#its hard to work through things when the ppl who put you through those things are the ones you are still dependant on. :/

[pinkmoonastro]

Moon through the zodiac

Aries: Your blunt and it often comes across as insensitive. Yet at the same time people may think your too sensitive. Growing up your household was very busy and or very gossipy. People may question your intentions alot with this placement even if your not doing anything some may still assume your up to no good. Its almost like damn all that assuming you might as well actually do something. The way you express yourself is always being judged and people are always trying to ''correct'' it. Causing you to be anti social, very particular on who you share your personality with or a bully. The way you express yourself is very unique just like your sense of humor you be accidentally funny as hell and thats needed in this world dont give away your power to people and allow them to change you into a dolice version of yourself. Light fire under they ass the way you how to. Anyways I wouldnt be surprised if you daydream about your ideal life alot, careful not to be in your head too much and create unrealistic expectations for yourself or others to uphold. I want yall to stop being so hard on yourself. If nobody else tell yall ima tell you i love how passionately you express yourself. The purpose of your moon being here is for you to learn more about yourself and who you are and how your actions/reactions affect others. Step away from whats familiar and comfortable and dig deep. Listen to your intuition. Have some fucking fun.

Taurus: Its your way or the highway HUH? Your moon chose to be here becasue you are the defender. There will be times were you feel your back is against the wall and you face alot of scrutiny from the world. They may come down on you hard but if you can withstand the pressure you will be rewarded. Willpower and self discipline comes easier for you. You have the tendency to be arrogant, domineering and passive aggressive. A good leader keeps those emotions in check. Yall get stuck in yall ways fr i want yall to put more energy into leaving your comfort zone and taking risk. Slow down smell the roses and enjoy where you are. Dont be all work and no play.

Gemini: Yall love some drama. Somehow always ending up in the middle of some shit. Seeing others as competition even when them ppl not worried about you. You like being the center of attention and dont care if its in a postive or negative light. It works for yall though because popularity comes easy for you. This is one of the most social placements for the moon to be. Your reputation means alot to you and networking is high on your priority list. Its common for yall to feel like you always have to choose between something. It may be hard for you to balance your work life and home life. In friendships and relationships you choose to keep the blindfold on ignoring whats really in front of you, procrastinating to handle your problems just hoping theyll go away on there on. You end up in situations where people are betraying you. With the two sides to gemini its like a secret element to your life. Your no stranger to scandal. I feel for you, this isnt a easy place to have the moon be. You care so much about your relationships with people but yet often have issues with ppl. This couldve stemmed from feeling like you were a target growing up that people always chose to pick with you. Or that you were punished more extremely than others. With this placement you've probably seen or experienced things that really made you question humanity. Dont let those experiences shape the type of person you'll be. You gotta learn to let shit go and not be bitter or have a victim mentality. Be careful not to burn yourself out. Drowning yourself in work to ignore your feelings. You dont always have to do everything on your own... collaborating is just as rewarding i promise. It would be beneficial to learn how to except help, knowing when to back down and not being so critical of yourself.

Cancer: If they dont appreciate everything you do FCK EM. No but fr with moon here you may feel like people overlook the things you do for them. Cancer moons can be way to stubborn and stand in there on way because of the fear of change. Repeating the same lessons way more than they should have to. When your redirect your energy to new experiences and growth your determination and passion unmatched. This is type of person you want to have on your team they bring so much positive energy and comfort.

Leo: Main character syndrome AF lol Unnecessarily rebellious at times growing up you may have felt your parents were controlling on how you expressed your creativity or because of the way you grew up you express your creativity in a rebellious way in relation to your family. Your career could be taboo. I could see a lot of onlyfans stars having moon in leo. Success in career comes more natural for you because of your consistency and ambitious nature. Yall really find pleasure in chasing money. Dont get so carried away with fulfilling your material desires that you dont leave time for introspection and searching for who you really are away from the titles.

Virgo: How does it feel to be kids favorite? A happy home life is important for this placement. Theres an innate need to belong. You love parties, holidays and kids ofc. Hosting parties and having a full house will give you happiness. Where this placement gets stuck is not being able to let go of the past. Getting sucked into the loophole of self pity and regret. Focus your attention on what you can do and what you can change. You work better with other ppl there to bounce ideas off of. Let your gaurd down, Succuss is reached quicker for you when you collaborate. Having this placement is testing your ability to strengthen your willpower and resourcefulness. Once you can do that you'll manifest way easier. Careful not to live beyond your means. Dont let desires put you in debt. Trust your intution, take the first step and take the risk. You go be perfectly fine.

Libra: Your love language is def quality time and acts of service this is very important for this placement to feel loved. Yall thrive in group settings and really value friendships. Even if you dont talk that much it makes you feel better to be around others. If you want to get with a Libra moon the best way is to become their friend first. You may have a tendency to put yourself in drama and create chaos among your inner circle though lil messy ass. Always wanting to be right, when this placement is in its lower natures is a good example of the native american folklore of the hunter that stuck a blood coated blade in ice knowing the wolf couldnt resist. It licked the blade continuously not realizing it was slowing bleeding out. The only way for the wolf to survive is to acknowledge its self destructive behavior. Bottom line just because you can ignore something doesnt mean others are going to do the same. Just becasue it didnt effect you doesnt mean it didnt effect them. Make the effort to listen to understand not listen to respond. Your words matter use them responsibly and take breaks from people or things when you feel you need to, your mental health will thank you.

Scorpio: Transformation happens with this placement alot. Moments of feeling isolated or depressed may be brought on by extreme emotional shifts. Anxiety and fear is no stranger to the scorpio moon. It can be to the point of really debilitating you. You've experienced things you've kept to yourself or have repressed but the issue continues to reappear time after time like a broken record. If it hasnt been dealt with it way on you really heavy and appear in your dreams often. You've felt shame, not understanding how you couldve allowed yourself to be in that predicament in the first place but seriously bro shit happens. It can be hard to maintain emotional balance with moon in scorpio, so its essential to have methods to release your emotions in healthy ways. Careful not to become bitter or victimizing with things dont go the way your controlling ass intends. Vengeance doesnt work well for you it often backfires, you'll try to set somebody house on fire and you burn yourself in the process. You may feel that people often oppose for no reason that you have to go through power struggles to be heard or to get the things you want. You may second guess opening up and are critical of yourself and others but opening yourself up to the world will be one of the best things you can do for your relationships and career. Your maturity and originality is threatening. Express yourself in your full nature and make people adapt to you not the other way around. You have authoritarian energy and if your putting yourself out there which ik you are, yr often mistaken for the boss. That is if your not already the boss. Im sure your that your the boss. Mwahahaha. Your demeanor comes across as serious and strict. Ppl naturally think let me not play with them. Your standards are high for yourself and your partner. You wouldnt be with somebody who doesnt match up to your standard. You need to feel like the person you’re with is equally as respected as you in any room you walk in.

Sagittarius: Im sure you believe you were meant to be famous. Sagittarius moons are very charismatic and great negotiators with a very convincing personality they are great at creating solutions quickly. So ofc that makes its very easy for them to make friends. In relationships they attract and are attracted to more dominate personalities. Loving the idea of love but really being in denial about that. Def gives player vibes they have flirtatious ass whore ways lmao. If you cheating ik you not even finna try hard to hide it. Easily bored they will chase thrills lowkey in a running from your problems type of way. Where sag moons can grow is appreciating the value they bring and not feeling the need to always compare themselves to others. Don't attach your self worth to financial security. Be more secure in what you believe and don't back down so easily when others challenge your ideas.

Capricorn: The moon doesn't like being here. Its emotionally depressing actually lol. I'm sure you've already read enough depressing interpretations on cap moons tho so this one is not going to be that. This one is meant to empower you. Youve experienced alot of chaos anger and pain. You've experienced very intense situations that have completely emotional up rooted you. But the smoke always clears and its important for to spend time away from the people and places that have caused this. Take the steps needed to regroup to be by yourself to develop better understanding of your emotions and learn what it is that truly want from your life. If you are not following your intuition it is easy for you to end up in friendships and relationships that do not mean you well. Your not the type of person who can just hang with anyone you need to very intentional about who you allow into your life. Communicate your feelings stop keeping everything bottled in. That shit will drive yo ass crazy. You dont have to be the strong friend all the time your emotions are valid, open up to ppl and share that shit because you dont share often you open up and talk people listen. Use that power to help others that have been through similar experiences to you. When you succeed in whatever obstacles you overcome ppl cant do anything but respect it bc your road was slow and steady but you stayed with it. When it comes to relationships you are very black and white you'll commit yourself fast but if you feel you cant trust the person you may still deal with them but emotional you shut them out. You like being partnered up rather its a relationship or situtationship you deal with the person for a long time.

Aquarius: I want to give you a hug, you are too analytical for your own good. Baby you need to stop thinking so much and you need to feel, you need to experience, act on impulse, dont give yourself time to think about everything that could go wrong. You sabotage so much of your own happiness that way. But i understand people have disappointed you so many times you feel you must do everything on your own. Its like nobody understands you or that people are committed to misunderstanding you. But news flash your not that expressive with your feelings how is anybody going to know if you dont tell them. Yall are cute though with yall dry ass humor. Listen stop being such a fly on the wall you hold as much value as anyone else stop acting like your presence is a fuckn burden. You dont have be agreeable all the the time they will be O FUCKN K. You are very intelligent and more people need to know that. Believing in yourself and communicating is your lesson. Shine your light and stop playing like fr...

