#ive always been too freaking wordy

[talesfromperdition]

is 18k words for chapter 1 too much?

[someone-always-cares]

[image description: a q&a for the webcomic someone always cares. full desc under the cut because its long and wordy sorry]

post chapter 3 Q&A

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thanks for yalls questions!! it was fun to answer! if anyone still has questions feel free to ask whenever i am always 100% down to ramble. even if i did go slightly off topic in some answers

additional: went off topic with the hair question a bit. their bright hair is all part of the transformations. regular hair dye does exist though. best way to tell is that if the eyebrow matches the hair its probably not dyed. also, quartz’s hair is naturally ginger.

also for more on ages, check out the character bios here

also was gonna keep this in the tags but thought i might as well actually try to answer it: the question i found it hardest to answer was someone the song one. my taste in music is. a mess really. ive been listening to like the same 5 songs on repeat all day. more under the cut because i was rambling again and now its uhhh half 1am

if it helps at the time of answering that specific question i had home by cavetown on repeat, and that song reminds me of both rami and lewis. but that may be because i project onto those two a lot, and as a aro trans dude. who sucks with people skills, yeah of course i love that song.

specifically the vibes of like not knowing how to communicate (rami is fine with his friends but other people are different), the lines “ Turn off your porcelain face, I can't really think right now and this place, Has too many colors, enough to drive all of us insane” idk what the porcelain face line is supposed to mean but im picturing it as like. a mask. that you need to take off and stop hiding and rami does tend to hide when hes feeling upset, and the next two lines kinda could tie into that, like the feeling of when youre overwhelemed and just want the world to stop so you just hide somewhere. also the colours could go with chapter 3 with the chromatic abberation.

also the bit with “ my eyes went dark, I don't know where, my pupils are, But I'll figure out a way to get us out of here” just kinda sums up ramis whole hero thing with his powers and all. anyway this has turned into less what songs rami would like and why this particular song reminds me of him and lewis (lewis specifically has the hair cutting/chest hiding, [big transmasc mood], and also messy haired trainwreck who doesnt know who he is yet. also the ghosts bit)

i did end up picking upbeat songs because ramis a dude who like to try and be upbeat even if things arent. even if hes not really feeling it he will pretend to.

[full description: Anonymous said to someone-always-cares: “hi ily!!! do characters like quartz who have colored hair have that naturally or did they dye it?”

“its both natural and not! while most supers can do a magical girl ish transformation, including a change in hair colour, there are some exceptions.”

theres two small full body drawings of rami, one in civilian clothes, one fully transformed.

“if a superhero were to have a biological child, the child will inherit the powers of the parent(s). however, the child will not inherit the full transfromation. they do inherit any physical transformations, but not the outfit.”

theres a drawing of a woman in blue, quartz’s mother, fully transformed, holding her mask in her hand, smiling down at a much younger quartz as a child. hes smiling back up at her with the same blue eyes, pointy ears, and blue hair, but hes still in normal clothes.

“in the case of quartz, both of hisparents had superpowers, and he inherited those powers and the physical transformations.he can also pick and mix whatphysical traits to change.“

next is a headshot of adult quartz, his face split down the middle with one side having hair and eye like his mother, the other like his father. theres a list of traits from each parents, blue hair and eyes and pointy ears from his mum, and purple hair and eyes and pointy teeth from their dad.

 “Anonymous said to someone-always-cares:  Are all the characters the same age? If not, how old are they? Are they irl friends or just superhero friends?”

theres some headshots of rami and his team lined up with ages labelled: cam is 15, rami himself is 17, lin, mateo, and dante, are all 18, and cap is 20.

“rami and xandra were somewhat friends before she got superpowers, so when, after the incident with her old team, she found rami had developed powers, xandra stuck close to him. their other teamates started off as superhero friends but soon turned into irl friends too”

theres a headshot of lewis and jade. theyre both 17

“when lewis first decided to start being a vigilante,jade quickly found him and decided to help train himand offered to be a mentor of sorts, as they both have similar powers. that quickly derailed.”

