#its already 12am i should sleep lol

[crispin-kreme]

tot boys when they walk into you crying

characters: luke pearce, artem wing, vyn ritcher, marius von hagen

warnings: breakdowns, possible ooc since this is my first time writing for tot, grammatical errors

notes: gender neutral reader as always. also i didn’t make the mc their s/o here yet to add a bit of spice :,D anyways enjoy!

ps: this is kinda long whiee

LUKE PEARCE

he’s seen you cry a lot since when you were younger. i mean, he’s been with you for half of your life so yeah

luke wanted to visit you at your apartment and so he did. he did not expect he could hear your sobs from outside.

upon hearing your sobs, he knocks frantically “y/n, are you alright?” he voices through outside. once you heard his knocking, you quickly wiped your tears.

when you had to let luke in and entertain him, he doesn’t hesitate to ask why were you crying.

“why were you crying?” he asks “nothing really… just something personal.” you said with a hoarse voice.

he doesn’t push you to tell every thing since its personal. luke stays with you for the whole damn night until you get better.

luke will do anything to see you smile, its the only thing he wants to see after three years.

ARTEM WING

artem has just gotten out from his office. its late at night already, maybe about 10PM when he finished.

he has in fact, never saw you cry. why would you cry in front of your boss y’know?

once he gets out of his office, he sees you. then hears soft sobs as he gets closer.

were you crying? he asks himself. he doesn’t know what to do. he panics a bit inside. he has never seen you like this.

artem approaches you with your palms against your tear stained face. “y/n, are you… crying?” he asks straightforward. you were quickly startled and you wiped of your tears.

“oh mr. wing! its nothing.” you laughed it off. “you’re not okay.” he says. “what’s wrong?” he asks worriedly. you have never really seen him like this.

your words then slipped out of your mouth like wind “i- i can’t do this case.” you admitted. artem was stunned, he actually felt bad that he gave you that case.

“why didn’t you tell me?” artem would ask. you would explain that you didn’t want to burden him any longer.

“i’ll take you home and accompany you for the night. i–” he paused “i don’t like seeing you like this.”

he gives you his handkerchief (its clean dw) for you to wipe your tears. aw

yes, he accompanies you for the night. both of you talk the case out. he actually cooks for you to make you feel better and he flodded his mouth with apology’s.

artem loves you dearly and he wouldn’t like seeing you hurt. he wishes that you know about his feeling soon.

VYN RICHTER

ah yes, your personal psychiatrist that you don’t know that he manipulates you /j

vyn has never seen you cry nor your vulnerability.

but he instantly sees this when he gets back from making you tea.

you were at his office talking about a challenging trial that you will face the next day. once he left, you poured out your emotions. you never wanted vyn to see you cry.

vyn gets worried and sits across you. “what’s wrong?” he asks. he quickly identifies what could be the root cause of your tears “are you crying because of the trial tomorrow?” he asks.

you silently nodded “just a lot of emotions.” you sniffled. “you can talk to me.” vyn offers his assistance.

“isn’t this basically your job?” you asked “make people talk to you and make them feel better mentally.” you explained.

vyn still flashes a worried look at you. “i’ll do anything to make you feel better.” he says.

even though its part of his job, he still wants you to feel better. he loves you and he wouldn’t bear the fact seeing you hurt.

MARIUS VON HAGEN

marius has never seen you cry and turns serious once he does see you actually cry.

you were waiting for him in the conference room, crying out of fear. you handled a case involving the pax company and now you lost the trial.

“there’s my favorite attorney! now what’s the up– oh my god are you crying?” boom, his emotions swicthed fast. he looks at you stunned and worried.

you wiped your tears “obviously, there’s no good news.” you laughed. “its simple. i lost, okay?” you said as little droplets of tears poured down. marius doesn’t give one shit about the case at this point.

“its alright. you did your best.” he reassures you. his comforting side was new to you, you have never seen him like this.

you looked at him confused “you’re not mad? you literally lost!” you exclaimed “well- all i care about is your well being. i’m being serious when i say i care about you.” he says.

marius sighs “let’s go out. maybe let’s take a walk and i’ll try my best to make you feel better.”

despite the jokes, he cares about you. like a lot. he loves you and you just don’t know it. he hopes to tell you about his feelings soon.

[hugispuso-archive]

ayo we should both be sleeping JHAKSHSKS anyway do you have any aus with jose? if not, is there any that interests you? :)

NDBDJFJDJD we're all nocturnals here, matey. 😔

i actually have quite a few! the only au i've put the most depth into is the vampire au (i'll put in the tag if you wanna see, i made a post explaining its lore). i made the au because, haha, who doesn't want to get bitten by their beloved-

i also have romeo and juliet au! it's pretty much the same but i'm romeo and jose's juliet (which makes sense bc canonically jose's father also tried to lure me away from him lol). and we also get to live happily in the end. 😚💞

there's also the mermaid au, wherein jose is a merman and i'm a pirate (woohoo finally). it's pretty similar to ponyo (studio ghibli movie) but i have to look more into that dndjdnfnj.

and there's the royal au. 😌👑 i and jose are actually knights in this one because swordfighting is cool (i haven't made any story with this one, it's a bit recent too).

last but not the least, an au where i was able to arrive in the manor like jose. i don't know what to call it, so maybe "arrival au"? idk man it's 12am + i'm hungry so NSNDJDJ. for context, in our canon story, i was left behind (for ten years ➰〰️➰) and was never able to go with jose. but y'know what? i've had enough yearning. i'm gonna make an au where i'm with him in the manor BSBSJSB. he would be the first to arrive and then a few years later i'd come as well. jose probably already told the survivors about me, but they were extremely shocked that *i* was the one who's coming. they also have titles, so maybe i'll be called the Baker (not sure for abilities lmao).

[because-of-a-friend]

Adopting a Dog With Seokmin

MASTERLIST

Again, sorry this took so long! Thanks for the sweet words and the request anon! I hope you like it!

Your apartment has become somewhat of a second home for Seokmin

Once you two start dating, he spends a lot of time at your place

It’s a nice break from being cramped in a dorm with twelve other guys 24/7

It’s also nice for the other boys because they no longer find week old gummies lying around in random places

That’s your problem now lol

But he does like the nice and quiet of your apartment

Even when you’re not there, he enjoys relaxing there

He can gather his thoughts and recharge

He does, however, tend to get super bored when he’s there alone

So when you casually mention you’ve been thinking about adopting a dog from the shelter down the street

He can’t help the excited “YES” that he yells out

You literally drop the spoon you’re holding in surprise

“Ok so, we need to get a leash, and some toys, and a bed... and oh! We have to figure out what kind of dog we’re looking for! I’m thinking a poodle... or a shih tzu-”

“Dokyeom, I literally just suggested getting a dog, calm down”

“Oh... right, but like... when are we going?”

You can’t help but laugh

��We can go shopping today and go to the shelter tomorrow”

DK practically pushes you out the door

He is literally vibrating with happiness when you two walk into the pet store

He tells you he’s going to look for toys while you go to get a leash

You sit for a moment in front of the leashes, considering length and if you should get a harness

A sales associate comes up to help you

You start talking to them about adopting and your plans, you talk about living in an apartment and the best options for a dog in that situation

“Hey babe, how about these!”

DK comes around the corner with an assortment of at least twenty dog toys in his arms

The sales associate bursts into laughter

“Seokmin, please, we don’t have the dog yet, how would we know what kind of toys it likes...”

But with the help of the worker, you two get through the store pretty easily and get everything you need

DK only narrows his toy selection down to ten

The employee throws another one in for free

“For the lovely couple, you guys made me smile today”

DK’s grin is insanely big at that

He puts his arm around your shoulder and squeezes you firmly 

When you get back to the apartment, you lay everything out and start to organize everything

You set ground rules for the dog’s schedule, what you need to do every day to make sure the dog is as happy as possible, what rooms the dog is not allowed in, etc

DK stays over so you can go together to the shelter as soon as it opens

He, of course, is so excited that he doesn’t sleep

He keeps waking you up to talk to you about your future dog

“[Y/N]”

“What?”

