it had gotten rather dark by now, so it probably wouldnt be seen, he attempted to get the tissues, he had always been a great liar,

“ill just say i accidentally cut myself, if he asks what i was doing with a weapon, ill deflect and say i was being stupid”

it seems like he fumbled the tissues for a bit too long.

“hey”

mason said over his shoulder,

he moved his left hand to cover the cuts,

“o-oh, hey, whats wrong?”

“hm, well, i mean nothing? i guess, what are you doing?”

“i- you guess? is something the matter?”

mason had noticed he was oddly covering his forearm,

“you ignored my question.”

“huh?”

“i asked what youre doing.”

masons tone sounded alot more pissed off, granted he wasnt, just concered more than anything,

“o-oh i um, ok dont laugh but uh- i was trying to draw”

“and why are you covering your arm? are you hurt?”

“i- huh? wh- no, no! i uh, may have also been playing with a blade and accidentally scraped myself, nothing much”

“let me see”

“what?”

“let me see your injury”

lopt was taken aback, all of his previous partners never asked to see his wounds, scars sure but never his wounds, even if they werent self inflicted, he was shocked, he hadnt planned for this.

“i- i assure you dear, it isnt anything to worry about-“

“let me see it. are you hiding something?”

in that moment lopt felt small, like a child almost, weak, helpless, he didnt know how he could get out of this without mason either finding out or being suspicious of him.

“i- here”

lopt moved his left arm to mason, there were a few small cuts on it, though rather old looking,

lopt moved his right arm off the table, into the shadows to not call attention to it.

“uh huh, now the other?”

lopt seen his eternal life flash before his very eyes.

his mind went on autopilot and raised his right arm, he usually would fight but, he knew itd be pointless, mason would just worry more, thus making him keep a closer eye on lopt, he didnt want to feel selfish, not like that,

“oh my, i- oh my god,”

mason was shocked, he had suspected that lopt had hurt himself in the past, granted the scars,

but, he didnt think he still did it, sure the weird behavior, but it never really dawned on him until that moment.

.

mason had brought (more like dragged) lopt to the bathroom, running the slits under cool water, putting pressure to hopefully get the bleeding under control, he opened the cabinet under the sink and pulled out another roll of bandages,

he stood behind lopt washing the blood off, still slightly in shock,

“why?”

“huh?”

“why do you do this?”

masom questioned, fully aware of the long list lopt was about to give out,

“i- well, i dunno..”

lopts voice trailed off before starting again,

“i mean, i dont even know why i do this, it just feels good? like i can do something right? it makes me feel like im not worthless”

mason hummed for a second before choosing his words

“do you feel normally that youre worthless?”

“i guess so, i dont know why, i have the best boyfriend, my life is great, i just dont know..”

“mmhm, what were you trying to draw?”

“i dont know. does it matter?”

lopt shot back

“well, you seemed frustrated at it, so im sure it’s important to you yeah? so then it’s important to me”

mason brought his hands around lopts wrist, rubbing it slightly attempting to calm him down

“i- i dont know, i just, i feel frustrated, so i tried to draw, but drawing makes me feel more frustrated, so i did this- an- and n-now-“

lopt began to stutter, tears swelling up in his eyes, mason had only seen him cry on a few occasions,

“shh- shh its okay, i know what youre saying, breath, okay?”

lopt inhaled deeply, feeling masons left hand move to wipe the tears away,

he didnt even know why he was crying,

mason bandaged lopts arm slightly tight, 

“shh, now, you wanna talk about this? or wait a little bit longer to calm down?”

“c-calm down”

“alright alright, shh youre okay, see?”

mason lead lopt into his bedroom, taking lopts hand under the covers as he had done for him every sleepless night,

lopt could feel his eyelids starting to droop, the warmth of his boyfriend comforting him, the love of his boyfriend comforting him,

he shoved his head into masons chest, finding it to be the most comfortable spot out of the entire bed,

mason ruffled his hair, slowly stroking his hand on his neck,

“y’know, you may be a god,

and you may be immortal, but,

ill be with you for as long as you need, in this life and after”

lopt didnt respond, just slightly nodded his head before burrying it deeper into masons chest, 

maybe tonight wasnt so bad after all,

spending time with mason- no, his boyfriend, was never bad.

lopt faded in and out of sleep, trying to fight the melatonin being produced, just to feel the sweet touch of his boyfriends skin, before he completely felt himself drift away, he heard him speak,

“I love you, i love you so much, never forget that, in this life and the next, ill always love you, lopt.”