Pisces: Ok we’re gonna get the sad shit out the way first. Just how yall like. I really feel like yr parents just let yall cry it out as a baby and you took that personal lmao. No but fr i feel like you always came across like you can handle things so you weren’t really checked on everyone just assumes you'll be ok. You come across as very strong and resilient which is beautiful but everybody needs a shoulder to lean on. Okay now remember how i said yall took that personally ummhm you can be very vengeful never forgetting he littlest slight somebody done towards you. Yall resort to committing crimes rather easily if you need some money lmao im not mad at it though. Literally rationalizing damn near anything if that means youll get what you want. And another thing yall be lying fr. lol sometimes it really do be on accident though you just forgot what really happened and your imagination is very vivid you thought that was the truth. You can be too hard on yourself sometimes you see very clearly the person you want to be so you put so many time limits and expectations on yourself. Chill out enjoy the journey and flow through life the way you know how to. You have very high standards so anything you invest your energy too is executed properly. I honestly cant even imagine a Pisces moon not running their own business. Im sure you cant either. You naturally have very authoritarian energy. Theres not much push and pull when it comes to you getting your way people go with your flow pretty easily. Naturally you wouldnt assume a pisces to be practical but they actually are. Sure they dream big but if they didnt know how to practically implement that into this realm that would just be depressing as hell. When yall find something that works for you, you are very disciplined at seeing it through. Very protective over those you love yall def give stand up when i walk in the room vibes lol

[andhumanslovedstories]

hi! i'm gonna overshare a little bit but i'm doing my nursing prereqs right now and i'm really worried. i'm kind of really mentally ill and i've been worrying recently if nursing is worth it. i want to help people and it sounds so interesting and i love medical stuff but i don't want to get burnt out with the stress and long hours. someone told me that nursing is a lot like being a restaurant server, and i don't want to go to school and get a degree and a career that's literally just serving again. is it satisfying? is it rewarding? is it soul-killing? i'm scared

hi there! I'll overshare in return! I'm just coming off three months of disability for burnout (which for me is just depression but with a name you can use in the workplace). My job didn't cause my depression, but it certainly exacerbated it. The hours, the stress, the constant exposure to people suffering and the limits on your ability to do something about it, all those suck and they can break your brain. (On the other hand, I've been majorly depressed while working at an ice cream parlor where the walk-in freezer was for smoking weed. You can be depressed anywhere.)

And it is a hard job! Harder in some parts of the field than others. Different places have different nursing cultures, different laws, different staffing, etc. Where I work, there's good protection and advocacy for nursing. That's not true everywhere.

With all that said--I really like nursing. I get to do work that I know contributes good to the world. I get to solve very practical problems. I meet people I would never otherwise meet. I have the opportunity every shift to do something that I am proud of. And a lot of times, I find it fun! It's fun to brainstorm how to make someone who's been puking all night feel better. It's fun to see your efforts rewarded, even in small ways. It's fun to stop something before it becomes an emergency. It's fun bustling around, juggling a dozen different things. It's not ALWAYS fun. But for me, the work is not just meaningful but also enjoyable.

That's how I knew I had bad burnout btw. Even when things went well and I did work I was proud of, every shift was such a fucking slog.

If you are interested in the basic work of nursing (managing the human response to illness and promoting health), then there's a million and one jobs you can do with a nursing degree. They cater to different traits. I've discovered I really like precepting new nurses, I like working on the floor with its routine and concrete goals, and I like symptom management. I don't like critical care or the emergency department or working on stuff that isn't patient care, like paperwork and charge nursing. I like novelty but not chaos. I like independence but not being left entirely to my own devices. I like that I physically cannot take any of my work home. I do not like being on committees. So for me, right now at this point in my life, I like being a basic med-surg night shift float pool nurse. I would be absolutely miserable as a neuro ICU critical care day shift nurse. I would be bored to death being an inpatient rehab night nurse. Being a nurse manager would probably make me suicidal again.

If you find the basic work interesting and rewarding, you can tailor it to your taste. (I can't recommend floor nursing enough for the adhd havers amongst us.)

and last thing, regarding mental illness: I think a lot of nurses (and ppl in healthcare in general) struggle with mental illness way more than they think they do. Someone who knows they have depression and works to manage it will likely be more resilient than someone endlessly pushing through their fatigue and misery. Probably a better nurse, too. I take meds, go to therapy, get sleep, push myself to eat, take sick days, protect my limited energy, do physical activity--I'm a gym girlie now!!--because I'm treating a disease I know that I have. Just knowing that there's something up with your brain and doing something about it puts you way ahead like half of the people who work the emergency department.

[calicofurball3]

Hii Calico! I saw your new astrology game and I want to participate! I'm still new to vedic astrology and often use tropical instead of sidereal, what do you think of this chart?🌸

Hey there, hope you’re doing well!🌷✨ Tysm for participating, here’s the general reading for your chart:

(Do note that asteroids, Pluto, Uranus and Neptune aren’t considered in sidereal astrology, so I wouldn’t be considering those aspects!)

Ascendant in Taurus in Rohini signifies that you give off calm, grounded and easy to approach vibes. you could also have attractive features, probably on the shorter side when it comes to height. 

With the ascendant lord being in the 10th house, your identity could be tired to your work or career. Ppl may very well tend to recognize u through ur career, or it’s possible that when ppl meet you for the first time, their topic of convo could revolve a lot around ur work (kinda reminds me of how doctors are referred to as Dr. even off duty, and how they have the designation in front of their name most of the time, something similar to that)

This may be an odd observation but with the Venus in nakshatra danishta in the 10th, you could potentially be someone who posts music, dance or such on social media. You could also be into unconventional topics, and its possible that you gotten into a scandal or something of that sort atleast once in ur life😭

Sun in the 11th in nakshatra Revati suggest that you’re always looking for ways to grow and improve yourself. It’s also possible that you do this to increase ur ability to earn money or material comforts. (Like learning extra skills or courses for a better position in job for instance). 

You could also have childhood friends who may offer their help in need. Since Sun is in Pisces, makes you pretty creative as well, you may also be that one sunshine friend who’s motivating and helping out the others. They prefer to confide in you, it’s giving therapist vibes🤍

Moon in Gemini in ardra nakshatra suggests that you could be a sensitive person urself. You tend to have a lot of mood swings, and sometimes be pretty indecisive as well. You could resemble ur mom a lot, physically or personality wise as well. Um you may also lowkey look like you have a resting sad face (reminds me of this emoji🥺)

Financial stability and comfort mean a lot to you, but you might kinda find it hard to keep savings , since moon indicates fluctuations, along with the fact that it’s in the airy sign of Gemini, ur finances could keep fluctuating as well (although you personally WANT to keep savings but you could give into ur temptations often and before you know it, you’re spending on ur wishlist😭) 

Moon is the 3rd house lord here, placed in the 2nd house. This along with mars in the 2nd suggest that your finances will definitly grow due to the sheer hard work and efforts you put in. You could put a lot of energy into this aspect of your life in general. Since 12th house lord is in 2nd, you could be earning in a foreign currency/foreign lands (Rahu in the 11th would also indicate such a thing) 

3rd lord mercury in 10th suggest that you may have showcased great courage to choose a career that you’ve actually wanted or are passionate abt, despite whatever ppl may say. It’s possible that you’re work involves social media, communication, writing, media  and  IT. Mercury in the 10th is also a placement that could show fluctuating career. You could also switch jobs a lot. 

Cancer in the 3rd house could mean that ur thoughts are on the emotional side. You may think with your heart, and not ur head. But with Saturn in the third, communication could be pretty hard. It may be hard for you to express ur emotions through ur words. Infact, there’s also a high chance that people may misunderstand your words. It’s possible that you’ve also heard things like ���learn how to speak properly’ or something along that line. 

You could’ve as a result, restricted urself from giving in ur opinions or thoughts. You would need to put efforts into that aspect of you’re life, but once you do, this is a great placement. Saturn in general does well in the 3rd house, it gives you better results with the passing on of years. It’s also possible that you may have a traditional and strict mom who restricted you from doing a lot of stuff in ur childhood.  

You may have started school late than ur peers, or have gap years in education as well. With mercury in Aquarius in 10th, ppl may see ur thoughts as unique, sometimes even weird😭😭

Ketu in 5th in Virgo suggests that you could be really interested in digging deep into occult, mysticism and so on. This placement would also make someone quite smart, especially in scientific subjects. 

One thing I’ve noticed is that you may tend to have a extreme case of perfectionism. It could be very hard for you to get complete satisfaction from the result of ur hard work. You’d always want to do or achieve better. You could be the best at something, or at a top position in ur field and yet you’d still have a bit of dissatisfaction in you cuz of one thing or the other😅 

you may also hate being tied down in a routine tho, a monotonous office job in a cubicle wouldn’t exactly be your cup of tea

With its counterpart, Rahu in the 11th, you could have quite a lot of friends who are different from you. You’d know a lot of ppl who aren’t from your native country, probably through ur education. This position is also considered great for earning a lot of wealth in ur lifetime. You may have extremely ambitious dreams, which others may deem as not so practical

You could also be quite interested in spirituality and astrology for instance, since it’s in Pisces. You may possibly like to write, perhaps poems? Or heartfelt messages. You’d rather write from you’re heart than stick to formal wordings in any situation. For example, If you were asked to give a speech, instead of being formal and rigid, you may include ur own life experiences, and try to speak in a way that doesn’t sound like you’ve memorized off of a paper? Infact, you may do worse if you were asked to memorize rigidly written formal writings or dialogues, cuz you’d rather your words flow according to the moment. You feel more comfortable and at your best then too. 

Jupiter in 6th in libra, could potentially give you gastrointestinal or digestive issues. In Vedic astrology, Jupiter being the 8th house lord, placed in 6th gives a positive result, despite the negative nature of the houses. This combination suggests that although you may face obstacles in life, over time in life you’d be able to overcome them well. Jupiter in libra also suggests victory in legal matters. 

7th lord mars in 2nd house suggest that your partner may be financially well off. It’s also possible that they are quite spontaneous and curious person. They could also be someone who loves to hold onto family traditions (you could feel the same way as well).