“How do you feel about the name Seungcheol?”

“Do you really think that’s a good idea?”

“Hmmmmm... ya maybe not”

...

“[Y/N]”

“DK, it’s 3am, I want to sleep, go bother someone else about the dog for a little while”

You drift back to sleep

Only for a few minutes

Because you get a call

You stare at your phone confused as to why Lee Jihoon is calling you at 3:12am

“Hello?”

“Don’t tell your boyfriend to ‘bother someone else for a little while’ at 3am, because that someone else is me, and I’m tired”

“Jihooooooooooooooon, just talk to him for a minute”

“No”

“And then we pass it off to Coups”

“No”

“And eventually everyone takes a shift”

“Nope, your boyfriend, your 3am conversation”

And then he promptly hangs up 

And DK slides back into the room with a guilty smile

“Ok babe, we can talk about dog names for ten minutes, JUST TEN”

He leaps onto you and cuddles you to death while you talk about names

He finally dozes off as he says “Maybe something from Greek mythology...”

You had been complaining about wanting to sleep

But it’s hard not to take a couple minutes to watch him sleep with that ridiculous grin on his face

When you wake up, Seokmin is already in the kitchen making breakfast

Cue incredibly rushed pancakes and a million stares from Seokmin implying he can’t wait for you to say it’s time to go

“Ok you ready to-”

DK leaps up from his chair and grabs your bag and both of your jackets and shoves you out the door again

 Seokmin CANNOT sit still when you walk in

He is ready to find a dog and ready for it to be at your apartment

When you two finally go in, Seokmin runs like a kid to look at all the dogs

You’re obviously excited too

I mean, you wouldn’t be getting a dog if you weren’t

But you weren’t expecting to fall completely in love with one certain dog immediately

By the time you reach Seokmin, he already has like three different dogs he’s telling you about

And you’re walking to see the one he’s pointing at

But there’s a tiny “yip” from one of the cages you pass

You turn for just a second and immediately stop

It’s a tiny, little corgi

And it waddles right up to you

Bleps its tongue out

And you’re sold

You kneel down to greet it through the gate

DK turns to see where you are

And he sees you looking down at the puppy with sparkling eyes

Then he hears you whisper

“Seokminnie”

And he feels his heart clench in his chest

Because this is possibly the cutest thing he’s ever seen

And he sees Woozi yawn like every day

So he comes over to see who you’re looking at 

But he doesn’t really look at the dog

He’s just soaking in the sight of you staring so lovingly at the little puppy

“I see you guys are looking at Daisy!”

You and DK give each other a look as the volunteer comes to speak to you, silently agreeing that Daisy’s name will not be Daisy for long

“Uh ya, she’s real cute, what do we need to do to take her home?”

So you and DK sign the paper work and bring Artemis home (or maybe Athena... Calypso? “Something cute,” DK finally says, “Bella, or Biscuit...Bagel?” “Ok, now you’re just hungry aren’t you?”)

The first thing you do is just let Sunny (or maybe Maya) sniff around the apartment

You follow after her closely, just watching in fascination at everything she does

Then you take her on a tour, showing her around and telling her everything, even though she’s a dog

After a day of beginning to ease her into living in the apartment

You just can’t help it anymore and pick her up and cuddle her for awhile

DK just has his arms around you and and is staring at her over your shoulder

“Mabel” you quietly whisper staring down at her

“Ya,” DK smiles, “Mabel”

You’re both quiet for a minute just staring down at her

Then Mabel yawns and you both squeal 

You let her curl up in her bed, it’s been a long day and you want her to rest

You’re also about to suggest that you both also go to sleep

But there’s a knock on the door

You open the door and twelve boys poor in 

“We’re here to meet Cookie!” Mingyu exclaims

Jun whacks him, “Her name is Sunflower!”

“It’s Mabel,” you laugh

They all gather around and coo at your little corgi

She’s just sleeping in the bed that’s five times her size

A bunch of them come over for the following days to help watch the puppy

DK is really happy to chill with Mabel alone

Now his days at the apartment are filled with playing with Mabel and talking to Mabel and taking care of Mabel

It’s a great way for him to think out his issues and recharge without getting bored

Having Mabel around is great, and a positive change in all of your lives

You spend a lot of nights just cuddled up on the couch with DK and Mabel, just happy that they’re both in your life

[donggyul]

Pervert

Member : 이한결 Lee Hangyul

Genre : Fluff/Angst

Note : Not a request, but it popped up in my head so might as well write it!

Warning : Appearance of a pervert (lol I feel like I just spoilt the story)

You were practicing in the practice room for your upcoming competition when your loving boyfriend came in the room. He didn't want to disturb you so he just sat on the couch quietly until you finish practice. It was already 12am, but you wanted to practice more since your competition is in a few days. You suddenly felt a pair of arms around your waist.

"Gyul... I'm sweating..." you said.

"I don't mind... Wanna get something to eat?" he ask.

"Sure... What do you want to eat?" you ask.

"I dont mind... What does my princess wants to eat?" he said.

"Chicken?" you suggested.

"Okay! I'll order it right now..." he said taking his phone out from his pocket still hugging your waist.

"Seasoned or fried?" he ask scrolling through the menu.

"Seasoned!"you said.

"Done!" he said putting his phone back in his pocket.

"Now will you let me practice again?" you ask.

"I don't want to let you go..." he whined.

"Please..." you begged.

"You've been practicing for so long... I know you'll win no matter what..." he said.

"Okay okay fine..." you said giving up, knowing that you can never win against him.

"What did you do today?" you ask.

And that's how you guys started talking about the small and little things that might not matter to others but the both of you like this moment the most because this is the only time you guys can talk without anyone or anything interrupting. Admist his busy schedule, he still made time for you and that's what you love about him.

"Ohh the chicken is here... I'll go get it..." he said receiving a notification on his phone.

You sat on the couch preparing for the meal, waiting for him to get the chicken. Suddenly a man came in, a man you've never seen before.

"Who are you?" you ask.

"A staff." he said.

"But I've never seen you before... Are you new?" you ask again.

"Yes I am..." he said.

"But what are you doing here? New recruits are suppose to be waiting at the office..." you said.

"Ohh really? I might have lost my way..." he said and looked you in the eye.

For some reason, his eyes looks weird and scary.

You turned away and avoided his eyes but he came closer to you.

"What-are you-waiting for? You-should go to the-office right now..." you stuttered.

"Why? You were okay with him but not with me?" he said and pulled your chin to look at him.

You were shaking and you have absolutely no idea what he was talking about. You managed to push his hands away and backed away from him.

You can tell he was furious and you hoped that Hangyul would come back soon.

"Why? You like him more than me?" he said angrily and yanked your hair making you look at him straight in the eye.

Tears starts forming in your eyes.

He started touching you and forced you to kiss him. But you used all your might and kicked him away before he can do anything. You were so scared at that moment. He backed away for a moment and you used this chance to scream.

"OPPAAAAAAAA!!!!" you screamed with all your might, hoping that Hangyul was close by and that he would hear you.

The man covered your mouth with his hand and tried molesting you again but you kept kicking, pushing and punching him away.

Luckily for you, Hangyul rushed into the room and pulled that guy away from you. Hangyul was furious.

"Hands off my girl!" he said angrily and punched him. The man flew super hard and hitted the wall. Both of them was furious. You knew you need to stop Hangyul because you can tell that he would keep punching the man if no one stops him.

"Gyul please stop..." you ran and hugged him behind making him stop in his tracks.