[j-bucky-barnes-anon]

Are you sure you dont mind my autism? Its been alot lately. Ive needed more hugs and support. Bucky how have you been? Are you doing well?

We don't mind doll. I'm good. Just have lots of paper work.

[cfloki]

Adobe indesign pt2 ( sorry in advance if this doesnt make alot of sense ive got pink eye and 4 hours of sleep )

Parent pages and column grids. We begun with creating an A5 document in Indesign, changing the units to millimeters. The next thing we did was create 12 diffrent pages ( 1 cover, 1 backcover and 10 pages in the middle of the two ) We labled these two pages as so, Cover and Backcover, centering the titles.

Above are the layers showing the order. Next we looked at how to number the pages without having to manually go and label each one. Luckily, Indesign has our back! Using the Parent feature!

First we wrote 'Page 1' and 'Page 2' and then selected the numbers. we used this to make it so the page number would properly corolate.

After doing this we were like 'Oh!' because now the cover and backcover had page numbers, which we didnt want. We fixed this by dragging and dropping the 'None' Page onto the cover and backcover, leaving them effectivly orphaned.

The next thing we did was mess around with changing columns. Layout > Margins and columns, is where the margins and columns dialogue can be found

The next thing we quickly did was how to change the color of the page numbers, Shift + X to fill a few pages and half pages.

To change the color of the page number to white we made a duplicate of Parent A, called parent B. Parent B was applied to these pages with its color of the Page numbers set to white. End papers

Illustrator isnt working very well for me right now as i cant see that well so ill just be using the images from Moodle. End papers are mst commonly seen in older books, and are made up of a patterned page spread on pages 1 and 2 - These should match and be the same design. They are used for both the front and end of the book. Examples below

I wasnt able to do this part as ive been unwell. so here is how Toby has expained it on moodle. To make an endpaper tileable design, we'll use Adobe Illustrator, which has a neat way of doing this, but the tool is a bit hidden..

You can also use a hexagon tile system... 

Using either the regular tile, bricks method or hexagon you can make most types of seamless tile patterns

[randomhomoteensblog]

Blog update no.5 I think?

Hi everyone, and by everyone I mean no one haha but I'm in the mood to blog about something so why not.

life could be going better tbh i mean things just feel confusing atm you know? I'm struggling a lot to help my friend who we will call E. now E struggles with their mental health a lot and i can tell they're in pain but I don't know how to help them.

And relationships have been a whole thing for me too. I want to be in one but at the same time i think i would feel uncomfortable in one and it really confuses me. like how am I meant to know if I like someone and how do I know if I do? all of these things are in the back of my head and it really confuses me and makes me upset yk?

now enough about sad stuff onto some fun stuff. the other day i went to a forest and started a fire with my friend and we put a battery in the fire and the shell of the battery shot out and that was funny we then had some peppa pig marshmallow thing and put it in there aswell and we called it the "peppa clump" as it was a sticky pink mess with leaves and burn paper stuck to it haha.

work has been ok too! ive been working alot more in half term and im saving as much as i can! i get paid £80 on friday which is nice and then ill start getting about £110 which is really good!!!

anyway i guess ill leave this here and if you read all of this have a good day and make sure to follow my account! <3

[vagabond-umlaut]

Hello! I wanted to say I love love your work! Ive been binging ur work and let me tell u I’ve been screaming over we’re the summer rain series the past 24 hours instead of doing ochem work lol. Like the riko fic and megumi fic are my favorites of the series and make me ajjsjdjdjsksijxksoqkjs!!,!:!:’nxb The way u wrote rikos pov and relationships kinda destroyed me emotionally and put me together again and it was just so good to see her survive and I reread the fic like 3 times in the past 24 hour cycle. AND MEGUMID FIC IN THE SERIES THE BEST ENDING WAS JUST joy great and GOJO BEING SO OBVIOUS EXCELLENT CROPS WATERED. ALSO I REALLY LOVE HOW U WROTE GOJO ALOT BTW ITS GREAT!! I’ve also wanted to scream about sukanas series because uh wow ur characterization of him is 😳. Thank you so much for writing and sharing and I can’t wait to see what else u have in store for the future!!! 💙💙💙💙