With 9th and 10th lord Saturn in 3rd, it’s very much possible that you were indecisive about which career path to choose, or what field to select when it comes to higher studies. 

These are few things that I could analyze from ur chart, I hope you found it useful🌸💗

Feel free to leave a feedback and let me know how accurate the reading was!

[nightshadefairy]

TRIGGER WARNING: S*xual Abuse / Abuse in general

i am literally shaking right now. i just burst into tears after seeing this ad pop up on my facebook. for years i was sent to various mental hospitals against my will and i've had some terrifying experiences at a couple, but staying at Arbour Hospital in Boston, Massachusetts was by far 1 of the scariest, most traumatic experiences of my life.

When i try to tell anyone what it was like there the only way i can even begin to describe it is that it was LITERALLY like how mental asylums in horror films are. not even exaggerating.

i was sent there as a minor and after i had just turned 18. the things that happened to me (again, COMPLETELY AGAINST MY WILL) were so heinous and terrifying that it has left a lasting fear in me to the point where i can't even step foot in a hospital anymore without having a panic attack.

I've tried to speak up and tell ppl what i went through there, even without going into much detail and nobody ever believed me. nobody ever believed me when i said i actually had to hop the fence of this place just to escape because the "doctor" there was threatening to commit me there. if i hadn't ran from this place i might still be there. i could have died there. there have been cases of suspicious deaths there at the hands of the staff working there. and i've seen how they treat patients firsthand so i definitely believe it was foul play whenever i read those reports.

i just can't believe i woke up this morning and found a video that finally validated everything i've been trying to tell ppl for YEARS & finally validated the trauma i went through for years and still have issues dealing with to this very day at 27 years old.

it hurts me to know that other ppl likely went through the same exact things these ppl did to me, but at LEAST i can maybe finally actually do something about it. doctors are powerful ppl and i never sought help from the police because

1. as soon as i ran away from the mental hospital they put a warrant out for my arrest because u can't leave until a doctor allows you to.

& 2. who would the police believe? an actual doctor or an escaped mental patient? the odds definitely would not have been in my favor.

-especially because i was also withdrawing from heroin when they first brought me in. the police are the ones who brought me to the regular hospital to be sectioned and then i was sent to Arbour because i was resisting.

For years i have kept my mouth shut. and the few times ive actually spoken about this, i was made fun of or called a liar or an attention seeker. and that was the reaction i got from only telling ppl in a general sense.

to this day i've never gone into detail about everything i went through at that hell hole. even my own boyfriend who i've been with for over a decade doesn't know the full story, because its so damn hard to talk about. i have spent so long trying to suppress those bad memories and try ro forget about it so it wouldn't ruin my mind anymore than it already has.

but thats not how trauma works. ignoring it doesn't make it go away. after seeing this video i immediately submitted a form to try to see if i can file a lawsuit. and even if for some reason i don't get compensation, i still feel better knowing that there is now proof of their malicious treatment.

i've spoken about telling my story so many times throughout the last few years but i could never gain the courage to. for years i've been so scared to open up about it. but seeing this video made me feel a little less afraid and a lot less alone.

so maybe, just maybe i will finally be able to release all of this pain i've been carrying silently for half my life. if i do decide to write about my story about what happened to me at Arbour, i will definitely link it here for anyone who cares or just to raise awareness. nobody should ever be traumatized and abused, especially at a place that is supposed to be helping people. mentally ill people are already vulnerable when they are at a mental hospital, and the fact that ppl took advantage of that is beyond disgusting. and even if it takes me a while to find the courage to share my experience, i promise i won't stay quiet about it forever.

[polyamorousmood]

hi! i'd love to get some sympathy/advice/etc from other ppl about this. so long story short my girlfriend (wonderful amazing great i am so happy with her) has a boyfriend, and i at first their rs was meant to be ephemeral, but then things changed and they realized they could make a longform commitment work out, so they tried! problem is, during the trial run, the guy realized poly wasnt working for him and he failed to communicate this well, so it caused a situation where he was very much just fishing for my partner to get in a closed rs with him. when she expressed how hurtful and wrong that was, he apologized and changed his behavior and after some more various ups and downs we've now settled into a pretty good situation where he's giving polyamory a serious try and seems sincerely committed to making it good! i trust my gf wholeheartedly and i want nothing but the best for them both, and for that brief period of time where it was ok we even had 3person dates and really special interactions, so i came to sincerely like guy a decent bit and i am cautiously but sincerely optimistic. however, by having to admit shit to himself, he's now of the mind that he'd like a much more segmented-off rs with my partner, which is fine, but also the resentment he felt towards not being able to have my gf all to himself made him lose his positive feelings towards me and now he expresses a (his words) 'goodwilled indifference' and we havent even Talked since he tried to effectively ultimatum my gf out of being poly. and that is just SO hurtful when i know i did absolutely nothing wrong to warrant the loss of what i felt was a genuinely precious and positive connection, and like, the first time ive had the chance to have a metamour! like as someone who really cares about learning how to admit fault i really cannot stress enough how much i didnt do jack shit here i was just vibing and trying to be nice and now it's just this sad thing i have to deal with. i know it has everything to do with his own preferences and insecurities and nothing to do with me, but i still feel a big child-like sense of betrayal and injustice and it makes me want to be mean and bitter and defensive ("well if you dont give a shit about me and wanna pretend i don't exist, then im gonna do the same! how do you like that, huh?" type beat). i know those feelings are to be worked with and worked through instead of acted upon, but it's still hard :-( i dont really miss *him*, really, i just miss not being in a polycule that has a member who struggles so much with polyamory. and though i trust her deeply, i am still sad and worried that this is a precarious situation that can end up hurting my partner and hampering her ability to feel free and happy in polyamory, which only adds to my mistrusting of the guy. anyone else in a similar situation, havin' to work with a poly-newbie metamour or something similar? im not crazy for getting bad vibes, despite my best hopes for them? thank you either way, i dont know enough poly people irl and ive been bursting with this shit for a bit so it helps even to just ramble it out

Yeah, I've been in similar places. Just putting the read more immediately because I don't have a good pithy introduction. But uh, TL;DRI guess? 🤷‍♀️: its totally fair for you to struggle with some negative feelings. But you are still in it together (even if he's pretending you don't exist) and the only way to the other side is through.

Its shitty, its exhausting, its infuriating. And it's all the more frustrating that you like... don't even WANT to be mad at him cause he DID apologize and now he IS trying to change the shitty parts, so you WANT to encourage that. Feels very

And it puts your mutual partner in the tough spot of having to balance⚖️ things between you two if he's unwilling to talk to you. And like, you're stuck waiting for him to come around, you can't even really DO anything, its all on HIM to prove he's not going to be an asshole forever.

And you kinda resent him for causing this much trouble basically all on his own! And then thinking he can still get all the good shit after stirring the pot! Like he tried to break you up and now you have to be the bigger person?? What kinda bullshit--

Fucking. Sucks.

I do have some advice, though as with most things, its not magic 🪄

🤬Be mad for a little bit! Allow yourself to feel it. You're not gonna wallow 🐖there, but let it hit you full force how much you dislike being in this bullshit situation. Maybe have a cry about it or throw some darts at his picture 🎯. Then, and only then,

Set it aside. Set the anger aside in your mind, set the situation aside in your discussions. Say "yup, sucks. Moving on..." and enjoy the good parts of your life.

As part of that, remember polyamory is a big ask for people who've never done it before. Him even just politely ignoring you is likely, in his mind, him compromising on everything he's believed in for years and the fundamentals of what his life will look like. That's a big deal. It's hard to do after there was previously a higher standard set, but try to give him some credit for that anyway. (Again. You are probably going to have to Be Mad first to be able to do this. That's okay. Don't skip ahead.)

I don't think having approximately the same attitude back is necessarily a bad strategy. Maybe don't do it with the petulance you presented in the ask 😝 but if you're able to just gently, non-judgmentally accept neutrality as a mode of operating with him... might save you a lot of trouble honestly🤷. Warmth is great and all, but I think it runs the risk of you burning out and feeling greater resentment down the line if it stays one sided (but you know yourself better than I do, so if you can handle it, power to you).

Know your feelings about this really well. Know what you're good with 👍, know what bothers you but you're willing to do for the good of the polycule😖, and know what really upsets you👎. Is this something you can make work long term? What changes would you need to have it work long term (including progress from him, accommodations from your partner, etc)?

Consider confronting him directly. You'll know better if that's actually a good idea in this situation than I will, but consider it. It may help you move past things to air your feelings, it may help him understand you better and vice versa, and it may lay the groundwork for a more functional relationship down the line. I must admit bias here. It is VERY important to me that things can be relaxed with my metas. The idea of refusing to engage with me feels like they're refusing to engage with the very concept of polyamory, and I that cannot work in my life - like, I run a poly blog you can guess how I value polyamory 😂 If you can be comfortable with something closer to parallel polyamory, this may be unnecessary.

