#iunno my sisters apology felt a little uwu

[bishiglomper]

I talked to my sister. More like sobbed at her. But I guess things are okay.. I guess I'm placated..

The ticker tape feels more resolved but I still feel emotionally grimy.

Right now I've decided to be mad at my antidepressant. I hadn't even missed a day but I still had a mental breakdown. Usually it takes at least a whole 24 hours of no antidepressant before I get weepy.

I was out all day. We had a canopy and I had a parasol when the shade shifted so I wasn't really in direct sunlight. But I got burnt pretty good.

I'm literally diagnosed with hyperhidrosis, I get very damp from head to toe when I exert the tiniest amount of effort. Just drawing or sitting there playing with jewelry will do it if I'm fixated long enough. I don't have to be hot. I'll sweat when the temp is perfectly comfortable.

Yet somehow there was no sweating whatsoever when I came back to a 90+ degree house. I had to spray myself constantly or literally step into a cold shower fully clothed to cool myself down.

I was spraying my face and had a small fan half a foot from it and the air still felt hot

I don't think that's normal. And I think it's valid I had sensory overload. 😤 Might explain why I'm the only one who seemed to be suffering. Everyone else seemed content with an oscillating fan

Niece is fuckin weird she refused to have a fan pointed at her. Which made me worry about the baby 😵‍💫 but she gets fussy when she's hot so I guess even she was acclimated

I cannot help that my body is a bitchy dumpster fire okay

I still shouldn't have had to sit in a 90+ degree house.

I thought we weren't calling the landlord because the house was too messy to let people in but mom was content as long as there "was a path to the breaker" which my sister said was a very mild job. So I still don't understand why we were just sitting in it.

It was actually cold enough this morning mom turned on the heat. I turned it off.

Too soon, man. Too soon. 😔