“ cinder5555 said to someone-always-cares: How long does it usually take to make a comic page? I'm curious because they're so freaking good that they must take FOREVER”

theres a drawing of myself, a fluffy hair tired bastard in a hoodie, smiling

“Thanks! Ive been doing this shit since like 2017 and i still have no idea how long it takes me. i can get a page done in a day if i have nothing else to do or if its a simple page, but if i have work then maybe 2-3 days? i spend like, most of my free time doing this.“

another drawing of me, now looking frustrated muttering “how the FUCK does time work”

“but i can never do it all on one sitting.i will inevitably get distracted and zone out daydreaming mid drawing so its very hard to get an accurate read on how long it takes. so however long a piece of string is i guess“

the only qustion not from tumblr is a discord message from RuneStone Cabin:

“Q: Can you talk about the incidence of superpowers in this world? Like many people are supers, which powers are more or less common, how long they've been a thing for, stuff like that. Also does Omen know I'd die for them “

theres a drawing of omen pointing at a date circled on a calender marked “decembuary”, theyre saying “i know. i already wrote your death in my calender.”

then a giant wall of text reading: “Supers have only existed for a relativly short time, since the early 1940s. momento mori was the second person to have ever gained powers.

Only a small number of the population are supers! the chances are higher in more populated cities, but unusally london has oneof the higher percentages of supers. while nobody in universe has any idea of the origins of superpowers, it does seem that powers are more likely to occur in people who would actually use their powers.

as for what powers are most common, after making a badly catagorized spreadsheet of every superpowered character ive made for this world (70% of which will probably never even be seen), turns out that elemental powers are the most common. although not all elemental powers manifest as the straight up 'controling this element' as seen in characters like lin or tsunami. for example, iris's powers would fall under shadow elemntal powers, but theyre a lot more weird that just controlling shadows.there are some abilities that have never been seen before,such as ressurection or full on time travel (aka anything that could bring a character back to life), but powers are certainly allowed to toe the line eg healing, powers involving undeath, immortality, pausing or manipulating time.

aside from that, anything goes. you could get plain old superstrength, but you could also get the ability to create dogs with your mind. other not quite rules, more guidelines are that supers are immune to their own powers hurting them (unless they were pushing themselves too hard), although the way the imminuties occur may be inconvinient to the super.

while some powers may be 'more powerful' than others, powers dont really get to be way underpowered or overpowered in comparision to others. sure being able to talk to animals may feel a bit useless compared to someone who can lift 4 tanks at once, but nobodys going to end up with a power like 'can turn into a goose but only once' or 'can grow toenails twice as fast' or 'if i sneeze i can change my hair colour'. at the same time, youre not going to get someone with the power to snap their fingers and level a city, or instantly blow up the moon or whatever.

“Anonymous said to someone-always-cares: I love rami PLEASE tell me his favorite song(s) and why. I will die for you”

a drawing of rami saying out loud “i dont really have any specific favourite song, really? i just listen to whatever sounds catchy and then listen to that on repeat for hours until i hate it. i guess i do like upbeat songs? ones that make you feel happy even if the lyrics are sad”

“ un1c0rnhh said to someone-always-cares: tell me,,, please,, cam,,, are they a cat person or a dog person?? ily"

theres a drawing of cam a metre away from a cat lying down. she has her arm out and is making ‘psspsspss’ noises at it. end id]

FUCK i am so glad i didnt hand write all of that, it would have been a major pain in the ass to write it all and then have to transcribe all that next. but nope i could directly copy paste the asks and word answers. cheers if anyone made it this far down. if anyone wonders why this is uploaded late, you know now.