And of course, through all of this, you have to talk to your partner. All of it. If you have a tendency to martyr yourself so as not to stress your partner out, overpower that tendency for this one. You are NOT doing your partner any favors by doing bottling it up. 🍾

For example, earlier I said your partner is going to have to balance things between you and your meta. It may be tempting to think you can spare her some of that by shrinking your feelings and needs, so maybe you'll just bite your tongue. However, she has to do the work anyway, and forcing her to work with incomplete information actually makes the balancing that much harder. While you shouldn't harp on them about it, she should know where you're at in all this. You owe your partner the ability to make informed decisions, and your happiness and ability to sustain a certain set-up is going to be an important factor to them! Tell them your misgivings, tell them if its going to take you some time to forgive him his bullshit, tell them if you are okay with something in the short term but don't know if you can spring it long term, tell them if you need a break from thinking about the whole damn situation. (And of course, as always, tell your partner when something feels good or is going well 😊)

It can be recovered. It will require patience. Hang in there. 🤗 I admire your commitment to figuring it out, and it sounds like you have a splendid partner who is just as committed to making it workable. I'm rooting for you all 💙💖🖤

[weaverpop]

lil heads up i have some agnst to offer

so we know Mk is gonna be struggling with his decision at the pillar in S5, the idea that he might of made the wrong choice after all. its def gonna be a dark thought in his mind. also still struggling with his monkie form as at this point it's still associated with the whole "harbinger of chaos" thing and thus is seen as a bad thing currently in his eyes. not to mention a blow to his self identity. the therapy helps but he's still struggling with those thoughts,and his monkey body, still not really touching on them. and then the nightmares start. he dreams of what might of happened had he not been able to get the stones to work, he dreams of what bad things might happen in the future now that the mortal realm has been altered. what it was the nine-headed demon was trying to warn him about, and the chaos. sometimes even he dreams about how everyone might of had better lives in the new cycle. how Nezha and his family couldn't have been happier from the start. some are so bad they even cause panic attacks on occasion

this leads to one night when Nezha's spending the night and is woken up to the sound of glass breaking, and MK isn't in bed with him. he finds him huddled in a tight ball, hyperventilating on the bathroom floor body flashing between human and monkey, one had cut up to hell from punching the mirror which is completely smashed. seeing nezha he just starts rambling off apologies, for fucking up the world, for dooming them, for stealing a chance for a happier timeline. he's convinced himself he's being punished and the dreams are visions because of how detailed and vivid they are. which honestly I wouldn't put it past that, we don't know what happened to Nuwa and many ppl think she'd try to convince or force MK back to the pillar somehow. but it's just as if not more likely MK's long term built-up trauma, feelings of guilt, and paranoia, projecting themselves as really lucid nightmares.

Tw for heavy angst and senstitove topics!

Oof, why you gotta do my heart like that anon?!

You’ve basically got mk down pat! Poor boy been through so much 😭it’s already canon he has nightmares, so it would make sense that they would escalate after the whole self sacrifice thing.

I also love the visual of Nezha finding mk in that state, switching beteeen forms. I feel like after s5 mk would be spending more time in monkey form and less time in human. To the point where ‘human’ becomes more of a glamor. So for Nezha to see him flickering like that is a huge statement to MK’s mental state! He’s struggling and struggling HARD. The others don’t really understand because they’ve never been in that situation where it was either them personally, or the WORLD. But you know who has?

Nezha.

Nezha has done that before in a similar copasity. He’s had to sacrifice himself to save the ones he loves. To know what it’s like to be destined for tragedy. But he came out the other end.

It’s Nezha, the formerly proclaimed demon child, bringer of terrible luck, lotus prince, who is able to see mk for what he needs. The others love Mk, they tell him so, but they don’t understand the way Nezha does.

Nezha helps to comfort mk. He doesn’t tell mk it was wrong. He doesn’t tell him it’s ok. Nezha simply tells him that he’s there for Mk. He tells Mk that everyone is alive, that he made the right choice in the end, and that he couldn’t be happier with the outcome.

It’s not easy. It’s not a one and done deal. But it starts the healing process.

This is one of the main reasons I ship lotusnoodle. Because the parallels are amazing, and I could absolutely see Nezha doing this even platonically. So yea.

Also jail for anon for making me feel things!

[malleusthehammer]

Humanity and Gods playing baseball!

Tee hee i got this in a dream :3 anyways this is just gonna be a silly little thing with my more favorited Gods/Humans just cuz :3 Hope u enjoy!! (i’m sorry if some of these r ooc -~-‘) Also it’s divided by yk humanity vs gods so yeah. Also if you enjoy this, my requests are open!!

Jack the Ripper

This gentleman is very hesitant going up to bat. I’m telling you. Bro is SHAKING in his boots but won’t say anything.

Def closes his eyes when he swings. like GGGGGSGSGGAGS

This mf IS FAST AS HELL THO.

Won’t Can’t slide for shit

More than likely right or left field. He’s fast and quick on his feet so he seems like a good outfielder.

Please tell him to keep his cap on. AND DONT LET HIM PUT IT BACKWARDS.. i love this man to death but he has A HUGE forehead (god bless ~<~)

Okay let’s say he doesn’t wanna play- he bat boy ong. He be getting those bats.

BEST TEAMMATE EVER

he is the best comforter when u get down on urself for striking out or missing a ball (me)

this dudes number is 18- idk why he just seems like an 18 guy

in other words this man has my heart.

Buddha

Mf chill as hell. Bro will be slacking but yet be an amazing player like HUH?!

Wears his cap backwards 100% so that like one strand of hair is out like always

Bro is always sneaking candy and the blue calls him out on it.

2nd or shortstop. Since he can see how the batter is gonna swing he can already predict where it’s gonna go so he’s like on his feet all the time

Bro hits the ball and just watches it before taking his time walking the bases (i mean technically you can do that)

He looks HELLA GOOD in a baseball uniform

mfs number is probably 69..

LAUGHS SO HARD when someone messes up

overall he’s just a hell of a good player like dayumn !!

Kojiro Sasaki

lowkey a good player

bros title is literally “Worlds biggest loser” So he swings at everything. I mean ik he’s can predict battles or whatever but i’d feel he’d have a harder time predicting pitches

He’s and old man. that kinda speaks for itself. so he kinda slow/pos

First base man. he’s tall- flexible and yeah- 1st base bro

HE STICKS HIS PONYTAIL THROUGH THE BACK OF HIS BASEBALL CAP ITS SO CUTE

THAT OR HE BRAIDS HIS HAIR OMGG

this man LOVES sunflower seeds like absolutely (who wouldn’t?! Buddha..)

slaps people on the back REALLY hard when telling them good job

Hates cleats. just hates them for no reason

Very confused on how to swing a bat but gets it in like 2 tries

THIS MAN CAN SLIIIIDDEEEE

if he isn’t playing 1st- he’s probably centerfield :3

DEADASS HE’LL LET YOU DO HIS EYEBLACKK!!

bros number is like in the 70s. more than likely 72 idk it just feels right lmao

sometimes wears his jersey open? like not buttoned >:3

I LOVE SASAKI SM HES AWHEHEGSFSG

Qin Shi Huang

Bro is the pitcher. nothin else.

still wears his blindfold on the mound obvi :3

BRO HAS AN ARM.

can slide decently

Hella fast like Jack.

Clean up batter? yk he be hittin it then just bringing all the ppl on base in

He’ll strike someone out then be like “Hao!!”

Slaps people on the back like Sasaki

my man is just and overall vibe so like mmhmm

The teams biggest cheer leader

I’m feeling like.. 59?

Dude he thinks he looks so good in the uniform and he does

sometimes since yk “The road is where i lead” he just starts walking around the bases randomly.

random as hell but he has like really sweaty hands

PLEASE PLEASE DO THIS MANS EYEBLACK. PLEASE.

just overall a silly little goose :3

Nikolai Tesla

THIS MAN IS GOING TO WALK UP TO TJE PLATE AND TRY AND EXPLAIN HOW THE FUCKING VELOCITY AND SPEED OF A BAT WORK.

totally not a sucky hitter..

3rd base- he’s quick quitted and 3rd doesn’t call for too much movement

his glove has those damn tesla coils n shit

bro spent ages like making his own glove and shit

THIS MAN. THIS MAN LOOKS SO FINE IN UNIFORM.

Jogs around the bases.

I’m feeling like.. 47 for his number

Dude will be pondering on second base when he’s running, thinking of anything BUT baseball at that time sooo

Dude would be AMAZED at pitches

someone would be like “SWING TESLA” and he just does the thing where he tuts them and shakes his finger and goes “No, non, nem, nein..”

He’s just.. a lot to handle.

Don’t ever take him to a baseball game. he’d get hella bored and just leave.

His hair is like- LUCIOUS in the sunlight

dude can not stay still in the dugout he’s always pacing

Yeaahh that’s it :3 i’ll probably do a Gods version later but my asks are open! so feel free to ask abouttt rn im mainly doing RoR but i’ll dip my toes into somethin new soon!!

[youremyheaven]

Hey Girl, tis is ethereal anon, also love your pfp Jennifer's Body my beloved🫶🏻🫶🏻

didi (yes I'm Indian HHAAHAHHA) I literally need your advice I'm going through my saturn mahadasha currently, started around 2022 and my entire life before was Jupiter Mahadasha and I had the worst time ever BUT I feel like I'm so much better now (thinking of it I changed myself and my entire life before my saturn mahadasha began subconsciously this is insane)

im PMSing and feeling hella angsty + eclipse szn blues and thats why i put that angsty Jennifer's Body pfp. that scene makes me cry everytime bc i relate to that feeling so much (as im sure most women do). to feel so broken and empty but still go out into the world with your "game face" on.

Saturn mahadasha lasts for 18 years so my advice is for you to stay consistent, disciplined and focused.

Saturn will TEST you and Saturn will be harsh but its for the best. some people will reach the lowest of lows and never climb up during this dasha but thats only those who refuse to learn the lessons of Saturn.

be patient. get used to moving at a slow and steady pace. WORK HARD. its going to feel like everything is 100x harder for you than others but honestly youre just in your Saturn MD , dont take it personally but good thing about going thru your Sat dasha when youre younger is that you get to unload a lot of karmic burdens and do all the dirty work when youre young and have the time and energy to do so. imagine going thru this when you're middle aged or in your old age??? GIRLLL?? to suffer when you're old is THE WORST. so consider yourself blessed to go thru this dasha in your 20s!!!

everything can feel like its falling apart but i promise u, if u are a person of virtue, youll emerge victorious.

saturn is about being strict!!! that means not being petty, malicious, evil, snarky, bitchy, lazy, backbiting, ruthless, partial etc

be punctual. be focused. DO THE WORK. do something everyday that gets u closer to ur goals. DO NOT BE IDLE. SATURN HATES IDLE PPL. DONT WASTE TIME. THAT PISSES OFF SATURN!!!

saturn is literally work hard, wait for a while and then play hard. BE PATIENTTT.

