#ive been posting more on my side twt acc for op

[kbondoxxxxav]

13 yrs later :

[angleofmusings]

#so i have a similar story #in 2020 while i was on twt and still leaning more towards mcrtwt there was a more popular acc #which omg that sounds so lame sorry like oh yeah this evil big acc LMAO but yeah they had a good amount of followers #and they had said something along the lines of ray being ugly and that ppl were faking their attracrion to him #and op had claimed it was a joke #but i was like helloooooooo???????? #because i had watched ppl go up in arms like crazy about the other members being called ugly or ppl saying they werent attracted to them #but no one was defending ray #and i was pretty pissed #so my version of this experiment....albeit maybe messed up on my part #was to tweet out i thought that gerard was ugly #and let me tell you i was INSTANTLY SWARMED #and i did tell ppl i didnt actually think he was #but i was like hey hey hey now when its gerard ??? you will throw a bitch fit but when its ray youll let white ppl treat him like shit ???? #and mimd you these ppl were mostly white #op in the first place was white #my acc has long been since suspended but theres still some of these comments up #and everyone was mad at me for trying to cancel op #and nobody at op for saying that ppl were faking their attraction to ray #to throw a bone i did make the mistake of not censoring op when i posted a screenshot of their original post #cuz i was at the time really not mwaning to cancel op #i just thought it was rlly weird to watch ppl defend gerard and not ray #and anyways that has been two years ago and while op is still on twt just under a new acci hope they have since changed their mindset #but its upsetting to see that the general public of white mer stans have not #NOW tho it gets called out much more frequently and thats rlly great #its kinda crazy what went down in 2020 a LOT of mcr stans showed me their true colors and it rlly tainted the whole fandom for me #and its upsetting because ive truly loved this band for a such long time #ALSO WAIT I FORGOT TO SAY i dont think anyone should force themself to be attracted to the band guysim a lesbian so i get it trust #but never paying attention to ray or pushing him to the side or ofc saying the shit this guy had said then yeah ur WEEEEIRD #just be normal. also went 2 look at ops acc again for this 2 refresh my memory & he had his tumblr on it. so great. hope he sees this LMAO (tags from @peteisacreep)

just woke up so apologies if this isn’t coherent. i do feel like the nature of tumblr’s chronological feed and lack of posts from outside your space (blogs you follow and people they reblog from, basically) tends to make it harder to tell when parts of the fandom are acting up (which, to be clear, they always are; last night was not an isolated incident). but that means that when you are presented with an example of racism in the fandom, such as a particular instagram live only screenshotting the white members of the band and completely ignoring ray (arguably THE MOST interesting one to watch), you gotta call it out.

i did a little experiment a few shows back. two posts, same text save for a minor change. “frank iero. you agree.” and “ray toro. you agree.” any guesses as to which post got more reblogs within the first, oh, 15–20 minutes of its lifespan? if you said “the frank one” then you win absolutely nothing because that is the bare minimum for recognizing fandom racism.

(the “ray toro. you agree.” post is now at around 400 notes, thanks largely to the fact that i frequently rb it during shows instead of making a new post every time, and also because @sleepgerbs reblogged it 178 times on the first night of its existence… after i posted links in the discord and explicitly asked people to rb the ray post several times to make up for the disparity. yes i know that’s tampering with evidence but i honestly had enough data from the experiment already so.)

so actually ignore the point in my first paragraph, it’s different now, i’m leaving it there to show full transparency but actually mcrblr is complicit in this too, it’s just less obvious when your dash is still mostly full of people like @raytorosaurus and @dyketoro and @girlgerard and @mcrbois posting things like “ray toro high harmony <33333” and “slay toro” every time he does something onstage. but notice how that sort of post tends to be made by a much smaller group of people. notice who is silent, not because they aren’t watching the streams or aren’t liveblogging them, but because all their attention is on frank, gerard, and mikey. because they don’t see ray, who isn’t white, who doesn’t fit into the (racist) perception of “what mcr looks like” (guess what! mcr looks like ray toro, and that is a GOOD thing), as a core part of the band. which, to be clear, he is.

your racism is showing.