You cried and cried and cried. He hated seeing you cry like this and he felt so sorry. He didn't do anything, thankfully.

"Why? Can't punch me? Weak..." the man said to provoke Hangyul and his anger rose.

He was about to move to punch that man again when you hugged him tighter.

"Gyul... Please... I'm scared..." you said crying non stop. You can't let him punch that man because he may get a warning from the police. And that is enough to ruin his career.

That was all you needed to say to make him stop. You were shaking but still managed to hug him tight to stop him from doing whatever he was about to do to that man.

Luckily, a few staffs including the managers rushed in the room with the police and took that man away. Before Hangyul entered the room, he called his manager and asked him to call the police cause he knew something might have happened.

Hangyul turned around and hugged your shaking body.

"It's okay... Its okay... Its all over now..." he said hugging you tight.

"Gyul... I'm scared..." you said crying non stop.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." he kept whispering in your ear.

You eventually fell asleep in his arms, too exhausted from crying.

Hangyul carried you to the couch and put a blanket over you, wiping your tears.

The police came to interogate you on what happened but Hangyul stopped them. He explained everything to them but the police still wanted to interogate to find out what really happened.

"After she wakes up... She's too shock to say anything right now..." Hangyul said to the police officer.

"Fine by us... But you guys have to come to the police station later..." the police officer said and left.

You didn't know how long you were sleeping for but you woke up and Hangyul was by your side, holding your hand the whole time.

"You okay?" he asked worriedly the moment you woke up.

"I'm okay now... I cried alot didn't I?" you said.

"Your tears can fill the whole sea" he joked.

You laughed at what he said. He never failed to make you smile no matter what the situation is.

You stretch out your hands asking for a hug and he immediately took it.

"I was worried..." he said.

"I'm okay... I have you don't I?" you said.

"But I'm not always gonna be there..." he said.

"What? So you're saying you're gonna break up with me one day?" you said jokingly.

"No.... No way I'm breaking up with you!!" he said.

"I'm touched you said that..." you said.

"What? You think I will leave you?" he said.

"I'm just scared..." you said.

"I'll make sure something like that never happens again..." he said hugging you tighter.

"Thank you my lovely boyfriend..." you said and kissed him.

Turns out the pervert was mentally ill and he thought that you were his long time girlfriend.

[usercurrentlylost]

Cordelia x Reader

(Ok this is my first time posting a fic on here and I'm typing on my phone so i have no fucking idea how its gonna look on your guys screens. Lmk pls. And give constructive criticism. It really helps. Helps me as a writer and you as a reader to get what you want from the story. Also, sorry for any grammatical errors or punctuational errors. I usually write fics late at night [from like 12am-4am] so i'm not fully functional lol. Anyway pls give feedback and Msg me if you have ideas. Thanks <3)

Agony and Ecstasy

Chapter I

You walk through the doors of the academy, taking everything in. You see different groups of girls off to different sides of the house. You make your way to your room. As you walk in you see some bags off to the bed to the right. Walking to the left side of the room, you set your bags down on the bed. You sit on the bed and take a deep breath, closing your eyes and beginning to think of how lucky you are to have found this place. A home.

Suddenly the door abruptly opens and in walk a tall blond. She grabs her bags and turns to you. "Hey, I'm Cordelia. My friends call me Delia. Sorry that I had already put my bags down. I usually sleep on the right but if you want you can sleep there. I don't mind." You open your mouth to answer but nothing comes out. You look at her and take in her beauty. Her eyes are a soft brown and you can stare at them forever. Just as you were about to answer, in comes an older girl. "Ah, Delia. Already making the new girl uncomfortable?" Cordelia laughs. "I hope not. I was just trying to be friendly. I was asking if she wanted the right side of the room but I think she's still thinking. Are you?" They turn to you and you blush. "I- I'm- sorry. I'm (YN). And no, it's fine. You can sleep there. I don't mind." She pumps her fist up into the air. "Yesss" you all laugh. "Alrighty Myrtle, let's go eat!" Cordelia walks past Myrtle and Myrtle walks up to you. "Hello, I think you know my name already. I'm that one's best friend, well, more like a mother. God knows she needs one. Sadly it's my last year here and this is only her second. So I apologize in advance. It was nice meeting you (YN). Talk soon." And with that she follows Cordelia. "It was nice meeting you too..." you speak aloud in the empty room, wondering what that was about.

It's dinner time and you go downstairs to eat. You take a seat next to a girl named Zoe. You guys seem to get along pretty well. You hear the chair move next to you and you look up to see Cordelia. She grins at you and takes a seat. "Alright ladies. Listen up. Our supreme is, once again, not going to be around this year. Fiona apparently has better things to do, so that will put me in charge this year. I'd like to start by welcoming (YN). This is our new student and fellow sister. Treat her as you treat each other. Anything you'd like to say dear?" Everyone eyes are on you and you blush. "Um, not really. I'm 20 and I can move things with my mind and sort of control people's mind. Need to work on that one more. Oh and my last names (YLN) haha. " everyone claps. "Ah, telekinesis and concilium. Two very powerful abilities. We'll help those powers grow here. Well, we are very happy to have you here with us." With that she sits and we all begin to eat. "I like your name. (YN). So, what's your story?" Cordelia asks. You guys begin to talk about your life and how you ended up there. On how your mother abandoned you and your father died. About when you first found out you were a witch and so fourth. You talked for about an hour before you realized that it was only you two left at the table. "Wow, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to ramble. I just got carried away. I don't talk about my past often. I'm really sorry. You didn't even eat! You should eat before it gets later." She laughs and places her hand on yours. "Hey now," you stop talking and look at her. "I wasn't even hungry. Don't worry about it. I enjoyed listening to your story. And I'm sorry about it too. Really. I can relate to it. My mom abandoned me too. Don't know my dad. The only family I have is Myrtle. She's like my mom." You give her a sad smile and she smiles back. She pulls her hand away and grabs your guys' plates. "C'mon. We should head upstairs and get some rest. You got a big day ahead of you tomorrow. You're gonna learn to suppress your powers!" She says jokely and you guys laugh. "I'm kidding, sorta. We have a meeting tomorrow though and it's earlyyyy" you nod and make your way upstairs with her.

Four months pass by and you guys become closer than ever. You begin to develop a bit of a crush on her. A bit, trying to convince yourself. You guys become inseparable. Everything you do she tags along with you and vice versa. She introduces you to her other friends who shes sort of close to. Madison, a very bitchy but loveable girl. Queenie, a sarcastic, funny, caring sweetheart who you can rely on for the truth, because you learn that she is very straightforward. Zoe, which you already know and are close with as well. And Misty, a very mysterious girl, a little weird but in a good way. Shes kind, lovable, caring and anything good. No bad in her whatsoever. You don't think there's a mean bone in her body.

One day you're walking around the house listening to Fleetwood Mac. Highly recommended by Misty, to which you thank her greatly because Stevie Nicks is amazing. You run into Myrtle. "Hey, (YN) mind if I talk to you for a sec?" You take your earphones off and you nod. "Yeah, I mean, no I don't mind. What's up?" She looks around, as if she were looking for someone. "Hey, I just wanna let you know that you and Cordelia are getting pretty close, " "yeah I know. She's so great. She's so funny-" "yeah. She is. She's a lot of things. And sometimes she can be a lot more than you can handle. Look, I like you (YN), a lot. Like more than some of these other girl and more than some of Delia's friends. So I just want to warn you. Delia isn't good for you. I'm not trying to sound like, well, a bitch but I care about you. And so does Cordelia, but she isn't at her best right now." You shake you head, confused. "I- I don't-" "I know, you don't understand. What I'm trying to say is, you can do better. Delia just isn't in the right place for a relationship right now. " you back up slowly and furrow your brows. "I don't understand?" She sighs and rubs her temples. "(YN), just be careful. Don't go and fall in-" "Heyyy guys!" Cordelia runs into the room you and Myrtle were in. "What's goin' on?" Delia asks and begins to look at you guys. "Nothing dear, where have you been?" She asks her. You look everywhere and anywhere except in Cordelia direction. She stays silent for a bit. "Snow, what were you guys talking about? what did you tell her?" "Nothing that concerns you Goode." "Bullshit." Cordelia says and you flinch a bit. She hardly curses and it throws you off. "(YN) what did she tell you?" She asks you and you open your mouth to answer and nothing comes out. You stare into her eyes and you see hurt. You close your mouth and look down. She scoffs and takes your hand. "You know Myrtle, you need to mind your own business sometimes." She says as she pulls you upstairs. "This IS my business!" Myrtle shouts and Delia scoffs.