[diivineray]

♥ What's the WORST thing that has happened to you rp wise? (Pooki im spamming you sorry im on my phone)

the salty af munday meme | accepting

*readers be warned*

listen, hell hath no fury for the woman you scorned.

I've been around a while, but tumblr is a shit storm of mentally ill people who lack the maturity to be carry the relationships they desperately want with people. Something about me attracts a certain kind of person, someone who lacks a lot of self-love and needs a lot of attention and reassurance. I accept the role I take when I cater to those emotions until it literally starts to drain me. My lack of boundaries definitely played a part in this, and I acknowledge it because, one thing about me is I will take accountability for the mistakes I make. I believe it helps me to learn and do better.

I care very deeply for the people I become friends with, honesty, loyalty all mean something very deeply to me, so when people I am beyond good to take my kindness, take my heart and make it into a joke, embarrass the fuck outta me? I'm less nice about the way I receive it.

I had a friend, who unfortunately I met within the danmei community, and ppl know who they are. Call it shit talking if you want, but recalling facts about a situation is just that, facts. if you don't want ppl looking at you differently, don't be shitty. regardless, despite the flaws, they did mean something to me. we talked everyday, watched movies, played games, wrote so much together. they had become a part of my life, but I was going through a lot in my personal life, i didn't always have the energy to write. for them, writing, rping was their only outlet, it was how they determined the meaning of the friendship, and that is just not how I measure friendship. the pressure of feeling like I gotta always be up for or down for plots and stuff when depression was gripping me, was hard to do some days. I was in therapy, I was working on myself, and I continue to do so. But i recently got back into the twst fandom at the time, because despite how shitty that fandom is, i really love writing leona.

I was happy getting back into the swing of writing that muse again. and while they will deny it, they asked me to introduce the game to them, because they wanted to be close to me. and yes I got receipts. to me? that always makes my heart go doki doki !! like I love when people put effort to get into the things I love and enjoy the same way I will for them. Going back into this fandom was risky, and I knew that, cuz my ex is in this fandom and she got her own issues. we broke up years ago, but they always see me as toxic for falling out of love with them. and it wasnt like i was uninterested, I still cared for them deeply, but love just wasn't there anymore. and yeah i know it sucks. i gave them the time they needed, friendship was always on the table if they were ready for it. they never were. and evntually drama hit the fandom with ppl claiming they were stealing each others headcanons and it became a whole thing, callout posts were written, threats were made, they doxxed this person. and they were saying about pressing charges because it caused as lot of drama and stress and suicide attempts.

I hate bullies. I hate people who think that no one can have the dame thought as them, who think their portrayal is the one true one. when it comes to disrespecting people over petty ass shit, i'm gonna look at you funny. and I didnt like that attitude people were giving off. the other person wasnt the greatest, but situation was so absolutely crazy and my ex had the attitude of like 'well they arent mean to me so i dont think its that bad' and I knew right then and there that I did not want to associated with those kind of people. i dont care about writing that much that I would ignore my moral views and enable assholes here on the internet for ships. its just not who I am. and to this day i see those same people around posing like nice people when there's never been apology or any kind of remorse for bullying someone to want to take their own life.

time just passes and people think they can just forget about it and move on. NAY. for me it is that deep. SO , with that said, I told this friend of mien I was inviting into this fandom space, all of these deets. they agreed with me, how crazy it was ppl were acting like that. crazy how my ex seemed to support and enable it as well. i told them if they wanted to interact with them, they could. all I asked from them, was for them to tell me so I could blacklist or whatever, do I don't gotta see it. I am not gonna tell ppl who they can and cant write with.

Days were passing, we were growing farther and farther apart. despite several long conversations about how we both felt, how we were trying to mend things, how to work on it. up until this point, my ex wasn't even a subject until i got randomly blocked. removed from discord, they left our private server and i started to see them both being all buddy buddy. which struck me as WEIRD cuz huh ? naturally this upset me, and it felt like a big fucking ass betrayal so I confronted both of them privately cuz i wasn't about to just let that happen without answers. my ex friend just tucked their tail between their legs. denied everything, acted like i was yelling at them when yes I was being upset, but assertive and yelling are two different things, but hey, the victim is what they know how to be so whatever. my ex on the other hand, was gaslighting me, trying to make it sound like I was making it sound like a big deal. acting like i was just making it up in my head that it was just a coincidence that my friend randomly ditches me and is suddenly SO close to you. Me and this friend wrote wangxian together too, like I paid for custom made themes for both of us, and then I see them being like this is my wwx and this my lwj lmao okay. and it gets better, cuz I learn from a friend who has been burned by them before, that this isnt the first time they've done this to someone.

always shipping wangxian with that one person, until something happens and then they are moving onto the next one selling a sob story to the new person about how that person just abandoned them. their stories arent for mine to tell, but it was eye opening listening to how this person played me for a fool. and i wouldnt be as mad if it was a random mutual. it was my ex gf who they knew i had history with. it just felt so deliberate. and so they are also dating now. and it fucked me up for months. i was lied to, I was embarrassed that I spent so many hours crying over this person who now paints me as an abusive person because thats how everyone person before them is painted. like when they told me the danmei fandom hated them, at the time i was like FUCK THEM THEN, they dont deserve you. but now??? bitch , I know why they dont fuck with you now. there's so much more in terms of how they made me feel special but really its just rehashed shit they told ppl before me. and its very much why i am so selective, so picky about who i let in my space, because, people really don't give a shit about you sometimes. people who only can think about rp are ppl i stay away from. cuz yall need help. you need to find other hobbies, you need to touch some motherfucking grass. learn how to keep a job. something productive. cuz i refuse to ever let myself be in that position again. and fuck them both seriously <3

[coff-in]

I feel like whenever I’m having a bad day (or in this case, few months), I see other people have bad days too. It’s crazy how the world works and we all unite together to have either crappy or happy moments; it’s kind of wholesome that we all are brought together through our experiences and can share those vulnerabilities. It makes me feel a little better knowing I’m not isolated or alone, and that I’m not the only person with problems or struggling to get by.

I saw your last post, you said to ask about pressure, so I’m asking: How do you deal with pressure?

This is what I do when I feel stressed (maybe you’ll find some relief in this too): It’s a rule for me to always cry when something goes wrong, because crying released happy chemicals!

If I’m still bothered, I sleep for a few hours, take a Power Nap or just sleep and see if it still bothers me. If it still bothers me, I eat strawberry mochi. I also like coloring in those coloring books with flowers and a inspiring quote, it makes me feel better. When I’m sad, I always put on some Lo-fi or old love songs.

I always try reading Andrew Graves x reader content—or, at least what I haven’t seen. It’s a small fan base for separate Andrew Graves content. It’s how I discovered you a few months ago too! I enjoy looking for your work on my dashboard and I’m excited to see what you do next.

I hope thing’s get better for you, Coff-in! Never be ashamed or feel guilty about your own feelings or mental health. Don’t worry about time or rushing things, rushed work is never good work. Always remember to take breaks and worry about yourself; it’s your life after all. From one human being to another, take care of yourself. 💜⭐️

hi stellar :D when i asked ppl to send me questions about pressure, i meant the roblox game pressure ^^; this is ok tho!! no harm no fowl! (or is it foul? fowl is a bird, huh)

when i get stressed i usually get take a nap, maybe eat something, or watch youtube to distract myself. crying sounds really nice but i can't cry easily, sadly :( i also just try to draw! i like drawing and i find it easy to just pick up a pencil and doodle something :3 i also do it when i'm bored

its a tad bit hard for me to realize that "oh this blog is my blog, i can do with it what i want". or maybe i do realize that but still feel like i can't do certain things. hm. hm hm hm. so neat, such whimsy :3 i also relate to you seeking out andrew graves x reader content, but recently for me i've been searching out sebastian solace x reader fics. idk if people know this but im mostly a selfshipper, so seeing the whole zerum drama happen in that fandom is like... idk kinda silly to me. tldr: people were mad that the co-creator of the game (zerum) shipped her oc (zerum) with the shopkeeper sebastian. there's obviously more to it than that, but it reminded me when i was younger and i made a boyfriend oc for my persona (who i also sometimes wrote/referred to him as her brother... huh)

i'm going to be busy with work again, so hopefully i'll be able to write more since i usually start writing when i'm trying to avoid work or just to get away from it ^^; i hope that you're still doing well despite these hard months! i think it's a bit too easy for some to cur inward and isolate themselves from others. it was kinda nice being away from my coff-in blog. i do not say this as in 'i want to leave', but it was nice to just... idk feel like i didn't have to write? or take my time. i felt kinda bad tho, like there was a lingering thought in my head that i was deceiving you all. i was still able to write, so why wasn't i writing? stuff like that i guess

thank you for sending your ask, please take care of yourself!! <3

[arom-antix]

feel free to publish this...wish I was braver but *shrugs* first lemme give you n everyone else brave enough to not hide under anon (like me, lmao) ur flowers for speaking up b/c this drama feels like a long time coming 

one of the weirdest parts of Samurai's deal is how she acts against her own interests. at the end of the day, ur main goal is to get ppl to read this 300K fic that youve spent years on, right? 