[langstexmachina]

for the writing meme: "He came to that conclusion while hanging in his dorm with Hunk, the two talking about anything and everything that came up. They were talking about an old friend who’d passed away when it happened.“He was so young ya know? Its horrible.” Hunk said, running his hands through his hair. Lance mulled it over for a moment, turning his next words over and over in his head, silently editing and revising his next words very carefully.“He’s kind of lucky though.” He murmured."

wow a fav lol 

for those of you who havent read this one, it was my first ficlet that i posted on here, Help and honestly it’s one of my favorites even though i didnt particularly articulate very well in my opinion haha.

so when i started writing the entire fic, i didnt have an outline or anything to follow really. all i had was this rough idea that i had been feeling for a while that i needed help but didnt know how to express that right? and like this is a thing for a lot of people so in this moment, lance really was crying out to hunk for help. when hunk brought up this old friend who had ultimately killed himself, lance seriously couldnt help but feel jealous. like he was so tired of being too scared to go through with it. i wish i could have clued to this a bit more, but i imagined him thinking of earlier attempts where he tried to finally, finally do it, but he was always too scared to pull through with it.

and i think hunk has a feeling something was going on with lance. like he was pretty stressed talking about this old friend that honestly they probably havent seen in a few years because hes so worried that his best friend might do the same thing. he’s so worried that lance might try something, he’s pulling hair out and literally freaking the fuck out. he made a point to state the fact that this kid was young. he wanted lance to think of how much life he still had to live- how much life that this kid threw away.

i wanted to use a lot of ‘m’s’ in this in this scene. idk it the ‘m’ sound, at least in my mind seems very soft, intimate almost. like it feels like a sound has to be carefully formed and phrased and placed perfectly. i do think it was pretty wordy. if i were to rewrite it, i would most definitely clean up that sentence with the “turning the words over and over” part. i literally said the phrase “his next words” twice in the same sentence haha it was kinda gross haha 

now this was kind of pivotal to the whole drabble bc like, this is where lance really realized that the way that he was thinking wasnt okay and he loves his friends too much to really do anything so he either had to just deal with the shit, or brace himself and get some god damned help. but its hard to do that shit. he never even really got help in the actual conclusion. he was just sedated at best by uncle coran lol. but the rub is, he decided to just hide his pain inside himself. he decided to cry by himself instead of confide in his friends and i think thats the real thing. the end of this two parter didnt have a happy ending. if anything, i believe that it had a pretty shit end. it looked all happy but thinking about further into the future, i have no doubt that lance would have slipped back into his old ways but only got better at hiding it. he never got the help that he needed. that he wanted.

and thats that lol. hope that was interesting a little!

ps. i was kinda shook when i saw you in my ask bc ive been following you like forever and like your blog is great and wowie okay sorry that was weird k bye!

- day

[psyprick]

whoops, i’m gushing because i... think this is the best day of my life, genuinely. 8)!!! 

god, i feel so... so amazing and so wonderful. the sheer contrast of feeling CONNECTED when i spent my whole life not and... just, the validation that comes from realizing that all this time i wasn’t fighting myself, i was fighting these awful uncontrollable hyperfixations.... when all i wanted at my core was to love people and support them and... ohh, there’s so much good i’m feeling, i can’t ever hope to put into words i haven’t already said to other privately five or six times by now, but...!!!

i may not be around today, as-- and this is so very exciting for me, so please be patient, if you can!!-- i took adderall... suspecting that these quirks (this... was not a suspicion i fostered myself, but one my boyfriend had-- one that made so much sense i couldnt help but try)-- these oddities about myself that made me feel HORRIBLE, that made me think i was inferior, that i wasn’t human... with the way the medicine has impacted me, with the perspective it’s granted me, i want nothing more than to enjoy this temporary freedom. GOODNESS THIS IS GETTING LONG, BUT I’M SO VERY WORDY... as a result of... being so very excited that i can finally express these twenty years of feelings i have inside me, without blood sweat and tears, without abstract metaphors that never seem to resonate proper... 

all this time i thought i was abnormal because i had no idea that what i was looking at was ADD, not some... awful version of myself that i had no choice but to combat, not some pretentious, snobby core personality that i had to deny. and now i can SEE! i can focus. i have clarity. i can watch my thoughts follow through to the end... and then stop them. i can choose to start a task... instead of jumping on the first thing that needs it the most, according to this dumb brain i have.

i think i’ll have a bit of difficulty prioritizing things until it wears off (maybe, tonight sometime, by my estimates?), just because i’m so... not used to being able to do things... that i WANT to do, that i WANT to focus on... instead of being jumbled and distracted and unable to progress in a linear way... that’s why i think i might be afk a bit.