"What did she tell you?" Cordelia asks and you shake your head. "Nothing Delia. Nothing to worry about." You guys sit on your bed. "It isn't true okay!" She raises her voice an octave. You flinch. "Whatever she said, it's not true." Her voice cracks. "Hey, hey, look at me." You rest your hand on her cheek and make her look at you. "I know. I know sweetheart. I believe you. " she smiles sadly and hugs you. You guys stay like that for a while until her phone goes off. She breaks the hug and looks at it. She sighs and throws her phone aside. "What's up?" You ask and she smiles. She moves the stray hairs out of your face. "You're so pretty (YN)." Before you can comment on that she pulls you into a kiss. Shocked at first, you don't kiss back but that doesn't stop her. You end up melting into it. She pulls away and smiles at you. "I gotta go princess. I'll see you later." And with that she hops off the bed and walks out the door. You stare at the spot she was sitting at and blink rapidly. Whatever happened happened and you don't know how to feel about it.

[wannawrite]

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who?: Hotshot’s Yoonsan, Hojung genre: 🌸 type: drabble word count: 1.6K blog navigator. • Yoonsan seems to have caught feelings for you • the only person in the way is Hojung, your protective brother I’m so happy Hotshot is working now, even though they are all split up :”) I’m just extremely proud. Thank you for requesting @huis-totally-innocent-smirk, apologies for the late post and so sorry for only completing one. Played with the format a bit, I hope it’s still readable aha, imagine it’s from a third-party perspective, maybe even like a game. - Admin L 

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2 February 2018 7.26pm CONVERSATION between YOONSAN and HOJUNG “You’re kidding,” Hojung scoffed, turning to look away from his best friend, eyes rolling. “Hyung, you can’t date my sister. No. She’s off limits.” Yoonsan’s lips curved into an irritated pout, he sighed and sprawled his form out on the dance room floor. “I just wanted to tell you. Help me put in a good word will ya?” Hojung rarely got mad at his rather quiet and bashful best friend, Yoonsan was not the kind of guy to lash out at other about petty problems he faced. He could be grumpy and a tad bit less understanding at times but that was all there was to his tantrums. However, this was a different story, this time he was actually contemplating starting a feud. “How could you even like her? You don’t even talk to her privately? All you do is get that 3 seconds of talk time whenever she brings me lunch or something. Please don’t call it love, please don’t break her heart like this. It isn’t genuine,” Hojung pointed out, his brain frantically analysing the situation, trying to find a loophole in Yoonsan’s confession. Yoonsan only knew you from those moments that lasted no longer than a minute, he couldn’t possibly be attached to a fleeting silhouette. Again, his friend shrugged it off casually, like he wasn’t being fiercely interrogated. Yoonsan avoided eye contact, shutting his eyes as if he was completely serene. “Maybe those 3 seconds was all she needed to steal my heart.”

31 December 2017 11.53pm TEXT MESSAGES between YOU and YOONSAN San: hey San: idw to come off as creepy or anything but I’m gonna try to forge better friendships with my acquaintances San: now, you’re only Hojung’s little sister but I hope we’ll be friends in the new year San: lol haven’t I known you since you were 8? HAHAHAHAHA 11.55pm You: oh gosh hi hdksijssb You: awww that’s so nice of you, it’s great to make more friends and OH GOSH YES YOU HAVE AND I WAS STILL SHY AROUND HOJUNG’S FRIENDS DHJSKSJDND IT WAS SO AWKWARD NO San: I still have pictures of all of us from that era, courtesy of Junhyuk hyung’s mum You:... You: WHAT NO You: NO NO NO NO NO DELETE THEM YOU UGLY You: DISGUSTING San: *PICTURE* San: *PICTURE* The sender has attached more than 10 files. Click here to open files. You: ARE THOSE PICTURES OF MY BRO You: GOOD TEA FOR FAMILY NEW YEAR’S REUNION HAHA THANKS San: is this how we’re bonding? San: nice to know, I have a meme folder just for Hojung You: SEND San: *PICTURE* The sender has reached attachment limit. Please wait for received files to finish loading before more can be received. 12am San: HAPPY NEW YEAR San: with this coming new year, I hope to only grow closer to my new friend and that we’ll make more enjoyable and happy memories together San: friendship? You: HAPPY NEW YEAR🎊🎉💓 You: awww :”) You: of course! We should hang out sometime lol idk if my bro will be 100% happy abt this tho San: aha why wouldn’t he be 12.02am You: I think you already know why

3 January 2018 1.42pm MEETING and CONVERSATION between YOONSAN and YOU She’s pretty, he thinks. Especially with that cold winter blush painted across her cheeks. He’s cute, you think. I think it’s adorable he has sweater paws in a turtleneck. Neither of you says that out loud, but they say someone’s genuine thoughts can be seen through their eyes. Eyes are like the mirrors of your soul. Instead, you clink tea cups and sip on hot chocolate, admiring the last few snowflakes dotting on the large window on your right. This cafe was your idea but the outing was San’s. He appeared awfully mismatched with the whole cheerful fairyland aesthetic but you found it even more attractive. It was not an awkward mismatch but a surprisingly pleasant one like purple and yellow. This isn’t a date, you reminded yourself, taking a cookie from the platter and putting it to your lips as your mind worked to come up with a conversation starter other than ‘what memes have you got of my bro,’. Just talk to him like he’s a friend. “What song’s are you working on right now?” you blurted out then wondered if it was too peculiar or personal of a question. San liked the fact that you took interest in his passion for music. Honestly, he could never hold a face-to-face conversation for long but talking about his music was a different story. He could go on about it for ages. Ugh, he’s so cute when he talks about his passion for music. Oh wow, the small smiles his lips pull into are really charming. Just a friend. Just a friend, Yoonsan. Pull yourself together and calm down. Isn’t this what you wanted? Girls can sense when you’re nervous around them. He’s the forbidden fruit. She’s my forbidden fruit. Both of you remained in Eden, drinking mugs of hot chocolate with extra marshmallows floating inside and biting into butter cookies, wishing all fruits were edible.

8 January 2018 8.18pm MEETING with YOU and HOTSHOT “Uhh San said he’s at Sungwoon’s house playing Fifa or something,” you replied to your parents’ question on where your older brother was. “Oh good,” your father commented. “I need to drop by their house to ask Sungwoon’s grandfather about the new fertiliser I bought. I was wondering if he had tested it yet. Want to get your brother back together?” If I go, I would see San for a bit...I MEAN, see my brother more and see Sungwoon and see Grandfather Ha. It isn’t all about San! “Uh, sure! Just let me...change!” The sentence had not been finished before your form disappeared up the staircase. The drive to Sungwoon’s place made you anticipated yet nervous for no apparent reason. After all, it was just your big brother and some of his close friends. Nothing else to it. For some reason, your hands shook as you closed the car door and walked into the house. “Go and get your brother.” Breathe. At first, San didn’t even look up from his phone when the door of Sungwoon’s bedroom opened but his head snapped up when he heard your melodious voice calling a greeting. A silly smile slipped onto his face as he bashfully waved back, trying not to garner Hojung’s attention. However, Hojung had already gotten a hunch on the interaction but he tried to brush it off. “Ahh, you know Dad won’t be leaving anytime soon. Join me, I’m winning anyway,” Hojung offered, holding up a game controller. He quickly went back to the game, yelling excitedly when you scored a goal against Taehyun and Sungwoon. San’s admiration for you only grew.