which, fair. no issue with that

heres what I do have an issue with, Samurai: you acting like no one in the fandom respects ur writing talent when ur stats tell a different story. (notice i said respects ur writing talent. not respects ur social media presence...more on that later)

anyway, Samurai: be so fucking forreal right now

calling urself "an underdog"?! (if anybody doesnt know what im talking about, @arom-antix screenshotted a post from Samurai's social media where she says she doesnt wanna do fandom events b/c she would just get ignored) 

do you really have the right to call urself an underdog when you have 600+ kudos n 1000+ comments on ur fanfic??? I have friends in newer n bigger fandoms who are multichap fic writers who would commit murder for those numbers. n let me add that their fics have been complete for a minute. unlike Samurai's fic which she completed *checks notes* this past fucking weekend 

the funny part is its giving Katsuki Yuuri thinking hes lower than dirt even when hes made it to the gpf/is japans best figure skater. that screenshot you included where she's like "my stats are nothing to be proud of..."

like ???? 

does she not realize how fucking insulting that is to allllll the fic writers who have nowhere near the numbers she does? im not a writer but if i was n saw that itd make me feel like shit. like a minami kenjirou 'you dont have a dark past' kind of thing lmao. n to that point, its like you said earlier. its fine to have anxiety n to not be perfect in dealing with it. but when you dont sort that shit out with a therapist n instead make ur insecurity an entire fandoms problem over n over again is it really that big a fucking puzzle why ur losing readers? or why nobody wants to reblog ur shit?  

if shes really that clueless n cant see how ppl might be turned off by her personality (the reverse from before: im not saying shit about her actual writing here which i think is pretty decent) it makes me wonder, like...

why did her beta reader never sit her down? why didn't her friend @cecebeanie ever tell her "stop being a dick on social media ur ruining everything ur working so hard for?" or, maybe they did n she told them to fuck off because she seems to think she knows everything. 

ok, imma stop there before i really go off lmao. thank you again for being a go-between for ppl too scared to chime in by name. appreciate youuuuuu <3

Thank you very much for this ask. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with not feeling comfortable with publically including yourself in Internet scuffles by name. I'm glad to be the middle man so people like you get to have an anonymous platform to speak through.

And yeah, a bunch of what you've said is exactly what my point was with pointing out Samurai's simultaneous lament of her "bad" stats and dismissal of any explanation of why their stats might look like that. Also, let me reiterate: There is absolutely nothing wrong with feeling insecure or demotivated by something that someone else might find incredibly motivating. We're all different and have different PoVs. However, there's a difference between feeling insecure and dealing with it privately and feeling insecure and then making that everyone else's problem by vagueposting and getting upset with the people supporting you for not being enough. I'm not saying you can't post whatever you want on your socials but if you do you also have to accept that people might find that off-putting. That's just how it is. Especially if those posts imply, whether on purpose or not, that any support you might still have doesn't count because it's not what you were hoping for.

And there's a good point in this ask that I want to highlight: The implication in a lot of Samurai's posts that they're not respected leaves a sour taste in the mouths of those who read those posts. Contrary to what Samurai's way of posting would have you believe, they have plenty of readers who very much do respect their writing. And if you respect someone and then that someone repeatedly publically laments how no one respects them, you're going to feel disrespected and ignored, the exact things Samurai is so upset about being (see links at the bottom of this post to find the full discussions of Samurai's online attitude). It's quite ironic, if I'm honest. It's basically a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you constantly insist that no one cares about you, eventually you'll convince the people who do care about you that maybe they shouldn't because you only bring negative attitudes and no one wants that.

And so, you're now in exactly the situation you feared so much specifically because you couldn't let yourself or the people around you exist without that frustration of yours being at the forefront of every conversation. Trust me, I'm heavily medicated for anxiety, I know how easy it is to fall into a cycle of only thinking about your fears. But if you want to escape them, you either have to contront them head on or learn to live in spite of them. If you only ever focus on how much they're dominating your life, they'll just consume you and ruin you.

I know I've been pretty harsh in my posts about this situation but if you're reading this, Samurai, know that I don't want you to suffer. I don't want you to leave the Internet or stop doing the things you love. I know you love writing, I can tell it's a big passion of yours and I know you love YOI. I encourage you to keep engaging with your passions and finding joy in whatever you love. However, you also need to let others do the same. Even if their "non-academic" posts lessen your enjoyment of what the ideal fandom experience would be, too bad. You don't get to decide how others engage with fandom. The only thing you get to decide is how you engage. If other people's posts annoy you, you're not required to look at them. Of course it sucks if there are very few people and posts you enjoy when you'd rather have a litany of stuff to engage with but that's just how being on the Internet is. You don't get to control these things. Be the change you want to see in the world but don't look down at others for not sharing those same goals of change. You do you, they'll do them.

Just because you prefer your way of doing fandom doesn't make it better than anyone else's and either you recognise that and get over yourself or people won't want to interact with you. End of. That's just how it is. People don't like interacting with people who make them feel lesser and the way you're interacting with the fandom at the moment is very much making people feel like that. I know, I know, you don't intend for that to be the takeaway, but it is. That's how you come across. And if you don't know how to not come across that way, you're allowed to ask.

I know you have friends such as Cecebeanie who you can talk to about this. I know you probably don't want to talk to me but if it comes down to it, I don't hate you and would love to help you if you'd let me. Again, I would not be shocked if you don't want anything to do with me ever again. I am kinda repeatedly coming after you. I wouldn't want to talk to me even if I agreed with the criticism. But if it ever becomes relevant, I do not hate you and while I have my hang-ups about you, I don't need to be BFFs with someone just to talk to them. You're not an idiot. You're not stupid. I know you're not. But you're behaving really immaturely and irresponsibly, both generally and towards individuals. That does not make you a lost cause.

While I don't have high hopes that you'll actually take any of my criticism to heart, if you decide to give a redemption a try, I'd gladly help if you'd let me. I don't want to crucify you. I just want you to do better for the sake of everyone, including yourself.

That became longer than intended. Anyway, thanks again for the ask, anon. For anyone else who has something they want to say, my ask box is always open, regardless of whether you agree with me or not. I don't cherrypick who gets to voice their opinion in a public debate. I'll be answering every ask regardless. And choosing to be anonymous, regardless of what stance you take, is also nothing to be ashamed of. I totally get it if you want to voice an opinion or comment on this situation but don't want to be publically tied to it. That's totally fine. It is kind of a lot. Especially considering how many have mentioned being afraid of retaliation from Samurai, I don't mind being the middle man at all. Ask away with whatever you want to add to this discussion.

Thank you for the ask, anon.

Links to the two main threads this discussion is running through: Thread one Thread two

[destinyc1020]

I think a lot of people were put off by the way Austin/his team did a lot with the Elvis promo. Bt every yr there seems to b a white male actor who is method (to an extent) and ppl talk about it, so he was just that man lol as a non fan i culdnt even finish Elvis bt thought he was great in Dune 2 n ive heard good things about him in MOA (again, from non fans). In the end he seems to b doing well

I also think its cool that a lot of these popular young actors (austin, flo, Z, etc) are non nepo babies. Nothing against TALENTED nepo babies who acknowledge their priviledge (which seems to b kinda rare for some of the younger ones for some reason ☠️) bt its cool to see younger ppl, who have little to no hollywood connections, achieve their dreams from the ground up. Really shows that hard work can pay off

I don't think he did anything wrong with Elvis press? As we've seen, WB promotes the heck out of their films lol, and "Elvis" was their one main ticket to the Oscar/awards season race. So, Austin was basically just doing what the studios wanted him to do, which is promote his/their film? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Granted, maybe he didn't realize at the time that he could have probably not accepted certain talk show interviews? I think he thought he had to accept everything maybe? 😕 I know ppl can find it annoying when it seems like an actor is "everywhere", but I think WB was basically working him like a Hebrew slave on that Elvis press tour.... AND awards season.

Like, I think ppl forget that Austin had never been through a huge press tour like that before in his life. He's still very new to this level of fame.

Maybe he made a few mistakes and was a little TOO honest about how he prepped for the role lol. 😅 Even he's admitted that he probably got a little too into the role (and tbh, it probably cost him his rlshp in the process 👀), but I think he's learned from that experience and from his mistakes?

I just think he has the tendency to suffer from anxiety and felt enormous pressure.... So, him being a perfectionist, he probably did all he could to not let ppl down. 🥺

I also think its cool that a lot of these popular young actors (austin, flo, Z, etc) are non nepo babies. Nothing against TALENTED nepo babies who acknowledge their priviledge (which seems to b kinda rare for some of the younger ones for some reason ☠️) bt its cool to see younger ppl, who have little to no hollywood connections, achieve their dreams from the ground up. Really shows that hard work can pay off

I agree Anon! 👍🏾😊

I love seeing "the underdog" come up from the ground up and achieve their dreams. 🥰

Nothing against NepoBabies (Hollywood is full of them lol), but like you said, it's just nice to see actors who didn't come from wealth or major connections new able to start from the ground up, and grind their way up the Hollywood ladder through hard work and determination. 😊

I always have more of a soft spot for those types of actors because I know it was probably harder for them, and they had to really work and prove themselves.

[calicofurball3]

Heyy I hope you're doing good!! 🥰💗

I saw your post about the free reading and I wanted to participate so, here's my sidereal chart and the nakshatras

I hope I cause you no trouble 💕

Hey there, I’m good, hope you’re doing good as well !🌷🍰 It’s no trouble at all and tysm for participating, here’s your reading!

(Do note that asteroids, Pluto, Uranus and Neptune aren’t considered in sidereal astrology, so I wouldn’t be considering those aspects!)

Cancer ascendant gives you a more softer, rounder facial features, such as big doe eyes. You may also be on the curvier side as well since the ascendant is in the sign of Pushya. You could give off a more mature, nurturing, motherly vibe.

