#its a struggle sometimes but im working on it 🥲

[forever-rogue]

sticking up for other people:

sticking up for myself:

[foldingfittedsheets]

To ace anon: ace person w a vulva here as well but rather low libido tho. What i can share from my own experience is that getting off seems to be like a video game where you have to hit a certain amount of combos in a certain order to get to the o. Im not v creative and got some ideas from my ex, so i wanted to share some in terms of senses and kind of stim (what ffs talked about already) that worked for me or ppl i talked w

- Kind of weird but the comparison of the arousal building feeling similiar to how it feels like when you needa pee helped me. Like i get a better head start when i try masturbate when it feels a bit like i actually needa pee, like i drink a bit more water for that lol (sometimes unfortunately i dont even get to the o before i reaaally actually need to pee because it takes hooours and then i just give up cuz the build up is completely gone after peeing and also cuz its been hours)

- Stimulation of the clit w a layer of fabric inbetween (esp in the beginning) helped a lot, also lube in the beginning if your body isnt providing (yet), (unless dry friction does sth for you?)

- And sometimes stimming the clit w a showerhead or diff sex toys can do sth

- Definitely also more of the audio type and reading smut rather than actual visuals, for some reason when it comes to visuals yaoi does sth, more than het or yuri (im not even into men, maybe its about removing myself and only focussing on arousal or sth? Idk)

- what helps sometimes is rubbing the inside "rough"/bumpy patch of my vagina which is supposedly the most connected to arousal, im too lazy to google rn but iirc its the so called g spot?

- My problem is also how to keep the level of arousal/combo before getting distracted by thoughts of random things and it takes me out of the "immersion" like also when i start to be too aware of what im doing, the concept and or thinking about technicalities and how odd it all seems to me (yea im an overthinker w adhd)

- it seems odd at first but ace people can have kinks too! Maybe theres a [preferred depiction] of a [preferred kink] for you out there

Already been said as well: you just have to try different combos (like several locations of stimulation simultaneously) and sequences of stim, a long way to the o 🥲 tried out different sequences and combos of these factors and it doesnt even work all the time but at least i found some base lego bricks to build that orgasm lol its unfortunately not always the same order though and still such a struggle trying to find the right order/combo and what im "in the mood for" AND keeping myself in the lane, tho w time i did get to know my body a biiit better, rough estimations)

I wish you good luck in your self discovery, anon! Ik how hard it can be and i def do not envy you w your libido, lots more frustration i imagine

Sorry it got so long, was v sympathising w your struggles, again good luck and happy self discovery!

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“A portal to my personal baby blue hell”

Mixed media sculpture; cardboard, paper mache, paper mache clay, plaster, and found object.

I have always had a lot of displaced anger towards healthy families where everyone is allowed to close and lock bedroom doors and everyone knocks; parents who had trust and faith in their kids. Im so jealous that I sometimes feel sick and filled with rage over it.

My Dad’s first step in “tough love” was to remove my bedroom door. I never understood how humiliation and removing a child’s self-respect and need for privacy was a tool in “defeating” my bad behavior. The bathroom became a temporary sanctuary to me, where no one would question the door being closed and locked so I found myself finding any excuse to spend as much time as I could sitting on that bathroom floor. I never understood why my Dad thought that was a good punishment, and still to this day I don’t know what it did besides create more anguish between us. I don’t know what I should have learned from that.

This work was an installment of my thesis! I struggled with taking documentation 🥲 its just one of those pieces thats better viewed in person. The inside writing says “I WANT TO WEAR A TOWEL AROUND MY WAIST JUST LIKE YOU”

[awrkive]

heyyyy i j needed to let this out bc i’ve rly been overthinking ab it for days now🥲 i don’t feel like i’m struggling academically (?) bc i genuinely do know what i’m doing like i always get high scores for my assignments yk😭😭😭 but when it comes to exams i always fck it up mayn like….also my course is for 3 years and atm i’m in my scnd…any tips perhaps so i can have a major boost for my gpa😭😭😭🥲 also i take premed sigh

hiiii!!! im in archi and its a creative program so the exams are different than other majors including premed so i dont really have a solid advice BUT for my theoretical and minor courses, my study style is this:

always study 2-3 days before your exam. u can always cram it but if ur particular about ur gpa its always better to make sure bcs there are so sooo many details u can miss if u crank up 5 or less hours to study many lectures.