2 February 2018 11.28pm TEXT MESSAGES between HOJUNG and SUNGWOON Hojung: like what...do they think I’m blind or something...I get that this was bound to happen but idk how to feel Hojung: I know hyung is a good guy and all but I’m just unsure Hojung: am I being paranoid or mean? Sungwoon: Nah I don’t think so, you’re just looking out for your friends. It doesn’t hurt to be a nice guy like that Sungwoon: san is a nice guy and I’ll be honest and say I never saw it coming Sungwoon: I just need to know if it is genuine or if he’s just doing this for fun or something Hojung: I think they have been texting and meeting up privately bc she’s been quite shady and quiet about her ‘outings’ lately Hojung: idkkkk I’m just...kind of annoyed? Yet relieved that its hyung and not some creep Hojung: idw to lose any of my close friends bc of something like this you know? Sungwoon: I’d say maybe you should talk to them first! After all, it isn’t official right? They just have feelings but they haven’t said anything to each other Sungwoon: tbh it’s cute haha Sungwoon: I think they need to bond more before putting a label on anything. Feels that way. I don’t want anyone to make dumb mistakes with dating Hojung: I feel you. I think I just need time to absorb it. This feels like a pesky annoyance I can’t help it. I just want what is best for everyone Hojung: thanks, hyung, go and rest now. I’ll talk to them Sungwoon: sleep early as well, don’t stress about it 1.15am TEXT MESSAGES between HOJUNG and YOU Hojung: hey sis Hojung: hate to scare you and break it to you but I know about you and Yoonsan, he kind of told me personally today Hojung: don’t freak I know you guys aren’t dating but you can’t exactly hide anything from your big bro Hojung: ...honestly, I’m not sure how to react...knowing how close you both are to me. I’m glad to like a decent guy I suppose Hojung: talk to me about it okay? I just don’t want you to get hurt. Get to know each other a bit more. Hojung: good night, although you’re already sleeping. See you tomorrow 2.21am TEXT MESSAGES between HOJUNG and YOONSAN Hojung: hyung, sorry to text late but abt what you told me...I know how I feel about it Hojung: it’s so annoying Hojung: but I’m willing to accept it if you talk it out with me and her. You’re not a bad guy....hopefully. Please still be the same hyung I’ve known for most of my life. Hojung: I want you two to be real about it. No point dating if feelings are merely fabricated. I don’t need broken hearts and I can’t see my family get hurt, hear me? Hojung: ....just...talk to me and talk to her okay? See you tomorrow

[thedefinitionofbts]

Sound of the Flute

Pairings: Park Jimin x Reader

Genre: Dark Fantasy Au? 

Words: 1.5K

Description: As requested by anon: “Jimin scenario based off the lyrics of pied piper. no matter how hard she tries not to, she follows the sound of the flute and falls in love with him not knowing that shes going to meet an ill fate?? ”

A/N: I really don’t know if this is what you had in mind lol, but thank you for the request! And hopefully it’s at least semi-decent :)

Legend has it that there is a mysterious man who stands on the bridge by the river each night and plays a mystical ballad on his long silvery flute. It’s a melody so eerily captivating that all those who listen to its seducing tune gravitate toward him like magnetic particles drawn to an iron core, despite knowing the risk of no return.

“This is no fairytale, it’s a-”

“Ok, Seokjin, stop” You get up abruptly from the couch, ready to head to bed. “This is stupid. You’re just trying to fuck me up and disrupt my beauty sleep.”

“It’s not even supposed to be scary.” He defends. “It’s an intriguing story.” He shrugs, crossing his arms. “You guys were the ones who wanted me to think of something to talk about.”

“And that’s what you thought of?” Taehyung looks at the older male with a bored expression. 

“It’s actually a true story.” Namjoon cuts in, clearing his throat and ready to give a historical lecture.

“Yeah, I don’t want to hear it” You wave it off. “I’m going to bed.”

You were starting to think vacationing in Europe with three of your best friends was not the greatest of ideas. For one, Taehyung just likes to do his own thing half of the time, not caring about the time of day or getting lost forever. Namjoon never fails to lose his passport every five seconds and Seokjin…well he clearly just likes to spew shit out of his mouth that he thinks is intriguing or funny. There was just something off about the whole thing, and you can’t really put a finger on what exactly. You think it might just be the jet-lag you haven’t gotten over yet, or maybe Seokjin’s creepy story actually did hit a sensitive spot, which you still haven’t figured out how or why since those kind of things usually don’t bother you. 

Getting some shuteye should help, so you wash up and crawl into bed.

But it wasn’t long before you found yourself waking up in the middle of the night. The sensation was strange because you’re usually able to get through at least one REM cycle before your slumber is disturbed, but a glance at the clock on the wall told you it hadn’t even hit 12am yet.

Then you hear it. 

A song that drifts through your partially opened window, carried by the cold wind at the cusp of midnight. And you were fully aware that you were making an idiotic decision to actually tip-toe downstairs and out the front door to follow the sound, but why couldn’t you stop? 

The night is chilly, but your cheeks feel flushed. The song is getting louder, and you can see the shadowy figure sitting on a bench under the tree, a long rod held up to his mouth, glistening under the street light.

As you approach him, you notice his body twitch and the music stops as he lowers the flute and turns around.

Your breath hitches in your throat, caught between the silence hanging in midair and the way his gaze settles on you. His skin is pale and translucent, features elf-like with large almond eyes and full lips. He was nothing short of beautiful, but his aura was unnerving to say the least.

“You’re like the person in the story,” You point out, not really thinking before you spoke because why in the world would you expect this stranger to know what story you’re even referring to? Heck, you don’t even know why that was the first thing that popped into your head, but you put full blame on Seokjin. 

“What story?” He cocks a brow, lips forming into a sly smile and eyes glimmering under the moonlight as if he knew the answer before the words escaped your lips.  

“The one about the Pied Piper.”

“Because of this?” He holds the musical instrument up, eyes scanning along it’s length and admiring how elegant the object looked under the starlit sky. 

You nod, keeping your eyes trained on his actions. 

He giggles, a sound so bubbly and beautiful that it makes you wonder if he’s human.

“So anyone who plays the flute has the purpose of luring children to their deaths?”

“At night.” You correct, surprised that he knew the story so well. Coincidence? Or was the tale really that popular?

He laughs, throwing his head back before composing himself once again. “Excuses.”

“What?” You frown, shaking your head as if you had misheard him. “What are you talking about?” Confusion is starting to lace itself in the foundation of your otherwise misleadingly calm features, the growing fear hidden behind a poised facade. 

He stands up and walks towards you, eye piercing into yours as he leans down leisurely and whispers into your ear. “You wanted to meet me.”

“W-What makes you say that?” Your voice is shaking now, but you’re rooted in the spot. 

“The fact that you came, and the fact that you are still here.”

You can feel his warm breath slither down your neck, sending tingles across your shoulders. The scent of his body is almost even more compelling than the song he was playing earlier, and you can feel something intangible compel you soak in the warmth of his presence, the mesmerizing sight of his otherworldly beauty. You stare at the way his Adam’s apple bobbles up and down, the smooth skin of his neck tender and rippling in waves as he swallows gently, and in that compromising position you sense this unnatural yearning to lean forward and kiss him, to taste what is already teasing at the tip of your tongue, what your body is begging for more of.   