People may even mistake you’re age often. Saturn conjunct the 1st house may tend to make you quite critical when it comes to ur own appearance. You may feel like you lack something or could be quite harsh on urself at times. If not this, it’s also possible that you may have faced body shaming or hurtful remarks on ur appearance. Just know that ur beautiful eitherways and don’t pay heed to them if this has ever happened😊💗

2nd lord sun in 9th suggest that you may have invested a lot in ur education. Wealth could be built through travel, education and spirituality. Sun in Pisces suggest that ur quite a creative and spiritual person. It’s likely that you love to explore different religious beliefs and culture  as well. 

With this placement, its possible that your father is a very religious person. You may be quite curious regarding taboo topics like death, reincarnation of the soul, life after death and so on. 

With sun conjunct Rahu, you may have a clear vision as to what you’re purpose in life is. You love travel and exploring different cultures. You may dream of traveling to different places often. 

Ketu in Virgo could make you quite smart. You may not be a big fan of routines in ur life. It’s very much possible that you have felt like your thoughts and opinions go unheard whenever you try to put them out there. Communication could be something daunting to you, since you may have had bad experiences relating to that aspect. You could be a single child too. 

This is a great placement for someone who’s into writing, especially formal writings like research papers. You could be someone who’s a perfectionist, it’s hard for you to be completely satisfied despite the amount of hard work you’ve put into something. 

Since Ketu is in the hasta nakshatra, you could be quite good at skills that involve using ur hand a lot, such and writing, cooking, drawing, painting, sewing etc.

3rd lord mercury in 8th suggest that ur thoughts are hidden or concealed.  Since it’s in the sign of Aquarius, it’s also possible that you’ve had unconventional ideas those were termed as ‘weird’ that you’ve restricted yourself from expressing them out often. You keep secrets pretty well. 

This might be an odd observation but you could have a wide vocal range and do voice modulations pretty well. Mercury in purva badrapada nakshatra signifies that you have a talent to dig deep and analyze things. You could do well mathematical, IT, data science, data analytics related fields. Um you may also have a tendency to lowkey stalk ppl online and could be quite good at it as well with this placement😭 (not in a bad way ofc- u just get curious)

Mercury being the 12th house lord placed in the 8th could very well give you a disorganized sleeping pattern. You could be someone who loves to binge sleep. You may also frequently have thoughts that keep you awake at night, making u restless and anxious. You may have experienced prophetic dreams or paranormal activities. 

4th house lord Venus in the 8th house suggests that you could’ve experienced a lot of transformative incidents at home. It’s also possible that your family could have a lot of wealth, especially from mom’s side that may get passed onto u as inheritance. It’s possible that you’re family may be the kind that doesn’t really plan but live in the moment perhaps? Like one fine day your mom or dad mightve been like ‘yep let’s go to Maldives today!’ sorta thing😭

With Venus also being the 11th house lord in 8th, you may have experienced lots of ups and downs in ur friendships. It’s possible that you’ve had hurtful experiences with them, or had a lot of broken friendships that may have scarred you. Mars in the 11th house could also strongly suggest this, since mars also rules over aggression, fights and conflicts. 

Venus in the sign of danishta could make you a creative person. You may also be good at signing, or play an instrument perhaps. If not, you may dream to do the same. You might’ve wanted to be social media famous at some point in ur life as well.

5th lord mars in the 11th house indicate that you could have a lot of creative hobbies/talents and you also put a lot of efforts into improving them. You may have tried expressing any of these talents online as well. I also strongly feel that you may be into dancing or cooking with mars being in the sign of Taurus. You’re quite passionate individual as well when it comes to these hobbies.

Mars also being the 10th house lord suggest that you may have tried making a career out of these talents. It’s also possible that ur quite interested in sports and physical activities, especially group ones such as football, basketball, group dance or so.

 You could also earn quite well from ur career. Financial stability and material comfort is something that motivates you to work harder in ur career. 

You may also love exploring stuff online that lets you learn something or the other. For example you could’ve learnt skills like cooking, baking or such from online. Mars in the nakshatra of mrigshira could make you an adventurous and active person. You may love celebrations or gatherings with your friends too.

6th house lord Jupiter in 4th suggest that it’s possible that you or your family perhaps, could’ve experienced some sort of legal dispute in life (and won them as well). You or ur family may also have experienced ailments related to digestion, gastrointestinal issues, respiratory or the abdomen, if any.

Since it’s Jupiter placed in the 4th house, you could have a huge family, or perhaps have lived with ur joint family? It’s also possible that you could’ve had learnt a lot from your parents, especially relating to spirituality, religion and so. You could’ve grown up in a religious home as well. You may have a family business with Jupiter being in the nakshatra of Vishaka.

7th lord Saturn in the 1st house could mean that ur FS may be someone who’s mature and takes care of you. It’s also possible that they could have a similar personality or appearance to you. They could be a commited person who strongly values tradition and be a family oriented person. 

They MAY be somebody who restricts their emotions a lot tho. They could also love doing charity and donations to the poor and needy. With Capricorn in 7th, you could be someone who prefers a committed stable relationship over casual flings. You also are quite particular about choosing ur partner and may put a looot of thought and consideration into it.  

Since Saturn is also the 8th house lord here, there’s a chance that when people meet you for the first time, they may misunderstand you a lot. They could’ve had preconceived notions about you or it’s also possible that you give off a mysterious, secretive vibe to them. You may also be someone who’s faced a lot of adversities, but you definitly don’t show that you’ve been through a lot. It’s also possible that you’ve transformed your appearance a lot or have had glow ups. 

With 1st lord in the 10th house, ur identity could be tied to ur work or career. You are also somebody who cares a lot about the reputation you put forth in front of others and do your best to maintain it. 

Moon in the sign of Aries gives you a childish enthusiasm and vitality. It makes you quite adventurous and passionate about your career as well. Moon in the nakshatra of bharani, if you’re a woman, could mean that you give off babygurl vibes🎀💗(like imagine pink girly girl aesthetic)

This nakshatra also deals with sexuality, death and birth, so it’s also possible that people may find you hot or worst cases, you could’ve been sexualized often. 

Although it’s also possible that you could get riled up pretty easily, but you don’t seem to hold grudges for long. There are chances that people MIGHT see u as a hothead sometimes. You could also be a fast paced and competitive person. It’s also possible that your field of career involves lot of competition or requires you to be quite quick. Perhaps it’s a fast paced industry?

Since mars is the lord of  10th and placed in 11th as well, it’s possible that others or ur friends infact, may have seen you as a competition. 

Thats about it! I hope you found it useful💗🌸

Feel free to leave a feedback and let me know how accurate the reading was!

[beatcroc]

@midnightcityx0x0 I'm not reblogging that fuckmassive post AGAIN but this got too long for a reply so. On its own post now

Anyway i actually have so much trouble thinking of anything for gustavo ever lmao. Everything i have for him I've adopted from other people; rem [brickattack] as mentioned on the big post, and @synthlet/softersynths for a lot of other things. [and a couple others too but iirc synths was the one who started those ppl on it as well gfjdjds] which is to say, you'd probably get better/more interesting answers from those guys :p but yeah, fp and gus are pretty close. It's the general exposure/familiarity, the fact that fp is just a happy/pleasant and easy-to-like dude personality-wise, and for gus specifically there's also a level of "he shares a lot of traits with peppino, without peppino's Baggage™"

that last point is very very interesting but i dont know if i'd Actually get to doing a lot with it bc i typically make fake pep His Own Guy, with his similarities to peppino being almost sort of coincidental. i really really really like coming at peppino and fake pep from the "equals and opposites" angle, which like, that Can still apply for that last bit abt gus, but it's not something i've put a lot of thought into. it's also just fuckin hard to articulate outside of just showing it lmao. [i mentioned like, predator/prey animal nervousness + their reactions to fear vs aggression on the other post but to pull one for here: fake pep still has his own brand of Baggage to deal with too--different stuff than peppino's--but fp is way more open about it when it comes up as opposed to peppino having 50 fuckin walls about everything.

besides that, i also see a lot of general banter about gus being a very Nature Guy™ who likes to find beauty in all the weird fucked up shit nature does [especially in a world as cartoony as theirs], which i enjoy a lot bc girl same. fp may be the farthest thing from natural, but i certainly think there is a lot of beauty to be found in his fucked-up-ness. and i'm sure gustavo sees it too.

and then a fun one i've come into pretty recently for them is that they both care abt peppino a lot, but peppino is very bad at...being cared for. so because you can rarely approach pep directly about anything if it involves vulnerability [again: 50 fuckin walls], and because they both know him very well in different ways and can get through to him about different things, they end up working together a lot in sort of a conspiratory way. plotting scheming etc. 'have you noticed anything wrong lately + how are we going to help this guy out today', that sort of thing. the idea there can go a lot of ways but i'm partial to them using like goofy cartoon antics to set him up for something that'll be beneficial to him. [also brick is in on it too technically but brick is a rat and therefore only sapient when it's funny.] peppino rarely realizes what theyre doing until it's too late. get loved idiot

TANGENTIAL. DONT even get me started on the angst oh my god. you. i am pointing at you you made me think about this. i am not usually one who likes doing angst or making things excessively bad for the hell of it but. a bitch may be considering. under cut bc its unrelated to gustavo stuff but this is as good an excuse as any to share. [+ also extra thoughts on it bc of COURSE]

so i said that at the end there but then a few hours later i found myself toying around with a script and getting a good way to set it up.... im hoping i hit a roadblock on it and drop it because if i DO end up getting it all the way written i will definitely end up drawing it at some point and that would be uh... a big undertaking. it would also be one of the last ones i do bc there's other stuff i still want to build on, so IF, i cannot stress enough IF i go to make it a thing for real, it won't be this year.