first of all, i do not advice studying on any electronic device. it personally does not work for me ): theres two things that do, and the firs one is taking notes on my notebook from the presentation file (if ur prof provides them). i feel like u can retain more info when youre the one who wrote it. but if i dont have a lot of time, i tend to take notes on a word doc and print them out later.

after the general notetaking, i read it again and highlight. ofc this is different for everybody but you really only need 1-2 highlighters! and make sure they are actually light and neon! i only have yellow and orange and it makes absorbing so much easier bcs these are colors that can be easily seen and remembered.

when highlighting is done, i then take out another paper/page to write what i understood from the previous step, and for me its really effective when you say it out loud. for instance, i pretend to give a lecture about it in my room.

i start studying at around 3 or 4 am. the night is not efficient for me (cant focus) and afternoon only works when im at a space like the library (where everyone is actually quiet)

sometimes when i really do have a lot of time to lend, i make a quiz on a site called "quizziz"!!!!! its really really effective but its just a bit time consuming. u can also do it with friends!

of course i dont always study like this and have crammed some of my exams and what i do during those times is kind of the same except its not as extensive😭 i still hand write notes, highlight and stuff, then just read them later during my public transpo commute and just give it to god during the exam hours lmfao.

also lastly, if u want a high gpa make sure to ask ur prof about their grading system! whats on the syllabus isnt always accurate to how they grade so its better if u ask them urself about it. also 2 weeks before the term/send ends or before the final examination, book a consultation with them to talk about ur current grade standing so u can ask how to reach a certain mark!!

[afterhourswjay]

Heeeey bestie...Guess who's struggling with crippling anxiety 💅💅

I was barely even able to get out of bed to take my meds 🥲

Anyways, I want to ask for some crippling anxiety comfort for (I know this sounds stupid) but a partner being scared to get off the bed because of a monster or person being under it, and Aizawa, Pro Deku, Pro Katsuki, and Mic comforting the reader. Sorry if that's too many characters 😅

Uuuugggh! Bestie, same!! I suffer from pre-bedtime anxiety and it manifests in the weirdest ways sometimes.

Befriend your Monsters

the reader is struggling with their depression and anxiety, and its beginning to affect their sleep schedule. how does their partner help them with this?? note: im simplifying katsu's hero name to Dynamight as its ridiculously long lkdfsljf

characters: aizawa, hizashi, pro!izu, pro!kats warnings: slight angst, but mostly fluff, some swearing

Aizawa Shota || Eraserhead

when it first happens, he's certainly confused. what do you mean your scared of a monster under the bed? sure, one of the cats may be under there, but not a monster

he's not about to go probing you for answers. you do you boo

if you feel like letting him in on your nighttime anxieties, then he'll ask clarifying or slightly probing questions

just enough questions to be able to help you better

do you need a distraction until you reach sleepy town?

do you need snuggles and cuddles to help calm you down?

do you need to chat about your day to help get your mind off of what may be under the bed?

well, no matter what you may need, shota is more than willing to put aside his sleepiness to help you out

sometimes he'll even bring over a mug of hot chocolate or a glass of warm milk to help you relax ignore the milk one if your lactose intolerant slkdflsd

if you need a distraction, he'll help you snuggle up in your favorite jammies, and blanket. then he'll ask you about your day

Yamada Hizashi || Present Mic

this guy, this dude. he probably doesn't sleep much himself, always working on his lesson plans for the next class and drafting out what he'll say on his radio station

he'll invite you to join him if your having a particularly hard time with falling asleep

if he's doing some late-night broadcasts for his station, then he'll make sure that your comfortable. He'll set down a mic in front of you, and hand you some headphones if you want to join him

if not, then he'll make sure to give you as much attention as he can

he'll let you help him grade papers, or to come up with some lesson plans if you want to help him out

if you don't want a distraction, and instead want to talk about your anxiety, then he's all ears

if you don't have any coping mechanisms, then he's helping bounce ideas off of you to help come up with some for you

if you take some of his ideas to heart and start using them, then he's falling in love all over again

he's super happy to see that he was able to help you to any capacity

Midoriya Izuku || Deku

chances are, deku has already figured out something's keeping you up at night

he's already got a couple of journals dedicated to you, and a handful of pages are dedicated to brainstorming what the possible affliction is and ways to help with it

you two strive to be as communicative as possible, so it doesn't take you too long to let him know that you have anxiety surrounding sleep

he doesn't want to overwhelm you, but he does immediately jump to questioning you about it

do you prefer distractions, or should he focus on checking the room over? should he get you some warm milk/hot coco/tea and you two sit down and talk about stuff??