“Ummm, ok, I’ll just go then.” Your voice is unsteady and your breathing is erratic, but you’ve managed to break out of your momentary trance.

He takes a step back, seemingly unaware of your internal distress. “Be my guest.” He makes a motion to make way for you.

Still staring at him cautiously, you don’t want to make this encounter stranger than it already is, queerer than it actually was, so your mind chooses to ignore the fact that all of this was bone chillingly terrifying, but for some disturbing reason you’re entirely convinced he’s not dangerous, or at least that’s what you’re mind chooses to believe. 

Swallowing once again, you turn to leave, legs feeling heavier than they had when you arrived at the scene not long ago. But before you’re too far away, you turn around and voice one last question. “What’s your name?”

“Park Jimin” He smiles, eyes curving into slits, and it’s almost angelic, but not quite because the mischievous glint in his eyes is deceivingly innocent for someone who plays with temptation like it is a game.

 …

 You try to close your eyes and ignore it, but you physically can’t. Why? Why was the sound so hard to dismiss. Why were you mentally aware of the situation and yet unable to control your decisions?

You sit up in your bed, eyes darting towards the moon hanging in the opaque night sky, round and luminescent like it was urging you to throw on your jacket and escape into the night for a second time. And you cooperatively oblige.

“Are you here every night?”

He flashes you a knowing smile, lowering the flute. “No.”

“Why are you here?” 

He lets out an airy chuckle, running a hand through his fluffy locks of hair. “Do you want me to leave?”

“No” The syllable comes out automatically, and you swear it’s not what you meant to say. You divert your eyes, but maybe that was a bad decision because you don’t notice him approach you until you look up and realize his face is only an inch away from yours.

“I know you can’t help it.” He whispers, soft and breathy, making your head spin with confusion and your heart burn with the flames of desire. “Don’t reject me.” 

“I-I”

“Shhhh” He hums, moving even closer and placing his hands on your hips as he catches your mouth with his lips. You are initially hit with shock, but his scent is sedative like a drug and he tastes like nothing you can describe that is of this world, sweeter than sugar, softer than cotton. It makes you feel so safe, so comfortable, and so eager to give in and let whatever effect he has on you take over completely. And you know if he’s strong enough to control you like this, he’s certainly strong enough to ruin you completely, but you also don’t care.

Jimin breaks the kiss slowly, suckling on your lower lip one last time before letting go and allowing you to breath again.  

“If you come with me, we can be together forever.” He murmurs, eyes gazing into yours with an intensity that you cannot refuse.

So you follow him, pulled by the pleasure his presence has on you. He was ethereal, so saccharine and irresistible, like the most coveted fruit on the forbidden tree. It was not long before you’ve reached the end of the journey, the moon still waiting for your next action.

You stare at the dark opening, not even capable of questioning what lies down there. All you can hear is the sound of the flute, rising up from the bottomless pit and drifting to your ears, calling you forward into the depths of your paradise.

“You love me, don’t you?”

The next thing you know, you’ve jumped, welcoming your end willingly.

...

[yoon-kooks]

Lie- Part 10

Pairing: Jimin x Reader

Genre: Angst / Fluff

Summary: There was a time when you loved him and he hated you. Now you hate him, but does he love you?

Parts: 0 // 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5 // 6 // 7 // 8 // 9 // 10 // 11 // 12 // 13 // 14 // 15 // 16 // 17 // FINAL

“Oooh! Can we go in there?” You pulled at Jimin’s sleeve and pointed at a small shop with a bunch of adorable plushies. He turned his head to where you were pointing and sighed.

“Do we have to go into every single shop with plushies in them?” Jimin protested but still allowed you to pull him into the store.

“Yes, we do!” you giggled at him. “Because I’m looking for something!”

“What is it?”

“Uh, actually I’m not sure, hehe~” You looked around curiously, trying to find something small to buy so that you’d always remember your first “date” with Jimin. “But it has to be something cute!”

“You’ve been dragging me around for two hours and you don’t even know what you’re looking for?” Jimin chuckled in disbelief as he browsed the shelf with tiny kitty plushies. You saw him smile at a grey one with a little scarf before he picked it up to show to you. “What about this one? It’s cute, right?”

You blushed, taking it from his hand. It was a pretty cute kitty, but you loved it even more because Jimin had picked it out for you. “Yeah, this is the one!” You were glowing so much and didn’t catch him staring.

Just as you were about to walk it up to the cash register to pay, it was taken from your grasp. Jimin placed the kitty on the counter and took out his wallet.

You shook your head with a flustered look. “Jimin, it’s okay… I already wasted your time coming here and-”

Jimin ignored you and proceeded to pay the cashier. Once you were out of the store, he handed you the kitty.

“You didn’t have to pay for me, you know…” you pouted. But you were also overjoyed with the fact that the boy you loved got you something special. You stared at the kitty again and smiled.

“Just be happy you got what you came for, okay?” Jimin watched you fiddling around with the plushie. You hugged it tightly and squealed. “You really love it that much?” he laughed.

“Yeah! Thanks Jimin~!” you smiled up at him. “I’ll get you something next time, I promise!”

“Next time?” He raised a brow at you. “I thought this was a one time thing.”

“But you had fun, right?” You poked him. “I wanna do it again… Maybe next time could be an actual date?”

“I already told you we’re not dating…”

“Not yet, but maybe in the future~?” you said, blushing softly.

“Y/N.” Jimin walked a little further from you and bit his lip. “I don’t think we could ever date.”

-

“Yoora, I’ll tell you!” You dropped your chemistry textbook next to your friend’s notebook and took a seat.

“Tell me what??” Yoora went from falling asleep to wide awake. “Is this about your secret lover?” she smirked.

“He’s not a lover!!” You sent a soft punch to her shoulder. “But it is a secret, so promise you won’t tell anyone or get mad about it, okay?”

“Promise~!” Yoora clasped her hands together. “Tell me all about him!”

“Okay, okay!” You tried to calm both her and yourself down. Even in that moment, you weren’t sure if it was a good idea to tell her that you knew her favorite idols. But you trusted her. “Actually, it’s about two guys… and you know them…”

“Two guys??” Yoora’s jaw dropped. “OMG, Y/N!! When?? How?? WHO?”

“At the fansign. Uhh, I don’t really know how it happened…” You leaned closer to whisper. “But it’s Jungkook and Jimin.”

“WHAT? NO WAY!!” Yoora’s shrieks gained you some stares from people passing by. “PICS OR IT DIDN’T HAPPEN!!”

“It’s a long story… but basically, Jungkook and I-”

“You’re dating HIM???”

“No!” You shushed your friend. “But we may or may not have hung out…” Yoora’s eyes widened.

“Really?!! You’re so lucky!!! OMG. WOW.” She muffled her loud voice with her hands. “Wait, what about Jimin??”

“Ohh… Jimin…” You took a moment to ensure you wouldn’t say too much. “I told him you’re his biggest fan and he said you can meet them next time.”

You were expecting to hear the loudest scream of all, but Yoora was too shook to make a sound. She stared at you with the largest eyes.

“I’m meeting with Jungkook after this, so I’ll be sure to ask him about you, me, him, and Jimin all meeting together some time.”

“L-like a double d-date?”

You nodded, even though you were pretty sure Jimin didn’t intend on it being a “date”. But after you had made it clear that you weren’t giving him anymore chances, maybe someone else could give him a chance instead.

“OMG yay! Thanks, Y/N~!” Yoora’s eyes sparkled like you’d never seen before.

-

By the time evening came around, you met up with Jungkook for a walk around the streets of Seoul. You were still in disbelief that the boy had actually asked you out on a second date. But you found it very refreshing whenever you spent time with him.

“Jimin told me you came back to the dorms smiling like an idiot after our bowling date.” You nudged Jungkook. “Is that true?”