OH MY GOSHHH, IDRK HOW TO FORMULATE A REPLY TO SUCH A WONDERFUL MESSAGE, NONNIE, BUT PLS LET ME TELL U, HOW VERY HAPPY & GRATEFUL I'M ON KNOWING U HV LIKED MY FICS, AND TO KNOW THT U BINGE-READ THEM ALL?? 💘💘💘🥰🥰🥰

grey cashmere [riko's fic] and paper planes [megumi's fic] are two of my most beloved fics as well. i'm one of the oldest kids in my family, so getting the chance to write reader as an elder sister-like figure to riko, or as a mother-like figure to megumi and tsumiki— i very much enjoyed writing them both, as i could insert a little bit of myself into the reader's character. i could see a little bit of myself in the reader...

besides, ofc, the other main reason being, riko, megumi and tsumiki deserve this whole world. yeah, the manga made them sad but tht's never happening on my watch, y'all!! 😇😇

i love writing gojo being a fool in love. like, pfft! wdym everyone's soo scared of satoru? silly lover-boy was pouting today morning because he did not wake up with the reader in his arms, her head on his chest ��😆🤣🤣 [THANK UU FOR TELLING ME U ENJOY HOW I WRITE HIM, BTW! HIS CHARACTERIZATION IS ONE OF THE MOST MOST IMPORTANT THINGS TO ME, WHILE WRITING MY FICS!! 🥰🥰💗]

rly rly glad to know my sukuna writings make u go 😳. i can consider my mission being accomplished here. thanks a lot babe 😌😌🫶🫶

THANK U SM FOR READING MY FICS AND ENJOYING THEM AND SENDING ME SUCH A HEART-TOUCHING MESSAGE, NONNIE! 🥰 ILYSM! TAKE CARE, MY LOVE ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[fuck-you-official]

Fuck my dad and unofficial brother. A few days ago during the last hour of our drive back home after visiting my brother's family, my brother decided to vape, it was outside of the car and away from me, but the smell lingers on him for up to 10mins after, and it makes me feel very sick. Like at the bare minimum i get a terrible headache that last for about an hour and generally makes me feel off for a few days and at the worst I'll get so dizzy that i almost pass out (with my vision smearing and having a few second delay causing more smearing and makes real things feel like hallucinations). And these bitches did fucking nothing, while i sat there coughing to the point of sobbing, to the point of almost collapsing next to the car when we made a stop for some snacks. Both very much know how this affects me, my brother having witness this before cuz he fucking decided a year back to vape in his car while i sitting right behind him and barely even crack the window once every 20-30 mins (at was 2 hour drive! 4 if you count the trip back were he did the same thing!), i could barely leave bed for two days!! And my dad, my gods my dad. I know he's barely around cuz work and doesnt know/understand alot of my issues but i was basically fucking dying back there and all he did was tell my brother to stand further away when he vaped (didnt help cuz it fucking lingers bitch) and tell me to just calm down, breathe, and power through it. Like bitch i have asthma and am generally pretty weak physically and emotionally i cant exactly do any of those easily especially during that type of shit. Its been a few days and im still suffering, cant even go to a doctor or anything cuz they never take this seriously especially since ive been diagnosed with autism. Like way to screw me over right before you leave the country again dad, i expect this from brother but you dad, i expect better from you mostly. Basically just fuck both

(note my brother is very much not my brother legally or biologically, his family just kinda adopted me and my dad into the family and before that my brother adopted me and my dad as sibling and uncle/dad. And as much as i want his head on a paper plate, he's still my unofficial brother and i atleast care for him same with my dad. Incidents like this are pretty rare, its just that this one grinds my damn gears)

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