THIS POST IS SO DISORGANIZED... i completely recognize it, but it’s... flowing in an order that i picked, myself, instead of just... flowing in the way this dumb thing decides it should, so im having to learn how to prioritize stuff, like. pfftb, “all over again”, i guess?? BAH.... i’ll take it. i’m honestly.

i’m so grateful that he had the insight to step back-- and when i told him i was a freak, that i had these awful quirks, that i didnt see things the way everyone else seemed to (though, i know everyone is different, it was like-- the expectation of norms, and deviation from it, that made me so... scared and insecure)... he was able to assess, with his experience, and by way of the universe being so damn wonderful as to place this perfect person within my reach (SOULMATES!! you know!! ive decided we ARE soulmates, we MUST be, and how wonderful it is to be able to DECIDE SUCH A THING!! it’s so FREEING!!!), he was able to deduce that these oddities that disturbed me, depressed me, made me feel alienated... wasn’t a personality thing. wasn’t me being neurotic. wasn’t me being crazy or robotic or inhuman.

that all this time, it’s just been a dumb brain. i can FEEL things the way i’ve always known people feel them-- things as simple as KISSES, and while my brain still went YOU KNOW THERE’S SALIVA THERE AND THAT TEXTURE, and drew my attention to it... i could focus on something else. it wasn’t all i felt. kissing, which seemed so natural and pleasurable to EVERYONE BUT ME... i knew it was foreplay, but i never knew, never understood how people ENJOYED IT... so much time was spent thinking that i was a freak. so much time was spent trying to pretend i fit in, and such a complex was developed in how all i desperately wanted for myself was to be normal... and this medicine. this wonderfully lucky thing happened where i had the opportunity to take it... and i could get lost in my boyfriend’s kisses just like i’ve always read about. just like i’ve always wanted to be!! i could feel it in the way i’ve always wanted. i could feel it like everybody else, finally...

i can touch people without the recoil... without bolstering my endurance, without rushing through actions, knowing that my time was ticking, that i would only be able to handle so much before the feeling of even my own skin brushing against mine was too overwhelming. GLOVES!! we really-- and bless, bless my boyfriend and his flexibility, james, i love you, TRULY-- we really were both going to wear GLOVES all the time because those were easier to process than actual skin contact. UNREAL!!

and the problem this whole time... it wasn’t me. all that fighting i did... all those nights i spent hating myself because i thought that since all i could think of was awful things when i wanted to focus on the good, i was a miserable wretch of a person... and all those days that i fought against that, yelling from my mental prison that i loved and cared for my friends, the people around me, the world; all those hours i spent telling myself i WAS a humanitarian, that i WANTED peace, that this chaos that led my thoughts... somehow, it couldn’t have been the REAL me, because the real me-- had to be-- someone who loved, not hated-- THE WHOLE STRUGGLE!! IT WAS WORTH IT!!

it was ALWAYS worth it. i didn’t have the words to describe what i was feeling. i wanted to die, it hurt so bad, living in such discord! but i can see, i can process... i can finally speak. and oh, i’m speaking so much. i know there’s no rush, i don’t need to rush-- but i just can’t stop talking! i love it so much. i love being connected, i love being able to share, i love being able to talk-- and feel-- and be compassionate, and anyway if you’ve read this far you’re a real trooper, what eth HECK.

god, being alive right now is such a good feeling.

also yolo, no proofreading we die like men.

