#its just that im so much bigger than you😈

[kl0ud69]

you think it will all fit?

[tojiscrack]

crying bc your take on how momgumi acts it probably the best and most accurate thing we'll ever see YOU WROTE HER SO CUTESY AND LIKE KNOWINGGG like she just felt like a mother that knows.. YKWIM??? and dont get me started on y/n being late THAT BROKE MY HEARTTTT i felt like the grinch getting his heart shrunk instead of bigger.

Alsoooo i hope you have a good day/night my lovely lovely sumaya... THE NEW CHAPTER LOWKEY SCARED ME I WASNT EXPECTING ONE. I got the notification and was lkke 'REALLY???' i always feel bad bc i see these ppl with like NOVELSSSS and i barely ever have anything to say😔😔 i guess its bc like.. im not very good with words tbh ANYWAYSS WTV have a great great great week😈😈😈

liar, liar masterlist here:

‘ur take on how momgumi acts is probably the best and most accurate thing we’ll ever see’ — AHHHHHHHHH 😫

you have no idea how much that means to me. like that scene wasn’t even gonna be added ‘cause i was STRUGGLING with it 😭 we have no canon source material about how megumi and his mum would have interacted had she lived, so i had to go off that one known line of here — “take care of megumi” — and run with the little parts of her personality that we got 😟

and to hear positive feedback from that? i’m over the moon rn, dancing in the clouds and drinking up the rain, you have no idea

y/n being late was the 0.2% of plot that i stirred into the chapter… ok maybe 5% of the chapter was plot, but i made it mainly filler so you wouldn’t use my inbox as a rage room against kai or kamo (gasp? their names both start with k? 😳)

I’M HAVING A FANTASTIC DAY NOW THAT I’VE GOT THIS MESSAGE <3

‘THE NEW CHAPTER LOWKEY SCARED ME CUZ I WASN’T EXPECTING ONE’ — yeah, it wasn’t meant to be out this early, but i’d received two beautiful pieces of art that morning and i was like ‘ykw, they deserve smth back’ and then spent the whole day rushing to poop ch.10 out 😗 I’M GLAD I DID THO! WE HAVE MORE INTERACTIONS AND EVEN MORE LOVELY PIECES OF ART <333

‘i barely ever have anything to say’ — GIRL YOU CHECK UP ON ME EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE WND THAT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH 😭🫶🏽 IT’S SO SWEET OF YOU BUT I PROMISE I CAN FEEL UR LOVE FOR LL THROUGH THE SCREEN, you don’t have to do anything more to try and prove (is that the word i’m looking for?) it to me :D

ty for dropping by! this was lovely to read, i appreciate ur support SO SO SO MUCH <3

[rodneymckays]

41, 50, 51 for ask game 😈

41. if you could change 1 detail about any show, what would you change and why?

BAHAH get ur pitchforks out folks. if we're talking atlantis, there are a few things i would want to change, but the biggest one is teyla's pregnancy arc. i didn't like how it was written into the show, for a number of reasons. the biggest being, i think it did a disservice to teyla's character. to me, teyla was the greatest warrior on that show. and to watch her get sidelined in the latter half of season 4 and basically all of season 5 (it was like where's waldo, but instead i was saying where's teyla?) because the writers didn't know how to balance her being a mom with her being on the team...it just depressed me. the scene that really killed the whole thing for me was when she had that conversation with john at the end of spoils of war where she basically says she used to be willing to die for him & ronon & rodney, but she has other considerations now. which i get but... i think it makes her almost less than them, as a member of the team, because they would still die for her & for all of atlantis, u kno? so i kinda wish it wasn't a thing.

50. what’s one TV cliche you love?

i deserve to be shot for this but, uh... the will they/wont they cliche. I DUNNO, MAN. i just really love yearning, and lingering looks, and fleeting touches. its such an interesting thing to watch people act out and subsequently over-analyze. BUT, weirdly, i only like it if it remains ambiguous (because i don't like romance romance, & usually the fruition disappoints me 😂). i don't want any romantic resolution. i want character's relationships to occupy this nebulous, weirdly intimate, more than friends but not really stage because i find it so fun to watch.

probably explains why i love the x-files, law & order: svu, and mcshep so much BAHAHA.

51. what’s one TV cliche you despise?

i suppose this applies to all types of media, but i'm gonna say it anyhoo. LOVE TRIANGLES. I HATE THEM. throw the whole thing away, please 😌 i think they're used solely to create extremely boring interpersonal drama between characters and u can have ur characters fight about something much more interesting that actually explores/builds their character. the bigger problem i have with it is that it does a disservice to all characters involved and really only serves to villainize some, if not all the characters in the eyes of the audience. and for what? yes, im throwing all of the shade on sga's tracker. i despise it.

honourable mention: a show ending with "it was all just a dream"... the laziest writing i've ever seen, unless u were the first one to do it.

ask me more!

[tremendouslyjollydelusion]

Idiosyncrasy? Dolor v Verlichting

HR.Dolor :

Okay, you're screwed. They threatend you to kick you out. To THINK. For fuck sake, dude. Why can't you just talk to them?

HR.Verlichting :

You know why. The things that what he wanna said might hurt their feelings, and he doesn't want that. Cause he think that he's selfish and he want soo much more than everyone wants for him. He often think that he cares about everyone, but him. Also he's having trouble to express himself in his own language. I think he doubt himself, shy? Not really. More like overthinking stuff maybe afraid to get out his comfort zone. What else? Let me think.. He thinks about problems that didn't even exist which eventually caused more problems for him. He's tired of being told what to do. But he do it anyway. I know. It doesn't make any sense. But it is what it is, that's how his head works, well at least that what O think lol.