mans just wants you to be ok, and regardless of how long or rough his day is, you come first

if you simply want to shadow him through his nightly routine, thats fine with him too

just don't push him away. its not healthy to bottle things up and, while he understands the desire to 'protect' others from negative feelings, it only leads to making you feel worse

Bakugo Katsuki || Dynamight

he doesn't beat around the bush and, after the first month of you two living together, he questions you on why it seems like you haven't slept at all

he might get a bit more aggressive, and tell you to suck it up at first, you simply need to be firm with him. tell him how your anxieties aren't something that you can simply put aside

when he realizes just how much it affects you, and how much you have a hard time going to sleep, he jumps to trying to help you

i feel like he's likely to suggest ideas to physically tire yourself out, so your brain has no time to allow your anxieties to form

so, things like sparing, lifting weights, maybe even going on an evening jog/run every night

if those don't work, then perhaps the two of you could talk until you feel better or sleepy enough to... well, sleep

he'll ask you if you have coping mechanisms, and seems relieved when you tell him you have some

he'll ask what they are so that he can help you better

kats will even ask if theres times where you become nonverbal, and if there are, if you have ways of communicating when you do

if you don't, then he'll help you with that too

he just wants the best for you, even if he shows that weirdly sometimes

[sillyandquiteawkward]

Can I have words of encouragement on drawing a very beloved oc who I haven't been able to draw due to mental health and bad what if rabbit holes from bad experiences,seeing you draw your ocs so freely fuels me to draw but anxiety pummeling me and I miss drawing one of my fave ocs so bad.Your art is always nice to look at so either way thank you for posting your silly little fallout ocs 🥲

im rooting for you anon! please remember there is no scary intimidating person just waiting to be mad at you for drawing your oc not perfect. but its ok to take time off and deal with other things especially when it comes to mental health struggles. think about how much that oc means for you and that you are pretty much the only one who can bring them to life and make them do a little dance for your pleasure.

if youre having trouble starting something, you can always draw a little meme of them that reminds you of them. like i keep my blog @sillyocs full of posts that remind me of my ocs that i pull from when the well is dry but i want to create. it doesnt always work out, sometimes im just not in my groove and cant draw, but sometimes drawing stupid little funny stuff with little reverence gives me enough power to warm up and actually draw something.

also in general i wouldnt stress over drawing perfectly as well. if you look, i make TONS of little mistakes in my drawings, but sometimes its not worth fretting over every little thing, esp if its stopping my flow and complicating things. best of luck my friend !!

[27emailsicantsend]

the rina headcanons are endless!! it would be verrrryyy cute if we ever got rina baking together. it is very necessary to see them having a flour fight and having a frost-off to see who can ice the GF cupcakes better (my money is on Ms. Porter those turkey cupcakes looked expert level). we also deserve to see ricky teaching gina how to skateboard in this summer montage bc imagine him holding her by the waist gently while she holds his shoulders and her knees are kinda locked bc she’s nervous and is completely padded up…yeah i like to suffer with these thoughts.

also random but i would loveee a proper halloween episode bc we absolutely NEED to see rina in a haunted house bc yes gina would be protecting ricky. hes so malewife i cant 😭. one of these days i may have to slip out of anon mode and dump all my ideas on you privately haha but hiii it is me bday anon 🧁!

the expo gave us SO much i can’t even process what all this means for s4 but seeing the chemistry between sof and josh as rina is so heartwarming they work so well together i already know rina are going to be the most annoyingly cute couple when they finally get together. can you say ‘IT couple!’ and im totally projecting here bc i always wanted to do this but all the guys i ever dated were losers but i would d-word for a scene where rina are doing face masks together!! idk something about that is so sweet to me, especially if its gina smearing clay mask on for him and ricky being totally into it. (!!!) and since josh likes to paint his nails, it would be a cute nod to that if gina ever polished ricky’s nails. like imagine him with the cucumber slices over his eyes ike a diva while gina is giggling as she paints his nails in some pastel color. very bestie-turned-boyfriend energy! <33