[sickeninggrelle]

hello!

this shouldve been the first post i made but oh well lol!! (also long post ahead) im a new kuro blog and i just wanted to share some of my standings/opinions on certain kuro topics and certain things/characters/ships that i like and also some things i don’t like ! (also u can ask if i dont state smth u wanna know) i wanted 2 do this just so ppl know in case they rly dont or do agree w/ me on smth

these ones are shorter points then the ones later in the post

 so 2 of the most important things to state for me just to get it out of the wat, seba//ciel and other pedo/incest ships are freaking gross and dont follow me if u support them!! ciel and alois are csa survivors and its nasty that yall would ship em with adults!

i use she/her pronouns for grell bc she is a trans women!

personally i hc grell as straight but ive seen a lot of other ppl call her bi or lesbian which i also think is cute!

some of my most favs are grell, undertaker, (those 2 are my most favorite), seb, claude (ill talk a lil bit more abt them after this point), snake, william, ronald, othello, basically all the shinigami lol, bardoy, finn, lau, ash/angela, joker, doll, vincent, agni, soma, and probs a few others i cant think if rn. and i havent read a lot of the manga as of rn (but i know whats happening) so sry if i didnt list a lot of the characters that have been shown in the manga and not the anime !

im rly invested in this franchise and i love all the characters and they story is so interesting and cool, i love the theories, fanart and fanfics ppl share!!

grell is such a strong and important character and i love her!! i could write a whole essay abt her but i might save that for later :,,))

i like to think that in modern age a lot of grim reapers from the show would still be serving their sentence

and since its been shown the grim reapers are much more advanced than humans, i think that at some point othello studied trans surgeries and was able 2 give grell the sex change shes always wanted :,,) 

i personally agree with the theory that ut is o and r ciels grandfather and was someway in a relationship w/ claudia whether they were married or lovers. i like 2 think they were married even though it would make some more things confusing but i just think theyre so dang cute!! i think most ppl agree w/ this theory lol

ut just wanted his family and funky grandkids 2 be happy and everything turned to big poopoo garbage and i feel so sad for him :(( i think he got messed up even more after the manor burned down and wanted to use his doll expeiriments to try and bring back rciel (even tho thats not how u mourn but hes just that desperate) he might not be as close to the phantomhives in his backstory as i think he is but i just like to think he is lol bc i just rly like cute happy families

o!!m!!g!! i L O V E grelliam!! its such a cute ship,, grell and will fit together so well and they balance each other out so well too?? after being together for like 100 years theyre basically an old married couple and i luv them,, i could literally go on and on but this post is already super long lol,, but if anyone wants 2 talk abt them more w/ me id be more than happy to!!

b4 i get into these next few points i just wanna state that i dont rly like 2 get into kuro drama/discourse these are just simply my opinions. u can feel free 2 not read or not follow if u disagree. these are more wordy and in depth topics i wanted 2 talk abt bc i have a dumb need to over explain things lol

ive seen only a few ppl do this, but ive seen ppl that hate on seb for being horrible and abusive and like i dont rly get why? like obviously hes not the best bc hes a literal demon and just wants his soul in the end and in canon they arent friends but hes never literally abused ciel :/ bad morals and bad ppl is like one of the main themes of the show so its not supposed to be all sunshine and rainbows lol. if u rly look at it, all the characters in kuro have an unlikeable/bad quality abt them. theres barely any characters that havent dont anything wrong. not saying that ciel and all the characters are monsters tho! yana stated herself that ciel is supposed to have bad qualities. idk if any of that made sense lol its like 3 am rn

personally i like to hc that seb and ciel r like funky pals that care for eachother even just a lil bit (not in a shipping way i mean a friend/guardian way). maybe in an au lol

i like the aesthetic and characters in season 2, but imo its the worst season in the anime bc the story line and motives of the characters kinda flopped lol. even tho i know its bad, i still like it mainly cause of the characters that were introduced

i like claude, i like his aesthetic and he actually differs from seb in a lot of ways. his plan 2 achieve his motive to eat ciels soul was super dumb tho, hes a cool character but also a dumbass lol which is why ill laugh at jokes making fun of him.

but unlike seb i actually do think claude emotionally manipulated alois and killed him even tho he didnt deserve it. claude didnt “care” for alois like how seb “cares” for ciel (if that makes sense) seb actually had done a lot to protect ciel and obey his orders and the contract, but claude literally just said fu and killed him just so he could get another kids soul lmao

and once again, pedo ships are gross and horrible!!!

oof sry that was long and probably uneeded lol  but those were just sum things i wanted 2 share! also i didnt proofread all of this so sry if theres mistakes, i might add to this in the future as well