HR.Dol :

Yea, I know, its because he can't make his own decisions in the first place.

HR.Ver :

I know right, but I think he knew that, but again, he's not them, nor his sister or anyone else. Everybody needs their own time to do things. It could take days, weeks, months. Hell, even years, God knows when. What he need is a full support and guidence, no matter what he does, especially from the people that closest or dearest to him. Because to him its hard to figured out his passion. I think he need people to be patient for him, instead of pushing him, telling him what to do.

HR.Dol :

That's bullshit man, all he have to do is just do it! Just like the Nike said lol. He doesn't even have a solid plan, nothing! Zero plan! He's a spoiled brat for fuck's sake dude 😔

HR.Ver :

Hey, easy buddy! You're not helping. You're making things worse, for God's sake. I kindda agree with you tho. But again, back to square one. He's not you, he's parents, sister, brother, cousins or anyone. He is who he is. We can't change that. He's the one in control and responsible for his actions. No one in this world can change that, unless if God willing to.

So, yea. He needs time, everyone has their own timetable of their life. We can't push him too much. If we did, there's two options. Its either he pushed himself jump and spread his wings or fall into endless hell hole. Its too much risk, we can't push him like that.

HR.Dol :

So, you're saying he's a coward? Doesn't wanna take a risk?! Hell yeah, he is! Fucking coward. You know what they said, people who don't wanna take risks will most likely become an unsuccessful retard! Lol🤣😈

HR.Ver :

For God's sake, dude. Its not as simple as that. You should know better than anyone, man. We're here to help him, dude.

HR.Dol :

Holyshit, dude, wake up will you?! We're just some ideas, thoughts, inside the lazyass brain of his!

HR.Ver :

That's exactly my point, my man. We're exists because of him, otherwise we won't be here discussing or solving he's problems in the first place. Help him to see things clearer. You should be grateful.

HR.Dol :

YEA YEAA, WHATEVER! WiseAssssss piece of crap thoughts. Its FRIDAAY! We should be out hanging out, party or some shit.

HR.Ver :

Hold you're horses, kid. We have bigger problems to solve here, buddy. He doesn't have a lot of time. If we ran out of time. All three of us screwed. You want that?!

HR.Dol :

Hell no! I haven't got the chance to have fun for years! Well, at least thats what it felt like to me lol. So what's the plan Mr. WiseAss piece of crap thoughts? 😂

HR.Ver :

Im not sure, but we all know the facts. He need time to think. And that my friend, is not much. He need support, help like everyone else. But I think he will ask for it when the time comes, so if we or anyone give or offer him one in the wrong time, we all know what happens.

HR.Dol :

Well, thats some fucked up good shits going on lol.

So, what's next, big boy?

HR.Ver :

Ikr lol. But we gotta be patient...

HR.Dol :

We knew that already ASSHEAD, you said it a billion times for fuck's sake..

HR.Ver :

Eaassyyy, boy. I'm not finishedd. It's a long list.

Let's see, you said smthng about he's being coward cause he doesn't wanna take risks and it'll make him unsuccessful retard or something, right?

HR.Dol :

Yea, I guess, really I said that??🤔 Well thats harsh lol. What about it tho?

HR.Ver :

Yes, you did. Who's the retard now?😑😄🖕

So, yea. About that, I think he thinks that the term success is different for him. Some people consider success as power, wealth, career etc. For him its happiness. So, yeaa. He thinks that whats the point of having successful career, lots of money, but not happy.

Since he knows he doesn't have a lot of time, and won't live forever. He want to live his life, give his life a meaning, balance in everything, well, not everything. Some things maybe.

HR.Dol :

Yea, I get it, you dumb. But how??! He barely plan shit?

HR.Ver :

Yes, thats the thing. People keep telling him what to do. Things that he might not like or enjoy doing it. They expect more of him. Makes him think that he might dissapointed them if he didn't succeed. And that, he want to avoid. Also don't forget, he's having trouble to express himself in his language, or to anyone. And thats why we're both exists. To help him cope with this kindda thing. Its quite lonely in crowded head of his, complicated but simple at the same time. That's how screwed up he's is. Drowned in his own thoughts. Stopped him to do things in life.

HR.Dol :

Well, Damn, Son. I thought I'm fucked up lol🤣🤣

HR.Ver :

I know right? Its simple actually. He just wanna help people, especially people that closest to him. Such his family, friends. Hell, even strangers. He wanna do things that he enjoy doing. Like his job for example. He hate his job, but he love what he did there, he's helping people(sort of) get what they want, satisfied their needs, its small things actually but it makes him happy, make him feel like he's useful. But at the same time he knows that his job is not going anywhere, and maybe that's why he hate it there. Plus, his folks keep telling him to do somthing, get another jobs, go back to school, get a degree etc. which is not helping him cause he already know it, especially if someone ask him if he's satisfied with what he achieved. Of course not, he know it damn well its far from satisfied. But they keep pushing him, over and over and over aaandd overr. Without knowing what he has in mind, thinks, thoughts, plans (even if its far from solid plan).

Sometimes people need a push which is good, but some people need a support, a guidence with patience of course, and maybe he's one of those people.

HR.Dol :

I'm sorry, I wasn't listening😪

HR.Ver :

WHATT?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW DUDE?! You and I both know thats not possible right? 🔥👿😑😇

HR.Dol :

Yea yeaa, whatever dude, its late for fuck's sake😪

HR.Ver :

Hufftt... You're probably right. Its late, and he' has work at dinner shift😔😇

HR.Dol :

Seee? You really should pay more attention, dude.🤔🤡