BDAY ANON I MISSED YOU!!! Thank you for always showing up with a little cupcake 🥹

Ok but for real how did she frost those turkeys that well?? I’m literally a decade older than her and I do be struggling making anything meaningful in my kitchen lmao (and I eat mostly gluten free too so I just KNOW those were not easy to make). Also, completely unnecessary side note, Sofia is gluten free so they added that in as a call out to her IRL. They didn’t need to specify the cupcakes were GF so I thought that was a cute little shout out :)

And OMG I am like 90% sure I saw someone do a fan art of her standing on his skateboard and holding onto him 😭 (I can’t remember if they were kissing in it or not but how CUTE would that be, especially with their height difference!)

AND THE HALLOWEEN ONE IS SO GOOD. Like imagine him just quaking and crying and she has to lead him through, but then she gets a little scared sometimes and they call each other chicken again 😭 where I live (not sure if other places are like this) every one of our haunted houses end with someone chasing you through with a chain saw (no chain) 😂 it is the most traumatic and funny thing and the amount of screaming and panicking that happen in the end is so funny. I know it’s to get people to get out of the haunted house quickly but BOY is it funny. I would d*e if I saw them both run out in absolute fear from the ✨fake✨ chainsaw man

We were FED at D23. There was NO REASON for them to add the triangle to the choreo in their performance outside of fan service and you want to know what? I ate it up EVERY time I watched! And I’ll do it again!!

And trust me I totally get that!!! I 100% live vicariously through my rom coms and books so I don’t blame you 😂 (sorry you dated jerks though- I hope you find your own rina type love story some day 🥲)

And that is SO cute and we absolutely know ricky would do it. He would probably be the one who keeps bugging gina to go shopping for the supplies, asking her a million questions about the spa night, and would proudly brag and wear his colored nails. TBH it reminds me so much of Jim and Pam. Like we KNOW Jim would literally wear the dumbest outfit or do something that makes him look silly if Pam asked. And Ricky just RADIATES Jim energy. I’m so obsessed with these ships like I’m down BAD!!!

[keichanz]

You pointed out so well what I dislike of Towa. The twins are not my coup of tea, but I can tolerate Setsuna to some degree, but Towa... I cant, not only because she was given with all the places, relationships and backups that belonged to inukag to her for the sake of plot but because she, a hanyou with no real experience in nothing feudalesque, was given so much power ups out of the blue when Inuyasha had his hands burned for tessaiga before dominating scaled tess or was fucking k.o by the weight of his reforged sword. And dont even begin with Sesshoumaru that was almost k.o by magatsuhi and to leave behind his dependent attitud toward his father legacy to pull out a new arm and bakusaiga. Is so cringy the first time I saw Towa in that tree at sunset and kill the youkai like nothing after a couple of days in feudal era, without any struggle, it was so unnatural and saddly is a constant in the serie, and here I did not mention her unhealthy obsession for her sister like please stop. 🥲

ugh yes exactly my friend!! the biggest reason why i dislike her so much is because she literally went "fuck moroha" and went after moro's bounty herself KNOWING that moro uses the money to literally feed herself just to get some information or something on that stupid dream butterfly idk i forget since its been a while. but no her sister is more important of COURSE. i thought she was so fucking selfish saying "sorry but we have nothing to do with you or your problems" when moro invited them to come along with her but then turn right back around because the bounty just so happens to be the exact amount she needs. it pissed me off to the extent where i rage quit the entire series. granted i was only watching it out of curiosity and for moroha, but that scene was the deal breaker and i havent watched another episode since.

all of those are good points. inuyasha had to WORK to get all of his attacks and to make his sword stronger and kill all of these strong demons over the course of maybe two episodes sometimes, and here we have this weak ass half-demon, with absolutely no knowledge of demon power or anything like that, and suddenly she's a master at everything. ;aldjf;ljA ooOOOH it burned my ass i tell ya.

im glad im not the only one who thinks that!