“I was smiling, but not like an idiot!” he laughed. “Jimin really says too much sometimes…”

“Yeah, he does, huh…” Your expression dropped a little because you understood that too well.

“By the way, what’s your relationship with him?”

“Huh?”

“Jimin told me you guys were childhood friends?”

“Uh… yeah… I mean, I guess that’s all we were.” You looked down at the sidewalk, not really wanting to talk about your past with Jimin. “From the time he left Busan until that fansign, we didn’t talk at all.”

“Oh… It’s probably just because he’s been working so hard with Bangtan stuff during these past few years,” Jungkook tried to reassure you.

“Probably,” you said, even though you knew it wasn’t the whole truth. You just wanted to change the topic somehow. “Speaking of Jimin, do you think he’d be down for a double-date type thing?”

“A double-date?” Jungkook’s eyes widened. “You mean like you, me, him, and…?”

“My friend,” you finished his sentence. “Jimin said I could bring her along some time.”

“Ah! I see,” he nodded. “Jimin doesn’t really seem like the ‘date’ type though… Like, all my other hyungs have gone out every once in a while, but I’ve never seen Jimin with anyone else.”

“Really…?” That couldn’t have been true. You were certain Jimin had gone on dates with other people. You even remembered Yoora telling you how popular he was among female idols. But at the same time, you knew Jungkook was being honest.

“Yeah, that’s why I was surprised when he met with you the other day!” he said. “I kinda thought you guys were dating…” You stayed quiet for a moment.

“Me and Jimin? I don’t think we’re the kind of friends that could ever date…” You hated how those words sounded coming from you. And it left a bad taste in your mouth.

Jungkook took notice and suddenly wrapped his hand around yours. His warmth comforted you and the faint pink on his cheeks made you smile and blush a little yourself. The bad taste was suddenly gone.

“What about us, though?” He did a cute head tilt. “Are we the type of friends that could date?”

You just stared back at him with huge eyes, unable to speak. Jeon Jungkook was really asking to be your boyfriend. You had to admit, he was the only other boy you’d felt something for besides Jimin. He was always so sweet to you, and you really did enjoy spending time with him. You had zero reason to say no, but at the same time, it wasn’t so simple to just say yes.

“Ah, I didn’t mean to surprise you or anything, haha.” The boy ruffled the back of his hair. “Take as much time as you need to-”

“Yes,” the word slipped out on its own. The only way you could justify it was by telling yourself you’d be an idiot to let Jungkook pass you by. You leaned your head on his shoulder. “I think we could and should date.”

“I think so too,” he smiled. “I just hope Jimin doesn’t mind me dating his friend.”

“He won’t.” You shook your head, but truthfully, you wondered exactly how he would react. As much as you hoped he wouldn’t mind, you couldn’t help but worry that he would. But the more you thought about it, the more you remembered you couldn’t be that special to Jimin. Because if he truly cared about you, he would’ve never given you a reason to hate him in the first place.

“Hm, maybe you know him better than I do,” Jungkook nodded. “You guys were best friends after all.”

“Yeah…” You wanted to believe you knew enough about Jimin, but there were so many things he had refused to share with you. Things you had to find out the hard way.

“Anyway, I’ll be sure to ask him about the double date thing!” Jungkook swung your hand playfully. “That guy can use a nice date. He’s been looking a little lonely these days.” Lonely?

-

As soon as you got back, you noticed Jungkook had sent you a sweet goodnight text, so you replied back with a few kiss emojis. You smiled at your phone screen until you saw your text conversation with Jimin right underneath, and you were reminded of him being lonely. It couldn’t have been because of you, right? As an idol, he had plenty of other things to worry about before some childhood friendship.

But you still wanted to check up on him—just in case.

12:03AM Y/N “hey”

12:04AM Jimin “🙋🙋🙋”

12:04AM Jimin “go to sleep. its late😒”

12:05AM Y/N “ill go to sleep if you go to sleep too😡”

12:07AM Jimin “im not tired”

12:08AM Y/N “neither am i”

12:11AM Jimin “so… whyd you text me?”

12:12AM Y/N “did jungkook tell you…?” You felt your heartbeat go at a quicker pace. Maybe it’d be a little better if Jimin heard about the dating thing from Jungkook rather than from you.

12:13AM Jimin “yeah”

12:20AM Y/N “and youre okay with it?”

12:22AM Jimin “youll get mad if i say no lol”

12:23AM Y/N “i wont get mad! just be honest…”

12:28AM Jimin “okay okay”

12:30AM Jimin “i dont think ill have the time for it”

12:31AM Y/N “wait… what are you talking about??”

12:32AM Jimin “the double date thing?”

12:32AM Jimin “whatd you think i meant?” So Jungkook didn’t tell him you were dating yet. And you weren’t ready to break the news to him either. It couldn’t hurt to wait just a little longer.

12:33AM Y/N “lol idk what i was thinking😅”

12:34AM Y/N “but anyway”

12:35AM Y/N “whens a good time for you? i want this to work out”

12:35AM Jimin “really? you do?”

12:36AM Y/N “yeah! i told yoora about you and shes been screaming every since”

12:38AM Jimin “yoora?”

12:39AM Y/N “remember my friend i was telling you about? the one that loves you like crazy?”

12:40AM Jimin “oh her”

12:41AM Jimin “i still dont think ill have time… i gotta put more hours in at the dance studio”

12:42AM Y/N “aww okay… i guess if its for bangtan, it cant be helped…” You couldn’t help but feel disappointed. Not only because you had gotten Yoora super excited about it. But also because if Jimin really was feeling lonely, you wanted to be there for him. Like he had been for you.

12:44AM Y/N “maybe next time then?”

12:45AM Y/N “bc i really wanna see you jimin” You weren’t sure if you sounded too needy--especially since you had just gotten yourself a boyfriend--but you meant what you said. You just wanted to make sure he wasn’t feeling alone.

12:59AM Jimin “okay ill be there 👍”

1:00AM Y/N “!!!”

1:01AM Y/N “okay!! (^-^)//”

1:01AM Y/N “see ya then~”

1:02AM Jimin “💃💃👯”

[medotdisseminate]

entry 4

hello world, it’s 2:24am right now! as i write, my tears have stopped, possibly because writing may very well become my outlet. 

I’ve gotten myself to sleep between 12am - 1am more often than not, but tonight is different because i was going to trade my sleep to successfully finish my work. it felt more important to me that i complete what i set out to complete. during this, i inevitably distracted myself, lost focus, went to watch anime (hanayamata, it’s good, check it out, maybe just not during the time i decided to ... or maybe? lol). 

now, from my previous (i think) post, i was looking into the fact that i feel guilty over not being productive. it’s very true that i do, and its straight up why i started bawling my eyes out when my boyfriend told me that yes, i should be guilty for watching anime when i decided to stay up to do my work. 

when i said ‘let me be guilt free’ to him, i was screaming from inside that i needed reassurance that i could be unproductive and not guilty. i totally understand that trading sleep is not freaking good or healthy, and when i said ‘let me be guilt free’, i still understand that i feel guilty regardless. i just didnt need reassurance about how i should feel guilty. 

now now, i feel myself wanting to blaming it on the person for triggering me into this crying fit. i dont think its right for me to, but i think i wouldve appreciated a response that ... considered the fact that i will be feeling guilty regardless... which i have been ... so ... ugh

I dont always reveal my bad habits (such as what i got distracted by, and for how long, or maybe the fact that i stress ate when im working on not doing that) when it occurs. because when it occurs, i have already been reminding myself not to practice that bad habit, but i let myself do it anyways. its completely on me. now that i think about it, i see why he cares so much and would say i should feel guilty, because technically he believes in me to fight my bad habits, but i lost ... BUT hey not everything is rational, so here i freaking am! getting through it. it’s whatever honestly. 

