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raysonthewavesthatcalmmymindd · 12 years ago

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Chapter Six

Liam's POV

"Can I please, please, please record a song?" Cassy begged me. Simon wanted us to start a little earlier on the new album and once we told Cassy she hasn't stopped bugging me all day about recording a song. I know Nationals is still weighing on her mind even though that was a month ago, she isn't the same. Every time we bring up dancing or gymnastics she would quiet down. This wasn't like Cassy for something like this to stop her from being herself. I didn't think her recording would be a problem she has a pretty good voice but I'd have to run it by Simon first.

"I'll ask Simon and the boys and see what they say about it." I said laughing at her excitement.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you!" She said and hugged me. I couldn't help but notice how skinny she was. I wonder if Louis has felt how skinny she is, probably not its almost like she's avoiding him. I'm starting to think they had a fight or something because they really haven't been acting like they're dating. More like they hate each other.

"Cass have you been eating?" I asked her hoping for an answer, she broke apart from the hug and mumbled something and walked away, probably to my mums room. My mum had left on business trip last week so Cassy got mums room so she could have her space. Honestly I thought she spent too much time in there. I was reallly starting to worry about her. She's skinny, not smiling her real smile, avoiding Louis and she's not telling me anything. I sighed, maybe if I got Dani to talk to her. I pulled out my phone to text Dani.

Hey Dani, do you think you could talk to Cassy? She's not eating, not telling me anything and keeping her distance from Louis. I though maybe if you talked to her she would tell you something? Love you Liam. xx

I knew she was at work and probably was busy, but, a few seconds later I felt my phone buzz.

Babe just let her have her space she's probably just still upset. Have you talked to Lou at all? Danielle xx

I replied almost immediately. Yea maybe but its been a month. No i haven't maybe I will. Love you Liam. xx

"Hey Lou? Whats going on between you and Cassy?" I asked him walking into the living room.

"Honestly I don't know. She just hasn't really talked to me since she slammed the car door the day of Nationals." I could tell he was secrelty blaming himself for absolutley nothing. I knew he really liked her and didn't want to do anything to hurt her or get her mad.

"Your falling for her arn't you?" I asked quietly.

"Mate I've already fallen but I don't even know what to call us." I really didn't know what to call them either they were dating but the way they've both been acting they could be both single so I guess just 'Its Complicated'. It really was complicated.

Louis POV

I've fallen for her. I really truely love her and I really wanted to tell her. The way her eyes sparkle when she smiles, I love how when she laughs she squints her eyes, I love how she can't stand wearing lip gloss or lip stick because she can't stand the feel on her lips. I love how hwen she watches tv she always has to be doing anything else. I love just everything about her and I wanted to tell her and fix what ever I did wrong.

"I'm going to go try and talk to her." I said as I got up and walked up stairs to Liams mums room. I could faintly hear music playing just loud enough so you wouldn't be able to hear it from downstairs but thats all I heard. I smirk as I heard Moments come on her ipod. I knocked softly, no answer. Knocked again a bit louder, still nothing. I sighed before entering the room she wasn't on the bed asleep like I thought she would have been.

"Cassy?" I asked walking into the ensuite. My heart dropped when I saw her with her head in the toilet and her fingers down her throat. I never expected Cassy of all people would do this. She jumped up and she looked like she had just seen a ghost. She obviously didn't think anyone would come in.

"It-its not what it looks like." Cassy said quietly not meeting my eyes, hers glued to the floor.

I took a step forward and lifted up her chin. "You're beautiful the way you are."

I kissed her forehead. "Now love whats wrong? Why must you feel you have to do that?"

"Louis its none of your business." She said to me coldly taking a step back and tried to walk away, I grabbed her wrist, but she yanked it away.

I rose my eyebrows." Cass, I'm your boyfriend I want to know these things so I can help."

"I don't want any help. I'm perfectly fine." Said tears starting to fall down her perfect little face. Maybe I should talk to Liam, he might know whats going on. I care about her too much for her to hurt herself like this. She's so hard to read, usually I can read people like they are an open book but not Cassy, you would never be able to tell if she was hurting inside or if she was upset or even mad. Its confusing because I don't know how she feels about me, about us.

"You wouldn't be crying if you were fine." I stated, matter a factly. "And what I just saw proves it too."

"Fuck! Louis! If I wanted help don't you think I'd be talking about right now?!" She yelled, with tears streaming down her face.

"All I'm trying to do is help you! I care about you. You know that? We all do! Liam does even more than I do!" I yelled. "You know there are other ways to lose weight then shoving your fucking fingers down your throat?! Did you know that?"

She stood there with her mouth open. I just walked out pissed off. "I hate you!" I heard her scream. Instantly feeling guilty, she wouldn't hate me if I didn't yell, but that was all her fault.

***

"Is Cassy bulimic?" I blurted out to Liam. Liam and I were driving to the store to get food since the lads - mostly Niall- were complaining there's no food. It's been a day since I talked to Cassy and I've been dying to talk to Liam about her alone without the lads around. I thought if I came with Liam to the store I could talk to him.

"She still isn't talking to you?" Liam asked me a bit surprised.