for the bits i have so far though it's interesting how much it's shaping up to be like. a showcase of just how well peppino knows fp. which is surprisingly well? even better than gus, despite gus' being WAY more emotionally perceptive. peppino doesn't engage with fp more than necessary and rarely acts interested in his business, but i do think he spends a lot of time just... observing him. if only because pep is neurotic and anxious and fp is weird and freaky so it is a constant thing of "ok what the hell is this. is this something i need to be worried about?" whenever fp is doing shit, and the answer is always ''no'', but it's the sort of instinct that never leaves you yknow. so he's just very familiar with all fp's mannerisms and reactions and whatnot, even if he doesn't really use that knowledge much.......except when things go south. he's a lot more perceptive of fp acting 'wrong' or 'off' compared to gus, who would just be seeing it on a more normal 'aw he looked upset' kind of level.

i talk a lot abt fp's nervousness but the other negative thing that's just as strong with him is frustration. it doesn't usually get to him too bad, and he doesn't really show it around people outside of the occasional eyeroll; but it's stuff like not being able to communicate properly with anyone and getting constantly [negatively] misinterpreted; knowing he's Kinda Shite at his "purpose" [i.e. being 'better peppino' or whatever] and not being able to do anything about it [i don't think he cares about that much any more but i imagine it's still gotta be a bit annoying to remember]; not getting closure for like Anything that happened at the tower, etc... and while i DON'T think this would be the kind of thing to make him go berserk [i still don't really have any idea or framing for that lol; the script starts off a couple weeks in the aftermath and i pointedly don't do flashbacks], it's definitely the kind of thing that would get exacerbated by isolation. the kind of thing that's easy to focus on and spiral about without anyone to ground him; the kind of thing that could keep him from thinking clearly and he might just need to Take It Out on something after awhile.

peppino remains a terrible mediator but he is wildly resilient and tenacious, and if you need a guy to slap some sense into you... i mean he can very literally do that, and do it better than just about anyone.

[particular-one]

HIIIIHIII Could i request a matchup .....? Enstars, twst and hypmic pls ...!!!

name is kitten or 🐏 emoji! i preferably dont use pronouns but she/her it/its are ok. i have no romantic preference in terms of fictional characters hahaaa.

my mbti is INTP, tho i tend to be the most "extroverted" one if placed in a room with other introverts. im also a 8w9 + virgo if that helps. also AB blood type though i dont see many people who believe in that stuff on here.

uhmmmm my personality. im pretty sociable for an introvert, but can get burnt out super quickly IRL (but i can talk for hours over text). due to the autism i cant express myself IRL but i make up for it a lot through the internet by being uhhh a real character online.

im like a bimbo with autistm and ADHD basically, airheaded cutesy girly, bad at filtering myself so i can definitely be rude/mean asf .. super bad attention span.. always with a friend. i Can like get carried away and get very mean to people im not friends with. overall im very temperamental and ive always been like "pretty girl but comes off rude/fake but shes also the class clown kinda". since humor just comes naturally to me kinda.

hobbies include: arts (drawing, making art dolls, sewing, designing outfits/costumes, fashion, ect). i used to do dancing and track running but had to stop due to health complications (im super low energy and cant be as active as most ppl). I LOVE idols so much too.

What i look in a partnerrr?? Uhh nobody shorted than me (162cm) just cuz i cant see them romantically no matter how hard i try. anything is ok honestly as long as I can talk to them for ages and theyre not too loud/chaotic. overall want someone to be as equally as down bad as i am with them for me (if not more haha)

misc ... uhh my favorite love language is acts of service. i dont have to force myself to do anything i struggle with like putting thoughts into words or trying to act affectionate (tho i do get cuteness aggression). i love recieving words of affirmation lmao i need the reminding that they do love me !!!!.

i lovee cats, BOBA i kind of have an addiction to it. cute stuff cute ppl ect... i dont rlly like public affection (its cringe asf seeing couples act lovey dovey in public Sory Im not doing that).

I WROTE SO MUCH SORRY i didnt even notice Please forgive me. uhh last bit of trivia umm. if i were half-animal id have bunny ears and a tail... or id be a deer. THATS IT OK SORRY.

hi kitten! rrararararraa a hypmic AND enstars request?? im so excited :> and don't worry about rambling, it gives me a better idea on who i can match you with! hope you like them!

ENSEMBLE STARS ---- SHU ITSUKI

⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ shu's first meeting with you was not actually the first time he's seen you. your handiwork with fashion had piqued his interest for the longest time, but he never actually knew that it was you behind those pieces. so imagine his surprise when he finds out that the genius behind the designs was in fact, you! though shu came off as fussy at first, especially since he wanted to get close to you to observe how you perfected your designs, he gradually found himself enjoying your company more and more. when he finds out about your interest in idols, this amuses him greatly, considering he is one. he'd be the last to admit he likes you, but his behavior ends up changing for the better when he's around you. as a partner, shu can be a bit extravagant with the way he shows love, but he always remembers to keep it in private to respect your preference. he's a perfectionist, so he likes to plan out your activities together down to the tiniest detail, but that's because he wants you to have the best time. shu can be rather straightforward with his words as he doesn't beat around the bush — he doesn't have a filter at times either — but everything he says about you, he truly means them. shu likes admiring you while you're busy at work (he says he's doing it because he wants to see how you do things but secretly it's because he likes watching you do something you're passionate about) but there are days where the both of you would be in the same room working on your respective designs together! he asks for your inputs and vice versa, it's usually the most fun he has.

TWISTED WONDERLAND ---- JAMIL VIPER

⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ jamil was not your biggest fan when you first met — if he were being honest, you almost reminded him of kalim, and having another kalim was never good. still, you often get paired in tasks together that he had to get to know you eventually, and was he wrong about not liking you. though it took him quite a while to warm up to the idea of being in your company, he actually found himself looking forward to talking with you. surprise surprise, jamil's definitely the type of "he fell harder" in this situation. as a partner, jamil is most definitely not the publicly affectionate type. though it might seem he's keeping your relationship lowkey, it's mainly because he didn't want people (read: kalim) to make the biggest fuss about it. though he doesn't take you out that often, he's very loving and caring in private. though jamil never enjoyed the idea of serving someone, with you it was different. he'd find himself enjoying to cook your favorite food, help you out in your tasks without a word, and to make you feel as comfortable as possible. character development for him, tbh. when you tell him of your craving for boba, watch this man continuously try and succeed to making boba tea tailored to your preference.

HYPNOSIS MIC ---- NEMU AOHITSUGI

⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ nemu actually met you through a chance encounter in a mock rap battle during the tdd era as audience members. it was your personality that drew her in, but she was actually surprised by how blunt you were, but if she were being honest, your humor makes her laugh a lot. your relationship means the world to her, especially since she made sure that samatoki didn't interfere as much as possible. she loves her brother, but he can get carried away when it comes to her. nemu's definitely the one who ended up liking you first, but she's unsure on how to express this to you. as a partner, nemu is very, very sweet. she's scared of messing anything up, so she carefully plans everything in advance. when she finds out that you like cats, she actually comes forward with the idea of adopting a cat together with you! it became your bonding activity, with two of nemu's favorites in the entire world: the cat and of course, you. she has your favorite boba order/s memorized and likes to surprise you with getting some. nemu's the encouraging type, so expect a lot of comforting words from her. she's also the type who likes bringing you out to shop, whether it's for your art materials or for clothes, nemu likes hearing your inputs on the items you buy (or consider buying) and takes note of them so she can surprise you with them in the future.

[kwonhochi]

hii for the ask game! 💛🐰🍪🐶🎧

nana hii!!!!!! <3

💛 - do you have any piercings?

just the standard two (one in each ear) rn </3 but i have been wanting more piercings for Ages i’d love to get some in my upper ear cartilage + another set in my earlobes + maybe a lumbar piercing if we’re getting crazy… maybe a nose piercing if we’re getting even crazier :3 i think piercings r so cool and i’d love to explore it more. very gender…

🐰- what do you think says the most about a person?

hmmm… im not sure honestly! ive never understood what this question meant 😭 i cant really come up w an answer for this fhskfh people are… not something i pay that much attention to? if that. makes sense? not in a self obsessed way just i dont really analyze people around me i just sorta exist alongside them. tho when the topic of anything vaguely political comes up i feel like a lot gets revealed really quickly. someones kindness and compassion when interacting with people is an importwnt trait 👍 to me. trying to cover all my bases here hopefully i answered Something..!

🍪 - if you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

a sugar cookie w either strawberry or lemon icing ^_^! but specifically from this one shop my parents would take me when i was little i have very vivid memories of it - my sibling and i used to beggg for some cookies from there anytime we went to the target across the street from it. they sold these minisized sugar cookies that were maybe the width of a pingpong ball? and they were so good the cookies were all soft and the icing was a fat dollop on top that would cling to ur upper lip or the tip of your nose when you bit into it. the taste of my childhood fr those things were the most prized treat one could receive. the shop closed a long time ago and i havent had them in so many years but thats what i would be i would be one of the mini lemon/strawberry sugar cookies from there…!

🐶 - are you more of a dog or a cat person?

definitely more cat person (the crowd pretends to be shocked) HFKDHD i have worked so hard to make liking cats my 1 personality trait like i love thoise. creatures…. i really hope in my next life im reincarnated as a cat thats my ideal existence :3 i dont mind dogs at all !! just sometimes theyre overwhelming and loud and wriggly.:( loses points for team dog unfortunately… tho something i will never understand is how so many dog ppl hold such a strong and unrooted hatred for cats ? i have run into so many people who fr think cats are the devil incarnate and need to be burned at the stake or whatever like……Ermm.. its a cat . they purr whenyou cuddle them and u can feel it echo through your chest…. i think thats great

🎧- headphones or earbuds?

earbuds ! headphones have always fit around my head weird and smushed my ears which i dont really enjoy </3 plus when i wear earbuds i can pretend i am putting the music inside of me ^_^

ask game ❣️