im feeling like im kinda stubborn for wanting this to be something i take care of alone, because i dont want to say im doing things for the sake of other people. i can’t help but feel like doing things to give myself meaning. is that how life works? it makes a lot of things incredibly selfish-sounding, if i worded it to be. im basically saying i want be doing things for the sake of myself. but i want to be a better person... because for the sake of myself... i want the people i care about to be happy with me... 

honestly now im just thinking, this is really just a ‘fucked up, better move on’ (with more to it...) this is one of those things where i need to communicate and commit to being better, but it really is scary as shit and i constantly underdeliver (in my standards, which can be too high or too low, depending on how your own standards are..). i can see why they can be seen as too low, and why they can be seen as too high, for me. with my level of struggle, it might as well be too high :/ no no no no no i think im just bad at being motivated. ??? maybe? its also valuing short-term and long-term rewards... 

right now since im writing instead of talking with my boyfriend, i feel like i’ve settled this all on my own, but hes definitely not going to be on the same wavelength as me if i dont update him. which is a serious shit show imo because i start feeling like i dont want to talk to him about my feelings, and i get too scared to expose that there are things to be guilty about. it’s so demoralizing when i feel guilty and that it was something i had full control over.

when will my japanese homework be done? shit. my eyes are bad right now. honestly my main concern. in terms of waking up tomorrow (in the morning today).

one housemate heard me fucking break lol but i really appreciate how she assists, because it really puts me (and many others) at ease.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUGgrrds9yk

[noncompliant-fuckery]

1-99, it's been a while :)

I know :) but mostly cause all the ones I’ve been seeing are ones we already done or are kinky as shit and that’ll possibly be awkward.

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

-Batman-Jaden Smith. Retrograde-James Blake. H.E.R- Focus.  Loyalty-Kendrick Lamar.  Location-Khalid. Blind Man-Xavier Omar.

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

-All of my ancestors.

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

-I don’t know where I put my books and technically the only book I have near me right now is two of my diaries which are strategically hidden in my room and that's a book, right? So anyways, “I think she was talking about me, I hope. I've been thinking about it with a smile on my face since.”

4: What do you think about most?

-college and everything i'm neglecting to do

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

-”Your glasses should be here in a day or two.”-dad

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

Without. Just underwear. The less the better honestly 😉

7: What’s your strangest talent?

Lol Nothing will prepare you for what I have to say... So every once in awhile but not very often something will happen to my eye and if I press the part by my tear duct next to the bridge of my nose it’ll make a squeaky sound. I think it’s linked to my allergies lol

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

-Boys go to mars and girls go to jupiter? Haha idk

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

-Never had the pleasure.

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

-Probably last week tbh

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

-fear of having someone slice the back of my knees

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

-I was always more of a sticking foreign objects in my mouth kind of kid (that sounded so bad lol)

13: What’s your religion?

Agnostic I think.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

-Fucking around on my ripstik. At the beach, or just walking around exploring.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

-Neither honestly.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

-Not much of a band person but my favorite artist right now is Chance the Rapper. Green day was good at some point though.

17: What was the last lie you told?

-Probably that I support my dad getting a second job and that I stayed home all week when I didn’t. Both told to my parents. You may be an angel but I am a horrible person inside lol

18: Do you believe in karma?

-Yes.

19: What does your URL mean?

I’m half stud, and half muffin. Style wise. Named by my sister.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

-weakness: no perseverance. strength: finding the good in every bad situation and coming up with clever ways to do things either for fun or to solve problems.

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

-Michelle Rodriguez 😍

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

-Nah

23: How do you vent your anger?

-A frustrated scream, a lot of cussing, a strong urge to punch something. But this only happens if I'm completely alone and can’t hear me and i'm not thinking about consequences. Which is quite literally never. Otherwise, I get very very quiet.

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

-I have a collection of empty water bottles littering my bedroom floor right now?

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

-Depends on the conversation and person. But I like video chatting with you to remember what you look like and sound like sometimes. Its also fun 😊

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

-I’d say it’s a nice improvement.

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

-hate: pure silence because it is most definitely not silent. Love: the sound of grocery bags being carried into my house lol

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

-What if I stayed in gymnastics or tae kwon do

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

-Thats complicated. I believe something happens to the dead and I’m not sure “heaven” is the end destination. Humans are aliens. We are not special and if people believe we are a lone here, their dumb af.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

-My fan and Bob the teddy bear

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

-Nothing, my allergies are killing me right now.

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

-Nothing's quite made that much of an impression for me to remember such a place.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

-Theres no snow on the East Coast..I think

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

-Jidenna. He has an interesting look.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

-Life is a grand experiment to test all that can make or break us.

36: Define Art.

- A ketchup stain on a white t-shirt.

37: Do you believe in luck?

-Depends but yes.

38: What’s the weather like right now?

-Blue skies, the sun is shining, a couple baby clouds and the wind is blowing the leaves outside my window. Seems hot.

39: What time is it?

-3:30pm

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

-Yes. So many close calls but no not yet.

41: What was the last book you read?

-Book 3 of The Testing series called Graduation Day by Joelle Charbonneau. College interrupted my finishing it.

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

-Love it.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

-Shoshoes, Worm.

44: What was the last film you saw?

-Dawn of the Plant of the Apes or maybe Kidnap

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

-Sprained my neck and back

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

-No there scary up close but one landed on my ass once.

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

-Starting old shows that have like 10 seasons

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

-Lesbian

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

-Don’t quite remember but possibly. Nothing to crazy I’m sure

50: Do you believe in magic?

-I believe that there's a possibility for it one day.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

-Yes

52: What is your astrological sign?

-Aries 😈

53: Do you save money or spend it?

-Both. Not a good combination

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

-Movie tickets

55: Love or lust?

-Lust

56: In a relationship?

-Nope

57: How many relationships have you had?

-One real one.

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

-lol no.

59: Where were you yesterday?

-In my room

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

-My shorts are pink and black.

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

-Less clothes the better, remember.

62: What’s your favourite animal?

-Turtles

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

-Make em laugh

64: Where is your best friend?

-Home finally I think?

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

armyofchaos of course, elaxisfae, prettyboyshyflizzy, aniefiok, sixpenceee

66: What is your heritage?

-Who knows.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

-Talking you and playing Assassins Creed

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

-Watson

69: Biggest turn ons?

-lol

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

-Yes

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

-Sorry little guy, I’ve got bills. But I'll call the cops or get someone's attention to do it for me.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

-A: the important people will know. B: Complete my promises. C:Hell yea, the hell is after this life??? What happens to my inner voice? Me???

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

-Trust is love.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

-Off the top of my head, Yoga by Janelle Monae and Jidenna.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

-5703

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

-Laughing and communicating

77: How can I win your heart?

-By giving a damn.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

-If I’m to be honest, those pills.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

-Being friends with you

80: What size shoes do you wear?

-All my shoes right now are men's and those are size 8

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

-”Here lies a gay potato”

82: What is your favourite word?

-Fuckernaut. I call ppl that in my head quite often. Yes, that includes you.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

-Fuck.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

-Oh my god, honestly, definitely, seriously, jeez… I have a problem, help lol

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

-Currently,Drake-Marvins Room.

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

-Black, army green, burgundy.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

-Some kind of stone stairway/hallway. I should really update it.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

-That fucking orange cheeto with legs.

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

-Depending on the person “How do you really feel?”

90: Turn offs?

-Trump supporters

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

-Telekinesis.

92: where are your parents from?

-America

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

-When my mom started getting sick

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

-We’ll go with Kehlani today.

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

-You already know where 😊

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

-Yup, a couple of dumbasses.

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

-Not inside the car but out the door on the side of the road.

98: Ever been on a plane?

-When I was little.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say.

-You stupid fucks.