"Nope." I replied, Liam stopped the car and explained everything to me. He explained to me the deal him and Cassy made about a month ago, about how she went through a really rough time at home and school since her mum died. How girls in her grade blamed her for her mother dying, called her fat, ugly, useless. I think it made me fall for her even more. I wanted to just go up to her when we get home and give her a huge hug and kiss her on the lips and let her know that I will always be there for her. But Liam told me to give her space and talk to her in the morning or in a couple of days, he said depends on how she is when we get home.

After about an hour just talking Liam's cell goes off. Niall wondering where were are because he's hungry. He also also phoned to let us know that Cassy had come out of her room and was currently playing video games with Harry and Zayn. We didn't feel like going to the store so we went to Nandos and just got take out. That will make Niall happy. When we got home Niall was happy obviously. Cassy was still playing video games with Harry, Zayn quit just before we got there. Apparently because she beat him. It was nice seeing Cassy out of her room and smiling a smile that at least looked like she was happy.

I was snapped out of my trance when Harry nudged me. "What?"

"Liam asked if it was okay for Cassy to record a song with us, do you mind?" Harry asked a little irritated probably because I wasn't paying attention. When did Harry get beside me and where did Cassy go?

"Oh, yea yea! I don't mind." I said smiling.

"Don't mind what?" Cassy asked as she walked into the room. Liam told her she was allowed to record one song with us and it was okay with Simon as well and she ran up into what i was expecting Liams arms but were mine, yelling thank you a billion times, then she went and did the same with the rest of the lads.

I looked at her she smiled and bobbed her head towards the next room obviously wanting to talk to just me alone. There was a bit of a silence until she moved into hug me, I wrapped my arms around her, and I saw that she was crying.

"Hey, Cassy why are you crying?" I asked trying to calm her down.

"Lou I-I feel so bad. I don't hate you, I love you and I didn't mean to yell at you."

"Its not your fault I yelled at you too. I should be apologizing plus I didn't know the entire story." I replied stroking her hair while my other arm was wrapped around her.

"I'm guessing Liam told you?" She said quietly. I just nodded.

"Lets go for a walk, outside." I suggested, she smiled and I grabbed her hand. Just as we got to the door making a run for so hopefully the others won't notice until we heard Harrys voice asking us where we're going. I just told them out not wanting to be botherd with them and only be with Cassy for a while and that was when they all started yelling 'Get in there mate!' and a bunch of other weird stuff. Cassy giggled while I rolled my eyes, opened the door and walked outside.

"Omg they are so weird!" Cassy said.

" I do it too Cass." I said laughing. "I say it mostly to Liam when he goes off to Danielles house, but forget about that what do you wanna do?"

"This." She said and then our lips met. And just like all the other kisses, not only our lips touched-but our hearts. A hot burning and passionate sensation in my chest, through out my whole body. It was almost overwhelming how she made me feel.

Cassy's POV

The boys were leaving to go to america today to work on their new album and perform some more concerts today. Louis and I stayed up all night to play video games, watch movies and just talking so we could spend every minute we have together before he leaves this morning. He was so tired and I knew he wouldn't get up on his own so I woke him up.

"Baby, you have to leave today.’’ I said softly shaking Louis. He is immediately awake and grabs my waist and lays me down close to him.

"Don’t you have to pack?’’ I asked a little bit worried.

‘’No I'll do that later.’’ he said while he kissed my neck. As much as I don't want to I pull back.

"Lou, babe. You need to pack." I said pulling out his suitcase.

He groaned. "I don't want to pack."

"Here I'll help you pack." I offerd.

"Can you just pack for me?" Louis begged and looked at me with puppy eyes. I sighed and gave in.

After I packed his clothes I laid down on his matress to sleep for a bit more. It seemed I had just fallen asleep when I over heard Liam and Louis telling me to get up because they were leaving.

"I don't want you guys to leave." I said my voice cracking.

"I know Cassy, I'm gonna miss you too. We all are." Liam said bending down to hug me since I was still lying down on Lou's bed. Liam asked me if I was ever going to get up and give them a proper goodbye. I told them I just wanted to stay in bed all day. I decided to get up and say a proper goodbye to the boys, especially Liam and Louis. Liam had left the room to let me get up but Louis stayed.

"Should I leave too, so you can get changed?" Louis asked me.

"No, I'm just gonna end up coming back and sleeping in Liams bed. Be lazy, do nothing just miss everyone." I smiled weakly. I'll probably cry because I'll miss everyone so much. But I wasn't going to tell him that.

"I'm gonna miss you so much, while were gone." Louis said before crashing his lips on mine before we went downstairs.

I said my goodbyes to Liam and Louis at least three times now, and Paul I think was starting to get annoyed with me because I was holding them up. Harry, Niall and Zayn were already on the tour bus doing god knows what but I just didn't want them to leave yet. It felt like Liam had just came back home and I had just met Louis yesterday but its been two months. They have to get back to their jobs. I just kept hugging them and crying, even though I really didn't want to in from of them. I let go from hugging Louis and walked back over to Liam and hugged him for the billionth time today, until Paul told me they had to go. I gave Louis one last kiss and they got on the tour bus. I had no idea when I'd see them next.

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