[snottea]

love that i rarely get on here anymore and that when i do its for an update on my progress (*˘︶˘*).｡*♡ i have successfully gained some weight ((even tho my mentally ill, eating disorder having ass struggles with that sometimes. i know its mainly bc ive spent the past year unemployed just staring at myself in the mirror and literally starving myself to lose weight until i got so skinny that everybody i knew was concerned)) but i really am happy about it. my skin is looking better, my mental health is better, and i dont hate my face anymore 🙌 i feel like i just look a lot healthier in general. ive still been going to the gym after work ((most days, i skipped today and monday but i just started my period okay)) and im very proud of myself. hope i continue to feel and do better 🥲

[rrxnjun]

I AM GLAD I CAN BE ENCOURAGING🥹🥹 tbh u deserve so much more nice words about ur writings other than what i said before but sadly my vocab is too limited for that🥲💕 and ohhh god i actually can't imagine what it's like to be working on that many writings but it must be rough, like even with the fact that u probably have many other things to do probably makes it even more frustrating and hard! i actually can't imagine what that must be like so IM ROOTING FOR U THAT U CAN FINISH ALL OF THEM AND U WILL PUSH THROUGH IT!! and i'm sure that none of your work will disappoint!!!🥳💕💕

i'm very happy that u don't mind the asks!!! and thank u for giving me a tag, oh my, i feel very fancy with it!!🥹💕 although i would like to share it with u that it's funny that i ended up getting this german word as a "name" since i spent my night freaking out about the good news and then ended up just watching tiktoks about jisung😵‍💫 INSTEAD of learning for my german test that's coming up! very ironic in some way!🫡 (liebestraum anon💕)

no im convinced you are actually the sweetest human being on this planet 😭😭😭 dont worry about it,, your words are more than enough for me and warm my heart so much 💕💕 AHAHA i wouldnt say working on many fics at once is rough bc as far as im concerned its a standard practice among writers and im only finding out abt this opportunity 3 years into actively writing again LMAO so im honestly chilling, but it makes me frustrated sometimes 😭✋ thank god exams are over so i can focus on my writing now so hopefully the fics come out faster

GERMAN TEST U SAY OH NOOO im rooting for u tho u can do it !!!! I used to study german for like 7 years and my german knowledge is still very very basic so i get the struggle 😩💔 i am thinking of you tho!!!

[voidcat]

Oooh you're learning about internal diseases? It sounds so interesting! I'm learning physics rn and it's fun incorporating maths into it ahaha. And if the lecturer's voice is putting you to sleep, my teacher suggested to take notes or just do something with the pen. I normally pinch myself but it doesn't work most of the time, plus it hurts lol.

Satie really gave all pianists free real estate... so I can play his pieces as sacrilegiously as I want and it'd still sound nice /j. But idk, sometimes I struggle to do my own phrasing and my own expression so it is nice sometimes to play something that is from the Baroque era because I don't have to worry about a lot of rubato ahaha

And FOR REALS I don't know how composers do it! I can barely improvise a phrase, let alone an entire symphony. And to think that Haydn wrote at least 107 symphonies. Most of the composers were prodigies but even then prodigies should have a hard time composing... right? Or maybe prodigies just have something else to them that makes them Ling Ling level shsjddkias and to think I have to make my own compositions in music class next year looool

Thank you >.< I'm just scared that I'll mess up or miss notes because my pieces require a lot of technical work and then the child prodigies play Liszt effortlessly sjjdjshw

Also sorry there was a misunderstanding 😅looks like I'm dueting with them in another concert next year. I just thought our duet was in the next two weeks considering that they'd already learnt it lmao anyways my nerves are not the best when it comes to performances but I'll try my best :')

Yeah internal diseases is no fun when each lecturer begins w how to take an anamnesis though… like please ive began interning already, I was made to take it and fill the papers LMAO I have the ppt slides at hand so taking notes isn’t an option rlyl they rlly read every single line written there 🥲🥲🥲

Satie rlly said ‘do whatever tf u want idc’ and I love him for that. And yeah frrrr like stop pretending y never had hard times man help us feel s little better abt ourselves! And aaaaaa good luck but also it sounds so cool!!! I wish u a fruitful composing

Damn theyre p quick….. but hey you got s lot of time and im sure youll do amazing! Its only natural to have a mess of nerves about performances- as long as you dont freeze up on the stage ahhaha